#but it’s rlly. Sad I guess. It’s just sad?
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if you pick s5, do me a favor and tell me what’s your second favorite in the tags!! I’m just asking as someone who’s still really new to the fandom - I’m curious what the general consensus is on the most popular season :))
#my guess is that s4 is the general fan favorite but I honestly don’t know!! I’m curious!!!#malevolent#malevolent podcast#sunny polls#so far I am a s5 girly honestly. the medieval escapades just bring me such joy#but I won’t truly know until it’s finished#second favorite I’d probably have to say s4????#I wanna say s3 since it impacted me the most. but it also just makes me rlly sad and mad at Arthur 80% of the time so#but s4 is a fun time#idk. honestly I don’t know!!! I feel like my favorite is just whatever’s the most recent lmao#bc I like John and Arthur more and more the longer they know each other <3
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Feelin sad
#Ok I’m feeling like less than well which is probably influencing my emotional state — this too will pass & whatnot#but it’s rlly. Sad I guess. It’s just sad?#That like I am never the most important person to anyone else. Everyone else has like partners and best friends#& wow I’d love one of those but everyone else seems to have gotten to each other first#I cant expect them to change & i don’t want to like tear apart relationships or anything & i know people do care about me#but it’s just like. There’s always someone else they care abt more. Like i love my roommate and it loves me#but it also loves its long-distance girlfriend who it’s 90% of time on call with#my other two closest friends are in a relationship with each other & then like every other friend and person I care about who cares abt me#cares abt someone else more#I wish I could live with someone who cared about me and would ask me about my day and actually care about the response#or hold me when I was feeling down or even god forbid kiss me and tell me how much they cared about me#guess I’ve gotta wait a few more years for that tho
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save me tattooed dan save me
(non tattooed version bc Arms and also this entire piece was inspired by this tweet x so i should probs make the top easier to see)
#bro those tattoos took like 2 days for me to figure out sketch line then paint THEN readjust everything bc i suddenly remembered dil exists#i know this is going to flop dismally but i mainly did it for me bc i’m too disabled to tattoo so i’m living vicariously through myself#by just#drawing tattoos on people i guess#sigh#also took so long bc the atrophying is getting rlly bad but can’t do anything abt that so#slow and steady wins the race🙂↕️#what references can u recognise.. every tattoo has a meaning..#i was annoyed i finally started getting ideas after everything was in place so i couldn’t fit the microwave which is sad#but there’s still others !!#yes even the flowers have meanings :33c#art2 and craft2#phanart#daniel howell#dan howell#dan and phil#dnp
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Initial drawings of that old man… I literally, I haven’t finished reading the book of bill yet!!! I had to stop and take a break for a week to feverishly draw fanart of myself petting fords floofy hair and giving him attention and shit…!!!! The urge was too great….!! I’ve literally. I had a crush on this guy the instant he was first REVEALED in the show, but I did not have the artistic prowess to draw good looking old men back then… but I do now… thank god… thank fucking god
