#but i have. and then i regressed. but now im going to start going forward again

[mihai-florescu]

How many weeks into a job would it be appropriate to start wearing my wataei itabag to the office?

[syr4h]

i need y’all to just like listen and be patient with me for a second ok…. ok……..

i’m a younger boy who has been talking with an older man for a while now. i’ve grown so attached over the course of a few months. he’s the only one who knows what i need, how to take care of me when my psychosis gets bad, what to say when i’m regressing, what to do when im needy. he’s the only one who can help me. he owns me, so of course he knows best.

over the course of a few months he starts telling me there’s something wrong with my body. something we can’t see on the outside but he just knows theres something going on. he knows me best right? better than even i know myself? shouldn’t i just trust him. it doesn’t take long before i see the signs. it’s in my arms and legs, i just don’t know what it is. he says he doesn’t really know either, but he knows a doctor who can help!

he plans a visit to the doctor, but it isn’t at the hospital. he can tell i’m getting more nervous (already anxious about having to see a doctor in the first place) when we pull up outside of a random house in a dingy looking part of town. he pets my hair and talks to me slowly in a soft voice. ‘it’s ok baby don’t worry. he’s a close friend of mine. you trust me right?’

i take a few deep breaths and he smiles at me, coaxing me out of the car. when he knocks, the man who answers the door doesn’t look like a doctor at all. he smiles at me and i can’t read his eyes, but something about him is so off putting to me. i keep reminding myself to just trust him. everything will be ok.

the doctor invites us in and gets straight to work, asking me to take off my shirt and my pants, prodding at my stomach, squeezing my arms and legs, pressing on my neck, and sliding his fingers into my mouth to “get a better look.” it all makes me squirm with discomfort, but i make sure to hold extra still when my owner puts a hand on my shoulder. the doctor has a pleased smile when i cooperate now, and focuses on my arms and legs.

he lets out a low hum and i can’t help but ask what’s wrong. the doctor frowns and steps away from me before explaining i have a rare disease in my limbs and they need to be amputated ASAP. the panic is clear on my face. of course my owner was right all along, of course he was. something was so clearly wrong, i could feel it so well now. my owner asks the doctor how soon we could have the procedure done, and he tells us to come back the next day and he’ll be ready to do it.

the night is long and i spend most of it crying. i need my owner to take care of me when im so scared like this, so unsure. the doctor told me i would die if i didn’t have the procedure done. that it was urgent i get it as soon as possible. i sob and sob, clinging to my owner and begging him to take care of me after. he shushes me and tells me of course he will. ‘you’re my little boy why wouldn’t i take care of you? everything will be ok, i promise. i’ll give you everything you need and help you in every way. you have nothing to worry about.’

the next morning we go back to the doctors house. his smile is wider than the day before and he leads us to another room in his house. plastic covers the walls and there’s an uncomfortable looking table in the middle. a tray with varying tools sits next to the table. a saw. scalpels. unlabeled liquides inside bottles and syringes. the sight makes my stomach drop and i try to back away, but my owner is behind me. he guides me forward, holding onto my arms and leaning down to whisper that i need to remember to trust him and breathe. i do as he says.

the doctor directs that i strip and sit on the table, so i do. i hate feeling so exposed to a stranger like this. my owner stands in the corner far away from me with a small smile while he watches the doctors gloved hands drag a marker softly over my skin where he needs to cut. he does my legs first, going over the tops of my thighs just above my knees before instructing me to lean back and lifting my legs so he can go over the backs of my knees, completing a circle around my legs. this part feels like it takes forever. then he moves to my arms, drawing the lines significantly lower than they were on my legs. they’re just above my wrists. then he turns to my owner and asks what he thinks, getting a nod and a smile in response.

the doctor tells me to lay down while he prepares a syringe filled with some clear liquid. i bite my lips and feel my body shivering on the cold table. i squeeze my eyes shut when he injects the needle in my arm and it doesn’t take too long before i feel drowsy and relaxed, unable to keep my eyes open.

when i wake, im back home with my owner. he smiles at me and brushes my hair out of my eyes. i groan and try to lift my head but i can’t. he coos at me, telling me how sleepy im gonna be for a while and explaining that he would take care of me now and the procedure had gone perfectly so i had nothing to worry about. i can’t speak but am able to let out a few squeaks and groans, to which my owner laughs softly and pets my hair. there’s a dull throb in my arms and legs.

for the next few months i’m like this. drugged up and sleepy. as promised my owner helps me, but all my memories from this time are hazy and cut in and out. he feeds me, keeps me clean, makes sure i’m not hurting too much, and makes me feel good as he sees fit. when it’s time to start taking me off my medication, i find myself panicking more often than not. unable to move freely by myself i find im completely dependent on my owner now, but he does so good helping me and keeping me calm. i don’t have a hard time adjusting.

one night i’m sleeping when i feel him touching me, groping my chest and running his hands over my body. i squirm and move to try to push him however i can, wincing when he grabs what little of my legs are left and presses them to the bed, spreading them as far as they go. ‘i’m sorry baby, i just can’t help it. i’ve been trying to wait till you’re all better but you’re just so pretty and i need to hear you when you’re all helpless like this.’

he’d fuck me while i cry, only able to lay there and take it. he’d do this every night for a while and of course i’d come to like it. i love any attention that he gives me.

[littlerainyghoul]

i saw your reblog and im here to say id love if youd write little rain with crutches

I'd absolutely love to! Sorry this took so long - I was really busy for a while hehe :]]]

Without further ado -

Crutches and Comfort

Summary: Rain collapses on the stairs, feeling regressed. Cumulus is there for the rescue.

Pairings: Regressed Rain, Caregiver Cumulus and Dewdrop.

Words: 1100

Slight CW for mention of injury.

Rain did not see that coming.

He started to feel small for a while when his legs started to give way. His usual confident and statured pose gave way to a shakier and smaller version of him. As he called out on his steps in his room, he collapsed on the stairs. 

“Mmmmmrph” Rain snuffed as he silently wanted to curse, his body descended on the freezing floor. He lay on the ground as pain crawled on his body, specifically the area where he landed - his right knee. 

Cumulus heard the drop and headed to the water ghoul's rescue. The air ghoullete's essence seemed to cradle Rain, offering support and reassurance. She was by his side in a matter of moments. 

“Rain, honey, are you okay?” She cooed softly, as she saw the collapsed ghoul on the cold, hard floor. 

“Mmmm, owie” was all that Rain could get himself to say. 

“You have an owie, Rain?" Cumulus eventually spoke, her voice raspy yet carrying an angelic tone laced with care and warmth.  

“Mmmmph. Yes” Rain continued to speak, his voice wavering with pain. He pointed to his knee where he landed on - "owie".

Cumulus gently lifted Rain in her ethereal embrace, carrying him as if he weighed nothing. Her form enveloped him, providing a soothing sensation that eased his discomfort.

“Let me see where it hurts, my sweet Rain,” Cumulus whispered. Rain winced slightly but allowed her to examine him. She gently laid them on the stairs as she examined their leg. 

"No visible injuries, dear" she softly cooed as she rubbed his knee, her touch gentle and healing. 

“Can...I have...my crutchies, Lus?" Rain spoke softly. 

”Of course, honey bunny" Cumulus stood up and disappeared for a few moments.

The room was adorned with a soft glow as Cumulus returned, holding the raincloud-stickered crutches. She carefully handed them to Rain, who gratefully took hold of them.

