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/hello! Hope you enjoy this one, im gonna start tagging ai as #ai tf so if you dont want to see any ai images in your tfs you can block that tag. Ill also be putting a disclaimer at the top of each post that has ai.
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/includes; muscle growth, suggestion tf, straight to gay tf
"Yeah, Im feeling fine!"
Jason was tired of how weak and scrawny his best friend Max stayed throughout their time in high school and now, college. So he had given Max a new black market roid that promised to "make him a bro." He crushed up a few of the pills without looking at the instructions and baked it into a cookie he gave Max.
Jason wasn't so bad himself, 6'4" and muscular, with a charming face. Little did he know that his height that he had since he was a sophmore in highschool would be changing.
Jason stared at Max as his skin started to ripple and shift.
"Are you sure?"
"Never better, bro."
Max ripped his shirt off as his muscles swelled. A deep canyon of rippling abs leading up to two giant slabs of muscle. He flexed and stretched as his biceps filled out.
"Sorry, im feeling a little hot." Max said non chalantly. His muscles continued to grow as he flexed them.
"Oh my god it worked"
"What worked?"
"Oh nothing, dont worry about it."
"Ok brah"
Their surrounds changed from school as it turned into a living room, a living room Jason had been in so many times before, Max's living room. All of a sudden, Jason felt a pull towards Max. He couldn't stop looking at him, like literally. He traced Max's outline as each muscle became more prominent. He stared at the giant as he grew taller and taller, but something wasn't right. It was like everything around Jason was getting taller too.
Unfortunately, Jason hadn't looked into how the roid actually worked. On the back of the small blue box, it read ;
Are you tired of being weak and nerdy? We got you covered. We believe the human mind is a powerful tool, and our Bro Pill helps you to use it to your full potential! Not only does it shift your mindset to be more focused on sports and the bros, but it also changes various other aspects of your life in order to fit your new you! We recommend taking one pill weekly until desired affects.
WARNING: taking more than one pill a week may intensify the effect you have on other people
Jason panicked as he felt himself losing muscle and height. His features softened as he turned from a rugged man into a young 20 something twink. It looks like the god of Jason's creation has type cast him as his twinky boyfriend. Making Max a jock apparently didn't override his sexuality.
"What are you doing to me?"
His voice was still deep, too deep for someone like him.
"Make that voice a little higher, and can you please quit being so worried brah? Be like me, stop thinkin as much little guy huhuhu."
A wave of relief came over Jason as he collapsed onto the couch. His body continued to shrink as he lost his height, becoming about 5'6" compared to Max's new 6'8". His musculature toned down more, not as defined anymore.
"Whatever you say babe" Jason giggled, his voice much higher and more flamboyant.
"Thats my pretty boy." Conversely, Max's voice became much deeper and demanding. Jason felt himself starting to get hornier.
"I'm so happy i couldfind you. Your ass was like made for my dick huhuhu" Max said as he spread his legs wide as his pouch grew bigger. He had one more explosive growth as his shoulder broadened and his pecs filled out more. Jason shifted in his seat as his ass grew more plump and muscular.
"What do you mean?" Jason feigned innocence, turning the ditziness all the way up.
"Come here and I'll show you, slut."
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Love slowly but surely becoming the odd one out in my circle for not using chat gpt even though it would "make my life so much easier and i could spend less time revising stuff" /neg
#“you need to learn how to use it if you want to make money” says my mom#“you should use it to sum up those huge texts so you can study them easier in less time” says my best friend who's technically also anti-ai#“you should—” how about i start fucking biting#little bit of my soul dies everytime i hear smth like that#at this point i dont even know why i hate it so much anymore. i just do. i guess its the principle of it. it's core. but it's everywhere#it tires me out and im so tired already#cant i get help without having to ask a machine for it? is it really all there is left for me to turn to? did i fall this low? did we?#it wouldn't even recognize whats important and what isn't#i think I'll just tear a nerve from stress on my own#sighs#delete later maybe#i dont think i care at this point#sunshine talks
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You what? | Viktor x Jayce x Kid!Reader | Arcane ¤
Summary: Viktor knows Jayce sometimes does things without thinking, but this? This goes beyond his own limits.
Warnings: Mentions of trauma - Kid!Reader - Viktor and Jayce are a couple - OFF CANON EVENTS - Human traffic - GN Reader - PLATONIC - grammar mistakes -
When Viktor enters on monday morning into the lab with his coffee in hand he expects nothing but silence, after all he is here before Jayce most mornings.
