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I just read all of Worm in like a month and I kept frantically reaching for the next chapter thinking surely, SURELY this is the one where the tension between Taylor and Rachel reaches a breaking point and they fuck messy style while some unspeakable calamity happens around them. And it just. never happens. (the fucking I mean, the calamities keep happening a bunch)
#worm#parahumans#wolfspider#wormblr#I promise I’m usually not really into shipping#but like come on#I am not too wired into the discourse around this#because as I meantioned I practically spent the past weeks reading this fucking webnovel like a monk in some sort of spiritual retreat#but it can’t have been accidental#surely wildbow was told that he couldn’t just do that while he was writing it#it reaches a point where it’s insulting the reader’s intelligence#it’s like if korrasami never happened#and they just behaved like that for no reason#insane
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pines family bonding for the soul
#Can’t believe I have to say this but: not a ship#gravity falls#gravity falls art#gravity falls fanart#digital art#ford pines#stanford pines#mabel pines#dipper pines#stan twins#stanley pines#spirit’s art#I’m trying to draw more accurate versions of the Stan twins#I’ve noticed that I’ve accidentally been making them look younger in my art#so I’m trying to change that
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Kotoko and her connection to Dante’s Inferno’s Satan
Disclaimer: This is just about symbolism and I know how it sounds but I promise I’m not trying to imply anything or demonize her! I love Kotoko! Ive just been repeatedly noticing details about the parallel for several months now and I just really want to bring it up! This is just an analysis of the details MILGRAM has provided for it. I’m incredibly sorry if I make a mistake!
Kotoko has a lot of parallels to Dante’s Inferno Satan, especially in relation to Es.
To make sure we’re all on the same page, Dante’s Inferno is a Christian poem that outlines the 9 circles of hell. MILGRAM directly references Dante’s Inferno by quoting it in all the t2 door arts.
“Abandon all hope, ye who enter.” A quote derived from a sign at the gate of hell in the poem.
Each ring of Hell contains sinners with different levels of sins, and each ring’s sin was meant to be worse the further inside you go. Ive seen a couple theories that each prisoner correlates with a specific ring of hell. (Ex: Haruka is ring 1, Limbo; Yuno is ring 2, lust; etc)
But Dante’s Inferno only outlines 9 rings, what about our 10th prisoner, Kotoko?
While it could be that she’s again the “outsider” to the other prisoners, the last section of the 9th ring of Hell is significant because it is the center of Hell, containing Satan. So it could be reasonably argued that Kotoko correlates with it.
MILGRAM already has a TON of religious references. One that I’ve seen pointed out is how it seems the cover art of each novel is a reference to a famous Christian art piece.
The Es in each novel seems to be where Jesus relatively is. Remember that Jesus is both the son of God AND God. God gives sinners their judgements which sounds very similar to Es and how they're giving the prisoners (the human sinners) their verdicts.
Plus, the quote Milgram quotes is on the doors the prisoners are entering, and in Dante’s inferno, it’s on the gate of hell so you can compare or theorize that MILGRAM is a parallel to (or straight up is) purgatory. And Es, being the one who decides the verdict, parallels God.
Also, her t2 VD is named “YONAH,” which is the masculine version of the name Jonah. Not only does this relate to her themes of masculinity again, Jonah is a name that originates from Hebrew origins which means “dove.”
It is also a reference to the book of Jonah. A main theme of this book is “Jonah wants God to operate on his timeline [...] He wanted God to dole out punishment on his clock instead of according to God's plan. Yet God showed Jonah that in his infinite wisdom, he can't and will not be rushed.” Which is pretty much exactly what happens in YONAH, and also once again compares Es to God.
Dante’s Inferno’s Satan was an angel, a splendid being, apparently the most perfect of God's creatures… an “Angel of light.” We/Es deemed Kotoko innocent in t1. She had the highest innocent percentage in t1 too because a lot of people thought her murder was justified. You know, the most perfect of God’s creatures. The most perfect out of the prisoners.
“We really can work together.”
But then Satan tried to usurp God.
“If you don’t have the strength on your own, let me take care of it. Es! I can do it in MILGRAM!”