"Thankies, Lus," Rain murmured, using the crutches to prop himself up. Cumulus continued to hover around him, her ethereal presence radiating comfort.

Rain, with a determined yet cautious look on their face, gingerly placed the crutches under their arms. The raincloud-stickered handles were firm in his grip as he adjusted his stance, relying on them for support.  Each step was a deliberate dance of balance and coordination. With the crutches firmly planted, Rain shifted their weight. He moved forward tentatively, the sound of the rubber tips meeting the floor punctuating his efforts.

"Feeling a bit small there, Rain?" Cumulus inquired, her words dripping with genuine concern and care.

“mmm...yeah..." Rain murmured after a moment. "Owie. It still really hurts" he continued to speak, as shifted his weight back and forth.

Cumulus remained attentive, her raspy yet soothing voice offering a constant stream of comfort. "Take it slow, my sweet Rainy. We'll get through this together," she reassured, the soft glow in the room casting a calming ambiance as Rain continued carrying himself on the crutches supported by the care and warmth of Cumulus.

She leaned in, planting soft kisses on their forehead, each one carrying a touch of healing and comfort. 

"There, there, Rainy," she cooed, her voice wrapping around him like a soothing melody. "Let these kisses bring you some peace and healing. Now, how about we go on the couch with your stuffies and let you rest?" 

"Yay, Lus" Rain continued, as he tried to steady is voice a little bit more. 

Cumulus, with the same ethereal grace that defined her every movement, led Rain to the cozy embrace of the couch. As they settled in, Cumulus conjured a soft blanket, blue with rainclouds, draping it over Rain with gentle tenderness and ease. The room retained its warm glow, and the air felt lighter, infused with a sense of serenity. She took a seat next to the tiny water ghoul, as she let them wrap their arms around her. 

Rain, nestled on the couch with Cumulus, his head laid on her chest, as he heard her heartbeat, only raising their head when they spotted Dewdrop passing by. 

Dewdrop had a look of concern on his face as he witnessed the scene before him. Walking over, Dewdrop greeted them with a gentle ripple of fire that sparkled in the soft glow of the room.

"Hey there, Rain. What happened?" Dewdrop inquired, their voice echoing in the room. He noticed Rain shivering slightly, his eyes wide open. 

"Fell down the stairs. Am small" Rain spoke quietly, and gently, as he nuzzled himself against Cumulus once more, trembling. 

"Aww, are you cold, Rainbow?" Dewdrop couldn't help but aquire.

Cumulus, with a grin on her face extended a welcoming gesture to Dewdrop. "Join us, Dew. Rain could use the company. Besides,

you're literally a walking heater" 

Dewdrop, embracing the opportunity, pounced onto the sofa next to Rain, wrapping his fiery arm around the water ghoul and stroking his hair with gentle warmth. 

“Can...I have my...stuffie?“ Rain whispered, a vulnerable request that hung in the air. Cumulus, with a tender smile, gestured to the surrounding area, where the plush companions awaited.

"Of course, my sweet," she replied, her voice filled with warmth and understanding.

Cumulus conjured a shark plush, and nestled it beside Rain on the couch. Resting on the fluffy shark was Rain's favorite stuffie, a small water droplet plush with a smile that seemed to radiate comfort.

Rain nodded, a sense of gratitude washing over him. The trio—Rain, Cumulus, and Dewdrop—formed a unique synergy, a harmonious blend of air, water and fire, offering comfort and companionship. In the hushed moments that followed, the room became a sanctuary, where the troubles of the outside world seemed to fade away, leaving only the gentle sounds of raindrops and the ethereal glow that enveloped them in a protective embrace.

As the cacoon of warmth gently embraced the room, Rain, feeling the weight of weariness, snuggled closer to the plushie, as well as his companions on the couch. The warmth emanating from Cumulus, the soft glow of Dewdrop's body and the tales of resilience worked like a lullaby, soothing not just the lingering pain in Rain's knee but also cradling their soul into the land of sleep.

"Mmrph, might eep" Rain felt himself say, as he softly purred on the couch.

Cumulus, noticing the signs of drowsiness in Rain's eyes, continued to weave a gentle breeze around them, creating an atmosphere that whispered of dreams and tranquility. Dewdrop, with a soft crackling sound, adjusted his flames to emit a warmth that mirrored the coziness of a hearth.

With a contented sigh, Rain allowed themselves to fully surrender to the embrace of slumber. 

Cumulus, with a tender smile, extended an ethereal touch to Rain's forehead, planting a gentle kiss that carried the essence of care. "Rest well, sweet. May your dreams be as gentle as a summer rain."

[dragon-queen21]

HI ! back again, im sorry for the lack of closure of my last ramble, i was going through it and just couldnt write anymore (im fine now!) i apologize for that and all the typos. i didnt get to re-read it before i submitted it.

-Im actually half hispanic too! twins! but your right, i can definitely see ace being pretty good at spanish, and luffy knowing a selective amount. luffy can hold a conversation but hes not going to start speaking it fluently out of nowhere. all his crew can speak the same language, and robin is always there if someone else doesnt speak what they are, so he definitely wouldnt have as much practice as if he were still living in the goa kingdom.

-kinda odd hc but for some reason i also feel like spanish would be his first language considering his island would be located in brazil and then he was taught english by maybe garp? or makino? (or would it be japanese? sorry i watch in dub) and shanks was the one who taught him more of eng/jp (like slang, nicknames, etc) and ge eventually just picked it up more and like you said his spanish got really rusty

-imagine that when ace luffy and sabo were kids luffy tried to teach them eng/jp. it was actually going pretty good until the 3 of them started spurting out pirate lingo when garp was around.

now fast forward imagine little luffy with ace and luffy starts trying to teach ace eng/jp and ace is pretending to learn it all again to make him happy aweeeee

-Now back on captain smoker, luffy somehow gets smoker to carry him or hold his hand (the fear of being alone is insane) and smoker is PRAYINGG his men dont find him. theyd totally tattle on him

imagine luffy getting upset because they cant find his crew and smoker is trying his boy scouts best to calm him down. smoker is sweating BULLETS on the hunt for these strawhats (all of a sudden when he needs them theyre not causing a rucus) (smoker ends up getting luffy like candy or something to try and chill him out)

smoker gives luffy back to the crew and theyre all debating whether or not to tell smoker that luffys actually a baby right now (they end of giving him their gratitudes and booking it for the time being, knowing luffy, theres gonna be a next time.)

-i also wanna drop what if shanks were with luffy if he were regressed? how would that come about? maybe luffy regresses after not seein shanks for ten years and shanks is just like “this checks out” and treats him how he used to ? him and shanks’ crew all just chill with little luffy, i find that ADORABLE. (luffy and usopp regress together on the red force and yasopp gets to treat his son, like the child he left banchina with) (sorry im a believer that usopp doesn’t absolutely HATE his dad)

-babyspace luffy being babied by shanks (and the crew) because everyone in the one piece world just KNOWSSSS dragons a dead beat, and theres no way garp coddled this kid HE WOULDNT BE SEEN DEAD

wow can you believe this and my last submission was supposed to be about sanji? luffy stole the spotlight

okay this is getting way to long i fear, but thank you for continuing to read and answer my rambles, i mean when i say that it means a lot to me. and in your last-last reply to me, im happy that i can make your day. i hope these continue to do so. thank you so much🤍

and i wanna say this, dont ever feel that you need to answer my asks, i understand that i write a lot, i dont ever want to overwhelm you.

