#but fr I have to remember not to get attached to things while I live here

[moonastrogirl]

💘 Some important tips for each Nakshatra : Never to Do Tips 💘

DISCLAIMER The author name is at the end. I do not remember where I found it unfortunately (it was in my notes app for months fr 😭) tho I know I am supposed to share my knowledge as much as I can and not be a gatekeeper so here it is . I hope it will help you (if you know the author let me know too with the name down below) 💜

Ashwini : Never loose an opportunity to help people in your life, you will meet and learn some very important techniques from a reputed and respected person.

Bharani : Do not share your secrets with anyone. Self control is must.

Krittika : Stand by Truth. Do not entertain, liars, fakers or cheaters or not even try to possess those traits.

Rohini : Don't get too much attached with anything, attachment will cause havoc.

Mrigashira : Do not get disconnected with your parents or family.

Ardra : Learn to work under distractions and pressure. Stay calm in chaos.

Punarvasu : Never disobey Dharma (purpose), always stick to your commitments, you get divine support of universe.

Pushya : Do not ignore your family or your dear one needs while handling bigger responsibilities or social cause. Take out time for them.

Ashlesha : Never misuse your power & Never Curse anyone.

Magha : Never ignore your Pitris (your ancestors). Always do charity in their names.

Purva Phalguni : Avoid getting too much indulgent in pleasures, do your duty faithfully.

Uttara Phalguni : Never break your relationship & Be Kartavya Prayan (loyal).

Hasta : Never get carried away with failure, that's ladder of success for you.

Chitra : Never doubt your potential & don't act impulsive, else you will end up hurting with self.

Swati : Do not poke powerful authorities. Try to stay away from leg pulling.

Vishaka : Never leave the Marg of Bhakti (total faith and devotion) & Keep remembering Bhagwan (the Most High/God).

Anuradha: Never get distracted with too much darkness, sooner or later it's worth experiencing.

Jyeshta : Never misuse your authorities & power, one single mistake can ruin everything.

Mula : Don't get panic, when burdened with lots of negativity, that's the process of bringing clarity, like storm before calm.

Purva Ashadha : Not every war is to win, some are supposed to lift you up. In both victory or defeat you gonna be the same.

Uttara Ashadha : Following Dharma (career/purpose) is right but having a superiority complex can harm you in longer run.

Shravana : Tied up with lots of responsibilities & helplessness, we are born to live or die for a divine purpose, just give your best.

Dhanishta : Never boast or avoid beating the drum of success before its completion.

Shatabhisha : Never sell your soul for gains and profit. Things will turn negative for you.

Purva Bhadrapada : Never rush into conclusion cause what looks on the surface might not be real, try to see deep within. There lies solution.

Uttara Bhadrapada : Simplicity beautifies you, wear it and own it.

Revati : You are the Messenger of God & Bhakt (faith/worship/love). Showing path to directionless people is your real gem. Never sell superstition or blind faiths.

Author :

Mann ki Baat Trishna

Note from the author : Above points are just an observation with my best of understanding.

[riteliso]

SEASON 2

Hey sorry to everyone who hates how long that last post is when you're looking for fanart and shipping tidbits instead of a dissertation

But here's another

Shut the fuck up

ALRIGHT SO

we cold open on violence and fighting to bring us back into the setting, and we're quickly introduced to a miscellaneous status quo change that throws some people off

Frosta is nice now

Some people I've seen, it throws them off enough that the show kinda loses them, and I can understand that.

This is a show that lives by strong character writing, so an immediate tonal shift DOES feel strange. I'm not gonna deny that, and I'm not gonna say that the version of Frosta we get for the next little while isn't my least favourite version of her.

I think we end UP with a happy median. Where she's childlike, but she takes things seriously, and doesn't like to be talked down to. That's why she makes such a good character foil for Micah. I personally believe that's her at her best, but she also had a very strong introduction, so I can't BLAME people for getting attached to that version of the character, and disappointed when they take things in a different direction.

It's strange, and it's something that this show doesn't really-- DO. I get that it can be explained away in universe with her putting on a brave and uncaring and rough exterior for the ball she was hosting, but we also literally JUST saw her at the very end of season 1 and she was acting the same.

It's not a bad change, this version of her is fine, but it's unusual and in a perfect world the transition between the season 1 version of her and the version we end up with as the character gets more depth would have been smoother.

The splash screen is still the same >:(

I don't remember when they start changing I was hoping it'd just be once each season (with one exception) so that it'd be easy for meeeeeeeeee

Now I have to pay ATTENTION

UGH

VOICE DIRECTION

First off, it's odd that this isn't the first time that we've had a fake Catra.

Secondly, she sounds weird here in a way that's kinda hard to explain. She sounds kinda like a caricature of herself, which makes sense?

It's a tiny detail. But it kinda falls flat on your first watch because we just saw Frosta acting weird, anyway.

As with all holodecks in sci-fi, this one's primary use is lesbian sex

Also it's an amazing fight scene, I won't show YOU the frame-by-frames, but they're good frames

The amount of times she will be fighting Catra and we get to see her expression soften the moment she gets ANY amount of upper hand

If you pay enough attention to take a shot each time you'll be more of a wine mom than Shadow Weaver

We hear this in not strictly Catra's voice, it's distorted, because it's Lighthope speaking THROUGH Catra, not just EMULATING Catra.

Lighthope wants this cat dead. I mean I don't blame her I just don't agree with her reasoning of "I want this cat dead so that this lesbian follows my orders better"

Yeah :(

Also I don't believe her when she says it's meant for total accuracy

I think it's probably PRETTY accurate

But also it's based off of ADORA'S memories which is why Catra actually has the troublepuffs to hold her hand instead of being a whiny little baby.

Somehow Adora is under the impression that Catra is brave which is fucking insane

She's not brave she is just filled to the brim with unimpeded violent hubris

Catra thinks that the point of the myth of Icarus is that "at least his wings melted from the sun and not the sea"

Also it's been a month take note

Not for any particular reason, it's just good to know how long these breaks in time are

Girl me too and for equally stupid but very different reasons

As we learn later they weren't mistakes they were being a decent fuckin person

Do you think when nobody's around Catra puts on the glasses and kisses this robot

Or does she not because she doesn't like She-ra she still just likes Adora

You are such a pathetic show-off

MOUSE

Nah but fr the fear of stepping on a mouse is too real I don't wanna FEEL THAT

PEOPLE JUST POINT AND LAUGH AND SAY IM AN ELEPHANT WHEN I TELL THEM THATS MY REASONING

She really is bored

She needs a hobby besides vengence

Y'see when they actually fight she gets into such a slump and she's so ANNOYING about it

The moonstone is super-charged by the way

It doesn't hold much relevance and I guess that shows that due to the princesses uniting all of their powers have improved

Everyone is a bitch and they all hate each-other

[bloodyymaryyy]

Bumped into you

Max verstappen x reader

Request : yes

Warnings : English isn't my first language other than that none

Masterlist

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The sun came up, the birds are chirping and singing happily, people on the street having fun, laughing, shouting at each other and talking, others are smiling and other are grumpy or having a bad day, not being in the mood for anything.

Nobody knows what is going on in people's lives or minds but they choose to go out today.

Y/n was a semi morning person that depends on the day and the weather as most people are.

Having being waken up by the alarm clock that she forgot to deseable the night before. She curses herself for not turning it off, she tried to go back to sleep but to no avail, grunting she got out of bed and she decided to be productive she did the household chores like vacuuming the floors and mopping them, washing the piles of dirty dishes

Planning to make something extravagant she got freshen up and dressed into something comfortable but presentable she headed to the nearby supermarket which she knew that would have the things that she wanted to make the dish.

Strolling from aisle to aisle looking for what she needed, she was suddenly hit by something losing a bit her footing she stumbled back a few steps.

Looking up at her "attacker" there was a man with short blonde hair, icy blue eyes, tall, she liked tall men...her daydreams.

His face showed concern and in his cheeks were rosy pink from the embarrassment of this whole situation.

Oh my god I wasn't looking at where I was going! Didn't meen to bump into you! * he said taking a few steps ahead where y/n was* are you okay miss?

Oh yeah I am okay, just watch where you are going next time please...

I am so sorry again! I hope you are okay again...miss....?

Oh y/n nice to meet you..?

Oh yeah I am Max btw

I don't want to sound like a stalker... But have we met before? You look familiar... I can't point me finger on it tho * her eyebrows knitted together tilting her head a bit to the side.

Max panicked said *oh I don't think so...?

Oh can I get a picture though? I want to show my family their future son in law... * y/n said biting her bottom lip softly looking up to his blue eyes

Uhm sure! * max replied his cheeks red suddenly getting shy

Y/n pulled out her phone and put on the camera app getting closer to him and taking a few selfie photos.

After seeing the photos if they are good then it dawned on her, from his perspective you could hit the wheel of her mind working, flinching a bit and widen her eyes.

Oh shit! Now I remember!... * she paused looked around and leaning near his face and whisper shout * Are you Max Verstappen?

You noticed that he was taken a back for being recognised by her and she acted quickly

Sorry I won't say anything! But my sister is a big fan of f1, that's why you seem familiar! * she said hitting her forehead * Sorry I will leave you to it!

She went to take her cart to search for the rest of the things she wanted but she was stopped by him saying her name.

Y/n could I get your number by any chance? You are lovely... * max said scratching the back of his neck nervously.

Sure! Give me your phone I will put it on, how is that?

They exchanged number and went home after a bit, while going home y/n texted her sister

The best sister

You won't believe who I just met!

Lil b

Omg! Who?

The best sister

Max mother fucking Verstappen!

Lil b

Really?!? Did you take any pictures?!

The best sister

Yeah

*picture attachment *

Lil b

Omg! You are so lucky dude, I wish that was me fr!

After that y/n and Max were texting back and forth, going to low-key dates for 3 almost 4 months y/n became his gf and him wanting to take her to his home race in the Netherlands giving her a paddock pace his second card of his hotel room having fun in the paddock and meeting all of his friends, laughing and joking around at their hotel rooms playing games and everything.

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I hope you liked it and hope its what you requested!

