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In general the stans just fully hate the idea of abuse victims that can negatively impact the "good characters" in the show so they start coming up with some bullshit reasoning to make it so that doesn't happen in the fanon version they made up and think is real.
Whether you like her or not, Chloe is 100% an abuse victim but the issue that people had with her is that her character arc was centered on her (which is a good way to go about it because change starts with the self), she didn't have people to immediately vouch for her "goodness" (coughfelixandzoecough) cause it's not her victims' jobs to help her if they don't want to, and she did backslide a bit cause old habits die hard. That is to say it was far too realistic for their liking (at least in the earlier seasons) and it didn't end with her being a Marinette dicksucker so they say that she deserves to be abandoned by the man who raised her (white male apologia is abundant in ML) and abused by her mother (yet another case of characters being abuse apologists). Compare that to what happened with Zoe and Felix. Just not a good look all around when you're only willing to think that only "perfect/good" abuse victims are the only valid ones.
And there is nothing wrong with Adrien reacting "badly" to any of the news he gets. I'd argue that at the very least him finding out about Gabriel being Hawkmoth doesn't really have anything to do with his abuse narrative and might even have more to do with him being Chat Noir. Him reacting badly to his dad being a terrorist would be just as natural as anyone irl finding out a family member they were close to was a serial killer. The real issue isn't about his "bad reaction" it's that it'll affect all the "good" characters that "tried their hardest" to keep him in the dark because "they love and care about him so so much." (Not enough to let him be his own person but sure. These people are on the verge of becoming his new abusers lbr.) It's about how his "bad reaction" will Make Marinette Upsette.
Honestly, I think the stans would even be on his side if canon didn't have Marinette insert herself in the family drama and stupidly keep it a secret because she doesn't want to be inconvenienced with the fact that her bf has real emotions and could possibly be upsette with her for even a second. She was the one that brought this on herself and for some reason people think that Adrien should take the blame for it?
Like ultimately they don't want to think about "abuse" as anything other than a buzzword but one that only applies to Marinette and maybe a select few but only if that select few is part of the "good character" group and if they immediately forgive her if she did something wrong and willingly become one of her on call servants.
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Yeah, like, apparently, to Miraculousâ writers and fans, âno one deserves to be abused, even bad peopleâ is a super-hot take, as is âsometimes, how trauma victims deal with their trauma is inconvenient to you, and youâll have to accept it isnât about you.â Like, how Adrien would deal with his dad being a supervillain is not a Marinette Crisis(â˘), but the Marinette standom canât shut up about how bad Marinette is feeling and how much worse sheâd feel if Adrien started on a recovery process.
Nothing the abuse victims do in this show will ever be good enough, unless it allows Marinette and her stans to ignore their victim status as a whole. This, I think, is why I havenât seen many posts disparaging Kagami despite her also being a child abuse victim. Her trauma never has a chance to make things inconvenient for Marinette, so sheâs okay. Sheâs strong and capable, unlike her fellow victims.
Frankly, I think the toxic Marinette stans just hate abuse victims period, considering the difficulty they have with getting through a single interaction with someone without slipping in something ableist. Like, I got the most asinine anon just this week and I didnât need any details about what set them off to know it was from a Marinette stan just because of how ableist it was. These kinds of stans canât even pretend to be normal about other people for five seconds. It's like they think they need to be awful or someone will come in and revoke their Marinette stan card.
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What are your opinions on selfcest?
(I need to answer so many asks in my inbox... I'm sorry this is late! I will be late again/some more!!)
But I really wanted to finally get around to this one because I actually have some very specific thoughts on selfcest, which is that I feel like it would be... not necessarily "more liked," because people like what they like and are into what they're into, people are squicked by what they're squicked by, etc... but seen as less scandalous if it didn't have "-cest" as part of the name.
To elaborate, I don't think it has any similarities to incest unless the specific individual characters in question outright do think of their "other selves" in a familial way. In many cases this just isn't the case, however -- the relationship doesn't map that way in canon itself, or the other selves are totally noncanonical in the first place. I can think of some exceptions (Galerians, where almost all the clones of one particular person think of one another as siblings, including the one who was raised separately and didn't know about any of that so doesn't feel a sibling bond with them but they still seem to consider him one) but in many cases, that's just not what's going on. It's clones, or a changeling, or a time loop, or a multiverse, or something else where the canon doesn't portray them as feeling any sort of familial bond -- and where sometimes the canon actually outright makes a point to show or talk about how different they are.
And to explain even further... I think my view on selfcest is influenced by the fact that for a couple of decades now, my views on selfhood have been such that... I don't think "self"cest inherently feels self enough to feel offputting to me, either. Yes, you can have situations where someone looks at a clone or alternate universe version of themself and goes "that's 100% me" in a way that never really treats the other like their own person, and in that case it wouldn't appeal to me... But even since I was a teenager, I've always considered that if one person was suddenly two people, the second person unavoidably becomes their own person from the moment of separation, the moment either of them says or does anything that starts to develop them in a different direction from the other. And a lot of the time "selfs" in selfcest are even more different than that: Think of the Spider-Verse movies, for instance, or the possible interactions between a Transformer and their alternate universe selves if you crossed some of the cartoons and comics together. Pavitr Prabhakar and Peter B. Parker just do not feel like the same person; neither do EarthSpark Arcee and Transformers Animated Arcee and IDW comics Arcee.
TL;DR though, uh, I have to assume you're asking me because of Slay the Princess. đ
In which case that was a really long and roundabout way of saying... Honestly, I don't even think "selfcest" applies in STP. (Mostly, at least.) While the voices are all parts of the Long Quiet (and the vessels are all parts of the Shifting Mound), they are different enough people that they necessitate their own names, they have different relationships with one another, they disagree with one another to the point of dislike at times, their actions if they could act on their own would be VERY different, and especially once they have their own bodies I just don't register them as the same person anymore. And I truly think the game backs me up on this, because... the Shifting Mound and the Long Quiet also used to be the same being originally. Go back far enough and arguably any ship that isn't the Narrator/one of the other characters is selfcest! But it so doesn't feel that way to me, not even to the extent that most people mean it.
I have the occasional selfcest ship, but long story short, voices shipping and vessel shipping doesn't actually feel like selfcest to me at all* if that makes sense.
#*tbf some of the vessels do feel more like selfcest than others#specifically the chapter iiis that i see very strongly as complete extensions of their chapter iis#witch/thorn feels selfcesty to me in a way that thorn/hea doesn't if that makes sense#but i am still totally fine with that!#slay the princess#shipping#selfcest#tl;dr#askin answerin chattin
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no bc i fr want to give this man the nastiest, sloppiest, most unholy, sheet gripping, toe curling, eye rolling, jaw clenching, mouth watering, breathtaking, leg trembling, heart attack inducing, exorcism causing, sweat pouring, mortifying, paralyzing, beastly, foul, electrifying, earth shattering head known to mankind

#đ#this was made with sonny carisi in mind#but honestly it could apply to so many people#dominick carisi#dominick carisi jr#sonny carisi#patrick hockstetter#rafe cameron#joel miller#the ghoul#cooper howard#wesley evers#law and order svu#outer banks#outerbanks#law and order special victims unit#fallout tv series#tlou#the last of us#it 2017#girlblogging#this is girlhood#relatable
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his heart says househusband but his bills demand breadwinner
#this was made with#jiyan wuthering waves#in mind#but it can apply to so many people#jiyan wuwa#also kind of#garrus vakarian#he would really have that energy if he could finally retire#zevran arainai#very him too. again if he could avoid the trauma...#also honestly#gale dekarios#wyll ravengard#while we're at it
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posting this here so hopefully more people see it - but does anyone have any tips for making sure that palestinian fundraisers are legit? i have a lot of heartbreaking messages in my inbox, and i feel horrible sitting on them - but i don't want to accidentally post something that's a scam taking away the legitimacy of all the real people in desperate need of help (or worse, a palestinian who needs help but their fundraiser is being run by someone known to be dishonest. i've seen some truly heartless people steal donations from palestinians after promising to organize their fundraisers and it breaks my heart).
i know about reverse image searching, and the blogs of folks doing grueling work vetting fundraisers, but a lot of the usual ways you could vet things like this just do not apply here.
like, seeing if it's an empty or brand new account, or if the post "reads well" (ie: is it churned out by AI) for example. those are usually decent indicators of a bot/scam on this site. but when this is a relatively recent and constantly evolving crisis that's given people who may not speak native (or any) english no choice but to make accounts just to ask for help? that obviously does not apply here.
i want to be clear: i'm not reporting anyone for not having perfect grammar or saying that because scammers exist no one should donate at all. it feels disgusting to doubt these messages, but the last thing i want to do is cause someone who is in dire need of help to not get a donation because i inadvertently redirected people to donate money to a grift/scam.
#i am sure this post has been made like a million times#but i have just. not got the expertise to separate the wheat from the chaff here. bc so many of the normal rules dont apply.#especially when a fundraiser could be REAL but the person *running* it on behalf of the person is the one being dishonest!!!!!?????#the fact that people have done and are doing that is genuinely sickening to me. truly the bottom of the barrel of humanity#i know there's no way to know to be Absolutely Certain#but i would like to do everything i can to be as close as i can get to certainty#cos if someone sees my post and donates i want that donation to reach the person in need#& i fucking HATE how vigilant i feel i have to be????????? it feels so gross to be interrogating the legitimacy of anyone in this situation#not because palestinians are scammers AT ALL. but because actual scumbags are taking advantage of people#who are already in one of the most abominable situations any human being could ever have to endure#but honestly the worst thing i feel i can do is freeze up and do nothing at all or get caught up in my own emotions. hence this post
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I do think it's really overplayed and unfortunate and honestly probably dl racism that lance is the stereotypical flirty playboy but I think that aspect can be salvaged if you factor in that he's probably a loverboy at heart and is just scared to give people too much of himself
#normally I'd go ''bad move'' and scrap smthn like that in my interpretations but its so heavily hammered into his depiction I think I have#to work with it#plus like there are people who fit the stereotype đ I know this to be true there are so many latino fboys#are they setting our people back? yeah. But honestly more calling out of cultural values needs to happen to stop it#I like to think lance is smart enough to buy into machismo but I think it's something he can fall back into when he feels defensive/insecure#because its been marketed to him as this very reliable thing that's how he's Supposed to act#this also applies to his bisexuality I feel he really struggles with not running back to whatever he thinks is ''normal'' whenever he feels#embarassed/threatened#there's so many directions that could go as far as substance use/patterns of responsibility but I'll leave it there#also growing up getting made fun of 24/7 assuming his family is classic latine#if I was hard klanceposting I'd make some comparison about how keith is so subconsciously agressively himself and doesnt have all these#cultural and familial and social expectations for himself#so its grounding for lance#I mean the lack of those things (not like the expectations the things themselves) is part of why keith is deeply lonely#idk man đ#oh shit ****smart enough NOT to buy into machismo#that rly fucked up what I meant to say#voltron#lance mcclain#txt
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I'm tempted to write a fic about my Star Sapphire OC, Shinji Cendre. But I have nothing in terms of plans beyond moments of Shinji training Tai Pham and a loose consideration of Earth being a melting pot planet. (Similar to Ben 10 Omniverse and Undertown)
I just really like this quote.
Small biography under the cut
Shinji is mixed and tan skinned. (Japanese and French) The french part of the family has been in america for a bit. The Japanese migrated recently. Shinji is no contact with his family and lives in Coast City were he runs a tattoo parlor called Rebel Rose. Shinji does have a tattoo, it's a full sleeve of rose briar with a single white lily on his left arm. (rose briar floriography)
In my head his Star Sapphire costume is largely inspired by Violet, Cendrillon, and Ella from Persona 5R. I particularly like the emphasis on Ella's (Cinderella's) 'glass slippers. I would probably use Cendrillon's cape as a base for a veil that's attached to the crown all Star Sapphires seem to have. I also really like Violet's cropped tailcoat his left arm is sleeveless to show off his tattoo. I honestly prefer the forth image for a snapy tailcoat (minus the sequins, I don't like sequins) and the Star Sapphire titty window on a basic leotard.
