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boonjur · 6 months ago
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Uhm...more X-Men high school au...cuz uhm...yeah..uhm...
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starry-bi-sky · 5 months ago
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yall ever think Shen Yuan went through like, internet withdrawal after being transmigrated into Shen Qingqiu? Like, he's canonically a NEET shut-in who did nothing but spend his time online, you can't tell me that for the first week or first few weeks of being SQQ he wasn't twitchy.
Like, reaching instinctively to his pockets for a phone that wasn't there, having an obsessive itch in the back of his mind that he should check and see if X or Y novel or webcomic has updated -- only to realize he can't anymore and being irritated by it. Wanting to go and see if there's new posts about this or that, but again realizing that he can't.
When he's bored or uncomfortable or just feels like wanting to escape he tries to go for his phone to distract himself, but oops! Not there anymore, and now he has to find a new and different way to distract himself from his feelings. And going through system notifications, quests, etc only does so much.
And there's that Tetris Effect too. SQQ makes a mistake while writing and instinctively goes to backspace on it except hey-ho that's not a keyboard and now he just dipped his pinkie into a bottle of ink or on a still-drying letter.
With him scrambling to fix his reputation and learn how to be a peak lord, I think his abrupt cold-turkey from all things internet would just be another straw on the camel's back that he promptly Ignores until it goes away on its own after he acclimates to his new surroundings.
#svsss#mxtx svsss#scum villain#scum villian self saving system#shen yuan#shen qingqiu#i think him learning how to be a peak lord and cultivation and everything else would help distract him from the internet withdrawal for the#most part. but the moment there's a lull in the day and his mind wanders or he becomes bored or stressed and he instinctively reaches back#for his phone and realizes it isn't there it just sends a spike of panic/frustration/irritation through him because its a familiar comfort#and now its gone. like this is all based off my own experiences from being Chronically Online but i just think its neat to think about#in that same vein i think it also pushes him into getting into the arts on QJP. Like as the peak lord naturally he would be doing this kind#of stuff but hes NOT the peak lord but to keep up appearances he has to know how to do this stuff. and finds it??? actually quite rewarding#even more than getting into an argument online or getting a new merch item. he's making or doing this stuff. he starts drawing and finishes#a piece and regardless of its skill level he feels something unclog in his chest. like sediment being scraped off the bottom of a creek and#being washed downstream. a weight that's been slogging through his veins suddenly untangled. physical proof of his efforts that feels great#starry is incapable of NOT giving her favorite blorbos more hobbies. starry is incapable of not giving her favorites artsy hobbies#this is probably NOT a new or original thought whatsoever but im throwing it out there anyways bc it fascinates me. i love transmigration#and albeit i've only read isekai manhwa/manhua there's a common theme of the people there assimilating into their new lives relatively quic#which i know is for ease of transition and getting to the rest of the story. but WHAT IF.#i have still not read svsss yet and idk when i'll be able to BUT have some thoughts anyways
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ask2ps · 2 months ago
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i really wanna bite a biggg chunk out of 2p italyy
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JAPAN: (For some reason, the inbox bugged, and only this message was visible. Quite sinister.) JAPAN: (Please refrain from hexing us in the future.)
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milfygerard · 9 months ago
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man remember when that nyt interview w gerard dropped in 2014 and gerard stated directly that they identify heavily with woman and didnt and never could relate to men and the main reaction was people freaking out at gerard using "straight" as shorthand for "attracted to women" while discussing how that attraction was impacted by their struggle with their gender identity
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buwheal · 8 months ago
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Hello, Spamton!
How's life? Also, do you have any opinions on the Addisons? (Pink, blue, orange, and yellow)
If so, what do you think of them?
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mamawasatesttube · 1 month ago
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its 2025 and i still cant go into kon tags without seeing that stupid little blond fuck. i think kon-el fans who dont give a shit about bernard dowd deserve financial compensation
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nshtn · 5 months ago
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[ UV Albert Wesker Uroboros & PG67 HCs ]
These take after the knowledge that PG67 contains hastily-added leech genes. This is full of medical jargon related to virology and genetics. It's hard sci-fi styled!
tags: medical:genetic;neurology (hardly);virology;needles (PG67-A/W), cannibalism mention, childhood trauma, body horror, mental decay
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Such a far cry from his beginnings... he's truly taken after the man he hates the most.
Unfortunately for Wesker, adding Uroboros in intensely massive quantities to an existing Progenitor-67 infection is a poor choice that makes him spend much of his fight with Chris alternating between pouncing him like a rabid animal and curling like the death throes of a dying spider.