📷

Eh first of all,don’t worry about any typeos, have you seen my writing even proof reading I struggle man ;-; I’m just glad you’re feeling better <3

Second; eyyy twins!!! :D

~Mkay but I will raise you one, Luffy ‘teaching’ Ace swear words and then being like “bu’ you can’t say those cause den Sanji and Nami get angry if you says.”

“trying his boy scouts best”

<- XD I love that. Poor guy. The ONE time not a single thing is happening anywhere!

~Smoker offering to buy Luffy cotton candy when he sees a sweets stand, only has the regressor crying more, babbling something about a… Chopper??? And he’s so confused. Kids like candy. What the heck?!

~ I can imagine meeting up with Shanks and a conversation going something like this.

“Uh captain, you aren’t wondering what’s happening to Luffy or if this is like- a devil fruit affect?”

Shanks meanwhile with a toddler regressed Luffy clinging to his side

“Nah, seems normal to me”

~Usopp would definitely be shy around his father. Sticking towards Luffy and following his lead.

~Let Luffy be spoiled! He needs the love and attention that he gives others.

“Luffy stole the spotlight”

<- As he often does. You know I started a fic with Nami and Usopp and it slowly just evolved to just start focusing on Luffy. It just can’t be helped sometimes :3

I love answering these! I literally got home and was like :0 :D new message!! They don’t overwhelm me at all. As long as you’re okay with me taking a couple days to respond :3

<3<3<3

[milfhandholder]

Random Grell thingz I've accumulated in my head bcs I'm delusional but without context bcs I am going to write a legit novel abt this woman one day

Idc what anyone says, I am an avid believer of the fact that Grell has always been considered beautiful by her peers even in her human life

LIKE SHE'S THE MOST SOUGHT AFTER SUITOR OF HER SEASON, SHE WAS AN IT GIRL BEFORE THEY KNEW WHAT AN IT GIRL IS

She's so beautiful that the Victorians could've started kpop PC first bcs of her and trade them like actual kpoppers

Grell always knew about her being queer (minus actual label bcs Victorian era duh) but not about her gender

"Wait so you people don't fantasize about having boobs? Not at all? No?"

It was maybe 6 years into her reaper life when she finally got the memo that "hey girlie, you're actually a girl"

Her crisis went a bit like this: straight man -> gay man?? -> 'oh no I like girls too' bi man -> died LMAO -> 'I hate everyone and I hate my gender' questioning -> 'maybe I have no gender at all. I like girls though' (she was exclusive to girls only so I guess??lesbian?? Who cheered) -> transwoman questioning -> !! transwoman bi !!

Was in a 'lavender marriage' with a closeted lesbian for maybe 2 - 3 years before her suicide. Grell sort of fell in love with her but understandably never confessed. Fast forward to present time AND GRELL IS HITTING THE FLOOR, SCREAMING, CRYING

She had a lot of rage as a young reaper because she never really got over 'my parents suck' mindset that stood by her as she died

HATED WILLIAM. As much as I love the OVA, I will stand by my words that it would’ve been so much more interesting if Grell buried / was embarassed about her crush and acted like a dick towards him BECAUSE WHY, OF ALL THE MEN IN DISPATCH, DID IT HAVE TO BE WILLIAM T SPEARS

Mellowed out eventually and cool character development happened

Has more experience with and confidence in dating girls, she's very anxious (and perhaps frightful) about men reciprocating her advances

Being made "an experience" does that to you

Fun fact: she's the first and only woman William ever had a crush on. Good taste dude

She was projecting her ex wife A LOT onto Madam but it's ok bcs it was vice versa you see, Madam projected too BUT THEN THESE BITCHES TALKED IT OUT and everything is all ok and cool and OH GOD GRELL NOOOOOOOOO 😭😭😭😭

Speaks German and French, is the go to translator for German Dispatch businesses until Ludger (and eventually Sascha joined in as a bonus and a translator) was forced to sharpen his English

Now for the E discourse.... someone made a typo one day and she went with it

Grell: You see, when you go to France, they make you get a name in French. That's why I can go by Grell Sutcliff or Grelle Sutcliffe

Ron, an idiot who has never been anywhere except his hometown: oh shit fr??

Eric's her first ACTUAL reaper friend which is sad ngl LMAOOO

Firm believer that the reapers have mentorships for gifted students that started in Ron's year and that Grell was her mentor READ MY RON FIC, IM OBSESSED WITH THEM

Mentoring Ron (aka a few years before Jack the Ripper) was the moment where she was the healthiest, mentally

Then she divorced Madam, had a falling out with William and oops she regressed el em ao. Don't tell any of her friends though, they'd start annoying her to get better

People older and the same age as her are wildly terrified of her. This is in contrast to (most) juniors who are so in love with the idea of her

Harbors a lot of guilt, grief, rage, anger, jealousy, insecurity, narcissism, etc. She's just a good actress

Her butler persona was her mocking three people at once: her father's (brunette) appearance, her mother's wish for Grell to be more obedient, and Grell's old self that let people walk all over her for the sake of maintaining her family name

Her family is rich rich though she can't remember for what. She doesn't really care eitherway so

Can be very insensitive!! It doesn't help that she's friends with people who'd give the same energy back (Eric and Othello) or people who just don't care enough (William)

She learned how to hold her tongue when she realized Ron was genuinely upset with her rude comments. Ironically, Ron learned how to have thicker skin because of said comments

Likes dogs, sorry Sebastian

Good at fencing! Not much else in other sports!!

She hates sports sm, they make her sweat and they are tedious and they're exhausting and THEY'RE BORING

The only ranged weapon she'd try out is a gun.

She's no wuss

Yeah that's all that I can think of lmao

[marilysugarcoated]

I have no words to describe how I feel right now

All i can really make out of this huge messy ball of unidentifiable emotion, is my unwavering gratitude.

Thank you. so much.

objectively, it sounds dumb and stupid that I’m getting so worked up over the ending of a “silly minecraft series”, but it is so much more than that. To me, this represents something so much bigger, -a hard truth i refused to confront.

Growth is inevitable, and childhood does not last forever. I knew that- I’ve always known that. and still, a part of me had always rejected the idea of change. I’d always described myself as an optimist who was open to change; someone who embraced and relished in it. I held a firm philosophy in not mulling over outcomes you couldn’t control, and i did whatever I could to keep myself in that ‘healthy’ positive mindset. I knew that if I’d done anything differently, the girl from my childhood would wander farther from my reach.

Eventually, the favourite foods id once adored as a kid began to lose its flavour, (I’d briefly wondered if they’d changed the recipe) I began to notice the slight changes in my behaviour and body language; more tentative- almost insecure. The results from personality quizzes did not match with those I’d taken in previous years, I never really realized exactly how withdrawn I’d become.

Reality was rearing it’s ugly head, and we couldn’t have that, could we? -so, I desperately clung to anything and everything that was reminiscent of the little girl I’d grown to know so well. Subconsciously, i started regressing- I found myself helplessly depending on others, unable to go out anywhere without a stuffed animal, frequently putting my hair in pigtails, and engaging in more child-like activities, (at least, more than usual.)

These past few years, I’d felt as though I had lost my sense of self. I would force myself to feel and act accordingly to this perceived version of me. ‘Turns out that this ‘version of myself’ was just the girl I was before. Before the pandemic, before high-school, before I’d learned that the world was not all cotton candy and sugar cookies.- before; where my worries consisted only of stardew and genshin- before; where being happy was my default.

