#but i gotta pay my rent first ughhh

[citrine-elephant]

thinking about the theme of "death of innocence" and leon.

re2r - how naive he is. becomes a cop to help people, how angry he got with ada about the kid and father who... you know. people like them being the reason he wanted to join the force. his aspirations to be a selfless source of good in the world.

but not/maybe never knowing of the corrupt chief. not seeing how disgusting it was to have a cooperation run a city, thinking that rules and the law would stop and misdoing...

thinking about him losing hope over the series and falling into such a deep depression, but his morals never changing about needing to sacrifice life and limb for others. the guilt of not being able to save everyone...

wondering if he even believes there is a god after all the shit he's seen.

[ros3ybabe]

Daily Check-in: July 24, 2024 🎀

Ahhhh today was such a phenomenal day omg. I had a really good, mostly productive day today and I'm so happy. I still need to work on my eating and nutrition and stop letting my hotel roommate talk me into late night munching, but everything else is going so good.

🩷 What I Accomplished

35 minutes full body strength workout

30 minute treadmill walk (2.5 speed, 3.0 Incline for 19min, 3.0 speed, 3.0 Incline for 11min)

put away all my clean laundry

had a 30 min korean trial lesson on italki (loved it, love the teacher, she's awesome)

planned out my language studies and budget moving forward

booked an appointment to get my nails done once I'm back home in mid August (gonna get medium acrylics, coffin shape with a mocha brown French tip, I'm so excited)

napped for about ~3 hours, i think? I've been really tired recently

did my night time skincare routine for the first time in a week

did my night time gratitude journal, also for the first time in a while

studied Korean for about 75 minutes (not counting the italki lesson!!)

got homework from my italki teacher, super excited to work with her

called my boyfriend this morning

tried an egg, bacon, cheese, potato, and avocado breakfast bowl from a place nearby and it was so yummy and filling

remembered to take my night time meds

emailed my therapist about documentation I need for a financial aid appeal

looked for more Korean and Spanish learning resources

my dad sent me pictures of one of our dogs (a German Shepard that has my whole heart), and she's such a cutie i could cry

💔 What Could've Gone Better

need to write my financial aid appeal letter (too many credit hours, but I'm double majoring so it makes sense???)

didn't wash my laundry, need to do it tomorrow morning

ate too much again. my roommate keeps talking me into late night eating and ughhh, I gotta stop giving in

gotta make better food choices in general, and start logging my food to be more mindful

slept A LOT today, like napped before my italki lesson, napped afterward. I've been so so tired lately and I've no clue why

need to stick to a consistent routine, and prepare myself for my after work workouts for Friday thru Sunday

💗 Stuff For Thursday (July 25th)

finish paying back my friend

send money for rent to roommates back home

make a payment towards new apartment

book next Spanish and Korean italki lessons

study korean

complete my pilates full body workout from health coach plan

begin tracking what I eat to help my mindfulness around my food choices

morning and night skincare

morning and night gratitude journaling

wash my laundry before I go to work

work an ~8.5 hour evening shift

💕 Song of The Day: Who - Jimin

ughhh I love his voice, and this song, so much

til next time, lovelies 🩷

[spacednp]

Oof. Drama 1/2

This is a two part post bc picture limit lmao and I gotta make sure anyone who reblogs this original part can see there’s more

What’s up my hoes

So today I was scrolling tru my internet

As I do

Being a hoe

And I see this video right here and I think

“Sccluptevfurrp drama???”

And there was

So basically there was a person on Twitter whom talking shit about dnp and I was like “expose? Expose rats?? I like. I click. Pls expose.. want drama” but no. It’s not exposing bc they can’t do it right

I’m so sick of people sucking at exposing people so ima expose them

S/o to the hoe I took this idea from fr watch her video

As if she needs a shout out when her video has more views than I’ll get her followers

Anyway let’s start with this tweet

Probably not

And they don’t have to

They don’t know all their fans, we watch their videos and some of us like to stalk them and their family to learn more about them so they can love them even more!!1!2!!2

So we know some things about them

They don’t know us

They appreciate and love our support for them but we’re in reality just strangers who click a few buttons watch a few videos and maybe buy some merch and shit good for us why doesn’t daddy love me waaaahahahah I bought this ticket to his show uhh whyyy

It’s almost like this person thinks Youtubers are sex workers but instead of sex were buying their love

No Hun we’re paying their rent and they’re making us laugh that’s the arrangement here and I for one and happy with it

But you’re not so let’s continue giving myself actual cancer

Side not this is my second time writing this post and the first time I was a lot nicer but when I was almost done with it I left for three seconds to make a meme and lost the whole post thanks Tumblr dot com

He made a joke to Casper Lee and he said “statistically one of your fans is a cannibal, do you love the cannibal?” Casper said “no” and dan said “that doesn’t make you a bad person” or something like that and again

