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You got me reminiscing about my last job. I worked at a candy store that was in the middle of the city center, so there were a good number of homeless people around, especially considering that the homeless population in my city had been steadily increasing over the past few years (the local government seems to be making things actively worse in a lot of cases)
Some of the other workers treated them awfully, calling them subhuman, wanting them to "just go somewhere else" and avoiding them at all costs. Others were at least empathetic to them, and most were indifferent. Occasionally people would come in and ask for stuff, water most of the time, and every time unless there was a regional manager actively breathing down my neck I would take the risk and just give it to them. Even if we mostly sell sugary trash that isn't considered a "bare necessity", they still deserve a treat. Especially if they're sitting outside hungry and dehydrated right next to a place that's plentiful of food and water that tourists easily pay over $50 for without a second thought
I was both a cashier and a kitchen worker so I a lot of times if we had extra stock or bad batches or spare ingredients I would be given the option to take it for myself (as well as anything else I wanted so long as I was sneaky with it). Every time someone made chocolate covered pretzels, there would always be at least a whole bag's worth of broken pretzels left over that would otherwise be thrown away. After the end of my shifts, sometimes I would go and donate any money I could (I got a lot of cash tips so the amount would usually be $5-10) along with a little treat or pretzels if I had enough to share. And then I'd take the opportunity to just have a nice conversation with them if they were open to it. I've never been homeless myself but considering everything I know about it and all the close calls I've had with it, I know how just meeting someone who cares can go a long way. Money is one thing and food is another, but it can be so easy to lose faith in humanity when you're forced to live like that. I struggle with it even with a bed to sleep in. So many of people I've met were apologizing while asking for bare sustainance and trying to spend money they didn't have. The withholding of essential survival is so normalized for them that they can't do anything without feeling like a burden; like feeling like they're doing something wrong
So I show them that there are people who think more highly of them, who can remind them that they do deserve better, and that the world isn't as indifferent to them as it may seem. We'd talk about music and share stories. Discuss shared struggles and mental illness. I'd listen to what they had to say, cause I know so few people would give them the time. They were great and insightful conversations, even with my social anxiety. Every time they'd thank me I'd say that it's the least I could do, because it really was
It sucks that I got laid off from that job. As much as I hated it, being able to help people in that small way and contributing to that community did soften the experience a bit. I hope those people are doing ok
When I was 19-21 years old living on the streets in california the people who cared for me the most were never the people who could care for me comfortably. It was never the channels that were intended to or designed to help me. Not my dad or my local government or anyone with the authority to make things happen. It was my friend's stoner mom who got by on community aid who made me the best damn lentil soup ill ever have (no really that ruined the dish for me nothing has ever come close to that soup) and let me sleep on her floor. It was my ex who hated my guts but still set me up with toiletries when i needed them. It was the father of a classmate who met me by coincidence one time in a park and brought me home to share taco night together. It was the barista who got in trouble for giving me free coffee. It was the other homeless person who I shared some candy with who gave me his blanket. It was the randos at the bar who brought me to get stitches one night. The have-nots have always had more to give than people who believe themselves in a position of power. You can pick any one ivy league graduate and they will have a sob story for you. They will have excuses for why they don't care. They're scared and gormless and it'll take a hell of a lot to make me care about them. I guess what I'm trying to say is that as much as everything sucks and we're all fucked over every day, nothing can ever impede your own actions more than the feeling that you cannot make an impact. The initiative needed to make the world a better place lurks in everyone, it's your responsibility to nourish it. Volunteer somewhere, talk to someone on a bad day, give people the time of day to explain themselves. When you can, reach out to help someone. And when you can't, don't ignore them. Be kind to your friends and neighbors. It's literally always been and will always be about community. I love every one of you truly.
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Don't Be Sorry
rockstar!eddie x fem!reader
You show up to Eddie's house looking for a good time and when you realize that that's not what you want, Eddie is nothing but a sweetheart about it.
cw: MDNI (18+) nipple play
You have no idea why youâre standing on Eddie Munsonâs doorstep. You know itâs silly since his invitation really didnât mean anything. He was just trying to be polite by flirting with you and giving you his number, right? Taking you home in his very expensive car was just generosity. Just something to make him look good in front of the paparazzi. Sure, he might have invited you over and had even given you his address along with that phone number, but this is what he does. To him, youâre sure that youâre just a hookup, but youâre willing to be whatever he wants you to be.Â
The door opens and there he is, no shirt, rubbing sleep out of his eyes despite it being three in the afternoon. You think heâs going to send you away but a bright smile appears on his face as he opens the door wider. He ushers you inside and you have to stop to take in the place. Your entire apartment could fit into the foyer alone.Â
While youâre looking around at the place, Eddie is staring at nothing but you. Youâre at his house and he doesnât even care that you showed up unannounced. Heâs just happy that youâre here. Heâs been trying to get himself to call you since you changed numbers the other night but every time the phone rings, he chickens out and hangs up.Â
This has never happened to Eddie before. Heâs usually so confident, but thereâs something about you that makes him feel like his shy teenage self again. Heâs been out with more women than he can count, models, singers, actresses, women who you have definitely heard of, so why are you the one who makes him nervous?Â
He thinks itâs because for once, he has no idea who heâs with. He didnât know who you were prior to your meeting and that scares him. He tried to google you, but all that came up was your social media that he couldnât get himself to follow. He didnât want to come off as obsessed even though he very much is. He hasnât been able to stop thinking about you since he watched you walk into your apartment building. Youâve taken up every inch of his brain and he doesnât ever want you to leave.
The house is decorated so elegantly that youâre wondering if he hired someone or heâs just that good at it. Neither would surprise you, to be honest.Â
âCan I offer you something to drink? I think Iâve got some wine in the cellar.â Cellar? Thatâs only something youâve seen on TV so the fact that you know someone who has one is a little mind boggling. This man lives a life you have only dreamed about.Â
âOh, no thank you,â you shake your head as he leads you into the living room, inviting you to sit on the couch with him. You do so hesitantly, keeping space between the two of you, but Eddie is quick to close it, his bare thigh pressed to yours.Â
Neither of you seem to care that heâs only in his underwear, but if youâre lucky, he wonât be wearing them for very long. You turn to face him, picking up a lock of his hair and twirl it around your finger as you lean in closer. Heâs quick to follow and he leans in but stops when your faces are only inches apart.Â
âI can believe youâre here,â he smiles. âI was too nervous to call.âÂ
âYou get on stage in front of thousands of people every night and I make you nervous?â You ask, your lips so close to his.Â
âIncredibly,â he replies, closing the space as his lips slot between yours. Your hands slide into his hair as his move up your dress, resting on your thighs. You shamelessly slip your tongue into his mouth as he pulls you into his lap, straddling his waist.Â
His hands move further up your dress and in a flash, it's in a pile on the floor and now youâre on top of him in just your underwear. He unhooks your bra with ease and you canât help but think about how quickly itâs all progressing. But all your thoughts leave when he starts kissing down your neck, sucking on the skin as you lean your head back, letting him go for your chest.Â
Eddie canât believe this is happening. Heâs got the prettiest girl on his lap and your moans are only making him harder, especially when you begin grinding against him.Â
He slides off your bra and lets it fall to the floor, taking in your naked upper half. Drool pools in his mouth as he thinks about how badly he wants to take his hard nipples into your mouth. And he does exactly that, feeling himself getting even more hard as you continue to grind against him, his lips wrapping around your nipple as the prettiest moan falls from your lips.Â
Youâre perfect, he thinks, as he continues to lick and suck, deciding that he could do this all day, loving the way you taste mixed with the pretty sounds that are falling from your lips. Heâs done this with more women than he could count, but this, this feels different.Â
âOh my god,â you whine as he bites down, your nails digging into his scalp and he moans against you, doing it again and again until you throw your head back, an orgasm coursing through you as another loud moan falls from your lips. God, you donât even know how badly he wants you to moan his name.Â
He gives one more bite as he slides his hands into your panties, getting a handful of your ass as he tries to slide them down but as good as this feels, you donât feel comfortable continuing. Youâre out of practice and not sure how it would all go. Maybe in time youâd be able to work up the courage to sleep with him, but not today.Â
âStop,â you tell him and he immediately backs off, his hands sliding out of your panties at record speed. Eddie pulls back to look at you with a panicked look on his face.Â
âDid I do something wrong?â He asks and he starts to panic even more when he sees tears streaming down your face and heâs quick to wipe them away. You feel horrible letting him think that heâs the reason why you put the whole thing to a stop so you know you have to set the record straight.Â
âNo, no,â you shake your head. âYou did everything right. I-Iâm just not ready. Iâm sorry.â You look so hurt and he hopes that you donât think youâre disappointing him because youâre not. He doesnât mind at all that youâve cut it short. He just wants to spend time with you.
âDonât be,â he shakes his head before pulling you into a kiss. âWe can go upstairs and cuddle. I actually just got some sheets.â All of the other guys youâd slept with had been so horrible when youâd stop them from proceeding. Itâs not surprising that Eddie is nothing but sweet about the whole thing.Â
He can tell you feel bad about denying him so heâs quick to inform you that he doesnât care what you do, just as long as you do it together. And if you want to leave, thatâs perfectly fine too. He just wants you to be comfortable and would hate crossing the boundaries that youâve very clearly set.Â
He helps you put on your dress since you seem to feel exposed then he leads you up the stairs to his massive bedroom thatâs just as tidy as the rest of the house youâve seen. He has you sit on the bed while he pulls out a t-shirt thatâs been freshly washed and it still smells like the dryer sheets he uses.Â
You let Eddie help you put it on and he puts on one of his other shirts before the two of you cuddle in the center of the bed, your head on his chest as he plays with your hair. You watch TV as he orders more food than the two of you could ever need.Â
Sitting there with him as you pile plates high with various food items, you decide that there is no place youâd rather be. Eddieâs quickly becoming the sweetest man youâve ever met and clearly all of the articles have been so wrong about him. You know youâve only hung out with him twice, but itâs clear that everyone was totally wrong about him.Â
This is something you could get used to, a pretty man and anything and everything you could ever ask for. Itâs a win-win in your eyes and thereâs no way you could ever turn back knowing what heâs willing to give you. You could see yourself falling in love with him and when he bats those brown eyes at you, youâre beginning to think that you already are.
#stranger things#eddie munson#eddie munson x reader#eddie munson x you#eddie x y/n#eddie munson x fem!reader#eddie munson smut#eddie munson fluff
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So much of coachâs narrative comes down to agency and his continual loss of it and I find that devastating. His struggle to be autonomous is wrapped up in his rocky relationship to his identity which is why he chose nationals over Paul despite maybe knowing in the back of his mind that making the terrifying decision could change his life for the better, and assuming he is guaranteed return. He values what he perceives to be safety over happiness because itâs all he knows, only to be wrong, and ends up regretting it in retrospect. The crash puts him in a position where despite being able bodied his entire life, he suddenly has to rely on a group of teenagers, his students whom heâs expected to care for himself and feels a responsibility to, are now the ones taking care of him, and overseeing other survival tasks that despite his practical know-how, he finds himself unable to do.
As they spend more time in the wilderness it becomes apparent to him that the team doesnât really want nor need his help or advice anymore and feeling, too, that he might be useless, he resigns himself to inaction and fails the team he was supposed to protect and support without meaning to because his control over them is dwindling anyway. He tries to intervene both times but is met with disagreement from the collective as two of his students die preventable deaths because what does he have aside from his words, and would they listen anyway? He falls into despair imagining what his life might have looked life if he had chosen himself, if he had exercised any agency, but hypotheticals are useless. He checks out entirely as Shauna is giving birth in the other room.
He takes his life into his own hands for possibly the first time by deciding to end it and is interrupted. He realizes what witnessing an event like that would do to Misty and chooses his responsibility to her instead.
He finally makes an autonomous choice again in leaving; wanting not to hurt them but to save himself and so he stays far away. He leaves behind the only person he can trust because she has made it clear to him that she isnât so different from the rest of them, and not for the first time, he is left completely alone. He regains his will to live but not even necessarily because thatâs what he wants and more because heâs afraid, and in his head, the alternative is dying and being eaten. He is hyper aware of the way his leg is a disadvantage to him in a survival situation. So he leaves.
He scavenges and starves but makes do on his own. He adapts. He kidnaps Mari and feeds her and fixes her knee because even after the fear that prompts his departure, sheâs scared and sheâs hurt and sheâs his to take care of. He knows that even if it means he pays for it with his life, he has to let her go. He probably figures she will talk, what other choice does she have? Upon being found, he saves Shauna and Van and Akilah, only to be captured. He knows going into the trial that it wonât be fair. He has no other options. He has no agency.
He is sentenced to death for a crime he didnât commit. Heâs placed in an animal pen, his only means of mobility withheld from him. Heâs dragged to a tree to be shot by his former team and isnât even afforded the dignity of a look in the eye as they do it. He canât do anything about it. An eleventh hour prophetic vision spares his life, but the severing of his Achilles as the newly settled upon punishment violently strips him of what mobility he had left, and he hadnât been afforded agency since he was off on his own. Heâs left immobile and heâs in pain and he isnât even allowed to die of his own accord despite his begging and pleading. Even if he knows itâs selfish or horrible or irrational to ask Nat to help him do it, he keeps begging because he has nothing left. Not even choice.
To be allowed to die is the one thing he wants and in granting him his final wish, She gives him back his agency. Itâs not what she wants for him and she will feel that guilt for the rest of her life. She knows it will get her in trouble with the rest of the group, but itâs what he wants. That means something to her.
