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periods cramps hurt so bad on day 1 eeeuuughhhhhfh :(
#curled up rn and probably going to nap with my heating pad before work !! :(#idk is it weird i update u guys on my ovulation + period …. it feels silly to me but cute#breed1ng k!nk#but im in pain LOL
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Analysis so bad you don't even know what it's talking about anymore.
#chrambles#not a lily orchard video (i have never watched one in my life im sorry for whoever did)#being a homestuck fan alone is hell. people make shit up and call it canon unironically its painful#can be of any form of analysis btw your responses are so insightful (and also funny)#if you mention dirkjohn in the tags then youre the one who needs to reread the canon material again lol
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Just some more thoughts on that jayvik dbh au
#I got a lot of people saying that Viktor should be the Android#which I did mention in the tags last time#but after thinking about it I just think that the human experience is such an integral part of viktor as a character#(aside from the fact that it makes every character ever)#his pain and suffering due to his illness and disability and class#like I can’t take that away from him#not that Jayce doesn’t go through his own things too#but I think Jayce’s naïveté from season one lends itself well to an Android in awe of human life#and a jaded but wise Viktor who still has a good heart and sense of humour#I mean this is just my version of the au and like I think I said in my tags last time im pretty sure I’ve seen a few around with android V#definitely got recommended some fics that I’m excited to check out!#sorry for rambling - this isn’t to discredit any other interpretations!! just kind of exploring my thought process behind it :)#oh also sorry that this is angsty lol#it’s fine#my art#arcane#jayvik#Jayce talis#jayce arcane#Viktor arcane#dbh#detroit become human#arcane au#noodles talks#(in the tags)
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the thing is that they're so fascinated by sex, they love sex, they can't imagine a world without sex - they need sex to sell things, they need sex to be part of their personality, they need sex to prove their power - but they hate sex. they are disgusted by it.
sex is the only thing that holds their attention, and it is also the thing that can never be discussed directly.
you can't tell a child the normal names for parts of their body, that's sexual in nature, because the body isn't a body, it's a vessel of sex. it doesn't matter that it's been proven in studies (over and over) that kids need to know the names of their genitals; that they internalize sexual shame at a very young age and know it's 'dirty' to have a body; that it overwhelmingly protects children for them to have the correct words to communicate with. what matters is that they're sexual organs. what matters is that it freaks them out to think about kids having body parts - which only exist in the context of sex.
it's gross to talk about a period or how to check for cancer in a testicle or breast. that is nasty, illicit. there will be no pain meds for harsh medical procedures, just because they feature a cervix.
but they will put out an ad of you scantily-clad. you will sell their cars for them, because you have abs, a body. you will drip sex. you will ooze it, like a goo. like you were put on this planet to secrete wealth into their open palms.
they will hit you with that same palm. it will be disgusting that you like leather or leashes, but they will put their movie characters in leather and latex. it will be wrong of you to want sexual freedom, but they will mark their success in the number of people they bed.
they will crow that it's inappropriate for children so there will be no lessons on how to properly apply a condom, even to teens. it's teaching them the wrong things. no lessons on the diversity of sexual organ growth, none on how to obtain consent properly, none on how to recognize when you feel unsafe in your body. if you are a teenager, you have probably already been sexualized at some point in your life. you will have seen someone also-your-age who is splashed across a tv screen or a magazine or married to someone three times your age. you will watch people pull their hair into pigtails so they look like you. so that they can be sexy because of youth. one of the most common pornography searches involves newly-18 young women. girls. the words "barely legal," a hiss of glass sand over your skin.
barely legal. there are bills in place that will not allow people to feel safe in their own bodies. there are people working so hard to punish any person for having sex in a way that isn't god-fearing and submissive. heteronormative. the sex has to be at their feet, on your knees, your eyes wet. when was the first time you saw another person crying in pornography and thought - okay but for real. she looks super unhappy. later, when you are unhappy, you will close your eyes and ignore the feeling and act the role you have been taught to keep playing. they will punish the sex workers, remove the places they can practice their trade safely. they will then make casual jokes about how they sexually harass their nanny.
and they love sex but they hate that you're having sex. you need to have their ornamental, perfunctory, dispassionate sex. so you can't kiss your girlfriend in the bible belt because it is gross to have sex with someone of the same gender. so you can't get your tubes tied in new england because you might change your mind. so you can't admit you were sexually assaulted because real men don't get hurt, you should be grateful. you cannot handle your own body, you cannot handle the risks involved, let other people decide that for you. you aren't ready yet.
but they need you to have sex because you need to have kids. at 15, you are old enough to parent. you are not old enough to hear the word fuck too many times on television.
they are horrified by sex and they never stop talking about it, thinking about it, making everything unnecessarily preverted. the saying - a thief thinks everyone steals. they stand up at their podiums and they look out at the crowd and they sign a bill into place that makes sexwork even more unsafe and they stand up and smile and sign a bill that makes gender-affirming care illegal and they get up and they shrug their shoulders and write don't say gay and they get up, and they make the world about sex, but this horrible, plastic vision of it that they have. this wretched, emotionless thing that holds so much weight it's staggering. they put their whole spine behind it and they push and they say it's normal!
this horrible world they live in. disgusted and also obsessed.
