#but ive heard theyve done better !!!

[hiyaitssans]

oh my gohd . i have 2 see the new tf movie

[ryuatewater]

what happened why is there mass genocide of anons???

glad im not anon

wait-

-📟

Well its from the anonverse uh ill explain it all wait

Okay so you know @/a-narcissists-warren right?

Funny thing they have their asks open and answer non question like stuff (basically just talking)

Well my friend started talking to them in anon while also adding an anon sign off so Afonso could recognize em (they used the 💽🎞 emoji combo)

And Afonso always* drew a little doodle when answering them, they even drew the anons and gave them unique designs based off their emojis

When I saw my friend talking to Afonso (who is literally my idol) I ofcourse wanted to do it too so I sent in a few asks (one or two asks really because i was nervous and shy) ALSO using an anon sign off (though i got the short end of the stick because my anon sign off had stuff to do with trees my lil guy was a tree too)

Then new anons started appearing so Afonso started drawing them designs too

People REALLY loved the designs and everything was going jolly

Then Notepad anon made an account for their anonsona

Everyone LOVED the idea and started making accounts too

The anons were interacting with eachother, drawing eachother fanart, blah blah blah everything was so fun and jolly!!

Heres the most recent pic i have of the anons btw

BTW THIS IS DRAWN BY @a-narcissists-warren SORRY FOR THE TAG

BUT there was a certain anon (I've seen a few names used for them like funny, odd, creepy but most common was silly anon so ill just call em that) silly anon had an account way before they started sending asks to Afonso

I wasnt there to see it myself but from what ive heard Silly Anon is canonically a child, back when the account first started people sent "asks" to silly anon just brutally murdering them woth gory descriptions that i wont be talking about now, this of course affected the child a lot and the kid grew up to be extremely violent (they were canonically 7 years old when they started sending asks to Afonso i believe) they also closed their own ask box because they were scared of getting hurt again

Silly anon would brutally kill people if not given enough candy (they of course loved candy bc theyre a literal child) so there was a full on massacre that happened because silly hadnt eaten enough candy to calm down

I believe it was here when we learned of a power Afonso had, they could draw in the air with their finger and anything they drew became real! But if they drew too much theyd experience a burn out where their hand was literally burnt and they couldnt draw properly

So Afonso started drawing candy for silly anon and when they couldnt draw because of a burn out they went and bought some for them

Afonso also tried to treat silly well and made them feel welcome (acting like a parental figure in my opinion)

So silly started trusting Afonso

Afonso drew all the dead people back to life and everything was alright again

Timeskip to when sillys canonical birthday came, they were turning 8 years old, they made a post about it and tagged every anon, everyone gave silly candy and sweets!! It was going so well until ONE ANONYMOUS ASSHOLE stabbed silly anon, silly healed quickly but was enraged, seeing red even, the ask box closed back up and silly went on another rampage literally killing EVERY ANON THERE IS and they were killing these anons using methods people ued on them, making the anons live trough sillys trauma

Okay so every anon was dead, Afonso was outside while all this was happening so when they came back they were horrified, every anon was dead and silly was so mad they even wanted to kill Afonso but Afonso started crying about how they couldnt make silly feel better, become a better person and theyve done all that they could

Silly dropped their weapon and hugged Afonso falling asleep on their shoulder because they were exhausted from all that killing, they breathed out a white gas from their mouth recovering every anon thats body was still intact and not turned into a pile of gore

Afonso drew all the other people back to life so now every anon is back EXCEPT ONE, 💽🎞 anon (who we like to call dvd anon), dvd anon was underground when they got killed so they cant be recovered right now

But every other anon is back

Thats where the story is at right now

Ryu note: if dvd doesnt come back i will cry /halfjoking

[mamawasatesttube]

Cassierose, cass(cain)rose and cissieanita

WOMEN IVE HEARD OF THEM.

i love cassierose. deeply homoerotic absolutely insane. i definitely think theyve fucked. im always torn on whether i like them actually being in a relationship or just never actually unpacking all their feelings past some powerfully homoerotic """hate"""-fuelled makeouts. because i don't think cassie would like, be a total bitch to rose forever! she is generally nice she's just going through shit and kind of takes it out at rose for a minute (<- my interpretation of geoff making her catty and bitchy). but at the same time her internalized homophobia is SO strong. i feel like she'd be so ashamed of her attraction to/fooling around with rose. and rose would not take that well. she'd taunt cassie about being her dirty little secret (tim vc It is not a secret literally everyone knows i Literally walked in on yall hardcore making out in the communal kitchen please stop doing that btw.) but in actuality cassie being ashamed of her would make her feel SO shitty. i like this as a mess of a situation first and foremost i think. but yeah if you can't tell by the giant ramble paragraph it absolutely compels me skjdfhkjds

cassrose is similar, in some ways, except that it IS always marred unfortunately in my mind by how much i disliked batgirl '08 for slandering cass so fucking hard. but i mean. "is she... like me?" + the inherent homoeroticism of cass slitting rose's throat and knowing deathstroke wouldn't let her die. honestly (because there are so many things wrong with rose) i think rose gets flustered when she thinks about that later. i reiterate. many things wrong with her. like yeah she almost died but also... damn. i feel like... if they ever were to actually have feelings + act on any of them, it'd be a future scenario, not anywhere where they are at the present. like i think rose would have a "hate"crush on cass (and a lot of feelings about cass being the daughter of an assassin who got out and did better than she perceives herself to have done), but cass wouldn't realize she even likes women for long enough that rose's thoughts on her would fade for a few years. but then maybe later...!

cissieanita. they make a lot of sense and i do like them but they don't make me as insane as other ships do. part of this is bc i just like... need to figure out how to Fix anita's storyline in my head (like, i think her forced retirement was Stupid As Fuck, but then if she continues heroism that would introduce Issues with her and cissie's relationship that didn't exist in canon bc she retired, you know?) and bc i haven't figured out what anita's future looks like in my head fully, it's hard for me to have concrete thoughts on the two of them. that being said, there's Definitely something very compelling abt the way anita looked up to cissie and cissie got jealous of her for replacing her and they had to work through it. it's a good and solid ship i just need to work harder to be insane about it properly.

