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the cardio machine i want is on the cardio machine
cw: gym rat toji x loser!gf - size kink, sweat kink (?), toji is a big old meanie. loser!gf series: geto gojo nanami.
loser!reader who, like a million other sedentary people on new year’s eve, said “new year new me” and proceeded to enroll at the local gym.
gym rat!toji who knew how things are in the beginning of the year, so the first week he arrives one hour earlier than usual to avoid all the lazy fucks that won’t last two months.
of course he makes a few mental bets on the ones that would quit and how long it would take, you included.
it’s easy to spot the “i don’t want lift weights cause i don’t want look jacked” type of girl.
at the breaks between one set and the other he looked around, not surprised to see you slowing down the treadmill after running not even two whole minutes.
sometimes he caught you staring at him through the mirror, not an uncommon occurrence amonst the women there, though you surprised him one day by tapping his shoulder after he finishing his weighted squats.
“can you… give me a few tips?” he looked so intimidated, from up close his shoulders looked like a wall, he stared at you from above, dark green eyes seemed to be heavily judging you, “never mind this was a bad idea, sorry” you turned around, grabbing you bottle and running off the gym.
by the time you managed to gather the courage to show your face back there two whole weeks had passed.
“consistency is the key you know” you were distracted looking down your phone while slowly walking the treadmill when the handsome man appeared beside you, the sudden presence destabilized you.
before you could become the viral video of the week when inevitably a gym employee decides to post the security footage of your ass rolling off the active treadmill, toji wrapped one big arm around your waist and pulled you to the stable floor.
“you caught me off guard the other day” he said completely unfazed by saving you from a life of embarrassment, “then you disappeared.”
“yeah i didn’t know if i wanted to come back anyways, i haven’t see any results so far” you pulled the hem of your shirt down.
toji snorted, “‘course you ain’t seeing results, sweetheart, you don’t lift.”
“well, it’s hard…” toji rolled his eyes, there was always an excuse.
though he also did a new year’s resolution of being more patient, for his kids primarily but teaching a cute thing like you could be a good exercise too.
soon enough, toji was correcting your form, texting you asking why you haven’t showed up to the gym and ringing your bell incessantly when you complained about muscle pain and said you wouldn't go that day.
“it’ll feel better once you start to move” he explained, resting on your door frame when you opened the door on your pajamas.
“let me alone, just today” you whined.
“you asked for my help now go put on something without cartoons on it” he waited for you to turn around and slapped your butt. it had been only one week he was coaching you but there was already a weird intimacy due to the fact he was pretty much always looking at your body and touching you.
to correct your form. obviously.
"what do i have to do today, coach fushiguro?" you asked from your bedroom through an ajar door which allowed toji to get a peek at your pink underwear and cute ass.
"cardio, bicycle first. get some blood flowing on those sore muscles" he tilted his head and raised his eyebrows watching you bend over to grab a biker shorts at the lowest drawer then holding back a laughter at the grunt of pain coming from you.
"once it gets better i can teach you other types of cardio" he walked around your kitchen examining your cabinets and stuff you kept in your fridge. needless to say it was all junk.
"can't wait" you replied sarcastically, failing to understand the meaning.
it took a few more days till you got used to toji's training, then he decided to focus on your upper body.
"such a simple movement, how do you manage to get that wrong?" he raised from the bench he was sitting behind you watching your form through the mirror. you almost dropped the weights at your feet when he came close. it was almost scary how much bigger than you he was especially seeing it throght the mirror. his right hand wrapped around yours on the dumbell and his bicep touched your arm as he pushed your arm closer to your body, "tuck your elbows in, straight your back" his free hand pushed your shoulders till they were touching his chest.
how come he smelled so good, so... musky and...
"are you even making any force?" he lowered his head, his reflection looking annoyed. so you decided to ignore the sudden heat between your thighs and flex your arm the way he taught you.
and just like he promised, when you were consistent enough and handling a good 5 minute run he decided to show you a more pleasing cardio.
"toji please~" you whined, thighs burning from riding him, you were using his rock hard abdomen as a support, but still.