#yj spoilers#yellowjackets showtime#Yellowjackets#natalie scatorccio#coach ben#ben scott#mari ibarra#Iâm having so many feelings I donât know what do with them all. I miss him so bad Iâm crying.#I know itâs ridiculous but he means to much to me.#analysis
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đ đ”đ”đ” đ đźđđđđ«đ„đČ đČđšđźđ«đŹ, | rex sloan 'splode' x gender neutral reader
love mail â PLEAASE please rex sloane be famous IM BEGGINg this took me like an hour but it's so long i'm actually surprised i committed to it. !!( ; ïŸ)ïŸ ïŸguys.. .. please... my efforts for my alive husband.. MAJOR S3 SPOILERS ! angst too oops, not proofread sorri !
wc : 2.2k
the three times rex sloan broke your heart.
rex sloan, or splode, one or the other â depending on how much he liked you, was a man that many knew for his pride, ego, and utter selfishness. the living, breathing representative of a self absorbed man. you hated the fact you fell for his stupid jokes and undeniable charm, how could you not? in his words, he was irresistable, and you had to admit.. he wasn't lying.
rex had you smitten with that little smirk of his and promises of well spent 'bonding' and 'getting to know each other'. you were doomed the moment he caught on to what made you tick, and what made you flush.
the very first time he had broken your trust, was his promise to court you â to have a beautiful life with you, that your eyes were pretty, that you were his, all his. only to hear those same words as he pounds into some random woman in your apartment, to your dismay. clothes that weren't yours and ones that definitely belonged to rex are scattered all over the place, and you just feel sick.
you make sure to yell for them to get out. and your eyes burn into rex's unapologetic ones, you see that smile on his face â unashamed, uncaring. you accept your defeat, that you fell for stupid, flowery words, from a pretty face with an ugly heart. you fall to the floor when you hear the door click, wobbly knees unable to hold you up for any longer as you sob; heart screaming at you for allowing yourself to be betrayed like this â when you knew you should have been smarter, wiser. not fall to something as stupid as love.
dealing with him around the base was your worst nightmare. he was fine; same insufferable jerkbag, while you cried and cried for days on end. where your body felt used, and your heart strings being tugged so tightly, you were afraid your fraile organ would burst. you knew one thing for sure, rex splode â was a man beyond redemption, beyond saving, and beyond forgiveness.
you dealt with seeing his face all the time, pissing you off, the team off, and being the same arrogant asshole he always was. you scold yourself for ever thinking he was anything different, for all the times he confided in you, and you him, for all the times your connection was more than cheap sex â was revealed to be nothing. hell, you wouldn't even be surprised if the cheap sex was all rex cared about. fuck that guy. (not literally, enough of that.)
the second time was weird. because you never even took him back â but after his.. haunting battle with king lizard that damn near killed him, the team did everything they could to keep him alive. at the cost of him needing to be bedridden for a while, unconcious, barely breathing.
you don't know why you even bothered to visit. you used to fight the urge to bash his face in, but seeing him so.. still, perhaps even peaceful.. you come to wonder how anyone was able to tame that fire he so naturally burned with. you made regular visits with mark, his best friend. and the way he talked about rex, made you remember the version of him you understood him as. for all his spunk and bite, he was still a man. a man who just wanted to be loved; for reasons unbeknownst to you at the time, as his past left him feeling unwanted.
you pitied him, almost. nothing can excuse cheating, nothing â but still.. you can never really get rid of the affection you held for someone. in the back of your head, like a virus that won't go away, it stays.. even if you can't see it, you definitely feel it.
things got worse when he woke up, because you don't know why â or how â but he just.. got better. scoffs and sneers turned to smiles and greetings, brushed off attempts at small talk became check ups on his health, and for the first time in the longest time.. your heart softened for him. you felt the familiar ache of your heart whenever he was around, but not one of hatred, but instead of.. yearning. oh no. your feelings for him coming back a second time around was not welcomed.
you didn't know how to feel on the night rex asked to see you at the roof of your apartment complex, and you didn't know what you were thinking when you agreed to meet. your footsteps feel heavy as you walk the stairs to the very top, and when you open the door â there he is. you expected the whole hero get-up, it was like the only thing he wore.. but no, just a shirt and plain pants while he leaned against a short wall, his back turned as he looked over to the city below. weird, you noted, but rex splode was always weird. and annoying, and insufferable, and â
"you ever think about what it's like?"
you snap out of your thoughts â surprised to hear such softness in his voice. it was almost believable, you scoffed mentally, even if you two were on better terms, you remained cautious. but nevertheless, you walk towards him, standing by his side with crossed arms. "what are you getting at?" you mumbled, an unintentional bite in your tone as rex chuckled, all too familiar with it.
"you know, what it means to be more than a hero â something more than a masked figure that saves lives, lives that are the reason i can only wonder what it must be like to.." his voice trails off, but you're understanding the direction this conversation is going.
you opened your mouth to continue his sentence, the previous snark disappearing. "be happy, truly, and unapologetically happy." you finished, turning your head to search his face for confirmation of her assumption of his words. his bittersweet smile speaks volumes.
he then asks; "you know my last name? like, for real." laughing at the question, you answer without thinking. "splode. it's stupid, rex splode â explode â"
"sloan."
your laugh slowly dies down, blinking at the realization. "my full name is rex sloan." rex, for the first time in.. ever, looks vulnerable. and all of a sudden, you recall just exactly why you were always so captivated by those eyes of his.
the talk extends for a couple hours, some tears are shed, unsaid words were finally shared, and a single promise was made.
"i promise," rex's hand makes it's way to your cheek, soothing your sniffles as the other pulls you close by the hip. a gesture you once recognized as rex wanting something physical, but there was more to this.. something emotional, a connection beyond desire and lust. "âthat i'll be better. i'll fix what i broke back then, when i was spoiled, a big brat.. and that i'll be a good man for you. for all the hurt i caused, i'll try to heal tenfold. i'll be more than.. rex splode, i'll be yours." he whispered, leaning in close and brushing his nose against yours, a form of sweet affection.
and at those words, you leaned in to kiss him. a seal, one could say, to his oath of change. and since rex was staring at your lips all night, being on his very best behavior, he appreciated the reward. "you know.." he mumbled against your lips, smiling. "for once in my shitty life, i think i'm actually content." a laugh escapes him, and you practically swallow it with the way he just.. can't, won't pull away from you. "it's kinda worth living if it's with you."
but nothing could be greater than his relief that you forgave him. that the man you found to be so repulsive and conniving, was worth forgiving. and you will never know how much that meant to him. how much you meant to him.
the third, and very last time rex had broken your heart, was the invincible war.
the team was sent to deal with an invincible variant, no biggie! rex was joking about how excited he was to kick his best friends ass, and you laugh.. the war was hard, after all. with so much destruction, some humor doesn't hurt.
you wish you told him to not underestimate the enemy, to have a high guard.. because maybe, maybe you could've stopped this.
monster girl and rudy are safe, they had long fleed the bridge and now it was just you and rex. beaten, bloodied, and bruised.. but together. rex had taken so many more hits, for you and the others more than anything else. the gash in his side is still dripping blood and you feel sick at the sight. you can't win this, you won't win this.
your thoughts are disturbed by the hardest hit you'll likely ever take if you make it out of here alive, slamming you into a wall, knocking the wind out of you. "aghâ.." trying to get up serves impossible, every inch of your body is screaming for you to stand, but the building shakes with each explosion rex throws at gogglesible â and all you can do is helplessly watch as your boyfriend, the love of your life, still tries to fight a battle he knows he's lost.
your one good eye widens at the sight of gogglesible getting the upper hand, grabbing rex by the throat â chokes and curses of struggle escaping his lips. "when i'm done with you, it'll be your dumb little partner next. right after they watch you get torn to shreds, limb by limb, with nothing left of you to mourn." the variant spoke coldly, his grip on rex's neck tightening with every second.
you watched helplessly, tears brimming in your eyes as you catch rex's gaze. even as he struggles, he's still got his eyes on you, so loving, full of nothing but adoration. so that's when you know somethings wrong â because for all the love you have for him, you know he wasn't the type to become sappy in the middle of battle. not unless â
that's when you're forcing yourself to move. grabbing onto the wall as you don't notice the way he reaches into his aforementioned gash, too focused to getting to him before it's too late.
rex always joked about going out with a bang â oh fuck, please be some messed up joke.
"honey,"
the sound of his voice immediately makes you snap your head to him, the kindest smile is on his lips â and he's got that apologetic look in his eyes. he knows what'll happen, he just hopes you remember him fondly. not for who he was, but who he became. cause among everything else, he was grateful to become yours. that you will be the one person to remember him as rex sloan, and not the jackass the world made him be.
"make sure to look away f'me, yeah?"
three times rex broke your heart,
two times you chose to forgive â
and one whole lifetime to live without him.
you sob as you turn your head away, the sight too much to bear as the last thing you see is rex's skin beginning to glow an bright yellow hue.
"my entire goddamn skeleton, dickhead."
and then, it was over.
you wake up in a hospital bed, noticing the burn marks that cover your skin, almost mocking the experience you had only hours prior. a reminder of who you lost, permanently engraved on your body forever.
at your side, is a note; it's not anything grandiose, hell â it's crumpled and the penmanship looks half assed. but you know it all too well, rex.
hey, i'm awful at notes. don't expect sappy shit, alright? i just have a horrible feeling about the mission and, you know, no regrets. not saying somethings gonna go wrong but i just want you to know.
when i met you, i was a horrible guy. i chased nothing but my own self pleasure and ego, and i still regret it. the way you looked at me that night, i get scared of disappointing you like that again. god, i wish i wasn't writing this on some tiny notepad i stole from marks desk, but i digress.
i love you, holy fuck i love you. you're my world, my honey, my heart. you made an irredeemable scumbag a tolerable young man, and that's something to be proud of. make sure to never forget that, okay? you were the reason i stopped throwing myself into danger like i was immortal, for once i..
i would be afraid.
for the first time in my life, i was terrified of dying, and that was new â so incredibly new to me. regardless, i'm glad i get to come home to you every single night, honey. no need to be afraid of dying when i know i'll fight hard to live, and see your pretty eyes first thing in the morning.
i love you, for all your sassy remarks and shitty jokes, i love you.
i'll see you when we get back from the mission, and you'll laugh at me for making something so stupid and sappy. but you know i mean it, everything, it's always for you. all of it is for you.
â utterly yours, r. s. âĄ
#⥠â đđđđđđđ#rex sloan x reader#rex splode x reader#rex sloan#rex splode#invincible s3#invincible x reader
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Could I please request Ronin with a reader who got a stalker after their book got popular? They donât really see the stalker as a threat, theyâve dealt with the devil after all.
But what if he gets a little too close and it forces Ronin to do something about it, but the reader beat him to it?
Have a great day!

Your first mistake was underestimating the appeal of a killer.
The bookâyour bookâwas never supposed to blow up like this. A bloody, intimate little crime novel, loosely inspired by the slasher-flavored chaos youâd somehow made a life out of. It was supposed to be niche, a cult hit at best. But now? Every other day, thereâs a new notification about someone thirsting after your fictional killer. Reviews drool over his sadism, his devil-may-care attitude, the way he breaks his victims like itâs a love language.
They have no idea heâs real. That he kisses you with the same mouth he uses to threaten lives.
Ronin thinks itâs hilarious.
ââThe Devilâs Butcher could get it, tbh,ââ he reads aloud one night, cackling over a tweet on your phone. âAw, sweetheartâwhy didnât ya tell me I had fans? Coulda started a damn fan club. Goreboy Nation. Merch nâ everythinâ.â
You roll your eyes, shoving his face away from your screen. âYouâre already insufferable. If you start selling t-shirts, Iâm out.â
Ronin just hums, teeth grazing your neckâplayful. Sharp. âNah, ya ainât goinâ anywhere, darlinâ. Face it: âm the only devil whoâs gonna put up with ya.â
You let him think that. Let him croon against your skin like the world itself belongs to himâlike you belong to him. (He isnât wrong.)
But the thing is, while the fans are fun and the moneyâs nice, you know better than anyone that obsession isnât cute.
So when you first notice the messagesâsubtle at first, just a little too knowingâyou donât think much of it. Youâve been stalked before. Hell, your boyfriend is a stalker if you squint a little. Whatâs one more weirdo with boundary issues?
But then your inbox gets weird.
The stalker doesnât ask normal fan questions. They pick apart the detailsâthe parts you shouldnât know, shouldnât be able to write about. Things only Ronin would recognize. Things you shouldnât have access to.
They know too much.
âYou think itâs a cop?â you ask one night, lounging on Roninâs ratty couch while he sharpens one of his knives.
He snorts. âPlease. If the cops were that competent, Iâd be in cuffs already.â He tilts his head, glancing at you through dark lashes. âYou worried, baby?â
Worried? Not exactly. Not when your boyfriend has a body count higher than his IQ.
You shrug. âI can handle it.â
Ronin grins, wolfish and bright. âI know ya can.â
The first time you mention the stalker, Ronin laughs.
You do get it now..
"Aw, câmon, darling," he drawls over the phone, voice honey-sweet with a razorâs edge. "Youâre tellinâ me some pencil-idiot creep thinks they can rattle you? After all weâve been through? Cute."
Heâs not worriedâwhy would he be? Youâve survived him, after all.
To Ronin, thereâs no comparison. Some obsessive fan sending you weird, clingy emails and waiting outside your apartment doesnât rank high on his list of threats. Not when youâve faced worse and walked away with your heart still beatingâhis, too, if heâs feeling sentimental.
Youâre not worried either. Not really.
Youâve danced with the devil and kissed him in an alley soaked with blood. Some guy with a parasocial complex doesnât exactly make your skin crawlânot in the way it should. But itâs annoying. Persistent. And starting to piss you off.
At first, itâs small things. A note on your windshield after a signing. Flowers sent to your P.O. box with no return address. Emails signed Your biggest fan that come in the dozensârambling, incoherent praise. Nothing that feels threatening, not really. Just⊠there.
You donât mention it again for weeks. Roninâs busy, anyway. Uptownâs been keeping him occupiedâmore bodies in Purgatory, more sinners to crucify. You donât blame him for being distracted. If anything, you like that heâs got bloodier things on his mind.
Still, when he catches you laughing over a particularly unhinged email, he makes a sound low in his throat. Dangerous. Interested.
"That your little stalker again?"
"Yeah," you say, spinning lazily in your office chair. "Dude thinks weâre soulmates or something. Poor guy has no clue what heâs up against."
"Mm." A pause. His voice dips, velvet-soft. "They better not touch you, baby."
You smile, tilting your head. "What, you gonna rip their heart out for me?"
Ronin chuckles, low and indulgent. "Only if ya let me."
The first time the stalker crosses the line, itâs almost funny. Almost.
You find the package outside your door one nightâa plain cardboard box, taped neatly shut. For a second, you think itâs something you ordered. But thereâs no address. No label.
Inside is a photograph.
