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trying to make a list of books i'd recommend to fans of amc iwtv but i've gotten a little lost in the sauce making my own personal reading list and it's getting out of hand at this point
#i'm TRYING to keep it on track but i'm so so so good at making lists of books for myself to read#and not always. so good at following up on them#but i imagine people might appreciate that during the hiatus so i will try to keep it a reasonable length#lulu speaks#lulu reads#lulu watches interview with the vampire#see i have to read every book i recommend otherwise what's the point you know?#interview with the vampire
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to love, despite
notes: i know i said i'd go on hiatus but i think i might have underestimated the genshin brainrot and also the support of my readers so you have this now
word count: 2.7k
premise: when wanderer accompanies the traveler to inazuma, he didn't expect himself to fall in love, much less to get his heart broken and face his fourth betrayal. luckily, you're there to lift him up. maybe he wasn't meant to be alone after all....maybe he was just looking in the wrong places
contains: wanderer x gn!reader, wanderer goes through a breakup with unnamed npc, hurt/comfort, blossoming feelings
warnings: mentions of cheating, scara's insecurities

The sun was slowly setting, tinting the horizon in comforting and warm colors. But today, there was a hint of sadness to the end of this day and right now, to Wanderer at least, the hues of red and orange slowly turning to blues and blacks mirrored the way a time of happiness and joy was washed away with the tides of the ocean. The waves crashed against the bow of the ship as it swayed with the way of the water; staying in control of the captain despite the untamed strength of the sea. It was a comforting sound; as if the shores of his former homeland were speaking to him, telling him: āDonāt grieve whatās lost. This too will pass.ā
A music box was playing a slow song behind him. He mused one of the sailors must have put it there because they liked the tune. He glanced at the small apparatus, letting out a bitter laugh when he saw the frail ballerina figurine on top of it. What cruel irony life threw his way over and over again.
He looked out onto the docks as the ship set sail; beginning its journey to Port Ormos. Back to the comfort of his new home, back to Nahida whoād sure have some wise words to try and soothe him. Words that would be ultimately met with silence as they wouldnāt reach his non-existent heart in light of the events that had transpired. He heard the sound of the seagulls above the beach and closed his eyes, listening to the workings of the water; imagining how itād sway him gently to a place where nothing and no one could hurt him.
He never expected himself to fall in love. And especially not in the span of a couple of months. But the one he loved had been like a hurricane of flowers; filling his hair with beautiful cherry blossoms to distract him from the destructive storm that was on the horizon. His lover had been kind; at first. Kind and joyful. Like theyād wash away his sorrows as they danced among the crowd, dragging him into the masses and encouraging him to dance along. The flowery words and the colorful metaphors had blinded him to how shallow humanity was and always would be. How heād have to expect disappointment before all else.
They had taken his hands into theirs and promised him theyād stay. That they never met anyone quite like him. He remembered the sound of their laughter as it filled the air of spring; a time that was meant for new beginnings. He really thought this was the start of something good. āYouāre adorableā, they had chuckled before kissing his cheek and he had blushed, clutching the flowers they gave him in his hands. They had taken him to their favorite places on Narukami Island and he had followed with a smile on his face; pretending like he hadnāt seen them all before. Still, during those carefree days they had seemed much brighter than before.Ā
He remembered how he had sat with them under a big tree, watching the birds fly freely and the clouds pass by as if nothing ever mattered but what was there in the current moment. The one he loved had been like a gentle melody soothing the pain that still lingered in his mind and making him appreciate the peace and life around him. They had brought some goods they baked for him and told him theyāre almost as sweet as him. They had told him they loved him. But sometimes people wereĀ privy to love only for as long as their lover had an ideal of them in their head that they were unwilling to let go of. A fairytale dream that made the Wanderer recoil; knowing it was never truly him they loved. It was an idea of him that was shaped by their mind to fit the desires of their heart; something heād probably never truly comprehend.
And then he told them what he was. It shouldnāt matter. āIt wonātā, the Traveler and you had reassured him. So he took a fearful step towards the unknown. At first it really didnāt matter. Humans were desperate to hold onto their dreams of perfection, after all. Most would find that without their delusions; life would be hardly the happy place theyād convinced themselves of. His former lover had told him that no matter whether he was a puppet or a human; theyād still love him all the same. For he could love too, after all. But sometimes what one loves in others is not the person themselves but what they can provide for their lives. Enrichment, support, fun. And sometimes it was that and that only.
That was what he had realised when he caught them showing their affections to someone else. In that moment, it seemed as if their whole demeanor had shifted. The aura of innocence and gentleness had long since faded and he had come to realize that they were not a rare treasure that existed outside of all the things that had hurt him; they were entangled in that same net of human faults and selfishness as all the other obstacles he had faced throughout his life. As all of them ever would, he thought; his pessimism clouding his mind once more.
āIām sorry!ā, they had called out to him with tears in their eyes, āI was going to talk with you about this, but I didnāt know how!ā What are you crying for?, he had wondered. As they went on and on about how they never wanted to break his heart but they didnāt fully understand what it would be like to date a puppet; what it lacked; he grew colder by the minute. What did he lack? Wasnāt this what Nahida and the Traveler had attempted to convince him of? That there was no reason to not call himself a human? That he could have the same experiences as one regardless; love the same and be loved in return. He had fallen in love; with courage and hope in his veins; but the lightning had struck him nonetheless. He remembered the words theyād told him before he left: āI really care about you. And I still treasure you as a friend. But I need someone whoā¦ā
They never finished that sentence but Wanderer knew exactly what they were going to say. Someone who is human. I get it.Ā
If the world was always going to reject his existence, maybe he should go back to rejecting the world in turn. Let the bitterness in his heart numb the pain. Let the anger wash away the sorrows and let the pride clouding his head blow down all that others had built in his life. Youāre bigger than this nowā¦, he reminded himself, knowing no anger or hatred would ever make his sorrow disappear. Only time and purpose and love could.Ā
āHeyā, you began quietly. He hadnāt even noticed you were there; standing next to him now and observing the waves, same as he did. After what had happened, he didnāt feel like spending another day in Inazuma. The Traveler still had some unfinished business here and Wanderer was ready to leave on his own when you had convinced him to follow him back to Sumeru. You never said it but he could see in your eyes how you believed he needed a shoulder to lean on right now. And if he was really, truly honest with himselfā¦.then maybe he did.
āI got you one of those little mocktails they sell next to the captainās boothā, you handed him the drink that had been poured into an empty ajilenakh nut, āI made sure they didnāt put any dango in it.ā He thanked you and drank a bit of it. It wasnāt as bad as he had expected it to, even though it was a little bit sweeter than what heād normally drink.Ā
For a while, the two of you remained quiet. The constant sound of the ocean was enough to not make it awkward. āIām sorryā, you then said quietly, āyou didnāt deserve this to happen to you.ā āI knowā, he replied and closed his eyes, clutching his anemo vision for support over his chest where his heart should be, ābut it keeps happening anyway.āĀ
At least for now he wasnāt completely alone. He had Nahida, the Traveler and you. Even Paimon. You were his friends. For how long will they remain your friends, though?, that bitter voice in his head spoke once more. But over the past year, he had grown more familiar and comfortable with you and he had listened to your stories about the life you led and the people youāve met throughout it. It had made him realize that while his feelings of estrangement as a puppet were unique ones; ones no one in this world might as well fully be able to comprehend; there were many humans out there who had struggled with loneliness and abandonment and it had left them as scarred as he had been.Ā
āSuch is the way of mankindā, you insisted, holding your hand out into the wind as if you could touch it. Little did he know you had grown to love the wind a little more ever since he received his vision, because it reminded you of him. He didnāt know that you had fallen for him long since, watching him fall in love with another and drift further away from you. And now he was hurting because of it. And in a way, that made you even more sad but just as determined to ease his mind and soothe the pain in his heart; one which may not be inside him but which you were nonetheless sure he had.Ā
āSome of us seem to find our place in this world as easily as it is to breatheā, you began, looking at him with a gentle expression, ābut Iāve found many of those never reach true happiness. They just settle. But for a lot of us thatās never enough. We get swept away by the waves of conflict and abandonment; relentlessly clawing our way up the next cliff and hoping that this time no one will push us off.ā He didnāt dare look at you for a while when you placed your hand on top of his but he had to admit he found comfort in the subtle touch. Maybe he was just clinging onto a hint of affection after having been abandoned; desperate to feel cared for; but in this moment that didnāt matter to him.
āIsnāt that a little pathetic?ā, he mocked your words with a bitter voice. āIt is, trulyā, you nodded your head, āwe err for as long as we live. But itās the only way we ever reach our happiness. Itās in our nature to, even in the face of all obstacles, have at least a little bit of hope in us. We all do. Even the ones who claim to have none. And one day that hope may be rewarded. Iāve seen it happen time and time again. It can happen to you. I think thatās worth being a little bit pathetic for.ā You chuckled and he thought about your words.
āThey looked so happyā, he then said after a while, remembering when he had met his former lover once again with their new partner as they were taking a stroll near the port. He remembered how heād heard them giggle and tease each other. How theyād referred to jokes he didnāt understand and call each other nicknames that made him cringe. The familiar feeling of shock and disbelief was spreading in his body again and he looked at his shaking fingers. āDo you think theyāre happier without me?ā, he asked quietly.
āProbablyā, you shrugged calmly and he let out a laugh at the absurdity of the situation. Hadnāt you come here in a silly attempt to cheer him up?
āBut what matters is not the people we have our best times with, but the ones who stay with us through our worst. Because then we know that when we share happiness with them; one day weāll be able to look back at those memories and feel satisfied. Whatās the point of having the most fun of your life, if who you shared it with will be gone in a year or two because they moved on to the next thrill? What will be left of it but emptiness? Whatās the point, but to learn whatās truly of value in this life?ā, you gave him an encouraging smile and squeezed his hand, āI know you would have given them all that and been there for them when they needed it most. If they werenāt able to see that, thatās their loss.ā
The Wanderer noticed how the Inazuman islands had now disappeared completely from view and he felt a breeze of wind blow through his hair as his tears poured down his cheeks and his facade of bitterness cracked as he allowed himself to say the words that had been stuck on his tongue for all this time. āIām hardly a lossā, he croaked out with a shaky voice before he started sobbing.
You remained silent, instantly pulling him into your embrace and letting him cry into your shoulder. He clutched the fabric on your back with his fists as you put a hand on the back of his head and gently ran it through his soft hair.Ā
āThatās not trueā, you whispered, not wanting to overwhelm him with new information but also wishing he knew just how much he meant to you. That you wanted to stay by his side and love him the way he deserved, come what may. For now, you chose to try and convey that with your loving embrace, holding him for as long as he needed you to.Ā
āYouāre a wonderful person and Iām glad to be your friendā, you whispered, tightening your hold on him, āyou have as much the potential as anyone to make someone else happy and to be happy yourself. It may be hard to believe right now, but I promise you, you just have to hold on a little bit longer.ā Many had told him that. But there was a sincerity in your voice and in the way you hugged him that he couldn't help but feel like there was more to it than just empty promises. Were you perhaps talking about yourself?Ā
What a silly thought, he brushed it off but it still gave him that familiar spark of hope. When he had been abandoned once again, he asked himself if anyone would ever truly love him. And maybe, the answer to that question would be you. Right now, he could hardly say youād be in love with each other one day. But there was something. Like a sprout growing in the harshest desert. And something inside him couldnāt wait to see what it would become if he only had a little courage.
So he hugged you back gently, resting his head on your shoulder and smiling for the first time in days. This didnāt go unnoticed by you. āAre you feeling a little better?ā, you wrapped an arm around his shoulder as you watched the sun set and stars appear in the sky. āYeahā, he admitted, switching sides on the ship and looking in the direction of Sumeru, āand maybe I can afford to be a little pathetic.ā āOh trust me, you already did thatā, you teased him and winked at him, āremember that time you called yourself the āEverlasting Lord of Arcane Wisdomā? That was pretty embarrassing.ā He cringed at your words but it brought out a laugh through the tears. āDonāt remind me.ā
You looked peacefully at the horizon, taking his hand in yours again to indicate youād stay here to support him. āRelentlessness is one of the most defining traits of humanityā, you said with a gentle smile, āto persevere even in the face of adversity. To thrive in even the harshest environments and succeed despite the failures of the past and against the expectations of others. To suffer and lose, and to love, despite.ā

notes: i listened to the sad fairy tail ost while writing this sbdbsndjsjdjs. i've had this idea for a while but the motivation to write it just hit me over the head today. hope you liked it. ā¤ļø
#genshin impact#scaramouche x reader#wanderer x reader#wanderer x you#kunikuzushi x reader#kabukimono#scaramouche#genshin impact x reader#genshin x reader
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Just a ramble about aesthetics and things
Like most of us, I also saw that aesthetics question going round and since reading it and the responses to it, I've been thinking about it more than I should, which in turn got me thinking about other things Simblr and community related and I decided to share my two cents about it as well.
The question stated in the poll was "How important do you think 'aesthetic quality' is in the simblr community?" and the answers varied immensely. Doing a quick Tumblr/Simblr scroll, the answer would have to be 'very important', because most images showing up are very gorgeous: beautiful colours, great compositions, perfect lighting. However, when I check the tab that shows which posts I have liked, the pattern changes: it's the storytellers who get most of my Tumblr hearts. And then it doesn't matter whether it's part of an elaborate story that's been going on for years with several plot twists, or just a family having breakfast. I like both equally, because both tell a story. Sure, I like a nice Sim picture as much as the next person, but for me, it will always be about the story it tells much more than the aesthetics of it.
The same is true for my own posts: I just want to tell my stories, share my Sims, my town. Yes, I sometimes post picture posts of lots I've built. At first glance, you could say that's about aesthetics more than storytelling. But it's not. Because of the way I play, everything is connected: the story is Honeycomb Valley and everything from the lots to the Sims to the seemingly random things that happen to them are all part of it. Sure, I love creating beautiful lots, but that's mostly because I like realism in my game. I like to see my sims in places that look true to life. And because this is a self-created world, it can look like the best version of that life. š
In taking pictures, I try to get the best angle and before posting I run my pictures through Picmonkey to do a bit of basic editing, which is mostly just an auto adjust of brightness and shadows. Literally two clicks and I'm done. I hadn't even heard of Reshade and all those other -shades until a month or two ago. š
I read another reply saying how everyone who has a Simblr does so for the notes, because if you're not in it for the notes, why have a Simblr in the first place? This made me laugh. I get the point, but if I was in it for the notes, I might as well leave today. I averaged around 20 notes per post during my glory days and only around 9 since returning after my hiatus. I can think of many reasons why this is:
My posts can seem very incoherent: I can be posting about James Wyler one day and about Luke Bennett the next. These two have never even crossed paths and their stories have no apparent connection whatsoever. I can imagine how this makes my stories and my Sims hard to follow for most.
I donāt post my full stories on here. Reading them requires a visit to my WordPress blog. I understand how most people just want to do a quick scroll, read, like, and move on.
I am and will forever be TS3 player. And we're simply a smaller crowd in the Simblr universe currently.
I was gone for five years.
Now, I could change all of this (except for that last one) and possibly get more followers and more notes. But I don't want to. Yes, of course, I love getting a notification saying someone liked my post. I appreciate the support and the love and it makes me very happy to see there are people out there who like the stories I write, the lots I build and feel connected to my Sims to some degree. So in that sense, I get why someone would say we're all in it for the notes. But I don't care about the quantity. I love those 9 just as much as I love the 195 I once received on my much-reblogged post of The Greenery.
So, I'm not changing a thing. I'm keeping my WordPress blog as my main Sims home because that's where everything connects. Where it does make sense that I'm posting about James on day 1 and about Luke on day 2. Where the story is Honeycomb Valley. Where you can click from a story to a Sim profile and vice versa. And my Simblr will remain a place to just post bits and pieces (and rambles like this) and to stay connected to the ones who are interested in me, my stories and my Sims. I love my 9 notes and I love the 3 people who click on to visit my WordPress blog and read my full stories a little bit extra. šā¤ļø
One last thing I would like to add to this already much too-long rant is how much I miss the old Sim community. The days of the forums and the tight-knit online group us Sims veterans were. Discovering and becoming a part of the Sim community back then has meant a lot to me. I miss that. I realise I sound like a grandmother now, reminiscing about the good old days, so maybe it's time to end this post. š
Anyway, that's my ramble of thoughts on aesthetics, Simblrs and community. Thanks for reading. š
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RWBY Recaps: Volume 8 āDarkā

Welcome back, everyone! Can you believe it's been six weeks already? I can't. Something something the uncomfortable passage of time during a pandemic as emphasized by a web-series.
But we're here to talk about RWBY the fictional story, not RWBY the cultural icon. At least, we will in a moment. First, I'd like to acknowledge that shaky line between the two, growing blurrier with every volume. A sort of good news, bad news situation.
The bad news ā to get that out of the way ā is that we cannot easily separate RWBY from its authors and those authors have, sadly, been drawing a lot of negative attention as of late. This isn't anything new, not at all, but I think the unexpectedly long hiatus gave a lot of fans (myself included) the chance to think about Rooster Teeth's failings without getting distracted by their biggest and brightest production. There's a laundry list of problems here ā everything from the behavior of voice actors to the quality of their merch ā but as a sort of summary issue, I'd like to highlight the reviews that continue to pop up on websites like Glassdoor, detailing the toxic, sexist, crunch-obsessed environment that RT employees are forced to work in. A lot of these websites requires a login to read more than a page of reviews, but you can check out a Twitter thread about it here.Ā
Now, I want to be clear: I'm not bringing this up as a way to shame anyone enjoying RWBY. This isn't a simplistic claim of, "The authors are Problematic⢠and therefore you can't like the stuff they produce." Nor is this meant to be a catch-all excuse for RWBY's problems. If it were, I'd have dropped these recaps years ago. I'm of the belief that audiences maintain the right to both praise and criticize the work they're given, regardless of the context in which that work was produced. At the end of the day, RT has presented RWBY as a finished product and, more than that, presents it as an excellent product, one worth both our emotional investment and our money (whether in the form of paying for a First account, or encouraging us to buy merch, attend cons, etc.) I'll continue to critique RWBY as needed, but I a) wanted fans to be at least peripherally aware of these issues and b) clarify that my use of "RT" in statements like, "I can't believe RT is screwing up this badly" is meant to be a broad, nebulas acknowledgement that someone in the company is screwing up, either creatively (doesn't have the skill to write a good scene) or morally (hasn't created an environment in which other creators are capable of crafting a good scene). The real, inner workings of such companies are mostly a secret to their audiences and thus it's near impossible for someone like me ā random fan writing these for fun as a casual side hobby ā to accurately point fingers. Hence, broad "RT." I just wanted to clarify that when I use this it's as a necessary placeholder for whoever is actually responsible, not a damnation of the overworked animator breaking down in a bathroom. Heavy stuff, but I thought it was necessary (or at least worthwhile) to acknowledge this issue as we head into the second half of the volume.
Now for the good news: RWBY has reached 100 episodes! For any who may not know, 100 is a pretty significant number in the TV world because, when talking about prime time programming, it guarantees syndicated reruns. Basically, networks don't want audiences to get burned out with a show ā changing the channel when it comes on because ugh, I've seen this already, recently too ā and 100 episodes allows for a roughly five month run without any repeats, making it very profitable. RWBY is obviously not a television show and doesn't benefit from any of this (hell, modern television doesn't benefit from this as much as it used to, not in the age of streaming), but the 100 episode threshold is still ingrained in American culture. Beyond just being a nice, rounded number, it is historically a measure of huge success and I can't imagine that RT isn't aware of that. Regardless of what we think of RWBY's current quality, this is one hell of a milestone and should be applauded.
All that being said... RWBY's quality is definitely still lacking lol.
Our 100th episode is titled "Dark" ā keeping with the one word titles, then ā and I'd like to emphasize that, as a 100th episode, it definitely delivers in terms of plot. There's plenty of action, important character beats, and at least one major reveal, everything we'd expect from a milestone and a Part II premiere. The animation also continues to be noteworthy for its beauty, as I found myself admiring many of the screenshots I took for this recap. There are certainly things to praise. The only problem (one we're all familiar with by now) is that these small successes are situated within a narrative that's otherwise falling apart. It's all good stuff... provided you ignore literally everything else surrounding it.

