#but idk. i just wanted to share some trans happiness because there’s a lot of really shitty stuff these days

[transmascxielian]

the thing about ‘everything you want is on the other side of fear’ is that you never quite believe it until you’ve experienced it. but it’s so true. i spent most of my summer agonising about coming out to school and to my parents and family, and wanting to crawl back into the hole and my old name and not change anything. but then the other day my dad told me he was proud of me for a university thing and that i’d be a fine ‘young man’. and my teachers and people at school call me ant now. and about a week after my mum told my aunt and grandma on her side, they sent me one of those custom drinking glasses with ‘ant’ and the letter A inscribed on it. sometimes the other side of fear is beautiful.

[drdemonprince]

hiiii trans man here to talk about things i have in common with cis men lol. i dont really relate to cis men super often but what i do find myself sharing with them (or some of them i guess) is micro penises. i call my dick a micro penis bc it technically is and it brings me a lot of joy and tbh it makes me sad to see a lot of cis men really upset about their micro dicks (or even dicks that are smaller than average). idk i just wish it was normal to talk about it more often bc dick size really doesn't matter all that much and the emphasis that's put on it in society is really shitty! like idk i wish there was a way to communicate to men with small dicks that there's nothing to be ashamed of, you can still give and have pleasure, and penetration does not always have to be the end goal of sex. i feel like it's one thing trans men and cis men could really bond over and come to terms with together as a community. like i remember reading a reddit post of a guy who really wanted to have sex with his roommate but he had a micropenis and she mentioned she only really like big dicks so they agreed to just be friends despite being attracted to each other and its like... man there's strap ons and oral and a million other things to do! you can both be satisfied and happy you're just living in a world that prioritizes big penises over everything else.

sorry i know this is super rambley and might not make much sense but tl;dr: trans and cis men can and should bond over insecurity over dick size (esp those of us with legit micro penises) and realize that a big dick is not the end all be all of sexual pleasure and it would be great for all of us as a community and society

Yes! In my posting about this so far I've mostly been addressing trans guys because that's the larger audience here, but this is a great example of how much cis guys could stand to learn and be gender liberated by the presence of trans men in their lives. Who cares about the size of your dick!!

[makingqueerhistory]

Hey! I have a question for recommendations. My boyfriend told me yesterday that he had a moment where he imagined himself as a woman and it felt really right. I've been suspecting he might be trans for a while, but he just started to question it now because he was never around queer people until recently (me myself am queer too). He also told me he started having this thoughts of "what if I'm trans" and was really scary. He also said that maybe he wants to start using they/them pronouns even tho he/him feels nice atm.

I want to ask if you can recommend some gender-affirming stories, trans stories, for two people who have lived as cisgender their whole life and want to learn more about trans history. Also educational books or political. Idk I figured if i explained the context maybe there's something that comes to your brain that would be good specially for him to help in this journey.

Thanks a lot! Have a good day.

Thank you for the request, this is an exciting journey, so I am happy to share some reads that might help along the way! I am going to go for books to start out, because that seems like the best fit for the situation:

Gender Queer: A Memoir, Maia Kobabe

People Change, Vivek Shraya

How to Be You: Stop Trying to Be Someone Else and Start Living Your Life, Jeffrey Marsh

[boy-above]

gender and sexuality babbling because I've been figuring myself out again lately <3

so, over all i would say I identify with both gay and trans as umbrella terms. if i were talking to a loser who doesn't like micro labels that's probably how i would describe myself. but hopefully none of you are losers <3 firstly, i used to identify as a trans man for several years and i wouldn't say it's entirely inaccurate still, but i've realized lately that it's not entirely accurate either. i'm not entirely nonbinary. it's funny because i've already identified as nonbinary in the past, i went through several different labels; genderqueer, agender, bigender, etc. then i decided i was a binary trans man. now i'm back to nonbinary lmao. and although by definition i am nonbinary, for some reason the term doesn't vibe with me and i'm not sure why. i have no problem with the term in general and i've used it to describe myself in the past, it just feels strange to refer myself with it at the present. anyway, if i had to describe myself i say something like "boy but to the left", a boy but not quite. in technical terms i think demiboy describes me best. i don't think it's accurate to call myself a man anymore, and to be honest i've never quite liked the word to begin with, i much prefer to be called a boy than a man, but transphobes used to shame trans men who called themselves boys all the time, so i felt forced to call myself a man. i don't care what they think anymore lmao, i am a boy.

presentation wise, (and this is personal but i love over sharing on the internet <3) i am dysphoric, i want a flat chest and a dick. however i'm nonconventional because ive realized that going on testosterone would have probably negatively affected me, the only thing i'd really get out of it that i'd actually like is a deeper voice. the other stuff would kinda suck. for me, i wish people would look at me and know i'm a man, but i don't quite desire masculine features. something i realized recently that i've already made a post about is that it was very confusing to me for a long time because i wasn't sure what i wanted my gender presentation to be like. i had no idea what i wanted to look like, no transition goals, there was no "ideal me" i could strive for. i realized its because i just really don't want a physical form, i don't want to be perceived by people. being born into a meat body feels like a cruel joke by god (i mean being born in general feels like a cruel prank but we won't get into that right now lol.) i've realized that what i want to look like isn't physically achievable; if i had to choose what to look like, and this sounds cringe i know, but i'd want to be an anime boy, or a cute animal, or even a cloud of dust. anything but human. and realizing that looking the way i want to is genuinely impossible has actually helped me a lot because now i know there's nothing i'm doing wrong or could be doing differently, i would have dysphoria no matter what, even if i weren't trans i would still have dysphoria probably. it's made me glad i never went on T for example, honestly ive realized the reason i wanted to do it years ago was because it was just what you were "supposed" to do as a trans person, and i thought surely it would make me happy because everyone tells you it will. T would have made things worse honestly. top and bottom surgery is what would help me, absolutely, but i fear i'll never be able to have that.

now onto sexuality. i'm a gay man, "man" being up in the air honestly, but that's how i view myself. i'm also on the aro and ace spectrum though, so aroace is an umbrella term i identity with. more specifically, i'm cupioromantic and aegosexual. cupioromanticism is when you don't experience romantic attraction but wish you did (or at least desire a romantic relationship regardless, as for me personally i wish i knew what romantic attraction felt like, maybe there might be others who don't idk). i've never had a crush on anyone before, anyone real at least. i wish i had a boyfriend, i wish i had a cute boy who doted on me and treated me like porcelain, but i've never actually had feelings for someone real before. more recently ive developed crushes on fictional characters, but never someone real. i couldn't tell you why i prefer men over women when ive never experienced attraction before, it's just how things are for me. would i be considered an oriented aroace for that?

anyway, my sexuality. tmi again <3 i am shameless and care not if yall know about me yall are my pookies.

