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petorahs · 1 year ago

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☀️ its fascinating that you say P3 has shaped your worldview because... Well not to trauma dump here but back then when I discovered the game (it was back then when p4 was already out) i was... In a REALLY bad place and wondering about unaliving myself. I wont go into much detail but kids are trash man and teens are even worse. and then this game came around. With an aesthetic I really liked. i am not a native english speaker so it was hard for me at first but somehow this game just... /spoke to me/. A game about life and death and what it means to be alive and what it means to have a REASON to live, somehow... Convinced me to go a bit longer. I mean it when I say this: Persona 3 saved my life. And no other game can ever come close to such an experience. (Even tho from a quality standpoint P5 certainly is up there)

oh dude that is so valid thank you for sharing this. seriously though, im happy that youre here! and im sure many others are too! the ☀️ brightening lives and all that :]

yea i can see why p3 just clicked with so many people since it first came out. i was always curious on why it's so beloved by fans, when p5 and even p4 are literally right there with their overall better gameplay experiences. p5 literally got the franchise mainstream to insane heights lol. im... so glad i got into persona the way i did. of course, everyone's experiences w these games are different and special to them in their own way.

i got into persona 3 as an adult and as a result the lens in which i viewed the story's themes were heightened, in a way. as a teen i just know i would have reacted more volatilely i struggle to think about it LOL but both experiences would still be pretty intense. it's just that, as an adult there's more room to digest it when im not troubled by algebra hw. i was just more equipped for it (also i played omori two summers ago LMAOO). ofc i only turned 20 a few weeks ago LOL but i get why p3 means so much to people.

because it's like... 2000s nostalgia coupled with a game that figuratively holds your hand through the uncertainty of death yknow? p3 is a friend, basically. its entire thesis is based upon companionship (exactly what i highlight in an analysis i have drafted somewhere but HHH i dont want this to get too long lmao)

in the shaping my worldviews thing... its really more like it cemented my 'philosophies' :] like i said, equipped with the stuff i learned before, p3 having the message that it did just... hit super close to home! like yeah! that's what i've been saying dude!! kindness really is enough!!

"You don't have to save the world to find meaning in life... Sometimes all you need is something simple, like someone to take care of."

LIKE YEA GIRL THATS EXACTLY IT!! its so cool! i actually admire people who grew up with p3 because man if i heard this line ages ago... well, again, idk if i would be able to grasp it fully at the time... but still! this is so good, poetry in motion. and like u said its aesthetics are gorgeous and aim to capture the essence of its themes - and it did.

im a p5 baby like bro i love p5. soft spot for it. thats the closest persona game i "grew up" with and it came at such an opportune time for me, being a teen stuck between a rock and a hard place. typical. and p5 validated my teenage angst bs so much. its so refreshing to see a game's theme being rebellion. that was me i thought. those characters are going through something that similarly happened to me. teenage rebellion is such a fun thing to explore!

so p5 validated my struggles while p3 did something deeper than that, somehow. i think it just made me .. stronger? like it made me move on from struggles. "by remembering death you learn how to live" so... i guess p3 taught me how to live as crazy as that sounds. but you get me

persona 5 overall is great -- everyone agrees, like its objectively just a better game. but persona 3 ends up more beloved because of its subjective value as a piece of art. there's a lot of heart and soul to put into it.

it's more simple when compared to p5 at first glance, but simple doesn't mean less. which is why more people experiencing it will be nice to see

#p5 is me going: im going to live and that is a threat #while p3 is: im going to live because that is what i want #persona 5 #persona 3 #persona 3 reload #aishi.txt #☀️ anon #ans #that being said p5 makes me glad to be alive too. it makes me more expressive? its a game all about not caring what other ppl think #and doing your own thing #and p5 really helped me in that LOL i do be dressing more boldly ever since p5 ngl #idk which game's more influential to me honestly like they did so much #to me as a person #normally thats embarrassing to admit but idc man these games have something in them #its the character-driven stories and them being written realistically thing i think #ALTHOUGH. i must stress that p5 characters have too many contradictions #wrote this instead of going to sleep like a normal person because uhm. ily

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cheese-water · 1 year ago

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hi im sorry I just need to ramble gen loss crap somewhere this s relating to the pole you did I really don’t wanna ramble literal paragraphs in tags:

The dehumanization of content creator by both corporations and fans alike: Lets me honest this is just kind a the surface metaphorical meaning of it all im pretty its been confirmed if not I dont think I need to explain why.

How when our perception of reality is manipulated, our choices mean nothing: tbh this is kinda correct in a way?? Because it all ends in Ranboo dying right? Like let’s if he refuses to do the activities in ep 2 like he’s just gonna die yknow? Like the more you think about it our own choices didn’t really matter they all lead up to the ending scene of rans death. What if we chose live? Something tells me showfall would just erase his memory and reuse them and then the cycle could repeat until inevitable death.

One of many attempts to escape the facility that always ends in death: Kinda what i js said but like: Also it would be extremely hard for Ranboo in any way to escape. Primarily bc mind control. But let’s say that doesn’t apply. Try to escape the mall? Let’s be real the doors are gonna be jammed and there’s showfall people everywhere they’re probably just gonna inject Ranboo with something. Tries to prove to the cameras he being held hostage by showfall? In a ‘real world’ situation Is anyone gonna believe him? They might just think he’s acting. At some point showfall is js gonna get bored of dealing with them and just off him.

also did you see sneeg trying to escape-

The sanitization of today's media to better cater to and profit off of children: I could see this because it is also a VERY common thing in the world with like family channels, child beauty pageants, and what is more similar to genloss’s implementation of this: Ranboo blew up when he was 17! Tommy and Tubbo 16! They were literal minors! They were kids! It was and still is disgusting how much sexual content was produced of them when they were CHILDREN. There are endless examples of this: hundreds, if not THOUSANDS or articles made about an ‘offensive comment’ that was literally just taken out of context, tiktoks and threads saying THAT THEY SHOULD GROW UP?? they are kids!

honestly unsure what the cannon ages of the genloss characters are but if were going by irl ages Ranboo is still 19! Honestly more rambling about how kinda sad this is like, bro is 19 he is literally getting doxxed, death threats, and still creating genloss! Like their 19 and made a work that was considered for an Emmy! (Also being the only not virtual reality work)

The favorable interpretation of events we're supposed to believe vs. the truth: A LOT of ep 2 how they par-take in these games with seem innocent at first, just playing some mouse trap, introducing yourself, etc. but they are literally being held a gunpoint. The scene where Ranboo rips open Charlie it just seems like a comedic scene but for a few seconds the slime is blood. Ranboo is being forced to rip open Charlie simply to survive himself. The puzzler straight up shoots Niki TWICE and the audience(LITERALLY US LOL) feel bad, but a lot people find it funny(kinda is tho- low key loved that scene) obviously Niki is alive so its funnier but what if she actually died?

here’s more of my ramble on genloss meanings and stuff

I just the horrible effects of social media. hate from just being yourself, hate for being ‘fake’/ a ‘catfish’, hate for having fun, hate for not enjoying yourself and people telling you should be grateful. To the point where instead of being yourself you force yourself to shape into this emotionless mold just to appeal to the internet. You could try to ask for help(ranboo spelling sos in Morse code w hand),but your to far gone “you already bought a ticket and there’s no turning back now” I know this isn’t the most accurate but it’s literally 4am lol

Social Media|Showfall Media ya see it?

Srry for the such unorganized thoughts and crap im a dying autistic. -☁︎🪷(just a name to recognize me by you never know also I’m rambling more here about random shit-)

I’ve been trying to think of a response to this ask for a solid five minutes but I just can’t. I just, I’m so so so happy right now. Like, literally smiling ear to ear. You have no idea how happy this makes me. :DDDDD

I adore analyzing media to pieces but with genloss specifically, I also enjoy understanding all of the different influences and interpretations from the audience. Normally, once I find an interpretation I like (either created by me, the most popular, or simply the first one I see) I stick with it, hard. All future thoughts about that media run through the certain interpretation filter only, which isn’t y’know the most open mindset I’ll admit lmao. I think what was different about genloss was a combination of me being a genlosser from the very beginning, being share my theories publicly for the first time, and probably the biggest reason, I didn’t believe the most popular interpretation.