#gravity falls#ford pines#stanford pines#self ship#self insert#si x canon#it me#doodles#I got a haircut! so my hair looks different now.. as haircuts tend to do lol#anyway… yeah… I LOVE HIM… GRAHHFJH#the confirmation that he rlly is just sad and lonely and insecure and craving attention and validation#OHH FORD BBY.. WE R THE SAME#like… ghghg i loved him already just w his prickly nerdy outer shell but knowing more about the vulnerable center is GREAT. ITS AWESOME#also hes a smart nerdy guy who can do science and expirements and shit which is ONE OF MY FAVORITE THINGS FOR A CHARACTER TO DO#u kno im all about scientists….#I couldn’t draw ship art back then 1 cuz I didn’t kno how to draw old men and 2 cuz I was like 13 lol… which would have been wierd#but I’m an ADULT NOW. GET OVER HERE FORD#also it didn’t even rlly cross my mind TO draw that stuff cuz even tho I did love ford#self ship and x reader sorta stuff was not NEARLY as popular back then.. like I specifically remember it like. booming in popularity#at some point. but being pretty rare before that. anyway. thank u passage of time and trends and new gravity falls book for introducing#me back to fictional man I love. so I can now draw myself smooching him and shit#hell yeah.#13 is probably not actually correct I do not remember exactly which year fords reveal was in…#but I was probably older then 13.. but still#the point remains lol.#also omg. the bit in the book w the goth moth. ‘ur probably into this sorta thing right?’#I AM INTO THAT SORTA THING FORD. thank u book of bill for being written specifically @ me. the immersion it’s great.#like ur so right ford I AM edgy and goth how’d u guess that tee hee. eyelash flutter#aLSO PLS IGNORE MY FINGER BEING IN FRAME IN THE LAST PIC. I was drawing in a tiny bound sketchbook#so I had to hold the paper down to keep it flat. and. I didn’t feel like censoring my fucking. pinkie finger out of the image
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Angel Dust Turns Human - Pg1
I need to mention how insane it is that Angel Dust is like, around 8ft tall. I'm not good at drawing tall people, so his human form made him shorter since, if he was alive, he'd be at least around 6ft; that's as tall as he's gonna get!
Anyways, I like Angel Dust centered media bc he's my fav🫶👨❤️💋👨 It upset me, when I finally watched the damn show, how little screen time he had (no, those 2 episodes were not enough for me). Personally, I don't think his character was that explored, so I'm just stretching him out a bit in this - even if it goes against Canon, sorry☹️
In fact, this whole comic goes against Canon😔. Since the whole point is Parental Alastor & Angel as a son figure. I don't see enough of that (obviously since it doesn't fit much but idc) so I made my own.
It's also possessive Alastor, since I really love 'yandere' parental/platonical relationships, there's not much media with that trope💔
NO ROMANCE! This whole thing is found family🙏
#hazbin hotel#angel dust#alastor#charlie morningstar#human au#? i guess#parental figures#comic art#fanart#yandere parent#possesive love#/platonic#no romantic relationships#no romance#sorry guys I just dont ship Angel dust w anyone :(#not that he CANT be in a relationship. I just dont see him in one - or the one I picture in my head#it makes me sad that he doesnt rlly have anyone to confide in - excluding any potential romantic partners#I dont count charlie since their relationship is rarely ever shown; I dont rlly see the two being close - no matter how hard they tried#alastor being a parental figure is mainly because of his 'creepy/scary' aspect - I like parents who are intimidating. even to their kids#husk couldve also been a father figure here but I just dont see it sorry - hes too much of a drunk so..#hes better off as a pal#hazbin art#hazbin lucifer
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ive been thinking about the red string superstition recently and also sol bufo always and it makes me sick how uncannily caldwell tanner has made sol to perfectly target me personally
(+ cropped versions !)
