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Vessel

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[skitskatdacat63]

Oh...

[ace-with--a-mace]

me when i M going insane: a moodboard

[ronroncore]

Gonna talk in tags

[hollowblxxd]

[ BACK AT IT AGAIN WITH THE THEORY / SPECULATIONS / AU THAT FIXES SHIT ]

This time with DEVIL MAY CRY my devoted love

To those who dont know me I love DMC a lot but I have a lot of issues with the ongoing story. So fuck it here in my AU about how to make DMC a overall better storyline cuz I can do

Whatever I wanna

So this whole AU focuses a lot on Nero because this theory spawned in due to the uncertainty over Neros character and the idea that DMC was kinda over since the 4th game unfortunately "killed" the series. It also tied together when DMC2 cuz when DMC4 came out the sequel was considered non-canon cuz it was such a horrible flop.

I personally loved the game with a PASSION cuz the pile of unfortunate garbage that was DMC2 was the first game I ever played and one of the first "mature" games i ever got. I remember begging my grandmother who was baby sitting me to let me play one game and I picked the coolest looking one. Of course being this

ANYYYYWAYYY Im getting off track

My theory is Nero was in fact a clone of Sparda, and not only was he a clone of Sparda but hes ACTUALLY Dante in DMC2.

Let me explain.

The order in DMC4 was obviously an isolated group at the time that was very involved with the CREATION of demons and the worship of SPARDA.

The whole game of DMC4 is about the order trying to recreate their god and I highly doubt this was their first attempt, most likely it was more of their most extreme attempt.

Which as sad it is to say I think Nero was one of the first but messed up attempts. They wanted to bring Spardas power out of the demon world and they got it but NOT as they expected... Instead of resssurecting theyre great glorified devil god. They got a human child.

Cuz in the end Sparda had a human heart and Nero was a reflection OF that. He was a full demon but you'd never know at first glance. So he was discarded as just some abandoned baby.

Nero was luckily found by Kyries family and just seen as poor person forsaken kid. And it wasnt until Nero was SEVERALLY INJURED did Nero demonic nature reveal itself in REPLACING HIS MORTAL BODY WITH A DEMONIC ONE.

Even Nero rebellious nature could actually be a reflection of who Sparda was in the past because you dont just turn against everything youve ever known on a whim. Sparda rebelled, Nero again reflected that.

Even him FALLING IN LOVE WITH A MORTAL WOMAN, again is another REFLECTION on Sparda history. Nero following all the exact footsteps Sparda did. Rebels against his people, Falls in love with a human girl, Defeats a power hungry overlord before slapping the hell gate closed trapping the demons away with his own sword.

Nero also wears BOTH blue and red, which combined and in ORIGINAL CONCEPT ART Nero was actually dressed in PURPLE with a white scarf much like Sparda wearing coat with a white ruffle.

Other things that makes me think hes far stronger than merely a 1/4 demon.

Nero made Dante almost demon trigger from just HITTING him. Dante been stabbed, shot, burnt, thrown off building, eaten, etc. and has NEVER forcefully demon triggered the whole time and suddenly some punk punches him and Dante starts to flash? The last time thst happened is in DMC3 when the tower was drilling closer to hell and getting him closer to

You guessed it SPARDAS POWER.

On top of that, no matter how much his Holiness tried to use the sword of Sparda, the power would not be granted to him, but you know who did use it? WITH EASE? Nero.

Nero used not only Sparda, but Rebellion AND Yamato WITH EASE. And before anyone says "But Rebellions and Yamato is Dante and Vergils sword"

WRONG.

Dante and Vergil INHERITED those swords FROM their father. They were always originally SPARDAS SWORDS. ALWAYS.

The one sword that returns to Nero is the one WITHOUT AN OWNER. Vergil in DMC4 is dead. He died in DMC1 and I dont care what anyone says, Vergil. Is. Dead. He should stay dead cuz it literally ruins his whole character arc to be alive again. Let the man be dead.

In the end the overwhelming evidence that Nero is Sparda is endless and I would email Capcom myself to tell them theyre wrong If I had the power to. Cuz theyre wrong.

ONTO THE NEXT POINT

DMC2 Dante is actually Nero

The Order was revealed to be manipulating the essence of demons into ANGELIC beings that would follow there commands.

