#LIKE IM NOT EVEB KIDDING

[nylwnder]

TRAINING CAMP STARTED YESTERDAY. LEAFS GAME ON SUNDAY. READ THROUGH A BUNCH OF MEDIA DUMP. I FEEL MYSELF COMING ALIVE.

[saexy]

saexiest url ever :3

.. SAEXIEST TT .. but hoenstky it was available was teb funniest thing-

[kurjakani]

for tge bingo. all 3 sinclairs >:)c

VINCENT

Genuinely such an interesting character. One of my "in my head forever" characters- u mentioning them makes me wanna rewatch the movie now so bad 🫡 see okokokok. I actually relate to vincent a lot, and i think that's where it comes, and ive talked abt this before, but i don't like the idea that he truly was the "good kid", his every expression and part of self was supressed because he tried to be the good kid. (I have a sibling who was kinda tough to raise, and i love them very much, and i love my mom, but i often did feel a natural preassure to be the good kid, to endure, to be quiet, to take care things on my own, and i failed at it more than vincent,!!! But to vincents parents his looks were already an equal failiour, on his part (i say this bc they were covering his face from fucking child hood). Having a constant reminder that youre supposed to be the ONE THAT MAKES LIFE EASY. The simple one and the HAPPY one because people are already busy with someone else. The picturesque one. No. Matter. What. Is. Happening. In. Your. Life. It gets fucking exhausting?) So some fanon depictions of him as the non-tragic one kinda gnaw at me. I dont know if the movie meant 2 hint at these themes (i think they did via the face hiding, and for a campy little horror movie HOW is a rly weirdly detailed one?) but if not its canon to me.

Vincent is so fuckint beloved to me. You dont eveb fuciint known vro im gonna cry

LESTER

Would absolutely have messed with the pacing of the movie, But I Do Wish we got more of Lester. He's so sweet and fucking. Cool as fuck???? Hes the type of person i would like. I would be scared of bc im scared of ppl, but i woild also wanna hang out witj SO FUCKINT BAD. His transmasc swag is also beyond comprihencion. He brews his own tshots somehow idk if thats even possible but Lester makes it possible.

My one critique of fanon is that I see him as the youngest of the siblings and personally i think he's the oldest???? My hc for him is that hr was like, the kid the sinclairs had before they were ready to have kids, kind of just some little guy who ran wild, loved the twisn tho.

Sorry i do not have the energy 2 talk abt Bo he BOres me to death tbh. He's a solid character. He doesn't hit anywhere deep for me?? Bo fans im sorry

CHARACTER BINGO

[rodolfoparras]

Palladium anon here again :3 tho if it's not taken could I be the 🌱 anon?

and yes absolutely horn play is hot, especially when the character is really sensitive with them. Teasing them and/or using them as handle bars when fucking them??? Extremely hot. I've seen some ppl want to like fuck the horn and in theory I understand but most horns are pointy😭 you're gonna scratch up your holes bestie be careful

Also sharing my winx, trix , specialist and some others sexuality headcanons because I have been hyperfixated on this forever and I'm so happy to find other queer ppl to talk to about it!!

Helia and Flora are definitely bi or pan, you can not convince me otherwise. I'd say they're poly curious maybe?? Despite the show having every single couple go through a jealousy arc🙄 I think Flora and Helia would definitely be open to dating someone else if they both liked them

Riven, Bloom and Stella are all bi with a male preference

Layla and Naboo are a bisexual power couple and I will die on this hill

Musa and Timmy are bi with a fem preference.

Brandom is straight, mandatory for every queer friend group is the one cishet guy that's just there.

Sky is questioning, having gay thoughts from living in the dorms with other men and seeing them shirtless

Now I'll probably get hate for it but I think Tecna as an aroace lesbian is neat. Like her and Timmy were cute ig but I like tecna better on her own outside a relationship. Also her struggling with feeling like a human and more robotic fits with the unfortunate stereotype aroace ppl get. Her arc reminds me of what my aroace brother went through

And as I mentioned before, Palladium is definitely a bisexual transmasc! Avalon and Valtor are gay

Icy is a mean lesbian Darcy is bi with male preference. Stormy isn't sure what exactly she is but definitely not straight.

You can def be 🌱 anon sugar!!

And yes I def agree that the most appropriate ways when it comes to hornplay(word?) is to use them as handle bars, fidgeting with them to rile up your partner or even licking and sucking also one thing idk if this is possible but like if they could make the horns vibrate by humming and have the sound travel through their body and up to their horns?🧎🏻‍♂️

I def agree that helia and flora are bi or pan! Especially helia I’m not trying to say that gay ppl have a look bc fuck stereotypes but…look at this man I wouldn’t even be surprised if helia went by he/ they

Also I can def see riven as bi. One thing I rmr disliking is how toxic his and musas relationships became I’m sorry but it was so silly to me even at that age 💀 like every other episode there was jealousy drama

Also I forgot about Naboo man he was so pretty!!! And I can def see both of them being bi!

