#but i do love a good autism road trip

[boyswanna-be-her]

every time you make a post about going to austin i misread it as autism. every time. and every time i'm like why only a trip move in we're happy to have you. anyway have a great time in austin

get in bitches, i got us all one-way tickets to autism!!!

[manygeese]

okay had a conversation with @puzzled-pegasus abt fankids (by this i mean we were heatedly debating middle names) but anyways here they are. Featuring percabeth, valgrace, pipeyna, and frazel.

PERCABETH

Kids, Oldest to Youngest:

Matilda Charlotte Jackson: nerd with anxiety, not athletic at all but is gonna get into a good school bc of her grades (she is stressing about it nevertheless), freshman year, 15 years old

Daniel Morgan Jackson: AUTISM, loves dinosaurs, space, and trains, especially trains, 5th grade, 10 years okd

Atalanta Sally Jackson (AKA Addy): ADHD, literally always outside playing with the neighbor’s kids in the park, 2nd grade, 8 years old

Names/Parenting Hadcanons:

Annabeth takes Percy’s last name because she sees Sally, Paul, and Estelle more as her family than the Chases.

Matilda- it was both Percy and Annabeth’s favorite book growing up. Charlotte- after Charlotte Brontë the author of Jane Eyre because Annabeth is a nerd.

Daniel- idek. It was giving Daniel and I think Percy was stumped and at his birth he was like “uh. Uh. Daniel. He’s Daniel, yeah. He looks like a Daniel.” Morgan- means circling sea.

Atalanta- their godly parents wanted them to name at least one of their kids after a hero and Athena was like. Actually present when Addy was born. And she like immediately got attached and was like “such a fierce little warrior! Her name shall be Atalanta!” And Annabeth was too tired to protest. Sally- Percy’s a mama’s boy.

Annabeth loves studying with Matilda and doing volunteering stuff with her to build her resumé.

Percy watches kids shows with Daniel and Addy and becomes surprisingly invested. He wakes them up at like ten on weekends with breakfast so the family can have their Saturday morning cartoons.

Matilda calls her parents Mom and Dad because her friends told her she should (she used to call them Mommy and Daddy), Daniel calls them Mommy and Papa, Addy calls them Mommy and Pops because she saw somebody call their dad Pops on a show once

VALGRACE

Kid:

Hope Clio Piper Valdez: AuDHD, takes after her dad (Jason) in relation to athletics, freaking jock, 8th grade, 14

Names/Parenting Headcanons:

Jason took Leo’s last name because he doesn’t like the memories he has with his mom.

Hope- didn’t want to use the name Esperanza since names have power, but Esperanza means hope, so it indirectly honors Leo’s mom. Clio- muse of history and Jason is a nerd. Piper- their bestie.

Hope has two middle names because A) Leo likes the sound of it and B) Jason wants to cram the most happy meaning into her name as possible because he wants her to have a good life.

They only have one kid because Piper and Reyna live near them and their kids are Jason and Leo’s basically, and vice versa.

Hope babysits Piper and Reyna’s kids on weekends and after school and sometimes other kids. When they’re in New York, she watches Daniel and Addy so Matilda can go to the mall with her friends.

Leo and Hope fix cars together and he is simultaneously so proud and a lil disgruntled about the fact that she will probably be taller than him soon.

Jason gets so invested in Hope’s volleyball and basketball games and he is her biggest fan. Leo drives her and her friends to the high school football games on Fridays and sometimes he and Jason make it a date. Hope is mortified because all her friends can see her dads cuddling.

Hope calls Leo Pops (habit she picked up from Addy) and Jason Dad.

PIPEYNA

Kids:

Calliope McLean-Ramírez-Arellano: AuDHD, books it to the swings as soon as recess starts, 1st grade, 6 years old

Timothy McLean-Ramírez-Arellano (AKA Tim): AuDHD, in the mud and drinking honey from the honeysuckles at recess, 1st grade, 6 years old

Names/Parenting Headcanons:

They adopted the twins when they were about one and a half- apparently they just turned up at Camp Jupiter one day and nobody knows who their mortal or godly parent is. Reyna wasn’t about to let them pull a Jason with the kids, so she and Piper took a road trip to go get them.

They each keep their own last names but decide to hyphenate for their kids’ last names.

Calliope- when Piper heard that Jason gave his kid a middle name from the muses, she was like, “omg we should match!” And Calliope is both a whimsical little instrument on a boat and the muse of epic poetry so it was meant to be.

Timothy- Reyna wanted to name him after somebody important to Piper, so Piper suggested Thomas after her grandpa, but then she vetoed that because “he wasn’t giving Thomas.” Reyna kept suggesting T names until Piper approved.

No middle names because Reyna doesn’t like them (isn’t that right, RARA?)

Absolutely LOVE Hope. When Tim is mad at one of his moms (they didn’t let him have ice cream for dinner), he starts calling Hope his mom which never fails to make her laugh.

Calliope loves to be pushed by Reyna on the swings because unlike Piper she’s never afraid to actually make her go higher when she orders it. However, Piper is better to play tag with because she looks funny when she runs.

Tim reads stories to his sister at bedtime: Corduroy, Goodnight Moon, Goodnight Gorilla, and the storybook version of Cinderella because they both love that movie.

Tim and Calliope call Piper Mommy and Reyna Mamá.

FRAZEL

Kids, Oldest to Youngest:

Frank Zhang-Levesque, Jr. (AKA Frankie): anxiety, takes after his mom, ironically, but built like his dad, 8th grade, 13 years old

Harry Parker Zhang-Levesque: autism, takes after his mom still, followes his big brother around like a lost puppy, 6th grade, 11 years old

Names/Parenting Headcanons:

Frank and Hazel broke up in college but got back together in their thirties.

They hyphenate their last names for both themselves and their kids.

Frank Jr.- Frank didn’t want to name their kid after him, but Hazel was like “I want it to be a family name because I love you” and Frank is a weak man. Couldn’t think of a middle name and Frank didn’t have one so they figured they’d stay loyal to the source material.

Harry- originally wanted to name their kid after baby after Hazel, but it was a boy and Frank insisted that the name Hazel for the boy wouldn’t go over well with the other kids in his 6th grade class. They settled for Harry. Parker- wanted to have and homage to Percy, but Hazel admitted that she didn’t like the name Perseus (then apologized even though Percy wasn’t in the room), so they just went with a middle P initial instead.

Harry likes archery and Frank is SOOOO relieved because he was afraid he wouldn’t have many things to connect with his kids over. He does pottery with Frankie.

Hazel loves going to art classes, museums, etc. with Frankie and Harry. The whole family goes to the pumpkin patch and gets their own pumpkin to paint/carve in the fall. It inevitably becomes a contest because Frankie, Hazel and Frank can get competitive. They iris message Leo and Jason, Piper and Reyna, Nico and Will and Percy and Annabeth to get them to vote on who won. It’s usually Hazel.

Frankie calls Frank Father and Hazel Mom, Harry calls Frank Dad and Hazel Mother.

[freezing-kaiju]

ALRIGHT, IT'S TIME!

THE SECOND RYUKI-AND-BLADE-ACCOMPANYING ANIME POLL IS NOW HERE!!!

SO, MEET YOUR CHALLENGERS!

AJIN Demi-Human

We start with a dark horror and possibly scifi about ethics in science, immortality, and an outlaw fugitive alien plot as a boy finds himself part of a group of immortals declared legally inhuman. While I have some misgivings about Oh No I Was Secretly A Creature All Along plots, I do fucking love horror and there’s a lot of ways for those plots to hit hard in the trans and gay and autism organs and be really important!!!!

