#but i dont have much time and im so tired

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big sister - hyun ju

summary; a big sister will always protect, but when will she be able to relax?

genre/extra tags; one shot, found family, fluff, hurt/comfort?, canon typical violence, i dont like the second season writing, but i can not deny myself this diva, that's mother !!, teen! reader, hyun ju is the only reason i decided to watch this season, slight canon divergence bc i have the mind of a goldfish, canon typical sad heavy conversations, big sister is written to be seen as the korean honorific "unnie", older sister moments written in the point of view of a younger sibling, unintentional love letter for my appreciation to my sister, reader is implied to be some form of lgbt but not out (im projecting)

[platonic] [gender-neutral reader]

[warning; mentions of transphobic ideas]

a/n; before people ask, no, im not doing requests for this show. i just don't feel fully comfortable writing for squid game. i just really wanted to write this because, believe it or not, i write for my enjoyment. even i do switch off here every few months or every other month.

dinner had rolled around after an intense "game" of life or death. how you managed to survive this long is beyond you. but you might have a strong idea of why you're living so long, and it was the strong woman who was sitting beside you with some of the other women who were surviving so far.

the old lady had pointed out that hyun ju was not like other people. and it really was odd to her. but hyun ju was used to that. more than used to it. she lived through it since she decided to come out.

you listen to the conversation, not really putting your two cents in as it seemed like there was no right time to butt in. but as the conversation continued, the mood was just a little lighter. and that was more than enough morale. the old lady seemed to slowly understand hyun ju and her struggle.

you've zoned out so much, you almost fail to notice hyun ju sneaking an egg onto your shabby given lunch box meal. you look up at her as she gives you a warm look before pretending that she didn't just do that.

you mix the rice with not much thought, spilling some bits of rice and egg over its metal container before you slowly eat. unbeknownst to you, hyun ju glances back at you as if to make sure you're actually eating and not staring off with a tired look that no teen or child should have. you've seen everything, you're part of this sick game, she may not know your story, but she knows you don't deserve any of the bad you've been through.

you're the youngest in the entire room, a room filled with people with insurmountable debt and issues. hyun ju can only imagine your worry, your anxiety, the burden.

when the first game got serious, you were trying your damned hardest to keep your fear contained under the watchful eye of that robot scanning every movement. she was right in front of you, keeping you safe along with the rest of the people who lined up with her. you look like you wanted to cry the moment you got to the finish line. if she wasn't full of adrenaline at the time, she probably would've heard how hard your heart was beating.

somehow, she had taken two people under her care. you and young-mi. how could she not care about a young woman like young-mi and a teen like yourself? two anxious people forced to live a life full of debt and pain when you both deserved nothing but comfort and love.

people start lining up in their beds for nighttime. gi-hun was very insistent on being careful at night. it was dangerous. some people were not behind just killing others at night to sweeten the pot of money that loomed over everyone's head like a golden sun.

as most of the adults started to climb in their beds, you stand awkwardly. you weren't a stranger to sleeping a room full of people, but you were definitely a little paranoid after what gi-hun was talking about.

you find yourself naturally gravitating to hyun ju. her presence was just so calming, and she was so caring for others. it was hard not to get attached. young-mi had taken to calling her big sister. and you found yourself doing the same when you call out to her softly.

"big sister?" you gently tap at her arm as she turns to look at you. she silently urges you to continue speaking with a gentle look. you can see the tired in her eyes, but she looks at you, unwilling to say no. "this is embarrassing..." you mutter.

"it's okay. i'm here." she reassures you.

"can i stay with you tonight? i'm-" you choke a little bit on your words, not only out of embarrassment but fear. "i'm really scared. i don't wanna be alone." you confess.

she softens, "i would love to let you, but it's too risky. if people come for us, it would be very hard to fight back. i'm so sorry, kid." she opens her arm out for a hug, and you take the comfort you can get in this shitty place. "i will do my best to keep you safe, alright? when we get out of here, i'm going to find you again, and we can help each other, yeah? i'll protect you."

you nodded with her words, not finding the heart to say anything. she takes this as a sign to start guiding you into your bunk bed on top. at least the top bunks would be somewhat safer for you. you hesitantly climb into bed. "if a fight breaks out, hide. run. just be safe. i will find you, and you'll be safe." she continues to reassure you the best she can.

"okay. goodnight big sister." you whispered. "please be safe."