[systemclasificationpending]

Plurality and Telepathy

before we start this all started from a discord server @derinthescarletpescatarian server has the best and weirdest conversations we love it there (and we love @kim-poce and @moonfall-collective, also @skeletalprism and @stars-says-fuck are also wonderful) what happens when Plurality meets telepathy so many thoughts and these were our contributions:

ok cracks knuckles lets fucking GO so i really like the it depends on how deep into the mind you go thought, so if you're just going surface level thoughts aka front youll get whoever is fronting so if you check in later on and its someone else fronting it feels like a different person maybe even a slightly different mind and it could be incredibly disorienting for the telepath as well "hold up this??? is a different person??? but how???" angst potential there especially if the systems egg carton hasn't been cracked yet [meaning they dont know theyre a system], say a little deeper into a mind of a system and it starts to get noisy, overlapping voices, different volumes, different ages, different genders, its loud and overwhelming all coming from one mind you know the trope of going fully into someone's mind seeing the inner workings, like a mind palace or whatever structure they use in the setting? they see the inner world and the telepath is just shocked to see it having other people in it, full people not wisps of memories of people but people, people they've never met yet they can feel so familiar (have fronted around them before) people who wear the body's face but feel entirely foreign maybe theyre even a child version of the body and yet they have never felt this mind before yet this is the one that looks like the body (maybe doesnt front, maybe just hasnt fronted around them) and assuming theyve never heard of DID before and say are known for being good at mind shit, theyre confused, shocked have no idea how to handle this and for once theyre the ones being led around by someone else maybe they have a really well put together inner world and its the most put together mind they've seen and theyre shocked cuz "i thought you hadnt done any insert mind magic/telepathy shit here??? how can your mind be so ordered without having done any?" also id imagine it wouldnt be a "ive always had this power" but they trained to have telepathy and are still learning about the different ways minds can form and be however they dont think they are cuz well i have all this experience (in reality its maybe only a few years)

also maybe they know how to quiet their mind around telepaths who cant turn it off because well they know how annoying it is to have someone screaming in their mind and oh sorry about Tim he has a song stuck in his head we can have him go further into the innerworld so its quieter for you, they do this without help or training from the telepath, whos shocked cuz everyone needs a few tips to keep theyre secrets from them yet they can do it without any help at all, they have practice after all, hiding surprises from each other, (hiding pranks too) the first ever person to manage to surprise them with a gift, jaw dropping surprise they have no idea how the system did it but they did (just kept it locked away in the inner world, someone pointedly didnt know what it was or made themself forget presented it) they dont fear the telepath the first ever to not hold any fear of their powers not because they can hide without question (tho that does help with some things) no but BECAUSE they can hear their mind, because they can hear the other voices too the telepath can laugh at the jokes the others make that they cant quite explain to a non telepath because the joke wasnt made in words but vibes and pictures, because the telepath can understand them better because they have multiple thought types and communication is hard as fuck normally a telepath thats unsettled by the innerworld only because they know what it means they do know DID and they know how its most often formed but cant help but be impressed at the organization of the mind and feeling sick because of it all knowing they didnt put conscious work into it like non systems would have to do rapid switching is like whiplash and telepaths have no idea how the system is still standing??? but theyre still carrying on a conversation like nothing is happening (i just think this one is funny)

another into the mind: a system so excited to have their telepath friend/partner to dive into their innerworld so they can show them how everyone looks so they can see the differences proper and a system being able to still walk around and do things when the telepath dived into their mind where most would "go to sleep" and be down for the count until they re-surfaced but instead someone else just took front (we're specifically thinking of DC for this one and the Martian Manhunter mainly cuz i think there was a time they had to have him do a dive in on another hero taking them both out mid battle however that may also just be his memories and not actually canon im not bothering to fact check him rn) (unsurprisingly our in system telepaths have a lot to give on this topic) a system learning telepathy and they develop headmates that just steal the abilty and others find they just cant no matter how hard they try (Charles Xavier has submitted this and is laughing at Erik Lehnsherr so im guessing this is aimed at him) we have run out of brain cells to send more thoughts (for now)

[blustering-old-fool]

I have an awful memory, I really do, when it comes to details like have I eaten today, What did I do yesterday.

But one thing I do remember are the people and how they make me feel.

I love people, I love *my* people. I hold people to a higher regard then I do myself. Not in some glorifying 'Im better if I care for people' but a just "Oh youre hurting? If I sit with you, so youre not alone would that make it better?"

Because I know how it feels to be alone with your thoughts, Horrible thoughts. Ive done things to myself recently because of those thoughts that i probably wont ever tell anyone besides this. Details, I wont put down but they weren't good. If I can save someone from having... *those* thoughts and wanting to do that to themselves... well....

I have a big heart... so Ive been told. Its broken and blue. Used and abused.

By my own doing and by others. Mostly... others,

But I have pink spots, yellow spots of fondness for people. I keep my true feelings from people because if I ever did speak such

secrets it would drive them away. Who I like who I dont like. I have to take into consideration that my feelings could be taken out of context and used against me like theyve been before.