"one more minute, come on" he looked at the watch on his wrist and slapped your ass, "haven't i prep-ed you good enough?" his thumb rubbed your bottom lip then pushed in meeting your tongue, where you tasted yourself in his digits one hour after he ringed your bell and said he was going to reward your good discipline, but he had to strech you first.
"good girl" you felt his abdomn flex when he raised from his laying position on your bed, "now leave it to daddy" he pecked your lips and quickly changed positions, putting a pillow under your ass and rolling his neck to start his cardio of the day.
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oops all rust
#i have more stuff but#im either too embarrassed to post them#or feel like they dont group together very well#so they'll be posted in. another comp. later on.#also i made an instagram#its doicr33puout/deadshapes#if you wanna followwwww go ahead ...... i post more frequently there#tlt#the living tombstone#tombsona#my art#rust tlt
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I drunk wayy too much last night and sent a barrage of drunken texts and voice messages to some of my best friends. I'm beyond embarrassed, they're so embarrassing oml. To heal from this pain I'll never recover from, how bout a few of the boys reacting to all that
I think in generally the boys just kind of find it funny, but for details
Nimh: okay, Nimh's actually a little worried, comes over the next day, if not that night, and brings a hang over kit with him
Volks: thinks they're kinda funny but is also a little worried. Checks on you first thing. Ends up leaving then coming back with a bunch of stuff for your hang over and a change of clothes so he can stay the night
Kelby: thinks it's funny until you text him the next day feeling so sick, then he's over there with so much water and gatorade
Eli: He's in the messages with you don't even pretend. He's right in all those selfies, in every embarrassing voicemail, and when you wake up hung over he's right there next to you ordering mcdonalds breakfast cause y'all need some grease, carbs and coffee
Anon: sticks on the phone with you but uses his hacking skills to watch and make sure you get home safe. Also calls you the next day and teases you about last night. You're about to hang up on him when he tells you to open your door, and you open it to find he's sent a bunch of stuff to help you feel better
Garret: very confused, very concerned, you wake up in his arms and he spends the rest of the day taking care of you
Dmitri: weirdly thinks they're charming, also comes over to help you take care of your hang over
Ichiban: thinks about posting it online, thinks better of it, still saves it for giggles, checks in on you all the next day
William: ends up coming out and finding you, takes you home, gives you water and some food and helps put you to bed
Myx: very amused, calls to check on you the next morning
Stirling: ABSOLUTELY entertained. Finds it HILARIOUS. Calls you the next morning and asks how that darling head of yours is feeling in the most teasing way
Scale: gets your messages, gets concerned, ends up stalking you the whole night to make sure you get home safe
Sven: Sends back things that are just as embarrassing even though his ass is sober lol
Cole: finds it funny blackmail. Still gets concerned, ends up stalking you, 'bumps into you', escorts you home and reveals in getting to take care of you, very doting, very sweet, probably takes more pictures for his own collection when you're out cold
Poe: laughs a bit at your message, calls the next day to check up on you, doesn't bring up or mention the messages, if you bring them up he slyly says 'oh I didn't read them all the way through, was there something in them??' like a liar
Cashew: feels for your embarrassing solidarity cause he has DEF done the same. comes and checks up on you the next day, does not bring up the messages at all
Seth: Thinks it's the funniest shit he's ever see, comes and checks on you at the crack of dawn the next morning, teasing you about everything you said, all the while taking care of you
Logan: He's not immediately worried but he does know being too drunk is how the worst stories of nights out begins, so he keeps in touch until you get home, comes over the next morning to make sure you're good
Reece: Is so confused. Is this normal for earthlings?? it's kinda funny. is probably going to come over and ask a bunch of follow up questions
Aki: Wants to be respectful but lord he thinks the videos you sent were so funny. That being said he does come check on you and help you nurse that hangover. He promises he'll only chuckle a little.