"I know what you're thinking, pink can't hurt me, pink is a stupid color. One, your a stupid color! And two pink just fucked you up!"
-Byakuya Kuchiki Bleach(s) Abridged
Lastly he is a certified badass, who regularly quotes the above.
#tai pham#green lantern#star sapphire corps#Shinji's goes by Cendrillon when on duty and yes that is just Cinderella in french#because Cinderella is french#Shinji is largely designed to be a deconstruction of Star Sapphires as a whole#And the idea that love can come in many forms#Because the Star Sapphires are largely sexest tropes#They honestly could have been victims of abuse#People who don't want that to happen to anyone else#so they actively fight to protect or recut victims of 'crimes of passion' if you want to be weird#dc comics#Tai is my favorite Green Lantern#followed closely by John Stewart#Hal need not apply
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#tag talk#I've gotten pretty good at talking in such a way as to reassure and assuage peoples doubts.#currently working on selling my electric piano on fb marketplace (I had to make a new account for it cause I deleted my old one years ago)#and there's a lot of automatic suspicion people have that it might be a scam. but there's a lot of details you can add to fight that.#when working out a time to meet. mention you have a job or mention things you'll be doing when you're busy.#people love pictures or videos because we still have that inherent trust that videos and photos can't be faked.#I used that one a lot of grindr. a lot of people would just use the same two or three grainy photos so sending fresh photos occasionally..#-occasionally would stand out against everyone else who puts no effort into their profile.#there's just so many little ways to communicate authenticity but you can't try too hard or you'll come across as scammy.#idk though. maybe my inability to conceive of anyone mistrusting me makes me also just seem trustworthy.#in nursing I could gain paranoid residents trust really easily and could calm down anxious residents by just explaining the process to them.#which honestly is a victory for the autistic urge to just explain everything and then maybe explain it again and again#idk. I just try so fucking hard to be genuine and authentic in everything I do and that's kind of a skill you can artificially apply#like how you can learn to be kinder to people. learn to be more patient. learn to be more loving. likewise you learn to be more authentic#*whispers* (which also helps on the offchance you do need to lie about something. people believe you about that too)#but lying isn't something you ever want to get caught at because that shatters your whole reputation and then you're fucked#but you know what? confessing a lie yourself boosts your credibility massively. if you think you're about to get caught? get ahead of it#turn a lie into a mistake you feel oh so guilty about so you just had to say something and suddenly you're a golden child with integrity#anyway this has been manipulation 101#use your powers for good not evil or whatever. you want people to like you and if you ever fuck up and lie they won't like you so don't
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âď¸ YOUâRE NOT BEING PRODUCTIVE, YOUâRE LAZY AND AFRAID âď¸
And this will cost you a lot of time that could be spent with your desiresâŚ


You have all the information, why arenât you applying. You tell me you have been in this community for 6 months, a year, 2 years+, but how many of those days youâve spent in this community have you actually applied, how many of those nights did you actually apply and donât just fall asleep after 5 seconds.
And i know why youâre lazy, itâs because youâre scared, youâre scared of inducing process, whether it be success or failure. You make yourself busy with scripts and subliminals, âiâll script this really cool thing firstâ, âiâll scroll a little on tumblr firstâ âlemme just look at the success story hashtag before i do it, it really motivates meâ You try and distract your self, you delude yourself into thinking youâre being productive but really you donât want to, if you wanted to you wouldnât be here and I will ALWAYS stand by that. You put it off until the last minute and then when it âdoesnât workâ you run back to tumblr acting like you actually did anything.
a really good analogy from @archsariel333 - âyou buy the pens, the notebook, you plan for the book youâre going to write but, you never write itâ
âlet me just add this one thing to the planâ, âlet me look at inspo for book covers and art styles for illustrationâ, âlet me go to my book writers group on tumblr and see if they have anymore advice for me even tho i know how to write a fucking bookâ
I know itâs comforting and validating to be in the âwaiting periodâ, the period of anticipation. You want to go shopping for a vacation, pack your suitcase, look at reviews on social media, plan the pics youâre going to take, but getting on the actual plane can be scary, you ask yourself âwhat if they deny my boarding passâ, âwhat if i fail to make it on timeâ, âwhat if im not eligible to fly for whatever reasonâ, you donât want to leave your comforting circumstances and even the trip itself scares you just a little, so you cope by buying all the vacation outfits in the world, saving inspo pics into a pinterest board, looking at vlogs of other people going to that place. You canât bring yourself to get on the fucking plane.
You need to apply, and properly, 2024 is almost over, the amount of weeks we have left isnât even in the double digits anymore, I donât want you to make it to the end of this DECADE still keeping the tumblr âforyouâ page company, watching people coming and going feeling paralysed as people who came here later than you pass you by. I know the feeling sucks but whose fault is that?
I want you to scrap the amount youâve been here. Since youâre the operant power right? I donât care how many weeks, months, years youâve been here, scrap it, youâre going to start afresh and youâre going to actually apply, when you have the time, youâre not going to go back to your notes app, notion or pinterest to script some more, youâre going to apply.
A lot of you have the knowledge that majority of the world doesnât and time on your hands, do you know how powerful and extremely fortunate you are, to have time AND knowledge? i donât think alot of you understand how much of a privilege that is you are unstoppable yet you stop yourself out of fear that you will âfailâ to tap into the void and let yourself down. You are so privileged to know what you know and to have the time to apply it, so do it, your not gonna scroll on tiktok for a few more minutes or shove a million subliminals down your throat to âprep yourselfâ youâre just going to take a breath and do it. Induce pure consciousness, and if you fall asleep scrap that assumption and do it again.
Look at your life right now, do you honestly like it, do you like envying others for having what you can have at the snap of your fingers. Do you like the life you are living?
I want you to tell yourself that you will not be the reason for your own demise. you will NOT be the reason that itâs 2026,27,28 and so on and you donât have what you want.
please just go and apply, i donât even know you guys and it hurts watching you kill time when you couldâve had everything a day ago, an hour ago heck even 5 minutes ago.
apply apply apply, donât let this feeling be the reason you âfailâ đđ
#salemlunaa#shiftblr#reality shifting#shifting#permashifting#loa#law of assumption#void state#success story#the void#void concept#respawning#i am state#pure consciousness#shifting consciousness#void#voidstate#void state tips#the void state#god state#shifters#shifting blog
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Red Lights




{Paring: Rockstar Sim Jaeyun x Groupie Fem! Reader
{Genre: smut, electric guitarist jake, 18+ so (mdni).
{Synopsis: Nightclubs, rock bands, and crowds of people has never been your thing, but itâs something about the Australian electric guitarist that keeps you running back for more. Finally after stepping out of your shell, you find yourself doing anything in your will to be noticed by Jake Sim, aka the lead guitarist of the band Red Lights.
{Warnings: explicit themes, hard dom jake, sub reader, reader has a thing for Jakeâs aussie accent, jake has tattoos, rough sex, unprotected sex, creampie, choking, ass spanking, pussy slapping, fingering, oral (m&f receiving), anal play , squirting, ass eating, nipple play, usage of handcuffs, fucking in a motel, lmk if I missed anything.

âOh come on Y/n, please come. Just tonight please make an exception for your two best friendsâ. Nina and Bri, shouted at you through the phone, and begged you to go out with them tonight. You honestly didnât feel like going out at all, you had just finished your finals, and all you wanted to do is eat a bunch of junk food and binge watch criminal minds.
âGuys I donât know, I donât think Iâm really up for going out tonight, besides finals week has killed me I just rather stay inside tonightâ Your best friends groaned over the phone, whining that you always come up with the same excuse every weekend, just for a reason to not leave the house. You would admit, you did feel a little guilty for always turning down your girls, but you vs big crowds of people just made the hairs on your neck stand up.
âBut Y/n, this is one night you absolutely cannot miss, the đđđ đđđđđŠđ¨ are in town for two days and this is our only chance to see them live!!â Nina squealed in excitement over the phone, you let a confused hum at the mention of the band Red Lights, you had no idea who they were.
âWho are the Red Lights?â You inquired.
âNo! Y/n please tell youâre fucking joking right nowâ Nina gasped dramatically, at your oblivious of not knowing who the Red Lights are. You hear Bri burst into laughter over the phone, yelling at Nina saying âI told you she wouldnât know who they were haha, drinks on you tonight suckaâ Nina let out a fake cry before cursing under her breath
âGuys seriously who are the Red Lights?â You couldnât help but be a little curious about who these people were, and how are they so popular, since they have your best friends begging on their knees for you to come to their show tonight.
âThe Red Lights, are like THE rock band of all time. They sell out so many shows every year and theyâre like hot asf you should definitely reconsider your decision Y/nâ Bri said, the sound of her lips smacking coming through the line, indicating that sheâs applying lip gloss to her lips.
âHere Iâll send you the poster, and the link to the show where you buy your tickets. If youâre still not up for it, then itâs all good, Me and Bri will just go and have the best times of our lives. Nina said, trying her hardest to persuade you, but not make it seem she was trying to persuade you at the same time.
Your phone dinged with the message from Nina, you clicked on it, opening the message. You gasped inaudible, as you took a good look at the poster, and holy shit your friends werenât lying they are hot. The group consisted of 4 handsome men, Lee Heeseung the lead singer, Park Jongseong bass guitarist, Park Sunghoon drummer, and last but not least Sim Jaeyun electric lead guitarist.
You would admit, all of them were fine as hell, but there was one of the members that stood out to you the most. Sim Jaeyun, the lead guitarist, it was just something about his piercing gaze, and his striking facial features that intrigued you wildly. You could feel his intense aura radiating from the picture, and thatâs how you found yourself agreeing to go out with your friends tonight all bc of Sim Jaeyun.
âActually, you guys are right, i never get out of the house except for school and work so I think itâs time I do have some funâ you cringed at your own words, you couldnât believe you were agreeing to going to a rock concert, at an underground club somewhere totally out of your comfort zone. You giggled at your friends cheering, and squealing in excitement, that you finally decided to go party with them.
âThatâs my girl!! Donât worry we going to have so much fun, plus youâre gonna love the Red Lights, their concerts are always a night to rememberâ Bri quoted, you honestly were a little excited, it was definitely something new and risky, and honestly youâve been wanting to get out there a little bit more anyways but the fear of being judged raided your head like crazy.
âGreat! Then itâs settled ladies, Y/n weâll be there in 15, so donât take forever and please for fuck sakes wear something that fits the occasion, not any of those Church girl dresses you wear all the timeâ Nina snorted, you rolled your eyes and sucked your teeth at the girl, itâs not your fault you werenât too keen on showing off any skin and your curves.
You hung up the phone, and started to get ready. You searched through your closet, looking for something not too casual but something you would be comfortable with. You pondered and pondered, on what you should wear, and then it hit you, Bri had bought you a black mini dress for your birthday last year. You swiped through your hangers until you spotted the black piece, it was a little short but not too short, with a slit on the side and the top of it revealed a little bit of your cleavage.
You bit down on your bottom lip nervously, as you checked yourself out in the mirror. The dress hugged your curves tight, and your boobs sat up nicely. Before you could get any deeper into your thoughts, you heard a loud beeping of a car horn, indicating that Nina and Bri had arrived. You took one last look in the mirror, and took a deep breath, before grabbing your purse and walking out the door.
The wind of the cool night breeze, hit you instantly as you stepped outside, reminding you of the little amount of clothing you have on. You shivered a little, tugging the dress down, before walking over to Ninaâs red Honda Accord. Your best friends gasped at the sight of you, it was such a rare occasion to see you dressed like this, and they were living for it.
âHoly fuck Y/n, you look hot as hell!â Bri and Nina screamed a little too loud for your liking, you gave them a playful glare and shushed them, reminding them you have neighbors and the least you want right now is a noise complaint.
âSorry sorry, you just look so good girl! I knew you were hiding all that ass under those long granny skirts you wear all the timeâ Bri said, you rolled your eyes playfully at her before getting in the back seat.
