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Imagine Astarion with ears so sensitive that he's never willingly allowed anyone to touch them except for you. Imagine laying next to him in your bed, facing him, lifting your hand up slowly for that first touch. His eyes on yours, the rapidity of the breath he doesn't need to take, but still does reflexively. Seeing that he's nervous, but that he's trusting you, feeling his shaking hand come to rest on your waist. The audible sound he makes- half a moan, half a gasp- when you finally brush your thumb over the soft skin at the tip of his ear.
You trace the long shell of his ear and watch his pretty eyes, deep red like velvet in the moonlight, flutter shut. He says your name softly, as close as you've ever heard him to prayer. You pinch his earlobe gently, and his hips roll forward involuntarily, the jut of his hipbone pressing against your thigh as he makes himself still. Heat flares low in your belly, but you tamp it down as quickly as possible- likewise, Astarion makes himself still against you. This isn't sex and won't become sex, you'd promised each other (though that's not to say that you won't explore this thoroughly during one of your hours-long lovemaking sessions. He is all about experimentation these days, after all).
You lay there, touching him in his most vulnerable place, with reverence and grace and occasionally disbelief that you could be here at all with this beautiful, horrible, ridiculous and wonderful man, that you could be trusted so completely. You take in his every shuddering breath, the flexing of his fingers in your shirt, the softness of his mouth when he presses his lips to yours and tells you he loves you. If you have your way, if he has his, if somehow your utterly insane lives hold together for a year or a decade or ten, it will always be like this.
#astarion x reader#astarion x you#bg3 x reader#astarion x gn reader#astarion x tav#astarion x gn!tav#.astarion#check me never knowing how to coherently end a thought ever in my life#i AM one of those people that advocates for astarion staying snarky and awful even after everything LMFAO#it's just that now he only acts like that with people he thinks deserve it. or when it's funny#that said: with you? snarky and biting sometimes#yes. but also#sometimes#so soft it makes you want to squeeze him to death or something#also...reminder that i take requests...if u like...
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fisting tboys is as close as i can get to divinity, actually
#we're stretching him nightly to prepare for my new toys#and theyre soooo cute#i love how fucking tight they squeeze my fingers#how they squealed and their breath caught in their throat when the thickest part of my palm finally pushed in#i only fucked him for a few minutes because i dont want them to be too sore#i need them to stay soft and pliant for me#so i can pound them into oblivion when my monster cocks get here :)#probably gonna have to gag them to keep em quiet#text#nsft#t4t nsft#ftm nsft#nb nsft#nsft ftm#nsft nb#t4t kink
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Not a question, just wanted to say that I love how you got everyone to think Mychael was a yandere in the first day of the game, now that the second day is out people are still confused as to whether he's a yandere or not- including me đ
GUYS-
I mention it literally everywhere I can!! đ You're not the only one that asked me this hahaha!
I think I understand the confusion, since Mychael hasn't shown any serious yandere traits despite the claim that he is. I mean, if a yandere is content, of course they're not gonna show off their crazy so early. Plus it takes a lot for someone that's never fallen in love to really dig into the feeling and become obsessive/possessive about it.
I noticed a lot of yan VNs (at the time I started making MO) had the yans already in love with the MC. We never get to see what it is that makes them love so hard in the first place. That's what I wanted to explore with Mychael! I didn't want him to just be a yandere. That's why the VN is a slow burn first and foremost, he's slowly figuring it out!
Bonus: Here's a comic I did last year about the dynamic I had in mind.
#mushroom oasis vn#mychael ask#bts#light spoilers#cheea chatter#i do notice a divide between players#one half just wants to see him lose his marbles#the other half wants him to stay soft and sweet#im trying to deliver on both!#while still writing him (or at least trying to) as a complex character with motivation and needs of his own#just a bonus that he's a yandere ig haha
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Wanna care for my pup, give him some hours where he has no need to use his brain. Have him let out all those thoughts inside his pretty little puppy head, just in my arms, safe and protected even when I'm drawing blood.
Starting off gently, treating him so softly as we make out, groping, biting and slowly getting his brain fuzzy. My fingers hitched on the edge of his shorts, my knee pressed up against his dripping cunt, showing a promise to care for him properly as always as I meet his gaze directly
I've got you love, you're safe, I've got you. Come here baby, come closeâWant me to get all those thoughts out your pretty lil head? Just have all your big thoughts n worries fall back for a bit, just have to be a good puppy for me sweetie? All you gotta do is say please~
Kissing him softly once more before giving it my all, being the knight and protector of his body even just for a bit. Making my precious pup the most pleasure and love I can. Seeing him feel good, knowing I can keep him safe and smiling and enjoying himself gives me the most joy. I just want to give my precious baby puppy a show of complete care and love and adoration and praise
#xochimilli writes#đŤpuppy#he's my baby. my sweet princess. i find comfort in knowing i can be a safe place. that im staying and holding their hand every single step#i want to be a good pet too. i genuinely feel so good making her feel good. i wanna be a good pet taking care of another#bd/sm pet#ftm nsft#bd/sm kink#ftm dom#ftm top#queer nsft#bd/sm master#t4t nsft#petpl4y#petpl@y#nsft puppy#puppy sub#bd/sm puppy#ftm puppy#pup nsft#dumb puppy#puppy ns/fw#puppy nsft#dad bf#daddy's pet#soft d0m#queer ns/fw#my puppy#soft daddy#bd/sm daddy#bd/sm blog
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just one bite...........