But let's dive into some examples. We open on Qrow starting, awoken by the thunder outside. Robyn has been watching him and makes a peppy comment about how none of them will be sleeping tonight, followed by a more serious, "Sounds bad out there." Yeah, it does sound bad, especially when they all know ā thanks to Ruby's message back in Volume 7 ā that this is due to Salem's arrival. I think a lot of the fandom has forgotten that little detail because people often discuss Qrow as if he is entirely ignorant of what is going on outside his cell. Even if we were to assume that he's forgotten all about the pesky Salem issue (the horror of Clover's death overriding everything else, perhaps) he still knows that Tyrian is running loose in a heat-less city with a creepy storm going on and, from his perspective, the Very Evil Ironwood is still running the show. So it's bad, which begs the question of why Qrow (and Robyn, for that matter) hasn't displayed an ounce of legitimate worry for everyone he knows out there. Thus far, their interactions have centered entirely around Qrow's misplaced blame and Robyn's terrible attempts to lighten the mood, despite the fact that a war is raging right beyond that wall. It's another example of RWBY's inability to manage tone properly, to say nothing of balancing the multiple concerns any one character should be trying to juggle. Just as it rankles that Ruby and Yang don't seem to care about what has happened to their uncle, Qrow likewise doesn't seem to care about what might be happening to his nieces. When did we reach a point where these relationships are so broken that someone can be arrested/chucked into a deadly battle and the others just... ignore that?
So Robyn's otherwise innocuous comment immediately reminds me of how badly the narrative has treated these conflicts and, sadly, things don't improve much from here. We are thankfully spared more of Robyn's jokes when Qrow realizes that what he's hearing can't be thunder. A second later, Cinder blasts through the wall ā called it! ā and Qrow instinctively transforms.Ā


The only downside to this moment is that the whole ceiling falls down on Qrow and the others because APPARENTLY these cells don't have tops on them. Seriously. As far as I can recall we don't see the stone breaking through the forcefield somehow and this looks pretty open to me.

If it is... you're telling me these crazy powerful fighters who practice landing strategies and leap tall buildings in a single bound ā

ā can't just hop over this mildly high electric fence to get out? Qrow can't just fly away?
We're, like, two minutes in, folks.

We transfer to Nora's perspective as she wakes up, seeing Klein giving her the IV. He tells her not to worry, that "you and your friend are going to be just fine." What friend? Penny? Klein went upstairs prior to Weiss hugging Whitley or Penny crash landing outside. I had thought them bursting through the door with another unconscious friend was the first time he learned what the big bang outside was, but apparently not.

Penny is, obviously, a mess. While I now understand the choice to make her blood such an eye-catching color when that's crucial to the Hound's hunt, I still think it looks strange visually. Like someone has taken a copy of RWBY and painted over it. It doesn't look like it fits the art style. More than that, it implies some rather complicated things about Penny's humanity, especially in a volume focused around her being a "real girl." Real enough for Maiden powers, but with obviously inhuman blood that isn't even referred to as "bleeding." Penny "leaks" instead.
Toss in the fact that she's literally an android who is made up of tech ā recall the running gags about her being heavy, or it hurts to fist-bump her, to say nothing of keeping things like multiple blades inside her body ā yet Klein says that her "basic anatomy" is the same and he can "stitch up that wound."
I'm sorry, what? Whatever Penny looks like on the inside, it's not going to resemble a human woman's anatomy, and Klein might be able to stitch the outer layer of skin she's got, but that won't do anything to fix whatever metal bits have been broken underneath. Penny isn't a human-robot hybrid, she's a robot with an aura. Penny has knives in her back, rockets in her feet, and a super computer behind her eyes. When our clip introduced that Klein would be the one to help Penny, my initial reaction was, "Seriously? He's a butler and a doctor and an engineer?" But RWBY didn't even try to get away with a Super Klein explanation, they just waved away Penny's very obvious, inhuman anatomy. Yeah, I'm sure "stitching up" an android wound is just like giving Nora her IV. I hope the surgical sutures he used are extra strong!
In an effort to not entirely drag this episode, I do appreciate that Whitley is allowed an "ugh" moment about the non-blood covering his shirt without anyone calling him out on it. That felt like the sort of thing the show would usually try to make a character feel guilty about and I'm glad that, for once, he was just allowed to be frustrated without comment.

Then the power goes out and May calls, which raises questions about what state the CCTS is in and when scrolls are available to our protagonists vs. when they're not. But whatever. She's checking in because she just "saw another bombing run light up the Kingdom" and ā
Wait. Bombing? Salem is bombing the city? I know we've seen explosions in the sky, but I'd always just attributed that to evil aesthetic. Why does this dialogue sound like it's from a World War II film and not a fantasy sci-fi show about literal monsters launching a ground attack?
May looks pretty against the sky though. I like her hair color against that purple.

I'm admittedly grasping at positives here because we finally return to her "You have to choose" ultimatum and ā surprise! ā May has pulled back completely. Ruby says that once they've helped Penny, "We'll...we'll do something!" which is once again her avoiding making a decision. Ruby still refuses to choose, instead falling back on generic, optimistic pep talks. They'll figure out how to stop Salem later. They'll think about the impact of telling the world later. They'll choose who to help later. Ruby keeps pushing these problems into the future where, she hopes, a perfect, magical solution will have appeared for her to latch onto. When that continues to not happen, others pressuring her to actually do something and stop waiting for perfection ā Ironwood, Yang, May ā she panics and continues stalling for time. Wait an episode and the narrative supports her in this.
Because initially May was forcing Ruby to decide. Now, May enables her desire to keep putting things off. "Don't beat yourself up, kid. At this point, I don't know how much is left to be done." That's the exact opposite of what May believed last episode, that there was still so much work and good to do for the people of Mantle. This is precisely what the show did with Yang and Ren's scenes too, having people call Ruby out... but then return to a message of, 'Don't worry, you're actually doing just fine' before Ruby is forced to actually change.
None of which even touches on May calling her "kid" in this moment. That continues to be a convenient way of absolving Ruby of any responsibility. When she wants to steal airships or Amity Tower, she's an adult everyone should listen to, the leader of this war. When the story wants to absolve her of previously mentioned flaws, she becomes a kid who shouldn't "beat herself up." I said years ago that RWBY couldn't continue to let the group be both children and adults simultaneously, yet here we are.
So that was a thoroughly disappointing scene. Ruby gets her moment to look sad and defeated, listing "the grimm, the crater, Nora, Penny" as problems she doesn't know how to solve. Note that 'Immortal witch attacking the city I've helped trap here' isn't included in that list. Ruby is still ignoring Salem herself and no one in the group is picking up where May left off, challenging her to do more than wring her hands over things others are already trying to take care of: Ironwood is fighting the grimm, May has gone off to help the crater, Klein is patching up Nora and Penny. Ruby, as one flawed individual, should not be expected to come up with a solution to everything, but she does need to stop acting like she can come up with a solution to everything when it matters most (office scene) and rejecting others' solutions when they ask for her help (Ironwood, May).
If it feels like I'm dragging the flawed, traumatized teenager too much, it's not in an effort to ignore those aspects of her identity. Rather, it's because she's also the licensed huntress who wrested control from a world leader and violently demanded she be put in charge of this battle. Ruby, by her own actions, is now responsible for dealing with these problems, or admitting she was wrong and letting others take the lead, without purposefully derailing their plans. She doesn't get to suddenly go, "I don't know," cry a little, and get sympathetic pats.
But of course that's precisely what happens, courtesy of Weiss.

During this whole scene I kept wondering why no one was celebrating Nora waking up, especially when Ruby outright mentions her. Have they just not noticed given all the Penny drama? Because Nora absolutely woke up.

Aaaand went back to sleep, I guess. What was the point of that POV shot? No worries though, she'll wake up again in a minute.

Willow arrives and announces that they can fix the power (and Penny) using the generator at the edge of the property. I'm convinced RT doesn't actually know what a generator is because the characters are acting like it's some super special device that only richy-rich could possibly have. Whitley says that it's the SDC executives who have their "own power supply" and that it's "extremely unfair." Now, don't get me wrong, a good generator powering large portions of your house can run you 30k+, but you can also get one that plugs into your extension cord and powers your fridge for a couple hundred. There's absolutely a class issue here, just not the one Whitley and Weiss seem to be commenting on. They make a generator sound like the sort of device that only a politician-CEO could possible have and it's weird.
Likely, it sounds weird because it's a choppy way of getting Whitley to bring up the wealth disparity so he can then go, 'That's right! We're crazy rich with a company housing tons of ships! We can use those to evacuate Mantle.' Awkwardness aside, I do like that the Schnee wealth is being used for good purposes, but... evacuate where? To the city currently under attack by a giant whale? In a RWBY that wasn't determined to demonize Ironwood, this would have been a great plot point during the office scene instead, with Weiss offering her services to Ironwood, even if the group decides that a continued evacuation still isn't possible.
Instead, we get it here from Whitley. Do I need to point out the obvious? That Whitley is the MVP of this episode? He's done more good in an HOUR than the group has managed in a year. Give this kid some training and make him a huntsmen instead.

We're given a (very pretty!) shot of the shattered moon because it wouldn't be RWBY if we weren't continually reminded that gods once wiped out humanity before destroying part of a celestial body... and absolutely no one talks about that lol.

Blake's coat might not make any sense for her color scheme, but it does make her easy to spot as she and Ruby run across the grounds. Oh my god, they're actually doing something together! It only took eight years. They even get a lovely talk where Blake admits how much she looks up to Ruby, despite her being younger, and once again I'm struck at how much more I would have loved this scene if it had appeared elsewhere in the series. It is, indeed, as sweet and emotional as all the RWBY GIF-ers are claiming... provided you overlook that this is the exact opposite of what Ruby needs to hear right now. She doesn't need to hear that she's more mature and reliable than her elders when she's functioning under a "We don't need adults" mentality. She doesn't need to hear that not knowing what to do is totally fine, not when that led to her turning on Ironwood, despite not knowing how to stop Salem. She doesn't need to hear that "doing something" ā doing anything ā is a strength, because Ruby keeps avoiding the big problems for smaller ones she's comfortable with, like standing by Penny's bedside instead of deciding between Mantle and Atlas. Blake's speech is heartfelt, but it's a speech that suits a Beacon days Ruby who is having some doubts about her leadership skills, not the girl whose impulsive ā and now lack of ā actions is having world-wide repercussions. Everyone is babying Ruby to a staggering degree. It's like if we had a med show where the doctor is standing by the bedside of a coding patient, fretting between two treatments. 'Don't worry,' their colleague says, patting their shoulder. 'I've always looked up to you. You'll do something when you're ready' and then they continue to watch the patient, you know, die.

Also: who does Ruby look up to? Everyone talks about how much they depend on and trust Ruby, but who does Ruby look to for guidance? A number of her problems stem from the fact that she has rejected the advice of everyone who has tried to help her improve: Qrow, Ozpin, Ironwood, even Yang. Ruby is presented as the pinnacle of what to strive for in a leader, rather than a leader who has only been doing this for two years and still has a great deal to learn.
Anyway, they get the generator on and the Hound shows up.


I am begging RT to just make RWBY a horror story. All their best scenes the last three years have been horror I am bEGGING ā

Anyway, while Ruby waits to be eaten we cut to Willow and Klein, the former of which is reaching for her bottle, pulling back, reaching again, all while her hand shakes. This is good. This is what we should have gotten with Qrow. Which isn't to say that their (or anyone's) addiction should be identical, but rather that this is a far more engaging and complex look at addiction than what our birb got. Willow tells us that she doesn't drink in the dark despite bringing the bottle with her; tries to resist drinking when she's scared and ultimately fails. Qrow just decided to stop drinking after decades of addiction, seemingly for no reason, and that was that. Why is a side character we only met this volume written better than one of the main cast?

Blake manages to call Weiss about the Hound and she asks if Whitley can handle the airships without her. I mean, I assume so given that Weiss is looking at the bookshelves while Whitley does all the work lol. He makes a teasing comment about how he can if she can handle that grimm and she comments that they still need to work on his "attitude."
No they don't. Weiss stuck a weapon in her kid brother's face. Whitley made a joke. Even if Weiss' comment is likewise meant to be read as teasing, it's clear that we've bypassed any meaningful conversation between them. That hug was supposed to be a Fix Everything moment even though, as I've laid out elsewhere, it didn't even come close.

We cut back to Ruby getting thrown through a wall into the backyard and the Hound creepily coming after her. She's freaked out by this clearly abnormal grimm and Blake is weirdly... not? "It's just a grimm. Just focus!" Uh, it's obviously not. Have we reached the traumatized, sleep-deprived point where the group is sinking into full-blown denial? I wouldn't be surprised. They've been awake for like... 40+ hours.
Because the Hound knocks Ruby out with a single hit. Just, bam, she's down. "Focusing" is not the solution here.


Weiss calls to warn the others about the grimm, telling them to stick together. Willow (understandably) starts freaking out and flees the room (classic horror trope!). Klein is left alone when Penny wakes up with red eyes. Oh no!

Don't worry. You know nothing meaningful happens.

She shoves Klein before (somehow?) resisting the hack, her Maiden powers going wild in the process. Just when it looks as if Penny might cause some serious damage, Nora wakes up, takes her hand, and says, I kid you not:
"Hey... no one is going to make you do anything you don't want to do... It's just a part of you. Don't forget about the rest."
Okay. I want to re-emphasize that I love hopeful, uplifting, victory-won-through-the-power-of-love stories. Istg I'm not dead inside, it's just that RWBY does this so badly. I mean, what is this? It has similarities to the character shouting, 'No! Resist!' to their mind-controlled ally, but this is not presented as a desperate, last-ditch effort by Nora. She just speaks like this is the most obvious truth in the world. If you don't want to have your mind taken over... just don't! It's that simple. The problem definitely isn't that Watts has changed her coding and has implemented a command she can't override, it's that Penny has forgotten about the "rest" of her personhood.

And this works. Granted, not for long, but we leave Nora having successfully calmed Penny down and until her eyes unexpectedly go red again scenes later, we're left assuming that this is a permanent solution. That, imo anyway, is taking the Power of Love too far, overriding the basic reality of Penny being hacked. Itās not a personal failing she must overcome, itās an external attack. I would have rather had Nora react to the scars she saw on her arm, or have a moment with Klein, or get some love from the group. Not a wakes up, falls asleep, wakes up again to save Penny with a Ruby level 'Just ignore reality' pep-talk, then back to sleep again.

So Penny isn't attacking her allies, or mistakenly hurting her allies with wild Maiden powers. Not that the group doesn't have enough to deal with, but still. Weiss arrives to help with the Hound and attempts a new summon, only to fail when two minor grimm burrow up into her glyphs. I really enjoyed that moment, both for the wing visual and the knowledge that Weiss' glyphs can fail if you break them somehow (which makes sense). Also, I just like that she failed in general? Weiss is, as per usual now, about to demonstrate just how OP she is compared to the rest of the team, so it was nice to see her faltering here.


The Hound tries to make off with Ruby and Blake does an excellent job of keeping it tethered. Ruby finally wakes, only to realize that the grimm is actually after Penny since it's staring at her power up through the window, no longer trying to escape. Moments like this remind me that there's someone on RT's writing team that knows what they're doing, at least some of the time. The assumption that the Hound is after Ruby as a SEW, the surprise that it's actually Penny, realizing it holds up because Ruby is covered in Penny's blood and Blake is not... that's all nice, tight plotting. More of that please!

The Hound drops her and Ruby's aura shatters when she hits the ground. I want everyone to remember this moment as an example of how strong the Hound is. The group may be tired, but unlike YJR they've been sitting around in the Schnee manor for a number of hours, regaining strength. We saw the Hound hit Ruby twice ā once through the wall and once to knock her out ā and then she falls from a not very high distance for a huntress, yet her aura is toast. That's the level of power and skill the Hound possesses. Decimating YJR, knocking Oscar out, same for Ruby, avoiding Blake and Weiss' hits, soon to treat Penny like a ragdoll. Just remember all this for the episode's end.
Blake tells Weiss she'll take care of Ruby, you go help the others. Yay breaking up the duos more! Bad timing though as the new acid-spitting grimm pops out of the ground and Blake is now left alone to face it.

Weiss re-enters the mansion, knowing the Hound is somewhere nearby, but not where. Suddenly, Willow's voice sounds through her scroll with an, "Above you!" which... doesn't keep Weiss from getting hit lol. But it's the thought that counts! Willow has accessed the cameras she's set up throughout the manor, watching the Hound's movements, and I have to say, that is a WAY better use of her separation from Klein than I thought we were getting. I legit thought they'd have Willow run away in a panic, meet the Hound, die, and then Weiss could be sad about losing her mom.
It does say something about RWBY's writing that this was my knee-jerk theory, as well as my surprise when we got something way better.

The Hound runs off, uninterested in Weiss, and she asks Willow to keep tabs on it. It heads for Whitley next (also covered in Penny's blood) and very creepily stalks him in the office with a, "I know you're here." Whitley is seconds away from being Hound chow before one of Weiss' boars pin it against the wall. He runs, then runs BACK to finish deploying the airships, before finally escaping assumed death. Goddamn this boy is pulling his weight.

I assume all these ships are automated then? I hope someone takes a moment to call May. Otherwise it's going to be super weird for the Mantle citizens if a fleet of SDC ships just show up and hover there...

I don't entirely understand how Weiss saved him though. She's nowhere to be seen when Whitley leaves and he runs a fair distance before he and Willow encounter Weiss again. We know her summons don't have to keep right next to her, but are they capable of rudimentary thought, attacking an enemy ā and an enemy only ā despite Weiss being a couple corridors down and unable to see the current battlefield? I don't know. In another series I'd theorize that this was a deliberate hint, a way to clue us into the fact that Willow, someone who we currently know almost nothing about, had training in the past and summoned the boar herself. Weiss and Winter certainly didn't get that hereditary skill from Jacques. Hell, we might still get that, Weiss reacting with confusion next episode when Whitley thanks her for the boar, but I doubt it. That scene with Ruby and the Hound aside, the show isn't this good at laying groundwork and then following up on it.
Case in point: Weiss says, "I didn't forget you" to Whitley after he gets away from the Hound, the moment trying to harken back to her promise to Willow. Key word is "trying." Because she absolutely forgot him! Weiss threatened and ignored Whitley until he proved his usefulness. I also shouldn't need to point out that, "Don't forget your brother" does not mean, "Don't let your brother die a horrible death by abnormal grimm." Weiss acts like her saving him is a fulfillment of her promise, rather than just the most basic of human decency. And also, you know, her job.
So that part is frustrating. The entire Schnee dynamic is a mess, from Weiss making a joke of her father's arrest, to Willow (presumably) fixing their relationship by putting a hand on her daughter's shoulder. Okay.
Then Weiss cuts off the Hound by summoning a giant wall of ice. My brain, every time this happens:
YOU COULD HAVE FIXED THE HOLE IN MANTLE'S WALL.

Moving on, Blake's fight against the acid... thing has some great choreography, including Blake using her semblance which we haven't seen in AGES.Ā

I really like the fight itself, just not what Blake is shouting the whole time. "I need you, Ruby! We all need you!" This has really gotten ridiculous. Ruby is presented as everyone's sole savior despite failing time and time again. It's not that I don't think Blake as a character should have faith in her leader, it's that I don't think the writers should be crafting a story where everyone puts their unshakable hopes in an untrained, disloyal, impulsive 17 year old. I mean, Ruby is currently unconscious, yet Blake is acting like if she doesn't wake up ā she, as an individual, if Ruby Rose does not re-join this fight ā then all is lost. If Ruby doesn't save them, no one can. Which is, of course, absurd on numerous levels. Blake doesn't need the passed out, aura-less Ruby right now, she needs the still very healthy Weiss pulling out multiple summons and an ice wall! Use your scroll and call for backup again.