âBuckle up ladies! Itâs going to be a hell of a rideâ Nina smirked, and giggled mischievously, before speeding off into the night. It was indeed going to be a hell of a rideâŚ.
ęŠ .á
Finally you guys made it to the club, and the parking lot was full of cars, and the line was outrageous. You understand now why your friends made it very clear to get a vip ticket, for early entry and line cutting because if not you wouldâve been standing out here like the rest of these people. The city was bustling, and the lights from the venue lit up the streets.
You could already feel yourself getting nervous and anxious, but you quickly reminded yourself youâre here to have fun, and not overthink and let your social anxiety get the best of you. All you needed, is a little alcohol in your system and youâll be good to go, because thereâs nothing like some good ole liquor courage. The bouncer scanned in you and your friends tickets, handing you guys your vip lanyards, as you guys made your way in skipping the long line.
As you stepped foot inside the club, you are immediately hit with a wave of heat, bodies packed together, the bass of the music blasting travels throughout the whole club, and the smell of alcohol and cigarette smoke invades your nostrils. You made sure to stay very close to your friends, not wanting to take the risk of getting split up, thatâs the least of your problems you need right now.
âIâll be right back, Iâm gonna go get us some drinks, you two find a good spot by the stage, as close as possible pleaseâ Nina shouted over the loud music, as she made her way over to the bar to grab the drinks. Bri pulled you by the arm, as you guys made your way through the crowd of bodies. You honestly donât know, how you two managed to get pretty close to the stage, but here you guys were literally two rows away from being barricade.
Not long after Nina came back with the drinks, you immediately took your drink out of her hand, and downed most of it. If you were going to survive tonight, you needed to not be all the way there and just let loose.
Suddenly the whole club went dark, and the crowd erupted into screams. You could feel your heart racing, and your palms growing sweaty, as the lights flickered back but this time they were a dark red color.
The stage started to light up as well, and you could see the members coming up from under the stage. Bri screams in excitement, pulling on your arm hysterically. You giggled at her reaction, and you even let out a little scream yourself.
Finally, the sound of an electric guitar echoed throughout the crowd, and you felt the adrenaline rush coursing through your body. The spotlight came on, and there they were, you stared at them in awe and you wondered if this was all some fever dream.
They looked so unreal, visuals out of this world, and the intense energy they let off was like no other. Your eyes landed on Jaeyun, and boy oh boy did your heart skip a beat, he was far more handsome in person and just how you imagined him to be. On top of that, his confident and dark aura was so intimidating and all too addicting.
âWhatâs up everyone, We are Red Lights!â The lead singer Heeseung spoke, you couldnât help but check him out, his facial features and orange hair standing out. But that was quickly interrupted, when the man youâve been anticipating seeing all night, spoke as well.
âAre you guys ready to go fucking crazy!â He growled, you felt a shiver run down your spine, and a throbbing ache starting to form in your core. A fucking Australian accent?! You thought to yourself, as you craved for him to speak more, you were a sucker for accents and Jakeâs happen to be your new favorite.
As the show went on, you found yourself really enjoying their music, but you were enjoying Jaeyun way more. It was the way he played his electric guitar so passionately, and his stage performance was amazing, it was like he was born for this. There were times, you and him would lock eyes in the crowd, and it never failed to get your heart beating fast and your panties getting wetter by the minute.
Sadly the show had came to an end, and you couldnât help but feel disappointed. You see why Bri said their concerts are a night to remember, and you would definitely remember this night. You genuinely had a great time, the Red Lights really know how to put on a show, and you already made up your mind that you will definitely be coming to tomorrow nightâs show.
âWow that was amazing wasnât itâ Nina shouted, slurring her words just a little, she was always kind of a light weight when it came to drinking, not taking much for her to feel the buzz of the alcohol.
âSooo⌠Howâd you like show, and what do you think of the Red Lights Y/nnie?â Bri inquired, holding up Nina by her arm, as the drunk girl wobbled and said incoherent words only she could understand.
âHonestly⌠I really enjoyed it, I mean their music is actually really good. You know, I was expecting it to be like the type of rock music, where all they do is screamâ Bri chucked at your words, playfully pushing your shoulder.
âSo, does that mean youâre on for tomorrow nightâs show?â Bri winked at you. Of course you were going, and hopefully this time you could catch a certain someoneâs eye, that certain someone being Mr sexy electric guitarist.
âActually yeah, I do think I would like to come againâ you nodded, Bri clapped her hands in excitement, and Nina jumped up and down, cheering in her drunk state. You couldnât wait for tomorrow night!!
ęŠ .á
âBut Sir, you clearly stated you wanted a white chocolate mocha latte, with a double shot of expresso when you orderedâ You said in your most friendliest tone, trying to keep your composure. These were the days, you really hated your job, and wanted nothing more than to throw in the towel but unfortunately you arenât rich so you have to work for your money.
âNo Miss! I clearly said I wanted a white chocolate mocha latte, and a double shot of an expresso on the side. Is this like your first day or something. The older guy raised his voice, and laughed sarcastically at you. You gripped the edges of the counter, taking a deep breath, before putting on a fake smile.
âWell my apologies sir, but you werenât very specific with your orderâ You replied, you honestly wanted to scream and pull your hair out, why did you always get the grumpy old people who havenât had their AM coffee yet.
âAre you calling me a dummy! Wow thatâs so unprofessional on your behalf, young lady I demand to speak to your manager right this instantâ The older gentleman complained, pointing his finger at you. At this point you were fuming with frustration, as you took a step back, to regain control over your emotions.
Luckily your manager came quickly, and took over the situation, and of course the guy changed his attitude quickly when a male was now present, fucking misogynist you thought to yourself. The doors to the coffee shop swung opened and two tall gentleman walked through them. Both had on mask covering their faces, and dressed in all black attire.
You donât know why, you suddenly got the feeling that you knew them from somewhere, but you quickly shook that feeling off, greeting them and taking their order.
âHello! What can I get started for you twoâ You said politely, while typing in your employee number on the register.
âWhat do you recommend, itâs my first time coming hereâ the gentleman with the black fluffy hair spoke up, your hands froze mid typing, and you looked up at him real fast. Why did his voice sound so familiar to you, almost identical to the maleâs voice youâve been daydreaming about at work all day.
âUmm w-well, weâre well known for our cappuccinos and lattes, but we also have really good teasâ you stuttered, your heart starting to beat fast out your chest. The two guys looked at each other and you could tell from their eyes, that they were smirking.
âWell how about you, whatâs your favorite?â the other guy replied, he was clad in a black hoodie, with red flames on it, but what you also noticed about him was his eyes. They resembled Heeseungâs eyes from Red Lights. You told yourself to snap out of it, and get a grip. Thereâs absolutely no way THE Lee Heeseung, and THE Sim Jaeyun, were standing right in front of you right now, asking about your go to coffee drink.
But they wereâŚ.
âUmm well Iâm pretty basic, I just usually get a latte or an Iced americanoâ You nodded, and they both nodded their head in agreement, chuckling softly before the one with the leather jacket pulled out his credit card.
âAlright, weâll take two Americanos pleaseâ the one with the leather jacket said, handing you his card. When you went to grab it, you suddenly stopped, and looked at the rings on his finger. At this point, you knew for sure you werenât imagining things, the rings he had on his fingers were the exact same ones Jake had on last night at the show
Yes, you were staring that hardâŚ.
âSomething wrong princess?â He chucked softly, you couldnât find your words, they were stuck in your throat, as you struggled to speak. Thatâs when the other gentleman leaned in, and whispered something into his ear. His eyes widened a little, but quickly turned relaxed and was replaced with a more playful expression.
âAhhh I see, you know who we are donât you?â He leaned against the counter. Your breath hitched at the semi close proximity, swallowing hard before replying.
âY-yes, but I wonât make a scene I promise, I really like you guys music a lotâ You were a nervous wreck, tripping over your words, and fiddling with your fingers. They both kept giggling and looking at each other.
âHaha thanks, did you come to our show last night?â Heeseung asked, you shook your head yes eagerly, then cringing at yourself for coming off so desperate. Jake finally pulled down his mask some, showing you half of his face. You melted on the spot, butterflies erupting in your stomach.
âMay I ask whoâs your favorite, and will you be coming to our show tonight prettyâ Jake said, smirking and biting his lips. You felt your knees go weak, and suddenly the air became hot, and you struggled to breathe correctly
Did he really just call you pretty?!
âW-well, I uh- well um, I really like you Jaeyun, youâre like so amazingâ You slapped your hands over your mouth and widened your eyes, you didnât mean to sound like a desperate fangirl, but him staring deep into your eyes had your brain malfunctioning.
âOh really, is that so? Very cuteâ He smirked, before putting his card back in his wallet. You quickly made their drinks, almost fucking up in the process, because you could feel them staring a hole into you. You finished making their drinks and handed it to them.
âHere you are, please enjoyâ You tried your best to sound confident. They both thanked you, but suddenly Jake grabbed your hand and kissed your knuckles and you looked at him in shocked, as they grabbed their drinks.
âSee you at the show tonight Y/nâ Jake spoke one last time, before they walked out the doors of the coffee shop. You stood there, still in shock, as you stared at spot on your hand where Jake kissed. You couldnât wait to tell Nina and Bri.
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The night came fast, and you were currently standing in front of Briâs bathroom mirror, applying your makeup. Youâve decided, you really want to go all out, in hopes of gaining Jakeâs attention. You went to the mall when you got off work, and picked out a black corset top, and a black mini skirt to go with it.
âI canât believe you met them like face to face, WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCKâ Ninaâs said, her loud obnoxious voice making you laugh. You honestly still couldnât believe it yourself.
âYeah seriously Y/n, you donât know how many girls will kill to be you right now!!â Bri singed, touching up her curls. You honestly did feel a little on top of the world right about now.
âNot only that, Jake fucking kissed your hand, heâs definitely into you girlâ Nina wigged her brows, nudging you in the shoulder.
âOh come on, a guy like him into me? He probably just enjoys seeing girls losing their shit over himâ You didnât wanna gas yourself up, only to get disappointed in the end. Jake was so out of your league, and had plenty of girls in line waiting to have a piece of him. Thereâs no way he would waste his time on a girl like you.
Little did you knowâŚ.
Jakeâs Pov
Jake knew when he first spotted you in the audience, he had to have you. You were the most beautiful girl heâs ever seen, and not only that he could tell you werenât used to coming to concerts or let alone clubs, just by the way you looked around like a lost puppy. He could feel, the innocence and curiosity, radiating from your body all the way in the crowd and he never felt so addicted in his life.
He wanted to swallow you whole, drain you of your innocence, and show you a whole new world out there. He couldnât lie and say, he wasnât taken aback, when he walked into the coffee shop and you were right there in all your glory looking gorgeous as ever. It took every thing in him, not to sweep you off your feet right then and there, and have his way with you.
But nah, he couldnât make it that easy, he wanted to play with you first, get you all desperate for him which was never a challenge for him when it came to women. Jake knew he was good looking, and how easy it was to have any girl he wanted, so he used it to his advantage. But what Jake couldnât quite grasp, is why did it feel different this time? Why does it feel like heâs genuinely into you.
Jake was always excited when it came time to perform, I mean why wouldnât he? He loves what he does, and music is his passion. But in the back of his head, heâs a little extra giddy knowing that youâre going to be somewhere in the audience watching him, he hopes you keep your word and show up tonight. I mean, how else is gonna make his move on you, and get you in the bed tonight.
Jake was determined to have you screaming out his name tonight, and little did he know you were feeling the same wayâŚ.
ęŠ .á
When you and your girls pulled up to the venue, you instantly felt Deja vu, just this time you werenât as nervous like before and you felt lighter, and more confident. You stepped out of the car, the cool night breeze welcoming you, as you guys made your way through the line of people. Just like yesterday night, it was packed like crazy, but vip ticket again hello.
You guys rushed in, not even bothering to get drinks, as the plan was to get barricade tonight and to your surprise the goal was achieved. You and your friends couldnât help but feel giddy, boasting over being front row.