#thank u zoe lixx i owe you 500 dollars and im glad u enjoyed your sydney trip#look i support people doing whatever they want but deep down i hope seungmin never gets gym bro disease and stays soft forever bc im...#i like it. i like it like it even
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finally finished knitting these socks! The cable pattern has bunnies in it đ
Yarn is from Juniper Moon Farm, Herriot Fine yarn in the color âtimber wolfâ (75/25 baby alpaca/nylon). Needles are size 0 wooden needles from lykke. Bunny cables are from âBunny Sock Hopâ by Ann Clark on Ravelry
#knitting#sock knitting#knitblr#hand knit socks#hand knitted#fiber arts#mine#these took me like⌠a year? more? because I kept putting them down for months#I want to sew in some elastic to the top bc they do not stay up on their own at all#sock glue works but I want them to have some grip of their own#theyâre so soft and cozy though!!#Iâm excited to wear them this fall/winter
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im feeling sappy tonight. shoutout to the baby tboys begging to be forcemasced. one day you will become the man you want to be. within the kink its wonderful when another man grabs you by the shoulders and pushes you headfirst in. its wonderful to share in the joy he felt when he started. in reality know youre afraid. it takes guts to let yourself be who you want. dont take your feelings lightly and let yourself explore. you are not alone but its also up to you. take care. much love.
#i wont kinkshame cis people who use the tags but i want to make it clear that youre a guest in this house#and that it may be just a kink for you but ive seen lots of posts on here#from trans guys who just need a push in the right direction yk?#for me kink is an extension of who i am so i understand how the kink can help you discover who you are#and i know what its like to be afraid to change#like you dont want to leave behind the girl you were. like you dont want to take up space because of how society treats girls#or to make yourself a soft femboy because you dont want to be scary#and its okay to feel that way and its okay to want to stay that way#but it may be a sign of youre sticking around in these tags that maybe youd be happier if you were more than that#just think about it i love you#force masc#forcemasc#t4t nsft#ftm nsft#trans nsft#i might delete this later cause its probablt not well articulated#also lmk if somethinf i said was bad ive been trying to check myself on like being sensitive to different people ig
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Surprise husbands + "How are you real?" ; requested by @vehan-tikkun-olam-and-stuff!
They may not have planned to get married, or even wanted it all too much at the beginning, but that doesnât mean they arenât going to treat each other right. It was rough going, with both of them coming out of relationships and having secret identities, but time had softened the hurt feelings and allowed them to actually get to know each other.
And Danny, Duke has discovered, is a really good husband.Â
Neither of them ever saw themselves as married at 20, but sometimes life throws horrible curses at you and the embodiment of balance and life and death swoops in to save your life. Via marriage.Â
His life is weird, okay? Duke has made his peace with it.
The thing is, if they had met naturally and started off as friends, Duke could see himself falling for Danny and asking him to marry him in a far off future. Instead, theyâre doing everything backwards: married, then going on dates to know each other, and finally feeling close enough to be friends.Â
It helps that Danny does his best to communicate and that helps Duke find the words he needs as well.Â
Heâs sweet, too, so kind and doting and affectionate. Like a really lovable cat, honestly. Dukeâs never been cuddled so much in his life and heâs loving every minute of it.Â
He⌠might be falling in love with his husband. What a revelation.
âDuke?âÂ
He blinks, looking up from his half-empty plate, pulled out of his thoughts suddenly. Tim and Dick stare at him, concerned, and he realizes heâs missed the entire conversation because he was so preoccupied thinking about Danny. In his defense, it was their one year anniversary the night before and Danny had kissed him for the first time after a date night spent playing video games and talking shit about their respective rogues.Â
Tim snaps a finger in front of his face, and Duke startles. He got distracted by his Danny Thoughts again.
âYeah, whatâs up?â
âYou okay? Youâve been out of it all day,â Dick says, clearly concerned.
âOh, uh, yeah, itâs all good. Just⌠adjusting.â
âTo what? Did something happen?â
Duke shrugs, scooping up another forkful of pasta to shove in his mouth. âYeah, I⌠this is going to sound kind of stupid, but I think Iâm in love with my husband.â
Tim, taking an ill-timed drink, chokes and spits out his Zesti. Dick springs back, trying to get out of the spray zone but doesnât move far, shocked still by Dukeâs words.
