#but i'm married

[raspberryconverse]

I don't think I've written a fictional story since junior high or high school (I took Creative Nonfiction: Journal Writing in college) and I just started writing one again.

This is sort of a RPF, but the real people are me and a friend of mine from high school (the one who's in love with me) and it's based on my own life. A sort of therapeutic way of dealing with this situation and the "what if I didn't move to Milwaukee" question.

It starts out as a true story, but instead of moving to Milwaukee and meeting my spouse, I move to Chicago. Specifically the friend's house (he bought a house 8 years ago and rents out the extra rooms to friends, etc).

I'm not sure where it's going to go or if I'm going to share it (if I do, I'll definitely have to change his name in it), but I'm hoping it gets me out of the "maybe he was the one who got away, not the guy who dumped me for grad school" spiral I'm currently in.

Ugh. I wish I had my therapy tomorrow and not couples therapy. I really need to unpack this with my therapist and I'm not sure I can do it in couples therapy. Especially since Spouse isn't jealous or upset about what happened (there was some cuddling, but I was sober enough to not only drive home, but make sure he didn't cross any lines). But god, did I want it to. I knew if I turned my head towards him, he would have tried to kiss me. And since I haven't had more than a peck from my spouse in weeks, I might have let him and I definitely would have really enjoyed that.

I'm proud of myself for setting the boundary with him, but I'm also longing for more than what I've been getting. And Spouse totally understands the temptation, based on the state of our sex life, but I still feel guilty for wanting it so bad.

But IDK, maybe if they actually kissed me, like really kissed me, more than once a month, I wouldn't feel that way.

[o0kawaii0o]

Newlyweds 💕

[hansoeii]

the doctor on their way to steal your heart

[starcurtain]

Please someone redraw this with Dr. Ratio and Aventurine because this is the exact vibe they have in my head post-Penacony.

[protosentry]

why is your face old!!!!!

this is how mumbo is to me btw

ALSO THIS????WAS SO CUTE???? HELLOOOO

theyre so crazy abt each other lowkey

[skellagirl]

so I played through Origins again and there's this middle-aged man 🫣

Amrynn the Hero of Ferelden will smooch him, so help me God

why did they do him so fucking dirty in Trespasser anyway lol 😭 I'm half convinced he was originally meant to be an entirely different character and then last minute they were like, 'hey let's make him Teagan instead' but didn't change anything about his design. But it IS really funny when your Inquisitor rides up to the exalted council and looks up at him and he's just mean mugging the FUCK out of you

[petite-madame]

Three Times - (2024)

Three times Sherlock and John couldn't resist kissing in the London means of transportation.

[mobius-m-mobius]

#obsessed with their priorities

[dukeofash]

yeah, you could say I’m a bit popular with the ladies

[coffit0]

You're so lovable, Pure Vanilla Cookie

[daydreamerwonderkid]

They're bonding :3c

Meme reference under cut

Draw the squad poses

Pose 1

Pose 2

[grayeet]

Rainy Day ☔️

[tossawary]

Admittedly, I don't tend to read much fanfic in fandoms I write for, because I don't want to get my canon and fanon mixed, so my selection is limited, but I've never seen anyone mention the fact that Yue Qingyuan and Shen Qingqiu (Shen Jiu) had a big sister.

One of the children in their "group", presumably numbered between "1" and "6", was a girl, and when he remembers her, Shen Jiu directly associates this lost person with safety and comfort. He thinks of her as the equivalent to Qiu Haitang before Qiu Haitang: someone who provided a place to "hide" from the rest of the world. It's not just that there happened to be an older girl in their group, but this was a girl whom Shen Jiu apparently liked and trusted.

Here's the relevant quote from Part 4 of the Qijiu Extras in SVSSS Volume 4 (the one where Yue Qingyuan finds Shen Qingqiu fighting with Liu Qingge in the brothel):

"All those years, whenever one of his beatings from Qiu Jianluo was over, or whenever he had a premonition of another beating, he had crawled to Qiu Haitang’s room and remained there, quivering. As Qiu Jianluo was unwilling to let his sister see the side of him that was perverse and lunatic, that had been the only place where Shen Jiu could hide.

And even longer ago, there had been some girl in their group, their big sis. But after she reached a certain age, that big sis had been sold to a withered old man to be his second wife. Afterward, they’d left that city, so they’d never seen her again.

Liking women wasn’t the least bit shameful, but treating women like saviors, cowering within their embrace and seeking courage from them… even without anyone saying it, Shen Qingqiu knew that was horrendously shameful. So even if it meant his death, he would never tell anyone, least of all Yue Qingyuan."

So, on the very short list of people that the original Shen Qingqiu actually liked even a little bit, there's: 1) Yue Qi before he became Yue Qingyuan, 2) Qiu Haitang, 3) Ning Yingying, 4) "the tender young lady carrying the pipa" who "had long since thrown on her thin robes and dashed out in terror" when Liu Qingge and Shen Qingqiu were fighting, maybe, and 5) this unnamed big sister who was sold off and never seen again.

I've seen plenty of fics and fic ideas where Shen Yuan transmigrates in as a twin to Shen Jiu or a biologically unrelated sibling to SJ and YQ by being a part of their group, but not as this barely canon big sister character. He could give both Yue Qingyuan and Shen Qingqiu so, so many more Jiejie issues, I'm sure.

[hansoeii]

Do you think of me?

[aceredshirt13]

if there's one thing about classic literary detectives it's that they are not conventionally attractive. doyle told sidney paget to stop drawing holmes so pretty. christie was like "let me introduce you to this short pudgy balding man who is retirement age and i hate him." sayers compares wimsey to maggots on literally the FIRST PAGE

i love it. i love them. stop casting hot people in these roles. we need our detectives to be Charmingly Weird-Looking

[reksukoy]

WELCOME TO CHAOS