#fivethingsaday

[goldkirk]

I’M STILL HERE. I STAYED ALIVE. PAST ME I KEPT MY PROMISE TO YOU I FUCKING DID IT. TEN YEARS TODAY SINCE MY LAST-DITCH PROMISE TO MYSELF AND TEN YEARS LATER I AM STILL HERE.

[sluttypatrickstar]

five good things for today

i went to my dad’s and had soooooo many midi cuddles today she is just a little old lady

we also had pizza and chips! i saved my leftover chips for tomorrow lunch :)

i crocheted a little star with a 2mm hook to see if i would enjoy micro crochet. i fear not for me but the star is super cute and i might try some more things with it, the colour would be nice for some earrings! (drop pattern recs if you have any, all i can think of rn is making clouds)

went to a book talk by one of my favourite authors :D

the way there involved walking along a street i had never been to before and it was very nice and pretty and atmospheric and there was a gap in the hedge and i wanted to run through it

[goldkirk]

My five happy things for today

soup

backpacks

I'M GOING TO HAVE MY FIRST EVER SLEEPOVER WITH MY COUSINS THIS WEEKEND AND I AM SO EXCITED I WANTED TO DO THIS SINCE I WAS A LITTLE KIDDDDDDDDDD

I'm so close to seeing my nephews and nieces. tomorrow

was able to panic-do a ton of laundry, thank goodness

[goldkirk]

My five happy things for yesterday

• assorted sizes of damp dog paw prints on concrete leading away from puddles

• All Eyes On Me by Bo Burnham

• Sammi came and purred and made biscuits on a spot that hurt a lot

• my brain and body are letting me process some more memories and sensations for the first time in a while

• my dissociation’s been kicking in on and off for a few weeks now and didn’t abandon me forever just because I was safer and doing better for a while. It’s still a tool in the toolbox of coping

[goldkirk]

My five happy things for yesterday

• FINALLY A DIAGNOSIS! After all this time I got to know that and understand my body better as I move forward, instead of playing a guessing game of whack-a-mole

• the texture of specifically the shiny-cover paperbacks

• hot green tea poured straight over ice in the summer

• also, silicone straws.

• baby steps, over and over again

[goldkirk]

My five happy things for yesterday

• meal replacement shakes existing when I can’t make myself eat anything else

• unlocked a little bit more spine and ribcage movement that’s been tied up for years

• friends

• audiobooks that people post for fee and podfics people post for free

• cat trills

[goldkirk]

My five happy things for today

• I FOUND A PLACE THAT SELLS SALT BAGELS. PLAIN BAGELS COATED IN PRETZEL SALT. THESE ARE AMAZING

• the cat was so happy in the box we opened that she hung out in there for ages purring and playing and chirping

• got to watch another Godzilla movie with my cousin

• started figuring out what I’m going to read this autumn

• looked out the window at exactly the moment rain droplets started to hit the metal roof in little dark circles magically popping up before my very eyes

[goldkirk]

My five happy things for yesterday

• waist straps on backpacks

• all the droplets of rain hanging like crystal orbs from the tree outside my window

• first Twinkie in months or years

• he can’t touch me anymore

• glasses and contact lenses

[goldkirk]

My five happy things for today

• AS OF THIS MORNING I’M DONE WITH THE WHOLE ROOT CANALS AND CRIWNS SAGA. NO MORE DENTISTS TILL MARCH. IT’S OVER. IT’S DONE. It went fine and they kept me numb and they caught it when I needed numbing even when I couldn’t communicate it yet and no one scolded or shamed me once. IT’S OVER. People helped me be brave enough to do it and people encouraged me and I figured out how to make it work for myself and it’s DONE.

• local cello concert

• Ellen Ripley in Alien which I just got to see last night

• watching my dog shake off the rain

• my favorite cooking pot

[goldkirk]

My five happy things for yesterday

• much lower hip pain than the day before

• Journey and the way it got me crying over a video game for first time in years

• extreme dog snuggles

• the hanging lantern style lights over the community park at the iceplex

• late night shopping at a grocery store

[goldkirk]

My five happy things for today

• zofran

• a Good Partner

• getting to do a task that I love and my coworker hates so I get to have fun WHILE sparing them from doing it

• zofran again because thank you zofran for my life today

• the sun came out a bit ago!!!!

[goldkirk]

My five happy things for yesterday

• spoke kindly to myself

• NEW PHONE CASE FOR SEVEN BUCKS. NO MORE ACTIVELY DISINTEGRATING RUBBER IN MY HANDS

• barely got any hives today

• mini chandeliers for lockers. I’ve never owned one I just think they’re fun every time I see them for sale

• free audiobooks on YouTube and internet archive and other sites. what an era to be alive

[goldkirk]

My five happy things for today

I got over the vaccine side effects and I got my prescription refill and that's all sorted out for another month

no one was mad at me at work

I've been able to catch up on eating a bit, huzzah

replacement pens for the felt tip pens I'm all out of

string lights are slowly appearing on assorted retirement community apartment balconies across from my window

[goldkirk]

My five happy things for today

the cat and the dog both laid on me at the SAME TIME i'm never gonna be more blessed in one moment in my entire life

ebooks! my god i can't believe we live in a time with ebooks

fleece lined hats

the animation style of Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles: Mutant Mayhem

the absolutely GIANT yawn I saw a cat in a window do this morning while I was out with the dog walking

[goldkirk]

My five happy things for yesterday

• FIVE DOGS IN ONE DAY

• managed to message or talk to a handful of people i love, which is a lot more than 0 people would have been if I hadn’t managed to do anything at all. I’m trying. I’ll keep working to do better. A handful is really good too, even if it’s not where I constantly want to be

• no depersonalization today

• pretty sidewalk moss running through lattice cracks

[goldkirk]

My five happy things for yesterday

• people always being willing to share/recommend books and music and movies that touched them, and getting to enjoy something they enjoyed and sometimes understand what they love about it too

• finding the cat conked out napping in the bathtub

• finding the cat conked out napping in the laundry basket

• hand crank weather radios

• spotting utility doors and tunnel entrances tucked away throughout infrastructure