Itâs you.
You, sitting at your favorite cafĂ© last weekâhead down, lost in thought, writing notes for your next novel. Taken through a window, your face blurred slightly by the glass. Beneath the photo, thereâs a single line of text.
"Youâre even prettier in person."
"Jesus Christ," you mutter, tossing it on the counter.
Ronin doesnât find it funny.
"You didnât tell me they were that close," he says when you send him a picture.
"Itâs fine," you reply. "Theyâre harmless. Just desperate."
"Yeah? Letâs see how harmless they are when I wrap my hands âround their throat."
His protectiveness is hotâobviouslyâbut you donât want to wind him up too much. This isnât his mess to clean. Not yet.
Besides. You can handle yourself.
The next time, they get bolder.
A text pings your phone at 2:47 AM. No number. No name.
I saw you tonight.
You glance toward your window. Itâs lockedâhas been since Ronin waltzed into your life and made paranoia a love language. Still, your skin prickles.
"Still harmless, darling?" Ronin asks the next morning.
You know what he wantsâto unleash that wicked temper, to make a statement in blood. Itâs sweet, in its own fucked-up way. But you tell him the same thing as always.
"Iâve got it under control."
He hums. Doesnât argue. But thereâs something sharper in his silence.
It escalates three days later.
Youâre walking home from a late-night grocery runâplastic bags heavy with cup noodles and the cheap, trashy snacks you practically live on. The city hums around you, neon lights flickering in and out of focus.
And then you feel it.
That creeping sensation of eyes on your back.
You donât panic. Panic is for people who havenât kissed a serial killer and walked away grinning. You duck into a side street instead, cutting through a back alley to lose them.
Footsteps follow.
A thrill rolls through your stomachâpart fear, part excitement. If this idiot thinks youâre an easy target, theyâve got another thing coming.
"Yâknow," you say casually, turning on your heel, "if you wanted an autograph, you couldâve justâ"
They lunge.
Wrong move.
Your elbow slams into their ribs before they can touch you. The plastic bags hit the ground, scattering instant ramen everywhere. You twist, slamming your knee into their gut nextâhard enough to make them stumble.
The guy isnât muchâskinny, twitchy, desperate. He gasps, scrambling back as you advance, heart hammering with adrenaline.
"Youâve been watching me for weeks," you murmur, stepping closer. "Did you really think I wouldnât notice?"
He doesnât answer. Just wheezes.
Pity. You were hoping for more of a fight.
Ronin shows up at your apartment less than an hour later, eyes bright with anticipation.
"Whereâs my new friend?" he drawls, cracking his knuckles.
You tilt your head toward the bathroom. "Tied up. Not much fun, though."
His grin sharpens. "Fuckinâ knew ya had it in ya, baby."
When he sees the guyâslumped against your shower wall, wrists bound tightâRonin practically purrs. He crouches low, brushing a blood-specked thumb across the stalkerâs cheek, and laughs.
"Oh, sweetheart," he murmurs, eyes flicking to you. "Ya really are somethinâ else."
"Youâre disappointed I didnât let you have him first," you tease.
Ronin leans back on his heels, gaze lingering on your face like youâre his favorite kind of crime scene. "Ainât disappointed. Proud of ya."
Itâs the truthâyou can feel it in the heat of his stare, the way his smile curves sharper. Heâs proud. Because you didnât need him to save you. Because youâre just as much a monster as he is.
And God, if that doesnât make him love you more.
By the time Roninâs finished with the guy, there isnât much left. Nothing thatâll be missed.
"Yâknow," he muses later, lounging on your bed with his bloodied hands behind his head, "if anyone else so much as looks at ya funny, Iâm takinâ their eyes as a souvenir."
You roll your eyes, crawling onto the mattress beside him. "Possessive much?"
His smile widensâferal and unrepentant. "Always. Ya like it, donât lie."
And maybe you do.
Because the devil doesnât share.
And neither do you.
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... Make Lemonade
Pairing:Â Eventual Bartender!Bucky Barnes x Female!Reader, Tony Stark x Female!Reader
Word Count:Â ~3.4k
Warnings:Â fluff
Summary: Tony has trusted you to look after his daughter while he and his ex-wife are busy. The evening doesnât go quite according to plan when Morgan ends up falling for Bucky.
One in a Million Series
Square Filled:Â makeup (2024) for @buckybarnesbingo
Authorâs Note:Â in this, Morgan is in middle school.
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Natasha is a lot of things, and being careful is one of them. She calculates every little decision until she knows itâs the right one. Itâs kind of annoying when you want to get drunk and do something stupid, and sheâs here going over every possible thing that can go wrong.
So, itâs safe to say neither of you expected this.
Natasha came over the second she had her suspicions, and she hasnât been able to take her eyes off the pregnancy box in her hands. You donât know how serious she is about Steve but it must be a lot if sheâs not actively trying to run away.
âMaybe youâre not pregnant.â
âIâm a few days late.â
âYouâre on birth control.â
âItâs not always effective.â
âOkay, so what do you want me to do? Want me to beat his ass?â That brings a smile to her face. âIt might not be so bad. Youâd make a really good mother.â
âI am not ready to have a kid. Whatâs Steve going to think when he finds out? We just started going out and now I might be pregnant?â
You donât hesitate to offer your next suggestion. It doesnât matter what views you have on the subject, youâre here for her in whatever way she wants.
âDo you want an abortion? Thereâs a clinic up the street.â
âI donât even know if I am or not. This box says to wait six days after your missed period to take it.â
âOkay, all we have to do is get through the weekend and then weâll know. We can do this. Itâs just the weekend. Plus, youâve been late before, so I wouldnât panic right now.â
Someone knocks on your door and Steve opens the door. Natasha goes rigid next to you, and you shove the pregnancy box between your right thigh and Natashaâs left one.
âHey, what are you guys talking about?â he asks.
âJust what you were like as a baby,â you say carefully.
âI was a pretty tame baby. Though, my mother always told me she wanted to kill me because of the labor I put her through. I wasnât exactly small,â he chuckles.
Nastasha groans and falls back into the bed with her hands on her face.
âGet out!â
Steve does so with a confused look.
âI just need a distraction. Being alone by myself or with Steve isnât going to be good for me. What are you doing today?â she asks and sits back up.
âWell, Tony is allowing Morgan to come over so I can watch her while he goes to a bunch of meetings. His ex-wife canât watch her so sheâs bringing her over here.â
Itâs been a couple of months since you and Tony met, and you two have been going⊠steady. Youâre not sure what the right word for it. Tony takes care of you like Natasha said he would, but thereâs no spark. You really like him, itâs just that he likes to spend his weekends sipping whiskey and going to the casino while youâd rather go on nature walks or binge watch your favorite tv show. You want to be with your friends and roommates, but this is no place for Tony. Heâs too rich and sophisticated to understand what itâs like to live the way you do.
Still, you want to give the relationship a try because you do like him a lot. Plus, Bucky made it clear that he wanted you to pursue this, so instead of fighting it, youâre running with it. Itâs not even weird that heâs a lot older than you.
âAre you ready for that?â Natasha asks.
âIâm already her teacher. How hard can it be to watch her?â You leave Natasha alone in your room and join the boys in the kitchen. Bucky is eating a bowl of cereal and you hesitate to speak. Why? He's the one who pushed you into this relationship. You were ready to leave. âHey, what are you guys doing today?â
âJust a bar shift,â Bucky says. âA short one. I shouldnât be gone long.â
âTwo work meetings,â Steve says. âIt should take all day.â
âNot much,â Sam says.
âOkay, look, Tony is allowing Morgan to come over here for the day. His ex-wife is bringing her over right now, so I need you three to be on your best behavior. No cussing. No hookups. No walking around half-naked. No talking about sex. Dinner is going to be at five promptly so donât be late.â
âDonât worry, Y/N, weâll be good boys,â Bucky smirks.
Those words shouldnât have such an effect on you, but here you are. Before you have thoughts of Bucky being a good boy, your phone rings.
âOh, Pepper is here. Please be good.â You practically race downstairs and meet Pepper outside who is getting Morgan ready for the day. âPepper! Hi!â
âOh, hi, Y/N! Thank you so much for agreeing to watch her. If you need me to be, I can be here in ten minutes.â
âIâm sure weâll get along fine,â you smile. âThank you for letting me watch her.â
âHonestly? I usually have a babysitter but sheâs out of town. My husband has meetings all day. Youâre her favorite teacher, and my husbandâs favorite teacher,â Pepper mutters the last part.
âYeah,â you chuckle nervously. âListen, I hope this isnât rude or anything, but you keep saying âhusbandâ and I want to make sure that you and Tony arenât still together.â
Pepper tips her head back and laughs loudly but fakely. Itâs like she found offense yet amusement in what you just said.
âOh, no. Nothing like that. Tony and I are very much divorced.â
âOkay, good, because I donât want to miss anything important.â
Pepper leaves Morgan in your care and drives off, and you take the young girl back to your apartment. Why are you so nervous? Is it because of Natasha and her baby drama? Is it because of the very real possibility that the boys could be home and influence Morgan in a bad way? Or is it because you donât want Bucky to see you with Morgan knowing youâre trying to make it work with Tony?
Sam is already gone by the time you get back, but Natasha, Steve, and Bucky are still here. Heâs literally on his way out the door when you walk inside.
âRemember, dinner is at five!â
âIâll be there!â
âOkay, Morgan, I donât know about you, but how do you feel about makeovers? Itâs never too young to learn about makeup.â
âSounds fun,â she grins. âMy mom and I do that all the time. Every weekend at a spa.â
âOkay, well, this place isnât as fancy as a spa but I do have a lot of products.â
Bucky walks out of his room and Morgan looks like she has stars in her eyes. You get it. Heâs very attractive.
âOkay, Iâm bringing a date to dinner tonight. Her name is Ashley.â
âNo, youâre not,â you say. âYouâre not going to bring women around Morgan.â
Bucky looks at her and smiles politely. âHi. You must be Morgan.â
âHi,â she says shyly.
âLook, Ashley is a good girl. Sheâs smart and mature. She studies art and sheâs very intuitive.â
You ignore the shiver running down your spine when he says âgood girlâ. You know he didn't mean anything by it, but it makes you think about him calling you his good girl. Get a grip, Y/N! Youâre with Tony! Bucky grabs his keys and he bids adieu as he leaves for his short shift at the bar.
âOkay, Morgan, let me get some of my makeup. Be right back.â
Most of your makeup is in the bathroom in a dedicated corner the boys made for you. They got sick and tired of your shit cluttering up the sinks. When you return with your hands full, Morgan isnât there.
âMorgan?â
You set the makeup on the coffee table and go look for her. Sheâs in your bedroom just looking at the different trinkets you have in there. Yours and Samâs room is the biggest with Steveâs being the smallest. Steveâs room is supposed to be used for a large office, but they converted it into a bedroom.
âCan I get out of homework since youâre dating my dad?â
âNo.â You walk further into the room and sit on the edge of the bed. âLook, I know it must be weird for your teacher to date your dad, but just know you can ask me anything you want.â
âReally?â
âYeah, anything,â you smile.
âAre you in love with my dad?â You purse your lips but you donât answer that. âDo you and my dad ever dry-lump?â
âWhat?â you ask, partially shocked.
âIs sexting cool?â
âWhat? No, itâs not.â
âHave you done a 99?â
âI think thatâs a tax formâŠâ
âHave you ever given anyone plow jobs?â
âI donât know,â you whisper.
âHow do you make love to a person animal-style?â
âAll great questions, Iâm sure. Why donât we go do makeovers now? Save the questions for your mother.â You bring Morgan back into the living room where you set out your makeup supplies. âListen, I donât think you should be rushing into these things.â She is looking at you with wide curious eyes. âAs your friend, Y/N, not Ms. Y/L/N, just find someone who makes you laugh.â
âLike Bucky?â
âYeah, I mean⊠wait, what?â
âOh, my God. Oh, my God, I love Bucky so, so, so much. Heâs so hot.â
You canât believe your ears right now. âExcuse me?â
âI just want to rub my face on his face,â she groans and falls onto the couch.
Steveâs bedroom door opens and Natasha walks out while talking on the phone.
âNo, Steve, Iâm not saying I donât want to go on a date with you. Iâm just saying that I think we should wait. Donât you think this is moving a little fast?â She pauses. âI did not say I didnât like you! Are you not listening to a goddamn word Iâm saying?â
âNat, not now, okay?â you hiss.
âSteve, will you just listen to yourself? I never said I didnât like you or that we shouldnât see each other. I just said maybe we should slow down. Weâve been moving pretty fast, and I donât know⊠I justâŠâ She pauses. âSteve, I swear to God.â
âNat, whatâs going on?â you ask.
âYou know what? Fuck you.â
Natasha hangs up the phone and stalks back into his room and slams the door. Youâre about to go to her when Morgan sits back up.
âYou donât understand, Y/N. I love Bucky so, so, so much. Iâm gonna die!â
âMorgan, Bucky is way too old for you. I live with him. He doesnât always pick up after himself, and he has a metal arm!â Morgan jumps up from the couch and runs toward Buckyâs room. âMorgan! Donât go in there!â She slams the door behind her and locks it. âMorgan, please come out.â
Steveâs bedroom door opens and Natasha walks over to you with red eyes.
âSteve asked me on a date. A really expensive, romantic one.â
Natasha never cries over men so Steve must be pretty special if sheâs going through all this trouble for him. Sheâs rambling on about how she doesnât know if she can do this and how sheâs moving too fast while Morgan is rambling on about she loves Bucky and wants to do all sorts of things to him like a 99.
âMorgan, please!â you say and hit the door lightly.
âListen up, you little brat,â Natasha shouts. âYou need to be quiet right now because I need my friend to focus on me right now!â
âNatasha!â you gasp. âI am trying really hard to move on and see other men, so you know how much this means to me. Donât ruin it, please.â
Natasha takes a step back and her eyes widen in fear. She must have it bad for Steve because youâve never seen her behave like this. Sheâs usually so calm and collected but right now, sheâs freaking out.
âIâm gonna be a terrible mother,â she whispers.
