#but it is clearly extremely important
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There is an oft-repeated scene in the Silm when one of Our Heroes has died fighting a noble but hopeless battle that they chose, and someone, somehow buries them properly AND it is specifically mentioned in the text that the grave lay undisturbed until some far future date (usually the breaking of Beleriand).
This happens to Finrod, to Fingolfin (though his grave was only undisturbed until Gondolin fell), and Glorfindel. For other dead characters, this precise formula does not occur.
(Beren and Luthien die natural mortal deaths and no one knows where they are buried, Feanor spontaneously combusts and none of his sons' burials are ever mentioned, and Turgon dies & is presumably "buried" in the collapse of his tower. Hurin, Morwen, and Nienor aren't buried [edit: Morwen was buried]; Finduilas and Turin are buried but it is not specifically mentioned that their graves were undisturbed afterwards. Barahir is buried by Beren but it isn't specifically mentioned that his grave was inviolate. Aredhel's grave isn't mentioned, neither is Thingol's, Dior's, or Nimloth's. Aegnor, Angrod, Orodreth, and Gwindor die in battle against the enemy but in a battle that came to them (Bragollach and of Nargothrond respectively) and was one they had to fight, not a hopeless battle that they chose and their graves' aren't mentioned.)
You will notice that I have not mentioned Fingon, who was famously "beat[en] into the dust with their maces...they trod [his banner] into the mire of his blood," or any who died in the Nirnaeth Arnoediad and were dumped in a pile by Morgoth's forces to create the Hill of the Slain/Haudh-en-Ndengin/Hill of Tears/Haudh-en-Nirnaeth.
The Nirnaeth is, of course, the ultimate noble but hopeless battle, and Fingon especially typifies that. (Relatedly, Azahgal's body is successfully borne away by his troops, presumably for a long-lasting burial place.) The Hill of the Slain is meant to be a symbol of Morgoth's power and a place of dreadful carnage and disrespect for those who fell and should break my argument--
But in one sentence Tolkien turns all that around:
"But grass came there and grew again long and green upon that hill, alone in all the desert Morgoth made; and no creature of Morgoth trod thereafter upon the earth beneath which the swords of the Eldar and the Edain crumbled into rust"
--and the symbol of Morgoth's total victory becomes a sacred, untouched grave of heroes.
#they're all elves so it's a Little Odd#that inviolate graves are so important because they get a new body#but it is clearly extremely important#for especially Noble and Heroic characters fighting hopeless battles#to be buried properly (Barahir)#and a few fighting especially chosen Noble but Hopeless battles get the extra special inviolate grave treatment#quotes from Silm Ch 20#AND is hearkens back to the line about grass during the long peace#from Silm Ch 14#'but after the coming of the Sun rich grass arose there#and while Angband was besieged and its gates shut there were green things even among the pits and broken rocks before the doors of hell'#fingon#fingon the valiant#nirnaeth arnoediad#finrod#glorfindel#fingolfin#the silmarillion#haudh-en-nirnaeth#haudh-en-ndengin#tolkien#softlysilver#themes
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I'm really not vibing with whatever staff is doing now. Not only does there seem to be a total internal communication breakdown, there also seems to be an absolute disregard for how the players are affected by this.
Like, ignoring the fact that the consistency argument doesn't even hold water, their takeaway from the Fern/Paisley thread seems to have been "oh we gotta change Breakup and Hypnotic too!!"
And then completely reversing Sandsurge Blend on top of that? A gene that's been out for over half a year and was only listed as having the gradient softened, not reversed? Just a total failure to communicate and an absolute bullheadedness in pushing the changes through despite the very reasonable player concerns?
To top it all off, none of these are bug changes, they are style changes. Someone saw these genes before they went live, greenlighted them, and put them in the game. And now, months upon months later, someone else (presumably) says "fuck that, I want the gene to look like this instead" and that complete change is just... pushed through??
