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Hey! I know you’re never going to finish Leviathan, but I want to thank you for writing it! It’s genuinely one of the most comforting series I’ve read since I struggle with a lot of anxiety, and even if you were just 14 you did a beautiful job at writing these underwater scenes that were just so calming. I really appreciate all the work and effort you put into this and I hope that you’ll continue to put that love into everything you do :)
thank you anon!! i really appreciate this, i'm glad it helped you :)
#i loved writing the water scenes haha it's why i kept shoving em in#guy who is obsessed w deep water but never gets to go. there's something magical about being under water and looking up#ask#anon#and i am trying to put that same dedication in. the love is definitely there on my current projects. maybe that's what makes them so hard#but it'll be worth it in the end.
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Interesting to have you thoughts on WHY we love the pain and angst in the Unknown series? and we are not getting the ick instead?
I’m trying to explain it to people without just saying “because they do it so well” you know?
Anon, I can't tell you why YOU like Unknown or why anyone else likes it, but I can tell you why I like it since therapy has shown me the beauty of introspection.
I'm a kinky queer who trusts Taiwan.
And just like kink, this show isn't ONLY about the pain and the angst.
Note that I'm not writing about this in a sexual way nor am I writing that this show is kinky. No. I'm writing that I like it because it resonates with me, a queer kinkster.
And by "ick," I think you mean the brothers-not-brothers plot since that ties into the pain and angst aspect.
Not to get too psychological or philosophical, but the pain of the show gives me pleasure. Especially because I know the pain won't last. There is an end point; therefore, there is a release. And once the show is over, I won't be left with this horrible scar of unhappiness but I might be left with some bruises that remind me the pain was worth it for the happy ending.
Also, much like being queer and kinky, this plot is a taboo subject.
And I like that!
The show is treating the subject with respect. The show has established that Yuan and Qian ARE brothers. They call each other "brother," they have their little sister, and the world sees them as brothers.
Yet they aren't blood-related, which is a point that San Pang mentioned when he told Lili not to get too close to Yuan, and people were upset that he said it, but it is the same argument people use to excuse Yuan's feelings for his brother.
And just like kink, the show makes me think about that grey area of life between consenting adults because nothing is ever black and white. Yuan asked San Pang what was wrong with him loving Qian, and we will see the fallout from San Pang dating Lili when he has openly considered Qian family. People have questioned what is different between the two relationships, and the show will question it as well.
This show is asking the audience to reflect, so I feel safe with this show punishing me with so much pain which is a big aspect of kink. I wouldn't tolerate pain from a show I don't feel safe with (Game of Thrones, I'm looking at your ass!). I trust the show to deal with this taboo subject with respect because Taiwanese BLs have consistently dealt with this subject with respect. As much as people hated HIStory 4: Close to You, it didn't shy away from the brothers plot or the sexual assault. Both were treated seriously within the show.
And it did the same with Kiseki: Dear to Me.
And the other Taiwanese BLs it's been used in.
So I've never had the ick factor that others have regarding this particular subject or been bothered by the level of pain it brings, but perhaps Addicted toughened me up because the way China dishes out sad "bromances" due to censorship, I suspect there is a connection there between the "brothers" to lovers plot that transfers into Taiwanese dramas.
Because if you have to hide love behind a wall of being "bros," it makes sense that it would 1) be painful, and 2) be queer-coded since a happy ending wouldn't be realistic.
And yet Taiwan continues to deliver a happy ending with this type of plot.
So yeah, I like the pleasure that will come with all this pain. I like that it leans into historical and cultural queer coding while being explicitly queer. And I like that it's Taiwanese handling it.
That's why I like it.
But, once again, I have no idea why others do.