-🦈 anon

[gothicfairytopia]

How act two of The Sound of Music might foreshadow Good Omens season three ~

I was reading this post about Aziraphale’s ball idea coming from The Sound of Music rather than Jane Austen, and remembered that I’d meant to make a post about parallels between Aziraphale and Maria. The romantic plot of Good Omens has a lot in common with the plot of The Sound of Music, and season two just so happens to leave off at the very end of act one. So, is there a chance that act two could provide some clues about season three? I find the idea very compelling, so here’s my analysis of the movie and how I think it compares to what we’ve seen so far, as well as what we can hope to see in season three.

In the beginning we have Maria at the abbey, where it is made clear that she does not fit in because she has a hard time abiding by the rules. She also has a tendency to prioritize the natural/material world over her spiritual duties, which is represented by the opening song (“The Sound of Music”), the singing of which literally makes her late to return to the abbey. This has obvious parallels to Aziraphale’s difficulties conforming to Heaven’s way of life, as well as his worldly attachments.

(A fun bonus parallel is in the song “Maria,” when the nuns say “she’s always late for everything / except for every meal.” Aziraphale-coded fr.)

Maria leaves the abbey to be the governess to the von Trapp family, and this is where she begins to really learn about herself as an adult outside of a tightly controlled religious environment. She still doesn’t conform to the new world she lives in, but begins learning how to retain her selfhood without feeling ashamed of doing so. This period is obviously a parallel for Aziraphale’s time on Earth—although the time frames are quite different, the same general lessons are learned.

At the end of act one, as addressed in the linked post, there is a ball where the Captain and Maria dance, and this is the moment where Maria discovers her feelings for the Captain. Although this scene is an obvious parallel for the Jane Austen ball scene, I think it’s honestly more similar to the kiss in the final 15. Maria, mid-dance, stares into the Captain’s eyes, freezes, and backs away, saying she can’t remember the dance anymore. The Baroness is watching from the doorway, and when Maria runs upstairs to get changed for dinner, the Baroness follows her.

Up in Maria’s bedroom, the Baroness confronts Maria about her feelings for the Captain, which Maria denies initially. The Baroness convinces her of her own feelings and of the Captain’s, and essentially encourages her to run away—I’ll get into why in a second. Without a word to anyone, Maria returns to the abbey. This is a super obvious parallel to the end of season two, with the Baroness acting almost in the role of the Metatron by pulling Maria aside and reminding her of her “duty.”

Now into the more speculative side of things, trying to think of how The Sound of Music might offer hints as to what’s coming in season three.

When Maria returns to the abbey, she remains in constant silent prayer for the first several days before being called upon by the Abbess. Maria confesses that she ran away because she was frightened, and admits that she had accidentally developed an attraction for the Captain. She gives her reason for not telling the Captain about her feelings and choosing to return the abbey: “I was there on God’s errand. Oh, I couldn’t stay, I just couldn’t. I’m ready at this moment to take my vows.” This sense of misplaced duty might not be all of it, but again, we’ll get to that in a second.

The Abbess responds with probably more kindness than we’d expect from anyone in Heaven: she says that romantic love can be holy, that Maria needs to discover how God intended her to spend her love, and assures her that “if you love this man, it doesn’t mean you love God less.” With this, she commands Maria to return.

While this may seem incongruous with Heaven’s general business model and something unlikely to be paralleled in season three, I think it’s important to think back to the conversation at the end of season one immediately following the failed apocalypse, when Crowley asks, “Angel, what if the Almighty planned it like this, all along? From the very beginning?” People joke about God trying to set them up from the beginning of time, but I don’t know that it necessarily has to be a joke. The question of God’s ineffable plan is a constant throughout the series—the whole point is that it’s impossible to say what exactly God intends.

This is the exact same conflict Maria faces in the scene with the Abbess. When she objects to returning, she says, “But I pledged my life to God, I — I’ve pledged my life to his service.” The Abbess rejects the idea that this is the only possible plan that could have been intended for Maria, saying, “You have to live the life you were born to live.” Perhaps there will be something similar in season three, some way in which God communicates the same thing to Aziraphale—that loving Crowley doesn’t mean loving Her any less, that their love is holy, and that the life he is meant to live is not one pent up behind heavenly walls, but rather out in the world with Crowley.

After Maria returns, she’s reunited with the children, the Captain and the Baroness break off their engagement, lots of little plot things. What I’m interested in is the song “Something Good” (which I would just like to emphasize is sung in a gazebo... anyway). The song introduces an additional reason for Maria’s departure—namely, that she did not feel worthy of the Captain’s love, a sentiment that he returns. They both come to the conclusion, though, that they must have done “something good” to deserve having found each other. Here are some lyrics:

For here you are, standing there, loving me

Whether or not you should

So somewhere in my youth or childhood

I must have done something good.

The basic theme of the song is self forgiveness, and the acknowledgement that past imperfections do not make a person unworthy of being loved. Rather, both characters here have felt themselves to be inadequate, but view the other’s love as a sign that they must, in some way, be good.

I love the idea that Crowley and Aziraphale might have a moment like this, because I think it would be massive in terms of their own self acceptance. For Crowley, Aziraphale’s love (and possibly God’s endorsement?) is proof that his fall did not make him irredeemable, that he remains a being who can love and be loved in return. For Aziraphale, Crowley’s love is an affirmation that he can honestly be forgiven for his transgressions, rather than marked forever by them (like removing the stain from his coat, allowing it to be forgotten).

Unfortunately, the movie does not end with their marriage—they still have to escape Austria after the Captain is called to serve by the Nazis. I think we can assume the Nazis parallel Hell, and say that perhaps Aziraphale and Crowley really will have to establish “their own side.” Maria has to break free of the abbey, and the Captain has to break free of the Nazis. They do this by running away, and I’m not sure Aziraphale and Crowley would ever flee Earth in the wake of the Second Coming, but I will say that it does immediately evoke the idea of the pair running away to Alpha Centauri. I do think that given the “they are bad at their jobs and did very little to seriously prevent Armageddon” joke from season one, it would be a little funny if humanity managed to save itself during a momentary retreat from Aziraphale and Crowley.

I don’t mean to imply that the blueprint of season three is found in act two of The Sound of Music, but I do think that the movie being canonically a favorite of Heaven’s, the recurring theme of the ineffability of God’s plan, and the sheer number of parallels within the plot so far make it a fair place to look for clues. Who’s to say that God’s plan wasn’t hidden in plain sight?

[simonsrosebud]

omgg god im genuinely so intrigued with all your WIPs and its so hard to choose one so please expect another ask from me but let’s start with Roommates please im really curious about the next generation fr like it sounds so fun !!!

HEHE THANK YOU!! these two so fun to write no matter what i swear

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It was Abram’s idea to live together again sophomore year. Bred from late nights and endless laughter and a belief that they’d be attached to the hip forever. Elliot and Abram, Abram and Elliot. Ask for one, get the other.

It came as no surprise that the two boys would be going to the same college. Abram wanted to go to PSU since before he could remember, and Elliot didn’t want to go too far. He had too much trauma, too many abandonment issues, too much anxiety to be more than three hours away from the home he and his sister had made with Andrew and Neil. It wasn’t his fault that he visited PSU with Abram and had fallen in love with it.

That same home was the one they’d met each other in when they were barely fifteen, three and a half years ago. The place Abram first visited when he heard that his godfather had taken in two teens the same age as himself and his older brother. When Elliot had short buzzed hair and bleeding nail beds. Undiagnosed anxiety, ignored dyslexia, and unmedicated ADHD because he’d still refused to start taking the prescription that Andrew had picked up for him.

Abram had grown up without any of that. It was so foreign that he didn’t even consider treating Elliot like glass. He’d brought over his X-box and plugged it in without a second thought.

Four years later, he and Elliot were doing the same thing. Huddled together on the floor of their shared dorm, knees pressing together on Abram’s bed because neither of them really fit comfortably like that. Abram was 6’1 and all pure lean muscle. Thick thighs from years of playing exy and soccer, and biceps that were unfairly strong to match. It almost annoyed Elliot, who only stood at 5’10 and felt scrawny all around standing at his side.

Elliot groaned when he lost once again and finally gave up. Spring break was due to start in a few days, so while they only lived twenty-five minutes apart at home, they would be leaving the cocoon that they’d created over the last eight months.

Abram brought it to his attention without thinking. “Alright, start getting ready. We gotta meet the girls in a half hour.”

Elliot slanted him a look. “As if either of us need that long,” he said, and promptly fell to the side in Abram’s bed. He turned his face into his pillow, pulling Abram’s comforter up to his chin, and burrowed in.

When he peeked an eye open, it was to Abram sauntering over shirtless. Elliot’s eyes wandered down like they normally did, because he really was jealous of Abram’s body. He wanted to poke his abs and see if his finger would sink into his skin or just halt in place.

Abram set his chin by Elliot’s head, back hunched to his level and pout on full accidental display. He scanned Elliot’s face, making him suddenly self conscious. His face felt red and hot. “Comfy?” he asked. “I’ll make you a deal,” he offered. “You start getting ready now, and maybe I’ll let you sleep in my bed later.”

Elliot’s chest squeezed and clenched uncomfortably- excitedly. He clenched Abram’s blanket in his fist and sat up. Playfully, he squinted his eyes. “I don’t believe you… You only let me sleep here when I have nightmares.”

Abram stood to full height with Elliot’s movements. He smiled, wide and charming. All straight white teeth and full lips and a tiny indent that Elliot would argue was a dimple. He gave into the urge to reach forward and poke his finger into the small crater.

“Not true,” he countered. “Sometimes when your brain isn’t shutting off.”

Elliot rolled his eyes. “That doesn’t count,” he said, but it was true. Abram was a saint if he ever knew one. Twin XL beds certainly weren’t fit for two large athletes- even if Abram was only on an intramural soccer team and Elliot had pivoted from high school cross country to morning runs instead.

Abram thought about it for a moment, but his smile didn’t necessarily fade. “Sounds like you might have to have an insomnia episode later, then.” He winked obnoxiously, sending Elliot’s stomach into unease. Did he eat something strange earlier?

He pushed Abram’s covers off of him and slid down from his bed. With his back to his roommate, he gained his wit back and said, “Only I can throw the ADHD card into the ring,” he tsked. “You’re just jealous that my presence is haunting and offputting and yours isn't.”