I remember everyone that has been in my life, it might not be as their real names, but I remember Danny. I used to talk to him frequently when facebook roleplay was big back in 2013s. I was sixteen at the time. He was a big help to me for about a year or two until he just dropped off the side of the world one day, He lives in Leeds, has a wife now. I remember Mags, and Max, Oppy, the Rungs and Hadez, rebel, joker and segador. I remember mimi and booboo from when I was still in grade school. I was maybe 9. Tyler, Mason, Jessica, Sam, Star, Pheonix, Mama bear(a optimua prime roleplayer i was friends with for years). Everyone. all of them are still in my memory but I haven't heard from theses people in so long I cant remember what most of their voices were. some I have on facebook but they havent updated in years.

"I can see you in my eyes and I can see me in yours," Was one of the things probably one of the first memories when I was eight years old.

Things worry me now a days because people can come and go so quick any more. I worry the friends I have now will just vanish as well. I know life happens and everyone falls on rough times but.

I wonder if any of them think of me in kind regards as I have them. If they think of me at all. It makes me violently uncomfortable when *I* think of it. I don't know why, maybe its that little bug in my ear telling me that I won't ever be able to put myself on that podium I put so many people on.

I dont know any more. My heart is blue and what I knows true is that I make people smile.

But when theyre gone all I feel is empty.

[listen-to-the-inner-walrus]

I dont think anyone else has noticed this tho im sure you have (namely the people acting like clowns in the titanic tag, not you) but the 19yr old did not want to go on that sub, he was terrified and only did it to make his dad happy..idk.. it is very tragic and upsetting and even more so that people seem to ignore this and keep going on their weird jokes about the entire thing, saying how they all wanted to go when no, the 19yr old did not want to at all. I think going down was totally uncalled for, I think stock rush got four people killed and he is terrible for that and deserved what happened to him, i think it is sick he turned a mass grave site into a tourist attraction for bored rich people..but I think people just heard the word rich for these other four and just right away assumed they deserved to die when idk...I did some reading on each of them and they, aside from the obvious ick of being rich, seemed like decent people who made a very very poor choice and trusted the wrong person which led to them dying. the paul guy was (correct me if im wrong) a well respected titanic researcher for over 30yrs, the british man was trying to make flying more sustainable for the planet and such (again correct me if wrong) and the dad and son seemed to do a lot of charity work and were overall kind people..but yeah they seemed like far better people then most celebs people love so the entire thing rubs me wrongly, two things can coexist, the entire thing was wrong and not ok and stock was sick for what he did and his death was justified, but I also have a hard time believing the other four truly deserved to die (Sorry this is random just wanted to hear your thoughts!) :)

ive written the reply to this about five times now because i also struggle with my feelings based around what happened.

on one hand, i do genuinely feel for them, especially suleman dawood who was a 19-year-old kid. i think youd have to lack a heart to not feel for him.

on the other, i fully understand where people are coming from when they dont give a shit about them. two of them were billionaires and the other two were multi-millionaires. i come from a working class background and a single-parent family so it is difficult to feel bad for someone with that much money dying because of a decision they made.

but that doesnt mean i dont feel bad for them, because i do. five human beings died and i just naturally feel for them even though my conscious brain struggles to keep up with that emotion.

and as youve said, some of them seemed to genuinely do good things.

sulemans father shahzada funded mental healthcare for pakistani citizens during covid-19 and was looking into renewable energy.

paul-henri nargeolet had been involved in underwater searches for rms carpathia as well as a flight recorded from a plane that crashed though both were unsuccessful. hed also found a roman wreck as well as an aircraft that had crashed in 1979, giving some closure to the families of those who had perished. he has done a lot of important research on the titanic.

iirc hamish hardings company action aviation has helped the indian government and a namibian cheetah conservation company to reintroduce cheetahs to india, which is objectively a very good thing.

its difficult to parse through how you feel about the disaster because people are messy, and they do both good and bad things.

i dont think i know enough about any of the four adults aboard to say whether the good theyve done outweighed the bad, and whether other people even care about that when it comes to their feelings about this.

the one i know for sure that i dont feel bad for is stockton rush because this was entirely his fault.

im not gonna get into the weeds as to why exactly titan was badly designed, but to save money and for "simplicity", he employed some experimental techniques like the use of carbon fibre and the pressure pod (i hope i have the right word here) being cylindrical. he ignored regulations and laws, he used expire carbon fibre, and he turned a mass gravesite into a tourist spot.

and i hate him even more for how he designed oceangate. the way they work is that each dive would technically be research-based, but to fund it (even though rush is a multi-millionaire), they would allow people to buy tickets to come along. and i hate this more than if it was just tourism because the way hes tied them together has made it harder to criticise the dives because they have done important research.

i definitely he misled people because if you dont know about this sort of vessel, youre likely to defer to someone who helped to develop it.

however, i would err on the side of both harding and nargeolet knowing how unsafe it was. nargeolet had done countless dives just like it and he was in this world where people were saying this isnt safe. we also know that harding knew because his friend victor vescovo, who found the deepest shipwreck in the world (the samuel b roberts), told him that it was unsafe, but harding went anyway.

ive kinda just been rambling in my reply because i do feel torn about it. people died and i struggle not to feel for them, even if my logical brain is arguing with that. i think many people struggle to believe anyone deserves to die because were humans and we are meant to care about each other. its how we survived as a species for so long. but there are people in this world where if they died, the world would objectively be a better place.

at the end of the day, im not the authority on how anyone feels about this and i dont begrudge anyone for their feelings. the world is not black and white, and so much exists in the morally grey area.

youre entitled to feel however you do, anon. dont let others make you feel bad about it.

