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ickypuppi3 · 2 years

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there’s something so freeing to me about the idea of billy, steve, heather and robin just fucking off out of hawkins and living in a shitty little apartment together in a city somewhere

#billy hargrove #steve harrington #heather holloway #robin buckley #harringrove #buckleway #god i hate that town #like i genuinely can’t express how much i need them out of there #fuck hawkins all my homies hate hawkins #nothing but bad vibes now #putting them in a shitty little apartment in a city #where there’s plenty of gay people #because i think they all need it #i mean billy had that #but the rest of them need it i’m telling you #i genuinely just feel like robin would thrive being somewhere with more going on #and heather and steve could do with being away from their parents #experience a little culture people c’mon #let them go into the 90’s in style #maybe it’s because i didn’t grow up somewhere like that #but it just feels stifling idk #even without all the weird shit #i would go insane after a full day there #billy was so valid for hating his life there #so true of you king #the only spin off they do should be this actually #but it’s a sitcom #then i’d watch it #jargyle have to be in it too though #ickyspeaks

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sickosdotjpg · 3 months

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thinking very intently about a stern, severe, imposing sort of character, the type who despises being seen as showing weakness, who stifles their sneezes as quietly as possible when they're around other people. they sneeze so forcefully that it can't be contained or held back; the stifling is as much of a compromise as they can manage, though it gives them a terrible headache.

thinking about this uptight chronic stifler having one person with whom they feel comfortable enough to let out their sneezes around. it's an unconscious thing, not at all deliberate; the stifling in public is fully a reflex by now, as is the letting it out in private. they don't even realize! their One Person, on the other hand, is Very Aware. 👀👀👀

#snzario #snz kink #whether they're Aware in a snzfucker way or simply in a. noticing they don't feel the need to stifle when it's just the two of them-#-and feeling Some Kind of Way about it. kind of way. up to you!#love a situation where a character has the kink but as time goes on i also find myself liking other situations more and more...#idk there's just something neat about someone having reasons to be interested in/turned on by snz without it necessarily being *about* snz?#skdlkf i'm Very sleep deprived and making probably zero sense but. please enjoy these weird thoughts regardless 💖#sickos.txt

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snzluv3r · 6 months

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i love having a snzfucker girlfriend so much she makes me feel so attractive and special in moments that i’ve normally been made to feel gross and embarrassed and small, like i should be ashamed of things i can’t control.

not only does she treat me with kindness and patience when i’m having a horrible allergy attack and can do nothing but sniffle and sneeze, she makes me feel pretty and worth loving and even sexy and it’s so special and i’m never going to get used to it

#idk i’m just soft #our first night together i was falling asleep while still having a fit #and i had been stifling but i started drifting off and before i realized what was happening i had sneezed fully and really harshly #directly into the palm of her hand (which she had cupped and ready in front of my mouth and nose the second i started hitching)#god it was so embarrassing and i immediately sprang up and apologized over and over #but she just cooed and shushed me and told me that i had nothing to be sorry or embarrassed about #and got me back to sleep #and then the next day when i apologized about it again #because it really was like #a very spray-y sneeze directly into her hand #she told me how much it turned her on and how adorable she thought it was #sorry i’m so soft and a little tipsy and decently sick so #i sm feeling very emotional and i just have so much to say about my gf #god

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offorestsongs · 3 months

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don't worry everybody, the hottest Spelldrive star has time for each of you ☆

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infinitelytheheartexpands · 9 months

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engineered the world’s least gracious early exit from family christmas time please clap

#i was just like ‘i think i need to go back early’ and my mom was like ‘are you sure?’ and i was like ‘yeah’ and she was like #‘okay do what you need to i guess’ and idk. i think it could’ve been more gracious but.#i dunno man. it just felt…physically and emotionally stifling. like i love my family but i could feel it in my bones.#and lord knows (not to be a pick me or anything but) that i’m very different from basically everyone else in my family. which is like :|#but now i’m back at my apartment on christmas eve i guess #anyway that’s how i’m doing

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sailermoon · 7 months

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i feel suffocated with how ordinary my life feels sometimes

#like ugh I want more!! idk what I want! but I feel just so stifled here #I want to move somewhere that feels magical and dreamy

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pyrosomatic-metamorphosis · 1 year