At the time theyre secrets were hidden but in the events of DMC4 their secrets could have easily been revealed. And you know what REALLY loves secrets especially when it comes to making free slaves?

Big fucking Business baby.

I believe that the methods of the Order were leaked to the public allowing Business to stsrt using their methods to produce specific demons to serve specific purposes. Taking on the angelic look already provided by the Order to make it "friendlier" to the general populace.

And big business being business it COULDNT really be stopped as they tamper with forces beyond their control...

Dante was getting older and getting overwhelmed and despite it I think the original Dante died.

How? Why? Unknown but what I believe happened is Nero took over for Dante.

Prehaps to simply honor him, Prehaps he still thought the world needed Dante. In the end Nero choice Dante name and even another Alias of "The Son of Sparda" as being a clone of Sparda still technically applies as being a "son".

Noticable the DMC2 Dante personally very muted compared to any other Dante in any other game. But you know who kinda a little quiet boy? Nero...

Also a specific thing that I LOVE about DMC2 is when Dante gets an upgrade the piece would fly towards him and try to hit his heart but DANTE ALWAYS GRABBED IT WITH HIS RIGHT HAND the SAME hand that Nero uses to grab his items and absorb! He could have just let it absorb naturally but he SPECIFICALLY grabbed it with that hand.

Whats more convincing is the fact DMC2 dante has almost the weird... arm sleeve thing that Im pretty sure was a poor render of a gun or back hustle but it honestly to me at the time looks like his sleeve could be removed. Maybe prehaps to reveal his arm? Hmm

Also going with the idea that Nero being technically a creation of the Order could easily bond well with Lucia too since she struggle with the fact SHES a creation. Not a devil hunter of this great legacy but just "some monster" something Nero HAD TO STRUGGLE WITH TOO.

The bond between them could have started a new legacy similar to Dante with Lady and Trish.

It starts all over again. A new bloodline of Sparda saving the world as it always will.

Much like the company of DMC2 being Ourboros, the snake that bites its own tail.

As long as the demon world tries it shit, a sparda one way or another will be there to stop them

THAT CONCLUDES MY TEDTALK ABOUT DMC

PLEASE EMAIL CAPCOM FOR ME AND TELL THEM MY THEORY SO THEY CAN FIX DMC AND MAKE ME HAPPY

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

Am I the Asshole for telling on my sister for not logging her full hours at work?

For a bit of context I, 17, and my sister, 14, have a bit of a rocky relationship. Our childhood was a bit rough and we coped with it in different but equally bad ways. One thing that we both used to be really bad about was yelling and saying not so nice things to each other, though I can't remember the full extent of this on my end because I was really heavily dissociated at that time, but I know hers a bit more, because unlike me, she has never stopped. Its gotten better, but not much. It is still bad enough that I will walk out of rooms of she is in them and I am irritated at something else because it will end badly. I am a lot better about it, though I still get passive aggressive at times, and am still working on the finer aspects of not accidentally saying mean/dismissive things.

One thing we have been clashing with recently is her job at a local farm. Its under the table even though she is of working age where we live, and she gets paid 8$ which is below minimum wage where we are. She has also been expected to work a couple of times past 10pm alone and in general, her jobs just has a lot of red flags which I have pointed out. It is a frequent topic when I pick her up and she always without fail, gets pissed at me. Like yelling at me in my car that she knows what she's doing and that I shouldn't care. I still do as her older sibling but shes 14, what do you expect.

Tonight it all kinda came to a head when she asked me how many hours she should report thst she worked for the month, 58 or 64. I asked her how many she worked and to just put that, to which she told me she worked around 80. Her days and hours do line up with that from what I know do I told her to put that. She started going on about how the owner of the farm needs that money to pay the other people who work there and how there have been some days where shes only worked 3 or 4 hours. I gave her the benefit of the doubt on that even though I rarely pick her up earlier than 8:30-9pm, much less 7, but my dad also drives her so I didn't fight on it and said in that case she should log 70 and make sure she starts marking in her phone when she starts and stops for the day. She yells at me a bit that its none of my business and eventually tells me that its too late since she already told her boss it was 60. Now, this is where she really got angry, I told her that I was telling our dad then because he would never let her make a decision like that. She is now even more mad and when we pull up to my house she says I don't have to worry about it and that she will just tell him, still yelling at me mind you), and stomps up to our house. So I pull what was most likely a petty move and text my dad right then. I would havelet her tell him but she has lied in the past before about that in similar situations and every time I've gotten in trouble for knowing and not telling him. He is currently on nightshift so I couldn't tell him in person, which is why I texter.

