#but knowing that i could've been pregnant is making me want to throw up

[grimandghoulish]

i am so sorry this is happening to you rn. u can get through this and plz remember to take care of urself and rest

It's alright. I'm trying to rest, but I've been working a lot (and I'm at work now), and having to be up and doing stuff at work is really aggravating the stomach pain. Thank you for the words of encouragement ❤️ I have an appointment tomorrow with planned Parenthood so hopefully they'll be able to help me

[eyecan02]

A Psychological Affair Analysis: A Detail I Noticed from the Church Scene

When Beetlejuice reveals his marriage deal with Lydia, Rory turns to Lydia and asks, "Lydia, what's going on?" And you just know what Rory and all the influencers are thinking in that moment- that they're watching some scandalous affair unfold in front of them. The detail I noticed is right after Rory asks his question.

Instead of looking at Rory or answering his question, Lydia LOOKS at Beetlejuice. There obviously wasn't an affair of a phsyical kind, but you would think she would care more about proving to her fiancee that she's been faithful to him. Yet, her focus is on Beetlejuice in this moment.

Beetlejuice only fuels the "affair" idea by saying "Awkward." lol He's just gaslighting Lydia in this scene. He could've been like "Well, we weren't hooking up but I definitely am stealing your fiancee if you haven't picked up on that yet."

Everything Tim does is always intentional, and even if it's not romantic (yet), he purposely had Lydia looking at Beetlejuice who is currently standing at the altar (theres symbolism here), where she should be standing. And we got the line from Lydia where she said Dr. Glickman had told her that she wouldn't be able to move forward in her relationship until she tackles the "one thing that's been holding her back."

She then immediately starts telling Rory about her experience with Beetlejuice. So Beetlejuice has literally been standing between them and the altar for a while now. At least "psychologically", Beetlejuice IS the "other man".

Especially if you take into account Rory thinking the Therapy Room Scene was a dream. Before he said the BJ chant, he was talking to Lydia about BJ being a "construct" because all he understood from Lydia's story is "some guy tried to force me to marry him" so he likely understood it as "Oh, she used to date some weird guy named Beetlejuice who tried to force her into marriage."

Once they're in the Therapy Room Scene, if you look at it from Rory's point of view, he sees Beetlejuice and Lydia being familiar with each other, Beetlejuice magically have Lydia get pregnant and give birth to a baby that looks just like him (Beetlejuice throws Rory a quick smile to make sure he's watching this) and sees the baby instinctively crawling toward its "mother".

"Spill your guts"= Rory worrying about his lies being exposed.

"Figment of your imagination"= Rory scared that his "figment" will manifest into something real where another man will marry Lydia and have her have his baby and beat him to the cash and life style he wanted before he has a chance to trick Lydia into going through with the ceremony.

Lydia has been running from her fear of marriage, but did not hesitate to toss her upcoming nuptials aside to marry Beetlejuice. And I'll mention it again- she looks BJ's way. For help? Most likely. Because how does one explain to their fiancee that she's moments from marrying the "one thing that's been holding her back" from marriage.

The "one thing that's been holding her back" is also the one person that was able to help "push her forward" by helping her save her daughter and saved her from a gold digging boyfriend. As a result, she quit her show "to start living" and to find herself again.

A person wouldn't really be able to consider a second marriage before they find themselves first. It's funny because she was late to her wedding with Rory but was "on time" for her wedding with Beetlejuice. Third time's the charm. Beetlebabes is fated.

[yourstrqly]

. ⋆⠀ THOUGHT OF YOU

alex albon x gf!reader

you've never entertained the thought of having a child together but now it might be the right time.

warnings: pregnancy scare, alex being the cutest human to ever grace this planet !!

"birdy", alex exclaimed, voice filled with concern and a whiff of confusion as he walked through your shared home, searching you.

"kitchen, babe", you replied tiredly. the day had been exhausting, having to stay longer at work than expected, getting wet from the british rain and on top of that missing the last bus, resulting in you walking about forty minutes home. there was nothing you wished more than eating the pho you made for alex and yourself, and ending the evening in bed, cuddling until you sunk in the land of dreams.

you heard him approache, feet dragging over the wooden floor til he stopped causing you to turn around; he swallowed loudly while his warm brown eyes borred into yours.

your heart rate risen by the second, pounding wildly against your ribcage, adding pressure to your chest and making you breath stuck in your throat. "what happened, al?", you chocked out.

he didn't answer, however he raised his hand up, opening his fist and revealed the object he had found, all while he watched your face morph from slightly happy to see him to panic. eyes focused on the white stick you had used this morning, tears began to shine, trying to escape their ocean.

"you weren't suppose to see that", you shared quietly with your boyfriend. inside your mind, your screamed at your own stupidity — why couldn't you have hidden it better or throw it away? Alex on the other hand, looked down at the pregnancy test, still in disbelief.

clearing his throat, the half thai dragged his vision back to you. "you shouldn't have done this alone, birdy, you know i'm always a call away."

shame fired up your body; it was true, he always had your back as you had his, but this morning you felt like you were on your own, telling yourself that you couldn't possibly ruin his career by taking his focus to a baby and away from driving.

"i know, al . . . i was scared, you know?", you mumbled, "my period is late so there was a change i could've been with child."

"was?", he whispered as he stepped behind you, leaning your body into his, faced pressed to your neck where he placed a soft kiss.

gently you grabbed the test, turned it around so you both could see the small window with the line. "it's negative", you cleared the air, "one line means not pregnant."

a hum escaped his body. "we should buy another one or two, to make sure, yeah?"

he sounded confident, free of panic, the complete opposite of what you were feeling inside. you simply nodded, surprised as he let go of you to grab his car keys. "see you in a minute, birdy."

"al, i have another one in the bathroom", you told him, stopping him from walking through the kitchen door.

"then what are you waiting for? take it, and let me in when you ped on it."

you did as he said, cuddling him on the floor opposite the sink where the test laid on while the pair of you waited for the result. alex stroked your head softly, tracing your features, lost in your beauty — sure, you eyes were a bit red, your lips were swollen because you nervously bit on them but you were still the most beautiful being he had ever laid his eyes on.

"guess now it's the right time to talk about kids", he said.

"can't believe we've never talked about", you shrugged, a small giggle leaving your mouth causing your boyfriend to laugh too.

"do you want kids?", the williams driver wanted to know, setting his eyes onto yours.

a small beam formed on your face. "i do, i just don't know of its the right time now." you truly didn't know it; you just had started your job, and alex was busy travelling around the world for formula one.

he breathed out, an excited grin spread on his lips. "there's nothing more i'd rather want than having a family with you."

his words broke your heart, it beat fastly once again and turned it into a puddle — blush creeped up your neck and you couldn't stop yourself to press a kiss onto his lips, silently telling him that you felt the same.

ending the kiss, a question burned at the top of your tongue. "what if i'm actually pregnant?" you didn't break out in a nervous sweat, no, you waited for his answer while his hand roamed down your body to your stomach.

"then our family starts now."

interlocking your hands, you waited for his phone to buzz; the silence was comfortable til it broke, alerting of the result. hope and love filled your bodies. alex stood up first, holding his hand out to you to help you up. then he gestured you to get the first glimpse at the test. your shoulders sunk when you read the words not pregnant; you turned to your boyfriend who opened his arms, giving you solace. he didn't need to see the result, he knew and like you, he experienced his first heartbreak in this relationship.

alex cradled you face, peaking your lips and drying your tears away. "i'm upset too, didn't expect to want a baby but birdy this doesn't stop your dream, alright?"

you voice trembled. "al, could . . . could we start our family?"

his lips widened into a big grin, before lifting you up causing you to laugh out loud, kicking the door of the bathroom shut. "what are you doing, al?", you couldn't stop laughing like an exciting child.

"well, we have practice, don't we?"

"i'm not going to be pregnant this month."

"I know birdy, but that isn't going to stop me", he cheekily replied, throwing you on the bed, "practice is the key."

[zegrasdrysdale]

Can you write a pregnancy scare with Jamie?

[ not our time ] j. drysdale

paring : Jamie Drysdale x fem!reader

summary : after she’s late for her period, (Y/N) tells Jamie about her suspicions and he tells her to take a pregnancy test to make sure

warning(s) : mentions of pregnancy

author’s note : i’ve been wanting to write something like this so ty for requesting :)

quick announcement : i’ve made a google form you can submit to be added to (or taken off) the taglist that will be at the end of every fic from here on out !

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The only reason she didn't immediately get on the phone with Jamie was because she knew he is on a plane and on his way back from his week-long roadie to the east coast. She probably won'[t even tell him when he walks in the door because she knows how tired he's going to be.

She should. She could be carrying his baby.

Getting sick when she doesn't normally throw up was definitely a red flag. Then she realized she's late for her period. She's rarely ever late.

If she is pregnant, she wants Jamie to be there if the test comes back positive. She doesn't want him to be on a plane somewhere over the United States when she finds out she's carrying their child.

Before she can talk herself out of telling Jamie, a key jingles in the door and it swings open. (Y/N) looks over at the door to see a happy Jamie walk into the apartment. "Hi, baby," Jamie says.

"Hey," she replies as Jamie pulls his equipment bag and suitcase through the front door. "How was the trip? Congratulations on the wins against Philly, Buffalo, and Washington, by the way."

Jamie leaves his equipment bag by the door with his suitcase when he is finally inside. The door closes behind him and he walks over to the couch.

He tilts (Y/N)'s head back and presses a kiss to her lips. She smiles into the upside down kiss. "Wish you could've been there," he says as he pulls back. "Z set me up for an insane goal against Philly and I can't believe that it actually went into the net. That's Trevor, I guess."

"I saw the goal," she tells him. "It was very impressive, Jamie. I'm very proud of you."

A big smile forms on Jamie's lips and (Y/N) feels her heart flutter in her chest. He's so pretty, even now when he looks exhausted.

She decides in that moment to tell him.

"So, um, I have to tell you something you should know," (Y/N) says. She watches Jamie's smile falter. "It's nothing bad, I think, but it's something you should definitely know."

Jamie walks around the couch and sits next to her. "Is everything okay?" he questions. "I mean, did something happen?"

She gnaws on her bottom lip. "It's more like something didn't happen," she admits. "I haven't gotten my period yet and I've been really sick recently. I think I might be pregnant. I haven't taken a test yet because I wanted you here in case."

Another smile breaks out on his lips. "You might be pregnant?" he asks. "Oh my God. That's amazing. Do you need me to run to the store and grab tests? Snacks? Anything you need."

"I have tests," she tells him. "I just haven't taken one yet. I've been waiting for you to get back."

"Go do it," Jamie replies. "I'll be right here when you get the results."

She nods and gets off the couch. "I'll be right here."

With shaking hands, she grabs the box of three pregnancy tests out of the drawer in the bathroom. She pees on all three of them and sets them on the sink counter while she waits for the results.

(Y/N) sits on the floor with her back against the counter that the tests are sitting on. Her head leans against the counter and her eyes are closed while she waits.

Honestly, she doesn't know what kind of results she's hoping for.

If it's positive then she will love this baby with everything in her. It's a part of both of them and she will love them with her entire heart. If it's negative then it's just not their time and they can actually try later on.

It isn't the end of the world if these tests come back negative.

A soft knock rings throughout the bathroom. "You okay?" jamie asks through the door. "Do you need anything?"

"Can you come in?" she asks.

The door slowly swings open and (Y/N) stands up in front of the tests. "Did you look yet?" She shakes her head in reply. "Come on. Lets look together, okay?"

She nods and Jamie takes her hand. With a sigh, she turns around and looks down at the tests on the countertop.

One line on every single one of them. All of them are negative.

"Maybe it's too early," she tells Jamie. "I'm only a few days late for my period." Tears prick her eyes and it surprises her. She didn't think she would be this upset at a negative pregnancy test.

Jamie's happy smile when she told him that she might be pregnant pops into her mind and it breaks her heart. The tears roll down her cheeks.

"(Y/N), baby," Jamie coos. "It's okay. It just isn't our time right now."

She wraps her arms around his torso and buries his face into his chest while silent tears run down her face. "You were so happy when I told you I thought I was pregnant," she says. "I'm sorry, Jamie."

"We'll have a baby one day," Jamie tells her. "I promise. One day those results will be positive."

