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yesplsnothankyou · 5 months ago

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I only come on tumblr when I'm at the very end of my rope and barely hanging on by a quickly disintegrating thread and I don't know what that tells you about me

#boygenius #lah posting #I took the drugs again #I'm worse but better #I will not stagnate #i have therapy tomorrow #it's gonna be another one of those times when I spend the whole time crying #I don't have anyone anymore that i can rely on to hold space for me when I cry #i can hold space for my own emotions now thank you very much #i'm extremely proud of that fact because six months ago that hill felt absolutely insurmountable #but it really helps when there's occasionally someone else to help with that #sorrow shared is half the sorrow and joy shared is double joy #and all that #but i'm really scared for how this is going to end #i'm in really fucking deep at this point #and it's only getting deeper #i don't want to lose my person or the farm or our plans for the future #but it can't go on like this #no matter what i do #and i can't make him realise and i can't do it for him #but i'm afraid that instead of facing the music and turning shit around he's going to choose a much worse way of dealing with things #If this ends i don't think i could ever date again #i know that's dramatic but i'm being very serious about this #i keep thinking i'm dating someone completely different each time but then every time without fail after a year or two #they get into a deep funk and can't seem to do anything but stew and complain and be mean and ruin any chance of being in a good mood #every single time to the point where i wonder if that's just what happens to people who date me #and i can't stand it because while i'm far from toxic positivity i take pride in choosing to not behave like that when things dont go my wa #but i can't risk letting this keep happening again. I genuinely think i can now be happier loving myself than i'd ever be trusting romance.#I've come so far in my healing and I can't keep letting people derail me who have no idea how to self-regulate or have self-compassion #I'm getting sick again. I can feel it happening in my body

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canisalbus · 2 months ago

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✦ Pebble ✦

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blackwoolncrown · 5 months ago

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I get it, I really do, but I feel like ppl w decision paralysis related to Gazans are also suffering from a kind of non-malignant egotism

"who do I decide to give it to? everyone needs help! I can't help them all!"

You're not the only person they're asking!!!!!

If you choose one person to help that day, a bunch of other ppl choose others

stopping to overthink your inflated importance as an individual versus one in many is what's giving you paralysis

the more you burden yourself as an incapable hero the less you all act as a group-- which is the exact answer you're looking for

fkn close your eyes, scroll on OOB and donate to whoever you click on first

you're not god, it's not your job to save everyone

JUST DO SOMETHING

#can u imagine dying in a gen 0 cyde and a good chunk of the ppl you're begging at go 'but I can't save you all' and just sit there #Like???#help who ever comes to you / stands out first!

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lazylittledragon · 1 year ago

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can't believe we're all adults being forced into the club penguin level of censorship in 2024

#ramble #if you say unalive in front of me i will personally kill you with my hands #you just can't muffle and censor and hold someone's hand through some things #some things are horrible. and they should be spoken aloud and they should upset you. because they are horrible #the second we started kidzbopifying the world was the end of taking anything seriously i think #i'm not even joking i've spoken to people older than me who won't even say the world sex #this isn't the playground you're not going to get in trouble just let us say the word!!!!!!#how am i supposed to listen to you when you won't even say the thing you're supposed to be talking about #yes this is the fault of the platforms with their censorship rules but the fact that we all just go along with it like it's not dystopian #you do know it doesn't stop with cursing right. people are already having to censor queer terms because they get flagged as inappropriate

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wardensantoineandevka · 9 months ago

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is that piece of media actually bad, or is it just not following the blueprint you projected onto it? is that work actually not good, or are you just demanding something from it that is absolutely antithetical to its themes, genre, tone, and narrative goal? is that story actually poorly written, or do you just dislike that it is not the specific things you wanted from it that it never set out to be, never was, and never is going to become? is it actually bad, or is it actually well-executed and you just dislike the story it chose to be because it isn't catering to your specific desires and expectations?

#This was prompted by a specific thing but it is also about dozens and dozens of things #Everyone going “XYZ is actually bad” like congratulations I wasn't saying stuff can't be bad.#I was saying that you should ask yourself these questions first bc sometimes it's just not to your sensibility.#Former Prime Queue-sector of the Trust #ETA: now that it's been months and this is going around again while certain conversations happen in other fandoms I'm in #It's good to clarify what specifically set off this post even tho it applies to many things. But this was about someone #saying Midst is thematically and narratively incoherent bc it wasn't “everyone is miserable forever and nobody gets better” like they wante

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mroddmod · 3 months ago

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some recent stuff i've done in magma bc im kind of addicted to using it lol

#gravity falls #stanley pines #stan pines #grunkle stan #stanford pines #ford pines #grunkle ford #gravity falls fanart #fanart #disney #environment/lighting studies/experiments in magma save.....#i seriously can't stop doing them bruh i'm going crazy 😭😭#i just got magma premium yesterday bc i was running out of space on my account LOL #anyway yeahhhh hope u like #mods art #mods draws #my art

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toss-a-coin-to-your-stan-account · 1 year ago

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being a student during peak pandemic was so fucking surreal like. "it's not an excuse to fall behind" I cannot stress enough to you how much A Worldwide Plague Upending Life As We Know It is literally one of The Top Three Reasons to fall behind

