#but i cant quite hold it yet
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i feel a bit trapped at the moment... my big adventure is just out of my grasp and the time keeps moving... i'm losing time... I'M LOSING TIME!
#i feel like im wondering with no purpose#im just lying in wait#waiting for something#waiting for anything#kind of aimless#lost#???#my big adventure is right there#but i cant quite hold it yet#time keeps moving#its moving too fast#im losing time#time#aimless#trapped#thoughts#my thoughts#fear#adventure#losing time#lost time
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also i cant believe donqui just started beating the shit out of sinclair and they just Let Her. and it Worked
#like yeah it ties a lot of threads and holds weight but also. she j. they just let her. its . kind of funny#like oh yeah dont worry i got this :] fuckinh GETS you.#they also seem to have a penchant for fucking up colossally and almost dying about it which is Equally Funny ithink.#fuck around and find out ig girlies im goin back to the bus. ✌#piktalk#projmoon#its such a fascinating tone twist. it has a taste i cant quite pin down yet. its very different. huh huh hm...
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hmm i think i am not coping. very well
#i feel like ive hit a wall in my ability to handle anything and idk how to hold myself together anymore#i see myself spiraling terribly but i am so exhausted in every single way that i cannot bring myself to care#and it’s going to kill me one day but i cant even care abt that#july was so horrible. so so bad it’s the worst month ive had since my dad’s passing#i feel so incredibly empty and stagnant and stuck i feel like i am in a tar pit and ive been here before#but i no longer have the strength to claw myself out of it#nor the support of others (irl i love u mutuals)#i quite literally only have my brother at this point and with how physically abusive he can become it’s not like that’s a relationship i#truly feel supported and safe in but it’s all i have#ive always been isolated severely by my family + the Issues have always made socialization so exhausting#i feel like im just floating and no one knows me nor cares bc how can they. i either just push people away to avoid getting hurt or i dont e#even try. and when i want to it’s a task so daunting and draining#i don’t have it in me despite knowing the lack of human connection is absolutely destroying me and ripping me to shreds#despite knowing a community of some kind would help#but i also feel like i offer fucking nothing and am worthless so would i even accept the help given to me. probably not#i wish i wasnt so intense of a person in every single way. and yet i will never be enough either#i feel like ive been clinging and digging my claws into my sanity that was not really present in the first place#ive been put through so much i couldnt cope with so repeatedly and so young i think by the time i wqs 10 i had already hit a wall but you#cant just stop living so it’s only compounded on top of that#it feels unhealable it feels like just part of me now.#i see a complete absence of a future for myself and i have no one to stay alive for anymore#not my parents not my pets not my friends and i dont know how to stay alive for myself bc it’s not something ive ever wanted#idk anymore. ive never felt so utterly lost and alone and broken lmao.#no wonder this relapse has been so all-consuming#dlt ltr
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MAC. MAC. MAC. I'M ON HANNIBAL S2E9. WHAT THE FUCK MAN. this is gettign insane. i don't have much else to say except whaaaaaat the fuckkkkk dude. "i sent a man to kill you, you sent a man to kill me. i suppose we're even." I'M GOING TO START GNAWING ON FURNITURE. wagh. hannibal isn't lying to will anymore, he's just not saying anything because will already KNOWS. he KNOWS. he doesn't HAVE to say anything it's all unspoken. i thought will was either gonna become his partner in crime or hide his crimes from the fbi while feeling conflicted about it but no. it is a secret third thing. and i don't even know what the fuck that thing is but BOY IT SURE IS SOMETHING!!!! also it's getting quite gay?? there may have been straight sex scenes on screen but that is nothing compared to the eroticism of whatever the FUCK is going on between these two. what the fuck man. i gotta go lay facedown on the floor for a bit. i'll start ep10 soon. hopefully finish the season either tonight or tomorrow morning. very looking forward to the season finale. WHAT THE FUCK MAN!!!!!!!!
ITS A SECRET THIRD THING !!!!!! god. season 2 is so. ugh. i think season 1 is my favorite overally but s2 has some absolutely fucking banger moments. yeah. whats gayer. gay sex or whatever the fuck those two have going on etc. god i CANNOT wait for u to see the finale. im not gonna give u any hints but i promise you. You Will Know the scene im talking about when it happens. good lord.