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[feuqueerfire]

Gelboys Live Blogging

One of the 2025 BLs I'm curious about but haven't yet watched. It's from the creators of ITSAY and also the characters use social media a ton as part of the plot, which is so fun as like Gen Z high school kids. Also everybody seems to have watched and loved it, I had to save so many of my regular podcasts' Gelboys episodes, I'll finally get to watch them loll

I'm starting it with a bit of trepidation because apparently it's a great high school show with some messy kids but people seemed to really like eps 1 - 6 and then maybe be disappointed with 7 hmm. I had seen a bunch of tweets and cliips about the show, including the endgames but I can't remember who was in the tweets and pairs because I didn't know any of them. So I'm spoiler-free for now.

Also I thinkkk I'd heard that it's all shot on an iphone??

Ep 1 (Jun 7/8)

Fou4Mod is pronounced Four-Mod

Ah, his crush wants to be a "fouple" (friend/couple) bc she's seeing another guy too.

not him naked in the bathroom lol

Spring Day, BTS' best song for reallllll

They're 10th graders, around 16 years old I guess

Reference to PROXIE (t-pop group) member and Blackpick (+ Liza)

The stickers on the screen are so fun

Ooh, who's that guy? He's the first one we've seen with nail, I think + he even approached Fou4Mod

lol Fou4Mod finding him on Instagram and Ch liking 4's story in that same time

Do they all really use ipads in class?

I want street food like this tooooo omg

lmfaoooo not this guy pulling the same "I just happened to catch you in my shot, let me AirDrop it to you" on a boy that afternoon and Fou4Mod caught it

Ah, they're friends in pairs of 2?

Fou4Mod is sooo funny, he followed Chian and then got Bua in a convo under the guise of a Tiktok interview and then just straight up asked if the guy he danced with earlier is single

Bua gave info (Chian is a playerrrrr) but also checked 4 for just questioning him about the friend lol But also... does Bua like Chian? Deterring another person from pursuing his friend, hmhmhm

ooh, Fou4Mod going to a nail salon and getting gel nails. cute. Is this a usual thing or did he notice is on Chian?

loll Fou4Mod being a terrible singer I guess? and too afraid to mess up his nails to play the guitar

Passing time shown through the growth of Chian's nails

lol Fou4Mod trying to make Chian jealous and then constantly checking outside the thrift store

I've started watching the episode with Adam and RJ BLBL reactions instead of watching the ep and then the reaction

The wayyyyy they're peeking at each other in the nail salon

ah, finally an actual speaking conversation between Fou4Mod and Chian loll and Fou4Mod trying to pretend to be uninterested loll

Chian has already given him the Gelboy nickname

Fou4Mod's nonchalance attempts are so funny and then him just smiling sooo much when he's by himself lmfaoo Bro is imagining + collaging Chian giving him a cheek kiss

A year of Spotify in order to get the iPhone

oof, Chian kinda telling Fou4Mod to go the nail salon with somebody else if he wants to... giving him a hint like it's just not that serious, they're not exclusive or anything...

Chian going directly from Fou4Mod to Bua, crazy

Is Fou4Mod going to continue using Baabin to try to make Chian jealous? And if Baabin catches feelings??

I know it's not certain who will end up with who until the last episode apparently? So let me not get to attached to any prospective couples... Chian and Fou4Mod was such a focus in this starting ep, it'd be very out-of-the-BL-norm if they don't end up together. But I guess we'll see more of Chian/Bua and Fou4Mod/Baabin next episodes.

Chian reminds me of Fourth with his shaved head fr

girl it's 3am... sleep time, why am I still awake bruh

Ep 2 (Jun 8)

cryingggg at Baabin with the Blackpink comeback

man, I'm nervous thinking that fou4Mod likes him...

omggggg watching vid on your phone with it face down on the glass table while you're lying beneath it... ingenius

lmaooo the Fou4Mod and Chian interaction in front of all his friends and them teaching Fou4Mod loll

Fou4Mod's friends call him Coach?

Fou4Mod's failed attempt to make Chian jealous with Baabin... girl

oh, masturbation scene but it's not titillating, it's just like... ah, teenage years

Baabin is sooo saurrr cute, my fave in terms of Face. He's JJ's younger brother right? I can definitely see the similarities

omg, these songs obviously being so pointed toward the Fou4Mod and Chian situation but even getting Chian to sing that lyric

not them now brining Chian up to sing

Ah, Fou4Mod and Chian spending the day together

omg??? not Fou4Mod deleting his playlist with Baabin as soon as he spent some time with Chian and shard the playlist with him. girl!!!

heh, first photo callback

oh naurrrrr, Four4Mod asking Chian if they can be more than friends but being rejected

"Actually I like someone." omg... it's Bua who's keeping Chian on a hook? I thought it was the other way around since Bua first said that Chian's a player... crazy

Not Chian wanting to continue the situationship!!! Girl you like him so much, let him walk away so that you can get over him omg

Fou4Mod is digging himself into a bigger whole like sure yeah let's do a situationship but also I wanna hang out whenever and also how about we... and now they're kissing like girl!!!!!! you are not meant to be someone who "starts without a status" with somebody who's hung up on his crush of 1 year, your heart, it'll be shattered

Fou4Mod keeps getting stuck with situationships who like somebody else... first the girl from start of ep 1 and now Chian

Secret Gel: the filming and challenges they faced... wild!!!

Ep 3 (Jun 8)

Adam and RJ are watching the extra Charging Gel scenes, so I am as well

Charging 1: hah cute and love Baabin and Fou4Mod sarcastically calling each other queen and sis

Charging 2: the spotify sponsorship leading to soooo many cute moments man... but also ofc Chian and Bua same repeats and are having fun together on Bua'ss story...

Bro, the love line of Fou4Mod => Chian => Bua => Moo is crazy but the way they interat with each other is worse

Chian, don't get relationship advice from ChatGPT?! girl...

Chian crying as he smokes and ignores Bua's calls T.T after seeing Bua having so much fun with Moo

Oof, Chian's telling his friends that he's done with Bua but they apparently know all about his long-crush

Toronto mention lol and even Toronto just on the TV, so weird like oh I know that exact location of the TORONTO sign

Fou4Mod and Chian in the dressing room pulling up each other's shirts are wild. Crazy tension

Fun day out together

Oh, they're just making out haha cute

Chian telling Fou4Mod that he's giving up on Bua and should instead focus on getting a faen... girl, is this hope real or false?

Couple hats sooo cute

Fou4Mod trying to go with a more forward (leading to couple) caption but Chian obviously shutting him down again because he's hung up on Bua

Awww Fou4Mod tearing up

like none of this is surprising rip but Fou4Mod keeps hoping

Ah, Chian returning to Bua, this is also not a surprise. Now he's doing Bua's nails

Ohhh Chian bought the shirt and it was too small for him but Bua knows his shirt size?

Chian posting Bua's new nails to close friends and adding back Bua + removing Fou4Mod from it... oh man

This is crazyyyyy Chian doing the whole thing of showering with the door open but Bua literally not noticing/gaf bc he's busy calling Moo

The fruit stand scenes every time are so good, the way Chian sees Fou4Mod and Bua at different stands with their friend groups and Moo respectively

Charging 3: these really give you more of the dynamics between different people

Spoiler I found out:

a Tumblr post that showed a screencap of Bua and Baabin in bed together. I had seen clips of one scene where 2 of the boys are in bed and kinda trying to figure out/exploring sexual stuff, perhaps for the first time? I didn't know who they were but I guess that screencap is likely from that scene

I... vaguely remember that in the 7th ep people were saying that one of them didn't express liking the other enough maybe? or something??? like maybe it took one of them a really long time?? So this makes me think Chian/Bua endgame with people complaining about Bua not expressing his like enough??

Ep 4 - Baabin (Jun 15)

Here I am... a week later...

Baabin passing by his school and instead going to the BTS to go to school with Fou4Mod... Doesn't he know where Baabin lives?

Baabin is soooo cute just adorableeee

Baabin getting Fou4Mod to do to him what he wants to do to Chian... girl you're getting yourself into deep shit

937 photos in a Fou4Mod folder... Baabin omg

Baabin is crazy straightforward. Him in a daze catfishing as some other guy to add Chian on line just to tell him that he likes Fou4Mod and to stop messing with him (he deleted it before Chian read it but... notifs or smth?) and now just straight up telling Bua to date Chian like oh brother

Bua being like tf... keep your ticket and riding away but he did end up buying it later

cryingggg Bua and Baabin sitting next to each other

They filmed at the BP concert I've realized

Bua straight up telling Baabin that he's not interested in Chian

Baabin you've gottt to go back in for the concert

oh naur, Baabin literally crying as he confessed to Fou4Mod through voice notes... he's right about it sometimes kinda feeling like Fou4Mod doesn't care about him at all though...

And then Baabin unsent all of the messages...

Didn't get to see the concert, didn't follow-through with the confession... oh Baabin

and Fou4Mod also not confessing to Chian bc he knows the answer will be no

oh? Baabin sent Chian messages that Fou4Mod had sent him where Fou4Mod had said that he liked him...

Does Chian like Fou4Mod back or smth??? the way he's adding Fou4Mod on Line + holding his hand...

oh??? not leading the hand to dick... in the photobooth girl!!!

Ep 5 - Bua (Jun 19)

Can I only watch one ep every few days or what

Bua's lesbian moms but they're not together and they're just fighting, rip and also fighting about how the other is a bad mom

Ah, Chian's distancing himself from Bua to get over him and spending all his time with Fou4Mod

Mean Girls quotes loll

Baabin oh no :(

girl... Bua cutting off Moo to hang out with Chian?

And now Chian's back to hanging out with and doing dance challenges with Bua... their tiktok being called Gelboys

CHIAN CALLED FOU4MOD GELBOY INITIALLY TO MAKE BUA JEALOUS?! ouch

Fou4Mod will always ask what he and Chian are and Chian will never define it fr You're stuck in a loop girl!!

Fou4Mod and Bua waiting for Chian but 5 meters apart

Oh Fou4Mod approaching but then going back lmaoo dead

Chian knows everything about Bua's hands but can't remember the same about Fou4Mod

Fou4Mod airdropping the video to Bua and it showing up as Gelboy omgggg crazy

Fou4Mod and Bua trying to one-up each other in regards to their relationship with Chian

Chian just laying there stock-still while Bua gets on top of him and kisses him... idek... fucking hell...