But of course, Ruby wakes up and kills the new, terrifying grimm with a single hit. It's a preview of what's to come with the Hound and it's just as ridiculous here as it will be there.
Speaking of the Hound, am I the only one who thought this was... cute?

I can't possibly be the only one. That head-tilt is exactly what my dogs do and my brain instinctively went, "Aww, puppy!"
Murderous puppy.
The Hound realizes none of the Schnees are who it's looking for and runs off. Penny, meanwhile, has been fully taken over because, well, that's just what's convenient now. She resists long enough keep Amity up, then succumbs, then resists to apologize to Ruby, then succumbs, then resists because Nora asked her to, then succumbs once it's time to knock her out. If RWBY was willing to commit to consequences, Penny would have been taken over and that was that. The characters would need to deal with whatever outcome happens as a result. Instead, the show very carefully avoids any of those pesky consequences by having Penny successfully resisting at key moments, despite no explanation of how she's managing that.

She shoves Klein again (Klein is having a Bad Time) and starts walking down the main steps. When Whitley wants to know where the hell she's going, Penny mechanically responds that she must "Open the vault, then self-destruct." I suppose the change Watts made was the self-destruct order? Ironwood obviously wants the vault open, though not necessarily Penny's death. Think what you will of his moral compass, she's a damn powerful ally ā a research project, perhaps ā and a Maiden to boot. At the very least, her death may give the powers to someone even worse.
God, please don't let them have brought Penny back and made her a Maiden just to kill her again.


The Hound arrives though and, as said, knocks Penny out. We're back to square one with her, then. Note though that this attack is near instantaneous. She grabs its hands one second, is hanging limply the next. Wow, the Hound sure is a terrifying antagonist!
Not for long.
"That's enough," Ruby says and one-shots it with her eyes.

Now, I want to talk for a moment about the implications of that line. "That's enough." Obviously Ruby is #done with this situation and emotionally unwilling to let the Hound kidnap Penny (congratulations, Nuts and Dolts shippers), but there's a meta reading here as well. Not intentional, but glaring to me nonetheless. Basically, the idea that the Hound has, from a plot perspective, done enough. It has served its singular purpose. It kidnapped Oscar and now it dies. Never-mind how insanely powerful we've established the Hound to be, never-mind how Ruby's eyes also work or don't work according to whether anything of actual import is on the line. From a plot perspective "that's enough" and the Hound can be disposed of instantly. It got Oscar and gave us an episode of filler creepiness. Move along now.
The idea behind Ruby's eyes isn't bad, but the execution absolutely is. RT has undermined a huge portion of the stakes by giving their protagonist an instant kill-shot that always works precisely when she needs it to. Starting with the Apathy, we have yet to get a moment where Ruby's eyes fail to save the day when she really needs them to, no matter how incredible the challenge. The Hound was very intentionally written to be a grimm outside of the group's current power level. It thinks, it talks, they literally can't touch it. This creates the expectation that the group will need to grow stronger ā or at least become smarter ā in order to surmount this new obstacle, yet Ruby's eyes undermine all of that. The group hasn't grown in years, the show just makes enemies weaker as needed (Ace Ops), or has Ruby pull out her eyes as a trump card. It wouldn't be that bad if we'd at least gotten a good battle out of it, one where the group gets close to defeating the Hound on their own, but needs Ruby's eyes to finish it off. Instead, she literally walks up without any aura, announces to the audience that this antagonist's time is up, and blasts it out a window.
Granted, Ruby's eyes don't completely finish it. The Hound pulls itself to its feet and we see this.

Yup, that's a guy and yup, those are silver eyes.
I would like to issue a formal apology to the "It's secretly Summer!" theorists in the fandom. I mean, I still think it would be ridiculous (and at this point highly improbable) that Ruby's dead mother has actually been a grimm mutant this whole time, just hanging out in Salem's realm while she waits for the plot to start before attacking the world, and then sends some no-name faunus dude after the group instead of their leader's mother for extra, emotional torture... but you all were definitely right about the āIt's a personā part! I... don't know how I feel about this. Admittedly, it seems to be a logical continuation of the other grimm-human hybrids we've seen ā namely Cinder and Salem herself ā and it finally explains why Salem wants Ruby alive (even though it actually doesn't because WHY did she want more SEWs for Hound grimm when she wasn't even attacking back then? And already has all these other insanely powerful tools??), but at the same time, it feels like it's complicating a story that doesn't need further complications. The group fights monsters and has an immortal enemy. You don't need to add 'Some of those monsters are secretly human' to the mix.
It doesn't hurt that this twist is giving me Attack on Titan vibes, which, ew. A dark time in my fandom life, folks.
The Hound staggers a few steps before Whitley and Willow dump a suit of armor on it. That's all it takes to kill the most dangerous grimm we've ever seen: a single flash of silver eyes and some heavy metal. This also wreaks havoc with the implication that Salem wants SEWs alive because they create such powerful grimm. Obviously not. I mean yeah, normal huntsmen are going to have seriousĀ problems, weāve seen that this volume, but any other SEWs nearby will take a Hound out instantaneously. For a villain with so many other powerful abilities ā immortality, magic, endless normal grimm, her nifty soup ā Salem would be much better served just killing SEWs straight out. Clearly, creating Hounds isn't worth the effort.


The Hound leaves some bones behind and Ruby collapses to her knees, overcome with the knowledge that this was once a person. Again, uncomfortable Attack on Titan parallels.
We finish our premiere with Cinder clearing away rubble to reveal Watts. Honestly, I like that we ended on this because her rescue is hilarious. She just slings him over her shoulders like a sack of potatoes and blasts off with her magic fire feet. Fantastic.


Note though that with this scene we've seen almost everything from the clip and the trailer. What's to come in the rest of Volume 8? No idea. Outside of Winter leading the charge with the bomb, we got it all here.
Time to update the bingo board!