Kotoko wants to be the prison guard because Es isn’t capable in her eyes.
Satan was ultimately sent to Hell and punished as "the ultimate sinner" for his betrayal of trying to usurp God.
We are now punishing Kotoko for her attempts to judge the prisoners herself and “usurp” Es. It works even better now that she has the highest guilty percentage in all of MILGRAM so far as the “ultimate sinner.”
As a lot know, Fuuta also has tons of religious references too. (Ex. His VD is titled Baptism by Fire) By him also passing judgements onto people, you could say that he was trying to play God.
What is that saying about us, the audience, then? And our parallel/foil to Fuuta/Kotoko?
Dante’s Inferno as a whole is very much based around the idea of “evil will be punished,” which not only encapsulates Kotoko’s ideals but MILGRAM’s as well. It makes sense that MILGRAM says that Kotoko is a perfect parallel to the facility.
(I also wanna mention that there's something that could be said about the holy trinity in relation to Es + the audience + jackalope. For example, how Jesus is God in the flesh and Es is the audience "in the flesh," by acting as a personified version of us to interact with the "human sinnners" but I feel like I might be going into tinfoil hat territory.)
#edit: GIRL WTF THIS POST WAS A DRAFT I THOUGHT I ACCIDENTALLY DELETED SO I REWROTE THE WHOLE THING. BUT I JUST ACCIDENTALLY QUEUED IT??😭#this…. could’ve been worded much better… but too many people have seen this post now I can’t repost it💀 oops….#original tags:#this has been in my drafts for so many months now😭#it’s been in my mind for even longer#but ive been really scared of posting this because I don’t want people to get the wrong idea#milgram#kotoko yuzuhira#milgram es#fuuta kajiyama#Milkly ramble
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I dont think some people understand how truly awful and hellish withdrawals from some psych medications are.
#I feel like many many people see it as an overreaction when in reality someone actually feels like they are dying from wds#resent the fact that SO many doctors just prescribe shit all over the place nonstop without explaining the full risks n side effects#it’s scary as fuck honestly#I cannot tell y’all how many meds I have been put on that made me feel worse#or how many times I’ve ran out and not been able to pay for the shit#resulting in an absolute living fucking hell that does not let up until taking the substance again#meds are tricky.. it’s hard to have a definitive opinion in either direction (anti vs pro medication) because each individual is unique#sometimes meds save people’s lives#sometimes they make people suicidal#sometimes they cause complications that literally kill people#sometimes they’re exactly what someone needed to be okay#you just can’t generalize and say statements like ALL MEDS ARE BAD because that simply isn’t true#and you can’t assume everyone’s body/mind will react to a certain medication the same way yours did#oops#accidentally did a tag rant#rant#medical#psychiatry#medication#withdrawal#withdrawals#mental illness#mental health#psych meds#psych medications#medications#prescription medication#prescription medications#american healthcare#healthcare
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Today, Fourteen made Martha Smith-Jones literally call her husband to tell him that he was actually rather bummed Mickey didn’t come with her and August to visit for the weekend. When asked to repeat themselves because Mickey did not believe her, they became predictably huffy and informed all present that he would not be saying it again, and if Mickey had wanted to hear it himself, he should’ve come in the first place. Followed by a definitely-not-enthusiastic offer to go pick him up in the TARDIS.
#doctor who#fourteenth doctor#mickey smith#martha jones#Martha jones-smith#he can’t this weekend he’s working#but he DOES come with them next time#no really I’ve been having a lot of Mickey and the doctor thoughts lately#which is NOT something I ever expected to say#for example tho: the doctor does not ever call him Mickey The Idiot or any other derogatory name in front of August#Mickey is just as welcome at the house as anyone else whether Martha is present or not#Mickey is the first nuwho companion the doctor accidentally turned into a soldier#uhmmmm there’s more but like#I don’t know why this is happening#I wasn’t even that big a fan of his?#yet here I am#edited to correct Martha’s name:)
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What was Abrams favorite thing that Andrew gave him during his courting attempts?