Chian and Bua not seeing each other anymore... and Bua quitting the TikTok channel...

Ep 6 - All 4 (Jun 20)

I'm kinda like over it, I was also tempted to start another BL in the middle but I think it'd be tough for me to come back if I did. Like it's a good show with a great vision but it's just not emotionally sticking to me

Fou4Mod blocking Chian?

Fou4Mod with Faifah now. I remember somebody on twitter was very annoying like "oh can't trust bi people" or something because a guy moved on too quick from a guy to a girl in this show, I guess they were talking about this? I didn't know jackshit but was so irritated

Baabin watching Fou4Mod move on to the next person and not giving him a chance oof

Baabin and Bua are sooo cute and funny actually

oh ho, Baabn had deleted all his Fou4Mod texts but is now screenshotting Bua texts...

not the AI kiss?!?!?!?! ew

omg... him having a breakdown because Faifah also doesn't want to labelled etc...

Bua in a skirt

Baabin and Bua playing footsie barefoot with their done-up foot nails

ahhh kissy

okay yknow what, I'm sooo into Baabin and Bua, they make me giddy more than the other pairs and possibilities did

Also, my favourite character is certainly Baabin and I feel like he's so much funnier and more lively with Bua, I like it and his sense of humour

oh they're making out foreverrr

oh nooo Baabin saying he doesn't have feelings for Bua and just wanted to try kissing...

Does.. Bua actually like Baabin?

Oh ho, Baabin telling Fou4Mod that he just met Bua and that they're not hitting on each other or whatever bc Fou4Mod doesn't like Bua...

Bruh! Bua gets Covid -> flirtily tells Baabin that if he has it + he knows how he got it *kissy emoji* -> Baabin replying he probably got it from Fou4Mod... girl!

this Zoom call situation is actually wild. Chian convincing the teacher to let him talk to Fou4Mod since he's blocked everywhere + Baabin stayed on the call

This call is actually just... so fucked up I'm dead

omgggg Bua entering the waiting room

Phi Fou4Mod?? Bua's younger than Baabin and Mod? I just assumed Chian and him were the same age since they hung out together like this all the time

the slow zooming in on Baabin's rectangle while Bua's waiting to say he likes Baabin... crazy

Baabin saying he doesn't like Bua, he likes Fou4Mod...

this is actually horrific to watch unfold, what the hell

I remember when I saw tweets about this zoom call from hell when it came out but I didn't know fucking anything obviously but watching it is wild fr

Bua actually peed... :O

oh my god, Baabin and Chian both deciding to hit on Fou4Mod... and declaring it

Truly just... fucked. so fucked

You know what, probably my favourite episode so far because the Baabin/Bua stuff is so fun + the zoom call was crazy. At least I'm excited to watch the last episode even though I'm apprehensive because people... didn't seem fully satisfied? But I guess there are so many pairs, obviously somebody or other would be dissatisfied.

Ep 6 - All 4 (Jun 22)

I'm finally going to finish this, been over 2 weeks bruh

omgggg Baabin spending time with Fou4Mod and getting their nails done together but... longingly looking at the pedicure section + at his feet... thinking of Bua...

Baabin trying to help out Bua and being cutesy and touchy awooo

I'm actually so invested in Baabin and Bua, man. like Fou4Mod and Chian are like interesting to watch but they're so wishy-washy that by now I don't care about them getting together. Whereas I am invested in Baabin and Bua still

Bua roping Baabin into doing Tiktok dances but mans isn't good at it (yet)

lmaooo the I'm Sorry Faifah Highlight is so funny

Chian and Fou4Mod back into it all again

Ah, Bua chubbed up seeing Baabin? And so Baabin moved away?

waittt now's the Bua and Baabin trying stuff on bed scene coming up... but they're scaring me so bad. I didn't know about the Bua -> Baabin -> Fou4Mod thing back then so I didn't know how scary this was

:O I actually am so nervous like why am eyeeee the one sweating when they're just having fun bruh like the fact that they're just... stimulating it??? and it's over the clothes and fun and just changing positions every few seconds like okayyyyy idk it's exciting

I actually feel... like I'm losing my mind

Baabin giving Bua a little kiss before getting up to take off his shirt is soooo cute man

Why won't Baabin just admit to liking Bua???? fuckkkk the "What we're doing is like what couples do" really got Baabin fucking off as saying "Sorry, I thought we were just close friends" like WHAT ARE YOU SAYING BOYYYYY

oh noooooo Baabin how could you say that D: "You hair is brown, your eyes are blue. I'm not into foreigners." girl you're a liar

naurrrrr Bua dying his hair black.... and putting in brown contacts... D: to not be a foreigner to Bua "I'm more Thai now."

and Baabin not engaging or replying at alll despite being online

And Baabin taking off all his BlackPink stuff

and Fou4Mod not getting Chian after 20 calls... did Chian lie since Fou4Mod was in front of the Architecture building? Oh, he just thought that Chian lied because he's paranoid

Chian leaving after seeing Fou4Mod and aabin holding hands. Bua telling Baabin to fuck off while Baabin leaves Fou4Mod to chase after Bua

No actually like what's Baabin's plans bruh. He wants to keep Bua as a little friend w benefit thing? like girl you clearly like him...

Oof, Bua realizing that he really kept Chian "on the hook" as he'd said before because now he realizes what it feels like from Baabin

ohhh Chian confronting Baabin, so Fou4Mod being like wtf Baabin why didn't you tell me you liked Bua but Bua saying he doesn't want to like Bua because Fou4Mod doesn't like Bua

awwww Baabin finally asking Bua to be his faen

"Say that again [..] I'm gonna record it"

Baabin and Bua are just soooooo cute man like

I wish we addressed the foreigner thing a bit though...

Finally Chian asking Fou4Mod to be his partner

Baabin and Bua soooo cute lmfaooo

lol now everybody else is coupled up in the friend group including Baabin so Fou4Mod doesn't even have any single company

Baabin and Bua are soooo fucking cute man

Charging Gel: they're soooo silly jealous Baabin. cutiesss I just want to squish them

Overall:

I liked the characters and their messy relationships with each other and how they'd make bad choices or self-sabotage. It was interesting to watch but I wasn't super invested in Fou4Mod or Chian, and especially grew quite detached when we kept repeating the same situationship -> Fou4Mod tries to define the relationship -> avoid each other for a little bit -> situationship cycle. But in the last few eipsodes, I really fell for Baabin and Bua's dynamic and relationship. I think they are sooooo cute and am afraid of what the hell they're gonna put them through in season 2.

The directing and filming with iphones was wild + I liked the social media usage + the parallels and throughlines, it's clear a lot of thought and passion was put into the project.

Rating: 6/10

[autumn0689]

My Semi-Alan Wake 2 Review (featuring my crazy ramblings)

I’m having severe Alan Wake brain rot help me I just think about Alan and Zane and Scratch and Alice (ABSOLUTE GIRLBOSS) and Barry and Pat Maine and Rose (she’s delusional, just like me fr fr) and the Anderson brothers and THIS GAME I LOVE IT I NEED MORE!!!!

I feel bad for anyone who follows me for something else because let me tell you I’m going to be gushing about Alan Wake for A WHILE!!! I love Alan so much he’s my blorbo I want to squish him like a bug I want to give him a blanket I adore him!! He’s such an asshole and I love him.

I can’t wait for the DLC’s and New Game Plus I am going to play the FUCK out of it. I’ve completely abandoned playing any other games (poor Spider-Man 2 is just sitting there, waiting for me to continue) and I’ve been playing AW2 for hours on end. To me it’s such a good game. I love the characters and I’m emotionally attached to so many of them!

Saga my love my life I love her puns and how kind she is and how she cares so much about her daughter and Casey and how fucking badass she is and how powerful she is!

I adore Casey and I love the short film Yöton Yö and my gosh I adore Ahti! I feel so bad for Cynthia and she deserves better than Tom, speaking of Zane, pop off you absolute whore of a man. Scratch was just… he’s Scratch what more is there to say about him?

Gosh this game- I can’t elaborate on why I love it, it’s just so much to dive into, there is so much of it that I love.

Bright Falls is so different and also just how we remember it being! It has so many of the OG Cast (Rose, Pat, Cynthia, Anderson Bros) while also bringing in new characters (like Saga, Casey, Koskela Bros, Agent Estevez) and how Deerfest is still being celebrated. The townsfolk living there have really experienced it all.

Watery is such a cool place to explore. I love Coffee World and the atmosphere, like how the Ferris Wheel played music and how it made it sound so creepy I LOVE IT!! I love how big Coffee World feels and how abandoned it feels even though it currently isn’t. It gives Abandoned Amusement Park vibes and it’s not even abandoned I love it!

My two favorite locations are the Valhalla Nursing Home and The Oceanview Hotel. Valhalla has just a haunting vibe with it being a nursing home, and the basement section fills me with so much dread due to the environment. The Oceanview Hotel seems so grand and like a maze that I often get lost in that section. It seems so grand, especially considering we only go to three floors at most.

The map system is also cool, in my opinion, I like how you are able to see if any Collectibles are nearby and where it shows you when a certain location can’t be accessed. I love exploring and how vastly different it is from the beautiful forests of Cauldron Lake to the Noir Style New York.

The Dark Place is just a perfect mix of being frightening while also having moments of hilarity. It seems so vast, and Alan is basically trapped to a small location, and wandering too far will suck him into pure darkness. It’s such a bending world that going one way can lead you to a completely new direction. It’s such a moldable location that Alan has been trapped in, stuck in a loop (metaphorically and literally) of remembering and not remembering and basically dealing with his personal demons. The ‘We Sing’ section is such a fun one! It’s so fun to play and funny in how almost safe it makes you feel, well, until you fight enemies, of course. The graffiti gives so much to the environment, especially in the Subway section, in which it seems like it has so much history to it.

I adore the way that Alan literally rewrites scenes. I love Sagas Mind Palace and how we can solve things. I love Rose’s Zombie Apocalypse fanfic and how the Angel Lamp also changes environments, and honestly talking about the Yöton Yö short film and how amazing it is deserves a post of its own.

