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#personal#vent#how the hell do you ask a friend group for reassurance without feeling like a disgusting manipulative piece of shit for asking#bc i know my brain is being mean and i KNOW reassurance would do wonders for me rn#and like ik I could send a picture of myself or a meme or something to Get Attention#but i dont want General Attention#i want to know my friends love me and cherish me and actively want to speak to me and shit#i want to know i matter to them Explicitly bc words are super important to me esp when most of my friends are so far away from me#but asking explicitly like “can i get reassurance” feels bad. asking “yall dont hate me right” feels bad#it all feels manipulative (derogatory) and all i can hear in my head is my mother and ex both telling me how horrible i am for wanting+#+anyone to care and tell me like. explicitly bc “i should just know” or whatever#i just want to know i take up even a tiny bit of space in their minds and hearts#ugh this feels pathetic esp cause i know I'm like generally loved#my brain just keeps telling me recently that people only want to be my friend either to get in my pants to get in my wife's pants or so i-#-can be their Mommy-ATM ): and i know thats not real this is my insecurities speaking#I just. hrrrrrrrrrg#hatred myself rn for even feeling this way#if ur reading this and we're friends u can send reassurance but pls know if i dont answer it doesnt mean im mad at you or anything#im just kind of skittish with this shit
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i don’t want to be That Guy, but i figured its a good time for a reminder that posting exclusively LU/linked universe content in the general loz/legend of zelda tags is discouraged—the creator addressed it here!
linked universe is a particularly huge linkmeets au, and has become so popular that it is basically its own separate fandom. people who have never played the games read linked universe, but not everybody who plays the games and uses the broader tags for legend of zelda does. the #linkeduniverse and #linked universe tags themselves get a lot of traffic and are generally more appropriate than a “legend of zelda” tag.
#linked universe#linkeduniverse#loz#legend of zelda#tloz#i dont want to be a hater on main or be the tag police#but its gotten to the point i frequently get confused about which tag i’m in#because the general zelda tags are full of LU content#ofc there are cases where you can or want to tag both lu and general zelda#but broadly speaking the two are separate#mort#also be mindful that not all links meets aus are lu and to pay attention to how the creator tags their work#but that’s a whole separate battle to fight#linksmeet authors are farore’s strongest soldiers in the tag trenches
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okay rq i know that there is a HUGE debate on ai art because yknow... honestly fuck ai but can we please and i mean please talk more about how bad ai writing is? it is exactly the same situation as ai art but its gets so much less attention than art and its kinda pissing me off. because writers who poor their heart and soul into something spend hours upon hours writing and plotting something, just get thrown to the side by fuck ai and it sucks because the stuff that it writes isnt even good. its not good because theres no human emotion or feeling behind it, ai cant truly describe what it feels like to be lonely without it feeling cold and desolate. ai cant describe what it feels like to stay in bed under warm covers. it cant describe the joy of marriage or getting a cat for the first time. people can. yet people are the ones who made the ai in the first place and made it take credit for others work. i hate ai writing and i feel like it should be talking about more because it genuinely hurts writers.
#fuck ai#anti ai#anti generative ai#fuck generative ai#writers on tumblr#writerscommunity#ao3 writer#writeblr#creative writing#eternal rants#ALSO DONT GET ME WRONG ON AI ART#I HATE IT#but i do feel like that side gets more attention than the writing#and its because 'oh well i dont wanna write my essay'#like stfu#get off your ass and write it already#or 'well no one writes what i want to read and i dont have time'#ever heard of finding time? the ao3 curse? not ever author has time to write but still does so anyways because they enjoy it#you generating ai slop undermines their effort
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have you seen broadchurch? also for bideo game I have no clue what you usually play but I've been enjoying sable a lot recently
i avoid looking at david tennant whenever possible
#broadchurch is another one of those shows everyone tried to make me watch (like. ppl in my real unfortunate life)#and they all wanted to fuck him so bad. somehow the idea that there exists a person (me) who isnt attracted to#any man let alone tennant was such an unbelievable concept to them that i probably#spent multiple hours of my life repeatedly explaining that it's possible to watch dr who without wanting to fuck the dr#of course this was before the doctor turned into a hot mean lesbian so I've been forced to understand these ppl#but the fact remains that i dont like looking at tennant in any context that isnt blorbo from my show#that's not exclusive to him dgmw i hate seeing actors in general and i#hate seeing actors for characters i love 1000000 times more it's like uncanny valley to me#like what did you do to my guy. who are you. please die. wheres my guy. why do you vaguely look like my guy. please die. please#sorry this is an extremely long way to say i cant rly watch shows starring ppl who play my blorbo in smtg else it makes me uncomfortable#and broadchurch specifically is forever on my kill list for what the tennant fuckers around me did to me#sable looks lovely tho I'll look into it#i usually play like‚ idk‚ anything where you control a 3rd character and go to places and kill things#but im not too picky it just needs to hold my attention and preferably have gay ppl#i got mail!
