#but i really cant dude this blog is my life lmfao

[jennilah]

I think i started to follow you bc of tiny!cas, like eons ago, let me tell you seeing you get into different fandoms over the years has been a delight.

I remember seeing post of you going like 'hey these slasher film kinda go hard' and look at you know.

I mean this in the best way possible, I feel i've been watching a house plant grow, every now and then catching my attention and being amazed by the changes

omg thats such a sweet way of describing my... well happy autism awareness day everyone, its a nice way of describing the way i naturally transition through my Special Interests lmfao

actually, for the holiday, let me infodump about this very aspect of my brain to anyone who isnt aware how this works for me. (also every autistic person is different, so this is just how this symptom manifests in me)

ill say "phases" to simplify, though thats an unfair word because it implies im "over" my past phases. 99% of my past phases are pretty much there for life, but in the back of my mind. (So long as I didnt have a "bad breakup" with it for some reason, which is rare but happens) The ability to become a raving lunatic about it is dormant until someone asks the right question.

There can only be one interest (sometimes 2, with one being the less dominant one) at the forefront of my brain at a time, though. that defines the "phase".

so for example, my recent Halloween phase is "over" and I am 100% fully into Saw now, but I still absolutely love Halloween and Michael and Jason and all those guys. as evident by me still happily sharing gifsets and art and buying merch etc if it tickles my fancy. They're just hanging out in the background of my mental display case.

yea whoever follows my tumblr for a very long time has watched it happen in realtime. the transition between interests. i know for a fact which phase I started this blog on. if you're here from the beginning, youve seen, in order:

-Durarara!! -Deus Ex -Supernatural -Godzilla -Detroit: Become Human -There was like a few weeks where it was HLVRAI -And then it was plants. There was a year-long stretch with no Special Interest and I was latching onto odd things (and I was very inactive here) -Halloween & Friday the 13th -and now, Saw

I have many other things I love, but they don't clamp around my brain in quite the same extreme way.

my phases can last any amount of time, anywhere from a few short intense months to 5+ years, its completely random, completely unpredictable. even the interest itself is impossible to predict. its not something i choose, its something that happens to me.

sometimes i avoid watching things for a long time because im still very emotionally attached to my current phase and im genuinely afraid the shiny new thing will replace it. all art or fic ideas for the previous phase? theyll be abandoned. all I will want to create will be related to the new thing. (though I will sometimes draw it anyway, like digging up old toys to play with once in a while. The likelihood just drops considerably)

which is why right now i pretty much put a pause on the other franchises I plan on watching. I'm genuinely gripping onto Saw like someone is tryin to take it from me.

and then sometimes im like "haha yeah right. ill be fine. ill eat my shoe if my brain latches to this" and then put on the movie and by the credits roll im a new person (yes thats what happened with Saw. I really had no idea.)

this is also why im terrified of even just "checking out" things that have, like, a toxic fanbase or something, because i cant stop a new phase from happening if it does. and its really hard to keep it to myself, fuck

(do u know how mad i was when i realized i was attaching to hoffman the evil dirty cop??? i was so scared of drawing him, dudes. but thankfully everyones been cool abt it and we're all very aware of his awfulness & we have fun w it)

and every time my brain changes and i do get obsessed with some new thing, i get really scared and worried and hope I dont bother everyone who followed me for something else :(((( and yet, every time, im absolutely floored by how many people choose to tolerate my newest nonsense and stick around anyway

anyway ive lost the plot of what point i was making here OH YEAH thank you!

tl;dr: that would be the autism! thank you, it WILL happen again! that is a threat! 🥰

[selfundiagnosed]

why is it mean for someone to tell you you should get help? you're obviously in a lot of distress and should see someone about it for your own mental health...these 'patterns' you're leaning into are only exarcerbating your mental condition. but if you want to embrace your psychosis and go completely off the rails i guess that's your prerogative

to insinuate that a.) i dont know about my own mental state & wellbeing and you need to “tell me” because the psychosis makes it so i cant notice how it affects how i function every single day of my life b.) i need to delete my socials because of what someone else did to me to put me in this state c.) you somehow have any idea whats going on in my life, if im being treated, what symptoms im experiencing, that I legitimately cant tell ~whats real~ d.) noticing patterns doesnt mean im going off the deep rail LMFAO is all the stupidest shit ever.

for future reference, how you and the other anon are approaching someone you perceive as experiencing active psychosis is going to put people in active psychosis in danger to themselves. its funny to see random anons tell me what im experiencing and what i need to do about it to fix it when its evident from how this was approached you don’t actually care about me you just want to make yourselves feel like youre above me for whatever reason. “but if you want to embrace your psychosis and go completely off the rails i guess that's your prerogative” and “Deactivate your TikTok, delete the app and go see a psychologist” are sooo condescending. yeah deleting an app is absolutely gonna fix this problem. a diagnosis ive had since i was 15. stupid shits idek what to say like are you both actual tiktok teenagers who think they know everything about everything because get off my blog you suck so bad lmaooo sooo condescending. Im completely capable of making my own decisions im 22 lol i dont need tumblr anons i cant see telling me to do shit im doing already. i have a psychiatrist. ive been seeing him for years. i have a therapist. i saw her after my psychosis got retriggered. i know i am sick! i literally cant leave my house! when i do… i freak the fuck out! for HOURS !!! my family and friends all know how deeply this affects me and i promise you none of them have said this shit to me the way you and the “other anon” did. i stopped socializing, i havent made any new friends, i cant trust the people i do know im not close to anymore. i promise you i know WAYYY more than you about how it impacts me way more than you. my socials are the one open window i didnt put curtains on. i completely control what you all are able to see theough leaving this tiny window unclothed for the internet to look into my life. i dont need random people to see my jokes on my blog about my delusions and tell me its a delusion like im being very tongue in cheek about all of my delusional posts. i absolutely believe them but im making fun of myself for how crazy i sound.

i really have not a clue why youd think this is an appropriate way to approach it but it leads me to believe youre a tiktok user who probably thought the dude that manipulated his way into a famous persons house while she was manic was a Good Idea because clearly she wouldnt get help. lmfao its bad in so many facets. imagine if i was fully and completely immersed in my paranoia and delusions of being a targeted individual (which is the root of everything im experiencing right now): ask yourself how would you feel YOU felt targeted by a higher entity and now random anonymous people are telling you what you’re experiencing and how youre treated everyday isnt real and youre crazy. like to us its so very real and no amount of rationalizing makes it better. i have only small interactions every once in a blue moon these days that makes me think i could be okay and that im not being targeted and then every single day multiple times a day its shown to me continuously. this included! you and the “other anon” should really reevaluate how you talk to people in severe mental crisis because this is like the exact opposite of how you should react to seeing someone delusion posting or whatever and it shows me you dont know a single loved one with who experiences this shit.

in the future, fucking look into how you approach someone struggling. if i wasnt as lucid in my psychosis or in touch with reality you genuinely could have put me in danger. im going to send you and anyone on my blog watching me like im a circus act off with this so you never put anyone in my position in a state of self harm. but if youre too lazy to click on the link im showing you anyways

[princeyadon]

im like 80% unhappy w my entire plot outline for ask-andante but ive sunk so much of myself into it that i cant stop now---

ill never reboot a blog. i wouldn't just up and delete 3 years worth of posts and myself learning because im now unhappy the more i learn abt storytelling

id have to start over again anyways and build up everything again, and tbh, i dont even have that kind of time.

im hoping the blog i do after will be better paced, better planned out, and have more substance in the content

and ill be the damn first to gripe on my blog and its content

mini spoilers, most of which will be brought up in canon sometime this week or the next anyways

As much as I wouldn’t rewrite my entire story, nor would I reboot the blog, I’d fucking loooove to retcon specific posts. I’ve gone back and actually edited a few but I still don’t appreciate the way they portrayed characters.

ask-andante’s biggest short-coming is where i decided to start the story (an unfortunate result of planning on just having a comedy blog that id abandon in a week). it’s much later in his life and all the learning and excitement and character development andante’s gone through is already over. i understand this to be a major reason for why the side characters tend to be much more interesting than him, as they’re growing and learning, and are willing to learn. andante’s personality type is kind of hard to play as a main character.

i also know celtia’s sudden turn to be honest is still really.. sudden. it kind of comes from no where when you read it. i really really want to address this w him before i close his arc, so it can at least be explained. i think i might be able to find an opening for it in an ask soon.

andante would especially do better if he had someone to play off of, someone he likes to interact with... but unfortunately w the way ive set everything up, if he did have someone like that on the blog (as in a character of mine and not someone else’s), things would go much differently and i dont feel like rewriting everything.

i could potentially find a way to insert a character like this, but id have to write them out and develop them, along w backstories, motivation, goals, future, and even just a reason to be friends w Andante. Celtia’s reasonings make more sense. He wasn’t aware of what Andante was like, and w him using Aroma Therapy, never got to see that his dangerous side was serious because he would diffuse situations before they could escalate. Save for the DJ post, and attacking him. He did mention he was going to leave if it happened again, I suppose. But that’s who Celtia is, he’s starved for attention and approval, the whole reason he disguised his looks was because he wanted to be perfect and attractive, he wanted that approval from people. He figured Andante was just some edge lord who would come around, and he was so desperate to have that.

A lot of Celtia’s older posts are too edgy and I’d love to rewrite those so he was less like Andante abt the whole thing---to put it one way. It was understandable he was having panic attacks, and was extremely defensive abt his Perfect Presentation being destroyed after he had won friendships and approval from askers. But I just really don’t like the way he comes off in them. I wish he looked more frightened, rather than angry. I also wish I hadn’t supported the fuckin ship so much, i went back and deleted a lot of the boyfriendy tags, but admittedly there was a bit of pressure from the community. Nothing direct, i cant pin this blame on any one person and i never will as it was my fault, but i noticed how many more notes the andanstilbe posts got and how many people liked the ship that i kept forcing it, hoping to receive that approval myself

Back again to a character for Andante to play off of--w his next few major arcs, it’s even harder to get a character in that balances out Andante while also positively interacting w him. Andante’s goals aren’t good goals, and he’ll go through any length of sacrificing others for them, and getting a level headed, down to earth, or positive/upbeat character not to try and stop Andante would be difficult without coming up w some strange reason why they don’t. If anyone tried to stop Andante, he’d kill them as they’d be “betraying” him... you can see why writing Andante’s interactions can be fuckin difficult, because of the way he is from recent events (which will have a portion of an arc dedicated to those events), he is much too quick to cut ties and literally kill people because he’s afraid of betrayal/heartbreak.