Okay I’ve been sitting on this one because I was trying to give it my best answer and like. I still don’t know lol
I know that people in the replies and tags are going to have incredible answers as well so I want this to be more of a “here’s a collection of things he likes the most” and I get to start so here’s my take:
It’s a book. I hear your valid confusion but LISTEN. In the stretch before Abram finally realizes what’s been going on with the gifts/etc, Andrew gives Abram a book - could be poetry, could be a romance story, idk - with a ribbon just barely peeking out of one page. Abram, obviously, doesn’t think much of it and he’s never been big on reading (I don’t know why I never have Neil liking to read lol is that canon) so he keeps the book on his dresser or something like “I’ll get around to it if he insists”
And then after Abram actually, clearly says he can accept Andrew’s advances, Andrew remembers about it and realizes Abram must not have ever opened the book because he would have figured this all out before now if he had
He asks him about it, if he ever read it, and Abram’s like “…no”
So Andrew tells him to. Later, when Abram’s back in his room, he picks up the book and checks out the first page, and it’s something pretty obviously unimportant or unrelated. And the next page. Eventually he thinks to check the ribbon; he flips to the pages and somewhere on them a quote is underlined in steady deep blue ink:
My glances through the eyes of friendship grow more brief by the day. You remain in the kindest, softest embrace of my heart, but now I find myself watching, hopeful, and friends do not look at friends the way I sometimes look at you.
Stunned, in a word.
But this is something he can figure out. This isn’t flowers - they’re lovely but die so quickly, and Abram doesn’t know the language of them or which ones Andrew would like. It isn’t meals shared, because that’s too common by now. It isn’t direct words or actions of affection because those are far too awkward for someone with so little experience with them. But Abram looks at this book, sees exactly what to do with it, and he knows certainly that this is a way the prince wouldn’t mind communicating because he was the first to do it. Abram doesn’t even have to be around when Andrew reads it.
So Abram spends the next several days scanning the book when he has time, finding many quotes he could perhaps imagine returning, finding a few he keeps marked just in case. Then he finds one that he doesn’t even bother marking with a scrap paper, he immediately picks up his pen and underlines it.
I look at the moon and she has your face: the brightest thing in my sky, the most beautiful, and so, so far away.
(And @jtl-fics had the sweetest idea of Abram pressing and keeping the flowers from the bouquet Andrew gets him in this post; and that he uses some to make bookmarks probably because he knows how much the prince likes books. He would definitely use one of those bookmarks to mark the page he underlined rather than the scrap ribbon 🥰)
Anyway the next time Abram sees the prince he wordlessly hands him back the book. Andrew sees the new mark but doesn’t try to open it yet (which relieves Abram more than he’ll admit), just keeping it under his arm until he has somewhere to put it. But it doesn’t take him near as long to find another quote, since he tends to get distracted reading the context or surrounding passages; he underlines the very next sentence and gets the book back to Abram the next morning. Understanding the risk of Abram’s misunderstanding and completely willing to explain himself in plain terms when Abram asks. Still with the pressed flower bookmark.
To have you near enough to touch should surely destroy me.
When Abram opens it later he first sees that the pages look very familiar - those passages look very familiar - that quote is certainly familiar. And he gets very worried very quickly. Maybe Andrew didn’t like that one, maybe Abram had chosen wrong and he didn’t know how to do this as well as he’d thought. But he doesn’t close it fast enough not to finally, mercifully read on and realize that some of the ink on the page is not his own black ink. After it, dark enough to almost be black in the wrong light, is Andrew’s dark blue.
But after reading Andrew’s quote he does in fact close the book quickly, sitting back and just staring, mostly because he’d surprised himself; he won’t know Andrew’s intention for certain until he asks, but this time - likely for the first time - Abram looks at the word destroy and doesn’t immediately think of the harm he’s done. (Andrew’s new, unfamiliar way with words had to work it’s way into Abram’s understanding eventually.)
They go on as long as there’s still quotes they like in the book, and only once does Andrew get frustrated that Abram stole one of his before he could get around to using it.