[djxiao]

when I look back at 127 concepts, they're not that great either... except for my personal taste, their debut album regular regulate. that one was the best. their music WAS neo culture. neozone had a lot of great songs, the only album I can repeat with minimal skip. I haven't heard anything since sticker bcos my expectation is going downhil. idk what or how 2 baby sounds like. doesn't intrigue me to listen anymore. I guess for this one they tryna recreate that minimalist-undone concept from their debut album but this is pure lazy. literally look like my office backyard 💀

youre so right about this because ive been feeling the same way about 127 and their musics/concepts. i got into them because their music and concepts were interesting and new and i liked the idea of the futuristic neo culture tech idea and 127 really fit it well. but these past few albums havent been doing it for me. i think the last album of theirs that i still listen to is sticker and the last time i really liked a concept was kick it and punch. the favorite and 2 baddies albums arent memorable to me and after the first few listens i havent gone back to listen to any of the songs again. and comparing that to how i still listen to all wayv and dream's albums regularly and i feel like the quality of their concepts havent declined, in fact i think theyve gotten better. same with full group nct albums like i know some people arent a fan of those but ive been pretty happy with the concepts and music coming from nct 20-- projects. the new 127 feels so boring and while i liked the 2 baddies concept, i thought it was a bit plain and minimalist when nct has NEVER been minimalist. these ay-yo teasers are particularly lazy though like this is a new level of sm not giving a shit. like yes their earlier albums had that un-done un-polished feel to them but they still felt like the proper amount of work was put into the concept and the execution and production of it was incredible. like if you look at limitless, yes it had that un-done rough concept but it got three whole musics videos that were all great and had their own unique creative vision. but ay-yo has NO creative vision. theyre literally just standing there in a studio and outside of a motel and the photography is SO uninteresting and looks like it was taken with a phone. they could have tried at least a little harder with scouting better locations and hiring a better photographer whose work is generally more inventive that just having them just stand there like 🧍‍♂️ and taking the photo straight on.

im going to do a little comparison between similar pics from the ay-yo teasers and other nct teasers to show you what i mean about location and photography. i tried to keep it only photos shot on location instead of a constructed set but i think the glitch mode gas station pics are still a good comparison because i think those could have been done on location if they had wanted and could have still been just as good.

[waluigisgaybf]

Obviously no one has to actually read this cause wtf ????? but I need to vent somewhere, and somewhere my partner wont see cause I dont wanna make them feel guilty or overwhelmed out of nowhere 😞

But its not even like theyve even met or done anything with anyone recentlyish but Im still SUPER fucking annoyed and pissed of and conflicted with myself-

because tbh from the start- and even somehow still now- I feel this actual deep envy for my partner being able to have all sorts of hook ups and all sorts of different sexual encounters and experiences-

before and after we’ve been in each others lives- and a lot of them (maybe even MOST because theyre the only ones Ive really heard about) were not good experiences in the end-

like Ive told them before even- I DO get jealous but never at them or over them- like I actually get super genuinely happy and excited for them- but I am jealous OF them and their ability and confidence and experience-

and I really dont at all want to go out of my way to specifically find/meet people (cause I never and can not leave the house so it’d all be online to meet people)

and I feel this weird guilt and feel bad at the thought of doing anything without my partner- and yet Ive never been able to get rid of this extremely deep wish and desire to have hookups and encounters and experiences- like I FEEL thatd it even be good for my mental health-

that like- single month I had an active sex life for the first time ever- and had experiences with even just the two other people (WITH my partner- cause they knew them both first before I did obvi lmao)

I felt this actually weird ass sense of fulfillment and satisfaction and just????? felt better and more whole ???????

But Im still even too fucking awkward and anxious and so fucking unsure of myself to at all initiate anything on my own- even towards my partner :(

[sonny-whorezik]

what really sucks is i wanted to hold out . i understood the situation and i knew they were struggling and i tried to let them know i was here as best i could long distance with minimal contact . but it had felt so Bad just getting maybe Maybe 15 - 20 texts a day it seemed with hours in between the majority while all i know here in colorado are couples who live together and call every day . i would just keep taking myself on errands , to coffee shops , bookstores , parks , ive felt like ive been dating myself towards the end because they just did not have the time for me and i understand why and i was willing to wait for it to pass and just be there for them if they needed me . but it has been hard . i even wrote in my list notebook that by jan 10 if it keeps going on to say something and if the behavior stays the same january 20th then i would be the one to break up for the sake of both of us . i was willing to do this another month and keep giving it a chance

typing all this out does help a bit , just moments ago i was sobbing in my car ; i still have 45 minutes of my break and when this post is over i will likely sob again . i just . idk . i feel like i tried all i could but i keep thinking i couldve somehow done more . like move back to where they live , or create things for them , mail letters again , say good morning instead of replying to last night's message and not hearing back until almost 4pm when my day is halfway over and theirs is just beginning . i wish i told them i love them more

they got nervous when i didnt acknowledge they were excited to see me in february because i was distracted christmas day dealing with my bank i should have told them how much i look forward to it , how it is what keeps me trying to be productive : seeing them in the future . i just had to hold out til february until i felt i couldnt , then it became january 20th as a last resort because i didnt know what to do anymore . i didnt know who they wanted me to be for them, how to be engaged when all they talked about was how hard it all is and how tired they are while i couldnt do a single thing it seemed but text , what could i do almost a thousand miles away ? im sorry i keep posting these i dont know what to do with these feelings and thoughts but purge them and have them acknowledged , whether or not someone reaches out which i dont really want , i think i just want to be heard . i cant tell my roommates due to our unorthodox situation i dont want to hear anything bad said about them from their ex , i dont care what he feels towards them or how he's never been supportive but still has been in my life knowing how involved they have been for my entire adult life . theyre not a bad person , ive never thought of them as abusive or toxic or bad or selfish or all these things people have told me to think when i just wanted to vent and be heard , not hear that they think we're incompatible . and i guess we are incompatible or else this wouldnt be happening . ive told myself this is just a situational issue and not The Relationship but maybe i have been wrong

i dont want that to be the truth . i swear it was just circumstantial , that it just got a little extra hard for a little while but we could get through it and they would know throughout this i would be there for them . i wanted to get them a promise ring while theyve been going through recovery just to give them something to remind them im there for them until the end , however that looks . i will never get the chance to do that for them now , it's too late and i am left just in horror it feels like . im so scared . im So , so scared of everything but ive always had them , now i do not and i know im capable of living without them , but why ? why do i have to do that now ? what could i have done different ? i just feel so , so sorry i couldnt be a better partner and i know they said its not my fault it's just where they are in life , but they didnt seem as sure as i feel about reuniting down the road after we work on ourselves. i just want to throw up but i havent eaten in 24 hours i dont feel hunger or anything but absence and anxiety . cant even listen to tmbg anymore everything i love reminds me of them and theyre not here anymore