(Y/N) nods and feels Jamie wrap his arms around her shoulders. "I didn't think I'd be this upset," she admits. "I haven't even thought about having kids until there was a possibly I was having a kid."

He backs away and looks down at her. "I want kids with you," Jamie tells her. "Maybe when we're both more prepared, yeah?"

"Yeah," she agrees. "And when we talk more about it."

Jamie smiles and nods in agreement. "Do you want to eat some ice cream and watch Criminal Minds?" he asks. "I think we have a little bit left if you want some ice cream."

"Absolutely."

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[axcel-lucci]

For the next Full Moon request, female reader asked the ASL trio to babysit her children. How would Law react to that? Would he be jealous or comically annoyed? Whenever female reader is busy, or Law is on important meetings, she'd always ask Luffy, Ace, and Sabo to watch Corazon and Clara. Everytime Law's on a business trip, the ASL trio would always stay by female Reader's side to company her. Yes, Ace is very bad influence, always give Clara and Cora tons of sweets and 🍬. If you want, you could make Law 'punish' her by having rough sex in his wereleopard form, which would not only make her pregnant, but also carry either triplets or quadruplet! Damm, Penguin's not kidding when Law's in his time of the moon cycle.😂😊

Full moon

A/n: so like-- idk how to do some parts of it, but yeh- but don't worry, I'll try the other half.

My masterlist

Full moon og series

"Don't worry sweetie, uncle Shachi and will take good care of you." (Y/n) said as she comforted Clara.

Meanwhile, Cora refuses to let go of law. Hell, he'd have to take off his clothes if he wants to leave.

Then again, it's the first time the two toddlers would be away from their parents for the night. Considering they're now five.

"Hush now... We'll be back in the morning, we promise..." (Y/n) smiled as Clara pouted.

"How come papa can come and we don't!" She huffed

"You little-!!" Law groaned as he tried to pull Cora off him only for the kid to grip his shirt even tighter

"No." The boy muttered.

"Hmm... What about this..." (Y/n) smiled, "me and papa will bring you and Cora to the aquarium next week, what do you say?"

"Aquarium... And pool!" Clara says happily

"Mhmm, we'll take you there as long as you two be good little babies for uncle Shachi, yeah?"

"Okie! Cora! Quick! Papa and Mama will bring us to the aquarium next week!" Clara said as her brother immediately let's go of Law and hoped down.

It was now clear who Cora listens to other than his parents...

Giving the twins a quick kiss, Law and (y/n) left to go and have their date.

It's been a while since they had a date...

Totally not because of the twins being born.

(Y/n) had to physically restrain Law from anything when it's his time of the moon cycle...

And right now, Law is restraining himself in order to get this date the most romantic it's ever been.

"You are so unlucky" (y/n) laughed, "it's full moon. But you ARE lucky the kids aren't home. So I guess that's a win win"

"Stop teasing me..." Law groaned, "or else I'll turn this car around and just fuck you senseless. Fuck the reservation."

She just chuckled, "I know... But it is quite nice that... You know..."

"I know..." He echoed with a small smile.

They soon arrived at the restaurant with a small chat.

One that would distract him from his urges to just pounce on her at the parking lot.

It was a blur after that, really... Them eating, having a great time, Law handing her a bouquet of flowers, and they're on their way home.

But as soon as the front door was closed and locked, Law let out his tail and ears that begged to be let out the whole evening, he sighed in relief once they were out.

"It was so suffocating..." He groaned and he wrapped his arms around her waist as she removed her make up.

"Why didn't you tell me? We could've left early" she laughed as he nuzzled his face against her neck.

"I want you to have a good time..." He pouted and was on the verge of throwing a tantrum.

"Anywhere with you is a great time, Law..." She smiled as she turned around in his hold and placed her hands on his cheeks, "how's your moon cycle taking a toll on you?"

"Oh right"

Before she knew it, she was being thrown on the bed roughly as law crawled over her. "You teased me all night long" he growled as he took off his shirt

"Technically, just 4 hours worth." She laughed softly once more as he huffed and pulled all her clothes off, "law... You're that hungry?"

"What can I say? My beautiful wife is just as beautiful as no one because in my eyes, you're the prettiest girl I've ever seen" he smiled softly and kissed her deeply while squeezing her mounds of flesh.

"You've always wanted to this, Huh?" She chuckled, knowing he loved to stare whenever she'd breastfeed the children.

"I wonder if there's some milk left..."

"Are snow leopards like cats? Really?" She smiled as he lowered his head to her right mound

"I don't know what you're talking about" he huffed, the thought of being compared to a cat astounds him.

He licked her nipple just a little and squeezed it, seeing some milk leak out.

"Law... If you're really going to drink that..." She groaned before mewling at the feeling of him biting it, "... Fuck... Be my guest..."

He smiled a little before sucking the ever living shit out of her nipple, milking her until it's gone for now and switching to the other, all while (y/n) made small noises as she blushed slightly.

Law eventually had enough and sat up, licking his lips.

It was evident he was happy by how his tail was standing up.

"Law..." She smiled as he took off the rest of his clothing and leaned against her

"Yes, love?" He asked with a smile.

"You..." She chuckled softly, "you're kind of a cat."

"Oh please-"

"And I love cats..." She smiled

"Mmmhh... You better do." He huffed before placing a hand on her thigh, sliding it inside and up to her wet folds.

He sat up slightly just to pull her legs far apart and see her glistening entrance just waiting to be played with.

"Come on Law..." She whined a bit before gasping at the feeling of his thumb rub against her clit and his tattooed fingers plunge inside her.

His fingers played with her insides, rubbing, curling them, and even squelching them against that spot inside her that made her see stars.

"L-law...! Please..." She gasped as he pulled his fingers out and observed them.

She watched as he licked his fingers clean.

He eventually settled between her legs with a chuckle, "my apologies if you wouldn't be able to walk tomorrow... Like usual."

"Oh shut up" she huffed

He rolled his eyes playfully as he placed her legs on her shoulders and aligning himself to her entrance.

"Now be a good girl and just keep moaning for me, alright?"

"Mmhhhm..." She whined a little before gasping and arcing her back when Law plunged himself inside in one thrust. "Law...!"

"My bad... I forgot it's also been a long time since we had this..." He chuckled, he clearly intended that to happen

"You little-!!" She groaned but moaned loudly when law pressed her legs down to her shoulders and started to thrust deep inside.

The position let him be as fast and as hard as he can without any trouble, in which he immediately did once he realized that.

(Y/n) soon turned into a moaning mess, pleasure filled tears streaming down her face and her eyes rolling back as Law continues to bully her sorry cunt.

"That's right baby..." He smiled, "moan for me..."

He thrusted even more after that, determined to make her come at least twice before he leaves his seed deep inside her womb. The tip of his dick pressing against her cervix every thrust.

The first time she came, she was still sensitive and Law kept going. Not letting her rest, overstimulating her to the point of her second orgasm.

"L-law...! I-i cant-" she gasped and moaned loudly.

"I know, I'm close..." He groaned, "just a little bit more."

After a few more, Law came deep inside her. Against her cervix.

She can feel his warm seed planting deeper than her womb.

"L-law...! Ah..." She gasped.

"Oi... Don't sleep yet. I'm still not done... Remember... It's been 5 years since we last done this." He smirked darkly, "we're finishing it. Tonight."

"Oh dear..."

Next day...

"Mama... Why do you look so tired?" Cora shyly asked as the two watched Clara annoy the hell out of Law by climbing on his back.

(Clara is a little gremlin)

"What...? Oh... It's just uhm..." She hummed, thinking of an answer to an innocent of a toddler.

"Papa just put a baby inside mama. You'll have a sibling in a few months" Law smirked as (y/n) glared at him

"Huh? But then... How does a baby get INSIDE of mama?" Clara said as she paused for a moment

"Ah- well..." (Y/n) hummed

"Se-"

"Law."

Extra:

Ace and Sabo wanted to meet the little ones, only for them to be more behaved than Luffy who's literally chewing his now much more durable leash.

"Mama... Why is he wearing a leash...?" Clara asked

"He's... Uhm... He's uncontrollable sweetie..." (Y/n) answered.

"Mama..." Cora called, "where is he...?"

"NOT AGAIN!" Sabo and Ace yelled.

[strawberrynightmere]

Thanks, Babe! [Ashley Graves x Fem! Reader]

TW⚠️ : Ashley is her own warning, friends to lovers, sort-of-moral reader, murder, canon divergence (Nina lives and stuff like that), and other stuff to be added.

A/N: Yes, I also write for Ashley.

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"What the FUCK! Ashley!" You yell after witnessing your apartment wall got busted down by your friend.

"What?"

"Don't you 'what' me! You just busted the wall! Those asshole guards are gonna come in here!"

And just like that, a knock was heard from your door.

"What's going on there?!"

You slap your hands over Ashley and Andy's mouths, making sure they didn't say anything.

"I-I uh... I dropped my couch! I was reorganizing, and I dropped my couch! Yeah..."

"Well, orgnize a little quieter! I'm trying to work here!"

You listened as the footsteps of the guard faded in the background. You let go of the Graves siblings' faces and let out a deep sigh.

"What's his job? Starving people to death?"

"Ashley!" You send a sharp glare at the girl. Ashley put her hands up in defense and an 'obviously not sorry' smile. You slouched in return.

Your little reunion is cut short when the sound of sirens is heard. The three of you went to the balcony to see a woman being loaded on an ambulance.

"Lucky bitch." You mumbled under your breath, ignoring the people from the next building who were beging to be take too.

"You think she's pregnant?" Ashley asked.

"Nope. She's most definitely dead." You answered.

"Okay. But what if-"

"No." You and Andrew cut her off. Ashley pouts, and all of you were standing on the balcony in silence.

The silence is cut off when music starts blasting from the, probably, only other tenant besides you three who was still alive.

"Let's go check!" Ashley said immediately going to her apartment.

"Yeah, why don't you just bust through his wall, like you did to mine." You said

"Nah."

"What do you mean 'Nah' ?"

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"Where were you?" Ashley asked as you got to the bus stop.

"I was in the boiler room. So when's the bus coming?"

"Five minutes." Andrew answered.

"Good... good."

After five seconds of silence, Ashley decided to ask. "So when will it blow up?"

"About thirty minutes, give or take."

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"Alright, the rules are simple, who throws their skull the furthest wins. On the count of three, you throw." You began the count as the Grave siblings prepared to throw.

Anyway, Andrew won by sabotaging Ashley.

"[Name], tell him!" Ashley said, trying to get out of Andrew's hug.

"Sorry, Leyley. There was no rule against cheating. My hands are tied." You said.

"What kind of judge are you?!"

"Hmm. Maybe if Nina and Julie were here as jury, it would be more fair?" Though thought you doubt that, since Julie and Andrew started dating, Nina didn't want anything to do with Julie, and Ashley didn't want anything to do with either of them.

"Who cares? Let's go before someone comes here." Ashley said.

You all got in the car, both you and Ashley in the backseat, and Andrew was driving.

"He was cheating." Ashley said while laying on your shoulder.

"I know, Laylay."

"You suck as a judge."

"I know, Laylay."

"But you're a good girlfriend." She then hugs you.

"Thanks, babe." You say hugging her back.

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A/N: This could've been better, but I'm fine with it.

[loonylooly]

at this point i'm wondering what sarah is thinking when writing her love interests, like ok it's clear she finds them hot but like....are they good people

Rhys:

UTM lap dance shenanigans

throwing Feyre into danger constantly (Weaver, destroying cauldron, getting the book from Adriata, etc etc)

Still not doing jack shit about wing clippings in Illyria?? Emerie is right there, Rhysand, go enforce your damn laws

Insulting his wife's sister constantly

Almost killed his wife's sister cause she dared give her important medical information

Locked Lucien (MY BOY!!) in the house of wind

Locked Nesta in the house of wind

Didn't give Mor any warning that time he made her face her abusers and she cried i think (ngl i forgot most of it)

Ignoring Hewn City even tho...Kier is like the only bad guy we've seen from there?? Surely there's decent people in Hewn City, don't gotta make everyone suffer

Nesta windhaven kidnapping intervention so she stops spending Rhys' money (if it was really about her own sake, they would've put a stop to it much earlier)

Seemingly alienates everyone in Feyre's life that could and would stand up to Rhys for Feyre's sake. Lucien? Nah, shoo. Nesta? Nah, shoo. Weird thought but Tarquin? Yeah, makes her steal his book.