Not long after, the lights turned off and came back on, to the signature dark red lights. The crowd roars, and the energy is up instantly. The adrenaline rush, courses through your body, a lot more stronger since youâre in front of the stage. The members came up from under the stage, and you immediately start looking for Jaeyun.
You finally spot him, and what are the odds, he just happens to be on your side. Just like before, you stare at him awe, so fascinated by his godly presence. You locked eyes with him, and this time he winked at you and smirked, Nina also saw the interaction turning around and hyping you up.
As the show went on, you noticed that you had Jakeâs attention, when you would look at him, he was already staring at you. And even this time, they went out into the crowd, and he made sure he passed by your section to hold your hand. When the show was coming to an end, and they were saying their goodbyes, Jakeâs eyes remained on you, and you felt so small and imitated under his gaze.
The show ended, and you and your friends were getting ready to head out, but suddenly a gentleman with a mask and tattoos on his arms stopped you guys. Bri being the brave one in the friend group, she immediately was ready to tell the guy off, until the guy quickly spoke up introducing himself.
âMy apologies for startling you ladies, but could you spare some of your time?â The guy asked, you all looked at each skeptically, before shrugging your shoulders.
âSure whatâs this concerning, you wanna buy us a drink or something?â Nina said confidently, never missing the chance to flirt with a hot guy. You and Bri looked at each other, and shook your heads.
âHaha I mean, I wouldnât mind buying a pretty girl like you a drink at all. But actually Iâm the manger of Red Lights, and I actually got word from the boys that they would like to meet you ladies backstageâ Your eyes widened at his words, and you turned around and looked at your friends in shocked. You guys couldnât believe this was happening, you couldnât believe this was happening.
âLike to meet them backstage?â You inquired, the guy nodded his head and said to follow him. You guys followed him to a back room, where it was labeled staff only and he opened the door and the members were all hanging out in there. You and your friends walked in, the atmosphere feeling heavy and awkward.
âLook who made it! Welcome beautiful ladies, come have a seatâ Jongseong said, pointing at the space left on the couches. Nina sat by Sunghoon, Bri sat in between Jay and Heeseung, and then of course you had no other choice but to sit by Jaeyun. He patted the space next to him and you hesitantly took a seat.
âWe meet again princess, see you couldnât stay awayâ Jake said, looking at you with that look, that makes you wanna serve him like heâs your master. You swallowed down your nerves, before replying.
âWhy would i, I mean you really know how to make a good impression Jakeâ You said confidently, flirtatious in your tone. Jake bit his lip, a habit you noticed he does a lot. He leaned in closer to you, stretching his arm around your shoulder, and whispered in your ear âCall me Jaeyun pretty girlâ you almost moaned out loud.
His accent was the sexiest thing you ever heard in your life, voice smooth like honey, and the scent of his cologne invaded your nostrils. You wanted him so bad, never mind, you needed him so bad.
And thatâs exactly how you ended up, messily kissing Jake, as the elevator moves up the floors. It dinged on the floor Jakeâs room was on, and you both stumbled out the elevator, giggling and kissing each other like crazy.
Jake fumbled with the card, as he tried to put it into the slot, he was so fucking horny he could hardly think straight. You decided to help him out, giggling and inserting the card into the slot, and finally the light turned green and the door was unlocked.
Before you guys could get fully into the room, you were pulling Jake back into a heated kiss, pulling on the collar of shirt and rubbing your hands down his abs.
âSomeoneâs eager arenât we?â He smirked, grabbing a handful of your ass, then landing a harsh smack to it. You moaned shamelessly, pussy soaking your panties already. You had been wet since the concert, and you really needed him to do something about it.
âPlease, i need you Jaeyun I canât take it anymoreâ You begged, grinding your pussy onto the fabric of his jeans. Jake groaned, his cock now throbbing in his jeans, fuck you were so perfect, he loved when a woman is desperate for him.
âFuck baby, shit take off your clothes, i wanna see that sexy body of yours. But do it nice and slowly for me, i wanna appreciate every inch of youâ He bit his lip, taking a seat on the bed.
You didnât even have to be told twice, you started to slowly strip out of your clothes, swaying your hips slowly as you eased out of your thong and unhooked your bra.
Jake couldâve cummed in his pants at the sinful sight of you, you were truly a masterpiece, a body of a goddess.
âI want you to crawl to me slut, show me how bad you want thisâ You obeyed his command, dropping down to your knees, as you crawled to him, slowly and seductively. His gaze was intense, lust and desire, written all over his face. Your pussy is dripping wet, and your arousal is leaking down your thighs.
âGonna show me what that pretty little mouth does huh? Be a good little girl and let Jaeyun fuck your mouthâ You looked up at him with your big doe eyes, and nodded eagerly, you didnât even care how shameless you looked anymore you wanted his cock.
He spread his legs open for you, as you started to unbuckle his belt, and he lifted his bottom up so you could take off his jeans and boxers. His cock sprang free, hard as a rock, and the tip red and leaking with precum. Your mouth watered at the sight of his big cock, it was long and thick, with veins running down the sides of it
âFuck your cock is so huge, I donât think it will fit all in my mouthâ you moaned, pumping his cock, and smearing the precum off the head of his cock.
âThatâs okay sweetheart, just take as much as you can, come on make me feel goodâ he grunted, hips bucking up desperately. You licked on his wet tip a little, teasing him before taking him into your mouth, sucking slowly. He threw his head back, exposing his perfectly sculpted jawline and neck.
âFuuuk yeah, just let that, eat my cock babyâ you moaned around his length at his vulgar remarks, the vibration of it, causing him to let out a loud moan. The taste of his salty precum on your tongue, was immaculate and you could feel his dick twitching inside your mouth. You bobbed your head up and down, taking more of his cock in your mouth, as his tip reaches the back of your throat causing you to gag a little.
O-oh Shit yeah, deep throat my cock baby fuuuck yesâ He groaned, pushing your head a little, as you sucked him off. Your pussy was throbbing, so you reached your hand down between your legs, rubbing your aching clit as you sucked Jakeâs huge cock. He noticed, and pushed your head further down, cock going deeper into your throat.
âWho said you could touch yourself without my permission greedy little slutâ he spat out, taking this opportunity, to grip your hair and fuck your mouth. You gagged, spit and his precum dripping on the sides of your mouth. You could tell he was getting close to cumming, his dick twitching uncontrollably inside your mouth.
He pulled his dick out, tapping your tongue with his length, before pulling his shirt off showing off his tattoos. Just when you thought he couldnât get any hotter. He came up and started kissing you again, tasting himself on your mouth and groaning at the taste.
Get on all fours baby, I wanna eat that pretty pussy from the backâ He sighed out, lazy stroking his cock. You got up on the bed, arching your back, as you looked back at him wiggling your plump ass. Jake cursed under his breath, before making his way over to you, and rubbing his hands all over your ass.
âFuck look at this beautiful ass, fuck just wanna take a bite out of it sweetheartâ You whimpered, when he started to circle your clit with his thumb.
âOh fuck please, please give it to me Jaeyunâ You cried out, you were so turned on, it hurts. Jake smacked your asscheek, before putting his face in between your cheeks, licking and sucking on your pussy.
You let out a loud moan, his tongue felt incredible, knowing exactly where to lick, you could tell he was really experienced.
âGod yes Jake, that feels so good pleaseâ You whimpered, back arching at the overwhelming feeling of his tongue, working wonders on your wet pussy. He was genuinely eating you out like a starved man, and you could tell he eats pussy for his own pleasure.
âFuck this pussy is so good, sweet little cunt so tastyâ He said muffled, as he started to lick your puckered hole. He could tell you never had your ass eaten, by the way you flinched at the contact. He couldnât believe, nobody has ever tasted your sweet little ass before, but heâs honored to be the first one to get a taste.
âDoes my naughty little bitch, like getting her ass and pussy eaten from the backâ He smirked, licking a big stripe of your pussy, sucking on your sensitive bundle of nerves. You clenched around nothing, pussy fluttering, as he started to tongue fuck your hole.
âFuck fuck fuck, right there Jake, please donât stop Iâm gonna cumâ You whined, legs shaking and the band in your stomach, threatening to snap any minute. He landed a slap to your pussy, causing you to let it a pained moan, jolting forward.
âCall me Jaeyun baby, now be a good little whore and cum on my tongueâ He spat, slipping a finger inside your tight pussy, fingering your gummy walls as he devoured your pussy. You screamed his name out loud, as your body felt like it was on fire, and the knock in your stomach unraveled.
âJaeyun! Oh my god Iâm cummingâ You whined, coming undone in his mouth, squirting your essence everywhere. Jake continued to lap at your pussy, overstimulating you, before you pushed at his head because you couldnât take anymore.
âGod, I need to be inside you right fucking nowâ He growled, ridding himself of the rest of his clothes, you looked back at him, staring at his abs, and how his muscles flexed when he bent down.
âFace down babyâ He said, before running off to grab something. He came back with handcuffs, twirling the black puffy object around his finger. Your pussy clenched around nothing, and you could feel yourself getting wetter, at the thought of your hands being restrained, as he fucked the living daylights out of you.
He pulled your body to the edge of the bed, spreading your asscheeks , as he rubbed the tip of his cock between your slippery folds teasing your throbbing cunt. You felt like you were going to die, if you didnât have his cock buried deep inside you, pushing your ass against his pelvis.
He chuckled at your eagerness, before aligning his tip up with your hole, his cock slipping inside your tight pussy easily from how wet you are. He was big! You could feel him splitting you in half, his hard cock pulsating, as he started to rock his hips and forth.
âOh Shit, yeah tight little pussy, squeezing me so good, he groaned, his pace speeding up, as he finds the perfect rhythm to fuck you deep. Your eyes rolled to the back of your head, he was able to find your g-spot immediately, gripping your waist tightly as he pounded you into the mattress.
âJaeyun! Oh Jae, fuck me just like that. I love your cock so much baby fuck!â You cried out, throwing your ass back at him, as you desperately chased after his strokes. The sound of skin slapping, and the headboard slamming against the wall, echoed throughout the motel room, turning to on to the max.
âHow does it feel, to be getting fucked stupid by a rockstar darling, feeling me deep in your gutsâ He pulled your body up from the bed, pulling your body flushed to his, as he pounded into you like mad man pinching and rubbing your nipples through his fingertips.
âF-feels so good, love being your little fucktoy so muchâ You whimpered, biting down on my lip harshly, as you took his brutal thrusts. He arched your back again, pushing your face into the mattress, as he let a glob of spit fall between your asscheeks. He smeared the saliva around your rim, then starting to slowly push his thumb inside your tight asshole.
âOH MY GOD JAE, Iâm gonna cum, please let me cum on your cock I been so good for youâ You slurred your words, your body trembling, and you could feel the band in your stomach tightening as you neared your high. You could tell Jake was close as well, his deep grunts, turning into whiny moans and whimpers.
âFuck can I cum inside you baby, stuff you full of my cum, just to fuck back into your tight cuntâ He growled, plowing into you, as his strokes started to grow erratic, fucking you into a oblivion. That sent you over the edge, the band in your stomach finally snapping, as you came hard for the 2nd time tonight.
Your orgasm triggered his, the tight clenching of your cunt, milking his cock for whatâs its worth, as he shoots thick white ropes of cum inside you. His hips stuttered, completely emptying his balls inside you, and he collapsed on top of you, chest heaving up and down.
You laid there spent, body limp and weak, your hair is a mess and you looked so fucked out. So did he, sweat dripping down his forehead, as he tried to calm his breathing. The room was completely silent now, only the sound of you and Jakeâs breathes could be heard.
This was the moment you dreaded the most, the awkward silence was so loud, and you didnât know if you should get your shit and go. Or wake up to an empty bed, with no sigh of Jake.
âThat was the best sex, I ever had in my lifeâ You spoke up, breaking the silence, and trying to lighten up the mood. Jake hummed, staring up at the ceiling. You stared at him, admiring his side profile, he was so bad for you heart. Finally Jake got up from the bed, grabbing his jeans, and throwing them on.
You sit up in the bed, covering yourself with the covers, as if he wasnât just balls deep inside you. You knew this was gonna happen, but some parts of you hoped would be different, but who were you kidding Jakeâs a rockstar he has no time for dating.
