#but i go w my friends nd i love my friends but my god is the gym the worst place ever

[juniestar]

I’ve been reflecting a lot lately on my high school crush. It was this hugeee devastating thing to me bc I’d grown up w the guy and it was this torch I carried for three years so publicly and for no reason other than to have a hobby, though it started with what I still think was genuine chemistry (or the potential for it), and coming out of it made me shut off that part of myself almost entirely bc I thought I just became an issue when I felt that sort of affection but it’s all so crazy! I was mentioning this to my therapist as like blah blah blah I didn’t date growing up, I got a huge crush on my friend and I knew I didn’t have a chance so I pushed him away and he got a girlfriend and we didn’t really talk after that but I kept the crush isn’t that so weird, and she was like “wait no you did have a chance. You were friends and you pushed him away to retreat into fantasy but you could’ve tried to actually go after him or even just maintained the friendship after his relationship began.” And that’s been ringing in my head for a MONTH because it’s true and he and I weren’t even fully friends but we had the potential to be like we had inside jokes we admired each other’s work and I just cut any chance of that off because I was so freaked! I can distinctly recall myself avoiding chances at connecting! I wish I’d pursued that friendship I don’t think it would’ve been a big important thing or that we would’ve been close but I think it would’ve at least been nice

[aw-bean-s]

My friend came back from uni for a bit so we had lunch and she's been struggling a bit w body image and I was trying to be a supportive friend without telling her how many crisis I've had over her being hot

[vampyrluver]

Im really frustrated bc i want to get so jacked, nd i was working out the last few months with 0 progress and the more i worked out the more i struggled :( and i KNOWWWWWW its bc of my POTS but like DANGGGG i just wanna get jacked bro what the heck

[meadowscarlet]

SECRET’S OUT | HF39.

✩ — summary: you and hector are in a relationship that you both decided to keep private in order to protect yourself and him from fanatical fans and media scrutiny… that is until you are shipped with his teammate which sends him to do something impulsive: post you in public.

✩ — héctor fort x fem!reader

✩ — author’s note: not back i did this for funsies nd in honor for 24/25 sznnnn starting next month also i dont speak spanish i used google translate soz if there’s some mistakes 🫶🏼

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youruser italy was a dreaaaam 🇮🇹♥️🥲 !!!!!! will miss it here sm pero extraño más mi hogar (but i miss my home more)

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friend CHICA HERMOSA TE EXTRAÑO 😍 (beautiful girl i miss you)

youruser 🥹 gracias amiga (thank you friend)

marcguiu9 será mejor que me traigas algún recuerdo (you better bring me some souvenir)

lamineyamal yo también 😎 (me too)

youruser déjame en paz 🙄🙄🙄 (leave me alone)

pablogavi 😍❤️

* ♥ by author

random OMFGGGG THE BARCA BOYS?????

random she’s friends with marc and lamine?? who is this girl

random probably gavi’s gf? he commented a heart eyes emoji and she liked it

random GAVI NOOOOOOOO

random hector in her likes too stop

random i dont blame him she’s fine asf 😭😭😭

random im gonna kms

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youruser 💐 volver a casa :) (back home)

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random as if she couldn’t get hotter ofc she’s a culer im in love

random hala madrid

random fuck off

friend stunning!!!!!

random she’s so unreal

random waiting for gavi to reply 🤓

random hector and gavi in the likes this is insane

pablogavi ❤️

random BITCHH

random I SHIPPPPP they look so cute together

random you’re delusional go back to sleep 🤣

hctorforrt_ bienvenido de nuevo (welcome back)

youruser :)

random NAHHHHHHHH FUCK OFF

random HECTOR WHAT

random SHE REPLIED HOLD ON

random wait what about gavi????

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hctorforrt_ contento (contented)

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random THE SECOND SLIDE????? it’s so over

random the soft launch 😭 congrats 😭 whoever 😭 she 😭 is 😭

marcguiu9 vamos hermano ❤️❤️ (let’s gooo brother)

lamineyamal eres tan caliente 😫 (you are so hot)

random LMFAO LAMINE

marcbernal_ hermanoooo ❤️ (brother)

pablogavi vamonoooos 😍 (let’s goooooo)

random oh my god did anyone else noticed the similarities between y/n’s post and hector’s?

random YEAH i thought i was the only one 😭 the matching camera pose???

random but isn’t she gavi’s gf?

random nothing is confirmed

random i like her better with gavi

random girl boo

joaofelix79 hector con novia 😮 (hector with girlfriend)

lamineyamal él debería esconderse (he should hide)

joaofelix79 demasiado tarde 😂 (too late)

random SPILL IT WHAT THE HELL

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youruser visca barca!!!!! 💙❤️ estoy muy orgulloso y feliz, el partido fue increíble! 🥹 (i am very proud and happy, the match was incredible)

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friend bonita! 😘 (pretty)

youruser gracias linda! 🥲🥲🩷 (thank you pretty)

random i was sitting behind her 😭 can confirm she’s absolutely gorgeous and veryyyyyy kind

random who’s kit was she wearing???

random she was wearing hector’s kit! she cheered so loud when he got an assist w fermin’s goal it was amazing 🤩🤩🤩

random SHUT THE FRONT DOOR. WAR IS OVER.

random i saw her wave hello to gavi?????

random man im fucking confused now

random cant let the gang know i fw y/n gavi hector issue

_ferminlopez 🤩❤️

* ♥ by author

hctorforrt_ tuve suerte 😁 (i was lucky)

youruser me pregunto porque 🤔 (i wonder why)

random ok it’s so obvious alr im crying

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hctorforrt_ @/fcbarcelona 🔥💯

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youruser chica orgullosa aquí 🙋🏻‍♀️ (proud girl here)

random she forgot the friend

hctorforrt_ hice lo mejor que pude para alguien especial 😉 (i did the best i could for someone special)

random rip gavi 🕊️

pablogavi ¿por qué estoy muerto? (why am i dead?)

random ICBBBBBBBB 😭😭😭😭😭

_ferminlopez 🍬🍬

marcguiu9 orgulloso de tí hermano 🥰 (proud of you brother)

random HOTTTTT

random VAMOS BARCA 💙❤️ (let’s go)

random finally had minutes and u delivered BLESS U HECTOR

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hctorforrt_ mi amuleto de la suerte ❤️ @youruser (my lucky charm)

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fcbarcelona 💯🔥❤️

youruser 🥲 mi chico favorito (my favorite boy)

hctorforrt_ te amo niña bonita (i love you pretty girl)

pablogavi FINALMENTE (finally)

hctorforrt_ finalmente 😌 (finally)

pablogavi jaja ustedes chicos 🤦🏻‍♂️❤️ (haha you guys)

lamineyamal MAMÁ Y PAPÁ (mom and dad)

youruser sólo somos un año mayores que tú 😒 (we are only a year older than you)

marcguiu9 😍😍😍 hermosa pareja (beautiful couple)

* ♥ by author

random this is so adorable 😭

random I KNEW IT

random such a hot couple im dying

random they’re perfect i shed tears

random oh my days

random she’s so beautiful 😭🫶🏼

* ♥ by author

alejandrobalde 🔥

random so i can still have gavi 😍

random brother eugh

[kzlove]

weak

syn -> in which armin's immune system is so weak, he doesn't realize when he actually needs to be taken care of.

not much to beware of...

~

it was around 9:30 in the morning when you received a message from your boyfriend's best friend and roommate.