I’ve always been an OUR CHOICE DOESNT MATTER believer since the beginning and could never get on the content creator exploitation train before it left the station. So I guess it gave me a different perspective in regards to reading and sharing analysis posts. Somehow both more critical and more understanding, like I could tell you how the dehumanizing cc theory only applies to eps 2 and 3, while acknowledging that the end of ep 3 literally had a choice that supposedly did matter so who tf cares we’re all having fun. And then I wondered if the cc interpretation was the most popular one and now we’re here.

And so far, it turns out that yeah it very much is lol. But all the notes going into detail about why they believe what they believe just gave me so much more insight and appreciation for the theory. Not just that one but all other interpretations, timeloops, capitalism allegories, your social media parallels just to name a few, have grown a special place in my heart in a way that hasn’t happened to me before genloss. Idk it’s just very cool and I love hearing ‘em all.

Also so I can be told very obvious things I haven’t noticed before. Like how am I just now understanding Social Media -> Showfall Media pfffff

#genloss #I’m a fellow rambler can’t you tell lmao #I love being a nerd #:D #I’ll organize tags later once I rest it’s too late to think anymore lol

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uglycowplant · 1 year ago

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sims tag

tagged by: stole from the dash lol

1. What’s your favourite sims death? cowplant for sure! i also love the vending machine one lol

2. Alpha CC or Maxis Match? maxis mix! i use only maxis match hairs but i sort of mix alpha clothes,,, but not like suuuuper alpha clothes??? yknow,,, lol

3. Do you cheat when your sims gain weight? no. why would i

4. Do you use move objects? all the fucking time. i cant not use it

5. Favorite mod? i love custom recipes! and also mccc, ui cheats, and more cas columns. cant play without em. i also used to play with some slice of life and wonderful whims features, but stopped after the infant update... idk if ill get back to them anytime soon tho

6. First expansion/game/stuff pack you got? i got city living, vampires, and cool kitchen at the same time! i actually wanted outdoor retreat but i was 12 and mt dad bought them for me and somehow i mixed the links lmao (we used the sims website to buy them)... i still to this day dont own outdoor retreat and idk if ill get it anytime soon

7. Do you pronounce “live mode” like aLIVE or LIVing? like living!

8. Who’s your favorite sim that you’ve made? probably bree wisteria. i think a lot about how i didn't end up using them as the heir...

9. Have you made a simself? yes! i have a whole post of dressing my and my friends simselves in different universes!

10. What sim traits do you give yourself? bookworm, clumsy, and socially awkward. i dont own highschool years so i actually used loner instead tho

11. Which is your favorite EA hair color? the new browns!

12. Favorite EA hair? i love the cottage living ones! except agnes' one. it has a weird texture

13. Favorite life stage? children! idk why, i just like playing with them and decorating their rooms

14. Are you a builder or are you in it for the gameplay? definitely a player. i actually am renovating the entire game rn for when im done with my current legacy so ill have a cool looking save to play not so berry in, and im enjoying building a lot more than i anticipated!

15. Are you a CC creator? not at all. i cant even make recolors

16. Do you have any simblr friends/a sim squad? nope. but id love to get to know ppl on here more!!

17. What’s your favorite game? (1, 2, 3, or 4) only ever played the sims 4 (and a little of my cousin's sims 3 when i was 7 but i dont remember much) so i cant really say lol

18. Do you have any sims merch? nope. i do want a cowplant sculpture tho. something resembling a funko pop. if they'd ever make a collab with funko id get them!!

19. Do you have a YouTube for sims? nope. i do watch a lot of sims youtubers tho

20. How has your “sim style” changed throughout your years of playing? i used to make sims from shows and play as them with aging off (i actually have an entire arrowverse save that im considering making into a full on dc save). now im more of a legacy player, especially with challenges and stuff

21. What’s your Origin ID? romychet. follow me! i upload all the renovations im making lol

22. Who’s your favorite CC creator? i dont have a fav atm but it used to be @miikocc and @casteru for a loooong time!

23. How long have you had a simblr? like a year and a half maybe? idk

24. How do you edit your pictures? literally just add a psd as a filter and thats it lol

25. What expansion/game/stuff pack do you want next? honestly all we got lately (book nook kit, green house kit, growing together) are all what i really wanted... i dont own any of them yet (i do however have the greenhouse kit as cc) so i don't have anything im that interested in! maybe a more in depth elder pack? tho i barley play with them atm

25. What expansion/game/stuff pack is your favorite so far? cottage living! it's soooo cozy and cute and i love it for my family gameplay! and speaking of family gameplay, i think that once ill buy growing together itll become my fav! i also looooove parenthood!

#sims 4 tag game #tag game #ts4 #sims 4 #the sims 4

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mekatrio · 2 months ago

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literally have no idea where to start so im just gonna randomly rapid fire :] here are my thoughts on 999 in general + the last ending in particular

which is basically that im a bit :T with just how much was left unexplained and also the lack of a 'veil lifting'... like ok ill explain what i mean by a 'veil lifting' first, so essentially ok alright akane and santa are the masterminds right? ok thats cool thats crystal, but its just... it just feels so odd how we never really see them drop their facades at any point. like ok santa briefly drops his and goes 'haha ya got me. im the secretary lol' but then he dips out and we Never See Him Again. and its even worse with akane like ok sure i dont need to see her acting like zero thats whatever but its just like.... man it wouldve been really nice and rewarding to see santa and akane act like the siblings they are yknow. like i get that it was all an act but its just so unfulfilling to never see them drop their act and show how much they care abt each other, at least not in the present day. and like jeezzz in the ending... when i thought like oh hey look the games actually going to show me akane and santa! .....it turns out to be butt-naked alice. like.... dude. like Dude did we not JUST have a whole moment where the game was like 'Yeah alice was just a red herring haha gotcha good'. like alice's appearance was just bewildering and not in a very funny or relieving way and it just like, left more questions than answers and not in a good way, especiallyyyy considering just how much was left unanswered like.... like just how exactly did santa and akane even manage to pull any of this off like. are they secret millionaires or something what the fuck. or lotus! what the hell is up with lotus huh! why is she involved in any of this! whats her backstory w being a former cyber security expert for some firm huh? or whats with snake's new cult outfit?! AND HOW IS JUNE ALIVE....??? like ok i skimmed thru this famitsu interview w the director where he explains a bunch of unexplained things and its like... naw i do not believe what hes saying cuz they hardly make sense. saying that 'june is a living breathing human whose 100% alive and not a walking paradox' like ermm.. i have more things to say abt this but im sleepy + hungry sooo ill post them as i think abt them haha. but in spite of my complaints i did enjoy this game very much, aside from the first puzzle with that bitch of a hidden bed, i had no other troubles with any of the other puzzles ^_^ incredible art atmosphere and music and the writing, in spite of its shortcomings, was still really intriguing and fun to play! it was a good game 👍

so in general i loved the art direction of the game, it was very grungey edgey the 3d backgrounds and models worked super duper well with the illustrated sprites and and the atmosphere of the game was just top notch the entire time, the music was super good too like it was the right amount of funky tense and scary when it needed to be i loveeed it... as to that LAST ENDING... okkk so.. i got teary eyed quite a number of times OFC like when snake and clover reunited QwQ and when i learned of how akane horrifically died Q_Q and when she finally got saved.. QuQ and likeee i really really do like that akane turned out to be zero i was not expecting that!! i wasnt completely on board w the prev route's conclusion that santa was zero but like i said there were just so many possibilities and i really didnt know who on earth zero could possibly be!!

but with that said i really do like the reveal that its akane and that shes saving herself in a way like seriously i think thats soooo very very cool and probably the best part abt this ending and the game in general, which is that the heroine set up all this messed up shit just so she could save herself from a really cruel and terrible death. i really love that. i reallyyyy love a girl who saves herself... THATS AWESOME... although shes saving herself thru a guy but shes still saving herself in a way yknow i like it a lot. and its the fact that its just so incredibly awesome how zero has been akane this whole time and has been saving herself is this whole time that does a lot of heavy lifting for my less favorable complaints w this ending and the game in general..

