#but i love the dicotomy

[honeyflower-bellybower]

can't believe I haven't said it over here yet cause I'm obsessed with it but Sirius with physical image issues.

No no, not like he doesn't feel as beautiful as others say he is, or like he's obsessed with how he's perceived. Not eating disorder or anything like that. No.

Blacks are inbred. They all have the same genes, they all look the same. Sirius looks in the mirror and sees his mother. His father, his entire family, and the horrors he overlaps them with. He looks in the mirror and sees someone evil, something he can never hope to run from.

And he's vain, he knows so, he cares for how he looks, not like James; he spends ten minutes fixinf his hair every morning and dresses to impress and he loves to be complimented. He knows he's beautiful, but it's so hard to both love that and hate where that beauty comes from. So hard, sometimes, to remember that it doesn't mean he also looks like them on the inside.

Remus hugs him, reflected in the mirror, and lists all the things he loves about Sirius that are only his, not on Regulus and not on their parents.

[call-me-strega]

Tropes I Adore pt.1: Weapon Dicotomy

I absolutely love when we give characters weapons don’t look like something that fits the character but that they are awesome at using.

One prime example of this that I love is when we give fantasy genere characters a gun instead of a sword or a bow and arrows or spear or something. I just love the image of an elf of getting ready for a battle and they suddenly pull up with a fucking Glock (shoutout to Alberu Crossman and his taerang).

Another example of this is having like a big burly knight holding a giant sword but jokes on you the sword actually turns into a whip. Or having gnomes driving a tank with a machine gun. Fantasy characters with modern weapons is absolutely hilarious I think.

This also works with more modern characters. Like having a young school girl with a police grade taser or a middle aged man who carries around pepper spray or an old woman with a goddamn katana.

This is always hilarious to me because it doesn’t look like these people should be using these weapons, but they do and they are absolutely badass with them.

[nerdyneko265]

As someone who judges a gore effect on whether or not it makes me look away, evil dead is an enigma and a treasure. Like there’s a level of gore I can stand but the better and more realistic it is, the more likely I am to tap out. Full props to the effect crew though, they’re doing a fantastic job.

Evil dead makes me swing wildly between “oh this is too much, I can’t. The effect is why too good,” and “this is so over the top that it’s hillarious.” The effects team is doing a fantastic fucking job

Love the part in Evil Dead 2 where Jake is being dragged into the cellar and Annie is trying to drag him out by the legs, but even when she's getting hit by a torrent of blood she's still pulling, like

Girl he's soup

[1pcii]

im a simple creature. i think about current interest + homestuck classpects and get so exited i pass out

[zevampirex]

What I love about fanfic is that you read the same trops about 40th times but you still are super exited to read it, and still wonder if your ship will still get together at the end

Thought with diving in The hobbit fic verse, there is a things that make me cry of laugh everytime: the dicotomy in wrighting the chacarcters. Because you have mostly two possibility of trops ( I mean there is other possibilty, but ket be honest, it's less then 20% of it all x)), and they are always the night and day ! (And yet strangely similar) It's here in every fandom, but gosh the all tradition stuff make it sooo funny!!!

Here is the exemples I have in mind:

•Hobbits are eather the most sex open, horny creature in all middle earth, or they are the most puritine and fun less persone ever

•Dwarfs are super open minded and friendly (unless if you are an elf... ofc) or they have so many tradition that's it make it really difficulte to socialize with them ( if you fart the wrong way, you will probably insult an all dwarf's dinasty and start a war )

• they will rather die then tell you a word about their custom if you are an oustider but exepted them to know the meaning avout bread ( and other courting gifst ) EVERY SINGLE TIME (and I love it) or they would dive hard in learning the custome of their intended (hobbits) and try everything to do it "proprely" ( to noted that it will failed, probably because of lack of self confidence of the gift receiver (hobbit) and a lot of canon drama (arkenston, etc...)