#unknown#unknown the series#I know why I like it#but I can't speak for the room#it's queer#it'll end happy#the pain is worth it#this is my style
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I've made my fascination with filth and how it connects to VP loud and clear at least three times on my blog, but I seriously can't state enough how much it occupies my mind. There's just something really powerful about someone not only being not grossed out by your filth, but, on the contrary, being attracted to it. Pulled into it. Turned on by it. That's what happens to Vegas at the safehouse. Pete is at the worst state he's ever been (debatable, since we don't know much about his past), and yet it's at these moments Vegas starts to become obsessed with him. I love how it's kind of subtle in its presentation. After all, KinnPorsche The Series is a very polished and "clean" show. Everyone is dressed nicely and the fight scenes never get too dirty or too bloody. The sex scenes never get too messy, either. And yet, at the safehouse, Pete is allowed to show parts of his filth to the audience. His hair is greasy, his skin is feverish, his lips are parched, there's black under his eyes, his voice changes, not even mentioning the dirt on him and the blood trickling down his chest. The rest is implied: the bad breath, the yellow teeth, the smell, the digestive problems he 100% has. What's implied is more important, because it's those filthy parts of Pete that Vegas embraces with fervor: he kisses a pill into Pete's unwashed mouth, and he eats Pete's unwashed ass. I love thinking about the juxtaposition of internal vs external filth as well, because to me, the VP arc kind of flips them on their head: Pete's filth is, as I explained above, external. He's filthy in appearance, in body, while Vegas' filth is internal, in his mind, in his heart. By the end of the show, Vegas ends up with external filth (another thing I've posted about that got some mixed reactions lol) that he has to find how to navigate his life with, and this time, it's Pete who embraces it. Don't get me wrong here. Both of these men have internal filth. Pete isn't some innocent, pure angel and he knows it, and Vegas does, too. Self-loathing just doesn't let him remember it most of the time. I'm going to end this post with this screenshot, which is probably one of my favourite VP moments (besides the sex itself), and that's because it's one of the most beautiful things I've ever witnessed on my screen. Look at the pores on their skin, at Vegas' bags under his eyes, at Pete's wet hair above his ear, at the stubble on Pete's chin and Vegas' upper lip. Look at them being filthy and at home. Aren't they gorgeous?
#no I will not talk about the bloody armpits again#I've found my headcanon and I'm sticking with it#besides I'm sure Pete's armpits still probably smell like a dead animal anyway#(Vegas has caught a whiff once or twice but he holds himself back from sniffing with intent in case Pete realizes what he's doing)#(don't judge me he would and you know it)#this was just me expressing my thoughts I'd like to turn into a fic one day#it'll be gross and only for me but it'll be worth it#btw I'm not using the word filth in a negative light at all mind you#as I said I'm fascinated by the subject in a good way#I love how my obsession with (Vegas)Pete is still so strong#I do wonder if it's ever going to end#I hope not#vegaspete#meta post
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Characters who force themself into the role of the bad guy even though they are genuinely good people at heart >>>>>>>>>
#star spitting her nonsense#dsmp#c!wilbur#sips fools gold#guys i love cwilbur and sips with my whole heart#'are we the bad guys?'#'it'll be worth it in the end even if i'm the bad guy'#I LOVE THESE PLOTLINES SO MUUUUUUUCH#fools gold dnd
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ngl real missed opportunity by DC to let Harley and Mr. Freeze become friends during her primary villain arc (btas or other) cause tbh I can't imagine he'd enjoy sitting in his cell listening to Joker brag about all the ways he's cruel, abusive and uncaring towards Harley, a woman who loves him, while Victor's entire goal is to save his wife who he loves dearly ya know ???? and it's not like all of them haven't been locked up together, the other rogues Know. Joker's not like most abusers who try to keep it behind closed doors, he's very public with his abuse.
And just that feeling of like "I am doing everything I can to save my wife, I have become a criminal and have done awful things in the name of love and I just want nothing more than to have her back and You Have Someone Who Loves You That Much, That Much To Become A Criminal As Well And You Repay That Love By ABUSING HER."