SUGAR IM FUCKING SCREAMING BC TWLL WHY I KNEW WHO BRANDON WAS BEFORE EVEB SEARCHING IT UP MOST ANNOYIMG ASS STRAIGHT MAN

Also yes!! I 100% agre that sky is bi curios big buff dude crushes on another big buff dude

Also I really like your take on tecna! Tbh I rmr even as. Kid i could understand she did not want to be in a relationship 💀

Avalon and valtor are definitely old gays 🧎🏻‍♂️🧎🏻‍♂️

Also I like your take on the sisters! I don’t have much else to say bc lord knows they annoyed me in the show 😭

[mejomonster]

My gastroparesis driving me up a wall. And by that i mean ive been barely eating for over a week now and my symptoms still arent improving and im really not havin a great time im exhausted my bodys in pain trying to get me to Rest but i gotta work full time and my abdomen absolutely hurts but painkillers slow digestion even More so ive been laying down on heatpad as much as possible and i really dont wanna go back to an All Liquid diet (but even if i did im at the nausea and vomiting point of a gastroparesis flare which means even liquid only im likely to throw up either way) and like. I just wanna comfort eat bread cause i feel miserable exhausted in pain and it would be a small joy. But bread is absolutely not something i can eat during a flare. I can only eat it when doing good if i take benedryl. Im so angry and tired and id like to sleep for days. And i gotta still Make myself eat chips and protein shakes even tho i got nausea cause my gi meds dont work unless i eat Something. Even if i got nausea and tons of pain wooh

Anyway im getting flack from family for being so tired the last week and i love em and all but its awful feeling guilty for not calling Enough when its like goddamn eating (something humans gotta do at least once a day) hurts phenomenally and i barely can but i obviously desire to like any human then i eat and Ouch my body didnt fucking like that and punished me for it and im so mad. I feel awful and yeah im mad i dont got energy to hide how much pain im in and chat false enthusiastically for 20 minutes after already doing it all thru work. I had 1 teaspoon of peanut butter today and my remaining options are soup broth (but it had beans cooked in it and my body cant take fiber today so idk if its worth the risk of any accidental beans) and salad (which is of course raw vegetables fiber very hard on stomach rn so i can probably just eat a handful size portion and hopefully ill chew enough its mush and my body will tolerate it). And a protein shake (but its got fiber and is made of chickpeas i think for the protein so idk if my body is tolerating it or not im just drinking it so i dont have no calories). I had chips yesterday but i think my body considered it too solid or large to digest idk cause im eveb worse today. I also had toast yesterday cause i was so angry and hungry and wanted comfort food. So of course that messed me up. Which means i should take more benedryl. But then i wont just be hungry and pain tired, ill also be drug tired. And im so sick of being miserablr all day at work just to pass out the second its over cause allergy meds knocked me out then ive lost all day. But without allergy meds i can eat hardly anything i like. I mean i cant eat rn but like. Right before this fuckjng flare and hopefully once its over. Im just sick of it. Im tired and when i go to therapy next week shell probs ask oh what do you do to stress relief and its like... i get it but are u fucking kidding me. Im knocked unconcious from benedryl. And tired anyway cayse no food, and pain nonstop from gi tract. So im barely doing anything. I cant really get outta bed cause i need the 4 sq feet heatpad or ill be in agony over my abdomen. Dont have tv in room so i can use phone i guess. So tired i can barely keep eyes open or think so im not writing reading or watching shows on phone. I can idk listen to a reaction or lets play since if i fall asleep and wake up i dont need to follow a plot. But like im not in a state to be going for a fucking walk (i wish! I wanna dance and walk but my abdomen and back feel awful and im so tired im dizzy when i stand) or hang out w friend, which im sure idk shed prefer to hear some productive ass activity like god im just trying to keep myself employed and out of the ER until the flare rights itself. Please

And i know jts not that bad. Ive been worse. I couldnt eat solid food for 6 months once. I was in the ER weekly it was so bad i blocked most of it outta memory. This is only a couple weeks. And i havent thrown up much! I was throwing up 5 times daily back then. And i have had chips and peanut butter! I recognizr thats nice, i got some solid food and held it down! I know my gastroparesis is EONS LESS severe than it was when it started.

Its just like. It still sucks barely eating for weeks and any eating hurting immensely and nonstop nausea for days and pain not lowering. Like a normal healthy person might snap from anger if they try to go 20 hours without eating, or crash and need to eat to keep going, or just be run down as fuck and justifiable if they barely do anything that day. But i go days like that and im expected to just appear fine and live life normally like im not worn down af and just desperate to not feel nausea and pain and i just really wanna eat again. Normally.