And unfortunately for Chris, Wesker doesn't die when he's left at the volcano to stew in a puddle of himself. Even with the awakened lack of thermophilic qualities as a result of the genetic influence of G, there is enough local flora and fauna to keep him alive... albeit in a subdued state.
Physiological:
Uroboros, combined on the initial foundation of Progenitor 67, takes after Progenitor 67's metabolic inefficiency and drives that far higher than it was ever meant to go in an attempt to sow compatibility.
Due to this, Wesker needs a truly ridiculous amount of calories (~6,000 - ~9,000 kcal/d) to remain fully intelligent.
A lesser amount will generally retain him, though he will experience a plethora of negative symptoms related to starvation (~3,500 - ~5,500 kcal/d).
The very brink of his sanity and humanity will find him lacking if he consumes the average human male's daily caloric intake (~1,800 - ~3,000 kcal/d).
Wesker cannot digest iron bound to salt or any organic chelates except heme (or hemeprotein) as a result of initial Progenitor 67 infection.
Progenitor 67 epigenetically alters his enterocytes. The genes involved with this are the upregulation of HCP1 and the downregulation of DMT1 and, less intensely, Dcytb, and is a result of both Progenitors' own natural leaning and, primarily, the hasty introduction of leech genes when microinjection became available.
This ultimately means that, as time drags on, he begins to find his palate shifts from a lot of power smoothies to meat.
But there is something crucial here: 67% or more of heme iron is lost when you cook meat. That means...
↑ He slowly slips into preferring his meat blue or raw, otherwise he won't be able to properly supplement his need for heme iron.
↑ With the addition of Uroboros, which dethrones and replaces Progenitor, this change persists and couples roughly with his modified caloric needs.
Usually present in brown adipocytes, UCP1 and UCP2 are both overactive as a result of the improper inclusion of Uroboros' gene signalling.
As a result of this, Wesker's natural temperature is hotter than a normal human being's.
He's probably uncomfortably warm to others - almost naturally feverish.
UCP1 and UCP2 cause proton leakage across the mitochondrial membrane - UCP1 being the primary uncoupler regarded in thermogenesis.
↑ As a result of this leak, ATP use is less efficient. This exacerbates his metabolic disorder.
↑ The inclusion of UCP2 upregulation alongside UCP1 was done out of an abundance of caution.
The gluconeogenesis enzyme PEPCK-C, involved in the burning of fat to produce glucose, is overexpressed in dual infection.
While this gives Wesker higher stamina and physical endurance, it comes at the expense of contributing to insulin resistance and is a key player in his bodies' teetering metabolic imbalance.
↑ This is because Uroboros doesn't upregulate and express PEPCK-C in just skeletal muscular cells - it does so where it is already present, too; this is a personal oversight.
↑ PEPCK-M was personally avoided in its' development because it is a popular oncogene.
Uroboros; a monster that eats itself continually without end. It physically presents a sign of Wesker's malingering, endless need to consume across his skin.
Patches of necrotizing, hardening skin and flesh form across his arms and legs in uneven patterns.
Scaly, itchy lesions creep along his cheekbones and the sides of his neck like a corrupted skin flush.
These are a weaker, useless vestigial presentation of the hardening of skin he undergoes when he's being flash-fried by high temperatures.
They're positive for many of the proto-oncogenes related to melanomas and are undoubtedly at least oncogenetic, but aren't strictly cancerous; instead, they're a misguided attempt at defense that vacillates 'on' without facing heat danger.
One of the scars of Wesker's infection and subsequent mutative transformation are hypermelanotic deposits that coat previously-mutated skin in a dark fade.
They start strongest at his fingertips and weaken at the base of his shoulders.
They are also strongest in the center of his chest where his macronuclei is present and taper off approaching his shoulders and abdomen.
His face has some of the same tinting in uneven splotches descending strongest from where he was burned.
Uroboros enhances the strength of many of his bones - more potent the closer to the surface of his body - by fortifying them with calcium and double-thickening them.
As a feature of the beginning stages of Uroboros' starvation, it will begin to leach calcium out of bones and the deposits it creates.
↑ These deposits are not found in the brain or the skull.
When resources are threateningly low, the bones will be stripped for the calcium they uniformly contain, causing him to experience an effect similar to calcium gout / pseudoarthritis, malaise, and brittling.
This leaching undoes itself and becomes re-fortifying under the duress of stress hormones like cholecystokinin and epinephrine. Less specific but still counted in re-fortification is cortisol and norepinephrine.