#season 3 is the weakest in my opinion. its still good but it didnt capture my attention quite the same.#also hiiiii whsikey i am soooo tired im sorry this isnt longer but just know i am LOVING ur hannibal liveblogs.#sorry about freddie btw <3#except not really bc oh my god i could not stand her.#DONT GET ME WRONG. shes an EXTREMELY well written and interesting character and i think the show would be worse without her.#however. i see a nosy annoying firey redhead and it is ON SIGHT. she activates my cain instinct i think.#like i love her but also i think i would like to punch her <3#HAVE YOU MET THE VERGERS YET. I CANT REMEMBER WHETHER THEYRE SEASON 2 OR 3. i need to tell u my verger story#actually. wait. hold on. maybe theyre season 3. let me google something rq.#asks#friends!!!#anachronistic-falsehood
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to everyone here 25+ how do you do it? how do you live? and continue living? how do you handle it? going to work, daily hygiene, eating, proper health practices, social interaction, going outside, maintaining relationships. how do you do it?! how do you live?!? please tell me i can’t figure it out and i’m going insane. someone please just tell me what to do.
#i do everything that i’m supposed to yet i still feel the#exact#same#i cant even handle having a simple food industry job#i legit had a full blown break down in front of my boss just now because of how mentally ill i am and can’t handle it#he wasn’t mad he was understanding and gave me the weak off despite me saying i want to quit#but i’ve only had that job for a few weeks now…#even my own father said how am i going to survive in this world if i can’t handle anything?!#why don’t people understand how hard it is for me?!??!#i take all the advice my therapist and doctors say#but i still can’t get better#why won’t i feel any different?#am i really just a lost cause?#i don’t want to end up homeless#what’s wrong with me#i just want someone to give me an answer#just someone tell me what to do#i need to be told what to do or else i don’t know how to be a person#agoraphobia is ruining me#i wish someone would just hold my hand
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something that makes me feel guilty is the fact that seeing that persons face rn literally makes me angry. they walked into class and i nearly winced. and in all fairness they were quite kind to me. outside of the several kind of odd red flags. girl whatever. to be quite frank i am a horny bastard and vocal proud etc but few people interest me enough to actually want to hang out with and get to know And i have deep seated intimacy issues so it's like. we really dont have a shot unless the circumstances r exactly right on a full moon perfect thursday of a month etc like. well and tbh i probably would have fucked around with this person but i dont... care... about some big relationship w them.. and i know i could be a relationship girl like eventually i have it in me to have a muse that's what im built for i think idc but not rn... rn i need to hang out with my friends and do my film stuff and have people that maybe wanna make out sometimes is that so much to ask for. for a lesbian at a bar to want to make out perhaps. ** for there to be lesbians at the bars to potentially make out with.