âOh, yeah,â Duke realizes, âI didnât tell you guys, did I?â
âYouâre married?!â Tim shrieks as Dick clutches at his chest, eyes wide.
âYou didnât tell me?â Dick asks, offended.
âSeriously? Thatâs what you focus on?â
Duke smiles as they begin to bicker. They do it constantly, but this time itâs halfhearted, as if theyâre just going through the motions of something familiar to distract themselves from the bomb heâs dropped on them.
In all fairness, Duke did forget that he didnât tell them that heâs married to Danny. Heâs also only mentioned Danny once or twice and heavily implied that Danny was just a classmate at GCU. And then forgot that he didnât tell them, assuming that theyâd figure it out eventually being Batman trained detectives, after all.
Well.Â
Oops.
Clearly that is not the case. Duke hurries to finish his pasta before Tim and Dick finish their joint freak out and get their senses back together enough to interrogate him. He canât escape it, but he refuses to have this discussion with an empty stomach.Â
He just barely manages to scrape the last mouthful off the plate when his fork is being yanked out of his hands. Tim and Dick close in on him, standing to either side of him, trapping him in place, and look at him with knife-sharp smiles.
Here we go, Duke thinks tiredly, and resigns himself to clearing up this misunderstanding.
Somehow, he manages to explain the situation (I got cursed, he saved my life, we ended up married because magic is bullshit, he treats me so well) and Tim and Dick both agree to not hunt down Danny to show him the wrath of older brothers on one condition: Danny has to join them for a family dinner.
âDonât worry, weâll catch everyone up on your⌠situation,â Dick says, pulling on his jacket to head out. Tim is already on his phone, no doubt telling someone already.Â
âGreat,â Duke says, unenthused. âYouâll also be answering all the questions because Iâm not in the mood. So if youâll excuse me, Iâm going to figure out a day that works for all of us, and then Iâm going to kick my husbandâs ass in Mario Cart.â
He walks out the door, grinning as he hears them scramble after him, then twists the ring on his finger (not a wedding ring, but a magic portal making gift) and steps into the portal. It closes quietly behind him, leaving him in Dannyâs lair, a comfortable, spacious house with high ceilings and little bits of his personality scattered about. There are soft rugs with geometric patterns on them, star maps on the wall, stained glass windows that throw colors across the floor, and a giant couch and pillow pit in the living room.
Dannyâs asleep in it, curled up and looking completely at peace. Duke toes off his shoes and carefully makes his way over, footsteps silent so he doesnât wake him up, all plans of Mario Cart fading away instantly.
Danny doesnât get much sleep, with the stress of school and an internship and ghost fights to worry about. Itâs why his lair is so quiet and comfortable; itâs what he needs, and he doesnât let anyone else in without invitation, rare as it is.
Duke is allowed to waltz right in thanks to the ring Danny gave him. It never stops making him feel overwhelmed by how much trust Danny puts in him to allow him unlimited access to what is his only true sanctuary, letting his lair be a place of safety and respite for Duke as well.Â
He crawls into the pillow pit, Thereâs no way to do this without waking Danny up since he canât fly, so he isnât surprised to see Danny blink his eyes open, still looking soft and content. He smiles when he sees Duke, reaching a hand out to him that Duke gladly takes, bringing it up to his mouth to kiss his palm.
Sitting up, Danny tilts his head up in a silent request. Duke happily obliges, still reeling over the fact that heâs allowed to do this! He can kiss his husband whenever he wants!Â
Yeah, heâs going to be riding that high for a while.
âHey,â Danny murmurs, sleepy and quietly pleased to see him.
âHi honey,â Duke returns fondly, âHave a nice nap?â
Danny nods, leaning into Duke and closing his eyes again. âMhm. How long are you staying? I wanna cuddle.â
âI got nothing going on today. Iâm all yours, baby.â
âCâmon,â Danny tries to tug him down. Duke goes slowly, covering Dannyâs body with his own, but holds himself with one hand before he blankets his husband completely.
âWait. Thereâs something we need to talk about.â
Immediately, the sleepy haze is fading from Dannyâs eyes, leaving him alert. âWhatâs up? Is something wrong?â
âNot really? You know how we agreed to keep our marriage a secret until we werenât in danger anymore and all those cultists and sorcerers were taken care of?â
â...Yes?â
âWell.â Duke sucks in a breath and offers a bashful smile. âGuess who forgot to tell people we were married after that whole mess was dealt with?â
The nervousness clears from Dannyâs gaze as he stares up at Duke with incredulous amusement. âNo. No way.â
âYeah. Kinda dropped a bomb on them and they started freaking out over me being married. Anyways, they want you to come to dinner?â
âWhen?â
Duke leans back, sitting on his heels. âLet me check.â He pulls out his phone and sends a quick text to the group chat asking for a day they could have a family meal to meet his husband.
His phone is bombarded with texts and calls immediately until Barbara, bless her entire soul, forcibly mutes all of them and puts in a poll with a few dates, setting the poll to close in 24 hours.