↑ Re-fortifying can be triggered accidentally through rigorous & sustained physical exercise or copulation.
Epigenetic changes brought on by Progenitor physiologically are stacked upon inappropriately and pseudorandomly by Uroboros like re-patchwork, which leads to a general instability and accidental incorporation of Progenitor's physical defense mechanisms.
This is what ultimately enables him to survive the events of RE5.
Neurological:
Progenitor infection spiraling into his temporal lobes, brain stem, and, minorly, his frontal lobes as years progress are the cause of his irritation and aggression in RE5.
It does this because it has no antimutagenic properties unlike the more developed t-Virus, slowly mutating out of control into a dysfunctional beast as Wesker experiences more and more stress and trauma.
A bit like G in this regard...
His SERT is disrupted by its' presence in the midbrain raphe nuclei along the brain stem.
This causes elevated extracellular serotonin levels initially, followed by receptor downregulation and eventual serotonin deficiency.
The lack of available serotonin leads him to experience, at first, heightened periods of aggression. Later, this becomes mania and even delirium if he forfeits sleep or a PG/67 shot, because...
As time ticks on, his dopamine begins to become dysregulated as well.
This imbalance contributes to mood swings, aggression, and impaired decision-making.
It also leads to a loss of the ability to feel pleasure or joy in things, making him manic and paranoid, taking risks uncharacteristically to feel something, anything.
As Progenitor 67 degrades brain function, particularly areas involved in impulse control and aggression, Wesker experiences the uncontrollable urge to consume.
This leads him to cannibalize interns and people he calculates won't be missed, as well as people who piss him off enough. During this time it does change - and become true - that a misplaced boop! or headpat! might get you killed.
His ego begins to vacillate and strengthen itself in an effort to maintain itself despite his decline. If he can just finish Uroboros, everything will be okay again, he can fix himself...
His brain practically relies on his PG67-A/W dose before he gains Uroboros.
A rapid decline in cognitive and emotional stability when he’s off the dose is present.
It's not unlike sundowning...
You would not want to see his MRIs during this time. They look awful - his brain has lesions and there are parts that are grossly overgrown; there are tiny black specks where Progenitor has gnawed holes in the fabric of him. If he hadn't roped it in, he would probably end up eventually going completely feral from his brain swelling up against the sides of his skull; he'd just become another victim of Cannibal Disease and turn, simply painfully slowly.
Uroboros is not supposed to crawl into the brain. It's supposed to leave it unaffected - but Progenitor having already curdled and spread unchecked into it gives it an opening for opportunistic infection.
It attempts to knit the holes and tamp down overgrown regions, but in doing this, it feeds from a sort of 'genetic template' that restores Wesker's ability to feel and feel greatly. This includes the reactivation (and reanimation) of the greatly disordered regions of his brain responsible for empathy, sleep regulation, attachment, and guilt.
It also cannot perfectly recreate lost tissue or resurrect memories from dead, liquefied tissue, so he retains some of his symptoms, like mood swings.
Rage becomes consuming, hunger becomes voracious, and guilt becomes haunting; he is plagued with an unfortunate (to him) tendency to consider others.
He finds it a prying weakness, but he can no longer tamp it down into nonexistence as he did; he is, essentially, thermally reduced to his Arklay days in behavior. He’s still intelligent and cunning, but he must now wrestle with intense emotional responses that don’t align with his goals at all...
Guilt and empathy are so foreign to him they are nearly out-of-body; he views them clinically and tries to rationalize them away, but his inability becomes the stake that impales him and imparts a malingering sense of conflict.
...and he must take a good, hard, long look at his goals and how far they've diverted from their initial precedence.
... what is he now? What use does he serve in this world - to what master does he heel, clearly dethroned from his position? These questions and more are things he asks himself now.
Is he doomed to roam aimlessly without purpose until he perishes?
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weaverofink · 5 months ago
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Another Clara portrait bc I'm kind of obsessed w my new design for her :) everybody better watch out, she's busting out the Irritated Face
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oflorelei · 2 months ago
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How it feels to be in the asoiaf fandom when you are lowkey a chill guy, don't get the weird "stan" movement, don't involve yourself in shipping drama and just rant a lil every tuesday but otherwise enjoy yourself:
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nenoname · 12 days ago
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How would you have planned an arc for Wendy in the show, since the writers claimed they never managed to crack her? I mean, we see how they managed to do for Pacifica and Soos in like two or so episodes. Why can't they do so for Wendy?
