#but it was nice to put that exercise to good use tbh

[vhalesa]

Once again it was time to turn my friend's conversation into a silly mayakuro comic

[kitkat13001]

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>> l lawliet x reader

i feel like he’d thrive with a pet. he’s never had any exposure to animals so it’s definitely a new experience for him. i think the unpredictability of a cat would suit him. its irregular behavior keeps him on his toes, given his tendency to analyze patterns. he’d be very affectionate with a cuddly cat 

i think he would also like the loyalty of a dog. he needs stability in his life 🫶 and a cute little puppy that’ll grow w him is just perfect for him. plus, im sure it’d force him to exercise a little more (couldn’t hurt him tbh) w all the running after it he’d be doing

he watches true crime for background noise—if he actually sits down to watch it, he’ll figure it out in the first five minutes (if he didn’t already know the case outcome himself). he needs to multitask in order to genuinely enjoy it, so he usually puts it on while he cooks or cleans so he’s not dedicating his full focus to it and proceed to act like a mom watching a telenovela 

*gasp* “they found the body in the lake!”

“hmm…that was anticlimactic.”

“‘breaking news’? i had already figured that out three episodes ago.”

“oh, i worked this case!”

his cooking is shit at the beginning. you have to be patient with him. he goes in thinking bc he’s so smart it’ll come out good no matter what. (this is the case with a lot of activities he’s now discovering due to the new lifestyle). he is wrong. 

HOWEVER…he does improve with time. he’ll follow a recipe to perfection and study it until he gets it right. the only downside is his food tends to be on the more plain/bland side, so if you like strong flavors i’d keep seasonings handy. he grew up in england, what do you expect? he does excel at making sweets and baked goods though, those tend to come out more flavorful.

for all his previously normal ‘secrecy’ he’s actually a chronic oversharer. because you’re bonded for life now, he feels the need to tell you everything, all of the time. his brain runs a mile a minute and he voices pretty much every thought he has. 

“does the fan seem louder to you?”

”no, ryuzaki. go to bed.”

“but we’re not doing anything tomorrow, so we can sleep in. there’s no need to go to bed right this instant.”

“…”

“that won’t be the case next week, though, we’ve got that birthday dinner to attend.”

“…”

“dinner sounds nice enough, but i loathe the thought of shopping for a present. maybe—“

“ryuzaki. go. to. sleep.”

“hmph.”

similarly, he has a tendency to notice your patterns (he calls it a “detective’s habit”). he’s freakishly accurate with it too. sometimes it’s useful, like when he stops at the store to pick up your favorite snacks and hygiene products when he knows your time of the month is approaching. however, sometimes it’s…just weird

“darling, do you need to use the restroom?”

“um…no?”

“really? interesting. your diet hasn’t changed the last couple days, and you usually use the restroom at approximately this time for about 10 to 12 minutes every day.”

“…what the fuck?”

even though you’ve both changed your names in order to secure your identities and safety, he still calls you by your real name when it’s just the two of you. in public he prefers to call you pet names instead of your newfound aliases

he has no issues switching back n forth and he’d never slip up for fear of exposing you both, but he just tries to avoid calling you by your cover name. he feels a little guilty because if he was a ‘normal person’ you wouldn’t have had to undergo all these procedures just to be with him. he’s used to using different names for himself, but it makes him a little sour that you now have to do that too :(

speaking of sour, he’s a veeeryy jealous man. he’s not obnoxious or even outright about it, but he doesn’t like when other people get too close to you (physically and emotionally). part of it is him being paranoid that they “know something” about you, but part of it is just bc he’s just a clingy lil guy 🥺 and he just wants to be your only special guy

he’s like a territorial cat

he gets nightmares about the kira case and all of his other past cases. he doesn’t make a scene when he wakes up from them, but if you notice he’s awake don’t ask him about them. it’s unlikely he’ll answer you, and he’ll feel bad thinking he woke you up. just pretend to still be asleep and subtly cuddle closer

it coaxes him right back to sleep knowing you’re safe and sound beside him. if you’re brave you can ask in the morning, but it’s likely he’ll have forgotten the dream by then

pleeeeassee take up yoga with him. since he doesn’t need to be crouched in his heightened-deductive-skill position 24/7 anymore, it’s a worthwhile investment to fix his posture and his numerous back problems. he might enjoy the calmness and flexibility yoga provides

he might be open to the idea of children. according to canon, he only interacted with the wammy kids once very briefly, but i like to think he was fairly involved with the orphanages considering they were raising his successor. it only makes sense they’d need to get to know him at least a little—and it would explain why near’s mannerisms are so similar to his. 

i think contrary to popular opinion he would be good with kids—in his own special way. he’s not exceptionally cuddly, but he won’t reject affection either. and his intuition and reflexes are so keen that it’s not like the kid would ever be in danger. 

he’s such a homebody. i mean, we already knew that—but him being able to go out in public now has not changed his desire to want to be alone (w/ you)

he has mixed feelings about crowded places. on the one hand, the anonymity of it is kind of nice and it sets his mind at ease that no one will be able to recognize you two in such a swarm. but on the other, someone is touching him and all the noise n stuff sorta overstimulates his nervous system

the next best alternative? take him to places that are still public and out-and-about but a little more secluded. a corner booth in the back of a little restaurant, a sprawling botanical garden, an independent cafe that’s not overcrowded, etc 

HE CANT DRIVE LMAOOO. a helicopter is one thing but cars??? on the road??? with other cars?????!!! he cannot. he’s a MENACE. hopefully you can drive, but if not then it comes to public transportation 🤷‍♀️ 

[thebibliosphere]

What is the gameplay like on Gotham Knights? I have poor coordination so I have trouble with anything more complex than LOZ: Ocarina of Time. Like, on a scale of Pokémon->Dragon Age->LOZ->Dark Souls?

It's a bit clunky like Dragon Age 2, tbh. Except it doesn't have the excuse of coming out in 2011. The mechanics and camera controls are one of the things that let it down a lot, IMO.

I’m constantly getting stuck on walls and the edge of ledges because the controls feel laggy and the game’s not consistent about which surfaces you can climb and which ones you need to grapple. It's fine if you’re fighting in more open spaces but it turns the timed events into an exercise in frustration. Not to mention the number of times it feels like I’ve taken damage through an obstacle from enemy ranged attacks when my own ranged attacks bounce off invisible walls if I’m not standing in the exact spot the game needs me to be in. This results in me just key smashing melee a lot until every around me stops twitching.

I’m still enjoying it, but it is v. glitchy and I understand why people are leaving angry reviews. Especially if they are deeply committed to the immersive elements and were expecting the same level of polish from the Arkham games, which this studio also made.

I’m just casual enough a gamer that I’m enjoying muttering “parkour” to myself as I accidentally fall off buildings and plumet to my death because my graple hook glitched out and went the exact opposite way I’d been aiming.

I’m really just playing it for the characters. It feels like playing a a game written by people who understand the appeal of found family that went hard on the campier elements of the franchise while still maintaining a decent level of aching sadness for the tragedy they’ve endured.

You can feel the group fracturing under the weight of Bruce’s death with Dick doing everything he can to fill the void and stay positive and “normal” for the sake of everyone around him, including Alfred who is devastated but also trying to keep it together. Barbara, mourning an extra loss, is trying so hard to stay level headed and useful for Dick. Being both Oracle and Batgirl while also acting like a fun big sister to Tim who stands out as really young in this iteration.

Sure he’s a kid genius, but he’s also only 16 with a monumental caffeine addiction (you can’t tell me all the energy drinks on the shopping list pinned to the fridge aren’t for him) and mourning the loss of Bruce while also just wanting to do normal teenage shit, like asking the group for help with his art homework and being annoyed that his role as Robin is keeping him from spending time with his online boyfriend.

Jay is very raw and angry and obviously processing his own trauma on top of everything that just happened but even he steps up, trying to be there for Tim, teaming up with Babs to gently pick on Dick when he’s being particularly Boy Wonder-ish. Seeing him stress cook is also a nice added touch as are the photos of him and Bruce working on stuff. Bonding.