âNo, youâre not. Youâre going to be a great mother.â
âIâm gonna make this right, okay. Iâm gonna fix this.â She clears her throat. âMorgan? Listen, you really shouldnât be having sex right now at your age,â your eyes widen and you try to shut her up, âbut when you do, make sure you always use protection because even though you know better and he says itâs all gonna be fine, youâre just gonna end up pregnant, anyway!â
âWhat?â You and Natasha look behind her to see Steve standing there with wide eyes. âNat, are you pregnant?â
âI donât know. I havenât taken the test yet, but I am late. Excuse me.â
Natasha leaves without another word. Dinner is almost ready, which means Sam and Bucky should be coming back soon. Morgan, having been done with exploring his room, comes out with a happy smile on her face. You take her to the kitchen to get dinner ready while Steve leaves the apartment.
âSorry you had to hear all that,â you say to Morgan.
âItâs okay. I liked it. My feelings havenât changed, though. Donât you think Bucky is hot?â
âBucky?â Your voice trembles but you try to keep it steady. âYeah in a⊠you know⊠heâs alright I guess.â
âHow is he like in the morning? Is he sleepy? Does he like stuff? I want to love what he loves.â She pauses and grabs water for the table. âDo you think weâll ever do it animal-style?â
âGod,â you whisper. âDinner is almost ready!â
Steve, Sam, Bucky, and Buckyâs date all arrive right before the table is set. The air is already thick with tension, with the way Natasha is barely eating and Morgan is sending glares at Chloe from across the table.
âSo, how was work, Bucky?â you ask.
Before he can answer, Morgan speaks up. âAre you and Bucky making love?â
âWhat?â he asks, shocked.
âWho wants some juice? Thatâs my question,â you speak loudly.
âYeah, weâd love juice. Thanks, Y/N,â Bucky nods.
Despite your question, you donât get up to get some juice. Youâre afraid Morgan will jump the table and attack Chloe if you take your eyes off her. Chloe tries looking away but Morgan wonât let her off that easily.
âHey! Iâm watching you.â
âI made a pie earlier. Who wants dessert?â you ask.
Youâre about to get up when Chloe gets up first.
âDonât worry, Iâll ge tit. I donât mind,â she smiles.
âOh, thank you. Thatâs so thoughtful.â You look at Morgan. âMorgan? Want to help her get the dessert?â
âI hate her,â she grumbles.
âOh, come on, you donât know her well enough to hate her.â
âYes, I do. I know her. She used to ride on my school bus.â
âWhat?â Bucky asks.
âOh, right, I remember you!â Chloe grins and returns to the table with the pie. âYou were that crazy little kindergartner with the imaginary friend, right?â
âYeah,â Morgan chuckles. âYouâre the skank witht he skank face.â
âMorgan,â you hiss. âI understand youâre trying to look cool in front of you know whoâŠâ
You give bucky a side eye which basically means shit to Morgan. Her eyes widen in horror and she jumps up from the table.
âWhat?! You told him?â
âNo, I didn't.â
âYou just did! Oh, my God, Y/N!â
Morgan runs off to your room and slams the door behind her dramatically. Bucky wants to know whatâs happening but he has to take care of his own issues first. He turns to Chloe with an uneasy smile.
âWhen was the last time you were on a school bus?â
âLast year.â
âHow old are you?â Steve asks.
âEighteen.â
You know Bucky is regretting his decision to bring an eighteen-year-old home, but you canât help but tease him a bit.
âYou know what? I think I subbed for one of your classes once.â
âYouâre right!â She grins. âHi, Ms. Y/N!â
âStop,â Bucky whispers.
Dinner is over. Youâre not even sure it began. This whole thing was a mistake. Morgan refuses to come out of your room, Natasha is an emotional mess, Sam tried to stay out of it as best as he can, and Bucky and Steve are in the kitchen alone. Pepper texts you that sheâs downstairs to pick up her daughter and youâre overwhelmed. You storm into the kitchen angrily and glare at the two men.
âThis whole thing is a disaster! Pepper just texted me that sheâs downstairs.â You look at Bucky. âMorgan is locked in my room because she fell in love with you for some unknown reason! Iâm mad at you because you couldnât keep it wrapped up and now Natasha is freaking out.â They start talking over each other but youâre not done. âShut up! Both of you! Hereâs what weâre going to do. Steve, youâre going to go down there and stall Pepper. Bucky, youâre coming with me to get Morgan out of my room. Now.â
You and Bucky walk to your room and sit on the ground because you know this is going to take a while.
âMorgan, you need to come out of there. Look, I know you think youâre in love with me, but I can assure you that youâre not. Youâre going to find someone better, I promise.â
âNo, I wonât! I never will!â
Bucky looks at you and he shrugs, not knowing what to do now.
âTell her something about life. Please? I canât lose Tony.â
Bucky briefly looks at your lips before looking away. He canât mess this up for you because heâs too chicken to tell you how he feels.
âMorgan, listen.â He looks into your eyes. âI havenât loved someone the way you love me in a very long time. You should hold onto these feelings because theyâre good feelings, but theyâre misplaced. You should want to be with someone who makes your whole day better. Someone who you can tell everything to because they donât make you feel judged. Iâm not that person for you.â
Suddenly, you canât breathe. Heâs saying this to her but you feel like heâs talking to you. Youâre sitting so close to him and all you want to do is melt in his arms. Bad girl, Y/N. Youâre with Tony! Yeah, you know.
âMorgan, come out, please.â
The door opens and you hold yourself back from falling to the ground. Just then the front door opens and Steve rushes into the apartment.
âPepper! Welcome to our home,â you say and get up.
Pepper looks stressed enough as it is. It must have been a bad day for her at work.
âThank you for watching after Morgan.â
âThanks, Y/N. I had fun,â she smiles at you.
âYouâre welcome. Iâll see you in school.â
As soon as Pepper and Morgan leave, you sag your shoulders in defeat. This has been such a disaster. Steve and Natasha walk into his room to talk while you go into yours.
âSo, you got your period?â Steve asks.
âYeah.â
âLook, I know it might seem like weâre rushing but I really like you, Nat. Like, a lot. I donât want to lose you so if you think things are going fast, weâll slow down.â
âReally? Youâd do that for me?â
âIâd do anything for you,â he smiles.
Natasha leans in and kisses him slowly. Judging by the silence coming from their room, you know theyâve made up. Youâre fiddling with your phone, wondering if you should call Tony and tell him what happened tonight. Will he break up with you? Will he think youâre not mother material? A knock sounds at your door and you look up at Bucky.
âIâm sorry for ruining this entire thing.â
âItâs not your fault. Iâm pretty sure I screwed it up. Maybe Iâm not ready to be a mom. At this rate, Iâll have kids when Iâm eighty.â
Bucky leans against the door frame and crosses his arms, making his muscles look bigger. God, youâre fucking screwed. How can you ever hold down a relationship with Tony if youâre so hung up on Bucky?
âIf anyone is ready to be a parent, itâs you.â You smile at him. âGoodnight, Y/N.â
âNight,â you whisper.
If you can just try and make it work with Tony, then youâll forget all about your little crush on Bucky.
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understanding catra in taking control s5: ep 6
(lots of awesome people have already said some amazing things about this, but itâs been on my mind a lot especially since iâve been seeing some anti catra bullshit lately)
first off, i want to say that i donât think that catra is necessarily handling the situation well, but i often see people saying some crazy shit about how sheâs so âungratefulâ to adora for rescuing her or whatever and just generally being incredibly insensitive to her.
you have to remember everything that catra has gone through up until the point. horde prime had just completely violated her body and mind, electrocuting her in the baptismal pool, cutting off her hair, and infiltrating her memories. catra, who is already deeply afraid of the losing control (namely to shadow weaver, who taught her that power and control were necessary to be safe from her abuse), just lost all of her autonomy in the most fucking disturbing, pseudo-religious way possible.
before this, catra fully expected to die. iâve seen a lot of different takes and iâm relatively open-minded to about what it is that catra thinks specifically when she remembers that scene with her and adoraâs younger selves in corridors, but i think that itâs something along these lines:
âall iâve ever done is hurt adora, and all she ever tried to do was love me instead. iâve loved her and wanted her more than anyone else, and still all i did was hurt her. adora finally gave up on me, like i deserved all along anyway. but maybe, just maybe, the last thing i do could be for her. maybe that last little piece of goodness in me could live on in her.â
hence the:
âall i do is hurt people. thereâs no one left in the entire universe who cares about me.â
anyway, my point is that catra has been through fucking hell :(
adora rescues her, and in the moment, catra is (obviously) relieved, shocked, surprised, confused, even. (âwhy did you come back? we both know i donât matter.â)
the confusion is the main thing i want to focus on. catra really truly believes that adora hates her (shadow weaver has conditioned her to believe that she has always been inherently worthless and unlovable), so catra canât understand why adora would ever come back for her.
catra eventually comes to the conclusion that adora just wanted to feel like a hero. she just came back to rescue catra to prove her virtue or her moral superiority to catra.
so she lashes out. she feels so completely out of control, and bitter with adora for her actions, convinced that there is no way that adora came back for her out of love.
adora handles this like shit. the literal first thing she does is throw the mattress onto the floor, and later slams catra into the wall. adora lashes back at catra, hurt that catra doesnât âappreciateâ adoraâs love for her. adora doesnât even try for two fucking seconds to understand where catra is coming from.
(adora does have a consistent issue with only seeming to be able to empathize with catraâs emotions when catra is weak, vulnerable, and powerless throughout much of series honestly)
ugh and calling her a stubborn brat? like i love you adora, but that makes my blood fucking boil. it is SUCH condescending, shadow weaver-coded language to use toward catra. i understand, catra is being âdifficultâ or whatever, but god itâs so easy to see why catra is acting the way she is.
and ofc catra is scared of entrapta! obviously, catra wronged entrapta deeply, and catra has never lived in a world with grace and forgiveness. shadow weaver physically abused her all her life, and hordak suffocated her for losing shadow weaver and lying to him about it. catra knows that she hurt entrapta, so naturally she immediately assumes that entrapta is going to fucking kill her the minute she has a chance.
then adoraâs reaction is to fucking shove her into the wall and tell her to âgrow upâ. catra just looks fucking terrified, backed into the corner in her little horde pjs :(
adora backs off for a moment and tells catra that she would respect her wish to drop her off somewhere, catra realizes that adora really could leave her, and immediately rushes to beg adora to stay, kneeling on the ground, reaching up for her hand. something about that whole scene just absolutely fucking breaks my heart.
it kills something in me when i hear people say that catra didnât do enough for redemption. itâs never what her redemption was ever about. catra is genuinely so, so much more complicated than that. and so is adora! iâm still sad that adora never really made up to catra for some of her shitty behavior.
i donât believe that their arcs are meant to be done at the end of the show. thereâs still so much room for them to grow. and that is what the post canon fics are for lol
oops this ended up being wayyy more of a rant than i intended; i think about catradora all the time :)
#catradora#spop#catra#she-ra#adora#catradora brainrot#character analysis#taking control#i love adora but i wish her character flaws were taken more seriously#catra redemption
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my vitriolic hate for the parentals only grows btw. everything i overhear is in fact a big fat negative in our relationship
#i am becoming less and less guilty about this the more they cause me grief bc all we fucking do in the polycule is reparent each other#and the ways they have both been horrible has basically been entire emotional neglect and constant abuse for having the gall to live#i have zero respect for them genuinely. i don't fucking care anymore#i barely enjoy moms company anyway because more and more all of our autisms clash#plus she called me codependent once so i stopped being a child around her. so#i really have no more parents anymore. i know my parents hate me. i know it#i dont want to do this anymore#I'm so tired of being alive#i really want to just die right now#fucking. mimi tries to be so sweet but its fucking hard id rather just stop trying to show any sort of love#i hope tht when the parentals look at me all they feel is how much i hate them i NEED them to feel haunted in their own house bc of me.#every one of both of my partners parents have basically been split on me. i was ok with them once until they fucking pushed me enough that#now i literally cannot see them without hate. i hate every one of them for how they treated and still treat my partners and how they make#both my partners dread every second of having to be around them or speak to them or do anything with them#im fucking tired of being treated like they fucking made able bodied children WHEN THEY IN FACT DIDNT. SURPRISE ASSHOLE YOU TRAUMATIZED YOUR#KID INTO DISABILITY#now none of us can fucking function in the world were all 3 disabled stupid autistics who can barely not yell at each other or whatever and#i infact dont blame my partners because i know its not the fucking cause its what they were fucking taught and i have no more grace in me to#give to the parents who raised them. there is no grace for them. there is simply you fucking couldve been better. you failed and you have to#fucking live with the fact that you fucking failed as a parent#i fucking hate everything about the parentals genuinely. there are so much of their lives and interests that i do not respect because their#lives apparently came first over their kids. and i dont care anymore i dont care about reasonable âexcusesâ i dont fucking care when#i reparent their kid without their fucking input or thought or opinion. fuck off#i fucking hate it here#đ„©#đŁ#đ€ïž#original#vent
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So seeings how ai work still fucks me up at the mere thought of it maybe just maybe i can get over it if i vent my frustrations out on it here?
#art hasnt been fun for me for a while for a different reason but with the introduction of ai work its just made my mindset worse#like what the fuck how dare you take the one thing im good at and make it meaningless#the only thing i may be capable of doing as a job and its being threatened with obsoletion?#âoh it helps speed up work flowâ ok but why do you need it now?#why cant you just wait?#thousands of things to consume already but you want to have more?#and then when it turns out to not be good then ppl riot?#i just dont understand the push to have ai work be used in the industry#i couldnt give a rats ass if you use it for personal use but i give a mighty fuck about it being used in the industry#bc while some ppl still commission artists larger corps will not bc theyre too busy trying to scam every goddamn nickle and dime out of -#their consumer base#and goddamn if the govt is moving fast enough to mitigate the damage#and thats not even a guarantee bc lobbyists exist and you KNOW they are doing their damnedest to try and find loopholes#idk i dont know how ai systems work and unless they are related to gaming ai i really dont care#but i really REALLY care about being able to make a living off of one of the few skills im capable of doing#bc lord KNOWs im fucking worthless at everything else in this bitch ass society im forced to comply to#like fuck me i can't catch a fucking break can i?#ranting#personal rant#i aint anti but ill be damned if i view it in a favorable light#dni i just need to fucking scream
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AITA for banning my husband and father in law from the delivery room due to their intensely stressful/creepy behavior during my pregnancy?