Anyway thank you for the sweet ask, here’s a quick sketch of Andrew reading to Abram in the library
#imagining Andrew’s reaction to the bookmark…#like he’s already so relieved seeing Abram allow himself to accept a gift like that#but a bookmark? that must only have been made with Andrew in mind???#too much#Abram’s ability to accidentally be the most romantic idiot on the planet because he’s never been exposed to it#he’s like ‘well might as well try be as clear as I can#because the prince values honesty’#and bam andrew gets hit with things like ‘I can’t focus when your hands are on me’#I would simply pass away#prince Andrew Minyard you’re so strong#uhh I think that’s all#fan art#my art#aftg#all for the game#neil josten#andrew minyard#andreil#royal au#asks#my writing
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Y’all I had another weird drdt dream last night where the drdt cast were like digimon tamers and had digimon partners and shit like that, and I don’t remember much from it other than the fact that they were, like, in the digital world and had to save it from some unknown force like in most digimon stories. Anyways, the only things I remember from it is that Min’s partner was Kunemon (which is funny because not only is it a bug but it also has electric powers and you know-) and that Rose had an existencial crisis. So that was interesting I suppose. Anyways-
#danganronpa despair time#drdt#dreams#this is the second time I dream about drdt y’all#but the only thing is that now I kinda want to make an au out of it and possibly write a fanfic too#yall this isn’t good I’ve been trying to work on my mha/dr au#I can’t keep getting distracted 😭#speaking of the mha/dr au I was drawing some action scenes featuring Kaede from v3 and I accidentally made her badass#I was actually drawing it during the voice actor stream yesterday#I might post sneak peeks once I have more work done#hrgghhh but I really am interested in the possibility of a drdt/digimon au hhhhhh#speaking of digimon#I have digimon ocs#no one asked but if someone’s interested I’ll post something
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hi hi hello i have been gone forever due to various reasons such as “work” and “mental illness” and “having developed a kpop hyperfixation that has been occupying most of my attention recently” but i need everyone to know that i saw off book live twice last week (in philly with a friend and then in nyc with my girlfriend) and it was truly so everything. i didn’t get many pictures but i did get a few and none of them are very good but one of them is of jess’ amazing stool balancing act and that’s all i need really
#flow of the rings a volcano story i love you forever and ever#tryin’ the musical i love you also#also i asked a question during the talkback at the philly show :]#if it gets released as an episode and you hear someone named will asking about the hedgefrog logo that’s me <3#i want to be active on here more i miss it#i’m thoroughly enjoying being a little unhinged about kpop with my friend bee (the one i saw the philly show with actually)#but it does make a little sad that i haven’t been as fixated on zach and jess lately#they are still everything to me though don’t get it twisted#it’s very much a Special Interest TM so i will probably have other z&j phases#but regardless i do enjoy this silly little corner of tumblr#and i love that pibe has like Actual Fan Content now it’s beautiful#and i AM going to finish and post my malpal fic i PROMISE i just. don’t know when 😭#accidentally wrote an essay in the tags whoops#anyway i can’t promise i won’t disappear again but i’m gonna try to be more active#mine#off book#play it by ear#pibe#zach reino#jess mckenna
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My five happy things for the day
• paper that has a good feeling texture
• things not feeling like an emergency EVERY second of the day, only part of the time
• the fact that these cheapo stamp ink pads from Walmart a few years ago somehow still have a bit of functioning ink not dried out?