After this my sister went to my stepmom, and went off about what happened, how I was in the wrong, how it isn't any of my business, and how I should have kept my nose out of it. My stepmom does say she is right in that it isn't my place to say something, but that she shouldn't be lying and underreporting her hours. My dad called about it about an hour after I sent the text and after getting a quick rundown from me, called her. I don't know what is happening from there, but I am now really doubting if I should have said anything. She needs to learn the value of her work and refuses to listen to me about it, but I also want to have a better relationship with her and think this may have fucked it up.

What are these acronyms?

[souls-archives]

Snow Chapter 1

(Old writing. Sort of. It written without proper motivation, so it kinda sucks)

BEEP BEEP BEEP

I slowly open my heavy eyes from my sleep. With a grunt, I pulled myself out of the bed. Who knew human mattresses could be so... Uncomfy. I walked towards the window and opened the drapes covering the horrendous scenery. More forest fires. You'd think humans would be more cautious with their chemicals... I sighed and stretched, making sure my joints still functioned properly after laying down of several hours on that... Thing you call a bed. I already miss the lost cities...

I grabbed my shirt, an I ❤️ NYC shirt I got for free, my teal jacket, and some... Denim pants. Ugh, no words can properly express how much I hate the feeling of denim. My good pants were dirty, so it's back at Everglen, getting a good wash. I shuddered once I put them on. It was incredibly uncomfortable. My outfit was so bland. Is this REALLY what humans think are good? This is ridiculous. A small chuckle escaped my lips in amusement.

My chuckle faded then I sighed disheartedlu and walked to the bathroom where a single white tooth brush lay on the counter. The good thing about human hotels is thst they provide simple hygiene products in the restroom. Taking the plastic toothbrush and the rather sour tasting toothpaste, I start brushing. I stared at my reflection in the mirror for a moment. Same teal eyes, same brown hair, same face. My appearance still looked like how it usually would, but with the amount of smoke and chemicals I've breathed in, I looked somewhat different.

Maybe it was the slight circles under my eyes. Maybe it was that I reeked of smoke. Maybe it was because the smoke I've been inhaling was messing with my head. Or maybe I just felt over whelmed from the amount of voices I hear. Anyway, I finished and walked out, packed my things (which was just my pajamas, my phone that my dad gave me when I was 10, and my wallet), shoved my imparter into mt pocket, and headed out.

My trip out was a fairly silent one because of my ear phones jammed into my ears that're blasting Ricky Montgomery. The hallway had a few room service ladies walking up and down. I walked down the velvet aisle and to the silver elevator. The human world is so fascinating, yet strange and irritating with the way it works. I've seen many things over the past few years...

*DING* I snapped out my train of thought and walked inside the now silent elevator. After a few seconds, the elevator shut. No one was inside with me, which let me tell you is a BIG relief. You would NOT believe the amount of thoughts people have. Especially in a loaded elevator. Some interesting, some disturbing, some strange. At this point, it'd be strange to hear a quiet mind. Another ding. The elevator opened.

My feet took step after step towards the rotating doors and to... I couldn't help but sigh. After taking a deep breath, I stepped out and went to my way to find Sophie once more today.

[holleighgram]

even if you were to use AI, you wouldn't be hurting anyone--and the person calling you out on your post, publicly, instead of blocking you and moving on IS hurting someone: you. I'm sorry that happened and I hope it doesn't discourage you from practicing and creating more art ❤️

Bruh I messaged thst person privately with PROOF of the the procreate file and progression versions of the piece in the stages I was working on it.

Idk, it just kinda got to me. Like, I know I'm not a good artist, but I'm still learning and trying. I spent a lot of time on that and was actually pretty proud of it. I tried to emulate a different style for once, and all the sudden becauae I've never done it before, it's not real? Newsflash, my style is WILDLY in consistant. As is the quality. I'm still experimenting. I dont have a patented style that I've nailed down.