[9:30am] eren j. : hey i jus wanna lyk that armin is sick [9:31am] eren j : he also specifically told me not to tell u [9:31am] eren j : but he also looks like complete shit [9:32am] eren j : can u come over? i have class nd have to help my mom w/ a few things, so i won't b back till late tn [9:33am] eren j. : knowing his weak ass, he'll prob pass out or throw up all over the place w/o assistance

that was all you needed to know to make your way over to their house.

eren met you half way to give you armin's keys to the house since he really wouldn't need it.

so when you made it into the house with your things, the first thing you heard was a horrible sounding cough.

it quite literally sounded as though he was up in his room dying.

you grimaced at the sound and took your shoes off, making your way upstairs to his room with your bag.

you knocked on armin's door and waited patiently.

"eren. go. away. i'm fine." armin demanded, shuffling in what sounded like his bed.

you opened the door and peaked in, seeing armin tucked under many layers of blankets.

"well don't come in you- fucking dumbass." armin groaned quietly, sneezing in the middle of his sentence.

"if i don't then how will i help you?" you asked, walking into the room and closing the door.

armin peaked out from under the covers, before groaning and tossing his head back onto the pillow.

you don't miss how he began cursing his best friend out under his breath.

"min, i thought you told me you were okay?" you asked, placing your bag down and opening it.

"i am. it's just a small cold." armin muttered, glaring at you.

armin always used the excuse of having a small cold.

it was understandable that he had a very weak immune system, but it was almost always worse than a small cold.

"babe i can hear you wheezing." you chuckled, grabbing the nebulizer you had brought with you.

you plugged it in and put the mask over his face, helping him sit up in his bed properly.

"this is unnecessary." armin glared at you once more, before closing his eyes.

you ignored him, turning on the machine and letting the noise fill your ears.

once you could see the smoke coming out, you began cleaning up all the tissues he had lingering around the room.

as well as the cough drop wrappers hanging around here and there.

you dumped them all in the garbage downstairs, before looking over at the huge container on the counter.

a note stuck to it, saying 'eat plenty of soup and get well soon -love mama jaeger' with a little doodle on the corner.

you hummed and smiled a bit, before making your way upstairs back to your unwell boyfriend.

when you made it back into the room, the machine was still on and armin looked even more upset.

you turned the machine off and helped it over his head, smiling sweetly at him.

he sent you a sarcastic smile in return.

"god- armin would it kill you to be appreciative?" you groaned, sitting on his desk chair.

"i didn't ask for this." armin groaned mockingly, nose entirely too stuffed.

you stifled a laugh at the sound of his voice.

"you don't have to ask for it. it comes with the service." you sighed, digging through his desk drawer.

armin mocked you silently, before beginning to cough violently into his elbow.

you frowned, before turning over to him and holding a bottle of dayquill in your hands.

when he finished, you poured some of the liquid into the medicine cap and placed it onto the desk.

"did you eat today?" you asked, standing up and stretching.

"nuh uh. went to the bathroom and fuckin passed out." armin frowned, rolling onto his stomach and sighing.

that must explain why eren actually texted you this time around.

he wasn't just saying possible situations when he said armin might pass out in the house taking care of himself.

you frowned and felt his forehead. he was burning up.

"i'm gonna get you some soup. eren's mom made it." you said kissing your index and middle finger before pressing it onto his nose.

armin buried his head into his pillow, red dusting over his cheeks.

you smiled at him, and went downstairs to heat the soup up on the stove.

it was pretty warm, so you could assume eren had heated it up before he left for class.

when it was hot enough, you put some in a small bowl and took it back upstairs to armin's room.

his was half asleep in his bed, now rolled onto his back with his hand over his light happy trail.

"babe." you called, pulling the chair over to his bed, and placing the soup on the nightstand.

armin let out a quiet hum of acknowledgement, looking over at you with tired blue eyes.

"come eat a bit." you said, holding up the spoon to his mouth.

armin let out a small grin, before opening his mouth and drinking the soup slowly.

you rolled your eyes and put the spoon back into the bowl, handing him the small cup with medicine in it.

after downing the medicine, armin let out a dramatic gagging noise and groaned, before tossing the cup into a unknown corner.

you sighed, crossing your arms and looking at him.

armin looked back at you and shot you a woozy smile. "instinct." he replied smoothly.

you rolled your eyes and got another spoonful of soup, pressing it to his lips.

he swallowed it with a hum, before looking at you. "can i have a dumpling? then i think i'm done." armin said.

you gave him a piece of the dumpling in the soup and watch as he hummed in content.

"thank you." armin muttered, rolling onto his stomach and nuzzling into his blanket.

after a bit, he sniffled and you noticed he was trembling.

"min are you crying?" you asked, wondering if you should take the blanket off his head.

"no! just cold." armin protested, breaking out into coughs and wheezes almost immediately after.

you sighed and tucked the blanket over him properly, turning off his fan.

almost immediately, armin was out like a light.

~

for the rest of the day, you took care of armin.

you helped him bathe, eat, and monitored him when he wanted to get up and take a short walk around the house.

he claimed he had to stretch out his legs or 'he'd become short again'.

you were sure armin had just wanted to have an arm around you, but you agreed nonetheless.

while the two were walking around in the living room, the front door opened and in came eren.

"hey. you look better than earlier, armin." eren said, flashing his best friend a smile.

"fuck you, you fuckin snitch." armin scoffed, coughing into his elbow.

eren rolled his eyes and tossed his bag onto the couch, sticking his middle finger up at him.

"you should be happy i called. you look so much better." eren said, gesturing to his face.

armin rolled his eyes, muttering 'i could've gotten better on my own time' to himself.

eren chuckled and took a seat, turning on the tv and digging through his bag. "ma said to feel better. here." eren muttered, before pulling out a brown bag.

armin took it from him and peaked inside, before smiling.

it was a fresh container of soup and those little noodle chips along with it.

"your mom is so amazing ." armin muttered, popping open the container and beginning to eat the soup already.

eren mocked him and rolled his eyes, flipping through the screen.

"you have enough energy to watch power with me?" eren asked, looking at his best friend.

"fuck yeah i do. sit baby." armin sniffled, patting the seat next to him.

eren had pressed play on the latest episode, getting comfortable on the long end of the couch.

in the middle of the show, armin let out a loud sneeze, followed by loud coughs.

"ew. take that shit upstairs." eren groaned, looking towards his best friend with fake disgust.

armin said nothing, just reached his hand out to wipe his snot on eren's arm.

the male screeched in disgust, launching himself over the side of the couch and glaring at armin.

"what the fuck?!" eren questioned, wiping the snot off and flicking it back on armin.

of course, wiping the excess off on armin's cheek.

armin huffed and stood up, before coughing dead in eren's face

they were both definitely going to be sick and exhausted by tomorrow morning, you were sure of it.

