#but i haven't completely quit

[bklynmusicnerd]

Did I miss your commentary on GH Friday’s episode? I usually try to get the run down on what happened from you because there’s only so much I can take. Some of these characters and storylines are just too awful to watch 😬.

Yeahhh no you didn't miss any Friday commentary from me 🙈. This past week was just so bad that it kind of broke me lol. Usually, I can have fun with some of the nonsensical writing and just get into the meta of the stuff I enjoyed. But this was just an overwhelmingly bad week to me.

I watched the ep, I just didn't have anything of value to say because it sucked to an unintelligible degree, like majority of the week. If you really need some in depth commentary for Friday, @burned-lariat was much braver than me and took one for the team lol. Next week is the will reading and Trina's paternity stuff so I'll be back on track by then, promise!

[benevolenterrancy]

May your hardened heart be woken By the soft and distant song Of all you left here unspoken All the shards we keep stepping on - Take this body home Take this body home Call the wind, and let her know Take this life outgrown Take this broken soul Call the stars, call them all And take it high, take it far, take it home

[sincerely-sofie]

Been slowly learning ASL over the years for my niece and I might still struggle to introduce myself or express basic emotions, but oh boy do I ever have the sign for every animal she's ever laid eyes on memorized better than my own name.

[roserunodays]

No fr since Kazui’s bday is coming up, if it’s Shidou AGAIN I’m going to get REALLY FUCKING SUSPICIOUS 😭 KAZUI MUKUHARA IF YOU HAVE SHIDOU KIRISAKI FOR THE 3RD FUCKING TIME ON YOUR BIRTHDAY I SWEAR—

[jugacolours]

[bigcats-birds-and-books]

Book Haul: Preorder Edition!

Apparently 1.) I preordered quite a few books and 2.) a BUNCH of them came out in early June. Very excited for these! Now catch me not reading them for months.

[the-bi-space-ace]

I have this really brutal image in my head of my clone OC Trick with his skeleton tattoos on display and his right finger tattooed now but it's red and dripping as if bleeding, on his knees, eyes wide, tears streaming down his face.

It's all I can think about when I think of That Scene in chapter 16 of The World Tumbles Down.

[holocene-sims]

next // previous

may 10, 2013 6:00 p.m. the entrance to hell

is binn béal ina thost

sweet is the silent mouth

[revserrayyu]

One HSR Character a Day Day 14: Dr. Ratio

[inkclover]

I'm perfectly normal about her-🌟☀️ TW: eyestrain, spooky eye peepers👁️

messy sketches over the pass week or so

[mollymarymarie]

Hey! Hope you're doing well! I saw on a post that you said you weren't writing wolfstar anymore. I just wanted to see if you meant like permanently? I totally understand if you are, but I wanted to ask. Hope you have a lovely day.

Yeah, that's unfortunately the case. I do love Wolfstar, I always will, and I will support my fellow fanfic writers and fanartists when I can, but I had kind of a negative experience on Tumblr regarding the fact that I still write for a series that was created by a transphobe. And I was already struggling with that on my own, so I just gave it up.

I believed that I was subverting her by using her characters to make a world more inclusive and caring and loving than the one she started, but not everyone sees it that way, and I get it. She's a garbage human. More so every day.

That being said, I would absolutely never judge anyone who remains active in that fandom, because it's a huge community full of wonderful people and I still think good comes from that. I still love all the friends I made here, but those negative comments/experiences sort of stuck with me and I just pulled back from fandom, in general.

I am still writing! (If you're into Jujutsu Kaisen and Satosugu, feel free to stick around lol) I wrote Wolfstar for so long, so exclusively, that the general dynamic and vibe of whatever I write is still going to read like Wolfstar 😂

[ottiliere]

Should I tag you or just mention your name when I post my hospital Dirk fanart?

oh tag it, I would like to see... can't guarantee a response but I do like to see when people make such things it makes me quite happy....

[disdaidal]

I wanna thank my irl friends who follow me here and also my beloved mutuals as well as followers who still send me kind messages and try to interact with me and my stuff even if I'm bad at doing it myself.