[honkygay]

What happened to pugilist pears and wine drenched teeth, if you don't mind me asking? (I think that's what they were called, my apologies if I'm incorrect)

ur right abt the titles!! and tbh im just leaving them ib the deep crevices of my brain for a while- i might get to it in a year might be ten i wouldn’t hold out much hope- im more focused on posting robert hunter fics and a few other fandoms atm.

plus i kinda fell out of love with my cfb au anyways- might make wine drenched teeth more angsty cuz i made mike morally clean and tbh i kinda sucked for that!! i shouldve kept the jaded parts of mike but instead i made him always morally right cuz at the time of writing it i didnt want to write that side of mental health and wasnt ready tbh but i think now id be more willing to write mikes road to fucked up self forgiveness yknow? of following down a path of self destruction to ‘make up’ for the damage he did (cuz he believes it was all his fault what his father did and is doing) so if i were to write fnaf fanfiction again it wouldn’t be cherry if im being perfectly honest.

but!! if anyone has questions on what WOULDVE happened i still have my notes and would be happy to answer!! ill just spoil it lmao i can eveb give u guys a timeline but i assumed my story just faded into the background cuz it wasnt like kids in america or his empire of dirt so its nice to know some of you guys still want to know what wouldve happened next :3c

[mentallhealthmatters]

Oh yeah

For context:

The "curse of the ninth" is a superstition in classical music that a composer's ninth symphony will be their last, and that they will die while writing it, after completing it, or before finishing a tenth. (Stole this from google)

Also reminder that the "going away for a long time" as a metaphor or way to hide the fact a character died was used for technoblade as well. Im not saying they mean to imply technos character killed himself, but thats there on the board canonically reasoning to leave Techno out of future stories.

So i think gjven its not a one time thing that character leaves as a metaphor for death in some way.

I think the offical answer is: Wilbur died because he was "wilburing" too hard to notice that people arpund he wanted him to stay, to the point he was loved with Quackity wanting to confirm tnt duo, confirms to me it was one sided or wilbur was confirming nothing came out of the literally hour long compilations of them flirting bwcause he wanted to wilbur off (kill) his character.

Wilburs generally bad at communicating and connecting with others and often assumes the worst of the people arpund, pushing them away first, hurting them before they can hurt, is often too up is own ass about this coping mechanism to notice when hes actually wanted or what people actually think of him.

Given he died once and probably wasnt normally meant to come back, and he assumed no one wanted him around...

Yyyyyeeeeahh hes canonjcally a depressed wet cat whos a fucking theater kid.

As some one biased for quackity's version of canoni like the idea that he isnt dead and comes back. Like, utah irl is the neighboring of irl nevadas, where las vegas is. Its just funnier if its like if you think of it as apartments and hes just moved over into the neighboring apartment to be sad and depressed while all the dsmp was just Apartment drama.

Bit of a tadgent but eveb though i dknt consider myself a wilbur fan i am still not ok about it either

How do you guys cope with the C! Wilbur finale? Do you have headcanons that Wilbur stays in contact with Tommy and other people via letters or phone call after going back to Utah? Do you headcanon that Tommy(and I've also seen Quackity in these headcanons) tried to find Wilbur and actually succeeded?

[amontageofhell]

OMG omG wait so.....does this whole "fake dating" thing mean I get to date Zaira???? Bcs heLL yeAh I'm doWn!

WhO.....just whO in the right mind would be able to resist thiS beauty!?

[goldkirk]

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[reigensarataka]

dude every day since sdcc i just wake up and remember.... damn. shiro is really out there being that buff gay. what an icon.

me, waking up for work @ 5am everyday: im so tired and sleep deprived i wanna di-me, remembering shiro is gay: oh nevermind :)

[chaekkung]

?? i just watched nct u's boss mv and honestly ?

1. taeyong and mark's verse together ended my life

2. where the fuck are winwin's lines

3. THE CHOREO SLAPS

4. WHY DOES WINWIN ACTUALLY HAVE 0 LINES

5. MARK'S RAPPING 💦💦

6. WHY DID WINWIN ONLY GET ONE SECOND OF SCREENTIME

7. DOYOUNG AND JAEHYUN!! IM BALDING 😩

8. WINWIN LITERALLY BREATHS INTO THE MIC ONCE ??????

[ropemp3]

man ive gotta vent but i dont even know what to say

[prenvii-moved]

h.hbomax has death in the family?..

[thetonethetollandthethunder]

Actually Citra and Rowan’s relationship is really good and the best relationship in the book (yes better than Greyson and Jerico) AND YES I WILL EXPLAIN IN HEAVY detail

Firstly, yes! It is a bit awkward in the beginning, because they ARE hormonal teenagers, they’re ONLY 16 in the first book, of course they’re gonna be juvenile, they’re kids. They don’t know what they’re doing. Their thrusted into a horrible situation where they can only really trust each other.