[thoughts-and-all-that]

i feel like they all hate me that they know what ive done and they hate me for it that theyre judging me for it that theyre going to hate me forever i dont know whats wrong with me i dont know why im like this why i cant change or get better or stop being stupid and horrible its just rhat they wont SHUT UP and leave me alone all i want is to be left alone im sick of everyone why cant everyone just be what i want or just leave me alone forever im suffering forever and always and its all everyone elses fault but its also my fault BUT is it really my fault when i cant control myy mind and feelings they just never stop ive done so much ive tried so fucking hard to get better yet im still stuck in this shitty house surrounded by people that dont even understand me and i have no real friends and i dont get to go anywhere and we are so fucking broke anyway and im sick of all of this i just want to start over again but its not as easy as people make it sound when im STILL ME and we are broke so its not like i can just pack up and drive away cause i cant even drive and fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck I JUST WANT EVERYTHING TO SHUT THE FUCK UP and i dont take back what i said earlier that i hate that person cause all theyve done is cause me stress and be a judgy fucking bitch but whatever i dont care cause theyll be gone soon who fucking cares theyre gonna move out and finally our basement will be empty of people that i feel like theyre listening to everything even though i know the sound is muffled BUT what if it isnt and they hear ALL OF IT and i know im being paranojd and i know im being violent and horrible and mean and judgy and im being everything i cant fucking stand but i dont know how to change all alone im always alone i just want some fucking therapy or some shit like that i just want someone to reach out to me with their hand fully open asking for me to open up and give them everything i just want to spill out of this cursed box thats called a brain i just want to be free i just want to be happy i just want to be left alone to make art and play games and have friends and not have shitty obligations that dont do anything for anyone anyway and im sick of this shitty mentally ill little brain that does nothing for me except for cause me pain but whatever i just have to live with it

I CANT TAKE BACK WHAT IVE DONE AND THATS FUCKING STUPID BUT WHATEVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I DONT!!!!!!!! CARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I DONT CARE ABOUT EVERYONE WHO HATES ME OR LEFT ME BEHIND OR WHOEVER JUST NEVER FUCKING CARED ABOUT ME AT ALL!!!!!!!! IT TOTALLY DOESNT FUCKING HURT!!!!!!!!!!! IM NOT SORRY AT ALL THAT SOMETHINGS WRONG WITH ME AND I DONT KNOW WHAT IT IS OR WHY OR HOW TO STOP IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHATEVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i just want to be left alone. i just want to be happy. i just want to be free. i dont have any of that. i cant have any of that. too many people wont just leave me alone. nothing makes me happy anymore except for in small doses that are easily interrupted. i cant drive, i dont have money, i dont have anyone to run off into the world with that knows me and loves me completely despite how messed up i can be. my life is my hell and i am my own satan and yet im a human who was sent to hell at the same time

whatever. nothing even makes sense and i guess im not as far along in recovery as i thought. maybe i should submit myself to a hospital soon like i keep saying i will but never doing. im just scared that its going to be as bad as people always say those places are but ive also heard they can be so helpful and i just dont know what to believe

i wont do anything in the end. ill just sit in this bedroom and rot away probably. whatever. just leave me alone.

[mekatrio]

im basing this on my completely fallible memory so ive surely got the more finer details wrong but i do think that im correct abt the overall idea, that despite the drastic visual changes of tt2003 starfire compared to her OG ntt designs, i think they still managed to maintain most of the core components of her original personality, mainly her deep love for others, her very passionate way of expressing this love, and of course, being the Token Foreigner.

they definitely played the Foreigner (Alien) trope up to 11, to a degree that many tt2003 critics find very annoying, which like, fair. its very zany and comical (love of mustard comes to mind), meanwhile theyve toned down her fiery/passionate personality by a bit, which led to some people saying that tt2003 has completely flanderized her. and while on a surface level it may seem true, i dont think it is entirely. tt2003 is an adaptation of her character after all, so yes they played up the foreigner aspect and toned down her more assertive traits, but i do think that theyve managed to have her still be essentially the same character at heart.

but in spite of all this, tt2003 still does deserve shit for starting the (still ongoing) trend of whitewashing starfire, or more specifically, making her racially ambigious. bc in tt2003 she does have that one(1) episode where shes actually experiencing racism so she is still very much a Girl of Disenfranchised Racial Identity, just not specifically black coded anymore. though more recent comics have gone way too crazy with this and sometimes she just looks like a tanned white girl which is like... 🤮

so much to say about starfire. like although it couldve been done without the whitewashing, i do think that her design is great for the show*, just like how donna troy's design was adapted, starfire's design is still very much inspired by her ntt design but was adapted just enough to be more age-appropriate, clean and impactful, and more readable as an animated character, but the fact that it continues to inspire how she looks in non-animated properties is like.... eh? stop that. but tbh from what ive heard at least, it doesnt seem like starfire has gotten any good writing after tt2003, so its sadly not super suprising that theyve gotten too lazy to give her a better design either (her injustice 2 design is the best recent one i can think of)