But he stops in his tracks when he hears Jayce's voice, maybe sounding less...well less like him. He sounds like he is talking to a small animal. It reminds him on how he uses to talk to Rio when he was a kid.
Pushing memories aside Viktor retakes his way and goes deeper into the lab, where their experiments are.
And oh, if his illness did not kill him as most doctors had said then this would do it.
Jayce, using one of his experiments showing it to a kid who seems to be as suprised as any kid would be and perphas gives the most honest reactions to his inventions.
But wait, go back.
Jayce and a kid.
His cane hits the floor in suprise and he ends being watched by two pairs of eyes.
Jayce looks like he was discovered breaking some important rule, to which Viktor is centrain that bringing a kid into the lab counts as but he wont say it. And another pair that looks at him with curiosity.
There is silence, no one really knows what to say or how to act. But Jayce ends reacting, leaving the experiment and going to help Viktor with his cane who is feeling a headache coming.
"Hey Vik! long time no see, how's your house?"
Honestly? Viktor wants nothing more than to go back in time and insist that he is fine and does not need rest. Maybe like that he would have stayed with Jayce and prevent...this.
But time travel is something that is still on the making, so back to the main point.
Viktor just gives out the most tired look, then turns to a near chair, sits and taking his coffee simple says "Explain"
Becuase if there is something he has come to learn while dating and loving Jayce is that nothing should suprise him (and yet Jayce still manages to do it) and also, is better to ask upfront than to wait for him to talk up. Viktor can still remember that one time he found a big (illegal no less) plant at his home and Jayce ignored it for two hours till he asked.
"Well you see, its really funny actually..."
"Jayce...."
"Alright..., so I took a walk around campus and saw some...suspicious individuals and well lets say I was not very discrete"
Viktor can just imagine the scene
"And they saw me and ran but I chased after them"
Stupid move Viktor thinks
"And then they trow me this kid at me, i mean what could I have done? So i took them home, gave them a warm meal and a bath" Jayce ends sounding a bit too proud of himself.
"Jayce you...you stole a kid?" Viktor asks because he is confused "And did not report the incident?"
"Uh well i was going too but then (Y/N) started to wonder around so i kind of forgot..."
"(Y/N?" Viktor asks and sees you peeking out from behind the big desk.
"Yes! Thats their name, im not sure about much more, only that they like chocolate and blue stuff"
Viktor ends in silence for various minutes. You must be an orphan he concludes, an orphan from the undercity, who had no other choice but to follow a gang in order to survive. He tries to calculate your age but its hard, you have been not eating well, thats clear, and he can already see some bruises from the misstreatment of the undercity.
Being raised by parents or family its a luxury after all.
"Jayce you cant just take a kid in" Viktor says and his heart almost breaks as he sees you run towards Jayce hugging his legs.
Noted, you may not talk but you understand, its clear you are more intelligent than what you leave to be at first.
Street smart maybe?
"But Viktor! I cant just leave them" Jayce responds picking you up. "If they return to the undercity i dont think they will make it"
Jayce sees how you push your head against his chest and smiles softly at you.
"And we cant leaven them at an orphan home! I have read of these places, they suck"
Viktor must agree, its not like he comes from one but knows well that lots of kids ends being sold off...
"Alright and whats your plan?" Viktor asks "Do you even know what it means to raise a kid, or how? What about me? Were you going to consulte me?"
He can see the pain in Jayce eyes at his last sentence. "Of course I was! I was just thinking of a...well a good moment"
"Because bringing them to the lab was the perfect idea"
"I could not leave them at home! I mean i tried but- they would not let go of my leg, i think they have some type of trauma..."
Viktor takes another deep breath, Jayce kidness and heart knows no limits.
"Besides you did say you wanted to help the peopel from the undercity"
"This is different, we are talking about raising! adopting a kid!"
"So you are considering?" Jayce asks in the most hopeful tone ever.
Viktor just lets out another breath.
"Well, its not like they can go back and yes, orphan homes sucks" Viktor responds. "But we need to do this right. And i mean legally"
Jayce nods and all of him lights up like he has discover a new thing. He goes to Viktor carefully managing (Y/N) by his hands and leans down to peak Viktor's lips.
"Yes!! Totally! I will talk to Mel about it, im sure she can move some contacts for this" Jayce says and Viktor can see his brain making more and more plans.
"They also need clothes, and we should think of getting them into school" Viktor adds standing up with his cane and going closer. He can see (Y/N) eyes and cant denied how it makes his heart melts.