And last but DEFINITELY not least; demon baby wife death

HE COULD'VE TOLD FEYRE... OR ATLEAST NOT THREATENED TO KILL HER SISTER FOR TELLING HER WHEN HE HOULD'VE TOLD HER IN THE FIRST PLACE??

THERE'S PROBABLY MORE BUT MOVING ON

Cassian:

Barely ever stands up for Nesta in the IC

Aids in kidnapping Nesta to Windhaven so she stops spending whysand's money

Laughs at Nesta when she falls down the stairs

Aids in punishing Nesta for daring to tell Feyre important medical info

Constantly going agaisnt Nesta's wishes and trying to "save her" when she doesn't want him to

That one time Azriel asked Nesta if Cass had pushed her down the stairs...Like are we gonna ignore that?? Personally I'd have a quarter life crisis if my closest friend, who is like my sibling and has known me most of our lives, seriously entertained the idea that i would physically assault the girl I like

general aggressiveness all of ACOSF

aids in bulldozing Nesta's apartment

Rowan goddamn Whitehorn (Who I've yet to see people bashing him somehow,,, HoF rowan was like if ACOSF cassian had a horrific murder baby

Left his pregnant mate alone during a war cause he wanted to prove himself....like..idk man if i had the choice between war and taking care of my pregnant wife i'd pick the wife (did he know she was pregnant? i've kind of forgotten by now)

Rowan's kid would've been hundreds of years older than Aelin.....just think abt that

Literally everything he did to Aelin during training in HoF

Their argument where he PUNCHED HER IN THE FACE

Threatened to whip Aelin...I repeat....Threatened to whip Aelin, an ex-slave....

Told Aelin it'd be better if she died 10 years ago (unprovoked?? bitch you met her like 2 weeks ago just cause she's getting on your nerves doesn't mean you gotta wish DEATH upon her)

Literally was relieved to find out she was only 19 because if she was a few years older she could've been THE CHILD OF HIS BEST FRIEND.

No issue with marrying the cousin of his best friend's child....Imagine if he hadn't met Aelin first.. If he'd met Aedion first, Aelin would've always been the relative of his friend's son to him

FOR THE RECORD i hate all of the SJM age gaps but rowan and aelin's specifically irks me because Aelin LITERALLY CALLS HIM OLD throughout the WHOLE SERIES

Literally tells Aelin he doesn't care about what she's been through and that she is nothing to him after she confronts him for leaving her

Puts Luca in danger by sticking him on to a frozen lake with a monster inside where he'll DIE if Aelin can't save him

Funnily enough, some of the only seemingly decent person guys in SJM 1. Are completely forgotten about in the books or 2. SJM had to make them violently unlikeable

Like we've got:

Tarquin, seemed like a pretty good guy, rightfully pissed that the IC stole his family heirloom, shows up like twice in the books (LET HIM COME BACK SARAH I LOVE HIM)

Tamlin, was pretty decent in book 1, was made violently unlikeable in book 2 onwards

Chaol, very strong morals, generally a good person, loves his wife, made violently unlikeable and boring in late CoM, HoF, and QoS (ToD is one of my favorite books in the series, will praise ToD till the day I die, my boy EARNED his own book)

Aedion, seemed like a good person, strong morals, spent years trading his dignity for the sake of Terrasen, loved his cousin above all else, made violently unlikable in KoA (even tho I think he was justified in being angry about it, i'd be SO pissed)

Sartaq, good guy, strong morals, Nesryn's chapters were some of my favorites in ToD, Sartaq is one of my favorite SJM love interests, i'll never forgive author lady for forgetting about him in KoA (tho i guess she forgot about everyone from ToD? Yrene and Chaol are the only important ones, she barely even mentions Nesryn even though Nesryn's BEEN an integral part of the gang since QoS, giving her the Suki from ATLA treatment)

[whywouldyoudothistua]

ok im talking abt diego and lila

their relationships this season was so gross to me i'll start with the biggest thing but the whole "yknow she said u couldnt get pregnant while breastfeeding, you can" was WEIRD, it was WEIRD and while it could have been in character for Diego to be stupid and a jerk and view it that way them never correcting this line of thinking really just paints Lila as some conniving evil woman that tricked Diego into having more babies. Which if its meant to be true is just about the most foul way you could have written her character bc sure turn all strong-headed women into evil people thats fine that has no repercussions on feminism. But also bc realistically Lila also didn't fucking know. And not coming to any sort of conclusion on if she did or didn't is kindof crazy bc people that took that as her genuinely tricking Diego into having babies are rightly pissed bc thats a fucked up thing to do but also when it happens in REAL LIFE (i give diegos twins a little handshake) the woman usually just doesn't fucking know either, its misinformation given by doctors and the woman are usually also not fucking aware of it and are not running schemes to trick men into having babies with them and I feel like portraying it that way is just gross and unnecessary Also generally why did they have to make them hate being parents to such extremes, I really really understand how a "diego and lila struggle to be parents to 3 children after being actual superheros their whole life" plotline could've been good and I was excited when they started it out but they ended it awfully and it just makes diego and lila look like kinda shitty parents???? literally the entire show they are complaining about their children, they act like they're a burden and it never gets turned around, Diego has like one moment of realizing he needs to be more present but it's mostly put in the context of him and Lila's relationship not either of their relationships with their kids, I don't even know 2 of their kids names I'm pretty sure they call them "the twins" the entire show. And the whole thing was completely overshadowed by the weird ass Lila/Five so they never got to have a moment of realizing their marriage is a good thing, or figuring out a way to go about their lives if they really didnt want to be married anymore. I really do understand they were trying to go for a good plot where Diego and Lila are struggling and it's so reasonable that they would be! But they could not fucking fit it all in 6 episodes with the amount of screentime it was given, and I rlly just think they should've dropped it cause its such a nuanced plot to throw and them rushing through it honestly just makes it seem like diego and lila are shit parents who ideally would've never had kids Idk I'm gonna watch those last few episodes again cause I admit my eyes were fucking glazing over trying to keep up with Diego and Lila's plot while Lila was w Five and I HOPE it was handled better than I realized the first watch but I really just feel like they fumbled it and the line making it seem like Lila was tricking him into having kids never getting resolved REALLY makes me feel like umbrella academy season 4 hates women

[dreamypqulson]

— baby’s got trouble

request by @lanawinters-ily: need a fic with Misty taking care of pregnant Delia as mentioned in your recent fic!! like she struggles with morning sickness & exhaustion & dizziness but Misty is there to make her all better & fuss over baby / ft the healing mud from your fic <;33

pairing: cordelia goode x misty day

warnings: throwing up + dizziness

word count: 1900

Cordelia Goode; the strong supreme and woman whom everyone knows of could hardly even get out of bed, let alone walk. Cordelia had suffered a long eight months of feeling unwell both mentally and physically. Her emotions were all over the place to the point where she didn't even want to talk to her witches incase of going extremely hormonal on them.

She didn't want to get out of bed; the room would spin and her face would end up right back in the toilet. It was too much work anyways. Baby was taking a toll on her back. Her body felt too heavy to even stand up.

But even cuddled up in bed with her two loves; both her wife Misty and unborn baby girl, she still didn't get a break from any of the pain.

She felt so sick and her mouth kept watering, the ceiling kept spinning. She held her head and closed her eyes but to no avail. Her lover who held her tightly noticed the sudden increase in discomfort from Cordelia. She was great at reading her wife's emotions. They both were. It was like they shared a soul. Sometimes they both really think that they do.

Her arm that gently rested over Cordelia's protruding stomach came up to clutch her rosy cheeks instead with such care. Looking into her deep brown eyes with concern. Cordelia didn't like worrying Misty, but she could not bring herself to erase the look of unease on her face.

"Are you feeling dizzy again?" Misty asked. It certainly wasn't the first time that this had happened. And Cordelia just nodded because she was afraid that it would only make her start gagging if she spoke. Cordelia's lower lip trembled and a tear rolled down her face. "Okay, alrigh. Let me get ya some of that healing mud, baby. It's okay."

She made sure to kiss Cordelia's forehead before getting up and leaving. She knew that could make her feel better. Mentally, at least.

She was back in no time. She didn't want to leave Cordelia alone in this state. Or at all. Misty had become quite a hovering person ever since her wife and her created their sweet girl. Cordelia didn't mind much; she loved being around Misty, and she was loved and cared for.

Misty sat beside her wife who was laid on her back. This position was becoming uncomfortable for Cordelia but her muscles ached too much to move. And before Misty could even open the jar of mud, Cordelia felt the terrible feeling of bile rising in her throat.

"Misty," Cordelia said, hoarse and worrysome. Barley audible. "Misty, I don't feel good." The cajun knew that already, but with the way Cordelia said it, she was aware that it had an entirely different meaning right now.

Misty was quick into action and was already helping Cordelia up. That was the thing about Misty; she could be swift without harming Cordelia further. She was always so gentle.

The room spun and it only made Cordelia feel worse, but Misty practically carried her wife into their bathroom. She could hardly walk, but with Misty's strong arms around her body, it was easier than it could've been. Although pregnant, she was no match for Misty. The cajun spent hours and hours of hard labor back at her swamp growing the muscles she uses now for her lover.

She sat next to Cordelia on the floor. As soon as the toilet seat was opened, she immediately began to gag and release all of her pregnancy cravings from her stomach into the bowl.

Misty placed lingering kisses against her wife's sore back. It was the only thing she could do to comfort Cordelia in the moment. She wished she had the power to take it all away.

When Cordelia was finally done with what didn't last long, she rested her weak body back against Misty. The cajun placed her hand on Cordelia's stomach and rubbed it in small circles. She could feel their baby girl fluttering beneath the supremes flesh. There had been countless of nights that Misty would sit up with Cordelia when baby would just not stop kicking.

"Sunshine, do ya feel any better?" Misty asked and she leaned down to kiss Cordelia's forehead. Due to her supremacy, Misty had never seen her wife so sick before she was pregnant. It was entirely different for the both of them but Misty was nevertheless there for her.

"A little bit. My heads still pounding and sore back. This little peanut won't quit it today," Cordelia smiled and looked up at her wife all while placing her hand atop of Misty's. She was feeling awful but she couldn't help but still feel fortunate knowing the reason and outcome for all of this.

Misty took this as a sign that everything is okay and she could smile right back. She still worried about Cordelia and her baby girl constantly. She just wanted them to be safe and healthy always. "Ya givin mommy trouble already, tiny love? Too bad that ya already too cute to punish." 

Misty felt a warm tear -multiple warm tears- fall on her hand, sniffles following. Cordelia was already an emotional person which Misty found very cute. The pregnancy had only enhanced that by a million, making her exceedingly hormonal.

Misty was well aware of the reason Cordelia was crying. She didn’t even have to ask at this point. Simply, she leaned down and kissed her wife’s rosy lips, salty from the warm tears rolling down Cordelia’s face. “I love you,” Goode mumbled right against Misty and, god, she knew that she made the right choice with this one.

“I love ya with everything in me,” Misty said back. Cordelia would’ve cried more. Was going to. But she was already so tired and she was running out of tears from all that she had shed in the past eight months. “So let’s get ya back in bed so I can make ya feel better.”

With the smile Misty wore, she wouldn’t deny any of her requests. She let the cajun help her back up on her feet. With each day, it was getting more difficult to do anything. But she wouldn’t give up. She loved her little family too much already.

Misty got her wife laid safely back into bed and sat beside her under the covers. It only made the pain worse on Cordelia’s back, only caused the room to spin again, but she knew that being back on the soft mattress again would help in the long run. Misty wouldn’t ever do anything to make Cordelia feel worse.

With Cordelia’s consent, she lifted up her wife’s sleep shirt, slowly and cautiously in thought of her tender breast’s. She got out her jar of mud and scooped some onto her fingers. Both of them typically wouldn’t use mud in their clean bed but it was the most comfortable option for Cordelia in this state.

She delicately rubbed some of the mud on the older woman’s rounded stomach to fewer the stretch marks that would later appear on her skin. Neither of them had a problem with stretch marks, scars, or absolutely anything that could possibly be an insecurity. But Cordelia was so incredibly insecure due to the emotional abuse from her mother all her life and she knew it would only mess with her head more. She already hated the stretch marks on her hips. Misty thought they were sexy and told her that, even kiss them anytime that they would show each other their love.