Dimension W

The New Tesla Energy Corporation has monopolized the fourth dimension and the coils that connect to it. A duo of bounty hunters, one human and one robot, make money via repossessing illegal coils and seek out the answer to the mysteries within the dimension. I really wanna watch this one for a few reasons, the primary one of which is 'there are multiple fat women'. It seems to have freaks and weirdos and fun times, and its comedy is emphasized more than most of the other ones on this list so it might give some needed levity!

Kyoukai no Kanata

A bumbling monster hunter with blood powers meets an immortal via trying to shank him and ends up in an arrangement where she'll keep trying to kill him to boost her confidence while hunting monsters in what I hope is a monster-of-a-week show that came highly recommended by a friend as her favorite anime, or one of her favorites, so i have high hopes! Script's by the hibike euphonium guy and the power system seems quite interesting!

Air

A puppeteer (if he’s as good as Sakon will remain to be seen) stops his Road Trip To Meet A Golden Sun Jupiter Summon to stay for a bit in a town and, as happens to anyone who stops for too long, gets attached to the place and also meets a girl who might be said jupiteresque being. My friend informs me that it's gorgeous, sounds amazing (so I'll make sure to get clips), and has "nice sad vibes"!!! And it’s…listed in a “provincial horror” listing… hoho

Heike Monogatari

A child who can see ghosts and the future walks tirelessly through the tragedy of the war between the Taira and Minamoto families before the dawn of the first shogunate. It's wildly beloved by a friend of mine, and also centers a historical event i know some but not all about and definitely need to know more about the Taira side of. Seems like a beautiful drama, one I could lose my heart over.

SSSS Gridman

Digital kaiju! Digital hero! Digital amnesia! A monster of the week show about an unknown amnesiac summoning and merging with Hyper Agent Gridman to fight digital, possibly virtual monsters while making friends(?) in the real world! It's the one thing Tsubaraya Productions has that isn't Ultraman, and I expect some tokusatsu vibes from it along with the mecha stuff, i've also heard it has gay girl megatron??

Akudama Drive

It's a prison break and crime story set in a tech dystopia, starring a scene girl shoplifter, and featuring a bevvy of unpersoned convicts in what seems like an excellent ensemble clusterfuck!!! The Danganronpa crew made this thing! It's also beloved by a friend of mine, and I've heard it'll be a generally excellent tragedy of a time

Canaan

A reporter gets saved from assassins by a woman she might do yuri with, and the summaries I’ve found seem to imply a plot about terrorism and mystery! It’s a Type-Moon work that isn't part of the fate, tsukihime, OR melty universes! It might still have magecraft, but it's tagged sci-fi too, and a type moon take on scifi sounds interesting... it’s also based on. *checks wikipedia* a…perfect-Famitsu-score visual novel for the Nintendo Wii. So I might need to dig out some old hardware to watch this thing. For fun’s sake!

Killing Bites

A guy unintentionally becomes the underground wrestling promoter of a ?werewolf? Woman who murders his friends and wins him a shitload of money. The end goal? According to the summary, control of the economy!!! This was recommended as garbage and good lord I need garbage so much good god I need to put some trash inside of me.

[lunar-rcp]

got any Roy headcanons? -kidshowsarecool

―୨ Roy headcanons ! ᯓ★

☆ . . Ofc! I love Roy sm, I have an entire bucket of hcs for him

☆ I always imagined he's more prone to the cold. Due to his water tank, whenever its winter he gets cold SUPER easily and needs to wear gloves and a scarf in the winter so he doesnt freeze his head off. Does he do that, however? Well.. (spoiler alert. he doesnt. He's the one who gets the sick the most in winter from the rct team!)

☆ Can't really handle compliments well. Whenever he gets complimented, you can see his face heat up as he trips over his words thanking the person.

☆ He isn't very fond of spicy food. Helly makes fun of him for this, joking how he became a firefighter just because he doesnt like spicy food.

☆ Back onto food, hes more of the cold side of it (which is very ironic as i just stated he cant handle the cold very well). Loves, LOVES icecream. His favourite is rocky road.

☆ In my GL2 design, he wears glasses! He has troubles seeing from far, so outside of rescues he usually has them on. He's very pretty with them but isn't aware of it..

☆ The cook of the team. Literally has anyones favourites and dislikes noted down. However, he does manage to sneak in a few veggies in for poli and helly. (I imagine poli not being a vegetable liker)

☆ Hates to admit it, but he's very ticklish. One slightest poke in the waist and he's already laughing!

☆ Has the WORST sleeping schedule. He can't sleep at night without worrying about the towns safety rather than himself, so he always secretly goes out on patrol at midnight. Amber and Jin lecture him on this.

☆ I hc him to have autism. From the 'Camps secret plan' episodes camp states that he doesnt really understand jokes. Also he just has some other traits which lead me to hcing this.

☆ Loves to bicker with Jin sometimes, especially about the cleaning. They like to (lovingly) insult each other sometimes but its all very lightly.

☆ He's an emotional person. He can't handle emotional movies, because 90% of the time hes just a sobbing mess if he watches them alone. If with others, he tries to hide it but they can tell pretty easily hes bottling it up.

☆ Speaking of bottling up emotions.. he does it WAY too often. He lies more than he wishes he didnt, but he just cant help it. He hates it when people worry about him.

☆ Before he joined the rct team, he was a bit of a shy person. Even now, whenever he gets interviewed he gets camera shy.

☆ He hopes for one day to mentor benny when hes old enough. Hes so proud of him that words cant even describe it.

☆ Has an interest in board games! Hes a total pro at scrabble, monopoly and chess. None of the others have ever won against him.

☆ Used to be in a previous rescue team, but it fell apart. He doesnt like to talk about it, because he gets emotional about it quick.

☆ Appreciates Poli a ton. When he was in a dark place, Poli had helped him out of it. (This is a reference to my first oneshot)

☆ Owns a knitted scarf Amber made for him. Protects it more than he protects himself. Sometimes he likes to hold it close to his face, it makes his chest feel warm.

☆ With every artcraft Helly made for him, he had stuck it onto the fridge. The fridge had become so full he started sticking them in his room.

☆ Still hangs with Droney sometimes. Even still calls him didi. He likes showing Droney around the town and often likes to go to parks with him while eating an ice cream.

☆ Gets kinda competitive with Keaton. They banter sometimes, but see eachother as good buddies who can carry heavy stuff.

☆ creds for divider :: @cafekitsune

thank you for the ask!!

[iantimony]

another wednesday tuesday

had this one finished on neocities on tuesday but didn't have time to post on tumblr or dreamwidth! oops!

listening

Quimbara (Live at Gran Teatro Nacional) (Tony Succar, Mimy Succar, Nora Suzuki, & Bartola: yummy yummy salsa

Solitude (Felsmann + Tiley Reinterpretation) (M83): does someone know if this was in a movie or TV show. I cannot figure it out. it's possible it's just on a lot of tiktoks or whatever?? I'm not really on tiktok so idk

Inage Nidayulenvi (It Started in the Woods) (Agalisiga): country album in Cherokee! extremely good vibes album. coming-of-age movie about a road trip through the mountains. favorite track: this was a tough choice but the yodel moments in Ahyvdawalohi (Thunder) and Gatlohiha (I'm Crying) are fun, Inagei Otsehi (We Live in the Woods) has a really good rhythm, and Ginliyosv (Together) feels like a mug of hot tea on a cold day, of which I have had many recently.

reading

The Anti-Social Century (Derek Thompson): hmm. hmmmm. I broadly agree but feel like this is completely missing the capitalism of it all

finished "The Sentimental Person's Guide to Decluttering" by Claire Middleton. it was fine. a lot of it didn't apply to met - stuff about children's baby clothes, etc - but offered some good advice otherwise.