They

Don’t

Know

Us

And tbh I like his honesty bc those YouTubers who say they love all their fans are lying almost definitely

It bothers me how much this post is so out of order compared to the last one I made ughh why can’t I just learn to save my posts ughhh

Anyway so onto these tweets

When talking about rats this person thinks they mean Asians, and that’s everyone in the phandom

Everywhere

And it’s just not what they mean

They’re talking about literal rats, the little fucking diseased sewer squad

No but I love rats, my little furry noodle tailed babies <3 <3

It’s just that that’s the rep rats have to my mans got some bad street cred and my mans get used as a joking insult so what it’s not racism it’s a meme

Also speaking of memes

I love how this person says dan CLAIMS to always be online like they aren’t about to believe that shit no way he gotta be lying they aren’t gonna fall for that

They’re sitting there like

Real smart my love

Speaking of their lack of a sense of humor..

It’s almost like he doesn’t want to make a big deal of something he’s learned from and regrets doing how weird I do understand

Real quick on retarded: yes words can be offendensive but they are just words and if they make you hate someone you need to rethink your life im sorry it’s not such a big deal that you need to get this upset, I’ve been called the d y k e word and I was offended but I did shrug it off and didn’t say anything like “I hate you!1!1! Exposed!1!3!2” because it’s not a criminal offense, it’s a WORD, I’m not excusing him doing it but it’s really not that big of a deal

Cool, he made a dark humor joke and then a skin color joke

This isn’t different from a black person putting flower on their face and saying “I feel the privilege” it’s just a harmless joke and it’s Funny and it’s not like he was doing black face which I don’t support he was just saying he has the skin color of a Mexican

It’s edgy but not racist

Speaking of blackface

And u kno what that got him? People saying he only felt bad because he got called out and saying that he tried to hide it

I saw that hate and I disagreed with that hate and dan didn’t do blackface and he wasn’t rude..

What’s ur point squad fam??

It’s aestheticly pleasing to look at.. what’s wrong with it, really? My hoe in the video said it pretty well so watch that but to people who don’t speak japenese it’s just pretty and fits the cherry blossom/Japan theme which believe it or not is a very pretty country and they take pride in that

[queennicoleinboots]

Chapter 8 of Completely Out of Sync: Too Many Frustrations of the New Millennium – Joebear Saves the Day, or Tries to Anyway

I know I said that I would do anything for Xara, my beautiful wife that I love literally more than the world itself, but I’ll be honest, I didn’t need this shit today. I had a ton of errands to run, but a bunch of random shit stopped me from doing that today. And now my car is too fucked up for me to even process what the fuck just happened to me. Of course, never fails. Whenever I need to do something, random shit fucks up my day for no reason. I went in the apartment to ATTEMPT to find Xara’s credit card, but the putrid smell of cat piss and shit greeted me.

“Ughhh! What the fuck is that?” I asked aloud.

I went to the cat room, and it turns out that there was a MASS cat diarrhea explosion all over the room.

“Garfield, Oreo, Kissy, your asses have exploded. What the fuck did you eat? Oh God, it’s bad,” I said as I laughed in disbelief.

Oreo, senior passed away on December 11, 2018. It was a very sad day. On the same day, Xara and I went to the Humane Society and got Cupid. At first, Cupid was a beautiful fine cat, but she turned out to be a real bitch, so I cloned her before I ate her. I named her clone Kissy because it turns out that Cupid was a match-making demon who ended up making love to his mother. I wasn’t about to name my cat after a demon by mistake again, so this new cat was named Kissy.

Two years later, Kissy needed a friend because Garfield was frankly getting too old to deal with her bullshit. So, I looked on Craigslist and found Miss Oreo, our new black and white kitten. She is a beautiful kitten, but she gets into literally everything. She even knows how to use a computer and a smart phone. She watched Inland Empire with my wife until two hours in. That was too much bullshit even for Miss Oreo. Right now, I feel like I am in a real life version of Inland Empire.

I definitely couldn’t process what happened in the cat litter box room. I gagged before I immediately threw the litter pans in the parking lot. I was certain that a few cat turds hit some of the other cars in the lot, but I didn’t care. I hurled the mats soaked in piss and diarrhea into the lot near another vehicle. I then proceeded to sweep, mop, and wash down the mats and the cat room itself. I mopped the room and washed the walls four times. I turned the fan on in the room before drying the mats and putting them back in the room. I emptied some large plastic containers, put them in the cat room, and poured litter into them.

“Ughh! FUCK THAT!” I screamed as I took a shower. I doused myself in body wash and hot ass water. I then used a hair-dryer to dry myself off. Then, I continued my search for the credit card for five minutes before calling Xara.

“BAE WHUH! I am just not moving. They are full force with this circus parade bullshit,” she responded.

“Ugh. Gotta love Georgia. Uhh! Let’s have a parade in Monday morning traffic. Huh Duh Duh Durr… Durrr! No IQ here,” I went on a rampage.