#and i am quite lonely yes thank u for asking. yeah someday id love to get to know someone again in the context of falling in love#what about it. so what now. i dont think im meant for our understanding of romantic love but boy do i crave it#why am i having this moment rn. well ok consider im on my period all i could think about this morning was [redacted] and both parties#of my dyke drama were back in class today. and the one gay person that i think has a crush on me but we dont see each other super often#so im just. guessing based on the way awkward lesbians communicate. idk#and i feel really just mean but i quite literally dont have it in me to pretend to be nice to this person anymore#i wasnt like. some villain for realizing we were acting really coupley and being like oh shit because i didnt want to hurt them#. and trying to communicate and put some distance between us when i thought they were probably in too deep. it's unfortch it took me a sec#but jesus christ yk i cant walk around and feel awkward about it forever. and im frustrated by the fact that we're just acting so odd#but again frankly i think it's largely bc they have an unhealthy relationship with dating. THROWING HORIZONTAL PUNCHES HERE.#OK. STONES FROM A GLASS HOUSE. IM AWARE. REAL RECOGNIZES REAL.#and YET. despite my past insanity. ive been kind. i can understand disappointment and a little awkwardness#but jesus would you rather i pretend to be in love with you for months and then really break your heart.#this is where i get mean and make a joke like well hey if we couldve had weird really mediocre sad angry dyke sex abt it#that would have been cool with me. but alas. we're here instead and it's fucking with my friendships too#and like we were kind of ok friends too. what now. its just u me and this brick wall u built between us bitch#now was EYE not answering texts for a minute. we dont need to get into it.#because the thing IS if i dont play things exactly right. and im not good at that without prior planning. i will accidentally say or do#something that i know. again. from being insane myself. would be just enough for them to hold onto hope#and im not trying to do that to them you know. i was trying to help with the detachment. shitty as it may be. i dont fucking know dude#this post is going to make me look kind of. well. whatever u guys have seen me at my worst. mostly. and post#ok one last thing sorry if this makes me sound like i have a giant ego. like wow heres this person who really liked me and im just shitting#all over them. not what im meaning to do but whatever
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tw: pet loss and honestly some grief
one of my childhood cats is dying and there is nothing i can do about it. my heart aches at every second i'm awake and my anxiety has been so bad this past week
#tw pet loss#sorry about the rant i'm actively going through it :/#not really childhood per se because i was 14 going on 15 but#i can't even say goodbye to him#he was my birthday present when we first got him#tiny with fleas :(#and now he's 9 and dying#i actually cant stop crying#at work#at home#i miss him#i want to hold him i dont want him to cross the rainbow bridge yet#i wanted my wife to meet him#i named him#he slept with me :(#yoshi please please#he's my little guy :(#cats mean the world to me every cat ever#even little shits who pee on ur bed on occasion like him#i hadn't prayed in quite a while but today i prayed for him#mars' bullshit#my mom says the treatment is working but i'm still scared as FUCK
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im on naruto ch110 (gaara vs sasuke chunin finals) and i wish i had more comments to make but so far all i have to say is i keep stanning rock lee
#hes just the best kid ever. i hope he powers up like crazy and beats everyone’s ass. i wish this manga was about him#in all seriousness. i like everyone else too i guess. sakura and that other girl ninja’s dynamic is cool i wish this wasnt sexism city and#i had reasonable hope of seeing it evolve more beyond a chapter here and there and a ‘we like the same boy’ enmity.#what else. um. kakashi’s failswag is intriguing and im entertained but not quite bewitched (yet).#naruto is cute. perfectly serviceable protagonist.#hinata is so lame and kinda gets on my nerves.#sasuke is annoying sorry. but i guess hes in his edgy 12yo era cant hold it against him ill have to see how he develops.#oh and I know gaara is supposed to be super hateable rn before his big redemption or whatever but I already kinda like him as in i like#it when he’s onscreen/on page(?). just the concept of a 13yo who cannot contain his bloodlust and is always barely restraining himself from#crazy murdering people is top tier comedy. to ME.#ok thats it so far. im mostly doing these updates for chiara hi chiara if you’re reading this i love you ill warn you when i get to the#kakashi backstory or whatever it was you wanted me to warn u about im not sure. also please read jjk#personal#naruto
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omori's inclinations towards self isolation is so realistic and similar to my own it's almost disturbing and very nearly triggering... very. nearly.