#i know next to nothing about mr freeze so i may be wrong but i like to think im right#the temptations to include more of the rogues gallery in my ''Ivy Finds Out About The Ending Of Mad Love'' fic rewrite#((((((which i have not forgot about skdnksks i am Slow with things but like the og is a little over 4k#and ive got about a smidge into contents of the og chapter 2 and its already almost 7k so hopefully it'll be worth it#the wait that is#skdndkksksks#/// but like that quote joker says in the assault on arkham movie#''haha women amirite officer? cant live with em cant kick em out of a moving car''#like he probably absolutely just says shit like that cause he thinks no one is going to stand up to him#(well he probably would reframe if Ivy was also around but ya know if not)#harley quinn#harleen quinzel#dc comics#victor freeze#mr freeze#tw abuse mention#tw clown boy#mentioned at least
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It is done
#who's the baddes bitch that wrote 6k in one sitting? THIS MF BITCH THAT'S WHO!#now time to edit and proofread this bad boy#*sees my editing notes that i wrote while writing the entire thing so i can just go back at it* *its a page long* OH GOD#i love it so much!!!!!!!#also pls read the author's note at the end of the fic 😉#good luck to everyone reading it the second it drops ❤️#end of an era#drafting this post will be a pain in the ass literally the worst part of uploading a fic#but it'll be worth it#hope you all like it!!!#katy mumbles#katy updates#bdas#update on Saturday???? if i finish early but most likely sunday
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I just need to inform you that Kingdom Come is one of my favorite things right now. Every time it updates, I basically drop everything I’m doing to go read it. I also love how you draw Zoro and Sanji.
Okay bye. Love your work. ❤️
I'm so glad to hear that, and that so many people are enjoying this fic especially. (and all the others, of course!)
I worked hard to plan this story, and to apply everything I've learned since fanfic #1! So I'm really happy you guys are enjoying it, because I'm enjoying writing it. Art is always more fun when shared.
cheers xx
#answers#come read and leave a comment#I'm looking forward to breaking everyone#it'll end happy I promise#I will make the suffering worth it
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I started making an example piece for portrait commissions and I'm doing it but man did it get out of hand
#it's going to be so cool though!!#I think I'll have them be a lil expensive but I think it'll be worth it cause they end up looking really good
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the amount of math i put into figuring out my PTO is honestly so funny. i've probably spent like 2 hours this week and last week just playing with the leave calculator spreadsheet my coworker gave me. this morning i added a sheet for 2026 so now i'm calculating my PTO out that far. i basically already have a plan of how i'm taking time off for 2025 so as to maximize my time off in 2026. i dont think this is a normal level of attention to detail but at least i'm having fun
#(at my job i can accrue a certain amount of PTO that then becomes 'use or lose' because only so much carries over each year)#so by the mythical year 2026 i could in fact end up with 121 hours of use or lose by the end of it#aka i am Forced to take off 15 days (121 hrs) that year or it'll just be wiped#oh dear oh no! however could i manage to take 15 days off! <- DESPERATELY wants to be in this position as soon as possible#my issue is that i keep taking too much time off so i havent hit the maximum cap yet lmao#like if i just chilled out i could reach it next year#but chilling out is not in my vocabulary. i have places to go and people to see#therefore i cannot reach use or lose in 2025 BUT i can reach it in 2026....if i don't end up spending too much of what i accrue first#so i have vauge plans next year that havent solidified and i keep trying out stuff to see how many hours it would leave me with#historically my methods of maximizing time are:#1) work a flexible schedule with 9 hour days one pay period in order to get a day off for 'free' (this is how i'll get black friday off)#2) work over time and bank those hours as 'credit' time. i can have up to 24 hours/3 days worth of that stored#(i can easily do this long term by just like. working an extra hour every week and it'll add up lol)#3) receiving a time off award if management loves me enough (i normally get a free 8 hours award each year but i can't bet on this)#4) earning travel comp time by working overtime via work travel (such as your flight getting in at 8 pm or whatever)#5) earning normal comp time by attending a work event outside of normal hours (i.e. that time i worked on saturday)#these are all ways to get time off without dipping into PTO so that i can let the PTO accumulate#......as you can see i'm Very normal about this
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It was just a throw-away line. That was all it was, and yet it managed to slip out of Vegas' mouth like a wet stone, a faint thud echoing in his ears and on the white sheets. Silence followed. It was tense, or maybe it was just Vegas who felt so; Pete seemed to still be lost in the high of the rare, good orgasm Vegas had been able to give him earlier. His face didn't show any signs he had even heard Vegas' words. His expression remained neutral, his eyes closed, his lips slightly parted. Vegas could see a bit of his tongue peaking out from behind his teeth. Red hiding behind the white. It was tantalizing. Vegas wanted to move his head closer, to kiss Pete for the millionth time, tongue meeting tongue. He wanted to bite, to lick, to suck Pete's tongue into his mouth and claim it his own. Most of all, he wanted an answer. One Pete hadn't given him yet.