Which is another thing I Love. From what we see of him, Bruce is in his absolute DILF element in flashbacks and in recordings. All sad smiles and a gentle, head-shaking tolerance for the absolute ribbing the kids put him through for being too serious and neglecting himself. Not to mention all the pictures of him with Dick and Tim and Jason. And so many of him and Alfred and Ace. (The one on the fridge of him and Alfred showing them adopting Dick at the courthouse almost killed me. They all looked so young and happy.)

I’m getting serious “Bruce is a good dad with a warped sense of humor who hugs his kids and spends quality time with them, actually, and you’re wrong if you write him otherwise” fanon vibes, and that's honestly my favorite Bruce.

It’s basically appealing to everything I love about the franchise while scratching an itch in my brain the way crackfic taken seriously does.

And that’s enough to make me forgive the bad controls and glitches. But I could see it not being enough for some people, especially if you’ve already got poor hand eye coordination. Which I do. But again, I don’t really care about being good at games. I’m just dicking around and having fun wringing dopamine out of the narrative.

[asumofwords]

Ok lets talk about the important thing here:

How do you think Aemond, Aegon, Daemon and Cole dicks are?

🤔

Okay this is a really important question that I must answer.

And since my brain only ever thinks and imagines these things, and in my experience I have a fairly good eye for guessing (hands give it allll awayyyyy), let me begin 😈

Aemond’s cock would be long and have a nice thickness to it, I wouldn’t say he would be massively girthy, but I feel like your hand couldn’t wrap around it completely 😈.

His tip would be a blush pink, the same colour as his lips. He would occasionally trim the hair around the base, and that man is definitely veiny 🤤 I feel like he would be a good 6-7 inches long and very clean 🤤

There’s just something about skinny men, they always have a horse cock.

He has the perfect size dick (although to be fair, I actually hate long cocks because they hurt my cervix lmao) and he knows what to do with it. It has a slight upwards curve, a gift from the gods truly.

His cum would be salty, and quite nice to swallow down. It wouldn’t be gross or foul tasting, this man has a strict diet, and exercises often !

Aemond is clean and makes sure to take good care of his cleanliness and appearance, prim and proper like his attire.

Where Aemond has length, Aegon has girth.

He would sit around 5-6 inches long and super fucking girthy, not a chode, but quite thick. It would stretch you uncomfortably or painfully if you didn’t prep first. His tip would be the same colour as his lips but would get a deeper shade of pink and look angry when he’s horny.

I feel that he wouldn’t be too veiny, though would have some very soft foreskin to nibble on and I feel a bit extra tbh💀

Aegon is one of those fuckers who can cum and keep going, must run in the family. Absolute menace too, despite his cruelty, man knows how to make you squeal. He’s a whore, he fucks whoever, whenever, and has learnt tricks along the way.

Man definitely has a dick that smells like a dick. Not exactly the cleanest of cocks, musky as fuck, salty too, and his cum would be rancid because his diet consists of just alcohol and scraps of food lmao.

Definitely used one of his many dildo toys on himself or will use it on you instead, or make you use it on yourself and have him watch 😮‍💨

Aegon could dissolve your insides with his spunk. Acidic as fuck, a one way highway to thrush or BV. Hits good tho….

Daddy Daemon has a monster cock.

I’m not joking. Look at the size of this man. And his hands ? Huge. HUGE. I’m not joking. I’ve seen it. Anyway, back to his cock.

Daemon has a dick around 8-9 inches long and fat as fuck, he’s got a meaty cock.

A third leg. A tripod if you will.

Poor Rhaenyra is getting her guts rearranged every time he fucks her. She needs 3-5 business days to recover from the sheer force of the thing.

Pale and veiny, when hard his foreskin pulls back to reveal a gentle pink tip (same as his lips). Clean and well kept, Daddy Daemon’s cum tastes like when the heavens have opened and you have been offered retribution. Sometimes sweet, depending on what he has eaten.

Would absolutely be open to the idea of being pegged and anal play. Loves having his ass eaten ngl. This man is a freaky queer daddy 😈

Shoots fucking ropes though, you’ll be leaking for days!

Ser Criston Cole deserves no praise, but I would be lying if I said he didn’t have a pretty cock.

Tan, and a bit on the longer side like Aemond, this man would not know what to do with it. A sin really, to have such a pretty cock, and not use it.

A slightly more tanned knob, leaning to a soft purple colour, average thickness and the occasional vein, upwardly curved for your pleasure.

Ser Cole’s cock would be as clean as a whistle. I feel like Cole would definitely let you put a finger inside his ring, maybe too, and he would blush so pretty about it.

His bush would be soft as fuck too, have you seen this man’s hair ? Lush as fuck, looks like it should be in a hair commercial ad, and velvety smooth. I wouldn’t mind getting some of those hairs tangled up in my nose 🤪💀

His cum would be musky, yet not repugnant like Aegon. He eats well and is always moving so it wouldn’t be marinating inside of him, though I wonder if he empties the tank often or not, or if he actually is fermenting his seed 🤪

[nicistrying]

Tues 3rd December

My uterus has finally stopped trying to murder me, so yesterday Matt walked Maggie so I could stretch and do some v gentle core work in the morning. It felt good to move ❤️ Work was fine, it's always nice to work at home on a Monday rather than having to commute. Veggie sausages with roast veg and homemade onion gravy for dinner 🤌

Today, I walked Mags and we met the girlies ✨️ Wandered around in the dark getting all the good smells, and saw some more friends on the way home. So from feeling really groggy and gross when I woke up I felt much better after seeing sweet puppies and some exercise. Managed to do 2 sets of a relatively light arm workout. It was tough with her looking at me like this though 🥺

Worked, took her out to play at lunchtime, and she was sooo good - there is an old man we sometimes stop to chat to, and he has his grandson's sharpei that he walks. The sharpei is always on his leash, and Maggie freaks out that they can't play properly and gets too boisterous for him. She can't just say hello and then walk away 🙄 so the old man was waving me over to chat and I told her to sit and stay and bless her heart she just lay down a little way away from me, the old man and the other dog and watched us very politely until I went back to her. I was so proud 🥹🥹 she got lots of praise and treats bc if it's not an option to take her somewhere with me that will trigger her, the next best thing is to know I can trust her to stay put while I go myself. We do this when I need to put her poop in the bin too. She sits and watches while I go up to the road to bin it bc if she comes with me she wants to chase cars that come by. Like she is so obedient, but just gets so overwhelmed by her triggers that she can't listen. It's not ideal and by some people's standards she's a bad, aggressive dog but tbh she just has boundaries. It doesn't look nice to people with chill dogs but this is the gremlin we got so we try to work with it 😂

Matt was home by the time we got back, we all had our advent treats, and worked downstairs together. I picked up some Christmas presents from the shopping centre, we had more sausages & veg, and I squeezed in the last set of my arm workout before my bath. Slowly getting back into it. For now I think I have to just work with what my body can manage. Genuinely 3 days ago I could not have done a pushup I was in so much pain. Trying not to beat myself up and just go with the flow, push hard when I am physically able to, try to keep moving in any way at all when I feel like I'm dying.

Now bedtime 🙌

[bellascool]

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posted : 13/02/23 (European date)

He knew you had trusting issues but he still did it.

long ass chapter, 3400 words so put yourself il a confortable position

edit 10/04 (European date) : wanted to change Bella to Y/n as I saw people didn't like it but it was way too long so I'll keep Bella for that story, sorry again enjoy !

You were currently in french class listening to your boring teacher talking about how you have to "conjuguer au plus-que-parfait un verbe tout en utilisant une proposition subordonnée relative"

Thankfully, your family came from France and talked to you in french at home which made your french classes way easier.

You sighed and started doing your exercises, not paying attention to the group of boys who were talking about you right behind your seat.

You were used to people talking about you for no reason at all.

You finished your exercises and since there was 30 mins until the class end, you decided to sleep on your desk.

-

You opened your eyes after someone gently rubbed your shoulder making you lift your head to see who was the kind soul who didn't let you sleep there.