Overall, I worry for the content of the blog to be just another boring gore fest or whatever, with no real character development or world development tied into it. Actually, it’s literally just one arc that I’m worried for because of this, but I don’t want this arc to ruin a lot of the “story” I have set up.

I also don’t like how everyone is all talk, and there’s nothing actually going on. I get that it’s because Celtia’s arc is going on rn, and his is just getting into his past before he’s gone... which, it can’be helped too much that it’s all talk since it’s going back into the past and all... but that’s what this whole blog has been.

i guess i could pull a 2yr anni, and instead of just regular flash backs and all talk, we actually go back to those eras and have them as semi interactable. I really need to take into consideration the format i am using to tell this story, the fact it’s an ask blog and interactive and not a comic or whatever. But characters would all need to be like voices or doubts, or generic characters from the time period--depending on where these events take place.

I could always have that happen and then only specific times in the past are interactable, and every now and then it breaks away into something streamlined... As much as I’d like to not create a barrier between plot and asks anymore than I have in the past, I can’t have everything weirdly interactable you know?? If it’s a past event that’s already happened? But it’d be better than the character staring at the floor talking like it’s ask-a-therapist over here

i wish i could rant more abt my own fuckin blog but id be getting too into major spoilers over it.

at this point, im just happy if the blog serves as a fun read rather than anything serious, and is good entertainment value. it’s my first story ive even tried to go through with, and i should respect that a bit more and accept it for what it is, and when i try again i will have put these ideas to better use.

[dabihaul666]

Anyways I'm not doing well in the hell of my own making but also not my making because that's life

[debtdeath]

opinions and headcanons about shy sniper, go

oooh hmm… i think there are different types of "shy" and sniper fits some of them more than others? folks will have you believe (in life and in writing characters i suppose) that you have to be a shy introvert OR an extrovert that physically embodies the song party rock anthem by lmfao and there’s no variation or nuance dependent on context, but nah.

the ways i think sniper’s shyness or closed-off/reserved nature manifest and/or differ from typical "shy" tropes:

- like i said previously i think he’s outwardly friendly (especially in one-on-one situations) while being very guarded about his own private life and emotions. i think he tends to stay quiet and aloof in group settings, mostly observing everyone else, perhaps he’ll occasionally say one thing in a moment of silence and its like, the funniest thing everyone’s ever heard or whatever but that’s the extent of how he behaves in a relatively large group. hardly the life of the party i’d say, although i do believe he has experimented with many (booze and drug-fueled) social situations and personae in his early 20s before going yeah nah im alright lol

- a lot of his emotional distance comes not just from being brought up in a cultural paradigm of masculine self-repression and australian stoicism, but also his obsession with appearing professional and polite at all cost, which i believe stems from wanting validation from his parents lol, and he thinks as long as he's in control of his image, his emotions, etc then he might really start believing that he is who his parents and his mates think he is. futile endeavour.

- because of this thing about "being in control" (while under the surface being honestly governed by emotions but he'll deny it entirely) i don't really see him as a bumbling, stammering blushing shy dude you know what i mean. it's simply not how i would write him but i fully don't mind if that's how people choose to interpret him

- he's the kind of guy who will start getting a lot chattier once he's comfortable with whoever he's talking to, especially if it's about a subject he's interested in or knows a lot about

- not fazed about being nude in front of people lmao... he just sort of doesn't care. spending a non-negligible amount of time camping in the bush will do that to you. this man really said "i cant tell anyone if im feeling sad but its ok if they see my penis"

- an extension of shyness is awkwardness and i can absolutely see sniper just fucking up interactions completely and not knowing how to react when someone's like, having some sort of emotional crisis or anything out of the usual like that lol. he's the type of guy who will pat your shoulder in silence and that's like. that's the show of affection. cheers bro

- a number of people headcanon sniper as autistic and i agree! my responses here are likely influenced by that reading as well.

yes we are analysing the piss man's psyche on this blog... what of it

[madeoftwinklingstars]

ok tumblrinas are u ready. btvs live blog go

1.1

LMFAO can’t get over the 90’s ass voice over in the beginning literally making me laugh out loud

heehee intro as a whole …. with the rock like yasss slay

guys the jew representation in this show is off the charts. sarah michelle gellar and the other main character is willow rosenberg? no one ever talks about this. this is a jew show irl

alyson is so cute it’s so funny that they try to make her “nerdy” with a shitty outfit like. what???? she’s still like. so pretty.

meet cute mome with buffy and xander .. classic

also buffy’s first day outfit is soooo cute n so is she. love

xander’s sheer shirt is like boygirl chic supreme. loveee again

GERM WAREFARE????????? WHAT

free my bitch willow she aint done nothing but be sustainable

love him already (giles) why is he like this

giles is boygirl supreme actually i’ve decided or maybe he’s just british

GIRL REALLY THOUGHT HE COULD PLACE DOWN A BOOK OF VAMPYR AND NOT FREAK OUT????

sometimes joss whedon writes shit and like. u just have to sit and think

did people talk like this in the 90s

i love how buffy is like fuck this shit like yes girl fuck this shit

no bc the way that it must be so hard to hold this secret and have to watch her destroy not just her life but her mom’s and everyone around her’s…

yasss girl live in ur dark cave, chant ominously and give us nothing 😍😍

“hi! im an enormous slut!” pissing myself

if this was me and i was 16 i would not be allowed to go to a club. like? girl do u care abt ur daughter at all?

this dude in his velvet coat….. and being destroyed by buffy instantly… yeah… yeah…

if this is the place to be in sunnydale i think i’d just never leave my house if i lived there

WHEN DOES WILLOW BECOME A LESBIAN 😭😭 i know she does i just can’t wait

ok but jesse literally can’t catch a hint like leave her alone

FREE MY BITCH WILLOW make her a lesbian now so she doesn’t fall for this vampire dick

“what is your childhood trauma” the way i have fully said these words before but in an entirely different context

the vampire makeup is sooo funny tho i think we need to bring back practical effects exclusively so we can have gold like this again

i know by young and fresh they mean virgins and i just don’t know why they don’t just say it

kinda love how they chose this dark ass place to hide the shitty fight choreography and makeup

thinking about how joss whedon went on to write parts of the MCU and u can literally hear the quips starting now LMFAO

love the overarching plot explanation now… we need that structure yasss

1.2

wow literally forgot this was a 2 parter but also they put their whole pussy into this shit

the amount of christian mythology here does give it negative points for being a jew show :/

dirty cave back 😍😍 we love to see it… candle lit, large throne, perfect for all

ALSO PISSING MYSELF WITH HOW THE VAMPIRES ARE LISPING WITH THE FUCKING TEETH IN THEIR MOUTHS 😭😭😭 LITERALLY LMFAO

this show is soooo acab like yes the police cant do anything and only come with guns 😍

this show is actually so feminist because the 4 main protagonists are all women

fuck this guy (the principal)

i love her (buffy)

the cross is so ugly but i know they had to make it this big to show up on the shitty fucking quality of the tvs in the 90s

velvet coat guy’s name is angel and it’s like they want u to trip over the plot

sooo true xander i would also skip chem class

when she’s experienced and is willing to cut someone’s head off with an x-acto knife

fuck that guy (cordelia)

i love her (willow)

girlies RUN….

NOT THE LISPS AGAIN 😭😭

jesse is infinitely more interesting as a vampire and im happy they freed him from being boring

giles in rolled sleeves is strangely attractive to me. actually i think i just think giles is weirdly hot in general. maybe it is because he is british.

phantom of the opera ass score like DUNDUN DUN DUN

who wrote that essay about the inherent sexuality of vampires. yeah… yeah…

“the thtarths themthelveths will hide!” please

i do feel so bad for buffy tho like fr society if she just could be normal

crying over the heads of garlic just there in her supply box. like how would be use those to stop them 😭😭

ok but like. is them going to a club and drinking the drinks there implying that they are always drunk at the bronze at 16 year olds??? it’s so weird

cordelia needs to listen to goodbye earl by the chicks and i think that would fix her

90s censorship laws be like. no blood allowed! but yes to 16 year olds at clubs!

ok maybe i do rly like this show like a lot

buffy should be included in discussions of feminism fr like she walked so y’all could run

giles immediately getting taken down by a vampire is truly the most camp and hilarious thing he could do

the master lying and screaming on the floor no is so me core!

angel shut the fuck up have faith

u averted the apocalypse for now

i love how buffy has friends like :’) yay she’s not alone anymore

[loxxxlay]

@maidenofmidguard tagged me to do the Tap Game :D

Tap game by @bad-behavior

1. List your top three whump tropes and tag people.

2. Whoever gets tagged gets to say how they feel about your top three tropes.

3. After finishing that, they can list their top three tropes, and the tagging cycle goes on!

So here are @maidenofmidguard's top 3 tropes and my thoughts on each:

1) big strong guy getting put in a cage abd getting touched .. taken around on aleash .. the whumper exhibiting him, where everyone can touch and inspect the goods of our gut fights but he cant because he has secrets to keep and people to protect. So he is tsken advantage of. He is the party favor being passed around.

um..... -looks self-incriminatingly at the hints of this trope in my fic on our terms- im not turned on right now, UR turned on right now alsd;khg;lashdglaskhg

2) sick fic sick fic. Big strong dude who never gefs sick is now sick. People realizing belatedly that he is seriously sick and are surprised to see that he needs help. People fanning pver him .. kissing him on his head while he burns up in fever.

i likeeeee this, for sure. i def prefer the "weaker" dude getting sick with this exact trope moreeeeee, but i'm not one to complain about my strong bae getting sick either. * _ * (also you can always make them both sick mwahahaha)

3) the strong-willed whumpee made submissive in front of his old friends and family. Better yet the family has given up whumpee to the whumper as a last ditch resort to keep thier kingdom safe.