Like. Did they learn nothing from the Butterfly debacle, from Obelisk Flair, hell, from the Eyepocalypse?
What the fuck is going on behind the scenes?
#flight rising#snaphance rambles#i don't fucking know man#yeah rushing out ancients is an absolute mistake#but also why has “consistency” suddenly become so important to them?#they've done so many drastic changes in the name of “consistency” like changing the rarities of genes that have been out for 8+ years#and now they completely ignore the breed/gene variety they themselves have created#“this totally changes the dragon for no reason let's push it through”#actually the auraboa changes make them worse and far more cluttered#they already struggle with being extremely busy#so let's just revert those very nice gene designs that actually make them more readable#who cares if our players have invested in these dragons and have had like 3-6 months to get attached to them#let's flatten the fucking auraboa secs and completely change the look of sandsurge blend#because they clearly don't play their game or understand how players get attached to how their dragons look
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the major arcana, shuffled: 5/??
THE TOWER; ⤉ disaster, destruction, upheaval, trauma ⤈ resisting change, avoiding tragedy, delaying the inevitable, avoiding loss
#ffxiv:tma#back at it again with the cursed family paintings!!#i was stumped on how to make this look like a tower ngl. i think i did good but i feel like these needed more post-process editing. w/e#if you see clipping no you don't ssshhhhhh-#yea i know cassie's husband isn't here but this isn't about him. this is about the tatlonghari's collective family trauma!!!#only ones missing are paris and andi. paris doesn't consider themselves fully apart of the family and andi missed a lot of the upheaval#wanted to showcase the entirety of the family and how priam has been the direct cause of all their problems#the symbolism here is that the left showcases the ones who are alive. the right are those who were killed by priam#notice how on the left they're not touching each other despite being so close to one another#they're not smiling either. they're extremely distant even within close proximity#whereas the right they're holding onto each other and smiling (rather creepily but you know)#i made a corrupted version but i think it's important to see their happy faces more clearly. notice how they kinda look demonic#and yea priam's face is scribbled out but you can see that his face was beat in#and pammon (priam's twin) and andromache (who priam thought was dead for years) are choking him#the reverse got flipped wrong when you look at it rightside up but it adds to the creepiness i think#body horror cw#gore cw#<- just in case#mygposes.#ffxivsnaps#gposers#ffxiv gpose#ffxiv oc#hyur
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the never stop blowing up vhs is where cute twinks go to get harmed
#not art#nsbu spoilers#kirk blade.... johnny manhattan..... maybe tenuously cosmo chase#also genuinely I Love that vic ethanol is showing himself to be bit of a dick#and kingskin conversely First Actual Communication With The Player is like. idk I just work here#(I am vibrating in my seat abt liv bloodlust. shes experiencing a bit of emotional consequence. hope she powers thru it and#becomes even worse)#I also love that g13 and jack manhattan are both like. gone#I know in adventuring party they're charting it to shape up as like. usha also slowly losing herself to the work like g13 did#and them becoming one entity entirely in the sense that their selves stop mattering in the face of their hacker capacity#(also called the Forum Moderator Dilemma)#but I also like to think that g13 handed it back to usha cleanly in the second episode with that one interaction#and is now fully unplugged from everything. left the movie. man is Sleeping#we all agree that paula ate jack manhattan tho I think it's fine to assume that#and! the way russell has been like. fully going whole hog full tilt into helping other people and moving the plot along#while Suggesting That Doing Self Reflection And Learning Lessons From This World Might Help to Other People#like I love that. 1/lieutenant syndrome but also 2/extremely transfem coded#like past the ''ohh I have realisationd I'm coming to'' stage. far past. man is bored with thinking abt genders#not new realisation to him! had that thought two decades ago. not motivated enough by anything to change anything#I think I just love the scenario of like magical mystical journey in a fantasy world clearly designed to make you contemplate ur gender#and ur like oh no what? we did that years ago. whats up#deeply interested tho. open up russell we wanna see whats up with u#dang is perfect no note 10/10 more important than anything else he is genre aware and savvy and that truly is all he needs here#the ''let's make it fun'' scene he does with liv is SO good I love him. Im so scared the vhs will snatch him away. hes too genre perfect
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"As for the government of the kingdom, [Edward V] had complete confidence in the peers of realm and the queen."