#not really a vent jus. hm.#its not surprising or anything. omoris a good game. its been praised for how it deals with and portrays this stuff.#im watching the sleepy crest black space ii vid#my shut in life will turn into a rock /lyrref#thinking about it is a little difficult. its hard to without becoming. consumed.. with desires i know. can be destructive#that said are but i changed it to 'can be'. so i can have plausible deniability when i relapse into madd&shut in and pretend its ok ^^#because i know its not good to anticipate failure or relapse or whatever. but its like. that desire feels so base level for me.#its the safest i feel and relapse is inevitable and.... welcomed. almost. it cant last because i have people whod be hurt by it.#so welcoming it doesnt feel dangerous. i have people with me that i have a duty not to shut out. (i can wait until they leave me just fine)#but i like making friends. so i know realistically its somewhat unlikely ill ever feel like i dont have a 'duty' not to shut in for others.#and my family actually like..... has a substantial relationship with me now. but i think my dissociation can take care of that problem#rather easily. ive always planned the potential for them. not my friends though. so i cant shut in yet ^^#though i do technically..... have a plan if even they become too unbearable as well. that goes back.. years at this point#but it has less to do with disconnection on my part and instead more to do with festering disconnection on their part#i know whats good for them i know whats good for me and thats hikikomori ^^#haha i jus said that cus it rhymed lol ignore me#does the post above even hold up at this point.#well. i think so. i dont think the game itself is triggering. i think im digging this well myself. and its not like ill be stuck here#i dont feel as though i am going to be consumed either. i think im just making noise. for the post. and to talk about this experience#since its something i struggle with quite a bit. but i dont tell my friends or stuff about it. because that feels..... mean. almost#like. oh ya by the way i fantasize a lot about you leaving my life. ya you should feel bad for me or something. idfk#really. really. the only feeling i have thinking about this shut in life is...... almost warmth. i think.#i dont think i could ever see the idea completely negatively. ive lived in a haze of drugs daydreams secrets and self isolation before.#its just. safe. it doesnt matter how the days blend together. your brain crowded and constantly foggy with dissociation.#youre somewhere else. somewhere where these things dont matter... those things help you get there. theyre tools of equivalent exchange#give your life up and you can create a new one. that idea had always permeated through my life in a manner of styles#but this is probably the most.... sensical and safe manifestation of that idea ^^#anyways. i like chatting about this stuff with people who relate#so hmu i guess.#vent in tags
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LMFAO
I had such a stressful day at work that the app connected to a smartband im usually wearing told me to listen to some calming music as it detected very elevated stress levels.
Lol. Lmao, even.
#c*rny posts#im beggining to wonder if this is just a particularly bad time at work or if its just going to be this going forward#im like. barely holding on.#ever since my manager decided to put me into a slightly higher tier of work complexity#the new work ive come to not mind. but instructing the dumbasses that took over my old work is a nightmare#its like they have no reading comprehension. cant think for themselves. cant google anything. insist on using worse tools#... wait a minute. now im wondering if they are pretending to be dumber than they are because they dont want my old work#which is possible. because my old work is kind of annoying and a bit repetetive but ive come to accept it#like it even#they clearly dont#they probably wont achieve anything by acting dumb though lol. all they are currently doing is making the project managers#and customer service people dislike them#the absolute worst ive seen today was one guy getting mad and invoking the manager because he got assigned a task related to a project he#hadnt yet received access to#he got pissy at the project manager. the project manager who has no way of knowing which projects exactly the developers have access to#there is like tens of projects across two different brands i used to do work on#now im genuinely interested in how bad the atmosphere in that brand project is going to get before something snaps#im beginning to feel animosity between the project manager and the developers. the project manager was always super nice when i was working#with her. but its so clear she is pissed at how the new devs she has to work with are behaving#genuinely i dont know how those new devs can be so rude. and so inflexible. never in my life have i behaved like this towards a coworker#for no reason no less#anyway#shit is kind of fucked at the moment lmao#i wanna quit
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recent ffxiv livetweeting. spoilers through the end of arr patch quests btw.