"being made submissive in front of his old friends and family" is literally The Shit and i will die for it. like the absolute humiliation and embarrassment. While this is very much not a Walking Dead blog (yet.... >.>), I will say that when Daryl literally was "the help" when Negan first visited Alexandria, and Rick had to silently watch Daryl be treated like a total fucking slave in order to keep Alexandria safe, like.... Daryl/Rick is not usually sexy to me, but I definitely had a Thing happen in that moment lmfao. so this trope? yeah. Please. Yes.

Alright now it's time for my top 3 favorites:

And good fucking lord I'm already struggling, so we are going to just... name 3 favorites, and not necessarily top favorites, because let's be honest, my whims change daily if not hourly.

Mutual noncon/dubcon.

Shocking, right? It's hilarious because back in my wee fandom days in 2014ish, I would never read mutual noncon "fuck-or-die" scenarios because they didn't do it for me. And now look at me.

I think that it works best for me when there is still a semblance of a choice. Like where full-tilt death is not magically imminent, but the consequences are still implicit and severe. Even if they are rushed, panicking, etc, they still need to make a deliberate conscious clear-headed choice at some point to have sex with each other, even though the situation is nonconsensual. (As opposed to like... being in heat/mindless or whatever.)

I espeeeeecially like it if One of them makes the choice moreso than the other. Like, for example, the Character A can't stand to see Character B face the consequences, so Character A chooses for them both, even though Character B might have preferred the consequences. It's still mutual noncon/dubcon -- neither of the characters wanted it -- but one character is still consenting more than the other, and that fucking kills me guys, it really really does.

Caretaker is an accidentally (or perhaps overprotectively) bad caretaker and makes things (temporarily) worse.

This is a Big Thing I do in my original fiction, but I've only touched on it very briefly in fanfiction I think. I could definitely do that more... For example in "Forget Me Not, Remember Still" (or whatever i called that shit lol), the first chapter where Thor and Loki receive a note from the Grandmaster, Thor is so angry and upset (and scared) that he starts yelling--and since Loki is nearby, he feels himself to be the target for the anger. Not in an abusive way, of course, because Thor is trying his absolute best, but in a way that isolates Loki when he really, truly needs affection. Which, unfortunately, makes this trope the inciting incident of this fic lmfao. Sorry, Thor~~

In an original fiction of mine, one of the characters is trying to help a rape survivor recover, but one of his strategies is to forbid her from leaving the house (because she might get raped again, who knows). Which is like ... re-traumatizing ... because even while the overprotection is well-intentioned, it strips her of her choices and agency again.

I also would like to recommend @veliseraptor 's Will to Live because I always do when I get a chance, and it has so much of this trope in it. I feel like "caretaker learns through trial and error how to be a good caretaker" is literally the thematic element of this fic which is what makes it so appealing to me. :')

Brain fucked-uppery resulting from some kind of abuse.

Um, so first of all, Moment of Peace is this. All because Thor, in Infinity War, had his head literally start to be melted by Thanos, like.... the aftermath of that whump was ROBBED from me, and I am angry.

I especially like this when it is a character who has never experienced whump in their life lmfao, because they're so Tough... Because it terrifies them, they don't know what to expect, they don't know if it will get better, and they're just in a primal state of panic and paranoia and it's great. (aka Thor).

But then again, I also especially like this trope when it is a repeated pattern of behavior that is always constantly on their mind and causing them a long-term dimmer state of panic and paranoia which is also great (aka Loki).

I also like this trope when it causes kinda... a distortion of reliability/an unreliable narrator kinda deal. Like again, in The Walking Dead, a recent episode explored this trope with the character Princess, and I'm just like * _ * More more more.

Alright, it's been a long time, but hopefully you all remember how this goes. I hate tagging people. It makes me feel bad. So instead of handpicking usernames, I'm just going to tag all of you.

And when I say I am tagging all of you, I literally mean ALL OF YOU. If you have eyeballs reading this shit, you are fucking tagged. If you have eardrums vibrating with this shit, you are fucking tagged. I am unsure of how else you could be perceiving this shit, but if you are, you are fucking tagged. There's no "technically" about it. This is a fully legitimate tag, and it includes you. Go, be free, and do the meme if you'd like to.

[threeracha]

another get to know me! :”)

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🌙 LAST Drink: green tea w honey! ilvoe tea :D”D”D”DDD

Text Message: i texted myself pictures of my textbook to note @ my grandparents’ house  Phone Call: i called myself bc i lost my phone in my room earlier,,,,, LMFOA OMFG HTIS IS SAD Song you listened to: jerk - ikon :””””) lmfao,,,,,, im highkey just big heart eyes w ikon’s return album im sobbing STILLLLL Time you cried: after school yesterday bc i was thinking abt dying alone,,,n stuff like that lmao

🌙 HAVE YOU EVER Dated someone twice: no Kissed someone and regretted it: my first kiss was ,,,, bad timing,,,,,, we never saw each other again after that night LMFAO Lost someone special: yea :((((  Been depressed: when have i not lskdlfkj KIDDDING,,, i mean,,,,,i,,,dk,,,,,  Been drunk and thrown up: no i hate vomiting and will do anything to AVOID tbh

🌙 IN THE PAST YEAR HAVE YOU Made a new friend: ye i lvo frends Fallen out of love: how do u fall outta smth u were never in 😪 LMFAO Met someone who changed you: i think everyone i meet changes som aspect of myself to a certain degree,,,,,,,,,,,,, Found out who your true friends are: idk,,,,,, im honestly,,,, a huge doormat,,,i cant tell who actually cares 4 me tbh OOPS Found out someone was talking about you: LMAO :P dont have this prob bc of my major irrelevancy cc; ,,, imean not TO BRAG BUT ----- 

🌙 GENERAL How many people on tumblr do you know in real life?: ik 4 irls tumblrs (not mutuals,,, lmfao,,,,, none of them know i have tumblr actually) + one of them i accidentally found i STILL CRY ABT IT I DONT WANT TO REVEAL WHAT THEIR BLOG WAS FOCUSED ON BUT DEF NOT WHAT I WAS EXPECTING SLKDJFLS Do you have any pets?: 2 bunnies and 1 goldfish!!!!!!! Do you want to change your name?: ye ig,,, my name feels rlly basic ( I MEAN NO OFFENSE TO JASMINES IN THE WORLD I JUST FEEL LIKE IDK LSKDJFLKJD F ) What time did you wake up this morning: 5:30am,,, then 5:40,,,,,,,, then 6:05 What were you doing last night: practicing the presentation i bombed :D Something you cannot wait for: to be done with high school i h8 it sm :( Have you ever talked to a person named tom?: does,,,,, thomas count? What’s getting on your nerves right now: when people are F A  K E as HELL to me,,, like GODDDD,,,, i dont wanna sound like hella salty or bitter but jfc it’s not like i can’t tell or anyth,,,,,,,, be transparent w/ me b!!!!!!!!!ahaha i mean not to shaaaaaade but LMFAO.  Blood type: o (i tested this in bio 2 yrs ago but this year i didnt test for the rh antigen bc im a wimp and cant prick my own finger again) Nickname: jas,,,, jace,,,,,,,,,, rissa idek if u follow this blog but bongbong  Relationship status: AHHAHHAHAH WOT THIS------------------- Zodiac sign: sagittarius Pronouns: s/h Favorite show: MOM IS SO FUNNY College: ???? WHAT IS THIS ASKING EXACTLY LDSKJFLKFJ,,, i am in college???? on my “second” year i guess Hair colour: naturally eh eh  black but i dye it brown Do you have a crush on someone: SIGH ,,,, IDDDKKKKKKKK ANYMOREOOEEEEOEOEO i think i do BUT I ALSO HATE HIM SO000000 MUCH  What do you like about yourself: u said wot now m8?????

🌙 FIRSTS First surgery: i had smth when i was young,,,,,,, i dont remember what it was lmfaoooo,,,,,, but i remember coming out of the hospital blind af and had to wear jankass “sunglasses” that flew away the moment the door WHOOSHED open First piercing: 6 months old First sport you joined: i,,,, d,,,ont,,,,s,,po,,r,t,,,,,,, First vacation: i went to seattle when i was ~6 months old,,, that’s where my ears were pierced LMAO First pair of sneakers: ?? HOW WOULD I KNOW THIS IM????????? WAGTLKJLKJFLKJC prob som ssketcher shit

🌙 RIGHT NOW Eating: lychee I’m about to: wash my face Listening to: my brother rage @ his xbox Want kids: um,,,,, doesnt matter if i have my own kids or not but i really want to adopt at least one kid Get married: i mean,,,,, if someone can tolerate me SSURE sounds cool Career: LMFAO,,,,,,, a student,,,,,, but im,,,, failing,,, does that still count

🌙 WHICH IS BETTER Lips or eyes: HMMMM LIPS!!!! i dont have an eye preference or wtvr but dEF CANT STAND WHEN U GOT SOM CHAPP AF LIPPIES Hugs or kisses: hugs def,,,, smth abt the whole SALIVA situation is a little YIKES 2 me honestly LOOLOLOLOLFmlSKDFLK Shorter or taller: whO THO IS THIS LIKE IN A PARTNER OR SMTH?? if so,,, my height & up???? : ) )))))) ))) Troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant,,,,, i honestly dont see the thrill in “troublemaking”? OR WTVR?? LIKE WHY????????????????????sdlkflskflskf Older or younger: doesn’t matter,,,,, not 2 young tho,, Romantic or spontaneous: romantically spontaneous? :Ddddd Sensitive or loud: sensitively loud??? :”DDD like ye man scream w me but dont hurt my feelins or nothin ok,,,,,,, Hookup or relationship: relationship,,,,,,,,,, i think being w/ someone means seeing urself w them forever ;;;;;;;;; why would u cut it off after ONE TIME SLKDFJ WTF WHY ;; that makes me :-(

🌙 HAVE YOU EVER Kissed a stranger: no Drank hard liquor: uh accidentally yes Lost contacts/glasses: all the hECKIN TIME --- Sex on first date: no,,,,, but if u abt that life, go u,,, not my personal preference lmfao Broken someone’s heart: yelmfao,,,,, that’s how life goes around tho, kids ;; ikinda feel bad abt this one dude ithink he thought we could b 2gether 4ever n i was like,,,,,,,,14 @ the time n was afraid of that,,,,,, commitment shit ;;;;;; Been arrested: LFMAO NO(t [[[[[[yet]]]]]]]]) Turned someone down: of course of course,,,,,,, only pedos like me hoNESTLY LDKSJFLKSDJF IM SCREAMING AS I THINK BACK ON ALL THE GUYS THAT ASKED ME OUT LKDSJFLSKJDFLKDJF I WANT TO VOMITNOW

🌙 DO YOU BELIEVE In yourself: lmao.  Miracles: when i pull a passing grade in my classes? yeÉÊËEĒĘĖÈë Love at first sight: as dumb as it is, yeah i do;;;;;

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this got SUPER long so its going under the cut but this is the f*lice rant i was talking about lmao enjoy! (full disclosure i also end up going on a fredsythe rant because i gotta, ok. yall gonna make me sit through this stupid ass storyline when a better one is RIGHT FUCKING THERE so yeah, im mad. fp jones also likes men get over it.)