Haru: A mix of thinking it's funny but also making sure you're texting back and forth until he finds you. Joins in the party for a bit then takes you home and gives you the best hangover nursing EVER (he knows what it's like)
Fuyu: Is also confused. Doesn't know how to respond like--- ACTUALLY, how do I reply to texts??? ends up calling you a dozen times before just coming over and making sure you're okay
Ace: a little amused, a little worried, constantly texting you throughout the night till you get home, comes over to take care of you the next day
#bear text#blush blush game#blush blush#bear talks#bb game#sad panda studios#sorry so many of the boys had the same reaction OOPS
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antelope, asleep
with all the grace the antelope lies down safe, out of sight curls up, her head on her back legs all tucked in for the night
of what you dream, oh antelope? you yearn for rain, the soft sweet grass? i hope you get all that and more watch many seasons pass
anyway here's the silly little antelope poem that fell out of my brain last year 😅
(cc @addaxbones)
#when i say fell out i do mean fell out#i literally wrote two poems plus a couple fragments in a couple days#having not written anything original for a decade#(translations and little riffs on famous poems barely count)#but i feel so embarrassed posting my stuff#did the illustration today in watercolour#it refused to scan right so the light ochre bg isn't visible but there's little i can do :/#poetry#my art
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Learning that fans hated Applejack and called her "boring" is crazyyy to me because I genuinely, unironically believe AJ's the most complex character in the main six.
Backstory-wise, she was born into a family of famers/blue collar workers who helped found the town she lives in. She grew up a habitual liar until she had the bad habit traumatized outta her. She lost both her parents and was orphaned at a young age, having to step up as her baby sister's mother figure. She's the only person in the main gang who's experienced this level of loss and grief (A Royal Problem reveals that AJ dreams about memories of being held by her parents as a baby). She moved to Manhattan to live with her wealthy family members, only to realize she'll never fit in or be accepted, even amongst her own family. The earlier seasons imply she and her family had money problems too (In The Ticket Master, AJ wants to go to the gala to earn money to buy new farm equipment and afford hip surgery for her grandma).
Personality-wise, she's a total people-pleaser/steamroller (with an occasional savior complex) who places her self worth on her independence and usefulness for other people, causing her to become a complete workaholic. In Applebuck Season, AJ stops taking care of herself because of her obsessive responsibilities for others and becomes completely dysfunctional. In Apple Family Reunion, AJ has a tearful breakdown because in she thinks she dishonored her family and tarnished her reputation as a potential leader –– an expectation and anxiety that's directly tied to her deceased parents, as shown in the episode's ending scene. In The Last Roundup, AJ abandons her family and friends out of shame because believes she failed them by not earning 1st place in a rodeo competition. She completely spirals emotionally when she isn't able to fulfill her duties toward others. Her need to be the best manifests in intense pride and competitiveness when others challenge her. And when her pride's broken, she cowers and physically hides herself.
Moreover, it's strongly implied that AJ has a deep-seated anger. The comics explore her ranting outbursts more. EQG also obviously has AJ yelling at and insulting Rarity in a jealous fit just to hurt her feelings (with a line that I could write a whole dissection on). And I'm certain I read in a post somewhere that in a Gameloft event, AJ's negative traits are listed as anger.
Subtextually, a lot of these flaws and anxieties can be (retroactively) linked to her parents' death, forcing her to grow up too quickly to become the adult/caregiver of the family (especially after her big brother becomes semiverbal). Notice how throughout the series, she's constantly acting as the "mom friend" of the group (despite everything, she manages to be the most emotionally mature of the bunch). Notice how AJ'll switch to a quieter, calmer tone when her friends are panicking and use soothing prompts and questions to talk them through their emotions/problems; something she'd definitely pick up while raising a child. Same with her stoicism and reluctance at crying or releasing emotions (something Pinkie explicitly points out). She also had a childhood relationship with Rara (which, if you were to give a queer reading, could easy be interpreted as her first 'aha' crush), who eventually left her life. (Interestingly enough, AJ also has an angry outburst with Rara for the same exact reasons as with EQG Rarity; jealous, upset that someone else is using and changing her). It's not hard to imagine an AJ with separation anxiety stemming from her mother and childhood friend/crush leaving. I'm also not above reading into AJ's relationship with her little sister (Y'all ever think about how AB never got to know her parents, even though she shares her father's colors and her mother's curly hair?).