âOkay, well, theyâre deciding now, but probably soon.â
Danny nods. âAlright. I know these arenât normal circumstances at all, but Iâm so excited to meet the Bats.â
âYou do not mean that after hearing all my stories about them.â
âNo, I do!â Danny laughs, surging up to wrap his arms around Duke and pull him back down to lay among the giant pillows with him. âThey sound nice!â
âThe Bats sound nice?!â Duke repeats in horror. âDid you hit your head?â
âThey do sound nice! You talk about them so fondly, and yeah they have problems and are dysfunctional, but theyâre heroes. Of course they have problems. Even with all their baggage, theyâre kind. And you clearly love them, so I do too.â
Itâs hard to resist the urge to hug Danny tight enough to make him squeak while peppering his face with kisses, so Duke doesnât. He just goes and does it, because heâs allowed to shower his husband (!) with affection (!!!) as much as he pleases.
âHow are you real?â he says against the corner of Dannyâs lips. âHow are you so perfect! To me specifically! Honey, if we werenât already married, Iâd be going down on one knee right now.â
âI mean, you still can. We never got a proper wedding either. Think if we offer them a chance to help plan our wedding, theyâll forgive us for secretly being married for so long?â
âOh, absolutely,â Duke says. Heâs already giddy, just imagining what their wedding will look like, what song theyâll play for their first dance, where theyâll have the ceremony⌠He should create a Pinterest account to start putting ideas together.Â
Later, though. He wants to woo Danny properly and take him on so many dates.
Dates which include dinner with the Waynes and Wayne-adjacents, apparently.
âYou sure youâre okay with meeting them over dinner?â he asks, just to be sure. He knows how intense they can be, even when pretending to be normal civilians. It took him years to get used to them, himself, and he doesnât want to push Danny into doing something heâs not ready to do.
Danny cups Dukeâs face in his hands and gives him a quick, reassuring kiss. âIâm sure. If nothing else, itâll be fun to see how long it takes for them to realize Iâm not fully human.â
âI really am glad itâs you.â
âYeah, me too. Iâd choose you all over again if given the choice.â
âTook the words right out of my mouth,â Duke laughs, wrapping an arm around Dannyâs waist.
âCan we nap now? Now that youâre here and holding me, itâs taking everything Iâve got to stay awake.â
âYeah, we can nap now.â Duke settles into the pillows, Danny cradled in his arms and closes his eyes to bask in the quiet easiness of it all.Â
He really couldnât ask for a better husband, unexpected as he was. The others will see that too, once they meet him. Itâs impossible to not love Danny once you meet him; Duke knows this all too well.
He loves his husband.
And his husband loves him back.
Duke is fully prepared to keep making that choice for the rest of his life.
#ghostlights#dc x dp#dp x dc#dcxdp#dpxdc#dc x dp fic#dp x dc fanfic#prompt fill#my writing#it was such a struggle to keep this one short but i WILL do it. it will stay below 3k words. i promised myself this#wasnt too sure what the surprise husbands trope was so i winged it lol. i hope you enjoy reading this anyways!!#its all about choosing love and choosing each other and taking care of each other in a bad situation#turning it into something good and soft and kind bc neither of u want to hurt each other and its nice to have someone always by ur side#its abt choosing each other every day!!#these two are out here speed running love while doing it backwards. icons.#thanks for the prompt!!
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I don't really know where this lands on the scale of basic to hot take, but I don't see the locked tomb as a very overtly political series. Like yeah, it has a lot of subtext you can interpret politically, obviously, if that's your jam. but to me, the series has always been an intimate exploration of existing as a badly uncomfortable and isolated person. there are a lot of different reasons people in the series are fucked up, but the important thing to me is that they are. and that they're being witnessed. To me it's a love letter to all the deeply fucked up people out there (esp the deeply fucked up lesbians) saying "you exist, and someone sees you"
Edit: Since apparently people are linking to this post to interpret and argue with it indirectly, let me clarify. I don't mean the story is apolitical. I mean that as I see the story unfolding, the central narrative is focused on the characters, and the heart of the narrative is human connection and character exploration. Of course there are political themes being exploredâI've posted a lot about them myselfâbut that exploration is about asking a lot of questions I don't expect the series to necessarily answer.
Tamsyn Muir doesn't have the answer to colonialism. She does have the answer as to what will happen to two mentally unwell painfully lonely girls I suspect we've all grown quite attached to.