Just like my writing, I try to stick with comedy and goofy lighthearted style, but this piece is much more serious, and I chose to attempt a style to reflect that.

I've used AI in the past for fun little things, but I have always been forthcoming and blunt about when I use it. I would never try to take credit for work that isn't mine.

Thank you for your kind words and reassurance 🙏

[multi-cannon-rp]

Do you have any roleplaying pet peeves?

What made you choose your muse(s)?

Pet peeves? Don't really have any besides the usual. Like porn bots or rebloging memes without sending one. I have a meme account where I add memes I rebloged. It's even better if it doesn't have a source, so you don't have to feel bad.

This is going to be a long one since I have a lot of Muses. Some with 5 + years experience. Mukuro is my oldest roleplay character. 14+ years. It started as an MSN rp group until it was shut down. I kinda chose him after a few quizzes I took when I first started reading the manga. Before I knew who Mukuro was, I got him as a "Which character are you." So, when I started rping, I chose him as a character. He has been a ro character ever since. Chrome is a second, and I added her when I became part of the Tumblr rp community around 7+ years ago. It was more to add a little diversity to the type of character I can play. Chrome is a bit kinder and easier to interact with as a first-time character. Mukuro, not so much.

I have been a huge fan of Naruto since I saw it on TV back in high school. Being as I am 34 years old, that was a while back. I would cosplay as Itachi and do live action rps with family members. Mainly my sister... One cosplay had my younger cousin at the time convinced I was actually Itachi. He monopolized my time and asked me a ton of questions. I stopped for a while and wouldn't mind getting back into cosplay. But it's the reason why I chose Itachi as a muse. Deidara is my favorite Naruto character. So thst influenced my choice. Madara zi actually picked up for a friend both times. In the past, it was because an Itachi rperwanted to ship with a Madara. I was the only one willing to ship with her. Izuna, I don't have an answer. I just liked him. The same goes for Sasuke.

I chose Rimuru for two reasons. One, he is such a wonderful character, and two, there are not enough active rp blogs for the fandom. I plan to add more of the characters to my blog.

Thistle, Dungeon Meshi is my new current obsession. I like Thistle's unhinged personality.

My Fandomless OC Nitsuki is just a baby of my muses.

[bwoahtastic]

A rumour spreading that Max is sleeping around with a member of the royal family. Max doesn’t care too much about the rumours. He’s faced enough issues in the past to brush it off. But Charles hears it? And she hears the slut shaming and how they call Max an omega whore. She hears all the vulgar things they say about him. They talk about Max’s pussy and his tits. Charles is furious when he finds out

Oh plss!

There being so many rumours about Max, the Omega Knight sleeping with someone from the royal family. Some claim that's what got Max the Knight position and he must be good in bed to get promoted like that. They even think he might be the sleeping sith all of them like some sort of slut.

Max doesn't really care, he is used to gossip snd doesn't care what people think, he knows the truth! But charles is furious hearing thst about her Omega! She hears people talk about how Max must be hiding a mice set of tits and a wet, tight cunt to entice the royal family (ans he does, but they shouldn't talk about it or.know!!!)

Charles definitely has some people fired foe talking about her Maxy like that! And Max is kinda impressed by it, seeing his princess so stern and determined!

[grapecaseschoices]

But I'm glad you're having such a fine time, who is your tav going for?

I do have some problems with the game, but overall it's fun to play. Probably wyll or laezel. Initially I was gonna go for shadowheart bcs I really liked her character design and my tav also hs that similar kind of dry sarcastic sense of humour. But after having her for a while in my party, she got on my nerves real quick. I tried out some races and she almost always had something to say about it. Im not thst far into it and I like astarion but the fact that he can leave ur party if ur character kicks him in the nuts sent me and now I can't take him seriously. I think my tav enjoys messing around with him. I just keep throwing spells at him and reviving him and he hasn't left yet so he's a trooper. 😂

I was playing as a tiefling originally but they kept having stuff to say about them being a tiefling and it got kinda annoying so I changed it to something else. /lh 💀