âAre you leaving?â You asked him, even though you knew the answer to that, but still you were hoping he could prove your assumption wrong.
âYeah I should head out, the bandâs probably wondering where I amâ He said nonchalantly, pulling his shirt over his head.
âOhâ Is all you said, a lump growing in your throat, as reality hit you hard that you were nothing but just another hookup for him.
âYou should probably leave as well love, itâs not safe for a women to stay at these places by herself. He smiled at you, that damn smile you thought to yourself. Tears started to gather in your waterline, but you quickly wiped them away, and got up from the bed and threw on your clothes.
ęŠ .á
You stood there awkwardly, fiddling with your fingers, as Jake checked out the motel, and tuned in the card. He turned, and looked at you, before giving you a faint smile and nodded his head towards the exit. You both walked out, side to side, the cold air hitting your legs.
Jake put his jacket over your shoulder, and kissed you on your forehead, and not long after a taxi cab was pulling up. Jake opened the door of cab for you, and you gave him a faint smile, before getting into the backseat of the cab.
âI had amazing time tonight princess, hereâs my number, if Iâm ever in town again we should meet up sometimesâ he nodded, you couldnât help but feel a little sad, you didnât want this night to end, you just wished it could be different.
âYeah Iâd like that, be careful on the road Jakeâ Your voice cracked a little, trying to ignore the ache in your chest. He smiled at you one last time, before walking away and disappearing into the night. You finally let the tears fall, sobbing into your hands, you really fooled yourself this time
You donât know if you will ever see Jake again, but until then, you can only cherish the memories of tonightâŚ.
A year later.
Your phone dinged with a notification, waking you out of your slumber. You rubbed the sleep out of your eyes, before clicking on the notification. Your heart stopped, when you opened the message, from someone you didnât expect to hear from ever again.
Jaeyun: Hey love, Iâm in town wanna meet up?đĽ´
The End.
A/n: The way I enjoyed writing for Rockstar Jake, I literally sobbed writing the end thođ but I really hope you guys like this fic, reblogs are greatly appreciatedđŤśđ˝đŠˇ lmk if you guys want more fics like this in the future! Not proofread đĽ˛
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đđđđđđđđđ / đđđđđđđđ đđđđđđđ â Yoichi Mikami . . introduction | masterlist | requesting rules . . warnings : nsfw content / sixteen + content / gender neutral reader / yandere oc x reader / Yoichi is aimed at people with a savior complex tbh / yandere content / pathetic yandere / submissive(?) yandere /
a/n: this is just a character sheet of some general info alongside nsfw and sfw headcanons below . .
Appearance: Yoichi has fair skin and soft brown hair, which is slightly wavy and it reaches all the way down to the bottom of his neck; it's well kept as he has this obsession with his hair. He has light hazel coloured eyes and soft pink heart shaped lips. He has the inverted triangle body type, so a slim waist. He's toned but nothing over the top, his physique is mainly thanks to his close friend Lucas forcing him to join when working out. Yoichi has slim Vieny hands, and stands at a tall 6ft in height. Yoichi has many piercings, truly the embodiment of "You're not depressed, you just need to get your skin pierced", with 3 different ear piercings, a tongue piercing, and to top it all off a eyebrow piercing. (He has yet to get a lip piercing, but let's be honest, he's one melt down away from getting one).
Character basic info: Yoichi's birthday is on June 12th, he is Pansexual, and emophilia which is a tendency to fall in love fast, he's a hopeless romantic as heart and is more of a obsessive and delusional type of yandere/stalker. His has many hobbies, which includes but is not limited to, cooking, drawing, writing, photography and etc . . Yoichi has a major sweet-tooth, and is not that picky with what he eats but hates peppers with a passion . .
backstory: Yoichi is currently attending university, he's in med school and plans on becoming a surgeon, currently completing his bachelors. Yoichi comes from a well-off family, he's old money and his family is pretty traditional but rather accepting when it comes to him as he is an only child. His parents have always been reserved with affection except when it came to each other and though he's aware they care and love him, he often times craves to fill the missing gap with his romantic entanglements, hoping for something similar to what he saw his parents having, . . which has led him to being a hopeless romantic. Yoichi has always struggled with sleep, but now has found a remedy that comes in the form of y/n . . and he does not intend on letting them go . . .
NSFW | 16 + CONTENT BELOW THE UNDERCUT . . .
Yoichi's love language is quality time and physical touch, the feeling of skin on skin, your touch, the smell of your hair, the scent of your sweat as your embrace him closely is something he wishes he could stitch into his brain. Yoichi is willing to die in the comfort of your touch, your embrace, to let you swallow him whole is his dream.
Despite that, Yoichi is a switch, he has no personal preference when it comes to who's taking the lead in bed and has a high libido, yet he wants nothing more than to feel as much of your skin as possible, he wants to swallow your breathâto become one. He'll take anything you give him, and expects the same in return.
Despises bondage for that very reason, restrainment will drive him insaneâhe'll whine, he'll cry. . if he can't feel you, if he can't reach out and let his hands touch your pretty hair, grip your thighs . . Same applies to blindfolding him, he needs to see! He needs to feel, see, touch, smell, taste you, he needs you to overwhelm his senses!! You can't do that to him!!
Cock-warming would be torture, it would be a punishment for him, he'll do his best to behave, but honestly he'll be a crying and pleading mess in no time, you mean you're going to let him stay inside you . . yet not let him move? You feel warm, wet, and amazing, he wants to feel more . . let him have more . .
He's more of a groaner then a grunter, he whines and has a habit of overstimulating himself, which leads him to overstimulating you. . He just needs more, thursting deeper into your walls, touching you, his mouth on your neck, fingers teasing your nipples, sharp teeth sinking its fangs into your flesh, he wont stop unless he himself is on the brink of passing out, fingers gripping ever so tightly on your waist, thighs, fucking into you sloppily and messily, he'll leave both you and himself a crying mess . . as drool drips down onto your chin.
Aftercare is usually something he has to prepare before hand, because with the way he goes, it'll be unlikely that either of you will have energy to move out of bed, most of the time he'll have snacks and drinks prepared for afterwards, and you both will spend the time cuddling.
He despises quickies or voyeurism, he doesn't mind fucking you against the window, or when someone is near, but he dislikes the idea of doing it outside of the bedroom harshly, sex is intimate . . and he wishes to keep it as such.
With that, he also dislikes degrading, other then the few small occasions. However, this man adores receiving and giving praise, he'll compliment everything, voicing how much he adores youâthe way you taste, the way you moan his name, your fucked out expression when he goes a little bit faster then before.
On the other hand, Yoichi really really really likes being degraded, he'll never voice itâbut go ahead! Call him a pervert while he kneels at your feet, worshipping your body as it should be!!! Call him sick and twisted, please call him names, choke himâOh . . he also loves it when his partners get aggressive.
Also, bite him, scratch him, dig your nails into him, pull his hair, he loves anything with a sting or mark that's left behind . .
NON-NSFW HEADCANONS
Yoichi is a obsessive, delusional, and stalker type of yandere, he often writes down his fantasies in a book, and isn't afraid to get violent when needed, he'll defend himself by repeating a lie over and over till he believes itâtill it erases any guilt or remorse he feels. He's willing to kill, he's willing to do all of that, because if it came down to it, he'll lie to himself, so much so, that even he himself will convince his mind to believe that yes, he did the right thing . .
He's skilled at stalking, yet he rarely risks breaking into your houseâout of fear he may leave one thing misplaced and you'll catch on, his insomniac, sleep deprived mind is paranoid and anxiety ridden, and he cannot risk anything of that sort, he may watch you from outside your window, he'll move near you, he'll follow your around the neighborhood to satisfy his whims . . he'll stage coincidental meet-ups at class, clubs, etc, until he can come into your home as a friend lover!!
As he can't sleep without your scent, he often tries to satisfy his whims by buying similar perfume/cologne as you use, it does the job for awhile, and he's at least able to sleep a bit, he still prefers the smell of your old clothes, and the real thing more . . .
Yoichi often writes letters to his darling, that he refuses to send out of fear that they might call the authorities, despite knowing full well they'll do nothing about it, since he's not a 'huge threat' to them. He had done his research before this entire fiasco, and has taken to imitating traits of famed stalkers in movies and documentaries so no one catches him.
Also, he isn't the type to steal underwear or anything of the sort, he's much more above and mature then that. . instead he steals all the clothes you plan on donating, because what greater purpose can they have but being a part of his shrine, collection, horde. Same with any tangible items, why should he dig through the trash? No, he couldn't have dirty hands when he plans on touching his darling in the future (he's a germaphobe) rather, he'll offer to throw out that juice box, that piece of gum you have wrapped up in a tissue, yeah . . and then stuff it in his pocket.
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Residuals
Ongoing Series
Synopsis: You and Robby spent seven long years together until the day it ended. Youâve done your best to create space; to become invisible. You canât miss what you donât see. Unfortunately, the universe (Gloria and the Board of Directors) seemed to have missed the memo.
Pairing: Michael âRobbyâ Robinavitch x Reader
Genre: Established previous relationship, slight age gap (by about 15 years give or take), a little bit of tension mixed in with a little bit of hate yearning, cause sheâs a saucy angsty fic ok
A/N: So, I kept telling myself I wasnât going to do this, but honestly, Iâm such a sl*t for Noah Wyle and older men. I also kept running into there being just hardly any fics in general for this amazing show and soâŚhere I am. Attempting to create my version with an OC that does have a last name (it's for the doctor purposes but also I hate that whole y/n, y/l/n stuff, ok? It just throws my ass off and throws me out of a story) and follows along with the episodes of the show. Idk how this will go or be received but Iâm here wrecking myself. Much Love
Shout out to @viridian-dagger for looking this over for me and hyping me up when I feel like my shit is trash. I Love you. Also, thanks to @strangergraphics for the cute little divider.
Word Count: 3259
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7:00 AM
âNo, absolutely not. Ask someone else.â
The break room was the perfect place for Gloriaâs early morning ambush. Youâd barely pushed in the numbers on the keypad, the door swinging open when your gaze homed in on her position leaning against the small kitchenette. The words blurted out from a place deeply seeded in not being ready for her or the administration's early morning bullshit. You hadnât even got to enjoy your coffee yet.Â
Youâd turned on your heel and raced back out the door in what couldâve been record time. Your hand tried to steady the sloshing of your coffee as you could feel Gloria hot on your heels.Â
âYou donât even know what I was going to ask, Dr. Fullerton.â
âYouâre right - I donât. However, seeing you this early, Gloria is not a good omen for starting my day.â
There was nowhere in the entire trauma center that you could go to get away from her and, knowing Gloria, she wasnât going to make it easy for you. Realistically, you understood that Gloria was just another cog in the corporate machine. She rode your ass - and every other medical professional in the system from doctors during residency to technicians and CNAs - because itâs what the big bad CEOs demanded. The hospital functioned on efficiency facilitated by money and if too many bad Yelp reviews arrived it systematically hurt numbers. Bad numbers equaled a bad flow of funds.Â
Gloria no doubt listened to her bosses during an early morning meeting where they rattled off complaint after complaint that dealt with a showcase of data and numbers. Both, of which, the board constantly claimed, showed the true efficiency of the hospital - not the life-saving measures taken to keep people alive. No doubt its main focus rested on the emergency department downstairs, because, once again, Yelp reviews of massive wait times and poor satisfaction scores outweighed the expertise of attending doctors.Â
You didnât envy Gloriaâs position of being hated for being said cog in the corporate machine. Her job focused on relaying the demands from the top. Gloria was forever the bad guy to staff whenever they noticed her no-nonsense demeanor coming towards them. It was hard to be sympathetic to her plight when she followed you around like a bloodhound. The woman was relentless.
âThe board would like to see if applying additional support down in the emergency department would help alleviate time issues that are keeping patient satisfaction at a tremendous low.âÂ
Absolutely not.Â
You would rather chew your arm off than be sent down there. Your retreat came to a halt as you turned to face her. There weren't too many places inside the hospital you could go, and you were willing to bet Gloria was willing to follow you anywhere until you conceded. Plus, you came to a full stop in front of the elevator, and no matter how much youâd like to magically teleport yourself inside of it, unfortunately, you were mortal and would just have to wait.