#this shifts gender so much bc it actually affects everyone#yes it's a gendered phenomenon. i have written a LOT about how different genders experience it. that's for a different post.#writeblr#ps my comments about seeing someone cry -- this is not to shame any person#and on this blog we support workers.#at the same time it's a really hard experience to see someone that looks like you. clearly in agony. and have them forced to keep going.#when you're young it doesn't necessarily look like acting. it looks scary. and that's what this is about - the fact that teens#have likely already been exposed to that definition of things. because the internet exists#and without the context of healthy education. THAT is the image burned into their minds about what it looks like.#it's also just one of those personal nuanced biases -#at 19 i thought it was normal to be in pain. to cry. to not-like-it. that it should be perfunctory.#it was what i had seen.#and it didn't help that my religious upbringing was like . 'yeah that's what you get for premarital. but also for the reference#we do think you should never actually enjoy it lol'#so like the point im making is that ppl get exposed to that stuff without the context of something more tender#and assume .... 'oh. so it's fine i am not enjoying myself'. and i know they do because I DID.#he was my first boyfriend. how was i supposed to know any different#i didn't even have the mental wherewithal to realize im a lesbian . like THAT used to suffering.
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Pain is a great motivator…
Part 26 || First || Previous || Next
—Full Series—
Meanwhile Toriel:
(Loud noises don't wake her up usually.)
Artist note: I’m so proud of this :))) I know it’s a lot of dialogue and reading, but dialogue is grueling work for me. I’m glad with the art and for the amount of pages I made in such a relatively short time span -w- page 5 was super fun to work on. A lot of blood, sweat, and hours here... :) The backgrounds were a big bore tbh, but I finished them! Yippie!
#CHARA WTF DO YOU MEAN “COMPUTER”????#lol i hope you guys dont hate me for what im doing in the next update.#IS THAT A MAC OS???#Yes......owo''#Kris and the Gang are LITTLE now. I've pixelated them and turned them into little game characters!#FINALLY!!#I never thought I would be going so far in the story to explain WHY Kris pulls out their SOUL and opens Darkfountains even when they killed#Berdly in Chapter 2. Pain can make people do horrible things.#Uhhhhhhhhh anyways. :3 I hope you liked it! I made this post a little too long for my liking and didnt get it out when i wanted too-#but thats okay! As long as people enjoy it :)#bread#art#deltarune chara timeline#deltarune chara timeline comic#seriously though#long post#man am I glad I switched over to the limited color palet! It helps me feel alot more relaxed uwu#This is....way over 16 hours of work q-q#chara#asriel#susie#kris#asriel dreemurr#kris dreemurr#kris deltarune#susie deltarune#deltarune#comic#my art
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ARCANE LEAGUE OF LEGENDS: 2x03 - “Finally Got The Name Right”
#arcane#caitvi#arcaneedit#arcane season 2 spoilers#arcane league of legends#league of legends arcane#vi#vi arcane#arcane vi#caitlyn kiramman#heenot#caitlyn#caitlyn arcane#type: gif#media: arcane#league of legends#s2 ep3#i needed to get this scene outta my system..... oh hardened cait.... changed and driven by her grief and anger over jinx#then we see vi who stubbornly clings onto the sweet cupcait she once knew... just like she was holding onto powder#but the heartbreaking part is that she's changed and vi STILL tries to give everything to caitlyn because shes so self sacrificing#and hoping that the caitlyn she once knew is still there but im so so sorry vi but cupcait is gone look at cait wanting to pull the trigger#just look at the pain behind vi's eyes she cant believe cait would be like this god im in pain#shes trying so hard to reel the cait she knew back in GAHHHHHH#also i hated coloring this scene but whats new with dark scenes from arcane lol
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GUYS IM CRYING @/Cestrigolol ON TWITTER BOUND PART OF MY FIC AND IT LOOKS SO AMAZING??? this is actually making me so emotional rn like😭😭look at it….the stuff i wrote looks like a book…and the extra little design elements like the silhouette of hogwarts, the unique font for the beginning of each chapter, my art on the front AND the back…ITS SO BEAUTIFUL GAHHH😭 ILL NEVER GET OVER THIS🤸♀️🤸♀️💖💖💖💖 THESE ARE JUST PICS SHE SENT ME BTW I DONT OWN THIS BUT I WANT TO!!!