AJ's stubbornness is a symptom of growing up too quickly as well. Who else to play with your baby sister when your brother goes nonverbal (not to discount Big Mac's role in raising AB)? Who else to wake up in the middle of the night to care for your crying baby sister when your grandma needs her rest? When you need to be 100% all the time for your family, you tend to become hard-stuck with a sense of moral superiority. You know what's best because you have to be your best because if you're aren't your best, then everything'll inevitably fall apart and it'll be your fault. And if you don't know what's best –– if you've been wrong the whole time –– that means you haven't been your best, which means you've failed the people who rely on you, which means you can't fulfill your role in the family/society, which makes you worthless . We've seen time and time again how this compulsive need to be right for the sake of others becomes self-destructive (Apple Family Reunion, Sound of Silence, all competitions against RD). We've seen in The Last Roundup how, when no longer at her best, AJ would rather remove herself from her community than confront them because she no longer feels of use to them.
But I guess it is kinda weird that AJ has "masculine" traits and isn't interested in men at all. It's totally justified that an aggressively straight, misogynistic male fandom would characterize her as a "boring background character." /s
At the time of writing this, it's 4:46AM.
#mlp#yeah i wrote this last night during insomnia.#yeah i know an embarrassing amount of crap about this kids show#but whatever it's my hyperfixation i'll store as much useless information as i want!!!#i'm gay and neurodivergent i have an excuse#in case you needed more proof that aj's my favorite character#personal#delete later#unless you like this analysis stuff#i get why they didn't reveal aj's parent's death until way later and why they didn't do much with it but i wish they did#cuz narratively there could've been so much material with aj's grief. like. i feel like we gloss over the fact that she lost her#mother and father as a teenager#i tried keeping my personal hcs out of this to keep it unbiased#but i'll put some in the tags#involving rarijack –– i think aj can be (but not always) very self-conscious about her relationship with rarity#anxieties that she's not the right fit or that rarity will move away and leave her some day or that another woman will take her attention#(like in rollercoaster of friendship?? nudge nudge??). basic seperation anxiety stuff#long post#regarding applebloom whenever i think about her and her parents i think about that scene in steven universe where steven looks up at#a portrait of his mother and openly wonders what kind of sack lunches she would've made for him. that episode still fucks me up
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doodle dump. don't look at me.I was insane back then
#sighs and runs away#my last two post didn't get much attention SO! I hope this one flops too#it's embarrassing for me to share my aus and stuff cuz...man you see it yourself 😓#but I love it dearly anddd maybe posting it will help with that feeling or smth IDK!!#anyway have a good dayyy#rottmnt#rise of tmnt#rise donnie#tmnt donatello#rottmnt donnie#rise mikey#tmnt michelangelo#rottmnt mikey#rise draxum#baron draxum#rottmnt draxum#<- I'm drawing him for the second time EVER please he looks.meow#(meow in /neg way I do not have enough words)#rise leo#tmnt leonardo#rottmnt leo#yayy I did it#bred's art
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I made graphics instead of going to bed
Plus zadr stuff,,,
#im so tired uugghhhh#anyways#i tried doing more of the show style... figured people would like that more i guess#they make me SICK i hope they EXPLODE (i love them so much#art#my art#invader zim#nickelodeon#zim iz#dib membrane#trinkets#pixels#blinkies#sorry i am literally so embarrassed to post this for no reason#ive posted zadr before i just feel like im gonna get thrown into a volcano for this one#even though i LIKE what i made and i LIKE zadr#okay. okay im normal#zadr#zim and dib romance#👍ok#forgive me father for i have sinned. i am cringe#OKAY okay im like so normal and stuff and im like totally not nervous to post this#<- LIE#okay SHUT UP just post it. loser
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Can’t stop drawing older Beck sometimes yknow.