Watching the final episode snapped me out of my delusional reverie, and it felt as though Stampy had allowed me a sense of closure. I was beguiled when his video popped up in my youtube recommendations, not to mention the fact that it was his FINAL episode.

In truth, I didn’t expect it to hit me as much as it did. I mean, I hadn’t exactly planned on spending my saturday night sobbing to a minecraft let’s play vid lmao. Sure, in retrospect this really isn’t as big of a deal as I’m making it seem. And to that I say; yea. lol im even cringing myself out a bit, but hey, i’ve always been one for theatrics. ;)

But really; as I scrolled through the comments (still crying btw), I’d finally allowed myself to mourn, and confront the fact that I have grown up. I could no longer consider myself a little kid,, and that’s okay. it will be okay.

This is the end of an era. further more, it is the start of something new. The real world awaits, and i have Stampy (and others) to thank for the person I am today:)

It has been such a privilege to be part of this community of others raised alongside me, and to have had the pleasure of little-me experiencing the elation she’d felt when Stampy posted a new video.

Sincerely, thank you. Thank you soso much Stampy, for bringing so much joy and laughter to us many young kids— turned young adults

It’s been an unforgettable ride:)

Now, all we can do is move forward.- Take life as it is, and carefully construct our own worlds so that maybe, (just maybe,) they can become as lovely as yours has. ❤️‍🩹🐈

[a-milkbread-bun]

Manhwa~ The Emperor reverses time

Ok y'all need to get heads up about the FL of this manhwa. Because, She. Will. Frustrate. You.

This is basically a regression story, but opposite gender. Usually the FL is the one who regresses n mostly ends up leaving her lover or husband who mistreated her. Here however, the Emperor after the death of the Empress (ofcourse!) realises both the Empress's love for him and his own feelings for her. And the like the FLs who always get to go back in time as a blessing or apology from God, our ML has to pay a price for the time trip. But he doesn't mind. He vowed to make her the happiest in second chance he got. Mind you, he goes out of his way to do it.

Well, okay. You might say he mistreated her, he deserves it. Agreed. Even up till the 69th chapter, he is ashamed of his past self and is haunted by the then him. He seems to have mental disorders and borderline anxiety issues. He sleeps with a sword under his bed. Oh well.

Now our darling FL. Till the age of 7 or 8 Elizabeth was abused my her parents who tried to make her into a doll fit to become the Empress. She was whipped, forced to wear such tight corsets, that even adult women in the manhwa got horrified upon hearing. The ML, Leon gets her out of the hellhole along with the help of his loving parents. Who proceed to love the heck out of her. She was showered with love, in the palace of the Emperor than in the Duchy palace she lived. She deserved the happiness the Prince (ML), his mother, and his father gave her. At some point she started liking the prince and also felt a bit jealous of the fact that the little prince had what she could never have, namely parents and their vast love. She kind of avoids him until he fesses up.

Ok...

Fast forward to them in their teens, now her issue is that she loves him. She is okay with saying her feelings out for him, but afraid of getting rejected so kind of keeps it to herself. Typical red flag habit in manhwa characters. Ik it's for the plot, but I'm kinda done with this one trope. Anyway she confesses, and the ML is scared. Like obviously, duh. He literally reversed time just so she could be happy. What was the guarantee that he could keep her happy, of he couldn't in last timeline? Could he even keep her happy? Would he take away her beautiful smile? While the ML was confused about all this, with devastated expression on his face, the FL, Lizzie was quick to misunderstand him and also quick to think of cancelling their engagement. Leaving the ML, even more vexed if possible. Great move, honey. She mentally corners him, honestly, until again he confesses about his feelings. Twice. Not to mention he was taking care of an age old contract that appeared out of nowhere, which held a lot of sus stuff about ancient marriages that had been happening between the ML & FL's family. Power politics. Add an unknown brother of the FL with not so good intentions and his parents' life almost in danger to the mix, and voila! i say the ML has pretty much suffered whatever the FL had in her past life.

Does it end there?

Hell nah!

She wants to know everything he keeps a secret from her. Wanted to know about the contract, and although it was sort of a test that the Father Emperor gave to the prince to check whether he would be a good Emperor, the FL is the one who solves it, without even telling the ML. um... 😶

Another woman appears. This lady is also good friends with the Empress. But. But, her family is rebelling and to protect her best friend from a different but less popular family, she takes it upon herself to act like double agent for the prince and her father. Like Im still tryna figure out this woman. But that's not the issue.

Our wonderful FL, Lizzie, is jealous. But she won't admit it. Nope. Instead, she just assumes. And misunderstands. Who's surprised again? ik I'm not.

Like gahhhhhh!

She proceeds to think of cancelling the whole damn marriage this time. The vibes i got of her character were that, she herself is unsure whether she seriously loves Leon, but just assumes and refuses to change the beliefs and assumptions that she has about Leonhart.

Frustrating, i tell you.

And since he's taken an oath to make her happy, as you can guess, every time she threatens him with the relationship card and the happiness card, he will withdraw.

Y'all if this was villainess, we'd be calling her something entirely different, alright?! Like this woman really bottles up stuff, instead of talking it out. She will talk with the ML's mother but nop openly, maybe more.

With ML? yeah right.

The way I see it (I haven't completed it. i reached chapter 69, n just had to vent) he is quite close to being carted off to the psych ward.

My problem with the FL's character isn't even the wishy washy dainty girl attitude, it's the way she's manipulating the ML without even realising it. And she knows at this point, that all she needs to do for him to react is, give a fake smile (ML has trauma from her fake smile from the original life when he remembers it), look miserable, and then try to look like she's holding it together, and finally do the age old trick of squeezing out some tears.

Really. The FL of this one puts me off so much. She is such a sweet girl, when she wants to be.

[ghostfalls137]

rick and morty 6/10 spoilers / talk

i think like... a lot of this season was talking to the viewers as morty. Havent seen many people mention this aspect to it so I wanted to ramble lol I feel like most of season 6 was just set up yeah... people were saying how inconsistent the show was getting, and they decided to REALLY DRIVE IN CONSISTENCY bringing up old bits like sleepy gary and the butter robot. just a lot of the writers having fun yet also driving forward each character, as each character got their own ep this season directly, to add them all back to relevancy a bit more bc the show does, revolve around rick and morty. so it did that a little less this season

im all over the place here sorry lol I still need to recover from this last college semester lmao

ok so the main point i wanted to make, was in 'story train 2' aka the uh. the episode with Campbell that harmon DEFINITELY wrote. there's a point where rick points at the camera but is talking to morty and he was like 'youre what matters' to the camera aka the viewers. and the last scene in 6/10 reminded me of THAT. his ramble that he always does, the rick and morty 100 years rant, it was the writers talking to us, the viewers.

you wanted this. you wanted the dark backstory, you wanted the serialization and the focus on other character arcs. you wanted to see rick change. and here, now you get it all! you get what you wanted despite the warnings. idk I was baked when I saw the ep, I've gotta do a season rewatch and then a series rewatch again to trace it, but it felt DIRECT. that scene was the writers talking to the viewers. a lot of the season was, really? with the story cycle episode and jerrys internet famous arc 'when they start looking for shit to hate you for that's how you know you made it' yeah that feels like a harmon line for sure. i know there was a lot of internal conflict of what they wanted the show to be, but they seem pleased with what they settled on. this year alone harmon and roiland said that the show could easily go on for 1000 episodes. if one arc gets finished, if one UNIVERSE gets finished, they've created a setup that they can exhaust forever. they always wanted to be like the simpsons and tbh I hope they get a long run

but im VERY VERY excited theyre taking this turn, story wise, writers aside. its honestly the best way they've could have gone, I remember seeing the reveals and being like :] cus yeah. we got rick developing. we got rick regressing! we got to see more of the other characters, id say we got very nice storylines as well. i enjoyed it all a lot and I am very scared-excited for season 7. its interesting to see how many mixed reviews they get and how much bad writing criticism when I can literally trace their thought process for it... as this season showed rick trying to improve and grain mortys trust and respect, the writers were saying the same to the viewers. in a similar sense, as rick showed morty that he would always be rick and to watch what you wish for, the writers were doing the same. no more silly random adventures, were going full canon and you wanted this.