#EVERYDAY ILL REGRET NOT PUTTING MORE THOUGHT INTO MY USERNAME FOR THIS FANDOM...CHOCCYMILKY WILL HAUNT ME#ESP WHEN I SEE IT ON THIS LEGIT LOOKING BOOK BINDING LMAOO💀#ill just be staring at this for the next 16 hours im so floored that ppl take the time to bind fics bc im too lazy to even bind my own#i suck at this technical graphic kinda stuff and id 1000% need to commission it/pay someone to do it if i ever got it done#i guess bc i find it such a pain to do THATS WHY IM EVEN MORE TOUCHED WHEN I SEE OTHER PPL DO IT!!#BC THEY WANT TO!!#MY FIC IS ON SOMEONES SHELF NOW AND IT LOOKS SO PRETTYYYY😭#she said this is just the first 'volume' so i guess shes gonna do my entire chonker of a fic in volumes and if she does I CANT WAITTT😭#that also makes me curious what the final page count is gonna be at whatever font/font size this is LOL#choccyfanart#hogwarts legacy fanfiction#😭😭😭😭😭😭
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Will Swannie miss his wings? He’s been like that for about a year now, he probably gotten use to the wings and the pain in his calves/legs…would Donnie get like….phantom pain or something because of the missing wings? Would he in some way try to get them back or have a reminder of them? Will Donnie even try or want to dance again?
donnie doesn't usually dance on pointe anymore-- it was a rare occasion pre-curse, and now post, the physical demand is typically too much for him to handle. but when your little brother knows levitation magic, anything is possible for a special occasion.
generally speaking, though?
there's no way he's ever gonna want to stop dancing.
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and... that's it! that's the end!
... well, the end of the main storyline, anyway! the end of the story for swannie that i wanted to tell. the au will still be around! <3 swanatello has pretty much always been built on the asks i've received about it, and i still have more tucked away in my hoard that i intend to get to at some point or another as little bonus side stories, and my askbox is always open as well...! and on that note--
thank y'all so, so much for your support on this magickal girl journey. i NEVER expected to get the amount of love or attention that i did for my silly little donniesona that was based on a pun, but i had so much fun with this comic and am so grateful to y'all <3 like i said, this entire au was really powered by the amount of asks i received about him and his story, and it was really such a fantastic experience for me all around. not including any non-canon crossover content, this comic is approximately 965 pages long! definitely wasn't my plan when i doodled him for the first time as a goof, haha.
thanks, gang. <3 i hope you enjoyed the ride, too.
#he does get phantom pains for his wings sometimes#but his ninpo wings definitely help fill that hole! and are also helpful when walking hard#also once again brownie points to those who spot the parallels#claps hands together. WELL. thats... it! thats the story! the main one anyways...!#im still kind of baffled that its technically finished now lol#thanks again <3#swanatello#rottmnt#rise of the tmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#tmnt#tmnt 2018#tmnt 2k18#rottmnt donnie#rottmnt donatello#rottmnt mikey#rottmnt michelangelo#rise donnie#rise donatello#rise mikey#donniesona#rottmnt au#rottmnt comic#rottmnt fanart#fidgetwing
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it mcgucket monday (da WHOLE family here‼️)
#ive had the post canon fiddauthor brainworms recently if u couldnt tell#post canon fiddauthor is literally so epic they get to lay on their super cozy comfy rich people bed in mcguckets mansion#and it cures all their chronic pain they almost definitely have and its awesome and they get to be gay together and ouughhg😢😢💞💞💞#im normal about them smiles#traditional sketches at the bottom are from like a month or two ago lol i kept forgetting to post them so theyre going here#also stepdad ford real#i dont think ford would be very good at being a dad but i think hed try his best#ok yap session over#gravity falls#fiddauthor#fiddleauthor#fiddleford hadron mcgucket#fiddleford mcgucket#fiddleford#mcgucket monday#old man mcgucket#stanford pines#ford pines#stanford filbrick pines#grunkle ford#tate mcgucket#tater mcgucket#trans ford pines#trans fiddleford
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DO MY EYES DECEIVE ME???!??! THEY HAVE AA MERCH NOW??????!?!?!
