#but i guess nothing is ever that simple

[oceansabove]

augh the power of seeing specific people out and about to unsettle me is simply unfair

[im-smart-i-swear]

can you remember being born? were you born at all

[obiwanwhat]

Nothing Can Ever Be Simple Snippet #4

“Obi-Wan never told you about me?” she asks, idly spinning a glass of what passes for liquor on a Rebel base.  The fight against the Empire might be technically over, but supply chains haven’t even begun to recover yet.  

“Obi-Wan didn’t tell me a lot of things,” he says, hand clasping around his own untouched drink.  He’s proud of the fact that only a thread of bitterness seeps into his words, rather than the ocean he used to have to contain.  “Obi-Wan told me Vader killed my father.  He didn’t tell me the truth until after he died.”

“Until after he- what?” Ahsoka asks, confused.

“Yeah, he told me a hell of a lot more as a ghost than he ever did when he was alive,” Luke says, not understanding her confusion.  

“As a…ghost?” she asks, confusion still growing.

“Yeah, don’t all Jedi come back as ghosts?” he asks, now uncertain.  “I saw my father and Yoda too, once, after the battle of Endor.  They didn’t speak to me, but they were there.”

“I-no, I’ve never heard of a Jedi coming back after they died.  They’ve never-” they’ve never come to me is what he thinks she’s about to say, but she cuts herself off. Her expression visibly struggles for a few moments, and then she shakes her head as though to clear it. “I’ve seen stranger things, I guess.  So Obi-Wan appeared to you after he died?”

“On Dagobah.” He says. “Right after Yoda….” he can’t quite finish, but she understands, and her expression saddens.

“I didn’t know he’d passed,” she says.  “I’m sorry to hear it.  As far as I know…he was the last real Jedi knight still alive.”

“But you- you said my father trained you,” he says. “Doesn’t that make you…?” he trails off, unsure of what that makes her.  There’s just so much he doesn’t know about the old Jedi Order.  

“I left the Order before completing my training,” she says, and he just stares at her.  He doesn’t understand - why would anyone ever leave the Order, if not in Darkness? The Jedi were beacons of light and hope in the universe - how could anyone ever walk away from that? She sighs again.

[morrigan-sims]

if all the devils were here, would it really be so bad?

[freak1demon69]

This is what it feels like being a hex fan sometimes, like its not even a twitter issue (and in a sense its not necessarily an issue, sometimes ppl just wanna have fun n not spout theories n discussion 24/7! I get that!) but i feel like a lot of people r quick to write off aspects of the game and characters and insist that, despite it being a mullinsverse title, it's not that deep/things are surface level

[todayisafridaynight]

Since you mentioned it, what did you think of Speak No Evil? I was thinking of watching it myself :0

i really liked it ............ my friend scoffed at me when i told her i was watchin it so take my opinion with a grain of salt tho </3

[chiistarri]

what if instead of messaging me in the middle of the night about your stupid fucking girlfriend and your stupid fucking problems with her you actually act like my fucking friend and message me like how you message everyone else in our group

[rainingincale]

Why is being a living exisiting human being so very confusing 🙃

[downfallofi]

Vent

[amatres]

instead of the conquest, a show on the blackfyre rebellions, or even maegor would be more interesting. or even focused more on rhaena the lesbian and the black brides. idk, conquest itself just sounds bland. it's a founding myth in my mind, actually watching it play out doesn't really interest me much

[berryblu-soda]

been hesitating to post this bc i usually try to be super chill and upbeat, but im also trying to be more genuine, so here it is i guess (im doing okay, dont worry)

this probably warrants a trigger warning even tho nothing ever really happened :/

i´d like to thank from the bottom of my heart the friends ive made on this silly little site, i may be a almost a stranger to some of you, im not the greatest at keeping contact with anyone, but if i call you a friend its because you have very special a place in my heart <3<3<3

when i first made tumblr i was really struggling, it felt almost impossible to see anything lovable in myself, if it were up to my whims back then, i wouldve made myself poof out of existence, leave no trace behind. "Goodbye to that worthless piece of trash, everythings so much better without her"

it wasn´t that there was anything wrong at home, my family´s always been nothing but loving and caring to me, but i just struggled to understand *why* that was, i wasn´t contributing financially, functionally, nor did i excell at absolutely anything (looking back, i didn´t have to, i was literally 14) , everything id ever been remotely good at i knew someone who was better than me by a long shot. i didn´t have any irl friends, i had my cousins, but being family it felt a little like they were conditioned and obligated to love me because we were family

i felt alone despite being surrounded by people who loved me, i´d grown too used to it to recognize it as genuine love, so meeting you guys really helped me know that hey! maybe people arent just nice to me because they feel obligated to be! you guys inadvertedly gave me the support i needed to continue living life! And for that im endlessly grateful for <3

i can recall several times, when i was beating myself up over the simplest of mistakes, i genuinely didn´t want to exist if i wasn´t perfect, but when my spiraling got too bad and i´d even start to think of how i´d explain to yall that i´d finally given up on living, i´d start bawling my eyes out, beause I couldn't do that to yall, I still had messages to reply to, friends to wish happy birthday to... i would be devastated if any of you guys left and i couldn´t do anything to help you

so i made myself stick around, to hold on to whatever i could even if it consisted of numbing myself to the point of it being unhealthy. and ive lost years trying to get a grip and snap back to reality, but i made it! im happy these days, and i know no matter what happens im glad im still alive. And hey, maybe i´ll start digging myself into a pit again eventually, this post has been sitting in my drafts a couple weeks and in that time ive had some less than ideal days where i felt myself slipping into that old, sad, lonely, self deprecating mentality, but the difference between back then and now is that now i know i made it out of there once, and i know what´s real because ive already recognized it before, my family isnt lying to me when they say they love me, my fiends arent lying to me when they say they care about me, the only one whos lying to me is myself, saying im not worth any of that. 

so i´ll say it again, thank you friends, for existing and being there, for being my lifeline and not letting me go off the deep end, and acting as band aids for my emotional self-inflicted wounds, i´m not sure how i can ever pay you back, i´m here if you ever need me, i love you, please take care <3

[mrfoox]

Um. I told Oliver that I'm... Genuinely happy/content with my life

And cried bc i realize that's like the first time I've truly felt that way? Ever. The one by one big thing I want is an life partner otherwise... I think my life is good?

[1980ssunflower]

**KISSES THEM BOTH AND PICKS THEM BOTH UP OFF THE GROUND

[kawaiianimeredhead]

I kno I can say no to people, including my parent, but it has been so ingrained in me that unless I am litterally in the middle of something or about to be that I'm doing nothing and therefore should be able to do whatever thing in that moment- usually involving driving somewhat to get someone or take them somewhere or help my parents with some shit that could google but don't even attempt to

And I feel so tired today

[boyapologist]

you know what. whatever.

[welcome-home-official]

Can't believe I'm losing my Mondays now. Permanently. I swear if my boss tries to make me work *another* day after I've firmly established that I can't do more than three days of this kind of work-three days is at my PHYISCAL LIMIT, she complained about how much I pulled and sprained muscles before, WELL WHAT DO YOU THINK WILL HAPPEN????? I can't just un-disable myself, ma'am!! I didn't ask to have a body that's held together by glitter glue.

She pulls this because of football season, I'm quitting.