*although i like her design i can recognize that theyve essentially made her into a 'Generic' Anime Girl, which while very cute! it does take away quite an amount of charm that her original design had. (her beautiful voluminous hair was very reflective of her character). and whether whitewashing was the intention or not, the simplification of her character design (most glaringly, making her hair thin and straight) was most likely done in order to make her easier to animate, bc as pretty as she look with voluminous big hair even in tt2003's artstyle, it wouldve not hv been practical to animate for 5 whole seasons.

tho making her more practical to animate doesnt entirely justify the other design choices done to her character (alien eyebrows, thin nose, no lips**) and theres definitely ways they couldve still have starfire to be practical to animate while not entirely converting her into a Racially Ambiguous Anime Girl (which im currently making an edit of, and will post later :3c)

**also interestingly, while the show does have starfire be an anime girl in all her anime girl glory (aka no lip, though sometimes she'll get a small bottom lip if the shot calls for it), in the comics she does tend to have a lip

...sometimes. todd nauck is the main artist for the comics (these 3 starfire lips pics are by nauck) and starfire always has a lip when drawn by him (except pre-issue #7, when hes still getting used to tt2003's artstyle), but guest artists are plentiful and when its up to them, its a "sometimes they do, sometimes they don't" deal on whether or not starfire still gets her lip or not. though it tends to often fall on the 'no lip' side.

credited pencillers from left to right, top to bottom:

yes lips: mike norton, issue #17; sean galloway, issue #22

no lips: alexander serra, issue #52; ethen beavers, issue #54

[orcinus-veterinarius]

genuinely curious, ive only really heard about the shitty things seaworld has done before and trying to look up what theyre doing now to be better/do better brings up ... websites that arent exactly trustworthy. could you explain how theyve improved and are genuinely helping sea life and cetaceans now/have a tag i could look at so i can teach myself?

Of course! You can always look through my #seaworld (and #cetaceans) tag, although it's intermixed with pictures of their animals and just me ranting. Here are some pages from SeaWorld's own websites with links to their conservation and marine biology research. Some of their major partners are the Hubbs-SeaWorld Research Institute (independent of but founded and funded in part by SeaWorld Parks) and OCEARCH. SeaWorld's rescue program has responded to over 40,000 individual marine animals in distress. While saving a gull or sea lion may not make that much of a contribution to conservation, it makes a world of difference to that animal. And with endangered species like sea turtles and manatees, each individual returned to the wild does make an impact on the future of the species.

As for the animals living in the park, I can say from personal experience that the care they receive far surpasses anything else I've seen. But you don't have to take my word for it. The Association of Zoos & Aquariums, the "gold standard" of zoo accredidation, has hundreds of pages of documents publically available on what is expected of their member facilities (which includes SeaWorld), both in animal care and their committment to public education, research, and conservation efforts. Here's one of the "shorter" documents on the accredidation process, although there's a lot more on their website.

Also, I know this is probably the 50th time I've linked it on my blog, but the 2021 Cetacean Welfare Study is a fantastic look into the factors affecting the welfare of cetaceans in AZA- and/or AMMPA-accredited aquariums and marine parks. It's very long, but absolutely worth the read for anyone interested in learning about whales and dolphins in human care. (One of my personal favorite tidbits is that enrichment programs play a far more significant role in increasing the frequency of positive natural behaviors than any features of the habitat, including pool size).

I hope that's helpful! I'm currently working on an ask rebutting the most popular "myths" about SeaWorld and managed cetaceans in general.

[pyonzzz]

hey everyone, let me get real for a sec

im not gonna say names because frankly im really done with this situation, but someone ive wronged in the past is spreading slander about me

ill admit — ive been abusive for the past 2 years, at least. i let my mental illness get the better of me more times than i can count and i severely hurt this person and some mutual friends. they have every right to be upset with me. i wont fault them because i understand and frankly support that anger because its justified.

but theyre beginning to spin narratives and flat out lie about too many things that im not comfortable listing publicly. theyve been going behind my back to anyone i associate with to slander my name and try to isolate/deplatform me when ive done my best to apologize to them for what ive done

again, im not naming names because i want this to be DONE. ive apologized and i know slapping a bandaid over a cut doesnt heal it immediately, but even if they dont forgive me (which i understand and respect), thats no reason to act how they are

if youve heard anything concerning me and it worries you, please dm me so i can say my side. i understand if you dont want to associate with me after this wholeheartedly i do. but i want to at least explain myself before then.

thank you all

[krabmeat]

𝟷𝟶𝟶 𝚏𝚘𝚕𝚕𝚘𝚠𝚎𝚛𝚜? 𝚝𝚘𝚍𝚊𝚢? 𝚊𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚎 𝚘𝚏 𝚠𝚎𝚎𝚔? 𝚒𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚔𝚒𝚗𝚍 𝚘𝚏 𝚢𝚎𝚊𝚛?

HELL YEAH FELLAS YOU HEARD THAT RIGHT!! FIRST MAJOR MILESTONE BAYBEEEE LETS GOOOOOO!!

guys, i really dont think you see how insanely mental this is. like what?!?! i joined here cause a friend of mine was gushing about a writer here and eventually convinced me to get tumblr. they called me their "noob reading friend /affectionate" and now look at me!! not even a year in and ive gained a crowd? thats so damn cool to think about!! to think that this many people are willing to put aside time in their day to read some fics made by me, im floored man!! all in all though, i have no one to thank but my wonderful mutuals and followers who have helped floor and construct the fantastic beginnings of this blog. which is why im here to bring you all this event that i sincerely hope you guys enjoy!

🦑KRABS KAN MAKE WRITING EVENTS WOW!!🦑

ALRIGHT FELLAS, IM DOING A WRITING EVENT!! HERES THE RULES AND PROMPTS NOW BOSSMEN!