Thereâs a famous Reddit post from 2020 where a pregnant woman wrote that her husband and father-in-law were a little too comfortable with their certainty that she was absolutely going to die in childbirth just like her husbandâs late mother. It was to the point where her FIL was insisting that she go ahead and put all her clothes into storage, because she was obviously going to die in the hospital and it would save them the grief of packing up her things afterwards. Like. It was WILD.
When I tell my husband [that she feels suspicious of her FIL], he calls me paranoid, but I feel like my FIL WANTS me to die; his whole life identity for the past 35 years has been âamazing single dadâ (never dated or had close friends or even hobbies really), and it seems like heâs looking forward to being able to guide my husband through what he went through. At this point, Iâd honestly be happy to never see my FIL again, and I certainly donât want him in the delivery room, especially since he told me he was âputting [his] foot downâ about me not being âallowedâ to have an epiduralâŠ. My husband, in addition to backing his dad on everything, acts like my due date is my death date, and has completely pulled away from me.
The commenters (and me, honestly) were convinced that the husband and FIL were either going to kill her outright to fulfill this expectation, or just make decisions about her care that might conveniently let her die.
And then she never posted again.
Over the last four years, people have frequently mentioned that post, always leading to a thread of people saying, âOh god, I still worry about that woman.â I did too. It became one of those famous unresolved posts that people always wondered about.
Until yesterday, when someone on r/BestOfRedditorUpdates dug up a 2022 update she had posted on a different account:
TLDR; I had a beautiful and healthy baby girl, and I divorced my ex-husband. I lived, obviously.
She writes that she put her foot down about having her own mother in the delivery room rather than her FIL (!), and she WOULD be getting an epidural. Her husband lost his shit. And in his outburst, he let slip--
I admittedly lost my temper, and told him that I wasnât going to die- it wasnât my fault his fatherâs trauma wormed itâs way into his head, and that he needed to fix it without taking it out on me. He yelled at me that he didnât need therapy. That caught me a little off guard; I asked him why he went to his therapist and was given advice about my death if he felt he didnât need it. His expression gave it away, and he caved not long after. It turns out there was no therapist. It was just his dad. During the times he was supposed to be at therapy, he was with his dad. Iâm still fuming.
And that was when she got the fuck out.
Iâll wrap this up- Iâve got an adorable little toddler tugging at my leg atm. Iâm alive, Iâm happy, and Iâve got my baby in my arms. Life is good.
I truly never thought we'd see a resolution to this, and I feel like there's probably a good number of people who remember it, so I thought you might want to know.
ETA: Brilliantly, I put the link in at the top; here it is again for convenience.
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This one goes out to all the bitches who love some good Safehouse Era Horror. It's me, I'm bitches. I want Jon and Martin to be fucked up and eldritch but I want them to be fucked up and eldritch and loved
(Notes under the cut because I can't help myself. Heads up, I do go into some detail of how Jon gets injured so I can explain my thought process for how I designed his scars. All canon-typical and fairly clinical in tone.)
Here's how I picture Safehouse Jon!
He doesn't need glasses anymore by this point, so he should just be wearing empty frames, but I drew this before I settled on my glasses headcanons. This drawing looks better with the reflection anyways.
He hasn't gotten a haircut since before his promotion to Head Archivist. He doesn't love the weight of it on his neck, but he also uses it to fidget, and he really doesn't want to go through the whole process of cutting it. He's disliked haircuts since he was a kid (People: Bad. Small talk: Bad. Touching: Bad. Loud sounds: Bad. People talking all at once: Bad) and since his time with the Circus he's only grown more reluctant to go and get it done.
At this length his hair is naturally pretty curly but he is. Not taking care of it. I actually put a lot of effort into trying to make it look brittle and tangled (I have a lot of experience lol, my hair is quite thick and I've always hated taking care of it. Yes I am also projecting my feelings about going to a hairdressers onto him why do you ask.)
The various scars were a bit of a strange task, but anyone who has seen my takes on The Bad Kids knows I'm not averse to selective realism in my fiction. Easiest one was the neck, I always pictured Daisy making a vertical cut based on "through the voice box". The larynx is longer than it is wide, so I think Daisy would go for the method that dealt damage across the largest total surface area. Yes I am aware that I'm speaking the same way Martin does when he explains his corkscrew.
The worm scars were easy because I barely drew any. There are a few marks on his cheek, but they're just surface bites. I picture most of his encounter with Prentiss showing on his legs, particularly on the right side, with enough damage there that he starts using a cane after the incident to keep weight off his right leg. More research to be done on this particular detail.
Finally the burn on his hand from Jude. This was the weirdest one to figure out just because of the nature of the injury. How do you quantify the damage done to an epidermis by a living manifestation of sometimes-boiling wax that can heat and cool at will? I settled on it being a second-degree burn that healed supernaturally fast, containing the damage to the space Jude had direct contact with. He'd probably have some mobility issues there as well. I know there are ways to help with mobility and pain after a severe burn, but I don't know how much of it Jon would actually. Do. Like I said, definitely further research to be done on these last two.
Hey so I'm gonna ask you to stop and consider the horror of the watcher. The helplessness. The guilt. The inherent terror of being a spectator, a participant by proximity but not by action. The horror of not being able to look away, of being a bystander. Jon forgets to blink sometimes. But wouldn't it be so much worse if there were no eyelids at all? That's how I interpret the description of The Archivist being "All Eyes" :D
I love a good Many-Eyed Jon, so I whipped up my own interpretation here. I think the more he Becomes the more he starts to resemble the thing from the dreams. He has a lot more control of it in S5, but it still creeps up on him and he has to consciously go back to a human shape.
#coffeepaintart#jonathan sims#jon sims#tma#the magnus archives#scopophobia#scopophobia tw#tw scopophobia#the archivist#tma fanart#tma art#if i need to tag any other tws or cws lmk
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YAY, YOU'RE BACK TO WRITING FOR ARCANE. How would the arcane characters react (mainly vi, ekko, and jinx because i would marry, marry, and marry them all!!) to a reader who is sooo affectionate and finds every last thing they do so cute they get cuteness aggression and just jump at them like a cuddle bug often? thank you so much!!
Coming right up!
Arcane x Cuddle Bug! Reader
Characters: Powder/Jinx, Violet "Vi", Ekko, Caitlyn Kiramman, Viktor, Jayce Talis, Mel Medarda, Sevika and Ran.
Warning: None really. SFW.
A/N: Am I the only one who wants to snuggle into Caitlyn? Ugh, I love her so much.
Powder/Jinx

âOh! Hey there, sugar! You want to cuddle? Donât have to ask me twice! Iâll cuddle you so much that you get tired of me! But youâd never get tired of me, right?â
Jinx is a super clingy person, so for you to be as clingy as her itâs like you two are a match made in heaven. Thereâs barely any time that passes when you two are not touching each other and she lives for your cuddles. It doesnât matter if you hug her out of nowhere or she sees you about to embrace her, she is stopping everything she is doing and pulling you into the tightest of hugs.
Most of the time if she isnât causing mayhem in the streets of Zaun or busy with her inventions, she will spend her time just holding you so close and showering your face with the cutest but most childish of kisses. She doesnât care if itâs in private or public, she will make it known that you two canât keep your hands off each other. You are her cuddlebug and she is yours and that wonât ever change.
Violet âViâ

âWoah there, cuddle bug! Youâre gonna make me screw up my workout⊠Oh forget it. How can I say no to you?â
Because Violet is absolutely touch starved, she will never decline your cuddles, even if you take her by surprise a few times with how you hug her so suddenly. She finds it adorable how you fangirl around her and find everything she does to be awesome or cute. Granted she does wish youâd call her hot or sexy, but knows that isnât really in tune with your personality.
Regardless, she tries to make sure you know how adorable you are, always telling you while you two are cuddled up together how lucky she is to have you and how you are so adorable. Even when you visit her at work, sheâll try to drop everything and have you run into her arms to pick you up. And every time sheâs got time off work or is coming back from a job, sheâs automatically looking for you so she could hook you in her arms and never let go.
Ekko

âY/N, haha! You know we gotta keep this private, babe- The kids are gonna pounce on us any second now!â
Does Ekko love hugging you? Absolutely. The warmth of your arms around his body makes him stop everything heâs doing and just hug you while calling you his firelight or firefly. Unless heâs calling you an angel or lovebug, which never fails to make Scar either look at you two in awe or roll their eyes in mock annoyance. Unfortunately, Ekko does try his best to make sure you two donât get super affectionate around the children, especially when it comes to hugs.
Why? Because as soon as you hug him, the children find this as an invitation to gather around him and have him nearly die under a cuteness overload of a group hug. Itâs nice as a once in a while occurrence, but all the time? Maybe not. Outside of the reactions you two garnish and even the teasing of you being the firelight king/queen, Ekko lives for your cuddlebug energy, wanting to be in your arms after a long dayâs work. Itâs always the best way to end the nightâŠÂ
Caitlyn Kiramman

âAnd thatâs why if I am able to block this end of the road, Iâll- Oh!... Oh come here, sweetheart. If you wanted to cuddle so badly, you couldâve asked.â
Caitlyn has always been someone who was more subtle with her love, pulling you into brief kisses, cupping your cheek and holding you by your waist. She usually leaves the more out there gestures like hugging and cuddling for you to initiate. But when you do? It might be harder for you to get her off of you instead of the other way around. It can be at work, in her home, outside of work or at an event. As soon as she feels your arms wrap around her slender body, sheâs stopping for a second to hold you back and kiss your forehead.
She will continue working if you interrupt her during a briefing or in the middle of cracking a case, but the entire time, she will have at least one arm around your body and make sure you are comfortable. Her comrades tease her about it and sheâll scowl a bit, but she doesnât care. As far as she can tell, sheâs extremely lucky to have you as a lover.
Viktor

âAh! Oh, it is just you, zolotse. Remember, you have to warn me of these cute little hugs of yours.â
At first, Viktor wasnât used to your physical affection and how you were in awe of everything he did. He actually thought you were mocking him at first or being silly. But after a while, especially when the two of you became a couple, he grew accustomed to your affections. He does get a bit startled when you hug him out of nowhere and he does have moments where you cheering him on does make him a bit bashful, but he enjoys your sweet gestures regardless.
He does find it difficult to be as outgoing with his love for you as you are with him, but he does try his best to make you realize he loves you, especially in the form of quality time and calling you by sweet pet names bound to make you blush. Viktor has a tendency to pass out from working too hard and waking up in your arms. And though heâd never say it out loud, you know based on the way he snuggles into you, he adores it and adores you.
Jayce Talis

âI know what you want and I want it too- So bring it in! Iâve waited all day to be in your arms!â
Because Jayce is always out at work, itâs kind of hard for you two to be around one another all the time. Thatâs why when he does reunite with you after hours or you two can be together on days off, heâs spending the majority of his free time with you or wrapped around you. He sort of craves for your praise and compliments as much as he craves your cuddles.
Many would compare the councilman to a needy dog wanting his ownerâs undivided attention and he definitely gets that through you. Though he may try to act all cool or play coy, everyone knows that you mean so much to him and that he becomes putty around you. Even if they donât, youâre not afraid to say it aloud. Just make sure Jayce isnât around or that man will become redder than a beet.
Mel Medarda

âWhatâs wrong?... I know that look. You want to- Ah! Well looks like you beat me to the punch, darling. How about we take this to the bed, hmm?â
Mel wasnât really given physical affection when she was younger. She was more someone who preferred verbal affection with words of affirmation. So when it came to you and how affectionate you are, she found herself adapting and loving physical affection as much as telling you how much she loved you.
Your cuddles and sweet gestures are her personal heaven she loves returning to after a long dayâs work, especially if she can spend an evening with you platonically in your shared bed. In your arms, she feels she can air out anything thatâs bothering her or interests her, especially when you admit how cute it is when she does. Though this kind of intimate affection is delegated to private quarters, anyone can know from the way Mel speaks of you outside of home and at events that you mean so much to her.
Sevika
âYeah! So then I was like screw you, I can do whatever- Hold on. Uh, Y/N. I thought we agreed to not do this at work?â
Sevika is considered the Right Hand of Zaun, a woman who is feared if not respected by her peers. And sheâd like to keep it that way. Which means that while you two are at work, she prefers it if you donât cuddle her around co-workers and give them something to tease her about. You two can only flirt and kiss and even then, it has to be sexyâŠ
But alone, when both of you are away from the public eye, Sevika is at your beck and call wishing for nothing else but to hear your sweet praises and melt into your arms and touch. Expect her to call you the cutest thing ever and tease you on occasion, but afterwards sheâs basically a big needy cat, or as she prefers to be called, a panther. Itâs moments like these where you can really consider yourself lucky to see a raw side of Sevika. And it was only preserved for you.
If you got any requests for Arcane or X-Men '97, send them my way!
Likes and retweets are always appreciated! I love you all, stay hydrated and have a good day! <3
#x reader#x female reader#x you#x male reader#arcane x reader#fluff headcanons#headcanons#jinx x reader#jinx x y/n#jinx x gender neutral reader#vi x you#vi x reader#vi x y/n#caitlyn x reader#caitlyn x y/n#ekko x reader#sevika x reader#sevika x you#sevika x y/n#viktor x you#viktor x oc#viktor x reader#viktor x y/n#jayce x reader#mel x reader#requests are open#requests are welcome#requests are still open btw
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Overheard



Summary: Rafe over hears you and Sarah talking about your night at the beach with a hookup.
CW: possessive Rafe, rough sex, name calling, unprotected sex (wrap before tap), bit of choking and hair pulling, forced to stay quiet, mirror sex. (Should be it)
(Did not proofread bc this took me so long already.)
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You and Sarah had been friends for years. You moved to Outer Banks as a child and took quite a liking to Sarah and her family. You were always known to drop in whenever you felt needed. You shared many nights at their house and basically became a part of the family.
On this specific day it was like any other. You hopped in your jeep and quickly sped off to Tannyhill. Soon arriving in the circle driveway of the mansion you quickly got out and headed to the door knocking loud, so you were heard.
The door was swung open by none other than the snarky stuck-up brother of your best friend, Rafe Cameron. âYou donât have to knock.â He sighed âyou basically live here anyway.â He scolded you. You pushed past him and into the entrance way of the house.