what aegosexuality looks like for me is that i only have sexual interest in fiction. i describe it as being gay in theory but not in practice. i like reading smut and watching porn but don't really masturbate, it doesn't do much for me, it's kinda just like regular entertainment for me? and when i envision sexual scenarios the hard rule is that i myself am never involved in them, its only fictional characters doing stuff with each other, i'm never a factor. the idea of imagining myself in sexual scenarios is very unpleasant to me, i don't want sexual contact with people. the idea of someone touching me like that gives me the heebie jeebies, and the idea of anything going in my coochie sounds genuinely traumatic LMAO (that might be because of dysphoria idk.) i've never felt sexual attraction to a real person before and don't imagine i ever will, real human people are just not attractive in the slightest to me, maybe that's why i don't want to look human myself idk lol. more recently i've felt attraction to fictional characters, only anime boys really. venti the sexual awakening that you are. that's not a joke by the way, venti was literally a sexual awakening for me, i would say he's the first thing i've ever felt sexual desire for lmaooooo. that's his power truly. i've said before "i'm asexual except when venti" and i wasn't lying.

also! i don't identify as lgbt. by definition am i? yes. but you will not catch myself calling myself lgbt. if you use the label yourself that's totally fine of course, most people do. but i lived through peak exclusionist discourse where people were using the label to exclude and discriminate against anyone who didn't fit into the four letter acronym, and that includes nonbinary people as well because they "didn't count as trans", it was truly the trenches. that era was honestly traumatic for me and pieces of shit like that bullied a lot of people back into the closet. i identify as queer, the queer community was supportive during that time. if someone described themself as queer, 9.5/10 times they were safe, they weren't a bigot. obviously there is nuance but please don't take what im saying in bad faith here, the point is that i'm queer and i think the lgbt+ label has been used to exclude so many people, so it's completely soured it for me and i dont want to touch it. queer is simple, queer is inclusive, queer doesn't require you to label yourself beyond the word if you don't want to. for me its the perfect, safest, homiest umbrella term. i love being queer.

anyway that's my rambling <3333 if anyone wants to drop their own gender or sexual bullfuckery in the replies or on anon or whatever feel free to hmu, i love talking with people and oversharing i love you guysssss

[tomiokagiyuufirststan]