[bisexualbaibe]

tw drugs + sh + general negative speech

i’d typed out a really long personal post but i accidentally deleted it which just made my mood ten times worse. im just gonna write another because idk. i’m just so so so sad right now. the past two months have been a total waste. i blinked and they’re just gone. and once again i have done nothing.

i know recovery is one step forward two steps back, having bad episodes is a natural part of healing and growth, etc etc whatever. but i have been so disappointed in myself lately. it’s like all the progress of the last year and a half has vanished. my behavior has been so harmful and regressive and it feels like there’s no end in sight

my ptsd is acting up, i’ve relapsed badly on self harm, i’ve skipped therapy for weeks, i’ve been high literally every second i can be. i’ve started doing oxy again and it makes me feel “better” but that just makes me feel WORSE afterwards. how horribly pathetic that i have to rely on drugs to make my brain stop screaming at me to kms. i’m really worried my psychosis is gonna go full swing because of how bad my mental healths been.

the anniversary of the bad thing happened in january which hasn’t helped. all day i’m just thinking about sex and death and how doomed we all are. all of this is just compounded by the fact i’m a burden on my mom. i know i’m a disappointment. she deserved a better daughter.

[venomgender]

i was tagged by @mirainikki yippee!!

last song: the live version of endless possibility from the sonic symphony

favorite color: this question is so nuaced for me but i think if we're talking just like favorite single color w no color combos or anything probably #ff0000 (default red. lol)

last book: UHHHH i dont remember what the last one i read was... probably the yaoi "the main villian is stuck to me like chewing gum" LMFAO. its good... it was either that one or be my baby. but i dont think i ever actually started reading the novel for be my baby...

last movie: lord of the rings: fellowship of the rings (staring off into the distance) the movie is fun and not boring at all.

last tv show: i dont know 🖤 i dont watch tv like at all... probably idolish 7

last thing i searched: "peta stuffed like a thanksgiving turkey post"

current obsession: erm... yaoi xD

looking forward to: the semester ending and finally having free time to finish kh1...

favorite drink: ive become really tea pilled lately i just drank this like. im pretty sure it was just called 'winter blend' LOL from heb it was good as fuuuuck. my fave tea of all time will always been spearmint tho

song playing on loop in your head 24/7: right now it is machine love by jamie page its been stuck in my head for like 2 days now

current favorite character: this one also has too much nuance bc i am always currently reading at least 50 different stories at a time... we will say han sooyoung though. i have a plushy of her that literally makes me feel normal when i start going insane in public

fun activity you would like to get into: i want to get into sewing / making my own clothes...

last video game: yuuuup. cookie clickerWait no it would have been kh1. yeah it wouldve been kh1

last comic/graphic novel: WELL THIS ALSO HAS. NUANCE. LOL. i am halfway through the latest update for cherry doll scandal but im also rereading the new recruit buuuuut ive also been slowly reading 'no home' (not a yaoi). which is so good butt makes me horrible depressed so i have to. take breaks. heart. im also halfway through reading the update for god of war regressed to level 2 (i got distracted and forgot i was reading it. lol.) (also not a yaoi)

im not tagging anyone because im shy but if u see this and wantt to do it you can say i tagged you heart im so nosey i would love to have people say they tagged me

[sillygirlblogging]

august 30, 2024

just bored, listening to a super boring lecture. i passed my second class of the term yesterday, which means im 39% done with my degree. if i had continued doing classes full time from the time i had graduated high school, i should have graduated by now probably. but it was honestly such a struggle that i likely would be failing. i just need to tell myself that i needed this change in direction in order to keep moving forward.

i'm super tired, my daughter kept waking up last night. she used to be so good about sleeping through the night but she's regressing a little. i think she may be going through a growth spurt because she seems to be waking up because she's hungry, even though i feed her every time i put her to sleep.

i just want to do something fun, like go on a trip or something. at least halloween is coming up. i'm so excited. i've been anticipating her first halloween since last year. i remember seeing all the cute halloween baby things and being like "i wish she was here alreadyyy T-T" and now she is!! i already have her costume (she's gonna be a pumpkin and i'm gonna be a farmer or a scarecrow). and i got her this cute little pumpkin hat for our walks when it gets cold in the fall. and i got her a cute little orange onsie that has like a faux "short sleeve with long sleeve underneath" type thing. i love those.

i'm also super excited for christmas. i'm hoping my best friend can fly up to visit and we can go to the little christmas village near me. and go in my hot tub. and do fun little christmas things with my daughter. i can't wait. the day we found out that she was gonna be a girl, we got her a little outfit for her to wear for christmas. she has a bunch of cute winter clothes in general. i shop in advance because i can get a lot of good deals and she has a lot of hand me downs from her older cousins.

i wonder if it will snow here and what she will think of it. it doesn't snow a lot here, unlike where i was living the previous two winters where it snows from november or even october all the way until like april. which sucks sometimes, but mostly it's ok because they have giant snow plows that are always keeping the roads clear. we don't really have plows where i live now so the roads get super super icy and scary.

omg i just thought about watching twilight once the fall finally comes (something i do every year, it's part of cultivating my fall vibes). i have to relax, it's not even september, YET. and it's still like 80 degrees consistently. let it get cold plsssss i want to be comfyyy.

probably should start paying attention to my lecture again. see ya later, void.

[theconstellationprincess]

Thinking about this again

Some people who do great being with so many others, some people would not. Katherine would do her best to make the place as accommodating as possible, but a lot of people are very loud and group activities were pretty overwhelming.

They’d do lots of things to build trust, I think. It would start of awkward, especially between certain people (like with rose alliance and cod alliance) but the people started cheating the system and it become a lot more competitive, and fun!

Trust falls! You get a point if you catch someone without them catching themselves. People fall forward to prevent others from getting points. It’s a crap show but everyone is laughing and having a good time

Paper boat racing! Well… what counts as paper? How creative can we be? Are we allowed to decorate? Well, Fwhip is going to decorate his teams with some redstone dust and a few buttons and whoops! They win :))

Lots of silly moments! And then they have a picnic for lunch and the first person regresses. It’s Gem, she’s been feeling small all day, everything’s just so exciting and beautiful and there’s so many flowers! Very fun, and she slips, just enough for it to be noticeable. It doesn’t take long for her to drag Fwhio down with her, and then it’s a bit of a chain reaction, as there are several over tired people who have had a big influx of both anxiety and excitement and need a breather against their thoughts.

Of course, not everyone regresses, and people tend to gravitate towards their regular littles and caregivers. Sausage takes on Gem and Fwhip, Scott Pearl and Katherine hang out, Shubble and Joey both sort of float between groups, and Pix is left with a very rambunctious very small Cod Alliance to take care of.