• Bilbo, have 50% of chance to be a whore or an old bigot, depending of where hobbits are in point 1 , or to be perceived as such by dwarfs , depending of how stupid they are in point 3

[thesirenwithnovoice]

On Siren being a huge nerd today's episode, there's an example of how details can change or add to the overall meaning of an image that I find pretty interesting:

In the anime, it's a cute scene in which we can see a bit of how Erza sees Jellal and how he used to always encourage his friends. In the manga, it's also sweet, but there are some subtle differences:

The change in details allows us know a little more about the dynamics between the kids, specially the older two: Wally and Simon realize Erza's shy reaction when Jellal talks to her, and both have different reactions to it - Wally making a teasingly gesture and Simon being the only one looking unpleased (details that we know will be very relevant later in the story).

(Noting that I'm just comparing one frame isolatedly, what doesn't necessarily mean you can't get the same conclusion in the anime throught other scenes! My point here is just to highlight how simple expression changes can add meaning and different information to a single image, what I do not only find interesting as a reader, but also very useful as an artist as a way to enrich our drawings. If we only had this single scene to compare, maybe in the anime version Simon's jealousy wouldn't be so clear, nor Wally's awareness of Elza innocent crush.)

Now, one might think I'm criticizing Simon's character for loving how the manga reinforces it, but actually, it's an aspect that I appreciate a lot: in Fairy Tail, there's no dicotomy, or saint. Even the man that bravely sacrificed his life to save Erza, has always suffered from one sin: envy.

And poetically, I think in his death, Simon finally became the man he always wished to be; Erza said Jellal used to be admired for his leadership qualities, and he was always ready to sacrifice his well being for his friends without a hinge of hesitation - however, it had never been an easy role to play. We can't blame Simon, or anyone, for having not been like him; after all, being a hero comes at a high cost: for Jellal, his sanity, and for Simon, his own life.

[darkcrownninja]

MOS Pa Kent and MAWS Pa Kent

I find the polar opposite depictions of Jonathan in these stories incredibly fascinating.

MOS Jonathan shields and separates Clark from anything related his heritage, including things like his ship and powers. Encouraging suppresion and caution in Clark.

Actively telling Clark to hide his powers and never use them, scolding him whenever he used them. He is a man terrified of the world taking his son away from him, specially knowing he has no real way of protecting Clark from anything that may seek to harm him. So he encourages him to hide himself and avoid drawing any attention.

He is a more jaded and cynical man, immediately assuming the world would attack and try to kill his son (he ended up being right, which is its own can of worms), would try to rip his miracle child, his star baby away from him.

He only sees a world that would harm the child he so desperately seeks to protect, that child he loves more than anything.

MAWS Jonathan is the complete opposite of his MOS counterpart. He is the one that encouraged Clark to discover himself, to make contact with the ship, to practice his use and control of his powers, even turning that into a game a young Clark could enjoy.

He is aware of the shock Clark´s existence will create but in the end he has faith in humanity seeing Clark for what he truly is, someone who just wants to help others.

He is more optimistic and cheerful, thinking of the best and encouraging other people to do so too.

In MAWS, Martha is the one who is the one who wants to keep Clark away from anything alien, the one that clings to him and wants to keep him hidden.

While Jonathan is cheerful over Clark deciding to go public and help people, Martha is the one that is slightly reluctant (though not to MOS Jonathan´s level, like letting yourself get killed by a tornado because you don´t want your son to expose himself is extreme though somewhat understandable) to let him go, though she eventually gets on board and creates his trunks.

This dicotomy is reflected on Clark´s abilities.

Flight is one of his most characteristic abilities and it often serves as a metaphor for Clark feeling free and accepted, it comes in moments where Clark learns to love and accept himself.

So it is interesting to see how in MAWS it is one of the first he obtains while in MOS it is one of the last ones. Showing the difference in how their settings and enviroments reacted to them.

MAWS is honestly amazing and I am incredibly glad we got this adaptation of the Superman mythos. It is so unique and refreshing. I can´t wait for season 3.