[intertexts]

pulling u into a trap. talk about nhw not-demonkicks >:] 🔪🔪🔪

GOD. YOU'RE EVIL. man. i actually have to sort out my thoughts now....

ok. starting w/ ashe. inasmuch as any of them are "a thing" i think. ashe n william have their weird emo kids sitting in each others laps and giggling thing first. u mentioned once them like. sitting on the roof w/ fireball or something & being teenagers w/ big messy emotions that nobody else gets & maybe they kiss about it. ashe freaks out SO bad after this he's like ohhh my god i'm going to ruin their friendship i'm going to fuck everything up i'm just coming in here and breaking their whole thing virion's scary virion's going to kill me. wibby is like what? nah, it's chill, it's not like we're together (<- INSANE thing for ashe to hear btw. please imagine being in his pov. u know he's seen them up to shit in front of him.) in my head he straight up just calls virion on speaker phone in front of him & is like hey v do u care if i kiss ashe. virion just woke up from a nap tired flat affect staticky phone voice what??? sure? he's nice :] (<- thinking abt ashe & virion pre-muse dynamic immensely also. 2 me v takes the longest to warm up to him just bcos. virion sol insane paranoia forever & always. ashe thinks v hates him he doesn't ofc. they're both quiet & awkward enough that them being in a room alone together is just them sitting there in awkward silence. eventually dakota goes You two are so fucking stupid. & they figure it all out etc etc etc) & then also. well. of course they're all a package deal.

anyway. not-demonkicks. to me ashe has the closest thing to an actual big ol crush on dakota. dakota's the first friend he ever made!!! dakota's *failsafe*!!!! literally impossible not to be drawn into his orbit. he's so friendly and bright and brave and cool and nice and and and and. this is like. okay a lot of it literally is just "first friend/person who's Nice to you ever." & a little bit of hero worship. i'm incapable of writing like. allo shit ever, u know how it goes. there's a lot of confusing of emotions going on but that doesn't make it any less real or important yk? bro thinks he has such a normal person crush n meanwhile he's like ohhh he's so cool and nice and has such a pretty smile..... what if we h*ld h*nds.... i wish i could take a nap with him....... (<-terrified like a hunted prey animal about it) dakota knows n doesn't mind, it doesn't like, freak him out. he's literally got will n virion. & i won't go into the whole like discussion they have but they figure it out. so maybe it is wish fulfillment to have someone liking ("liking" hitting ashe w the arospec bream he just isn't that self aware to know what his feelings are) u & knowing that u. can't like them back in that way & being okay n even happy with it? anyway. what's kind of fun 2 me is that dakota does in fact kiss ashe sometimes. not, like, frequently, & usually more for ashe than himself. but like, nonzero amount. this has wibby & virion going >:( in a lighthearted unbothered way. (he doesn't do that to ME!!! but they all love ashe. so. u know. common consensus is that he deserves all the nice things.) (he & will don't + if anything he'll just tell wibby hey go make out with virion for me. their weird like proxy dynamic is so important to me.) ashe is like. his special little guy. william is like the other half of his soul insane binary star pair we all know this. & virion's his virion & i Absolutely cannot start talking about them & make this longer than it is. but point is he just likes ashe so much uncomplicatedly. he like. reminds him of himself before his second trigger? dakota didn't... he was also really fucked up about his powers for years. he didn't know many people & he avoided being Around people frequently bcos it hurts very badly! but that. isolation and desperate desire For friends For people to love and be loved by.... yeah. he likes listening to ashe talk about whatever wikipedia rabbithole he's been down and listening to his & will's music & watching virion braid his hair & the minutia of who-likes-who-how-is-it-labeled doesn't matter at all. anyway 70% of the time they're at work doing hero business or freaking out at school & 25% of the time they're being normal lame teenagers & this is really just about the 5% of time they actually have to have soft messy teenage relationship Situations <333 and of course. everything goes nightmare mode after overlord.!

[can1nezz]

real life convo i js had w my friends in our gc

me: "im gen so like so happi that were friends again, cus i consider yall my pack (freaky, ik), and when we stopped being friends with ronnie, i felt like the pack took a huge giant loss (since theres only 3 of us), i consider yall my pack but not in a "haha silly funny" way, like i mean it as in, if we were all wolves starving in the middle of thr woods in the midst of the harshest winters and i found even the littlest scrap of food, id find a way to share it with yall, id fend off other packs from hurting yall, id bare my teeth, bite, growl, but at the same time id lay on top of you to make sure yall are warm, id lick ur fur to help you stay clean when youre too weak to do it, id lead you back to the den and make sure no harm comes your way, cus god forbid i let my pack get hurt in any way. im insanely possessive of yall, but its not in a weird way, its just in a, "thats my pack, mine. im not letting you hurt them." way cus like thats literaly yall, i have close to nothing else besides my pack and uh im js rly happy were friends again"

ronnie: "awh kody im sos sosbs sososososo hqppy were friends again too!! i love put little pack and im goaf i found my way back to my REAL friends !! i missered you guys sm im sososos happy to be back with u guys and i feel the same way about the pack thing like were little wolf dudes and we all protect eachother and love eachother- i jsut feel so spiritualaly connectwd to u guys"

me: "like when we stopped being friends, i was like "oh, okay" but (this is ab to sound super really corny and cringe) but like the canine part of me was like whining nd howling (my form of grieving) and i was like tweaking out"

ben (my handler!!): "Like I can't explain it but you guys are more family than family and I can stand seeing you hurt in any way like yesterday with reece was a lot on them and it hurt that I couldn't do anything about it"

me: "thats how i felt on that day we were supposed to go on a hold and ronnie was rly anxious like all i wanted to do was press my head to their neck and lick their fur but NO. i cant, cus thats not socially acceptable."

[jxngh]

request : 32 “if we weren’t in public right now, i’d have my head between your legs.”

89 “this is my pussy i can touch it whenever i please.”

pairing : jimin x reader

genre : smut obv.

note : it's been in my drafts for suchhhh a long time and seeing you guys still interacting w my blog made me wanna post 🥺 nd don't forget to do the poll pls (it's at the end)

these moments were rare.

having a world-star boyfriend, you are used to see people - millions of them - admire your boyfriend, all the compliments, the way they try to be close, wishing they were you.

but now, being the star of your closest friend's wedding - that's how jimin felt -, cause in your mind you weren't really the star, maybe till the bride comes.

he was standing with his friends, talking about anything and everything while his eyes were following every move of your precious body does. he tried, god knows, he tried to focus on people's words but, no.

he looked around of him, the beautifully designed place, a glass ceiling where people could see both nature and sky, pretty candles on every table, well dressed humans, then he looked the middle of all place.

you were there.

standing with a mini saten dress, silver heels with straps, a designed silver bracelet your boyfriend gifted.

he took a deep breath, almost a dreamy sigh. all he could see was you, and when he was not looking at you he was thinking about something reminding of you.

he was basically looking at his glass of wine, trying really hard to not eat you with his eyes, and finding himself thinking that you were wearing the same color. wine. red wine. it's my favorite, he thought.

' who am i lying to? she's my favorite, that makes the colors prettier somehow ', his inner voice said.

it wasn't helping him that you were on the charge of welcoming people. you knew almost everyone in bride's life. you stood on the front door first, then started to walk around and ask people how they're doing and stuff. that was when the compliments got out of control.

you were handling it fine at the beginning, loving the attention, bowing your head down and thanking. but hearing too much of them - ' bride shouldn't let you in, you're basically glowing ' ' everybody's looking at you, it's impossible to not look tbh' ' didn't see any woman carrying the red this well.. and more - you really were blushing and trying to laugh it off.

and even though jimin couldn't hear those from the place he's been watching you, he could see. see the mini dress fitting your body so perfectly, showing every curve that he knows like a map and all the imperfections he loves. see the glittery make-up of yours, dark shade of lips, the way you walk, the way you get shy and play with your hair..

he drank and filled his glass again.