#naddpod#ba2mia#ba2umia#solum bufo#swag daniels#calliope petrichor#calder kilde#alexandrite#posts by me dot com#okay..... SECRET TAGS RAMBLE!#so basically this superstition is like ... i think a chinese/buddhist/taoist superstition?#ive taken some creative liberties with it... but its mostly accurate to how its been told to me?#but of course theres lots of variations! some more abt bad luck; some say to tie it on the doorknob#etc etc ... lots a variations#i was also rlly interested in the .... weird illogic? of the thing?#like the red attracts and repels spirits at the same time#so thats something i was thinking about with too. red is assocuated with both swag and alexandrite. which to me was kinda reflecting like#i think what murph said . swags place in the wild is in a way. an extension of what he learned from the network#mothership s inextractivle from sol and swags lives. they will always be held doen by it. thats the spirit that will follow them forever#that they choose to hold on too! as much pain as it brought ... some of the experience was worth it#and anyway. theres somethingwrong w me that the minute someone brought up this superstition my brain went#'ohhh just like sol!' < needs to touch grass moment#but i CANT BELIEVE. CALDWELL DID THE RED STRING. AND ITS LITERALLY A MOURNING RITUAL#caldwell keeps accodentally makig that frog ASIAN. to MEEEE!!!!!!#but. anyway. idk. ive always hced sol kept the piece of yarn and it makes me kinda .... what if y let the malicious spirits follow you.#and haunt you. what if its the closest you can get to keeping the person still around#and sol and swag obviously have so much about homes .... so!#(ok. weve reached the pt where maybe nobodys reading? so confession is this is sort of a well. ive just been doodling this comic everyday#after a wake. and it was sort of inspired after realising i was even a bit sad about it maybe. so. idk its about sol but also?#i guess the projection doesnt end at him being asian. hehe. is what i mean. LOL. okay secret tags over . buried lore. dont look here folks)
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Me when my casual interest becomes an obsession (again)
#guess-ill-dye#aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah#jjba#jojos bizarre adventure#no rlly#my brain needs more#aah#jojo no kimyou na bouken#jojo#guess-ill-die#help#i need more jojo but where to read the manga??#im sad aaah#maybe ill just watch jojo again#see how long it takes me hehe#ill try maybe#i mean i have nothing else to do sooooooo#<3
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First Aid had always been scared of fire. It wasn’t a debilitating fear; it was just something that never went away. A stray spark here, a flicker there- he’d seen how fast these things could burn away everything you’d known.
But now, the house is up in flames, and he is terrified.
He’d tried to grab the others. He’d been fast, maybe, but his clothes weren’t fireproof; medic gear wasn’t nonflammable. He reflected the light, and it made him look blinding, almost, the opposite of a black hole, burning the eyes where fire burned flesh. He’d tried to grab them. Between his clothes burning to his arms, hands reaching out past flames and past howling zombies.
The zombies had come first. They’d barricaded themselves inside, and they were buying time, and it was going to work, until suddenly it- wasn’t. Until it was this moment, fire screaming. Voices crying out.
“Get the kids!” Onslaught had roared, shouting over the crumbling floorboards as he held a zombie back with his bare arm, the teeth already sunk in to it. First Aid understood. And he tried. He tried, Primus please forgive him, he tried to get to the them, but-
Fire burns, but smoke kills. Was it worse? To hold their bodies and wail out in agony, knowing they wouldn’t awaken? Worse than hearing the screams of Blast Off as he tried, failed, to fight off the zombies.
Vortex found First Aid still in the room. Had grabbed him, pushed him, dragged him outside, gave him the keys to the emergency vehicle. Said, “Go!”
Go. He said, bleeding, bitten. Go. The house on fire.
So First Aid went.
And here he is now, in an abandoned cabin in the woods, far away from the world. The night is cold. There is no heat. Save, for the fireplace inside it, unlit.
First Aid stares at it the whole night and trembles the whole night through.