"Dad?" Its what you say looking at Viktor, then you look at Jayce "Mom?"
Jayce smiles and nods while Viktor is left without words. "Yes! We are your mom and dad now" he says pointing at him then at Viktor.
"Family?"
Jayce nods again
"...Chocolate?" You asks once more
"Alright thats all, if they eat too much sugar this place will be a disaster, you do remember we have dangerous things in here, right?"
Jayce nods at Viktor then whispers to you "We will get chocolate once we end work"
Viktor snorts then moves to his desk to finally start working and also to let his mind register everything. He hears the doors closing imagining Jayce went with you to talk to Mel.
But no, he feels a pull at his trousers and looks down at you who looks up at him extending your arms
"Dad! Up!"
Viktor does as told pulling you on his lap and passing you some papper and a pen. Both fall in a comfortable silence.
And Viktor thinks, this is something he can totally get used to.
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can someone explain better than i can why a somewhat consistent canon matters? to me "fuck canon we do what we want" has its limits, to an extent its freeing and you can do alot with it ... but if theres no groundwork to build on? what does it matter? when canon doesnt matter why does anything? why spent time thinking about it?
this was about arcane at first but it also applies to totk, when the canon can just be erased and replaced, changed with no consistency or rules i cant invest time thinking about anything bc .... it can all be changed anyway, without any rules in fiction it all stops being interesting to me
having rules, or groundwork to work with and around is fun and interesting, but when its made clear that nothign of that actually matters? its boring and i feel cheated, just like how i felt so cheated by totk, it makign clear that everything botw established never actually mattered, it being downright erased ... that is why my love for zelda has faltered into indifference, the only thing making me hold on to it being the projects i have already invested so much time into ..
if you read a book and important details change or go missing after you read it, or with every time you read through it with no rule or system to it at all? its tiring and annoying, why care when they dont, how can i care about a character if i know they will just go and completely change who they are while acting like that was always how it was, idk, im bad at putting my feelings into thoughts :I
#ganondoodles talks#personal#arcane#totk critical#someone better with words ;___;#i understand where the idea comes from just saying that canon doesnt matter anyway#but to me it does????#bc i cant invest my thought and time into something when it doesnt matter anyway#why spent time on that if will just get thrown away#if you take away my pan while im cooking its hard to keep going with it???? idk???#and YES its taken away i cant just .... put it into my own ... i mean yes i can but also not its not the same aaaaaaaaaaaargh#??????????? does anyone know what i mean?????????????
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Yeah so, one, i didnt ask. Im trying to not sound overly bitter but bringing up "doctors can be wrong and so can research" on a post about why *self diagnosing is not a good course of action in most cases* as a point to why im wrong is kinda tone deaf at best.
Two, im typically against self diagnosis at all, and at most consider myself "pro self recognition", but i also know that people often treat that as synonmous. That's not coming from a place of "trying desperately to police people" or having been privileged enough to get to see doctors early on - thats coming from having been on both sides of the coin at this point in my life.
Of having considered myself "self diagnosed" growing up and facing an ass load of problems because of it and the spaces that foster it. Of learning through professional diagnosis that, in spite of me being right about *what* was wrong, the reasons why that diagnosis was accurate were near ENTIRELY outside what I understood of any of the disorders. Of getting utter whiplash and having to reevaluate everything I knew from spaces that refuse to address misinformation.
My point isnt about "you need to meet MY criteria >:(", its that, speaking from PERSONAL EXPERIENCE, self diagnosis - let alone when it comes alongside trying to find a space to 'belong' - can and will open the door to problems for the person doing it if not handled with care.
First and foremost, the goal should be to heal and cope as best as can be expected, regardless of what disorder the person has. And if mental health spaces fixate on validity culture and spread anti recovery, anti psychiatry rhetoric, then it will continue to create a dangerous echo chamber and turn actual mental disorders into quirky community labels and people who actively need help will turn away from seeking it.
Additionally..... the solution to "some professionals can be wrong" is to seek a second opinion, not to double down and reject healthcare altogether.
Gentle reminder that the only reason you should ever "self diagnose" is when you have done thorough research about the diagnostic criteria, you are facing uncontrollable/long term limitations to accessing proper healthcare, AND are only using that to try to better understand your health or be better understood by people in your personal life.
Self diagnosis in many cases will be incorrect due to your own personal biases and interpretations of the medical text. It should not be a means of inserting yourself into online spaces as "one of them", it should not be a replacement for medical care, it is not an excuse to ignore or avoid available resources, it does not validate spreading anti-recovery rhetoric that pushes disordered individuals away from seeking the help they need, and it should never be a technique to bypass putting in the time, energy and work to find a proper yet affordable doctor.