Regardless of its flaws I genuinely love MOS and its depiction of the Kent family. Its different from what we are used to in comics and tv shows, but it offers a unique take on the Kents dealing with Clark´s powers. At the end the day Jonathan is just a father terrified someone will hurt his child and he won´t be able to protect him.

Anyways this ramble has lasted enough, love both pieces of media to bits.

[reading-sea-shells]

One Piece Chapter #0001

*attention, there are references to spoilers regarding both Wano and Elbaff

The first diference between the anime and manga version is the way we are introduced to Luffy. While I would've enjoyed to know how he got his scar earlier on, I also enjoyed the first ep when I watched it back then.

More importantly, I love how Luffy has been fascinated with freedom since the very beggining, and has a reason to associate it with a pirate's life.

I also love to see the contrast between how Ben and Shanks talk to baby Luffy

It's also interesting how that it takes Luffy quite some time to eat the full fruit. The first time we see him with it is when the mountain bandits enter the tavern, and he only finishes it when they leave, so it could be possible that the true nature of the fruit made a situation where the red head pirates would be too busy to keep an eye on it. It's a bit frustrating that we still don't know if Shanks understood the true nature of the gum gum fruit, though I personally believe he did.

Not only that, but given the current news about Shanks' origins, the scene of him cleaning the broken bottle is even more endearing. It makes is clear he enjoys and treasures the simple life he has right now. I miss seeing him this at peace.

Something else I find interesting is that Shanks perfectly encapsulates the dicotomy of sillyness and seriousness that defines the whole series. He is just a goofy guy for most of the chapter, but when something serious happens we see him switch his attitude, and the rest of the crew do the same. We know that they are not morons just living an easy life and see that they understand very well the way the world works when you are a pirate, another thing Luffy will remember when he leaves for the sea.

I thought I was done with the chapter, BUT NO. The reason why Luffy is captured and Shanks looses his arm is because the Mountain bandits called Shanks a coward. Which, at least in the english translation is the same insult Loki used that led to Luffy getting agressive imediately. I don't think that this paralel is particularly plot relevant (ie it's not like Loki is going to turn around and say he saw everything since Luffy was 7), but I like how years later the same insult towards Shanks drew the same reaction (albeit more sucessful) from Luffy. However, this narration makes me a bit uneasy.

I love that we get to see Shanks overpower the sea king with what we now understand to be the conqueror's haki, which is fantastic, since it means the first ever chapter of one piece covered the two fundamentals of high end combat in its world (the devil fruits and haki).

[eyesofshan-if]

About the Hae/Shan dicotomy... personally I love how MC can be torn between two worlds, and two groups of people. Even if about all the Shans that MC knew are dead, but they were their family and the ones who loved MC sincerely, while the Hae people, kidnapped, meanstreate and hate MC but the Emperor also saved them. Plus they lived the same amount of time in both territories. At the moment for my MC there isn't much struggle, because they can't/want betray the Emperor/Empress and they believe/want to believe, that their highness wants peace. But when the other two ROs will appear, or there will be war...things will became tricky...I hope there will be the possibility to tell the Emperor/Empress that the MC won't betray them/will always protect them (and the samjogo), but they can't betray their people either...some advisor was definitely right about split loyalties...🤣

advisor kwok didn't achieve his position at such a young age just by being pretty 💅

[dulcewrites]

The way I was staying away from the succession stuff, mainly bc it tends to bog down a story and I wanted the focus on aemyrah’s relationship. It’s the main reason why I set it in this universe where Aegon is king… but ooouuu the unraveling of the great council (of 129) is giving me that buzz tbh

[marcussour]

C3E121 random thoughts and bits (part 2)

Oh, we're starting with Vax, amazing

So interesting the idea that the Matron had her own golden thread that she couldn't quite see

FUCK YEAH, MORRIGHAN IS HERE TOO! I had wanted to see her meeting with Vax for so long (and also, clarify her status as a champion of the Matron as well)