Gloriaâs hands were interlocked in front of her middle - eyes drilling miniature holes in you that not that long ago used to make you squirm. That was back when you were just starting your internship - eager back then to make a great first impression. Terrified of being reprimanded for making an unpopular decision or speaking your mind.Â
âGloria, Iâm in family medicine.â
âLast time I checked you started in the emergency department and helped out in intensive care.â
âYes, great memory, Gloria. If you also recall, I moved to family medicine where Iâve been for the last couple of years.â
The transfer to family medicine was a hard pill to swallow. Youâd grown accustomed to the craziness of the ER. The constant adrenaline rush that required you to always bring your A game. Where the anxiety was at an all-time maxed-out high where a simple mistake cost lives but a quick deduction could save them. Once youâd moved upstairs to help out Dr. Naveâs family practice, itâd been a huge adjustment. Eventually, once your body got used to the monotony of the days, you found you were finally able to sleep. To be semi-normal.Â
There was no denying, however, that you left something important behind in The Pitt. Something you hoped you could leave there inside its sterile rooms and the overwhelming storm of emotions. Â
âIâm not asking you to go back down there to answer every trauma call. Iâm asking you to take your family medicine knowledge downstairs to help assess triage for minor issues -â
âYou mean people who come in for chest colds,â you interrupted.Â
â - and help the senior doctors clear out these cases so they can focus on more immediate health care concerns.â
Gloriaâs words crushed your small outburst and bore down on your shoulders, keeping you from trying to move away. Her hands were now connected at her elbows, which was her silent way of informing you she didnât appreciate you trying to talk over her. That no would never be an acceptable answer.Â
You felt the drag of your teeth against your cheek. The temptation to bite down to relieve your growing irritation was overwhelming but futile. No matter what argument you came up with, you knew Gloria was here to make sure what the board requested was done.Â
Instead of bloodshed, you eased your frustration out inch by inch through your nose. Your eyes scanned over the shitty egg wash walls while you debated all of your available options, which were a big fat none.Â
âHow long?â
Gloria didnât need clarification on what you were asking. The way she practically preened like a peacock let you know she knew sheâd won.Â
âAs long as the board requires it.â
âIâll do it just for today,â you interjected, ignoring her raised brow. âToday you can see if pulling me from Naveâs floor makes your charts or numbers move or whatever data it is you all look at. If it does nothing, today is my first and last day going down.â
Gloria considered your counterargument. The sharpness in her eyes brightened; the terms of this new agreement were revised without you knowing the new verbiage. The only thing you were sure of was that you could count on this small verbal agreement being drawn out in document form for you to sign later. Â
âAlright, Dr. Fullerton. Youâve got a deal. Iâm sure the board will agree. Now come on. If we walk down fast enough maybe, youâll make it in time for shift change.â
She didnât wait to see if you were going to follow. Why would she when Gloria knew very well you werenât going to fight it, especially when the main reason for your denial currently wouldnât be working today.Â
Anniversaries were never really Robbyâs thing.
You would never admit it, but your anxiety was fifteen feet away from grabbing you in a chokehold.Â
Get a fucking grip.
It had been two years since you left the ER. Two years since Robby and you had called time on seven years together. Seven years of memories filled with all the good and bad, co-parenting Jake, and keeping your relationship secret until it wasnât. The early years of walking to work together with quick kisses goodbye before you split up just before you turned onto the final street to the hospital. The both of you choose different entrances each time to try and not raise suspicion.Â
It took Dana four days to figure out the two of you were together.
Dana was perceptive like that. Hell, sheâd been the angel on your shoulder whispering hints that Robby just might like you as much as you liked him.Â
âI told him to ask you out to dinner. He thinks youâll say no.â âIf he did ask, I should say no,â you countered. Your eyes struggle to stay trained on the chart in front of you. âYeah, but I know youâll say yes.â âAnd what makes you so sure about that, Dana?â âBecause if you donât stop giving each other googly eyes from across my nursing station Iâm going to throttle you both.â
Robby had only been divorced from his wife for less than a year. Youâd overheard snippets of conversations between Robby and Abbot, Dana, or Adamson about custody battles and visitations. The last thing you wanted to do was be a possible added stress to an already stressful situation. At least, that was the bullshit you kept telling yourself to try and stay away.
But Dana was right (she usually was, but youâd never tell her that).Â
You couldnât pinpoint a specific time when things started to change between the two of you. The coffee breaks on the roof looking out over the top of Pittsburgh Trauma Medical Center. The jokes that caused smiles to crest over his face, rivaled the glow from the sun's early morning rays. He told you later, in the med closet, how the sound of your laughter was something he looked forward to hearing; the warmth of it was enough to keep helping him make it through his shift. A sound he began to crave in the quiet corners of his home. You could still remember the phone calls and early texts. The caution and heavy breaths that harbored a desire that longed to reach out and consume the other. The two of you were equally afraid to be the one to take that first step over the bounds of professionalism.Â
The two of you knew the dangers of playing with lingering touches and knowing glances. The way you both acted like you wouldnât ultimately end up burned. You could still recall the way heâd traced his thumb across your lips. The possessive way his eyes followed the motion made the desire for him to close that space, to claim you, to take you, threatened to make you lose all self-control.
Eventually, you stopped listening to the warning signs of all the what ifs; of being the intern and worrying about how it would make you look. When Robby asked you out on that date you didnât hesitate to say yes.
You didnât think it was possible to fall in love with someone the way you did with Robby. He was so attentive; he was thoughtful in the most pragmatic ways - packing extra scrubs in your pack. Teaching you how to fish and the differences between the lures and bait. The way he took the time to explain the objects he carved from wood and how much pressure was necessary to create the grooves and pattern. The way his voice would sound as he read to you; the soothing vibrations of his baritone the safest place you could be with his fingers in your hair.
He carved out a life that made it possible for all three of you to co-exist. His son, Jake, becomes the deepest interwoven part of your life you never realized was missing. On days Robby had him, you planned camping trips up in the mountains to hike and fish. To go on museum trips into Jakeâs latest hobbies with the two of you making sure to have his game day off to cheer embarrassingly loud for him in the stands. The shared looks of pain from beside each other on the couch while Jake practiced his clarinet upstairs when he thought he wanted to be in the school band. You got lost in furniture manuals, cooking dinners that ended a few times with questionable outcomes, and attempting to bake tarts and pies that led to a one-time usage of the fire extinguisher. The euphoria of loving someone and being loved so fiercely in return made the years feel weightless, and when Robby finally proposed it made so much sense to say yes.Â
And COVID happened.Â
The quarantine and the endless amounts of patients that just kept coming - that felt like, no matter what you did, they couldnât be saved. Family and friends, you both knew were ravaged by the infection. There were no answers. No medical treatments that you knew for sure would be what would save them. It didnât discriminate and took lives without mercy. You just came to work every day, exhausted, and fighting to do what you could to heal those you could. You showed up every day for your patients.
Then Adamson passed.Â
There was no denying Robby blamed himself for what occurred with his mentor. It didnât matter what you said. What Dana, Abbot, or anyone else said. The guilt weighed down on his conscience, pressed so violently, that eventually, Robby cracked under the strain. His grief was all-encompassing and the added loss that shouldâve been experienced together, was left for only you to bear - widening the gap between you until it became a chasm.Â
The last time youâd seen Robby heâd been leaving to go to work. The latest fight - the endless bitter silences that stretched on - tore at the fabric of your being. Fractured pieces you didnât know how to pick up on your own no longer felt worth fighting for. So, you decided to remove yourself from the equation.Â
When Robby came home from work that night you were already gone. Your engagement ring and house key sitting on a note that asked him not to contact you. Heâd made it clear enough that there was no place for you in the new person that he was becoming - made it clear that your grief would be processed alone.Â
And so that was how you ended up transferring to family medicine. How you made sure to steer clear of all the places Robby was known to frequent. You ignored, as politely as you could, texts from Dana. Refused to talk about him in a work capacity or to close friends.Â
The truth was that you were still in love with Robby after all this time. The idea that someone else could ever make you feel as whole - as complete - didnât exist. So, yes, you only agreed to come back down to the emergency department, where it all started, because you comfortably knew he wouldnât be here. Dana, you could deal with her by using a little recon - you just needed to stay two steps ahead of her. Langdon was easier to deal with because his loyalty to Robby was absolute, which made you public enemy number one. For you, that meant heâd stay away from you on principle.Â
You were in the middle of shoving down the growing dread that was threatening to spill out of you when you came around the north hall triage. It was morning rounds. It was the attending's job to give the early morning pep-talk, debrief about patients who came in last shift, and go over the board. What you found waiting for you was what looked very much like a fresh batch of interns and/or med students taking instructions from a doctor you knew painfully well. One that made you question if it was too late to back out and turn tail and run.Â
âOh, shit.â Dana huffed the words under her breath, but Robby caught them. The way each one dripped in a warning he shouldâve heeded. âGloria -âÂ
It didnât surprise him to hear she was here. Heâd been warned by Dana but what Robby hadnât expected was to see you - you - standing beside her.Â
You who he thought completely disappeared to the point youâd quit the hospital. You, who he thought of in the most inconvenient of times, who haunted him, and you who he wanted to fucking scream and curse at you but also ask how the fuck youâre doing because Jesus ChristâŚ
He didnât need this shit today.
At least you had the decency to look as uncomfortable as he felt.
âGood morning, Dr. Robby. Iâm aware you and most of your emergency department know Dr. Fullerton. She used to work down here previously a few years back.â
âYou could say that again,â Langdon muttered.
âIâm sorry why are you bringing a random fucking doctor down into The Pitt?â
The annoyance contrasted with the peaceful professionalism Gloria tried to hold together. But if she was going to bring random doctors down here, God, bring you fucking down here, he was damn sure going to make her work for it. Inch by irritating inch.
âWe both know that Dr. Fullerton is not a hospital resident or an attending transfer. As previously stated, she worked down here in this very ED, with you no less. She also holds one of the highest Press Ganey scores in this hospital.â
âIâm sure sheâs very proud,â his words ground out like heâd swallowed gravel.
Gloria shot him a warning look as she continued, â-Something I figure she could teach the new students and old physicians here. Iâm bringing her down to assist Dr. McKay today in triage.â
âLet me guess - this either has to deal with the hospital's numbers or lack of working bodies down here. Am I right?â
âWhat a fantastic guess, Robby. It does indeed have to do with the hospitals' numbers and poor patient output. Based on those numbers alone today, if it shows Dr. Fullertonâs presence helps patient satisfaction go up and wait times decrease - even in the slightest - sheâll be staying here. Permanently.â
His jaw ticked violently. He wanted to bristle and tell her where to stick her metrics and numbers. To tell Gloria to get you the fuck out of his Pitt. Somewhere in his brain, his common sense slowly won out. It didnât matter how much of a fit he threw; Gloria had every intention of making you stay. Down here. With him.Â
Robby also knew, realistically, that the chances of you driving up productivity were high. You were a damn good doctor. One of the best. Adamson had made sure. Christ, Robby himself made sure. Fuck. The edges of his vision were beginning to tighten in glaring white; he needed to get away before he succumbed to a panic attack.Â
He shouldâve kept looking away, but he was fighting a losing battle trying to keep his eyes away from you. Itâd been nearly two years since he came home to find you gone. Two years for him to think of the hundreds of thousands of questions that he would demand for you to answer if he ever saw you again. All those months of burying it all down, telling himself he got what he wanted, only for it to be dredged up, and on a day like today, he was already close to his breaking point.
You looked good. Great, even. Just as gorgeous as the first day heâd met you and begrudgingly, for a split second, he wondered how you saw him. If you were equally as fucked as he was.