• I’m able to track and retain conversations for longer periods of time again, I’m finally finally finally feeling some progress
• putting on a warm hoodie or coat when feeling chilled
#fivethingsaday#I still can’t believe people LIKE me!! ?! ?! ?! ?!#I’ve accidentally wound up dumbfounded with a delightful number of friends#like. wait. I thought you guys were playing a very long trap or were only liking me because of obligation or worth vs hassle ratio.#I thought I was just enjoying it before it vanished! but yowza!!!#apparently I DID get the chance for it to be real#and I am in the middle of living an adult life I didn’t think I’d see!!!#so anyway holy shit I apparently am not secretly a poison to people#these cool people I’ve been so admiring of and wished I could really have a life with someone like them as a friend#BITCH I DO IT IS ME#what the FUCK.#anyway I’ve got to go keep trying to wrangle my very uncooperative knee#and marvel at the slowly-dawning reality of being liked actually not just kept around#god grade school age social hierarchy lessons sure get roots down in deep#I’m so pleased as punch and totally in skeptical disbelief. I’m also delighted and horrifically embarrassed and feeling stupid and feeling#unbearably grateful and feeling quite particularly like I’m in the Truman show and also won the lottery#I’m going to do a lot of STICKING WITH IMPORTANT ROUTINES FOR MY WELL-BEING about it#add to journal
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Me: *delusional* Maybe when I watch Marineford this time Ace will be rescued and hang out with Luffy and Whitebeard
#anime#radiowaves#one piece#op#marineford#*me: *watching Whitebeard’s fleet arrive* SEE! THEY HAVE IT UNDER CONTROL IT’S FINE*#*C’MON NOT ACE HE’S JUST A LITTLE GUY*#*AND LUFFY’S BEEN APART FROM HIS WHOLE CREW LET HIM HAVE HIS BROTHER!!*#*I also find it so funny that Geko Moria’s there like?? SIR???*#*didn’t you almost die like a month ago because Luffy accidentally found your Halloween island boat??*#*why do you THINK you should be allowed here???*#*meanwhile Mihawk has done ONE (1) attack that didn’t even hit THE CORRECT GUY and now will be chilling*#*I cannot WAIT for him to get home after his horrible day and find out Zoro and Perona are living in his house since he left*#*he just had his shit rocked by this war and then he can’t even sit on his couch in peace without two angsty teens heckling him*#*also not to give you buggy fans any rights*#*but he’s been great in this arc so far. Accidentally restarting his clown cult with escaped prisoners and deluding himself into the war*#*what else do I like*#*Marco seems pretty cool*#*I enjoy the idea of Boa standing there doing FUCK ALL until Luffy comes by good for her*#*i DID get jumpscared by Django being there I REALLY had to rack my brain to remember he was a marine*#*speaking of- are all the marines there?? where’s G8 man is he still chilling*#*such a good arc*
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how is the sale going?
🙃🙃🙃🙃
#awful#genuinely don’t know if it was even worth it#I guess we shall see once my dad counts up what we made in total#but it can’t be that much tbh#I blame the fact that it was Labor Day weekend and the last weekend for my state fair#so feel like people are busy and not gonna go to a stupid garage sale 🤦🏽♀️#I didn’t know it was the last weekend of the state fair otherwise I would have been like ‘ehhh let’s do next weekends’#whatever whatever#i didn’t get any sleep last night#I accidentally snapped on my family a few times#I was not doing ok this morning#like at all#doing a little better now?#just kinda upset the sale was such a bust#I knew it wasn’t going to be huge but was hoping maybe one or two mom or grandmas would come through and buy a bunch of baby clothes/toys#but nah#most people came through and was like ‘sorry we don’t have any kids or grandkids’ and then they would leave#bah humbug#I’m exhausted#now I have to clean downstairs even though I’ve been nonstop going for the past few days#I just want to lay down and pass out 🤦🏽♀️🤦🏽♀️#doesn’t help that I hate weekends#don’t remember the last ‘good’ weekend I had#my meds don’t seem to be doing shit#and I feel like a jumbled jambled mess#hopefully the day will turn around a little bit#need to get energy to shower and wash the grossness of the last week off tbh#thanks for asking though#how’s your weekend going? 🫶#ask
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So I found Hop…
He’s okay with me talking about this, by the way. He was trying to take on two Team Yell grunts at once, and I jumped in of course! We dealt with ‘em.. and then we.. talked.
..We have a lot more in common than we realized.