Btw it slightly pains me to say it a little as a dipcifica shipper, but if they claim there's no space for Wendy episodes, then I would drop the Pacifica episodes. She didn't end up contributing much to the overall plot.
unfortunately i think we might have to turn the mystery shack trio into the daddy issues trio because that really is how wendy's general issues was kinda heading in my opinion
her struggling with a controlling but still loving dad (who also has severe memory gaps from the blindeye cult, considering he built ford's house and actually knew ford, along with likely encountering anomalies constantly) and her acting out due to pent up stress and even more pent up grief from losing her mum.... her blindeye line about her putting on a facade really is super compelling to me and it (along with her really wanting to leave town when she gets the chance) gives her another connection to stan which i think they both really needed
while i do constantly go on about there needed to be a story with dipper as a supportive friend instead of it always being vice versa, i would also love one about her relationships with soos and mabel cos it's genuinely really cute, heck maybe expand on her childhood friendship with tambry a bit. there's also the implication she might've been bullied as a kid for being super tall too
i of course get why the writers wanted to flesh pacifica out but it really did take up the episodes/comic story/website story that wendy could've gotten and honestly? i would've been satisfied with golf war as her settling as a tentative friend (not like the nw ep or website+comic story got to properly resolve her being stuck with extremely abusive parents and being a guilt ridden descendant of evil rich fuckers.....)
the general idea of her getting to bond with susan post-series is something i'm way more interested in than her just being part of the mystery shack family because it gets to flesh the both of them out more too (and even with weirdmageddon her being able to develop a bond with candy and grenda might've been also fun)
paz being the only "rival" character who got s2 screentime also stands out! the writers deliberately had little gideon screentime since he was the main s1 villain but it makes his change of heart pretty abrupt (and i'm salty at the lack of him idolising ford cos that is a hilarious dynamic), and robbie's ep literally didn't address the issues of who he is as a person-- aka his extreme insecurities and not respecting wendy at all so shoving him with another girl ain't fixing any problems!!! you can't "oh this is actually true love, this love potion is fine" me hirsch!!!!!
and in the end paz's role in weirdmageddon 3 ends up coming off extremely forced and honestly makes me pity her cos like??? she doesn't want to be there??? what in-universe reason is she on ford's rescue team???? at least stan has a reason to protect the rest of his family!!!! but she's the "llama" i guess even tho that role could've also gone to freaking wax larry king's head or literally anyone who happened to wear that sweater (and yes the northwest ep has a portrait of a llama in the background and in the end the writers wanted the zodiac to have that theme of friends, family, rivals and enemies coming together but urgh. it feels so clunky, might as well have her get captured like the other rivals to give her a reason to be in the fearamid)
(but yeah, i am kinda biased from years of folks excluding soos+wendy+grenda+candy from group arts too lmao but i don't mind if paz is included as long as they at least include the others instead of pretending the trio of dipper+paz+mabel is the only one that exists)
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boarloved-art · 3 months ago
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i LOVEEEE idol aus so bad because none of these fucking characters would be caught dead doing any of this shit. your blorbo is NOT doing aegyo on stage for a paycheck! your blorbo is NOT singing and dancing!
#i love idol aus i literally posted fenglian idol au a bit ago i read idol aus like my life depends on it#bonus pointz if its a survival show idol au#put those blorbos through Boys Planet NOWWWW!!#but god none of these characters would be doing all thst#anyway...#if i had to put mdzs dudes through a kpop survival show gauntles#*gauntlet#i fully think lwj is pulling a ricky zb1#in that he doesnt get a lot of screentime and when he does its just his resting bitch face in an attempt to evil edit him#but hes so good looking n talented that ppl flock to vote for him anyway so he gets in the lineup#only for ppl to realise that hes a perfectly lovely lad hes just very quiet#AND wwx keeps gaying it up with him and ppl are 100% sure it surpassed Stage Gay long long long ago.#it stopped being Gay For Pay at debut.#jiang chengs not making final lineup in a Kpop survival show it must be said hes simply not the type for debht#like idk. i feel like the more irritable trainees dont make it very far in actuality. if ur not getting along w#other trainees ppl dont really wanna see u debut alongside them. sorry jc :(#huaisang is our boys planet zhanghao and i dont mean in terms of talent i mean in terms of getting cancelled for being heterophobic#3 hour haobin zb1 compilation vs 3 hour wangxian compilation i believe in it#this isnt even an idol au this is just a fucking zb1/boys planet au bc im so biased but shhhh#for any1 whos seen the boys planet star level tests.#yknow the MODU URI CHWEODOBWAA (BWAAAA) clip....#thats su she in my heart of hearts<3#eli comes out as a kpop stan#u already knew this#i posted 2 kpop animatics#and i went to a kpop concert YESTERDAY! but still!