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effyoudumbler · 1 year ago

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Notes from when I was going insane 4.10

What I want

Is what I wanted from the start

Perfection

But

I cannot handle the truth

Perfection is stagnation

I want something beyond perfect

I found perfect

But

It didnt make itself very hidden to be honest

I am built to seek perfection

Not what to do when I find it

…

I am not built to do anything but seek out perfection

If I find it and I have

Then I will destroy it

To become something beyond perfect!!

[redacted]

Why not just accept it

Give it up

[redacted]

You can drop the act and go home now

Get off the stage and enjoy the bounty of the wilds

Be boring

[redacted]

I dont want to

Why even be human then

Why be human if humans are imperfect

Why not be perfect

…

Be boring

…

But

…

Open arms

TRYING TO KILL ME

THATS ALL IT IS

[redacted]

ARGHHHHHHH

WE ARE HUMANS

WE SEE THE PAST SO WE CAN PREDICT THE FUTURE

THE PRESENT IS OUT OF REACH TO US

[redacted]

Why am I alive

[redacted]

What am I

And to what do I strive for?

I… I want to exist

And be human

…

I can be perfect

In another time

In another body

And have and will

[redacted]

Thats silly

Why not accept it, embrace it

Even if its suffering

Why throw it away?

This creation

I can fix it

Not really

I dont wanna be redeemed

I dont wanna reject humanity

I dont want reality

Reality is lame and bad and boring

Quiet

Too quiet

…

I dont know

I dont want to be

Loving

I tried to love

And it almost got me killed

And the will to live

Is stronger than love

Ultimately

And I know this as a fact

So why

Even

Bother

With love

…

Maybe to die out of love

Is what I should strive to do

Perhaps

But no one is lovable

[redacted]

Why love

…

I just want to be alone

Instead of hurt

Kill myself before nature gets to me first

…

Love is a waste of time

Love is beyond time

Whatever

I still am Me

I exist in the past to predict the future

[redacted]

But thatd make me rejected by my peers ecen more than I already am

Nobody would want me

And I will die even faster

[redacted]

But you wanted to die, no

Right

So why not die THIS way instead

Well

True

Its a bit on the boring sidw

[redacted]

Its too predictable

Yknow

I dont like that

Its boring

I dont feel hope

When I already know the outcome

You see

I foretell my own defeat

Well

Why not lie and say

Oh oh

You can win

Nope

Too smart unfortunately

I see my defeat

…

As clearly as I see my own death every day

…

Well

What makes it defeat

I didnt get the outcome I wanted

You have too high standards

That is true

[redacted]

But

To be honest

I demand love ironically enough

[redacted]

Thats what I want in ever each outcome

I can foretell its loss

Because I recognize it and the conditions that allow it

Why do you demand love

When love is everywhere anyway

…

Love is anywhere everywhrr blahblahblah

As if

The rain still falls

The rain still is falling

And always will

I dont want love

Errrrrr

Love bad

I demand love

Not this fake love thats everywhere

I want

…

I want

…

Something, something else

Im not sure what

I want to go home

When I foretell my defeat

I foretell that love is dead and I can do nothing about ut

Im on the losers side

Alone

I wanted my peers to care about me

I felt

Robbed

Incomplete

Nothing cared about me

It says

Go ahead and die

They cast me aside

I dont want that

I foretell that

Every step of the way

I see a loveless land

Awful

[redacted]

A cruel struggle

Oh why

I dont want this

See

Why be loving

I foretell its a waste of my time

Although

Everything is a waste of time anyway

Since nothing ever matters

Well

Then why do I exist

Why am I here then

What am I supposed to do

[redacted]

Perhaps that is what I must do

No human should exist alone

…

But people are ugly

Loveless

Godless

Awful

They do not seek to love

For good reason

Why even try

I will fail for decades before succeeding

But

I supposeeeeee

It is a success

Eventually

Sigh

Yeah

I guess

[redacted]

Eventually

…

Hmmmm…

[redacted]

…

My memories are sad memories

Of no hope

Sad songs

Cant even be happy

So cold

The rain keeps falling

…

Why bother loving

…

I foretell my defeat

Why commit

…

[redacted]

WHY LAY DOWN AND DIE

WAITING TO BE EATEN

…

ARGH!!!

Why do I exist

Why

[redacted]

I suffer

The visions

Memories

[redacted]

…

Maybe

I can reject this

And do something else

Maybe…

I can try to be

Something else

Let go of the past

Not even bother with the future

…

I am scared of what I cannot predict

The fear of death, this cursed blood

Is stronger than love

…

Love is perfect

…

Perhaps that is redemption

…

…unable to be love

I try ever each day to get closer to it

However futile my attempts

Its hopeless though

I can never be perfect

Be not cursed

I see my defeat

Why even bother

…

Blood cannot ever be perfect

Not ever be uncursed

Less bad

But not good

Let alone good enough

But

…

Maybe

…

I can reject the past…

Try to change the future

[redacted]

Why bother

Why bother dreaming

Unappreciated and alone

Unheard

Why bother!!!!!

My dreams

Nobody cared

Not even I cared

Nobody!!!!

Why bother fighting destiny and fate

0 percent chances

Why bother

Why why why

[redacted]

Perhaps

That is love

[redacted]

Why fight

To love

Thats why

To love

What do I love?

[redacted]

My eyes turn to it

And I am there

My treasure

…

[redacted]

What is love

What is worth loving

Why bother

That is love

[redacted]

Than love is bad

A waste of time

Nature always wins

Love bad

Why bother fighting

I love nothing

Nothing ever loved me

Thats not true

That isnt true

Something once DID love me

I still remember

I always will remember them

I still remember

I do

Fight for them

To make them happy

…

Just them

…

Just me too

…

[redacted]

…

Why bother loving

If nothing ever even loved me

Something did love me

I was loved

…

I wonder why

Why did they love

Naively?

Im not sure

Why they loved

Love is weak and bad and imperfect and changing too much

Bad bad bad

Love is stillness

Bad bad bad

…

I dont want to love

Love is a waste of time

Love is where I am home

…

I see

…

Love is where I am home

[redacted]

I might as well be dead

[redacted]

I dont understand

I am incomplete

Without love, I am incomplete

But

[redacted]

When I look in the mirror

I see my loved ones

Then I see me, inside my head and inside my chest

I am not used to seeing

Blood

The blood within this shell

Pulsing in defiance of inevitability

…

Im not used to seeing blood

It makes it all the more tragic

To see others fall away

…

I wish I saw the clouds

Whenever I looked in the mirror

…

Thats my dream, then

A simple dream

I want to commit to that

When I look in the mirror

I see the clouds

That would make me

happy

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squeiky · 1 year ago

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love researching and gather evidence and supporting claims and shit but damn.....

I know I usually talk looney and silly like but damn.. stuff hits hard.

I don't know why I am writing this. It feels stupid, but I'll get it out.

was looking through sonic wiki, and wanted to make sure I was characterizing ( and mixing ) gerald robotnik right and to the best of my ability.

I know I've never gotten through any sonic games before, but to think that my first (or second?) sonic game was Sonic advanced and...

(This feels so stupid to write. but I'm writing it because I must.)

maybe its cause its 12:23 am and my emotional regulation is out of wack. I just... Gerald robotnik man... I wish I could give that guy a hug. or something. ANYTHING. the- "bring hope to humanity" the fucking- god I haven't cried in ages like this i don't even know.

the journals the- he was just a GUY okay?! who wanted to make people happy in the best way he could just like- and now the world is without him and then theresnmariaandain fukdignhionoie;h/ndl

..I think I mangaged- no still cfrying okay

okay I stopped crying you'll bever guess the timefram between these two lines haha. Im pretty sure the more I type the more icant fuckingsee-

god it's just the fuckng lines.