"According to the Crowland continuator, [Elizabeth Woodville] seems to have taken the king's place in listening to his council immediately after Edward IV's death. It does appear that she expected to have some role in her son's kingship, and the Crowland continuator’s report of the letters sent to her by [Richard of Gloucester] indicates that she had good reason to expect to be able to work with him and the other councillors: 'the duke of Gloucester wrote the most pleasant letters to console the queen; he promised to come and offer submission, fealty and all that was due from him to his lord and king, Edward V, the first-born son of his brother the dead king and the queen'."
"[However], in what was Gloucester's first coup, Edward V was separated from his household and Woodville advisors. When the young king questioned the move, Buckingham was reported to have told the boy 'It is not in the business of women but men to govern kingdoms'. The blunt remark referred to the authority of Elizabeth Woodville as queen and the power she must have anticipated within the new political climate left by Edward IV's sudden death [...] While the veracity of this scene is questionable*, the words attributed to the duke no doubt seemed plausible to Dominic Mancini who believed they exemplified the popular sentiment held by men [...]."
-Dominic Mancini, The Usurpation of Richard the Third / J.L. Laynesmith, The Last Medieval Queens: English Queenship 1445-1503 / Alexander R. Brondarbit, Power Brokers and the Yorkist State, 1461-1485
*One of Mancini's key sources seems to have been Edward V's own doctor, John Argentine, who attended to him in the Tower. It's very likely that he was the one who recounted this scene to Mancini, which suggests that it should probably be considered more credible than not.
#historicwomendaily#elizabeth woodville#wars of the roses#15th century#english history#my post#Croyland wrote that 'The counsellors of the king - now deceased - were present with the queen' so yes#He clearly seemed to view Elizabeth as taking on Edward's role after his death#Which is striking since her son - the new King - hadn't even arrived in London yet let alone be crowned#It's also interesting that Richard wrote letters to *her* rather than the rest of the council and that she was the final deciding authority#when it came to her son (she was the one who wrote to him for his military escort) - it's a clear indication of who was seen as important#This is also reflected in 16th century chronicles like the claim that the Archbishop of York gave Elizabeth the Great Seal#We don't know if this is true - the Archbishop was definitely opposed to Richard but More may have embellished or invented the story#But either way it reflects the perception that Elizabeth would have a major role in the realm's governance during her son's minority#Which makes sense as Edward V would have been used to his mother governing for him as part of his council his whole life#It's also interesting to compare the impression we get of Elizabeth's role with that of former kings' mothers in late medieval England#Because that can help us understand her activities (and perception of them) within proper context rather than purely in isolation#From what I understand kings' mothers could be very influential (eg: Joan of Kent) but were almost never visibly/directly associated#with the governance of the realm. It's striking that the most extreme and arguably the only exception - Isabella of France - assumed#her unofficial regent-like role only after literally deposing the former King aka her husband in the most atypical situation imaginable#So it's striking that Elizabeth *was* visibly and directly associated with it despite her situation being entirely standard; despite the#lack of precedents; and despite the physical absence of her son. Especially since she was effectively the king's mother for only 20 days#I do think it's possible to argue that it says something about her power as queen#(Edward *did* give her unusual positions of authority either way) and may also suggest a more direct personality on her part#It may also explain why historians were/are so readily prepared to believe that she wanted to 'usurp the sovereignty' to quote George Buck#Ofc this is my interpretation based on my (limited) knowledge - feel free to correct me
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the thing about yosuke’s shittiness around here (up close and personal, the campout) is that the vast majority of it isn’t doing literally anything for his character. i completely think yosuke’s shittiness is important to his character, but it’s by and large reflections of his own insecurities and flaws. he’s insecure about his masculinity and sexuality, he’s lame, he’s selfish, he’s obsessed with the idea of women, his mouth moves faster than his brain, he doesn’t like himself, and he cares way too much about the societal ideal of ‘normal’. but it’s really important that he’s self-aware! he knows when the things he says are shitty, he knows he’s lame, he knows he’s selfish, he knows he’s putting up a front of being carefree and normal. but there’s absolutely no self awareness here, there’s no recognizing he went too far and apologizing the next day, there’s no regret, there’s not even any self-deprecation, and there’s absolutely no compassion or empathy like he has in serious moments. a lot of what he says is just mean for meanness’s sake, in an execution incongruous with previous behaviour. it’s not even funny!