Sorry but there's literally nothing new inventive shocking or compelling about a storyline where two grown ass straight MARRIED adults are pining over each other because they had some weird romantic connection nearly 30 fucking years ago that may or may not have resulted in a fucking teenage pregnancy that im sure NOBODY wanted like yall really out here wanting me to believe what? alice cheated on her boyfriend and got knocked up by a dude who represented everything she was trying to get away from? and she told hal the kid was fps but never told fp himself? because that makes all of ZERO FUCKING SENSE! even if they wanted to throw out “well alice and hal were broken up at the time” its still SO out of character for alice like i know she had her wild child serpent days but its not something she looks back on with fondness so why the HELL does anyone think its a good idea to set her up with the fucking LEADER of the entire GANG are you all sniffing glue?? and then theyre trying to sit here and vilify hal so that we root for alice to hook up with fp in present day? the fuck outta here im not about to sit and cheer on alice’s character regression. first of all yall need to stop getting mad at 17 year old hal for not wanting to be a father and handling this situation poorly he was a TEENAGE BOY i know yall think everyone needs to be pristine angels from birth but thats not how life works and second of all he has every right to be sketched out that his daughter brought forth her long lost brother to fill in the void polly left, especially when the first time hal sees chic hes fucking BLEEDING after being attacked for god knows what reason in hals mind like... im team hal on this one he’s the only one with some self preservation alice and betty about to get themselves killed i s2g all these dumb ass decisions are being made, which in itself is bad enough, but to make it so obvious that this is all being done to eventually prop up a ship that is the very definition of fan service, is beyond ridiculous and terrible writing. like i get it. madchen and skeet are hot and have chemistry (which...btw....literally all the parents have insane chemistry with each other but no focus on the boring obvious straight pairing i guess but oh do not worry i have more to say on that later) i get it. but what is the purpose of that if you cant write an interesting story? and dont get me started on how shoehorned this recent ~connection~ is like yes i admit in s1 i got vibes from them (which, stay on this blog for 5 minutes and you will soon realize i can romantically/sexually connect pretty much any pairing amongst the parents because, like i said, they all have insane chemistry and they all say weird shit to each other). but i cannot believe yall sat here and thought the whole sexual frustration comment after fp got out of prison or the “leave him” exchange felt authentic??? like is it me? am i the one in the twilight zone? somebody help me out here. alice and fp in s1 couldnt stand each other and now shes all joking about his sex life ?? fp almost started a huge fight during that dinner with her and hal and the kids and yet im supposed to believe he’s been pining after her all these years?? like maybe id have an easier time believing this shit if i hadnt seen how he interacts with fred (oh yes. we’re going there because im tired of this HETERO NONSENSE GOING ON ALL THE TIME IN TELEVISION WHEN THEYVE LITERALLY SET UP BETTER OPPORTUNITIES FOR SAME SEX RELATIONSHIPS IM IN A MOOD SO WE’RE GOING ALL OUT) but to close off this part of my rant (oh and i didnt even touch upon how gross itd be for betty and jughead to share a sibling lmfao but that should be self explanatory): there is literally no conceivable way for this shit to go down and not make me lose respect for alice (fp i can give a slight pass to on the front of he and his wife being separate, but even then if he goes after alice while she’s still with hal....you done fucked up). first of all, going after your daughters boyfriends/ex boyfriends father is weird. second of all, if chic is in fact hals son, then they need to work on bringing the family together. hal is not a lost cause. chic is creepy as hell if anything i can see him pulling some shit that brings betty hal and alice closer together but no that makes too much sense so the writers probably wont do that! so theyre either gonna continue to push hal out so that itll be “acceptable” for alice to run to fp, or hal has to literally just fucking die and then what? alice goes to fp in her time of grief? im gonna throw up. 

and now on to the gay shit

im supposed to compare f*lice and fredsythe scenes and come out thinking alice was the one he was in love with? bitch WHERE? fp has a sordid past with both alice and fred for different reasons. we dont know the full extent of what happened with alice (if anything but for the sake of predictability that i know to expect from a cw show, lets say they do) but given how they interact with each other we can assume it was bad. and we all know fred and fps history and how dark that got for fp (like i literally wrote up a whole thing about it if you want a link i’ll send it to you) and yet no matter the past, fp had probably his most lightest moment of the show with fred. he was willing to drop everything and help fred and soon as he asked (which, btw, fred didnt even ask for help. fp knew he was in trouble and that was it. thats all he needed and he was there for fred). THAT is love, ok. THAT is a relationship worth delving into beyond 2 friggen episodes in season 1. And yes this same storyline thats been given to f*lice with this whole adultery nonsense, but with fp and Fred, would actually be interesting because two gay kids in the early 90s actually have a valid reason for not being together and not ending up together. and then you add on that fps from the south side and fred the north, and that makes things even more complicated for them because then you can have a whole scenario of fp thinking hes not good enough for fred and ending things because of his own insecurities, his way of trying to push fred towards a better life... like THAT makes sense. even if fred and fp were never a thing and you just went with fp being in love with his best friend all these years and he could never have him (which still makes sense because i mean come on, freds casanova ways in high school with the ladies? fp sitting on the sidelines trying to be a supportive best friend but dying on the inside, never telling fred how he feels?) not to mention like half the serpents are gay as hell and there would be such a great story to tell for why all these gay south side kids end up in the same gang under fps wing, because he’s making up for his own shitty upbringing, he wants these kids to know someones looking out for them like...if the writers need plots and backstory I can give you them for free it really didn't take a lot of brainpower but no by all means tell me how the two ~straight~ kids who grew up on the same side of town under virtually the same circumstances, one of whom wanted NOTHING MORE THAN TO SHED HER SERPENT IMAGE AND CREATE A BETTER LIFE FOR HERSELF, and the other who keeps going on about wanting to put his family back together, had such a tragic backstory and its not just a blatant midlife crisis on both their ends. please. by all means. enlighten me. 😒

[briteboy]

yelling @ santi, i’m evil again (what else is new), SOME REALLY REALLY OLD ASKS, one GoT spoiler at the very bottom (beware)

*angrily slaps santi* GET YOUR SELF TOGETHER YAH POOP HEAD

Lou and Fiona deserve happiness pls let it happen ty

they do ;-; it will happen, don’t worry, no one suffers forever <3 i’ve actually been planning out lou’s story and i’m excited to actualize it hehe

I just read all of Santis story. Dear god, it is amazing. I cannot begin to describe how much I love it. I have been really sick lately and have such a hard time concentrating on anything for more than one second but I have not been able to look away from this story, not even when I re-read it for the third time. You are an amazing writer and I have fallen in love with every charachter you have introduced. I teared up so many times and my heart began beating fast, it was really an experience.

OH MY GOD ;___________; YOU READ IT THREE TIMES WHAATDOSOIGODFSKL holy shit thank you so much, i don’t even know what to say right now lmao ;-; i’m just kinda in awe that i was able to grab your attention like that and that you enjoyed it so much and just askjdjfsd THANK YOU i can’t say anything else but just thank you, people like you make this all worth it <3 

A case of the novembers is the kinda story you read and you just know its going to stick with you for awhile. Like ones day, you'll be long gone in the future, doing something totally different, older wiser, all that bullshit, and you'll just randomly remember what a bittersweet story it was.

OMFG ;___; holy heck asjdjnfkdkjs this really got me right in the heart lmao. that’s the kind of story it’s always been for me and seeing other people interpret it that way as well is just mind boggling, thank you <3 

You are evil. My poor heart hurts. ;______________;

you've ruined my life

Life hack: listen to the entire Hamilton soundtrack whilst working out at the gym. By the end of it, you'll have lost half your body weight due to sweating and crying at the same time (pls help this was such a bad decision)

OMG that’s me with grimes’ art angels lmao i go hord to kill v maim and venus fly

hamilton fans also go hord i respect it. learn more about history get swole killing two birds with one stone

Okay this is so fucking random but a while ago you did a post where you talked about perfect bby gianni saying that he spent a lot of time in introspection and like Thank you 'cause now I have a word to put on this thing I do when I try to figure why I feel certain things or what my relationship with people/random shit is and why and yeah I kind of understand myself a little better now so thx a lot!!! 😘😘😘 Also, you're great.

i think i was actually talking about santi (’cause that’s where we’re at right now, in that period of introspection for him heheh) but YES omg that makes me so happy ;-; it’s a good word lmao and i do the same thing, in fact i’m always trying to figure out my relationships with everything in order to understand myself more. that’s kinda why i’m so into astrology haha. i’m glad you finally got to pin down that feeling for yourself, it’s the best when that happens <3 YOU’RE GREAT TOO 💫

NOOOOOOOO MY FAVS THIS CAN'T... LOU.... SANTI PLS... THIS IS A RIOT 😭😭

let’s start protesting santi in the streets

Hi!! Umm I'm guessing you do but just in case, did you know there was a tear accessory? I think it's an eyeliner (cause you mentioned having to draw them yourself)

yeah i do! i mentioned the ones by s-club, i’ve used those a couple times. but i like drawing them myself because i feel like it’s weird to have the same single teardrop every time one of my characters cries (and we all know they’ve been crying a lot lately lmfao) if they didn’t cry often i probably wouldn’t feel compelled to draw the tears. but i don’t mind drawing them honestly, it’s kinda fun lmao. thanks for your consideration <3 

so im sitting here thinkin....... what if santi goes on this trip and coms back and lou is in a relationship!?!?!