Cordelia slowly relaxed into the feeling of coolness on her stomach. Misty then moved her fingers up to the older woman’s chest so she could breathe in the calming scent for the nausea. Cordelia’s eyes fluttered shut. She was so tired that she nearly drifted off under Misty’s touch. She would never admit it, but she loved being taken care of.

Misty finished and she got up to wash the mud off of her hands. She got back in bed and kissed her drowsy lovers forehead. Cordelia wasn’t asleep but she was nearly reaching dreamland.

The younger woman laid back down with her wife. It was the middle of the day and they were laying here in bed. She wouldn’t wish it to be any other way.

“I love ya. Do ya know that,” Misty whispered somberly, “I love ya so much and i’m so proud of ya for carrying our baby girl.” The sweet cajun rested one hand on Cordelia’s lower stomach, away from the mud, and the other wrapped around her body to soothe her back with circular motions.

Don’t cry. Don’t do it, Cordelia. Cordelia began to cry again anyways. Misty was just so sweet and after all the trouble she had before her supremacy to conceive, it felt nice to be appreciated. She finally felt like she was doing something right. For the first time in her life she knew that she took the right path.

Although her eyes were closed, the tears still managed to overflow through her eyelids. Misty wiped them away so Cordelia wouldn’t have to move anymore. “I love you,” kiss, “I love you,” kiss, “I love this little sunshine too.”

“I love this little sunshine too. She’s gonna be so cute just like her mommy.”

“Nu-uh,” Cordelia sleepily argued, “she’s gonna be cute like her mama. Big blonde curls and blue eyes.”

“Or silky blonde hair and big brown eyes. Imagine tryna tame those curls every mornin.”

Cordelia giggled and nuzzled her face closer into her wife’s chest. “The little curly pigtails, Mist! Little curly pigtails!” The supreme was certainly excited to dress her little girl up and do her hair. Everything she had always wanted her mother to do with her. When she was just a little girl, she had to learn how to do her own hair and realize that her purple shirt didn’t match with her green skirt. She never had her mother to help her with that stuff. But her own baby surely would.

“Okay, okay, curly pigtails sounds really darn cute,” Misty rested her head against Cordelia’s and laughed into her soft hair. The older woman then felt the baby kick again. Not uncomfortably. It was gentle; she was simply joining in on the conversation with her mothers.

“Seems like our little cutie really likes that idea.” Cordelia finally opened up her eyes to look up at her wife. Maybe Mallory never reset the timeline after she died, Cordelia thought. Maybe this was just heaven.

Misty rubbed her thumb against the skin of Cordelia’s lower stomach, Soon, baby, very soon you can have your little pigtails. Only one month of anticipation and sickness left.

Cordelia let out a yawn and rest her head back on Misty’s chest. She was okay. Everything was okay and right in her little world. She could go to sleep now knowing that she would wake up with the exact same smile. “Get some rest now, my two loves. I promise i’ll be here when you’s wake up,” and Cordelia felt safe enough, with just those words, to drift off. “Always,” Misty whispered again, although, Cordelia didn’t hear it. She knew it though. Always and forever.

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[reggieswriter]

Hear me out gang

Walburga could've been a good mother.

I'd like to remind everyone that Sirius gets his rebellious "fuck the patriarchy!" Attitude somewhere. I mean yeah he wanted to defy his parents but that's a momma's boy y'all.

I'd like you to imagine a young Walburga with dreams and aspirations. She wants to make change and be a good person but instead hey parents tell her of and marry her off to the first Pureblood they can. At first she fights until she just can't. So she watches from afar as her peers (specifically Euphemia) find love and follow their dreams. She gets pregnant soon and she wants to be a good mother but then the harsh reality of the world she's bringing this baby into crashes down on her. She's bringing this baby into a tough, kill or be killed world where he'll be expected to never fuck up. She can't baby him. When he's born she looks into her baby boys eyes and sobs. She'll never be able to protect him. Never. She channels all of this into getting him ready. She lets Orion throw curses at him as she sobs in her bedroom. She lets herself be hard on him. She makes him believe trusting people isn't worth it. If she doesn't toughen him up who will? She sends the house elves with potions for healing threatening them to not say anything about her

She watches as he runs away scared and beaten. That night she physically claws at her chest.

She lost him.

She lost her baby boy.

He's gone and he hates her.

But then something happens. Walburga drops Regulus off at the train and spots him with the Potters looking brighter and better than ever and she lights up. Even begins to tear up. He's safe and loved and ever so happy. Then she notices a familiar face

Euphemia Potter.

The women nods slightly a knowing looking in her eye. Sympathetically she gives Sirius a hug almost for Walburga and they exchange eye contact one last time saying.

"I've got him now, sweetheart."

[ackermom]

a piece of a thing that will otherwise never see the light of day. post-canon armin/annie, nsfw-ish

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"how's the lovemaking?" pieck asks.

annie supposes they are friends. funny, that word, as funny as pieck, no longer the long-legged little girl annie remembers, always wearing a dopey half-smile that made annie want to kick her in the face. she's become something far more irritating now, something lithe and beautiful with the long dark hair and the pale heart face. tall and sharp and thin— the kind of woman who can ask about lovemaking as she finishes her manicure and watches the waves out the window.

something annie has never wanted to be, not until she knew it was something she is not. she hates pieck for even making her wonder, staring in the dim cracked mirror of their steerage cabin and seeing herself, really, for the first time. she hates her for it. so, friends.

"you don't have to ask every time," annie says. never mind that the lovemaking— pieck's word— is few and far between at all, let alone in these small bunker cabins where one can hear a neighbor drop a pin on the carpet. she's not so callous to deny that she likes the feel of armin's collarbones beneath her hands and the heat on his skin pressed into her thighs, though she wouldn't call it lovemaking. she wouldn't call it anything. it's probably better that way.

"i want to know if he's getting better," pieck says. "you never give me details."

"the details are private."

"he must be doing something right to keep you coming back. or should i say, to keep you coming."

well— therein lies the problem.

"oh," that bitch says, putting down her nail polish. "i see. finally something the genius can't figure out."

annie finally wrangles her stockings off and makes the mistake of glaring at pieck in the mirror— bad idea, for the curious eyes and arched eyebrows that look back at her, something sly and suggestive in the rising curve of her lips as she watches annie from across the bunkroom. she turns her back to pieck again, busying herself at the bureau, but she is annoyed— bitch— at the revelation uttered aloud, if only for the implication that annie would let a guy prod at her for hours to "figure it out" when she could just tell him what to do and get it over with. the trouble is, she doesn't know either.

the trouble is, her sex education was provided by a wiry-hired marleyan doctor focused on the science of reproduction and the risks to avoid should a warrior ever find herself undercover for the purpose of seduction and entrapment. nothing was said of love or desire. no instructions were given for the warm space between her legs other than not to get pregnant, and so far the little rubber diaphragm she impulse-bought at a pharmacy on the mainland has been winning that battle for her. the only reward she's gotten for her sexual exploits has been cleaning armin's come from her thighs as he apologizes and offers to try again next time.

it's just getting old, that's all.

"there's nothing to figure out," is all she says then. there is a lot to figure out.

she hears pieck blow on her nails. "don't let a man use you like that, dear. one day you'll find yourself knocked up without a hand to hold."

she'll have her own, annie thinks, remembering grim, clenched-jaw moments sitting on the toilet after she tugs out her soiled diaphgram, praying to whatever gods are shitting on them that none of his seed makes it inside. mostly she relies on gravity.

"i'm not letting him use me," annie says. although, at this point—

"think of karina braun," pieck says, ignoring her. "that's your future if your carry on like this. imagine having to raise reiner."

annie throws her a sharp glance, finding her flapping one hand as she waits for the nail polish dry. pieck blows on her fingers, then catches her eye.

"i've always hated that woman," she confesses. she grimaces. "but to her credit, i'm not sure i could've done a better job."

she blows on her hand again. when she finds annie's still watching, she raises her head, her gaze softening into something...— ...something.

"what do you see in him?" pieck asks her.

annie looks away. that's as good as any answer. she's not sure she knows. she doesn't know shit anymore, or maybe she never did. but armin understands in a way that none of the others do. they wouldn't get it. not even reiner, who's the closest to her heart; but it's a soiled black hole he left there, in every part of her. and not pieck, not the way they're speaking now, like they've always been friends. they don't even know each other.

maybe she only wants him because she wants to hear his voice, the way he talked to her for years when she was half-asleep, folded up into herself like a cocoon underwater, watching the light break through the surface and trying to hold her breath for just a little longer. maybe she'd be fucking hitch instead if she was here, or maybe it's only herself she's seeing— creeping up from the depths to break through the layers burying her to finally find the light.

[mindmeltonabun-blog]

My Demon: Theories and Analysis for Eps 11-12 Part 2

Hello Readers!

Here is Part 2! Happy Readings!

Ok, thinking caps on! Time to analyze and theorize!

Section 2: The Past

Section 2.3: Do Hee’s Father’s Contract with Gu Won

What We Know

Before we get into the details about Do Hee’s father’s contract with Gu Won, let’s first review some things! According to Do Hee, her father had promised her a birthday party she would never forget.

On the day of her birthday party, she said her father had to go to work. This was unusual because he quit working a long time ago (hint hint...ask yourself why he quit working).

Eventually, the accident was ruled to be caused by speeding.

From Madam Ju’s perspective, before the car exploded, she saw Gu Won collecting his contract. A few seconds later, fuel was leaking from the car and then it exploded.

What We Don't Know

Two questions we must try to answer are why Do Hee's father signed the contract and when he signed it.

Based on what Do Hee said in Ep 11, one could only deduce the following:

Do Hee's father wanted to throw her an unforgettable birthday party because he knew his time was limited and this would be the last birthday he would be able to celebrate with Do Hee

Do Hee's father quit his job at Mirae Electronics to maximize his time Do Hee because he knew his time was limited

What these things implied is that Do Hee's father signed the contract long before the accident occurred. I've seen others theorizing that Gu Won showed up to make a deal with Do Hee's parents, but those theories wouldn't explain why Do Hee's father wanted to throw her an unforgettable birthday party or why he quit his job at Mirae Electronics. Therefore, I'll stick to my theory that Do Hee's father signed the contract long before the accident because it would explain why her father wanted to throw her an unforgettable birthday bash and why he decided to quit working at Mirae Electronics.

Anyway, the writer has given limited information about Do Hee's parents which makes it quite difficult to formulate accurate theories. Below are three theories I've formulated based on the limited information:

Theory #1: One or both of Do Hee's parents were infertile so they had difficulties conceiving. Do Hee's father wished for Gu Won to make either one parent or both parents fertile so they could conceive. Theory #2: On the day Do Hee was supposed to be born (Oct 29, 1996), there were complications (i.e the cord wrapped around her neck, her mother got hit by a car, etc). Do Hee's father wished for Gu Won to save his wife and unborn child. Theory #3: Do Hee got sick when she was a child and Do Hee's father wished for Gu Won to cure her of her disease or illness.

Now let's go over my theories and see if there are any flaws in them. The most obvious flaw with Theory #1 is the timeline. It takes 40 weeks or 9 months from the time of conception to birth. If Do Hee's father signed the contract because they had trouble conceiving then he would've done so in late January or early February 1996. However, since he didn't die in late January or early February 2006, we can assume Do Hee's parents didn't have fertility problems and this wasn't Do Hee's father's wish. The only way for this theory to work is if Gu Won snapped his magic fingers and made Do Hee's mother suddenly 9 weeks pregnant in just one day, but that would be really far fetch.

The main flaw of Theory #2 is it wouldn't explain why Do Hee's father suddenly left on what could've been possibly the last day he had on this Earth. If he knew he would die within the next few hours, he probably wouldn't have left Do Hee's side no matter how dire a work-related issue was. The only reason I could see Do Hee's father leaving her on her birthday was because he thought he had more time. Meaning, he had planned to quickly wrap up whatever business he had at Mirae E'slectronics before returning home to celebrate Do Hee's birthday.

This leads me to my next theory, Theory #3. We assumed Do Hee's father's contract expired on her birthday, but what if it didn't? What if her father had a few weeks or months left on his contract? We have yet to see what happens if a person dies before their contract expires, but I think we are about to in the case of Do Hee's father. I think if a person dies before their contract is up, Gu Won still comes to collect their soul. I believe this is exactly what happened on the night of Oct 29, 2006.