#ffxivposting#suicide mention#I GUESS. SORRY#made this account 90% so i could livepost this game better.#moving off my priv twitter to here bc literally only my irl has access and i know he doesnt gaf. i love u bro<3#and im actually going to die going thru this alone to be honest chat. help#just gave my wol a haircut btw :) working on a new fit also hehehe. she's my favorite.#she doesnt have a name because i put a stupid ass placeholder name because i started playing with my Real Life Family. but shes so cutiepie#keep taking screenshots whenever she looks cute in a cutscene which is often. lovely#btw. im aware t.hancred isnt a gayboy. he's a womanizer. which is kind of a gay thing to be. also stuff did happen to him in arr#and he gets pouty about it sometimes which is funny. rip to this guy. but youknow. lol#like if you think about it it's like man that really blows for you huh? but i cant get a good gauge on how much HE thinks about it. hes too#busy w/ his scorned lovers et cetera. as things go.#where im at now is uh. let me check the msq quest list. somewhere around lvl51 msq. chat i miss flying So Bad i am so slow.#by the way i do know the race names. for the record. that guy is a gay ass Elezen(tm).#also im not trying to bully u.rianger(?spelt like that right?) he's nice. his voice IS funny though.#i have not skipped any of this story. even the parts that sucked total ass and shit. my working knowledge is. Okay.#the patch quests were sooooo rough at the start but at least near the end they started ramping up and i got dragged in.#got to yell at npcs bc they were pissing me off so bad near the end there. quite a fun time.#also starting hw story stuff is really funny when youve been playing drg. like hey! i know you!#also ive been saying his name as 'estinen' the whole time wdym it's 'e.stinien'. i hope he never takes off that helmet btw#anyway. i cannot fucking draw my wol. at all. need to get better refpics later i guess.#speaking of. i am not googling any of these guys to draw them because i dont feel like getting spoiled.#yet another L im taking.my stupid baka life. as they say.#you cant hold anything im saying against me here it's almost midnight. fuck i have class tmrw. what ever#ANYWAY. all that to say. i need to talk to someone abt this shit to be honest.#shrug.
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waiting paitently for my dear sweet lovely boyfriend to wake up so we can go to the pet store :3
#i wanna see what hamsters they have :3#idk if ill bring one home today but if i see one i rlly rlly like i thibk ill ask to place on hold til tomorrow or something ?#idk quite yet my day has hardly begun#im excited tho i cant wait to bring home my new little fluffy ball of joy and spoil them with all kinds of goodies :33
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#god the suspense and guilt is just eating at me like a hamster to drywall i cant sleep#i dont want them to see this and yet I simultaneously really do#vecause on one hand i feel absolutely selfish for feeling like this#but if we're in a friendship that isnt mutually beneficial for everybody#i.e. them possibly feeling like they *have* to include me in things and telling me im their best friend when it isnt true which id imagine#would be hellishly draining for them to expirience this and attempt to force somethibg that isnt there#and in turn me feeling like im last picked. like they dont mean what they say and theyre only trying to prevent conflict and hurt feelings#by continuing to treat me as an equal in the group when i may not be#so like for real if my deelings are correct please do not hesitate to just tell me.#a friendship that isnt satisfactory to both parties benefits no one#i personally love being friends as we all are but something just doesnt feel quite natural anymore. like theyre forcing themselves#and i would just like to know where i stand so things can be adjusted accordingly#i promise i wouldnt be mad or hold it against anyone or think any less of anyone if this was the case#i would just like to have an honest civil discussion privately if there was anything to discuss so that things could just be resolved#because ive veen feeling thus off and on for months and its killing i just want to know#and im perfectly fine and prepared to possibly hear an answer i don't like but i just want this feeling to be alleviated one way or another#so just tell me the truth un-sugarcoated i dont like feeling like im trapping everyone in something they arent invested it#id rather hear them tell me they all want to spend less time with me or possibly even drift away from the friendship altogether#than be just dragged on along on every occasion we hang out like an annoying sibling they were forced to bring#yknow?#anyways im just venting and ranting about my wacked out feelings who knows if any of this is true or not#but if it is even in the slightest please just talk to me<3 it would be better in the long run for all involved#vent
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i wanna go back to early 2018 and show people this image
does anyone else remember when tangles design was first revealed and people were already deciding she was a lesbian and then other people were like "ughhh shes not gay why do you have to make everything gay " ..... lol. lmao even .
#idk how they would react though because there were even people this year denying that this specific panel is gay at all#which is wild. theyre literally holding hands over a lesbian flag background ???????#also i cant remember if this particular lesbian flag was commonly used yet in 2018 i know its somewhat recent#so maybe it wouldnt read quite as gay back then as it does now . i dont know#anyway lesbian tangle believers since january 2018 gang . rise up
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Statistically Speaking...
part of the svt TA collab
kim mingyu x reader
est. word count: 10-15k [fat chance]
est. release date: 10th September
warnings: TA! mingyu, fluff, smut [MINORS DNI], angst, statistics, more to be added in final post
synopsis: In all your years of academic endurance, you’ve never failed. A 100% success rate, despite you cutting it close at times. However, the line graph that is your life starts tanking somewhere around the time you began taking this hellsent Statistics in Psychological Research class. With a professor that wouldn’t know his ass from his head, and an overworked, overenthusiastic, and overcaptivating TA, it couldn't possibly get any worse than this. However, statistically speaking,…it could.