I'm crossing off "Introducing new grimm that are quickly abandoned." Between the Hound and acid-dude both falling to a single blast/cut from Ruby, we've more than earned this square.
It doesn't look as if we'll get another Watts-Jacques team-up now that he's left, but you never know.
Maria's got me worried. I feel like her Yoda fight against Neo is the one thing she'll be allowed to do this volume, but given that we didn't see anyone except Ruby's group this episode, we don't yet know whether the story is now ignoring her and Pietro, or if they'll re-appear in another episode like YJR. Ā
Qrow is free. Will he get a drink before trying to murder Ironwood? Perhaps.
Still no bingo :(
All in all, the episode was by no means horrible. I think there were lots of horrible parts, but also some legitimately well executed moments, fun action, and scenes that I can easily imagine as squee worthy if you lean back and squint. Everything is comparative and in the growing collection of bad RWBY episodes, this one isn't securing a top slot. Which doesn't mean I think it's good, just... not as bad as it could have been and primarily only bad due to long-running problems, not things this specific episode has done. That's my bar then, so low it has officially entered the underworld.
Still, RWBY is back and a part of me is eager to see where this volume takes us, for better or for worse.
Until next week!Ā š
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20 Fic Writer Questions
Finally getting around to this. Thanks for the tags @rasnak2 @theboyfrommakapu @old-and-new-friends
1) How many works do you have on AO3?
37
2) Whatās your total AO3 word count?
798,770. I want to do something when I get to one million, but that might be cry? I dunno, suggestions welcome.
3) How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?
Technically three: Avatar: Legend of Korra; Avatar: The Last Airbender; and Harry Potter. But I only have one ATLA fic and the HP one was a crossover. The vast majority of what I write is LOK.
4) What are your top 5 fics by kudos?
āAWOL,ā my S2 re-write
āGlass,ā my sequel to that
āFirestorm,ā my sequel to that
āSmoke,ā an Equalist Asami fic
āThe Lies We Tell Ourselves,ā a post S1 fix-it where Iroh and Asami become roommates.
Which, now that I see this, I kind of love? Sometimes I feel like thereās a lot of pressure to write shorter, fluffier fics because theyāre āfunā or whatever. And they are fun, donāt get me wrong. Sometimes I need the brain break to write something like "Hotman" or "Mangosami." But itās a nice reminder that over time what readers seem to enjoy the most are what Iād also consider my more āseriousā writing, and that itās okay for me to indulge in long multi-chapter fics even if they donāt deliver quick wins. If someone asked me for five fics of mine to recommend Iād not be at all disappointed with this list.
5) Do you respond to comments, why or why not?
Sometimes? I need to work on this. I love comments. I love them so much. But I have a few regular readers who are kind enough to comment on a lot of chapters, and I feel like Iām bothering them if I respond to every comment? Which maybe I shouldnāt? I donāt know. Iām so grateful for every reader and comment that I worry about chasing people away by being too needy. But then I love it when authors respond to my comments, so...?
6) Whatās the fic youāve written with the angstiest ending?
āYao Liās Bladeā for sure, my fic about Ozaiās hair stylist. Itās not even close. My Irosami is all angst with a happy ending ā though āSmokeā may tip that balance by the time I finish it.
7) Whatās the fic youāve written with the happiest ending?
Hard to say because I have a lot of HEA-type endings. Iām very partial to the Epilogue in āGlassā though.
8) Do you write crossovers? If so, what is the craziest one youāve written?
Very rarely, and only when Iām in a very silly mood to match. I think the only one Iāve posted is āAsami Sato and the Goblet of Fire,ā which is a little one-shot imagining Asami as a muggle exchange student and Iroh as one of the Durmstrang competitors during Book 4. Asami is a Slytherin, by the way, and all yāall who put her in Ravenclaw are missing a trick. I consider this one of my most under-appreciated stories.
9) Have you ever received hate on a fic?
Not often, but yes. 100% of it is from Korrasami shippers calling me homophobic for shipping a canonically bi female character with a male. I used to try to respond and ask for constructive feedback on how I could make Asami feel more bi in my stories, but Iāve never gotten any, so now I delete comments like that and then feel like shit for a week before moving on.
10) Do you write smut? If so, what kind?
Yes. Not well. And not⦠hard, I guess? All of my Irosami smut is of the sweet and rather giggly kind between two people who obviously love each other, and that one Kuviroh fic is just Iroh being drunk and awkward. Fluffy smut. Flut?
11) Have you ever had a fic stolen?
I donāt think so. Iād honestly be a little flattered? Also pissed, but really the idea that anyone cares enough about my writing to steal it is absurd.
12) Have you ever had a fic translated?
Not that I know of.
13) Have you ever co-written a fic before?
Iām currently co-writing āHarmonic Convergenceā with @ideklolwat, and @the-hopefulpenguin and I started something together thatās on a little hiatus as we both got busy with other projects. Itās a learning experience for me for sure.
14) Whatās your all-time favorite ship?
15) Whatās a WIP that you want to finish but donāt think you ever will?
I WILL FINISH EVERY FIC IF ITāS THE LAST THING I DO
16) What are your writing strengths?
Iām not entirely sure. I used to think it was writing emotions but the more I read of other peopleās work the more I doubt that assessment. Maybe something like fleshing out main characters? Iāve been told a few times that my Asami and especially my Iroh are better than canon. But Iām not as good with side characters.
17) What are your writing weaknesses?
Oh god, probably everything, but the thing thatās bothering me at the moment is trying to insert descriptions and movement into dialog. I canāt figure out how to say what is going on without breaking the conversation flow. Iām also shit at world building in the sense that I mostly make things up. I am awed by writers who do a ton of research and bring those elements into their stories. Most of what I have feels kind of modern AU even when it isn't.
18) What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?
I rarely have cause for this. It seems like everyone in the Avatar world speaks the same language. But Iāve had some fun throwing in allusions to other languages, such as creating a bit of a dialect for Southwest Earth Kingdom that mostly manifests in the pronunciation of names, or having someone study āold Omashan,ā or having there be a song in another language and Irohās like āI have no idea what it means, I just thought it was pretty.ā
19) What was the first fandom you wrote for?
Legend of Korra. Iām relatively new to fan fiction.
20) Whatās your favorite fic youāve written?
I donāt pick favorites. I love them all in different ways.
Tagging @chiefbeifongcanrailme, @alishatheninth @ohmygodtheywereparabatai and anyone else who wants in
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TB&TB Anon Asks š
- are caught up now! I think?
1. You make me so happy! I'm not sure when TB&TB will come back right now. I was originally only planning a month, but I've had a really rough couple of weeks, so it might be longer. I'm expecting pretty bad news to come in the next few weeks, so I can't make any promises right now. I'll let you know once I decide!
2. God, I love The Fray, lol. I definitely immediately added that one as soon as I read this ask. I absolutely love that song, and you are very, very correct.
It's always have and never hold You've begun to feel like home yeah What's mine is yours to leave or take What's mine is yours to make your own
3. I love and appreciate you so much, friend! I adore you, as well. It's always hard when I feel like I need to remind people just how long I spend writing to get work out - but people like you make me feel so much better! Thank you for sending me your appreciation!!! It relieves so much stress every time!
4. Awwwe, thank you so much for thinking of me, friend! This message was so sweet, and I appreciate how hard it must've been for you to send. I know I always freak out thinking that I'm being weird or I'm gonna say something wrong (you did neither! You are wonderful).
Thank you for caring about what I have to say and wanting to share that happiness with me. I completely understand why people lurk, and I appreciate you even in your silence. That being said, if you talked with me, I would only ever enjoy that even more!
5. Ooh, I love disorganized hahaha. It's exactly how I think.
Tara is one of my favorite characters. I wish people wrote her more; she is absolutely lovely (and on the show longer than many other fan favorites outside of the core few).
I'm a firm believer in soulmates and love and I refuse to apologize for it! š
Also, thank you for quoting my work back at me (genuinely, it makes me so happy) and specifically the cheeky little "Tell me what I did." Bastard, lmao!
I love you!!! I hope you still have fun during the hiatus!
6. Ah, the farther I get from it, the more I love Chapter 18. It means a lot to me and it was very cathartic to write. It is hard to ask for things you know you need sometimes, huh? Especially when you feel so far gone.
Thank you for reading, for sending me such wonderful commentary, and for caring about me and my process at all! I am so thankful for each of you.
7. Never apologize for that! I love seeing mass notifications, lol. It makes me very happy. I always giggle about it.
8. Hahaha, I've been trying to force myself not to think of them so I can finally get some other stuff done, but it's been hard!
I also twitch my nose! I do mine a lot more like Matthew, though! It's such a cute visual, I definitely agree with you that she would do it.
9. I'm so glad to hear you think so! It's a pet peeve of mine (and has been since I was much younger) that popular myths about virginity are typically reflected in fanfiction. I want people to know that it doesn't always have to hurt (although you might be sore later), the hymen doesn't have to (and shouldn't) tear, and you should enjoy yourself!
As for protection, I don't like specifying because I know that people all use different types. I find it detracts from the story, and I hope that everyone who is reading my work (who should, I remind everyone, be over 18).
Nearly 90% of adult women not seeking to be pregnant are using some form of contraception. Bunny is, as well, I just couldn't find a moment to put in a scene for it. I do like to imagine her trying to hide when she's taking her pill or whatever, and he's just like "You know I know... right?"
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Here are some great bottom Louis fics that were posted or completed during the month of May. We really hope you enjoy this list. Happy reading!
1) Louis PunishmentsĀ | Mature | 1759 words
Just a bunch of punishments Harry has given to Louis.
2) Hoping To Discover A Certain Kind Of LoverĀ | Explicit | 2353 words
He knew the basic idea of what was supposed to happen. It was the entire point of the film Zayn was working on. To match up unmated alpha and omega strangers and to film them as they kissed for the first time. The two of them shuffled awkwardly back and forth, unsure of what to do.
Enough was enough. āIām gonna just go for it, yeah?ā Harry suggested, and Louis nodded quickly, already leaning closer to him.
Everything was hesitant at first. Tender lips met, and all of it was soft and new, neither of them wanting to overstep. A little zing of anticipation and something unfamiliar shot down Harryās spine as he swallowed the tiny sound of surprise Louis made. Neither alpha nor omega were pushing, but that was the point of all of this, wasnāt it? To see what happened when people let go and let themselves be? Harry figured he would try. For the sake of the experiment, of course.
Gently, so, so gently, Harry slid his hand up the side of Louisās throat, cupping his jaw to hold him as close as he could. Their lips finally, finally, finally parted, and Harry could taste the hint of tea and honey lingering on Louisās tongue. Suddenly and all at once, he couldnāt get enough.
3)Ā IrresistibleĀ | Mature | 2380 words
Louis goes into his first heat at school and no one is able to resist him. Harry - who's been in love with him since forever - fucks and bonds him in the toilets.
4) Signed, No Name | Mature | 4647 words
Harry doesnāt know Blue, he just knows that he leaves random notes in the corners of the books he checks out, and heās head over heels for him.
5) It Could've Been Worse | Not Rated | 4949 words
The one where a pandemic happens, harry is obssessed and louis hates apps made for 15 years old.
6) Take Me To The Stars | Explicit | 5840 words
Staring at his darling daughter, in the middle of the pasta aisle, Louis found himself on the edge of a neurotic breakdown.
"Itās your birthday tomorrow! And your papa better not do anything to muck it up! Because your dada worked very hard to organise it! And all of your aunties and grannies and granddads and friends will be there!ā Louis continued in a sweet sing-song voice that seemed to get increasingly frantic as he continued. āAnd if your papa is in rut, then what? Whatāll we do, honey girl? Your dada will be too busy! And your papa will be too horn-ā
āLouis,ā Harry interrupted, touching Louisā arm. āIāll be okay. Itās probably not even my rut. I can appreciate you⦠all of you⦠even when Iām not in rut.ā
Louis looked at him skeptically, imagining the shitshow that would be Harry in rut, surrounded by family and friends, at their childās first birthday party. āI hope youāre right, H.ā
7) Kiss Like Fire | Explicit | 9093 words
Harry watches as his uncle's new omega walks around the backyard, serving canapƩs and drinks to all of the family members gathered. Harry is surrounded by his cousins, all sat together, too young for the adults but too old for the kids and teens. He lifts his beer to his lips and takes a sip when the omega crouches down by one of Harry's younger cousins and hands her a small cracker, sending her off with a sweet smile.
He watches as his uncle comes out of the house, sliding the patio door shut behind him and quickly making his way over to his omega. The omega looks up at him when he wraps an arm around his waist. His pretty lips move with soft-spoken words. Harry has to fight to keep his alpha in check when his dirty old uncle's hand dips down, grabbing at the omega's ass and making him jump.
"Dude," one of his cousins says, "Uncle Darron's new omega is such a milf."
8)Ā Waking Up AloneĀ | Mature | 10060 words
"Nothing makes you hurt like hurting who you love"
Love shouldn't hurt, loving somebody with everything you have shouldn't make you feel like you're dying. Louis feels like heās drowning. He should have known where this was going from the start, he should have been prepared. Now heās waking up in an empty bed, some days he doesnāt want to even wake up again. There's a hole in his heart; it's in the shape of Harry. Nothing he does can fill it. Drugs, alcohol, pouring out his heart into songs that Harry probably won't ever hear. When Louis is with him, he feels like heās in heaven. Being alone, that's what he feels he deserves, at least Harry can be happier without him.
Maybe if they met at a different time, under different circumstances, he could have saved them. Louis had to do what was best for Harry, but it kills him a little everyday. Louis sees his smile everyday, but he knows it's no longer for him. Someone else makes Harry happier, but Louis wanted it to be him. They could have had forever. Louis would have given Harry everything.
"Forget what I said, it's not what I meant" Harry had tried to say, but Louis knew that wasn't the truth. After everything theyāve been through, Louis still loves him.
9) To The Beat Of My Own Drum | Explicit | 10285 words
A collection of drabbles.
10) Alone Too Long | Explicit | 10371 words
By the time The Temptress finally reached bay, the Captain only had one thing on his mind, and that one thing was Louis Darling.
11) Straight Boy | Explicit | 12251 words
Young, brunette and handsome, Louis attracts unwanted attention in prison. When his cellmate offers him protection, Louis accepts the offer, even though he doesnāt trust the guy. Little does he know how much it will change his life.
When heās released from prison, Louis finds himself needing and wanting things he shouldnāt want. Louis is straight. He is. He has a girlfriend. What happened in prison stayed in prisonāor so Louis tells himself.
Until he meets his former cellmate again. Harry. The guy he hates and craves.
12) Beautiful Crime | Not Rated | 13282 words
Note: This fic contins no explicit smut but since itās a/b/o weāve decided to include it in this monthly roundup.Ā
Louis is keen to defeat the one and only Alpha Harry Styles who has a notorious reputation in the entire country for his ruthlessness but a turn of events brings them on crossroads which deviate from their havens of war.
13) Anticipation | Explicit | 14156 words
Louis' a stripper. Harry's the new club owner. Louis decides he wants to get in his new boss' pants fairly quickly, but it might take more work than he thought to do that.
14) Strong Enough | Explicit | 20787 words
āSoā¦ā Liam starts, and Louis instantly knows where this is going. Heās actually glad itās Liam that's dragging the subject out from the shadows and into the light. Louis turns to face him, mirroring his position on the couch and nods, ready for him to continue. Liam takes a deep breath. āHave you spoken to Harry recently?ā
Five years after Vertigo goes on hiatus, the band comes back together for a benefit concert. Can Louis and Harry work through their complicated past, or are some wounds too deep to be healed?
15) Alpha and Omega | Not Rated | 22270 words
Note: There is no smut where someone bottoms in this fic, but it contains omega Louis, so weāve included it in this monthly roundup.Ā
Louis finds a new sense of self when the son of the werewolf leader, Harry Styles, comes to town to quell unrest in the Chicago pack and inspires a power in Louis that he never felt before.
Not my own work but rather a reimagination of the book Alpha and Omega with Harry and Louis.
16) Amazing Grace | Mature | 24290 words
Harryās a dedicated pastor who's happily married, Louis is the troubled youth that stumbles into his life.
17)Ā A Trail Of Honey Through It AllĀ | Explicit | 27083 words
The boy in front of him, well really, the man in front of him, was like something out of a confusing wet dream. Built, tall, tan and muscular, his skin glistened with sweat after a long day of working outdoors with his hands. He was wearing a cut up old American football shirt, the bottom hem was torn and the sleeves were cut off to the point where the t-shirt was really just a loose tank top. The shorts he had on had clearly been full length jeans at one point, and were now just crudely cut off above the knee. His white socks were pulled up too high on his calves, and the brown work boots he had on were old as fuck, the leather peeling along the edges of the soles. Curly brown hair stuck out from the edges of his backwards snapback, and there was a smudge of grease wiped along his brow bone. The smattering of hair along his jaw proved that he hadnāt shaved in a week or two, the hair growing in thicker across his upper lip and around his chin. His sinfully bowed mouth was pink and plump, and Louis was suddenly hyper-focused on the way that he chewed at the toothpick stuck between his lips. He looked like he needed a shower. Louis wanted to lick him.
18) Just a Bit Twisted | Explicit | 30548 words
Professor Harry Styles is hated and feared by all of his students. Strict, reserved and ruthless, he doesnāt tolerate mistakes and has little patience for his students.
Louis Tomlinson is a twenty-year-old struggling to provide for his younger sisters after the death of their parents. On the verge of losing his scholarship, Louis becomes desperate enough to go to Professor Styles.
Everyone says Styles doesnāt have a heart. Everyone says heās a ruthless bastard. Louis finds out that everyone is right.
He strikes a deal with Styles, but unexpectedly, the deal turns into something so much more.
Something all-consuming and addictive.
Something neither of them wants.
19) Like It's A Game | Explicit | 32223 words
There is little harry hates more than truth or dare.
20) We'll Be the Fine Line | Not Rated | 32474 words
āā¦Hey, Harry. Itās Louisā¦ā¦ um, yeah. Listened to the album tonight. Itās real good mate. Um, yeah, just real, impressed. I was kinda putting it off, yaāknow, didnāt know if I wanted to listen to it. Saw you went on James and, uh, Saturday Night Live. Couldnāt watch you, have a hard time watching you on these thingsā¦ā¦. Anyway, mate, just thought I would drop a line. Donāt need to call me back. Alright.ā
Louis listens to Fine Line, and, drunk, he leaves a voicemail for Harry after months of not speaking. This reminds Harry of a time before everything fell apart, slowly, painfully, a time when the two of them were still in love. And he desperately wants to go back.
21)Ā The Space Between | Explicit | 33074 words
Living in East Verona was a privilege. One Prince Harry only found out when he decided to cross the borders into The Zone looking for entertainment, a temptation, a distraction, anything that would allow him to escape his boring, mundane life of luxury.
But what he found was something he never could have expected - poverty, destruction, chaos, but most importantly, a blue-eyed boy.
Together, they embark on a journey plagued with hazards and risks and twists and turns.
Can these two star-crossed souls fight for their freedom and keep each other safe at the same time?
22) Yes, Daddy, I Will | Not Rated | 33510 words
Where Harry is a dom and Louis is his cute little sub.
23) Last Blues For Bloody KnucklesĀ | Explicit | 34241 words
Styles was a name everyone knew. It had evolved into something of a fairy tale, a far away problem that normal people didnāt have to deal with. Louis never thought heād find himself falling in love with him. When he finds himself pregnant with Harryās child, he knows he has to leave the life, and Harry, behind. For her sake.
He never expected Harry to show back up on his doorstep five years later.
24) Before We Knew | Explicit | 39593 words
Or Louis has been skeptical of soulmates for years so it seems like fate when he finally bumps into the owner of the obnoxiously large signature printed into his skin since age sixteen: Harry Styles, a human rights attorney who is firmly against soulmates.
25) Hit Me With Your Sweet Love | Explicit | 39690 words
Powerful people only end up with powerful people. The rest are just playthings in their lives. Louis Tomlinson was many things, but he wasnāt anybodyās plaything.
26)Ā Stole My HeartĀ | Mature | 51343 words
Louis doesn't want much. A warm bed, and people who care about him.
Harry has everything he needs, despite his mother insisting he needs a mate. Money, status, and any omega he wants, why lock his heart down.
Until Louis comes along, and steals it.
27) No Going Back | Explicit | 56102 words
Sales reps Harry and Louis are bored with their jobs and their lives. After meeting at a conference in Cardiff they hook up, have a few too many drinks, and jokingly apply to become remote lighthouse keepers. Six months, just the two of them, looking after the southernmost lighthouse off the bottom of Australia. Itās not like their applications will be accepted. Right?
This is the story of how one choice - a left instead of a right, a go instead of a stop, a yes instead of a no - can change the future forever and that sometimes, taking that leap of faith, is worth the risk.
28) Royal Desires | Mature | 66207 words
When Prince Louis falls into an early heat, his new personal guard Harry Styles is brought in as his heat partner for the time being until Louis finds a suitable royal prince to bond and take the throne with. The only problem is that Harry is everything Louis wants but can't have. Freedom, tattoos, individuality...and quite possibly love.
29) How To Break A Heartbreaker's Heart? | Teen & Up | 67447 words
Harry is straight.
Louis is gay.
Harry happens to be homophobic.
Louis has a dark past.
Harry had a dark childhood.
Will Louis and Harry unite and defy their past? Or will homophobia win for the umpteenth time?
30) Lavender Dreams | Not Rated | 77888 words
Louis is an outgoing person that goes to school for educational psychology and Harry is a biology major who happen to run into each other... a lot.
31) Be My Omega | Mature | 138372 words
It all started when the alpha laid eyes on the short curvy omega and he knew at that moment that his life would never be the same, in a good way of course.
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One of the weird things about WiLW is that, despite everyone canceling Boscha and declaring Boschlow dead (even as a crackship), it kinda makes the best case so far for why it could be made to work. If that makes sense? Like it was my nOTP before, but I saw how both of their biggest flaws is the other's greatest strength. And a fiery odd-couple opposites-attract pair would be a good foil to the sweet pining soulmates that are Lumity. Their history gets in the way, but not insurmountably so.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Now, this is an idea I hesitantly consider and tread upon, for obvious reasons⦠Boschlow was a fun crack ship back during the mid-season hiatus, as the only thing we saw Boscha do to Willow was mockingly call her out for not being invited to the Moonlight Conjuring, and that was about it. But then Understanding Willow revealed that Boscha had in fact been bullying Willow for quite a while, and clearly it left QUITE some damage on Willowās psyche⦠And while Boschaās bullying in WilW was implied to be more intense than her usual torment, that doesnāt change the fact that she literally dumped garbage on Willow! Iām not opposed to seeing the two reconcile⦠But clearly, Boscha owes all of the apologies here, and has a lot to make up for, and Willow would be justified in not wanting to ever contact the girl, ever again.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Honestly, I donāt necessarily see Willow and Boscha as two sides of the same coin, like I do for Luz and Amity⦠The two of them are mostly just foils and contrasts to one another. Though, I AM always eager to hear othersā takes on the two, and how one might interpret Willow and Boscha as such! At the very least, I think Willow and Boscha, initially, had an āout of sight, out of mindā principle to how they dealt with things that troubled them, to varying degrees⦠Thereās Willow not wanting to dwell on her bad memories with Amity, which she does in a healthier sense than Boscha- Who will sometimes dismiss her issues about something, because the thing in question is actually just dumb and doesnāt matter anyway!
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā But as we can see⦠Boscha doesnāt always entirely ignore things, either- Sheāll dredge up drama and go out of her way to antagonize others like Willow, instead of simply ignoring her feelings on the matter and letting it be done! Sheāll LET her displeasure be known, and while itās good for Boscha to sometimes acknowledge her unhappiness, she unfortunately proceeds to deal with it in a less than constructive manner⦠I feel like an actually healthy relationship/dynamic between the two would also require Boscha to tone herself down quite a bit, even if she can still maintain that sense of fiery competitiveness and boldness that sheās always had.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Likewise, while I think Willow has EVERYTHING to give and provide to Boscha, more on that later⦠Iām not sure thereās really anything meaningful that Boscha could give her, that others donāt already do and better? Boschaās strength is artificial and toxic to herself and others. Superficially it might make Willow feel better initially, but in the long run Boschaās ideals are harmful. Especially if she tries to imply to Willow that sheās āworthyā specifically because of her prowess with Plant magic, and not regardless of it. But, I am liable to othersā takes and interpretations on the two!