Do Hee became sick shortly after she was born (let's say Nov 11, 1996 for all intents and purposes). Do Hee's father signed the contract in exchange for Gu Won saving her life. Going with the example he signed the contract on Nov 11, 1996, her father's contract would've expired on Nov 11, 2006. So maybe that's why her father left that night. He didn't think leaving for an hour would be such a big deal in the whole grand scheme of things because he still had close to 2 weeks left with Do Hee.

Out of the three theories I came up with, I believe the one that was most likely to happen was Theory #3. I want to reiterate that I don't believe Gu Won offered Do Hee's parents a contract when they crashed their car. Do Hee's father knew his days were limited because of the terms of the contract hence this is why he quit his job years ago and wanted to throw Do Hee one last big birthday bash.

There are still so many questions I'm unable to answer because the writer has given us practically nothing to work with. For example, why the hell was Do Hee's mother in the car with her father? She didn't have business at Mirae Electronics. The only reason I can think that would explain why she was in the car was because Madam Ju had a hair emergency. Otherwise, I don't see any logic in Do Hee's mother tagging along with her father to go to Mirae. Also, I think it would be irresponsible for parents to leave their 10 year-old child home alone. Did they hire a babysitter? Where were Do Hee's grandparents in all of this? Or did the writer just conveniently have them die long before the story started?

Section 3: Murder of Do Hee's Parents

Section 3.1: Who Did It? Why?

Short answer...Seok Min. Though the ending scenes of Ep 12 made it seem Gu Won was responsible for the deaths of Do Hee's parents, I don't think he was. Gu Won was only there to do this job: collect Do Hee's father's soul.

One could argue that Gu Won caused his father to have a heart attack which caused him to lose control of the car. Subsequently, this would kill not only Do Hee's father but also her mother. However, if that were the case, it would go against the rule that demons couldn't kill humans. Moreover, if Gu Won caused her father to have a heart attack then her father's foot probably wouldn't have been on the pedal and the police wouldn't have ruled the cause of the accident as "speeding". Like I'm pretty sure if you're having a heart attack, your foot wouldn't keep pushing on the gas pedal.

I don't think their accident was a simple case of speeding. By this I mean, I think Seok Min tampered with Do Hee's parents' car engine or brake system. When you tamper with someone's car engine, it can cause a sudden acceleration leading the car to accelerate unexpectedly. Similarly, if the brakes were tampered with, one would have difficulty slowing down or stopping the car, leading to an uncontrollable increase in speed and loss of control, resulting in a crash.

Do Hee's parents were probably on their way towards their home, but lost control of their vehicle and crashed into the barrier. The impact likely killed both of her parents. However, there may be a small possibility that her mother survived the car crash. If this were the case, why would Gu Won not save her? Maybe it's because he couldn't. By this, I mean if Gu Won had, he would've broken the rule that stated demons couldn't interfere with God's work. Maybe her parents were fated to die at that time.

So why did Seok Min do it in the first place? Two possibilities. As I stated in my previous post, one possibility was because Do Hee's father found out Madam Ju's dark secret (i.e she had engaged in dishonest means to make herself richer). Seok Min then overheard the confrontation between Do Hee's father and Madam Ju. Subsequently, he decided to "protect" his mother by getting rid of Do Hee's father. After all, the dead can't speak.

The second possibility was that Seok Min overheard Madam Ju telling Do Hee's father that she wanted to make him Chairman of Mirae Group after she stepped down. This may have caused Seok Min to be filled with rage and jealousy because he believed he should be the next chairman since it was his birthright. In Seok Min's mind, Do Hee's father didn't deserve to be chairman because he wasn't Madam Ju's biological son, Seok Min was.

Seok Min was probably jealous of the relationship his mother and Do Hee's father had. In Madam Ju's eyes, Do Hee's father was the perfect son. He was diligent and kind. Madam Ju treated Do Hee's father like the son she never had. She loved him and this was something Seok Min wanted from his mother, but never got. Do Hee's father was everything Seok Min was not. Here's the thing though, Madam Ju would've loved Seok Min had he learned to work hard for his position. However, since he was a lazy entitled sloth who didn't do anything to earn his position, other than killing people, Madam Ju despised him. It was right Madam Ju made Do Hee's father the next chairman because he worked hard for it, unlike Seok Min. Seok Min couldn't have that happen though so he became blinded by rage and decided to get rid of the competition by tampering with Do Hee's parents' car.

After the accident happened, Madam Ju returned home to try to wash away her sins. She probably thought she killed Do Hee's parents because she thought that if she hadn't asked Do Hee's father to come to the office that night, he wouldn't have sped to get home to celebrate Do Hee's birthday and died. Little did she know, it was actually her son who was behind it all.

While in the shower, Madam Ju may have been confessing to herself about killing Do Hee's parents, and Seok Min likely recorded this as potential blackmail to secure the chairman position. Alternatively, Seok Min might have recorded his mother's confession as backup evidence in case of accusations related to Do Hee's parents' murder. It also wouldn't be surprising if Seok Min tagged along with his mother to church and recorded her confession there.

I think Seok Min will show Do Hee this recording in Ep 13 to make her think Madam Ju killed her parents. Seok Min does have a nasty habit of blaming others and placing his crimes on other people. He did it with Madam Ju and Do Gyeong. Seok Min made them think they had killed people, but in reality, they didn't. Seok Min did. He's a man who refuses to take responsibility for any of his actions whether that be hitting a pedestrian, killing his own mother, or trying to kill Do Hee. I think though Seok Min will begin to see he's running out of people to pin all of his crimes on. He's going to have to pay for his crimes pretty soon!

Section 3.2: The Twins/Soulmates Meet

Y'all Gu Won's smile at the end of Ep 12 sent shivers down my spine, that SHIT WAS SO FUCKING CREEPY!!!!! ajfldjakrjalsjfaljf;l!!!

Ok back to being serious. I don't think Madam Ju meeting Gu Won served any other purpose than to scare the living daylights out of her. Seeing Gu Won is what probably caused her to finally change her ways and start living a righteous life.

I don't think Madam Ju was religious or anything before she met Gu Won. She probably didn't believe the divine or supernatural was real. However, after meeting Gu Won, she probably thought to herself, "Fuck the Devil is real!! Hell is real! I need to start praying, donating to charity, and living a righteous life, or else the Devil is going to come and take my soul away and I'll go to Hell."

Like Gu Won, Madam Ju turned to religion for salvation, but unlike him, she was genuinely committed to God's teachings and principles

As for the night of the car accident, I don't think they had that much interaction. Madam Ju may have asked Gu Won to try and save them, but Gu Won may have told her they were beyond saving now.

I have to say though that after the stuff about Seok Min gets resolved, I hope there will be a scene where Madam Ju and Gu Won meet in happier circumstances. Who knows, maybe when Do Hee and Gu Won go to Madam Ju the next time, Madam Ju will appear to them both haha.

Section 3.3: Why Didn't Gu Won Remember Do Hee's Parents or Madam Ju?

Maybe Gu Won doesn't remember Do Hee's parents or Madam Ju because he's seen a lot of faces throughout the many years. It's like do you remember what you brought 27 or 17 years ago? I know I don't. Unless the deal he made with Do Hee's father was unique (i.e he wished for a baby) then he probably wouldn't have remembered Do Hee's father. The only other distinctive aspect could be that Do Hee's father was the only person who died before his contract was up. Besides that, there's nothing else that might differentiate Do Hee's father from others Gu Won has dealt with. Before meeting Do Hee, Gu Won perceived all humans as insignificant and easily forgettable. Therefore, this is why Gu Won doesn't remember Do Hee's father or Madam Ju.

If Gu Won doesn't remember Do Hee's father or Madam Ju, how would Do Hee find out Gu Won was there on the night of her parents' accident? S-E-O-K M-I-N. Seok Min likes to place blame on others for his crimes. If Seok Min can't convince Do Hee that Madam Ju was responsible for her parent's deaths, he might point fingers at the next convenient target—Gu Won.

Maybe Seok Min will tell Do Hee that he saw Gu Won at the scene of her parent's car accident. This will force Do Hee to ask Gu Won about it. Poor guy is going to have to rack through his brain to remember it haha. I mean he's going to have to remember his memories of when he was Chil Won (Do Hee's father signed the contract in 1996 so that would mean he met with Chil Won haha) and Pal Won haha. OMG CAN WE PLEASE GET A FLASHBACK OF DO HEE'S FATHER SIGNING A CONTRACT WITH CHIL WON?!!! AHHHHHHHH. Out of all of Gu Won's many selves, Chil Won was the hottest haha.

When Do Hee discovers that Gu Won had a contract with her father and was present on the night of her parents' accident, it's likely she'll be upset and demand an explanation. She may question why he didn't intervene to save them. Gu Won will likely try to explain, but I don't think Do Hee will be very understanding of whatever he says. This revelation could lead to a temporary breakup, becoming a pivotal moment for both characters.

This break may serve as a catalyst for Gu Won to confront his deep-seated fear of losing Do Hee. Simultaneously, it might prompt Do Hee to realize that her parents' deaths and Madam Ju's demise weren't her fault. Side note....hopefully, Gu Won will tell Do Hee that she was the woman in his past before all this other shit comes out. If not, Do Hee finding out about all of this at once could really overwhelm her.

Section 4: Final Predictions

Section 4.1: Gu Won and Do Hee

Our couple will have a happy ending! They've worked hard enough to get one! I really hope the writer doesn't turn the ending of MD into Guardian: The Lonely God and Great God....it should be Guardian: The Happy and Great God haha. We had the bitter, now give us the sweet!

Gu Won will be as I said, a guardian demon....a human-demon hybrid (think of Lee Yeon from TOTNT). Meaning he will be human (live a mortal lifespan), but have demon powers. It's the best of both worlds!

One of the themes of this show is the coexistence of opposites. I don't just mean with our couple (light vs dark and angels vs devils) but also within ourselves. Gu Won's existence as a human-demon hybrid would allow for the integration of both his human and demon characteristics. This integration would symbolize finding a balance between conflicting elements and embracing one's multifaceted nature. Gu Won's hybrid nature could also serve as a metaphor for unity in diversity. It would show that different aspects, even those considered incompatible, can coexist and contribute to a richer, more complex identity.

The bird fights its way out of the egg. The egg is the world. Who would be born must first destroy a world. The bird flies to God. That God's name is Abraxas. -Hermann Hesse, Demian

If we want to go with the whole bird and analogy present in MD (I have to add I was reminded of AOS because the writer in that show used a lot of bird and egg analogies too haha), we can say Gu Won is like the bird who needed to break free from its shell. The shell is societal expectations, personal limitations, and the constraints imposed by his demonic nature. Gu Won's transformation involved destroying his existing understanding of himself and the world in which he resides. This could be achieved by Gu Won by confronting his inner demons, questioning his past actions, and reevaluating his place in the world. Gu Won's quest for a higher understanding encompasses the pursuit of redemption and the harmonious integration of the opposing forces within himself, akin to the bird's flight toward God. As Gu Won unifies the opposing forces within himself, he becomes something greater. That something greater is a human-demon hybrid or Abraxas.

Given two choices, normal humans either choose one or the other, but mutants like Lee Yeon and Gu Won go for the third option haha. If Gu Won were to remain as either a demon or human, it would not go with the many themes in the show. He's a mutant or an anomaly who goes for the third option instead of having to choose between the two choices.

Though Gu Won has yet to see it, God transforming him into a demon was both a punishment and a reward. In exchange for doing his time, God rewarded him with everything he and Do Hee could've ever possibly wished for. She transported them to a time when the social barriers they once faced in the past no longer existed in the present. She made sure they met again and got married. And finally, she gave Gu Won powers to protect Do Hee with so he would never have to face the same pain he faced back during the Joseon dynasty. Basically, God gave them things that money could never buy: a second chance at being happy together. All of this wasn't free though haha. Both had to suffer a lot along the way, but eventually, they got their heaven; they got each other.

I think the show will end with Do Hee finally becoming the Chairwoman of Mirae Group, heralding a new world order. She'll be the first rich person who wasn't corrupt and the first CEO who wasn't related to the previous owner. As for Gu Won, he'll work as a guardian who protects humans from all kinds of threats (i.e illnesses, Hell, themselves, etc). He'll convince people who are going down the wrong path to choose to live a righteous life and work hard so they don't end up in Hell. Gu Won will also be a healer of humans not only physically but emotionally and mentally as well.