Also, I'm guessing all of this happened before the Rite of Catatheosis (also, nice confirmation that the Catatheosis is, basically, a reversed engineered Rite of Ascension)

So she's creating an order of champions, starting with Vax and Morrighan, and also, they will work as Purvan taking care of the Matron in mortal form, interesting (and again, hell of a character idea, to be champions of death, which funnily enough, was the background of a character I played in my own home D&D game), with Vax as the main champion

Also, great clarification regarding how the gods will basically enter a cycle of rebirth as well

Gotta love that, at heart, the Matron is still the greatest wizard that ever lived, like, in how Matt has played her in this conversation or how she re-rewrote the Rite, that's clearly the ambition and talents of the best wizard that ever lived

I expected that Vax was gonna be back from the dead. It still feels so weird, like, I don't think it diminishes the ending of C1 (though I can see that perspective) due to the circumstances that basically forced the Matron to give up godhood, but it feels odd, the, getting used to this.

Oh, now it's Deanna's time

I love the dicotomy of the Goddess of Death having a bittersweet but kinda optimistic goodby, and then the God of the Sun and Life and Agriculture having a sad and sorrowful goodbye (also, Aabria made me cry, so its been 3 times already in this episode). Like, the idea of the more central and powerful and prideful member of the pantheon having to come to terms with the idea of mortality and like, defeat as he said, of there being no other alternative.

FRIDA!

He can smell Chet? Oh, I want to now if FRIDA finally became a wererobot

Oh no, FCG, and FRIDA just, knew... damn (tears counter: 4)

Looking forward to Laudna and FRIDA going after the old coin from FCG

Amazing thing that Chet made for Deanna (and of course he stole things from Percy and the clock tower)

Joy con drift in the left eye, hahaha

There's always a choice to fuck the gods now that they're gonna be mortals... you can certainly try

That's certainly a way to kiss a ring

If Teven's gonna be working for Asmodeus return, wonder what will happen with Zerxus

Never gonna get tired of the whole "Truthbearer, fabled plate of Uther Vendrock" schtick

OPAL!!

Love seeing the table with so many people

Where's Prism tho?

Yay, FRIDA BECAME A WEREROBOT!

"I swore I would never make everything out of metal", hahaha, that was great

Look at FRIDA, already crafting thing (also, it reminded me a lot of the Arch-Heart back in Aeor)

Also, love that everyone is scheduling FRIDA for sidequests

"Nancy! Oh my Nancy!"

Mark the Crown Keepers reunion -and Opal's "I'm sorry"- for the Tears Counter: 5

Whisper! (maybe the last one of the campaign)

Oh, that shift in Opal, the idea of her and Dorian looking for the reborn Lolth to murder her as a baby, that was wild

Love this idea of integrating the peoples of Ruidus into Exandria (also, it's what I assumed would happen as a way to add the different backgrounds of Daggerheart)

GROGORY STRONGJAW, GUARDIAN OF THE MOON

Also, the idea of the lunar adventures of Grog and Gaz Tomo, amazing

"What a gift, the chance to let someone live in their dreams. Redemption"

A Taste of Tal'Dorei on the moon, why not

Braius with the wildest week known to anyone

Look at Orym helping Ryn regain their arm

Entering into epilogue territory now (which is wild because there's still 3 hours left)

Finally Lieve'tel entered the chat

Love thematic connection of Laudna wishing for the opposite outcome of what would happen to Keyleth

That was an amazing divine intervention, and look at these 2, forever bound, they'll literally get old and eventually die together

Nice sidenote regarding Lieve'tel eventually hooking up with Cerkonos

Oh, that brief moment where Asmodeus took over Matt felt like he was channeling what Brennan did after Asmodeus returned to the mortal plane in Calamity

Interesting thing what Braius did

Love the idea of Ashton just, traveling the world. Part of me wanted for them to end up with Fearne, but also, part of me kinda knew that there was no way those 2 would ever settle down, but who knows

Oh Dorian, babe... that talk with his mom was too real (tears counter: 6)

PRISM!!! And living with Zhudanna now, amazing! (Wish Emily had been at the table)

At this point they should just use Devexian in one of the live shows or something, so everyone can finally learn what the fuck is up with that (I know that he's part of The Re-Slayer's Take, but haven't found the time to listen it)

PRETTY!!!