"Désolé je t'ai réveillée mais le cours il est fini depuis 10 minutes et le bureau il est pas confortable si je me trompe pas. (hey I'm sorry for waking you up but the class ended 10 minutes ago and the desk isn't comfortable, is it?)" the guy said putting a hand on his neck

It was Kylian, a guy from your class. He plays for the national France football team and was really good to be honest.

"Ah ouais j'ai pas vu le temps passer merci. (oh yeah I didn't pay attention to the time thanks)" you said back putting my backpack on your shoulders

"Je savais pas que tu parlais couramment français tiens (I didn't know that you could speak french fluently)" he stated next to you while you two were heading to the rooms of our university

"Kylian tu m'as littéralement parlé français après m'avoir réveillée (Kylian you literally spoke to me in french after waking me up)" you chuckled at how lost he was

"Ah ouais merde j'suis con (Oh yeah shit I'm dumb)" he laughed while putting his hand on his forehead realizing how dumb his question was

"I prefer speaking english tho" you switched languages which made him look at you with a 'girl what' face

"Why? French is a beautiful language too"

You sighed, he didn't knew why you denied my french side after all.

"Let's just say I have my reasons" you stopped in front of your room door, now facing each other "anyway thanks for waking me, have a wonderful night" you mumbled before entering your room, about to close the door

"Bella wait!" he blocked it with his foot making you open it again "I enjoyed your company, can I uh.. maybe have your number please?" he looked down probably embarrassed

"Oh yeah sure, give me your phone" he smiled while handing me what you asked, you put on your phone number and gave it back to him

"Merci! See you tomorrow!" he finally turned around and left

Did Kylian Mbappé, THE Kylian Mbappé just ask for MY number?

You thought that to yourself, screaming in your head.

He was a pretty boy but your trust issues had to break the moment.

You had several issues with trusting people after your past relationship and it clearly was annoying for you to always have to be careful with everyone.

You sighed and went to your bathroom to take a hot shower.

-

After doing your night routine, you laid down on your bed and took your phone, now noticing that you received messages.

Hey it's Kylian :)

Hii, what's up?

I was actually walking outside and saw a bakery, and you know what they were selling?

hmmm idk maybe bread?

Bella..

Okay okay sorry tell me

Macarons!

Oh

What? Macarons are great and it's french, our country!

If you say so lol

I was wondering if you would like to come eat some macarons with me tomorrow after school?

You stared at your phone with your heart pounding on your chest.

AAAARRGHHHHHHHH

Sure! I would love that :)

Nice! I was kinda scared to ask tbh

Why? I should be the one scared of what you would ask!

Hey!

You talked for hours, getting to know each other and without even realizing, you put my trust in him.

You now believed that he was a nice person.

Kylian I'm going to sleep, I'm tiredddd

You're leaving me alone? :(

Yes shut up

Mean.

Anyways, good night! <3

Good night ma belle :)

You smiled at the name he gave you, it meant "beautiful" in french and you loved it.

You went to sleep with a smile on your face, imagining scenarios with the french boy.

-

You woke up feeling better than any other day.

You've made a new friend, he's Kylian fucking Mbappé and he invited YOU to go eat macarons with him.

You got out of bed and headed to the bathroom to get ready.

After getting your hair, outfit and makeup done, you grabbed your backpack and went to your first class, which was maths.

Oh you absolutely hated maths. You understood but it was so damn annoying.

You entered the class and sat on your usual desk, grabbing your stuff.

The class was about to begin but Kylian still wasn't seen, his friends were there but not him.

You didn't really pay attention, focusing on your work.

The math teacher started his class when the door swung open, revealing a breathless Kylian.

"Mister Mbappe, you are late !" your teacher said annoyed

"I'm sorry, I had training this morning!" he apologized, heading to the seat next to you

"I'll let it pass this time but you better find another excuse next time!" the man said before continuing his boring class

Kylian took a pen and pretended to pay attention when he didn't

"Are you going to not say hi or??" he whispered turning his head to see your face

"You're so dramatic, hi Kylian, did you sleep well?" you sarcastically whispered back

"Hi Bella, actually no."

"You didn't get your goodnight kiss? Want me to give you one next time?" you took a childish tone to make fun of him

"Actually yeah, I would love that"

Your eyes widened a bit unlike your cheeks who were flaming hot now, he probably noticed it since he started laughing

"No but seriously, you're still down for the macarons right?" he asked after calming down

"Of course!"

"Good, now I have a reason to be excited to finish school" he mumbled thinking you didn't hear but you did and it made you smile

The rest of the day passed really fast to be honest you didn't even notice that english, your last period, was over.

You happily packed your things and got out of the university, waiting for Kylian.

He kept teasing you all day which made you appreciate his company even more.

After 5 mins, you saw him walking towards you, his hands in his pockets, a smile on his face.

"Finally, I thought you would never come" I said while rolling my eyes

"Sorry, I had to give my homework to Mr.Julien, you know he hates when we give it late" he apologized

"All good, let's go I'm craving some macarons right now." you said before grabbing his wrist and walking

"Bella you don't know where the bakery is." he laughed while you were getting red, embarrassed

You let his wrist go but he didn't appreciate it so he gently grabbed your hand, interlacing your fingers which made your heart go crazy in your chest

You walked to the bakery who was 10 mins away while talking and mostly making fun of your teachers, you laughed so much that you didn't notice you were arrived.

You entered the small bakery and headed to the counter.

"Hi, welcome to Petites Gourmandises, what can I get for you?" a lady asked with a smile on her face

"Hello, we'll take 15 macarons please!" Kylian said next to you, still holding your hand

"15 macarons for the cutest couple!" she said while putting them in a small box, you felt your cheeks getting red and Kylian chuckled at the nickname

"We're just friends!" you said laughing too

"Oh honey, friends don't hold each other's hands and friends don't look at each other as if they were about to kiss in a minute!"

Okay now you were really really embarrassed and Kylian not saying anything made it even worse.

You tried to take your hand off of his but he wasn't going to let you do that and held it even tighter now.

"Your total will be 30.99 please!"

You took out your wallet but he grabbed it from your hands and put it in his pocket.

"Bella, when you're with me you'll never ever pay" he said while scanning his credit card

"But-"

"Don't start." He cut you off

"There you go, have a wonderful day!" the lady said while handing you the box

"Thanks, you too!" you both said before going to a table, you sat face to face which means you stopped holding hands

"You know, I'm glad we became friends" he started while opening the small box

"Me too, I always thought you were like narcissistic and the kind of person to act superior because they're famous or something" I said before stuffing a strawberry macaron in my mouth, they're so good oh my!

Kylian dramatically gasped, putting a hand on his chest as if he was hurt

"How dare you?" he gasped

"Kylian you're acting like a bitch right now" you were laughing so hard at his manners

"Says the one who thought I was narcissistic!" he said in a bitchy tone making you laugh even harder as he joined you

After some minutes of laughing, you both took a calm mood again, smiling at each other

"Bella I have something to ask you" he started with a serious face

"What is it?"

"Why do you keep denying your french side"

You sighed knowing that one day he would have to ask the question.

"It's not easy to say, y'know" you were playing with your fingers, you always do that when you're stressed

"I don't specially want to talk about it in public to be honest" you said as you felt tears filling up your eyes as you remembered the reason

"Let's go to my room then" he proposed

"I-" you took a deep breath "okay fine let's go"

The way back to the campus was silent and it was better like that. It wasn't even uncomfortable.

You both made your way to his dorm room and he opened the door, revealing his little space.

It was nice, you were actually expecting something really fancy since he had the money but looks like he wasn't that type of person.

He sat down on his bed and you did the same, looking at the ground.

"So.. If you didn't knew already I grew up in France. I had a loving family y'know, I was an only child but I was never bored, my parents would take me anywhere I wanted to go" you smiled at the thought of your perfect little family "but like we say, nothing ever lasts forever. My mother started to be less and less present at home, my father believed that she just worked more so it didn't really matter." you paused, not wanting to cry in front of him

He must've felt that since he slowly took your hand, holding it tightly.