#tbh i think the thing with kanji in the tent was the closest to being interesting#like by the end he’s warning against kanji leaving the tent#so clearly he cares about kanji more than he’s homophobic#he was straight up just saying that stuff to be shitty. knowingly!#that’s interesting! and the whole thing reeks of yosuke’s own insecurity in his masculinity and sexuality#he took it way too far and i deeply wish he’d quit it with the we statements#but if he had even a single line like ‘shit… i shouldn’t have said all that’ or recognized he was in the wrong at all#then i think it genuinely would’ve been an important moment for his character#everything else was just extremely shitty for no reason. the fucking swimsuits was pathetic but the gross guilt tripping was awful#he’s just lacking all of his usual self awareness. he’s lacking all of his good qualities and nuance#like it’s a fundamental misunderstanding of what makes yosuke’s other moments interesting or funny#this is just him being mean getting punished arbitrarily and not learning anything#on paper i get it. i get how these events could be continuations of established charateristics#but it’s just so mean and shitty that it becomes absurd nonsensical and unenjoyable#the stuff with hanako is just genuinely repugnant on the game’s behalf. it serves no purpose other than cruelty#definitely the worst part of the game so far#rambles#p4g posting#yosukeposting
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i feel very frustrated about the trend of giving chil body hair bc if it was any other anime twink i would be thrilled its just that it seems to only be because people are SO afraid of him looking young they have to make him hairy to justify liking him in ships.
meanwhile it does directly go against canon (he literally is supposed to look like a child. this is integral to both his character and his race's lore as a whole and it makes no damn sense that he would be mistaken for a child if he has body hair i mean. cmon.)
and it's like. some men are hairless. some men look young. when youre a trans man in your 20s-30s its especially common to be mistaken for a teenager, even more so if you're not on t. and short. these traits do not make you less of a man or an adult. :/
#rot posts#listen its like. i just wish ppl werent doing it for the reasons they seem to be#you NEVER see tiny little men get body hair in fanart i should know ive been in multiple fandoms where i was the only 1 givin bitches hair#but it also sucks when its like. clearly from a place of discomfort and not wanting him to seem young#rather than actually loving body hair#for example where is laios with body hair. wheres kabru. mithrun. literally any other character#(senshi us a slight exception on account of semi canonically having hair)#it just feels like a performance for no one. ok yeah good job you made chil look like a hairy 30 year old#did you pay attention to how that totally disregards his story and how he canonically looks like a child and that IS an important aspect#half foots face infantilism to an extreme and his appearance is a part of this. the discrimination he faces is partially BECAUSE of looks!#so changing him to erase such a HUGE important aspect of his race's lore just bc ppl seem uncomfortable with him being young looking feels#idk the feeling. its frustrating to me#i just wish there was some self reflection here. i guess. some actual acknowledgement of his canon struggles#do you even like chil if you cant accept one of his core canonical traits...#whew anyways this is HUGELY a limited edition post bc im deleting it as soon as my husband reads it ❤️#i hate drama i hate discourse so like always if you try to start shit i will ignore + block you soo fast dont try me
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*slams hands down on table*
XERO????