Second introduction cause why not?

~~~so hiii my nickname is Lila or Carla so you can call me like that:)

I am an obey me roleplay account my oc is not canon but she is very fun :(

Nsfw asks will not be taken (but you can get freaky just renember that i am a minor a tennager to be exact i will not share my age but dont be weird if you are an adult or i will report you and block you!) and ofc if you send weird shit like nsfw about Luke or any young ocs you will be blocked and reported!

Any transphobic,Homophobic racist etc asks will be ignored and blocked!

People younger than 12 do not message me i am litteraly older than you!

If you want to vent talk about your mental health you can always message me in private.

Renember that i am a human being too so rude asks ,grape asks will be ignored.

Renember to be nice to everyone! Exept if it's an important part of your anon and that the other person is fine with it

I dont always do Rp in my account so i am ooc most of the time.

My dni list:

Proshippers (i am just very uncomfortable around them but if you want to interact with me as a proshipper just dont mention proships when you talk to me thanks)

Pedophiles or Map suporters(obviously)

Zoophiles (do i even have to explain myself?)

Transphobic/Homophobic peoples (again do i even have to explain why?)

People who are older than 20(unless you are my moot)

People younger than 13(unless you are my moot)

Antis who ship minors with a real criminal (it make me more uncomfortable than proships)

Rude people in general(i dont need to explain why)

Mysogynist people (do i even have to explain why?)

People against vents (my account is filled with messed up vents )

Sensitive people (again my account is filled with vents with too much messed up thing so just block the taggs #vent# #my mental health# #some toughts# if you dont want to see them)

My interact list:

Obey me fans

Bls/gls fans (specially i am in love with me villainess and ran away with me girl)

Cinderella boy fans

Rp accounts

Palestine supporters

Homicipher fans

What in hell is bad? Fans

Basically just otome games/dating sims fans (specially tears of themis and candy love)

Nice and respectiful people in general

Arcane fans

Anons:

🐸,🦦,☕,💜,🦴,🦲,🐊,🐌 🌻

Romantic asks are fine. In fact please flirt with me i giggle and kick my feet every time

I may not answer the asks not because i find you annoying but cause i have exams and i need to study !

I almost cant get uncomfortable so get freaky or cringe i dont mind!

If i send requests to a blog i will use" 💣" as an anon so please dont pretend to be me and annoy other blog owners!

Btw my Oc (Lila) is a bit of a meanie meanwhile my second oc (Carla) is sarcastic so before asking requests please tell me if you want to talk with me or one of my ocs! Thank you very much.

Presentation of Lila

Oh soo hiii I guess ? My name is Lila i am 18 one the exchange students i hope we can all get along an be friends! Exept Lucitrash ofc every Lucitrash enemies are my friends! Anyways i also have a soft spot for my bird oh and @poly-mc is my Umi so talk shit about sea and i will personally sacrifice you with my dear followers.

Her sexuality is Omni with a preference for women (she is also VERY open to poly relationships cause she was never loved as a child and all so she want A LOT OF LOVE) and she is a trans woman so NEVER use he/him on her please🏳️‍⚧️

Presentation of Carla

Ohh so hi i am Lila's sister i am half demon and half human i am very old so i dont know my age💔 but i am mentally 13 happy to meet you i hope we can be friends and go to picninc together :) exept if you hate on my sister :( my nickname is Chino.... even if my sister is the only one who call me like that....i want friends! So please be my friend! (my sister call me a depressed emo kid...idk why:) before i forget @poly-mc is also my Umi.......so that's all?.... i think....damn i want to die....... or no

She is Bi and please dont do Nsfw with her she may be VERY WAY older than 1000000 but she still has the mentality of a 13 years old girl!

Ooc : i manly use my oc Lila when i talk i only use Carla when an anon or someone want to talk with her and i will say it once again if you are an adult do not send weird shit i am a tennager who wants to have fun.

[transgenderpolls]

I also want to say this as a transmasculine nonbinary person that I’ve seen a LOT of trans men be uncomfortable with the term being universalised to include them. Transmasculine started out as a nonbinary label (I think, I could be mixed up) that described enben who were transitioning to a more masculine point instead of a neutral one. Obviously trans men can use transmasculine if they feel like it fits, but still I think it’s best to not just lump us together with the label because there are so many trans men who aren’t comfortable with it (I’ve actually seen a lot of people saying that it straight up makes them dysphoric because they take it as being seen as less of a man)

Same goes for non-transmasculine afab nonbinary people— there’s actually a lot of people calling to just get rid of the terms because they see it as just an indicator of agab. I’ve actually encountered more transneutral afab enben who hate being called transmasculine than I have trans men who hate it. It makes sense, the entire point for transneutral enben is transitioning to some sort of complete middle, or outside of gender alltogether, and aligning them with a specific gender is not only just incorrect but also very uncomfortable and dysphoria inducing for a lot of them. A lot of people also really don’t like the idea of t being ‘transmasculine transition’, which I totally get because I feel the same way when someone says that t is inherently ‘male transition’

(btw this is all stuff I’ve heard from these groups, I’m not just saying what I think goes through their heads or anything)

On a personal note, I also don’t like the universalisation of it because it feels like aligned enben can’t really have a term to describe ourselves— like, being a transmasc or transfem nonbinary person is a very complicated experience, most of us really struggle with this sort of balancing act of androgyny and maleness/femaleness, we’re like an in-beteeen of an in-between and it’s really fucking hard to deal with. It would just be nice if we could have our own label and space to discuss it and help each other with it. But I also get that now a lot of trans men resonate with the term and it would very much be a dick move to just say ‘nope, you can’t use this anymore, fuck you lol’, like, no

idk, I think about this a lot and the topic comes up quite frequently so I have a lot to say on it, but I can’t exactly articulate it, so I hope this made sense sorry

if anyone has sources to show otherwise i'd be happy to see them but i've always been under the impression that "transmasc(uline)" and "transfem(inine)" were umbrella terms first and foremost, with origins in the world of medical transitioning, particularly HRT, that sought specifically to include non-binary people and therefore not imply that everyone going through [medical] masculinization or feminization necessarily identifies as a man or a woman. whether the end goal is conceptualized by the individual as a masc/fem role, it's just a matter of having useful, succinct language to describe shared experience. i really don't see it as denoting agab any more than the term "trans man/woman" does. like if you really are not comfortable denoting your agab at all, it sounds like you're not comfortable talking about being trans period.

as for the binary trans men who hate it i'm gonna be real, i cannot comprehend being mad about someone using an umbrella term simply to address you and others who have significant things in common with you in one breath. i'm a binary trans man and i won't lie, i have had my phase of whining about being "lumped in with non binary people," but like... that's what it was. it was a phase that i'm over because i've grown up and now realize that it doesn't actually dilute my identity to simply have things in common with other people. it would be like a square being mad about being called a rectangle because "you're erasing the fact that i am SPECIFICALLY a square!" literally no, no one is erasing anything. especially not in the context of a poll that's just trying to not draw really arbitrary lines, and which you also literally don't have to answer.

i think it's completely valid to be made dysphoric or uncomfortable by any terminology, but there's a point at which you kind of have to accept that that is a you thing? if a term's literal function is to be inclusive and you feel excluded somehow bc you don't like that you're not being acknowledged as fundamentally different than the others who that term applies to... like i'm sorry, that's kind of ridiculous. you have to accept that it's ridiculous and not anyone else's problem.