Though I don't think this will happen given the time constraints, I hope Gu Won and Do Hee will have a second wedding! Like a wedding where Do Hee would get to wear a wedding dress that reflects her taste and where they'll be surrounded by their real family. It would also be nice if they had a few kids too haha! Just imagine the kind of bedtime stories that would have to tell their kids..."Daddy was a devil who lived for 200 years until Mommy made him human again and they lived happily ever after." Hahahaha. All of this probably won't happen but it's just my wishful thinking.

Section 4.2: Seok Min

Ok now onto this asshole. We all know Seok Min will get caught for all the crimes he committed and be punished. However, I don't think his punishment will be just simple prison time. We have seen that Seok Min serving time in a regular prison didn't really change him for the better. He still ended up doing many horrible things even after he was released from it. What Seok Min needed was to be put in a new kind of prison...the one Gu Won was just in.

My theory is that Seok Min will try to avoid punishment by ending his life similar to Gu Won during the Joseon dynasty. God will then make him into a demon. The demon book being in his possession was probably a clue from the writer that foreshadowed Seok Min's future.

The way things work in this show is that if you murder people, God gives you a second chance to redeem yourself. God being a merciful person gives murders a second chance to make different choices. If you fail to make different choices and don't change for the better, it's hello spontaneous combustion.

You might be thinking, isn't Seok Min being turned into a demon a dangerous thing? Well, not really because he's got rules to follow. Do you think he'll actually follow them? Hell no. You see, what kept Gu Won from breaking the rules was his love for Do Hee. Her love essentially saved him from spontaneous combustion throughout his years as a demon. Seok Min on the other hand doesn't have that. He killed the very thing he loved (Madam Ju) so he doesn't have love in his heart to prevent him from doing bad things. I'm sure right after Seok Min is turned into a demon, he'll use his newfound powers to kill someone. And this will cause him to spontaneously combust. Good riddance! This will be the most fitting end for him!

Section 4.3: Seok Hoon and Ga Yeong

Now onto the people we thought were up to no good...Seok Hoon and Ga Yeong. I really hope Seok Hoon doesn't become the sacrificial lamb as I said on my Twitter account. Meaning, I hope Seok Hoon doesn't get killed by Seok Min. On the off chance that he does, Gu Won would bring him back. As for Ga Yeong, I hope she and Gu Won make up. Ga Yeong did some pretty horrible things, but at the end of the day, she was trying to keep the only person she ever loved safe. Maybe Gu Won will finally look at her warmly and tell her she'll always have a home to come back to at Sunwol.

Ideally, it would be nice if Seok Hoon and Ga Yeong got together in the end, but the writer had barely made any developments in their love story so I don't think it'll happen. If it did, maybe it would go something along the lines that Seok Hoon decided to go traveling again and since Ga Yeon was going on tour, Seok Hoon would go with her.

Section 4.4: The Secretaries

We already know how things will end for these two...with the most obnoxiously cheesy wedding ever hahah.

As a wedding gift, Gu Won will probably pay off Bok Gyu's car and apartment debts haha.

Section 4.5: Others

The Perilla Seed and Scallions Gang will probably continue to work for Gu Won. Instead of doing bad things and trying to take over the world, they do good things and help Gu Won with his mission of protecting humans in the world.

For the mother and sick daughter, Gu Won will heal the daughter without damning her mother to hell.

As for the Mirae F&B workers, Min Soo will get his promotion, Jung Mi will find a new worker to gush over, and Hang Sung will quit his job to follow his dream of becoming a writer.

I should've mentioned this in one of the earlier sections, but I think Su Ahn will finally stand up against Seok Min for the sake of her twins. Su Ahn's fear Seok Min will harm children will finally force her to take a stand against Seok Min and switch sides. I think the same will go for Sera. She obviously knows she played a significant role in Do Gyeong's death because she said and did nothing. Her guilt over her son's death was also beginning to manifest itself through the rash she'd developed on her wrist. The only way to free herself from the mental Hell she's living in is by telling the truth. Therefore, I think she'll go to the police and tell them about Seok Min's crimes. Both Su Ahn and Sera just needs to be brave!

Section 5: Concluding Remarks

I may or may not post next week for Eps 13-14. If there's any significant to talk about, I'll of course post something. Overall, I think everyone will have a happy ending. It's like I said before, we just need to go through some Hell first before we reach Heaven haha. If any of the main characters die, they'll come back. The only person who definitely won't have a happy ending is Seok Min.

One more thing I forgot to mention is I wonder if God was Gu Won's mother when he was Yi Sun? I thought it was kinda odd they mentioned his mother died of an illness when she was young. It very well could the only purpose that bit of info served was to explain away his bad behavior back then, but it would definitely be a twist if God was previously his mother. Anyways, even if God wasn't his mother previously, she was still a motherly figure in his life. She disciplined him and set him up on blind dates haha.

I'll end this post by saying thank you to the whole cast and crew and writer for all of their hard work on this project! "My Demon" couldn't have been an amazing drama without all of them! Thank you!!

[thesevenwondersofawitch]

Watching Star Trek: Picard s3 ep3, Seventeen Seconds

The show just started and then this popped onto my screen

I'm cackling because the Titan is being attacked 😂

"This is your fault!" Dude, while not completely wrong it's still a bad idea to say this to the admiral's son😂

"Jack don't!" Oh she's 100% his mom😂

"They're gonna need us." I love Beverly so much I'm so intrigued by her storyline this season 👀

Before? BEFORE WHAT?

Oh *grabs chest* the day Thad was born? It hurts so much knowing that he dies😭

Oh no, was baby Thad sick too?😭

"I thought I was losing him. My unborn son." WHY 😭

"His whole future flashed before my eyes." Shit, his future didn't last long😭

"I hope one day you get to have this feeling too." Well, he didn't specify when exactly 😂

I'm right there with Deanna, I too would be so pissed if my husband left to go get drinks when we have a newborn😂

"They should study him for science." 😂

It's so funny to me that Shaw sent two people to watch their back😂

"Electrical and biological signatures."

"Well, that's fun. Anyone else wanna throw some weird shit at me?" I don't like him, but boy does he have some great lines😂

SEVEN! I RECOGNIZE THAT HAND ANYWHERE! That music is so chill

She is so bored😂

OH MY GOD, IT'S LA FORGE CHECKING ON HER

"This sounds rehearsed." Probably is😂

Seven's eyes are watering 😭

"Shaw may call you insubordinate for helping yours, but my dad wouldn't."

"Thank you." 😭🥺 "Go rest, Ensign."

"Yes Commander Seven." I love this girl🥺

Beverly is back in sickbay!😂 I love how fast Jack jumped in when the Doctor pushed Beverly back slightly, he's totally a Mama's boy and I love it

The smirk that Jack and Beverly shared is so great 😂

OH MY GOD IT'S RIKER AND PICARD

"Nothing she has to say can't be said in front of me."😂 My boy, what if she wants to take to your papa about the time they got it on? That's an image no one wants to picture their parents in😂

The way Beverly and Picard are standing on opposite sides of the room really shows how they have so much distance between them not just physically but mentally as well

The staring 😭

Oh my god, Picard didn't know he would never seen Beverly again? I have chills

They ended their romantic relationship for the fifth time😂

"Well,I got pregnant that night." OH MY GOD

Oh, Picard got kidnapped and that's why she didn't tell him😭

"It will be like that forever. It will be what it always was, attempts on your life."

"And you never thought if you'd have told me, it might have been different?"

"Jean-Luc, when the galaxy comes calling you, you are not put upon by it, you love it. Don't tell me you would've walked away."

I get why Beverly did what she did since Picard always went on about not wanting a family, but I agree with Picard in that she should've told him.

"I know now that I could've never been my father. But I could have learned that 20 years before." 😭

"When Jack was on his way, I was terrified. All I knew, was that if you're the son of Jean-Luc Picard, there's a target on your back. I lost my parents, then a husband, then my son Wesley, all to the same stars that own you."

"As a mother your whole being is about protecting your child. I- I thought I could protect mine. I didn't know, if I could protect yours." 😭😭😭😭

"I don't know much about you." Riker looks so sad😭

"Sometimes my mother- she'd start telling a story about all of you. And her eyes would light up. And then she'd get sad, and stop."😭

"I spent two decades in a spaceship watching you get cooked up before you were born. "😂 This is kinda scarring dude😂

"Have you got a family, Riker?"

"Feel free to call me Captain. And yes, I have a wife and a daughter. And I had a son." OOOF THIS SHIT HURTS😭

The way that Beverly and her son help people on worlds Starfleet has forgotten makes so so happy but so sad cause FUCK YOU STARFLEET

So many families are torn apart

Jack was jumped on by Fenris Rangers?! I feel like Seven might have words with these guys

"You are the only one I can trust."

Oh my god, the way that Beverly suspects that it doesn't have anything to do with Jack but has everything to do with Picard 👀👀👀

"Didn't I deserve a chance? Didn't he deserve a chance to get to know me?"

"When he was old enough I told him who you were and where to find you. I encouraged him to meet with you. He decided not to." 😭

That look Riker gave Jack 😭😂

"Immaterial? That's your son." Oh fuck, this has Riker in his feelings because he probably wishes so much that he'd get to talk to his own son again and here Picard is not even trying

"Moments with your kids, you never know what you might regret. God knows..." Ow😭😭

"It's irreparable." BULLSHIT

OOooo, the ships been hit, I hope that Shaw's dead😁 oh fuck he's still alive

"You got us into this, you're gonna get his out." 😂 YAY

Picard is Riker's Number One 😂 and I feel like that fits both this and how he has the tendency to prioritize Picard

Raffi!

The way that Worf is just exercising while Raffi is unconscious 😂

Raffi's boots are *chefs kiss*

"I am Worf, son Mogh, House of Martok, Son of Sergey, House of Rozhenko, bane to the Duras family, slayer of Gowron. I have made some chamomile tea, do you take suger?" The delivery of this is ✨ Perfection ✨

Raffi's in full blown fangirl mode😂

Worf's been working on himself 😂

The way he said it wasn't Raffi's time to join the dead😭

Her reaction to Worf being her handler is so great like YASSS GIRL BE ANGRY AT HIM

"Why do I do this? My life, my family, my sobriety. What is wrong with me."😭😭😭

"You have the heart of a warrior." NO SHIT SHERLOCK

"You have served me well." WTF DUDE

"You and I will track this individual together. And then we will find out who stole those weapons, learn the next phase of their plan and stop them." That's better

Raffi: 😏"Cool."

She's out here getting to hunt bad people with an idol of hers, but it totally proves never meet your heroes cause you'll be disappointed

I love how ruler is saying he's open to Picard's input, but you can totally tell he is annoyed with him still

The way that both Beverly and Jack are helping treat the patient's just makes me so happy

(about blood) "We've got plenty." Kinda concerning but ok

YEAH SHAW'S DYING!

Damn, Beverly's saving him

Interesting how he's repeating the same thing to Jack 🤔

IT'S THE BLOOD! THAT'S HOW SHE'S FINDING THEM? CHANGELING? MAYBE?

SEVEN? IS JACK GOING TO SEVEN?! Oh, nope, just trying to reach the bridge

Riker is really looking at Picard differently now🤔 like he's lost of respect for him

RAFFI'S BACK

"It is not warrior gear. It is casual."

"Seriously, where do you wear that, to a Tuesday beheading?" This is golden

Aww, she still doesn't feel well :(

"Beheadings are on Wednesday's." 😂

Aw Seven is still in lockdown

JACK? They know each other?!

Oh no they didn't

"You're insane." She says that with some respect in her voice 😂

She kicked the guy's foot😂

Someone sabotaged the ship!

"We gave a saboteur." No shit Sherlock

I personally don't trust the Vulcan who keeps advising them, she seems a bit sketchy

The way that Riker say's he's taking the ship home has me thinking that he's thinking about his family

IT'S THAT GUARD DUDE!

Wtf is going on?

Oh shit, Jack's mask is off and he's down, Beverly is gonna flip

"I'm having a real hard time balancing the whole work/life thing." Same Raffi, same

Oh my god, she just threatened to pull out the guy's fingernails 🫣

"You may keep your fingernails. We know that those deaths were not your fault."