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7-andahalf-rats · 1 year ago
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"hey... i heard you play vio,lin..."
"For the last time, you insufferable imp. I am not joining your 'band.'"
aka how I picture their dynamic
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mariocki · 2 months ago
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Mary Tamm plays model Jenny Hart, whose husband is the subject of an investigation, in Public Eye: How About It, Frank? (7.3, Thames, 1975)
#fave spotting#mary tamm#romana i#classic doctor who#romanadvoratrelundar#public eye#doctor who#how about it‚ frank?#1975#thames#pretty terrible pics I know but im still watching these on that Tube You know about bc my dvds are many many miles away#i think i probably only ever watched s7 the once because (outside of the fairly significant plot thread of the first two eps) i remember#almost nothing of this final series. actually‚ because the series (like most of its era) was shot out of sequence‚ this was actually the#very final episode to be shot. the much missed Tamm was early in her career here‚ with just a handful of screen appearances (tho she'd#had a stint with the well regarded Birmingham rep‚ so was hardly inexperienced). later in 75 she'd have her first real meaty role in the#BBC's adaptation of Muriel Spark's The Girls of Slender Means; then of course there was DW a few years away and cult tv immortality#she's good here‚ but hasn't much to do; the role is disappointing tbh‚ her character is a model and shows a mild spark of independence but#the script repeatedly defines her as the wife of another character and‚ particularly disappointingly (and fairly unusually for the show)‚#broadly supports the husband's chauvinistic viewpoint that she should be providing more wifely services ie. cooking and cleaning#it's dumb and irritating and it's very annoying to have Frank tell her she should learn to cook. idk‚ it's a bad moment in a bad sideplot#of a brilliant show. so it goes ig. but hey‚ always lovely to see Mary <3
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opens-up-4-nobody · 24 days ago
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#it's strange to have a self contained perfectionism. i know other people who wish they could control other people out of being chaotic.#people who try to make everything black or white. people who want to always be in control of their situation and the big dangerous vehicles#they travel within. but that's not how my control issues manifest. i think people are allowed to be messy and irratic. i like when#situations and ideas are nuanced. i would rather not be in complete control of my surroundings. the only thing i need complete and utter#control of is myself. i am not allowed to be messy. i want everything about myself to be black or white. i want to have complete control of#this human vessel. my perfectionism is self contained. and its deeply irrational. and deeply frustrating because my perfectionism is#imperfect and lazy. because im getting better and its difficult but easier than i would have expected. and rationally i know thats a good#thing but then all i see is my lack of conviction. if i was more perfect i would be worse. if i was more perfect someone would have noticed#how sick i was or would have actually said or done something. someone would have stopped me. so i wasnt really that sick and im not really#that sick now. and its not a big deal. because it all seems so easy now. so it seems like i was just a slightly odd very quiet kid with#control issues who stopped eating and never learned how to take up any space. and i get so fucking frustrated at every doctor i talk to#because they all treat me so gently and talk to me so cautiously and i know thats their job and i know they're saying the right things. but#its not like i stumbled blindly into this. i did it intentionally and maliciously. i know its a road paved in suffering and ending in death.#that was the point. this wasnt born of vanity it was born of malice. and youre only worried now because im telling you to worry so shut the#fuck up and let me fix my own problem. its just that i never intended to make is this far and that me of the past was trying to poison my#future. so i have 15yrs curroded and spongy from wishing death upon myself. and now that the idea of my box of ashes sitting on my dad's#mantle next to my mom's rips me apart i have to find a new path forward. even when all i can think is that i still wish i was worse#resenting that i have to get better when it feels easier to be distructive. if you hand me a knife my instict is to twist it in my gut. so#what now? its just irritating. because i always was and remain a picky eater so i have to choose to choke down whats on my plate.#anyway. just another adventure in the eternal paradox of internal perfectionism while being a compulsively analytical ecologist.#unrelated
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dailykugisaki · 8 months ago
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Day 278 | id in alt
At least one of the students is a horrid menace to both curses and curse users. I was beginning to lose hope.
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johnbottoms · 21 hours ago
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was abt to make a shipping discourse post but i realized im no longer 16. that is a win for me
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