Meet the man keeping hope, and 70-year-old pinball machines, alive (Tim Stevens), which lead me to Pinball Resource Dot Com. good website, definitely Poughkeepsie in a way I can't articulate. literally guy of all fucking time. as my boyfriend said, "autism at its finest".

also read "fucked by my best friend" by yupopo orishima. this is fully a BL yaoi moment, but with genderbending. it was charming enough that I did read the whole thing today, though I did find myself scrolling through the sex scenes to get to other stuff happening in the story lol. the cliffhangers were annoying but not vital because it's all finished, so ...

Lessons From a Lifetime of Animal Voyages (Sam Anderson): found this linked on tumblr somewhere I think? specifically with pictures of darling walnut the dachshund. I liked the article but couldn't get it to load on anywhere to bypass the paywall that didn't also nuke all the images.

This Christmas Party Was So Fun That Now I’m a Communist (Brennan Lee Mulligan): this one was a re-read! I couldn't actually tell you when this was published because it's undated. his prose is just very tasty.

watching

some NileRed/NileBlue videos, such as Turning cotton balls into cotton candy; chemistry can do some wild things huh

adjacent, lots of TheThoughtEmporium - Turning SHRIMP into Fabric and I Turned MILK into YARN, the latter of which made me want to buy milk yarn to try out for a knitting project

cold ones videos because for some reason my boyfriend and I like to watch toxic australians drinking

goodbye fillers, hello... facelifts? (Mina Le) and the rise of chin lipo & "snatched jawlines" (Tiffany Ferg): adjacent video topics. we live in a society etc.

I bought a freeze dryer so you don't have to (Technology Connection): idk I love this channel. it's so soothing.

playing

ough. SO much dnd. two different campaigns this week which I had to make new character sheets for. one of them is a fully new character who I am now getting attached to whose vibes are vaguely Dyre Ode from Sangfielle-based in that they wear a bauta mask and robes and a hat. their name is also FATT excerpt-y ("caught as a vesper bell upon the brow, twinkling", or Vesper for short) but other than that they are a standard dnd character lol. I was doing a lot of heavy lifting that session because we were told the one-shot would be espionage and social-intrigue based, and then from a combo of planned absenses and also people not showing up it was just me and one other player, and that one other player is like .. not super good at character work .... so we kept going "what does your person do?" and he would say "loitering and tuning my instrument" and then we went . ok. and I kept doing things like asking questions and investigating. lol. so that's fine. other dnd campaign is much more fighting and light plot vibes so I brought out my shitty little pelican man again, I had to level him up to 12 which took some doing but thankfully wasn't too bad. I am really good at saying No to things that I don't want to or can't do except...ttrpgs. I am joining a 1x/month blades campaign too slkfjlsdfjfd

I have rediscovered video games!! thanks to my boyfriend! played some nier: automata and then hades as a palette cleanser because I am bad at video games so nier is a bit stressful skfdjlsjfd.

Vesper's vibe images:

making

some more knitting of my fingerless gloves

made a scrapbook for 2024! I've been collecting one plastic binder sheet for each month and finally went and made signatures and pasted/taped stuff in...I have more decorating to do but I'd like to coptic bind it all together first. unfortunately I do not have cardboard thick enough in the right size for covers so I have to do something about that first. probably won't post pictures of my entries because they will doxx me immediately but will probably post photos of the completed object at some later date :-)

eating

boyfriend is visiting so I am being FED. he made harissa chicken thighs with shallots, a known banger, and also freeballed a Japanese chicken-and-egg bowl type thing that was also very tasty.

robiola bosina cheese stilly yummy

made one pan chicken and squash dinner before leaving home last week. it was fine, very very simple, kinda didn't need a recipe for this one imo.

had a double date moment with my old roommate whomst I love! her and my boyfriend cooked a DELICIOUS meal, homemade pozole and shrimp ceviche with cornbread, plus an insanely good milk-washed marg (!!!) and horchata creme brulee dessert....I die it was SO delicious

moving

Fri Jan 17, ~90 min: leg extension (60lb 3x8 3x5), outer thigh (70lb 3x8, 80lb 3x8), inner thigh (75lb 3x8), split squats (no weight 2x10), glute trainer (no weight 2x8), elliptical 15

Sat Jan 18, ~60 min: shoulders behind neck barbell presses (20lb 3x8), forward delt shoulder presses (elbows forward 5lb 3x8), sideways on bench rear delt (5lb 2x8), incline bicep curls (10lb 1x8, 1 set to failure after, 5lb to failure again immediately after) (start with 15 next time), single arm cable tricep pulldown (7.5lb 2x8, one straight and one at 45°), bench press (bar 3x5), guillotine press to stretch as well (ouch!)

misc

working on two grant applications, one big and one weenie...weenie one is due the 24th and the big one is due Feb 6....scary

an angel lost a wing this weekend

[patchiko]

🌻 anon has re-entered the building 😌

I loved your whole post on Jason with a Doberman 🥺 . Personally I always sawJason Todd (not specifically AK) with a Pitbull (totally projecting haha 😂 [courtesy of my labrabull]) but after everything you’ve said about Dobermans… oh yeah… AKJason + Dober = 🫶 it’s a match made in heaven! I’m convinced 💯 (also your relationship with your dog really resonated with me and my own 😄 dogs are so amazing 😭)

Noooooow…. I recentley read your “AK jay getting head first time” post (¬ ͜ ¬) … fantastic ❤️ not gunna lie I want this man moanin 👏 gruntin 👏 cursin 👏 I want him making all kinds of needy whiny noises. Makes me wonder what it takes to make him rip the bed sheets and crack the headboard? 👁️ 👁️ (even if it’s a rarity 😭)

(I will say that’s its so sad seeing how hard it is for Jason to put down any of his barriers to even allow himself such pleasures 😞 it’s a long long long road of recovery for Jason. You are so right in saying that it’s probably really hard for him to relinquish any control or to give himself these pleasures. I don’t know much about trauma so I don’t know what or how long the road to recovery is…. But I don’t see AK Jason showing substantial healing until his 30s or maybe even 40s)

Anyway sorry for the long response. You have such a good grasp on AK Jason and it’s such good content 😭

HSHSHSHS THANK YOU 🌻 ANON. Dw about a “long response” i love every word of it!! —AND HSISHSJS LITERALLY JUMPS UP AND DOWN ‘You have such a good grasp on Ak Jason and its such good content.” STOP ANON IM GONNA EXPLODE THANK YOU. MY AUTISM IS SCREAMJGN DHEISH

AK JAY WOULD TOTES EITHER HAVE A DOBES OR A PITBULL!! My families got a pit, shes the sweetest damn thing. I could totally see him having one, their personality just links up soo goood. Him coming home to a silly ass pitbull is so fun to imagine, its snorting and shit and all he can do is smile.

OUH— 🌻 ANON, I WANT AK!JAY GRUNTIN N’ MOANIN’ TOOOOO. He definitely fucks up the bed while topping after coming back from one of his longer trips outside of gotham🤫🤭

And you’re very right about his trauma. Ak!Jays trauma isn’t gonna properly be healed in like 2-3 years its taking actual TIME. Definitely till he’s in his 30’s or 40’s maybe even longer because of his ongoing trauma (him working as The Red Hood) UUHHGG I WANNA WATCH HIM GROW AS A PERSON (HES FICTIONAL AND IM NOT STABLE.)