I just- I love the Remedy Games! I’m so excited to see what is coming up in the future! I love these characters, and I can’t wait for more content to come out in the upcoming months.

To anyone who has read all this, here, have a picture of Alan

[delugyu]

omg ok so basically my timeline with loona is a bit blurry because i knew about them a while before i became a fan. i was kinda a casual listener when i discovered them through hyunjin's solo because i LOVED i'll be there and around you. i liked kiss later and love cherry motion too but hyunjin was the only member that i really knew. but then i properly got into loona when gowon debuted since i heard one & only and i became OBSESSED with her voice and it really quickly became my fave loona solo 😭 then it was kinda a struggle between loyalty to hyunjin and just gowon really standing out to me because i always find it hard to switch biases from the member that got me into the group but deep down i KNEWWWW it was my princess gowon 😍 but also i had huge crushes on gowon hyunjin and chuu which did not help me with my struggle between them because they were just so GORGEOUS (another fun fact: i did not realise that i had crushes on them in that moment but loona ended up being my bi awakening LMFAOOOO)

anywayyy then yyxy released beauty&thebeat and my fave parts of their songs were usually gowon's lines like her part in the love4eva chorus and her "8.5 what is your signal?" in rendezvous 18.6y! and THEN hi high was released and one of my favourite parts was her line with yeojin during chuu's high note and i just couldnt deny the fact that she was my bias shes just so cutesie and silly and i adore her vocal tone!

but i love every member a lot they're fr my comfort group i'm probably slightly unhealthily attached to them Imao 😭 my reason for stanning gowon is really simple but once i fell in love with her voice i just couldn't take my attention off of her 😖 when did she become your bias? also what's your fave loona song from each subunit and ot12 i love asking this question 🙏

and yeah i am NOT lying when i say i would join a cult and make a couple sacrifices to bring my girls back together 😓 when you really think about it what's a couple lives lost to save the lives of every single orbit out there..! 😊 no but seriously it's actually criminal how long we've had to go without them i'm having withdrawal symptoms 💔

also sorry very last thing i remembered something you said in one of your replies to me before and you were NOT wrong when you assumed engenes are strict when it comes to ni-ki 😭😭 i'm only a year older than him and the number of pedo accusations i've had for calling him hot is INSANE like you would not believe it 💀

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OMGG being there since around you is so insane ur a real veteran. i’ll be there was one of my faveeee loona songs when i first started stanning, listening to it now makes me reminisce so hard 😭 i think gowon’s voice is like her main attractor for her fans, her tone is so unique and colorful and it’s one of the reasons she became my bias too hehe. loona being ur bi awakening is everythingggg lol love that for you!

i am soooo with u on this omg they’re my comfort group too 😭😭🤍 like they can’t not be… they ran my life for yearssss, i don’t think i’ll ever love a group as much as i loved them. i hope i don’t get jumped for saying that here lol. but i mean without them i never would’ve gotten into fanfic writing and i would’ve never made this acc so no one gets to be mad!!! LOL no i doubt anyone cares, i trust that ppl on my page are mature enough to not gaf 😭 txt has my heart too of course hehe<3

gowon became my bias during one and only era lol!! i double biased her and chuu for years actually, but somewhere along the line i just became like a diehard gowon fan. as gowon fans tend to be LMAO. chuu still my #2 tho like that’s bae 🤞

YES GAWD i love talking abt loona’s discography. hehe okay my fave solo song changes a lot but rn its probably new. unless love letter counts, then it’s absolutely love letter lol. my fave 1/3 song will FOREVER be rain 51db!!!! i was insanely obsessed with it in 2018 it was my most played song of the year 😭 my fave oec song…. this is tough…. hmm probably sweet crazy love… max and match is like my go-to album to recommend to a non-kpop fan lol. my favorite yyxy song is rendezvous 18.6y!!! i love how fun and floaty and cute it is. god my fave ot12 song is a hard question…. i think it comes down to colors or satellite, although heat was my favorite for a longgggg time. if day and night was on streaming it would probably be up there too lol. okay now u!!!!! lol what’s ur faves?

LMFAOOAKJSHS ur so right we can lose a couple people for the greater good of the masses…. utilitarianism was right after all! 😁

also that’s so insane omg. some kpop fans just so clearly don’t go outside lol finding someone one year younger than u attractive is so normal. it’s like suffocating how strict kpop twt got after 2020, like you get sniped for the smallest things and it’s impossible to have fun unless ur a private account 😭

[marionettou]

Greetings! I apologize if this ask is sudden and invasive, do not feel presided to answer of you don't feel like it :D!

But, if I may ask, do you have any kin memories of Neige? May you share some? Thank you in advance!!

eh ?? omg wow i feel like i never get asks like these aaaa dont be sorry fer nothin , yer good !! i LOVE talkin abt this stuff (ㅅ´ ˘ `) ⋆˚࿔ LOTS of text under the cut dfkjhdgkjf

well i know fer sure i overblotted at some point. fer sure after vi did. it wasnt rlly a Conscious choice to overblot. it came on slowly n kinda ate me at my very lowest point. i didnt even notice rlly ;; (ᵕ—ᴗ—) had a lil bit to do with the fact that vi did genuinely hate me enough to wanna hurt me which i. knew. technically. i know vil did Actually manage to poison me but it wasnt to Kill me. it rlly did just put me into a deep sleep that made my heartbeat VERY very slow so i COULDVE died if he wanted me to.. not sure what happened 2 me after !! but it was just another smaller thing that wouldnt have bothered me otherwise if i wasnt already so upset. bein upset made it worse at the time cuz i was dealin with unrequited feelings n also feelin like i didnt rlly. have a right to feel that way in the first place ? that n gettin rlly rlly overwhelmed by the idea of losin ppl i care abt or failing to help them when theyre in trouble. these thoughts n concerns are also abt vi bc he overblotted n was suffering fr a long time. the idea that he couldve died rlly set me into a paranoid state that eventually lead to overblottin im pretty sure. id be losin someone i cared about the most. then i couldnt take care of anyone !! then i couldnt make anyone happy anymore. id try, but i dont think i could. a trait of mine that seems ta be prominent is a genuine phobia of death . . . (which is funny cuz my overblot form is if snow white was never woken up. perfectly preserved but smth is Wrong.) but im still learnin stuff abt that specific thing !! but it was all very. pmmm witches. if that makes sense. overblotting is a much more dramatic n serious thing than it is in canon. it takes a lot of work to get out of, even out of the overblotted form itself. it keeps u at a tipping point fer months n yer emotionally stunted n regressed along with it. i know my vi barely made it out of it n suffered big time after the fact. he was very. Not Himself. im sure i mustve taken care of him at some point but i cant quite remember. similarly to how oshisan was after exvalkyrie fell apart. (IF you enstars. <- assumption) i still don't know if i ever made it out myself !! i sure remember how it felt real well. it feels like fallin backwards in a chair but yer Stuck in that state while experiencing every lonely neglected feeling youve felt As u felt it in that moment all at once. n not just that !! in my case i was pretty much trapped in every calm or happy moment ive ever experienced. sounds nice but it stops bein nice when yer me n miss the past a lot. overblots bc of triggered phobia of loss + being alone. vi and i used to be very close childhood friends in my eyes !! vi absolutely never thought so (according to him), so i guess im a lil canon compliant that way. and ive always had a huge crush on him !! but i didnt know thats what it was until way later . . . ive always been obsessed with the idea of love n being loved so because vi was the kindest to me (and understood me the closest) i attached 2 him real bad cuz i wanted to be like him !! he was always very gentle and kind when he was younger. i was too , or i tried to be, but i always wanted to be the sort of person he was. i was and am obsessed with him n how wonderful he is.

also one thing i wanted/want more than anything is love n care !! i am OBSESSED with love. giving it , getting it , losing it , being hurt by it , its all important. its one of my most favorite things in the world !! it hurts a LOT sometimes but its basically what i live to experience n give to others !! ✧｡٩(ˊᗜˋ )و✧*｡every experience with it is precious. thats what i'll never start to dislike or hate vi over the way he feels abt me bc no matter what he's always thinking of me the most n thats a very special type of love ~ (ꈍᴗꈍ)♡ besides, i do kinda like bein thought of violently. not a lot of ppl think id look prettier coughin up blood n clutchin my throat.. yk ? ^^ vi is very important to me bc ive always wanted his love and attention the most.

also i !! love rook !! so much !! he seemed to enjoy admiring me at a distance . . . but sometimes i'd pamper him with a little attention like going out on short little dates together privately and id send him free exclusive merch and id send him supportive text messages or recipes sometimes. >w< i trusted him a lot but i usually just pretended i didnt notice him stalking me so he could do as he liked djgdhkjf i think he was probably the first to notice smth was wrong with me before the overblot thing,, not sure if we ended up closer yet !!

im sure my canon unique magic is gonna be exclusive to animal communication but for me bein able to commune with animals was just a passive skill !! my unique magic was shapeshifting !! ⋆˚࿔ only woodland creatures tho !! couldnt be just anything. but i do wonder if i had a secondary unique magic or a spell specific to being able to imbue things like food or my singing voice with love potion/magic sorts of properties . . . cuz that feels familiar Somewhere. not sure yet. sometimes memories arent 100% accurate or remembered as clearly as they end up bein later on with kins that dont have enough lore yet. so some of these experiences could change or become a better understood view of the way i felt or what i experienced which might mean i know more abt a situation than i *did* and feel a little differently about it. but this is how i remember things currently ! aside what I've written here im very canon compliant. ^^ thank ya so much fer yer question ~ i love questions n i love sourcemates so feel free to ask more anytime !! (๑'ᵕ'๑)⸝*

[folieanoot]

why does halsey's music literally mirror my life so much??? it's crazy

personal info/trauma dumping

i already heavily relate to anyone bipolar and bisexual. then halsey came out as nonbinary like 2 years after i did and i was like omg they are just like me fr.

i believed i was bipolar for years, and as a teen i struggled with hypomania and mood swings that resembled bipolar 2, and i was diagnosed with bipolar 2 in 2019, but we figured out this was a misdiagnosis. bc snris work for me, and historically give people with bipolar trouble and i haven't had any manic episodes since college and hypomania can be a bpd-influenced thing, i think it makes a lot more sense that i'm just a borderline really prone to mood swings.

