#but his heart is golden

[scatmaan]

He simply wishes to relieve you of your suffering :)

[leal-hound]

dead soul, dead body - thou hast killed thy siblings before, but canst thou destroy the face of thine favored brother, Kindly Miquella?

[untitledgoosegay]

re last reblog I do see fanfic culture pushing/replicating a certain model of "what trauma looks like," "how trauma works"

this is a problem across all areas of society obviously, but transformative works are, well, transformative. they're about crafting and modifying narratives where the fan-creator sees a flaw or a lack -- often for the better! don't get me wrong, I've done my fair share of "I take a hammer and I fix the canon," it's the main thing that gets my creative gears spinning -- but what happens when that "flaw" is simply a narrative not conforming to popular expectations?

some people just don't get PTSD from events that sound obviously traumatic. they're not masking, and they're not coping; they just straight-up didn't get the permanently-locked stress-response that defines PTSD. they walk away from a horrible experience going "well, that sucked, but it's over now." some people do get PTSD from events most people wouldn't find traumatic. we don't really know why some people get PTSD and others don't. but fandom has an idea of events that must be traumatizing, of a "correct" way to portray trauma. you see the problems with this lack of understanding in e.g. fans pressuring the devs of Baldur's Gate 3 to add dialogue where the player character badgers Halsin about his own feelings on his abuse -- because he must be traumatized, and his trauma must fit a certain mold and presentation of sexual trauma, under the mistaken impression that anything outside that narrow window is somehow "wrong" and disrespectful or even harmful to survivors.

take, for another example, the very common trope of a traumatized character who hates touch or sex "learning" to like touch or sex as a part of their healing process. certainly that can be healing for some people; other people will never like, or want, touch or sex, because of trauma or because they just don't. the assumption that someone who doesn't want sex or doesn't like to be touched must be traumatized, must be suffering from this perceived lack, is seriously harmful -- to asexual people, to people with sensory issues around touch, and to people for whom healing from trauma means freedom to refuse sex or touch.

and there's a secondary trope, one that's slightly more thoughtful but ultimately repeats the problem -- that once someone has learned that their boundaries will be respected, they'll feel it's safe to soften those boundaries. once they feel safe refusing touch or sex, they'll feel comfortable allowing it on their own terms. but many people don't, and many people won't! many people will simply never want to be touched, and never want sex, and they are not suffering or broken or lacking because of it. the idea that proving you'll respect someone's boundaries entitles you to test those boundaries -- the paradox is obvious, and yet this is something i've seen hurt (re-traumatize) people i care for.

people are imperfect victims. people don't heal in the ways you expect. many people have positive memories of their abuse, of their abusers. many people hurt others in the course of their trauma, in ways that can't easily be unpacked in a 5k oneshot. very few narratives of trauma and recovery actually fit the ones put forward by popular children's media and romance novels -- which are the ones I most see replicated in fandom spaces, because they provide the clearest narrative and easiest catharsis, and so they're easy and soothing to reach for.

that's not necessarily a bad thing! i am not immune to goopy romance tropes. i am not immune to teary catharsis. not every fic has to grapple with ugly realities. but there's a problem when these narratives become predominant, when people think they're accurate and realistic depictions of trauma, when the truth of trauma is unpleasant and uncomfortable, and doesn't fit any single narrative, let alone one of comforting catharsis

[bearsbeetsbeskar]

i hope pedro knows or at least has some idea of how many people are so fucking proud of him. he's made incredible strides in his career and he deserves every second of the overdue recognition he is now receiving. there's no doubt that this has been his year, with huge shows on two of the biggest streaming platforms right now. i wholeheartedly believe he will get his roses and sweep those awards when the time is right.

[donelywell]

February 29- March 2 2024

The first time Sonic went Super in Road Trip wasn't exactly as stunning to Tails as other au's and stories.

Tails is like maybe 5 here (I'm not actually that organized on the timeline for this au yet, I'm getting there though, things are getting in order.) and he wasn't forced to grow up and be a hero in this au. So he's a bit more childish than canon Tails because he doesn't feel as pressured to mature and grow up fast. Plus, he genuinely thinks Sonic is going to die and this is the last time he see's him, so tears are bound to come down.

Part 1

[sciderman]

the mcrib is back

[doks-aux]

William refusing to definitively gender his own fursona because maybe he just doesn't have the vocabulary to express a nonbinary identity but also definitely to leave room for customers to assume the Spring Bonnie character is Fredbear's love interest.

[isabeauwolf]

I wanna see Law happy dammit!

Wanna see his adventures with the Heart Pirates so damn bad. See him smiling and happy, not bloody and beaten 😭

See him party with his crew

Him gush and rambles about his coin collection, Sora comics, a medical journal he found at a bookstore or flea market; being the adorkable nerd and fanboy that we all know and love 😍❤️

[prlssprfctn]

that's how Jason Todd felt when people just voted to kill him off

[ravenlexis]

in every universe, veritas ratio will always be someone who cares for humanity. in some, he loves. in others, he pities. in a small handful, he hates that he loves it. in most, he strives to improve it.

in one, he sacrifices it. just as in one he dedicates himself to it.

but in every single one, he's captivated by one particular person, who had experienced the lowest, darkest parts and the highest, brightest parts of humanity.

veritas will always be veritas, but his person has many names.