' she looks so fucking good in that dress, can't wait to take it off of her, then have my tongue on every inch of her precious skin, move my hands all through her body, taste her, ruin her pretty make-up. kiss her all night like crazy.. make her cry for more underneath me. ' his inner voice whispered to him.

he needed to be close to you. and a voice cut his trance.

" jimin? you there? " taehyung asked looking at his best friend with a sheepish grin.

jimin looked at him and understood that he was staring at you for a long time now. so he quckly said " i'm going to my girlfriend, missed her. " and left the brunet on the table.

as jimin walks closer to you, you were talking to a young man which look alike the groom, jimin noticed.

and heard the guy saying " you look gorgeous today and you won't believe how many people asked me if you're single.. " and you laughed.

" no- "

jimin's hand found your waist in a most gentle way without thinking. you looked at him feeling better after his sudden touch.

" hi, i'm jimin. the boyfriend. " he said and he gave the eye smile. a little overprotectiveness on his tone. then the two met and the guy didn't stay long saying that he needs to check the groom.

" ah.. did you really had to look this good jagi? " he said lowering his voice on purpose and whispered to your ear after tucking your hair behind your ear slowly.

you felt tingles.

" it's a wedding chim, everyone has to. " you replied, fixing his tie and fighting the urge of kissing him right there.

" hmm.. " he said looking at your lips. " but you're the star today. "

the tone got you melting inside again.

" what's with the tone? are you trying to make me blush, park? " you replied, heart beating faster but in a stable voice. he didn't need to see you melt.

and before he could open his mouth and gave you a proper answer, you heard taehyung giving a small speech, then saying that he'll be singing couple of songs for the lovely couple because bride asked him to..

so you two stopped standing in the middle and you intertwined your fingers with his, took him to a table. his hand was placed on your waist the whole song. he hummed most of the song, then decided to give you a back hug. so he did, sang the song to your ear while placing his hands on your hips, slowly swinging you both.

feeling his breath on your neck shouldn't make you feel this hot. the tone of his voice shouldn't make you blush like this, the way he makes you dance shouldn't make you feel dizzy on the knees, but they did.

" jagi.. " he said slowly at the end of the song, “ if we weren’t in public right now, i’d have my head between your legs. ”

he left a small kiss to your shoulder, you were sure it all looked innocent. this was his plan from the beginning. and you were positive that your thin underwear was getting wetter.

then he standed next to you, joined the conversation like he wasn't the one who said all of these.. then turned to you.

" babe? can't we go see around? i'm really curious about the view plus we're inside for hours, need some fresh air. " he held your hand and asked like such gentleman. and you played along.

you let him take you into the woods, find a place for only just you two. pushed your back to a tree, started to kiss your chest to neck.

" the things you do to me.. " he talked to your skin, held your thigh and made your leg hug his body while his mouth finds yours, not too slow, not too fast, definitely intense and making your little sounds mix kinda kiss.

his hand moved under your dress, sliding your underwear quickly.

" we can't, they'll get suspicious.. not now baby. " you said noticing your voice getting weaker with every word. what a lie, you wanted him to continue.

" this is my pussy i can touch it whenever i please." he palmed your pussy. " so stop acting and spread those pretty legs for me a little, doll. " he said sending tingles to your body.

you couldn't say a word back, already giving in, opening your legs.

" yes, my pretty doll.. " " now open that cherry lips.." he said pushing two fingers in your mouth. " suck. "

you did, swirled your tongue around it while locking eyes with him.

" shit, you're making me mad baby. " he said lowering his fingers and starting to toy your clit. and his lips found it's place on your neck.

his fingers were everywhere but inside of you. and you couldn't help but push your hips to his hand.

" tsk, it's mine baby, i get to decide what i'll give to you. "

then slapped your cunt. you moaned. he did it again saying " right doll?" then again.. now you were about to cry. he left a small kiss to your lips and sent his two fingers in.

" you're clenching too hard huh? will you come to my fingers? make a mess? " and you did, shakingly.

[knifvd]

quick , obligatory new year's eve post . thank you to everyone for always being so kind , accomodating , and amazing to me and welcoming me back from my third blog once again :pleading: . you guys make me so happy to write and i can't wait to continue to do so into the new year . i'm gonna b a little gay after this , but i want to give a special thanks 2 these people .

@killerhubby ori , my love . thank u for being one of the main reasons i continue to write and come back to tumblr . i've only known u for a couple months but it feels like years , and now we're married and i pocket sage you ? we're clearly 4lyfers and i ripped up the return reciept . you're mine ( and im urs ) forever n ever . icb i used to be afraid of u , but i'm so so blessed 2 have u in my life . here's to u moving in w me so i can finally pee on ur desk ( real ) i can't wait to continue to write and hang out with u more . thank u for helping me feel safe and loved nd welcome . love u lotsa .

@stamour god we need to get off this godforsaken app LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO but somehow we always come back to each other . thank you for turning away whenever i bring aiko back from the dead for the 30th time and always always indulging with me and making fun of the rpc w me . i'm so glad to have made a friend like you and making this site bearable . okay lets go just send each other inboxes and never do threads threads are overrated <3

@solivcgant mochi . i love you . you've seen me through it all and i am so BLESSED to have met u and for you to always put up with my shit . i love writing and talking with you and you always follow me even though ive been through a billion blogs . you're always a pleasure to write with and talk to and i appreciate you not giving up on me when i take forever and a day to respond . xoxo ily

@daemonry god they've been friends for too long but hi we still need to sprint it on some LEAGUE together ( real ) but you're always super fun to talk to and write with , so thank you for putting up with me and all my stupid muses .

@valhiir em... my love ... my one connection to the league community ... you're an AMAZING writer i know i still owe you that soraka reply but ill give it to you soon . thank you for always checking up on me and messaging me even though you don't have to and ive been awol for thirteen years :sob: i cant wait to write more with you in this upcoming year and force u to adc for me ( mwahahahha ) ...

@galaxythixf NOVAAA aa i absolutely adore writing with you and talking with you ooc , thank you for letting me scream in your ear about any little thing whether it be something abt life , val , our muses , anything . heres to playing val and all the angst in the future for us !

and ofc , shouts out to @ferinehuntress , @florspinae , @puckish-rogue , @tealsteel , @dimensionalspades , @un1awful , @todestochter & @pinkminxed for putting up with me spamming u with silly questions , chatting with me ooc when i'm a scared little weenie and writing with me . here's to writing more in the future <3

and of course , last but not least , you , the person reading this . thank you for being here and supporting me while i attempt to be active and explore my muses . i cant wait to get to know all of you and write with you more . and with that being said .

pees on 2024's desk . thank you for coming to my ted talk .

♥ love , bunny

[ndcultureis]

ocd and depression culture as a latina medical student,it's one hell of a ride,istg.

TW: ableism??.

My country is a beautiful one,but as many latam countries and others ( it has sexism,misogyny,homophobia,transphobia, but mainly ableism). because you grew up hearing how ppl demonized ppl w/ schizophrenia,DID,others. So it make it harder to identify intrusive thoughts as good or "ppl think i'm going to be crazy".