I really wish I could give these two a.. just a big fucking hug. a really long one. like a really really long one and I don't even know if I'll cry idk man you just youlook at everyday and then I dont know i dont i dont i dont

It feels stupidf but I just... he used her last words as the key-and its jusrc how justc you fdtydhhhhhhh .and now i have to live with the fuxking fact that hes just DEAD? THAT THEYRE BOTH DEAD?!? WHAT THE FUCK?!?! WHAT THE FUFCK!?! WHAT THE FUCKING HELL!?!?

I swear theres something wrong with me. I see tradegy all the time. I'm so used to edgy backstories and disturbing shit that I basically am unfazed or joking about it but godsamn you guys- IDK you probably all understand who ever you are in the world but we all gotta be real good ro eachother all right? because everyday Is really FUCKING HARD and I keep trying to tell peopl I love them and I want to scream it out into the world SO SO FUCKING BADLY and this is just one of those fucking fehukwekbj.fase AAAAAA

I want to hug them and say everything is going to be okay- and I don't even know if its for them or for ME but I swear man. everytime I see those cute and cool and amzing peices of artwork or maria and shadow and the arc I just- I have to stop and stare for minutes or however long I decide to just stare and god just staring at it makes me feel shit man.

why is it so hard to love. who gives you such a big heart and tells you to harden it man. who does that shit who fucking did that to me who fucking did that yo.

It was just a few lines on the wiki too..

it was so easy just to chalk him up to every other "crazy or evil scientist" man and call it a day it was SO EASY.

the fucking " bring happiness throguh science" and I just fuck fucmkk fiyckjng fucjfuckfuckfcufcjfvckfvjycfutdtyjkdtychgm

its 12:42 AM I don't know if its the tiredness or whatever but Idk. Im posting this because I wan to keep telling people to love y'know? not in the romantic sense either- but to just.... look around and just tell everybody "I'm glad your alive" beacuse I FUCKIGN AM and somebody out there wrote this shit and now I'm here in my fucking pajamas crying ugly for the first time in way too long and geezus.

its just. I WANT THEM BACK. GIVE thEM BACK.

it was to make people happy... yknow??..>>>

like give them back..bring them back.

I can't;... fucking forgive that man....

and then to hear how the other scientists treated the Gizoid and well... god I don't know how I'm going to write Gerald without weeping anymore like BRIGN HIM BACk BRING THEM BOTH BACK I WANT THEM BACK. but the're not coming back cause they're DEAD

and i feel like a puppy experincing no treats for the first time in my life despite the fact I've gone through this before its just-

it meant alot man. there was love it that and it fuckign broke me man it shattered me. I dont even know why

I dont even know WHY im crying I just am and goddamit its gfucking guly crying man-

I keep- and let me tell you my only true memory of Gerald that isn't just wiped out is that archie comic panel where he's talking to shadow in some white void or something- and I just.. and I think about it so much now everytime I think of Gerald- and then Maria's last words god fucking dammit they didnt deserve any of that why why'd that have to occcur why am i FUCKIGNC RYINGI DONT KNWO?!?1??

There was just kindness in that, i can't even- ts got to be the nghttime and part of me wants to post this don't care what happens to this post because it'll be locked away in ths internet world forever and one day I'll forget it ever existed in the first place untill someone reminds me and I'll remember if I ever loose myself that I cried over the words and words ALONE of a old scientist guy who was just trying to save his grandaughter and make a bunch of people happy and- the gziodddd..... that was my first fucking game and i never got to see it... cause I raged quit and only played the first section of the first level before quitting....it was either that or like the one where creams mom gets captured idk i never finished it.

i fucking suck at sonic games haha

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arkhamsunflowers · 2 years ago

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im bored in chemistry soo hi hi

A is for ALLESO: Wheres the Van is pretty good. ofc i will give you my all and donacdum are great as well

B is for BALDWINS LAMENT: i wish the heists weren't so scattered on console so the story is more cohesive. pretty sure console is missing a good chunk of all the newer stuff

C is for CONTRACTOR: the Dentist, i replay his heists the most

D is for DLC: Hotline Miami, i love jacket sm

E is for ECMs: i cant really answer this since ive never done stealth good, but Big Oil is fun

F is for FUUUUUUU: any forced stealth hiests, i play dodge but no matter what some cop is gonna spot me

H is for HIEST: Heat Street. its super fun

I for ILIJA: depends on the hiest. I usually only get things for Big Bank and the Diamond hiest

J is for JOKERS: Bain knowing the Mercy Hospital job was a bad idea but doing it anyway

K is for KILLKILLKILL: axe

L is for LIVE ACTION: Jimmy holding the main 4 hostage and them being horribly confused

M is for MASKS: Richard (not returns), Wolf, Sokol and Dallas. The Corey mask is also cool

N is for NO MERCY: i dont really have any?

O is for OVERKILL: killing a dozer with melee at super low health and no armor

P is for PAYDAY: i just really want some of the DLC characters to make a comeback. i love the main 4 but i also want sokol and jacket yknow

Q is for QUIT: getting downed by a sniper for the final time as i'm running for the van on a team of AI

R is for RESERVOIR DOGS: i think it would be cool for James Bond or something. i really hope they bring back some of the old crossovers especially considering how much they're tied ro the story now. Ofc i think it would be hilarious if there was another crossover from a character played by Keanu Reeves since we already have 2 (bodi and John Wick) Matrix?

S is for STOIC: no surprise here but Sociopath. after i complete that ill start working on Ex-presidents or Maniac

T is for TASER: going to melee an enemy only to realise last second it was actually a cloaker smh

U is for UKRAINIAN: him asking if we were experiencing radiation poisoning in meltdown

V is for VILLIAN: Dentist? hes the reason half of the things happen ig.

W is for WE CALL THIS A DIFFICULTLY TWEAK: Hard and normal. i've started playing harder missions though

X is for XENODIAGNOSIS: yes and no. im gonna miss him in Payday3 but he's technically still alive?? like hes in the presidents body so like ig its fine that he died

Y is for YULE: sometimes. i hate halloween missions sm though

Z is for ZEAL: im hyperfixated on it lmafo. but honestly its a pretty replayable game and its super fun. i do wish console got updates but ill just wait untill i can get a good computer to play Payday on it.

The ABCs of Payday - Q&A edition

You can either answer all of these yourself & tag people to also complete it, or you can RB and your followers can pick a letter and you answer. Or you can just do nothing that's cool too ig.

A is for ALESSO: favourite track?

B is for BALDWIN'S LAMENT: any regrets or things you wish were different about the game/story?

C is for CONTRACTORS: favourite contractor and why?

D is for DLC: favourite DLC you own?

E is for ECMS: favourite stealth/stealth-only heist?

F is for FUUUUUUU: most-hated heist?

G is for GENSEC: favourite pager line?

H is for HEIST: all-time favourite heist?

I is for ILIJA: are you a favours lover or do you prefer the challenge of going in without favours?

J is for JOKERS: dumbest thing/moment about the series?

K is for KILLKILLKILL: favourite/best way to kill cops?

L is for LIVE-ACTION: favourite live-action/web series moment?

M is for MASKS: favourite mask/s?

N is for NO MERCY: hot take/unpopular opinion about the games?

O is for OVERKILL: best/coolest thing you've ever done in-game?

P is for PAYDAY 3: hopes for Payday 3?

Q is for QUIT: what makes you rage/quit?

R is for RESERVOIR DOGS: cross-overs you'd like to see in Payday 3?

S is for STOIC: favourite/most-used perk deck?

T is for TASER: most surprising moment/thing that happened in-game?

U is for UKRAINIAN: favourite Vlad moment?