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people can use this site however they want but there's something almost- idk, sad? about how few people are actually using their blogs. you can turn themes on and have skeletons dancing in the background. you can make everything hot pink. your blog is your scrapbook and you can put whatever you want in there. tags are okay at organizing things so you can have just a whole archive of cool shit to look at later. i know people complain a lot about people liking stuff about reblogging for engagement, and on one hand i get that- it is WILD to see a drawing i spent hours on get only 12 reblogs and 60 likes. Absolute culture shock compared to my previous fandoms. but i don't think you should reblog anything to make artists happy. i think you should reblog things so you can find them again. i think you should queue things to appear on the dash at specific times on certain days. i think you should reblog things so when you're talking to your friends about xyz post you saw you can look in your blog's archive and find it again. i think you should reblog things so that your dash is filled with one really sleepy cat. with the loss of reblogs there's the loss of engagement, which Does hurt the community-focus that makes tumblr so appealing, but idk i just wish people were more excited about the incredible amount of customization that tumblr allows and took advantage of that more

#if you're ever nervous about reblogging stuff just remember that people can always turn off reblogs #and also pls theme your tumblrs after silly fish or weird cube people or dnd #just anything that's fun to you have fun!!!#this is the silly cringe website please join us and be silly and cringy #i need to go to bed i think #but i also keep thinking about how i enjoy myself the most on this website when people reblog things from me and add commentary #comments/replies are great sure but they really bring the conversation to a halt and doesn't allow anyone else to chime in #idk some of my fave followers are the people who only like stuff #but when there are *only* people liking things it really feels like you're just yelling into a complete void #and then it's harder to find more content for things you like too #because the people you follow aren't reblogging things youd like to see #i have to delve into the main tag for my fandom content a lot because the people i follow are usually just making og posts #maybe i just need to find people who reblog things more but idk #i love it when fandoms become little communities but it feels like that's been stifled recently #which is what my actual gripe is i think #maybe ill delete this in the morning maybe not im just full on rambling at this point #getting a lot of likes feels like twitter validation #and reblogs feels like 'im putting this cool thing up on my very big fridge'#i don't want a popularity contest i just want to share cool shit >:c

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orangebunnit · 2 years

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#chicken speaks #figured out my resolution for this year #idk i feel like spending so many formative years on the internet has made me develop a fear of being misinterpreted #or being seen as cringe which is a very stifling mindset because cringe is dead!!#i need to get used #to not being so afraid #and being okay with expressing myself and having fun and not thinking so much about these things #even just thinking of posting this makes me feel a bit nervous kfsks #man

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orcelito · 1 month

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Honestly now that I'm 27, I remember the fact that I moved in with my then-boyfriend (who I'd been dating for a year) at 22 and I'm like. Honestly full respect to my family for letting me do that without giving me any shit. It was kind of a dumbass thing to do and it Did blow up in my face, but they let me make my own mistakes & I'm honestly pretty grateful for that.

#speculation nation #and ykno what before it blew up in my face it was genuinely pretty nice #and most importantly i learned a lot about myself and how i live with a partner.#it was a learning experience! and i dont feel embarrassed for jumping into it. bc even then i knew it was kind of stupid.#but i accepted the risk & resolved to deal with it should it go wrong.#and when it did go wrong. well i dealt with it. i waited out that lease in possibly the most stifling living situation of my life #But I Did It. and ykno what i managed alright regardless.#idk now that im in my upper 20s im just like. 22 really is so young. and yeah i made my mistakes. but i learned from them.#sometimes u really just gotta let the youngsters make their mistakes. it builds character.#so im grateful i got to make my own mistake with that.

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always-a-joyful-note · 1 year

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I was re-listening to Tangled the Series' Girl Who Has Everything song and it really just struck me how....incredibly grateful Rapunzel is. Like at this point in the series, she's still has lost one of her best friends to the darkness and is dealing with an uncertain looming threat. But there's still her beloved's birthday to celebrate, her friend group is still so large, she has her parents, she's got Eugene, Pascal's still there, and even with all the danger and threats and tragedies that have befallen her she's still so thankful to where she's come to!