[wooziorgans]

parents have dragged me out to the middle of a field (we r actually driving) to learn abt dead family members that I could not give less of a fuck abt. how could they force a woozi Stan out of the house I am actually not having a good time. also there r two ppl I don’t know in this vehicle and I am autistic but my sweet baby boy woozi is keeping the autism at bay (headphones at full volume bayyybeeee)

can’t even work on tmta cus it’s on my laptop </3 so I might as well start something new bcs. this is painful and the roads r rough as hell I hate being home from college why do I live here. might write something for myself as a bday gift cus that’s coming up,,,, soon.

also sorry for no new spoilers on tmta. I got high as hell (legally) and watched the conjuring (great experience tbh I did not have a bad trip,,, made it actually scary) n I have just been. rotting in bed cus of a heatwave for the last few days so I have not been writing.

also also I had a dream abt a soulmate au where reader just like,,, teleports into the universe factory and it freaks woozi out so bad he grabs a fucking stuffed animal to defend himself w it and I might actually write it once tmta is done. im abt 1/3 of the way there roughly.

been playing basketball again recently. hitting the gym too. eating well. life is tolerable. I love woozi.

(this reads like a ryan ross live journal update from 2004)

[gonna-need-you-to-not]

Spn Episode Categories

Today in "Is it Autism or ADHD?", I put all the Supernatural episodes into categories by episode name.

ALLITERATION Dark Dynasty Monster Movie Plucky Pennywhistle’s Magical Menagerie Soul Survivor Tall Tales Twigs & Twine & Tasha Banes Various and Sundry Villains War of the Worlds

BELIEVE Clap Your Hands if You Believe Do You Believe in Miracles

BIBLICAL Exodus In the Beginning Inherit the Earth Lazarus Rising Lucifer Rising Moriah Proverbs 17:3

BLOOD Blood Brother Bloodlines Bloodlust Bloody Mary Dead Man’s Blood First Blood Fresh Blood Let It Bleed My Bloody Valentine There Will Be Blood

BOOKS Bedtime Stories Book of the Damned Fan Fiction Meta Fiction Reading is Fundamental Slash Fiction The Monster at the End of this Book

CHILDREN Adventures in Babysitting Children Shouldn’t Play With Dead Things Destiny’s Child I Believe the Children are Our Future Pacman Fever Playthings Slumber Party The Kids are Alright

COLOURS Black Crossroad Blues Paint it Black Red Meat Red Sky at Morning Yellow Fever

DEAD or ALIVE Advanced Thanatology Bring Em Back Alive Dead in the Water Dead Men Don’t Wear Plaid Death Takes a Holiday Death’s Door Defending Your Life In My Time of Dying It’s a Terrible Life Live Free or Twihard Rock Never Dies

DEVIL Beat the Devil Devil in the Detail Devil May Care Devil’s Bargain Devil’s Trap Sympathy for the Devil The Devil You Know

EMOTIONS Everybody Hates Hitler Everybody Loves a Clown Love Hurts Optimism We Happy Few

FAMILY All in the Family Family Feud Family Matters Family Remains

FIRE/HEAT Caged Heat Halt and Catch Fire Out of the Darkness Into the Fire

FIRST/LAST/NEW/OLD First Born Last Call Last Holiday Meet the New Boss Out With the Old

GIRLS/BOYS/MEN/LADIES A Most Holy Man About a Boy Bad Boys Girl Next Door Girl With the Dungeons & Dragons Tattoo Girls Girls Girls Hook Man Inside Man Ladies Drink Free LARP and the Real Girl Man Who Knew Too Much Man Who Would Be King Mans Best Friend with Benefits Repo Man Slice Girls

GODS & MONSTERS Atomic Monsters Good God Yall Hammer of the Gods How to Win Friends and Influence Monster Remember the Titans

GOING SOMEWHERE? Appointment in Samarra Beyond the Mat Carry On Dark Side of the Moon Don't Go in the Woods Exile on Main Street Frontierland Heroes’ Journey Hollywood Babylon Into the Mystic Lebanon Long Distance Call Mystery Spot No Exit Our Little World Phantom Traveller Point of No Return Road Kill Road Trip Sin City Stranger in a Strange Land

GOOD/BAD Bad Day at Black Rock Bad Place Bad Seed Born Under a Bad Sign Damaged Goods Good Intentions Let the Good Times Roll

HEART Angel Heart Heart Heartache My Heart Will Go On

HEAVEN & HELL All Dogs Go to Heaven All Hell Breaks Loose (Part 1 and 2) Heaven Can’t Wait Hell’s Angel Holy Terror I’m No Angel King of the Damned Raising Hell Somewhere Between Heaven and Hell Stairway to Heaven

HELLO/GOODBYE Hello Cruel World Goodbye Stranger

HOUSE & HOME Hell House Home Houses of the Holy Safe House

IT'S ALL IN YOUR HEAD Don’t You Forget About Me Galaxy Brain Just My Imagination Memory Remains Peace of Mind Wishful Thinking

LATIN/OTHER LANGUAGE Hunteri Heroici Jus in Bello Malleus Maleficarum Reichenbach

MOVIE TITLES/REFERENCES Back to the Future Blade Runners Born Again Identity Hunter Games I Know What You Did Last Summer Real Ghostbusters Taxi Driver The Usual Suspects There’s No Place Like Home Tombstone You Can’t Handle the Truth

NAME A Little Slice of Kevin Alex Annie Alexis Ann Are You There God It’s Me Dean Winchester Ask Jeeves Celebrating the Life of Asa Fox Criss Angel is a Douchebag Curious Case of Dean Winchester Dog Dean Afternoon Don’t Call Me Shurley It’s the Great Pumpkin Sam Winchester Jack in the Box Lily Sunder Has Some Regrets Party On Garth Patience Sam Interrupted Shut Up Dr Phil Simon Says There’s Something about Mary Thin Lizzie We Need to Talk About Kevin Weekend at Bobby’s

NATIONALITIES American Nightmare British Invasion French Mistake

NIGHT Game Night Night Shifter Nightmare Nightmare Logic Nightshifter

NUMBERS 99 Problems Hibbing 911 Magnificent Seven Mannequin 3: the Reckoning Route 666 Season 7 Time For a Wedding The One You’ve Been Waiting For The Third Man Two and a Half Men Two Minutes to Midnight

PAIRS Alpha and Omega Form and Void Freaks and Geeks Gods and Monsters Heaven and Hell Lost and Found Prophet and Loss Scorpion and the Frog Sex and Violence Torn and Frayed Trial and Error

RELATIVES Brother’s Keeper Mamma Mia Mommy Dearest Mother’s Little Helper O Brother Where Art Thou Our Father Who Aren’t in Heaven Rising Son Wayward Sisters What’s Up Tiger Mommy

SAYINGS/EXPRESSIONS Abandon All Hope And Then There Were None Fallen Idols Jump the Shark Keep Calm and Carry On Mint Condition No Rest for the Wicked Of Grave Importance On the Head of a Pin Rock and a Hard Place Southern Comfort Survival of the Fittest

SINGLE WORD #thinman Absence Asylum Baby Breakdown Bugs Byzantium Captives Croatoan Despair Faith Funeralia Ghostfacers Hunted LOTUS Metamorphosis Nihilism Ouroboros Pilot Plush Provenance Roadkill Sacrifice Salvation Scarecrow Shadow Skin Unity Wendigo

SONG Executioner’s Song Song Remains the Same Swan Song

SONG TITLES All Along the Watchtower Dream a Little Dream of Me Folsom Prison Blues I Think I’m Gonna Like it Here Like a Virgin Paper Moon Stuck in the Middle With You

SUPERNATURAL A Very Supernatural Christmas Scoobynatural

TEETH Bitten Citizen Fang Sharp Teeth

THE Benders Big Empty Chitters End Foundry Future Gamblers Great Escapist Mentalists Prisoner Purge Raid Rapture Rupture Scar Spear Trap Vessel Werther Project

THING/SOMETHING Something Wicked The Thing The Things They Carried The Things We Left Behind

TIME As Time Goes By Golden Time Time After Time Time After Time After Time Time is on My Side

TV After School Special Changing Channels Clip Show

UN Unfinished Business Unforgiven Unhuman Nature

WHO/WHAT/WHEN What Is and What Should Never Be When the Levee Breaks Who We Are

YOU & ME Drag Me Away From You Free to Be You and Me

Some obviously qualify for more than one category, so I just picked one 🤷‍♀️

[itooaminthisepisode]

episode that you love?

im only on season four but i've got a couple of faves so far:

1x21 'three stories': it's practically law that i have to include this. absolute classic of an episode. i love the format, i love the backstory we get, and i especially love the med students!! they were fun and i hope they come back at some point. probably not but im still holding out hope. teacher!house was great to see too, and the deep-dive into his backstory is so delightfully painful and heart-wrenching,,, oughgh

2x07 'hunting': very fun episode!! "what, because you're a closet case?" absolutely killed me the first time i watched it. get their asses lmao. also we get to see steve mcqueen (my beloved <3) and cameron on meth - fun times!