Diagnosis-- let alone accurate diagnosis-- takes time, getting a care team that listens takes self advocacy, and you will inevitably meet at least one doctor during your journey who is dismissive or even bigoted. That's the unfortunate nature of living in a society that does not properly accommodate the people within it. But that doesn't mean that every good and reasonable doctor is locked behind a classist/ableist paywall, it just means you need to be patient with yourself, take slow steps forward and work on what you can do to get to one in the meantime.
#gently trying to warn people to not get so invested in a term or community that they get in harms way#shouldnt be painted as. desperately policing people#this is coming from a place of EXPERIENCE and CARING about how much harm can be done from self dx validity culture echo chambers#im trying to remain composed but this shit is so upsetting to just#watch in real time as people end up in the same pits and get egged on because to the internet disorders are just Quirky Identities#so its hard to not come off as vitriolic now because im just#im sick of this cycle#i wouldnt have even commented if you didnt put it directly on my post but im just.#im tired man#i tried to put off responding for awhile to collect some of my thoughts bc otherwise i know my knee jerk reaction would come off really mean#people dont HAVE to listen and i cant stop anyone from self dxing but my god i just want people to be safe and sane and able to get help#because living like this isnt some fun quirky game#it fucking sucks
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🪶 short comfort rookanis so i dont lose my mind enjoy 🪶
"Rook."
"Hm?" Her drink splashes over the edge of her cup and onto her shirt.
"Are you.. what's wrong? I've called your name out three times now."
"Yeah, yeah. I'm good."
"You said this is your favorite singer. Yet you're miles and miles away. Talk to me." The flier advertising her appearance that night was the only reason they lingered so long.
Rook sighs. She takes a sip of her drink and leans back to focus on him.
"You know how, when your mind is left alone with your thoughts for long enough, you just sort of.. start spiraling?"
"Not lately, but I've been there." That his mind hasn't been left alone for a while now, Lucanis doesn't need to say.
"Whe- the Ossuary."
When Rook points that out, it doesn't hurt as much as when others do. Maybe there's an implied compassion from their - not shared, but similar - past.
We like her, idiot. She likes us. That's why it doesn't hurt. Spite pulls at his hair and stomps his foot with how stubborn Lucanis is over this. His scalp starts to burn.
"Before that, too." The singer excuses herself for a drink. "If you'd like to talk about it, there's a lull now."
The weight of all Thedas rests on her, the way she sighs, and it's true.
"I'm just... so deep in it, right now. Should've just sat down and awaited orders, like Viago said. Don't tell him I said that. It'll get to his big head."
"Too late." Rook tracks his eyes tracking the Fletching behind her getting up and leaving so obviously Caterina would send them straight back to the Barracks with the raw recruits.
Rook closes her eyes and - not even sighs, she just exhales, but there's still a lifetime of exhaustion in it.
"Besides," he tries, "How could you have known killing some Antaam and breaking out an author would lead to this? Solas set these events in motion so long ago, one could no longer even see his hands in them if he weren't clinging to the reins like a drowning man to thrown rope."
It doesn't work.
"Had I just kept my head down-"
"Then Solas would've succeeded with that ritual of his, and all Thedas would burn already. This way, we can at least pretend we have a chance at turning the tide."
A pause, as she considers it.
"And we would never have met."
The smile he finally sees on her is small, tired and aching. But it's still a smile. He'll take it.
"Now you're breaking apart my doomclouds."
"I live to serve." She takes a slice of bread out of the basket between them and starts wiping the soup from her bowl.
"You'll live for so much more. Trust me."
With my life, Lucanis thinks.
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thesis anxiety hella kicking so im a lil quiet rn and also im not sure if i like it but I hit barricade at a concert and had a straight up menty b over the general course of my life and three ppl down ppl got engaged mid-song so i need some comfort
@lanafofana this isn't what we talked about but have a tag anyway lmao
rook sighing with closed eyes like the meme of the smoking actor in the blue top that i have no idea who he is or what he does.