Playing as a Sorcerer is so much fun I can just make shit explode. Idk how to use astarion though, I just make him throw arrows and hide, he doesn't really do much in fights, but he's funny so I keep him around. I might get rid of shadowheart, but she's also a cleric and provides good heals so idk. She's so fine but she's really got a poll stuck up her ass so idk. Some of the remarks she makes about certain races and some of her actions towards a certain character because they are that race (don't wanna spoil it) just kind of put me off especially with her being white. I'm aware it's fantasy and stuff and I haven't finished the story, but anyways we'll see, maybe she'll get better. 😅

Wyll is my fave so far, he's super underrated!! I do wish there were more romance options of color though. I think so far I've only met one which is Wyll. 😭😭

sorry for the late response! i have not been my best the past weekend!

I do have some problems with the game, but overall it's fun to play.

Me a salty, hater: Feel free to share~~

. I tried out some races and she almost always had something to say about it. Im not thst far into it and I like astarion but the fact that he can leave ur party if ur character kicks him in the nuts sent me and now I can't take him seriously.

DOES SHE?? I have done an half-orc but she hasn't said anything?? Unless I wasn't paying attention. Who does she say shit for? I know Giths for sure, and I imagine drows. Also ROFLMAO. I mean TBF TO HIM! hahaha

I was playing as a tiefling originally but they kept having stuff to say about them being a tiefling and it got kinda annoying so I changed it to something else. /lh 💀

omgoodness. the druids right? omg so like i have a druid tief and i thought it might be like double the fun bc of the grove, but whew. literally every breath like: WOW YOU DEVIL YOURE SO EDUCATED FOR A A DEVIL. WOW HAHA DEVIL. it's like dude. 1. not a devil 2. heard the joke the first three times, ain't yall tired? so far proving to be worse for my half-drow but havent made it far.

Idk how to use astarion though, I just make him throw arrows and hide, he doesn't really do much in fights, but he's funny so I keep him around. I might get rid of shadowheart, but she's also a cleric and provides good heals so idk. She's so fine but she's really got a poll stuck up her ass so idk. Some of the remarks she makes about certain races and some of her actions towards a certain character because they are that race (don't wanna spoil it) just kind of put me off especially with her being white. I'm aware it's fantasy and stuff and I haven't finished the story, but anyways we'll see, maybe she'll get better. 😅

i mean he's good for picking locks. that was actually his sole purpose for me for the longest. then is tarted respecing him/multiclasing him thus he became my lock picker AND my arrow man in certain PTs. or my arrow man/shadow man. i am sure i dont use that to the full potential bc i am such a newb but wte. so you're not alone.

lmao i mean if you get a paladin or a druid or you multiclass someone else ... but honestly i havent really dealt with her racism outside of lae'zel -- which i do admit really annoys me. lmao. i remember i had a PT where it was lae'zel that saved her but she gave all the credit to astarion and im like ....... is this a glitch or is she just that ... bad re: giths. and nah, it's still annoying. the fantasy racism.

also i feel i under use my sorcerers bc im still figuring out the meta magic stuff but i do like them. are you wild magic then? both mine [i ended up respecing my durge to multiclass paladin and sorcerer] are dragon ancestory bc everyone and the mom says its best and also bc im a sucker for that shit.

Wyll is my fave so far, he's super underrated!! I do wish there were more romance options of color though. I think so far I've only met one which is Wyll. 😭😭

He is LITERALLY the only one. I know people wnat to include Karlach bc of what Larian did with her features [some people said she was modled after Gemma Chan] but I do not, because her voice actress is white. IDC. She is white. She a white woman who got surgery. Blame Z----l, if it makes yall feel better. She got a fetish or something. But Karlach is WHITE.

But Wyll is. [You know why. But also because Larian gives him so little but ... YOU KNOW WHY.]

It is one of my many issues with the game.

[barbatoskisser]

Kind of lengthy abd i feel bad for making moots read all this. Im subtly annoyed. The type of annoyed where ur kinda just like "good grief". Like my good friend saiki kusuo. Ill fetch a clip and put it over the line ima add

Low and behold i looked but i couldnt find someone Just...didnt clip it. Like just the sound byte i wanted. So have this cute sub mome nt instead.

Ykw whats really annoying?