also i truly think that if it's coming to contentions such as "just because i'm a man doesn't mean i'm masculine" or ppl otherwise trying to draw hard lines between masc and man/male as definitions... i truly think you are just trying to make this more complicated than it is. like we do need words to describe things, lol.

in any case my thing - at least on this blog - is always gonna be in the context of making polls. firstly i'm working with a character and option limit. secondly, the questions being asked make it sometimes relevant to use some terms that lump groups together, denote agab, etc. the more i think about it, i don't think there's going to be a solution that satisfies everyone, and i also don't think that there's a huge problem with that.

(btw none of this is directed at anon, you articulated yourself fine, i'm just jumping off of your talking points)

edit: irt anon not liking the universalization of "transmasc" - it just occurred to me, would "transmasc nonbinary" not simply work? like it seems to me that you just need to add the word nonbinary and now you're gucci

[i-love-tamaki-suoh]

Are there any characters you think Ouran did very little justice to? Main characters or any side characters?

ooh i love this question!! i love love love the characters in ouran but there are definitely some that i think deserve better!!

the first who comes to mind is kyoya! overall i’m satisfied with his character but i wish we could’ve gotten a more concrete conclusion to his story!! in the last volume of the manga there is a page where bisco hatori explains that many readers wanted to see a resolution to kyoya’s family/company situation (like whether kyoya could become the heir or not), but she chose not to write about it because it wouldn’t be resolved for a very long time. i totally understand why she chose to do that, and i don’t think it HAD to happen for the story, but i wanted to see kyoya find some sort of happiness or achievement, you know? in the end he is still just vice president of the host club, but i want to see him be something on his own too!!

another character i thought of is ranka! for one, there is a lot of confusion and issues surrounding ranka’s queerness!! it is almost entirely used for comedy purposes and not explored at all. it’s certainly not a requirement for all queer characters to have deep explanations of their identities, but the vagueness of ranka’s character can be confusing. haruhi refers to them as her dad, but then they seem to react poorly to any other masculine labels. also i hate how a lot of translations use the t slur!!! i myself am not trans so i can’t speak for trans folk on these issues but these are my thoughts from an outside perspective.

i also wish we had a little more of ranka in the story!! in the manga there is a chapter about how they met haruhi’s mother, and she does show up in the story quite a bit, but idk i just want more!! ranka is a really fun character to me, so its sad that they are out of the picture a lot of the time.

as always please feel free to share your thoughts!! thank you for the question!!!

[smiley-mcdoggington]

1) I too am bottom Stan propaganda

2) I’m once again frolicking with you about A/B/O stuff because your brain is SO FUCKING SMART FOR THIS like I like how you broke down the details of A/B/O in your verse because it’s really cool. Talk to me more about imaginary biology!!

3) The last snippet (now that I have my brains about me) is such a cool analysis on the characters. Like Stan is ok (well not ok but like this is fine meme) being groped and stuff as long as he can keep up his passion which is something a lot of Omegas aren’t allowed to have. Ford worry pacing and his fretting over his brother that could be omega could be alpha but really it’s just ford paranoia and insistence and all. (Also lowkey I squint and think of the possibility of Trans alpha ford?? Like idk I feel like he’d have some kind of time with it?)

4) I have got to know what your plans for them long term are. Will they settle in gravity falls? Will they sail away? Will there be a thing where Bill plays his hand and somehow gets involved? Would there be a push away separation thing and if so what’s that gonna be like??? Idk I’m just digesting your ideas. You’re veryyyyy creative

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH ANON WE'RE FROLICKING

1) BOTTOM STAN ARMY

2) I shit you not I was pulling out my old bio homework until I reread the ask it said anatomy and not biology - I was gonna make a whole case on increased cortisol in alphas and oxytocin in omegas especially during estrous cycles explaining why and how rutts and heats affect them but honestly that would have been an even drier textbook I should probably just put the vibes in more drabbles--

3) EEEEEEEEEE I'M SO HAPPY, STAN JUST WANTS TO KEEP DOING THE ONE THING HES PROUD OF and he does stay chill about it for Ford's sake but it did shake him and affect how he conducted himself. And Ford worries because Stanley doesn't wear scent blockers, he doesn't wear modest clothing, and in general isn't acting the way Ford started acting when he presented and Ford is. So confused by that. It's like Stan accepts who he is and isn't changing himself in ways that would take away his freedom of expression but also keep him safe from real risks. (and I did think about transing a secondary gender but the problem is that most of Ford's issues with being an omega is rooted in sexism, and he's so focused on changing the cards hes dealt he doesn't think to work toward changing how the game is played, you know? Ford looks down on all other omegas to an extent, even Stan, Ford doesn't pretend to be an alpha because he wants to be an alpha he pretends to be an alpha so he isn't treated like an omega. The way teenage girls pretend they hate pink and girly things because they want to detach themselves from feminine expression because of how it's tied to submission and being lesser. He doesn't really want to be an alpha either, he's sexist against them too, he just wants to be treated even marginally better than a poor little omega that "can't" find a mate. He looks down on everyone that sees gender as important because he doesn't like the catches that come with his, and even if he treats Stan with a lot more grace about it he still very much does look down on Stan as well in that and other aspects anyways bla bla bla me trying to hint at as much sexism alligory as I can in the incest porn I write--)

4) As far as plans go I don't have a solid one yet this was mostly just my take on a/b/o stuff so far lmao. Not that I'm not gonna give this a paragraph--

SO Ford took his pet twin brother to school with him, Fiddleford is cool with it since they share a bed and Stan is gone most of the day doing odd jobs it's not much of a hassle, plus Stan and him are pretty friendly, they smoke on the roof together, it's nice. Then Ford decides he wants to hunt weirdness and gravity falls is a good place to kick off his career in cryptozoology so he can get enough money to buy an actual decent boat. Stan makes him a bit more sociable even if they're lying and saying Ford's an alpha. If Bill comes be exasterbates Ford's sexism to a point he's practically abusive to Stan but Stan can't leave because Ford loves him :( if they seperate Ford's gotta be the one to seperate them because Stan'll keep holding on until he loses his hands. If Stan ever finds out about Bill the whole jig is up though because Stan knows a con when he hears one. It has to come with Ford pushing people away because he Has to be on a pedistal because he can't be in a diner making a waitress laugh, yk?

[spasticspaceshp]

Idk who's going to bother to read this rant but maybe someone will and relate to some parts of it so here goes.

The asexual and aromantic experience is wild when you have nothing but love to give.

For context, I generally don't use any specific labels because it's just a lot of work to explain, but using the more generic ones, I know a few things about myself.

I'm non-binary, polyamorous, and land *somewhere* on the ace and aro spectrums. I only use pangender as a term cuz I'm biased to the flag. It looks pretty, and it's close enough. I've debated if I'm trans, but I'm not uncomfortable in my body so I haven't bothered to pursue anything, and I'm only ace/aro because there is just a complete lack of drive/attraction/instinct whatever it can be called, in my body and psyche. I am a soul in a vessel here to experience things, but attraction is not one of them, apparently.

I'm a sex positive ace though. And I know all the technical terms I fall into but it's just complicated. I don't really use any kind of term for sexual preference, but I know I like men, and can develop sexual attraction under the right circumstances, and I like women aesthetically, but I can't say I'm NOT sexually attracted because I've never been with one. And the weird fear about trying is exactly the same fear I had about men. So ya know.