And I love her so much for that because her gratitude for her life has always been a part of her, even in the tower. I know the movie is all about how Rapunzel discovers the beautiful world she's been caged from, but at the same time, I love that she's still so grateful for her life even while stuck in the tower and how it coexists with her longing to go out and see the world. It's like she's telling us that we can still be thankful for life in the worst situations, that longing for something more and gratitude are not mutually exclusive. You can long for something that's just in reach or that you know you can never get but STILL be thankful for what you have and I love that so much about our sunshine princess

#guys i love rapunzel #i had tangled thoughts again sorry #just thinking about how rapunzel was said by one of the creators to be a role model for boys and girls and people in general #thinking about how shes kind of the opposite of the hopelessness we find so much of today #like i love bsd and i love orv and i think the hopelessness that the mcs feel is valid #and that their striving despite of hopelessness is a good message in of itself #but also i love rapunzel and how she live in a stifling situation that subtly crushes her emotionally #and she doesnt go 'life is hopeless and nothing will change but might as well keep living'#she finds ways to be thankful about her life and find joy in it and fjeiorajisearojeirwer #again. maybe count your blessings can still exist when youre very obviously cursed #but idk #tangled #tangled the series #tts #fandom spamdom #stuff i say

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shdwtouch · 2 months

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my mood / energy kinda tanked. just feeling meh :/ it's either adrenaline crash or overstimulation, idk. so imma take my meds and try to sleep. nini all ♡

#《 ° puffin.exe 》 im a puffin ! i dont do much #° mobile post !#° to be deleted !#my mom and sister came home and my sister started asking me about tennocon and i just. had no patience for it.#i know she was trying to act like. supportive and interested. but i didnt want to answer a bunch of questions #when she doesnt even make an effort to listen to what i have to say like. why ask if you dont care ? cant act like you do ?#just. made me realize my mood had tanked. or idk maybe im just frustrated with my family for not being more supportive.#i talked to a friend earlier about how i feel like i cant be myself around my family cuz they question everything #draw attention to things and make me feel self-conscious. otherwise i could be. shamelessly myself.#getting to be excited today while they were gone just made me realize how stifled i feel in this house i guess #idk im just. feeling some things about my family and myself and compounding with the adrenaline crash / overstimulation...#i desperately need to desensory and chill and sleep

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paging-possum · 5 months

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Who up listening to good luck babe by chappell roan and having it resonate not in the way intended but resonating nonetheless. About to go ham in the tags about the overlap of being a lesbian and being aromantic...if u even care....

#my art #gore #organs #its 2am so not a lot of this is going to be very coherent but this song makes me feel a lot of things about it all #like. its the Expectations #the expectation that im going to date men and the expectation that im going to date at all have always felt equally stifling #theres that feeling of not trying hard enough or not realizing it at first or trying to lean into what you're told you should feel #and having it not pay off time and time again and wishing you could just make it work #because everyone else around you has it just fine and you dont get why you're struggling with it so much #THERE ARE MORE SIMILARITIES BETWEEN THE TWO IS WHAT IM SAYING #like obviously figuring out aromanticism is especially weird because its a lack of something BUT THEYRE PRETTY SIMILAR #realizing I dont want to date anyone mirrors realizing I didn't like boys but like. idk man its worse sometimes?#I wouldn't trade it for the world it means a lot to me but its almost like people go out of their way not to understand it sometimes #at the end of the day I am the you in that song #it was a very very long road to being okay with never falling in love because that was something I wanted for a very very long time #at the end of the day I will never have to be someones wife and I think its better that way #but its also hard not to get jealous sometimes #like I know its irrational I know I get physically ill at just the thought of being asked out but like #sometimes ill see my friends with their girlfriends and ill feel like clawing my own chest out with want #but also if anyone asks me out I will have to dig myself into a pit and never come out. I think.#I want to be with women but I dont want to Be With Women if that makes sense #its another layer of difficulty that I dont think I'll ever be able to get past #I feel like at this point I should just be trying to conditioning myself out of any form of desire because its just not an option for me #which definitely isn't true and like chappell roan says. you'd have to stop the world just to stop the feeling.#but its also so tiring to have to sit here with the feeling and feel bad for having the feeling.#I dont know #I think if I felt a little more or a little less I’d be fine but I’m stuck in the middle #it feels very weird talking about this openly but also its very difficult to talk about with friends because most of them dont get it #anyways something something Josies monologue from bottoms #im going to bed

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nomaishuttle · 10 months

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fighting for my life trying to find info abt specificslly being an autistic parent to allistic kids but you search Autistic parent to allistic kids and evrry single thing is ITS SO FUCKING HARD TO HAVE A WEIRD FREAK WEIRD GROSS WEIRD WEIRD WEIRD SCARY ODD BLUNT AUTISTIC CHILD !!! WHEN YOU ARE NORMAL AND GOOD !!! can we all kill ourselves