"i will." she said with a calm confidence that only she could pull off that didn't make you feel worried for her.

you hope that you get out of here, so you don't have to see the worried exhaustion in her eyes anymore.

she was a big sister by heart and soul. you just hoped her big heart wouldn't lead her to her doom. she protects and gives, but when will she relax?

[indiestsnake]

woof. im like. actually emotionally tired tonight?? like mentally whooped. and uh. I think it’s from playing five hours straight of In Stars and Time.

spose the math checks out

cut cuz this got long, the post from here is just rambles

it makes sense for ISAT to do this, it was such a massive hit for a reason. but for me this is a lil weird. I’ve never had a game have such an… effect on me. like, pushing past the borders of healthy enjoyment effects. is this normal? do yall get this with media? Im usually pretty detached to the stories in games I play, I’ve- literally never cried over media. somehow. gotten watery at times but never shed a full tear. And im a pretty emotional person, but it’s just never happened. so im not exactly used to thinking about a story so intensely even after ive turned off the screen.

I’ve also never played a game that is this… brutal to its characters, to be fair. or character, rather. the first person dialogue certainly doesn’t help, and something about Siffrin and his reactions to things just sticks with me. plus I’m playing on my new pc instead of my switch, so that probably adds to it. bigger screen, and I’m up in my room instead of on the living room couch, so I’ve got a lot more room to emote and feel and immerse myself in the story.

tldr this game is uh. doing things to me. I really, really, really hope it gets better for Sif. part of me is scared it won’t. It probably will. but nonetheless.

happy to see such a big (in the indie game scene at least) game have such an effect on me. usually I find the big indie hits dont resonate as much as more niche things because. well. hits are hits because they do a lot to a lot of people, not because they do a loooooot to one specific person. but it seems I am a specific person this game was made for, so.

okay I think that’s all.

I’m gonna go to bed. read something fluffy and think about characters I like bein cozy. and. maybe praying that Siffrin somehow finds his way out of this hell. lol. Night, yall.

[daizedndconfused]

What gifts would you give the ninjago characters? Hope ur having a happy holiday

aww thank you!! i had so much fun haha but let’s get into this

gifts id give the ninja

kai

to be funny id give him like an absurd amount of hair gel with his name and face on it i think it’d be hilarious

as a genuine gift i’d get him fireworks. THIS MAY SEEM ODD BUT HEAR ME OUT. he’s hot headed we all know that and i feel like he’d have so much fun going into the middle of nowhere and lighting a bunch of fireworks

i’d ALSO get him tickets to a rage room. personally i’ve never been to one but k really want to and i think kai would THRIVE. he gets to whack the shit out of things for funsies and LEGALLY!! what could be better??

cole

id get him a record player and some old records to go with it

i’d also get him a new guitar because (again if you read my fics yk how i feel about this) he’s probably been wanting a new one for so long but doesn’t actually ask for one cause they’re expensive (DONT CARE ILL BUY IT!!)

i would get him lego lily flowers because…yk that was his moms name and they’ll never die cause they’re legos

jay

a new video fr or like a gift card for game stores cause he needs to play something new im begging

i’d also get him legos but like i’d get him a really big one that’s at least 1000 pieces cause he goes through that shit sooo fast

anddd id get him a lightsaber because ik he’d have fun with it

zane

to be funny (again cause i’m hilarious) id get him a snow cone maker

as a genuine gift i’d get him a STACK of beautifully bonded classic literature along with some cute sweater cause they’d look good on him ik it

lastly i’m getting him a heated blanket… he’s gotta be tired of being cold all the time just be cozy pleaseeee

lloyd

i’m giving him an entire comic book series (or at least a good chunk cause there’s so many in one series

i’d also give him a cute framed picture of when he was a kid because my poor boy did NOT get enough of a childhood

on that similar note i’d give him things he used to like as a kid like action figures cause he defo collects them

nya

my girl nya gets an old motorcycle that i found for cheap that she can take a part and make better. ik she’ll add whatever the hell she wants to it and make it an absolute MACHINE

i’d also get her a leather jacket with like a little lightning bolt on one sleeve and a drop of water on the other she loves jay after all

again to be funny id get her a do not disturb thing to put on her door cause she needs rest sometimes and ALSO one of those little mini punching bags cause home girl also has some anger issues

[meowmoew3]

Strangers Again singer au!

choso kamo x reader // satoru gojo x reader implied throughout. 𝜗𝜚˚⋆⭑

"I don't wanna be your dirty secret, I don't wanna be your love affair.." ღ˚｡⋆

⁀➷ In which uprising singer y/n l/n is hidden in the dark by her current lover, Satoru Gojo. What happens when she decides the lingering kisses in the dark and only being able to say I love you in whispers, is too much? Her friends all tell her to call it off, get it over with, find someone who will show her off. When she doesn't listen to them and decides to get started on her new song, Please Please Please, will her producer, Choso Kamo, get tired of this and admit he has a crush on her? Or will he allow her to spiral deeper into Gojos life? Maybe sweet y/n is already getting tired of meeting him at the back door and getting used to meeting Choso at the front..