2x15 'clueless' and 2x16 'safe': mainly for the hilson roommates subplot tbf, but the cases were interesting too! these eps also had a lot of funny moments, like wilson sawing through house's cane and the whole tick debacle lmao

3x02 'cane & able': where do i start with this one. first of all the awful cgi hallucinations were fucking hilarious, i was so fucking confused tho. like the whole time i was just going helllo???? aliens????? great stuff. the rest case itself was really fun too!! and this is the one where we get the infamous "i was worried that your wings would melt" speech. oughghgh top tier content right there.

3x04 'lines in the sand': controversial take right here. this is the infamous autism episode. the way they handled it was. well. it was 2006. so. the case itself was interesting too, but the main highlight for me is the autistic house moments <3 and look. i KNOW wilson says house doesn't actually have autism. but MASKING EXISTS, WILSON!! you can pry this headcanon out of my cold dead hands. i support autism rights but i also support autism wrongs or however the meme goes. more people should get to be autistic and jerks i think <3 (saying all this as a guy who most likely has autism btw. i havent got an official diagnosis but uhhhh yeah it's Likely.)

3x07 'son of coma guy': hilson road trip! plus coma guy ig. but mainly hilson road trip :) i love them.

4x02 'the right stuff': i love love love the whole gameshow-esque thing house starts. we get to see some great characters (amber! kutner! dobson my beloved!!!!), and it's just all round a bit of fun. love it.

4x05 'mirror mirror': another fun one!! the mirror syndrome guy gives us a lot of fun insights into the applicant's personalities, i thought that was a really fun way of showing it rather than have a million expositions about each of them lol. also the banter was fun this episode, especially between house, wilson and cuddy. also we find out that wilson is more dominant than house and that kutner's a masochist. great fuel for fic writers. fun!

4x12 'don't ever change': ohohhoo i love this one. the case was alright but the best bit abt it imo was the house, wilson and amber dynamic. i love this trio so fucking much you don't understand,,, i honestly think we should've got poly wilson/amber/house. just think abt it... house and amber friendly rivalry... teaming up to bully wilson... and also amber and wilson bullying house together... would it be a little dysfunctional? yes. but that's to be expected in this show lmao. idk why this turned into a pitch for these three i just love them very very much <3

4x13 'no more mr. nice guy': again for the wilson/amber/house dynamic. this one is very fun i love their custody dispute over wilson, and the dog analogy was very funny to me. and cuddy making house and amber do coma patient duty lmao. AND bisexual thirteen!! love her <3

i haven't actually gotten to the last couple episodes of s4 yet because uhhhh Bad Things Happen and i am delaying the inevitable. send help. but i am sure they are very good and will probably make this list once i get around to watching them!

honourable mentions include 2x13 'skin deep' (purely for the scene where house is in the mri machine and wilson pretends to be god lol), 3x22 'resignation' (for the wilson on amphetamines scene. "i'm not on antidepressants, i'm on speeeeeeeed!" gets me every fucking time) and 4x01 'alone' (house and wilson prank war!!!)

soooo yeah those are my favourites :) and i'm sure there'll be a lot more once i finish the rest of the show but like i said i am Procrastinating lmao

thanks for the ask my friend!

[witchangelnekora]

An open letter to the ASSHOLES that kicked me from the Stray Kids (Stayville) Discord server without any real information AND I DON'T CARE IF THEY FIND THIS:

I entered this really cool SKZ Discord server to enjoy being a STAY, try to get into Ateez cause some people were Atiny, enjoy some NSFW stuff and write SKZ (Ot8 x FemReader) smut that I'll post here a little at a time, honestly... Cause this place is more Fanfiction friendly.

But get this. One day, the owner asked if we could talk, she and the admins kicked me out, saying i made people uncomfortable! HOW?! I'd just be myself there in the server, being nice towards others, giving a tiny bit of advice, keeping an eye on others by asking if they were okay, fixing my own mistakes if i made one, sharing links to Tiktoks like everyone else would do, posting photos to the proper rooms, censoring/adding Trigger warnings to my posts if I'm angry or talking about my mental health....

But get this.

I was having a REALLY bad day one day and i was feeling suicidal. I wanted to vent to my "friends", so i went into a rant room, censored my post with a TW, and vented about my emotions. Same day, i wrote a poem on poetry.com (a really good place for poems you've written) and wanted to show them to show i was alright.

Next day, they kicked me out without telling me WHO i was making uncomfortable. Was it because i was wanting to fit in with others through the damn favoritism?! When everyone was talking about going to California or the UK, i just wanted someone to come visit me here in Kentucky...or bring me along on a road trip. Was it because i didn't feel comfortable posting my smut on Wattpad? Or the fact i was showing off my SKZ themed Magical Hero cosplay?

I'm REALLY GLAD they kicked me out, honestly.

The place, along with the owner's other server i was on? BULLSHIT. Absolute,goddess damned bullshit. The owner was SO OBSESSED with Hyunjin, she'd constantly write OC x Hyunjin fanfiction (which is okay, but hers had barely any normal plot) with herself being a succubus. She'd openly say how she'd like him to do her in the NSFW rooms, which yes, that's what it's for, but it's like...it was explicit to the point it made me uncomfortable. I felt like i couldn't enjoy anything involving that sweet dumpling boy there cause i was afraid she'd turn into one of "those" kinda STAY (The kind that's like "They're mine!") if i ever mentioned he was being sexy/looking handsome (I'm 35, before you ask, i don't like making anyone uncomfortable or anything like that).

One of her server rules is that only ADMINS could have their biases in their display name. Like, uh... The titles you gave your mods+moderator color wasn't enough?! I'm an ot8 STAY, but i wanted to add Changbin, Felix and I.N to my display name in Emojis (🐖 🐇 🐥 🍞) , instead i just said "Changbin/I.N".

Bomb drop later, "Only admins can have bias in display name"

.... So i can't show i love these guys, but an admin can have "Mrs.Bang" or "Lee Know" ? Couldn't they just not make the admin color a name color choice?

The admins treated everyone with respect... except me. Why? Cause I'm autistic, Nonbinary, plus ,size, a Wiccan/witch?!

Two admins there are bigger than me in body size and they showed off their swimsuits....i showed mine, only one person liked it, the only person that treated me like a friend.

I say I'm a She/They Nonbinary, they KEPT calling me a girl! I'm AFAB, but i don't identify as female! Never called me by my name, either. I mentioned I wanted to rent Detective Pikachu for a movie night, one of the admins took my idea. So, i instead wanted to show Yugioh the Movie in a different room, and that somehow ruined everything.

I don't take compliments well, it's a side effect of C-PTSD due to bullying. So, I'd try and accept the compliment, but then feel weird afterwards cause i didn't feel pretty,or i didn't know if they were genuine. Plus, social cues confuse me sometimes. (thanks, autism)

If i made them uncomfortable because of how i acted, then I'd have apologized. But they never told me what the absolute hell I did wrong. They just said "some people came forward". Never explained what i did wrong,or gave me a suspension, just... Said i gotta go. So... Before i end this, lemme say what i really feel.