#rookanis#rook x lucanis#lucanis dellamorte#dragonage#dragon age#dragon age the veilguard#spite dragon age#rinawrites#rinascreamsaboutbioware#antivan crow rook#rook#de riva#de riva rook#veilguard spoilers
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here we fucking go again (INTRO POST)
<name> maya
<age> 16- female
okay basically im like actually insane, ik everyone says that but dont try me lol. ive gotten backshots to my account like a million times, so i rlly dont have energy to do this againnnnn. i am kinky asf and prolly a hypersexual so if u dont fw that suck my clit ig???? basically, i girlblog but its like acc insane posting. if u dont like it just block, dont report. i post alot of nsfw shit, whether it be sexual or not, dont take it as an invitation to be innapropriate with me. (unless ur my age i jus don wan creeps in my dms anymore) I AM SO NORMAL ABOUT CAL GABRIEL AND MUSIC AS WELL!!!! same with media and shit. diagnosed OCD, PTSD, depression etc;
<DNI> NONE!!!! i literally do not give a single fuck. wanna kill people? chill. wanna rape girls? idc. nazi? sick opinion dude i hate jews too (im a practicing jew lol). racist? sick. say slurs ur not supposed to say? me too brah. schizo? hell yes kiss me. murderous? im alr wet. like i genuinely condone it all idc, ive seen so much shit in my life atp i just ball. not a bad person, just tired. or maybe i am a bad person, idrc.
<TW> gore, 3d, self hvrm, tcc, and lowk schizo posting
<music> jeff buckley (my husband), alex g, weezer, the cure, the smiths, the kooks, the kinks, radiohead, the red hot chili peppers, avenge sevenfold, metallica, system of a down, limp bizkit, Кино, the cocteau twins, rammstein, linkin park, megadeath, three doors down, led zeppelin, tom petty, pearl jam (yes im basic shut up), kimya dawson, the moldy peaches, petal, sweet trip, slowdive, elliot smith, tv girl, whirr, michael cera, the smashing pumpkins, cigs after sex, adrienne lenker, lana del rey, jack off jill, bikini kill, slutever, maequin pussy, soft cult, big theif, frankie cosmos, remember sports, cheerleader roadkill, reel big fish, car seat headrest, modern baseball, american football, tiugers jaw, vs self, joyce manor, deftonesssss, slipknot, pantera, korn, mazzy star, german error message, ptv, mcr, tom milsom, rob zombie, basement, glare, icp, seventh void, THE STROKES, canibal corpse, ethel cain, slayer, joy again, rotgut god, suzi moon, suicidal tendencies, amyl and the sniffers, surfbort, yucky duster, upchuck, the courtneys, msi, porches, taking back sunday, mbv, murderdolls, acid bath, throwing muses, nervous dater, slingshot dakota, blowout, nico play, great grandpa, solya, radiator hospital, municipal waste, napalm death, kittie, the voids, and so much more.
<my husbands> cal, spencer reid, felix catton, sid from skins, tate langdon (i know im basic 😔), joel miller, oberyn martel, joe goldberg, love quinn, victoria pedretti, emily prentiss, etc
<languages> i speak arabic, hebrew, spanish, and russian fluently. IF YOU NEED ME TO TRANSLATE SHIT I GOTCHUUUU
<interests> community, new girl, tcc (obv), skins, criminal minds, music mostly, SPACE!!! literature, physics, astronomy, NOT ASTROLOGY!!! and psych
#3d f4st#3d not sheeran#andre kriegman#cal and andre#adam tcc#cal gabriel#3d di3t#calvin gabriel#3d#tcc thoughts#tcc eric#tcc fandom#tcc tumblr#tcc dylan#tccblr#tccblur#teeceecee#tc community#true cringe community#dylan columbine#tcc columbine#eric columbine#zero day#zero day 2003#caldre#thinspø#thinsperation#ribspiration#columbine high massacre
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everlasting trio redesign
check out my commissions
#danny phantom#everlasting trio#danny fenton#sam manson#tucker foley#hi im tired af but i made myself draw SOMETHING#particularly bc i've been wanting to draw this for about a month???#i had a much easier time doing this with the three of them at the same time than doing it one by one#might do more later but dont hold me up to that im busy af lmao#anyway im proud of these#sam with her space buns and rose design on the shirt#danny with the space themed embroidery done by sam on his dysphoria hoodie#and i had to do research on how to do tucker's hair but i like what's supposed to be under the beanie but also the ankh necklace#also i decided the only reason tucker's beanie is red is as a reference to danny#so are sam's space buns#and the colors on danny's embroidery are references to sam (purple moon) and tucker (stars) and phantom (planet)#i was also thinking the guys are also wearing piercings by sam's influence#and i was originally going to give sam a different more distressed skirt but i also wanted her and tucker to have matching patterns
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i dont have a problem w devzel in general since its generally harmless and i just have the most boring character taste ever, but it gets SO tiring how people will only bring her up, im not surprised people are making content of the duo clearly ment to be a duo and the fact that dev is generally a well written character, but the fact that ive seen the triple amount of content on him alone compared to hazel, hell ive seen more dale aus - guy that appeared for 3 episodes (4 if you count the minute he was shown in the lemonade shtick) - compared to The Litteral Protagonist