âMake sure she stays with you up in triage, Dr. McKay. I donât want to see her in my red zone.â
He didnât wait to hear confirmation from Gloria or McKay. He didnât bother to see if you understood he meant every word he said. You had no place down here. Robby needed to start his shift - to start the normalcy of seeing patients - before he completely forgot why he chose to come into work today.Â
He needed to get away before all his resolve shattered. The easiest way to keep himself whole was to begin his day. To do his rounds and when he passed you, he did his best to pretend you didnât even exist.
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this might be my worst work
michael kaiser honestly finds fans who send him things funny.
could someone really love another who probably doesnât know or care about them that much to the point they regularly start gifting him things that range from weird to items of luxury. when he was sent 800 chocolates for valentines, it was obvious he wasnât going to eat all of it (assuming he even ate any of itâŚ) so he told his PR team to do whatever they wanted with itâin which they donated it to charities for kaiserâs sake and reputation.
itâs actually absurd how many packages he receives in a day but he really only opens ones that are given to him personally during meet-and-greets because he finds opening the rest of the boxes a waste of his time when he could be focusing on other things. he isnât wasteful, he gives his teammates and the people who work under him the âleftoversâ (praise him!).
by now, heâs barely phased by the weird things his fans do gift him. oh someone gave him a phone that only plays one edit of him over and over again? heâs flattered but he probably saw that one already. he got someoneâs old school uniform? the fuck is he supposed to do with it (he throws it away). more chocolate? he throws that away too.
the only thing that did break his facade was when he opened a letter. a very common item he receives but it isnât common to see an absurd amount of lipstick smeared all over the paper. he holds in by the corner in fear of dirtying himself.
âwas ist mit all den kĂźssen?â whats with all the kisses? he almost jumps in his seat when ness looks over his shoulder. thanks, he was going to ask that question anyway. the letter was barely eligible and the only thing he could make out was love, your biggest fan âĄ. he better hope whoever gave this was his biggest fan because thatâs actually insane. a shame he doesnât remember who gave it to him because he would like to personally ban them from entering any other of bastard munchenâs fan-greetings.
unfortunately for him, this only unlocked a spew of these lettersâall signed by his biggest fan.
it was like a wild goose chase to find the culprit because who⌠what⌠why⌠who would do this, what do they want, why are they using a shit ton of lipstick (how many times do they have to re-apply it too?)
actually, you donât re-apply your lipstick as much as he thinks you do. okay, maybe you do but does it matter that much? itâs just a few kisses. normally when you attend the meetings, you donât put on the same lipstick color that you use to kiss the piece of paper because it was mostly for just the lettersâuntil youâre basically forced into using itâŚ
kaiser is shocked he notices that the color on your lips matches those on the letters. sure, heâs seen you at most of the meet-and-greets but you never struck him enough for him to remember (đ). you realize heâs staring at you weirdly this time⌠did you do something wrong? one thing kaiser doesnât do during these is open things in-front of his fans but this time, he opens it in-front of you.
youâre the person thatâs been doing these acts. itâs undeniableârapidly eyeing you and the familiar paper that is now in his hands.
âyouâre my biggest fan?â he asks with a raised eyebrow⌠uh whatâs that supposed to mean? a shameful expression reaches your face and a hand reaches behind your neck before you quietly speak, âyeah..?â
âhuh, didnât expect a cutie like you to do this stuff.â he says as he points at the lipstick stains.
bonus : my dude makes you decipher your letters and you end up too embarrassed to speak

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SAME DAMN TIME â§âË੠mickey barnes x fem!reader. fluff / slight suggestive stuff / mickey 17 x reader / youâre an expendable / touchstarved mickey / mentions of violence / not proofread / lowercase intended
part 2..?
kenneth marshall was the biggest piece of bullshit she had ever seen in her life. it honestly made her laugh each time heâd walk into the lunch room and make the crowd erupt into cheers, who were happy to see their leader. he lost both the elections he had ran for and yet he still had so many followers that adored him - shocking really.
the only interest she had with him was the expendable program he set up on his new planet far away from earth. surprisingly enough, she signed up to be part of this program - partly because she was interested in it and partly because her office job was dragging the last of her happiness from her body.
the paperwork was long and heavy, and it took almost a week to finish reading fully, but she decided to take the leap and apply to be an expendable. handing in the application was the easy part of it, but earning the attention of all those around you in the middle of an airport was a daunting feeling.
having your body being copied for future printing was a bit of an odd feeling, but it didnât matter anymore. and it really didnât matter when she was planted with a gun against her head and had to shoot herself.
she did it of course, nothing really mattered to her anymore.
once their time on the ship got longer, people soon realised that she really didnât care about what she did, and that she really was fucking reckless and careless - but that only made her more fun. her big personality on this sad ship made many peopleâs day, and she grew a secret admirer who wasnât that secretive after all.
mickey watched her laugh and cry with her friends, her friend group at their regular lunch table were real funny, always laughing about something. sometimes he even found himself chuckling alongside them after overhearing a joke.
and he found himself becoming restless in his sleep the day after jennifer was crushed by that ice. he could hear her muffled sobs through the walls as she tried to sleep, and the empty seat in the lunchroom felt like an empty space in his heart.
y/n wished it was her instead of jennifer.
he could tell by the look on her face each time he saw her, it shouldâve been either of them. they could be prinited out once again, but this was jennifer gone.
mickey soon found himself caring for her just a little bit more. on each mission they were sent on he made sure he was just a few steps ahead, and watched your every move with a bit more worry. he was glad he managed to get closer with her, but in this moment right now, he really wished she just ignored him like everybody else.
âbu - but how did - why did you come back?â
her jaw was hung open and she was a blubbering mess, yet both mickeys had a slight smirk at the sight of her being so overwhelmed. mickey 18 had been printed out just this afternoon, and she wanted to pay him a small visit to see how he was doing. she really did not expect two of him.
the one of her rights seemed a lot more worried than the mickey of her left, so she payed more attention to the scared one. his hands were flailing all over the place and he kept stuttering over his every word - which made the other mickey scoff.
ây/n i promise you, this - this was not intentional! but you cannot, you really canât tell anyone about it!â
his hands were placed on her shoulders, holding her in place so she couldnât run away if she tried. her brows were furrowed and she was gnawing on her bottom lip, something he really liked seeing her do. she shook free of his grip and backed up into the wall behind her, shaking her head at the two men infront of her.
âso.. youâre mickey 17 -â she questioned, pointing to the man directly infront of her, who nodded his head vigorously. âand - and youâre mickey 18?â the second man only smirked, and dipped his head in assurance.
she covered her eyes and slid down the wall, sighing loudly at the situation at hand.
âwhat are we going to do?â
mickey 18 approached her slyly, placing a hand on her shoulder. âwe could always -â she swatted his hand away, glaring at him. âdonât you dare finish that sentence.â
she thought about it for a minute, listing the pros and cons of actually doing what he was insinuating. she glanced up at the two men, one stood with his hands crossed over his chest and the other leaning against the wall with a hand covering his mouth. it was simple, one was sweet, soft and caring, and the other was rough, mean and hard.
maybe it couldnât be so bad?
#mickey 17#mickey 18#mickey barnes#robert pattinson#nasha barridge#niflheim#mickey barnes x reader#x reader#fem!reader#part 2 coming soon#sorry this is so short#touch starved#veluques
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disclaimer: please donât take this personally, this is just my opinion of placements i find hard to deal with not only astrology wise, but also based on real life observations and experiences iâve had or witnessed
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7h chiron- they seem to that the worse and most toxic relationship iâve ever seen. and honestly from what iâve seen, they are usually the victim of the relationship. they do grow a lot as a person from this but the damage is a lot
gemini placements paired with pisces placements- this mainly applies to sun, moon, and mercury, but they can be incredibly manipulative, to the point they believe their own lies. they also have a tendency to lie for no particular reason
1h/7h/5h pluto- they end up attracting people who are insanely obsessive or crazy over them. like to the point itâs unhealthy. people are also oddly possessive of them too, and they can easily be objectified by others
mars opposite or square venus- thereâs an imbalance of feminine and masculine energy. although with square there can be a compromising or âagree to disagree energyâ, with opposite, this is constant push and pull between the energies which can cause inner turmoil

moon opposite venus- in men this makes someone whoâs misogynistic. thereâs a lack of understanding for feminine energy and a lot of, blaming women for things. also a lot of toxic masculinity, and not wanting to be vulnerable. in women this can show being uncomfortable with your femininity and not being able to express it
any planet being aspected 5 or more times- this is especially important for moon, mars, and sun in my opinion. this can cause so many different conflicting energies for that planet or planets. there can be a lack of understanding for that planet as well and having a hard time relating to that planet since itâs aspected so much
taurus moon- i actually enjoy taurus energy, but taurus moon can definitely be difficult. they tend to dwell in their emotions for long periods of time and have a hard time getting over things. they can also tend to isolate their self
10h/4h uranus- inconsistent parental figures. possibly ones that came in and out your life without any warning or particular reason. they were unpredictable and you could never tell what their next move was. although they may have been very smart and taught you a lot, they werenât very physically present, and if they were, they werenât emotionally present

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customer!matt x stripper!reader
âđâ content warning: smut, lap dance, role play, fingering, oral (f!receiving) unprotected sex, praise, pussy worship, exchange of money for sex
đ summary: while working a busy night at your local strip club, you see a familiar face in the crowd, but the two of you pretend not to know each other for the night
if you're looking for a chris version with a similar storyline, you can read it here đ
dividers by @/dollywons
Taste
I had just recently started my job at a local strip club, and because I was new and unsure about how the people in my life would react, I opted out of telling my friends and family about it, so instead I told everyone I got hired at a bar, which wasn't entirely false. We did serve alcohol.
It took me a few weeks to get comfortable dancing in my heels, and a month before my legs weren't sore after every shift. Having been here a little shy of six months, I was making enough money to spend on even sexier lingerie so I could bring in even more tips. I was also learning new tricks on the pole.
I liked my job honestly, and I didn't feel like there were many people who could say that. I liked the work, I liked the women I worked with, I got paid well, and I even liked a lot of the customers. I had fun teasing men and spending my time with them while they gave me money and attention. It was a nice exchange. And I felt like I was genuinely getting to know some of them, even though they weren't exactly getting to know me. I was putting on a persona, and it was usually catered to the person I was servicing at the time, but it's not like it wasn't me. It was just only one aspect of me that I amped up and played heavily into. But I loved it. I loved dressing up and playing a role that was so different from my everyday demeanor and being what these men wanted me to be. In my everyday life, I was reserved, introverted, and kept to myself most of the time, but when I was dancing, I was an exaggerated version of who I was when no one was looking. My fantasies, my sexual desire, an alter ego if you will.
It was almost my time to go on. I reapplied my body glitter and made a few finals tweaks to my outfit. I was wearing a white sparkly corset that pushed my breasts up nicely and a matching thong as well as glass six inch heels. I had my hair down but out of my face and curly. "Give it up for Mary Jane," the announcer came on. I didn't want to use my real name at my work, so I decided on Mary Jane because it was innocent sounding and was also nothing like my real name. 'Taste' by Tyga and Offset played over the speakers, there was a spotlight on me and other lights around me flashed and changed colors, and I seductively strutted towards the pole in front of me, gripping it with one hand and doing a little spin around it. I slowly descended down the pole with my back to it until I was in a squat, looking out at the crowd of men who were eager to see my body and what it could do. I came back up and hooked one of my legs around the pole, doing a ballerina spin around it. I could feel all these eyes on me, and I gained even more confidence as the dollar bills started raining at me feet.
I made eye contact with a few customers I recognized, men who were regulars. Then my gaze scanned across a familiar face that wasn't one I usually saw in this setting. Matt Sturniolo? In a strip club? This was not his scene at all. We were decently close friends, but I certainly hadn't told him I applied here, and I didn't think it was necessary considering I didn't think I'd ever see him here. He appeared to be alone. No one I recognized was near him. And when we made eye contact, he was looking at me some sort of way I'd never been looked at by him before, like he was hungry for me. He had to have recognized me, right? I may look different with my tits pushed up to my chin, but not that different.
I focused my attention back to my dance, manipulating the attention of every man in the room, contorting my body in ways that had every man wishing they were the pole between my legs. I finished my song, collected my ones, tucked them into my corset, and carefully got down from the stage.