(First-draft snippet from the 2nd chapter of To Consume and Be Consumed)
#trying to motivate myself to write at least SOMETHING#not super satisfied with this but it's the most writing I've done in weeks#let's hope it'll end up being sth worth posting eventually#prepare for some failed somno shenanigans folks#it'll be so much fun#not for VP but it will be for me and that's all that matters :)#vegaspete#snippet#yu is writing
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Glad to hear you're not rushing with the writing when a lot is going on in your life. Life happens, and it's always okay to take the time necessary to deal with that. Hope the move goes well! 💖
THANK YOOOU //quietly sobs
It's been a time man, on top of moving Verdette and I ALSO found a stray kitten we have unintentionally adopted and are now taking care of X"D
His name... is Don Al Catone. Al Catone "Meowsky" Tire Pepper the Fourth. Gaze upon his adorable glory! (Don't let his cuteness fool you. He is a boy of VIOLENCE AND DEATH)
#not writing#writer asks#i'm tired captain#first we get kitten#and then we move#i'm dyin scoob#but i'm still chuggin because in the end it'll all be worth it
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I know the last miles are the longest....
I think I just really need to get railed in the worst way on a balcony somewhere in Florence. Then followed by taking my brain out sea and leaving it to air dry on a clothes line till it's all fresh again 👋🇮🇹🍷
#🤝#Working so hard to catch my set deadline upcoming October 1st (then 2 weeks of tying up the loose ends until mid-October + checking errors)#But I need to guard it doesn't start to adversely affect my mental health at this point. ugh#I'm just tired after this summer. Yet excited to finally work on actualy projects soon#But I feel I got to jump through so many hoops now: continually proving my worth + talents + skills. And I have yet to launch my career...#It'll be okay. I'm fierce. But god knows I need someone to fuck my brains out then hold me on their chest and tell me I'm good#I've come so far and there's no time for doubt now. But the insecurties whether I will succeed or not can be daunting and heavy still
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— OCS AS LOVE TYPES
tagged by @stephschoices to do this uquiz for some ocs and naturally i chose the 3 stooges <3 thank you very much for the tag i love uquizzes!!
tagging everyone reading this. i can do that right
KALLIAS — love that lasts
love unconditional, love unfailing. you love no matter what happens because you believe in the best – of you, and them. it will hurt and it will fail you, but this love tastes so sweet – you can never believe that it bitters sometimes. the way you choose to love unconditionally is incredible.
GALEN — love that strengthens
you make sure that people know that they are loved, and you give them strength when they need it the most. this is an ability that is rare; the love that you hold speaks wonders of yourself. i hope you're doing alright. isn't it exhausting always being the bigger person?
V — love that calms
this is sweet. i hope you know that you make others feel at ease around you. you're a gem, a blessing, a treasure – and you should know it. it's comfortable loving you. it's a privilege to be around you and to be let into your world.