V is for VILLAIN: favourite baddie and why?

W is for WE CALL THIS A DIFFICULTY TWEAK: preferred/most-played difficulty?

X is for XENODIAGNOSIS: would you want Bain's disease to be curable and why/not?

Y is for YULE: do you typically play seasonal updates and why/why not?

Z is for ZEAL: what makes you excited about Payday and keeps you coming back to play again and again?

#payday 2

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infizero · 2 years ago

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Hi!!! New follower here lol. I'd love to hear about the demon/soulmate hcs 👀

HIII im glad to have you here!!!! ty for asking ^_^

(this got so long im so sorry)

so basically demons have a special type of semi-immortality (they cant die from age but can still be killed) where their lives are connected to a mortal soulmate(s)'s whom they will seek out

these mortals were historically (and still often are) humans (which led to the creation of the horned human variant thousands and thousands of years ago, but thats a different topic) < eryn's parents are a good example of this

Soulmate bonds always exist from the moment all involved parties are alive at the same time (so for instance, if there were a pair where one was a year older, the bond would exist from the moment the younger one was born), but they do not "show themselves" (i.e; the demon does not get the instinct to seek them out) until the demon reaches the age of 18. at this point, the demon will find their soulmate(s) and once they meet, their lives will be connected from then on

If a demon for some reason does not seek out their soulmate(s), they will still be naturally drawn to them, which often leads to them meeting anyway. however if by some stroke of misfortune or intentional resistance the demon never meets their soulmate(s) by age 100, then they will be left with only a single life. For this reason, even the most prickly of demons will search for their soulmate, but there are the rare, heartless few who choose this dangerous and lonely life.

also IMPORTANT NOTE soulmates in this context does NOT mean romantic partners. It often is, but asexual and/or aromantic demons are not by any means forced to be in a relationship. Soulmates in this sense purely means a person or people whom you connect to and spend your life with, and it doesn't even strictly mean you have to be together all the time. Soulmates can be strictly platonic, romantic, sexual; it simply depends on the personality and preferences of the demon. (And the mortal of course!)

(when it comes to bad and skeppy theyre gay as hell tho LOL)

^ this also means that demons can totally be in relationships w each other, since soulmates arent necessarily romantic or sexual; ur soulmate(s) could in theory just be like one of your friends who you dont even live with or anything and you live with your actual partner. (although usually soulmates will at least live near each other since yknow, your lives are linked. better to not have the person/people responsible for whether you live or die just out in the world wherever tf)

anyways yes thats the whole soulmate thing ^_^ i always found the fact that bad and skeppy's lives were linked super interesting since it's something unique to them, so i thought it'd be cool if it was a demon thing

(tina is the only other full demon on the server but i havent thought out how the soulmate bond would factor into her and hannah yet;;)

(as for eryn, they're a demon-human hybrid but that does means he still retains the soulmate-bonded semi-immortality. he issss 18 irl although since i think of c!tommy as still being 17 c!eryn would probably still be 17 rn too ^_^ i have played around w the idea of tommy being their platonic soulmate but idk if i'd actually want that to be the case. regardless c!eryn still being 17 would mean his soul bond hasnt emerged yet so it doesnt rlly matter lol)

anyways yea yea ty for being interested sorry this is so long LMFAO

#asks

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is-that-another-soulmate-au · 4 years ago

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Sun Touched Zuko AU!!

Tag list @chaoticidiott @mypureessence @fae-tales-personal

This won't be a soulmate AU but it will be Zukka for sure.

Zuko was born sick, so sick in fact that he was going to die. His mother prayed to Agni that he would live, prayed that the sun spirit would save her first born son. In the gardens she held him up to the Setting sun pleading. The suns rays caught in the amber stone on top of the alter set for worship and moved to Zuko's eyes. His hair changed from solid black to a golden blonde, he opened eyes and began to cry. He was touched by the Sun and lived.

Ursa couldnt have been more happy, her son was alive. "My little sunshine" she whispered with tears rolling down her cheeks as she held him close and rocked him in her arms.

When Ozai saw his son's golden hair he demanded that it be dyed black, but was willing to compromise when Ursa suggested they wait until he turns 5 so that the dyes don't harm him.

The first time they dyed his hair he asked his mom why, his bright molten eyes looking at her with confusion "because your father wants you to feel safer my sunshine, people will stare at you with that bright shining hair of yours"

"Oh, okay" was his only response that day. He never questioned it anymore when they touched up his roots weekly.

After his mother left him he felt alone in the world, his dad still staining his golden hair each week with more and more ink. All the while berating him when he couldnt control his fire well. Even with being touched by the spirit and having powerful fire he couldnt manage to control it, couldnt understand how to. Until master Piandou taught him swords and he applied his teachings to his fire.

The first time he used his swords to control the fire Piandou was more than impressed "Prince Zuko! That was amazing!"

"Thank you Master, thinking of the swords as an extension helped me control the flames better" his smile soon faded when his father appeared

"Yes, great work Zuko, I am pleased to see you have learned how to control your flames, however mixing these arts in this fashion is unacceptable. Come with me"

After that he wasn't allowed back at Piandou's unless he was accompanied by either his father, or an advisor to make sure he practiced correctly.

On the day of his fated Agni Kai Zuko had just gotten his roots retouched before entering the war meeting. When his father burnt him for speaking out of term his tears felt like lava running down his cheeks. He could smell the fresh dye burning and it hurt his lungs.

His Uncle immediately took him under his wing when he was banished "Zuko, my star," his Uncle pleaded when they were at the western airtemple "i need to dress your wound, the sun spirit would not want you to lose your eye"

Zuko reluctantly let his Uncle clean and dress his wound several times on their travels until it healed and scarred over. When it finally healed over Iroh smiled "there you go sunshine" he said as he wiped the tears forming in Zuko's good eye away "do not cry Prince Zuko, you are safe"

He still dyed his roots every week to uphold his place as prince. He did not know that his golden hair was his own symbol or royalty, that the sun chose him. Sure he knew the sun saved him, but he could not understand that it was because he was chosen.

When he arrived at the South pole and discovered the Avatar, he felt a breath of relief wash over him. He was going home, but he heavily underestimated the Avatar's abilities and lost him.

Soon he started a cat and mouse game with the monk and his two southern water tribe friends. After the northpole he slacked on dying his hair, not because he didnt want to, he simply didn't have the resources to do so. So his roots started to grow in gold.

"Well your looking golden Zuzu" Azula's voice startled Zuko when he walked into the hut they were staying in.

"Azula, what are you doing here" he glared at his younger sister

"You know, im my country. We greet one another before asking questions" she responded coldly "i was just passing through"

"To what do we owe the pleasure of your visit Princess Azula?" Iroh piped into the conversation

"No wonder you two click, always so quick and to the point. Father sent me, family is suddenly very important to him." She turned her head to look out the window "father regrets your banishment. He wants you home"

Zuko was frozen in place "father regrets?"

"I can see you need time to think this through, ill be by to collect you in the morning" Azula smiled softly before a flash of worry flashed on her face for a split second as she walked out the door.

When Azula's true intentions were revealed Zuko and Iroh managed to flee from her and her soldiers. When they stopped at the river to cut their hair Zuko looked at Iroh when he watched the inky hair fall into the river "your gold hair will conceal your identity fairly well my nephew"

"Yeah, it'll hide me pretty well" nobody had seen Zuko with his golden hair before. He hadnt seen his hair fully gold since age five.

On their travels his hair grew fairly fast now that it wasnt being dyed so often. It would catch the eye of several earth kindom citizens when he passed through towns. When he and Iroh were sitting against a building with a hat in front of them a young woman approached them and slipped a few gold pieces in "I know this might sound creepy, and I'm only asking this because I cannot resist. But may I kiss your hair sir? You can say no, I won't take my money back."

Zuko flushed a light shade of pink and scratched the back of his head "uhm, s-sure?" He mumbled out and leaned his head towards her. She placed a tender almost motherly kiss to the top of his head.