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Personally, my read on Boscha is that sheās afraid. She doesnāt want to be a āloserā, sheās afraid of the potential loneliness and emotional turmoil that may come from that, and she thinks that losers ādeserveā their own pain, no less⦠So Boscha is actively trying to compensate for who she is, so she can āproveā herself as better than that, both to her own personal concepts, and maybe to someone elseā¦
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā She also seems fixated on pain, in a sense- Her own, and causing retribution towards those who āhurtā Boscha. Thereās a quiet moment where Boscha is impressed by how mature Luz is, for taking all of the blame⦠And she briefly seems to reevaluate her stance on Luz, before stubbornly sticking to her previous dislike. Itās like Boscha felt actual sympathy for Luz in that moment, but then closed off any room for reconsidering who Luz was and respecting her. She doesnāt want to change her mind on ālosersā like Luz, because surely there was a good reason for hating and bullying people like thatā¦
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Boscha doesnāt want to reconsider her stance on Luz, not let the girl get into her head and āinfectā her with weakness. Sheās lowkey afraid of the kind of people that Luz and Willow are, or what she sees them as; And itās why sheās so vehemently livid towards ālosersā like those two! And, I think Willow could be interesting for Boscha, because Willow was obviously who Boscha hated the most, or at least much longer, compared to others. She singled out Willow, almost like she was projecting her own insecurities onto the girl, that hurting Willow would be like gaining retribution upon the insecurities and flaws that Boscha saw in herself, and the girl.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Going back to what I said about Boscha focusing on retribution, how she doesnāt seem willing to repair and heal over mistakes together, and would rather punish⦠I think Willow is someone who can teach Boscha how to forgive, withoutforgetting. And letās be real here, can it even be said if Willow and Luz ACTUALLY hurt Boscha in a serious sense, and/or their actions werenāt justified, plus completely innocent? Not to mention, Boscha is ignoring that all of those other students chose to prioritize attention to Willow over Boscha? Aside from Boscha recognizing that a lot of her own pain came from herself and her own exaggerated reactions to Luz and Willowās innocent actionsā¦
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā We saw how Willow dealt with pain, regarding Amity. I feel like sheās someone who can show Boscha how to deal with that sort of thing, how one can actually be mindful of the circumstances of what happened, and really take that into account, while considering oneās feelings and the source of those emotions. Clearly the situation was different, as Willow did nothing to deserve Amityās rejection, while Boscha MORE than earned some negative karma on her own end⦠But you get the idea.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Boscha needs to actually get over her apprehensions about ālosersā like Luz and Willow, before she can truly heal⦠Instead of just ignoring those feelings first and getting along, because that kind of friendship would then be superficial. Boscha changing her apprehensive stance on someone like Willow, especially, is important- Because to Boscha, Willow is emblematic and definitive of the kind of person she doesnāt want to be⦠Or at least, sheās the one closest to that definition, that Boscha can actively get away with tormenting.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Changing her stance on Willow would show so much, how Boscha has learned to improve and open her mind to other people and their ways of living and existing, and feeling. Perhaps it would be THE final step/accomplishment, the ultimate proof of Boscha having changed⦠Not making the same mistakes, when presented the chance to. Willow is someone who can show Boscha that the kind of person that she doesnāt want to be⦠ISNāT so bad after all, that thereās nothing to be afraid of, you arenāt necessarily going to become that kind of person by being with them- And even if you do, itās not so bad! Itād be incredibly relieving to Boscha, and I can see her being grateful to Willowā¦
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Likewise, I can see her admiring Willow- Boscha can now appreciate just how strong and vigilant Willow really is, and how inspiring the Park girl is to her. Willow proves to Boscha that the kind of person she is, isnāt just someone to accept- Itās the kind of person to learn and take cues from, to strive to be like! Boscha is going to be amazed at how strong Willow was, withstanding all those years of abuse when Boscha herself likely couldnāt even IMAGINE handling that⦠Sheās going to show Boscha that thereās more than one way to be strong, and arguably, Willowās way is better. Willow can show Boscha that you can be soft and open with others, while being even stronger and more resilient to pain, than the kind of person Boscha wasā¦
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā And, it can show Boscha how to truly defend herself. How to be strong in a way that REALLY matters, and then Boscha can feel safe in a real sense, VS barricading herself past several walls sheās built up, but otherwise never overcoming her fear and adversity. Really, I think Willow has WAY more to teach Boscha, rather than the other way around⦠While Iām all for people mutually teaching one another different things, itās worth noting that Boscha was entirely in the wrong for bullying Willow, and that Willow was certainly not āguiltyā of anything that warranted this kind of torment whatsoever.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Willow has definitely āoutgrownā Boscha and her destructive fire. And, considering what Boscha did to her⦠Like I said, Willow has a lot to offer Boscha. But Boscha isnāt owed that, Boscha has had an issue with thinking sheās owed reverence and glory for being āstrongā, for having suffered and endured and used that pain to forge herself into a āsuperiorā kind of person⦠But in the end, Boscha needs to not be entitled, and realize that sheās no better nor worse than anyone else. And she canāt work to change this fact, either- Itās just how it is!
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Willow doesnāt owe Boscha anything. Sheās not the girlās caretaker, sheās not her savior unless Willow wants to be⦠Which leads me to the idea that to start, Boscha needs to just let Willow exist. She needs to be mindful of Willowās existence, give the girl room to flourish and grow⦠And Boscha needs to apologize, with no expectations attached. Only by healing their relationship, and getting it to a point where Boscha wonāt hurt Willow, nor does she expect anything from Willow because of this⦠Only then can Willow feel safe about teaching Boscha a thing or two on how to live, and even so, thatās entirely her choice. Boscha needs to prove that sheāll respect whatever decision Willow makes, even if it prioritizes Willow and/or others over Boscha herself. Itās not some personal insult towards Boscha, people have their own lives that donāt revolve around her, and they donāt owe the girl anything for being ābetterā than them, not that Boscha actually is to begin with!
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā This is, of course, all speculation- Most of which hinges entirely on my specific read and interpretation of Boscha and her character. Honestly, this could prove very wrong if we learn more about Boschaās character, and Iād have to reevaluate how a relationship between her and Willow would work. But first and foremost, Boscha needs to respect Willow as her own person, and not just a potential girlfriend, nor as someone she should idolize, either⦠Willow doesnāt have to be ācoolā in Boschaās eyes to gain her respect. And similarly, I can see Boscha getting close with Willow, but then trying to play up how cool she is to others, and maybe how cool Willow is⦠Because she wants to justify being with a āloserā like Willow.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā And Willow will rightfully take offense at that. Sheās going to tell Boscha to stop trying to act like Willow herself is so ālowlyā that Boscha needs to socially compensate for being friends with her. Willow herself, on her own, is perfect as-is, and Boscha doesnāt have to act like she isnāt- She needs to stop caring about appearances or the opinions and reverence of others, so much! Boscha needs to value her own opinion of herself, her own self-worth, without making it dependent on whether or not others fear/adulate her.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Itās kind of like Amity or Lilith, in a sense- Where Boscha doesnāt believe in her own evaluation of herself nor trust it⦠So she looks to others as a judge, as a litmus test to decide if sheās āworthyā or lovable and whatnot. Boscha looks to how others reverentially regard her in order to decide if sheās good enough, instead of just looking at the mirror and deciding that if Boscha is happy- Then she IS good enough! All that should be required is for Boscha to be happy and content with herself. Her own opinion of herself DOES have value, believe it or not⦠And thatās something Willow herself learned, too, though unlike Boscha she didnāt try to cope with feeling āunworthyā, by hurting others- Instead Willow just āacceptedā this alleged lowliness of herself before Luz pointed out otherwise, that Willow was never unworthy to begin with!
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā So, yeah- Boscha needs to stop being afraid of the kind of person that Willow is. She needs to see that people like Willow and Luz are perfectly valid as-is, that there is no hierarchy where a certain type of person is better or worse than others. Boscha needs to trust in her own opinion and self-confidence in herself, and not be so reliant on what others have to say. She needs to stop being entitled to power and adulation, even if Boscha went through the effort to āearnā it⦠Because nobody agreed to compensate Boscha in the first place. Itās like working so hard to give someone gifts without them even asking, and then expecting to be rewarded. Boscha needs to be mindful of others and their existence, and see it as not that bad anway⦠And that itās okay to be like others. Boscha can still hold onto her own identity, and remember her own feelings while still working past them.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Honestly, this could be but the tip of the iceberg, regarding the many issues that Boscha has, and how Willow could help her. On the flipside, I can see Boscha being the kind of person to mercilessly give Willow encouragement⦠And tell Willow that yes, Willow IS strong, and she did earn the right to be beloved by others! But again, this ties back into the idea of love being conditional, which seems contradictory to what this show has to say. Like I said, Willow has so much more to teach Boscha, and itās up to her to decide if she wants to- And even so, Boscha needs to recognize that her existence isnāt exactly reliant on whatever decision that Willow makes, either.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Really, Iām not at all against seeing Boschaās character be explored and given depth, maybe even reformed for her own sake? I guess Iām a forgive and forget type of guy. Iām willing to forgive Lilith, who cursed her own sister, and was also Head Witch of the Emperorās Coven- So she hurt a lot of other people BESIDES Eda, and thatās something Lilith herself and some people in the fandom need to recognize more. And I feel like government persecution is worse than bullying, not to say the latter isnāt bad either- If anything, bullying already being bad, as-is, just says a lot more about how terrible persecution is by being worse!
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā And me, Iām willing to consider motives and introspection for freaking Belos, who committed genocide upon wild witches just for existing, and set up the toxic coven system and environment that contributed to Boschaās own toxicity in the first place. I guess for some, Boschaās bullying hits closer to home than Belosā persecution of people, hence why theyāre justifiably angrier at her particularly. Those feelings are absolutely valid⦠Unfortunately, recent events have led to government persecution becoming a lot more relatable as well. Which, gets me to my point that if I can consider Belosā side of the story, I can at least do the same for Boscha. Not to mention, itās worth noting that Lilith and Belos are fully-grown adults, but Boscha is still a kid- So sheās got room to improve and change people, letās remember that amidst still holding her accountable!
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Teacher!Tony wrong number au - Part 9
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Peter scoffs, but some of the weight lifts from his chest even though he still doesnāt have any idea what to tell his best friend. He sees Ned typing, so he waits for his next message.
The tight knot around Peter's windpipe loosens a bit as a soft chuckle escapes him.
Seeing his friend's apology prompts Peter to reply. He types hastily.Ā
Peter stares at the screen for a long minute before hitting call with a sigh. His chest feels like a battlefield where warm fuzzy butterflies war with cold clammy hands that cut off his breath.Ā
āHey, man, whatās up?ā comes his best friendās excited voice.
āUm, hi," Peter chokes out and winces at how feeble he sounds.Ā
Every time he talks about it, he feels an ever bigger mess. It's as if talking about it would make it more real. Less easy to handle. And yet, when he's with TonyāGod, he's been with Tony twice now!āthings seem to come so easily. Why does it have to become so complicated when he thinks about it? Sure, when he's with Tony, his mind is reduced to mush, but at least he doesn't wonder about how real things are. And even if they were real, wouldnāt he feel happy? Euphoric even⦠Peter groans.Ā
āWhatās wrong?ā
āNothing,ā Peter hurries to say. It rings false even to his own ears, and yet it helps him realise that objectively itās true. He's panicking, yes, but nothing's really wrong. At least not with him. When he thinks about Tony though, his heart aches.
Ned remains silent.
āUm,ā Peter starts again. āThatās not⦠Itās complicated. Iām okay, though. Well, I'm a mess," he admits, voice cracking, "but that's no news." He needs to take a break. He's having difficulty breathing and he feels hot all over. He wants to tell Ned, wants to somehow be able to explain the turmoil within him, but he canāt get the words out. He rakes his fingers through his hair, scraping the back of his neck with more force than necessary.
āAnywayā¦ā he starts, pumping himself to speak the words. What comes out instead is⦠Not the words he meant.Ā āHow was your ride home?ā His voice betrays him again, jumping several notes higher.
Ned laughs. āDonāt get me wrong, Iād be happy to tell you about all the wonders a half-an-hour subway ride can offer, but I really donāt believe that youāre interested in that right now.ā
āNo, you are right,ā Peter admits, deflating. At least his voice sounds like his own now, even though itās weak again. "Something⦠Something has happened.āĀ
He can hear a sharp intake of breath from the other end of the line.
Fuck, he still hasn't thought this through. How can he tell it to Ned? However involuntary Tonyās confidence might have been, he canāt betray it. And now he's given the wrong impression.Ā
āNothing like that," he assures quickly. "Nothing like you know, between us. Itās about Tony and I donāt think heād appreciate if I told you,ā Peter confesses. āIām sorry,ā he adds, readying himself for a hurt comeback.
He's an idiot. Why has he teased, if he won't spill it?Ā
āWow, man. You know a secret about your crush?ā
At first, Peter barely notices how different his best friend sounds than he expected, but then he processes it and as the excitement in Ned's voice penetrates his mind, he sags with relief.
"You're the best, Ned, you know that, right?" Peter sighs.Ā
"Come off it," Ned huffs, but Peter can tell that he's pleased.Ā
He smiles and thinks.
"I mean, it's kinda personal," he admits, "and well, I'm not telling it, so it's secret, I guess."
Thereās a moment of silence before they both burst out laughing. The heavy feeling in Peterās chest finally dissipates, and heat pools into its place as the butterflies win the battle inside him. He pulls his pillow to his chest, and squeezes it tightly to keep himself from wriggling and squealing.Ā
"Wow, man."
"Yeah," Peter's voice breaks.Ā
"Do you think that heā¦?" Ned doesn't finish, but he doesnāt need to: Peter's brain supplies several different options in a heartbeat.
Does Tony know how he feels? How does Tony feel about Peter now? Are the days events really such a big deal or is it just Peter obsessing again? They were so close. Not just physically. But physically, too and every cell in Peterās body comes alive with the memories of holding the man he loves in his arms.
Before he could voice any of thatāif he even would want to voice any of that, which he is in absolutely no condition to decide with his heart swelling to twice its usual size and threatening to explodeāNed speaks over the phone.
āOh, shit, Iām sorry, Peter but I gotta go. Family thing. Talk later?ā
āSure,ā Peter assures. āGo on, Iām fine.ā
He isnāt. He finds that out as soon as thereās silence at the other end of the line. Despite his elation and excitement the āwhat now?ā that takes the place of his best friendās voice in his mind makes his stomach drop. He opens his eyes, hoping that it will ground himāand wondering when he had closed them in the first placeā, but it only makes it worse. He blinks at his bedside cabinet and his eyes gloss over. The objects cluttered there confront him painfully with himself and he squeezes his eyes shut, throat tight. Heās a child. A pathetic little kid, whoās still reading comics and plays with Legos. Who wastes his time figuring out fictional spaceshipsā mechanics instead of building something in real life. Fine, he has his research but what does he do with that? After telling Tony on Friday that he has big plans for the weekend, heās spent half of it stupidly pining for a man so obviously out of his league that itās ridiculous.
A man, he wants so much that it hurts. A man who he held in his arms just a few hours ago. A man whose scent, inexplicably, still lingers in his nostrils. Did it soak itself into his clothes? His skin? Or is it just his imagination? Peter doesnāt care. He inhales deeply and lets the memory of their hug wash over him. It didnāt last nearly as long as he wished, but now he can linger and explore the sensations coursing through his body. The emotions that didnāt register over his nervousness and shock at the time hit him all at once. His skin is tingling, hot all over, and he squeezes his pillow tighter to his chest, just like he did when Tony was shaking and out of it. He doesnāt want that for him, but god, he yearns to touch him like that again, without holding back, without sparing a thought to decorum. He wants to do it for pleasure.
The intensity of it all tears a sob out of Peter and he shifts in his bed to bury his face into his pillow. Then, he moves his hips again. And again. It feels good. Comforting. Relieving.
Until he realises that heās hard.
Peter gasps and pushes his flaming face deeper into his pillow but he canāt help rutting against his rumpled duvet again. He shouldnāt, but at that moment he canāt think of a reason why. He whimpers desperately and arches his back to press more tightly against the mattress. Heās breaking out in sweat, and by then the hotness in his cheeks has less to do with shame than arousal. Everything heās been feeling in the past couple of days is coming together in this hot feeling that washes over him and sweeps away his restraint. It leaves him weak and breathless, but right then he doesnāt need anything else than the friction against his erection and that solid, warm presence against his chest.
He inhales sharp, craving to gulp down Tonyās scent, aching to feel the scratch of his goatee on his cheeks and to hear his low voice in his ears. Peter hugs him tighter and moans, despite his best effort, as his climax hits him. He shudders through his orgasm, then, a leaden weight seeps into his limbs in the wake of his ecstasy. Heās still panting, but heās too exhausted to open his eyes. He just needs a minute, just a minute to catch his breath and come aroundā¦
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Hope you liked it! Hopefully, you wonāt have to wait too long for part 10, because Iāve already started it.
#starker#starker fic#tony stark x peter parker#peter parker x tony stark#peter x tony#tony x peter#teacher!tony#wrong number au#part 9
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I might be going on a Hiatus
Hi....so I think itās high time we talk. I know Iāve kept people waiting for a while, but this has to be said. As some of you know, I have a tenancy to take...LONG gaps in my writing. I appreciate the people who like seeing me write SO MUCH. You guys have no idea how much I appreciate you all liking my work and complimenting me...but I keep making what are essentially empty promises to come back, thinking Iāll be happy and ready to write again, especially with something I like, Obey Me. You would think that...I would be EXCITED...or HAPPY to reply to these...but Iām honestly not. It has nothing to do with the questions people ask me, itās just for the past few months, writing in GENERAL (not just here) feels like work and that Iām wasting my time because Iāll never be as good as all these other imagine accounts. I havenāt exactly been able to talk to professionals about how I feel because I have little money and canāt get employment right now because my country will be in lockdown again for 6 weeks and my family were from a time where mental health wasnāt seen as important as it is now, so they will just tell me I donāt need to...which...sucks. Iām not mad at them though, like I said, their thought process is a product of itās time, but I still wish someone of that experience could help me find what I need to regain the passion of the things I love, especially writing.
Before I got into this funk, I used to be so excited to write stuff. It was my go-to thing is I felt bad or just wanted to vent. The only writing Iām doing at the moment is a journal that Iām keeping to write my thoughts and feelings in to get it out of my system. That is helping me enjoy writing in the practical sense of pen to paper, but itās not creative like I would want it to be. My sleeping schedule is whacked and I devote too much time looking after other people. This I can admit, I usually put other peopleās needs over my own because I do not think highly of myself. I pretty much bully myself, saying things like their time is more important and I donāt NEED the time to myself because Iām a wast a of space and shit like that...Hell, Iām WITH my grandparents during the lock down to take care of things for them because I would rather risk MYSELF getting Covid to make sure theyāre taken care of. I even said to members of my family that I would rather suffer with Covid for ever member of my family if it meant they never get to have it at all. They didnāt think much of it,because I have a tenancy to say stuff like that. They probably think I donāt mean it, but I kinda do. I feel like itāll get borderline dangerous the amount that I donāt ACTUALLY take care of myself, or at the very least, think of myself in a positive way...and I feel like it reflects on my work.Ā I LOVE how creative the asks people send me are...but Iām always worried I never do how great the ask is justice with my mediocre writing. I feel like my answer is no where near as good as the ask...and itās a sucky thing to feel because I do ACTUALLY want to be proud of something I write. Itās a feeling I havenāt felt in a long time, the last one was like a college project I think. Itās not fair on my readers that Iām pumping out things that arenāt great or that isn't fuled by the passion I truly feel for the concept Iām given. I want to be able to feel that passion while I write too so that the answer is in itās best form. With some of these, I know what I WANT to do, but end up going for theĀ āEasyā way out because I hate feeling like Iām keeping people waiting...I donāt even want to post jokes based on the events I see in Obey Me because I feel like the question ofĀ āWhy are you writing this when you should be doing asksā will come up in my head. Iām sorry this was a bit of a rant, but I thought the very most all of you deserved was the truth. I never understood some of these types of blogs that just disappear for no reason, probably from people feeling similar things to me in this moment. I get it. Writers block, burnout, whatever...itās okay to feel these things. Itās a human thing to feel. To be unsure or insecure or even just tired. They are valid things to feel...I will try improve and work on myself so that in the future...I can hopefully give you all the content you deserve...Iām just grateful that I have not gotten any shit or harassment from the stuff I do because my followers are so sweet and understanding, even if they donāt do or say anything...I appreciate you all~! I donāt know how long Iāll be gone for, but hopefully I can work on myself in as little time as possible. I probably will pot the odd things in Obey Me or Seduce me or Mystic Messenger or just ANY game I want to share on here for a little laugh. This is a dark time weāre in and maybe if things were different, Iād be answering a lot faster then before. But for now...the ask box is closed and I may be on here on occasion...but thank you all for tuning in to me. I wonāt be completely off tumblr, I do have a personal account @iseeallthatsdark, Iāve just gotten more used to posting stuff on here.
Love you all!
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My Hero Academia Chapter 217 Review
So, itās been a while since I did a review of this, eh? Yah, sorry. And next week is a hiatus so, lets dive in
We open up on Bakugou and Deku fighting, well more training. As Bakugou is trying to force the Black Whip to activate. All Might has to tell Bakugou that this is about testing Deku and making sure he doesnāt release the Black Whip unintentionally.
We get a flashback revealing that now that Bakugou is in on the One for All secret, he now gets to be meeting with Deku and All Might. I canāt help but imagine Bakugou being at least a little giddy on the inside considering he now gets to hang out with his favorite hero. Though heās spending it with Deku so maybe it balances out.
Anyway, we get confirmation here that All Might did not know of these multiple quirks and likely Nana didnāt either. So this makes Deku the first of all the users to complete one for all.
Also, we see Bakugouās addition this duoās dynamic, he is master of cutting straight to the point. Already, asking questions to move the conversation forward. And when Deku suggests that this was possibly was caused through external means, Bakugou is the one who suggests that this was thanks to All for One.
Bakugou compares the quirks of All for One and One for All, as well as being the one who puts forward the fact that the quirk of One for All originated from All for One.