"He later found out that she actually was seeing another man, but the only man turned into multiple. He went crazy the night he found out. I was 9 but still scared of what I heard. He insulted her, calling her names and he started hitting her. I tried to do something but I was still a little girl and couldn't do much" a tear slipped from your eye and you felt a knot forming in your throat

That's when he wrapped his arms around you, gently stroking your hair

"You don't have to tell me, if you feel uncomfortable you can stop" He slowly said as you tried to calm down

"It's fine, you'll have to know one day" you held him tightly and continued "He beat her until she was unconscious, blood all over her probably dead body. When he realized what he's done, he couldn't let me there because he thought I would call the police." you did your best to stop the knot but it kept growing "he grabbed a vase and hit my head with it. He kept hitting until I feel unconscious too. If my neighbor didn't hear screaming, I would've probably died too. That night, I lost my mother and my father." That was when you couldn't keep talking, you had so much more to say but you just couldn't speak

Kylian just hugged you, slowly kissing your head as he felt his shoulder getting wet from your tears.

"I'm so sorry, I didn't knew, I promise I'll stay with you until you feel better" he whispered against your hair, making you smile

You were glad that he knew what was going on.

-

You were doing your makeup, preparing for your date with the french boy.

A week has passed since you told him and since then, he didn't leave you and made you feel better like he promised.

He invited you to go watch a football match, he knew damn well that you loved football but never had the opportunity to go watch a match.

You smiled as you left your room, he said he would join you in the entrance of the stadium so you just called an uber.

-

You were now searching for Kylian, there was a lot of people and him being a celebrity doesn't make it easier.

You suddenly felt someone grab your shoulder which made you turn around to be met by a familiar gaze.

"Kylian now why the fuck are you wearing a cap with a mask and sunglasses?" you asked confused

"I don't want people to ruin our moment" he said before you both headed to your seats

The match began 5 minutes later and you could feel him being strange

"Is everything alright?" you asked watching him worried

"Bella I know this isn't the perfect moment but I.. I think I fell in love with you" he said turning his head to see your face, he had taken off his sunglasses so you could watch his eyes

"Oh." was all you managed to say

"Oh I'm so sorry I shouldn't have said that" he started to apologize but you cut him off by pressing your lips against his, making him smile

You pulled out for air as he lightly smiled

"Shut up I like you too" you joked making him chuckle

"I'm glad then" he said before taking your hand in his, intertwining your fingers

You kept cheering for the team until it was halftime. Kylian received a text but you couldn't see what it was

"I'm sorry I have to use the bathroom real quick" he apologized before heading there

Okay there was definitely something going on.

You trusted your instinct and followed him, hiding behind a wall as he was with his friends from the university.

"Enfin (finally)!" one of them yelled

"Bien joué mec t'as gagné ton pari (Well done man, you won the bet)"

"Ça a pris du temps à la faire tomber amoureuse hein (it took time to make her fall in love huh)" his friend joked punching his shoulder

"Ouais je sais mais vous me devez tous 200 balles maintenant (yeah I know but you all owe me 200$ now)" Kylian said while laughing

"Ouais ouais ta gueule t'es millionnaire (yeah yeah shut up you're a millionaire" they all laughed

"N'empêche elle t'aime vraiment hein, t'as vu elle t'a raconté quoi? Sur sa famille (I mean she really likes you huh, did you see what she told you? About her family)"

Your heart skipped a beat, he told them?

"Je sais mec, j'étais trop gêné quand elle a pleuré (I know dude, I was so embarrassed when she cried)" damn. "mais au final je pense- (but in the end I think-)" you cut him off by throwing him your soda making all of them turn around

"Un pari, donc j'étais un pari pour toi. (A bet, so I was a bet for you)" you laughed, realizing how dumb you were for believing that a guy like him would ever love you

"Attends c'est pas ce que tu penses- (Wait it's not what you think it is)" he tried to explain as his friends laughed

"L'écoute pas, c'est carrément ce que tu penses, il s'est bien foutu de ta gueule (Don't listen to him, that's exactly what you think it is, he used you)" his friend said while laughing making you realize that it's sad

"Regardez moi je m'appelle Bella et mes parents sont morts sous mes yeux ouin ouin je suis traumatisée (Look at me my name is Bella and my parents died in front of me, I'm so traumatized)" his other friend mocked you, making your eyes fill up with tears

"Les écoute pas, je te promets je peux tout expliquer! (Don't listen to them, I promise I can explain)" Kylian tried to apologize but you just shook your head

"Tu sais quoi c'est bon, c'est ma faute d'avoir pensé une seule seconde qu'un mec comme toi pouvait s'intéresser à moi. En tout cas félicitations, t'as gagné ton pari, j'espère que t'es content pour tes 2 balles en plus sur tes millions. (You know what, all good. It's my fault, I shouldn't have believed one second that a guy like you could ever be interested in me. Congratulations, you won your bet, I hope you're happy to gain 2 dollars amongst your millions)" you turned around and mixed to the crowd, hoping he wouldn't find you

Tears running down your cheeks as you left the stadium, leaving pieces of your broken heart there.

You felt so dumb for believing in it but that was your fault for trusting him so fast.

You ran to the campus, it was 10 mins away, the plain moon enlightening the cold city.

You arrived to your dorm room and slammed the door behind you before collapsing on your bed, tears flowing your face.

You felt so embarrassed.

You didn't even wanted to go to school but you had to and you knew it.

You didn't even notice that you fell asleep.

-

The day ended, Kylian didn't even come to school but his friends did and made fun of you all day.

You didn't even pay attention to them. It was useless.

You headed to the dorms but bumped into someone, you almost fell but the same person grabbed your arm, helping you not to fall.

"Thank you I didn't see-" you started but immediately stopped when you saw who was standing in front of you

"Oh." was all you said before pulling off and walking past him

"Bella attends! (Bella wait!)" Kylian started, trying to grab your wrist but you managed to avoid it

"Commences pas (don't start)" you opened the door of your room but he still followed you

"2 minutes. Laisses moi 2 minutes pour tout expliquer. (2 minutes. Leave me 2 minutes to explain everything)" he said begging making you sigh

"Dépêche toi. (hurry up)"

"Oui, au début c'était un pari. C'est vrai. Mais je te promets je suis vraiment tombé amoureux de toi, je t'en supplie crois moi si je le pouvais je retournerais en arrière pour refuser ce pari à la con et je serais venu vers toi parce que t'es vraiment une personne géniale. (Yes, at first it was a bet. That's true. But I promise I really fell in love with you, please believe me if I could I would go back and decline the stupid bet and I would've came to friend you because you're really an amazing person)" you couldn't even look at him in the eyes

"Si t'es vraiment sincère, tu m'expliques comment ils ont su pour mes parents? (if you're really honest, could you explain how they find out about my parents?)" you asked, crossing your arms on your chest

"Y'avait Mathieu dans ma salle de bain mais je te jure je le savais pas et quand je l'ai découvert c'était en même temps que toi, hier et je peux t'assurer qu'ils se moqueront plus de toi. (Mathieu was hiding in my bathroom but I swear I didn't knew and when I found out, it was yesterday with you and I can assure you that they won't make fun of you anymore.)" he told you as he grabbed your shoulders, forcing you to look at him in the eyes

"Je sais pas Kylian, tu m'as vraiment blessée (I don't know Kylian, you really hurt me)" you said with teary eyes

"Et je recommencerai plus jamais, une seule chance. C'est tout ce que je demande. (And I'll never do that again, one last chance. That's all I'm asking)" he slightly smiled making you join him

You slowly leaned over and your lips connected in a passionate kiss.

You deserved to be loved too and he did.

You pulled out and put your forehead against his with your eyes closed.

"T'es vraiment un idiot. (you're really a dumbass)" you chuckled

After all, a boy like him could love a girl like you.