Loved that little FCG coda

I do think there's a version of this story where Milo might've played a bigger role

"To FCG, who could always see the worst in everybody but chose to only honor the best. Only the best"

"I don't know anything anymore, but the only thing I know is that I want to be with you, and I hope just for now, just for now, that can be enough and it can carry us through"

Love how Dorian's just, now that everything's over, he's finally taking the time to process and going through the motions of the trauma

Oh Ashton

Glad to see that, at least in some ways or form, there's a future for those 2 to be together in their own way

Dariax!!

Crown Keepers!

Holy shit, Deni$e's here too!

Now I need Dariax to join Grog and Gaz in the Moon

"What about you She-Ra?"; "Netflix cancelled us"

"Thanks Keyleth" OH YOU

"For the longest time I've walked under the light of the moons, but I think it's time I spent some time with the sun in the clear blue sky"

Tears counter: 7

And Tears counter: 8 now, with Orym hugging Keyleth

Mission Acomplished, Crown Keepers

Drunk Kiki came back before GTA6

"Please die"

THE POCK O'PEA PATH

A little PP

For a moment I thought they were gonna end it with Chet dying in his sleep in a comfy bed or something, but you know, legends never die

Ira! Not gonna lie, it's been amazing seeing Ira's journey, from where we all started

3 out of the 5 eggs from Chet. Also, I really wish they make the easter egg hunt one shot, to see if she can get the one Caleb owns

Oh, I love how Ashton's hammer turned, basically, into a miniature model of a solar system, that's so amazing

Ashton and Braius, muscle for hire, never saw that one coming

The last "shut up" after a sneeze of the campaign

Painting evil babies

Never thought that it would be Fjord and Jester the ones who would end up taking Braius under their wing

"I love Suzy Greene"

Oh Artagan, you just keep being you

Nana Morri fuckin' around with Orym, and not following the deal through, that was amazing

Dorian became the glue that held the rest of the group together, that's beautiful

The well deserved lesbian cottagecore life and forever after for Laudna and Imogen

Oh, Chetney's wedding gift for Jester and Fjord, incredible (also, tears counter: 9)

LUDINUS, YOU MOTHERFUCKER. In a roundabout way, of course he ended up winning, but it feels so appropiate NGL.

"Gods help me. Fuck, they can't, they're gone"

Krevirian Republic

Grog and Gaz BFF4E

And that's how both of Robbies characters ended up with a Liam character

Of course Percy is training Gwen to be not just the leader of a Spy Network, but to find the god's first. He's just going full old man Bruce Wayne

Also, it kinda hit me, the whole, Percy's taking in his own mortality and making plans because he's gonna be the first one to die of old age.

Pike getting to be the one that raises and takes care of the reincarnated Everlight is just, perfect

CENTAUR PIKE!

The Era of Reclamation

It could have ended in any other way, it had to be with VAXLETH

Tears Counter: 10 (and now I'm just bawling my eyes out)

"Every now and then, your champion comes to visit"

Good Night Bells Hells. Good Night Mighty Nein. Good Night Vox Machina.

"I'M TARYON DARRINGTON", damn it Sam

Lots to unpack, lots to possible threads for the future, but for now, it was a great finale.

Also, it feels great finally having been able to follow a campaign as it was releasing and not having to play catch up, and just, share along with everyone.

[long-manic-nights]

I was thinking about why I ship Nebumibu as much as I do.

I like the contrast, I like the dicotomy of it.

I like Reo (ethereal, princess-like Reo) just in love with this enormous gorilla-like monster of a boy. I love the idea of Nebuya being out of his goddamn mind for his Reo, of him writing poems and buying flowers and dressing up for his ballet recitals.