It’s very chaotic, and then it’s universily decided that it’s nap time.

It’s dediced it will be sleepover style just this once so that all the littles can be supervised, and by the time it’s set up and everyone’s settled, the people still left awake are exhausted.

The Copper King, who has been struggling to maintain his caregiver headspace while looking after his friends who were all small and playful and cuddly, is about ready to regress himself. However, he will be needed when everyone wakes up again, so he’ll force that down until he’s back in Pixandria at the end of the week. He’ll be so busy he’ll probably forget all about regressing, for sure!

-

Im actually so excited to write this, I dunno when I’ll properly get started on it but I’m excited too. For now I’ll keep posting ideas under this same post

this idea has been floating around my brain for ages and I just want to write it down so I turn it into a proper story at some point (regressuary perhaps?)

I love the idea of empires s1 duirng like… pre-Xornoth times, where you know, they all have wars and trading and some people like each other and others don’t, and some people are known regressors while others are not

I like the idea of Katherine, who is allied with them all, getting upset at all the fighting, and dragging everyone off to a fancy house to live together for like a week-ish, for everyone to just settle down, release tensions, have some fun, and hopefully prevent future wars

And obviously mischief happens, and plenty of the emperors end up regressing and everyone has fun for the first couple days. But a few people (*cough cough Pix, Joel, Fwhip, perhaps Scott, my regular favs cough*) are acting a bit strange, a bit reserved, mayhaps a bit jelly? Of course, they are still nice and everything, but are less involved in the whole process than some of the others.

More stuff will happen, and it’ll probably focus on one of the 4 above, but it’s just an idea for now

[pepprs]

today and tomorrow are gonna be the purest hell like genuinely and idk how im gonna survive them but i have to

[caitimetravels]

she's insignificant

chapter 10: where you've gone

the umbrella academy x (fem) reader

disclaimer: i do not own the plot/storyline of the netflix tv series and i do not own the umbrella academy characters.

warnings: none

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with a sigh, y/n stood. five was still writing away behind her on the walls non-stop. she didn't dare interrupt him, simply leaving. she would be back anyways. all she needed was a nice walk. 

as she wandered down the street with no destination in mind she spaced out, eyes trained on her feet. suddenly someone knocked her shoulder and brought her back to reality. she raised her head, hoping they weren't someone looking to start a fight or argue with her.

"y/n?" instead she was met with allison. her technically older sister seemed frustrated.

"allison? are you okay?" y/n's eyebrows furrowed, looking up at the curly haired woman. 

"yeah.. i think so" she frowned, "i'm worried about vanya. she won't listen to me but her boyfriend, whoever he is.. i think he's dangerous. i couldn't find anything about him-"

"you went searching for his records?" y/n pulled back in disbelief, "allison! you know vanya doesn't like-"

"i know, she already got angry with me" allison sighed, shaking her head.

"why would you do that?" y/n tilted her head up at her, eyes narrowing incredulously. "where are you even going?"

"well, i found his address. i was going to see if anything's weird.." she earned a disapproving look, "i can't just sit around and do nothing y/n! please, help me, for vanya?"

y/n's expression only darkened, "why are you trying to ruin one of the only good things in her life?! she deserves to be happy for once and im not going to help you take that away from her!" she begun to shout, freezing as she realised her powers were getting out of control in the middle of the street. "just.. leave them alone!" 

she took off, hoping to get away, she needed to get away.

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as the sweet melody came to soft halt y/n smiled up at her sister. vanya donned a similar grin, placing her violin down and joining y/n on the floor, cross legged and leaning back against her bed.

"one day, you're going to be amazing, v" y/n mumbled quietly, looking like she was in a slight daze, "more amazing than you are now.. you're going to be a famous violinist, i can see it now. 'vanya hargreeves, the world's best violinist'" 

vanya softly nudged her shoulder, shaking her head. "no way, the world? c'mon" 

"i'm serious!" y/n was adamant, sitting up straighter to see her better, "you're gonna be so cool! and everyone here is going to see you and say 'damn, wish i had seen how awesome our sister was back then' and you're going to have lots of fans!"

vanya snorted, shyly brushing her long hair to the side, "yeah, right"

".. you won't forget me when you're famous, right?" y/n leaned back against the bed to avoid direct eye contact, her voice was much softer now. "don't forget me.. okay?" she nervously side eyed her sister, trying to gauge her reaction.

"i could never" vanya shook her head, leaning into the h/c haired girl. both of them shared small content grins.

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as she walked upstairs to five's room she heard a commotion, hopefully he hadn't gotten into a fight with one of their siblings again, right?

wrong.

"put her down" five snarled, holding a gun up to luther who held dolores' body out the window. y/n grinned at the sight, highly amused. who would have thought luther would ever threaten someone? well, y'know excluding their missions.. but five nonetheless? she leaned casually against the doorway, arms crossing and waiting for them to sort out whatever issue she walked in on.

"put the gun down, you're not killing anyone today. i know she's important to you so don't make me do this" luther paused, waiting to see what five would do. "it's either her or the gun.. you decide"

eventually five did decide that dolores was more important and dropped the gun before spacial jumping to catch dolores before she could fall. not that much damage would have occurred to the mannequin anyways, maybe a few scratches.

"i can keep doing this all day" luther spoke triumphantly, now holding the gun at his side. y/n snorted, catching their attention.

"you're such children" both glared at her in response, "c'mon, surely you have a better plan than whatever ended up in this-" she gestured vaguely between them, "squabble"

"we did not squabble" five hissed, placing dolores down and straightening his jacket. "but yes, i do have a one other plan" 

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the three of them, five, luther and y/n, drove down an empty road before slowing to a stop. five unbuckled his seatbelt and sighed, looking around.

"you know, i never enjoyed it" he started and luther turned to him in confusion.

"what?"

"the killing. i mean i was- i was good at my work and i took pride in it but it never gave me pleasure" he took a deep breath, "i think it was all those years alone. solitude can do funny things to the mind"

"yeah well, you were gone for such a long time.. i only spent four years on the moon but that was more than enough. it's the being alone that breaks you" luther placed a hand on the briefcase, "you think they'll buy it?"

"well, what i do know is that they're desperate. it's like a cop losing his gun" he alluded, "if the commission finds out they'll be in deep shit, well not to mention that they'll be stuck here until they get it back"

"i should hold onto it" luther suggested, patting it with one hand.

"hm?" five's eyebrows furrowed,

"incase they make a move on you" he added to explain his point.

"okay, luther.. but be careful. i've lived a long life but.. you're still a young man, you've got your whole life ahead of you. don't waste it" y/n snorted and five turned to her, unamused.

"what?" they stared at each other for a moment before five shook his head, looking away with a small smile.

suddenly a car began to drive towards them and they all made to get out of the car. "here we go" five sighed again, he was doing that a lot, y/n realised.

the car continued to drive past them, stopping a few metres away.

"if this all goes sideways.. do me a favour and tell dolores i'm sorry" five turned to luther who nodded slowly.

as five walked away from them y/n leaned back against the car.

"i have a bad feeling about this" she nervously picked at her nails and luther frowned, looking over at her.

"why? what's wrong?"

"that.. i don't know yet" she looked down the road, "i just.. feel like something's off" she shook her head as five walked back, leaning next to her.

luther stepped forwards a bit, "what happens now?"

"now we wait" 

barely a moment later they heard the music of an ice cream truck. y/n squinted against the sun and wind, trying to work out who it was. she took a moment to focus, sensing klaus, diego and ben. uh oh.

as the car got closer luther turned to five, "is that her?"