#tag game#kallias#galen#victoryne/valen/vail#kallias' and galen's are SPOT ON#kallias does not know it yet but they fall hard and blind and head over heels#they're loyal to a fault & if they love you that means you can do no wrong in their eyes#you know that quote that goes 'jealous of the sun because it kisses your skin and jealous of the moon because she watches you dream'#if you opened up kallias' brain that's what you'd see#you wouldn't see it laid out quite as eloquently but the idea is there#galen expresses their feelings. not well. but you can tell anyway if they love you and i think that is so special#you can tell when they think the world of you ):#and if it's romantic#tender kisses to tender bruises....#their love is safe and comforting and i would like to be wrapped up in it#they're so steamed milk on a cold night#v's result surprised me LOL but. yeah!#they're definitely not the calmest of people but this makes sense to me anyway#it'll take a while for things to get to this point but i like to think the wait & effort will be worth it in the end [:#i think telling v that you feel at ease around them could either be the world's greatest insult or the world's greatest compliment#depending on how your relationship looks at the time#but if they take it as a compliment it will HIT#if they love you they want nothing more than for you to feel safe and they will bust their ass off to provide that#SO SORRY for rambling. but also not that sorry#i love my little guys (gender neutral)
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heyyyyyy everyone how have you been
sorry for being uh. dead on tumblr and ao3 aksgekgdrh I've been pretty busy yknow how life is and all that
and I. may have completely forgotten that tumblr was a thing for. a while. whoops.
sorry not sorry? it happens to me a lot and it will definitely happen again ALHRFLQGSRG
I also did not feel like coming back unless I had written anything which is a very bad thing don't do that people.
But yeah I have a Harumi fic I'll probably publish in a couple of days? If I remember to. But I'll definitely have a lot of stuff the share at the end of summer/start of september
Like, 5 or 4 updates? It'll be bbnb chapter 16, elss chapter 2, bruise vampire ch2, a sora fic I'm still not satisfied with for now even though it's done, and the last one I'm not sure I'll be done with it by then we'll see how it goes!
I don't guarantee that I'm completely back, sorry. Because I just suck at using social medias afesghdglk but I will try in some future thanks for understanding <3
For now I will just answer my asks and stuff, and then I'll disappear off of tumblr once again!
take care people! see you soon!
#yeah it will definitely happen again#also working on jaya in bbnb might've destroyed me. slightly.#I've been stuck in a zone where i did nothing but work which is a bad thing don't do that people#but I somehow did write a bit! surviving this one#I hope it'll be worth it y'all are gonna have lots of fics by the end of summer as an apology#I also have a like shatterspin jay fic drafts that I'm probably never gonna continue#but if you guys want it I'll try to polish it so you can have it by the end of summer as well#it's like shatterspin. but literally shatterspin. Idk how to explain that#anyways#i'mma disappear again#see ya#hat's words
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Here, have this silly animation that i worked on today 🫴
#one piece#one piece meme#op fanart#animation#chuck fall#ngl i was chuckling to myself the entire time while making the nami parts#idc even if no1 finds this worth a watch#i made it purely for me and my own entertainment#if someone else ends up enjoying it as well it'll just be an awesome byproduct#and that's what it's all about#peace out
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Fandom: Metalocalypse (Cartoon) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: William Murderface/Skwisgaar Skwigelf Characters: William Murderface, Skwisgaar Skwigelf, Nathan Explosion Additional Tags: Nude Photos, Masturbation, Internalized Homophobia, Porn With Plot, Drunk Texting, Vomiting, Panic Attacks
Murderface wakes up with a nasty hangover and the night prior slowly sets in for him.
#FINALLYYY im sorry its so late#as i explain in the note i had to rewrite the whole ending of this chapter#i forgot rebecca nightrod existed and i needed to set up how nathan meets her#meaning the entire thing is gonna be longer but im not bummed#it'll be worth it#william murderface#skwisgaar skwigelf#nathan explosion#skwisface#metalocalypse#zillafic
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