[terresdebrume]

I am back home from work and reader, I have more reports bullshit to share

Context:

No deadline has been shared for the vetting of those reports until about 8 this morning, when we were told today was the last day to finish our vetting

Around 11, I finish what I believe to be my last round of vetting

The aforementioned bullshit with English Teacher 2 happened during my lunch break

Our work day finishes at 4:30

At about 2:55, I receive a gdocs notification from H (the asshole who backstabbed me for the timetables, who is now in France but somehow still in charge of editing all the report cards) which consists of a ping and the automated mention "Assigned to you". This is in the file for another class, and associated with the "Students' reflections" section

(Students reflections are an exercise in good PR where the kids have to explain how cool our school is, what virtues they embodied this year, and what their sins were) (I'm the one adding "sins" here, but virtues is the exact word used there btw)

I send a message in the secondary group chat asking why this is suddenly appearing since editing students' reflections is the job of their homeroom teacher (I certainly don't put any of my kids' words on the report without looking at them and letting them know what edits I made and why). Answer from H: we overlooked it and we're adding it now

I (heroically) refrain from pointing out his communication is as shitty and disrespectful as ever and, merely say that several things were changed in the vetting process at the last minute and without communication, and it would be nice to have something prepared that we stick to next time. However, anticipating bullshit (and also having noticed that some tasks that were initially assigned to me + another teacher were now under my name only) I print a pdf version of the document detailing the vetting process. At this point, it is 3:13.

Enter J, who sends a message in reply to mine in the group chat saying all of it was shared before with a link to the aforementioned vetting process detail, where a mention of the students' reflections has suddenly appeared. I'm so angry I get confused and initially apologize for my misreading, before double checking my pdf version

At this point it's about 3:27. I check the info from the file: Modified by H at 3:22.

I was so fucking angry I got this close to cry tears of rage in front of my students tbh

[bonesandthebees]

ive been both really busy and also not? hahah but ive been good!! i've been mostly working. today was crazy actually, someone walked into the vet with a bearded lizard?? that they found ?? at the local park?? someone had just abandoned their lizard there ig which was really sad but im glad someone found it and was able to help it!! also the person who found it was a vet tech themselves who used to have bearded lizards so that's good hahahah they were v prepared

our doctor unfortunately doesn't take any exotics so we had to send them to a diff vet but it was cool to see the lizard, he was very sweet and friendly EUEUUEUE

but yeah other than work? mostly just been writing which has been super nice. this is the first year im properly tackling whumptober!! normally i just. pick and choose my fav prompts LMAOO but this year im actually writing for each prompt every day and i've done all 7 days so far!! im super proud of myself rahshshs

i went to my first social dance a couple weekends ago!! that was super funn

i cannot remember if i told you, but i started doing west coast swing lessons!!! since i took a gap year of school while waiting to apply for the vet tech program, i was like "welp i need some sort of hobby that gets me out of the house" so i didnt stew in bad mental health n stuff and i decided to try dance! i'd seen vids of it on my youtube shorts a lot and it always looked so... freeing. and i thought doing something that involved physical activity would be a good idea too since exercise is good for mental health!!

and woww i love it way more than i was expecting HAHHAHASDKFJJK it's so so fun and it really does feel like flying (when you do it with an experienced lead lol, so not always but the times where it's happened i cherish v much <3) and the people?? are all so nice???? like wow i was a bit nervous when i first started but everyone is so welcoming and understanding and super fun to talk to and it's a very accepting environment of queer ppl and i just RAHSHS ITS SOOO LOVELY BEE OH MY GOSHH

but yeah!! so ive been doing that sinceee march but i had yet to go to an actual dance, i'd only done lessons bc i was really nervous lol but also bc its on the weekends and thats when i go visit my mom so its hard to find time. but i finally decided to go no matter what last time (which yeah. almost canceled bc i ended up having two other meetups that day?? it was busy) and im really glad i went it was super fun.

just hoping i can convince one of my friends to go with me one day lol

oh no I'm so sad that someone abandoned their beardie :((( thank god someone found it though and wanted to make sure it was okay. so many people would just leave it so that little guy got lucky with that at least. I love bearded dragons, one of my teachers in high school had one she named Mushu and she would let him just run around the room during class sometimes. he was adorable.

ooooo I hope you're having fun with whumptober!!! you're stronger than me I've never attempted to do all the prompts for something like that. I struggle so much already with keeping things short and I also don't do great with prompts but I admire everyone who can dedicate themselves to that. it's such good writing practice as well

oh that class sounds lovely. tbh it really shows you have a LOT of self awareness to recognize that not only do you need something to get you out of the house, but taking the steps to sign up for a class with physical activity for your mental health. that's really great and you're going to thank yourself later for putting yourself out there like that. and that sounds so much fun!!! manifesting you get one of your friends to join you one day

(also this reminds me I really need to get back in the habit of going to my yoga and other exercise classes. I fell out of it after I got back from my europe trip this summer so I need to get my ass in gear again)

[mizkit]

new blog post: physical therapy and stuff

new blog post on https://mizkit.com/physical-therapy-and-stuff/

physical therapy and stuff

A few weeks ago my husband, who is suffering from tendonitis in his achilles, went to have his feet scanned and better insoles found and stuff, and thought it was interesting enough that I should do the same. Especially because I have stupidly wide feet, although as it turns out, they’re apparently only wide, not STUPIDLY wide. That’s something, I guess? Except they remain too wide for most women’s shoes, so, y’know, oh well.

Anyway, so I went in and did this thing and it was in fact interesting. I, uh, overpronate slightly on my left foot (which means it rolls in a bit too much) and underpronate slightly on my right foot (which means it rolls out a bit too much). I suspect the latter is due to having stepped on the dog’s bone very, very hard a couple of years ago and having only extremely recently having fully healed from that. Knock on wood. So on my list of things to do now is exercises to correct my various pronation issues, because I’ve been SO GREAT at exercising in general, right? Right. Feh.

More interesting, though, was that apparently I put like ALL my weight on my heels when I’m standing, so now I have fancy insoles that help to keep me from doing that. I’ve had them about a week now and they’re starting to not hurt my feet as much, and I’m certainly more conscious about where I’m holding my weight, which is the idea. But because I stand on my heels so hard, I guess, she was like, “You get shin splints, yeah?”

Me: uh, no, basically never

her: like when?

me: like…maybe if i’ve walked A LOT?

her: what’s ‘a lot’?

me: IDK, 10+KM? (altho tbh i’ve done 15 & 17km days in the past week and no, i just don’t get shin splints.)

her: oh ok yeah no

But while she was bending my feet around to examine them, she also said, “You have REALLY flexible feet!” Which, IDK, I sort of assume that’s from dancing in my callow youth, but whatever the reason, apparently it’s genuinely pretty unusual.

And it reminded me that my PT has commented any number of times on the fact that regardless of what other issues I’m having, I have “great feet!” I guess people’s feet aren’t bendy? Or they get tense? IDK, who knew? But she’s always like “ok let’s look at your feet…oh, ok, moving on.” So I guess I’ve learned something about my anatomy compared to most peoples’. :)

I also took a REALLY LONG DAY to go see said PT, who lives on the other side of the country, but I love her very much and she really gives me a good workover, so for a birthday present to myself I, uh, got up at 4:30am, rode a train for 9 hours, spent 90 minutes getting worked over, and got home in the middle of the night.

On one hand, you’d think I have TERRIBLE ideas about what to do as a birthday treat for myself, but on the other, my GOD it was worth it. It was so worth it that despite 9 hours on trains I still actually felt great when I got home.

Despite having not seen her in almost a year, I was apparently in pretty good nick. Certainly the bits I was most anticipating being extremely terrible were not all that bad, which I attribute to the exceptionally pathetic attempts at stretching I’ve been indulging in the past couple of months. I mean, at least I’ve done something, apparently.

I do need to find a yoga class, though, because one of the problems with being responsible for my own stretching is I get bored really fast, so I don’t do as much as I should. Although in my defense, I signed up for a local yoga studio’s newsletter MONTHS ago in hopes of being told when the next classes start, but apparently they don’t use it. I’ve just found their stupid facebook page, though, so I’ll follow that and try to get in on the next round.

So anyway, for the moment, not feeling entirely terrible about myself, which is kinda nice. :)

[the-crow-binary]

Hi! I hope you don't mind me asking, but how do you draw anatomy? It looks really good.