👏santi👏get👏it👏together👏

HE’S TRYIN

i want to die

AAAH SOLE DEVELOPMENT BETWEEN CUTE DEVIL CHILD AND I ALMOST DIED TWICE TATOO MAN YES

I HAD TO READ THIS LIKE THREE TIMES TO UNDERSTAND IT LMFAOSDOJDKF BUT YES their relationship kills me the most ;__;

wait santi tried to kys :'(

WHERE U BEEN he did  :{

what font do u use in your histories?

arial!

hi u have a really pretty blog and I hope you have a good day

THIS IS SO SWEET I DON’T DESERVE IT ;-; I HOPE YOU HAVE A GOOD DAY TOO HONEYBEE 🌻

nyooooooom

I WENT M.I.A FOR A LITTLE AND I COME BACK TO READ UP ON THE STORY AND HOW DARE YOU ASHDDJFKL

@teishajenaie on instagram looks like Rooney to me, idk if you'd agree but ??

i see it!! definitely in the eyes and nose. also sorry i answered this literally like 3 months later lmao

gooey by glass animals gives me santi vibes :) ive been listening to it on repeat (bc im tht bitch) and it was making me think of you and his story! c: i hope you dont mind me over here lmao anyway, im excited to see where it goes and real excited for a back story for lou!! <3 lots of love

omg haha that’s actually funny because i used it in that one scene of him tripping, although it’s like completely a gianni song to me (at least personality-wise, it’s even on his playlist on my character page) and noooo i don’t mind, i love that song and i love when people recommend me songs!! i have a whole bunch of recommendations in my inbox that i need to acknowledge omg. anyway I’M EXCITED THAT YOU’RE EXCITED, especially for lou’s story, it’s coming up reeeeeal soon <333

i feel so late to the party but i Just started reading your story like five minutes ago and im absolutely entranced by it already and i cant wait to catch up and finally understand what to heck is going on

this was sent literally forever ago when santi and molly were out there being wild in the desert lmao so i hope you caught up and everything. “entranced” omg that’s such a wonderful word i’m honored

i didnt think i could love you more but the fact that you watch arrested development makes me so happy. i cry. my boyfriend has a mr manager, bluths frozen bananas shirt thats literally my favorite thing ever.

OMGGG YES i watched it once forever ago and i need to re-watch it asap lmao. I’M PRETTY SURE I BOUGHT THAT SAME EXACT SHIRT FOR MY BROTHER FOR CHRISTMAS ONE YEAR

Just a biiig prank. Huge

this one is from so long ago i don’t remember the context but i laughed at loud when i read it. huge

i was playing with uncharted for the first time today and they said Navarro in it and i was like THATS MY BOI SANTIII

santi infiltrating everyone’s lives my bf played uncharted tho!! it looked cool. like indiana jones. i liked the marketplace part. a monkey stole his apple

Hi sunny! I really am in love with your story (even if it's tearing me apart at the moment) and just wanted to say you're cool Stay strong ma dude

HI THANK YOU <333 you’re also cool my dude and i’m sorry for tearing you apart (if it makes you feel any better this story tears me apart on a daily basis)

what packs and expansions do u have for ur game?

ummmmmm all of them except vintage glamour and fitness stuff. i wish i didn’t buy some of the stuff packs lmao but what can ya do i actually didn’t even get vampires or bowling or parenthood until like a month ago lmao i’m late to the party

Oh shit she's been dead hasn't she. Like this is all a drug or alcohol infused bender of mollys memory, she's probably never left. They're probably still at the hospital. I hope I fucking wrong but shit I also hope not. Poor santi

we’re so far past this but i just wanted to publish this anyway lmao it was a good theory! and this person was so sure of it it kinda made me wish it was true lol. sorry if that disappointed you but i’ll always remember this one in my sad sad heart 💔

how long did it take for you to make friends here? I started a simblr because I really like storytelling with my sims & I thought it'd be fun to meet people who enjoy that, too, especially since I don't have many friends irl...but I've been here for quite a few months now and it seems like no one even cares that I'm here....everyone I try to interact with pretty much ignores me after a message or two....I'm just feeling really discouraged about my presence here :/

I’M REALLY SORRY I DIDN’T ANSWER THIS SOONER ASKJDKJFSDKA (i’m sure it didn’t help the fact that you feel ignored, i really really hope you see this) but okay uhhhhhhh i only had acquaintances from 2015 up until like this year? then i started really becoming close with people. so it took a while lol, but i think everyone starts off slow because it’s mostly about the actual game we’re playing at first and then making friends just happens through that. don’t get discouraged, like i said it took a while for me. you really just need to reach out to the people you’d like to become friends with, reply to their posts, give your genuine thoughts, say something that’ll make their day...people notice that no matter what they have going on, i promise. i hope you’re still here and hanging in there. don’t get caught up in who’s talking to you or not talking to you, just do your thing, enjoy what you do, and people will notice you. <3

3. Hi so I just wanted to say that I love your story, I'm here for every update. I'm an s3 player I play s4 every once in awhile but s3 has my soul. I love Santi and I know he will be happy in the end, whether it's with Lou or not(hopefully it is tho) I only want him to be happy. I go through so many emotions in one post, like this is a tv drama and I can’t wait for the next episode. This is the end of my cut and paste. Have a nice day.❤️

HI HELLO <3 this is so sweet and i can’t believe you actually care about my story lmao thank you i’m glad you have faith in his happy ending, i don’t want anyone to think i genuinely like making my characters suffer lmao. i only do it to make the happy ending more satisfying. asjdfjksd comparing my stuff to film or tv always makes me so giddy so THANK YOU ily <333

"Suicide before you see this tear fall down my eyes" (Beyonce) reminds me of Molly's situation soooo muchhhh aaaahhhhh

OMG YES what a good connection. good song good connection yaeeahhh better call molly with the good hair

Ummmm... hello! I just read through your whole story with Santi and I'm like... holy fuck. Not only is your story wonderful, your editing is so good. I'm surprised I didn't shove my eyes up against my computer screen. Please continue making wonderful things and being great. Signing off 12:31 in the morning, I hope you have as much fun as you want to

“as much fun as you want to” omfgasdkngjd why did that make me laugh so much. don’t have too much fun, have the responsible amount of fun anyway HELLO thank you soooooO much ;-; pls don’t shove ur eyes up against the screen i’m almost positive that’s not good for them. but i appreciate this so much thank YOU for being great <3 signing off at 2:18 in the morning after ignoring this message for months now (i’m sorryyyyyyy) but um ily

HELLO??? I JUST READ A SERIOUS CASE OF NOVEMBER FOR THE FIRST TIME AND I'M LIKE CRYING???? y u do dis to me I hate you and love you at the same time

(I need to rant I'm sorry) My uncle is really positive towards the army and war and stuff like that and all day he's been going on about how it should be mandatory to serve in the military, especially for "little brat girls" like me? And it's stressing me out so much I want to cry :( The army and war is something that genuinely scares me and I don't want anything to do with it, but he's just going on and on! What should I do?

this is literally sooooooooo late and i feel so bad i’m sorry, i hope this still helps you out and i hope you see it tho okay. i’m pretty sure this was even before the trans military ban like whew idek what your uncle must think about that. tbh just ignore him, like i know it’s hurtful but like...what is his point in telling you this? i would’ve literally been like (sarcastically) “ok then sign me up” but i’m also a lil shit so that’s probably not the best thing to say. but really like the only thing he’s trying to do is feel powerful by means of expressing his militaristic (no pun intended) opinions to someone far younger than him. it’s so that he feels bigger and better than you (especially by calling you a brat). he’s a sad man and anyone who relies on the military, of all things, to shape a person probably doesn’t have a strong sense of self anyway. i love you okay, just ignore him, don’t let him stress you out <3

I'm a little high and it's late but I have a lot of courage now so I've been following you for a while and I just want to tell you how much I love your story! I have come across other places on tumblr who do this but none have captured me as this one did! You are amazing and I am in love with this story! Thanks fo being you! :)

ONMG YOU HAD TO BE HIGH TO SEND THIS LMAO that was me this weekend anyway thank you so much, it floors me every time anyone says these kinds of things to me and it never gets old ;-; you are so amazing ok <333

you can't possibly be offended by a homophobic joke in game of thrones, it's set in medieval times. they had several lgbt characters in it, it's not the show that's homophobic, it's the characters, which is accurate for that time period.

o i can and i will lmao i mean i get where you’re coming from but with that logic you could say it’s only accurate to put homophobic jokes in today’s media just because people are still homophobic in the time live in. i know it’s the characters, but you do understand that someone writes those characters, right? it’s bad writing. it’s lazy and pandering and because of that it’s offensive. idk if you know the exact dialogue i was referring to but it was so completely unnecessary lmfao. they could’ve made a million other jokes. regardless of how it offended me it was just BAD lmao

SPOILER BELOW OK DON’T SAY I DIDN’T WARN YA

@ I wanna watch GoT anon: don't. It's just so fucking bad. The definition of overhyped tbh (and btw, sunny, PLS HELP HE SCREWED HIS FUCKING AUNT WTH)

LMAO SOMEONE ACTUALLY AGREES WITH ME? wow bless u. it is definitely overhyped, like it was good at first but it’s been riding that hype through these past couple of seasons to disguise the bad writing. i understand being entertained by it, but i’m always surprised when people think it’s actually well written at this point...it’s so cringey and now thanks to the season finale this fanbase will be justifying incest. great!