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“Right. How can I help you?”
Pulling out your printed assignment, you bring the sheets of stapled paper to the centre of the table, writing facing him.
One look at the sparse format of the cover page, Mingyu blows a full mouth of air at the sight of recognition. Without you having to say a thing, he flicks to the very last page, finding the rubric printed on a separate page.
“It’s a 37,” you inform him like he couldn’t see the bold 37/100 in the bottom Total cell.
“Do you think you deserved a better grade?” he asks. It would have sounded direct, an accusation even. But he asks with an intonation of genuinity, like he genuinely wanted to know.
It stumps you regardless.
“Well…I know I can do better, at least,” you decide to answer.
“You’re here, which means you’re at least willing to try. That’s a start,” he murmurs. His eyes are laser focused on the sheet beneath him, holding it open as his eyes move faster across the page than you can keep up with. Somehow talking to you while taking in the words on the paper.
“I remember marking this,” he says, looking up to address you. “Your concepts are nearly there, but your structure and wording were the problem.”
“You marked them?”
He raises his brow, “I hope that wasn’t an accusation. I need to stick to the rubric.”
“I thought the professor marked the lab reports.”
“He’s…supposed to.” There’s a forced reservedness in his voice. “I mark them and he puts in his comments if he has any. But I’m not sure you’d fare any better than this if it was him behind that pen either.”
Every question that floated in memorisation, from the form and structure, to the nitty gritties of the data presentation, all evaporate as you realise you’re at a loss for words.
Even more embarrassingly, you feel tears prick the back of your eyes as the next words leave you in a low voice, “I don’t know what to do anymore.”
“That’s alright,” he says as reassurance, though it sounds awfully rehearsed. Like he says it everyday. “We’ll work through it.”
He lets out a big sigh, adjusting in his chair and running a hand through his hair. The motion has you noticing the dishevelled nature of the mop on his head, un-uniformed and sticking out at certain places, yet still somehow cohesive with his look. His shoulders are straight and taut, fingers working as they fiddle and flick the pen in his hand.
Despite it all, his shirt is ruffled and creased, unbuttoned at the first couple steps. The buttons are misaligned, one side of his collar higher on his neck than the other. It takes an effort to not reach over and fix it for him.
“Lab reports can be quite tricky if you aren’t sure what you’re doing. Did you refer to the tutorial?”
You mean the one that did nothing to help? “Yes.”
“You got those bits right, format and whatnot. But—”
“It was a lump of writing about subheadings and word counts,” you say plainly.
Mingyu lips are in a tight line. “Well, yes, but it helps—”
“I know the results are supposed to go in the results section. I don’t need a PDF to tell me that,” you cut him off. Your voice is reserved, and you hope it comes off as a point across and not a complaint. Although it was a complaint. “I want to know why the entire section was ruled off as incorrect when we were never properly taught how to write it in the first place.”
“Dr. Cho—”
“Is no help.”
“I understand—”
“He can’t even mark his own papers. I’m quite sure that’s not in your job description. It’s supposed to be him here. Not you.”
It’s silent. There was nothing in your voice that suggested you wished to pick a fight, on the contrary, quite calm and matter of fact. Mingyu’s fingernails are going white as his grip on his pen and paper grow stronger.
“And yet, we continue to show up. Because we do what we must.” He raises his head in control, a small smile on his face, eyebrows unnaturally raised. “And, better that I’m here rather than no one at all. I can help you too.”
Help, he did.
Mingyu had made it quite clear his time with you was limited, but by the end of the near 25 minute session, nearly every inch of your printed assignment was covered different colours of notes and corrections, additional papers and post-it notes pasted on the back as you remain careful to not lose them as you slip the stack in your bag.
It’s only then that you spot the segregated stack of papers in your bag that you remember.
“I almost forgot,” you say, grabbing the pile and placing it in front of him.