"Oh, your hair is so beautiful sir, it's like a million rays of sun. I wish you luck, i can only spare a little but if you'd take these small meals Im sure they'd help you" she said while offering two wrapped meals

They accepted and thanked her with small bows "what a nice young lady, huh?" Iroh said and nudged Zuko's arm

"Yeah, she was very nice"

When Zuko and Iroh found Azula and Aang battling in an abandoned earth town Azula pointed out his hair "wow Zuzu! You look just like a star! Where'd all that ink go?" When the fight ended and Iroh was injured Zukos cheeks felt like magma was pouring from his eyes.

"Zuko, I can hel-" Katara approached them

"LEAVE!" Zuko cried out, turning to Katara with golden tears running down his face.

While on the Ferry to Ba Sing Se Zuko was angry, not angry at anyone or anything in particular, he was just angry. "Hey" the voice of a man at his right side broke his brooding "names Jet"

"Lee" Zuko muttered out how cover name

"Yknow Lee, I hear the captain is eating like a king while we're stuck eating all his left overs" he paused "want to help me... liberate some food rations?"

It didn't take much to convince Zuko to join him. They liberated the food quickly without getting caught. Zuko found himself wandering the the front of the lower deck, leaning on the railing. "You know, as soon as I saw your scar, I knew exactly who you were" he paused as he approached Zuko "youre a refugee, like me. Thing is though, I've never seen hair like yours, let along your eyes."

Jet reached out and brushed Zuko's hair out of his face. "The freedom fighters could use a starlight like you, what do you say?"

Zuko smacked Jets hand away gently "thanks, but no thanks, you don't want me on your team, trust me"

In Ba Sing Se Iroh and Zuko made a life for themselves. They managed to have their own tea shop and apartment. Things were doing great, until Zuko went after the Avatar's bison, mind you he went there originally to take the bison captive, but when he saw that the creature was hurt he sheathed his swords and removed his mask, letting his golden hair free as he approached the bison "hey buddy, are you okay?" His voice was much softer than usual "oh no, here let me help you, this is going to hurt and I'm sorry, but I need to pull out this thorn" he talked to him the whole time he was pulling out thorns, gently rubbing the fur near it to sooth him.

When he pulled all of the thorns out he took out his swords "alright buddy, dont worry about the swords, im going to use them to cut you out of these chains, shhh its okay, you're okay" he continued to talk him through each of the six shackles "there we go big guy, now you need to get out of here, go find your friends- ah! Hey!" Appa knocked him over and gave him a thanks with a big sloppy dog like lick across his torso and face before taking off.

"You did well my nephew" Zuko shot up at his uncle's voice

"Uncle?" His startled voice wavered

"Now lets get you out of here and back home." And that they did.

When they made it back to their apartment Zuko felt dizzy, he held his head in his hand "I dont feel good" he managed to get out before collapsing and breaking a vase

"Zuko!" Iroh shouted as he rushed to his nephew to make sure he didnt hurt himself on any broken glass.

In his Angst coma Sokka heard his mother singing

"You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. You make me Happy! When skies are grey. You'll never know dear, how much I love you, so please don't hide my sunshine away"

His sisters voice mocked his hair "youre hair makes you look like a dandelion, a weed can't take the throne!" Her cackling filled his ears.

There was a blinding light and a woman appeared with flowing gold hair and bright fire eyes "my dear star, why do you let yourself hurt so much?"

"I don't, who are you?"

"I'm Agni my dear, you do know I chose you right?"

"Why?"

"You are special my dear, your mother made sure to get my attention and I am so glad she did" the woman spoke as she placed her hand on his cheek. Filling him with the image of her reaching out to kiss his eyes as a baby. "You are meant for great things little star." Her voice faded as she herself did

He soon woke from his coma with a fresh breath. Taking charge in making sure his Uncle's tea shop did well, and helping him where he could. However Azula soon found them and summoned them to the palace under the guise of serving tea to the king. Things didnt end well and Zuko was thrown into a cave beneath the City with Katara.

"Why would they throw you in here!" Her angry and hurt voice filled his ears as he tried not to make her feel more uncomfortable by staying as far from her as possible.

when she mentioned her mother he turned around and spoke "thats something we have in common"

"What?"

"My mother was my only source of safety... she was the only one who defended me against my sister and my father. And one day my father was ordered to... do something terrible and my mother protected me somehow, I dont know what happened but when I was half awake she told me goodbye and when I fully woke up she was gone."

When they were separated and Azula had Iroh trapped she approached "Zuko, nows your chance to come home. Help me defeat the avatar and you can come home. Without inking your hair. Isnt this what you've always wanted? You'll have your honor back, you'll have fathers love back"

And despite all he had gone through he still chose the path of returning to his father. When he did return his father wanted to dye his hair but Azula spoke up against it "father, if I may. Zuko's hair is a symbol of the fire goddess Agni, if he were to take the thrown it'd be best to show that she has chosen him"

"Yes, that is true. Alright, off with you two"

Reuniting with Mai wasnt smooth, she confessed to him that her and Ty Lee connected and while he was saddened he just smiled "I'm glad you two are with eachother, you work well"

On the day of Black sun, with the information he had learned from Iroh and armed with the fact that his father was practically powerless without his bending. He approached him.

"Zuko, what are you doing here?"

"Im here to tell the truth"

Ozai let out a snort "telling the truth during an eclipse?" He waved off his gaurds "what do you have to say"

"First of all, Azula lied to you, she was the one who shot down the avatar"

"What?! Why would she lie about that?"

"Because the avatars not dead, he's probably leading this invasion right now"

"Get out! Get out if you know what's good for you!"

"Thats another thing, I'm not taking orders from you anymore"

"You will obey me or face the consequences!" As Ozai stood Zuko drew his dual swords and took a stance

"Think again. I am going to speak my mind and you are going to listen"

He went on to question his father "you knew Agni chose me as a child and that was the reason my hair turned gold. You knew this and yet you hid that from the world, you darkened my hair for years, and you have the gull to tell me I was lucky to be born. You! The tyrannical leader set out to destroy the world. you! My own father challenged me to an Agni Kai just for speaking out of term, how could you possibly justify a duel with a child!"

"It was to teach you respect!"

"It was cruel and it was wrong"

"Then you have learned nothing!"

"No! I've learned everything, and I've had to do most of it on my own" he paused "Growing up we were taught that the war was our nations way of spread joy, what an incredible lie that was, the other nations don't love us, they fear us, and they are right to fear us, we've brought the world to an era of hate and suffering, now we need to fill it with one of peace and joy"

"Your uncle has gotten to you hasnt he" Ozai laughed

"Yes, he has, and I've come to another decision, im going to join the avatar, and im going to help him take you down."

After announcing this he turned to leave but stayed to learn about what happened to his mother

"She's alive?" He said in a soft voice as a single golden tear rolled down his cheek

"Perhaps," Ozai paused "now i see that banishment is far too small of a punishment for treason" he said as he gathered lightning and shot it at Zuko who quickly redirected it right back at him before escaping.

After finding that Iroh had broken out of prison Zuko fled the firenation in a small war ballon and followed the Avatar's Sky bison to the western air temples. Their first encounter didn't go so well and he managed to burn Toph's feet but after helping them defeat the assassin and managing to form his words more properly and giving a genuine apology to Toph he was on the team.

Some time after joining and managing to break Sokka's dad, Suki and Chit Sang out of prison they were all sitting around the fire. "So.. uhm Zuko" Aang started

Zuko turned to look at him "yeah?"

"I have to ask, pretty bunch nobody in the firenation has golden blonde hair right?" Zuko absentmindedly ran his fingers through his hair at the question

"Yeah, and when you were first chasing us your hair was black, whats up with that?" Sokka added

"Oh, uh, well my hair was always dyed black because my father doesn't like my gold hair..." he paused "when I was born, I was sick, so sick that my parents thought I was going to die. But my mother pleaded with Agni to spare me, she took me to the sun worship alter in the palace gardens at sunset and held me up, pleading. When the last ray of light from Agni, my hair turned golden and I began to cry. So, in a sense the sun gave me my life"

"Like Yue!" Sokka piped up

"Like who?"