Xara laughed hysterically. “’Yeah, really, baebae. What do you need?”

“Where did you put the card?” I asked.

“First drawer in my desk,” she answered.

“Thank you,” I said as I found it and put it in my pocket. “Now I can get the fuck out of here.”

“Thank God. Tim Black is fucked up,” she said.

“Yeah. I can’t believe the Veterans Administration is actually holding people hostage over this Coronavirus bullshit. My God, this is getting out of hand,” I said. “Always something.”

“Tell me about it. UGH! I gotta go. Lorraine Black is calling AGAIN. Goddammit! Here we go,” she said before her call disconnected.

I sighed angrily as I headed out of the door. I knew nothing about Lorraine Black other than the fact that she and her husband, Tim Black, argued about everything and anything, including the movie, A Christmas Story. It sounds like they have the same relationship that we had for the first few months after my mother passed away in 2015. It was a rough time for everyone. I have the same questions then as I did now: What the fuck? Why is this happening?

At least my engine started before I drove like a bear out of the littered parking lot. That parking lot was filled with random wires, plastic pieces, bottles, cat litter pans, cat shit, and other random bullshit. Fuck it! No other resident of this apartment complex works. They walk around like duhhh hurr durr. They sway their shoulders back and forth like they’re cool and all of that and a bag of chips. Like, we’re not in high school anymore. Please stop walking like that. No one is going to take you seriously. They can clean this shit up. Fuck ‘em. I pay over $800 in rent, and I am the only person besides Xara who fucking works in this neighborhood. Ugh. I wish these people had hobbies. I have to work and hear their monkey shit outside of my window every single day of my life. Ugh. So over it. I have to drive around these idiots, too. Sometimes, when I drive, the truck in front of me just stops driving. Like, what the fuck? Did your brain explode or something, dude? What the fuck happened? And now two assholes are in two different lanes driving at the same speed. I wish these lower life forms would just fuck off already. I swear they must have come from UNG! University of North Georgia. ‘Where did your graduate from?’ ‘I GRADUATED FROM UNG!’ Fucking morons. Each year I live here, I feel like my IQ goes down about 15 points. Oh God.

I was finally at the Enterprise where I could rent a car that would drive to wherever the fuck Lorraine Black was and to where Tim Black was held hostage. I walked up to the front desk and asked for a cheap vehicle to rent.

“How long will you need it? Do you have a driver’s license and proof of insurance?” the sales person asked.

“For at least two days, please,” I said as I handed him my driver’s license and proof of car insurance.

“What kind of vehicle do you need?” the sales person asked.

“THE CHEAPEST ONE YA GOT,” I said.

“We have a Nissan Versa 2009 for $40.86 per day,” he said.

“Holy Shit, no thanks. That’s highway robbery!” I said as I turned around and walked out.

Fuck that price. I wasn’t about to pay $40 a day for a car when two years ago, I paid $23.99 for a car at the same location. I understand that inflation exists, especially in 2020, but get the fuck out of here. I’m not paying that price. I’m going to try somewhere else. So, I turned on my smartphone and started looking up cheaper alternatives to rental cars.

I looked up Budget Car Rental and found something that would be better. I made my reservation online because I didn’t want to fuck with humanity. For a two-day rental, I only paid $73.98. Yeah, $40 a day is a rip-off. Fuck off with that.

After driving a few more minutes in this fucked-up traffic, I picked up my vehicle from the Budget Car Rental. The dude at the register was actually half-decent.

“I’ll take you to your car, sir,” he said as he led me to the vehicle. I followed him and got in the car.

“Thank you. Have a nice day!” I said as I started to drive away. I added a little laugh because I could.

“You, too, sir. Thank you for business! Come back in two days!” he screamed as I drove away.

Thank God that was over with. I did put my GPS in the rental car, so I put the address that Xara gave me into the GPS to pick up Lorraine Black. I saw that I was going to Statham, which is where the nearest 5G tower is to us. I was starting to get nervous like I always do. I called Xara.

“Yes, bae. I’m almost at work,” Xara said.

“Please tell Lorraine Black that I am on my way,” I commanded of her.

“I will, my love,” she answered.

“Thank you. I’m on my way,” I said.

“I’ll let her know,” she said.

“Oh brother. Here we go, an interesting drive to the 5G tower,” I said as I sighed.

“Sorry, baebae. Thank you, baebae!” she said.

“Welcome. Love you,” I said.

“Love you, too, sweeeeetie!” she said in her typical operatic voice.

I hung up the phone. At least I don’t have to use my own car for this annoying drive. Sigh! I have a life outside of bailing baby boomers out of stupid bullshit, but I do it for my bae. This is a part of being a good Christian. More people stopped driving in front of me. I swear, Georgia is the most ignorant place I have ever seen in my life.