But I want to love. To be loved and especially to give love in return. I don't make a lot of friends cuz I don't get attached, with the exception of getting adopted, and my best friend who I chose all the way back in 2nd grade. I'm in my early 20s now and her and I live together, so you can see that it means something.

I've also recently started dating this guy who is exactly in the perfect sweet spot of everything I am attracted to, and not just visually. (Who actually cares about appearances anyway?) He's very sweet and kind to me, has a perfect balance of similarities and differences to myself, highly values communication and listens to what I have to say, understands my needs and how I function, and overall matches my energy. (He's very mellow but I'm working to bring out the crazy side I know is in there, lol.) To be honest it's damn near one of those too good to be true things. He's also poly, not entirely cis, and completely embraces my gender identity, or lack thereof. He's devoted and healthily obsessive and possessive and it's mutual. We also completely agree on our stances about kids and marriage, which is that we want neither. (At least not getting married on paper, he absolutely wants to wife me and I'm not mad about it.)

What makes me feel almost guilty, or honestly more like I'm defective, is that he's had all these realizations and transcendent moments that you would expect out of finding the person you're meant to be with. But I haven't. Don't get me wrong, I completely share the sentiments, I want him just as much as he wants me, and the devotion is mutual, I just haven't felt it. I know I love him, I know that I'm happy, I know that what we have is extremely promising and healthy. I just feel like I'm missing what everyone else gets to experience. I've talked about it with him too and he's so very understanding. Maybe I'm just terrified of myself. That I'll ruin it without even knowing, simply because I'm not designed to have this. I also know that thinking that is bad for manifesting.

Like just listen. (I'm also into witchcraft and astrology,) And my literal human design works against some of the things I want. I want to sleep next to him, all the time, but I have genuine trouble sleeping next to another person even just in the same bed as me, let alone within elbow distance. Sometimes it's hard if they're even in the same room. And that fact was literally stated in one of my readings. There's something in my autistic little brain that can't seem to let my breathing match theirs, and it's a natural thing for humans to do, but it somehow drives me crazy. I want to kiss and hold and have sex and all those things, but I'm difficult. Finding satisfaction in intimacy is a literal challenge, even with help from toys or other stimulus. He's been so patient and understanding with that too and it's done wonders for the shame trauma I grew up with, but it's also just frustrating, because I feel constantly inadequate or like I'll accidentally give off the impression that he's not enough. And that's not true. (Even if there's some things he could stand to learn.) It's all just that typical asexual "I feel broken" kind of angst. But it's still a very real experience that haunts me. I'd love to believe that going on T would fix me, but I know it's not true.

Honestly I kinda lost where I meant to go with this. It's very TMI, but he says I feel like home to him, and while I don't think I feel the same thing, wording wise, we both agree that even though it's been almost 3 months, it feels like we've known each other for forever. Please excuse me for being a sap but genuinely I'm like, yah I found it. Cliché romance novel shit and everything. It's been very soft and comfortable so far. I still have to egg him into actually biting me like he means it, but at least I know I'm safe with him. He lets me show a bit of dominance too, so there's not any kind of power imbalance, and I'm so very excited for whatever future we get to have.

Idk. I think I had a lot of other sappy poetic shit to say that I forgot about, but I guess the overall message is that when you know what you want, it doesn't matter if you're ace, aro, anything in between, or nothing at all, you can find the love you're looking for. Have some faith in yourself. You're not broken, you're not missing anything. Whatever kinds of relationships you have, platonic or romantic or anything else, the right people do exist. You just have to first be sure of yourself, and sure of what you're looking for.

Yada yada yada, I'm gonna go take a nap.

[4thenookie]

Hi hi i heard you wanted some headcanons!! As always this is /lh, not meant to be taken that seriously, agree to disagree, yada yada all that good jazz lmao. Most of them are pretty crack-y in nature as well, they're just meant for fun lol. And with that, I'll compile my miles long headcanon list into (mostly) sorted by character for everyone's convenience lmao

- starting off strong with trans EJ! Idk why but do headcanons really need a reason? (I do know why) (i like to make my blorbos suffer 💖) (and also [diverges your neuros] [transes your genders] [homos your sexuals]). Also biromantic asexual king

- more EJ because he's THE blorbo. Boy is british asf and he knows BSL and is learning ASL. Touch averse as well. I feel like EJ would actually be a decent if not great cook.

- EJ purring like a cat when he's content/happy? I think yes! Also has a tail with one of those tail tuft thingies? Kinda like lions if you know what i mean. And the pointy ears (peak character design yaknow)

- moving on. I feel like Jeff knows how to play an instrument. Probably electric guitar. He also has like a bajillion band t-shirts. Jeff also likes to take long, hot showers but hates to comb his hair lol

- while Brian cooks food so bad/raw it could as well just still be alive, Toby is either a great cook or a disaster in the kitchen with seemingly no indicator for which one it's going to be on any given day. I'm talking managing to burn a pot of water one day and cooking a michelen star worthy meal the next.

- Kagekao is actually fluent in English and speaks and understands it perfectly, he just refuses to speak it. He takes great amusement in watching other people lose their minds over this

- speaking of languages, i feel like Toby would be bilingual if not multilingual. He speaks English and German, maybe even Spanish if we're going the multilingual route

- also. Oh my god. The generational difference between BEN "memelord who quotes vines like there's no tomorrow" Drowned and Slenderman is just. I cant stop laughing thinking about it. Any given conversation between these two is just a gamble on who is going to lose it first

- BRVR is kinds Lost Silver's pet but also not really? Like he just kinda goes wherever but Lost Silver mainly takes care of him

- LJ he/it truther

- Me and a friend came up with this which probably explains why it is cracky as fuck but hear me out. Jeff as a makeup artist. He made Slender look like Beyonce once. No one knows how he did it and how he's not dead (the answer, as my friend said, is "no one can hate Beyonce")

- i feel like Toby, BEN, and Jeff would be like. The chaos trio. God knows what will happen when you put the three of then alone in a room together

- i also feel like Brian sunburns really easily.

- Tim is one of those dads that wants to leave in the middle of the night for road trips / holidays to avoid the traffic jams

Hope this makes even a bit of sense and i hope you enjoyed whatever my brain spewed at me lol if u ever wanna share more headcanons or talk about blorbos or share character slander (looking at Brian and LJ (affectionate)) feel free to dm me!! (I dont mind i promise lol /lh)

hi!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg these are so so so real thank you for sharing them with me!!!! ill go into some more detail under the cut :)

to be honest, i can kinda see trans ej being real now that you mention it, ill definitely think about that a lot!! and i also hc him as asexual!!!! :)

im british and i claim ej as one of us lmaooo

i absolutely agree w the purring thing!!! i think ej does a lot of cat things idk :)))) i love all of your ej headcanons!!!

tbh i can see jeff either playing electric guitar like you said or maybe drums?? just any instrument he can go ham on when hes mad lmao

in my hc he has the worst case of chronic greasy hair and he doesnt want to do anything about it

cooking hcs are so real brian can NOT cook!!!!!!! toby will either serve you some 5 star gourmet shit or some rotten takeout he found during a dumpster dive

omg omg omg I hardly see anybody talk about kagekao!!!!!! i totally agree he would do that lmaooo

idk if its canon or not but i read somewhere that tobys German so i totally agree that hed be bilingual!!!

oh my god BEN whos native language is memes meets grandpa slendy that would be so funny

in 4 words youve converted me into a fellow he/it LJ truther!!!! could we consider he/it ej too? maybe??

ik you said it was a cracky hc but i can actually kinda see jeff being good at makeup??? like one of those things where he tries it once and it's the most drop dead gorgeous makeup look you've EVER seen and everyones like how did you do that