To the admins: fuck you. You and your favoritism towards those with Wattpad accounts (hey, it's cool if you've got one, but it's not my thing), claiming Lee Know and Bang Chan are yours, not letting me get a damn word in inch wise while y'all spammed photos in the NSFW section, getting away with shit that would've gotten me in trouble (like being in horny jail), not even being one iota of nice towards me even when i was being nice and making cute jokes and puns.

To the ones that claim you were my friends: You're not. You never came to check on me on either server the day i almost ended it all, asking if i was ok. You can just drop off my friend's list. Already Unfollowed you on Tiktok.

And finally: To the owner. FUCK YOU IN PARTICULAR. You're always posting about your damn fanfiction on Instagram and Tiktok, it's ridiculous! You made a shirt that says "Hyunjin's Cinderella" on it, in hopes he'd kiss you. He wouldn't kiss you even if you were dressed as an eggplant! And he hates eggplant! (Even though he was cool towards those that did dress as one during magic school). You look like a damn spinster with a plain Jane face and remind me of an old librarian with how you act with those glasses you wear. I NEVER wanted to hear you make a comment about his "dangerous when wet" shirt, and if anything, you NEVER MADE ME FEEL COMFORTABLE IN EITHER SERVER. Safe space my ass, that place was a huge red flag and a half. Not to mention, you treated your admins with more respect...i was trying to earn your respect, which is what people do. But i guess I'm not people. Not to you. I'm glad you Unfollowed me everywhere, cause if i ever see you online, I'm blocking you on sight. PS, When someone gives you advice, either take it,or politely decline it.

I'm done. Just... Done.

(But now I'm free to enjoy ot8 again without issues~💜)

[sol-draws-sometimes]

Disc World Book Club Thoughts- Monstrous Regiment

Pages 28-32

Hey @anna-neko! Hi…. I’m not dead! Look! I- Finales week happened, and then I went on a road-trip… could I have read on the road-trip… yes. Did I… no. BUT- just cause you fuck up doesn’t mean you just throw everything away. I’M BACK ON THE READING… Did I read much this week, NO! But, I DID read sooo yah, look I told you it’s hard for me read. Which like it’s so weird cause when I’m reading, I’m having so much fun. It’s just actually picking up the book (or opening the app) that my brain has so much resistance too. Anyways, yah here are my thoughts on what I read!

NOT PAUL! MY FUCKING HEART

Paul would’ve loved to learn birds are dinos.(totally protecting this rn cause I learned this recently and it’s mine boggling to me. I mean this IS fantasy so evolution shit may different but yah, now I’m just talking birds)

Also yah, very autism coded. Also something something people using religion to for harm and coming up with shit that isn’t even backed up in the religion, but then everyone else agrees that these is the new rule. AAAAAAAAAH.

AAH POLLY CAUGHT SOMEONE

BRO SHE’S ONLY SAYING THAT NOW. Like yah I do get what she means but it’s that thing of like transphobes who claim “they can tell.” Like NAAAAH. But yah interesting commentary on how society views gender and what not

Also, either Lofty and Tonkers are dating(gay), or they are NOT dating. Imagin they’re siblings 🧍. Or maybe they’re JUST friends. Anyways I know tonker’s also a girl so like GIRLY YOU’RE SO WRONG. SAYING YOU CAN TELL. NAH, YOU’RE JUST SCARED CAUSE YOU ALSO GOT CAUGHT, SO YOU’RE SAYING THAT LOFTY IS BAD A HIDING IT CAUSE YOU’RE PROJECTING. (Not mad a polly, just calling her out.)

Fuck this book is good

Also yah, mystery dude is definitely Jackrum. It has to be him.

I love maladict so much

Okay no more screenshots for these next few bullet points, just thoughts in order of book.

Fucking hate Strappi, he’s almost like TOO dislikable to the point that I was tempted to say unrealistic so… but nah, some people really ARE just THAT nationalistic and sadistic. Plus, he totally loves that he has a position of power that he gets to abuse with the regeiment.

NOT SEKTOBOR!!! HE DIDN’T EVEN TRY WITH THAT ONE 😭😭😭 *cut to someone explaining the lore behind the month naming conventions in disc world*

Polly read the news paper, and started to create chaos. Love her. Also I’m so conflicted, cause it’s not like they got drafted or anything. Yah Polly wants to find Paul, but like, Boragravia is like so obviously the bad guys. I mean, I know making broad statements like that is bad, and like this is supposed to make a statment about how on both sides of war, the individuals are people. But like, I don’t know if I’m making myself clear. I mean I guess this is a war book so like, obviously things aren’t gonna be black and white(almost nothing is). But yah.

SEE NOW SARGENT TRIED TO ARREST TONKER(even tho Polly started it but whatever) LIKE HE’S SO POWER HUNGRY

BRO THE DOUBLE MEANING. AAAAAAAH. *everyone collectively shitting their pants*

Also I’ve been meaning to bring it up but

Dicks(or I guess penises is the more accurate term) are SUPPER tied to masculinity and what it means to be a man

Polly got told to pack to pass a guy

So like, it’s this interesting thing of Polly so focused on the sock since it’s the thing that got her caught as a woman, but also she’s SO focused on trying to be a man. So it makes sense for the book to come back to Polly thinking about her sock and tying the sock to masculinity. I mean in this scene she’s in her head telling Strappi that’s she passing and he doesn’t even realize she’s a girl, but like yah. Maybe when I’m not writing these super deliriously could I make a more eloquently/ better expressed observation on sock=masculinity symbolism but yah.

Anyways very tired

I PROMISE TO READ MORE NEXT WEEK

BACK ON THAT GRIND

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[coolgirl32]

Things people didn't know about Jacqulyn Creed

Jacqulyn is a year younger than Victor even though she's only 5'1 she looks exactly like a teenager but that's not true she's only a year younger than Victor that makes her a thousand years old of course she also has a baby face which to be honest doesn't do justice from when she looks like a teenager people always think that she's either Victor's niece or Victor's daughter but of course they always tell people her actual age and she's really Victor's wife of course it's funny but it's very weird people think it's weird but when they realize she's not really his daughter or his niece explains everything.

Jacqulyn has autism of course back then in the 1800s no one knew what autism was so they just thought she was just weird until years later in the 2000s Victor and Jacqulyn both found out she had autism she didn't really know but it's okay because it's okay to be different.

Jacqulyn Love's both sweet and salty things she also loves baking and cooking her husband even said that her cooking tasted like it came from heaven of course it was a little exaggerated but it was actual honesty from her husband and it felt good of course however she sometimes experiments with foods.

Her and her husband only had one daughter Clarice but she died when she was 8 years old nowadays Jacqulyn and Victor are starting to think about having another baby but she's just too scared to have another baby because you know PTSD of course her and her husband talked about it and they were actually considering having another baby and of course they did have a baby well too twins a boy and a girl.

She can run really fast faster than Victor she can also make her claws look more human she also has really good hearing and a really good sense of smell and good eyesight she also has a really big heart not literally figuratively she's basically one of the most kindest mutants in the world of course people think that would make her an easy target but no she's smart as well really smart also she has a really bad temper problem but she learns to control her temper more often.

She sometimes enjoys reading a book on her phone or an actual book and those times would be either at home when her husband is at work or when her and her husband are on a road trip either way she loves to read and sometimes write books of her own.

I hope you all like this also please do not copyright or repost this without my permission also don't be afraid to request any fanfic I will take any fanfic except yandere

[grey-and-green]

Storms We Cannot Weather

A Good Omens found poem, Crowley POV

(notes at the end)

(cited version here)

I used to sit all alone in the dark

You fall….and...