âWhereâs Sarah?â Rafe shut the door and then pointed up the stairs to her room. âWhere she always is waiting for you.â You nodded your head at him giving him one last look before making your way up to her room. He watched as you quickly sprinted up the stairs. Watching as your hips moved and how your ass was in perfect view.
He shook his head relieving the thought of you knowing how wrong it was. Soon he made his way up the stairs as well to his own room that was until he heard you talking in a not so quiet voice to his sister.
"I wouldn't say it was awful, just not what I wanted." Sarah cocked a brow to you. "Well, what did you want. I mean you wanted to have sex with him, right? What more could you want. You practically begged me for his number." She chuckled.
"Yes, I did." Rafe moved closer to the crack in the door leaning his ear closer. He listened closely to your words. "What does she mean" he thought to himself.
Yes, Rafe knew you, but he thought he knew you well enough. He never saw you as the type to beg for sex with someone, or much less really want it.
In his head you always were the type to never come off as sexual but definitely not innocent. He truly just thought that in this world full of sex you had no idea what you were doing or had any care for it, and he was so wrong.
"Okay yes I wanted it. Like the party last week, I wanted to just be dragged off with him somewhere because I thought he'd fuck the shit out of me. See that's what I wanted." You crossed your arms and huffed.
"Okay, then what happened that you didn't like? Was it the fact it was on the beach or like what?"
"I guess the best way I could put it is I wanted it to me more filled with lust and desire. I wanted it to be rough and I wanted to not be able to walk today." You chuckled along with Sarah.
"Well how did it go for you?" You sighed trying to think back to last night. "Well, he took me out on the beach, and he had a blanket with him. Talking happens and whatever and I end up straddling his lap."
Sarah nodded her head waiting for you to continue, but Rafe stood out the door as he held his breath. He was pissed. You fucking some other man and he didn't even do it right pissed him off more. But he stayed quiet.
"We made out a bit and I started to grind on him a bit. Obviously, he got a rise up, so I got all cocky and pulled his dick out. After a few moments of me just doing my thing, I pulled my bikini bottoms off and rode him. He was like..." You paused trying to find your words.
"It was like he never wanted it to end and not saying I don't like that, but I asked if he could get on top and we'd go faster he just straight up refused. Which basically dried me up and I didn't even want to do it anymore."
Sarah tried to hold back her laughter. "Hey, it's not funny I'm being dead serious." You smacked her arm but laughed as well.
Rafe was the only one not laughing. Red filled his face with anger, and he scoffed at your words. "Didn't even fuck her the way she wanted. What a pussy." He thought.
"Well maybe you'll find someone who just rocks your world." Sarah smirked. "Yeah, as if." But only if you knew what little plan Rafe had planted into his mind.
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That same day you had planned on staying the night with Sarah. Of course, to everyone in the house it was no surprise. It was now late at night and Sarah was asleep. However, you sat awake in her bed scrolling mindlessly on your phone till a text popped up.
"Come here."
You read the text from Rafe. Confusion spread across your face. You texted back.
"Sarahs asleep. Where are you?"
"My room. Just come here you won't wake her, she's a heavy sleeper."
You sighed and turned off your phone placing it on the nightstand beside you. Slowly you rose up from the bed making your way to the bedroom door making sure to stay as quiet as possible.
You looked back at Sarah one last time before closing the door. You slowly tiptoed your way down the hall to Rafe's room. You raised your hand to the door knocking slow and quiet. Soon Rafe opened up the door nodding his head telling you to come in.
As you walked in you looked around the room that was dimly lit by the small lamp setting you realized you had never seen Rafe's room before. "I have never been in here." You turn back and look at him leaning up against the door. "Cleaner than I thought." You chuckled.
He shrugged. "Don't know why you'd ever think that. I believe I come off as a clean person." He paused. "Unlike you." You looked at him confused for a moment as he stepped closer to you, his rich cologne filled your nostrils.
"I heard you. Talking to my sister earlier today." He walked behind you. "How you wanted to be fucked hard." He leaned in closer to your ear whispering. "How you want it to be filled with lust and desire."
His words sent chills down your spine and your own words choked up. "So, fucking dirty and here I was thinking you didn't care about these things." His hands slowly made their way to your hips giving a slight squeez.
"Rafe..." You spoke barley above a whisper. He smirked against your neck placing a small kiss right below your ear. "Is that what you want? To be fucked like the whore you are?"
Your legs squeez together trying to release some of the tension that was building up. You let out a shaky breath as one of his hands trail down to the waistband of your sleep shorts.
"Is this what you want?" He whispered. You nodded your head squeezing your eyes shut as he played with the waist band. "Words."
"Yes, I want this." He slid his hands down your shorts. Two of his fingers rubbed against your folds. You let out a breath you didn't know you were holding in. He rubbed circles around your clit as your hips moved forward chasing his touch.
You let out a small moan and immediately Rafe slaps his hand onto your mouth. "What you want the whole house to hear? As much as I'd love to hear your pretty little moans you need to keep quiet."
You nodded your head frantically. "Good girl." Rafe then removes his hand from you making you whine at his loss of touch. He stepped back from you grabbing your hand and leading you to the bed. He pushed you down on the bed and you let out a gasp.
He crawled on top of you and basically ripped off your clothes and his throwing them on the floor. Rafe started to kiss your neck earning a small gasp to leave your lips.
"Rafe please..." you whine out. "What do you want?" He smirked against your neck. The words couldn't seem to leave your lips as he left a bite on your sweet spot right below your ear.
"Don't go quiet on me now." He rose up to look at you. "Tell me what you want." You started to bite your lip at the sight of him. The sly smirk planted across his face. His shoulder muscles showing more featured as he held himself up.
"Fuck me Rafe...." As soon as the words slipped from your lips it felt like sweet honey on his tongue. He spread your legs open, and you wrapped them around his waist trying to pull him in.
"So needy?" He chuckled making you want him even more. "Rafe..." You breathed out. "Words sweetheart." He smirked once again. "Rafe please fuck me." Your wish was his command.
He lined himself up to you and without warning slammed into you making you let out a loud cry. He quickly slapped his hand over your mouth. "Shut the fuck up." He groaned out.
Your eyes rolled into the back of your head as he thrusted into your cunt hard and fast. "You feel so fucking good. Holy shit." His words were breathless as if he blurted them out of pure pleasure.
His hand still planted on your mouth as the other held your waist tightly. You threw your head back at all the new pleasure rising in you. Rafe looked down at you smirking at the absolute complete mess you were in this moment.
"You like how I fuck you. I bet that pussy boy could never be like this with you." You moaned against his hand as the words leaped off his tongue.
As Rafe pounded into you harder and faster the headboard started to move. He let go of your waist grabbing the board holding himself up as he stayed covering your mouth. You watched his muscles tensed and sweat glistened on his body.
All the pleasure plus the view of him really added onto you forgetting about your shitty hookup. "Fuck..." He groaned out throwing his head back and closing his eyes.
In an instant Rafe grabbed you off the bed still fucking you and took you into the big bathroom inside his bedroom. He turned you around facing the mirror. "I want you to see that pretty little face when you cum for me. A face you'll never see without me fucking you like this."
He held your mouth again making you look at the beautiful mess you were in the mirror. Him pounding in and out of you. Your breast bouncing. Him making direct eye contact with you through the mirror itself.
Muffed moans and him slapping his thighs against your ass echoed through the tile walls. As you could feel your peak approaching you closed your eyes. "No." In one swift move he wrapped his hands around the back of your hair forcing your eyes open to see yourself.
He smirked as he watched you bite your lip holding back you loud beautiful moans. With a few sloppier thrust Rafe was chasing his own high. Throwing his head back as he pounded into you. "Fuck me." He groaned out.
Your high had reached his peak biting your lip so hard blood started to form. Rafe grabbed you pulling you against your chest holding your neck. "Come on baby." He whispered in your ear making you crash.
Your legs started to shake and the image of you two in the mirror was all too much to handle. Rafe started to come down from his own high. His thrust and movements slowing down as his hot liquid shot inside you.
Rafe turned your head towards his planting a sloppy wet kiss on your lips and he pulled out of you. Rafe pulled away, and you both panted for air more than ever. "That's how you should be fucked." A smirk planted across his lips.
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Tags: dad!Toji x fem!reader, modern!au, nsfw, mdni, breeding kink, he calls himself daddy
Synopsis: Youâre Tojiâs live-in nanny. He wants to breed you, and he successfully does so.
An: This is my story on ao3!! You can read it here. If youâre feeling extra nice, a kudos would be cool too.
Being a single dad was hard. Toji learned quickly after his wife's death that he in fact couldn't do this alone. The way little Megumi's big eyes looked up to him for direction... him of all people. He was not cut out for this. Megumi's mom was a wonderful mother: sweet, nurturing, and patient. Toji really didn't know if he was any of those things.
Luckily, her life insurance provided Toji with a relatively comfortable life combined with his job in construction of course. Construction might be his vice. He got away from home for 12 hours a day, and he worked so hard that his brain was mush by the time he was home. Not that he didn't love his son, he did, but every time he looked at Megumi he saw his sweet late wife. He also saw his short comings as a father.
Babysitters quit on him regularly. It was always the same excuse. "Megumi's an angel, but I can't be here 7 days a week. I have a life too." It was incredibly annoying. They'd stay for Megumi but left due to another one of his shortcomings.
Another one quit. That would be the third one this month. "Listen Mr. Fushiguro, I know a friend. She does this sort of thing on a different level. Have you ever considered having a live-in nanny?"
That stupid girl's question enlightened Toji. He had completely forgotten that live-in nannies still existed. After getting her friend's number and paying her what he owed her for her time, Toji relaxed on the couch with little Megumi tucked into his side. The three-year-old was happily babbling next to him, enamored by Toji's phone that was in his hand.
Toji looked at the number dialed into his phone, and he sighed. He was tired of making cold calls to potential babysitters like he was some desperate whore, but maybe, maybe this would be different. He wouldn't mind having a live-in nanny. His house wouldn't mind it either. Toji would be able to finally breathe. No more coming home from 12 hour shifts to pop something to eat in the microwave and wash the dishes. He wouldn't even have to see this so-called nanny often. He could pick up more hours at work with all of his new freedom of not having to worry about pissing off the babysitter.
*** *** ***
Either way, that's how you ended up in Toji's house. For the past three months you had taken care of Megumi, cleaned and deep cleaned his entire house, cooked him plenty of dinners from scratch, and even did his laundry the exact way he preferred. His house has never looked better, and Megumi had never looked so happy.
Despite being here for three months, you barely saw Toji. He seemed to avoid you like the plague and only answer with one-worded answers, which was fine. This was your job, not your actual family. There was no need for extensive communications. Though, you had gushed to your friend plenty over text about how hot "Mr. Fushiguro" was. He was conventionally attractive, yes. But you also always had a thing for the brooding types, and dammit, Toji was brooding. There was also something to be said about how he came home in the evenings. A black wifebeater clinging to his skin from a long day of working out in the sun. His jeans would be dirty from the work he was doing. His skin glistening from a thin sheen of sweat. His hair was always a mess. Goddammit. It was enough to make you feel fertile.
It was early in the morning, Toji was getting ready to go to work. Megumi had woken up, crying for his papa not to leave him. He's going through an extra clingy phase. He's usually okay once Toji's gone.
"Papa!" Megumi cried as Toji entered the living room. You had Megumi in your lap, rocking him with a sleepy look on your face. His tears were wetting your shirt, but you didn't seem to mind.
"He'll be back tonight, Gumi." You shooshed him and continued to try to rock him and pat his back.
Toji's face was unreadable. He was never one to get all upset over Megumi's crying, but hearing his son cry out for him tugged on his heartstrings extra this morning. Then, there was you. You were a godsend to Toji's life. Getting a live-in nanny was one of the best decisions he had ever made. Above that, you were excellent with Megumi. You were sweet... nurturing... patient. He hated how seeing you with his son made him feel. It almost felt like maybe 2 kids wouldn't be that big of a deal. Maybe 3. One on each of your legs and another one swelling in your belly. God. He was disgusted in himself for thinking like that.
"I love you, kiddo." Toji said quickly as he leaned down, giving Megumi's forehead a quick peck. The toddler made grabby hands for him. It was almost enough to make him stay home. Almost. Toji's eyes met yours as he was still leaned over. His face was close to yours. The tension between them were palpable. The moment felt like eternity between them.
Then, a black credit card was in view. "I need new work gloves. Get the extra thick rubber ones, will ya? Also, get whatever you and the kid want. I'll be back late tonight." He handed you the card and sauntered out of the house despite Megumi's pleas for him to stay. You looked at the Amex black card and blinked a couple of times. Only the top earners in the world had cards like this. Toji was just an average blue collar dad... It made you wonder how he got a card like this.
You still spent that shit though.
*** *** ***
Toji looked at his phone on the jobsite. No one dared to tell him to put it away. Toji was the best most competent worker out on the field. He could work circles around supervisors and project managers alike, and he was damn smart. He didn't need a pencil and paper or a calculator to make quick conversions in his head. So, most people stayed out of his way.
He smirked and chuckled at the notifications rolling in from his bank. 78.97 at Target. 21.25 at McDonald's. 43.52 at Barnes and Noble. 9.24 at Starbucks. He was happy you and Megumi were getting to have a little shopping spree.
You were also great at keeping him updated. You sent him lots of pictures and videos of Megumi. He cherished each one of them, immediately getting some of them printed and hung up in his house. There was even a picture of you and Megumi proudly displayed in the living room. In his mind, you were an integral part of the family. The "family" simply would not function if it weren't for you.
A fond smile spread across his face as he opened his messages. A picture of Megumi's little hands trying to fit into his new gloves that she had bought him. Great. She got the right ones. "I think he wants to be just like daddy :)", the message read.
Oh.
Oh.
The twitch that just occurred in his pants should be punishable in a court of law. In no way should he have gotten turned on by that. You were just being nice. It was a normal thing for people to refer to him as "daddy" in that context. It never affected him in the way it was right now.
So anyways, that's how he ended up in the port-a-potty busting a load all over a picture of you that he had on his phone. After the shock of his orgasm that came quicker than ever, he looked down, disappointed in himself. He wasn't some horny teenage boy anymore. This was just downright deplorable. Begrudgingly, he wiped his phone clean from his sins. Post-nut clarity swirled his brain. He couldn't believe he just did that.