but then the illness happened, and i listened to TGI. and holy shit.

i became disabled in early 2020 and am now chronically ill. for a year i bounced from specialist to specialist, being told "we don't know what's wrong with you" over and over when i was bed-bound, in so much pain i could barely move or think or eat or sleep, just laying there crying and exhausted and sleep-deprived and consumed by pain. doctors trying to blame my physical condition on my mental illness and dismiss me over and over. the end resonates with me because of this.

while i didn't have an abusive partner, thank god, i was emotionally abused by my (new) stepdad and because i was too ill to take care of myself, i HAD to live with him for over a year. it took me a while to accept it wasn't just "he's mean and he hates me bc i'm disabled and sick and mentally ill" but genuinely emotional abuse that traumatized me. life of the spider hits so close to home i cannot explain.

i started dating my current boyfriend after i had made some progress in my condition, but now that we live together he has to deal with me when i'm at my worst. and it brings up that anxiety and trauma of being a burden that got so much worse while living with my stepdad. panic attack reminds me of all the insecurities i have of dating while disabled/chronically ill.

i suspected having adhd in 2020, when i went on adhd stimulants, and i took an assessment last year-ish. and my whole life my family was so upset with me and frustrated that i couldn't remember things, i couldn't keep track of things, and at one point i straight up yelled "i don't know how to make my brain work the same way yours does!" because i always felt (and was kind of TOLD indirectly) that i was stupid, irresponsible, lazy, disrespectful, a disappointment. no matter how hard i tried, how desperately i wanted to be different, to be "good", i couldn't improve because my brain can't function correctly. darwinism explains this so, so well.

my mom got ovarian cancer when i was 12. my dad was never around, so my sister and i took care of her a lot. she said she wouldn't die, and she would live through it, but i was always afraid she was just saying that to make me feel better, and it was so painful to watch her wither away into what felt like nothing in front of me. and when i asked her what she hated most about cancer, she said "the possibility of not getting to see you grow up." i was already really attached to my mom, since my dad was absent and unreliable, and ever since being afraid of my mom dying in middle school, i have had trouble watching her age. i feel grateful when i notice new wrinkles and grayer hair, and she's more on top of her health than anyone i know, but in the back of my mind i'm so scared of when i'm going to lose her for real.

i started self harming around 11. i was struggling so much, but my mom was recovering from a broken pelvis for a year and then had cancer immediately after, and i felt like i couldn't tell her my problems then because what the fuck did i have to feel bad about when she was fucking bed-bound and unable to walk and dying? and i was being bullied at school so i had no friends to talk to, and i tried to tell my sister but she brushed me off. and when the school staff had to get involved with the bullying situation, the parents didn't believe me and so the school did nothing and just told my bullies "stop being mean" which of course just meant they didn't talk to me at all, and i was alienated and outcast and ignored.

so i mostly self harmed because i threw tantrums and had panic attacks that i couldn't control and had no outlet that worked. but part of me wanted people to notice, but then when people did notice, i hated it. they gave me pity and concern, and i wanted comfort and validation. i wanted my peers to see "all those bad things you think about me - i know, i'm the worst, and i'm doing something about it. look! i punish myself for it, so you don't need to punish me." and i wanted an adult to tell me i've done nothing wrong. i was so relieved when my mom suggested therapy first, without even knowing about my self harm, because i wanted to feel better, i wanted help. but because they'd tell my mom, and my mom finding out was my worst fear, i never told my therapists about my suicidal thoughts and self harm either. and i became addicted to pain, in any way i could inflict it on myself.

i always think it's such sick irony that i used to crave physical pain because of my emotional stress. and now, most of my emotional stress is because of the chronic physical pain i have now. i wanted pain? great. now i can't escape the pain. and i feel so guilty for wanting to die for so many years, for trying to kill myself and making my mom drive 6 hours to see me at the hospital, when my mom did almost die and wanted me to live more than anything. the "letter to god" series really makes me think about my mom.

this may be a stretch, but the sexual undertones in dog years's hook remind me of how i've struggled with my sexuality in relation to my self worth and my disability. for a long time, one of the only things i felt good about was being "good at sex," and the only way i could stand to look at myself was if i thought i was attractive or desirable. and in the more main message of dog years, it explores the agency in one's suffering, the guilt of wanting to hurt yourself and suffer and die, and then when you want to be better now you're ill and suffering. but it's not the suffering you inflicted on yourself, it's not the suffering you chose, and now you don't want it anymore. feeling like you can't control your body OR your mind, and wishing you had the agency to decide being "put down" because of everything being inflicted upon you without your say.

there are lots of other songs i relate to on the album, but these ones are just. so applicable to my life and my experience it's crazy.

[boykissr]

TIGHNARI ( RELATIONSHIP ) HCS !

tighnari x gn!reader

cw: character has not been released yet !!!!! i know nothing abt sumeru or tighnari i just rly wanna kiss him. ooc character !!!! nonsensical ramblings basically ( keep in mind that this is my first fic, please be nice <3 ) unedited :)

ur probably either a forest ranger or an adventurer

ygs spend like 24/7 together. not that you're complaining, but,,,,,

u two are basically attached at the hip

he is. so sweet to you??? always looking out for the both of you, too, as well as collei. after all, the forest is a dangerous place

oh, you're definitely a plant parent. you have so many plants in the house, sometimes it feels like you're still in the forest itself

he teaches u abt all the plants!!!! all of them!!! he jus wants to make sure that you don't poison yourself foraging, that's all... definitely not bcz he's excited to share so much knowledge w/ u.....

lunches!!!! in the rainforest!!!!! tighnari cooks, ofc. malewife material fr

he's made u learn so much abt the forest.. you dont even kno how u still remember it all tbh

after living together for a while, u begin to cultivate a love for all the things he teaches u abt. seeing him so excited makes u excited too <3

ima be honest when ygs started dating you weren't even sure if u were official or not, since he just. never addressed it???

after maybe your fifth or sixth date you finally asked. he said that he thought u both had already been in a relationship for weeks

"don't eat that"

he worries for u when ygs go out in the forest together

he rants abt his day to you <33 its amazing when he gets all sassy when talking abt something/someone that annoyed him

he was kinda hesitant abt u touching his ears n tail for a while..

like, it took quite a long time for him to trust u w/ that

when he does tho!!!!! he absolutely loves it

starts complaining if u dont brush his tail for him before bed

you give each other little presents u found in the forest. a shiny rock one day, a pretty leaf the next. every gift seems sweeter than the last

being w/ him u either have a lot of connections as well, or you're like completely oblivious to who ppl are

when you're sad, he tries to make u happy by making jokes or distract u by telling a story

most of the time those succeed in cheering you up

if that tactic doesn't work, he'll ask what he can do to help u, and is v quick abt it once you say what you need

silent evening moments where u 2 sit outside and just listen to the sounds of the forest <3

so many. books. everywhere.

u better love reading and learning when ur w/ this guy

on that note,,,, your birthday.

first thing, he'll give u a pretty potted plant <3 it probably does something as well- like perhaps it has healing properties, or it grows edible fruits. smth like that

u think that that's his only present to u

he then takes you to the market / bizarre and lets u pick out one thing- anything you want

then later he might take u to the forest to maybe look at cool plants and stuff!!!! to maybe calm down from all the noise n being around so many ppl

when he takes u back to ygs place, there suddenly a cake on the dining room table!!!!! omg haha when did that get there

he tells u that tbh he didnt know what the hell a "birthday cake" was.

he had to ask around a bit, and go thru some books. and then bake it himself, and successfully hide it from u and keep it preserved for the whole day

after cake you guys just sit porch / veranda and talk while the sun sets

i love him sm guys :(

[antiwhores]

Brand New; Bakugouxreader

After chasing you away when it was revealed that you were pregnant, you start a new life. The baby didn’t survive so your life was your own withiut trave of him. A life without Bakugou. Can he do the same as good as you? You’re happy. Is he?

TW: hurt, angst, no comfort for Bakugou, unwanted pregnancy, miscarriage, break ups, fighting (verbal), good ending for reader, not proof read, unprotected sex, hatred.

I was just in that angsty mood yk? Yall btw, i wanna cut my vagina off fr. And i dont want myears anymore. Whats the point of hearing if it only works sometimes?! Ugh.

You resented him. Bakugou was officially dead to you. In fact he had been dead to you for a while. But when he decided to pop up into your life and try to ruin it again. You were pissed.

During your sophmore year of highschool you were dating Bakugou. You two were childhood friends, attached at the hip. But when he decided that fucking with a faulty condom would be a good thing, even when you protested, it all changed.

He got you pregnant. All because he didn’t wanna wait to get his dick wet till he could get a new condom to replace of the one he’d been carrying in his pocket for the whole span of the 3 day camping trip you two took.

Didn’t he understand that this was a huge change for you too? No, he was selfish.

“I don’t have time for a damn child! Im trying to be a hero for gods sake!” “Okay?! You can’t just try to force and abortion on me like that you piece of shit! This was all you! And you think I don’t have shit to do with my life to?!” “Your life isnt as important as mine!”

You packed your shit and left that week. You never looked back. And you regret nothing.

You moved out to the far countryside of Japan. Somewhere hidden in the fog of a deserted, closed off town. You finished your highschool years in that small little village. You got to know everyone in the town. You went to college in another side of the outskirts and graduated with a degree that would keep you happy.

The baby didn’t survive, you didn’t even have time to think about whether or not you wanted to keep it before it died. You remember going to the doctor about a day or two after the incident to check on the parasite in your stomach. It was gone.

You remember laughing biterly, tears whelling up at what the doctor told you. All that bickering and loss just for a false alarm. You were sick.

Now, for the first time in a long time, you were happy. You were 24 with a house and car, a stable job, plenty of non-judging allies, friends and good relationships, financial stability, a nice area of living, and most of all; you were without him.

You swore never to step back into the city again unless absolutely necessary. Not even for family visits. The family that did want to see you came out to you instead of vice versa. You also made sure not to tell any of your old friends where you had gone.

You knew he patrolled the streets. Even if theres a small chance you’d see him again, you wanted to prevent that at all costs.

But apparently no matter how far you ran, the past ran faster.