#like it's fun getting lost in the weeds sometimes#but I feel like we also gotta stay silly with it#the ground is soft and brother are we digging but the text itself is not that deep#the locked tomb#edit tags: if you want to talk anti colonialism in aotearoa i can direct you to my post about mÄori independence#if you live in aotearoa it contains a link you can follow to sign a petition supporting te pÄti mÄori's declaration of independence#if you don't live in aotearoa it's still worth learning about#and the reblogs have a lot more information from people who know a lot more than I do
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âGo touch some grass!!!!â
Me : Okay
The grass :
#mushroom oasis mychael#mushroom oasis#LIKE CMON!!! He can make DELICOUS meals#good with animals#kind and sweet little guy#possibly soft spoken#GENTLE#plus his aesthetic is cottage core#whho WOULDNT want to live with a sweet gentle man and his three cute hens inside a cozy house/or whatever?#like sure he hypnotized us so we could stay with him BUT I WOULDNT MIND#Iâm living with Mychael <3
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Draxum hadn't accounted for the fact that when he gave four hatchling turtles the DNA of a human being in order to give them greater intelligence, he would effectively be making himself a surrogate father to actual children, with wildly different needs.
When he sent his gargoyles to obtain a sample of DNA from Big Mama's prized warrior, the intention was to create his own. They were to be the prototypes for an army of simple creatures with just enough heightened intelligence to learn combat and follow commands, that he might defend Yokai kind with.
Instead, he quickly discovered the integration of human DNA had been a little over successful in allowing his test subjects to learn and think and feel in a civilized manner, going so far as to override some of their natural instincts as turtles that would otherwise allow them to learn to care for themselves. He had to feed them, by hand, with bottles.
Like infants.
They were easily distraught by unfamiliar things, and quickly became dependent on Draxum in every sense of the word. They babbled, they cried, they explored things with their hands, their tails, their mouths.
It was an unplanned adjustment needed to be made, but no matter. If anything, learning to understand the new hybrid emotions of these turtles would allow Draxum greater advantages when they grew enough to safely learn combat. Preferences, likes and dislikes, needs, diet, and so on, all became more complex areas of study.
Even a couple years in, he found himself continually surprised. Brain scans had shown that the turtles were more intelligent, still, than anticipated. They, truly, seemed more human in mind and function than anything else, with only some base instincts and behaviors left to influence their personalities. They retained many reptilian traits, but overall had the bipedal anatomy and function of humans and some Yokai. It had been an infuriating discovery at first, but Draxum had to admit that over time he became fond of it.
Each turtle had developed his own personality. The eldest, for example, had a love of plush toys, and showed a fierce protective instinct over the others. The youngest, Draxum had learned, was contrastedly reckless and excitable, not nearly so reserved or gentle as the first. Additionally, he was, decidedly, to be kept away from any and every writing utensil unless under strict supervision (unfortunately, this was learned a little too late, as was evidenced by the clear markings left in several work benches). Then, of course, were the slider and the softshell, who had the most bizarre relationship. They were constantly fighting with each other, but utterly inseparable, and each showed an incredible and unique curiosity, constantly exploring and watching and studying, with concentration filling their eyes in ways Draxum had never seen in other children so young.
Embarrassingly, it took another couple years before Draxum realized he couldn't simply refer to them by their species' names. It certainly was effective, but they were not the mild, simple creatures he had once expected them to be, and he knew that they never would.
Now, they were vocal, playful, inquisitive... energetic. By the gods, were they energetic. They never stopped moving, never stopped talking, never stopped eating, never stopped wanting or needing.
...This is why Draxum never had children of his own. It took all the time and energy he had to spare, and then some. Although it would be a lie to say he wished they were any other way.
They had so much capacity to learn, and with their emotional propensity could one day come to understand exactly why Draxum was doing this, which he knew would be an edge in their combative styles.
As he introduced them, slowly, to more of the world's culture and knowledge, he felt, in a new way, that their very existences were revolutionary. A perfect, synergistic unity between two entirely different families of genetic material, with numerous enhanced abilities. And they were children. They maintained all the properties of regular children, but had so much more in store! Such grand destinies! They would be, inarguably, the greatest warriors of their time when they were grown. They would be the compassionate, skillful heroes of all Yokai, the first of a new generation of super mutants, and the key to overcoming the evils of the humans who had overtaken the surface and posed such threat to all who lived below.
It was with great reluctance that he allowed himself to accept, however, that not all of mankind was evil. There were many forms of art, beautiful in different ways, there were some rare people filled with kindness, inventions that utilized resources in ways Yokai kind had never thought to. Perhaps he had been a little stubborn in his ways, a bias cementing over time that blinded him to some of the beauty that did yet exist in such a species.
Make no mistake, humans were a threat. Innocent families lived in fear, in hiding, of the governments and ruthless sciences designed to invade, to blaspheme the name of knowledge, with no regard for the safety of this people.
Draxum could live with being an outlaw to the Yokai if his experiments would lead to their salvation. He may be their villain in today's papers, but in history books he would be a hero.
Still, he wished to amend some of his practices. Even if only to his turtles, he would be known for his ability to change and understand. He would be fair, and he would be truthful.
And so it was that he told the turtles the nature of their existence. Perhaps he muted some of the details, to protect their minds until they had more understanding, but he would not lie to them about their DNA. He told them of Lou Jitsu, and their human genetics, and he begrudgingly allowed them access to the culture of the humans. He would let them choose their interests unbiased.