˙✧˖° S T R A N G E R S A G A I N  ༘⋆｡˚

CHAPTERS

0. interlude : MASTERLIST

ACTION! ˚⋆⭑:: Kissing In the Car || STATUS : POSTED!

interlude : We Come Out After Dark || STATUS : soon!

CUT. // take my jacket off

PAUSE.. // No Need to Show Off

ACTION! ˚⋆⭑:: I love you..

CUT. // only in whispers!

ACTION! // Confession: A Dirty Secret

PAUSE.. // Love Affair..

interlude : Favorite Person

ACTION! // Sweet Escape!

CUT. // "We're just best friends.."

PAUSE.. // PARTY TIME!!

interlude : lover undercover

ACTION! // Confession: Is It Me?

CUT. // Strange To Other Girls?

interlude : hit me up!

CUT. // Craved Attention

interlude : tired.

PAUSE.. // I don't wanna say it in whispers anymore.

ACTION! // I Don't Wanna Be Your Dirty Secret

ACTION! // I Don't Wanna Be Your Love Affair

PAUSE.. // I don't wanna be your lover undercover.

CUT! // STRANGERS AGAIN

interlude : stranger.

#BREAK ROOM!⭑─

 i used to write fan fiction in 2021 so im excited to get back to it.. im honestly not that good of a writer but i try! break rooms will not be edited or proofread so.. accept my bad writing here. feel free to give me feedback and suggestions for this story because i have no clue where this is going. ill try to update every few days, or week.. but def frequently!! depending on how this does idk how to work this website so im learning as i go!! THINGS UNDER THE CUT ARE CREDITS/RULES/ETC.

CREDITS ⭑─ 

Inspired by Strangers Again by Olivia Rodrigo

please do not copy, translate, or reupload my work to different platforms. I do not own music, photos, or characters used. Things written in quote ( that isnt a character talking ) does NOT belong to me, I am not claiming to own any of it.

RULES ⭑─ 

Honestly there are no rules.. but try to keep it positive. Idc for mdni but small warning, i am not responsible for what you see on social media. if you see something you dont like please scroll it is not my responsibility to tell you who and what to interact with.

ETC! ⭑─ 

Hehe promise im a fun person im just trying to get these points across.. ill prob edit this better later! should i make a taglist? if so 50/50 open!! gonna make my masterlist and what not soon. also this will be available on ao3 soon!!>o<

[iminaworldofpureimagination]

convinced they just think males can't be abuse victims. dont see anyone defending moxies dad who acutally succeded in killing his wife don't seen anyone defending blitzs dad or stolas dad.. who are abusive fathers. but stella.. gets all the defense just cause she's a woman.. it's very telling. we have way more shitty dads than moms in the show and they want to scream its sexism to make stella an abuser like givemeabreak.. Wifes can be abusive

seen it float around that due her being married young i is a good reason for how she acts but its no excuse to abuse stolas.. as it wouldn't be an excuse for him to abuse her . the whole we need to think of how she felt she married young too falls flat cause there is never a good reason to abuse people. he didn't have a say in marrying her either.. a forced marriage doesnt mean you can abuse your spouse.

while cheating is never a good thing people act that they were in love the whole time and stolas betrayed her when that wasn't the case at all. .. she's mad cause he slept with someone deemed inferior and ruined their image it had nothing to do with her feeling hurt because someone she loved cheated. when she was just mad and embarrased of how dare you cheat on me with a lowerclass person.. not because i love you and you betrayed me. and so many keep acting like thats' the case when it wasnt. that they were madly in love and stolas ruined it all. . when it was more complicated than that.

sure she could have more development but to many are gonna use it to go SEE she's the victim andStolas is the Abuser .. and it doesnt sit right with me.