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im blocking on sight anyone who brings that fucking jo gossip acc to tumblr. have a nice evening
#i dont care if you do it to joke abt it or else#i hate this shit and im not gonna perceive that shit#i’m not giving it more attention it has enough#and i don’t want ppl who enjoy drama in general and that acc in particular to interact with me or my art
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@fushiglow hmm….wonder who i’d draw this for all of a sudden and why… 🤔🤔
#your reblog surprised me#THREE BUNS SUGURU (STAR WARS ER JUST FOR YOU!)#theyre covering riko or smt and smuggling her places (??)#drawing this i was like ‘oh suguru’s curses in a star wars environment should be robots and stuff#so this suguru is a mecanic (he makes them from scrappy parts people have thrown out#and trash materials (and hard work 😎)#diy pokemon#because what is the cursed energy people are letting out if not junk theyre letting go of#so yeah ; basic geto takes shit and turns it useful#i do realise thats already very generic for star wars (junk robots junk robots!) but like. yknow. this guy takes shit people wouldnt bother#trying to sell. miam. junk of the junk. geto my favourite recycling bin you were designed for a luxurious lifestyle clearly (gege not me!)#(and stuff…………. but im lazy to put my vision in words rn hah..)#gojo’s probably a princess#(let’s not lie. hes basically a prince already (clan heir is a different look on him))#this made me want to write ?.??#problem is i dont remember much about star wars (watched it as a kid (we have the cds) appart from the very basic storyline… i forgot 😔#then theres the jawa’s first appearance cuz for some reason they scared me and i am marked for life (THEYRE JUST SILLY LITTLE GUYS 😭😭))#thankfully i lowkey want to rewatch everything so these issues can be fixed#(unthankfully either way the chance of me writing anything is very slim BUT WE NEVER KNOW RIGHT)#(hashtag diverging your attention from that other older post is it working /j/j)#omg glo i still didnt read balance (i think of it from time to time but im intimidated to read it because i know its right up my alley and#that i will love it and lately idk why but i need to ready myself emotionally to read peak fiction (this is so dumb but its true 😭😭))#my bad im rambling lol#WAIT FUCK SAME THING FOR BUNNY’S RECENT THINGY THAT GOT IN MY AO3 UPDATE MAIL#A LOVE STORY TOLD THROUGH THE LENS OF A THIRD PARTY MY BELOVED#(itsg ive searchef for these types of stories in advanced search before#AND NOW THAT I HAVE SOME BY AUTHORS I ALREADY ADORE .. IM- I SEE THEM BUT. THEIR CONTENTS STAY A MYSTERY. IS THIS MY BODY SUBCONSCIOUSLY FI#FIGHTING THE TEAR LOSS I WOULD GET??? IS THIS MFING [BALLING-MY-EYES-OUT] PREVENTION !? WITHOUT MY PERMISSION..!? TCH!)#my bad. ramble again o7 — see ya glo !#wip
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guts + despairing over griffith looking down on him
#berserk#i rotate these in my head. often. many thoughts head full etc etc#also to be clear griffith didnt actually look down on guts back in the golden age. as femto.. unsure. its hard to get a solid read on femto#in general but especially in early chapters its hard to get a solid read on anyone since theres a lot of early installment weirdness#that said i dont see it being like. unreasonable for his attitude in guardians of desire to be kind of an act#since we know for sure even as femto and neo griff he still has feelings for and about guts#and guts. clearly. still has a lot of feelings for and about griffith. thats kinda the whole driving force of the series lmao#and personally i think even now after everything he still wants griffith's attention. he still doesnt want him to look down on him#even after everything he wants griffith to see him as his 'true friend and equal'#ghost.txt
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Troj doesnt care much about unfamiliar dogs but shes very environmentally strong so we'll go to dog club sessions and people approach us like oh :( i see shes timid :(
Meanwhile Troj's just planted with her butt on the grass going 😌 slack leash, barely awake, brain cells gone off to wherever they go when they're off, perfectly zen and i just have to stand there like mm sure?