Wait did Worf used to shove a sword up people's asses? Cause it seems like that's what Raffi was gonna say

"I am wiser now. I was once like her. Irrational, violent." Oh my god, he's lecturing Raffi

"I think I feel my chamomile tea coming back up."😂

Oh the guy's in withdrawal 👀

Oh Raffi is kinda scary rn🫣

WTF SEVEN? PLS DON'T MAKE HER A VILLAIN

The way that Seven knew to contact Picard that his son was injured 🥺

Riker's face when he says "Go."

"Oh he's fading." She sounds so upset 😭

The way that it's taking Seventeen seconds for the lift to get to sickbay 😭👀

Nooooo Jack! The way that Beverly is trying to get his heart started 😭

Noooooo

JACK'S DEAD😭 I HATE EVERYTHING

Oh wait

False alarm

He's alive

The lil relieved smiles that Beverly and Picard share😭🥺 so precious

Did they steal MORIARTY'S PROGRAM?

Holy shit

A CHANGELING?!

"Fearful of loss?" yeah this isn't gonna be good

"Sit down admiral, I'm the Captain of this ship."

IS RIKER A CHANGELING?!!!!!!

"What is happening?" Same Raffi

Holy shit!

Oh my god, Odo contacted Worf🥺

"You and I Raffaela, are now partners." HOLY SHIT

Oh my god, the ship is damaged 👀

"Will."

Riker's face😭 he's probably thinking about how Deanna probably told him not to go and that she was right

"You've just killed us all."

Riker looks like he's barely keeping it together 🥺

I'm sorry I ever doubted you my boy😭

Hey it was directed by Jonathan Frakes!

I'm off to go scream into my pillow now as I wait for Thursday to arrive.😁

[cutieforbear]

i'm angry that every social media i have you're my top recommendation to message.

our dumb fucking online chicken in whatsapp is bullshit.

i was online for probably forty minutes tonight. sobbing singing "i'm not that girl" because i've already sung "as long as your mine" in the shower in pop. i kkew you kissed me too fiercely and held me too tight because you weren't going to stay. but here i am wishing for you every fucking angel number like a dumb cunt. setting my "check to see if he's online" parameter with "you can't open it coz if he does he won't know you got 1111".

but i can't can't can't can't can't not speak to you again.

i'm flip flopping so fucking aggressively between "you fucking lied. you don't want to choose her, what's her threat. you need to move forwards with her because you can't risk the ream. you really truly 10000% without a shadow of a doubt love me and i need to help you. "

and "you lied. you always loved her more. alwaysk new you were gunna choose her, why would you lead me on. why would you hurt me like this for your own self pleasure. "

you being online at angel numbers let's me know you're still thinking about me. and that's cool. but liv thinks i gave you too much of myself. you were having your cake n eating it too.

but i think in my soul i know. you adore me. you meant every fucking word. but you're just too cowardly to leave her. you're not a bear, you're the fucking lion. and all i want is to go home to you. but that ten percent of your brain which is choosing her coz it's easy??????? that ten percent would always be the bit that knows you don't love me. that ten percent is what would stop me from marrying you.

if you're choosing her over me, you don't love me enough.

two things i've always stood by, even if they contradict??

If you love two people at once, choose the second, coz if you ever really loved the first, you wouldn't have looked away.

i think in this instance i'm your first. you're sure my first.

and the other one? let him go. if it's meant to be then he will come back to you. and if he doesn't, he was never really yours.

oh god that makes me want to throw up.

the fact that i thought seriously about having your babies makes me want to throw up. i would have LB. i actually think i would've.

and yknow what though, i have this glimmer which made me think i wish i was pregnant. i wish i was having your baby so you could leave her. and that's a horrifying thought.

i don't recognise who this crazy person is. thinking about SH for the first time in almost a decade. the last scratches i did, the first in probably 5 years?? when i first realised i loved you. before i was single and yours.

i was so truly yours. i was 90% in and that's what's ducked up. you gave me 50% and i was stuck. still so ready to walk off the edge for you. how the fuck do i pull myself out now.

you're the fucking love of my life LB. i hope you come back.

i wish i could've been your KB. not just a regular KC.

but time is a funny thing. the last three months has felt like years with you.

so maybe the next three months will go like weeks, and you'll come back.

how much hope do i put in that.

oh god i know i will wait. i'll wait for six months. then youll change your mind. you'll come back to me right as i move on.

[fuuka-preg-blog]

My First Blog Post

Date: Sunday, June 14th, 2009 Hi Tumblr! To be honest, I've been sitting at my computer for about 20 minutes trying to think of how to start this blog. I don't expect to see much traffic here (if any at all). I wouldn't normally write a blog in the first place, but my counselor told me that having a journal would help me process things. One of my friends suggested using a blog for journal entries, so, here I am!

I think I'll just get to the point. I'm creating this blog because of something I'm currently going through. Calling my situation "life-changing" would honestly be an understatement.

I guess I'll start in the beginning. A few weeks after I started 11th grade last April, I could tell something wasn't right. I started every morning feeling sick to my stomach. I felt ridiculously hungry, but I'd get severe heartburn and other discomforts after eating, enough to make me lose a lot of sleep. I was getting really bad brain fog, enough so I could barely pay attention during class. My school uniform was also getting tighter around my waist. I could've sworn I was even getting cravings.

I... spent some time with my ex-boyfriend during the break between 10th and 11th grade. I don't want to go into detail, but I always made sure to use protection. But these symptoms could only mean one thing.

It took a while, but I finally got myself to take a pregnancy test. I think I took more than ten separate tests. I didn't want it to be true. But every single test was positive.

I was pregnant.

I went to school every day feeling petrified. I was so scared. I didn't know what to do. My parents would disown me if my grades weren't good enough for them, who knows what they'd do if they learned their teenage daughter got knocked up by a boyfriend they never knew about. Not only that, I'm the shortest and skinniest girl in my grade. Some girls in my class have thighs wider than my waist. I'd love to be a parent someday, sure, but I'm only sixteen and I don't graduate high school for two more years. I don't feel mentally or physically prepared to be a mom.

The next couple weeks of high school were a total blur. I was only about six weeks pregnant, but somehow my belly was already sticking out a bit. I thought it was just bloating at first, but it never went away, it only grew. Even though it was already May, I had to wear a loose jacket so nobody would see my stomach. The morning sickness also got worse, I'd still be nauseous by the time class started. I started showing up at school early just so there would be less people around in case I needed to throw up.

...I just realized it's probably not fun to read that last part. Sorry! To be honest, though, I feel a lot better getting this off my chest. I promise the rest of the post won't be as depressing, a lot of nice things happened too!

This was just about when I met my friend, Yukari. I didn't know her very well at the time, I knew she was in my grade, she was pretty, and popular enough for me to know her name even though she wasn't in the same class as me.

Apparently, she was in the archery club, so she would sometimes come to school before class to practice. She later told me she'd been hearing me in the girls' bathroom for several days before going in and checking it out.

To be honest, I was terrified when I heard Yukari knock on the bathroom stall and ask if I was okay. I considered her as one of the last people I'd want to learn about my situation. She's such a social butterfly that the news would have spread like wildfire. Thankfully, I was wrong about that.

As soon as I came out of the bathroom stall, she asked what was wrong. I had no idea what to tell her, but Yukari only took one look at me and figured it out on her own. A girl throws up every morning without fail. She wears a loose jacket to school in May. She has bags under her eyes, looks like she hasn't slept in days. And when asked "are you okay?", she's too scared to tell the truth. I must have been so gross, I was sweaty and I probably smelled like barf, but Yukari just smiled and pulled me into a hug. I won't lie, I started bawling like a baby into her shirt. Nobody had ever been so nice to me before. Yukari just held me tight, she told me she wanted to help, everything would be okay. I cried even harder hearing her say that. I'm actually crying a little bit right now remembering this.

I remember meeting up with Yukari after school, she took me to the pharmacy in Paulownia Mall and bought me some medicine to help with my symptoms. For the first time in weeks, I stopped feeling nauseous and I could actually think straight.

We sat down together to figure out what I should do. Yukari mentioned that she lives in the dorms with the student council president, Mitsuru Kirijo. I wasn't sure if it was a good idea to tell the daughter of the school's owner that one of the students got knocked up, but Yukari told me she was sure Kirijo-senpai would know what to do.

When I met with Kirijo-senpai the next day in student council room, I was prepared to hear that I'd be expelled or suspended, that a pregnant student would damage the school's reputation. But instead, Kirijo-senpai handed me some printouts and calmly listed out accommodations available to me. She went over different nutritionists, physical therapists, and even pregnancy-focused massage parlors. She offered to accompany me to any of them, saying they would offer the best treatment possible if a member of the Kirijo family was with me. I couldn't help but cry a little bit again, I wasn't expecting that kind of support. I started to feel like things would work out.

That didn't last long, though. The day after I talked to Kirijo-senpai was the worst day of my life.

On the morning after my talk with Kirijo-senpai, instead of my alarm clock, I woke up to my mother screaming at me and yanking my bedsheets away. I had overslept for the first time in my whole life. But I soon discovered that was the least of my problems.

The night before, I noticed my midsection was poking out so much that my jacket could only barely cover it up. But when my mother yanked the covers away, I couldn't believe what I saw when I looked down.

My belly looked like it doubled in size overnight. My womb was about the size of a golf ball last night, and now it was almost as big as a baseball.

My mother screamed at me, my father overheard and joined in. For fifteen long minutes, they shamed and berated me, calling me lots of horrible four and five letter words. When they were done, I had tears streaming down my face. Before they walked out of my room, they told me to get dressed and go to school. But once I leave, I'll never be allowed back into this house.

I packed my school bag full of anything I wanted to keep. I knew whatever I didn't take with me would end up thrown away. I couldn't stop crying. I was terrified, but I was also furious. I cursed my small, skinny body, This belly wouldn't be so noticeable if I wasn't so scrawny. If I had a body like Yukari's, I wouldn't show this much for at least another month or two.

My eyes were still red from crying by the time Yukari met up with me on the way to school. She noticed my coat couldn't hide my pregnant belly anymore. Once again, I didn't need to say a word.

When Kirijo-senpai heard what happened, she got Yukari to take me to her dorm room to let me get some rest. I was about to protest, afraid to impose, but then I realized how heavy my eyes were. I had been putting up with these early pregnancy symptoms for a full month. I couldn't remember the last time I'd gotten a good night's sleep. Maybe talking with Yukari and Kirijo-senpai helped me relax, so I was far less anxious than usual when I went to sleep last night. Maybe that knocked me out hard enough for me to sleep through my alarm.

I remember Yukari gently guiding me to her bed, then waking up twelve hours later. I didn't even remember laying down. When Yukari told me it was already evening, I still felt like I was ready to go back to sleep.

Kirijo-senpai was waiting for us in the lounge. She told me that we needed to discuss some things, but first, she sat me down at the table and brought out an enormous plate of food. Normally, I try my best to eat politely, but I was so hungry that I didn't even care.

After dinner, they led me to one of the dorm rooms, and when they opened the door, I couldn't believe what I saw. All my belongings were waiting right there for me. Kirijo-senpai told me it didn't take much to convince my parents to part with all my belongings. I couldn't stop myself from crying again, I was so grateful for their help.

I took the next day off from school to get more rest. I spent the whole day thinking about how I won't be able to hide my pregnancy at school anymore. The next day, I felt a lot better, but I didn't feel ready to come to school. I told Yukari that I wasn't sure how to tell everyone I was pregnant. She told me not to worry, she'd be right there with me whenever I feel ready to make the announcement.

I decided to show up at school around lunchtime. I sent Yukari a text let her know I was coming. I couldn't stop thinking about what to say to everyone, I felt like no matter how I phrased it, I probably wouldn't get a great reaction.

But when I arrived at my classroom, I saw something I couldn't have possibly imagined.

"SURPRISE!"

The classroom was decorated, complete with balloons and banners reading "Congratulations!". The chalkboard was covered with little notes of encouragement, and a few cute doodles of baby stuff like cribs and pacifiers. I saw Yukari smiling over at me from the other side of the classroom, she wasn't even in my class, but she still went out of her way to organize this for me.

I cried, again. But this time I was smiling while I cried. I'd never felt so happy before.