Let’s take their first kiss. An awkward moment but an important one to established their relationship.

Now this has been leading up for a while. Little hints here and there

They’re both thinking about it, them being together clearly. Both of them know it can’t happen, at least not right now. So Citra kisses Rowan, as an act to show, “We may want this, it can’t happen, so I’m gonna do this so we don’t WANT it anymore.” A way to quell it.

The two say they haven’t fallen in love with each other, and for Citra, that’s mostly true. She hasn’t really FALLEN in love with him yet. To her it’s still mostly platonic. But when Rowan says it he’s lying. HES fallen in love. He needs to know it can’t happen right then and there. And he understands, because the biggest part of Rowan’s character is that he CARES about Citra. He genuinely cares regardless on if he loves him or not, because he loves her, he cares about her.

Yes the scene is a bit awkward but thats the POINT. Don’t forget these two are 16 in the first book, of course they’re gonna be awkward THEYRE KIDS.

They’re forced to grow up due to their situation but at the end of the day they’re kids. And they’re gonna act like it at points.

Now let’s skip to end of the book, I’m sure we’re all WELL aware of this scene.

“I love you,” He said.

“Same here,” she responded. “Now get lost.”

AND ITS SO FUCKING GOOD MAN.

Citra doesn’t want to kill Rowan. She has shown that through-out the whole book. And she manages to not only not kill him, but make sure no one can glean him for a year. She’s planned this. And as Rowan is about to leave. He HAS to tell her. He’s on the run he doesn’t know when he’ll see her again IF he’ll see her again. He tells her he loves her.

And Citra loves him too. Because after their kiss her feelings became more and more clear. And she could say that because the rules didn’t matter. They just broke a rule, so it doesn’t really matter right now. But she knows it can’t be long, and he has to leave. “Now get lost” is a playful saying, so their last interaction isn’t too much. But something small, and fun.

These two scenes REALLY established things for the first book. BUT IM NOT DONE, NO NO NO.

Let’s jump to end of the the second book.

Now there’s a lot of moments that do establish their relationship but the ending really shows it off in its fullest.

The two know they’re gonna be deadish. They know they might not even be found for years upon years. In their final moments, it’s just them two. They don’t have to fight, they don’t have to be scythes. They can be themselves.

They can relax, have a bit of fun in their imminent demise. And the fact they can do that after everything shows how much they not only care about each other but need each other.

Now onto the Toll, there’s a lotta moment in here.

“Scythe Anastasia is not your concern.”

“She’s my only concern.”

This shows how Important Citra is to Rowan. She’s a big part of his development. Without her he’d still be the lettuce or something.

At this point he knows how important Citra is to the Future of the scythedom. He doesn’t have any other concern except her because the only thing he wants to see her.

The only thing that convinces him to not become deadish is Citra, because he knows she wouldn’t want that. That’s how much he cares about her,

“That won’t be a problem at all. Although after 117 years, your feelings may change.”

“They won’t,” said Rowan.

And they didn’t!

Eveb after 117 years HE STILL loves her. And now, when everything is finally over. They relax. They don’t have to be Scythe Anastasia or Scythe Lucifer. They can just be Citra and Rowan. Together and just be themselves for once.

THIS. This moment shows you how their relationship is. They care about each other SO MUCH. To the point where without each other they wouldn’t have overcome so many challenges.

And yes I DO think their relationship is better than Greyson and Jerico. DONT GET ME WRONG, I love their relationship. An explicitly queer relationship is amazing no matter what. But they have only had one book to develop their relationship. Citra and Rowan had 3, so their relationship is gonna be stronger yknow?

Anyways Citra and Rowan are the best relationship in the book and I have no regrets for writing this long ass essay!

Oh AND REST ASSURE I will be adding onto this when gleanings comes out and I reread the books DO NOT WORRY.

[ikyw-t]

timing is a funny thing.........

[moved-19871997]

what i've noticed is this fandom still veers young so even 18-20 years old you're usually in college right. and so they have such an over exaggerated idea of what Dream's mom does for him which is of course helpful esp for his situation But these young people have no frame of reference for actual independence so they don't know what Dream's responsibilities as a home owner and all the company stuff etc would be

(plus it sounds like during pandemic he was likely supporting his family and paying her to do these things but now has people he is calling his assistants to help him perhaps due to his mom having an actual job to return to + 2 kids who are in school to take care of)

yeah + a lot of people like 'young adult' age arent completely indepedant from their parents, i know that for the next couple years eveb tho im an adult im going to be slightly dependant on them (like the laptop im using rn and will use for anohter 5+ years my dad bought, my parents bought my car, half the clothes i have) even after im done w uni (that my parents have offered to help w accomodation rent) im not gonna. completly ignore them and i know its hte same for a lot of my friends and i imagine just a lot of people generally