We cut back to the present where Bakugouās trying to force out the black whip, but All Might needs to reel him back a little. Deku says that the quirk will only activate when with his feelings. My guess is from what the Hell Boy looking guy said, the feeling Deku needs to have to awaken Black Whip isnāt danger, but rather, feeling of grabbing or catching something or something. So maybe we should get Iida and start a chase or something?
Okay, make up your mind already Hori! Look I appreciate that Horikoshi had seemed to make it out as Deku needed to master the percentage portion of All for One to withstand the physical taxation of quirks like Black Whip. But now it seems like its implying that Deku should start figuring out how to unlock it instead of waiting till the fiiture like he had said 2 weeks ago.
I guess what this could be implying is that Deku should learn what āfeelingā activates his other quirk, but he shouldnāt use it until heās mastered the strength portion of the quirk. Now that would be fine if that were the case. Its also a possibility that this is a transnational issue and I might just be misinterpreting it.
Also, Deku is a little hung up on the comparison to All for One. And likely the fact if this was caused by him, its very likely All for One might be able to do other things to his body.
We cut away to the best part of the chapter.
All of class 1-a and class 1-b hanging out and enjoying dinner together.
We see Kirishima and Tetsutetsu discussing quirks, and it highlights what I said about them during the team Todoroki vs team Honenuki fight. That Tetsutetsu and Kirishima, while almost a joke on how similar they are, are fundamentally different people. As Kirishima suffers from a lack of confidence while Tetsutetsu suffers from overconfidence. I know its pretty much a foot note in the grand scheme of things, but I do appreciate that Hori does go the extra mile with these characters when he couldāve just made it the simple joke of, ātheir the same person basically.ā
Also, Tetsutetsu brings up that while he can become iron, its only so hard. But Kirishima, he can keep hardening. I bet in his unbreakable mode, Kirishima is so much harder than Tetsutetsu that he could potentially crack his iron. But as iron, Tetsutetsu doesnāt have to worry about fire or other extreme weather cause his skin is metal. Kirishima will have to worry though, as while he is hard, heās still made of flesh which can burn or freeze.
Also we have Momo and Kendou catching up with eachother. Then, my personal favorite, Tokoyami getting asked by Komori if he has photos of Hawks from off duty.
And yes, Mineta is locked in a clockwork orange chair. Actually thatās kinda brilliant.
I wish we could do more, but we gotta get to plot.
Wow... Now that Todoroki mentions how when they fought during the sports fest, Deku told him to come at him with everything he had and yet Deku wasnāt truly giving everything he had. Now to be fair, as Deku tries to say, this power just started to manifest, so its not like that was intentional. But you get what I mean here, that really awesome moment has been a bit cheapened in hindsight.
Well, Iām still glad someone is trying to press Deku about the two quirk thing cause last week everyon kinda dropped it. Though Todoroki now is dropping it so...
Well that all aside, Todoroki has actually texted back endeavor. Though its mainly to learn about the flashfire, but hey, baby steps.
Oh you just know Endeavor has been checking his phone every other goddamn minute.
We cut to the UA teachers meeting and they pretty much are done discussing where Shindou will be going.
We see Mic finally say what the fandom has kinda been saying for a while now, Aizawa sees some of himself in Shinsou. Which... Yeah, a super powerful quirk that could be totally used for evil, but you still have something on the inside that makes want to do good. Also, youāre really both pretty surly.
But Mic also asks if SHinsou reminds him of Shirakumo, likely the flame haired guy in Aizawaās flashback last chapter. And can I take a minute to say I love how Hori likes to foreshadow new character? Because he often doesnāt just drop them in as an individual, but he tends to show them with characters that have already established. Like when Gentle was going through famous villains he mention All for One and Stain, but then mentioned two other guys who will potentially be related to other obstacles. Or like with Overhaulās gang who first appear during a Twice focused chapter.
Anyway, we cut to Eri who is naturally a little scared of Monoma.
So Monoma was brought here to copy Eriās quirk, but considering his... everything (I love that line) It might be best that Mirio and Deku be here to.
Monoma explains that he canāt use quirks that accumulates power through converting it, then its basically a dud. Same with Eri here.
Mirio asks why then was Monoma even brought here.
Aizawa says that having Monoma copy it wouldāve helped Eri with control and here we go again. Adorable Eri moments.
I wanna take this moment to say Eriās however, donāt feel like a cheap gimmick to pull at the audienceās heartstrings like other daughteru characters. She actually lived a life of physical and psychological torment and is still haunted it by it. Its not like we have one arc, boom, your cured from depression and can now exist just to do cute shit. So while Eri let go of Overhaulās psychological grasps, she is still likely holding a lot of self loathing for her powers and what its done to people. So I wanna say that Eri is a great example of the cute young child character with a tragic backstory to make the audience care about protecting her, because she actually really needs it.
I know, kinda a wierd tangent, but with some recent shit in other series, some child characters just seem to exist to be cute after theirĀ ātragicā backstory and it bugs me.
And our chapter ends, with Deku giving a vote of confidence that she will one day control her powers and he to vows heāll do the same.
Post Chapter Follow Up: This chapter was great. Last week I had some issues, mainly because this recent arc kinda has the same problem as the Overhaul arc. Namely, it starts off really strong, has a contender for one of the greatest moments in the series, then a twist out of left field happens and the entire few chapters become a total cluster fuck. Which while last week, we were all happy for Shinsou and Uraraka, but how that arc concluded was still a bit of a disappointment when you saw how it was going before.
This chapter however, was a perfect little epilogue.
Positives are all of the character work from Todoroki and Endeavor, to Deku and All Mightās dynamic shift with the introduction of Bakugou, to Eri and Deku etc. I also wanna say this chapter is full of content, yet it is paced wonderfully.
Nothing feels too long, nothing feels too short. It also manages to start setting some stuff for the future. But nothing so obvious that its like, āThis is what the next arc will be about!ā no this was a self contained little chapter and I really enjoyed that.
I have no negatives for this chapter. Any that I could think of, I might blame that on more just what came before this chapter, but its nothing that it could fix or change right now.
Final Verdict: 10/10
While I have issues with the last third of the joint exercise arc, this chapter on its own is still a great epilogue to it
Great bits of character
Great bits of development
Hints of foreshadowing
Just all around good
#my hero academia 217#my hero academia chapter 217#mha 27#bnha 217#boku no hero academia 217#deku midoriya#izuku midoriya#bakugou katsuki#all might#toshinori yagi#kirishima eijirou#aizawa shouta#tetsutetsu tetsutetsu#tenya iida#uraraka ochako#class 1-a#class 1-b#monoma neito#kendou itsuka#eri#mirio togata#chisaki kai#kinoko komori#tokoyami fumikage#momo yaoyorozu#mina ashido
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PARK CHANYEOL: CATCH FEELINGS.
Pairing: park chanyeol x reader. Genre: fluff, mild angst, lots of running, some use of the weed so yeah. Word count: 2,7k+ a/n: holy moly guys its been too long, i donāt think ive posted anything this year and thats a crime. i really do have a poly!chanbaek series in my drafts but it aināt even close to be finished, along witht he 12 other wips including a CEO!JUMNYEON one that really put me throughout it while i was writing it. please take this small offering as my humble apology and tell me what you thought if you feel like it, yeah enjoy guys, sorry for the hiatus.
There were plenty things you were talented at; making the perfect cup of coffee, getting your winged eyeliner symmetrical on the first try and always having the most crowd-friendly playlist so that everyone heard something that they could appreciate. One thing that didn't make the list of āthings you were talented atā was navigating normal human emotions, especially of the romantic variety. A rather large thing to be left off of the list but there was little you could do to remedy it when your solution for dealing with complex and heavy emotions had always been to shut down and high tail it out of the situation as quickly as possible. It was just how you coped and was probably the reason as to why you had never participated in any sort of relationship with another person aside from ones of a platonic nature and you had only recently become comfortable with the responsibility of just being a friend to someone fairly recently.
Which was why you could literally feel your body preparing to bolt as your brain finally finished processing that this shit was real and you were currently being confessed to the Park Chanyeol.
āSoā¦.. what do you say?ā Chanyeol finally prompted, taking a small beat of silence to recover from his initial admittance.
The unbridled look of expectancy and emotional transparency in his eyes was making your skin crawl and your palms sweat. What do you say to one of the most unapologetically sincere people after theyāve exposed their most intimate feeling for you to you? Definitely not run for the closest exit without a single word, definitely not that.
Which was why that was definitely what you were currently doing.
You had reached the front door of Chanyeolās apartment before you even realised you were moving. Completely disregarding all reason and common sense as you yanked open the door, halfway down the stairwell before Chanyeol could even reach the hallway, shouting your name as you kept up your rapid movement. You werenāt even sure where you were going, especially as you hadnāt had the time to ask Chanyeol as to why you were even in his apartment in the first place before he unloaded all that feeling shit onto you.
All you could recall from the previous night was drinking one too many of Baekhyunās homemade concoctions before nuzzling into Chanyeolās shoulder, giggles spilling for your lips as you blindly reached for the joint in his hand and then there was nothing, nothing until you were coming to, bundled within the cosy confines of Chanyeolās bed. You felt slightly ambushed by Chanyeolās confession to be honest, especially as he knew almost better than anyone just how tender Baekhyunās cocktail left one the next day and for him to admit that all to you, with such confidence and certainty. From what you could remember you even recalled him making reference to some admittance of your own as if you had been the first to start the emotional vomit train which you most certainly were not. There was no way he had been able to get any of the deep-rooted feelings you had formed for him over the past couple months of your friendship after being introduced at one of Minseokās house party. There was no fucking way that drunk you would betray sober you that way, drunk and sober you were friends, best friends even, they had each other backs when it came to bullshit like thisā¦..
Fuck.
You were on a street you didnāt recognize, panting as your feet burned from their harsh trapse against the pavement and it was the first time you took notice of your current state; barefoot and in nothing but what you could only assume was a pair of Chanyeolās boxers and one of his shirts to match. Lucky for you it was only six am on a Sunday which meant most people in the student district for going to be in bed until at least 12pm, a past time you should be taking part in which made you even more frustrated with the situation. What was Chanyeol thinking? Laying all this on you before 8am on a bloody weekend? What had you done to deserve this sort of punishment?
Things between you and Chanyeol had finally smoothed out to the uttermost state of comfort and ease, with you recently falling into the pleasant routine of seeing each other on a daily basis while blatantly ignoring the more than platonic feelings you had for each other. It had been perfect! But now you were under the suspicion that drunk you had gone and ruined all of that by giving Chanyeol the impression that it was somehow okay for your relationship to be escalated. No. You werenāt ready to fuck up things with Chanyeol yet and thatās what always happened when things started getting romantic.
Suddenly emotional dependency would be a thing and your self-esteem was so tightly wired to the other person that if they were doing the slightest thing to injure your self-worth it instantly caused you to fall apart. It was frightening, the amount of responsibility you held for the other personās emotional state when you were in a Ā relationship which was why you could never understand those who were able to just jump start into a partnership with another person. Werenāt they worried that they were making themselves too vulnerable? Or werenāt they concerned with the fact that they were now emotionally responsible for another person?
āShit,ā the explicit slipped from your lips before you even comprehended it as you tugged at the roots of your hair in your typical show of stress. āThis is bad.ā
The elderly lady walking her poodle gave you a bizarre glance as you continued to mutter yourself but you were too personally concerned to muster embarrassment. You did take a moment to imagine what you looked like to any local bystander, quite clearly wearing clothes that did not belong to you or your gender, grabbing your hair like an absolute loon; not to mention the lack of feet coverings, but that wasnāt your main worry right now. You were more focused on trying to summon some sort of recollection from the evening before because your brain had now latched onto something Chanyeol had let slip during his admittance and you couldnāt let it go.
āI wasnāt going to say anything until I was sure you felt the same, but after last night Iām sure.ā
Last night, Last night, what the fuck did you say last night?
Only flickers were coming back, like a constant shifting dream. You summoned glimpses of holding onto Chanyeol, of your obnoxiously loud laugh as you found something Baekhyun had said far more entertaining than it actually was of you snuggling into the weight of his arm draped over your shoulders, of your head cradled into his neck as he carried you somewhere, probably to his room where you had woken up only minutes prior. But there were fragments missing and there was a smudged scene you just couldnāt recall as you pressed your fingers to your throbbing temples in an attempt to magically bring it forth for the recesses of your shell shocked bewildered brain.
And then like a wave, it flooded back.
You and Chanyeol were standing outside of one of the many convenience stores that littered the corners of his neighbourhood. Presumably, you had just left Baekhyunās place and under the further assumption you had stopped for Chanyeol to buy some water for your drunk ass if the water bottle in his hand was anything to go off of. You had been left outside to lean on a pole for the safety of yourself and the contents of the cramped store. During his mission throughout the store, you had been in a heated dispute with the pole, that as most likely a lamp post, had started moving in attempts to shrug you off from your means of support. Fucking asshole.
Upon Chanyeolās return to collect you, your brain had decided that it was time to just spout everything out.
āAre you serious right now?ā Chanyeol gaped, mouth parted in utter disbelief.
You giggled, stumbling in your spot as you reached forward to boop his noise as you struggled to keep yourself from not swaying, āOf course Iām being serious.ā
āYouāre not fucking with me right?ā He further pushed for confirmation, as if what you had just revealed was so absurd that it had to be double checked. āIs really happening right now?ā
āYou bet your sweet ass it is,ā You crooned, absolutely thriving in the grip Chanyeol instantly placed on your forearms to keep you from staggering, āShould I repeat it so youāre sure?ā
āIf you wouldnāt mind,ā He admitted, āIām having a hard time convincing myself that this isnāt some sort of dream or something.ā
āOkay,ā Suddenly you were summoning your best impression of sober you, an expression of complete seriousness masking your face as you straightened and stood firm, āI fucking like you Park Chanyeol, in a romantic way, and I would like to be with you, in a romantic way. If youāre cool with that.ā
You caught the look of absolute flabbergast on Chanyeolās face even through your alcohol fogged perception and it made a shrill laugh rumble from your chest as you reached to pinch his cheek, āYouāre so fucking handsome you know that? Itās one of the things I like about you, that and everything else, obviously.ā
āI canāt believe that this is actually a thing right now.ā
āSoā¦. what do you say?ā
Chanyeol had never hated the maze-like nature of Seoul neighbourhoods as much as he did right now. There were too many possible turns you might have taken in your unexpected mad dash and he found himself all but sprinting down every viable option that you could have possibly reached in the amount of time since you had sprinted off. He somewhat wished that he had been told just how fucking fast you were when you wanted to get away from something because holy shit one moment you were there and then the next you were just gone.
He knew it was a fucking stupid idea to bombard you with all of that so early in the morning but he couldnāt help it. He had been waiting for some sort of sign that you liked him back for some long so when he finally was given what he had taken as solid, unquestionable evidence he hadnāt been able to stop himself for letting it all at as soon as you showed your first signs of consciousness he. If he had known you were going to react in the way you did, I.e fucking bolting, he would have kept it to himself until at least after a cup of coffee and some weed to mellow out the situation. Instead, he had been an idiot and now he was left to search you, again, like an idiot.
He was on the cusp of giving up now, of resigning himself to the fact that your confession was a moment of drunk madness and you had simply come to your sense and realised that did in fact not fucking like him in a romantic way. He was also prepared to further resign himself to the fact that you were probably now too freaked out and would most likely never speak to even again which would result in him moping around for a while before having to eventual move on and suffer the awkwardness of seeing you at group gathering.
And then he saw you, still half dressed in his clothes, shoeless and squat down on the step of an apartment building with the most concerned expression on your face that he had ever seen. He was almost tempted to turn back, to avoid the discomfort and embarrassment that would ensue during the course of this conversation.
Iām sorry Chanyeol, I was drunk, I donāt actually feel that way about you.
And he wouldnāt even be able to be mad at you because hell he had said plenty of things that he didnāt mean while drunk. For example, the time he tried to seduce Baekhyun into sleeping with him after one too many soju bombs, only to wake up the next morning thoroughly glad that his friend had taken a pass because he wasnāt 'into Chanyeol that way,ā a wounding comment but a relief in retrospect.
But this needed to be done, this needed to be solved so you could both move on with your lives. So Chanyeol took a deep breath and uttered your name.
Your reaction was immediate, head snapping up from its hunch as your eyes widened to saucers and you scrambled to your bare feet.
āChanyeol,ā You spoke in a similar flustered fashion as he minimised the space between you two.
āHi,ā He responded as you simply blinked at him.
There was a beat of silence as you both just stared at one another before you were both compelled to speak.
āIām sorry, letās just forget about it-ā
āI say yes-ā
It was only a moment after Chanyeol had spoken his own apology that his brain actually realised what you had said. Yes. Yes to what? To never seeing him again? Yes, you didnāt feel the same? Or yes to his previous question.
Do you want to be with me?
āIām sorry,ā He repeated but this time for a completely separate purpose of you clarifying yourself, āWhat?ā
āI say yes,ā You reaffirmed, more confidence in your tone this time around. āI do want to be with you.ā
āAre you serious?ā Chanyeol felt as if last night was simply repeating itself as he gaped at you.
āYes. Iām serious. Though I have to warn you Iām not really good at this whole romantic thing and holy fuck Iām absolutely terrified right now but I also know that I really fucking like you and I think itās time that I stop being afraid of that and that I actually just fucking try something for once in my-ā
He couldnāt help but reach out for your, hand finding a gentle perch on your forearm so that you actually looked him in the eye instead of the pavement you had suddenly found extremely interesting. āThank you.ā
Confusion flashed through your eyes, āFor what?ā
āFor deciding that I was worth trying.ā
āWhat do you mean worth trying?ā You scoffed back, āYouāre more than worth it, you deserve way fucking more than my dysfunctional, the emotionally stunted ass can give you, really I should be the one thanking you because reall-ā
You were cut off by the plush of Chanyeoulās lips against yours, a cliche move to silence your rambling but one you instantly reciprocated as heat bloomed in your chest. You hadnāt fully realised just how much you had been aching for this until now until there was suddenly a purr of content coming from the cavity that pumped blood throughout your body and never failed to tell you where you were flustered or overwhelmed.
It felt like eons later and yet not long enough when Chanyeol finally pulled back, a smile on his lips, āAre you done running away now?ā
A snorted laugh escaped you as you rolled your eyes, āFor now at least.ā You reached up to yet again boop his nose, āgot keep things exciting somehow.ā
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Welcome to the Order of the Phoenix, Beth!
You have been accepted for the role of SIRIUS BLACK with the faceclaim of Jade Hassoune! We really enjoyed your discussion of Siriusā relationships, particularly how his adult relationships (both negative and positive) have shaped his life. We also loved his biases and privileges section and thought it showed both strengths and flaws! We are so excited to have you as part of this roleplay!
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OUT OF CHARACTER:
NAME: Beth
AGE: 24
TIMEZONE: CST
ACTIVITY LEVEL: I do work full time, but having a strong writing community is important to me and something that I actively make time for. Even on a bad week, Iāll check in at least two or three times to write, and I try to be around when I can to check the dash and talk even if I donāt have time for a reply. Also, I am that person who goes on semi-hiatus during a particular season and still tries to make regular activity because itās important to me to try and stay on top of owed replies.
ANYTHING ELSE: I have no major triggers or squicks.
CHARACTER DETAILS:
NAME: Sirius Black
AGE: 21
GENDER, PRONOUNS, and SEXUALITY: Cis-male, He/Him. Sirius is bisexual, and while it isnāt something he hides, it also isnāt something he advertises. Heās been accused of being willing to flirt with anything that moves. While he finds that accusation unfair, he knows itās not always untrue.
BLOOD STATUS: Pureblood
HOUSE ALUMNI: Gryffindor
ANY CHANGES: I would like to request an FC change to Jade Hassoune. I have a few reasons for this. The lazy one is that I already have gifs for him. That said, I think he can bring an interesting range for Sirius because some of his gifs are a little more brooding while others are big and expressive. He has a certain edge to most of the characters he has played that can work for situations where Sirius is being defiant or stubborn. I also like that because he is a person of color, it continues the tradition of taking what JKR gave us and making it more diverse. Plus, he has the hair (well, had) and effortless looks Sirius is known for.
CHARACTER BACKGROUND:
PERSONALITY:
Sirius has always been too big for some people to handle, and his response has always been that it isnāt his problem. Toning himself down for a situation is easier said that done, especially given Siriusā tendency to speak first and think after. That impulsiveness has been there since he was young, and it can be a big disadvantage to him, especially when combined with his stubbornness. Sirius will say something without thinking of consequences, then dig in his heels about whatever it was rather than admit he might be wrong. This also means that heāll sometimes go in-depth with planning for something that started out as a joke comment. He doesnāt know when to quit.
Choosing to instead focus on the positive, Sirius would argue that he isnāt impulsive but rather instinctual. He doesnāt always think things through before he does them, but that has worked out well for him, especially during duels.
Sirius would consider himself incredibly loyal, but the shadow side of that might be that Sirius can be a bit possessive. He makes strong assumptions that such loyalty will always be reciprocated, and he has a hard time understanding when that isnāt the case.
It frustrates him greatly that it feels like people around him focus on his flaws and donāt appreciate his strengths because heās a fairly gifted duelist and fast thinker. Plus, his transfiguration skills are pretty great. Sirius never had to study in school because things came easy to him, and now that heās out of school, it seems like everyone else is still āstudyingā at war when Sirius just wants to make a decision and go do.
Sirius doesnāt have a lot of patience for time or for people. When he gets frustrated or otherwise emotionally overwhelmed, it tends to make him rash and angry. Sirius would respond to one of his friends getting hurt, for example, by shouting at whoever their patrol partner was that should have been protecting them. He knows heās no diplomat, but Sirius spent his formative years purposefully being the opposite. He canāt suddenly change it now.
BRIEF OVERVIEW OF FAMILY: (child abuse tw, but itās minimally referenced)
Sirius spent his early days fighting against anything and everything. His father was once someone Sirius looked up to, but he doesnāt remember a time now of it being fondly. Instead Orion was someone to look at with fear, someone to flinch away from when he raised his voice or his hand. Sirius didnāt always know what he did wrong in those early days, but he quickly learned that sometimes it was better to be wrong on purpose because at least it felt earned. His mother was just as bad but in different ways. Sirius tended to hear her screaming more often, but he flat out ran once when he was nine because he knew one of her punishments was coming. Walburga was more creative than her husband, but she was also more of a perfectionist. Thanks to her, Sirius felt policed constantly.