AHAIAHSIWHF HAIII MINUTE. CLASPS MY HANDS TOGETHER VERY POLITELY. I put Eclipse in a time loop that starts from the first day of October and restarts on the day he dies 😁 The loop can only be broken when he starts to heal from his trauma and ties up loose ends :3
#asks#itsahotminuteinbetween#lunar is EXTREMELY important for the loop too#obviously they're there bc they were part of the takeover#but how Lunar reacts to Eclipse is a huge indicator of whether or not Eclipse is getting close to breaking out#i talked a lot about this au w/ my friend kat and flap said once that eclipse starts to become hyperaware of certain 'events' and what they-#-mean and also realizing what it means when they stop doing them. like lunar asking less and less if eclipse is okay even tho he's clearly-#-doing worse. and he tells himself he doesn't care. but in the next loop he's nicer to fix it#yk? yk???#he goes through probably hundreds of loops and experiences every emotion and does everything he can think of#but it doesn't work until he's open. he has to get off the track that leads him to his death.#and i rhink abt it a lot HDKABSKSNS#tsams#eclipse#no id#xero thoughts and rambles
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i debated a little whether to post this or not considering that I'm basically a tma blog at this point but a while ago i visited Gradara, which is a little medieval village (the Italian word is borgo, saying village doesn't have the same effect) that was built around 1150 ad. Beside being extremely pretty and having a lot of swords and knights figurines, it's probably better known because it was home to a pretty well known couple: Paolo and Francesca.
So i guess in honor of Hozier's song Francesa here's a little photo dump from my trip. (Please ignore how dark the pictures are that's literally who i am unfortunately i was created by DC)
Disclaimer: I'm not a photographer, take what you can
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the city entrance
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the south tower
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Francesca and Ciotto Malatesta's room (restored, it's not the actual one but close enough i guess)
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The view from their window
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Last but not least the chapel. Yes the acoustic is amazing and yes i sang Hozier songs in there (because i was alone and they were about to close, I didn't bother anyone)
Unfortunately most of the castle is restricted because (fortunately) it's undergoing restoration, but you can also buy a ticket for the walkway around the city walls, the one the guards did, which would have been great if I didn't suffer so much from vertigo (yeah the vast is gonna have to fight the spiders for my soul)
Oh and i almost forgot there's a "walk of the lovers" (passeggiata degli innamorati) again about Paolo and Francesca that's literally a trail of hearts
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Sorry about the 2014 vibes, i do miss my youth
#Hozier#unreal unearth#hozier unheard#Francesca#hozier francesca#Paolo e Francesca#Why isn't it Francesca e Paolo she's clearly more important#Andrew made a song about her#dante alighieri#divine comedy#Dante's extremely popular self insert ff#gradara#medieval castle#Dante is the og Mary Sue#He did it before star trek#Sorry if the photo quality is bad :(
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a yet to be fleshed out scene from my ct lives au is more or less just ct going "I cannot believe I have to go on a mission with these 2 strangers whom I don't trust in the slightest because my former teammates mercilessly slaughtered all of my boyfriend's teammates so now his boss doesn't think he's qualified for field work anymore"
#she's more used to the director's bs than she wants to admit okay#she's also not sure how to deal w /not/ being seen as the cringe fail loser girl (affectionate)#ct: you want *me* to take point on a mission that is clearly of great importance????? ME????#also 'yet to be fleshed out' i say as if the whole fic is not just a vague collection of ideas that have yet to be connected or solidified#rvb#red vs blue#agent connecticut#the two strangers are felix and locus btw. and the mission isn't chorus. but that's all im gonna say lol#like it's not that ppl didn't get punished for messing up in pfl but most of the time being dropped lower on the board was the punishment#being temporarily removed from the active roster for a mission or two was generally seen as an extreme measure considered pfl's nature as#a highly experimental high risk unit#re: felix and locus in my ct lives au im debating on if they were marines or ODSTs prior to working for charon#ODSTs would make more sense in being able to keep up w wash and lina but the colors of their armor for the warrior test thing says marines
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this is yet another random academia nitpick i won’t let go of for weeks but someone in the comments of the victor ninov broccumentary claimed that science is a “incredible field that can’t be simplified to storytelling like this” because “it goes against human nature to do” and writing good sci comm goes against scientific integrity.