Look at him he’s made it so far. I’m bawling my eyes out
#HES ALIVE HES FINE HES STILL STRUGGLING BUT WITH NORMAL PROGRAM SHIT AND NOT AN OPPRESSIVE REGIME#my stuff#i ramble#it’s so embarrassingggg why is it so embarrassing to clearly see how muc#h I love a character. I feel almost guilty about it but whatever I’ll get over it#whatever whatever whatever. I’m busy with an animatic about post-legacy Tron and that second drawing is from that so.#just know I’m also thinking bout post-legacy Tron. that poor wrinkly sap of a program#wip
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chimerans on twitter
#i rewatched vov today (and soto teehee) and omg the second hand embarrassment i get from uaf episodes 😭😭 its so cringe i feel so ill#(← bias to uaf as my favourite sequel series)#ben 10#ben 10 classic#ben 10 alien force#ben 10 omniverse#myaxx#myaxx ben 10#albedo#albedo ben 10#vilgax#ben 10 memes#yeah safe posts stuff
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Chef greg delivery just for you. it's a wonder I hadn't bearified him yet, he's my fave greg too 🔪
gays literally only want one thing (to be chopped up and eaten by a depressed man) and it's fucking disgusting
#kabukeo#something to bear in mind#other's art#limbus company#project moon#lcb gregor#r.b. sous chef gregor#namesake#i'm sorry for doing a haha funny joke reply i just like#i spent like ten minutes pacing around my house when i saw this in my inbox i'm not exaggerating#thank you for my life i love him so bad#do i need a gift art tag now i just like. i don't even know what to say#i haven't even made any actual proper posts yet i just made a silly blog i feel like i haven't done anything to earn this#to stop myself from blubbering i'm just going to respond to the tags on your rb#no problem for providing details again i think about this grown ass fucking man too god damn much but it's not a problem.#problems are only problems if you call them a problem. it's not a problem.#thank you for seeing the vision on rhino geg.#since kjh refuses to release him that just means that we can continue to acknowledge this as true and canon and there's nothing he can do#[ignore that he has a cameo in a card in game no he doesn't]#to me rosespanner is like. very much the type of guy that when you're crushing on him you try to talk to him#and then you get him to start talking about stuff he's interested in#and then before long you end up agreeing to watch something you don't care for in the slightest#solely for the purpose of having something in common to talk with him about#meanwhile he doesn't pick up on you trying to flirt with him like at all#anyway i could go on about how badly i need hex nail gregor for both bear reasons and thematic Actual reasons#but i'm pretty sure i'm about to hit the tag limit. so i'll just say thank you again for the cannibal i will treasure him forever and alway#it took me like thirty minutes to type this all out after i sat down to actually do it because i kept getting embarrassed lmao#offerings to beargregor#< gift art tag#that's it. thank you for my life once again. keep fighting the good fight soldier. we'll get this to be common fanon one day. trust.
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LET’S FUCKING GOOOOOO
#yuurivoice#yuurivoice seth#seth yuurivoice#rp audio stuff#god bless what a glorious day#i am Winning with the selection of audios that my fav creators have been dropping lately what is going on#was gearing up to make a vent post but nvm misery postponed this takes precedence#had such an intense reaction to scrolling across this on my YT feed ohhh my god /pos#like. suddenly sprung to life. bouncing in my chair. leg pulled up in the air slapping my knee. shaking my phone around in the other hand.#embarrassing behavior but it’s fine no one saw me. and no one knows except everyone on Tumblr now#which i only make note of bc of how rarely anything makes me react so strongly like that. happy stimming? i think???#anyways i’m like the twentieth person to say this but that timing?? impeccable#my period just snuck up on me today so this audio will go live around the time i’ll need it most#southern comfort? heating pad and back rubs?? period comfort from my fav YV boy??? i am. So happy. i’ve wanted this for YEARS. YEARS I SAY#thank u yuuri for the early christmas gift i literally could not ask for more#sorry the alt text is prabably bad but i’m feeling like shit rn and awake past my bedtime and need to get this post made ASAP#*probably smh ok bedtime 4 me gn world
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You know, I post a lot of horny content here but tbh the sexiest thing that's ever happened to me was the time I got embarrassed because I realized I'd already told my partner about this statue I love and they told me to tell them about it again because they like listening to me be excited