There was no reason. No explanation

I prayed that God would be forgiving

But...

Do you remember that day when we met?

Right from the start

I can’t quite explain... But the grace of your eyes can see good in me

Suddenly...my life doesn’t seem such a waste

Why aren’t you scared of me?

Why do you care for me?

So I will not ask you where you came from

I will not ask. Neither should you.

And then...I fell in love with you...

You say that love is not that easy

Following their rules

Following the path of least resistance Bound by suffocating secrets

“This is Heaven, what I truly want”

But they don’t understand who you are

“How can I love when I’m afraid to fall?”

I believe there’s a way you can love me

Listen….we won’t tell anyone

They won’t get to us

You might think I’m incapable of loving a soul like yours

Still I say there’s a way for us

My darling, my sweetheart

You’ve been so lonely in the name of being holy

It’s not that the darkness can’t touch our lives

Yet there’s still this appeal The hopes of one day…

I don’t quite know how to say how I feel…

All the times I could have…

Oh I just want to….

I have loved you for a thousand years I will love you until my dying day You’re still my favourite

And I’m willing to break myself

Asking if you love me

Darling, don’t be afraid

We’ve nothing to prove We don’t need anything, or anyone

Is it possible to say….baby, let’s run away

We can escape….away from all of this It’s different this time

Just you and I

Just our hands clasped so tight Just kiss like real people do

‘Til all that remains is the arms of an angel

But love comes slow….and it goes so fast.

Is my timing that flawed?

Who are you to tell me who to be?

I don’t want your gold. If you don’t know that by now then you don’t know me that well.

You played the martyr for so long that you can’t do anything wrong

Some things never do change That’s the lesson that you teach me

In some sad way I already knew

I tried to give reasons...a thousand good reasons

And in the end we’ll fall apart

I’ve done everything I know to try to make you mine

I know that I shouldn’t even try It’s a waste of time

You say you’re leaving?

You’re already gone

You’ve gone too far

You broke my heart

You forgave

And I won’t forget

There are storms we cannot weather.

And I think I’m going to miss you for a long, long time.

Notes:

This is a hyperfixation my brain had while listening to music while driving.

I kept getting stuck on “this line is so Crowley-coded, but the song as a whole doesn’t fit so I can’t put in on my Good Omens playlist”, and then my autism gave me this idea.

These lines are all direct quotes from songs from my road trip playlist.

I spent hours getting the full lyrics to all the songs I'd saved while driving, and uploading them into qualitative analysis software so that I could pull quotes and organise by theme. I did a whole masters level dissertation based around found poetry, so it was kinda fun to do this again.

Formatted the best I could within the limits of what Tumblr will let me do.

[pbandjesse]

I have been influenced by the internet. I used to really love buying things on wish but I stop doing that a long time ago. Because I just kept buying nonsense. But Jess introduced me to a new website very similar to wish and I gave myself a $25 budget and I bought a couple goofy things. I'm still in my budget for the month. I barely done any shopping at all. So it was a silly decision but I don't feel too bad about it.

And today was a really good day. I wish I slept more. But I had a lot to do. Then tomorrow is going to be even more busy. Hopefully I can get a lot of rest tonight.

When I woke up this morning I felt a little annoyed. And honestly I've just been on this side of annoyed all day. For no real reason. I think I'm just tired. But I woke up and James made me a peanut butter and jelly sandwich while I got dressed. And very soon after I was stressed I was leaving to go to my doctor's appointment. I was a little stressed about it because you never really know how long these things are going to take. And I had to actually see the doctor today.

I've never been there on a Tuesday and the woman at the desk was different. But she was equally nice. And I got checked in pretty quickly. The woman next to me was huffing and puffing and being seemingly very upset about having to fill out paperwork. But very soon I was getting called back.

The medical assistant was as nice as always. I told him about my trip and how we just got back from camping and hiking and how great it was to not be in pain. And I encourage to look into the Amtrak trips because he wants to do some traveling as well. And then the doctor came in and we chatted for a while. I told her about the weird under skin pimples I've been getting just in case it was possibly a side effect but she told me she's been having that problem lately too and we now think it might just be the pollen in the air. And she told me it's hard to tell about my joints because I am so flexible but she was very encouraged by my blood work and the bit of inflammation in my back right now she isn't too concerned about. So that made me feel good. She said that I should just be careful picking up very heavy things. Which will probably be an issue setting up for camp tomorrow but ah well.

I got my injection and let them know that because of my honeymoon next month we're going to have to put my injection off a couple extra days but they said that that was okay. And then I went and made my appointment for the next 2 months and then I was heading out. Whole thing was about an hour.

So I still have plenty of time to go and get lunch before I had to be at the hospital for art with a heart.

But since I had so much time I decided I would go over to the art with our building and pick up tomorrow's materials. I ended up chatting with Jake for a few minutes while I was there as well. And then I went to have lunch.I drove down the road and went to Chipotle. Which was good but the person behind me was just getting a quesadilla. A small tortilla quesadilla. And they tried to charge him $9 for it. What the heck! He didn't get sides or anything. Just charging for a side tortilla What are you doing?? I left before it was resolved. But that was wild to me.

I ate my car and then I walked around Walgreens for a few minutes. And then I decided I would just go over to the hospital because parking is always an issue there. I had to circle the block a few times and eventually I just went up into the neighborhood. I parked and when I got out of the car a man smiled at me and it turned out he was one of the students and I just didn't recognize him without a mask on. We ended up both being there so early that the door was locked to the classroom so we sat and chairs outside and talked and I told him about the other classes that I do and he had lots of questions about what autism was. And so we talked about that for a long time and eventually the contact for the hospital came and let us in and she joined our conversation. We had another couple adults come in as students. But Julie wasn't there yet. The lead teacher. And I was a little concerned. We're supposed to be there 15 minutes beforehand but it was 1:00 and she wasn't there. So I found her phone number and I texted her just because I was like concerned that something was wrong. And I figured if she wasn't coming I could run to my car and get the project for tomorrow and just use those materials because we had students and I didn't know what to do. But thankfully Julie would come a couple minutes later. I'm not entirely sure what happened but I'm glad that she wasn't hurt. She was huffing and puffing though because she also hates being late. Absolutely understandable. But everybody was just looking forward to doing art. She let us through a guided meditation and then everyone started doing these interesting x-ray portrait pieces. And it was fun talking to people and encouraging them to work in different ways. It was neat I had a really nice time. We also just talked about the programs that I do at camp and some of their memories of camp as children. One of the women told us that when she was a child they took the church she went to to a camp and when they got there they told them that the pool wasn't open anymore because they were all black children and they didn't want the black and the white children to swim together. And she said that it was very painful. And it was just so vulnerable for her to share that with us. And I just am really glad that I'm getting this experience. They've all been such lovely people.

After class I finished helping Julie clean up and pack everything and then we walked to her car because she had some yarn for me. I was supposed to head to the museum next to meet with Merrill to go over some boxes for the research that we're doing to fact check the tours. And I was a little concerned about being late for that so I made sure I sent her a text as well. And then I was saying goodbye and heading back to my car. But I accidentally went the wrong way and got a little turned around. And then my feet hurt really bad but I made it back a little before 3:00.

I got to the museum at 3:15 but Merril texted me that her husband took the car and she didn't know and so it was going to be 45 minutes for her to walk there. And since nobody was answering me at the door anyway I decided that we would scrap it for today and tomorrow we would both just come early for our nighttime shift and see if we can get in there. She said that was a great idea. Merril's really cool though so I'm excited that we are collaborating and talking and stuff. It's nice to make friends.

I was very very thirsty though. I had a bottle of water with me but I had finished it already. My lips were just very very dry. I considered stopping and getting a drink but instead I just went home.