AND NOW WEN’RE EVEN BETER FRIENDS :D
#ooc >#i’ve been writing recent game interactions into my planning board#just to be like ‘hey this is what happened#now to adapt this into a blog post’#instead of just posting#and when i got to this part of the game i accidentally cooked a bit too hard#and now hop won’t be having his ‘i’m a failure’ arc because i made him and dove. talk it out. and realize things#btw hop’s depression in this blog isn’t ‘i’m not living up to leon’ it’s ‘how can i be a good friend to dovewing and protect her if i can’t#defeat bede?’#idk if it will come up in the blog so just some ooc background for u guys who r interested#i thought it would be fun to change the reason but i accidentally made them have healthy communication#over feeling the pressure to protect people to live up to a duty (future champion/prophecy cat)#but then the two realize the things people expect of them don’t define them#i’ll probably have hop realize he wants to be a scientist way earlier because of this idk#sorry i made them good friends who care about each other i’ll throw in a messier friendship sometime
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#personal rant below bc I don’t feel like cluttering my notes app even more and I don’t wanna accidentally find this at 3am some night#I really need my older sister and I just don’t have her#in 2 days it’ll have been 15 years since she disappeared and selfishly I need someone in the family that isn’t the golden child (brother)#and I wish I could confide in my sister in law but I just can’t because she’s an extension of my brother and I don’t want to talk to him#about how I feel like a failure because he bought his first house at 25 and he’s currently the age that my mom was when she had me#and he has his own family to worry about#and I wish I could confide in my older sister figure who I’ve had since elementary school but she stopped responding to my texts last year#and it was like losing my actual sister all over again in slow motion#and I just. I need an older sister to talk some sense into me before I fucking implode#getting high and listening to Taylor Swift only helps so much#whatever I’m just feeling really lost and behind and like I’m fucking failing#and I’m really feeling the huge gaping wound in the middle of my family this week#I don’t even know what she’d be like. I never even really knew her. but I’d like to have the option to ask her for advice#(I don’t idolize this person she’s literally a stranger I just need another girlfailure in the family so the spotlight isn’t solely on Me)#my stuff
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seeing as you've given permission for me to send stuff 👁️
here's the result of the other night (the ears could be improved but in my defense they were rushed)
he's just got that orange cat energy yk? yes I know about my wilds plush having a receding hairline
I’m sorry but I’m cackling so hard with the hairline😭 did he just… spawn like that?? Omg T-T poor Link/Wild bro
On the other hand, the ears look so cute!! Omg!! (the little white and pink inside the ears are nice touches) Even if the ears are rushed or somethin, it’s personality! Also the little felt(??) earrings give me LIFE. He’s definitely giving orange cat energy
Slightly off topic, it’s super neat that there’s more male orange cats than female, and that they’re more common in less dense/populated areas. When thinking about Wild, I can easily see those traits
#moss… I have been laughing at your strikeout for his receding hairline for 5 minutes#also I may have accidentally looked at his normal ears for a split sec in confusion…. shhhh#but fr catboy wild looks ADORABLE#even with the hairline lol#I can’t tell if the little tuffs near the ears are part of it??? or behind it??#I’m excited to see what thoughts are cookin in your brain#peep talks#moss!!#catboy wild
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it’s probably not a good thing that i relate to this song as much as i do huh
#cyrambles#who fell asleep in#los campesinos!#lc!#depression#sure is fun having a constant feeling of vague misery surrounding your mind#we’re almost at the 1 week mark since this episode started#it’s barely even been a month since my last one#why am i like this#always weak#always miserable#always sick in the head#i wish i could stop#even if i get my diagnosis i can’t get medicated#my mom’s too afraid of me facing side effects#i’ll just be stuck suffering. for years on end#oh whoops accidentally vented#curse you who fell asleep in. making me feel my emotions#tw vent in tags#tw vent
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mgmgmmgmhnh
#the more i age regress the more i wanna caregiver :((((#i feel like i’m not able to fully regress by myself bc i’m a mostly secret regressor and have to be ready to be big again if my parents#want me#and also i have to take care of mysef and that takes me out of my headspace >:(#my friends who i’ve told are supportive but don’t seem to want to get involved with my agere#even when i accidentally partially regress around them they usually just talk to me like normal so i can’t fully regress around them either#which is fine bc that’s what they’re comfortable with!!!#i just wish i had someone who Was comfortable with stepping further into that space and helping me with it too#claire babbles#sowwy i feel like a lot of my posts have been complaining#‘s just hard
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