OK MOVE ALONG NOW

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I was tagged by @pasteljohnlennon oMG i feel blessed thank you friend <3

1. Nicknames: Flower Flower princess (uwu lmao), Dingus, Joans, Jie-Jie, dumbass, tits mcgee 2. Gender: Female 3. Star sign: Gemini / Cancer 4. Height: 5ft 5. Time: 2:08 AM 6. Birthday: July 17th, 1998 7. Favorite Bands: The Beatles, The Kinks, The Hollies, Tommy James & The Shondells, Sublime Psycedelic Furs, Toadies, The Garbage (garden oops and their other infinite bands), Pwr Bttm,  The Doors, Melodys Echo Chamber, Foxygen, Cheap Trick, The Ramones, The Raveonettes, Failure, together pangea, Fidlar, Dramarama, The Pixies, Supertramp, No doubt, Scorpions, Deep Purple, Fleetwood Mac, Echo and the Bunnymen, Uncle Acid & The Dead Beats, Cults, Crystal Castles, Thieves Like Us, Steely Dan, The Dandy Warhols, of Montreal, The Replacements, Girpool, Bauhaus, The Cure, Arctic Monkeys, Cocteau Twins, Joy Division, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, The Kills, Slutever, nterpol, Bosnian raibows, the Breeders, The Smiths, Pink Floyd, Dope Lemon, The Modern Lovers, Grouplove, Shannon and the Clams, Hunx & his Punx...ok that’s...probably enough...hehe 8. Favorite Solo Artists: Mac DeMarco, Bob dylan, Joan Baez, Donovan, Lana del Rey, David Bowie, Jacques Dutronc, Chelsea Wolfe, King Dude, Goth Babe (idk if it’s solo or a band but...whatever it is i dig it ) Goldfrapp, Perfume Genius, Alice Cooper, Janis Joplin, PJ Harvey, Jay Reatard, Billy Joel, Billy Idol, Phil Collins, Cher yeah 9. Song stuck in my head: Dead meat by personal and the pizzas 10. Last movie I watched: American Ultra no wait sorry oof it was Kingsman Golden Circle 11. Last show I watched: Night Sweats 12. When I created my blog: uh idk but just a short few months ago, no...maybe two? I think it was sometime in August, mayb e just shortly before... 13. What do I post?: Only Beatles stuff bc this is my # beatls deignated blog 14. Last thing I googled: uh my favourite actor...michael seater.. 15. Do you get asks?: DON’T BET YER LIFE!! lmao pls 16. Why did you choose your url?: well i had this idea..well, actually yellow submarine was stuck in my head then i just randomly thought of...what if it were..this..and yeah. that’s my thinking process. you’re welcome. 17. Following: 366 18. Followers: 458 <3 ilu 19. Favorite colors: green n yellow n eathy tones ynow 20. Average hours of sleep: 6 21. Lucky number: 7 or 17...i cant remember 22. Instruments: uh clarinet and guitar lmfao woosh 23. What am I wearing?: it’s pretty black n white lmfao shirt that says spaced out n ha planets on it n sweats that have eyes on them 24. How many blankets I sleep with?: my duvet?? sometimes i sleep w a thin on under me if its cold 25. Dream job: honestly i dont know i just know one day i wanna own a themed restaurant idk if that my dream job just smthn i wanna do 26. Dream trip: another go round disneyworld...or like!! hawaii....or anywhere that has like really blue reef n lagoons or pretty crystal clar waters mmm i love those places they are so tranquil... 27. Favorite food: kedgeree or fish tacos...mmm.. 28. Nationality: Canadian 29. Favorite Song: rn it’s Just like a woman by Bob Dylan (or as i like 2 call him...boba <3 )

n idk abt tagging?? uh! ig these couple a folks here: @prettyjohnnylennon n @sgt-paul

[thebeatles-archive]

3 Fears clustered holes . . . that’s all i can think of bye

3 things I love the beatles , the 80′s , star wars & so many more but smh just three things it says

2 turns on being v nice & beaut

2 turns off the opposite of not being v nice . uuuuuuuuh if you a trump supporter , don’t be near me . 

My best friend @sirmccartney , @glimmerkeith & @bwayne : ]

Sexual orientation bisexual

How tall am I 4′11″ but i can kick your ass

What do I miss right now my salad i ate three hours ago I DONT KNOW

Favourite color green

Do I have a crush yes

Favourite place wherever there’s food

What am I listening to right now bicycles , rollerskates & you - the archies

Shoe size im a size 5 i think

Eye color brown

Hair color jet black

Meaning behind my URL THE BEATLES , LITERALLY . THE BEATLES

Favourite song ticket to ride - the beatles

Favourite band The Beatles

How I feel right now content !

Someone I love my friends ??? john lennon ???

My current relationship status single

My relationship with my parents muy bueno !! i love them

Favourite season Summer

Tattoos and piercing i have my ears . i wear only one earring on my left

Tattoos and piercing i want i want tattoos but have zero clue my dude

The reasons I joined Tumblr my friend said to join because there was a young justice fandom & i didnt even know what a fandom was until i joined but lmfao im not even in the fandom

Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts? no wtf ??? someone change that

Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? I . .. never kissed anyone . nope

How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? 20 minutes . doesn’t take me long

Have you shaved your legs in the past three days? no

Where am I right now? bed

Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? LOUD UNTIL I CANT HEAR ANYTHING

Do I live with my Mom and Dad? ye

Am I excited for anything? GUNS N ROSES CONCERT NEXT MONTH !!!

Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? i dk ?

How often do I wear a fake smile? a lot 

If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? my grandfathers . i never met em on both sides of the family .

What do I think about most? my school

Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? behind

What was the last lie I told? shit who knows

Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online? phone

Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? I SEE GHOST EVERYDAY & ITS NORMAL TO ME . & ja i believe in aliens . only a fool wouldn’t .

Do I believe in magic? if we talkin’ about white magic , yes .

Do I believe in luck? sure 

What’s the weather like right now? DESERT BITCH

What was the last book I’ve read? Indian Killer by Sherman Alexie

Do I have any nicknames? baecon

Do I spend money or save it? save . . its hard

Can I touch my nose with a tounge? WHO THE FUCK

Favourite animal? dogs , horses , pandas , tarantulas , more dogs

What was I doing last night at 12 AM? watching My MTV 80′s on this mtv channel

What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? currently ? mr blue sky

What is my favorite word? yikes

My top 5 blogs on tumblr IDK

If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? “henlo you stinky people”

Do I have any relatives in jail? NOPE

What is my current desktop picture? the beatles but they’re zombies

Had sex? no

Bought condoms? no

Gotten pregnant? no

Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? my dog

Had job? cvs

Smoked weed? no

Smoked cigarettes? no

Drank alcohol? no

Am I a vegetarian/vegan? no

Been overweight? I AM OVERWEIGHT

Been underweight? yes

Gotten my heart broken? no

Been to prom? friend’s

Been in airplane? yes

Learned another language? yes, German

Wore make up? ye

Dyed my hair? yes

Had a surgery? gallbladder bc i had stones : ‘ ] shit hurts

Met someone famous? YES

Stalked someone on a social network? no

Been fishing? yes

Been rejected by a crush? oh gott no

What do I want for birthday? more beatles merch

Do I like my handwriting? HELL NO

Where do I want to live when older? i still wanna be in LA

Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? no

What I’m really bad at DRAWING

What my greatest achievments are being the first in my family to attend college

The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me “go back to your country” ig lmfaoooooooooooooooo

What I’d do if I won in a lottery go to paul’s $2k vip thing

What do I like about myself nothing : /

My closest Tumblr friend @sirmccartney YEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH BOOOIIIIIII

Any question you’d like? Oh worm ?

Are you outgoing or shy? shy

What kind of people are you attracted to? nice people

Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now? No . . . . 

Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? Not really, but I wouldn’t have much to contribute.

Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? i think with syd ?? fuhashuf

What does the most recent text that you sent say? “BITCH I SWEAR”

What are your 5 favorite songs right now? i cant think its 10 pm 

Do you like it when people play with your hair? i mean i wouldn’t know ? unfortunately i have spd & there’s scars on top of my head so i dont think . . . that’s pleasant . . . 

Do you think there is life on other planets? OF COURSE , THERE’S ALIENS !!!!!

[ishqbaaaaz]

Ishqbaaaz - Sept 26/17 - Episode 376

Hokeyyyyy sorry abut the latest for this one, i had a long day at work!

here we go

Dadi says the shaadi will be in 2 days

ANNIKA GO UP ALL EXCITED

LMAO THEYRE ALL LIKE ????

Now theyre all laughing at her this is amazing

Today is the mehndi ceremony yaaaas

who is this dude

Zakhir? Bruh is this like a promo thing

forwarding sorry

they gotta start all the taiyaari

why is Om volunteering Gauri lmao 

PINKY WHY ARE YOU HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEERE

what is her problem

she hates Annika so much so why does she wanna be involved in the wedding 

and when they do involve her she acts all pissy and doesnt do anything

LOL ROAST HER SHIVAAY

“Koi mere aur mere biwi ki khushi mein khushi ho sakta hai, toh aa sakta hai varna...”

Shivaay is still not over this and he shouldnt be because Pinky is trash

dadi getting a call

Annika is back in the room and having a right panic about the shaadi

shes like omg what are we gonna do what am i gonna WEAR

Honey, they put you in ugly clothes does it matter

Shivaay is telling her to breathe

Hes like you’re marrying Shivaay Singh Oberoi ill get you anything you need

HE BROUGHT HER A RING

Hes so rude he wont show her lmao

LALCHI BANDAR???

oh my goodness ahhaha

LOL HES LIKE YOU CAN CALL ME BAGHAD BILLA BUT I CANT CALL YOU A BANDARIA?

Annika is panicking omg

HE THREW A GLASS OF WATER

PAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANI GAMES

Shes like wtf is this

SHE LIKE TELL ME TO BREATHE ONE MORE TIME

SHE THREW A JUG OF WATER

babe, she wins

Paanikaaaaaaa

LOL now shes telling him to breathe

but look how she just casually puts her hands on him now and she doesnt freak out and the touch of him anymore oh my god can they please fuck noww

SHIVAAY IS SO BAD LOL

“Saanse leyni hai yaan kuch aur”

i hate them so much they make me feel sooooo tingly 

GET ENGAGED BABIES

oh no that ring is ugly LOL

The one for their original engagement was so much cuter

HE KISSES THE RING

oh my GOD

shes so excited about her ring shes like its so pretty

HE SAYS NOT MORE THAN YOU

uff that shit gets me every time

She has his ring all ready too

i have friggin goosebumps on my body LOL

SHES KISSING HIS HAND GOODBYE FRIENDS

look her her lipstick on his hand ahhaa

THESE FLASHBACKS ARE GETTING ME HYPE

What a damn bitch lmao

hes acting as if his cut hurts so she’ll kiss it

AND SHE DID

I CANNNNNOOOT

Honestly face touching is my fav thing ever

Next dayyy

Shivaay telling Khanna there shouldnt be any security breaches LOL does this mean there will be one because apparently Khanna doesnt do his job

Shivaay is arranging his own mehndi

Jhavni is so happy to see Shivaay all changed

HE WANTS THE BEST ORGANIC MEHNDI FOR HIS WIFEEE

fuck me up

Annika looks so effing pretty

LOL SHE SAID THANK YOU AND HE GOT WORRIED

Shes like no its ook chill lmao

Shes like the ring is so pretty like WOW

and hes like OMG U REMINDED ME

reminded her of what

Vows? 