#sunnysiderambles#i wish i was more expressive irl when i saw this but im in small amounts of pain so all the 'OH MY GOD'-ing was in my brain lol
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alternate surface au inspired by a few ive seen around on tumblr :3
#my art#pressure roblox#roblox pressure#sebastian solace#painter pressure#thought more abt my headcanons for seb’s anatomy and like. lol that tail is not pure muscle hes got guts in there.#that + the fact that there’s spinal cord in there means itd be a bad idea to try and amputate it#the wagon/eventual wheelchair is mostly for outdoor use i imagine.#<- specificallt]y for outdoor surface textures/debris that’d be bad for him to slither on#also. chronic pain have i dont think suddenly shrinking his whole body did much good for that#i imagine he and painter have like. a pool. to help with that and other needs he has now.#but he wouldnt wanna use it for a long while#there was a sort of. disconnect between his idea of freedom from urbanshade vs the reality of it i think.#like. thinking things could. on some level. go back to normal#and not considering that some of his mutations would be irreversible#and having to confront/cope with/accomodate himself about that#seb wants to be normal again but we cant all get what we want can we!#sometimes healing involves working with or around irreversible change buddy!#btw if feligayzed sees this. hiii hii your au was one of the big things that kicked my brain off on this and i wanna make fanart sometime#oh yeah this is . also.#sebpainter#pressure pathways#pathways#wow i dont think ive written a wall of tags that big in a long time. can you tell im having normal feelings about them
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CHILDHOOD HOMES (and why we hate them): After over a decade, you return home to find it unchanged.
A short, interactive horror story, and my first attempt at making something in Twine. Inspired by Anatomy, House of Leaves, and my deep hatred for my own childhood home! Full trigger list included on the itch.io page.
Play here!
#its done!!! finally! im so anxious and an hour late but here you go! yell at me if anything breaks and ill fix it lol#pixel art#horror#ditherpunk#interactive fiction#haunted houses#body horror#mal-art#childhood homes (and why we hate them)#the growing pains collection
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digitizing some sketches i made for my etsy and a completely unrelated song, because i like to add songs :)
#jason todd#tim drake#dc#my art#red hood#red robin#im gonna color this. and do a bunch more. but i havent posted any art in foreverrrr so here is a sketch lol#trying to stick to adding a song to every post. idk if anyone listens to them but im doing it#listening to a lot of queer girl punk. i have Thoughts for Steph. this will come later tho#yes jason is reading gtn btw. because its a fantastic book and i feel he would very much enjoy it#this is ur sign to read it if you like tortured evil lesbians and horror and mystery and sooo much pain and yearning and a truly insane plo
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i just wanted to hold you in my arms
#they haunt me actually#i read a fic a few days ago where ww was a ghost and it was so GOOD and painful and it's living rent free in my mind since#as usual im shit at vocalising my brain rot in english so. just know that im thinking abt them constantly#trigun#trigun 1998#trigun maximum#it's a mix lol#vash the stampede#nicholas d. wolfwood#vashwood#my art#trigun fanart#vashwood fanart#trigun spoilers#trimax spoilers
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creation meets creator in the most terrifying way possible (you wont believe what happens next)
#rainbsart#animation#shipwrecked 64#sw64#shipwrecked spoilers#shipwrecked64#broadside beach#shipwrecked fanart#bucky beaver#rex broadside#kinda#blot the rabbit#cw flashing#ask to tag idk#i spent all day on this lol it was only supposed to be rex spawning in but i got a little silly#animating in ibis is next level pain im never doing it like this again#lmao#i always thought the way rex/blot spawns in is so cool#idk smth about it#i hope i did it justice here bc the first draft of some of it was. hoo
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something something how Bilbo kept his last promise to Thorin, You're going to live
by immortalizing him in a Legend that would rival any of the fair tales of the Elves, he brings Thorin to life again and again and again, whenever he tells the story of Thorin Oakenshield and his Company, saviors of Erebor. Thorin, his friend, doomed by the same dark magick that lurked in the Ring inside his pocket. Thorin who threw off the crown of Thror and instead reached for Bilbo's hand as he died.
the King Under the Mountain who defeated Smaug and Morgoth's accursed gold within the mental labyrinth of heady greed which burned in his mind from a life of poverty and ostracization, and the horrors of being a refugee. the darkest evils meant to corrupt and damn good hearts.
Thorin, who achieved more, who knew more in those fleeting cold moments of his death than most rulers can ever hope to glean from vast fortunes and countless years
You're going to live, it becomes a threat and a curse to the gods, because if Bilbo can't have him then Death can't either, he thinks while scribbling and scribbling.
and so this is how Thorin Oakenshield passes into legend - by the hand of the hobbit he gripped in preference to gold.
#bagginshield#im weeping#lol#bilbo like I an going to Craft a Legend that is so enduring-#a theme tolkien is so good at is: the hero of the story sees or learns someone else the hero of the story#spiderman meme of every character pointing to who the hero is#lotr#bilbo baggins#thorin oakenshield#thorin legit fought til the moment of his death#also its COOL how he was basically a testament to how Sauron could be defeated by no one knew it at the time#but**#and how bilbo picked up the ring lmao#sauron must have had them both on a dart board in the dark realm#I HATE THESE GUYS he says to the ringwraiths like hades and pain and panick
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