toby BEN and jeff are an absolute riot when rheyre together lmao

omg i never thought about it but brian sunburning super easy is so real!! and in summer he always wears sunglasses so he has like an unburnt patch on his face where his sunglasses were yk??

OMG YES LMAOOOOO "guys get up our flights in 10 hours WE'RE GONNA BE LATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" he would 100% have a checklist or 3

thank you so much for sharing these with me!! i hope you dont mind me adding my own thoughts lol but theyre so much fun to think about!!!! if you ever wanna slander lj and brian with someone feel free to dm me lmao!!!!!! take care <33333

[ghostedeabha]

i haven't posted anything in a bit and i'm so sorry, i don't want to reveal too much detail at the moment but i've just been having a wacky time mentally to put things simply.

in return, have some (extremely) random personal COD headcannons :))

warnings: mentions of mental health disorders (including eating disorders), mentions of religious trauma, mentions of child abuse/childhood trauma, idk just some sad stuff but also way more happy stuff than sad stuff i swear

a/n: reminder that i've never played the game, a lot of the information i have on the characters is from fan created content and a little bit of research and some things could be slightly inaccurate canon wise. also these are once again personal headcanons, you don't have to agree with them, just pls don't be mean :)

anyway, i apologize that there's not that many :(( this is just a short lil list so there's def gonna be some characters missing and such. but i will have more headcanon posts out another time <3

cod headcanons (very random edition)

könig is a farm boy <3

impovershed farmer's child to soldier pipeline is real

also idk why but i feel like his real name is like eduard german spelling of edward or something

2 sisters (1 older, 1 younger but born the same year as him) and a little brother

soap is an ipad kid (i will be taking no criticisms)

ghost probably has borderline personality disorder but because it doesn't present in the way it stereotypically does for borderline men so he is undiagnosed

was audhd undiagnosed until he was 25

bro was baffled

the development of his bpd was both through the abuse and neglect he faced growing up and the trauma that one can experience from being autistic growing up but left undiagnosed

soap has severe adhd

PRICE LISTENS TO DISCO AND CLASSIC ROCK 🗣️ guilty pleasure is 50's love songs and smooth jazz

gaz tried to establish team game nights

regretted his decision after one game night

both ghost and könig are gymbros but in the disordered way

orthorexic könig

an-bp ghost

every one of those mfs has ptsd and/or cptsd

valeria is a radfem (trans inclusive)

gaz secretly likes a few kpop songs from various different groups (he really likes g-idle for some reason)

catholic trauma soap📢

was probably forced to undergo an "exorcism" at one point

also had a scene phase

emo könig :(( <3

ghost wouldn't necessarily label himself goth but he does enjoy quiet a lot of goth music and some of the fashion intrigues him

gaz used to be a roadman😭 absolutely hates admitting it though bc he's embarrassed about it

idk i feel like horangi would listen to ayesha erotica unironically

ghost listens to lana

i could also see könig having bpd as well (this is mostly feeding off of the obsessive/possessive/jealous headcanon the fandom seems to share, though i do have some other reasons i could go into another time)

can i get an amen for he/they könig??

soap jokingly said he wanted to use she/her pronouns too and now ghost wont stop actually using them seriously and soap doesn't want to correct him

ghost is fully aware it was a joke and he just wants to see how long it'll take soap to correct him

141 all have matching tattoos (including kate)

ghost also listens to hollywood undead

valeria's guilty pleasure music is taylor swift's earlier albums

ghost smoked weed in high school

dream blunt rotation is the 141, könig, horangi and valeria

könig's social anxiety really manifests itself as arrogance and sometimes he hates that

könig and soap are actual pyromaniacs

one of könig's favourite movies is howl's moving castle

that's all i can think of for now,, hope y'all enjoyed🫶

if you did pls gimme a like and send an ask if you want to request anything <3

[quicktimeeventfull]

i think a lot of people have this idea that being visibly trans is an active choice i’m making and that it’s how i want to be seen. and people are often really positive and excited about it — like i go to coffee shops or queer events and it’s really obvious that people are happy to see me. but it’s not actually what i want. i just can’t pass. that’s not an option for me. i’m no longer actively suicidal about the matter but it still isn’t something that brings me joy. it’s exhausting. it’s dysphoria inducing. i feel closer to a lot of people i’ve met online than people i’ve met afk because they didn’t see my body first. i’m happy for people who get gender euphoria but i’m not one of them — i have never experienced even the slightest amount of joy from looking ‘right.’ i have only ever experienced relief from forgetting how profoundly misaligned and disturbing my own body feels to me & every time i meet someone new i am reminded that everyone else can see this information about me that i do not want to share. i do want to look queer but i don’t want to look trans because that is not an identity to which i feel connected. it has never been anything but an intensely painful experience to me. i am not in the slightest bit ashamed of being trans but i would prefer not to be, not because of internalized transphobia but because the actual physical experience upsets me.

i think this is often hard for cis gay people in particular to understand because they see being gay and being trans as parallel experiences and in many ways they are, but they are also fundamentally different in that being gay in and of itself is not painful. being gay is inherently about finding people you love and care for and want to sleep with -- it is a source of connection and joy. i love being gay. being trans is not like this. it is at heart a misalignment with one's body and with the way one is seen. there is something wrong, not in the sense that trans people are broken or flawed but in the sense that there is a problem which can be alleviated through some mix of social and medical transition.

and like i know people find this very upsetting because everyone loves this narrative of trans people who are queer and proud and comfortable in their bodies. and people love trans people who look trans. i do too! it also brings me joy when i see trans people who are celebrating their bodies and who want to look trans. some of these people are happy with their bodies after some amount of transition, and some of them are happy without any transition at all -- either way it's wonderful and those people deserve to be uplifted. i am just not one of them. loads of people are not like this. wanting to look like the gender you personally align with is a completely normal part of many people's trans experience and in fact it's one of the reasons that denying trans people medical care is so horrifying. it is not internalized transphobia and tbh it's not even a desire to look cis -- it's just a desire to exist in a way that is comfortable to you.

idk. i love the celebration of transness that is increasingly part of pride month and i absolutely think it should continue, i just think trans people who do not find their bodies to be a a source of joy should also be represented and celebrated even though we are less fun to talk about.

[beanghostprincess]

(Usopp is trans It will come up later)

Syrup village all have their own individual families with their own individual kids. But they all share one kid and that is usopp. After his mom passed and it got around the town everyone's first thought was him. Usopp is the local menace but he's still a child, when he's out in the morning yelling about pirates someone comes in and cleans his house and fixes breakfast for him. When he's out playing, another villager gathers his laundry and washes and folds them by noon Usopp 'steals' something to eat off a food cart. All vendors allow usopp whatever he needs. (why they don't tell him that idk)

Moms of the villages are always watching him in the distance and will drop toys and books for him to find. On occasion a mom will just take Usopp home and bathe him complaining he's stinking up the village. They huff and complain about taking care of him wanting to make usopp feel a little guilty or annoyed forcing him lean to do things his own like cooking and self grooming. (it's all just tough love)