In the process, he came to know of some of the revolutionaries of human history. Though he wasn't particularly inclined to believe there were no evils involved, he was intrigued by the strange moral code that the humans boasted from their different time periods. The turtles, as well, were fascinated by the stories of war heroes and generals, seamstresses and inventors, artists and royalty.
Initially, when it came time to redesignate his turtles, Draxum had been inclined toward the names of those whose legacies persisted in the humans' culture even today- perhaps a president for the slider, a scientist for the softshell, a great general for the snapper, and an artist for the young box turtle. It seemed, somehow, clandestinely right; carefully considered to exemplify each of their personalities.
And although he had begun to get used to the possibility of names like "Monroe" and "Edison", his indecision on the matter seemed to be working against him. He was taking too long, and the boys were growing smarter.
It was a day in August, later that year, that he found his two youngest arguing over a Renaissance book, oddly enough. The elder two took to a game of knocking "secret patterns" on each other's carapaces, which he dismissed before he could allow himself the confusion that came with wondering why a five year old would want to knock on a spiked shell for fun.
After breaking up the fight and confiscating the book (which, as it turned out, the youngest only wanted because it had pictures in it, much to the chagrin of the other, who insisted that reading it was much better than just looking at the pictures), Draxum found himself idly flipping through pages of rustic images and rudimentary ideas, developed by people with strange names.
Maybe he was simply too tired to consider it properly, but, feeling defeated in his endeavor, he chose four names at random and assigned them to the young turtles, deciding it had been long enough.
It took a while to get used to, but soon "Raphael", "Leonardo", "Donatello", and "Michaelangelo" truly fit.
Over time, the boys grew... ravenous. They devoured everything- food, information, technique. They were learning quickly everything Draxum taught them. They practiced with Huginn and Muninn, leapt up, around, over, and through everything in the lab, and took special interest in action-filled films.
And Draxum grew fonder. He wasn't entirely surprised, of course; it's natural to develop some sense of sentimentality when caring for anything this long. Even if they had been the simple minded turtles he expected, he knew this was inevitable, to a degree.
What startled him was the sudden sense of fear that came with watching them train. The alarm that made his heart beat harder when one of them fell from somewhere high or any time they ran simple drills with weapons not blunted and made from wood.
He subtly began to intensify their defensive strategies, taught them where they were most vulnerable so they could protect those spots, insisted on perfecting their abilities to parry, block, and dodge before anything else.
And, over time, he found himself training them less often than before, thinking, "I must preserve their innocence and prolong their childhood experiences". After all, it was an essential part of development, was it not? If it were tarnished too much, they might become unwise or unjust as warriors. And, really, Raphael was only 8 years old, and he was the eldest; they were much too young to be exposed to the harshness of what their combative training was really for.
He told himself that, time and time again. He told them that, making certain they understood that their training was not a game. It wasn't untrue, certainly.
Really, he just wasn't ready. He wasn't ready to admit to what extent he cared about them, because it was too much. It was more than he could ever have been prepared for. It was more than that passion to protect Yokai kind ever was, and if he ever realized that, he might become the compromise to his own purposes, to the very reason these turtles exist this way to begin with, and then what? What was he to tell them, why was he to train them, who did they exist for if not the inhabitants of the Hidden City?
No. He couldn't do that. He simply would not allow it, not when so much was at stake.
And yet...
More and more often he desired simply to watch them. He was growing weary with worry, and with that tight feeling that arose in his chest each time one of his boys so much as frowned.
Raphael loved to carry his brothers on his shoulders. And he prided himself on being the big brother, in every way. He liked repeating instructions Draxum gave to the others, and tended to play caretaker anytime someone was sad, or had a bruised knee. He often played the "bad guy" in their made up games so the younger ones could "win", he was the mediator in big decisions, like what book they should read before bed, and he seemed always ready with an armful of stuffed animals when he wanted to express affection. So strong, incredibly strong, but soft spoken and sweet.
Leonardo adored Raphael. Just as Raphael did Draxum, Leonardo liked to imitate and repeat instructions. He tended to take charge in many of their childish endeavors, and had a propensity for dramatics and heroism, often pretending to rescue his brothers. This seemed to irritate Donatello to no end, unless he was also playing the hero, and often times he was. The two were usually glued to the hip, though Leonardo liked to make a point to tell all his brothers about everything that went on, and would take a movie night with the three of them over a one on one outing with Draxum any day. He was exuberant and joyous, and very driven by the concept of justice.
Donatello, similarly, seemed to care very dearly about maintaining a bond with all three of his brothers, but he was peculiar, often more reserved and enjoying his alone time. That child read and read like he might never get a chance to again, and he absorbed what he read like a sponge. Quite a few times Draxum found him pulling apart whatever he could get his hands on, and though an effort was made, there was no hiding place the boy couldn't discover in his quest for Draxum's tools. In spite of his quizzical, sometimes stoic nature, Donatello was sensitive, and very thoughtful. He would spend hours talking about his books and his ideas- some of which were very clever- and he was expressive in secondary ways- sitting nearer his brothers even without interacting, crafting things out of paper as gifts. Even the little heart-shaped mark on the back of his soft shell seemed a fitting part of him- he wore his heart on his sleeve, so to speak, and didn't even realize it.