"luther, you idiot" y/n shook her head, "it's klaus and diego" right on time klaus waved to them as they passed.

the two assassins begun shooting, thinking it was a set up and y/n raised her arms to cover her head as luther stepped in front of her and five to block any shots.

suddenly time stopped.. well, only for five.

he frowned down at y/n next to him, the girl cowering in on herself. he felt bad for bringing her into something like this but she was very persistent.

he slowly stepped under luther's arm, looking at everyone frozen in slight confusion.

"neat trick, isn't it?" a feminine voice called out behind him and he turned to face the woman he had asked to see. the handler. she stared at him, pulling the veil over her face up and onto her hat instead before pulling her sunglasses off.

"hello, five" she smiled, "you look good.. all things considered" she softly gestured to all of him.

"it's good to see you again" he nodded back,

"feels like we met just yesterday, 'course you were a little bit older then" she teased, "congratulations on the age regression, by the way. very clever, threw us all off the scent"

"ah, well, i wish i could take credit" five shrugged, looking away. "i just miscalculated the time dilation of projections and.. well, you know, here i am" his gaze met hers once again, throwing his hands up before putting them back in his pockets, casually.

"you realise your efforts are futile" the handler shifted so that her briefcase was behind her, "so, why don't you tell me what you really want?"

"i want you to put a stop to it" five moved his own hands behind his back. 

"you realise what you're asking for is next to impossible even for me" she shook her head, "what's meant to be is meant to be. that's our raison d'etre" 

"yeah?" five smiled sarcastically, pulling a gun from his shorts "well how about survival as a raison?" 

"i'll just be replaced, i am but a small cog in a machine" the handler waved it off, ignoring the gun pointing straight at her heart. "this fantasy you've been nurturing about summoning up your family to stop the apocalypse is just that.. a fantasy. i must say though, we'll quite impressed with your initiative, your stick-to-it-tiveness, really quite- quite something. which is why we want to offer you, a new position back at the commission, in management" the handler held a hand up, smiling like her offer was an obvious choice.

"sorry what's that now?" five scoffed as she stepped closer, hand tightening on the gun.

"come back to work for us again, you know it's where you belong" 

"well, it didn't work out too well the last time" he glared up at her, not liking the persistence.

"oh but you wouldn't be in the correction department any longer, i'm talking about the home office, you'd have the best health and pension and an end to this ceaseless travel" she laughed freely, "you're a distinguished professional in.. school boy shorts. we have the technology to reverse the process. i mean you- you can't be happy like this" she slowly pushed his gun down, stepping ever closer.

"i'm not looking for happy" he spat through gritted teeth.

the handler only tilted her head, eyeing him carefully before raising a hand to stroke his cheek, "we're all looking for happy. we can make that happen, we can make you.. yourself again"

five huffed a laugh, gesturing to his siblings. "what about my family?"

"what about them?" the handler raised an eyebrow, acting like she didn't already know he intended to save them.

"i want them to survive" 

the handler took in a deep breath, taking in the sight of luther protecting y/n who was still crouching against the car as well as diego and klaus who were in the middle of crashing the ice cream truck.

"all of them?" 

"yes, all of them" he narrowed his eyes at her,

the handler gave him a small smirk, moving towards the recoiled girl. five watched carefully, waiting to see what she would do.

"it's such a shame.. she would have done well with us. if only we could take her too" she reached a hand out, about to touch her but five moved first, spacial jumping in front of her and grabbing her hand. he held her away from y/n.

"don't touch her" he snarled, unmoving from his protective stance. 

"my my, five, i didn't expect such protectiveness from you" the handler merely smirked, stepping away. as they walked back she once again proposed her deal.

"well" the handler begun, reaching a hand into her pocket and pulling out her sunglasses before putting them back on her face. "i'll see what i can do from them.. do we have a deal?" she reached a hand out to him, awaiting his acceptance. he merely stared at her hand before sighing,

"one thing" five stepped back, putting his gun in his shorts again. he walked over to hazel's gun on the floor, taking out the ammunition and chucking it on one side of the road before chucking the rest of the gun to the other. he turned and walked back, noticing the bullet headed towards luther and y/n. he frowned, using his pointer finger and thumb to move it over so that it would hit the car instead of them.

as soon as he shook her outstretched hand they disappeared and time was restored.

y/n shivered, ignoring the bullet hitting the car next to her and the way her siblings scrambled around to get away quick. she allowed herself to be shoved into the car with klaus and diego, spaced out.

"you alright?" diego turned to her while klaus stuck the middle finger up at hazel and cha cha. 

"i felt someone else.. it was only for a moment but i felt someone.." she spoke solemnly, staring at her shaking hands. "and then five just.. disappeared"

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[petruchio]

would stancy not be such a character regression for both steve and nancy lol i see how theyve both grown separately and they get along much better now but in terms of overall plot meaning that would be such a disappointing step back

ok im honestly of 2 minds about this

like first of all, i feel like at this point ive given up on the development of stranger things making sense and im fully just here to watch my favs and have them say funny lines and swing baseball bats at supernatural monsters. like if you’re watching stranger things for the character development… power to you i guess, but i feel like you’re just going to be disappointed lol. like for me, i love steve and nancy separately and i love them together. always have. so i just like to see them :) i just think they’re neat

but also like! i still think stancy is good anyway!!! like would it really be a step back? i mean yeah they broke up, but my thinking is, they broke up in large part because of nancys guilt over barb and her externalizing a lot of that guilt onto her relationship with steve, which honestly wasn’t fair to either of them! @ofswordsandpens wrote a really nice post about it here — basically yes, of course the only person who can truly absolve nancy of her guilt over barb is *nancy herself* but her repairing her relationship with steve is also a pretty valid narrative way for her to move forward as well! especially since s4 showed that she’s still troubled by it!

(side note that’s why i thought nancys vecna possession was so lame?? like i thought it was so obvious that it was going to deal w barb and steve and the night at the pool. it was literally right there for them to deal with… a character that carries a lot of guilt…. former fan favorite character they killed off… steve being the only one left with her in the ud… they set it up so clearly and i thought they were going somewhere with it and then they just abandoned that and made her just watch haunted house boy and dr brenner tattoo artist era instead. like why… why would vecna care about nancy enough to show her all of that……. it was bizarre. a serious and extended lingering barb guilt scene would’ve been way more compelling. but i digress i was supposed to be talking about stancy)

i mean. we didnt see it on screen but steve and nancy started dating presumably because… they liked each other? and it was everything that happened with the upside down that got in the way of that! so for her to be able to separate all the upside down stuff from that relationship and just be comfortable with liking steve as a person again? personally i don’t feel like that would be a regression for her. honestly i think it would be a step *forward* for her to be able to really come to terms with her feelings surrounding barb, steve, and everything else she’s faced since s1 began. and steve too! who has learned not to minimize the problems and not pretend it isn’t happening like he did before. yes they’ve both changed a lot from who they were at the start of the show, but they’ve developed in a way that their reunion honestly makes sense to me. the nancy and steve of s1 and s2 could never have gotten here. but the nancy and steve of s4 CAN!

idk though like i said before i usually avoid tv fandom FOR THIS REASON and the shipping “discourse” ive seen wrt stranger things is like, genuinely alarming to me!!! like i go in the tags for some fun times and people are so intense!!! like isn’t this supposed to be for fun 😭 it’s just a television show. at the end of the day my main defense of stancy is literally just “i like them” and i really don’t have anything more to say for myself. i just like them. i think they should make out. that’s it