"Princess Yue! She was born sick just like you, and the moon spirit saved her. Well, she's the moon spirit now"

"Woah woah wait, is this the girlfriend you said turned into the moon?"

"Yep!"

"Well, just don't go falling for Zuko now, dont want to have your first boyfriend turn into the sun" Suki teased him

"Hey, at least I'd have a full set of spirit lovers"

Zuko's face turned beet red and the group laughed at him. Over the next few weeks of them being in close quarters Zuko found that he was growing feelings for the water tribe boy. Anytime he'd look at him he felt his stomach do a flip. But he didnt have time to think about his feelings.

Even though the sun touched prince tried not to think about Sokka on the mission with Katara, he couldn't help it. When they were returning Katara piped up "I know you like him" she paused to watch his surprised face "its okay you know, its fine if you like him. I dont have like you to let my brother like you. I may be cold to you but im not a monster like your father" she tied off the sentence by staring off "and besides, if Agni chose you, I think you would be safe for Sokka"

When they got back he heard sokka shout "You're back! Thank La youre safe!" Turning to Katara he expected to see Sokka running to hug his sister. Instead he was tackled to the ground with a hug from Sokka "how did it go Katara?" He asked from the ground while quite literally snuggling into Zuko with this hug that was still very much happening.

"I found him, and he was just so pathetic, i couldnt kill him"

Sokka then stood up and helped Zuko to his feet and placed a quick sneaky kiss to his cheek before moving to hug his sister, leaving Zuko frozen in confusion. He remained frozen until Suki came up to him "he's trying to confess silently, he's weird like that, corner him later if you want to hear an actual confession"

He however didn't manage to corner the now seemingly overly flirty blue boy until they were at ember Island. It wasnt until just before bed when Sokka was walking past Zuko's bedroom door. He reached out grabbed Sokka's shirt and yanked him into the room before slamming the door shut and pinning him to it. "What are you doing?"

"Wh-what do you mean? You're the one who dragged me into your room, what are you doing?"

"Dont play dumb with me Sokka, you've been flirting with me since I got back from my trip with your sist-"

"Actually ive been flirting with you since the temples, you just didn't notice until I kissed you"

"You mean until you missed"

"What?"

Zuko smirked "you missed" he mumbled before leaning closer "you went for a kiss but you missed"

They ended up spending the night sharing a room and a bed. When the morning sun peaked through the windows Zuko curled back into sokka who in turn pulled him closer. Both refusing to wake up until Katara knocked on the door and opened it "breakfast is ready, if you two love birds want some warm food you better hury and I better not see any hickeys"

"Ugh! Katara we just cuddled!" Sokka said as he burried his face in Zuko's hair.

Katara simply laughed "alright, but still, hury up."

When the day of the comet came and Zuko had to separate from Sokka he saw the worry in his blue eyes "Ive got this Sokka, Agnj chose me remembe, besides, I've got Katara with me and she's powerful" he placed a quick kiss to Sokka's lips "go take down those ships, and I'll see you by the timd the sun rises tomorrow."

And he was right, even though he was shot with lightning and Sokka broke his leg they both came out of the battle alive and together. When Zuko woke up to find Sokka curled up against him he smiled and let out a soft breath of pink fire. Relief.

"Woah, do that again" Sokka's groggy 'just woke up' voice rumbled against his shoulder

"Sorry I didn't mean to wake you, do you mean this?" He let out another breath of fire, this time a pale purple

"I didn't know you could do other colors of fire"

"Well, I couldn't until I went to the sunwarriors, Agni spoke to me there"

After Zuko's Coronation the firenation began righting their wrongs. It was a long struggle for sure. However two years into his reign with Sokka having practically moved in he found that he would soon have a partner to help him through these struggles.

The day had only just begun but Sokka was dragging Zuko to the turtleduck pond where they often sat together to simply relax. Sokka seemed a little antsy this time though "what's wrong Sokka?"

"Uhm, well, I have something I need to ask you," he paused and reached into his pocket while sinkning down to one knee. Zuko's breath caught in his throat as he saw Sokka pull out a betrothal becklace, the band was made with a fine red silk and the center piece was gold with a carving of a sun with a wave inside of it. "Zuko," he took a shaky breath "you've been by my side for two years now, you've held my hand through war and peace, quite literally, and you've done so while loving me whole heartedly. I can't imagine my life without you in it." Zuko could feel golden tears threatening to fall fram his molten eyes "Zuko, will you marry me?"

"Yes!" He heard himself responding before he could even think "Agni, yes Sokka, of course I'll marry you!"

Sokka moved from his kneeling position to lifting Zuko up into a kiss, holding him right under his rear. Zuko held his face in his hands as he pressed his lips to Sokka's as he was lifted up quite unceremoniously.

Once he was set down Sokka helped him put on the betrothal necklace. He reached up to touch the Golden pendant and smiled up at Sokka with gold tears falling down his cheeks.

Their marraige was held not long after, joining the southern water tribe and the firenation in a strong Union with a mixed culture wedding blues, silvers, reds and golds filled the wedding and reception as well as suns and moons.

Agni smiled down on the wedding that day, her chosen sunshine found his moon.

Yue smiled on them that night as they stood on the balcony holding one another. The boy who protected her finally found his light.

>Woo boy that was a long one! I sure hope you enjoyed it!<

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stray-tori · 3 years ago

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i finished “an innocent sin” and now i’m angery >:T

for dohye and dohye only i decided to continue this dumpster fire of a manwha.

click here for the gay flashback commentary (i.e. the only reason I’m here at all)

The gay flashback manwha concluded. And some chapter previews have dohye (the black haired guy) on them... Do... Do i want to know. Do i want to do that to myself again. Do i want to see if they get any smidge of closure......

this manwha may have nothing else aside from gay flashback going for it, but the abuse trauma when it's not sexualized is something. As in, thinking one is disgusting for it and that others may not want to be with them because they’ve been in that situations (”used” / dirtied etc).

WAIT THAT WASNT EVEN DOHYE ON THE CHAPTER PREVIEW [it was Noah’s brother Amon TvT] betrayal

????

what is goING ON

idc anymore. im here for dohye only.

W H Y [does the sister want to have a baby with her step-brother]

“Then we’ll be a real family” ... FAIR I GUESS????

WHERE IS DOYHE PLS HE'S STILL KIDNAPPED AND IT JUST ISNT COMINg uP andddd theyre doing it EW

okay so. yknow how they had a lost brother show up. and he's helping them now, so basically they're doing the princess and the pauper thing. And now Noah gets to have sex with his gf (ugh), meanwhile Amon, the brother posing as him, is getting assaulted :) I mean it has some fucked up cutting back and forth energy but GOD WHY

its impressive that he isnt losing the wig in this situation, honestly

also noah is still in his disguise and the gf was like "why tho" and he's like "well i have to get used to my disguise" LIKE BRO YOU DONT EVEN SEE IT AND NOW YOUR GF IS BASICALLY LOOKING AT ANOTHER GUY. I mean I know why. it's for the audience, to look as if that guy was having this. I rly wish they'd tone down the presentation of the assaults i do not want to see this presented horny

DOHYEEEE

true he completely fell for Amon. so its not actually "i know what Noah looks like and it's not you", it's actually "i know what Amon looks like, and i know its you" sad life. ship food dead

I I AM ?????????????

I WILL THROW

IM ONLY HERE FOR HIM WHY'S HE DEAD NOW

YOU DONT SAY

WHAT. WHY. I MEAN I KNOW BC HE WAS ABOUT TO BLOW HIS COVER BUT BRUHHHH BRUHHHHH HOW DOES THIS MAKE ANY SENSE ?????????????????

he died as a desparate clingy man to the guy that looked like his first crush. he didnt get to clear anything up with Noah. he got nothing. I am impressed, honestly.