.. im so tired of stella defenders not understanding you can like a villian and not defend everything they do. I liked Adam from HB and he's a geocidal sexist POS. I have female favs worse than STella but seeing people defend her abuse the view on male abuse victims is troubling

they would be the ones to say Men can't be victims. He probably liked it anyway.. as the lines her saying he just.. stare at the wall while she.. went at it was .. concerning.

it seems they want stella to have an abusive past to give her an excuse to be abusive and go See there' a reason she's abusive she's the real victim here . When a tragic past wouldnt excuse anything just explain things

its possibley at the start they were doing their best they were young and stuff people can get worse all the time and people aren't abusive all the time either they have good moments and thats prob what via would remember .. but to act like stella is a pefect mom when via seemed to be rather spooked by her at the end of matermind she backed up before pull into the hug and her having drawings of her/stolas but nothing of stella i telling . Via was closer to stolas and now is left with her abusive mom of course she's angry about it.. its a bad court caes of a child is left with the abusive parent but you also love them cause their your parent.. doesn't make the mom any less an abuser just cause the kid loves them. I know that firsthand.. i have a abusive mom they never went as far as he does but the . so this abuse apolgism really does hit home to me. there is far to much victim blaming by stolas haters at this point.. it gives off the impression they dont care if men are abused.. they must deserve it.. and moms can't possibly abuse their kids..

im just so tired of seeing stella defended.. cause.. viz hates woman.. when there are 3 abusive dads and one abusive mom and mammon a father figure is an abuser.. but one abusive woman =sexist writing? doesn't make sense to me..

“Stolas should have stayed evil.”

“Pilot Stolas is better”

My brother and sister in Christ you can’t even handle Andre, Stella and Valentino three of the most horrible and abusive characters of the show what makes y’all think that Stolas staying an abusive asshole would’ve been better????

And yes I’ve seen people that have said multiple times that Stolas and Stella’s roles should have reversed. Why do you want to watch a woman be a domestic violence victim? That’s equally bad as being a male domestic violence victim.

[pricetagged]

Idk how to label this. Wifehunter John?

The idea of possessive/obsessive John manipulating a situation and stealing a wife for himself struck me, so just coughing the idea up while I sneak away for a coffee before I actually have to start work in 20 mins 💖 entirely unedited, abrupt ending

Masterlist l Part Two

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For someone married to his job, he has put quite a bit of thought into what he is looking for in a wife. Namely, that she's already married.

His reasoning is threefold. He can admit to himself, firstly, that it satisfies his need for control. Competency. He's a busy man with a demanding job. Not quite retired yet, no time to build his own from scratch. With this, he gets a wife boxed up and ready-trained. Broken in.

Secondly, the need for control bleeds into his saviour complex. She'll need a shoulder to cry on, someone strong and capable to get her back on her feet. She'll be feeling a little fragile. Needy. Perfect.

And thirdly, it does something wild to his jealous, possessive streak. The idea of taking something precious, of breaking her bond to another man and tying it to him? Delicious. The idea that she used to be someone else's, that he has to imprint himself onto her knowing that in doing so he is erasing the imprint of another man? It has his teeth aching, grinding even as heat rises in his belly. Stirs at him.

The idea swirls lazily in the back of his mind, never quite finding the right time or right partner. He bats at it a few times, lazy cat playing with the notion, seeing how far it can stretch before it snaps. Eyes up pretty things everywhere he goes, glancing down at their left hands just to check, but nothing quite tugs on that string. Until one day it does when he's outfitting the security system at your house.

It's side work. Cash in hand, word of mouth. Something to keep him busy when on mandated leave. Something to keep in mind as his retirement from active duty creeps closer. And your husband is a real piece of work, all blustering braggadocio energy. Young buck, not knowing his place in the herd. Not knowing that he'd be better scratching his antlers off on a tree than going head-to-head with a gristled thing like John.

It's like John's energy, his presence in the house, sends alarm bells ringing in your husband's mind (Be the man. Don't back down. Puff up your chest and strut). And it plays so perfectly into John's hands because your young buck doesn't realise that what he's really doing is fawning. To John. (Look at me, be impressed by me!) He makes his biggest mistake in putting you down in front of him, trying to sidle up to John and create some kind of desperate camaraderie. Ordering you to bring tea to the men at work. Rolling his eyes at your attempts to talk, to ask questions about the work being done. Waving you off so he can stand and watch the proceedings. Like he could supervise. Like he has any clue what he's doing.

Only the promise of the long game keeps John from levelling him with a hard look, from calling him outblike he'd love to.

He hears you both in the in the other room, having swatted the young buck off like a particularly virulent pest. Noisy and bothersome. Not needed - or wanted- in this home. And entirely too stupid to realise that John wasn't being jocular in his dismissal.