and keep in mind, ive counted 8 different episodes out of the 37 that are specifically centered around those two, which makes it slightly more bizzare for me, i dont even know the general opinions on each episode cuz posts about them are almost non existant or would only focus on the one scene dev is in (multiverse of jenkins showing how hazel over worries and while wanting the problem to be gone holds on to it more then it should, and then people turning around and going "OMGGGGGG DEVZEL MOMENTTT" like ok . whatever. kicks rock) the fact that people cant seem to name ANYTHING about her is what shocks me. ok maybe not anything, a wee bit exadgeration, but it really DOES feel that way, they go omg shes autistic and then just, dont do anything else specific to that for excample
ive only seen ONE analysis to stuck in my head (good post btw) and the fact that the most consistent discussion ive seen that IS about her is "she told dev lightheartibly that he kinda did deserve , i wish people discussed more episodes, the scene where she and antony yell at eachother in rattleconda racers i think was done really well personally
and whats more interesting is that from what ive noticed, its like people have a hard time seperating her from dev, but can easily do so the other way around (points at ao3 tags), like shes a little accessory to his angst, or only there to be his girlfriend depending on the post
im not really surprised that this happened, i call this the hunter effect personally (character that is well written and you cant be mad at anyone who likes them, but is hogging rhe attention compaired to someone else thats important a weeee bit more then youd like), and i DO agree that hazels other relations arent, explored, like at all, HOWEVER if people can make 2 million in-between scenarios with irep and dev, like i garente if you havent watched the show and went onto the tag you would assume that peri and irep and the dimmadomes played a MUCH bigger role, like if you can make up so much more about them and expand apon them then you can take scraps of what the other characters have and build on them i pormise you
like looking at the fop tag is litterly liek this V
you deserve so much better then what people give you
#cupid.exe#the way ive seen afew people liveblog this show and constantly ask how dev is doing when hes not on screen#no way i saw someone link dev to FEARLESS . AN EPISODE WHICH I DONT THINK HE EVEN APPEARS IN THE BACKGROUND
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Send me every little selfie you take so that i can look at them whenever i miss you
#wlw#wlw mood#sapphic#sapphism#lesbian#hate how much im having a picture locket of my beloveds face coded#embarrassing tbh#like pls let me look at pictures of you when i miss you and i can’t sleep pls pls pls pls#when i dont have time to text or call you but i miss you#when i just sort of need to stare at you but we aren’t together#ughhhhh#i like pictures SO much#but also i would rather die than have a picture of myself exist i hate those things smh#few experiences as mortifying to me as having my picture taken horrible and awful#my brain is itchy just thinking about it#im gay and i like sleeping#also also i am. So tired.#i tried to grammar check all this but god i cannot focus on it lol#so apologies if there’s nonsense😅#time to SLEEP even though i have absolutely NO pictures to stare at longingly smh😒
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something i've already posted about in the past but am thinking about again because of the conversations in this episode is that i still truly do not understand bells hells'(well, particularly ashton's) view on what is going to happen if the information about aeor gets sent out to the people of exandria. obviously, i'm not an average person living in that world and am instead a viewer of the media with fairly extensive knowledge of the lore, so i could definitely just be missing what the impact would actually be! but the insistence that it would be a world shattering revelation that completely turns everyone against the odds just... doesn't make sense to me?
unless ludinus has a way of editing the information he presents and can take away the context, which would basically make the "footage" even more strange, what they're going to be seeing is... the gods saving themselves from people with the active ability to murder them all and having a rather humanizing crisis of what they should do about it? i guess the working with the betrayer gods part could be considered the controversial aspect of it, but overall, considering everything else that was destroyed in the calamity, aeor really was the one instance that was closest to being "justified". i don't think anyone who cares enough about the gods for this to cause any sort of big disruption of faith would have as big of a problem with it as they are assuming, nor do i really think it's something that would cause mass revolts against the gods in people who aren't devout.