MARRIAGE VOWS?

Do ya’ll do that in indian weddings? correct me if im wrong but isnt that what the phere are? the vows? 

Annika is confused af

Hes like no not wow, VOW

and hes like bite your lower lip

LOL Shivaay are u sure you arent asking for something else

Hes like its vachan, promises theyre called Vows 

and shes like you wrote yours??

and hes like yeah lmfao this bitch

Shivaay that isnt fair

HE SAYS HES ALL CHARGED UP TO TELL HER IN FRONT OF EVERYONE

shes like k

he asks her if shes ready

shes like bitch u told me this today how am i supposed to write them 

Hes like its alright you can do it

its v-v-v-vOW

“Starring at my lips?” SHIVAAY LOL

Annika is in panic mode

Rudra? What happened? In the last episode it ended with him, Bhavya and Manav at the door

wtf Bhavya is in shaadi clothes

ARE YOU MARRYING MANAV?

uhh isnt that Tia’s wedding dress

omg it is

Annika is trying to write her vows and is struggling

Shes wishes Sahil is there

and here he is!

Shes telling him about the vows and she needs help

SHE WANTS SAHIL TO STEAL SHIVAAY’S VOWS LMAO

mere izzat ka sawal hai omg

Sahil and Annika are so cute i cant

Rudra is mada at Bhavya

hes like what about our connection??

shes like you cant maintain a connection all your life in which you keep looking for flaws

TELL HIM BHAVYA

ROAST THIS BITCH

hes like i apologized 

shes like so?

shes like u probably cant believe a girl my age could find anyone

hes like I APOLOGIZED WHY U STILL MAD

shes like really???

shes like lets finish whatever this is and just maintain and respect our friendship

LOL she told him to leave

hes like dosti?

RUDRA

HOW DARE YOU

“Aur kitne dost hai jin ke saath room share kar chuki ho tum”

RUDRA IS GARBAGE

ALL YOU OBEROI BOYS

OH MY GOD

BHAVYA IS SO MAD 

SAME BABY

tells him she isnt worthy of being her friend anymore

THATS RIGHT ROAST HIS ASS

LEAVE HIM

YA’LL OBEROIS DONT DESERVE YOUR WOMEN  AHHHHHHHHHHH

Sahil is looking for the vows

LOL SHIVAAY SEES HIM

he knew she would send Sahil

he put the vows in front of him and Sahil is all excited

Sahil’s like awww shit

Sahil is giving a paper to Annika

bruh its gonna be something else

LMFAO ITS A ROAST LETTER

SHIVAAY AHAHAH

Sahil is like Im not doing your dirty work anymore

hes like im leavinggggg

Annika you’re on your own now bby LOL

Om and Rudra are thinking about their lady problems

they lying to each other by saying theyre okay but they have to hide it from Shivaay

And the ceremony begins!

Look at Annika i cannot

SHIVAAY ALSO LOOKS HELLA HOT

GOOD LOOKING PEOPLE ARE GOOD LOOKING

hes like are you done your vows?

shes like uh yeah

hes like you didnt write anything

shes like bitch i dont need paper, i have my memory

start the mehndi

Khanna says the mehndi didnt arrive

why is it khanna’s job to get the mehndi hes your BODYGUARD

Um Pinky why are you adding your input no one asked for it

Shivaay is calling the mehndi people 

lol theres traffic

Our new entry has arrrived on his motorcycle

im not sure why theres new entries

WE HAVE ENOUGH CHARACTERS ON THIS SHOW THAT YOU CANT MANAGE THEIR SCREEN TIME

Shivaay apologizes to Annika for the lateness

THIS BITCH JUST BUSTED THROUGH THE DOORS OF THE OBEROI MANSION

KHANNA ARE YOU EVER WORKING

this baccha looks like a young Gurmeet Chodhary

Precap: Shivaay is saying his vows to Annika

these sound familiar

OH MY GOD

OH OD MHYG

THESE VOWS

THEYRE THE VOWS MIKE SAID TO PHOEBE ON THEIR WEDDING DAY ON FRIENDS

I FUCKIN CANNOT ITS ALMOST WORD FOR WORD

IM DYING

ILL DO A COMARISON FOR THE NEXT EPISODE BLOG BUT IM DYING ITS THE SAME

[fracturedflower]

the even ones motherfucker

LMAO i love u j fdjkglhdsjlk

(2) Do You Have Freckles?

i do on my arms a bit! none really on my face, my sister and mom have like.. super shoulder freckles tho lmao

(4) Last Song You Listened To.

im listening right now, its “god went north” by nothing more! (thanks pidge)

(6) Relationship Status.

already answered!! :3c

(8) Did You Wake Up Cranky?

nah not today, i actually got up rly early today surprisingly!

(10) Zodiac Sign.

scorpio hell yea..

(12) Take A Vitamin Daily?

LOL nah dude

(14) What Books Are You Reading?

nothing.. i like, never read books, im very bad at sitting down and dedicating myself to books, idk what it is about it my brain cant concentrate on

(16) Favourite Anime?

fullmetal alchemist brotherhood.. no question…….. tho ouran is close behind and i do love bnha (even tho im very behind on it) & haikyuu

(18) Do You Collect Anything?

already answered!

(20) Do You Dance In The Car?

sometimes if im rly feelin it LMAO

(22) Do You Watch The Olympics?

if its on ill watch (esp if its volleyball or swimming) but i dont like, check schedules or anything

(24) Are You Wearing Makeup Right Now?

nah, and i havent in way too long

(26) Favourite Tumblr Blog?

ummmmmm excluding my friends id probably say @dateagirl-suggestions ?? i hope its not weird that i mentioned them lmao

(28) What Makes You Happy?

my gf, my friends, good music, mcelroy content, vidya games, plenty of things tbh

(30) Do You Study Better With Or Without Music?

im like pidge lmao i cant study with music w/ vocals, it rly needs to be instrumental or else i cant focus

(32) If You Were A Crayon What Colour Would You Be?

“poopy purple”

(34) Would You Swim In The Lake Or Ocean?

lake defo.. ocean’s too.. idk dirty for me fdjghsdkjl im a baby

(36) What Colour Shirt Are You Wearing?

pink :3c

(38) Do You Save Money Or Spend It?

im bad at saving.. tho im gonna have to once i get another job

(40) Do You Have Any Obsessions Right Now?

i had persona 5 for a bit, other than that im not sure? i dont typically get into things at an obsession-level

(42) Are You Easily Influenced By Other People?

yea dawg absolutely

(44) Do You Like Going On Airplanes?

eh, im indifferent. ive been on like.. a total of ~5-6 planes for two round trips, didnt love it but i dont mind it

(46) Peanuts Or Sunflower Seeds?

ew.. no

(48) Are You A Picky Eater?

definitely.. way too picky dfhjgdhl there are too many common regular foods i just cannot stand

(50) Do You Fear Thunder / Lightning?

not too terribly, heavy thunder is Scawee but im more scared of having a power problem and all my Expensive Electronics getting fried or something

(52) Do You Like Your Music Loud?

WAY TOO MUCH pidge called me out but i have Super Tinnitus, love that ringing in my ears constantly

(54) Put Your Music On Shuffle, What Is The First Song That Came Up?

super mario galaxy comet observatory medley by aivi tran! i love.. video game music, and that was picked from like 3000+ songs fdjkshgjk

(56) What Are You Craving Right Now?

love & affection from my gf.. but also pizza cos rem talked abt pizza earlier lmao

(58) What Is Your Gender?

im gorl

(60) Do You Have Any Homework Right Now? If So, What Is It About?

nope, havent done homework in Awhile and every assignment ima get in the future is gonna be homework considering ill be taking online college classes

(62) Do You Make Your Bed In The Morning?

never have, not even once

(64) Favourite Social Media?

this is tough.. i love twitter to get updates from all my fav ppl like content creators, twitch streamers, smash players, etc but i also love insta for updates from my pals. i dont really have an answer!

(66) Do You Get Homesick?

not too bad typically, but im not regularly away from home so

(68) What Shampoo And Conditioner Are You Using Right Now?

i have no clue and do Not have the energy to get up and look

(70) Are Both Of Your Blood Parents Still In Your Life?

yes but hopefully my dad will be out of it soon………………… :^)

(72) Do You Miss Your Ex?

im friends with all of my exes now.. this question means Nothing to me, you are Weak

(74) What Eye Colour Do You Find Sexiest?

already answered.. ;)

(76) What Was The Last Thing You Ate?

two pastrami sandwiches!!

(78) Would You Give A Homeless Person CPR If They Were Dying? Why Or Why Not?

um i guess i’d try???? itd be much better for me to find someone else who might be able to actually give cpr lmfao

(80) Stalked Someone On A Social Network?

not really???? i look back on ppl’s profiles occasionally but im just nosey so

(82) Do You Wear Rings? If You Do, Take A Picture Of Them.

i dont own a single ring

(84) What Are Three Things You Did Today?

damn ask me that yesterday i did so much….. ummmm today i played HotS and overwatch with me best bud coleman, watched the most recent game of thrones (AAAAAAAHHHHHHH), and uhhhhh woke up early?? i guess

(86) List All Of Your Different Beauty Products You Have Right Now.

Practically Nothing

(88) List All Of Your Video Games On Your Phone, Console Etc.

i physically can NOT………………. i own 300+ games on steam, plenty of gamecube and wii and 3ds and ds and gameboy and ps2 and i used to have a shitton on ps3 DONT GET ME STARTED

(90) Favourite Soda Drink?

answered!

(92) Do You Wear Jeans Or Sweats More?

i cant rly answer this accurately, i guess jeans? its been too long to get Good Data

(94) Name Something That Relaxes You.

answered!