~rules~

only 2 people per prompt

despite me not writing romantic fics yet, all participants are absolutely welcome to!

no smut/nsfw, im not that kind of blog and i do plan on reading entries so please dont submit anything related!!

any and all fics glorifying and supporting bigoted or misogynistic ideals will not be tolerated or respected. this is non-negotioable but if the fic has any of this that results in the putting down of or generally recognizing these ideals as negative then that is completely fine!

you are to use the quote prompts in your fic (im gonna be loose on this though so dw!! :DD)

you can use as many different prompts as youd like!!

please keep submissions in mcyt territory as thats who i write for most. but this doesnt confine to just mcyts in the dsmp! go wild dudes, hermitcraft, third life, pop off!!

keep all fics for minors platonic and platonic ONLY

generally know and respect the boundaries for ccs

when asking for a prompt, please put who you will be writing for!!

TAG ME IN YOUR FICS!! I CANNOT STRESS THIS ENOUGH PLEASE ID ADORE IT IF YOU TAGGED ME SO I CAN READ YOUR WONDERFUL WORK!!

you can use and interpret the prompts any way you want! doesnt matter if its in the angst section, you see fluff potential? go for it, vice versa!!

~prompts~

~fluff~

"I swear, if you make us late one more time I'll tape a clock to your wrist." "Isnt that a watch-?" "Shut it!"

"Look! I think it likes me!" (@ohworm-writes with cc!beeduo)

"Man, how did I catch such a good person?"

"Yknow, your parents really did something great when they made you."

"WELL HOW WAS I SUPPOSED TO KNOW THAT WOULD HAPPEN?!" "THERE ARE WARNING LABELS RIGHT THERE!"

"Take a picture, itll last longer~" "Okay!" "Wait you actually did that-?"

"That does NOT fit you." "Yeah it does! Just gotta roll it up a bit!"

"You aren't 'built different', you're just stupid." (@ohworm-writes with cc!tommy @jschllatt with cc!sapnap

"If it ever happens again, tell me. You know i adore you."

"Well..they dont even deserve you anyways! Just look at you- gorgeous!!"

~angst~

"KEEP F*CKING WALKING, THEN! CANT EVEN FACE YOUR OWN DAMN PARTNER! (or friend! :])"

"No, youre amazing!" "Then why arent i treated like it?"

"Do it again, see if i care."

"Guys..? GUYS! THEY ARENT MOVING!"

"Put the damn drink down and talk to me!"

"Its about time you get whats due, you know."

"So not only do you think im stupid, but you also think im still naive?"

"Just take me seriously for once in your damn life!"

"You'd better start running in the next 5 seconds."

"What do you take me for, a joke?!" "Wasnt that obvious?"

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now that thats done, heres the ask game part of the event!!! send me the corresponding emoji in my ask box and ill respond!

👽~ ill tell you a weird or memorable occurance that has happened on tumblr between friends and moots!

😳~ ill kin assign you and try to guess who you kin! (friends and moots only)

🍒~ ill rate your blog aesthetic on a scale of 1-10

🥀~ ill give you a bunch of emojis that remind me of you! (friends and moots only)

😎~ ill tell you obscure things i think are very neat!

🌺~ ill tell you a random interesting fact i know!

🦑~ if you send me a description of yourself, personality etc then ill write you a short ship fic with a mcyt!! specify if you want it to be platonic or romantic and if you want it to be c! or cc!(this is to work on my romantic writing!! friends and moots only)

💃~ ill tell you songs that remind me of you! (friends and moots only)

📕~ ill tell you something small or obscure i secretly think about you! (friends and moots only)

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now...onto the final part- HONOURABLE MENTIONS!!!

@myceliummenace ~ these guys got me into tumblr, some of my closest friends and theyve been supporting me since day one. i couldnt be happier to breathe the same air as these guys, they all deserve a crown and if you disagree i will chomp your hand

@niceimafan ~ an absolute saint!! i came across inks former writing blog and fell in love with both them and their wonderful work /p!!!! theyve helped me through some hellish times and are all around so damn open and accepting

@jschllatt ~ istfg this lady is just-- SOOOO BEAUTIFUL INSIDE AND OUT??? nat is incredibly talented and has encouraged me throughout my time here and i couldnt be happier with how weve grown as friends!! and i know, despite how wholesome and soft nat seems to be i promise you she knows how to keep a bit going like no other. an amazing moot, stay funky :]

@im-an-ungodly-mess ~ okay look,, i know i havent interacted with these guys for a lot buttt...CAN YOU REALLY BLAME ME??!!? LIKE CMON THEYRE ALL JUST SO COOL!!! the moment i met them i knew our chaotic energies would merge and boy did they merge alright. also theyre just insanely nice and super willing to endulge with me in my random interest which is always a sexy trait to have. 10 out of 10, these guys are neato

@ohworm-writes ~ ahhh wormmm, delightful all around and just a sweetheart....BUT THEYVE GOT SHENANIGANS- as well as being extremely skilled as well like, dayummm!!! i live for our bond over fandoms outside of the mcyt fandom and i feel blessed to have you be a moot! much love, dear!

@marcooze ~ bro....whyd you have to do me like that dude? being so gosh damn kind and accepting like that like sheesh all the stuff you reblog is gold!!! it can be the most cracked out post or the most serious and informational one. idgaf that youre a reblog blog, you mean the world to me and i shall place a supple kiss on your hand as bros do <3

@ramzawrites ~ THE FIRST WRITERS BLOG IVE EVER FOLLOWED!!! ramza dear, if no one has ever told you how iconic you are then PLEASE LET ME BE THE FIRST!!! everything you do leaves me in awe and despite your talent, you still have miles and miles of kindness and generosity? you are one in a million, ramza. you deserve everything and please know how much you mean to me. thank you for supporting me so much for so long, and i hope your days are filled with really cool rocks :]]

[forestlion]

some opinions on the queendom 2 ep 8 performances:

(i havent been able to stream the show, so ive only watched the yt clips of this ep so far)

- viviz........ underperformed. no offence but what... they shouldve done bop bop for the first round and do a gfriend song for this round. the vocals were uhm... sure. its a no from me. imo theyve continuously placed better than their performances were so ig good for them idk.