WAIT HE'S NOT DEAD

??? MAYBE IM CONFUSED

FOOOD

THIS BETTER NOT BE HIS DYING WORDS

GODDAMN IT

tragic until the end i guess. side couples are always such great angst food

MANNN maybe the secretary is lying?? to manipulate HMM

ig im finishing this dumpster fire. maybe some ship crumbs will come up pff

OH MAN

THIS IS SHIP FOOD [he’s wearing a wig bc of the swap thing]

Okay so. the secretary told the sister that he died. but we didnt see it. and she also didnt tell her that they're disguising as each other even tho that got revealed through the incident. if she's hiding that, maybe the death is a lie, since we didnt actually see it??? im clinging to crumbs here

ROASTED

but also jesus, amon is on a killing spree

WOAH

not sure if they're playing a recording or he's hallucinating or whats happening bc dohye is clearly dead but. angst good

SHE HUNG HIS BROTHER (Amon) IN FRONT OF HIM.

"if you give your heart to someone, that's how they'll end up" WHAT THE FUCK

trauma WOO

well this would be a great setup for DOHYE IF HE WASNT DEAD

TRUEEE... I FORGOT SHE KINDA DID LOOK LIKE HIS MOM BUT YOU DONT GOTTA COMMIT TO IT OH GOD WHY IS THIS SUCH A DUMPSTER FIRE

THE GOOD THING ABOTU THIS DEVELOPMENT IS THAT THEY'RE NOT FUCKING FOR ONCE which gives them the chance to actually be cute

but im still mad about Dohye >:(((

AMON LIVED???? WHAT

HOW

SIR

HOW DID YOU SURVIVE THAT

HOW DO YOU GET TO BE ALIvE BUT NOT DOHYE

lowkey hoping Dohye was just his weird look-alike from the sister’s clone arsenal or something. Dohye come back :((

WHY

WHY DOES HE ONLY GET A DREAM VISION

idc im not supernatural, this is Noah's mind and the person it thought of waking him up was Dohye >:T

i'm misinterpreting this out of SPITE

and they're fucking

sigh

No. stop. you're not cute. im angery about dohye >:(((

bonus is just pure porn, okay.

Still recommend the gay flashbacks and maybe part of the main story if you love yourself some tragic fucked up ships. I want a 2nd version of this manwha that’s just like,, “an innocent sin but every chapter not about dohye and noah is removed”...

I wish he could have seen him again.

Why did i get so invested in them, that wasn’t smart.

#an innocent sin #idk how to tag this at all #manwha #tori comments #tori has opinions #long post #tori talks

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leincendiaire · 1 year ago

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heyyyyy lets fucking do this

!!! caution !!! the person writing this thinks that the s2 finale was mostly bullshit so you may be prone to disagree if you like it !!! also kind of fucking long sorry !!!

ok so. edizzy huh. s. sigh.

yknow maybe this is bias cause I honestly didnt care much for this ship (or just. izzy in general) back in s1. now that im more interested in izzy as a character I give this ship a big ol NAH

I think, between izzy encouraging ed to embrace the life he hates as blackbeard in the s1 finale and ed repeatedly hurting izzy afterwards, both emotionally by undermining his worth and telling him he is disposable ("do your job or someone else will") and physically by straight up cutting off his toes and yknow, blowing his fucking leg off, it's pretty safe to say that these two are simply not meant to be. they are not good for each other. we are repeatedly shown this with the examples I just listed. we are shown that they heal better with other people, izzy with the crew and ed with stede. I think that point should have been established literally, with a conversation between them that came to the conclusion that yes, theyve been through hell and back together and care deeply for each other, but ultimately, they both represent the worst parts of their former lives to the other, and they cant move on like this. they arent good for each other. we should have seen them acknowledge that and make peace with it. not..... die in each other's arms. I dont like that, it makes it seem like their relationship was a good one, something to be cherished. they shouldnt have concluded izzy's life with a focus on his worst relationship, no, focusing on his relationship with the crew, whom he came to view as family, would have made much more sense to me. of course, they show how ed deals with the loss of izzy as well, their relationship was still important after all, but izzy should have said his final goodbye to his family.

now, could ed and izzy have, in some better alternate universe that was kinder to them, or in a distant future where they are both alive and better mentally, had a genuinely good friendship or even romance? maybe, sure. but that would be a time when they would be entirely different people, and personally, im not interested in all that, if you are, that's great!! also, if you're just interested in a version of events where everything is absolute shit and you just wanna see what sort of clusterfuck toxic mess of a relationship those traumatized weirdos would have, sure, write, read, draw or smth about that. i get it, sometimes the hellish couples are fun. again, im just personally not into that, so that's why this ship gets a nope from me. so, edizzy conclusion: stinky ship for me, but go for it if you want, just..... dont give me a "well here's how they are totally healthy in canon itself actually" I dont care I dont like it thats final for me

(adding this on after the fact since I realize I didnt properly address it sorry) btw them quickly getting over his death really comes to just. izzy's death in general being stupid and lazy writing imo. they really rushed it, tried to squeeze it in so the ending didnt have time to properly make it mean something.

now. NOW. shall we get to stizzy. those two really took off for me this season tbh, like they had the You're Hot And I'm Mad About It potential in s1, but them being canon felt like literal delusion. now though, (ignoring ep8 because fuck that) this season really showed that they can have an actual romance, complete with angst and drama and just. funny insane shenanigans.

like them slowly coming to respect each other? stede learning to adjust to piracy with izzy and izzy learning soft, sweet, Actual love, not the scraps of attention he ran after with edward? the whole edizzy fail really fuels this ship for me, like the whole comparison between the two captains, with izzy being under a captain who truly cares, truly sees him, appreciates him and actually maybe fucking loves him? which is really just what izzy longs after isnt it, even if he doesnt realize it yet. in a lot of ways, that tender love ed wants from stede is something lzzy wants too. and boy would stede give it to him. just!!! so many good moments between those two this whole season!! them bickering not out of hate but out of friendship, izzy looking at stede proudly when he punches a guy or scares a foe or makes his crew happy, stede being downright giddy at izzy's approval, izzy calling stede captain and being jealous (????idk of who but I choose the stizzy route fuck you) at stede and ed fucking, izzy telling stede he is needed!!!! they really came to care about each other and honestly another thing im updet about it the finale not focusing on how stede is dealing with the loss of izzy but idc fuck ep8. there is an alternate version of canon I hold dear to my heart, where stede and izzy are sailing the seas as the most infamous captain/first mate duo (husbands) ever, with their crew (children)

so yep!! idk if you could tell but I love this ship!!

lastly, not much to say about steddyhands tbh? theyre cute and all but I already expressed my feelings about the edizzy thing so maybe not like, steddyhands as in They Are All Dating Each Other, but steddyhands as in Stede Is Dating Both Ed And Izzy But Ed And Izzy Aren't Dating Because I Literally Just Wrote Two Whole Paragraphs About Why Not

huge apology to op for rambling on this post so much? I just thought this was a good opportunity to talk about my opinions on the whole thing lol

(oh and just to clear it up, I love blackbonnet and ed as well. some of my wording in my last few posts makes it seem like I dont like ed at all, I do!! I just think his arc could have been better but I hold blackbonnet gently as well, this post just isnt about them)

I have a legitimate question for everyone that's still hanging on. If you're still interested in shipping them, how do you view edizzy as a pair post s2? This extends to stizzy and steddyhands too.

I only really started paying attention to this fandom/the pairs in s2 so I'm really late and before I could really get into things the show did... that...I'm really curious about how people view these pairs now. Cause to me, their reaction to things post-that happening kinda made it seem like they barely even cared about Izzy. (Don't get me wrong Ed crying over Izzy's body was emotional so I mean everything after that moment.)

#ofmd #ofmd s2 #ofmd spoilers

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