I think ive been just

Kind of feeling pretty damn depressed recently

Not like

Suicidal, thankfully. Just depressed. Low motivation, insomnia (when its not daytime. I exhaust myself enough at night time to sleep most of the day), anxiety, yk the typical stuff o7

And i told my mon, before she left, im probably not gonna do the chores becsuse i dont have the ebergy

Low and behold, the only energy i had thst i could use was to literally sleep. Thats all i had the energy to do. Still dont have energy, but at least im drinking something. Its hatsune miku, but its something to sip on.

Anywqy yeag. Low energy. Right

So wh3n my mom gets home, i explain the situation

Sh3 says this right after ive been sick for a week or two. And possibly got sicj again (because evwryone in this stinkin room is still coughing except her(

Shr says, and i quote "you need to stop using thst as an eccuse"

Like

Trust me bestie i wish i didnt want to just sleep all day but bro im fuckin' tired and depressed

And no humans who have minimal braincells ive tried in the past to go all day without sleeping for an entire day MULTIPLE TIMES to sleep at night because of exhaustion. It just turns out i get so exhahsted at night i.. stay awake anyway. A total bummer

And i dont wanns get addicted to pms. Or worse, sleep all day AND night, so im just gonna try to slowly shift my cycle of sleeping during the day to st night

And a pro! I slept til 3am last night after dozin off at 10! Progress people, progress!

Anyway ywah i still dont have energy to fuckin' exist even slightly so im gonna just lay in bed for a while and try not to sleep

[meowserita]

Sure tumblr post here cause im feeling weird and emotional but it feels weird and wrong to vent to my friends or any groups im in so into here it goes.

Today started off weird cause sharing an apartment with my sister sucks for my anxiety cause she always walks around heavily and seemingly angrily, just like my mom would when growing up so this morning sucked cause was to anxious to get up and out of bed to get food, so stayed in bed for a few hours anxiously waiting for chance i wouldnt feel way to anxious to get some random thing to eat. I know conceptually that sister isnt angry at me but that doesnt overcome trauma from childhood i still need to work through. After she went over to our parents place though day got better, and did eventually go over to parents as well for homemade pizza which was nice, said sister also braided my hair, and i always love hanging with my little sister. i absolutely adore her and its clear she adores me, of all my family i trusr her and my brother the most.

Left after saying goodnight to little sister and after getting home was an eepy kitty and now just wanting to be someones kitty. So am feeling just lonely and incomplete.

Comong from that, i keep thinking about something that happened last week when hanging with my best friend, where we're driving to her apartment and she mentions hanging out with her cats. I then asked "is it weird i felt included in thst statement?" To which she said no.

Later at a massive dinner with bunch of friends she mentions to her husband, something roughly along the lines of "oh arias one of our cats now." Needless to say that whole situation felt incredible, but the more i think about it the more i question how much of that was joking and how much sincere but also feel super weird asking her about that because i have mentioned to her about having a crush on her in the past but at this point theres no residual romantic undertones in it and its purely platonic love.

Kinda shared more then i was expecting to but it feels good to get this down somewhere at least but i still might delete this later

[icyfox17]

https://www.tumblr.com/icyfox17/739297780237025280/some-other-icky-frontmen-brendan-urie-matty

LAWDDDD OK

- brendan urie im sure u can find stuff on the net,,, im not well researched in him but there have been cases of wtv. which sucks bc i love la devotee n he collabed w taylor swift (altho taylor literally rebounded to ratty healy after she broke up w joe,,,, + fans hated it,, rightfully so. he's a RAT)

- matty healy is frontman of the 1975 n he has been openly racist, is pre grimey in general, thinks he's the shit but is so greasy,,, there might also be legal cases made against him to look up yourself, i don't like to bc they make me #uncomfy

- jesse rutherford is frontman of the nbhd which sucks bc i LOVEd the nbhd's music (before i knew ab all this tho... i don't listen to them anymore),,,,, the overall ick is from the music like uhh it's not mental illness music for nth... but the recent case is just his whole past relationship w billie eilish (theyre not tgt anymore),, but he met her when she was 16 n they got tgt (n also broke up) last year when she was 21,,,, so it kinda divided the internet bc ppl were saying that it was perfectly legal bc she's of age + can make her own choices + they were only "friends" before. BUT she clearly stated within her own interviews thst he was a childhood crush (i think she wasb6yo when the nbhd first blew up),, n how SHE bagged HIM. like billie honey, u can pull,, but any grown man from ehen u were still developing bagged YOU... n a lot of other predatorial discourse online, but obviously i only have ever read this thru comments. + also just icky relationship how there's the age gap like i mentioned + the nbhd's literal song "daddy issues" UMMM anyway.

so tske these as u will! im not researched at all,, n only here for hot goss, not fact!