[lilyclawthorne]

Escaping Expulsion Thoughts (once again very stream of conscious-like while i rewatched the episode so there’s a bunch of stuff here)

i fucking knew odalia was gonna be an oracle, i knew and i hate that for her family. i’m not sure if this necklace thing is specifically a form of oracle magic or not but im assuming it is, and either way the second i saw it happen that made my stomach twist. the fact that she just keeps this direct line to her daughter at all times feels so disturbing

so, i get that the joke with glyph lessons here is that eda and lilith are probably acting the exact same way they did when they were younger, but it does also feel a little odd for me. in my post for episode 1 i talked about how it felt like lilith probably missed the structure of the coven, and maybe even having an authority figure, and it does concern me a bit that it could be projected on to luz here. 

also, i saw someone mention that they thought lilith could be regressing a bit, which is interesting seeing as she’s been in the coven since basically being a child and now that she’s out, she could be going backwards because that was probably the last time she had a personality of her own instead of one that was carefully crafted to be socially acceptable for others. and to be fair, the few moments in season 1 when we see glimpses into the true lilith, she is pretty childish.

anyways lilith has such pretty handwriting i love it

gus!! witch puberty!! do not worry buddy eda will get your name eventually. probably.

amity went out and murdered those fairies for luz didn’t she

i need to know why the heck bump has no choice in the matter of the expulsion. typically a pta (or pca in this case) wouldn’t have power that much stronger than the principa?? so i wonder if the blights have something over bump, or if its even just something such as donation money they’d withdraw

odalia blight you gaslighting bitch “I’m appalled you’re not in class right now what are you thinking” YOU MADE HER COME HERE

PLEASE i know gus and willow are sad here but the whole “live off the land” thing and “water you one last time, with my tears” are so fucking funny ok

GO LUZ, YOU TELL OFF ODALIA

i feel like alador doesn’t really care what’s going on and just wants to be back home making his abomination inventions, also he seems to have an affinity for different creatures as well which is an interesting detail

i love that willow stated they would get back in on their own right in front of alador and odalia. these people fucked up her friendship and caused her a lot of trouble that she shouldn’t have had to deal with so i love that she’s unafraid to speak like that in front of them

between the first & second episode, and some of the seasons trailer, it seems like Lilith may have an affinity for ice magic? which is interesting seeing as eda was always a fan of her “spicy toss” aka some fire magic. interesting to see the two of them as fire & ice basically

i LOVE how much bump loves luz, willow, and gus. it’s kinda really sweet, but again it feels so concerning that he had no choice in the matter. makes me think he’s more likely to eventually rebel against the standards that have been in place for so long at some point. (also abominations coven for bump!! interesting!! i appreciate seeing the coven marks included on the adults so far)

what is it with these kids and being dragged off by their hoods in this episode

love that the blights address includes “right arm”, also i took a quick look up of the word “bruegal” which is boulevard they live on, and it’s probably just a coincidence but the first google result was actually for a european think tank that specializes in economics

yknow i actually have wondered about layering glyphs on top of each other and making a super glyph the way eda did, so good to know that would NOT work out

luz you’re really gonna give the blights their own flowers??????

it goes by so fast but please take a moment to take in and appreciate the design of that blight entry room/living room-esque area and it’s combination of abomination and oracle decor. also the blight family portrait.

i could talk about alador and odalia and their relationship dynamic here, when luz is meeting with them, but i think it’s best to save for the end, but i will say i don’t think it’s just odalia controlling everything (though she does control a lot) and alador just suffering and being silent. 

the more i stare at odalia’s hair the more i feel like she has an odd receding hairline

love that the abomination kept the cat shape luz gave it and that amity knew immediately from that

WILLOW’S DADS!!! I LOVE THEM! I love how much they want their daughter to have a great education even if they have to be the ones to do it! (even if it could come across as a little intense) Although, the fact that they’re prepared to teach plant magic to her makes me question why they put her in abominations once again. (wish we could’ve gotten a glimpse of their coven marks!)

odalia is definitely the one who handles more of the parenting and alador is more distant. at least that’s what i get based on the twins specifying to amity not to tell their mom specifically

absolutely insane that odalia is just letting the abomiton destroy the whole place to kill a child

“stay away from my luz!” oh my god,ohmy GOD 

i like how lilith can’t tell if these are normal noises or distress ones. really sums up life in the owl house. also lilith? kicking doors in?? this combined with “I AM A WITCH, UNHINGED” tells me she’ll be as chaotic as the rest of the owl house in no time and i am here for it.

the music when amity jumps in to protect luz is absolutely killing it here i need a soundtrack now

YES AMITY DESTROY THE NECKLACE (and oh god please don’t let odalia give you something even harder to remove or destroy)

Luz is blushing!! The feelings are starting to be returned!!!

“Luz, Willow, and Gus are my friends!” love it. love the open declaration. love that she’s telling her mother off. love that i have something to check off my bingo board already.

okay, i know a lot of people have already suggested that alador is smiling here because he can tell luz and amity like each other, but i’m pretty sure it’s only because he’s noticing how much amity’s magic has grown and improved

small detail but i love the smoke from the units order sign filling the background while odalia is fuming herself

oh? alador has had the ability to tell odalia off and successfully calm her down this whole time? and chose not to use it till now? yeah he sucks too. he very clearly has a plan for amity as much as odalia does as well, but he’s much better at seeing the long-term goal

“the glyph combo, copyright me, lilith” im screaming, lilith you DORK

ok i really wish eda or lilith asked where luz had been. i’d kill for these sisters to go off about how much they hated the alador and odalia in school, as well as threaten to hurt them for hurting luz.

the statue lilith made and her reaction to the gold star she received re-emphasizes my concern about her need for approval and for an authority figure. (ok but her noise at the gold star WAS very cute tho)

alright lets get down to business on the blight parents. so far i definitely do not view their relationship as being one-sided with odalia in control. honestly, i think they do have a sense of mutual respect for the other. to me it seems like all alador really wants to do is focus on his work and nothing else, and odalia seems not only more than happy to let him do so, but willing to take care of everything else the company needs, and he seems fine with that and going along with whatever because he only has to do his part. and clearly his abomination tech combined with her showmanship/advertising (and honestly probably some oracle magic) has clearly made them successful. 

so what im saying is that i think their power in their relationship is actually pretty balanced, if it looks otherwise that’s just because that’s how they best function together, with odalia being more forward and alador being more distant, and therefore they’re very much both to blame for shitty parenting. 

also I know some people have joked about the blight family name coming from odalia (which is also a dumb joke like why is it funny if the family name comes from the woman and not the man) but anyways I definitely do think blight is aladors family name and odalia married in simply because he takes the whole blights keep up their end of the deal thing much more seriously than odalia. probably something that’s been taught to him since he was a kid yknow, whereas she was super ready to ignore it when it inconvenienced her.

as for the very final scene with them and the golden guard, i had an interpretation of it that i saw, but it seems that everyone else ive see react to it so far saw something different than me so maybe i’m just plain wrong. but like, i have this feeling that maybe the blight parents, while they do want power, might not be as aligned with the emperor and his coven as we may think?? not saying they’re good people, just that there could be more going on here. but idk, i’ve seen no one else interpret it that way yet so i won’t go off about it unless either someone wants to know more of what i thought or if i ever actually make myself get around to making a separate post about it.