Oh. 🥺 Hello. 🥺 It's okay I don't mind 🥺 And thank you, it means a lot to me 🥺🥺🥺 Here's a messy, quickly-done guide of how I do it

Generally, my bases are even messier than that lol

I always start with a circle for the head and then draw from there. Even if I always end up modifying it, it's a good start (the circle doesn't have to be perfect, nor does it have to be a circle lol, unless you want to draw a bald person with a perfectly round head). I can't really explain the proportions for the torso because I always draw it based on how good it looks, and if it doesn't look too long or too short. With time and experience it just became natural. But I do still sometimes uses little clues for the members such as the arms and legs, based on the torso, to keep it all well-proportioned.

I drew only slender bodies here because the clues I wrote are basically the same for all body types, and it's also the body type I draw the most lol (with the only twist being that I had a little bit of muscles sometimes, wich shows with slightly bigger/rounds pecs, rounder arms, visible abs...) Here's an example of one of the very few muscular characters I drew (i just added the red lines)

The chest and back are much bigger, the arms much rounder, every muscle is more visible, but the elbow stil reach the hip, you still can put one head between the head and one shoulder (the shoulders are just larger), and the hands still cover the face.

If I can give one advice to how to learn to draw the muscles, it would obviously be to use references. I still use some today tbh, especially for the most muscular body types that I don't draw often. One thing that is nice, and that you can use to learn to draw anything, not just human anatomy, is to trace pictures and make your own base out of it. Example:

(found the picture on pinterest)

Now you draw your base however you like, what fits you the best. The goal of this exercise is not to mindlessly trace a form and then draw whatever you want on top, but to understand the forms you are learning to draw, so you can progress. I used a clothed model here but a half/completely naked one works better lol (well, depending on what you are trying to learn). I could've put more details in my own base (such as drawing the parts hidden by the hands and arms to fully get the forms it's suppose to have), but that's just an example. I use digital pictures because I'm on ipad (and have been drawing on computer for a few years before that) but if you draw on paper, you could very well use pictures from books, comics, etc... you can use any source, any media and any style (if it's drawn). Just keep in mind to give credit if you ever post your exercise online!

Of course you can also draw on a blank piece of paper while looking at and trying to replicate the picture, wich is also a good exercise, but tracing might be easier to learn the anatomy, especially at first. This being said, there's a plethora of guides out there and examples of bases, but that's how I do it and learned! Just add a lot of practice and a few blood sacrifice :')

[stackthedeck]

Hiiiiiiiiii i kinda had a question #lol. The fact that you write is awesome and makes me wanna write too, but every time i try i feel like i have such a large amount of self doubt that comes with it. Every single scene i finish is accompanied by an "oh god this sucks" in my head. Im also having a lot of trouble getting character voices down?? Like wow. Writing's harder than i thought it would be🫡 anyways just wanted to see if you had like tips or anything for dealing with that😨😨😨

Okay so my most practical advice is for how to get character voice. What I'll do as a writing exercise is I'll pick an episode of a show or like a scene from a movie or maybe a podcast episode, pick a medium that has a focus on dialogue. Transcribe the dialogue as you watch or listen (pause or turn on subtitles as needed) and pause the thing between chunks of dialogue and add the action tags, describe what the characters are feeling, give them internal monologue, describe the setting. I know this sounds tedious and like it is and it might not work for you and you definitely can't post it. But it makes me super aware of characters' speech patterns, the way they pause between words, what nicknames or phrases they use often, etc. It's also something that I just pick up on naturally, like I'll talk like my friends not as like an impression of their voice but how they talk and people say it's spooky.

The short cut to nailing how a character talks is to steal dialogue directly from the source, have them use nicknames from canon, and like be aware of their general tone. Like in most situations, Deadpool leans into a more jokey way of speak while Spider-Man is sarcastic with dry jokes and Daredevil is serious and gruff. These will change with each situation you know characters have moods and stuff. But if you're familiar with the source material you're probably really close to a character's voice that you think

with original stories, if I want to create a strong voice for characters and narration, I'll do a writing warm up by going outside or like a library and describe what I experience. I'm not allowed to start writing my actual thing until I include all five senses in those descriptions. I also tend to narrate how I think which doesn't work for everyone but I love metaphors and alliteration so it works. With original characters, they're usually based on someone I know so I'll just memorize their exact words or watch videos that they send me. It's kinda creepy tbh. But rule of thumb is to always read your stuff out loud, heck I usually say the dialogue before I write it, and it gives it a more human sound.

Okay practical advice done now I gotta tell you the thing you won't like. The best way to get over the "this sucks" mentality is to just write a lot. Anytime I'm not so sure about my own writing, I got back to the Hamilton fanfic I wrote in middle school that I proudly put on the internet and sent to my friends and I think "okay it could be so much worse" self-doubt will always be a part of the process you will always be your worst critic. But also you've also gotta be your biggest fan, it helps to find someone else to hype you up, but I dare you to read what you've written a say at least one nice thing about it. Any time you're in the editing stage, say one nice thing about what you've written before you say something that's not working. When you finish editing, say one thing that you're happy you added. You gotta write a lot but you've gotta be good to yourself

[edai-crplpnk]

hey! just wanted to say an extra thank you for the naruto stuff you've written. I apologize in advance for some of the wording here because uh. language stuff.

tbh, lots of the things you write I cannot stomach to casually read without extra mental preparation because it handles so many things that hit so close to the home that I genuinely reread every sentence over and over again, and it's like going through my own thoughts and memories and uncertainties every time I read your works. but like, you describe everything so fucking well. it's like you get deep into my brain and dig out everything that I couldn't have possibly put into words, but yet there they are, I'm reading it, you wrote that stuff, I'm... in awe. I just wanted to say thank you for your writing. many of your interpretations of nart characters is so close to me that I relate to them sm, not even just psychological shit but like. war bullshit and the way you seem to understand it and the like, I'm genuinely so amazed to read my own thoughts laid out so well written by someone I don't know?? you are amazing, keep doing what you're doing, and thank you once more. I'm rooting for you!!

Thank you for your message, it means a lot 💓

I know for me it's really not always easy to be sure when I read "sensitive" fiction if it's like "this is challenging but also it's doing me some good and it's nice feeling less alone and putting words on stuff even if it can feel intense and painful at times" or more "reading this is self-harm I'm triggering myself on purpose for a bad reason". It's way easier now but definitely it's been an issue for me when I first started reading fanfiction, so I'm glad to hear you try and find the good mindset to read my works (even if I know it's far from a foolproof process). It's work to figure out one's boundaries, and take care of oneself. Kudos to you for tackling it!

Writing for me is a lot like what you say, I think. It's an exercise of taking an instinctive feeling and breaking it down and dissecting it until I feel like I understand how the mechanics inside work and maybe I can explain it. A lot of my writing process is telling my boyfriend "I don't know how to make the character do this/how this character feels about this/if this character would do this or rather that" and then talking to myself for 3k words and ending by "oh I guess I do get it now" haha.

There's a piece from Pierre Reverdy that I like a lot about what art is that goes "The artistic shock is of a different nature than the shock of ideas, which bring from the outside something that we didn't know and now learn, it is the revelation of something that we already had in us, and only lacked the words to tell it to ourselves."

I love when people say things like what you say here, because I think it's fundamentally what writing is to me. It's how writing makes me feel for myself, how it helps me process a lot of things often, and it's very precious when I get to know that it's what it feels for some others too.

Anyway, thank you again for your lovely message. We're in this together!

[laughingplant]

Personal Details

Well, since I'm going to use this to improve, I guess I need to be honest first with what I want to achieve and where I am at currently. As of right now, I am a woman in my early 20s who is 5'8/9 and I weigh about 165-170 give or take the week. It puts me at roughly 25.

According to the BMI classification:

Underweight: BMI less than 18.5

Normal weight: BMI 18.5 to 24.9

Overweight: BMI 25 to 29.9

Obesity: BMI 30 or greater

So I am right on that marker. My goal is to be at a body marker around 20 since it would be a nice in-between for it. That would mean I'd need to be 140 Lbs instead which is roughly a 30-25 pound weight removal.