#critical role#cr spoilers#i have spent so much time thinking abt this tbh. so much of my brain power is dedicated to thinking about religion in exandria#i do admit that i'm thinking about it in a way that is very logic-driven when if in the scenario itd be more emotion-driven#this is just nonsense from my thoughts attempted to be put into words that make sense to anyone besides myself LMAO#i was gonna add another part about why their idea that it will Massively interupt their power is strange also#considering the fact they watched a freshly Completely wiped out of followers everlight have the same power as all the other gods in aeor#but this post is long enough and i feel like whenever i post about this im worried abt how it comes across#so i dont feel like adding on to it anymore than i have sjskfn#i am honestly just very tired of god debates. i think there was more interesting parts in last night's than some of the others#but it feels so circular every time. and i still love you orym for being the one who sees this and i want to give him a kiss about it
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I bring to thee some quick late night Viktuuri sketches because I think we could all use some fluff
#some viktuuri for the soul!#my blorbos are always in my mind even if im not creating for them in that moment#they never leave <3#their eepy leepiness is a reflection of moi and i love their eepy leepiness for them i hope theyre getting some great naps#just some calm and quiet#love that for them#also this isnt the first time i draw in like two months what are you talking about?#the last art i posted totally wasnt from the 14th of march shhhhh the date on the post is definitely wrong source trust me#no but like i have been so dead for months#dont expect to see much art from me before july when my break starts and i can stop being stressed out of my mind#now i can be one of those tortured artist types except i havent done any art to communicate how sad i am#tbh im just tired i just wanna sleep#am i gonna? youre funny of course not but now i can at least pretend my awake time was vaguely productive#yuri on ice#yuri on ice fanart#fanart#art#arom antix art#arom antix#viktor nikiforov#kastuki yuuri#viktuuri
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i haven't read anything in 3 months. there are like 5 books i should be reading for uni. at least 10 things i said i'd draw first. my headphones refuse to work. my graphic tablet pen seems like it's going to die any second. i can't go to bed at humane hours. i think i ended up a little frustrated and with this guy all over my canvas??
oh and happy ace week. that's so swag.
#im so angry my pen's been acting up. little guy is agains me i have not been able to draw:(( /also cause i have more important thinkgs to do#but yk i dont seem to do them either#this time i was able to finish something?? uuuhhhh excuse the ramble im so tired rn. idk whats wrong with my pen#i like spade earring jon. he came out nice#and i do realize the talking one looks kinda like shaggy but shut up i love green shirts so jon get one too#my art#mine#jonathan sims#tma#the magnus archives#ace people have so much swag rn. very beautiful. very powerful. look at us#these are doodles that were never meant to be finished let alone posted. uughhstgjh hhhs guggf#why r u still here. why r u reading my stupid tags go away#digital art#fanart#<= ok thats all. im going away too
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Parenting | Viktor x Jayce x Kid!Reader | Arcane ¤
Reader is nicknamed Spark! (I think is pretty gn).
Warnings: PLATONIC - Mentions of trauma - Reader cries - Jayce gets called mom - SFW - Reader is a kid so their speech is not developed - OFF CANON EVENTS -
Now Jayce did think this was not going to be easy.
But how do you explain a kid that no, their parents are not fighting and no, Dad is not leaving forever.
He has no idea.
It started well, just an evening at his house with you and Viktor. Just seeing how all of this would work, and it was going well. Jayce had let you take his bed till they figured something about it. Made dinner and gave you some toys (blue ot course) to play with.
Now, they were not living together yet. It was something that was going to happen eventually but work was always first and honestly? They were used to just stay at each other places. It was like having two homes.
Home is were the peopel you love are.
But now, you are here. And after a long play session Viktor said how he needed to go back home to read some notes for tomorrow's work and also get some clean clothes.
When Jayce asked him to stay since it was too late Viktor just scoffed and told him it was fine. Nothing would happen.
Yes, his tone was a bit cold but he was tired, Jayce did not take it at heart but you....
"Dad...leaving?" You asked in your hand a odd plush Jayce had decided to get you.
"Yes, i need to go home" Viktor have said without thinking much.
Then he hear it, the slow but raising cries.
"Nono! Dad not leave" You said going to him and hugging his leg. "Mom need dad!"
Viktor felt his world go upside down, he had seen kids cries but never once he had a situation like this one.
"Now now Spark, Dad is not leaving forever" Jayce said taking you to put you at eye level with Viktor ending in you hugging now Viktor's neck.
"He is going to go and get something, you will see him again tomorrow" Jayce tried to explain pulling you away from Viktor but you just hugged him more.