When I got back James was in their office and I was happy to see them but I was in a little bit of a mood. They had said they were going to clean the apartment and it didn't feel much cleaner than when I left it. And it's nothing that is huge I just think I was tired and grouchy. But they would come and lay in bed with me and brought me ice cream. And that made me feel better.

James would head to a baseball game after making pizza for us. And I gave myself another half an hour to lay in the bed and be a vegetable. Before getting up and making myself do some stuff. I worked on my prep for my workshop this weekend. And then I went to figure out my prints because I want to try digitally watercoloring them for the reprints of my Aesop's fables collection book. And then I started working on laying out the text for my commission from Rosia. I texted with her and she thinks maybe she wants gold thread instead of black. I told her the concerns about gold thread but that it's not impossible. So I will go to the store on Thursday hopefully and get those materials. And I was just really productive. I put some stickers on my other water bottle and picked up some stuff in the room. I made some progress on some small projects. It was a really good time. I was feeling really good.

I also went through the box that we keep in the trunk of the car. Got rid of stuff that has been sitting in there for forever and made some choices about what is necessary to keep in the car. And then I took a downstairs and I cleaned out the car a little bit. Just organized it a little bit better. And after that the sun was starting to go down.

Around 7:30 I took a bubble bath and use lots of oils and things and made my skin feel nice. And now I'm just laying in bed with sweetp. I'm getting pretty tired. James isn't home yet. But I just got a text from them and I'm glad that they are having fun. I think I'm going to go paint my toes and brush my teeth. Tomorrow I have a very busy day. I'm going on a tour of a quarry in the morning. Then I have to go to poo talk to set up Thursday's program. And then I have my art with heart class with crafted hands which is the MS group. And then I have my shift for a wedding at the museum. So it's going to be a long day. But fingers crossed that it is just really good. I have high hopes. I hope you all sleep very well tonight and you stay safe. Good night everybody.

[lezbrarian]

5 and 22 for the music asks!

thk you!!

5. name an album you feel is perfect

i promise my music taste does diverge from tegan and sara lol but they're my favs for a reason! the con is a p.e.r.f.e.c.t. album!

22. name a song that reminds you of one of your best memories

i love this question : )

i've been someone to latch onto one song and repeat it to death since day one (it's the autism, babes). one of my first memories of doing this was on a road trip to montana. it was really special to me because i was definitely a dad's girl, and with a younger brother very close in age to me who required a lot of attention, I had veryyyy few opportunities to be alone with either parent. so I cherished the fuck out of this road trip to get extended and rare devoted attention on me. my dad let me repeat the song "I wanna be a cowboy's sweetheart" by leanna rimes, for a very good portion of that drive. lol must have drove him crazyyy (there's a lot of yodeling in that song) but he never let on <3

[mass-convergence]

Actually ... I think I *do* have time to unpack this (being my weird okayness with being alone on Thanksgiving though it may not be an actual okayness). Strap in.

I first, right off the bat, want to say that I love my sister. We get along great. There is no like life or death, knock down, drag out rivalry here. Perhaps we're not attached at the hip but we are fine.

Getting that out of the way ........

So here's the deal:

I've always been kind of a weird kid. My mom would always tell me (and continues to tell me) that I march to the beat of my own drum. And I do ... and thankfully I was in a school system that didn't horrifically bully me over it. Sure people were kind of jerks but for the most part I was left alone because I was the nice kid who didn't talk too much and just chilled out on the playground looking at clouds or daydreamt in class. I was the weirdo who actually wrote 50,000 words in a month for my English class (even though you only had to write I think like 10k if that). I wasn't bullied but I didn't fit in either.

My sister is kind of in the same boat in terms of not quite fitting in with the crowd and she dealt with some shit because of it (she was older, she went to different schools than me, and some other stuff that I'm not getting into)

The main difference between her and I was that while she acted out like, a lot, I just meekly sat quietly in my own little world not really kicking up any fuss. I didn't really do much. So she kind of got all the attention because she seriously needed it - not in an attention hog way but in a, like, "you need legitimate medical help" way.

In the weirdest way, I became a bit of a black sheep in my family - not in the popular definition of a "black sheep" where it's like ... I'm despised or something. I was just - different. I had a shit ton of sensory issues, undiagnosed ADHD, and what is very likely some flavor of autism.

College time came around - my sister stayed and has stayed in the same general area where my parents are. I decided I wanted to move halfway across the country to attend school for meteorology.

And that's the other major thing:

I went into meteorology. The rest of the family? Medicine. Parents are docs, sister's a nurse, brother in law's a medic. My mom at one point lamented to me that while she could help my sister out with her college coursework since it was all biology and shit that she knew ... she couldn't do shit for me because I was 1) all the way in goddamn Oklahoma and 2) she didn't know shit about differential equations and QG theory. She wasn't angry that I didn't go into the "family business" (honestly my mom and my dad are the first in their family to graduate college). She just didn't know how to connect with me and I was struggling in school and she could not help.

There's also the fact that I'm gay and ace and nonbinary and my cis, straight parents are so very confused. They're supportive but they don't get it on the same level as someone who's LGBTQ would. I can't talk to my mom about girls or how I wish I could not have the parts I have but also I don't want those other parts either. I want to be as sexless as a rock.

Anyway ... I'm still in meteorology (and I love my job, I feel like I'm actually doing good in this world and it's a satisfying career ... it's a tough career but it's satisfying). The one thing my parents and I have in common now is that I work a job that's 24/7/365, including holidays. They're retired but they used to have that lifestyle to - my sister and brother in law still do.

But ................ I've kinda been drifting away from them. They love me and I love them but I've felt like a stranger in my own family since I was 18. And my mom and dad have tried so fucking hard to reach out to me in the past few years. It doesn't help that I'm a $500-1000 (depending on travel season) plane ticket or a three day road trip away. Like honestly - fuck living in the US. No country should be this goddamn huge.

I feel like there's both a very real physical distance but an emotional one as well. At least when I was a kid I was living with them and able to talk to them daily. Now it's just weird being home because it's like interacting with complete fucking strangers and I'm not really great in that front.

I used to go home for Thanksgiving every year when I lived in Oklahoma - because thank fuck Southwest had direct flights from OKC to where I lived and it was a 3 hour plane trip and because it was Southwest: dirt cheap.

I moved to Reno in 2019 for grad school.

Went home in November 2019 for my sister's wedding but that was the week before Thanksgiving. My grandma died the next week and I couldn't go to her funeral and I couldn't go to Thanksgiving because my dad and I had reached this coldly logical conclusion that the turn around would be too much and trying to buy plane tickets last second would be hell.

2020 was... welll 2020. Not many people were doing shit that year. 2021 - I had moved to my current state of residence and started a new job. I didn't have leave and also, because of the nature of the job, my parents were like, "well you'll just switch off on holidays you miss with us. It's better to miss Thanksgiving and be back for Christmas." (spoiler alert: I missed Christmas with them that year too).

2022 we basically had conceded that I was just not going to be home for Thanksgiving, ever, unless I found a job at an office close by. Which I'm trying very hard to get a job out there. Did get to go home for Christmas. My sister and my baby nephew got COVID and couldn't make it until the last day I was there but we did get to see each other.

So this year ... I'm alone for Thanksgiving. Parents may try a zoom call at 5pm their time which I'll try to be awake for. Time zones suck, America why are you so huge. Oh ... also because of reasons I decided to work Christmas and New Years. I'm not going home until the beginning of January.

Because Christmas is just a day right? 🫠

TL;DR I'm a stranger in my own family. Mostly by my own doing.

Honestly just don't be gay, don't be trans, and don't be a meteorologist. <- and please don't take that statement at all seriously.