#i have memory issues and tend to repeat stories without realizing#and im used to people being kind of annoyed or ar least telling me Ive said something before#and with my family im used to them sort of tuning me out and just letting me get my excitement out of my system#but my partner actually listens and lets me be excited even when ive already told them something#and when i tell them about stuff that doesn't interest them they still try to remember details because it matters to *me*#and Im still getting used to that#also when we were talking about the statue i made a comment about how much i like sculptures and they said that they remembered that#because one time not long after we met I showed them a bunch of pictures from art museums Id seen and they were like. 80% statues#and id kinda blocked that from my memory because i was embarrassed and thought id been boring them#but they'd actually paid attention and retained all my excitement and some of the details i talked about#i just love them so much#and they make me feel loved#my post
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anatomy of a heart // open up
cardiogram.carrd.co
#durarara#shizaya#a cheap imitation#i made a thing#chapter 48#you're supposed to go into the link yourself but i know most won't and for posterity here's a video archive of it#oh yea i also reached out to @glaciesdraco for suggestions on this so thanks to them for helping out#this is over a yeaaaar old#twitter post was oct 28 2023#did tweak it a bit though i was kinda struggling over that#mostly just the pink card near the end and some colours here and there#still feels kinda wack and not cohesive to me but it's been over a year so#gotta let this one go#finally unloading these last few things i made for the book club omg#i considered doing more sound design on this one too but#i just never did it so i'm making myself just leave it as this#i like the sentiment behind this one a lot but the execution is kindaaaa#if i'm feeling brave i'll also transcribe the little write up i made alongside this as an add-on or something#i shouuuld generally do that with the stuff i wrote on there#when i get the time#this is honestly kinda embarrassing to me but my brain dictates i put them up#(in chronological order)#before i move forward#and i neeeed to needto need to
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Hey dear Lulu! Hope you have a good day and congratulations on 100K❤️
I have reached a point in my fanfic where my OC is pregnant with John ( and yes, everything is in terms with Eden's Gate rules ) but I have no Idea how John would react/feel about OC begin pregnant- and how would he even be as a dad?
I am trying to stay true to his character as much as possible but it's hard when he hasn't interacted with other children in the game😭 I to think he will be a devoted, loving and protective over his child...but that's all I have...
How would you imagen he would be as a dad and how would he react to OC pregnancy?
Hey! Thank you, and I hope you had a good day as well!
I think it would first depend on whether the pregnancy is rule-breaking and accidental or if they are an official couple expecting it to happen at some point. In your story, I understand everything happened in accordance with Eden’s Gate’s moral principles, so that avoids a lot of angst and emotional turmoil… Unless John and your OC were trying not to make a baby, I suppose he wouldn’t react negatively.
His behavior would also be influenced by how emotionally mature and stable (as far as possible for him) he became in your story. In the game, John isn’t ready to have a child, I think, but that can change thanks to character growth and the magic of fanfiction! He does have the potential of being kind and loving because, as a young boy, according to Joseph, he was. A lot has happened since then, but these qualities must still be there, somewhere, under the pain and anger.
I agree that he would most likely be very devoted and protective because… well, he already is. The Seed family, despite being dysfunctional, is also tight-knit, and they would literally die for each other. John wouldn’t let anyone hurt his child, and neither would his siblings.
Now, of course, we must also consider the brothers had an awful dad and that none of them grew up in a stable and loving environment. Because of this, I can see them being scared of having children, partly in fear of becoming like their father or, in John’s case, like his adoptive parents. That said, he didn’t spend as much time with “Old Man Seed” as Jacob (who I imagine would be the most reticent to become a father for this reason, but that’s just a feeling I have) and I highly doubt he would raise his child the way the Duncans raised him. John undeniably has problems, but in my opinion, he would never want to put his child(ren) through the horrors he experienced.
We haven’t seen him interact with children in the game but I don’t know if that really matters since this baby would be his child, not just a random kid. A lot of real-life parents don’t particularly enjoy the company of other people’s children but want to spend as much time as they can with theirs. Even if John had canonically said kids were a nuisance, I think he could still love his to death.