You've been scribbling away for the past few days, something occupying your time, keeping you happy and hidden away in the kitchen.

"You're not serious, are you?"

"Well, yes," he hears the slight quaver in your voice before you find your footing. You've got at least a bit of spine. Good. "You said that I should find an occupation. Not just 'laze around the house playing housewife'. This is what I-"

"Oh come on, I didn't mean- You don't think that this is viable, do you?"

"Well... I love gardening. And I'm good at it. And there's no reason that it can't be more accessible for people, especially with the current economic-"

He cuts you off with a scoff. "Dear, just- I don't want you to be disappointed. I think you don't quite understand the time and effort this will take. And you know nothing of marketing, publishing. Why don't you put that away and start on dinner?"

And oh, isn't that delicious. He can taste it now, that idea that has been swirling. It's thick, almost tangible on his tongue. The tension in the house, the bitter lacryma of stifled tears. The slight acidity of words you left unsaid. It has his mouth watering, pupils dilating.

And when he's packing up that evening, tools and materials tucked in to the heavy workman's case, he swings by the kitchen on his way out. Catches the way something is jutting out slightly from the bin, lid slightly askew. When he pulls it out he realises it's some kind of notebook, carefully (lovingly) bound. Pictures pasted, mindmaps and notes and plans scribbled in the margins. Your gardening tips. Kitchen scraps, window boxes, rooftop plots. Urban gardening. It's deeply thoughtful, well researched.

A labour of love, lying in the rubbish.

Sweet, clever little thing. That just won't do.

He leaves your house with a little piece of you tucked away in his toolkit and a nice plan forming. He'll be back, of course, not quite finished with his work. He'd planted a few little links into the system he'd almost installed, projecting not just to the monitor in your home but also in his. Got to keep his eyes on you, keep you safe and cared for in ways that your useless husband can't.

Finding that book was a boon. He'd say it was divinely ordained if he believed in all that. It weighs heavy in his toolbox as he whistles out the door.

Now, how to get you alone and return it to you..

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This idea may have been done before? I'm not sure, sorry! I've seen a lot of possessive John floating around. Tagging @stellewriites because I said I would last time, and you've been so encouraging of my nonsense.

Anyway I've got like 4 long-form WIPs that I'm working on, so I may never actually write this one but thought I'd share since that image set I just reblogged made me feral 💖

[stiffyck]

I WISH ARO HEADCANONS WERE MORE POPULAR IN FANDOMS

[mrmeepsmadmind]

i love when ppl draw bumblebee like the happy little creachure he is but also i love when people draw bumblebee like he's had 500 beers in the last 1 hour and still the pain won't even ebb

[xabi0407]

everlasting trio redesign

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[napping-sapphic]

Send me every little selfie you take so that i can look at them whenever i miss you

[lemongogo]

anyways . silly thing

[balleater]

something i've already posted about in the past but am thinking about again because of the conversations in this episode is that i still truly do not understand bells hells'(well, particularly ashton's) view on what is going to happen if the information about aeor gets sent out to the people of exandria. obviously, i'm not an average person living in that world and am instead a viewer of the media with fairly extensive knowledge of the lore, so i could definitely just be missing what the impact would actually be! but the insistence that it would be a world shattering revelation that completely turns everyone against the odds just... doesn't make sense to me?

unless ludinus has a way of editing the information he presents and can take away the context, which would basically make the "footage" even more strange, what they're going to be seeing is... the gods saving themselves from people with the active ability to murder them all and having a rather humanizing crisis of what they should do about it? i guess the working with the betrayer gods part could be considered the controversial aspect of it, but overall, considering everything else that was destroyed in the calamity, aeor really was the one instance that was closest to being "justified". i don't think anyone who cares enough about the gods for this to cause any sort of big disruption of faith would have as big of a problem with it as they are assuming, nor do i really think it's something that would cause mass revolts against the gods in people who aren't devout.

[arom-antix]

I bring to thee some quick late night Viktuuri sketches because I think we could all use some fluff

[frosted-woods]

i haven't read anything in 3 months. there are like 5 books i should be reading for uni. at least 10 things i said i'd draw first. my headphones refuse to work. my graphic tablet pen seems like it's going to die any second. i can't go to bed at humane hours. i think i ended up a little frustrated and with this guy all over my canvas??

oh and happy ace week. that's so swag.

[hydrostalgia]

day 6

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