He called your number. He had to make things right.
"Hello? Is everything okay?" You immediately asked. After living with Toji for some time now, you learned that he doesn't just call people. He will absolutely decline a call to just text and ask what's up.
"Everything is fine." He replied, trying to hide his amusement. It was cute that you seemed so worried for him. "Are you still in town?"
"Yeah, Megumi and I are about to leave Starbucks and head home. Why? What's up?" You responded back to him. He could hear Megumi happily singing a song in the background.
"You know you spent 152 dollars today?" Toji asked as he popped his back up against the port-a-potty door. He had a lazy smirk on his face.
"Oh- crap. I'm sorry. You can take whatever you see fit out of my pay-" He interrupted your nonsense quickly.
"Do you think I'm poor?" His voice was amused, not angry like you expected it to be.
"What-? No.. no, sir. I was just-"
"I told you to get whatever you and the kid want. Don't come back home until your certain that you can't carry the amount of stuff you bought in one trip." He said quickly. His stomach was already coiling from how you called him sir. He grimaced as he felt another twitch. I just took care of you dammit.
"Oh... oh, okay? Are you su-" Click. He hung up on you. One too many dumb questions. You looked at Megumi as he strapped into the backseat of your car. He looked intrigued by the conversation even though you knew he realistically had no idea what was just said. "Daddy said we have to go to the toy store." You grinned at him. He was smiling and clapping over the word "toy".
234.22 at Toys-R-Us. 122.56 at Lego. 208.38 at Aerie. 88.21 at Ulta Beauty. Another 94.48 at Barnes and Noble.
The way Toji grinned each time he felt that familiar vibration of his phone go off, meaning another notification from his bank was off-putting. Workers on the jobsite never seen him so happy. It was his penance for being such a horny freaky fuck.
*** *** ***
It was later that same evening. Megumi was in the living room surrounded by toys and crafting materials. He was currently drawing all sorts of "shadow animals" as he called them. You would of course look and nod your head, congratulating him on each terribly drawn animal. You acted like that was the best damn wolf-bear-owl hybrid you ever saw.
You were in the kitchen cooking chicken and dumplings. The clock on the stove read seven p.m. You didn't expect to see Toji at all this evening. He said he was working late this morning. Usually, that meant he was dragging his feet in through the door until well past ten p.m.
Still, you made him a serving of chicken and dumpling soup. You always did. Even when he worked late, you would put him a helping of dinner in the microwave to keep warm. You never knew, but he was always delighted by that. He ate the dinners each time.
A key jingling in the door handle caught your attention while you were getting Megumi settled at the dining room table. Three-year-olds were so hard to manage: too small to eat by themselves but too big to be locked in a high chair.
Toji stepped into the living room with a small grunt. He smirked as he looked around at his destroyed living room. Toys, crayons, and pieces of "artwork" were strewn all about the place. He glanced up towards you and Megumi in the kitchen. He took note of how your face was flushed and surprised.
"Papa!" Megumi happily shouted before the little bastard ran from your grasp to go hug on Toji's legs. His dad smiled as he looked down at Megumi, and he used his hand to mess up Megumi's hair affectionately.
"Go eat your food, kiddo." Toji said warmly to his son. Megumi happily obliged and ran right back to his seat right next to you, and you fed him a spoonful of the soup.
"You're home early." You stated the obvious.
Toji would never tell you, but he left early because he missed you two.
"Don't sound too happy to see me." He remarked in a sarcastic tone.
"What-? No, I just.. would've cleaned up more had I known you would be home so soon..." You responded. Megumi was sitting beside you whining for another bite of food. You snapped out of your surprise, and you fed him another bite of chicken and dumplings.
"Why? I don't give a damn what this place looks like." Toji said with a small nonchalant shrug. He walked through the living room, carefully stepping over the toys. Before you had become his nanny, this was how his house normally looked: messy, lived in. "I've got a bowl of dinner in the microwave. My kid's happy and fed. I couldn't care less what that living room looks like."
Your heart fluttered at the sentiment. Toji was easy to please. He really just wanted what was best for his kid, and that was you. "I like making sure you have nothing to worry about." You replied. He looked at you with an unreadable expression. It looked like he might've wanted to say something, but he had backed out last minute. He hummed and walked towards his bedroom to shower the dirt, sweat, and grime from the day.
While Toji showered, you had finished feeding Megumi and yourself. You allowed Megumi to have about an hour of TV time before bed. He really enjoyed old X-Men cartoons. You turned them on for him and parked him on the couch, wrapped up in a blanket.
You hummed softly as you worked in the kitchen. You packed meal prep containers of soup for Toji to take for lunch for the next couple of days. Then, you were washing dishes in front of the sink.
*** *** ***
"I like making sure you have nothing to worry about." Your words repeated in Toji's head over and over like a mantra. He hadn't felt so... cared for in a long, long time. It made his heart feel full, which was an unfamiliar feeling for him. A less unfamiliar feeling was his dick standing fully erect and at attention. He groaned quietly as he leaned his head back in the shower.
Something had to be in the air recently. He was a grown man with desires, sure. But this was a new record for him. Ever since you started being a live-in nanny for him, the boners were a daily thing. Hell, twice or three times a day sometimes. He's tried everything... Well, okay, maybe not everything, but he's tried cold showers and staying away from you. Neither of those things work to soothe him.
His hand was gliding up and down his length for the second time today. He was facing the shower wall with his arm propped up on it, supporting his head. Damn you for making him feel like a slave to his desires. You wanted to make sure he had nothing to worry about? Then, you should be the one in here fixing this damn mess, not him. He pitifully rutted into his hand, imaging he's plunging deep into you. Imagining the multiple ways he'd fuck the hell out of you is the only thing that soothes the ache, but this time he didn't see an end in sight.
He gritted his teeth together, and he balled up his fist, rearing back before stopping himself. He's not a teenager anymore. He can't punch walls. He took a deep breath and turned the shower off. No, this won't do. He needs to fix this at the source.
After quickly drying off and getting dressed, he walked back into the kitchen. His eyes scanned over the house. Megumi was enthralled by the TV, and you were washing dishes. Perfect.
He slowly approached you from behind. He could tell you didn't hear him as you were still softly humming. Usually, you would stop humming if he entered the kitchen. He never understood why. The sounds of your melancholic hums were beautiful and soothing to him.
He was directly behind you, and his hands gently cupped your hips. You immediately flinched and made a soft scream that was quickly silenced by one of his hands. "Shh, we don't want to disturb the little brat, do we?" Toji said into your ear. His warm breath ghosted over the shell of your ear, making you shiver.
Toji's eyes flicked over towards the living room. Megumi hadn't moved an inch. Perfect.
Toji slowly released your mouth. To his delight, you didn't make a sound. He could hear how your breath was slightly labored from him scaring you. A small chuckle rose from his throat. His hands went back to your hips, and he pressed himself against your voluptuous ass. A hum of approval escaped him. He could see your hands gripping the countertops.
"Nod your head. You like this? Want me to keep pressing myself against you?" Toji whispered into your ear. You took your bottom lip between your teeth, and you nodded your head eagerly, giving him consent.
"Dirty fucking girl." His voice was like a growl in your ear as he started to move his hips, dragging his length up and down along you. You could feel each inch of his length beckoning for you. "I knew you'd take whatever I gave you, but this? Letting me grind against you like a pathetic teenager while my son is in the living room? You're such a fucking slut." His hands were digging into your hips as he continued his controlled motions.
"Mnn.. fuck.." You softly whimpered out. Thank god the X-Men were currently in a loud fight scene.
You slightly frowned as you suddenly didn't feel Toji behind you anymore. You were about to turn around and ask what he was doing, but his fingers curling into the waistband of your leggings told you everything you needed to know. "Toji-" You managed to whisper out. No way could you two do this while Megumi was in the next room over.
"Shut up." Toji interrupted you. He had taken his throbbing length out of his sleeping pants, and he had a look of concentration on his face as he angled himself right at your entrance. "You have no fucking idea how long I've needed this. So just be a good girl, shut up, and take what I give you."
Direct orders from your boss. Who were you to deny the man who just spoiled you all day today?
It was a tight fit. Toji wasn't a gentleman. He didn't prep you with his fingers or mouth. This wasn't love making. It was hardly fucking. This was fulfilling a need.
"God... fuck. I didn't expect you to be that tight." He growled into your neck as he held your hips still against him. It felt like he was splitting you apart. You couldn't even respond to him.
He noticed how tightly you were gripping the counter and how you weren't responding to him. Your knuckles were turning white. He almost felt guilty. His hand came around the front of you, and he gently rubbed the swollen bundle of nerves. "Shhh... You can take it. I know you can." He whispered into your ear as it was taking every last shred of self-restraint not to fuck you into oblivion right on this counter. He slowly pulled back until just his tip was inside, and he pushed all the way back in. "That's it. There's my good girl." He praised in your ear. It was not lost on him that he felt you get wetter with each praise.
He hesitated, but he said it anyway, "You wanna be a good girl for daddy, don't you?" He whispered into your ear. That phrase made you tremble in his arms and nod your head. He slowly pulled back out and pushed right back in, taking you slowly. "That's right... hngh, fuck." He moaned into your ear. "You want to be fucked by daddy. You want to take his cock like a good girl. Take it." His hips started to move with more conviction.
You were already so out of it. This was like a dirty fantasy come true. You couldn't help but check the TV a few times to make sure X-Men was still playing. You were still worried that Megumi might run in here for whatever reason and see you bent over in front of his dad. You knew it was unlikely. Megumi could watch that TV like a zombie all day if you let him. Besides, you would be able to hear the small pitter-patter of his footsteps.
"Stop looking at the fucking TV. Trust me." Toji growled into your ear as he forced your hips down onto him roughly. A noiseless gasp escaped you. He wasn't small, and he knew that. He was using it to his advantage.
"Fuck." He groaned quietly as he rubbed you with a bit more fervor. You could already feel that familiar warm feeling coiling in your stomach. "I'm going to fuck a baby into you. You were fucking made for this. Made for raising my kids and taking my fucking load." He was spewing nonsense into your ear, but in the moment, you couldn't help but nod and moan. "You were made for me." He proclaimed as his hips continued harshly snapping into your backside. Somehow the sounds were masked.
"You want that, don't you?" He asked as he bit down on your neck then lapped at the bite mark with his tongue.
"Yes, daddy!" You quietly exclaimed. His thrusts only increased in power. Your eyes started to cross, getting lost in pleasure.
"Fuck. You're gonna look so perfect pregnant with my baby. I won't let you have a break. As soon as one comes out; I'm puttin' another one in you." He continued on yapping about how many kids he was going to pump into you. "I'll breed you again and again." His thrusts were heavy and brutal. You couldn't take it anymore.
He moaned as he felt you clenching around him, finishing all over his cock. It was enough to drive him overboard. He pumped you full of cum until you were sure some of it was seeping out.
There was a peaceful moment of dizzy highness for you two. Toji panted against your back. For the first time in while, he's felt satisfied. A soft amused laugh escaped him as he heard the iconic X-Men episode coming to an end. He swiftly pulled out of you, and he tried to ignore that little whimper of protest you let out. He tucked himself back into his pants, and he pulled your leggings and panties back up for you since you were still a trembling mess over the counter.
"Alright Kiddo, c'mon. Time for bed." Toji said as he sauntered off into the living room as if he didn't just rearrange your guts. He put Megumi to bed that night, and he cleaned up the living room for you, allowing for you to recover in his bed for round two. He was much more of a gentleman for round two.
*** *** ***
"Hey... I know I ain't been to see you in a while. I'm sorry." Toji said as he sat down on the grassy ground. "I was letting life pass me by for too damn long." He said as he took a wet washcloth and began to wash up his late wife's gravestone. "I'm doing better now, so don't worry about me."
"Megumi's growing like a weed. I'm sorry I didn't bring him to see you... I just don't know how to explain it to him." Toji's voice was full of guilt as he dragged the wet washcloth against the stone. "He's a good kid though. He looks just like you, damn bastard." He softly laughed, knowing his wife would've struck him over the side of the head for calling Megumi a damn bastard.
"Listen... I met a girl." He leaned his head over the gravestone. It had been close to three months since you and Toji started sleeping together. There wasn't a formal label to your relationship, but it didn't feel necessary. You two both knew you were sleeping exclusively with each other. "I think you'd like her, or maybe you wouldn't since she's fucking your husband. But either way... I-" He choked up a bit as he held onto the cold stone. "I feel so fucking guilty... I know you're not coming home anytime soon, but I just... I need your blessing. If you can somehow hear me, please... I never asked you for anything until I asked you to marry me. Now, I'm asking... please somehow show me you approve of this."
"She's good for me... She takes good care of Megumi. He's so damn attached to her somedays." Toji softly laughed as he remembered how a few nights ago Megumi crawled into bed with you and him because he had a nightmare. Instead of taking to Toji like he normally does, he crawled into your arms. Toji had never felt so damn proud and slighted at the same time.
"I should get going. Give me a sign though.. Something that tells me you approve." He finished his visit with his wife, and he went home.
*** *** ***
That night at dinner, Megumi sped into the kitchen with an action figure in his hand. He was pretending to be Batman. "Gumi, I've told you three times. Stop running." You said as you gave the small child a look. Toji smirked as he knew that look good and well. It was the look a mom gave as a warning. Megumi was on his last warning.
"I'm sorry, mama." Megumi apologized, causing for both you and Toji to freeze right in your tracks. Megumi had never called you mama before. He always said your name.
Your heart swelled in your chest. It was a feeling of affection and guilt. "Oh no... baby.." You said softly as you took his hand. You lead him into the living room, and you crouched down, showing him a picture of his mom to him. "That's mama." You gently corrected him.
Toji watched the scene like a hawk from the dinner table. His heart was pounding in his chest. He had never been shy about telling Megumi who his mom was, but he hadn't exactly been forthcoming about how his mom passed away when he was a small baby.
Megumi pointed at the picture. "Mama." He said quietly. You nodded and patted his head.
"That's right." You praised affectionately. He then turned his attention to you. and he poked your chest with his tiny finger.