- kep1er DID bring the heat! a great performance, the best of the three tbh imo. first time i agree about them being super rookies! very enjoyable

- wsjn had a lot going on. never heard the song before but i felt like the vocal arrangement and performance wasnt up to par at all. the dance and props etc was absolutely outrageous, i loved the beginning. then they sorta lost me. esp at the end w the hanging on those ropes 😭💀 that made me laugh bc it was a bit too ridiculous tbh

[eviclair]

I don’t know if I’ve ever heard of your actual thoughts(tm) on khr, so what’s your constructive review on the series as a whole? Like some positives and negatives w/ the writing, characters, etc. If u don’t feel like answering, feel free to ignore this LOL.

 tl;dr because this is 800 words of nonsense. i think you should know i would not know a constructive review if it bit me in the ass.

my guy i have not done a full read of khr in maybe two years and i know that does not sound like a long time but i have the long-term memory of a fruit fly. please bear with me. luckily for both of us i liveblogged the last time i read so i at least have my own sparknotes jdflaksjddaf

first off! khr is a satire manga!!! i cannot stress this enough, i can and will fight you to the death about this!!! “oh but it gets serious later” it grows a PLOT, thats not the same thing. khr is stupid as hell and that is both on purpose and my favorite thing about it.

i fucking love shonen man!!! its all about FIGHTING and LOVING YOUR FRIENDS and HAVING EMOTIONS and. bro im a water sign. my mars is in gemini, there is nothing i can do about this, god made me and said “get that bitch some found family and also some incredible violence” and we all just have to live with that. 

khr is so much all of those things that i did not realize they were being made fun of until very long after the fact so my current opinions are very much not the ones i started with jaldkhjdfhd but man. once i clued in i both loved it so much more and became 100% incapable of interacting with fandom in any meaningful way L M A O

i just. the main conceit is that theyve weaponized the deus ex machina eleventh-hour shonen power up. the “my dead family came back to life to kill me” trope is used three separate times. the big bad student body president is a delinquent. theres an entire subset of above magic god powers thatre just

the tyl bazooka was just ripping on the Timeskip Arc until the Timeskip Arc actually happened?? like fuuta’s special thing is that he can communicate with the Meta Planet to divine Character Rankings, i dont know what to tell you!!! the truth is out there!!! 

like DO YOU EVEN REMEMBER that time tsuna experienced a villain’s flashback sequence FOR HIM because i fucking do, i think about it every day,

so in the sense of “please critique the writing”, i cant do that because im pretty sure 98% of all the tropey bullshit is by design. do i wish people like the kokuyo gang got more characterization outside of being ride-or-die villain sidekicks?? of course i do but thats my own damn fault for seeing cool side characters and losing all higher brain function. on the other hand, hibari being the person he is and having absolutely no backstory or motivation beyond “get out of my school” is really fucking funny and keeps me warm at night, so. win some, lose some.

(the 2% of the writing that isnt tropey bullshit that i CAN critique is whatever is happening with kyoko. Bad Female Cast is definitely a shonen trope but its a shitty one and i want it to die. within maybe four minutes of kyoko being introduced she tries to body a man and then thats just never spoken about again?? wheres that energy queen?!!! let kyoko say fuck!!!!)

((this applies to haru too in the sense that all she really does is make moon eyes at tsuna but the way in which she does so is honestly so fucking funny and unhinged that it comes back around to being great. like yeah yep yes ma’am thats 100% bonafide Girl Who Throws Skittles In A Puddle And Calls It Potion right there please may i have another))

If khr took itself even 4% more seriously it could be really deep and compelling and i think that frustrates a lot of people, but i think i like it better this way?? half the fun for me is reading in between the lines!! the subtext, however unintentional it may be!!

examples: yamamoto is one of my favorites just because theres SO FUCKING MUCH to unpack about him!! canon gives us a lot of information about him just by virtue of the fact that he’s a Main Character, but paradoxically he himself is never really the focus. he just Does Shit and you have to figure out why on your own and i LOVE DOING THAT.

i dont love mukuro because he’s a fleshed out and nuanced villain, i love him because he says shit like “i went to hell six times” and never expounds upon that or “i can definitely trust the information i got from this magic monocle called Demon Spade’s Super Evil Murder Eye or whatever the fuck” and then expresses surprise when daemon spade is an asshole. he goes and willfully fucks up the only job anyones ever given him (impersonate 80 year old leonardo lippi) because he Just Has to shapeshift into a young hot dude and hand deliver byakuran, the boss of the Flower Family, the Family that names all its members after Flowers, a bouquet that means “i am in disguise ;) cant catch me bitch ;)”

like WHAT THE FUCK!!

i dont know man. i just like puzzles and khr is a gift that keeps giving.

(sidenote that should’ve maybe just been the subject of the post but re:i cant shut the fuck up about anything ever, i love tsuna so much. so much. his personality!! his relationships!!! his growth!!! his growth!!!!! his growth!!!!!!! khr has its claws in me because i see tsuna do something cool or brave or even deeply stupid actually and my whole heart goes AAAAAAAAA bc thats him!!! thats my son!!!!! my baby boy whom ive raised since birth!!!!!! suit me up and call me a reborn kinnie, fuck!!!!!!!!!)