“Where did you find this?” he asks sharply.
“You left them at the desk of the lecture hall last week,” you say, before quickly adding, “There was a class right after you left. I took them off the professor’s hands before they got lost. Thought it might be important.”
“I’ve been looking all over for these,” he says as he goes through the pages and files. Random sticky tabs and highlighted regions across the pages. The leather strap watch with the broken clock face remains on top, and he picks it up. He looks up to you with wide, sparkling eyes and a smile that feels genuine. “Thank you.”
You flush for some reason, “O–of course, couldn’t just leave them there.”
It isn’t till you’re pushing yourself out of your chair that he says something. “You can come in at 3:30 tomorrow.”
“Pardon?”
He’s stood up as well. “I have a free thirty minutes before office hours formally start. I can help you out a little more without the crowd.”
Feet planted on the ground, there’s not much you can do but stare. “Um, sure. I can come in a little early.”
He nods casually, “Thanks again for the papers. And the watch.”
You smile, “No problem.”
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Please write more about bakugou and softie! Gf, i literally need that, you write really good dear😭
katsuki with a softie!gf
your movie night had started innocent enough. katsuki had helped you prep the snacks—caramel popcorn for you, and extra salty, extra spicy for him. he’d already given your ass a swat in warning, “quit eatin’ from my bowl, you’re such a brat.”
he knows that look you give him when you want him. he’d recognize it anywhere! but, he really thought you’d be able to hold out for longer. he snickers at your trembling in his lap.
“katsuki, help me,” you paw at his chest, hips swirling in his lap. “need your help, pleaseee?”
your boyfriend is so mean. he drinks in your begging self, and you know he’s feeling your walls squeeze him with every cant of your hips. he gives barely any indication though, only panting and gripping.
“no. i told you, i wanted to watch the movie. so, you gotta work for it. be good.”
really, you’re just being difficult. riding him was always incredible and made you feel so full as you dropped your ass against his muscles thighs. yet katsuki had spoiled you; your legs didn’t move like his hips did. they didn’t fuck you like he did!
a burn spreads through your thighs as you bounce in his lap, fat cock spreading you so lewdly—katsuki lets out a relieved sigh as your pussy swallows him whole. fully bottomed out and full to the brim. your boyfriend claims he’s watching the movie but you can see how his eyes flicker to your swollen clit pressing against his base as he stretches your gummy walls.
“‘tsuki, katsukii! help me…?”
you’ve got him. he rolls his eyes yet his hands mold to the plush of your hips easily, “you’re so needy. can’t do anythin’ with you…”
your man plants his socked feet on the carpet before leaving you gasping for air as he thrusts up into you. he’s much faster than you were and his muscles ripple under your fingers as he fucks you.
“fuck, pussy’s gripping me so tight. y’really wanted me, huh?”
“yes!! ohgod—tsukii, feels so good!”
“i know, i know,” he murmurs into your neck. “you’re so fucking sweet for me. it’s insane, makes me wanna fuck you dumb and leave you full, fuckkk.”
“i-i love anything, ‘m getting close, katsuki…!”
“yeah? my pretty baby,” his arms keep you pressed against him as they slink around your waist and squeeze. “shitttt, listen to how much she loves me.”
you can’t even rebuke the slutty noises your hole is making. your toes are curling as you writhe and you’re gone. he doesnt stop even as your hands push at his shoulders because it’s too much!! but he only smirks as he strokes and rubs tight circles on your puffy clit.
“ngh, ‘nd i love you too, baby. c’mon, wanna feel you cream on this cock—ohfuck!”
your sloppy cunt completely drowns out the movie as you gush all over his dick. you’re sobbing, clinging to him and katsuki can barely keep his eyes open as he pumps his load into you.
“c’mere, baby.”
it’s so messy, and yet your man is sticking his sweaty face against yours to give you a sugary kiss. you’re nearly asleep but you giggle in his grasp, “stop!! you’re all sweaty!”
“after all i do for you, that’s the thanks i get from my girl?”
he slaps your ass and you jump, “thank you, katsukiii~.”
he grins like a fat cat as you purr, “you’re welcome.”
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