And Michaelangelo. There was an innocence and joy and goodness about the smallest turtle that had struck Draxum. Even when he was younger he always wore a smile and liked to see the good side of things. And he idolized his brothers. With him had grown his creative inclinations, filling every colouring book, drawing on every wall, and absolutely plastering the other turtles with stickers. They were a pain to wash off, but Draxum couldn't bring himself to mind it, especially given the elder three always loved their baths. Ironically, it seemed Michealangelo did not, enjoying it only under specific circumstances. Heat, bubble bath, and bath toys had quickly become a necessity. So too did bath crayons, the need to express himself coming through even when bathing. Everything about the ornate box turtle was bright and colourful.
Draxum... loved them. Dearly. Every facet of their personalities and growth. Every unique trait and behavior.
It was terrifying. He couldn't afford to love them. He couldn't afford to see any more goodness in the humanity they showed. He couldn't afford to change his goals right now.
So he continued disregarding the feeling, trying to reason that everything he did for them was to nurture their instincts as warriors, as science experiments, as specimen.
But a pained scream one day, different from any of the ones he heard when they were frightened as infants, when one of them tripped and fell, when a spat led to hitting, sent his heart into his throat and had him racing through doorways with more urgency than he had felt for anything before.
He had demanded an explanation, panic translating to perceived anger, and three of his boys looked up with teary eyes. Three, but Donatello remained curled up on the ground, wailing his little heart out without ever looking up, and it was one of the most heart wrenching, painful sounds Draxum'd ever heard.
Raphael sat not far from the smaller boy, looking over his shoulder seemingly at nothing, at Donatello, then up at Draxum and back again. Both Leonardo and Michaelangelo burst into frantic, panicked explanations, none of their words coherent enough to understand through their tears.
When Raphael stood, exposing red-tipped spikes on his shell and pointing frantically to Donatello's, it didn't take long to figure out well enough what had happened.
It became quickly a very long day. All four turtles were distraught, and though Draxum had more than enough first aid knowledge to address the situation, bile had threatened to rise the very moment he pulled out the suture kit.
The cuts were deep, and jagged. And poor Donatello cried the entire time, even after a numbing agent had been applied.
Draxum had never thought that in depth about Donatello's soft shell. Not like that. He chose a softshell for the experiment because it would provide greater flexibility, greater agility. It gave an advantage that the hard-shelled turtles did not have.
Now, here... The soft carapace, spongy and leathery and bloody...
It was an accident. Of course it was, Draxum never doubted that. He had to assure that none of his boys were in trouble, no one was in trouble, no one had done anything wrong.
But for the first time he had to be honest with himself. For the first time he couldn't deny how much he cared about the turtles. His turtles. His boys.
He wouldn't, either. If this was what it was, if this was something that could happen again because he insisted on making them into warriors, into fighters- if this could happen on purpose, if this could happen worse, if this could happen with malice and hatred in mind...
Draxum wasn't unused to physical affection, by now. All four boys adored hugs, although Donatello was usually more reserved about them. Now, Donatello clung like his life depended on it, sniffling and whimpering, having cried so long he had no more tears. Draxum clung back, idly smoothing over the edges of the bandages, holding the frightened, exhausted turtle to his chest, cradling.
He did so until well after Donatello fell asleep. He couldn't bring himself to put him down. He accompanied the others to bed, assuring them once more that things were alright, and then simply stood in the walkway, holding his boy tightly.
He couldn't do this. He couldn't go through with it. They were children, every bit as innocent and deserving as the Yokai he wished to avenge and protect. He could train them, prepare them to protect themselves, but he could never send them into battle, ask them to put their lives on the line, much less demand it.
How could he?
It took months of processing, of agonizing his way through the healing process with Donatello, of watching the other boys proving their humanity, their curiosity, and their innocence time and time and time again. His mind was constantly at war with itself, his heart constantly in turmoil and distress, worsened by the turtles' confusion at his sudden change in behavior.
What was even worse was that they would.
They would absolutely sacrifice everything they had for his approval, and for what they understood as "right". He could see them, easily, being willing to submit their very lives to a greater cause if he asked it.
But was he "right"? Even if this experiment had gone exactly as planned, was he right for ever considering putting these turtles into the station of a warrior? Even if they had remained turtles in mind, if they never expressed complex emotion, if they could not speak, if they did not have distinct and colourful personalities, would it have been right?
Was what he saw in them now what they would have been at heart, regardless of circumstance?
Or was it the humanity, that he stole from Lou Jitsu?
Perhaps... perhaps it was time to learn. To consider the root of his motivations.