and the whole statement is incredibly stupid but in true anthropologist fashion i must say what on earth about science goes against human nature. the desire to test a phenomenon and revise your theories based on the results is literally one of the benchmarks for early modern humans. this is the behavior in corvid’s (tool use) that people loose their shit over. communicating findings to others?? collaborative work to reach an arbitrary goal that won’t necessarily have a direct benefit on your immediate life???? that’s how we domesticated staple crops dumbass. it’s science all the way down
#look i know i am Biased to qualitative research and can and have debated engineering folks over the need to understand that human expression#in an field cannot be summarized into qualitative data without ignoring important factors#(the categorizing tells us more about the *researcher’s* perspective than the subjects. sorry i’ve spent too long doing ethnography around#human factors / psych people. i’m so glad i escaped)#BUT. EVEN I WILL ACKNOWLEDGE TRADITIONAL EXPERIMENTAL SCIENCE HAS A WELL DEVELOPED AND DESERVED PLACE#AND ITS AN EXTREMELY HUMAN EXPRESSION#i have also debated the validity of human nature as a concept#<- anthropologist behavior. but regardless what the fuck is the point of this statements#‘science is hard because it’s unintuitive for the human brain’ clearly you know jackshit about the human brain or any of history#and that’s because you’re too obsessed with science and ignore the wonders of humanity.#you cannot take the science out of the humanity you cannot take the humanity out of the conduct of science#text✨
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also the way shelby was literally so understanding of and kind to martha is really important. martha's obviously a very sweet, gentle, beautiful, and kind creature, but because of her somewhat shy introverted nature (and also like the general atmosphere of high school and the fact that teenagers are a little shallow) she doesn't get the romantic attention/relationships that she desires. she's somewhat insecure and very vulnerable (which is such an understandable and almost universally relatable part of the teen girl experience), and like a lot of other heterosexual girls, she wants to be romantically desired.
and shelby sees this and doesn't belittle martha for wanting to be desired by male love interests the way most people, especially not-like-other-girls "feminists" would. shelby doesn't have the context of martha's life before the plane crash, she doesn't know why this is so important to martha, but that doesn't matter. martha is shelby's friend and a soft, good soul with many attractive qualities, and while shelby knew her for a very short period of time, she sees how special martha is. shelby kindly and enthusiastically reassures martha, promising her that she will get the romantic attraction and the desire from males that she wants - and not as a way to placate or humor her, but out of sincere fondness and from a place of genuine appreciation for martha and all that she is.
#just thinking about how good these interactions are#and how it reinforces the important theme that girls have the capability to experience intense romantic attraction#and have these extreme yearnings to be desired and validated by others#obviously with characters like leah those kind of situations can become dangerous really quickly#but even so girls that crave affection and desire and love from the people/boys they want aren't the problem!!#there's nothing wrong with wanting to be loved and desired and receive romantic affections!!!!!!!!#it's when a) bad men like leah's author bf take advantage of that desire and young girls' vulnerability#or b) this yearning becomes problematic and completely consumes the person#which is clearly not the case with martha?? she has so much energy and love and she cares about/prioritizes a lot of things#besides romantic relationships#shelby goodkind#martha blackburn#the wilds#martha x shelby
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frankly, i don’t know how you CAN’T take dreams seriously… for years i thought i was an emotionless monster who didn’t truly love anyone until my Pop-pop was dying and i dreamed about him every single night without fail and i have never doubted myself again.