#you go upstairs to hear the news talk about the death toll hitting 100k. you get some frozen waffles bc its all you've got stocked up #and you wont risk going to get groceries or takeout. you go back downstairs because you have a 3 page essay due.#you stare at your word doc with lofi playing and wonder why you can't just buckle down and work like normal.#or really. you pretend to wonder #because you know the reason you cant work like normal #you just refuse to allow yourself to believe its reason enough #mine #academia #covid mention

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millidew · 9 months ago

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his change in career has captivated me

bonus:

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prouvaireafterdark · 7 months ago

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listen I know it's heartbreaking that Claudia dies and it's understandable to wish she didn't, but let's please not accuse the writers of fridging her. to do so is a fundamental misunderstanding of the story and is frankly insulting to the intelligence and skill of the writers of the show.

Claudia's death, and the overwhelming grief and regret her parents experience because of it, is quite literally the point of the entire story. she dies because Anne's daughter Michele died of leukemia when she was five years old and there was nothing she or her husband could do to prevent it.

writing IWTV was how Anne coped with the unimaginable loss of a parent losing her child. she created a story about a little girl that could not die and then killed her anyway. Claudia's death is a senseless, unavoidable tragedy, just like Michele's was. the grief that haunts Louis and Lestat for the rest of their lives is the same grief that haunted Anne and her husband.

so when you're accusing people of killing Claudia off to benefit a story about two men, please remember that in real life sometimes parents lose their children. please remember Michele Rice.

she's the reason Claudia exists.

she's also the reason Claudia cannot be saved.

#interview with the vampire #claudia de lioncourt #iwtv #lestat de lioncourt #louis de pointe du lac #saw some rancid takes on twitter and i just can't not say something #like how do you encounter a story so clearly about the fathomless grief that comes with losing a child and blaming your partner and yoursel #and somehow finding a way to live again after years and years of suffering--not forgetting NEVER forgetting--but living and loving again #and go 'the writers just hate women. claudia should never have died'#like you're right that Claudia shouldn't have died. Michele shouldn't have died either.#but she did. and so Claudia did. and her parents will never stop grieving her.#iwtv spoilers

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slyandthefamilybook · 5 months ago

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I'm talking bags of chips, fruit, bottled drinks, things like that

#atlas entry #poll #tumblr poll #my dad does this all the time and it drives me up a wall #I'm like abba you can't eat that you haven't paid for it yet #and he says well I'm going to

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bluegiragi · 16 days ago

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priorities

early access + nsfw on patreon monster!AU masterpost

#and we're back!!#graves is lucky ghost has better things to go after right now...#also despite appearances ghost can't fly #he just propels himself upwards with his shadows. think of it as like a big leap he can only do in bursts #hehe #glad to be posting these again #thank you for all your patience guys!#simon ghost riley #john soap mactavish #ghostsoap #phillip graves #monster 141 au #giragi art

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egophiliac · 25 days ago

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2025 is the year of the DRAGON SLIPPERS

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #kutsurogi my room #eyestrain #(just a little) (that purple is a beast)#happy new year everybody!#still catching up but i needed to bust in to be extremely validated about some anime slippers #I KNEW IT i knew he'd have some doofy footwear!!!!#they're even actually dragon slippers!#i just got the wrong end of the dragon. whoops.#god. i love this idiot so much.#lilia really does have the best character development huh #lilia 600 years ago: i exist only to defend my kingdom against humanity. (eats a frog without breaking eye contact)#lilia today: wah i stubbed my toe :( i can't find my eyelash curler :( the sun is too bright :(#(this is not a complaint i genuinely love this silly grampa)#most relatable groovy ever tbh #sigh. i gotta have a serious think about my keys now.#i didn't get ANY of the new cards (not even the srs...)#i did get bloom lilia(!!!) from the mission pulls so that kinda made up for it but now i'm like #weighing the odds that birthday malleus is going to be in sweatpants...#i just feel deep in my bones that this upcoming mal card is going to be the funniest yet #(and this is saying something considering his og card literally is wearing a little frilly sash that says 'birthday boy')#honestly though no matter what malleus wears it's going to be incredible #this man has such an intrinsic vibe of dark hooded cloakiness that whenever he wears anything else it's guaranteed hilarity #sometimes i like to think about how he just wanders around campus in his little blazer and tie and it's the best

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cometblaster2070 · 21 days ago

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i'm making myself laugh thinking about this but I wholeheartedly believe madame morrible absolutely HATES the thought of glinda and elphaba being together like the mere mention of gelphie would probably send her into immediate cardiac arrest and it's not even because she's homophobic or anything I just fully believe she dislikes glinda so so much she's just like this is absolutely NOT happening in my house.

glinda and elphaba are having their gay ass moment and she's like "I sense a disturbance in the force; the wind is telling me those fucking lesbians are at it again."

like IK this woman hates to see glinda's fruity ass coming for several reasons but first and foremost I believe it's because she's so fucking ANNOYED by how much elphaba loves and cares for her, like this pink bitch is throwing a wrench in her plans just by EXISTING and being herself.

and she can't even really do anything to glinda because it'll make elphaba upset and she really can't have that so she just has to sit there and be like