I love Mibuchi just buying meat and protein bars and doing yoga while Eikichi is training next to him.

I just love them so much

[the1975attheirverybest]

Hi Hala! So, I know your opinion on matty not speaking up about Palestine but I was here thinking about it, follow my train of thought.

Considering everything he ver spoke, we know where he stands on this issue, right? So It's not that we want to know his opinion on this. We want him to speak because of the "signing towards utopia" thing.

But then we get to something he has already talked about his tweet about George Floyd, that is the dicotomy between long and short term expression (I don't remember the exact words). But he said he thinks It's better to speak through his songs, cause he actually work oh the lyrics, think deeply about the issue and can articulate his thoughts in a better way than in a tweet.

In fact, that was what happend when the whole bomb thing on People mv happend.

That being said, I don't know why but I think It's possible that he addresses this issue on a song for the next album.

Now, I don't agree with you on this matter for reasons that I don't think are important, but I wonder: if he really talks about it in a song, do you think It would be enough or anything he does from now on is already overdue?

Hey anon!

You can hear the gist of my take on the matter over here. It hasn’t changed recently. I suspect it won’t ever change. Barring some like exceptional circumstances.

I’ll address some of the points that you make here and iterate what I say above.

1. There is a difference between speaking out about every bill that is ever proposed to be made into law ever, and speaking out against genocide. Do you understand me?

Let me put it this way: let’s say Utah introduces a bill to ban even more books that show queer love stories. Or Alabama starts a debate about the age of consent. Or a school board in South Dakota has an initiative about critical race theory. I do NOT expect Matty to get onstage every single time that any of this happens and start yelling about it. He said something very poignant in the ION PACK pod. He said that artists used to be bohemian outsiders. Now everyone expects them to be liberal academics. And he’s just not the liberal academic type. I AGREE WITH HIM. TREMENDOUSLY. I don’t want him out there as a political pundit. I think punditry is one of the dumbest most self-absorbed jobs lmao.

HOWEVER genocide and ethnic cleansing is VERY different. It is a humanitarian crisis. One that demands all of us be accountable. Literal bloodlines have been wiped from the earth. The Palestinian ministry of health has had to delete family lineages from their database because Israel has killed them all. Like there is not a single person remotely related to them who’s been left alive. The family name is gone forever. Children are being starved. Tortured. Literal kids.

In my opinion, it’s not a valid argument to say that because he’s pro BLM then he’s obviously pro Palestine. If you talk to liberals, if you watch the news, if you speak to majority white communities, you’ll see a curious phenomenon. The most progressive of folks suddenly turns into a bloodthirsty animal horny for the destruction of Palestinians. This is due to 75+ years of propaganda by Zionists. Even the “good guys” are against Palestine because they genuinely believe we have to destroy Palestinians for the safety of everyone else (especially Jewish folks). Being pro-Palestine has gotten people fired from their jobs, black listed in hollywood, influencers have lost sponsorships, authors have been dropped by their publishers. This wouldn’t happen to anyone who says Black Lives Matter.

Moreover, regular methods of advocacy are not working for the same reasons. Biden and Congress folks are staunchly pro Israel. It’s the same in the UK, France, Germany. you’ve seen what has been happening to student protestors. Suspensions, expulsions, jail, physical injury.

If, at times like these, people who are of immense privilege, who claim to be brought up on punk values, who “make standing up for human rights as part of my schtick” are not only SILENT but say “really? You wanna hear me and Brittany broski on Israel-Palestine?” “I’m just a singer.” Then tell me what’s left?

2. How is saying “he spoke up once about one political issue years ago shouldn’t that be enough.” Any different from saying “Taylor swift spoke up about queer rights once when she was trying to sell an album. Therefore she’s a queer advocate”?

3. I can’t speak about the song hypothetical. In other words, I would have to see the song. My reaction would be different based on if it’s one line or a whole song and what the context and message etc. but I will say that he has already used Gaza in the show. The barrage of news stuff that plays before POTB. Where he has the clip of the lady saying “the woke left are angry with my favorite artist even though he’s on their side let’s talk about it” or whatever the fuck.