I do feel like this is achievable, especially for my young age. If I develop good, healthy habits now, it would be a lot better than waiting until later.

At the moment, I don't really own a lot of workout gear beyond a treadmill, (which I love tbh. I wish I could've taken it with me to college but I was on the 3rd floor and didn't want to bother anyone below me.) which I will use as a key component of it all. So with that, I can use it as a main starting base and maybe do 30-minute treadmill and 30-minute arm workouts? Just food for thought. I have a playlist I used to use constantly when I was younger that I'll use again. GPT also gave me these things to focus on largely:

Hydration: Keep a water bottle or thermos with tea nearby to ensure you drink throughout the day. Aim for 16 cups (1 gallon) of fluid daily.

Variety: Mix up your workouts. Incorporate different types of exercise such as dancing, swimming, or cycling to keep things interesting.

Mindfulness: Practice mindfulness or meditation for at least 5-10 minutes daily to help manage stress and maintain mental health.

Sleep: Ensure you get at least 7-8 hours of sleep every night. Create a relaxing bedtime routine to improve sleep quality.

Flexibility: Allow some flexibility in your schedule. It's okay to switch things up if needed. The key is consistency over time, not perfection every day.

Journaling: Use your journal to reflect on your progress, jot down creative ideas, and note any challenges or achievements.

Pretty basic ideas, but some of them are new, which I think I'll enjoy. I'll probably drink mostly tea for my daily fluids since I've grown to appreciate the stuff a lot since college. I don't add anything except sometimes lemon crystals so it is a healthy alternative.

This is the rough concept of my plan, the following being the more detailed routine by day and times:

Weekly Schedule

General Daily Routine

Wake-up Time: 6:00 AM

Bedtime: 10:00 PM

Monday

Morning

6:00 AM: Wake up, wash face, brush teeth

6:15 AM: Morning stretch/yoga (15 mins)

6:30 AM: Breakfast (smoothie) and plan the day

7:00 AM: Reading (30 mins)

7:30 AM: Creative project (art/writing)

Midday

9:00 AM: 30-minute brisk walk or treadmill workout

9:30 AM: Shower and get ready for the day

10:00 AM: Work on creative projects

12:00 PM: Lunch

Afternoon

1:00 PM: Offline time outdoor activity or hobby

2:00 PM: Work on creative projects

4:00 PM: Hydration break (tea/water) and light snack

Evening

5:00 PM: Workout (strength training or cardio)

6:00 PM: Dinner 

7:00 PM: Free time (read, watch a show, etc.)

8:00 PM: Journal your day and plan for tomorrow

8:30 PM: Relaxation (meditation, light reading)

9:30 PM: Evening routine (brush teeth, wash face, apply lotion)

Tuesday

Morning

6:00 AM: Wake up, wash face, brush teeth

6:15 AM: Morning walk (15 mins)

6:30 AM: Breakfast (smoothie) and plan the day

7:00 AM: Reading (30 mins)

7:30 AM: Creative project (art/writing)

Midday

9:00 AM: 30-minute brisk walk or treadmill workout

9:30 AM: Shower and get ready for the day

10:00 AM: Work on creative projects

12:00 PM: Lunch (Grilled Chicken Salad)

Afternoon

1:00 PM: Offline time – visit a local park or nature walk

2:00 PM: Work on creative projects

4:00 PM: Hydration break (tea/water) and light snack

Evening

5:00 PM: Workout (strength training or cardio)

6:00 PM: Dinner

7:00 PM: Free time (read, watch a show, etc.)

8:00 PM: Journal your day and plan for tomorrow

8:30 PM: Relaxation (meditation, light reading)

9:30 PM: Evening routine (brush teeth, wash face, apply lotion)

Wednesday

Morning

6:00 AM: Wake up, wash face, brush teeth

6:15 AM: Morning stretch/yoga (15 mins)

6:30 AM: Breakfast (smoothie) and plan the day

7:00 AM: Reading (30 mins)

7:30 AM: Creative project (art/writing)

Midday

9:00 AM: 30-minute brisk walk or treadmill workout

9:30 AM: Shower and get ready for the day

10:00 AM: Work on creative projects

12:00 PM: Lunch

Afternoon

1:00 PM: Offline time – visit a local museum or library

2:00 PM: Work on creative projects

4:00 PM: Hydration break (tea/water) and light snack

Evening

5:00 PM: Workout (strength training or cardio)

6:00 PM: Dinner

7:00 PM: Free time (read, watch a show, etc.)

8:00 PM: Journal your day and plan for tomorrow

8:30 PM: Relaxation (meditation, light reading)

9:30 PM: Evening routine (brush teeth, wash face, apply lotion)

Thursday

Morning

6:00 AM: Wake up, wash face, brush teeth

6:15 AM: Morning walk (15 mins)

6:30 AM: Breakfast (smoothie) and plan the day

7:00 AM: Reading (30 mins)

7:30 AM: Creative project (art/writing)

Midday

9:00 AM: 30-minute brisk walk or treadmill workout

9:30 AM: Shower and get ready for the day

10:00 AM: Work on creative projects

12:00 PM: Lunch

Afternoon

1:00 PM: Offline time - sketching

2:00 PM: Work on creative projects

4:00 PM: Hydration break (tea/water) and light snack

Evening

5:00 PM: Workout (strength training or cardio)

6:00 PM: Dinner

7:00 PM: Free time (read, watch a show, etc.)

8:00 PM: Journal your day and plan for tomorrow

8:30 PM: Relaxation (meditation, light reading)

9:30 PM: Evening routine (brush teeth, wash face, apply lotion)

Friday

Morning

6:00 AM: Wake up, wash face, brush teeth

6:15 AM: Morning stretch/yoga (15 mins)

6:30 AM: Breakfast (smoothie) and plan the day

7:00 AM: Reading (30 mins)

7:30 AM: Creative project (art/writing)

Midday

9:00 AM: 30-minute brisk walk or treadmill workout

9:30 AM: Shower and get ready for the day

10:00 AM: Work on creative projects

12:00 PM: Lunch

Afternoon

1:00 PM: Offline time

2:00 PM: Work on creative projects

4:00 PM: Hydration break (tea/water) and light snack

Evening

5:00 PM: Workout (strength training or cardio)

6:00 PM: Dinner

7:00 PM: Free time (read, watch a show, etc.)

8:00 PM: Journal your day and plan for tomorrow

8:30 PM: Relaxation (meditation, light reading)

9:30 PM: Evening routine (brush teeth, wash face, apply lotion)

Saturday

Morning

6:00 AM: Wake up, wash face, brush teeth

6:15 AM: Morning walk (15 mins)

6:30 AM: Breakfast (smoothie) and plan the day

7:00 AM: Reading (30 mins)

7:30 AM: Creative project (art/writing)

Midday

9:00 AM: 30-minute brisk walk or treadmill workout

9:30 AM: Shower and get ready for the day

10:00 AM: Work on creative projects

12:00 PM: Lunch

Afternoon

1:00 PM: Offline time

2:00 PM: Work on creative projects

4:00 PM: Hydration break (tea/water) and light snack

Evening

5:00 PM: Workout (strength training or cardio)

6:00 PM: Dinner

7:00 PM: Free time (read, watch a show, etc.)

8:00 PM: Journal your day and plan for tomorrow

8:30 PM: Relaxation (meditation, light reading)

9:30 PM: Evening routine (brush teeth, wash face, apply lotion)

Sunday

Morning

6:00 AM: Wake up, wash face, brush teeth

6:15 AM: Morning stretch/yoga (15 mins)

6:30 AM: Breakfast (smoothie) and plan the day

7:00 AM: Reading (30 mins)

7:30 AM: Creative project (art/writing)

Midday

9:00 AM: 30-minute brisk walk or treadmill workout

9:30 AM: Shower and get ready for the day

10:00 AM: Work on creative projects

12:00 PM: Lunch (Quinoa-Stuffed Bell Peppers)

Afternoon

1:00 PM: Offline time relax and unwind (self-care, hobbies)

2:00 PM: Work on creative projects

4:00 PM: Hydration break (tea/water) and light snack

1:00 PM: Offline time relax and unwind (self-care, hobbies)

2:00 PM: Work on creative projects

4:00 PM: Hydration break (tea/water) and light snack

Evening

5:00 PM: Workout (strength training or cardio)

6:00 PM: Dinner

7:00 PM: Free time (read, watch a show, etc.)