But also never receiving proper acomodations because you "were a top student" so "I didn't need it" until u hit med school,as much as I loved it. It's hard bc teachers don't give a fuck about the students neither their acommodations and if u told them u are diagnosed,they replied "pray to God,for help". (yep a teacher replied to me that) And how to forget that those same neurotypical med students mock some disabilities bc they think it's quirky and egdy ( gosh,they are like 18-17) When my mom took me to celebrate that I got into college,along with some of her friends (they are doctors) one of them was ranting how this girl named Maddie, shouldn't have entered med school because she was autistic and have bpd just bc she did tiny mistake (she said any nd ppl should be doctors, istg) and many of Maddie's classmates demonized her (sHe DoEsn't sOciaLize with AnybOdy)

shout out to her dad for filling a report on the doctors and university for being ableist bitches.

Also it's hard to find information on neurodivergencies,both from a medical (how does a autistic,ocd,dyspraxia brain differs from the neurotypical one)and psycological pov without ableism or inacuraccies. Because ableism is so internalized even mental health professionals learn it.

but also being excluded by ur classmates in college,feeling bad.

and the intrusive thoughts kicking in, or when u do a note taking, and it doesn't go as planned, u feel like shit and hurts ur self esteem. I feel so pathetic right now.

I'm not giving up,I wanted this career for some long,I don't want to give up but it hurts

Can u give me any advice? I feel like I'm drowning maybe others have it worse than me but it still hurts

.

[littleblueberryartist]

Genshin Neurodivergent Headcanons!

Note: Most of the hcs I have are ADHD related! I know that there's a lot more to neurodivergency than just ADHD, however as someone with ADHD myself I tend to base hcs off on my own experiences and projections lol so if you were wondering this is why

Anyway on with the hcs!

Venti: ADHD

He is. So full of love. He loves deeply and wholeheartedly and cares so damn much be it romantic or platonic attraction (adhd making your feelings feel so big they'll burst right out of your chest)

I think they used to be a lot more emotional back when they first became a god (he's far from stoic and still super expressive now, but he keeps his true emotions under lock and key)

the NB and the Old Mond Gang taught him to love and care and fight for freedom, but they weren't used to the sheer intensity of human emotion (emotional disregulation go brrrr)

holds strong to his ideals and beliefs

the wind is constantly blowing and venti is constantly moving

tons of dopamine from music fr

Coming up with sick rhymes is really mentally stimulating

fast paced brain + 2.6k years worth of experience is how he comes up with new songs and rhymes so fast

Good with words but can get rambly and a bit long winded (not as long winded as ZL tho)

He would do the stimming hand flaps he absolutely would

wing flap stims in archon form too

vocal stims this guy thrills like a bird and makes wind chime noises

hates the texture of cheese specifically but I don't think he says much about the actual taste?? kinda like me with tuna so sensory sensitivity???? (I love cheese tho)

despite being my most brainrotted character I don't have too much in game evidence for ADHD Venti lol it's all vibes

also he's my comfort character so they're just like me fr (and that includes the they/them pronouns)

Yoimiya: ADHD

Easily excited and feels deeply and wholeheartedly (adhd dials feelings up to 100 and that includes the positive ones)

She talks a lot, runs on sentences and sometimes doesn't even realise that she's doing it, changes topics a ton

talkativeness is a way that adhd can manifest and it's one of the ways it shows up in me

her vibes and how she talks reminded me a lot of myself and I got attached (she's just like me fr)

hyperfixates on fireworks don't @ me

Man I sure am lucky I hyperfixated on my family business and never stopped

the colourful lights of the fireworks are a visual stim for her

vocal stims and echolalia

the latter happens a lot when she's hanging around kids bc I do it with little sister

She runs all over the place and is just generally super active and lively (see: her dashing around in the genshin lantern rite promotional vid)

Albedo: ADHD + Autism

only puts in effort and excels in shit that interests him

hyperfixates on art and alchemy he's my inattentive adhd bestie

absolutely twice exceptional (gifted + neurodivergent)

this entire link: https://www.reddit.com/r/Genshin_Impact/comments/mehjk5/hypothesis_albedo_has_adhd_inattentive_type/

He doesn't exhibit many outwardly hyperactive traits but his mind is constantly going

I've seen the Autistic Albedo hc much more than I've seen the ADHD one and I agree with both. Co-morbid king

He likes Dragonspine bc the snow absorbs sound and helps with overstimulation

Sucrose: ADHD + Anxiety

lost her friends before. I'm a bit luckier in this aspect I think, but a lot of adhd peeps have a hard time making and keeping friends

Past rejections have affected how she views herself and her relationships

RSD from both the anxiety and ADHD god help her

This sense of guilt for bothering people just by talking to them even though she knows logically that that's not how it works (aqua your projection is showing-)

Particularly prone to overstimulation by noise because of her enhanced hearing

ND to ND communication with Albedo (and honestly Timaeus too)

Alchemy hyperfixation. Specifically bioalchemy and sweet flower modifications

either way she's the genshin ver of my biology special interest so I want to be friends

Hutao: ADHD (This hc was absorbed over from a friend bc I don't actually know her lore that well)

Whismy!!! Sillay gal!!!

she pulled a me when she was younger and decided "Oh I'm weird? Well guess what I think it's cool so now I will be cringe and free"

would rather die than be bored (me too)

loves pranking and poking reactions out of ppl

Some ADHD ppl like to start drama for the thrill/stimulation

This entire chunk of her character story 1

A lot of ppl with ADHD study or read better while moving around or standing

Doing handstands can also be her way of making things more interesting or challenging (gamification to get rid of boredom)

She's very whimsy as a character but takes her job as a funeral director very seriously

Man I sure am lucky I hyperfixated on my family business and never stopped

Kazuha: some flavour of nd but also ???

very in tune with the environment and good with slight sounds and smells

adhd brain taking in all the sudden random changes maybe???? nature is his interest so it catches his eye and keeps his focus perhaps???? idk the adhd "hey look at that bug" meme

particular about how his food is made even tho he may not always get that luxury with his life as a wanderer, food/sensory sensitivities?????

yeah not too sure on this one but putting here anyway bc I like him

[hearts4golbach]

Light Shower. (Sal Fisher x Fem!Reader.)

part 14

-

"I'm screaming like a kettle on a stove.  you cranked the heat up. I was cold, my past grew mold around my heart."

-

yet again, my parents fought. I played on my gearboy, which was really sal's that he had accidentally forgotten at my house. it was early in the morning, and I'd still be asleep if it weren't for their loud arguments. but the yelling quickly turned into ghosts and echoes of whispers. I rushed to the stairs to eavesdrop on their conversation.

"you know I didn't mean for that to happen, for fucks sake." my dad said roughly.

"well it did and there's no changing that. more importantly, we have to tell Y/n."

my father ran his hands down his face, stretching his skin before sighing. "she's too young, she won't understand.

my mom looked as if she was about to protest, but decided against it. she turned away, mumbling profanities under her breath.

-

the sun had just begun to set. I was on the phone with ash as she gossiped to me about Larry.

"y/n!" she groaned. I could hear rustling on the other side of the phone. "Ben! get out of my room!"

"Hi, ben!" I called through the phone to ashes little brother.

"ben!" I sang. "come back!"

"coming!" he giggled. "hiya, y/n! when are you coming to see me again?"

"Really soon. how about tomorrow?" I offered.

I heard a squeel on the other line. "okay, yay!"

" Okay he finally left." ash groaned. " Anyway, larry has been texting me nonstop since the night at the party! I think he's been flirting too. He called me beautiful!"

"he's so into you. I can tell." I smirked, happy my friends were finally realizing their amazing chemistry.

"Ugh, y/n, don't get my hopes up." she replied, sounding extremely disappointed.