#her pandemic puppy trait is that we never met up with that many dogs so she doesnt really seek out new relations#and if dogs are pushy she just moves behind me for personal space#i just love how she'll sit somewhere completely tension free and someone will be like poor baby :((#because she doesnt pay attention to others and when they get up in her space she moves away#we had one dog trainer w a young bc that RLLY wanted to say hi to troj go 'but she doesnt tell them off either so maybe...?'#and i had to tell her yknow i dont think troj gives a rats about your dogs entire general existence unfortunately
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[note: i know for a fact i'm doing this for the same reason that i fixate on nebulous fandom anxieties at other times: helplessness regarding anxieties about larger geopolitical issues]
feeling in a very weird position right now thinking about the fact theres a nonzero chance that either one of the cosplayers ive become acquainted with or someone in their immediate circle could do brownface in the future and people are gonna come at me like 'hey why are you not calling them out and/or giving them a racial sensitivity seminar and/or personally fistfighting them on the floor of the doujin circle event'
#i strongly feel westerners darkening their skin for cosplay are generally doing it in an 'i know this is offensive and dont care' edgy way#but people over here largely Dont Fucking Know because the cultural context behind why it's bad is not there#and i don't...personally feel like it's my job either to educate near-strangers on this or to make a big deal out of how i condemn it#(someone i just met and already became fond of said she wants to dress as a brown character and im already getting nervous#in case she does end up painting her skin and the pics are shared around or come to the attention of the western ppl i know in fandom#imagining people that i know pointing at me and going Hey Ebil You Are Brown. So You Hate Her Now Right? Slash Why Didnt You Stop Her)#cool. great. i wish instead of brown i were Invisible Color#id actually love if eventually people over here did learn more about that through me?#not even in an I Have To Correct Them way. just a cultural exchange way. the way im glad to learn what offends japanese ppl#they might find it interesting and worth knowing! but my ass trying to lecture people right now would absolutely just be...bad. bad.#'oh i just met this american and they seemed cool but then they started going on about how i was offending american values so. gaijins eh'#it's obvious to me nothing constructive would be achieved. i just hope people understand that.#i dunno. i dunno. i dunnoooooo.
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FUCK the graphic novel, this is what I'm watching when it comes out instead of buying it <3<3
#batim#batdr#bendy and the ink machine#bendy and the dark revival#fun fact I was making a post full of cool bendy animations people should watch and support when the GN shit happened#so I had to put off making that fun post in order to post about how unhappy white norman made me#and probably for a while I will not be talking positively abt bendy in general bc Im genuinely so mad I dont want to#but uh everyone should watch this and give it nice attention you know comment n like give it a boost in the algorithm n such#a lot of people put a lot of hard work into it and it deserves it even if its a bit rough in some places#I love this genuinely its such a labour of love#so sad the talented community that makes such marvelous things constantly gets sold crap by the devs#Youtube
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Every bookbinding tutorial i found online: "DO NOT TRY THE COPTIC STITCH AS A BEGINNER ITS TOO ADVANCED"
Me who has only bound one book before and used a completely different method: "ehh it can't be that hard"
2 hours later

.....I was right. Its not that hard.
#its technically slightly wrong cuz i dont have signatures#im just doing one folded piece of paper at a time#which does take longer#but i was expecting that#doing actual signatures would have a. been way too thick cuz im using watercolor paper and getting them to lay flat wouldve been annoying#and also i wouldve had to pay a lot more attention to how the pages were actually laid out#and this project was already kinda overwhelming without that added in#im also combining methods a bit cuz im also gonna glue the spine with wood glue for extra support#and i also dont want the stitching to be visible#every tutorial was also like ''coptic stitch is great for exposed stitching!!!'' like cool story. not why im using it. gonna cover that shit#also finding one that wasnt in video form AND actually showed everything i needed to know was completely impossible apparently#i needed to know how to attach a fresh string when i run out cuz i always struggle with that in any sewing project#and generally need a refresher each time#and all the written ones were just like ''just make sure your string is long enough before hand!!! but not so much that it becomes#tangled!!!'' bitch im making a much thicker book than you. i cannot just use ONE string. it b#absolutely WILL become tangled if i make it long enough to finish the binding in one go.#yall are WEAK#my book is 3 times thicker than yours#i need to know how to attach a fresh string#the video tutorials cover that but i had to fast forward through most of it#im running out of steam for tonight (hence why im here and not working on it) so ill be finishing this tomorrow#was hoping to get this part done over the weekend but i ended up not getting a lot of the writing done on friday as i intended#cuz i ended up having to play tech support for my friend so she could update her sims mods
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breakups are so fucking weird. three years and just like that it's gone. huh
#helix.txt#gross i ended up spilling my guts in tags. look at them fucking writhing on the floor all bloody#dont rb please#vent#to quote fall out boy i knew it was over i just didn't know the date#yeah that's it. fall out boy can fix this.#i will feel better if i go listen to bang the doldrums#and infinity on high in general#and folie a deux. folie a fucking deux how i love that album#my chem will make me better. gerard way save me#god what a weird feeling. you used to know me better than any other person but then you moved hundreds of miles away and it worked#for a while. then two years later you said it wasnt working and that this was best for both of us. guess i never got the memo for that one#hope we treat other people better because i wasn't as kind as i should have been towards the end and you were never as thoughtful or con-#-siderate as i needed towards the end. we grew apart because you're bad at keeping contact over messaging#and in some ways the cracks in the foundation that grew from that were my fault too i guess. our conversations always felt one sided#maybe i was smothering you#you could never seem to keep more than a passing recollection of the things i liked or even pay much attention to them#but i wasn't great about that either#we just became different people. you weren't what i wanted or needed and you couldn't do long distance. whatever#i know it was the right thing i just wish it hadn't made me feel so damn awful#will we still talk after this? who knows. we didn't end on bad terms but things are definitely weird#and considering your track record with people you can only talk to online i'm not optimistic#you tried to break things off initially by saying you'd said you would improve in the past with nothing to show for it#something i didn't disagree with but i said it didn't bother me much. and it didn't#but it's complicated now. i did deserve better. but you made it clear i'm not getting it from you#you weren't as present or thoughtful as i needed#i wasn't there in person the way you needed and certainly not as considerate as i should have been. and for that second part i'm truly sorr#anyways. sorry. i'd been thinking about it for a long time anyway. i didn't want to admit it because i didn't like to think#about what it might bring. maybe i should have been braver#right. that's enough
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it's really telling when people decide to interact with other people's work/content. Especially in community spaces. I largely try to give people the benefit of the doubt, but, almost always there's a correlation between how confident someone is in their own craft and said interaction. Or, that person hates your and thinks your cringe. Either way, it's really old and it reminds me school in the worst ways.