So if the pregnancy were planned, I don’t think he’d be upset at all; on the contrary. If it were not but they were not trying to avoid it either, I imagine he’d be surprised and anxious at first, but would welcome the news eventually. And as a dad, since John apparently gives himself fully to everything he does, he could be very, very invested, and maybe overprotective. His enthusiasm would likely have to be curbed, as always, but I’d say how and if that happens would depend on your OC’s personality and relationship with him.
This is my opinion and interpretation, which may be incorrect, but I don’t think you can go wrong in fanfiction anyway because it’s inherently transformative and personal. If your idea feels right to you, then it is!
In any case, if you’re stuck or don’t know how to justify something in a Far Cry 5 fanfic, you can always do what they did in the game and either say “it’s the Bliss” or “it was God’s will” :’) For John to go from an emotionally unstable and violent Herald to a great and loving dad, the second explanation can help! Joseph did say he could free himself from his past and that love would be the key to his salvation, after all.
#far cry 5#john seed#also mentioned#jacob seed#I don’t know why I headcanon he isn’t comfortable with the idea of having a child#not that he’d hate or hurt them if it happened but I don’t think he’d want to take the risk#he acts tough and 'strong' but he doesn’t seem to value his own life that much#I do think he would protect his child(ren) at all costs if he became a father#but it sounds like it might a scary prospect from his point of view#john seed x oc#hm...#so...#I… I may have written a fanfic... about something like this#the 'rule-breaking and accidental' version of that scenario#involving all the angst and emotional turmoil and shitty behavior I believe john is capable of when he feels guilty and distraught#it may be my favorite fic I’ve written actually#but it will most likely never be posted on this blog because it’s too intimidating for some reason#I mean this one is okay but the most embarrassing stuff for me is the... 'steamy content' :’)#I do want to post that on another account one day though!#under my nom de plume#(hey I didn’t know you said that in english too; it’s cute!)
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"oh my old art was so cringe it looks so bad" SHUT UP ALL youre doing with that self deprecating talk is telling artists who aren't as far into their art journey and whose art may look similarly that they suck. When if you had never drawn the way you're criticizing now, you wouldn't be where you are now. The art you consider shit is also part of the way
#and its usually just- normal art#are people make when they start making art#everyone needs to shut up so bad#like im not proud of all my drawings i made when i was younger or when i was getting serious about art#but i know i was proud of them at the moment and if someone had discouraged me then maybe i wouldnt be drawing the stuff i can draw today#also again the stuff people call cringe is just normal stuff it pisses me off so much#i fucking hate the word cringe you should all purge it from your brains#also i have no idea what happening with the grammar in this post whatever lmao#sorry i got pissed offffffffff#like if someone put my old ass art in front of me id probably feel a bit embarrassed but like DONT DEVALUE IT
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My hands are practically itching, bro. Like, real bad. Please, I just need to tickle you. Yes, I mean right now. It was such a hard day for me, now I just need to playfully count aaall your ribs and raspberry your tummy, dude. And poke that little bellybutton. And pinch your sides. I wanna chase you all around the house, start a silly tickle fight on the couch and win (obviously because I wanna hear you giggle, cackle, wheeze, snort, squeal etc. because you are adorable). I love it when you let me tickle you, bro. I love the fact that you like it when I tickle you. The sight of you laughing and blushing and having fun because of ME is the thing that literally makes my day 100 times better. So now, please, could you raise your arms?.. Why are you giggling, dude? I haven't even touched you yet... Bro, I'm not even doing anything- bro- okay come here-
...me and who tho? me and who??????
(LMAO that's actually so «me @ my favourite characters who get to suffer from my tickly wrath constantly» coded-)
#ami mumbles#delete later#nah because i always feel so embarrassed after posting stuff like this lmao 💀#tickling#my stuff#sfw tickling community#sfw tickles#tickle thoughts#ler mood#my god bro 😭#i'm sorry (no i'm not)#the moods are killing me but i'm still drawing stuff 💪🏻✨
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