"NO!! Dad stay" its was a scream now and a demand. You were looking at Viktor like he was your world.
"I cant little Spark" Viktor said softly pulling you away but taking you from Jayce arms. "Dad needs to get work done"
"N-no!! I will be good, i dont bother. Im good" you said between sobs. That was an indicator that something had happened in your past for you to react this way and it made Viktor's soul shatter.
"Listen, how about we play some more and then sleep?" He tried this time
"You stay?" You asked and Viktor looked at Jayce for help who was very much lost in all of this.
"I will stay, I promise" Viktor agreed kissing your head.
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Once you were finally asleep Viktor and Jayce let themselfs fall on the livingroom, both mentally tired.
"I told you this was not going to be easy" Viktor said checking the hour then letting out a displeased sound "And now is too dam late"
"Hey, we can pass for your notes tomorrow morning" Jayce tried to calm down his boyfriend. "Besides this may be a sign" He added getting a look from Viktor.
"I mean-" Jayce started blushing "We did say we were going to move together and now with our little Spark..." Jayce said getting quiet when Viktor did not respond
"Well, I believe its true. And now we know how big the place needs to be" Viktor finally said. "We need four rooms, one for us, one for (Y/N), one for our lab at home and one for...storage" Viktor counted with his fingers then looked at Jayce. "Maybe keep one of hour homes too, since we do have lots ot things, and i would prefer to get dangerous things away from (Y/N)"
"So....yeah thats seems to be right" Jayce said thinking "It will cost...a lot" he added getting a nod from Viktor.
"Yes it will, but its not like we are short on it" He added
"Then its decided! I will start to look tomorrow right away, do you think we should get a garden? Or backyard? Would Spark like it?" Jayce asked more and more ecxited and imagining you running around.
"Just...lets start looking at a four room house, we will see about details" Viktor finally said calming Jayce down.
"Mom? Dad?" A sleepy you appeared making them look in worry
"Nightmare?" Jayce asked getting up as you nodded
"Come here little Spark, lets get you back to bed, mom will read you a story"
"Can Dad come too?" You asked looking at Viktor who despite being tired as hell got up with his cane.
"Of course, how does Introduction to Physics sound?" Viktor joked as you quickly moved your head saying no.
"No! I hate that one"
"A shame, its fine literature" Viktor responded getting a laught from Jayce.
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day 6
#i kinda dont like this one much#i would have done something with more focus in the eyes#but honestly i am tired#and i wanted to draw rose#so i decided to listen to “when olivia matures into bravocat” by pengosolvent bc it reminds me of her#but i started getting emotional#but i dont think i managed to capture the feeling i wanted very well#but ill post it anyway#i want to draw more roses#im reluctant to put tags on this one tbh#doodle#rose lalonde#homestuck#cringetober 2024#cringetober#and FUCK i just realized i skipped gijinka#anyway theres still time#its not morning yet for me!!!!!!!!#starters fandom here i go
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anyways . silly thing
#gravity falls#stanford pines#stanley pines#lg doodles#animatic#i want it done.get out of here u stupid dog#ITS CHEESY.IM SORRY ! IMSORRY <embarrassed .truly#but i think. a gf revival would not be complete w/o me trying my hand at a shitty animatic. this 1 is for me dwg#as annoying as the whole process was it was kind of fun ngl. . like ive never been good at keeping a consistent style or chara model#and this was rly good practice for that .. i think looking at it now its like. no its crazxy its insane bc i dont ever want to do it again#at least in the immediate future but watching it back im like ok well.icouldve at least done that better. or tried to loosen up my vp and#made it feel less flat . <thats the devil talking & trying to get u back in on it.thats what i mean liike its fun but its evil and tiring#also im so creatively burnt out ik i couldve done so many fun ciphord gore things but i ug a 'shrug' pff 'shrug' i ?. yk#if only i didnt have the disposition to want to finish everything in one sitting. i think thats why i like static illustration#more bc u get more like. topical variety in a shorter amt of time u feel. anyways i remember hearing this song 4 the first time and in#my need to apply everything ever to my hyperfix i was like omg crop circles soo stanford lol. omg a deal he made when he was young.. & no#it doesnt feel so great does it .. (ciphordd)..then the eyes & fate i was alr convinced but when it got 2 the stanley part ab the taking hi#fathers brothers name i was like ok well fuck filbrick 1 . but rewritten for canon events anyways HELLO???????? AND U WILL DIE THE SAMEE?#much cooler version is still stuck in my head but i hope that u can get the same rudimentary vision i have
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