He couldn't do this to them.
How could he?
#rottmnt#rise of the tmnt#rise donnie#rise leo#rise raph#rise mikey#baron draxum#rise draxum#rottmnt fanfiction#whump#blood mention#rise lou jitsu#lou jitsu#(only mentioned)#to be honest with you I wrote this on a whim and i don't even really know why I felt inclined to#but I really like it#maybe i just needed to get some thoughts and feelings out#and I think this'd make a REALLY cool AU idea#would anyone want to see more?#if there were interest I think this'd be a lot of fun#lou jitsu stayed with big mama in her Battle Nexus and never met Draxum face to face#Draxum kept the turtles and He's A Good Dad Actually By Accident#he slowly learns to love the turtles like a real father and even to appreciate a bit of humanity through them#and when he finally realizes that he starts questioning his beliefs and morivations#he decides not to make the turtles his warriors because they're his KIDS#and the idea moving forward is that he would find Lou Jitsu and learn about humanity#Lou in turn would have developed a hatred for yokai because of his Bad Times as an unwilling warrior#and we get a whole mess of changed roles and bizarre moral conflicts#threw in the Raph Accidentally Hurt Donnie's Soft Shell When They Were Kids trope#that's a good one hehe
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#ts4#ts4 simblr#magnolia#her bedroom#it came out so soft and nice#just dancing#in her room#5 coffee's in#almost completed her home#just need to add some stuff#wasn't sure how to decorate it#happy i pushed myself to stay in game and get it done#i want to live in her home#not even a lie
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Small GlamMike au sketch
After being given his new body, it doesn't take long for Micheal to realize the features that transferred over from Freddy wasn't just the clothes.
#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#glammike#micheal afton#fnaf micheal#fnaf au#its mostly just the teeth#i originally wanted him to stay all human but i have a soft spot for characters with fangs
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this picture isnt real its all happening in twilights head and she's listening ta this as she's having her bi horse fantasies
un blurred below the cut as well as the lineart with flats cuz i want ta show it off sue me
edit: ignore that the images changed slightly i noticed a shading error i missed and it was bothering me đ
#mlp#twishy#fluttertwi#mlp fim#my little pony#my little pony friendship is magic#fluttershy#twilight sparkle#spacie scribbles#twilight narration voice: ''i have to go...'' id say ''its getting late and i need to put spike to bed''#fluttershy would yawn. a gentle cute noise befitting for such a cute pony before she would turn her head sleepily towards me#she would look at me with her big beautiful eyes and study me for a moment before saying in her sweet soft voice#''are you sure you dont want to stay the night? i would hate for something to happen for you on your walk back home...''#oh fluttershy...always looking out for her friends. such a caring and gentle soul. my heart would swell at the thought although#id hesitate....and in response fluttershy would get closer and gently push her muzzle against mine...#''please twilight...stay the night...''#my heart would be galloping out of my chest as the moon would gently glow through the window#the pale light highlighing all of fluttershy's delicate features#its as if luna herself planted the moon in this specific way...on this specific night... just for us....#spikeâ interrupting the daydream: twilight are you...narrating a self insert you wrote abt you and one of your best friends???#twilight: ....NO. BUT. DONT TELL ANYONE ABOUT THIS OKAY#spike: oookay! you got it. i wont tell a soul.#*he then tells everyone except fluttershy*#im crazy guys i swear#i just wrote fanfic abt twilight sparkle writing fanfic#she has a fanfic section of the library its all just her x fluttershy#good lord these horses.
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i knew Soft Launch reached the right audience when the comments about the wlw dating being deeply relatable piled up lmao
#i think if you go there you either had or inevitably will have one very disastrous wlw date#the kind of date that seems so fake when you tell others about it but youâve lived through the horrors đ#and they always last at least 24h with staying the night#like you go there with a spare undie and a toothbrush in your tote bag#knowing it will NOT end well but the lengths you go to kiss a girl who lives 500km away and matched with you on a dating app#in a pool of like seven other lesbians if you live in a rural area#or even in a big city itâs always the same faces eventually and you get tired of dating your exes ex and her other ex#anyway. soft launch is for the queers i feel like i need to say that loud and clear#itâs also for the yearners and those who havenât given up on love yet. despite everything.#itâs for the invisible children who want to be seen but also are incredible afraid of being seen#itâs for those from broken homes who need proof that found family exists and can heal many things. not everything. but a whole lot of it.#crying in the clerb about my own fic okay!!!!#iâm not in the club i have anxiety but my point stands#soft launch is for you if it speaks to you <3#-`âĄÂ´- tulip mail
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Canât stop thinking about an actor au where sukuna is famous for notoriously always playing the brutish, evil, non redeemable villain in every movie heâs in but then irl heâs just a nice, down to earth guy who loves his nephew who also acts and his wife (you)
#riv rambles#donât look at me I just want to write soft sukuna#without being tough and rugged to stay in character#â sukuna.
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