#but i felt the need to make it

[i-like-gay-books]

i wanna make a post for all the artists out there struggling with long term burnout, because i’m just starting to emerge from it after nearly three years and i honestly forgot what it was like to have creative energy and i lost a lot of hope during that time.

first of all, burnout can come from anywhere, it doesn’t necessarily have to be that you did too much art and now you drained your creative energy. for me personally, i was dealing with anxiety-based burnout in the aftermath of covid and my freshman year of college, and i lost all motivation for writing, which is like my main thing, the thing i consider to be me, you know? if i’m not a writer, i’m not me.

it was really hard, and i had to push through it, painfully, because my degree is in creative writing, and burnout or not, i do not have the funding to not graduate on time. and it wasnt just writing. this burnout affected all areas of my life.

i stopped being as interested in music, stopped wanting to go to concerts for my favorite artists, because even my favorite artists weren't very important to me. i would make it halfway through a book or maybe even finish a book and then stop reading (aside from fanfic) for several months.

last year, i had such a hard time coming up with a halloween costume that the only thing that saved me from not having a costume entirely was that i found a nice coat that looked exactly like sophie's dress from howl's moving castle.

and the worst part of it all was that i truly started to lose hope. i thought i might never find a favorite music artist again, with songs i want to play on loop endlessly despite knowing that, historically, that usually leads to me not being able to listen to the songs again for a while. i thought books just weren't for me anymore. i dared not think it, but in the back of my mind, i worried that i would never write something i was truly excited to write ever again.

it was really disheartening. still is, to be honest. its the worst thing an artist can feel, to be cut off from that creativity, the one thing i always seemed to have in abundance, no matter what, before.

but as i said, im starting to come out of it now. its a very slow process, but a couple weeks ago, i started planning my novel again, and started rereading an old favorite book series instead of continuing with fanfic. the reason i started making this post is because today at work i had not just one but several halloween costume ideas, when it was so hard for me to even manage one last year.

i still have a ways to go, but i just wanted to make this post. because tumblr is great, but i only ever see artists talking about their current art on here, and it wouldve helped me a lot while i was in the thinck of it to see someone who hadnt produced art they were truly excited about and proud of in a long time.

it was gone, but it's coming back. it might leave for a long time, but once your circumstances aren't as stressful and draining, it will return. even if it feels like it won't, like maybe you've changed permanently and stopped being an artist, somehow, it will.

humans are made to make art. sometimes we're just not in the right circumstances to be able to do it and survive at the same time.

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

[c-rowlesdraws]

Ratatouille would have been a better and potentially much more interesting story if Remy had partnered with Collette instead of Linguini. Two underdogs with talent and passion forced to maintain a dangerous ruse. Fiercely independent Collette giving up temporary control of her body to a creature who, despite the insanity of a rat wanting to cook professionally, she can relate to on a personal level and who she does want to teach. The inner conflict of wondering if Remy’s growing talents are eclipsing her own, if the praise their food is earning belongs more to him than to her. Her guilt over feeling resentment and jealousy towards this little guy who wouldn’t have a hope of realizing his talents if not for her trust and protection. Both of them unraveling the mystery of that sweet but bumbling kitchen boy with the obvious crush on Collette being Gusteau’s secret son, and working together to thwart the new evil owner’s plans to stop Linguini from claiming his birthright. The message of the movie not being this weird, almost smug “some people are born with talent, some people aren’t, and that’s how being a ~great artist~ works”, but something more like, “if you have a dream, you deserve to pursue it, and be supported and encouraged in your pursuit of it, even if other people tell you that, because of some intrinsic aspect of yourself or the circumstances you were born in (like being a human woman in the restaurant industry, or being a literal rat), you have no place pursuing this dream. Also, raw talent can only get you so far, and skill and passion existing in the right balance is key.” I’ve been thinking about this for seventeen years. I’m breaking my silence

[aluminia]

OK I saw a poll about something similar and now I am curious

-Assume it's a celebrity you like and that they haven't made a statement about this sort of thing.

-The celebrity in question is just casually out and about, they are not part of an event or panel.

-By "go up to them" I mean saying hello or asking for a picture

-If you have to talk to them as part of your job it doesn't count unless you also ask for something similar to the above.

-This is a judgement free zone, there is no correct answer I am just curious.

Inspired by this poll

[ropebunnykant]

i’ll never understand people who can’t make fun of their faves a little. like yes i love this character and would defend them to my grave but also they’re stupid sometimes and they do dumb things and imma make fun of them for it

[sapphiccow13]

No one is gonna see this but that's okay lol

Hi! I'm Quinn (he/they)

I've changed a lot over the years

Burned a lot of bridges, made a lot of mistakes. But I've learned and changed and grown, as is the thing to do

So ive decided to start a brand new tumblr from scratch, even though my old one has a couple hundred followers and a handful of viral posts in very niche communities.

I hope to make new friends, and maybe even reconnect with some old ones.

Have a wonderful day!!

[lotus-pear]

charm stat at debonair ‼️‼️

[hansoeii]

stede bunnet

[pinkfey]

i saw a video where a woman’s husband said hello to her best friend (they touched cheeks with a short mwah) and so many people felt that this would be a personal boundary violation for them, so i’m curious what the consensus is!!

keeping it simple, no nuance + if u think ur ethnicity or culture has to do w your answer i would love to know!! 🫂😚💕💕

[girlboyburger]

had an identity crisis, prime time for a slight sona redesign!

it's cow! (again!)

+ a closeup because i'm really proud of the eyes

[rice-enjoyer]

[anatomical-puppet]

my source is that i am autistic about horror

[bookalicent]

yeah so this was insane

[derpycatsu]

icarus

[drawnfamiliarfaces]

Heroes of Millennium (HoM) AU

Act 1, Omake 1 (Extra): Master of Time - (here)

Act 1, Omake 2 (Extra): Barrier Team. - read here

Act 1: What was left behind. - read here

[stil-lindigo]

the machine.

a comic about being a 'creator' online.

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