@mr-miss-anonymous
#first aid#transformers#zombie au#transformers idw#bad ending to the au I guess bc project zomboid has NOOOO npcs#so uuuh. dead they are#I don’t rlly like sad aus like this just bc#they’re reaaaaally boring because wow everyone’s DEAD#no room for dialogue or conflict#I guess we can have the conflict of first aid smoking 20 cigarettes ?#and getting sick#or eating some bad food and getting sick
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okay nonbinary character in Orv alert. slay
#Pretty fun that they’re having a jealousy moment over dokja rn#(I know junghyeok said he wasn’t specifically talking abt dokja but I assume he said that to keep nirvana from attacking dokja.)#Demonic judge of fire and secretive plotter are goofy lmao#Junghyeok: IM NOT INTERESTED IN MEN#Constellation demonic judge of fire is coughing up blood! You have been gifted 2000 coins!#<- killed me. Demonic judge of fire I love you pookie#….of course when I look at nirvana’s wiki they’re misgendered. -_-#Though I guess the vibe is tht bc they reincarnate so much gender is irrelevant to them? Which. that’s a vibe.#but also would it mean tht they don’t rlly care abt pronouns as long as u acknowledge that fact?#Idk I’m just pre-emptively headcanoning in case they turn out to be shitty rep#OHHHH NO JUNGHYEOK TRAUMA MOMENT. LOOKIT HIS SAD FACE D:#Sidenote I do adore how much the power scaling in this is just like kids in a playground one upping each other#And that guy from the small world was such an overpowered oc even though we already have a parody of an overpowered oc (junghyeok) hdgjfjv#‘Could they have invested everything into speed & psychic skills instead of physical skills?’ OMG#KICK THEIR ASS DOKJA#I love glass canons. Surely they’ll never break#‘Ur hot so I won’t kill you’ nirvana if only you were a protag….. YOU ARE SO CUNTY#Kim dokja dissociating even harder to defeat literal nirvana. Good for him#going post#orv
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i need a hug man
#sorry there’s no quirky relatable joke to this one i just. yeah#sparks speaks#vent#i guess#this isn’t like in the “ohh i’m sad i need comfort :(“ way btw it’s just like. i need a hug or a pat on the back or anything rlly#whatever higher power made me incredibly tactile extrovert should be shot. this sucks#whatever. i have math hw to do#edit i forgot my last post on this blog was also about this exact thing. truly i am pathetic
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today feels like an excellent day to embarrass myself and make bad desicions that i will definitely regret, so i will text my crush that i haven’t talked to for months, and has also told me that he is not romantically interested in me, and tell him all the ways he is lovely and gorgeous
#crying#crush#shooting my shot#he is so sweet and i’m just a scrawny crusty withered soggy witch#i love him sm💕💕💕💐💐#girlblogging#i can have a little delulu. as a treat#ok but its been like a whole year since he said he doesn’t have a crush on me and last year i also didn’t have a crush on him#and hhere i am now crushing on him. things change ok and im not quite as sad and ugly as i was a year ago#pLUS‼️‼️ i always catch him doing these rlly nervous movements around me like accidentally glancing at me the same moment i glance at him#and we accidentally make eye contanc for 0.00001 seconds and he turns his head in the other direction SO FAST#it’s one of my favorite things about him cuz he gets so shy when we near eachother and starts rapidly looking at anything that isn’t me lol#so what i’m saying is MAYBE I HAVE HALF A CHANCE NOW??!!!?!???!???!!??!?#i guess i will update if it goes well?!?!?!?!?!?!#severely touch starved and desperate for human intimacy posting#but what do i do if he rejects me????? what will i do then???? just live in shame of my delusional confidence???#BUT WHAT IF HE LIKES ME BACK????!!!! WHAT THEN?????!!?? THEN I HAVE TO MAINTAIN A RELATIONSHIP AND FACE THE FACT PEOPLE CAN SEE ME#lgbtq#bi#biromantic#ace#asexual#unrequited love#situationships#i long i yearn i crave yet i don’t dare text or sit near him or look at him for fear of being perceived#bitch got me listening to mistki laufey and pink pantheress
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#tw weight talk#im rlly proud in myself ive officially lost the weight i put on during my depressive episode this year lmao#im finally below 150lbs again. which is how i started the year but then i got Sad and it went to 165 ish#which isnt extreme or anything but i definitely felt more self conscious and worse in my ability to move or bend#its going to be hard to keep this up in winter (bc edmonton winter is miserable and i dont want to be outside) but hehhhh ill try#produce is also so expensive in winter i tend to go to starchy cheap foods but i guess Im Worth It and i should just spend the damn money
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the fact u can’t pick n choose what effects from hormones u get kills me