"No, I'm not trying to. this is such a romcom movie scene. I love it." I giggled.

"Shut your face." I could hear the metaphorical eyeroll in her voice.

"I'm not wrong!" I sang once more. my phone buzzed in my hand; I quickly put ash on speaker and opened the notification.

sal: 'I got ur fav snacks'

sal: 'Comes over nd watch movies w me? :)'

me: 'duh, be there in 5 babe'

"Anyway, you should definitely try to find out how Larry feels about me like really." she sighed.

" I'll go see him tomorrow. sal asked me to come over." I giggled.

"go get that dick, girl! and make sure to get me some too."

" I will, oh my God. don't worry. You're pretty little head. Bye ash."

"Bye, y/n/n!" She replied before hanging up the phone.

I picked myself up and changed into something comfortable. As well as grabbing the things I usually did when staying the night at sals. To say I ran next door was an understatement. I knocked on the door and heard sals swift but steps inside the apartment.

"Hi." he greeted, excitement in his tone.

"You know, you didn't have to bribe me to come over with snacks." I grinned as I looked up at him.

"Seemed like my best option," he replied sarcastically.

"Oh, shut up." I rolled my eyes and walked inside.

"Scream?" He offered, going through the bin of cds.

"The first one?"

"Obviously, that's the best one." He said, picking up the case and setting it on the coffee table. the coffee table had a few snacks, some of my favorites, and some of sals.

"How'd you get all of this shit?" I questioned him.

"I was bored and went to help Lisa for fun, I didn't want anything in return but she paid me."

"sal fisher cleaning for fun?" I snorted.

"you were asleep, Larry was asleep, my gearboy needs new batteries, ash was babysitting her brother, Todd and Neil were on a da-"

"okayyy, I get it." I draped a blanket over my legs. dal set a few more DVDs out before starting scream.

he jumped onto the couch next to me, stealing majority of the blanket. "hey!" I giggled as sal nuzzled into me. he adjusted the blanket to cover both of us and grabbed the bag of cool ranch doritos before taking off his prosthetic and munching. "you're in a good mood today." I mentioned.

"I'm glad you came over. that's why." he shook his head to remove the bangs from his eyes.

"Yeah, right. we always see each other. what's so special about today?" he shrugged. "mhm." I rolled my eyes. "You're hiding something."

"nuh uh." sal replied with a sly smirk.

I rolled my eyes. "Whatever."

-

"oh my god, I love billy." I muttered.

"oh em gee! yes girl! skeet Ulrich is so hot!" sal said his his gay ass voice that he loves to do. I'm sure he picked it up from Todd.

"he is! just like you." I wiggled my eyebrows at him.

"that's so cheesy." he squinted his eyes.

"you're cheesy all the time." I whispered, running my fingers through his soft cerulean hair. he hummed.

I sat, leaned against the arm rest, my legs draped to the side. sal sat comfortably behind me, one arm around me and the other on me. the fuzzy blanket, which happened to be the same one from the night my parents fought, was wrapped comfortably around the two of us.

we watched a few more movies, which resulted in losing track of time. I was nearly asleep on the couch when I felt my phone vibrate. I practically jumped out of my skin.

"Jesus fuck." sal muttered, rubbing his eye.

I opened my phone to be greeted by a message from Larry. it was in out group chat, named the 8 Faggoteirs.

lar: 'yo I'm having my bday prty early cuz of school'

lar: 'u guys wanna go 2 lazer tag next wknd?'

eventually, sals phone buzzed too.

me: 'duh'

I quickly glanced at the time. my stomach fell through my ass whenever I realized it was close to midnight. "shit." I mumbled. "sally, I gotta go- I didn't tell my mom I was staying the night or anything."

"fuck, sorry, love." sal said weakly.

"no, it's ok, babe." I slightly smiled, placing a kiss on his lips.

he pulled me back in, gripping my waist tightly. unsure of his footing, he slightly wobbled. I laughed quietly against his lips, keeping them against mine. his lips glided against mine perfectly, my arms wrapped around his neck, pulling him closer to me. his thumbs rubbed my sides gently as he smiled.

"stop trying to convince to stay." I smile.

"fine." he frowned, which was an extremely forced and sarcastic frown. "I really thought it'd work, though." to say he flipped his frown upside down was an understatement.

"I'll see you in the morning, okay?" I grabbed his hand. sals gaze softened.

"okay, sleep well."

"okay," I mocked. "we can text, you know."

"okay," he repeated, his brows knitted. "I didn't think about that."

"okay, well, I'll text you when I'm out of the shower."

"or ill text you while you're in the shower." sal smirked.

"you're so weird, oh my god." we walked to my apartment. there was a smiling air about us.

"I'll make sure to text you goodnight if I fall asleep before you get out." sal smiled, eyes squinting from behind his prosthetic.

"okay, babe." I grinned. "were such a- what's the word? hm, I guess a cliche movie couple. you know what I mean?"

sal laughed and placed a prosthetic kiss on my forehead. "yeah, goodnight. I love you."

"I love you too, stupid."

I walked inside. the apartment was pitch black. it felt like I was walking into something not all that great.. the dim light of the TV was the only way I could see around. from behind me, heavy breathing got progressively closer to me. a strong hand gripped my shoulder and whipped me around.

"y/n, where were you?!" my dad spat, his breath smelled strongly of alcohol.

"I was at sals." I muttered, annoyed that my father was drunk. he was dangerous when he was drinking. not as much physically, but he could mentally ruin me for weeks on end without realizing it.

"you need to fucking tell me when you're going to be out late with your boyfriend. I can't believe I raised a skank." he mumbled.

"how does staying at my boyfriends apartment a little late make me a skank?" I sassed. he mumbled something inaudible. "what'd you say?"

"y/n, shut the fuck up before I slap the shit out of you."

my face felt hot as I made my escape to my room. I shakily gathered my shit I sleep in and ran to the bathroom. I looked in the mirror with my glossy eyes, fighting back tears. I turned on the shower, making sure it was a scorching hot temperature because honestly, there's no better way to shower. I quickly undressed and stepped in, choosing to sit and sulk in the water. I felt like I didn't deserve sal, maybe I was really just a skank. the water pounded against my back as I listened to the sounds around me- the light across the room occasionally flickering which made a clicking noise, the draining of water from the neighbors house, the way my father was outside banging on the bathroom door-

"y/n! hurry your ass up! don't be in there forever!" he yelled.

"d/n! for fucks sake, leave the poor girl alone!" I heard my mom's groggy voice call from their room.

"I've been in here for like 5 minutes!" I argued, which made him grunt and walk away.

I hurriedly washed my body and hopped out. I grabbed my phone and texted sal.

sal: 'hiiiiii <3' he had sent about 7 minutes ago.

me: 'hey' I texted back with a small smile. 'ur still up, right?'

sal: 'ya wyd' I smiled, sitting down on my bed.

me: 'abt 2 lay down, u?"

sal: 'thinking about u'

me: 'omg sal lol. I'm soooo tired'

sal: 'go 2 bed luv.'

my heart fluttered. it was like I still had a huge crush on sal. I mean, of course I did. yet, I'll never get used to him flirting.

me: 'ily goodnight u get sum sleep 2"

sal: 'ilym.'