Everyone in the town knew eachothers stories and you were no exception. The town knew that you had been betrayed by such a famous man. They were kind, they took down any advertisements for the man, they talked shit whenever he came up on tv, etc.

So of course all hell broke loose when he came to your small town to work on a case. They knew they needed to keep you away from him and they knew how.

So, as Bakugou was roaming the streets, spreading his bitter aura like the plague on everything he touched, you hid.

The plan was almost compromised when he met eyes with you breifly. You were in a neighbors house when it happened. Everyone had just been notified that he came through so you weren’t ready.

You dissapeared from the window as quickly as you came. Even though he beckoned himself a fool, a crazy man for even thinking his first love was in this building after all these years still as gorgeous as he remembers; he still found himself walking up to the door and placing a firm knock.

It was not you whom answered his knock but the neighbor. A tiny brown woman with glassy green eyes who looked about 25. A coldness wafted off of her as she questioned his reasoning for knocking. He felt like a borderline schizophrenic. According to himself, he was just so deperate to see her again that when he saw a woman around the same age as you he was stiff and stunned.

He packed his shit and left that week. He looked back. He regreted everything.

[namjooning-to-the-moon]

BTS MTL- Buying you clothes as gifts.

Authors note: My first MTL! Thank you guys for the 200 notes on my BTS headcanon I posted a few days ago.

Please remember these are just my opinions.

Warnings: slightly suggestive if you squint

Most

Taehyung

Most of the gifts he buys you are going to be fashion related.

Dresses, tops, shoes, he’s buying it all for you.

You want it? He got it.

Loves doing it though because you guys are the fashionista couple.

Knows what looks good on you and knows what he likes to see you in.

Has learnt your style well, so is always confident you will like his gifts.

Sends you photos from brand instagram accounts for your thoughts.

If you like it he’s bought it.

Couples outfits are going to happen.

Will buy you full outfits because he gets carried away.

Will want to take you on a date the same night so you can wear his gifts.

If he’s away on tour or on a schedule, expect a pair of Gucci heels to turn up on your doorstep with a cute note attached. 

Spoiling you is his full time job next to being an idol and this is just one way he does it.

Hoseok

Gift giving is one of his main love languages and he loves buying you clothes.

He’s also a fashionista so expect this a lot.

Also knows your style well.

When he goes to fashion shows he’s making mental notes on what to buy you.

Also likes couple outfits.

His phone lockscreen is legit a photo of you two in a stylish slightly wild couples outfit.

Loves taking you on shopping trips and spoiling you... because he has highkey sugar daddy vibes ok, I don't make the fucking rules.

Will take you to every store he can and will encourage you to try on everything you want.

Will also pick out clothes for you to try on.

You know those guys that look like they hate their life while waiting for their woman in the changing room?

Not this man.

He lives for it.

Give him his own private fashion show, he loves it.

Jimin

Loves buying you clothes so much.

Also knows your style well enough to make good choices.

Dresses are his favourite to buy.

Sometimes they are girly and sometimes they are sexy.

I see Jimin being into Selkie dresses don't @ me ok.

Not as into couples outfits but likes to be matching.

Same vibe or colour pallet kind of matching and have one item that’s the same.

You guys have his and hers loafers.

Goes out to buy clothes for himself, but is just sending you photos of things he wants to buy you.

Highkey loves buying you lingerie.

Probably buys you lingerie more than clothes that you can actually wear out.

At this point he knows its a kink but he doesn’t give a fuck. It’s not his fault you look good in it all.

Jungkook

Loves it but has a unique way of going out about it.

Its rare he will buy you a dress or heels but what he will buy is stuff he loves, but also knows you will love.

Why? Because then you will wear it too.

Goes to stores with the thought, I love it but will you love it too?

It’s a highkey kink seeing you in his clothes so if you both like his clothes you will wear more of them right?

Challenging Namjoon for that IQ with these moves.

We all know he's kind of possessive™ perilla leaf debate

Will also sometimes buy you the same shirt as him anyway so you can wear it together.

You better believe you guys have matching stompers.

Matching socks fr.

Hope you like Ironman

Makes him such a soft boy when you guys match.

Jin

Not really his vibe tbh.

He will buy you pyjamas though.

Constantly.

Jin is the resident pyjama king so you need to be his queen. Those are the rules ok.

Matching couples pyjamas for days.

Buys you mainly ones that will keep you cosy but occasionally he goes skimpy.

You know those silky shorts and tank sets with the lace? Yep, he’s weak for those.

Will deadass buy you onsies.

Loves to cuddle you in them, you are like a giant plushie to him.

Sometimes he does like to take you on a shopping trip and buy you something pretty.

He will probably get distracted by a cute jumper for himself.

Says he needs to stay as worldwide handsome™ as possible now he's just bought you the most world wide beautiful outfit.

^ Legit the jumper he buys

Namjoon

Not his vibe.

He prefers his gifts to be meaningful and thoughtful and just feels material possessions like clothes don’t show that.

You are more than capable of making better clothing choices than he can probably make for you.

He will make exceptions though.

Sometimes he will see something like a really cute scarf and he can’t resist.

He would see those tartan Burberry scarves and love them, so he gets you one with your initials on you can have them monogrammed fr.

Loves it because it still feels thoughtful and knows you will love it.

If you wanted some particular clothing as a gift he would still buy it for you, he just won’t be doing it without prompt.

You will not catch this man going to the store though.

Send him the website link with your size because this is not his area of expertise and he does not know what size you are... just that he's into it.

Yoongi

Not his vibe either.

This man is not endorsing the capitalist machine.

Also on team thoughtful and meaningful gifts.

He does have an exception though.

Yoongi is a secret soft boy™ and we all know it.

So sometimes he just gets his card out and gives it to you.

Tells you to go crazy.

Yoongi has lowkey sugar daddy vibes and I can't explain it.

Looks forward to you coming back and showing him what you bought.

He would never date someone who was materialistic so these rare moments are his way of showing you that he knows you love him for him so he wants to spoil you.

Least

[whining-ylthin]

2. "Captain Laserhawk: A Blood Dragon Remix" (Netflix, 2023)

THEY MADE A SHOW ABOUT A TALL-DARK-HANDSOME BROODING ONE-ARMED PRETTBOY WHO'S HELLA GAY FOR A ROBUST BEARISH MAN SEEKING TO UPEND A BROKEN, UNJUST SYSTEM, AND I COULDN'T CARE LESS ABOUT IT.

HOW DO YOU FUCK UP THIS BADLY?!

On a more serious note though, it's basically like a 6/10. Pretty, but also short, hollow and disappointing, just like me fr.

Overly jaded rant time.

Calling this show "We have Edgerunners at home" feels both disingenuous and unfair to Laserhawk, but also painfully accurate - both are fast-paced, sub-12 episodes cyberpunk-themed animated dramas aimed at adult viewers, except Edgerunners' ten episodes are a tightly paced and written emotional nuke while Laserhawk's six episodes start off too fast to make you attached to anyone, and then spin their wheels on a massive backstory dump that ends up invalidated by the plot-twist triple-cross cliffhanger ending that I couldn't care less for even without taking into account the fact that Netflix is a fickle mistress and constantly axes their original shows. We start out with a Suicide Squad-like scenario that very quickly falls off the track because the show only has 6 episodes - the Squad disbands by ep. 3, and the remaining episodes are, again, a setup for a giant red herring, sudden plot-twist that means nothing to me because of how little I get to learn about the characters and the world, wasted "heroic sacrifice" moment and a bloody cliffhanger in a Netflix show.

Edgerunners was a story about a group of people doomed to push themselves over the edge and die in a struggle within and/or fight against an oppressive system so much bigger than them. Laserhawk is... similar? In theory? As if Adi Shankar and his team grabbed the bulletpoint notes left behind by Trigger and CDPR, and tried to roughly copy the story beats into a narrative framework too frail and chaotic to support it.

The visuals are good. The animation is smooth, the artstyle is simple enough to prevent the Netflix Castlevania Jank Problem (also known as "we're trying to rip off Vampire Hunter D on a fraction of the budget and production time"), the designs taken in a vacuum are rather neat, the backgrounds are well-done and the directing is snappy - some of the scene transitions were really neatly done. I like the artstyle shift gimmick except for the "live action" splices (IMO they overstay their welcome) and the quasi-retro video game theming is cool, even if it feels... pandering, on the verge of that very cynical "look at the thing you like, GAMER, now CLAP AND CONSUME THE PRODUCT" stance. The voice-acting is competent if sometimes struck by the Netflixvania "voice actors talking in lowercase" type of direction, and the dialogue itself isn't jarring, but it's not exactly memorable either. Same goes for audio - the soundtrack is well-done, and the occasional use of licensed songs again reminded me of Edgerunners, but the tracks chosen are either not particularly memorable or the scenes paired up with them lack the emotional impact to make "[Carpenter Brut playing]" something worth remembering.

Finally, I have a bit of a gripe with the show's treatment of queerness - the way Dolph and Alex's relationship is VERY aggressively front-and-center feels almost like it's too much, as if the writers feel the need to constantly bash me with a sign reading "these two men are GAY and they have PASSIONATE SWEATY GAY SEX, ARE YOU ENTERTAINED BY THIS, TUMBLR USER WHINING-YLTHIN" rather than portray a more natural working-romantic relationship between them, but even if we chalk it up to me still having unresolved hangups with internalized homophobia and living in closet for years... well, I have bad news for y'all, you can't really say the same about the show's take on Pagan Min - an effeminate queer man who wears pink, uses lipstick, is up and front (sometimes literally) with his kinky sex life, and who's also a cruel, power-drunk gangster who turns into a cowardly pathetic pissbaby the moment he's no longer backed by armed goons. The showrunners and artists sure worked hard to make you actively despise and look down at a villain who juuust so happens to also be the kind of queer person who's already frequently targeted by bigotry in real life, and at one point it feels like the show is this close to dropping a line about Pagan being the "wrong" kind of gay. Following it up with an otherwise out-of-nowhere spiel about Dolph still struggling with his own insecurities and closet doesn't magically erase this whole problem, either, it just highlights that the production team was most likely aware of this unfortunate framing and tried to sweep it under the rug.