8:00 PM: Journal your day and plan for tomorrow

8:30 PM: Relaxation (meditation, light reading)

9:30 PM: Evening routine (brush teeth, wash face, apply lotion)

It's not perfect, but it's a start. I tried to make it flexible, productive, and include things that I can sometimes forget on my worse days.

I want to read more, to draw more, to write more, I have so much I want to do, but it overwhelms me and makes me unproductive. It's devastating for my mental health, sometimes because all I want to do is be creative but then I fall down a rabbit hole of magnet fishing or scambaiting on YouTube and next thing I know, the day is gone! Hopefully, things will only look up from here, lol.

[hesnotavillain]

is there still anyone here?

it's trully been ages and tbh i almost didn't remembered the right email or password. i was creating an account on substack, since apparently that's a thing now (or has been forever and i'm only now finding about bc people are sharing theirs on my timeline) bc i was feeling like writing to no one really, just to put some feelings into words and then i remembered this "place" exists.

so funny (and cringe, obviously) getting to see how i spent years and years and lived through so much mental illness and so many fictional obsessions. this is like a museum of a lifetime, im not kidding.

writing this is also making me see how fucking bad my english actually is nowadays (if it was ever better)

let's see. im 23. got in college last year. quit my antidepressants the year before - which was also the year the guy i was seeing (because surprise surprise, you're bi!) and didn't have much expectations on became my boyfriend and potential future husband. i love him very much and we laugh a lot together. ngl i do miss women sometimes tho. just that specific sapphic atmosphere you know? dont really see myself away from it for the rest of my life. i mean, that just sounds like a very long time.

oh! i started the gym very recently. cant say that it changed my life yet, but honestly im hoping on that. it doesnt really have to change my life, but if it gets me some dopamine to go through my days with a nice ass as a bonus, i'll be happy. eating is not really the problem, cooking is. im too fucking lazy and this is actually the biggest fucking rock on my shoes. is that even a saying outside brazil? anyway.

i want to say i miss being a teenager, like maybe being 16-19 but man how can i say this when i was so fucking miserable mentally for way before that. im way better now, but sometimes i miss it and i know that really the only thing i miss is not having a real thought about anything that concerns real life because i was too drowned on gay content and too engaged with my internet friends. lmao. that sure was the life huh.

i dont think this writing exercise is working, but i also dont know what there is to 'work' really. i feel like there's a zillion subjects travelling aroung my mind all the time and i wanna deal with each but never know where to start so i guess that explains the messines.

im kinda excited to turn 30 (in a I'm Totally Romanticizing Turning 30 From Now On Because I Believe I'll Be At My Finest Era slightly delusional way). (if global warming even let us get there without massively destructing my mediocre reality). im also scared of the day i'll lose my loved ones. i feel like for the first time in my life im starting to understand that there's just so much life to live. so much life. how can every single possible thing, even the good ones, result on anxiety tho.

im already tired of this (writing) and dont know how to finish but for now i guess the substancial thing i can't forget is that i made it to right here and i'm the one who can get me to right there. so. just keep rolling my dudes.

[iridescent-x-pixie]

Right i actually rly loved the london trip😊🌧💕

It felt so exciting honestly was just giddy as fk xD (plus teary but im used to the emotional extremes plus being excited overides the bad stuff n vice versa ive no idea how to explain it lol) overall tho we had a good time and i coped n got thru the other bits, I was nauseous from anxiety the whole time there n back lol but it was still good to do n i think i need to do it more to get out of my comfort zone, eitherway we had a lovely holiday it was a massively good time even with the social anxiety n nausea 🙈

It rained the whole time we were there n omg there is no cold or breeze(I hate the heat lol its cos it gets too sweaty n thts grim lol I'm just not built for it, still felt good tho i couldnt cool down/acclimatise) when we got home bk off the train it felt great to be greeted with a cold blast of sea air lol it was lovely n chilly

We went to the Harry Potter shop at King's Cross, visited a few good omens filming locations and 1 from the gentlemen movie.

Also saw the spirited away play, the theatre we went to was elaborately victorian looking but idk it looked refurbished but like in a gd sense.

Fav characters/actors were the frog guy n lamppost lady, the three heads and ofc granddad and the soot sprites.

We got a few souvenirs, my bf got me a cropped Ravenclaw hoodie n it looks rly fkin nice ^_^ made me so buzzed cos I'd have never bought it by ms n it looks gd 😅

did lots of other bits like the ferry tours n using the underground but this post is massive already lol I'll just put ect;.

I got steps bk up from essentially nowt whilst I was in London

plus I felt anxious all week so I couldn't eat lol

but tbh I wanna try n eat healthily or at least train or work out for strength rather than for getting skinny.

I want to be having fun or just enjoying my life and instead I have focused on weight but I think it's cos I still think skinny is like some 'solves all problems' kinda thing. U don't care as much what ppl think when ur comfortable with urself, I either think ill get there through being skinny or at least being fit enough to climb a wall or lift my own body weight.

(I rly wanna do stuff without being unfit and out of breath. Being skinny and still feeling like a fat mess just cause your weak n don't eat but exercise loads doesn't feel like a gd look n im obvs just embarassed when ppl see me struggling)

But rn i need to get my appetite bk n to not feel anxious all the time.

[bonesandthebees]

Honestly, I’m blaming not noticing the name switches on my dyslexia because I’m not actually reading the words, I’m just guessing what the word is based on the shape and first/last letter. Like the only thing that actually allows me to read is a big vocabulary and reading via prediction (which everyone does). I just think my brain has the word Pythia catalogued as Wilbur so even though I see Pythia I read Wilbur which makes noticing the switches really hard the first time around. Going back and looking for them is very fun too, I just don’t notice until someone points it out even though I know you’ll put switches in there.

This rant is sponsored by my dyslexia getting dialled by to like 200% thanks to a migraine. I just want to read. Why is my brain like this?

Anyway, I hope all of you lovely people are having a better week than I am. (not that it was that terrible of a week, I’m surprisingly doing well at the school stuff and the heat within my house is manageable most of the time, I’m just tired of having to use all my reading energy on school stuff because I’m halfway through my book and I want to continue reading cuz it’s good).

Also, how’s the weather over there? Is it also hot? Is it nice and manageable? Is it raining? Is it cold? Windy? I have no idea what the regular weather forecast is.

-🌲

oh damn that's such an interesting way to read?? I'm sorry about the dyslexia that sounds like a lot to struggle with, but that's a very interesting way to read that makes sense. tbh it kind of reminds me of when I was taking sign language classes and our teacher made us do exercises to get better at reading fingerspelling. a trick we all picked up on was when watching somebody fingerspell a word, it helps to try and just focus on the first and last letters and then use context clues to pick up on what it was.

either way though, absolutely do not worry about missing the pythia/wilbur switches, you're going through so much just to read my fics in the first place 😭

I hope your migraine gets better soon spruce :(

I'm glad school stuff is going well and the heat isn't too terrible!! but yeah I get being bummed about what you have to use your energy on. I get so miserable when I don't have enough energy to write 😭😭 I hope your book ends up being good though whenever you can finish reading it!!

the weather over here is interesting because it's june and it's still cloudy and cool?? and I live near LA?? like. almost the entirety of may was cloudy, and tbh it's been cloudy more often than sunny since january. we've had a few hot days here and there, but for the most part it's just constant overcast skies and temps in the 10-15 C/50-60 F range for the most part. it's very strange for sure, I've never seen a grey spell quite like this in CA and I've lived here my entire life. I'm not complaining though. I love overcast skies so I'm thrilled to death. no one else I know is very happy though