#steph:rants#i love how people expect praise to be heaped on them and cry for attention#but do so little in return#it's not supposed to be a social currency issue but here we are#i create so i can interact with others#other people create so they can have their egos fellated#and I can usually clock it 90% of the time#if I dont interact with something its generally because the algorithm#or my gerbil brain is on its shit#if I don't like something I will come out and tell you if you ask me straight#if you want genuine critique#thats actually constructive#you have to be prepared to have a thick skin is all I am saying
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Oh.
...Ok well turns out I think we have NPD, either instead of or with HPD
#starfilled.txt#🐾#I... think it's with?#Really hard to tell#We highly value attention but only when its positive attention and we need people to praise us or else we feel underappreciated#But also if we dont get (positive) attention in general when we're proud of ourselves we get upset even if we didn't want compliments#Also we hate negative attention#Anyway we did a diagnostic checklist for both and kinda barely sorta got the minimum for HPD while hitting way beyond the minimum for NPD
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"you're not traumatized by being raised by parents who were way too young and were raised in shitty families themselves and who never taught you emotional intelligence and isolated you from pretty much all of your non churchgoing peers, you're just a little silly! and you cry whenever you notice any sort of shift in the way someone speaks to you and take it as a personal rejection, whether or not it was intentional, but that's unrelated"
#i know i have it good because my family was never struggling as much as my moms family seemed to#and because my parents were more affectionate and emotionally available than my dads family and parents#but being the oldest child of four and generally the 'good quiet one' with typically decent grades#meant less attention was given to me as opposed to say#the disabled second child or the family baby (at the time)#i genuinely dont remember getting a ton of one on one time with my parents unless i was in trouble#and while i know it did happen#children dont tend to internalize the positive encounters#and it only got worse as i got older and my interests drifted further away from what my parents liked or wanted to hear about#and then they had another kid but not before mom was hospitalized for a month#and dad was working so he wasn't very available so rven thougj i wasnt supposed to play parent#i kinda tried to. i was 14#and it felt a little like no one was looking out for me#and it still doesn't#i still feel like an outsider and fundamentally unlovable unless im serving some kind of purpose#because if even my own parents dont pay me much mind when im not actively being helpful#why would anyone else?
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idk if i agree with the whole "if you post art online it means you want people to like it" thing, i feel more like im tossing it out there as an option for people and hopefully it makes someone happy but even if no one cares about it its still gonna sit there like idrc if people see it. it's like leaving the curtains of my windows open, idrc if you look inside at that moment or not but heres a taste of my life if you do.
#if i wanted ppl to like my art i probably would've fully colored and finished *at least* the entire first chapter of my comic.#but rn im content just working on it endlessly 🤷 yall made it clear that apparently you think i have nothing to offer so ill keep all this#shit i have to offer that you pretend doesnt exist to myself ig#maybe ill toss out some scraps every now and then. if i think you even deserve it.#i almost feel like snake n pals is the version i think the internet deserves- the least effort version.#which explains why i prefer to post those than my actual comic.......#iunno. make me feel like you actually give af if you do.#it might be kinda different for me tho bc i mostly post my art on deviantart which i mostly use as a online place to store my art lol......#when i post art on here THEN its bc i want ppl to pay attention. on there its just. opening the curtains.#actually the only other time i care is when im showing ppl im friends with irl#well- ig friends in general. but i dont usually make internet friends bc i dont trust u hoes
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