in many, he's no. 35. in some, he's aventurine. in others, veritas never gets the chance to know his name.

in precious few, he's simply kakavasha.

when he is aventurine, they'll always cross paths through a collaborative mission. in half of it, they start their partnership with distrust and arguments. in those, only a handful of iterations fail and end with them going their separate ways. in several, they start off carefully, building a stable partnership since the beginning of their meeting. in precious others, they get along right away. in rare few, they meet and immediately refuse the other.

when he is a nameless stranger, the way they meet is never the same. once, they attend the same school and only catch glimpses of the other. once, they meet in a bar and clash for a singular night of passion. once, they share a journey and chat as they watch the sceneries pass them by. once, they exchange a glance and commiserate as they witness someone causing a scene in public. once, they work in the same building and share elevator rides without ever exchanging anything more than a wordless nod of acknowledgement. once, one is involved in a fatal accident while the other is a witness. once...

when he is no. 35, their meetings vary in quite some ways. perhaps veritas is the detective who unraveled the illegal trade of slavery. perhaps veritas is the one assigned to him as a therapist. perhaps veritas is the one chosen to represent the case in court. perhaps veritas is the doctor who treated the malnourished and mistreated slaves after they were freed. perhaps veritas is on an undercover mission to gather the evidence needed to prosecute the slavers. perhaps veritas is the one who bought him.

when he is kakavasha, they cross paths in a handful of different ways. curiously, no matter the ways they meet, every single one ends with them staying in each other's lives.

no matter his name or their circumstances, in every universe, veritas will always remember his person. always ends up thinking back on their meeting and their goodbye.

at points in his life, in every universe, he always remembers those vibrant eyes. and he always wonders,

"would i get the chance to know him in another life?"

[red-n-ded]

Ark!Movie!Sonic AU

What if the Ultimate Lifeform and the Fastest Thing Alive grew up together?

This has been an AU that has been crawling around in my brain since the first movie and I needed to get it out somehow 😭

In this AU, after Sonic sets off the blackout, he immediately uses a ring in his cave but when he gets attacked by drones, it breaks the ring and causes him to travel to the past and he lands unconscious in front of the GUN labs. The same day, Shadow’s meteor had landed.

Sonic becomes an essential part to Project Shadow as he is the only other species reminiscent to Shadow’s biology, a mentor to Shadow on how to use his speed, and is one of the only people Shadow considers as a friend. And if you’re a friend of Shadow, Sonic instantly makes a bond with his sister, Maria.

Sonic and Maria are practically reflections of each other, getting into hyperactive mischief and dragging Shadow around to show off their pop culture knowledge.

After years of loneliness, Sonic believes he finally found a home.

So when the project gets shutdown, Sonic doesn’t go down without a fight.

“You want him? You gotta get through me. Shadow, take Maria and go. I’m done running away.”

“Sonic-”

“Go!”

“Come on, Maria.”

”Sayonara, Sonic the Hedgehog.”

Sonic learns his lesson on refusing to run away in a twisted way. He defends the lab with his overwhelming power, leaving casualties and injuries on the way.

In a single night, Sonic has become a national threat. While Shadow must be stored away, Sonic must be executed on sight but he goes missing before they could.

A broken ring sends Sonic back to Green Hills, as if he never left. Instead of being hunted by the government to uncover the strange power, they know exactly what they are looking for. Sonic is relieved to home again but he knows he can’t stay. He has a family to save.

“Here we go. Hold on Maria. Hold on Shadow. I’m coming.”

“SFPD! PENDING BACKGROUND CHECK! PAWS IN THE AIR-“

“Uhhhh… Meow?”

[psychemochanight]

This scene lives for free in my head

[dantelionwishes]

koitsuki week 2024 day 3 ⇒ service

"you don't work for me anymore, hajime." "i know. do you want me to stop?" "i never said that."

[senoleaf]

“Hmm,” he murmured, eyes squinting at the fluttering sheet in his hand, struggling to even discern the words in near absolute darkness. “No exact location, no actual date or time or anything. Guess we just gotta wing it as usual.”

— — —

from my Lost Silver/Door's Open (Strangled Red) centric fanfic "Golden Soul and Silver Heart"

(beware of the tags on ao3!)

[mangotelevision]

I love to think that the real reason the members of the jury have to renounce their family and their past isn't because of some oath they take, no it's because when they take the power of the jury they start to lose who they once were. They forget those that they used to hold dear because of the powers their jury form lends them. They don't intend to forget and it's not instant, it's slow and gradual. Overtime it'll just feel like a dream, becoming unsure if there was anyone ever there to begin with.

This theory very heavily ties back in with Katelyn, why after the Irene dimension she wasn't too quick to go searching for her family, because at that point she had forgotten who they were a long time ago. She's no longer a member of the jury, no longer influenced by this memory fog. But it still lingers, throughout her time with aphmau and laurance she starts to remember little things, she knows there were people, those who she cared about. But she can't remember their names, who they were, who they wanted to be. She remembers feelings. It's why when she talks about her family in the later season she's so inconsistent, because she doesn't remember and it bothers her that she might never remember

[nebulathunderwave-art]

Birthday wishes to Zewu-jun from Lanling

(Birthday wishes to Er-Ge from A-Yao)

8.10.2024 | Happy birthday Lan Xichen! 💙☁️