#i did find a pretty good article im reading through. so ya.. it was a little upsetting at first bc they talked abt like. the author is l #autistic so they were talking abt an interaction they had with an allistic woman who had autistic parents and siblings #and she said some like. truly vile things and this person is a Far better person than me bc theyre like. well the way the she feels is sort #of a mirror of the way i felt growing up in an allistic family. which is fair but also i for shre wouldbe cussed this woman out very much #sry . she was saying shit abt how awful it was to see 2 autistic people presenting and being appreciated by their colleagues and how her #parents were broken and she was Real in a way they werent . like damn sry abt yr childhood but thats like. idk. im trying to be empathetic #but i am a broken and evil autistic person so im having some difficulty 😯#sry. i have judt been thinking abt it bc i might adopt kids bc idk likee. yk. idk what the womb situation will be and i cant afford to get #my eggs frozen etc. so theres a high chance my kids might not be autistic. which is sort of scary and i wanted 2 try and see testimonies #from autistic parents judt 2 see like. what their experience was #obv ill still love my kids KRNFJFNG even if theyre weird freaky allistics (#JOKING JOKING JOKING JOKING JOKING sry if my future kids r reading this.)#but yk i just wanted to see some of the things 2 look out for.#bc obviously. some things that are really good for autistic children can feel either stifling or distant to an allistic kid. which you can #say abt anything lol thats every kid but ykwin.

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tardis--dreams · 10 months

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I wish i could skip forward to December 23 already

#i cannot stand my own whining but god i hate my life rn lol #i mean it's all my fault but i don't see myself improving in this environment #i should just try to ignore myself for the next 3 weeks #i can start packing up and throwing away stuff i won't need here anymore and maybe I'll feel less stifled #idk #just get through it i guess #this weekend I'll be away one last time and then there's only 2 weekends left #then it's essentially only 2 more weeks because the last week doesn't even count #finals start in 2 weeks already so i should be occupied #i still haven't even started my paper i already asked for an extension for and should hand in in November #instead of October #i just need to start focusing on anything but food intake and exercise and my body and I'll be fine #the days only seem to go by so slow suddenly because i'm literally not doing anything but hate my current state #so tomorrow I'll work on my paper and go running or take a walk and I'll book my bus tickets for the weekend #I'll find some enjoyment in occupying my mind with anything but myself #(sounds wrong. but i guess my problem really is that I'm focusing too much on how i dislike everything about me and need to change it #while the solution would be to simply not care and live my sad little life)#void screams #(((affirmation: i will not cry myself to sleep tonight ♡ i will face another day without a mental breakdown over how Wrong i am ♡))

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c-nan · 11 months

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i’ve tried so hard not to be hopelessly in love with her but god it’s no use at this point

#i’ve got less than a sliver of a chance but my stupid dumb lesbian heart keeps holding on #idk how to move on when i’ve been in love with her since third grade #like???#am i supposed to tell her???#i guess that might help to stifle down any last lingering hope she feels the same way about me but that would be more than mortifying and #i don’t think i’d be able to stand the look of pity on her face no thank you i’m fine #i’ll just pine for the rest of my life forever #this is literally so mortifying for me

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fnafawoundleftbleedingau · 9 months

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...partially considering holding off on posting AWLB part 2 until I've got like, the whole thing written, and re-read/reworked in places fully.

#insomniac hyena rambles #idk if I will. just been thinking lately #sorta realized how badly I stifle myself with my work because of someone I know #and just how much anxiety they give me over my hobbies sometimes #sitting aside for a bit and working on that personal project and just #having the space to do whatever was so damn nice and refreshing #and I want my posted works to have that same feeling #i feel like it may be why i keep having trouble with AWLB part 2 and staying focused #I keep looking at it through that anxiety lens they've saddled me with #it may just be this time of the year gettting to me too thats making really consider holding off on AWLB like this too. but.#the other stuff really doesnt help either #sorry for ranting. um #long story short. taking concerns from others into account is fine #but theres a big difference in things that are constructive and actually should be taken into account #and just not making something that's exactly what someone else wanted when you're just trying to create for yourself #don't let anyone pull the joy out of your hobbies for you. you'll just upset yourself. struggled to find joy in your work-#and get frustrated as hell with people.

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