Everyone in my class started being really nice, they asked if I've thought of any names for the baby, if it's a boy or a girl, when the baby's due, all kinds of things like that. Yukari was worried I'd be overwhelmed, but I didn't mind at all.

Also, while I was absent, Kirijo-senpai apparently called an entire assembly about me. Yukari had seen people bullying me before, and told Kirijo-senpai about that. Things could get out of hand if they didn't act quickly. I was told that Kirijo-senpai said something along the lines of: "Sometimes, accidents happen. And when they do, our school will strive to support and accommodate our fellow students on their path to success."

Also, I'm not 100% sure, but I heard someone say she ended the assembly with her signature dagger-like glare, saying "Any reports of discrimination or harassment against Yamagishi will treated with a zero-tolerance policy." I feel very lucky to be on Kirijo-senpai's good side.

To be honest, I felt embarrassed she went to all that trouble, and I still kinda do. I told Yukari I don't feel worthy of that much effort, but according to her, Kirijo-senpai had her eye on me since long before we met the other day. I only kept my grades up because of my parents, but she still "sees great potential" in me after seeing how high my grades have been since middle school. She even brought up the projects I submitted back when I was a member of the computer club in middle school. It's hard for me to believe what she says, I still don't feel like I'm anything special. But I feel grateful to have friends like Yukari around to help me convince myself otherwise.

Oh, that reminds me! After the surprise party, Natsuki-chan just walked up to me and started being nice to me! It was a bit of a shock, up until now she would always poke fun at me and call me names, but now she wants to take me out shopping for "baby bump outfits" sometime! Apparently, I'm not the first pregnant teen she'd be spending time with, so she knows a thing or two about what would look good on me. Also, she's the one who told me to write this blog in the first place!

Whew, that's a lot of text. I'm surprised Tumblr lets you write this much for a single post. If you're still reading, thank you! I only have a few more things to write, but trust me when I say that nothing I've written so far can compare to what happened next.

I started feeling much better after the surprise party, but I could still feel something was a bit off, specifically that growth spurt. I felt like my belly was a lot bigger than it should have been, even on my scrawny body. I brought this up with Kirijo-senpai about two weeks ago, and she took me to get looked at.

After measuring me, they told me that I'm definitely larger than expected given the estimated time of conception. I told them about the fatigue and the morning sickness, and they said my symptoms were significantly worse than they should have been.

These were all indications of a multiple pregnancy.

At the time, I never even gave it a second thought. Every pregnancy is different, so I assumed this was nothing but a false positive. I also read online that Japan has a lower twinning rate than most other countries. Plus, I'm only sixteen. The chances of me having twins would have to be at least one in a billion.

I thought about this through the week of school, until Kirijo-senpai brought me in to get an ultrasound last weekend.

I remember feeling really nervous. I couldn't see the monitor well, there were multiple technicians whispering to each other. I felt a pit in my stomach. Something wasn't right.

When they turned around, they looked like they saw a ghost.

They found three babies in my womb. I was having triplets.

Not even twins. Triplets.

Remember in the beginning of this blog entry, when I said calling my situation "life-changing" was an understatement? This is what I meant. I said earlier that it was a one in a billion chance for me to have twins. A triplet pregnancy must have been one in a trillion.

Kirijo-senpai refused to accept what she heard. She made the technicians check again, and again. After hearing the same answer for the tenth time, it had to sink in. The impossible somehow became possible.

Everyone at the clinic was trying to smile and congratulate me, but as soon as I came home, I cried into Yukari's arms. This was not good news. A singleton pregnancy would already strain my scrawny little body. There was absolutely no way I'd be able to successfully carry and deliver triplets.

At least, that's what I thought.

I woke up the next morning to Kirijo-senpai knocking at my door, telling me I won't be attending class that day. She had bags under her eyes as she told me she had a car waiting for me outside. She was up all night scoping out the best medical professionals in the area. From morning until evening, we drove to several different universities and advanced medical centers. Kirijo-senpai was able to force herself into their busy schedules for my sake.

I honestly didn't expect to hear any good news, but with each successive appointment, I felt my spirits lifting a little. Kirijo-senpai feverishly wrote down notes during each appointment. They found reports of pregnancies similar to mine, and use any available historical data to determine the best treatment for me.

Kirijo-senpai's notes spanned dozens of pages, writing down details on nutritional intake and exercises, or anything that can help me grow three entire babies.

But one of the proposals stood out more than the rest. A cutting-edge, experimental stimulant to increase litter size for mammals. This treatment invokes "increased ovulation" and "rapid and adaptive cell production in the uterus walls". This enables the mother's womb to expand beyond its typical limit, and results in litters that are double or even triple the expected size.

This treatment was sponsored by American beef and pork distributors and had been in progress since 2004. Within the past year, they were able to reach a 100% success rate in lab rats, and recently achieved the same with cows and pigs.

At its current point in development, it could be sold for billions, but the team wanted to see if their infusion could benefit in the medical field.

Normally, the infusion is applied before conception, but there have been cases where they discover the subject was already pregnant during the infusion. Even without the increased litter count, the subject's uterus expanded beyond its typical limit, resulting in longer pregnancies and larger babies. The team decided the next step in this direction was to observe primates with this infusion. All twelve subjects experienced slightly longer but noticeably more comfortable pregnancies, and delivered big healthy babies.

Kirijo-senpai and I saw where this was going. This could completely turn the tide for my situation, plus any future pregnancies similar to mine.

I received the offer to participate as their first human test subject. I won't lie, I didn't even hesitate, I agreed immediately. I'm a huge nerd for cutting-edge scientific experiments like this, so I was feeling giddy at the thought of being able to participate.

Of course, Kirijo-senpai was concerned about potential risks. The research team emphasized that I had no obligation to participate, but if I wanted to proceed, it would need to be as soon as possible, two weeks at most.

I thought about it for a long time since then. I'm not as much of an optimist as Yukari and some of the experts I talked to. I think that infusion is my only real chance at getting through this pregnancy. It's not fun to think about, but whether or not I follow the diet and exercise instructions from those experts, it would only result in my triplets being born slightly less prematurely. The chances of survival for my triplets, and maybe even for myself, would still be pretty low. I'll definitely think about it some more, but I feel like the infusion is my only real option here.

Sorry! I just realized this got all gloomy again. It's almost been a full week that Monday full of appointments, Yukari and Kirijo-senpai have been helping me get the hang of those diet and exercise plans. Also, the nutritionists told me that as long as I get the nutrients they laid out, I could eat as much of anything I wanted otherwise. My parents never took me out to eat, and I'd never tried fast food before, so Kirijo-senpai just handed Yukari a credit card and told her to make sure I'm eating well. I've been to lots of different restaurants in the past few days, and all of them have been amazing. Yukari says I eat a lot for a girl my size, but that's because I'm "eating for four now". It's a little embarrassing when she says that, but I also kinda like hearing it. Maybe it's my maternal instincts kicking in.

I've also been going out with Natsuki and her friends after school. She's been taking me to lots of different clothing stores and picking out all kinds of maternity clothes for me. She's really sweet. She doesn't know about the triplets yet, Yukari and Kirijo-senpai are the only ones who know. I'm thinking I'll tell everyone about the triplets after I make the decision about the infusion.

...wow, that was a lot. I doubt anybody read this all the way to here. But, if you're reading this, thank you!

Kirijo-senpai is taking me in for another checkup later today, then we're getting dinner. I'm guessing she wants to discuss the treatment. I'll write more posts as I go. Bye!

[mayasdeluca]

I read your recap and I agree for the most part; here's a few points I want to elaborate on.

I think they really shortchanged the BIG conversation Maya and Carina needed to have about the adoption and they could've given them that time by cutting the Vic call shorter and cutting if not all the Travis Dixon family stuff or at the very least Travis and Emmett sex scene.

In the Vic story (oh was Theo there? who cares amiright?) I could swear they repeated similar dialogue in 2 different scenes with the lady yelling that the dude bros used her and stole her research. you cut one of those scenes and you can give Maya and Carina at least 45 seconds more to talk.

As for Travis, if the whole point was for him to come face to face with Emmett and tell him how his father really felt, I think it would've been more powerful at the funeral next week. On top of that the sex scene was so unnecessary unless they are truly invested in making Travis and Emmett work, if they're not then it just makes Travis look like a dick for not stopping it like he almost did and another 30 seconds given to Maya and Carina. Don't get me wrong, I have no stake in Eli and Travis as a couple but when they make a big deal of having Travis find his next "love" make it stick or don't bother.

I actually didn't mind Jack as Andy's "conscience" or if they continued that dynamic for the rest of the season LOL. I mean think about it, they can keep their golden boy Grey but the only one he interacts with is Andy...no interference in Maya and Carina's lives anymore.

I think Ross and Sullivan had just enough screen time and scenes so I have nothing to say on that.

But now let me get to the Maya and Carina...there was just MORE story they needed to tell with them this episode especially because of how things ended. Like why was Carina in the NICU, she's an OB, she deals with the Mama's not the babies. I know we can come to the conclusion that the mom didn't survive so she (and Maya) checked on him but it would've been nice to hear that could've been a throw back to 5x07 where Carina said how she never sees what happens after it's just "welcome little one, bye bye".

And you were right the chef coming in to adopt the baby was just weird. I'll be honest, I wasn't paying attention to that first scene so I didn't make the connection that he was the chef so I thought he was either the baby daddy or like her brother so I was like dude just think about it, you made the decision 36 hours ago, you can take a little more time. Then when I watched the scene again and realized it was the chef I was like oh yeah totally weird he would show up to adopt and say its what the girl would've wanted when it didn't even seem he knew or was worried about her at the ball.

But the guy was only in 2 scenes (again the story needed more time), like why bother bringing him in just to change his mind when as I said Carina was hanging in the NICU so maybe she could've had those scenes (with one of all these MANY friends she apparently has that they would invite to the new house LOL) like with Jo who went through the exact same thing with Luna (that is if she was done banging Link) and talk through her feelings and the 2nd scene could've been her talking with Maya.

The scenes and the talk Maya and Carina did have wasn't bad. I am hoping like you that they get pregnant also and we get the best of both worlds with a potential time jump in the finale to Carina giving birth but I also think a mid season time jump would be necessary.

As you can see, I didn't have much to say on the episode LOL. I know people are excited the show is finally back so they might've watched with rose-colored glasses but for me, I thought it was average.

I very much agree with a lot of your additions!

The whole Travis/Emmett thing just feels like a waste of time because as far as I'm aware, even though Lachlan has continued to be in LA, I don't think he's in any episodes past episode 2? So did they really need to make this Dixon stuff a two episode arc? For what? It's just going to make Travis look shitty again like you said especially when he goes back to Eli and who knows how he'll spin it to make it seem like all is well. I don't expect Travis and Eli to be endgame either so it's just going to be yet another relationship Travis has that will 'never live up to Michael' and it's a shame they never got him out of that cycle when it's been over 3 seasons of this. This is definitely the plot out of the premiere that I think could've been less to give Marina more time.

It would be interesting if he continued to be her conscience all season lol but I think now that he's woken up, they're just going to have him be all depressed about not being able to be a firefighter anymore. Hopefully he continues to stay away from Marina's stuff though.

I think the Maya and Carina plot definitely needed at least another scene, especially with that scene with Carina/the chef added in. It just felt like a lot had to be figured out off screen between Carina spending a lot of time at the NICU, and then Carina having to tell Maya about the chef (off screen) because he had his minimal time and backed out almost as quickly as he decided to adopt Liam. That part definitely felt rushed. And then suddenly everything was happening so fast with them deciding to adopt him too.

It would be nice if we got at least one scene of Carina talking to Jo about this because she definitely would understand how it feels and what adopting is like. It seems like Carina is going to be going to Bailey for all that though. Carina is supposed to be making an appearance on Grey's though but we don't know when. A lot of people think it's later in the season (probably is) and could be part of the crazy crossover happening so I guess by then there wouldn't be much adoption talk happening when they would have had him for a while now. I do wonder if they are going to do some kind of bigger time jump at some point.

I lost a little faith in the possibility of Carina being pregnant though when they started posting BTS for the premiere (while filming what they were that day which was episode 8) and it looked like it was a clinic day and Carina was not pregnant...unless they made sure to take her fake bump off before posting any BTS lol but I don't know about that...still hoping they will continue that process throughout the season and we'll end up with her giving birth in the finale though.