By the time he's 12 he knows how to cook and clean and does things on his own. He even taught himself to repair some things around the house of course he's no expert and still asks some of the villages for help. They don't complain that much when it comes to tasks like that and they're happy to teach him.

He was gaining Independence but they still took care of them and still worried about him. They gave him bigger clothes, shoes that hell have to grow into, they started nothing using bandages for his chest area. One morning one of the villages noticed something very concerning during his usual cries about pirates. He was bleeding! blood was running down his leg with a red stain on his pants.

Most of the village men looked away, too embarrassed to say something. Apparently this is normal because when one of the moms asked if usopp knew what was going on he just shrugged and told her it happens sometimes I don't know.

At first he thought he was dying because he got crampy and achy when it happened. He laid down in his mom's bed as his final resting spot but it never happened. He just shoves toilet paper down there and waits for it to be over. When she asked did he tell anyone or did someone know about it Usopp mentioned that the man that helps with laundry knows but doesn't say anything.

Letting her anger subside at the moment she wrapped her sweater around his waist to cover and took him to the store apparently this was his fourth time getting it. She bought him napkins, some clean undergarments, a calendar, heating pad and a book.

She explained what he needed to do with everything she bought and explained what was happening and what was going on in his body. She doesn't notice Usopp starting to get very upset having a mixture of feelings.

Is that why people looked at him strangely and avoided him. Was the stain bad? Did they think he was gross? He cleans like they taught him to do. How often do I need to change the napkin? What happens if he forgets? Why does he need to track it? what does that do? He's 12, he can't keep track of that stuff! Why does he feel embarrassed about it? She says it's normal but it doesn't feel normal and nobody acted like it was normal. Why is this happening to him? He wishes his mom was here she would know what to do she could have helped him.

Being overwhelmed by new feelings, and a lot of information usopp breaks down. He wants to stop talking, wanting this whole conversation to be over! Go away! This never happened! He never had a period it's just..... It's a disease yeah that's what it is. It's a disease and if anyone mentions the disease to him, they die in 7 days go away!

The village lady leaves letting him settle down and do this by himself he'll figure it out. She gave him the tools he just needs to learn how to use them.

This sucks he ended up crying in bed by himself alone and scared as usual. He still has the village lady sweater and at this point it is well past ruined. She was nice enough to give it to him. He can't give it to her looking like that. He gets up cleans himself, he opens the pack of new underwear and reads the directions on the back sanitary napkins box he puts them on. He still doesn't get marking the calendar but he does it anyway. Picking up his clothes, sheets and the sweater he grabs peroxide, a bucket of cold water and soap he begins cleaning. This wasn't so bad, it's not great but it's not as bad as he thought. He can do this every month no biggie maybe he's just overthinking things like usual.

The next day he gave the now clean sweater back to the nice village lady and apologized for his little outburst. She accepted the apology and reassured him that if he needs anything just ask her or the other mothers in the village

Years later he's at sea with the straw hats sailing free. Fixing the merry, forcing Luffy to bath and helping sanji prep food. He checks his calendar and stocks up on pain killers and produces for himself. Like the others do for themselves for the months ahead. Except for Zoro. Zoro being Zoro he doesn't track anything and just lets shit happen when it happens. After being yelled at by usopp he teaches him how to wash blood out (he should know how to do that he's a swordsman! Swords = blood stains idiot!!) and he makes him track his own period so he doesn't have to waste his products and do laundry twice a week.

Nami thinks it's funny when he gets like this. He is so motherly at times. Fixing, cleaning, lecturing taking care of others. Where does he get this from? She asked. Usopp doesn't really have a solid answer. He guess he picked it up from his village lecturing him and teaching him to do things on his own.

The way I kept screaming happily reading this,, It's just so sweet. And I love him so much. I love the whole village helping him out but doing it with tough love so that way he's independent,,, It's just great. The whole thing about Usopp knowing how to do these things is great because tbh half of the crew doesn't, and this just proves why I keep saying he's the most genuine/domestic out of all of them. I think in his teenage years he ended up telling Kaya about it (his illness. Because that's what he still calls it. He refuses to let people make the correlation between period = woman in front of him) and she just tells him she's glad it's only for a few days and that he can always come to her house for hygiene products if he runs out.

And also, yes, Zoro just lets it happen. Tbh that's relatable af because my period is pretty irregular and happens whenever it fucking wants and atp of my life I just live in fear. Props to Zoro for not giving a fuck, although he should probably take care of himself. I'm sure Usopp is great at taking care of all of them <3

[i-may-be-an-emu]

New intro post because I lost the old one and I should probably have one

Hello! I’m emu (nickname) and my pronouns are he/him. I’m ftm trans and aroace, mostly.

I might also like they/them as pronouns though I’m still figuring out how I feel about those, but by all means use them unless I say I don’t like them anymore. Whatever is in my bio should be fine :)

I don’t tell people my age :) and I very very rarely tell people what country I am from. I haven’t shared my name on here and am uncertain about wether I will or not. Don’t take it personally, it’s just for safety and my own peace of mind.

I’m a Christian! And yes I’m also queer. Please don’t be mean to me because of my religion.

I block people easily but also follow people easily! Don’t be scared to talk to me :)

I care about people a lot! (Hyper empathy yay! (/sarc))

I use “:)” and “<3” a LOT (not <3 if you don’t like that)

I use tone tags but not always, mainly just assume I’m not meaning things in a mean or romantic way and it’ll be alright.

I try to trigger warm posts as best I can and cw for bright colours, gifs ect.

I don’t swear but I reblog and might post images/clips that have swear words in them.

I have dyscalculia, audhd and anxiety and depression! I’m trans so I also am affected by dysphoria a lot! (I’m getting better with some of this stuff and am medicated most days for adhd.)

I think I have ocd but I’m not sure because I have a lot of overlapping disorders already that could be causing those symptoms. And also just so you know, my memory sucks.

I am EXTREMELY obsessed with shoot from the hip. EXTREMELY. (They’re @shootimpro on youtube, insta and tiktok- go check them out if you want!!!) this is almost a fan blog for them at this point. If you get annoyed by my almost constant posting about them feel free- nay encouraged, I don’t want to annoy people- to filter the tags:

#Sfth

#shoot from the hip

#shootimpro

#sfthposting

These are good tags for sfth fans to filter within my blog if you want sfth posts, too :)

If you’re a sfth fan but not a patreon just know that I sometimes talk about patreon things here (its not against the rules to talk about) and if you don’t want to see sfth patreon content talked about or screenshots of things because of whatever reason then you can filter the tag #sfth patreon things

and if you’re a sfth fan and you want to know more about them or you need screenshots or clips feel free to ask!!!!!! I’m always happy to talk about them and I have over 500 screenshots and more I can easily access through discord.

if you are a sfth fan and want to be on the fan discord just ask and I can dm you the join link! :))

I’ve had other hyperfixations that may resurface from time to time such as the shows Community, Loki, f.r.i.e.n.d.s and B99. I also have been obsessed with Spider-Man and marvel in general.

I might tag things as #emu rambles if I’m randomly rambling in the tags or #self rb if I’ve reblogged something from myself, these tags don’t really mean anything and idk why I do it :)

(oh yeah and barely anything here is organised)

I probably missed something but who knows.

:)

[drop-dead-dropout]

NEW USERNAME local-queer-disappointment -> drop-dead-dropout

unpinning my other post because i want to talk a little about me and this space that i've created! hi i'm alex and i dropped out of high school twice lol