#dreams elucidate my repressed desires and anxieties in extremely important ways#that tell me what i have going on Up There#i’ve had dead people visit me a few times#sometimes they’re just insane and hilarious#idk - i love my dreams and i think they’re important (to me at least)#they’ve helped me make some BIG decisions by laying my opinions out clearly#for instance - i decided i wanted top surgery like eight years ago in a dream#and now i actually have it booked :))#dreams are serious business and i like to make fun of myself - but i DO take them seriously
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crying laughing @ this edition of le fantôme de l'opéra that my dad got me for christmas it's just. i don't know how to describe it. every page is a scan of a page of the 1926 edition, with like 1-2 inches of margin around it??? and the letters are so small and the scan is not of very great quality so it's kind of hard to see the words?? interspersed with scans of pictures but some of them are upside down??? there's one page where the scan didn't really work in the upper left corner so it's just totally black???
the back of the book says
Le présent ouvrage s'inscrit dans une politique de conservation patrimoniale des ouvrages de la littérature Française mise en place avec la BNF. HACHETTE LIVRE et la BNF proposent ainsi un catalogue de titres indisponibles, la BNF ayant numérisé ces œuvres et HACHETTE LIVRE les imprimant à la demande.
(my rough translation: This publication is in line with a policy instituted in conjunction with the BNF (National Library of France) for the conservation of important works of French literature. In service of this goal, Hachette Livre and the BNF are offering a catalogue of unavailable titles digitized by the BNF which Hachette Livre will print upon request.)
so like this is on purpose but i have so many questions. first of all why the margins. okay i guess that is my most important question. why not just make the book correspond to the size of the pages in the original? or, if the size of the book is fixed, you could at least size up the images to use as much of that wasted space as possible, no?
i want to say how ridiculous this is and how there's no market for it but there clearly is one because i asked my dad to get it for me! i'm the market!! i told him to buy this edition because it was the only french-language print edition i could find to buy in the us for less than $50 (outside of amazon because fuck amazon). but like, why is that the case? the full text of this book, in plain text which could easily and legibly be printed, is available for free on the internet. why isn't there some publisher who's just printing that out and binding it? seems easier to do than printing scans. not to mention a lot easier to read!!
(to see what i'm talking about, go to the hachette BNF webpage for this book and click on feuilleter to download a sample of the pages in PDF)
#is there like. some copyright reason??? i'm really baffled by this#i get needing to scan the pictures but the text???#even if you wanted to preserve the page numbers and so forth i'm sure you could make that happen...#just print it in the same font with the same page size as the original. right??? i feel like i'm losing my mind here#it's just. this is an extremely famous work of literature and a manipulable printable plain text version is available for free#on the internet. why is no one printing that??? or why is everyone charging so much money for it???#books#french#my posts#oftentimes when i'm trying to order a work of classic french lit from my local bookstore#the hachette bnf version comes up in the search results. and sometimes it's the only version that does#i've always avoided buying one though because i could tell there was something off about them. the covers look very...#idk. unprofessional? not unprofessional but clearly they are not important. no one is trying to make them appealing#so i was like. not at all confident that they would be any good. but i finally decided to get one because there were no other options#and lo and behold i open it up. and it's this. i guess i was right to judge this book by its cover#gonna try to read this now because i certainly won't be able to read it when i'm old and my near eyesight is bad lol#my near eyesight is already getting worse so i better get cracking
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processed some trauma i think
#i did a lot of things very wrong when i was a teenager but also i was a teenager and everything was difficult#i feel bad for how i ended some of my friendships over the years bc it was often like.#they were clearly struggling. something was deeply wrong with all of my friends home lives. deadly serious things. molestation abuse etc#but when i was 14-16 that was extremely difficult for me to contextualize. i knew it was bad of course i wasnt stupid#it was more just. i didnt have the life experience to know just How Much it affected a person.#that type of shit can obliterate healthy functioning adults. the type of behavior it invokes in teens can be fucking UNPARALLELED#it affects your entire brain and body. i dont think theres a single part of you thats left completely undamaged.#in retrospect i now recognize that there was more i could've done. i could've talked to my parents more and i really dont know why I didnt.#i think I just felt like nothing could be done?#and there probably wasnt much that could be done#but idk. it could've helped me process it which could've helped them process it.#and as important as i think compassion is. even towards people who can be viscerally unpleasant. i was a kid. not a social worker#it was the responsibility of the adults around us to make it better. and they either failed or made it worse.#it's just awful to think back on it and realize that we were all in this shit together. but the trauma ripped us apart anyway.#i really sincerely hope everyone from those dA chatroom days are doing better now. i hope they're safe. i hope they're not dead.#it's always going to bother me a little bit that i have no way of knowing what happened to any of them.