Honestly, things haven't been that great with me lately, so... it means a lot to me. Honestly. <3

[varjopeura]

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[wayfinderships]

He's so cute-agkdjgkdkf I love him so much💙

[batsplat]

casey also talks about sepang 2015 what do you think of that

oh in that podcast? uh... lemme listen again...

yeah idk it's not really anything new I'd say? he's said basically all the same stuff in more interesting and extensive ways elsewhere. I think casey inevitably has a very 'well feuding is bad and helps nobody' point of view, has expressed that before in the past, does it here again, and he's also drawn a parallel between himself and marc on several occasions. which... well, of course there's similarities in terms of public discourse or whatever, but the parallel really falls apart whenever casey argues the feuds cost valentino. like, I do think it's sometimes important to just. keep in mind. it's interesting that casey draws this comparison in his mind but that doesn't necessarily means he's right about this. I'm not sure how you'd argue that starting a feud with casey cost valentino anything competitively? you can argue it didn't help him I guess, and then we can have a debate about the ins and outs of the 2008 season. we can also have an argument that in a hypothetical world where casey isn't ill in 2009, valentino doesn't break his leg and casey isn't on a piece of junk in 2010, and valentino isn't on a piece of junk in 2011-12, then actually maybe valentino sparking open animosity with casey COULD have cost him. but we don't know that! didn't happen! I wish we could have found out, but we never got the chance! as it stands, the tally on this is pretty straightforward: casey won the title when things were reasonably civil between them in 2007, and valentino took control of the following season at the exact moment he worsened the relationship between the pair of them in 2008. obviously, it's all more complicated than that and casey would of course argue laguna didn't negatively affect his subsequent performances... but it certainly didn't help them. like, at the very worst valentino escalating tensions in 2008 is a complete net neutral. after 2009, them being bitchy to each other every other tuesday was completely competitively irrelevant beyond maybe affecting how they approached occasionally fighting for a podium position. hey, maybe casey used that feud to fire himself up through sheer spite throughout the later stages of his career, but that doesn't actually support his anti-feud stance - it's basically the exact same thing as what valentino does. they're both quite similar in that regard! always so hungry to prove a point, to show how someone else is wrong. kinda half the point with this feuding business is to get yourself going, get yourself motivated, yeah. he straight up openly admits to using yamaha's repeat rejection of him as a way of giving himself motivation, and at the end of the day that's really not all that different?

anyway, what else does casey say... oh yeah, that him and the other aliens were already kinda prepared for this and had learned vale's tricks. that valentino had only been able to get into the minds of the previous generation. welllllll *wiggles hand* sure, I mean, he did clearly have to change his approach... he couldn't just use the exact same playbook to get to them, either on-track or off-track. but that's why he did change up the playbook... again, whether you want to believe valentino won his final two titles 'in the head' rather than just through pure pace kinda depends on how you assess the evidence, but it is at the very least a debate. and, y'know, it's always worth remembering that valentino's most important mind games with casey didn't happen in a press conference... it was on the track. and the on-track stuff really is just embedded in how valentino approaches winning. speaking of aliens, this is what dani and jorge have said:

like, valentino's entire approach to his riding, even to the way he's setting his bike up, is deliberately about directly fucking with you... he's not actually always trying to be faster than you as much as he's trying to give himself the tools to make your life miserable, to pressure you into mistakes, etc etc... and again, especially with casey (if anything because he was so mentally sturdy), the off-track stuff was really just window dressing. (I know they bicker a lot after 2009 but it's just so fundamentally irrelevant to actual on-track competition.) so you can be aware of those tricks, but it also doesn't necessarily help you when someone's being nasty to you on-track in a way you just fully do not enjoy. which is what it was like for casey! for casey, a lot of this comes back to the truly unpleasant context of how he was perceived by the public, how he was treated as mentally weak or 'broken' or whatever partly because he had the misfortune of coming up against a bloke who had the reputation for breaking rivals. I think it's quite natural to end up with a bit of a hardliner 'actually I've never been mentally affected by a result in my life' stance - and of course casey is a lot tougher than a lot of people give him credit for. that being said. sometimes your rivals affect you, shit happens, it's part of the game. it's fundamentally a nice idea to think that valentino's tactics weren't just morally wrong but also ineffective, which is kind of the appeal of this narrative, right? you want to believe you're above that, you want to believe you were adequately prepared and wise to valentino's tactic. it's unsurprising and understandable that casey does tend to tell the story that way, but again it's *wiggles hand* also hard to describe it as completely factual

uh. what else. oh I'm thrilled casey does canonically know valentino and marc were friends, he has said he wasn't following motogp too much during that time period so you couldn't be sure of that. does this mean anything? does it tell you anything? well, no, but it's just a pleasing thought to me. I like that. oh also 'provoking particularly aggressive riders isn't a good idea' is kinda a funny take from casey? like, he of all people would hate the idea of being cowed by someone's reputation like that... casey's right that provoking fast riders can potentially be dangerous, but y'know I do think that's probably not news to anyone almost nine years later. um. that's all I've got I think