His only shelter in those days was Regulus. Most days it was the two of them against the world. Ā They didnāt always publicly get along, especially when Siriusā antics landed them both in trouble. Still, they had each other on nights when it hurt to be alone or the nightmares crept in. They could sit side by side in the dark and whisper about what life would be like someday Ā when they had magic of their own. Hogwarts changed everything for Sirius, and while that was mostly positive, it unfortunately meant that he lost Regulus. He couldnāt talk to his brother anymore; the language was gone. Even over the summers, things could never be the same. When Sirius ran away, he didnāt even tell Regulus he was going (although to be fair, he didnāt realize he was until a moment blew up too big with his parents to ever turn back). While he spent the rest of the summer wishing he had, the two didnāt even look at each other when they were first in the Great Hall together again at school. That childhood bond felt like it had finally severed completely.
The one person who seemed to humor Sirius at family events when he was young was Uncle Alphard, who always stuck out just a little bit. Sirius remembered hearing whispered about how Alphard was āpeculiar,ā which wouldnāt have been a problem, except that he wouldnāt put duty first and produce an heir, which was a problem to a family as obsessed with legacy as the Blacks. Sirius had loved to hide in his shadow to avoid Orion and Walburga. He died a year after Sirius ran away, but Sirius had never imagined heād be left Alphardās fortune.
He immediately tried to use that fortunate to try and pay back the Potters for taking him in. While heād suspected they wouldnāt accept anything, it choked up Sirius that they insisted that would be taking money from family. In many ways, Sirius considers James as much a brother as Regulus. Maybe they didnāt have the childhood history, but they had the important stuff. They had shared values and adventures, similar ideas and likeminded attitudes. At least they used to. Some days Sirius isnāt sure he knows who James is anymore. He doesnāt know what happened to the carefree James he used to know. Regardless, he isnāt about to let him go the way he once did Regulus.
OCCUPATION:Ā
Employee at Florean Fortescueās Ice Cream ParlourāSirius has some money left from his uncleās inheritance, but he needed something to keep him busy. He has toyed with applying for the Auror training program, but Sirius rationalized that he can do more for the Order with a less specific work schedule. Plus, he is aware of his own authority issues and feels like that might not be the best option to push himself at the Ministry with everything else going on. The job might not seem very punk rock, but working for Florean gives him something to do, people to interact with, and a fairly easy schedule to slide around.
ROLE WITHIN THE ORDER/THOUGHTS ABOUT THE ORDER:
Sirius has always been a bit self-absorbed about his role within the Order. He has always known heād never make the inner circle, but he hadnāt wanted to. In school, Sirius had cultivated a careful rebel-without-a-cause attitude. He has a cause now, but heās still a rebel first and foremost. Of course, Sirius is fighting for muggles and muggleborns. They just arenāt his first priority. Siriusā first priority is fighting against the pureblood society he was raised in because he sees nothing good about it. The two causes arenāt necessarily the same thing. He often feels frustrated by the lack of progress because it feels like the people he grew up resenting just continue to grow more powerful. He sees no progress for the real cause nor progress for his own. Much of the time, Sirius would like to just do something big. If they canāt make progress, heād like to at least make a statement, but he doesnāt even seem to be able to do that. Too much fine print in whatās supposed to be vigilante justice.
SURVIVAL:
If you asked Sirius what his plan was for tomorrow, heād says the present is all that matters. Thatās how he lives his life in most aspects. No matter what the war looks like, Sirius doesnāt look forward and see a bleak future because he doesnāt think that far away.
Right now, heās living in an apartment thatās technically in Muggle London but as close to the Leaky Cauldron as he could find. He lives there alone and likes that only one of his neighbors complains about the loud music. He prefers muggle music, but the occasional wizarding rock album is similar enough to not give anyone pause. Sirius can mostly cook for himself, although his cooking does tend to be a bit basic. He can do pasta and protein with the occasional veggie when he feels like he has to. He can, though, make a mean cocktail, and thatās a skill Sirius has used often.
RELATIONSHIPS:
James was the first person Sirius had ever really found that understood him completely and totally. He saw James as this magnetic person he always wanted to have around. As they got older, things shifted, but Sirius never wants to lose that. Right now he feels like James is beginning to pull away and leave him behind. For what, Sirius isnāt sure. Stuffy meetings and worrying about people who take you for granted seems ridiculous to Sirius, but he tries not to say anything. James might act the part, but Sirius knows deep down he has to still be the same person. But Sirius has lost a brother before because of growing differences. He doesnāt want to do it again.
Remus is something that Sirius has always admired and thought the best of. Lately things have changed as Remus seems to make choices that Sirius doesnāt understand, and he also canāt figure out if theyāre actually Remusā choices or things being dictated to him. Sirius doesnāt like the idea that Remus is spending all his time around werewolves and wanna-be Death Eaters. Sirius doesnāt trust it and doesnāt like that Remus doesnāt have anyone with him to have his back. Lately heās had a nagging thought that he wants to push down. If Remus wonāt talk about it, what isnāt he saying? Whatās going on when the Order isnāt around? Some days Sirius is afraid to find out. Others he canāt believe himself for ever doubting.
Then thereās Peter. Sirius has always suspected heās too loud for Peter, too much. But Peter has been a loyal friend for years, always there when Sirius needs him. Lately he doesnāt see Peter as much, and while thatās hard, at least Sirius doesnāt have to worry about who heās with. Peterās too smart to accept a mission that sends him undercover among people with sharp dark magic skills and sharper tongues.
Lately Sirius has become enamored with the things Dorcas says, enjoying the lack of care in her voice. He remembers those days. He remembers when he wasnāt trying to temper himself to help James keep an image. She seems to agree with his frustration about the lack of progress. Her methods perhaps seem questionable, but in Siriusā experience, the best things in life often do. He wishes the rest of his friends would remember that.
OOC EXPLORATION:
SHIPS/ANTI-SHIPS:
I ship chemistry above all else. I really like the idea of potentially exploring an m/m relationship with Sirius but am really just open to whatever comes up with a partner of any gender identity. The only specific ship I am mildly interested in is Sirius/Remus, but looking at the bio materials, the at-odds angle seems like it will be much more fun.
WHAT PRIVILEGES AND BIASES DOES YOUR CHARACTER HAVE?
Sirius grew up being taught that muggles were inherently primitive and uncivilized, despite the neighbors sharing their very walls at 12 Grimmauld Place being muggles. He learned pretty quickly to fix his own perspective on that in school, especially when surrounded by supposedly inferior magic users like Lily who were so gifted. It was one more reason his parents were wrong, and Sirius did so love when his parents were wrong.
He had a harder time wrapping his head around the idea that not everyone could just decide to Ā be something different than what they were used to. Sirius always had a safety net to catch them when he was about to fall. When the final straw hit and he ran away from home, he had the Potter household to turn to, an equally pureblood, equally rich family who had the means to take him in. At a critical point when he needed his own money, Sirius received his inheritance from Alphardās passing. Sirius has always managed to bounce up when he was at a crossroads that could have ended disastrously. The idea that someone else could be in a tricky situation with an āobvious right choiceā and choose wrong because they didnāt have the resources to choose right is completely foreign to Sirius.
This sense of choice also fits into Siriusā opinions on werewolves. Heād grown up hearing they were nothing but savage monsters, but Remus had never seemed that way. Once the other Marauders had become animagi, Sirius saw the full moons as proof that while Remus as a werewolf was wild, he was still Remus in some ways. They needed a different form, but the wolf didnāt attack them on sight. The knowledge, though flawed, gave Sirius a strong believe that the choices Remus and any other werewolf made on a full moon could be changed with the right leadup and decisions.
Back on the subject of muggles, Sirius has tried to embrace muggle culture, but heās done so in a way that almost borders on fetish. He has spent time in muggle spaces, but itās usually bars, movies, and other places that give him some kind of entertainment or satisfaction. Heās embraced muggle transportation, even if it did mean tweaking the motorcycle as soon as he bought it. Sirius would like to believe he has completely understood muggle culture, but in some ways he still holds on to that muggles-are-primitive mindset without realizing it. He doesnāt think theyāre lesser; he just only pays attention to the things that can be of use to him.
WHAT ARE YOU MOST LOOKING FORWARD TO?
I love the concept of it being just the Order and the nuances that come from that. In the books, we see glimpses of just how much friction for the organization we see in Harryās time. I can only imagine the first time around when not everyone believed he could be beaten. Everyone has a slightly different agenda, and since this rp focuses so specifically on the good, it means more time to devote to complicating what that means.
PLOT DROP IDEAS:Ā
I have no specific ideas, although it would be interesting to see Sirius having to deal with family-related consequences, whether thatās something like dealing with Orionās death eventually or maybe the consequences of something anti-muggle/pro-Death Eater that his parents sponsored or created.
ANYTHING ELSE: Not that I can think of!
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When Love Falls- Tom Holland x Reader (Repost)
Summary: A mutual visit to the same park in New York City resulted in Tom fantasizing about being in a relationship with you. The only problem? He saw you, but you didnāt see him and you left before he worked up the courage to introduce himself. Now, Tom is faced with a particularly troubling dilemma: How is he supposed to find you again in a city of eight million people when he doesnāt even know your name?
Word Count: 2,719
Warnings/Triggers: None, just lots of fluff!
Authorās Note: Hi, everyone! After nearly a year of taking a fanfiction writing hiatus to focus on school and learning more about the craft of writing overall (Iām a creative writing major in school), I finally decided to revisit and edit my old fics using the new tools Iāve gathered in my classes. I plan on doing this for all of my writing to produce and publish the best art I can for you guys, so be on the lookout for some more pieces here soon! But, in the meantime, I have to thank @bicaptainā for proofreading and providing constructive criticism for all four drafts of this fic that I had. I appreciate you, L!
Most normal relationships nowadays begin with a simple āhelloā while standing in line to check out at the grocery store or liking a post on someoneās Instagram page. A dinner and movie date might ensue, or a long thread of DM conversations before a āgoing steadyā label or a change in oneās social media bio to āin a relationship.ā Itās the twenty-first century for Pete's sake; for a relationship to begin any other way would be peculiar and out of sorts.
But, to be fair, when had Tom Holland, or his life, ever been normal?
For him, your relationship began the moment he first laid eyes on you. He was filming a project in New York City for a couple of months during the summer and rented an apartment on the south side of the island, just a train ride away from the apartment was a dog park he discovered and frequented with Tessa, his Bull Terrier. The grass in the park was emerald green and well fertilized; oak trees that had to have been planted more than one hundred years ago spanned the perimeter of the park, extending up and into the open air, cutting jagged edges out of the atmosphere, begging to be climbed and explored.Ā
Which is exactly what Tom decided to do.
\What compelled him to perform such a task, he would never figure out, but he decided to blame it on a combination of his amateur parkour abilities and his boyish nature that was always poking at him to explore new places, no matter the risk or cost. On the first day he had a break from filming, he left Tessa at home so he could place his complete focus on the tree-climbing; he threw the hood of his sweatshirt up on his head and hopped aboard the subway for the short ride.
It was only natural of Tom to choose the tallest, most fruitful tree in the park to begin scaling once he got there. It probably should have proven more difficult than it was to get to the spot he decided he was going to make his own, but his early-twenty-something stature swung him up and about rather easily. The spot that he chose had multiple sturdy branches that sprouted out in all directions and provided the perfect nook to lay his blanket down and settle in with the book he brought, a book that certainly challenged his dyslexia but was too thrilling not to try and work through it. All was well for a couple of hours, what with the light breeze caressing his face and the warm sun shining through the leaves onto his skin, and he felt invisible, invincible, and at peace. He would have almost gone as far to say he was untouchable, even, like the anxiety of his career and the constant pressure of having to be something for someone all the time had completely disappeared. Tom was about thirty-seven pages into the mystery plot, thirty-seven pages into his blissful isolation, when the soft humming of an old Blink-182 song by a strong voice floated up into earshot.Ā
Thatās when he peered down and saw you.
You were making yourself comfortable with your own blanket and book at the bottom of the trunk. Your golden retriever, Winston, was laying contently beside you. That damn Blink-182 song had been stuck in your head for days ever since you walked past a hole-in-the-wall bar that was hosting their annual emo night, and no matter how much you sang it, some notes on the pitch, others off-key, you couldnāt let it go. So, it followed you here as you settled under the very tree Tom was nestled in to get a head start on an assignment for school and allow for Winston to get out and enjoy the fresh air, but because of the overgrown branches and monstrous-sized leaves, you didnāt know he was there. You sat contently for a time combing through your work as Tomās mouth grew increasingly more dry while looking at you. He knew he shouldnāt have been doing that, watching you while you were completely ignorant to his presence, but he was drawn to your aura, the radiating confidence, and gentleness that simultaneously oozed from your pores. Heād never experienced anyone like you before, and certainly not under these bizarre circumstances, either.Ā
How long his attention was gauged on you, he didnāt know, but when he snapped out of his lovestruck daze that had drool falling from the corner of his mouth, he realized he was watching you pack your bag and untie Winston from the tree to go on your way. Tom should have done something, damn it, but the thought of making himself known to you shrunk his confidence down to minuscule size and caused him to freeze. What in the world could he have possibly said: Hi, Iāve been watching you from up in this tree for hours and I think you are the loveliest girl Iāve ever seen, and I mean this in the least creepy way possible? Piss off. He could never. You wandered down the park trail and out of his sight and Tomās heart fell at the realization that heād never see you again.
If someone stuck a probe in Tomās brain and used a projector to cast his thoughts on a loop, that person would only see you. You began to invade every aspect of his life: Tom closed his eyes in the shower to shampoo his hair, and there you were behind his eyelids. He passed an extra on set with a hair color similar to yours and his vision suddenly blurred. He heard your Blink-182 song in his dreams and woke up to believe you were right next to him in bed, curled up and sleeping soundly. It was the spaces between moments where you came to fruition-- sat next to him on the subway as someone else left the car, working behind the counter at the Starbucks on 8th Avenue right as walked out of the door with his coffee, passing him on the staircase as he made the climb to the floor of his apartment. You were there until you werenāt. A moment in time Tom couldnāt hold onto, a figment of his imagination that flashed before him and dissipated before he could resonate that he wasnāt actually looking at anything at all.
āYouāve got it bad, bro,ā Harry stated over FaceTime one evening after twisting Tomās arm behind his back to get him to explain why he couldnāt hold a proper conversation with his younger brother. āYou saw that girl one time and youāre so preoccupied with her that you canāt even talk to me for more than thirty seconds before trailing off and drooling on yourself.ā
āI am not drooling!ā Tom protested although he couldnāt be sure, so he turned away from the camera to swipe at his chin just in case. No drool. A bastard, Harry was.
āYou might as well be. You talk about her like she put the constellations in the sky herself.ā
āCāmon, dude, youāve got to give me a little bit more credit than that.ā
Harry began fiddling with the cord of the headphones he was using to talk to Tom. āHey, I didnāt say it was a bad thing to feel this way about someone, man. I just think you need to learn a bit more about her to ensure those feelings are constituted. Maybe you should, like, make yourself known to her first and say hello. Donāt keep looming over her head and ogling at her like a fucking weirdo.ā
āJust how do you expect me to do that, Mr. āI Know Everything About Love?ā
āWell, for starters, have you considered going back to the park to find her? She may be a frequent flyer.ā
Tom sat silently, his eyes wandered off his phone screen in embarrassment.
āOk,ā Harry sighed, feigning annoyance. āLetās start there. You should head to the park on the same day and time as before and make yourself comfortable near where you first saw her. I mean, this is a total shot in the dark and you really might never see her again and end up alone forever--ā
āDude!ā
ā--Or, you might just get lucky and see her again. But bro, a bit of advice: If you do see her, the only way youāre going to form any kind of relationship with her is by making sure she knows you exist. Say something to her if you see her.ā
And somehow, by some crazy twist of fate, when Tom followed Harryās advice and settled himself in his same spot in the same tree on another day of rest from filming, you showed up shortly after to settle in your same spot under the same tree. Tom couldnāt believe it. He was genuinely at a loss for words. The sound of your familiar humming of the same Blink-182 song gave your presence away before the sight of you did, and just like last time, he froze in his spot, eyes fixed on you, mouth slightly agape. To hell with the novel he was reading; you were far more pleasurable a sight to lay his eyes on than any story could have ever been, and he immediately began to wrestle with the incredibly creepy task he was performing. He just needed to go down there and say hello, to introduce himself as Harry said, but because fear was coursing through his veins, he simply watched you again for as long you were down there. This time, you were on the phone with your mother, and through this Tom was able to gather a shocking amount of information about you, including your motherās name, your middle name, the latest summer classes you were taking at Columbia, and the fact that you have three younger brothers, just like Tom has, who seem to be knee-deep in their fair share of shenanigans, just like Tomās brothers would be. The similarities between your two families made him smile, but before he was ready to see you go, you were up and on your way again with Winston, the connection Tom felt a fleeting moment he wished he could make tangible and wrap his fingers around forever.
For the next few weeks, Tom stayed up in the safety of his tree where he knew you wouldnāt find him. Every other Tuesday seemed to be the day was when his filming schedule opened up and allowed him to find you at the park by the tree. Every other Tuesday, for the next couple of weeks, Tom would fight to work up the courage to talk to you, and every other Tuesday for the next few weeks, he would lose. This was how he came to practice calling you his own.
However, for you, the relationship began a bit differently.
Youād been coming to the dog park with Winston on a bi-weekly basis whenever you didnāt have to be in summer classes or at work. You would have liked to have visited more often; a one bedroom apartment on campus wasnāt conducive with the lifestyle of an energetic five-year-old golden, but you made do with the free time you had and Winston wasnāt the type to protest. There was a particular tree youād grown fond of (no pun intended) in the park for its sturdy trunk and strong frame, as well as the sweet shade it provided on humid New York summer afternoons, and you made it your temporary squatting place on the days you could make it out there.
On a Tuesday in mid-June, you settled down in your usual spot with a blanket to rest on and a bowl of water for Winston to lap up when he needed. The moment your back fell against the tree, you huffed, livid and nearly sick over the prospect of failing the physics test you took earlier that day. Science was never your thing to begin with, and why the hell did a liberal arts university require so many science classes of you to graduate, anyway?
It was a particularly windy day, so the constant rustling of the trees didnāt seem out of place against the bright blue sky, but it was about forty-five minutes into mindlessly scrolling on social media to distract yourself from your troubling emotions that you realized something was off: A shadow that was shaped oddly like a man was stretching across the grass in front of you. You peered over the top of your phone to look for the source of the shadow that was accompanied by the feeling of eyes blazing into your skin, but before you could stand up to search for the person that was causing your hair to stand on end, you felt a sharp object clip your shoulder while it fell to the ground.Ā
āOw!ā You shouted, your hand immediately crossing over your body to cover your already-bruising skin. The object bounced a couple of feet away before flopping inanimately, and it took you a couple of glances to register what had just come down on you.
āA book? What the-ā
āOh my goodness, sweetheart, Iām so sorry!ā
A boyish voice with an English accent coming from above interrupted the expletive that almost rolled off your tongue, and you looked up to see that it belonged to a man scurrying frantically down the tree. You started to stand while the manās sneaker-covered feet landed on the grass. He began dusting off his jeans until he realized you were cradling yourself in pain, and within that moment he came to your rescue, apologizing profusely.
āI was up in the tree reading and my leg began to fall asleep, so I shifted my bum and the book slid off my lap and fell onto you before I had a chance to catch it! Please forgive me, miss, it was a sincere accident.ā That boy was telling lies and you knew by the way his pupils dilated with every inhale of breath he took between his long-winded sentences. Even so, though, his dilated pupils were swimming in golden brown irises, and as his palms grazed the bare skin on your arms to offer some kind of assistance for your injury, you felt your skin warm at the touch and the adrenaline in your bloodstream settle.
āWere youā¦ā you paused, trying to process the fact that the shadow that had been observing you moments ago substantiated into someone rather handsome and quirky, āWere you up there watching me the whole time Iāve been here?ā
āI, uh...See, well, I, uh--āĀ
So thatās a yes. āHave you been watching me the entire time Iāve been coming here?ā
āNo! Absolutely not. You see, I, uh, I heard that Blink-182 song you were humming and I⦠uh⦠I rather like that song, and so I, well, Iā¦uh--ā
āYouāre a really bad liar, you know.ā
The boy stopped stammering and sighed. āI know how incredibly creepy that sounds, but I promise I wasnāt stalking you. Every time you left the park, I didnāt follow; I had no idea where you were heading home to. I only observed you when you were under this tree because I was so enamored by you⦠Oh my gosh, this sounds so awful. Jesusā¦ā
You giggled and felt your cheeks blush. āIs that slightly creepy? Yes. Absolutely. But is it also oddly endearing? You bet.ā
The boyās shoulders dropped in relief at the sound of your laughter as he extended his hand out to you. āAnyway, my name is Tom. I should have told you that the first time I saw you here. I apologize for the scare and for the bruised shoulder.ā
You took his hand and gave it a firm shake, the warmth radiating through you again.Ā
āY/N.ā
āāY/N,āā Tom repeated. āNice to officially meet you.ā
āLikewise-- Er, uh, sorta.ā
You both laughed and took a seat on your blanket.
āSo, Tom, have you always had a knack for climbing trees? You seem to be pretty good at it, seeing as how you got so far up I couldnāt see you.ā
He broke out into a grin. āOh, love, you donāt even know the half of it.ā
Xx.
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HS Epilogues, Meat p26 reaction
Well, we unexpectedly went on a little hiatus there, in our liveblogging. It's just one of those things you got to find time for doing, you know?
So, last time in Homestuck Epilogues, Dirk was present for Rose's ascension into omniscience. Although he did state he still had a manner of control over her, and was going to do something to anchor her to her living body. So, you know, they're not on equal footing just yet, in part because Dirk hasn't relinquished control of the narration to her.
I hope the POV switches to John again, but since we just had a page from his perspective, it might be going back to Kanaya? Or Roxy, but Dirk might not want to spent more time around her "unfathomable" mind than is necessary for the plot to advance. It's not something you'd relish, as a supposedly omniscient narrator.
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"Jade kicks her shoeless feet behind her slowly, as if sheās swimming with the current of the gravitational waves pulling her ever closer to their source." Oh! I didn't think we'd see her again, at least in the Furthest Ring. Thought the Black Hole had already swallowed her up. Though maybe as a Space player, and one with a connection to a seven-year-more-experienced version of herself located outside of canon and thus with more guaranteed conditional immortality than normal, she might be able to... resist getting thorn to pieces, as she crosses the event horizon? Unlike, presumably, every other being sucked into this thing.
"the ruby slippers are gone. She kicked them off hours ago, as if to jettison all hope of returning anywhere resembling a place she used to call home. The fond remembrance of such a place no longer has any pull on her.
Now, something else entirely is pulling her." Welp, guess the Black Hole is kind of hypnotic, ain't it? Or maybe it's Alt Calliope's strong personality.