Well this one aged badly for w soot HDFKKF

Damnnn v informative ty :0

[wildlycuriouswanderercj]

Its been a while since i vented. I only vent when i need to let go of heavy baggages. Like a pile of shit in my chest. Idk if aum likes me. She out there with jonny in bangkok. With her friends. Theyre drinking. She doesnt call me. She looks like shes having rhe time of her life. Happy. Thats great. Thabks jonny of taking care of her. But personal i dont like that. I rather have her just wait st pattaya like a real girlfriend. And not go out drinking. She didnt have to go. Why her. Natapon couldve went. Why it had to be her. Why she making fun videos with jonny in the same room. Why is she seem so happy. Why she dont call me. Why she only ask what im doing and dont tell me what she doing. Why. Why so i even care. I dont like her. Shes too big for me. Her wnergy is good. But shes not the match for me. I think imma let her go. Its ok if we can still be friends. But i think im done with her. Im not jealous. Im not angry. Im kinda of sad. I want to do some muay thai. I think im going to stay in pattaya. Or im going to koh samui. I dont want to go home. Im going to save much money and live out here much as possible. I dont care about a silly tradtional dinner. Its my life. Its my last time i might be out. Im not going back until i use up all my money and more. I dont care about my credit. I just need to relieve my shit in my chest. I thought she csred sbout me. Im at these few days were i feel the most lonely ive ever been. Past month i been so fill with people. Today i meet yan and izaya. It was fun listening to and talking sbout japanese culture anime and songs and showing them thailand. But in the end im alone. And im sad. I need some company. The time i need company rhe most i dont have anyone to share with me. Its 3 in the morning. Cant sleep. But ill try. Tmrw i go eat more laksa. Because thsts my favorite. I wont post anymore on ig. Im done with ig. I dont care unless its somone tryig. To contact me. Which thwres nobody to really contact. Maybe we go see alien eye girl. Maybe not. She kind of freak me out. Tmrw we go for a run. Then a workout. The. We go eat laksa. We get in shape this year. We get smart. We est fish. We get fast. And we live well alobe. We need to take care of ourspeves. We can only rely on our own company. We dont need anybody else. We dont want to reply to anybody. Anyone. We dont need anyone. We have ourselves. Thats all. We only eat good. No. Tmrw we go eat poke. We only est dry food from now on. Bread. Pasta. Salad. Fish. Kura kura is ok. We will no longer reply ro aum. We are finish. She wasnt there for me these few days. She make me worry during tike i neeed company the most. I needed someone to talk to. She wasnt there during these most critical times. When school starts in 3 days or 2. I wont have the time to be lonely. Ill be busy. So busy i dont have time for anybody. Not for love. Not for anybody. Just me and the spirits and lessons. After this 4 weeks. We go back to soi 7. We get our roght chest done. We dont drink for a day. We go pattaya at night. We get the piece done the morning of. We dont drink that day. We go and simple relax at the beach in jomtien where nobody is. We just chill. We drink coconuts and eat at terminal 21. Becuade thats our favorite chill time. We go find a gym. We work out. We lift. We relieve ourselves we get fit. We just strong. We go shopping. We got buy expensive necklace for protection. We go visit our friend in big buddha. We pray to the gods for protection and guidance. We give back to the great society of thailand. We stay in pattaya until tatto is finish healing. On the 6 or 7 we leave to koh samui. And thatll be that. We dont want to go home. We dont need to go home. Home is not where we belong. I need to live my life my way. I need to become my pwn adult. I need to take responsibilities for my only life. We dont not need to chade fame. We just need to know oursleves. Life live life outside our comfort zone. Live below our means. And ask marco if we can borrow 3k. Or 2k. We go koh samui we race we love. We meet and see new places. And we go koh tao