Once I looked up from watching my feet as I stepped off the stage, I saw Matt making his way over to me. I was really nervous about what he might say. If he'd be mad that I didn't tell him I was working here or if he'd tease me. Instead, he looked me up and down with his lust-filled blue eyes and licked his lips. "How much for a dance from you?" He asked me, smiling. He couldn't be serious. I hesitated for a second. I had never been put in a position where someone I recognized outside of the club came in and asked me for a dance.
On some level, it felt inappropriate. On another level, it felt like a bad business move to not take him up on it. "$100 for three songs," I responded nonchalantly. He casually took a $100 bill out of his wallet and tucked it into my corset with my other money. I liked the way he did that. Then he grabbed me by the waist and started walking with me towards the back of the club where he could sit down. "So, Mary Jane, did they say?" Matt asked as he sunk into his chair and looked up at me, almost as if studying the way I was gonna respond.
Was he going to pretend he didn't know me? Was this part of the fantasy, acting like we were two strangers who just met in a strip club when we're actually pretty close friends outside of this. I nodded. I turned around and began grinding on him, and he grabbed my waist in response, slowly running his fingers down my curves. "How long have you worked here, Mary Jane? Matt asked me. "Nearly six months," I replied while I shifted my weight so I was resting right against his half-hard cock. He let out a groan in response. "It's a shame I've missed you any time I've been in here," he answered. "You come here often?" I asked, it sounding like a bad pick up line in my head. "Sometimes, depends on what's going on in my life. Depends on my needs at the time," he told me. I didn't know that about Matt.
There was something about being on his lap, brushing up against his hardening member in his pants that was turning me on more than I thought it should be. I had given men lap dances before that I'd found attractive, and it definitely left me a little wet a few times. But this was different. I definitely had always found Matt attractive, and there was an extra layer to this, Matt and I acting like this was our first time meeting. The way his demeanor was different in this setting and the way mine was too. I was beginning to wonder if I was starting to enjoy this more than he was.
"I wanna see your face," Matt growled into my ear, and I obliged by turning around and straddling him. I went back to basically riding him with our clothes on while we looked into each other's eyes. Matt's hands almost immediately found their way to my ass. "You have an incredible body, you know that?" Matt commented. "You're not so bad yourself," I smirked at him. Matt's hands moved from my ass to my breasts. The way he handled me was gentle but with purpose and demanding at the same time. I loved the way his hands traced my body while I continued to grind against him. "Fuck, I wanna kiss you so bad," Matt responded, staring at my lips. "You can if you have another $100 on you," I replied. No matter how badly I wanted to kiss him, I made it a rule that I'd always charge for intimate touch like that, because the men had to know it was transactional. I didn't want to make anyone feel lead on. This was my job, and this was a sale.
Matt shifted my hips so that I was straddling his knee now instead as he reached for his wallet in his pocket. I found myself holding my breath as his leg rubbed up against my already wet cunt and caused friction that sent a shock of pleasure through my nerve endings. It took everything in me to keep from riding his thigh while he pulled another benjamin out of his wallet and tucked it into the bra of my corset. I leaned in to kiss him. His lips were soft and pouty. His kiss was gentle, the same as his touch. His tongue slowly slipped into my mouth and brushed against my own. It was wet and velvety. While he passionately kissed me, his hands made their way to my face, softly cupping it. I pulled away, looking at him with a deep desire.
"Your three songs are almost over," I whispered, maintaining control of the situation. "I can pay for another three songs," Matt said, about to shift me onto his knee again. "Matt, please. As your friend, I can't let you do this. $300 is a lot of money to be spending at a strip club," I lectured him, breaking character. "Mary Jane, tonight I'm just another customer. I make my own money, I can spend it how I like," Matt bit his lip at me. "I wanna spend it on you, baby. I wanna spoil you," his words sent more waves of ecstacy through my body.
"Alright, another three songs," I said putting out my hand to accept another bill. "Actually, how much to take you to the private room?" Matt gestured towards the more intimate spaces where no one could see us. "All that you have in your wallet," I said jokingly, making a gun with my hand and jabbing it into his chest, but he took me seriously. He pulled out his wallet, grabbed a wad of cash, stuck it in my g-string this time, and tipped his wallet upside down to show me it was empty all while he smiled. I reached down to the money he'd put in my panties. "Only catch is, I want you for the whole night. Until the club closes," Matt growled while I counted the money. There was almost $1000 in my hand. I was shocked that Matt had this kind of money to blow at a strip club. And the fact that he did this semi-regularly? Matt was very quiet about how much money he had and about what a freak he was, and I liked that.
I thought about declining his offer and telling him I couldn't mix business, friendship, AND pleasure. But the more I thought about it, the more I realized I'd be dumb not to. He was hot, he wanted me, and I'd never made this much money in one night before. "Deal," I said, tucking the money into my corset. Matt grinned at me. "Follow me," I said, leading him back.
I'd taken men into the private rooms before many times, and I liked it. It was quieter, away from all the noise. There was a bed and a couch. Usually, men would take me in there because they wanted more privacy. I'd never slept with a customer, no matter how much I'd been offered, but there were a few times where I'd definitely maybe crossed an ethical line that could technically get the club in trouble, but I'd never tell. I was good at keeping secrets. There were a few men I'd given handjobs to, one john who had taken my tits out of my bra and teased my nipples with his tongue, and one guy who rubbed my clit over my panties until he made me cum. I remembered being so embarrassed and blushing after that encounter, but that was the most money I'd ever made in one night. Until tonight.
"Why don't you take that top off?" Matt inquired when we were alone in the room. I smirked at him as I pulled all the cash out of my bra and set it next to my shoes I'd slipped out of to get more comfortable. I was nervous for him to see me like this, but it was just business. I started undoing the clasps on my corset when Matt came up behind me to help me. When all the hooks were undone, Matt slowly slid my straps down my shoulders one by one. He let my corset slowly fall to the ground, and when it did, he took both breasts into his hands and looked at them in awe. "Shit," he whispered to himself, fondling them, brushing up against my sensitive nipples.
Matt made his way to the couch and comfortably sprawled out, taking up space and licking his lips while his eyes studied my every curve while running his hand along his hard dick in his pants. "Come here, princess," Matt said, rubbing his leg and patting it, motioning for me to sit down, so I did. Once I leaned back into him, he played with my nipples some more, teasing them, pinching them, sucking on them. His hands slowly moved to the front of my panties, rubbing me through the fabric for a few minutes, and moved my thong aside while I sat on his lap. "Your pussy looks so pretty with your panties all pushed to the side like that," Matt complimented me in a voice that was barely above a whisper as he reached for it. When he started moving his fingers in circles skillfully around my clit, I let out a soft moan. "Oh, you're so wet, darling," Matt observed, exploring me with his hands. I loved sitting on his lap like a giddy little girl. His touch felt amazing. He slipped a finger inside of me and then another one while he looked down at my entrance, enthralled by how much wetter he was making me. "Oh, Matt," I whimpered as I started to get close. "Come on pretty girl. Cum all over my fingers," Matt smirked. I couldn't believe I was hearing these words leave Matt's mouth, but I took them as a command. I came unraveled while I sat on his knee with his fingers pumping in and out of me. I felt my body tense up and tremble for a few seconds, and then a glorious release.
"Good girl. You think I could make you cum again?" Matt cooed, licking his fingers while I tried to catch my breath, but I nodded and smiled. He lifted me up off his lap, revealing a wet spot on his pants under where I was sitting, and Matt seemed turned on by it. He sat me on the couch and got down on his knees on the floor between my legs. He pulled my panties to the side again, and I felt his hair tickle my thigh as he leaned it and attached his lips to my vulva. He teased me by kissing and licking everywhere but my clit while he looked up at me, smiling. "Please Matt," I whined, tugging at his curls, trying to bring him closer to where I wanted him to lick me, but he was doing it on purpose, making me beg for it, and he loved it. "Your pussy is so pretty up close and personal like this. Let me take my time with her," he smirked, teasing my entrance and kissing the insides of my thighs. He finally gave in after a few more minutes of my relentless pleading, manipulating my sweet spot with his tongue. He started moving it faster and more enthusiastically. It felt so good, I found myself sliding down on the couch, slowly but surely inching my pussy towards his face. He grabbed my hips and held me in place while he passionately moaned against me, sending shivers through my body. Matt was surprising me by the minute. He was certainly a jack of all trades, and I was learning I didn't even know a lot about him at all, only the parts that he wanted me to see. And the more I saw, the more I liked.
I started digging my nails into his shoulders as he continued to eat me like a mad man, running his hands and his tongue anywhere he pleased, and every time I was responsive to the way he touched me, he moved more eagerly. I was a moaning, writhing wreck under the flick of his tongue the carress of his fingers. I had never let a customer go down on me before. There were a lot of ethical boundaries I was willing to cross at this point for Matt. It just made it even hotter that we were playing into this fantasy that we didn't know each other and that he was just paying for a stripper - and at this point, basically a prostitute. I liked that Matt was paying me to eat my pussy. What a dream. And he was so wonderful at it too. Such attention to detail. So thorough. So restrained yet so urgent. I couldn't get enough of how much he wanted me.
"I'm so fucking in love with your pussy, I could eat you for hours," Matt mumbled in between licks. He closed his lips around my swollen bud and gently sucked on it until I was trembling and nearly screaming his name. "Yes, pretty girl. Make a mess on my tongue. I know you can do it," he cooed. His encouragement along with his skillful mouth had my second orgasm hitting me even harder than the first. I couldn't keep my hips from grinding against Matt's tongue while I twitched and whimpered obscenities, gripping the back of his head.
"Oh my fucking god. Where did you learn to do that?" I smiled down at him once I started to recover from my intense climax. "You're the one who basically showed me what to do with your body language. All I had to do was listen," he smirked. His answer was as hot as what he had just done to me. I liked the way Matt was in tune with my body, and the way he was trying things out to see how I'd react and then doing the things I loved over and over again. It was similar to how I behaved with my customers.
"Have you ever gone down on any other women in these clubs?" I asked him. "No, not ever. This was a first for me," he confided in me, which made me feel special. "First for me too. Guess it wouldn't hurt if we went further.." my voice started to trail off. "Say no more, princess," Matt said, finally taking the time to take off my panties instead of just moving them to the side again.
He unbuttoned his pants, pulled down his boxers, and entered me with no warning. I felt myself invite him in easily, and he started pumping in and out out of me aggressively. I loved the way he filled me and the way he spoke to me. I loved the way his lips parted to let out a stream of moans and the way he looked at me with his glazed over blue eyes, letting me know he couldn't take it much longer. His cock repeatedly hitting my pleasure spot was sending me over the edge again. I throbbed around his thickness as another wave crashed over me, and I got lost in it for a moment. All I could feel was endless pleasure, and there was a ringing in my ears that lasted for several minutes after I came. Matt loudly groaned "Oh, fuck," while he pulled out, leaving a mess on my pussy, and we both watched as his cock twitched and released his sticky white substance. He smiled down proudly and in awe of the way his ejaculate glistened on my womanhood.
He collapsed on the couch beside me after it was all over. "You're so much different at work as opposed to the shy girl I see every day," Matt nudged me. "Not shy, just keep my cards close to my chest," I corrected him. "But yeah, you're so much different as well. Who knew you could fuck like that?" I said, licking my lips, and he grinned as I complimented him.
"I've gotta go, sweetheart. The club is closing in ten minutes, and I've gotta come up with something to tell Chris and Nick about why I've been gone for several hours," he laughed. He leaned down one more time to stroke my face, and he gave me a sensual, slow, deep kiss. "Matt, seriously, come again. I loved doing business with you," I smiled up at him, not wanting him to leave. "I'll be back darling. Don't worry. I'd pay a million dollars if I had it to drown in that sweet pussy again. Just promise me, it'll be our little secret."
#sturniolo smut#sturniolo fic#matt sturniolo x reader#matt sturniolo#matt sturniolo smut#sturniolo triplets#sturniolo x reader#ariestrxsh#taste
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