"Believe me, Iām sympathetic to the temptation. Itās always just there, isnāt it?" To jump into the void? I don't think it's ALWAYS there for everyone Dirk, but thanks for the unique perspective into how your mind functions.
"Thereās something about being alone for so long, it makes time feel like it doesnāt exist. She knows this almost better than I do." ... Yes, well, Lonely Jade did, and it seems as if she might have taken over, or melded with, Reload Jade? So yeah, her three years of isolation would indeed have given her some inkling of the feeling of loneliness that Dirk and the cherubs must have experienced, being physically alone all their life. ... Right, of course her childhood on Hellmurder Island would have also done that regardless.
"Jade also knows well enough by now that time doesnāt actually exist in a literal sense, the way we generally understand it. Itās just one aspect of many, and the complement of her own, Space. It therefore can be neutralized by the introduction of her essence. Reduced to white noise or soft light. The continuum of time is therefore demonstrably an illusion. The field of sequential moments and physical conditions that stretch on and on, resulting in the mirage of loneliness, is pure projection from disproportionate attention given to a single side of one cosmic, polar pair of ideas: time." Ah yes, aspect exposition time! To quote the swamp bender: "Time is an illusion", huh? We're going that route? Well, sure, but for most people a rather convincing one, no matter what your Aspect is. Though it would be interesting to see what "disproportionate attention" given to Space would result in... Despite a ravenous Black Hole consuming an entire realm, I guess.
"Itās my way of saying, and thereby alerting her mind to what she already knows, that this feeling of all-consuming solitude and despair haunting her since childhoodāitās in her head." Like, I can only root for Dirk in trying to save Jade from whatever Calliope has cooked up, but he's still manipulating her for his own purposes.
"The ticking of time is a little contrivance in her mind as a byproduct of imbalance, of the vast disparity between her limited self and her Ultimate Self." So, what, his past is as real to Dirk right now as his present and future?
"It lives rent free there the way Dave once did, and for this version of Jade, probably still does." Funny how that points to this still being Reload Jade more than post-canon Jade.
"Maybe Dave broke her heart a little, and he keeps doing it too, no matter how many different timelines they try out." Okay, see? This applies to post-canon Jade! It seems to swing around from moment to moment, the direction the narration points into. Though, I guess post-canon Jade might really benefit from absorbing her pre-retcon selves memories regarding her relationship with Davesprite, to assess how to go about handling Dave on Earth C.
"She slips closer to the event horizon, still making no effort to impede her descent. My persuasion skills are admittedly a little rusty. Bear with me here." So very rusty, so very unused recently. :P But yeah, she's different from Rose AND John, so he'll need a different approach.
"In my experience, thereās something about being alone that can take a personās limited meat-engine and make it imagine that it can see beyond the confines of its own electrical processes. Make it believe that it is ascending to a place where it can see the four dimensions spread out beneath it like a set of windows." Is he... paraphrasing Jade's current mindset? Or his own, isolated on B2 Earth? Sounds also as if he's describing a medidative monk, kind of.
"Like sheet music. Like a garden, where Jade used to spend so much of her time with her hands in the earth and her head in the clouds, dreaming about flowers that bloomed in six colors and grew when she played them a song. Was that real? Itās hard to tell. But it made her happy, didnāt it?
Isnāt that what she needs now?" Ooh, so he's trying to persuade her to turn around by getting inside her head and trying to figure out what made her most happy. Being omniscient, he might just have a hard time distinguishing the important bits from the trash? He seemed to describe it in such a way, as if Jade might sometimes have been daydreaming in a way it overlapped with dreaming on Prospit! And so, she might have created a space for her dreamself that didn't stick to the confines of the dreamroom.
"Isnāt it reasonable to presume thatās the only thing capable of persuading her to slow her descentāto being invited to imagine, fake or otherwise, that which once made her happy? That which could still make her happy, if only sheād slow down, think about it, and do whatever is necessary to place herself in those surroundings again?" So, he's trying to shake her out of it by thinking happy thoughts. :P
"Itās possible that manning the other end of a suicide hotline, transmitted through pure thought in a metatextual format, may not actually be my true calling." (He actually kind of sucks at this.)
"Iām doing my goddamned best here. She just isnāt slowing down, for some incomprehensible reason." So, uh, what's stopping you from pulling a John and just, like forcefully move her thoughts to where you want them?
"Perhaps my touch is too soft. It wouldnāt be the first time." Said no one ever that ever knew you. :P
"Perhaps the limits of persuasion itself are being tested by the most powerful gravitational force to ever exist?" Now that'd be something! That a pure manifestation of an Aspect could overcome narrators of omniscient inclination.
"Or perhaps itās true that insistence is just the more effective half of persuasion.
So Iām insisting now." Took him long enough.
"Jade Harley will not go into that hole. She does NOT want us to all to see what happens when she unsettles the spirit residing there." So Dirk also seems to be convinced she's survive? Or maybe he thinks that, adding her to the matter inside the Black Hole, would upset some kind of balance.
Basically, he's like: "No, Alice, don't go into the rabbit hole!" and "No, Dorothy, don't look behind the green curtain at the wizard residing there!"
"she does, though." OOOOOOoooooohhhhhh!!!! Battle of the narrators!
Guess Alt Calliope's eon-long isolation, coupled with her Spacey thing, gave her the same powers as Dirk's. So that answers the question whether ghosts can grow into an Ultimate Self! It has interesting implications regarding Aranea and (Vriska), for one!
"Fucking yikes.
Jade throws on the brakes. I say she does. But by now, the gravity is overwhelming. Is she even trying to resist, or is it just that itās useless to try? Iām not... Iām not sure I can tell?" Wow, yeah, so here we see what happens when Dirk encounters another narrative force of equal or greater power. He loses the ability to discern everything. But Alt Calliope remains eerily silent, only 2 comments from her so far.
"Jade realizes, preferably before itās too late, that this is fucking serious. She needs to turn this around. She doesnāt want this. She doesnāt want to die.
she wants to return to me." ...? Eh? Does Alt Calliope see herself as THE Self now, devouring all other beings into some sort of hivemind gestalt? Or does she refer to the time Jade (either version) spent with Calliope (either version)? Seems a bit stupid if she'd mean that. On the other hand, it might be a childish response, a desire for affection so deeply rooted into the main Calliope, that Alt Calliope during her ascension absorbed it.
"All right, Iām done messing around.
YOUR name is Jade Harley. YOU decide, right now, that you do not want to die. You resist the pull of the black hole with all your might. What would killing yourself accomplish? Sure, most of your friends are dead. But John is still looking for you. Do you want to let him down? Do you want to crush his soul? Do you have any appreciation for what heās going through, Jade? He can take you home. To your new home, Earth C. The home I made for you, Jade. Your friends are all there, alive and well. Rose, Dave, Karkat, slutty adult Jade, Jane, Jake, Roxy, me. You wouldnāt want to disappoint them. You wouldnāt want to disappoint me, would you, Jade?" Well then!! Pffff, I didn't think a Strider could ever evocate "Stern Fatherly Disapproval" like Dad Egbert/Crocker can, but here we are. Let's just skim the implications of taking a teen Jade back to Earth C to live with adult versions of her friends, as well as Dirk's less than gentle tone here, and agree that her survival is definitely desirable, just cuz IT'S ABOUT HER, SURVIVING.
Still, you have to wonder what Dirk's ultimate plans for her are. I'm starting to doubt he'll be successful, though.
"Youāre close now, to the ceiling of the cancerous deformity. Too close. Just skimming the edge of this thingās vicious horizon." It's like he's describing the event horizon as a quantum vacuum decay, which for all we know in science, it just might be.
"You dip your toes through the place where the singularity is snapping everything apart at the seams. Itās so loud that itās completely silent. You can already feel yourself stretched thin, distorted, pulled out with your descent elongated for all eternity." I suppose there's no one suited for pulling her out at the last second, is there? No chance for Davepeta to make a last-moment re-entry into the epilogues.
Blaperile points out something significant to me: Dirk has attributed Jade the "you"-ness factor! It would be cool to have Jade come on par with John in the epilogues, but I doubt it'll last past this page.
"When you look down, the stripes of your witchy tights go on and on for miles. Please, Jade. Donāt ever say I didnāt try to stop this.
she closes her eyes and lets go." Is... Alt Calliope going to take over the narration for a bit here, on the next page?
We have three potential candidates for taking up narration at this point - and no sight of Andrew Hussie, the author avatar, who could have been a fourth.
Welp. Now Jade's really gone. I have to wonder what this means for post-canon Jade, who fell unconscious with the sight of the Black Hole seared into her eyes. It can't have been a pleasant thing that happened to her, there. I just hope Alt Calliope hasn't taken over her body like a true puppeteer, giving Dirk a run for his money.
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a (not so) mini astro analysis: kim samuel
*I will only base this on his personal planets (sun-mars) and a couple of aspects I have noticed that are showing / have shown throughout his activities in the industry. Itāll be unlike my other analyses because I want this to be direct to the point but also informative at the same time. Please take this with a grain of salt since I am no expert and everyone might not relate to him if they have the same exact placements.Ā
Sun in Capricorn, Moon in Pisces
This part will be quite long.Ā
This combination shows that he is truly one of those hardworking individuals who have big dreams, and I mean big. He imagines himself doing so many things for his future and takes every step to get to success. Being a Capricorn himself, he already showed us how much effort he puts in with whatever he does and, in comparison to those who are around his age, he shows himself as quite mature both in thought and action.Ā
His moon sign shows that even with all of the qualities of a Capricorn⢠in general, he is a softie deep down. He is affectionate and sensitive to those around him, especially ones close to him. He truly has a big heart and will make any effort to help anyone who asks of his help. Sometimes he might even think of others before himself, which he needs to take care of because if he goes too far heād end up being too much of a giver and could forget his own needs. He can get quite emotional too, but he restrains himself because he doesnāt want to be seen as vulnerable.
Thatās where his Capricorn sun comes, he disciplines himself and even challenges himself by juggling on things he wants to face while still young. He wants to get ahead on his future because there are so many things he wants to learn and do, even if he fails. Failure is a huge no-no to him. In fact, he sees this as a lesson to himself in case he were to do those things again or switches to another.Ā Even though he might seem quiteĀ ācloudyā for many, heās got good common sense. Actually, great common sense.Ā
However, seeing his chart he has quite a minor aspect that could be a little troubling on the way. He has sun biquintile moon. Biquintile is one of the more minor aspects (major ones are like those conjuncts, squares, etc) and is considered a quite more tense aspect thatās close to a square. He could have trouble expressing his emotions and what he really wants, which I can see because Capricorn and Pisces have obvious differences in traits itself.Ā
Examples of this would be, unfortunately I have to mention this, the fall of 1Punch and the finale of Produce 101 Season 2.Ā
Take in mind also that I am only explaining what had possibly happened to him and possibly how he felt, rather than what really did. Iām no fortune teller.
(what a cutie let me squish???)
Letās go with the sudden disbandment of 1Punch. Jaewon established himself as a very talented rapper after Show Me The Money and became widely popular. This also led others thinking of what would happen to Sammie whilst 1Punch was indefinitely put to hiatus because of Jaewonās activities AND move to YG-- Iām likely sure Sammie knew this was coming. He probably already knew 1Punch wouldnāt work out. He probably already knew Jaewon wasnāt satisfied with the idea of the duo or even wasnāt happy with the music he was making.Ā
Because honestly, itās unfortunate that they had to disband, but they possibly had no other choice. And because of this, many people felt that Jaewon betrayed Sammie to join SMTM and YG. Iāll be honest, itās slightly possible. It was all sudden, and with the reaction of their fans Iām pretty sure Samuel may have had thoughts of disappointment to not only the whole outcome, but also to himself. He felt very sad and very hurt from the result, but had no other choice but to move on. Pretty sure Jaewon didnāt mean to even leave Samuel and had talked to him beforehand about their plans, even with their company.
My opinion on this is neutral and I am sure Samuel just went on with the plans Brave Brothers had for him even though it took a while. I felt really sad that Samuel had to go through training again, but what can we do. Many people still thought he was too young to take on adult-like challenges when he debuted. So Iām likely sure Samuel promised himself that he can do many more things to improve when he grows older and learns more. He just strived and strived until he felt like he was it was time (or if Brave Brothers did).
Produce 101 Season 2 was a big step for Samuel. People were already aware of his (unfortunately failed) debut. But they saw him as competition-- he was already exposed to the hardships and struggles in the entertainment industry. So when Samuel was seen, other trainees probably saw how much he had matured both physically and mentally compared to the young child they saw during 1Punch. He had learned so many things whilst out of the spotlight (no pun intended he released a song titled SpotlightĀ before broduce badum tss LISTEN TO IT ITāS FUN sorry silento but no).Ā
He wanted to show that he was capable of doing many things even though heās still young, like I said. So joining the show itself was a very overwhelming thing for him. Weāve seen him grow, weāve seen how competitive he was, weāve seen how hardworking he was, we have even seen how people saw him as competition because he had so many talents up his sleeve, even ones that otherās canāt do. He had the drive, heās a quick learner, he knows how to build up the atmosphere. All of that, despite his, again, young age.
Letās get straight to the point-- the disappointment was obviously seen in Samuelās reaction when he didnāt get into the top 11. He felt vulnerable yet he really didnāt want to show how hurt he was to many people, especially his fans. Many were so expectant for him to be able to get into the lineup as he had always been consistent with his ranking within the top 11. But the result immensely broke his heart and reminded him of how 1Punch ended. He might have thought he had failed yet again despite all the hard work he had put just to be able to be active in the industry again. This hurt both his pride and ego, but again, he didnāt want to show it to everyone. He cried, he obviously did. It broke our hearts.
Now before you think about why I am explaining this, is because Samuelās sun and moon combination makes him slightly psychic but nervous. He might have had many thoughts ofĀ
āWhat if I canāt get in the top 11?ā
āNo... I must think positive! I need to show Iām strong and confident. I got this.ā
āBut something inside me still thinks otherwise...ā
This is common for those with tense aspects to their sun and moon. The sun shows our ego, how we want to show ourselves to the world. The moon represents emotions, what keeps us on the down low, what he truly feel. In Samuelās case, he mightāve had trouble trying to express himself fully at times. He wants to show he is strong, but inside he could be slightly much of a worrier than anyone thinks.Ā
In his mind itās like a battle where he gets confused easily on what he needs to show. Heās determined, but also nervous. Heās hardworking, but also slightly a pessimist. He can get things done, but he gets all worried right after of the outcome. This is common for everyone, even out of astrology-wise, but to him this could be slightly frequent especially since heās working in a very harsh industry at a young age.
But actually, this could actually turn into a more positive note for him! He felt that even though he could not get into the top 11, heād believe he also felt like he had time to do things that he wanted. He maybe also wanted to challenge himself again. To this, he gained even more independence and possibilities of many endeavors may have popped inside his mind.To sum it all up, he saw the outcome of the results as a challenge to a new start. And he loved the idea of it.
Letās look at the very bright side: he debuted, even had a couple of comebacks right after, gone into variety, did some hosting, even had a concert-- ALL on his own.Ā
This is a very positive thing for him and in comparison as to how he was being strained from doing many things and I think he was given even more freedom this time by his company through his hard work and persistence. He showed how capable he was of doing many things along the way after Produce 101 so of course, all the blessings have come to him. I feel like heās definitely more comfortable now
Some other traits he can get from this combo is that despite all of this, he remains humble. Thatās what I admire about Samuel-- heās hardworking and definitely has many things to be proud of especially with his achievements in his age, and yet he remains very humble to anyone and everyone. He doesnāt show off, but when he does, itās really out of his own understanding and achievement. His kindness his pure, he is softhearted himself, and heās very likeable. He has a sense of knowing things quickly but heās also innocent. He can definitely adapt easily to environments even though heās quite shy in the beginning, learning along the way is what makes him feel more comfortable and blend in.Ā
I see a very, very bright future ahead of him. This is only the beginning and heās still young, so Iām sure heās gonna take up so many challenges, especially ones that catch his eye. Pretty sure heās gonna be very successful along the way.
Mercury in Aquarius
Another placement I love from Samuel. Heās creative, sensible, but also goofy! He probably has a lot in his mind and majority of them are conventional ideas, like future endeavors and always thinks forward. He loves getting new ideas out of the blue and always tries to show it (this depends on his rising sign as well, especially if for example he has an idea for a future concept + wants to explain it to his company). But heās also likely stubborn (Aquarius is fixed) at times if people donāt appreciate his efforts in his ideas, nonetheless he goes on and just embraces new ideas and opinions from others to reformulate the ones he already has. Can also be impatient, sliiightly inconsistent as it is sometimes.
Logical, objective, straightforward thinking. If he has one thing on his mind, heās likely set to that thing and focuses on it without hindrances. Heās got sense of loyalty on anything he wants to put focus on. This also shows how he is a quick learner and is able to understand things easily. This is such a good placement for Sammie because he is also open-minded and innovative, people would be very appreciative of his unique and eccentric mindset. Heck, I wouldnāt even be surprised if he believed in aliens at some point.
Iāve met a couple people with Aquarius mercury and what Iāve noticed is that they have a very unique sense of humor. They can even be funny without even trying! Sometimes even their actions that seem like their usual self are what makes others find it humorous. Letās be real, we see him overexaggerate at times (look at that gif up there). Yet we see this as funny or even adorable of him. There can be times where we see him restrict himself from doing so (his Capricorn sun is a square to Aquarius, his mercury sign, but it is not shown in his chart / the orb is not enough for a tight aspect). Nonetheless, I think his progressive mind is very compatible to his straightforward sun sign.
Venus in Capricorn
Heās got a very good mindset and definitely has determination. He craves to get the best out of everything he does, so heāll put effort on that goal without worries. Heāll strive on getting on that goal, and he will always make sure heās gonna succeed. Heās a go-getter, so heād definitely make sure he can get things right. With his Aquarius mercury that is much of a quick learner, heās gonna be fast moving on his goals and heād probably get there faster than anyone else. Even with his ideas, heād put effort on making them into reality. Heās also dependable and responsible, very nice traits to have especially in his area of work.
Considering all of this, our Sammie is likely the type to want to wait for a while when it comes to love. No, not by any means heās got high standards (thatās definitely personal preference, by the way), but he want to learn ahead first as he doesnāt want to be seen as someoneĀ āwithout experienceā when in love. People think that Capricorn venuses are also the type to be all like āwork before loveā, which is possible. But heās young, heās definitely gonna fall here and there often, he just isnāt sure of himself yet and may tend to test himself or someone he likes if theyāre willing to commit to him. He doesnāt have time to joke around. He doesnāt find it attractive, at least to his standards.
Also the best part, heāll always remain loyal. Like I said, he may tend to test the waters first before he can say heāsĀ āreadyā. Heās young, heās got time and lots of it. Heāll fall in love, heād definitely get crushes, heāll get into relationships later on in life. But once he sees the apple of his eye, chances are heās gonna befriend them first before he pursues them. However his Pisces moon can definitely show a slight tendency of being shy, which I find absolutely adorable.Ā
Itād be like a fairy tale when Samuel is your boyfriend. Heās gonna be so loyal but also affectionate. May be slightly traditional, but his Aquarius mercury would definitely spice up the relationship (heād probably think of very fun dates like going to the arcade, even doing adventurous stuff!). By all means, he can get a little strict but not in a very irritable way, but rather he is protective and wants you to be secured at all times.Ā
Heās gonna be very giving and also considerate. Maybe at times, heāll throw out his own needs for a while and puts yours first. The important thing, though, is proper mutual understanding. You both would need to be accepting of each otherās positive traits and flaws. He can get emotional in a very subtle way, behind the public eye, so someone just as loving and understanding of him this way would be so benefiting.Ā
Also heās crushing on Blackpinkās Jisoo. Jisoo is a Capricorn. If this aināt the cutest thing ever.
Mars in Pisces
Aha, another trait that is quite visible. Heās rather shy especially because of his moon sign, even more with his mars sign. He can get slightly timid, sometimes having a hard time showing how angry he is. In fact, he probably hates the idea of getting angry and wouldnāt want to suppress it all, even though he has to at times. Heās got a lot of patience in him. Similar to Libra mars, he does not like arguing or anything that causes disruption. Heās all about understanding, definitely the type to talk things out than go all rough housing--Ā BIGĀ no no for our Sammie.
Heās prone to daydreaming often and is quite sensitive, even the smallest judgment on him can slightly hurt him inside. His Capricorn placements make him show he is a strong character at times, but heās truly and actually a softie inside. Very empathetic, helpful and always at service. Iām afraid thereād by times heād be used for otherās benefits, may tend to get dominated by others, or slightly shows he can be gullible so he needs to be careful of this.
However, this shows how committed he is to his dreams and aspirations. Along with his Capricorn placements, his drive is much more prominent than to most. He wants to make his dreams a reality and will work hard, even if heās gonna have to go the long way. This is also how how he is in love.
Mars in Pisces males love the idea of falling in love. He has probably thought or even daydreamed a romance you see in dramas. When he gets in a relationship, chances are heāll put his partnerās needs first before his own. Heād be cooperative and willing to help them out all the way. However, this shows hows truly committed he is. This is why I said itād be like a fairy tale when in a relationship with him.Ā
Heās going to be very loving, understanding, and would work hard for the relationship to grow and be like a learning experience for both of you. Heās also gonna give endless amounts of support, always thinking that whatever you both want to do, you both should do it with your heart and proper ease of mind. Heās gonna do his own thing, you can definitely do your own. Supporting each other is definitely a big thing for him.
Some aspects Samuel has that I have short explanations/interpretations of (and noticed):
Moon Square Saturn - may have experienced a bit of loneliness during childhood or was forced to have to be responsible/mature at an early age. (Being a trainee/part of then-Seventeenās lineup at such a young age, debuting quite early)
Sun Sextile MarsĀ - the honest and direct type, quite the type to be very into exercising, generally very good in health and is quite popular. also gives a very youthful appearance (baby face!! also shows how he is popular/friends with almost every PD101 trainee he communicated with)
Mercury Trine SaturnĀ - persistent, great means of success, ideas and mindset is in harmony with what he truly wants to do in life, dependable, loyal, very much going to be good for business ventures (how he was very persistent on joining PD101 in the first place, likely also how he decided to go forward/debut right after it ended)
Mars Square JupiterĀ - excitable, innovative, fearless and goes straight to the goal, talent reaches great bounds yet these individuals may have struggled with goals throughout their life (1Punch debut/disbandment, PD101 finale)
alright I think I typed a lot? I suddenly had the urge to write something about him because I saw Leaving the Nest season with him and honestly he was such a fluffball I would make him my baby brother :(((( I hope you guys enjoyed~ I did my best and hopefully this information can be helpful for some. I may not be 100% accurate but I really did my best. Keep supporting our lovely Samuel everyone! Ciao
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