like why can’t i do the whole design ur own body and gender presentation with both fem n masc characteristics?? huh??? diy my gender yknow
#like ik it’s also a generic lottery#and that’s WORSE bc my genetic lottery is shit#and wouldn’t give me what i wanted#so guess that’s fucked#like i don’t rlly get dysphoria that makes me sad there’s just some things i’d like MORE#laz speaks#genderqueer#gender ambiguous#genderfluid#gender
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I can’t believe I’m the type of person ppl actually check the blog of
#nobody’s done that#well since Eris she used to do that#I just don’t expect ppl to pay attention to what I have to say because it doesn’t make sense half the time anyways#and it’s so brain rot excruciating to listen to I bet 😭#ndieakska#granted ik nobody DOES check it’s just that one girl who makes it very obvious she likes me a lot is all#so I guess it makes sense that she does#ig it’s not surprising at all huh#lol if somebody else other than her did that I’d be surprised#oh my head hurts lollll#wait actually :( I’m so sad she said she felt panicked by the fact I deactivated ??#that was not my intention at all 😭#man I should rlly respond to her friends’ message in that case#dora daily
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they look half dead ☹️
#weezer#rivers cuomo#brian bell#patrick wilson#matt sharp#i rlly like rivers’ hair in this one! it’s epicness#i liked his hair in the 90s with his bowl cut.#bowl cuts are cool#and he looked great w it !#anyways yesterday was my boyfriend’s birthday party; and i got him some chaos emeralds from sonic that he’s been wanting like ; forever!#it was fun for the most part; but nobody told me we would be swimming plus i was the only girl there sooo i was just sitting around while#everybody swam and stuff. and my friend hayden i guess felt bad so he stayed out of the pool despite having swimwear and just played mobile#games with me; which was fun and i really appreciated but this guy ; who will remain nameless was being rlly mean to me at the party#like he was saying stuff abt how my boyfriend didn’t really like me THAT much (we have been together for nearly a year…)#and other things like that; which made me rlly sad and i kept asking my mom to pick me up but she wasn’t answering so i couldn’t do anything#besides trying not to cry and stuff. but it’s okay#and after everybody went inside besides me and my boyfriend ; we were cleaning up the table since the guys left all their trash and i had#like a whole pile of trash; like tons of plates and a whole stack of trash still; the guy from earlier who was mean just like#put his trash on top of the trash i was already carrying inside#since the guys were all crowded around the trash cans (he was closest; but he couldn’t throw it away; rather he wanted to deliberately just#put it on the pile i was carrying ) and it wouldn’t be a big deal if he wasn’t mean earlier; i wouldn’t have cared so much#but he was being real mean and just did that. and i’m a passive person ; but i rolled my eyes a ton at it and idk it felt like the#other guys were laughing; which made me feel even more awful about the fact but yeah so i rolled my eyes tons and he told my bf that he was#sorry about it; but didn’t say it to me and stuff and idk it just made me feel bad#when i was younger i got bullied a lot and people would throw their trash on my lunch tray n it just reminded me of that and made me sad;#but it’s okay now! other than that i had a good time and it was fun! my boyfriend said he loved my gift to him so ya! :D it was fun other#than the stuff with the guy! but yeah. not rlly weezer related tags today; just really wanted to get that off my chest#my boyfriends mom asked if i felt left out; which i definetly did and really wanted to go home but ik i couldn’t so i was just sitting at a#table alone for abt 20 mins while everybody was changingninitially#but it’s okay! ty for listening to my rant i love u all
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s/oljiwan is like o/ngsasun if they were good and had good development and a good ending and 😸 literally anything good actually
#back on my hate train for Those Two of course#they were so good at the start which is the upsetting part#it’s just the outing and later treatment that sun did @ o/ngsa that rlly makes me mad#i guess it’s different bc s/oljiwan are childhood friends but idk#they did the coming out (kinda.. wasn’t really a focus whatsoever but you know) and also jealous gf/friend thing better#and then the relationship happened and it made Sense#i just think. g/mmtv is too much#imagine if it were well written… if some things were changed…#no but i really am so sad bc of the outcome#o/ngsasun were getting so cute🙁 and then it was messed up#it sucks cause now looking at m/ilklove can be hard EVEN THO I LOVE M/ILK AND L/OVE UGH#i need to watch zero p/hotography urgently so my feelings improve#i’m sojdjekcjfj#🧸
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