"Mama." He said, pointing at you.
"No-"
"It's alright." Toji spoke up from his seat at the dinner table.
"I don't want him to be confused..." You replied as you slowly stood back up, looking at Toji.
"He doesn't sound confused to me." He retorted with a small grin. You turned your attention back to Megumi, and Toji looked up towards the ceiling. "Thank you." He muttered so quietly before kissing the necklace that hung around his neck. He had his wife's blessing. This proved it.
After finishing his dinner, Toji joined you two in the living room. You and Megumi were curled up on each side of his while watching that old X-Men cartoon. Suddenly, Megumi rose from the couch. You and Toji watched him with a hint of confusion.
"What is he doing?" You softly asked Toji as Megumi bent over, and he looked between his legs at both you and Toji.
"I have no fucking id-" He was about to respond, but then, it hit him. "Get up." He said as he stood up from the couch. He quickly grabbed his phone, keys, and wallet like a madman.
"What? What? Is something wrong?" You asked as you had never seen Toji move this fast. You quickly got up too.
"Nothing's wrong. Come on. We're going to the store." He grunted as he swooped Megumi into his arms.
You were confused and in denial when Toji bought a pregnancy test and made you take it. Now, both of you were waiting outside of the bathroom for the five minutes to be over. "This is crazy, Toji. I'm not pregnant."
"It's an old wives' tale. When babies do that, it's supposed to mean their looking for their sibling." Toji said with a nonchalant shrug as if what he said was matter-of-fact. "My mother told me that's how she knew she was pregnant with me."
The timer went off on his phone, and both of you fought to get into the bathroom first. He eventually overpowered you and snatched the pregnancy test off the counter quickly. "Oh." He said quietly. The room went still.
Suddenly, your heart was racing. "What is it? Is it negative?" You asked a hint of disappointment hit you. You didn't know why, but a small part of you hoped for it to be positive.
"Oh, you're fucking getting it tonight." Toji smirked as he turned the pregnancy test over. Two pink lines were clear as day on the test. You're pregnant.
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big sister - hyun ju
summary; a big sister will always protect, but when will she be able to relax?
genre/extra tags; one shot, found family, fluff, hurt/comfort?, canon typical violence, i dont like the second season writing, but i can not deny myself this diva, that's mother !!, teen! reader, hyun ju is the only reason i decided to watch this season, slight canon divergence bc i have the mind of a goldfish, canon typical sad heavy conversations, big sister is written to be seen as the korean honorific "unnie", older sister moments written in the point of view of a younger sibling, unintentional love letter for my appreciation to my sister, reader is implied to be some form of lgbt but not out (im projecting)
[platonic] [gender-neutral reader]
[warning; mentions of transphobic ideas]
a/n; before people ask, no, im not doing requests for this show. i just don't feel fully comfortable writing for squid game. i just really wanted to write this because, believe it or not, i write for my enjoyment. even i do switch off here every few months or every other month.
dinner had rolled around after an intense "game" of life or death. how you managed to survive this long is beyond you. but you might have a strong idea of why you're living so long, and it was the strong woman who was sitting beside you with some of the other women who were surviving so far.
the old lady had pointed out that hyun ju was not like other people. and it really was odd to her. but hyun ju was used to that. more than used to it. she lived through it since she decided to come out.
you listen to the conversation, not really putting your two cents in as it seemed like there was no right time to butt in. but as the conversation continued, the mood was just a little lighter. and that was more than enough morale. the old lady seemed to slowly understand hyun ju and her struggle.
you've zoned out so much, you almost fail to notice hyun ju sneaking an egg onto your shabby given lunch box meal. you look up at her as she gives you a warm look before pretending that she didn't just do that.
you mix the rice with not much thought, spilling some bits of rice and egg over its metal container before you slowly eat. unbeknownst to you, hyun ju glances back at you as if to make sure you're actually eating and not staring off with a tired look that no teen or child should have. you've seen everything, you're part of this sick game, she may not know your story, but she knows you don't deserve any of the bad you've been through.
you're the youngest in the entire room, a room filled with people with insurmountable debt and issues. hyun ju can only imagine your worry, your anxiety, the burden.
when the first game got serious, you were trying your damned hardest to keep your fear contained under the watchful eye of that robot scanning every movement. she was right in front of you, keeping you safe along with the rest of the people who lined up with her. you look like you wanted to cry the moment you got to the finish line. if she wasn't full of adrenaline at the time, she probably would've heard how hard your heart was beating.
somehow, she had taken two people under her care. you and young-mi. how could she not care about a young woman like young-mi and a teen like yourself? two anxious people forced to live a life full of debt and pain when you both deserved nothing but comfort and love.
people start lining up in their beds for nighttime. gi-hun was very insistent on being careful at night. it was dangerous. some people were not behind just killing others at night to sweeten the pot of money that loomed over everyone's head like a golden sun.
as most of the adults started to climb in their beds, you stand awkwardly. you weren't a stranger to sleeping a room full of people, but you were definitely a little paranoid after what gi-hun was talking about.
you find yourself naturally gravitating to hyun ju. her presence was just so calming, and she was so caring for others. it was hard not to get attached. young-mi had taken to calling her big sister. and you found yourself doing the same when you call out to her softly.
"big sister?" you gently tap at her arm as she turns to look at you. she silently urges you to continue speaking with a gentle look. you can see the tired in her eyes, but she looks at you, unwilling to say no. "this is embarrassing..." you mutter.
"it's okay. i'm here." she reassures you.
"can i stay with you tonight? i'm-" you choke a little bit on your words, not only out of embarrassment but fear. "i'm really scared. i don't wanna be alone." you confess.
she softens, "i would love to let you, but it's too risky. if people come for us, it would be very hard to fight back. i'm so sorry, kid." she opens her arm out for a hug, and you take the comfort you can get in this shitty place. "i will do my best to keep you safe, alright? when we get out of here, i'm going to find you again, and we can help each other, yeah? i'll protect you."
you nodded with her words, not finding the heart to say anything. she takes this as a sign to start guiding you into your bunk bed on top. at least the top bunks would be somewhat safer for you. you hesitantly climb into bed. "if a fight breaks out, hide. run. just be safe. i will find you, and you'll be safe." she continues to reassure you the best she can.
"okay. goodnight big sister." you whispered. "please be safe."
"i will." she said with a calm confidence that only she could pull off that didn't make you feel worried for her.
you hope that you get out of here, so you don't have to see the worried exhaustion in her eyes anymore.
she was a big sister by heart and soul. you just hoped her big heart wouldn't lead her to her doom. she protects and gives, but when will she relax?
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First Choice
Synopsis: The Prefect has to choose a dorm to move into, and they immediately think of Leona.
TW: it's relatively vague, but it's mentioned that The Prefect was uncomfortable with the thought of staying in other dorms for reasons you would imagine a woman wouldn't want to stay in a space with all men (specifically, she's overheard jokes, and noticed looks that made her uncomfortable (I try to keep it vague though))
Fem! Reader x Leona
You sat in Crowley's office with your arms crossed and a tired expression on your face. You had walked back to Ramshackle after another long day of classes and mayhem just to find the roof had caved in.
Crowley sat in silent contemplation as if he were actually mulling over the issue like someone who actually cared before snapping his fingers with a triumphant smile on his face: "Because I am so kind, I shall allow you the opportunity to choose one of the 7 dorms to move into!"
Your face remained blank. It's not that you disliked the idea of being able to sleep in a building that you didn't have to worry about leaks, mold, collapses, and cave ins, but you weren't too fond of the idea of having to live with a bunch of men.
You mulled over your options for a moment before sighing and pulling out your phone. Crowley looked at you quizzically. "I wanna make sure it's okay with him first" you mumble under your breath.
Moments later, you get a text from Leona: "Whatever."
You figured that would be as close to a yes as you could get, so you relayed the information to Crowley.
Just then, another buzz of your phone came: "Don't bring the d*mn cat."
Well, that complicated things. You weren't too fond of the idea of leaving Grim behind. Crowley, on the other hand, thought it was a glorious idea. He'd send Grim off to Heartslabyul (without consulting with Riddle first, of course). Surely, some time in the strictest dorm would do the little critter some good.
Before either of you could protest, he was already out the door holding grim by the collar.
When you arrived at Savanaclaw, it was already late. Ruggie greeted you with a snicker and tossed you a basket of laundry to bring up to Leona's room.
"Can't have ya freeloading" was the hyena's excuse.
"Delivery." A yawn slipped from your mouth as you dropped the basket of laundry just inside the door.
A rustling came from the bed before moments later a grumpy lion finally lifted his head to look at you. "The h*ll are you doing here?"
". . .You said I could stay, remember?"
Leona's tail flicks back and forth a few times before he flops back down. "Was half expecting ya to choose a different dorm instead."
With a hum, you closed his door and picked the basket back up to set it next to his closet. "Now, why would I do that?"
You heard a scoff come from Leona "In case ya haven't noticed, Savanaclaw isn't exactly a prissy little proper dorm with a-"
You cut your upper classman off by throwing a pillow at his face.
"Oops, my hand slipped" you hum as you set the laundry basket down again.
Leona growls, but he doesn't move. If anyone else were to throw a pillow at him, he'd likely rip their throat out, but with you, he didn't have that compulsion. "The h*ll was that for?"
"Is that really what you think I'd be looking for in a dorm I'll have to move into?" As you speak, you casually sit on the edge of his bed so you can meet his eyes and give him a 'really?' look.
"Yes." His response is blunt and to the point.
A sigh slips from your lips as you stand up "Seriously?"
"Well what else would you be looking for?" He scoffs with a roll of his eyes "And which of those criteria would you find in this dorm?"
"You're here." You reply without having to think and as if the answer is obvious.
In response, Leona just stares at you disbelievingly.
"I'm serious. The moment Crowley said I had to move into a dorm, this was the first one I thought of, and because of you."
He remains silent, his expression only becoming more skeptical. Don't get him wrong, when you said he was your first thought, your first choice, it made something tighten in his chest. However, anyone can lie, and your current sentiment sounds completely improbable to him.
Another exasperated sigh leaves your mouth before you motion for him to scoot over.
Surprisingly, he complies and gives you space to sit crisscross next to him. "I'm the only girl in this school."
"Obviously." You give him a quick warning glare at his snarky comment, and he raises his hands.
"As I was saying, I'm the only girl in this school. I'm not saying I particularly distrust the other students here, but that doesn't change the fact that I constantly find myself in settings here that make me feel unsafe."
Leona's once swishing tail stills, but his expression remains neutral.
"Sure, I have friends in other dorms, but, for one reason or another, I never feel fully at ease in those spaces."
"And you do here?"
"Yes."
The room falls silent for a moment before you continue: "I can't fully explain it, but. . .I said that the reason I chose to come to Savanaclaw was because you're here. That matters because. . .I feel safe around you."
Leona scoffs before he can stop himself. "I tried to kill you."
"Yes, but I've never worried that you'd do worse."
Leona's eyes widen a fraction at the statement. He debates asking for a moment, but eventually decides to: "And you have about others?"
Silence falls once more, but this time it feels much heavier.
"Some of it is just a lack of knowing,. . .but sometimes I hear people make unsavory jokes. . .and sometimes I catch a glint in people's eyes that I'm not sure I want to know the thoughts behind."
Before the atmosphere can get too awkward, you clap your hands together, "That or sometimes I just feel like people don't know how to treat me because I'm a girl." you add, trying to lighten the mood.
"But I've never felt that way with you. You respect my space and my boundaries but still treat me like a normal person."
Deciding it's probably best not to talk about the previous subject too much as you seem uncomfortable with it (not that he's going to forget it though), he follows along with the topic shift. "Nobody else in any other dorm does that?" he scoffs "It's the bare minimum, nothin' special." His words don't come off as being said in a way to subtly tell you to pick a different dorm to stay in, that he doesn't want you here, but rather as genuinely curious and with a barely noticeable undertone that way maybe. . .threatening?
"It's not that nobody else does. . .it's hard to explain. You not only treat me with respect, but by doing so, you encourage others around you to do the same. Last time I stayed here, you always seemed to be there to step in if anyone crossed any boundaries or said anything that made me uncomfortable. When I returned to your room looking even slightly uncomfortable, you'd notice and take me seriously when I had a concern instead of brushing it off."
Noticing you had just rambled off praise, you quickly add "And you're a dorm leader, so staying in your room would surely deter anyone from trying anything! Cause you're big and scary. . .haha."
Leona is eerily silent for a while before he huffs and lets a grin creep onto his face. "I didn't know you thought so highly of me, Herbivore."
You roll your eyes and lightly punch his arm, grateful for how he lightened the mood.
"Well, I could easily give the same praise to plenty of other people, some of whom are even dorm leaders." you scoff playfully. "I genuinely don't know why it's just you that makes me so comfortable."
"Maybe ya have a thing for me." the lion jokes.
Normally, you'd be put off by such a comment, but coming from Leona, you can tell it has nothing nasty or creepy behind it.
"As if!" You try your best to sound firm and to match his sarcasm, but a light blush creeps to your face.
Leona originally wasn't going to push the matter, but seeing your positive reaction, he continues, "Oh? I seem to recall you mentioning that I was your first choice though."
"You know I didn't mean it like that!" you hiss, irritated by the smirk on his face.
You move to get up, but before you do, Leona lightly stops you. "What are you-"
He cuts you off by resting his chin on your shoulder from behind and lifting his phone into the air. You catch on to what he's doing, and decide to just go along with it. . .but not without getting him back for a bit of his earlier teasing.
You lift one hand to cradle his cheek that isn't pressed against your neck and give your best smile. If Leona is phased by the action, he doesn't show it as he quickly clicks the picture and posts it on his virtually dead magicam account, making sure to tag the other dorm leaders in the post.
"You're a jerk" you sigh, watching him hit post.
You leave the room a bit later to take a shower in the bathroom attached to his room, and only then does he allow the faintest of blushes to creep onto his face.
Partially because of you holding his face, partially because of your praise, but mostly because of something you said much earlier.
He was your first thought. He was your first choice.
Leona was never first.
You had 7 dorms to choose from and you chose his arguably unappealing one where it was always humid and full of sweaty guys roughhousing.
It wasn't that you thought of the dorm first, you thought of him. He was your first choice. He is your first choice.
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