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"Because Richard (III) usurped the throne, his retinue is inevitably seen as inimical to the crown and therefore in an important sense independent of royal authority. In the context of Edward IV's reign, in which the retinue was created, neither assumption is true. The development of the retinue would have been impossible without royal backing and reflected, rather than negated, the king's authority. Within the north itself, Gloucester's connection subsumed that of the crown. Elsewhere, in East Anglia and in Wales, that focus for royal servants was provided by others, but Gloucester was still part of that royal connection, not remote from it. In the rest of England, as constable and admiral, he had contributed to the enforcement of royal authority. When he seized power in 1483 he did not do it from outside the prevailing political structure but from its heart."
-Rosemary Horrox, "Richard III: A Study of Service"
#richard iii#english history#my post#Richard was certainly very powerful in the north but to claim that he 'practically ruled' or was king in all but name is very misleading#his power/success/popularity were not detached from Edward IV's rule but a fundamental part/reflection/extension of Edward IV's rule#even more so that anyone else because he was Edward's own brother#there's also the 1475 clause to consider: Richard & Anne would hold their titles jointly and in descent only as long as George Neville#also had heirs. Otherwise Richard's title would revert to life interest. His power was certainly exceptional but his position wasn't as#absolute or indefinite as is often assumed. It WAS fundamentally tied to his brother's favor just like everyone else#and Richard was evidently aware of that (you could even argue that his actions in 1483 reflected his insecurity in that regard)#once again: when discussing Edward IV's reign & Richard III's subsequent usurpation it's really important to not fall prey to hindsight#for example: A.J Pollard's assumption that Edward IV had no choice but to helplessly give into his overbearing brothers' demands#and had to use all his strength to make Richard to heed to his command which fell apart after he died and Richard was unleashed#(which subsequently forms the basis of Pollard's criticism of Edward IV's reign & character along with his misinterpretation of the actions#of Edward IV's council & its main players after his death who were nowhere near as divided or hostile as Pollard assumes)#is laughably inaccurate. Edward IV was certainly indulgent and was more passive/encouraging where Richard (solely Richard) was concerned#but he was by no means unaware or insert. His backing was necessary to build up Richard's power and he was clearly involved & invested#evidenced by how he systematically depowered George of Clarence (which Clarence explicitly recognized) and empowered Richard#and in any case: to use Richard as an example to generalize assumptions of the power other magnates held during Edward IV's reign#- and to judge Edward's reign with that specific assumption in mind - is extremely misleading and objectively inaccurate#Richard's power was singular and exceptional and undoubtedly tied to the fact that he was Edward's own brother. It wasn't commonplace.#as Horrox says: apart from Richard the power enjoyed by noble associates under Edward IV was fairly analogous to the power enjoyed by#noble associates under Henry VII. and absolutely nobody claims that HE over-powered or was ruled by his nobles or subjects#the idea that Richard's usurpation was 'inevitable' and the direct result of Edward empowering him is laughable#contemporaries unanimously expected Edward V's peaceful succession. Why on earth would anyone - least of all Edward -#expect Richard to usurp his own nephew in a way that went far beyond the political norms of the time?#that was the key reason why the usurpation was possible at all#as David Horspool says: RICHARD was the 'overriding factor' of his own usurpation There's no need to minimize or outright deny his agency#as Charles Ross evidently did
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