4. The right time to speak out was October 8. The second best time is now. Every day that goes by where he’s silent, more and more blood is shed. And it’s on his hands and his consciousness whether he wants to admit it or not.

5. Finally, I’m sorry, but it’s a tad disingenuous and bad faith of you to say you “disagree for reasons that aren’t important.” If you’re going to scrutinizes me for my words you should be willing to lay yours out first.

[sock-to-the-third]

Bite the Hand

By Nik Traxler

From Transmogrify [pg 163]; Edited by G. Haron Davis

“I am the monster you inherit

I am the monster you create.

The monster you seek.

Venture into the Wilderness Seen and Unseen.

Do not fear the way.

I am the compass.” [pg 180-181]

(italics added)

. . .

Ooohoho this story is so fucking god.

I love how sinister the Wanting feels but also completely innocent. Just the dicotomy of how Julien initially meets it versus how the story opens— mwah! Gorgeous.

Also, can’t beat a they/them protagonist.

Though I feel like what really makes this story shine is not only the poetic dynamic between the Wanting and Julien but also of Calliope’s (he/him) relationship to Julien. Their sibling dynamic + the age difference adds to the “i got it all under control vibe.”

Another aspect I like is how much tension there is and how the violence is handled. Sure, there is the opening but it’s rather tame compared to what I’m used to. It’s not so much fighting as your thrown in at the end. Idk exactly what I’m trying to describe. It feels old timey in the pacing but still holds the tension and I like that.

[squanderedink]

Rhyme by Joan Logghe

When blood was pounding in my head and all our friends unmarrying, you and I flew here and there, yet kept the fire from wandering. So far we've kept the faithful part and now the death until us part. Our vows were scant, our vows weren't said our marriage vows came from your head. Our marriage vows came from my fear and rhyming you with me, my dear. My deer, my dear, my dream, my life. I've finally become your wife. I've chosen you as you chose me. Not heavily or lightly. Not permanently, not gracefully. But clumsily and stumbling in, we ended up the next of kin. The rest is hope this moment lies, forever inside your eyes. You've done for me I've done for you. Now faithfully, one becomes two. And two becomes both one and three, we are the truth's dicotomy. We married barely slapped from youth. Now twenty three years in, fidelity has been my sin. Husband, we have learned long love. It's from below as from above.

[krazykatrina21]

Love is a lie

God that hurts. I have always prioritized my emotions over every man i have ever met. I have had some slip ups where i lost myself but then i went back to tit for tat. I always made sure i was the one holding all of the cards so that i could win in this game of love. That's what it always was for me. A game the one who cares the least is the winner. I captured so many hearts received so many i love you's... Men would try to make sure they could fit my mold so that they could have a future with me and once they did i was board because i was never really in it to begin with. With him i decided well actually was forced to be a different way. with him after time i began to out all of my emotions to the side, tucked away to make sure he was okay. i prioritized him and that still was not enough. he could and never realy did choose me after that. i fully sacrificed myself. its crazy too hes not all that special. there was just something about him, him i just loved him. with his flaws with everything and he never really loved me in the same way. jordan alysse's boyfriend knew the old me hell everyone did i was so dangerous. boyfriends would get worried about their girlfriend being my friend becasue i fully was a tempress and wherever i went trouble followed. some thins enver change. when i showed jorand matt he said oh wow hes just a regualr guy, i thought that he would look like he came off of teh show hot or not. Its all really ironic because as i have stated before i have dated men with the highest caliber and i somehow fell in love with this one. he just told me and showed me the dicotomy of my ways. whether i prioties myself or my partner it seems like it ends teh same way. in defet, nly this time i am the one who has lost, i showed my cards, i cared more, i gave all of myself and all the chnaces in the world and i am still not in a relationship. i have come to the brutal conclusion that love, is a lie.