[oathofkaslana]

hi hi hi leeeee :] as a colleiwarrior it is my duty to ask about collei o7 and if you want to do it id like to hear your thoughts about xiao too hehe

HAI PLUTO!!!! ill do collei and then xiao :3

Collei:

First impression:

OHHH I LOVE HER ALREADY SHE'S SO SNARKY AND HER LORE IS SO COMPELLING....... very very excited to see her in game i hope she comes out soon (<- had to wait like what. two/three years????)

Impression now:

gives me brain worms my God. i think i've thought about her too much bc theres so many lil symbols that i associate w her that just aren't intentional in the slightest. she has so so so much lovea nd heart in her and i wishhhh people understood her better. also extremely disappointed in her in-game writing for multiple reasons but like. the ableism and misogyny being a big one. :( colleination could fix her...... i wish she were more mean in the game.

Favorite moment:

her fight w kaeya and the subsequent "confrontation" w amber....... makes me so so sick in the head that was The original collei trio to me. i looove how it plays w all three of their characters even if it isn't shown very well. it's also the basis for a lot of my interpretation of collei since it shows the extent of her beliefs/lack of belief. dear god..... it's so so good.

Idea for a story:

i've talked abt wt spin off au and windblume rewrite a bunch on this blog so let's go with amber and collei liyue trip!! :DD someone comes and tells amber they heard something about her grandfather in qingce while collei's in town and obv collei's like i can't hold you back on this! so they jsut decide to go together bc collei's packed a bag anyways and they're both adept w survival skills surely their different skills will come in handy for liyue. going to qingce leads them to going to yilong port (i'd do qiaoying but i feel like its too close) and amber's like. kinda stumbling w her broken canto-mando and feeling weirdly emotional and she and collei both bond w "coming back" to a generational homeland while feeling like a stranger and its an important moment to both of them bonding as friends and a pivitol point of collei changing her idea of amber as a savior as more of amber as a best friend yk :''). also ga-ming....... i don't know if he'll stay for long bc honestly i do want it to focus on amber and collei but i think it'd be fun for him to at least make an appearance or sm yk!! the narrative there could be so compelling.

Favorite relationship:

........................okay yeah obv it's amber and collei aksjbdkbsdja BUT. her and cyno are a close second :]

Favorite headcanon:

SNAKE MOMENT. i have a moment in my wt spin off au where she tends to a snake in spite of a phobia of them and it's representative of her first step towards healing AND her caring for her younger self even if she's still wrapped in so much hatred of her. also trans (she/her) lesbian.

Xiao:

First impression:

he's so sad :(( i want him please come home.... he has so so much heart and he doesn't even know it because of his own grief and guilt and objectification of himself :(( he's bruce-coded FUCK.

Impression now:

MAKES ME VIOLENT. i love him so so bad i miss him all the time. his story is soooo entangled with grief and acceptance and every little step he takes reflects that. he's such a fun character bc it's kinda a study on what comes after the tragic hero's story yk? except the tragedy is in part because he lives! he feels so so much and has such a big hear tbut denies it any priority bc it's easier not to. :((

Favorite moment:

PERILOUSWS TRAILS CUTSCNEe......... MY GOD. DERA GHODDD. FUCK. it makes me so so sick in the head that entire quest. xiao so readily sacrificing himself for the others because it's his duty to and because its what all his loved ones did. him closing his eyes and accepting it and finding comfort in the fact that he knows what happened to bosacius and that he's following his footsteps. him being saved and being surprised but That being such a key moment to his grieving process. also the poem from the waterborne poetry event :'') (aka the only part of that event that matters). it referencing all of the yakshas :'''''') and talking of him missing them

Idea for a story:

i don't have an actual story w xiao in mind... i would loooove to see another story quest w him and the other adepti though :''') i wanna see him in the past so so bad :C

Favorite relationship:

him and zhongli! :] they're both characters whos stories are about grief but both have different timelines to it and i think that's so so interesting especially when you remember how zhongli showed no emotion during the archon war and how his depart from his duty was his final stage of grief (acceptance) whereas xiao plunged himself into duty and emotional repression as a means to cope with all the grief and guilt and pain that he feels.

Favorite headcanon:

i think the wangshu inn staff gives him li xi sometimes and he's just like "i am literally older than you please stop i have no need for this" but he keeps it anyways. they have a small room saved for him at all times just in case he ever wants it (he never takes it but he appreciates it). <- its small bc he'd die if it was an open space.

[evelili]

OKAY SO I JUST FINISHED ACT 3 AND HOLY SHIT I HAVE SO MANY FEELINGS AND THOUGHTS AND WORDS FAIL ME BECAUSE HOT DAMN MY BRAIN THINKS FASTER THAN IT CAN COMPREHEND A LOT OF THE TIME SO I'LL TRY MY BEST TO GET ALL MY THOUGHTS OUT. Fair warning, this might be very, very long. So for starters, the way Chapter 11 Started with memories which, at first didn't make it obvious we were seeing Sunset's Memories was done absolutely fantastically. Like, it was a wonderful build up cause at first I didn't even question it, but then the moment she broke in I realized it couldn't have been Twilight's, and then as the chapter progressed it was more and more clear and it was so wonderfully executed and knowing my guess was right as I read got me so pumped up to see where everything went. AND THEN WITH THE REVEAL OF CELESTIA REMOVING TWILIGHT'S MEMORIES OF ████ WAS SO WELL HANDLED! Like, I thought it was ████ at first, but then my own paranoia had me second guessing but then I was right and it was incredible and I was so curious to see what happened to her. AND THEN CHAPTER 12 INSTANTLY EXPLAINING IT AND GOING INTO DETAIL OF WHAT HAPPENED TO HER BROKE MY HEART! And just knowing that ████ is still gone (I have yet to finish the Epilogue so I dunno if that changes) hurts still! BUT THE WHOLE BUILD UP TO EVERYONE BECOMING FRIENDS AND USING HARMONY TO SAVE SUNSET AND THE WHOLE THING AND SORRY THE EXCITEMENT IS STILL RUSHING THROUGH ME!! Honest to god this has been such a wonderful thing to read, and apologies I cannot comprehend coherent words at the moment. But all and all, The Twilight Effect has been one of my favourite reads ever, and I look forward to giving you my (hopefully coherent) full thoughts after the epilogue!

so i may or may not have gone overboard and drawn smth for this that deserves to get its own post, pls look forward to that lol

also i guess this is spoilers? idc at this point, ill spoil the whole fic if it gets ppl interested in reading it lollll i wish tumblr had a spoiler filter like twt or smth, oh well

but yeh!! c11 is i think my fav chapter in the whole fic, i loveeee playing with concepts u can only do w the written word (kinda like pinkies chapter in a way) and its so fun to “plot twist” in a way that readers slowly figure whats happening before the characters do, so it’s like holding your breath waiting for them to finally figure it out xd

and c12 was the “big reveal”, which im still super happy how it turned out! i got to play w diff mediums for storytelling a bit w “whitespace” (technically black lol) and using a comic instead of written word, which was a lot of fun :D figuring out exactly what happened in the past between celestia, twi, nd Someone was always going to b the “climax” of c12, and it was such a relief to finally get there in the end, as well as figure out a way to “show, not tell” the whole thing to still make it interesting

im so glad it was an impactful finale! and ofc, thank u so much for reading and all ur lovely comments, i still have ur epilogue comment in my box that ill save to answer this weekend haha dw, im saving it close to my heart for now!