(96) Favourite YouTuber?

vinny pizzapasta vinesauce, no question

this was so many thank u pal……. my typing fingers are exhausted

[fairycosmos]

i asked when they were leaving and my mom ignored me and then cussed me out when we were alone. like hello? they're using me as a maid lmfao like she expects me to do all this shit for these ugly ass rat kids and then push me over the edge with all this screaming and shit? fucks no! im actually done like bruh. i even relapsed today bc it was 2 much. on top of that, my phone's battery has water damage and i cant do much on it? and theyre invading my privacy? i really cannot wait to move out n die

:(((( holy fucking shit dude, i’m so sorry to hear that what the fuck!!! let me see ur mum honestly like..........i just wanna talk 2 her👊👊. seriously tho you don’t deserve to be treated like that at all and i can’t believe they’re just expecting you to be okay with the situation???? i actually want to fight them all for you?? like that’s genuinely so fucked up - i’d tell you to fight back but i know that a lot of the time that can just make things worse, you know? not that you should just stand for that sort of behaviour, but i wouldn’t want to put you in any sort of danger by suggesting that you tell them to fuck off. it’s shitty when people say this but the silver lining here is that it’s temporary, they’re not going to be there forever and i know that doesn’t help right now but it can be good to just remind yourself of that sometimes. fuck them, just do what you need to do to get through the day. whatever they think and whatever they do doesn’t matter, they’re clearly fucking assholes and what they’re doing just proves how shitty they are as people :/ it’s okay to be pissed off and sad and stressed out, as long as you try to deal with it in a healthier way. you don’t deserve to hurt yourself just because of other people. try to treat yourself the way you’d treat your best friend. try to have your own back, there’s no point in turning against yourself now. it won’t achieve anything. just breathe. recognize each thought and emotion as it comes and then try to let it go. now, obviously that’s a lot easier said than done. i get that. but the fact that you relapsed doesn’t mean you have to continue relapsing. the fact that you were able to stop in the first place says a lot. you’re in control of what you do, even if everything seems so out of control at the moment. i know we’re only mutuals on tumblr lmao but i care about you a lot and i really, really want you to be okay, because i know you’re capable of getting through this. i know you’re strong enough. 

try to just take it as it comes. if it’s possible, don’t spend a lot of the time in the house so it’s easier to avoid it all - take longs walks, see a friend, anything to be away from that fuckin toxic environment. someday you’re going to move out and you’re going to do amazing fucking things in your life, you’ll be your own person. you’ll get to choose who you let into your world and you’ll get to be around positive people that love you for who you are. it’s going to be so worth it. i really really hope you stick around to see it. i promise you won’t regret it if you do. i hope you’re able to pull yourself back from falling deeper into the relapse, please please try to get get a hold of it now before it spins out of control. it doesn’t have to turn out badly in the end, you can make the decision to put yourself and your own happiness first. you don’t have to hurt yourself on the outside to show that you’re hurting on the inside. there are other ways to let it out. 

check out these links the next time ur feeling stressed if you want to, it might help -

https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/the-race-good-health/201212/4-healthy-ways-cope-stress

https://themighty.com/2017/02/what-to-do-after-relapse/

https://www.helpguide.org/articles/anxiety/cutting-and-self-harm.htm

these two are just calming websites that’ll help distact you -

http://weavesilk.com/

http://thequietplaceproject.com/thethoughtsroom/?page=thethoughtsroom&lang=

that last link is just a place to vent your feelings and thoughts any time you need to. i hope at least one of them helps.

i’m sorry i can’t do something more for you,.i know words are pretty useless when you’re feeling so fucking bad, but i really mean it when i say that i care about you, that you can get through this, that things are going to be okay. you’re such a sweet and good person and your family are completely out of order. message me if you need to rant about them or if you need a friend. i know i’m inconsistent w my replies sometimes cause i just get anxiety about answering messages, but honestly hit me up if you need to and we can talk. i’m always here.

[disableddisaster]

ALL

1.Who was the last person you held hands with?

****

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?

****4. Are you easy to get along with?

sadie says yes

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?

probably

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?

women

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?

well see which way the gay winds blow

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?

erase nb identities COOL !!!!!!!!!!!!! 

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?

not rly !!!

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

river says me bitch

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?

“GAY!!!!!!!!!!!!” to @gaysun

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

paramores entire new album killed me 

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?

i dont have hair

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

no

15. What good thing happened this summer?

summer just started!!!!!!

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

......... Yes

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?

YES

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?

NO gross

19. Do you like bubble baths?

yes!

20. Do you like your neighbors?

i dont know them theyre hermits and theyre old

21. What are you bad habits?

i pick at my skin!!!!!!!!!!!!!

22. Where would you like to travel?

i wanna go back to NYC.............

23. Do you have trust issues?

i thimk so

24. Favorite part of your daily routine?

what routine lmfao

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?

my *******

26. What do you do when you wake up?

shower

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?

this question is DUMB lmao

28. Who are you most comfortable around?

my best friend!!!!

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?

nope

30. Do you ever want to get married?

eventually

31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail?

i have a buzzcut

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?

dude idk

33. Spell your name with your chin.

sdnbhgm,a

34. Do you play sports? What sports?

N o never in my life

35. Would you rather live without TV or music?

TV 

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?

oh boy YEA

37. What do you say during awkward silences?

nothing.... its silent...............

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?

she...... is an angel

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?

the thrift store..?

40. What do you want to do after high school?

high school is already done and im not rly doin gwhat i want lol

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

NO LOL

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?

that im dead, because i never shut the fuck up

43. Do you smile at strangers?

ITS RUDE NOT TO

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?

SPACE

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?

my cat

46. What are you paranoid about?

beetles in my bed

47. Have you ever been high?

yes it sucked

48. Have you ever been drunk?

yes its fun

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?

yes lol

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?

i dont rly like hoodies

51. Ever wished you were someone else?

conceptually?

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?

i wish my fibro would go away

53. Favourite makeup brand?

i dont rly wear makeup

54. Favourite store?

the grocery store

55. Favourite blog?

@gaybellaswan

56. Favourite colour?

YELLLOW!!!!!!

57. Favourite food?

coffee  

58. Last thing you ate?

salad

59. First thing you ate this morning?

crispy chicken wrap from tim hortons!!!

60. Ever won a competition? For what?

ive won almost every limbo competition ive ever participated in

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?

nope

62. Been arrested? For what?

nope

63. Ever been in love? 

idk

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?

it was on my bed in 2014

65. Are you hungry right now?

no

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?

that makes no SENSE

67. Facebook or Twitter?

facebook but its still awful

68. Twitter or Tumblr?

tumblr

69. Are you watching tv right now?

no

70. Names of your bestfriends? 

jenna, sab, emily, river, sadie :-)

71. Craving something? What?

coffee

72. What colour are your towels?

every colour

72. How many pillows do you sleep with?

a giant bear, a carrot, a giant whale, and two pillows

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

a giant bear, a carrot, a cow, and a giant whale

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?

i have no idea

75. Favourite animal?

CAT CATCATC

76. What colour is your underwear?

its grey

77. Chocolate or Vanilla?

vanilla

78. Favourite ice cream flavour?

chocolate chip cookie dough

79. What colour shirt are you wearing?

grey

80. What colour pants?

black

81. Favourite tv show?

the office

82. Favourite movie?

princess bride

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?

ive never seen either

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?

21 jump street cuz i actually saw that one

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?

dude idk

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?

the LIL SQYUID

87. First person you talked to today?

****

88. Last person you talked to today?

im talkin to sadie rn

89. Name a person you hate?

shay.

90. Name a person you love?

JENNA!!!!!

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?

cole

92. In a fight with someone?

no

93. How many sweatpants do you have?

one pair 

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?

a fuck ton

95. Last movie you watched?

i dont remember it had selena gomez in it tho

96. Favourite actress?

kristen stewart

97. Favourite actor?

men suck

98. Do you tan a lot?

I HHAVE A SUNBURN

99. Have any pets?

4 CATS!

100. How are you feeling?

yelly\

101. Do you type fast?

YES

102. Do you regret anything from your past?

everyone regrets somethimg

103. Can you spell well?

not really 

104. Do you miss anyone from your past?

not really

105. Ever been to a bonfire party?

one time i went to a bonfire party and got so drunk i lost my shoes

106. Ever broken someone’s heart?

idk probably

107. Have you ever been on a horse?

yes!!

108. What should you be doing?

noothing

109. Is something irritating you right now?

gfufu

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?

no

111. Do you have trust issues?

yeah

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?

****

113. What was your childhood nickname?

shy

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?

yes!!!

115. Do you play the Wii?

its 2017

116. Are you listening to music right now?

sia!!!

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?

only tge real stuff the stuff in those packets is garbage

118. Do you like Chinese food?

doesnt everyone

119. Favourite book?

idk harry potter or somethimg

120. Are you afraid of the dark?

no

121. Are you mean?

i dont think so but mean lesbian is my brand so i guess

122. Is cheating ever okay?

NO the fuck

123. Can you keep white shoes clean?

i dont own white shoes for that reason

124. Do you believe in love at first sight?

not really??

125. Do you believe in true love?

maybe!!!

126. Are you currently bored?

im answering 150 fyckin questions what do u think

127. What makes you happy?

cats!!!!!!

128. Would you change your name?

literally to Shy

129. What your zodiac sign?

libra

130. Do you like subway?

like the restaurant? yeah

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

i am not friends with a single man

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

still river

133. Favourite lyrics right now?

idk man

134. Can you count to one million?

theoretically

135. Dumbest lie you ever told?

idk i cant think of any

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?

open so the cats can get in!

137. How tall are you?

4′11

138. Curly or Straight hair?

i have straight hair but curly hair is so pretty

139. Brunette or Blonde?

brunettes 

140. Summer or Winter?

SUMMER

141. Night or Day?

night time

142. Favourite month?

may

143. Are you a vegetarian?

as much as i can be, but im broke and ill eat food

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?

dark!!!!!!!!!!!!

145. Tea or Coffee?

COFFEE

146. Was today a good day?

i think so!!

147. Mars or Snickers?

neither tbh

148. What’s your favourite quote?

‘im gay’ - me

149. Do you believe in ghosts?

i dont know!!!

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line

there is not a book anywhere near me tbh