i think a dni is stupid because people never listen anyways, which is why i haven't had one, but i still see the value in at least telling people who this little corner is for.

also YELL AT ME ON DISCORD I'M woahits_alex.mp3 IF U ASK ME ABOUT FIC RECS FOR MY FANDOMS I'LL CRY WITH HAPPINESS

anyways opinion stuff under the cut. you don't have to read it, and you don't even have to listen if you do, but i might argue with you (<- serial arguer) so if you want to avoid the Discourse here ya go.

you are welcome here:

- ALL queers. trans men, trans women, nonbinary, intersex, poc queers, xenogender, "contradictory" labels like mspec gays/lesbians lesboys/turigirls/sapphileans (omg it's me!!), slur reclaims, detransitioners (who are not transphobic), mspec lesbians, aro/ace and all variations thereupon, unlabeled, questioning, etc. i love all of you. i love the community that we share. we are family, whether or not some of us want to be, and exclusionism is Not Funky Fresh!!

- pro Palestine!! i don't always rb posts as much as i used to (i am scared of spreading misinformation) but i think i'll start doing that again! (don't forget your daily click guys)

- jewish people. i am specifically adding this one to say that because of the shitty Everything, i've seen a lot of concerning antisemitic stuff recently so i'm just, yk, putting this out there.

- disabilities/systems/cluster b disorders/AAC users. i am not any of these things (except maybe plural??) so if i say/do something out of line please tell me! but i love you guys and you're absolutely welcome here.

- proshippers (if this bothers you block and move on)

- furries. not personally one of y'all but i think you're neat and you make cool art :]

- literally, like, anyone, as long as you're not a dick

you are not welcome here:

- terfs, transphobes, exclusionists, anti-mspec, anti-lesboy, and people who think transandrophobia is "fake" or whatever. go away i don't like you (or at least be prepared to be blocked or yelled at)

- similarly to last, anyone who starts queer infighting or hates on less visible queers/strangers who don't "look" queer, the whole "bi girl's straight bf" nonsense (i don't care if you think someone is cishet. you have no way of knowing that. let's stop hating people for immutable characteristics and start having thoughtful criticisms of people's actions thanks)

- ZIONISTS. BYE BYE

- (but also antisemites because come on now let's notttt. judiasm ≠ zionism)

- ableists, fatphobia, racists/bigots, general dickheads

- antishippers (again, you can either leave now or expect to be argued with)

other general stuff:

- i accept anonymous asks! and also non anonymous ones. ask me shit idk

- i am autistic and VERY gullible. if i reblog a "bait" post, or something that's clearly fake or a joke with a genuine reaction, i'm probably not playing some 5d irony chess i'm probably just stupid. sorry y'all i'm trying :\

- i don't rb nsfw. not as, like, a rule, i just don't see the value in doing so lol. if i ever did i'd tag it and probably update this

UPDATE: thought i should clarify, i don't rb nsfw but i do rb nsfw humor, like dick jokes and stuff. hope there's no confusion

- i argue with people!! i enjoy arguing with people!! usually it's in replies and not reblogs but still. if you are allergic to stuff like that maybe don't follow me? i also rb "discourse" posts, mostly transmasc support stuff and callouts of transandrophobia, general solidarity stuff with the trans community or lgbt community as a whole, proship stuff, politics, current events, that kinda thing.

- this is, shockingly, supposed to be a fandom blog! (i got carried away; i always do.) current fandoms include: ace attorney (the one this blog was supposed to be about), doctor who (childhood hyperfixation come back to bite my ass), and splatoon (no excuse). also mha is basically my abusive boyfriend stockholm syndroming me to stay at this point but i'm trying to get better (not). you can find the records of my failing recovery at @alex-is-losing-sleep-over-krbk /hj (i also sometimes shamelessly rb this blog's posts over there lol)

and i guess since i'm mentioning fandoms, here are my fav ships: wrightworth, klapollo, franmaya, thoschei, pearlina, agent 24, & cuttletavio.

anyways, that's about it. love you all :]

[gaybd1]

This is a big ask so don't feel like you have to, but would you be interested in pitching some summaries of the fics you have up on Ao3? I know there are summaries up there, but I like the casual way you have with words and you say fuck a lot and I dunno yeah

omg this is so funny bc i know the exact way with words you're talking about and of course im not gonna pass up a chance to promote my own work hehe YOU GOT IT!

i have 20 atla fics so I'm going to recommend them in order of... least to most kudos??? to try to trick people into reading more of my stuff? lol idk

I'm 99% sure all of these are Zukka fics...

The Last Five Years - ok actually this is a bad place to start bc i don't think im gonna finish it. it just really didn't take off but um its a The Last Five Years AU with really fucking sad Divorced Zukka

Do Not Stand At My Grave and Cry - this is i think my newest one, it has trans zukka and it's a bit angsty with a fake death but i also think it's kind of fun. it's the idea trans people have of ''who's going to care if my family puts the wrong name on my gravestone?" but there IS a happy ending

A Problem Halved is a Problem Shared - im gonna be honest i dont fucking remember writing this one lol but it says dialogue-only and it WILL be angsty bc it is about zuko and sokka dealing with different issues they have

One Last Time (and its sequel The End of All Things) - Actually OLT is definitely one of my faves I ever wrote. It's my canon-compliant take on um... *cough* Sokka's death, referenced in Korra. It's SO angsty but it has one of the most visceral scenes I've ever written and I DID cry writing this. TEoAT is the happy ending Divorced Zukka deserved with bonus Iroh but you WILL cry reading that too. BUT i cant fucking recommend these ones enough!!!!

If I fade away (the awful things we do to make the head go quiet) - VERY dead dove. trans zuko needs to pay a MASSIVE price to get home to the Fire Nation after Ba Sing Se, and it's not his choice at all. I love this but READ WITH CAUTION

In Which Sokka is Supportive Ally Boyfriend Goals - I am dead serious i like dont remember this one at all but i know it has trans zuko!

Nourishing the Flame Within - not the best written tbhtbh BUT it does have two very important Zukos in it that I hold to be universally true: trans zuko and eating disorder zuko

bad idea right? - okay this is DEF one of my faves lol its about divorced zukka but they just cant stop messing things up and sleeping with each other even though theyre not together anymore lolol

Keeping it in the Family - lmao OKAY SO this is the ONE version of zukka that im like 'ok all u z*tara folks, maybe zuko WAS with her and it obvs didnt work' and then he hooks up with sokka instead and its GREAT but oops now we have Family Drama

Scars of Trust - bro im not gonna like i barely remember writing this one but i remember I LOVE IT and it's about sokka who has been dating zuko a while but he finally learns that zuko is trans? its great

Playing the Long Game - eh, i don't love it, but I'd say it's worth a read. it was my first longer fic in the fandom. it DOES have a great Zukki evolution though if you're into that, and a nice mystery!! Also some whump and angst bc of course

Keeping Score - I liked this one! It's just little snippets of times Sokka has survived assassination attempts, because we always hear about it happening to Zuko, but Sokka gets them too. Angst obviously

It Was Cruel and It Was Wrong - wow, a dead dove fic, yes. It's basically like "If I'm Joo Lee and you're Joo Lee, then who's flying the bison?" Yeah so Sokka and Zuko are both brainwashed by the Dai Lee and Suffering but be careful because this gets DARK

Mother - Izumi has two dads but she feels bad she doesn't have a mom. But guess what, her dads don't have moms either!! She's very happy to find that out! Wow Izumi, way to have some sympathy.

Impact - It's about Zuko taking a longer time to recover from an assassination attempt than he'd want, and Sokka being loving and patient with him! I wrote this when I had a bad concussion for like three weeks and so it's pretty like. Medically accurate lol

Scratchy - Short and sweet. I don't remember this one much but I know that it is fluffy and involves turtle ducks!

Hidden Pain, Shared Love - Another short and fluffy one. It's about the first time Zuko sees that Sokka has problems with his leg sometimes?

Zuko and Sokka Get Engaged in the Most Zukka Way Possible - okay i actually really love this one because it's on brand and cute and also i made it fucking angsty because oF COURSE

Zuko Amongst the Dragons - yes so what if zuko was raised by dragons and met the gaang but he was super feral? and what if shenanigans ensued? AND what if sokka and zuko fell in love anyway????