[night-triumphantt]

Romance asks you say? Djskaksksjd Give me 1,2 and 15 for kiyazan and 16,20,31 for daemon and karima 😌🫶

Low key this got long but I could probably write more (also a note I would love to hear the partners of the blorbos thoughts more too fjskdjsk)

Oc romance asks!

Kiyazan: 💖💖

1. What drew your character to their LI and vice versa?

Low key it’s cheesy but like, him as an entire person, Yazan is Kiaras best friend, he matches her energy in so many ways, there is no one else she would rather spend time with, I don’t think she could pick one thing, he just has to be his whole self nd she loves him for it. They’ve known each another so long she wouldn’t be able to give you a specific thing, drew her in by being his funny dramatic self lol.

2. What was the first moment that they knew they were in love with their LI? 

Fjskdjsks ok, so I feel like for younger Kiara I don’t know if she’d know it was love per say at first bc there was always love it just,,, shifted a bit, she started being just a bit more aware of how close they were sitting, or found herself wanting to hold hands but she’s nervous about it now where she might not have thought that much of it previously and just like, eventually she realized it was a romantic kind of love too. It definitely clicked though in a very mundane moment where they were hanging out as usual and they’re talking and he does something stupid. Omg actually, it 100% might’ve been when he drew a lil hilighter mark on her when the teacher said to hilight the most important things. Or also a moment of him being excited to show her something like, a new drum piece he’s been working on. Either way absolutely something mundane where it just clicked in her brain in that moment fjskdjsk and she just, never stopped loving him after that so I actually can’t say there’s a realization when they’re older. But there is this sort of resurgence bc I think for a bit it’s just overshadowed by ‘I’m so happy to have you back’. The love is still, *there* though 100% and once it takes the forefront again the fear also settles and becomes ‘oh god I love him but what if I say something and lose him again’ which, fjskdjsks, and that probably just happens as they fall back into being around each other/talking a lot again.

15. Does their view of themselves differ from their partner’s view?

Kiaras self image is so ?? I think her image of herself is someone who cares about others and also as someone who is maybe ‘too much’ I think it’s a fear that sits deep in her bc she just,,, feels very deeply and she’s got a abandonment issues so I feel like, together it makes her fear rejection based off her intensity of emotion. That said this is all deep down I don’t think she has spent a lot of time thinking about herself and I think if you asked her she’d be taken a little bit aback and would have to think on it. Which is definitely different how yazan sees her I think he thinks she’s kind and funny and charming and smart, actually sees her for everything she is which, I don’t think she can say about herself.

Karima and daemon:

16. Jealous at all?

Yk, this is interesting bc, I don’t think daemon is a jealous person at all really. l just don’t think that’s in him, he would step in if he felt like karima wanted him to but he’s not really,,, jealous,, I’m trying to think of situations low key 😂 yk if one of karimas exes wanted to start some beef w him I think he’d be idk if cocky is the right word but it definitely can come off that way, perhaps unbothered is a better word. But still idk if that’s jealousy fjskdjsk.

On the flip side idk how he feels ab her being jealous (if she is) it depends on what she’s like, she’s got no reason to tho I think if someone flirted w him he’d be like :L ty but I’m going to find my gf

20. Did either person change at all, to be with their partner

We talking ab before they met or after bc both of them definitely did a lot of growing before they were ready to be in a relationship though they didn’t necessarily do it *for* the relationship bc,,, they didn’t know eachother yet.

Daemon had to learn how to be comfortable with himself he hopped relationship to relationship when he was in his early 20s with people who weren’t necessarily the best for him. The last break up was definitely a wake up call like, I think early twenties him didn’t know who he was, constantly changed to appease the person he was with, I mean he was still daemon but it was buried. I think after his last break up he got called out by his younger brother and he also just,, felt it like ‘what am I even doing’ and then he spent a long time working on himself and figuring himself out. Also it’s kinda funny bc I think the timeline on this is like,,, he was ~25 so, incredibly humbling to be called out by your 19 year old brother too I think 😂

And you know ab Karima (she is your blorbo) and how she also went through it nd did the dating around but she was also self sabotaging in all those relationships, def dated the wrong ppl and if she was dating someone who was nice she would find issues or reasons it doesn’t work (low key i want more of ur thoughts on this bestie 🙌🏽)

31. Share anything you would like about the couple!

Anything I want 🤔😂 I will share the thoughts that have been bouncing around in my brain for them. Like I’m kinda just thinking about their crafts, I didn’t expect them to be crafty but between the crochet and the pottery/sculpting they kinda are and I think it’s very cute? Like the idea of them crocheting stuff or like working on lil projects together just gets me fr. Also them making stuff for eachothers pets 😂 a sweater for a lizard is actually hilarious and daemon would 1000% make one.

Also daemon dropping lunch off for her while she’s at work can be something so personal, helps her grade assignments or something while he’s at it. Low key these two would be great parents but they just ended up being around kids in other ways 😂 being aunt/uncle or just teaching them fjskdjsk 100/10 anyway I’ll get off my soapbox.

I’ll just add that if u want to pls tell me the other blorbos perspectives im so curious fjskdjsk

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confession sunday — i feel like a fake christian

hi!! so i rlly wanted to start making confessions on my blog as a way to let go and put down the thoughts and feelings im having. most of them r toxic and things i shouldn’t be thinking.

this is also an invitation for others to send their issues and let them go and put them down — simply tell me what it is and i’ll try n break it down to explain to u why u need to let go of those ideas! ofc, anons r opened <3

anyways, let’s get into mine bc.. yeah.

i feel like a fake christian.

this is something i’ve been struggling with my whole life — but it is resurfaced when i had a conversation w my friends abt witchcraft n the bible n whatnot. she said something along the lines of “you’re not a christian because you believe witchcraft is okay.”

first of all… what? right before this my other friend said “a lot of people in the bible pick and choose what they believe. for example — christian’s aren’t allowed to eat seafood bc it’s seen as impure” and the same girl from earlier agreed n said “i still love my crab legs” 💀 LMDAOOA

im friends w everyone mentioned in this convo btw, so dont worry. no hate to any of them.

during this conversation, i js agreed with the one, let’s call her sarah, that said believing witchcraft is okay makes me not a christian.

sarah made me feel bad — invalidated in a way. i remember walking out that class feeling fake, like i am wrong for what i believe and i need to remove everything that isn’t said in the most common places in the bible from my life.

FALSE ❌❌ WRONG ❌❌ INCORRECT ❌❌ SEE ME AFTER CLASS.

DUDE TO BE A CHRISTIAN U ONLY HAVE TO DO TWO THINGS

1 believe jesus christ died for our sins and rose again (some say jesus christ only died and rose again)

2 have a RELATIONSHIP with christ

if it isn’t clear already, i have both of these. i’ve known and believed the stories ik the bible since i was so young, and even now i believe them.

and i have a deep rooted relationship w jesus n god — i mean how the hell do u think i even found out abt other deities 😭 about shifting?? through him dude! it’s only by him answering my prayers that im here rn

what im trying to say is that the “normal” isnt always right. i hate churches — they feel like cults, nd i hate when ppl say ur required to do things — ur not. it’s if u want to and between u n god.

i said this to my friend nile earlier — “but like christianity is supposed to be individuality — it always has been that way. hell, even jesus says it. he flipped tables in a religious place bc they don’t have a relationship w god, they r js acting”.

they didn’t want it — they just wanted to b superior. and that’s not what i want — i want to help others and be happy.

that’s it for my confession. i hope this helps and encourages someone else to begin doing the same! sending my love.