By the way: when I started out watching, I was surprised by the fact that I haven't really seen any of my mutuals posting NSFW with the show's characters except for Bullfrog - but by the end I absolutely understood why the only thing from Laserhawk that caught any real traction with people was the godddamn Asssassin's Creed French Frog Joke Character. Aside from the very weird premise, the increasingly diminished pop-cultural staying power of Ubisoft games (for what little it means - all pre-existing characters are so heavily redesigned and rewritten they barely have anything in common with the source material) and lack of marketing (I only got around to watch it because GF's moot recommended the show to her and she recommended it to me), half the show is too barebones and the other half is too uninteresting to make a bigger wave in online spaces.

Ylthin's Media Thread thingy for the tail-end of 2023 and 2024:

Normally I'd do it on Twitter but I fully expect that site to collapse in 6 months.

Glen Cook, "Czarna Kompania"/"Cień w ukryciu" ("Black Company"/"Shadows Linger") (Rebis, 2009 Polish edition, 2022 reprint)

I'm starting this list somewhat off the curb - I've finished the 2nd novel from this omnibus release just now, but I've also read the first one earlier this year... and I don't have much to say about either, honestly. The prose is kind of clunky and awkward in a way that takes a moment to adjust to, and without directly comparing the Polish translation to the English original I can't tell how much of this unwieldiness is due to poor translation job and how much of it is just inherent to Cook's style. You're not reading this book for its characters, either - most of them are memorable only because of constant exposure, as names that you eventually learn to map to a broad role in the story or one, maybe two vague personality/appearance traits. What carried me through was what I can broadly describe as "vibes" and long-term significance of Black Company books - or maybe the wave of genre-fiction they were a part of. It certainly wasn't the first grim and gritty fantasy series out there, and the backside blurb's boasts about how Cook "brought the fantasy genre down to the level of common men" are very overblown (the books are literally about an evil sorceress' plan for world domination clashing against her messy divorce with her Dark Lord husband and a prophecy about the "divine savior" figure coming back further pissing into her breakfast), but I can still notice the seeds of interesting ideas being planted here and there (thank you MandaloreGaming for making me aware of Myth games, shame that they're downright impossible to legally obtain anymore), and the grit (while going for a very predictable "everyone is utterly miserable and the whores will give you all the STDs" route, and feeling more like catnip for 14-year-old boys rather than genuine "maturity") fortunately doesn't cross the line into unbearable edgelord territories yet. It was a part of the same wave of dark fantasy that either molded me directly (through Sapkowski's The Witcher novels and "Berserk"), indirectly (through a thousand imitators years down the line, from local fantasy authors of the 2000s to video games - Heroes of Might & Magic 5 in particular was retrospectively very blatantly inspired by Warhammer Fantasy), or infected me with sudden-onset brainrot in my mid-20s (Warhammer 40.000), and I can definitely feel and appreciate it even if I find these books to be rather mediocre so far.

I just wish I could get my hands on Moorcock's Elric books without going through a dozen hoops, but I guess I'll make do with Cook, Erikson and the odd Warhammer novel for the time being.

Oh, and this cover art? That tattered "dashing rogue" look, that borderline fractal leather-and-cloth patterning, the random spiky structures in the background? The long bob hair and goatee look straight out of the music video for "Imperium" by Machine Head? A cover that makes you think not even of actual early 2000s buttrock, but of Stuart Chatwood emulating it for Prince of Persia: Warrior Within's soundtrack? Hillariously mismatched with the actual novels. I haven't seen a choice this baffling since reading my dad's faded mid-90s pulp booklet edition of Ursula LeGuin's "Rocannon's World" paired up with either Vallejo or Frazetta sword-and-sandals artwork.

[lacontroller1991]

Burnt Skies (Rick Flag x Fem!Reader)

@h-hxgirl​

Requested by Anon: Saw this captain boomerang fanfic where he finds she's pregnant while they're on mission, I was wondering if you could maybe do something similar for Rick

Author's Note: He would be so protective of the reader fr fr, also this is gonna be angst angst angst so just beware

Warning: Death, pregnancy, language, blood, major character death, spoilers

“Hey (Y/N), you ready to go?” Rick’s voice echoed through the room before he halted, seeing you on the floor, head in the toilet.

“Yeah, give me a minute,” you replied weakly, wiping your mouth with the back of your hand and flushing the toilet.

“Are you sure? Are you feeling alright?” He asked, rubbing your back as you looked up at him with a small smile.

“Yeah, I’ll be fine. I’ll meet you there,” nodding his head, he walked out the door with guns strapped to his body on his tac vest. Looking at your reflection, you noticed a slight greenish tint to your face. Ignoring the wave of nausea, you made your way out of the base and to the plane. Walking up the ramp, you took a seat next to Rick who looked at you with concern in his brown eyes.

“Baby, maybe you should sit this one out. You aren’t looking too hot,” he whispered in your ear as you brushed the notion off. After all, you did have a really bad gut feeling about this mission.

“I’m here. I’m going,” you stated firmly as he looked you over one more time before shrugging his shoulders, knowing it was of no use to argue with you.

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The plane ride was hell. With the criminals being loud and Harley’s non stop chatter accompanying your periodic bouts of nausea, you were ready to get the hell off of the plane and right into combat.

“Alright guy, get ready to drop,” Rick shouted as the cargo door opened to reveal water beneath you. Once he gave the signal, you jumped into the cool water and began to swim your way to the mainland, waiting for the rest of the team to catch up to you. After everyone, save for the Weasel, had made it to the shore, you glanced over to your boyfriend who was laying next to Harley.

“Hey guys, it’s me. I’m the guy who called you and I brought my friends,” Blackguard shouted into the open, raising his hands while ignoring the shouts coming from the rest of the team and your boyfriend, Waller’s distant cursing ringing in your ear. Next thing you know, there was gunfire in every direction and things went to chaos. You quickly sought shelter behind a rock and shot off a few rounds into the woods, hoping to take down some of the Corto Maltese soldiers. “(Y/N), watch out,” Rick shouted at you as you turned to see what he was talking about, but it was too late before a large piece of debris from one of the trees knocked you out cold.

You woke up to machines attached to your body. Feeling the bile rise in your throat, you tried to get out of the restraints and look for a place to dump the contents of your stomach. Suddenly a pan was placed in front of you and that was all you needed to release the bile. Groaning at the light, you looked around the room and was surprised to see a cleanish room which plenty of nurses occupied.

“Ah good, you’re awake,” a voice commented as a rough hand pulled your head back, forcing you to look up at one of the generals you were tasked to take out.

“What the hell are you doing to me?” You asked, squirming your body against the bed, trying to loosen some of the restraints.

“Mi amore, we are treating you. Seems you have caught a parasite,” he replied before summoning the nurse over to you, carrying a plate of food and some juice, “you’re government must really be struggling if they’re sending pregnant women into the field,” he mentioned as your blood ran cold.

“That’s impossible,” muttering to yourself, your head went fuzzy at the concept of you being pregnant. With Rick’s kid.

“On the contrary, when we brought in your friend and you, we noticed certain things,” motioning down to your stomach only brought awareness to the fact that you were practically naked in a room full of the enemy.

“Let me go,” you pleaded, pulling your arms as much as you could.

“I think not,” he replied before nodding to one of the nurses who moved to turn on a machine and attach it to your head. Screams of agony soon left your lips, blocking out the sudden spurts of gunfire in the halls.

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Harley laughed maniacally as she gunned down multiple soldiers, enjoying the way they were dropping to the floor. She needed to get out of there. She needed to find the others. After the last one dropped to the floor, she moved toward the door before hearing a piercing scream echo down the hallway.

“Sounds like someone’s having fun,” she ran her tongue against her teeth before skipping toward the scream. Slamming open the door, she raised the guns in her hand, ready to fire, until she saw you laying on the table surrounded by nurses.

“No one messes with Flag’s girl,” she muttered to herself before unloading the magazine in the room. All of the nurses slinked to the ground, covered in a pool of their own blood. Rushing over to you, Harley unstrapped the restraints and head piece before taking out the IV and looked for your clothes.

“Where the hell are ya clothes?” She asked, searching high and low before she found a bag filled with your bloody uniform. Helping you sit up, she noted the way you looked super frail but practically glowing at the same time.

“Harley,” you whispered out to her before passing out on her shoulder. “Awww, this would be really cute if not for the circumstances,” she stated out loud to herself, peering out of the window and seeing a guy in a helmet run across the street with Flag. Wait a minute, Flag! Running out the door, she ran around the corner before stopping in front of the two men.

“Hiya guys! What’s up?”

“We’re here to save you, is (Y/N) with you?” Rick asked with hope in his voice as Harley nodded, wrapping pale fingers around his wrist and dragging him back inside and through the pile of bodies she had claimed. At the sight of you, Rick ran to your side and hugged your limp body.

“What’s wrong with her?” He asked, fighting the tears that were beginning to surface.

“Don’t worry puddin’, she’s just asleep,” shrugging her shoulders, she left the room as you stirred, fluttering your eyes open.

“Rick?” You questioned as he rapidly nodded his head, placing kisses all along your face.

“Thank God you’re ok. I thought I lost you.”

“Rick, the doctors found something,” memories of the conversation you had moments ago replayed in your brain. You’re pregnant.

“I’m pregnant,” you whispered, mind still not comprehending the fact that you were pregnant. After all, you had been infertile most of your life. Avoiding his gaze, you waited for his response.

“How?”

“I don’t know.”

“I’m going to be a dad,” he whispered, causing your head to snap up and see a smile play against his face.

“You want this? I don’t know if it’ll carry to term. You know that I’m infertile.” Placing his lips against yours, he pulled you into his arms, hugging you as close as he could to his body. Wrapping your arms around his neck, you kissed back before a throat clearing interrupted you.

“This is sweet and all, but we have a fucking monster to kill,” DuBois stated as you looked up at Rick who smiled.

“Stay here, I’ll come back and get you.”

“I’m not leaving your side,” you replied as he sighed and ran a hand through his hair.

“You’re pregnant. No way in living hell am I gonna allow you to do this. You’ll stay here and that’s an order,” you and he both hated when he had to pull his rank, but you realized it was necessary in cases like this.

“Just come back to me,” pulling his lips down against yours for what feels like the last time, you encoded this moment into your brain, remembering the way he tasted.

“For you? Always.”

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He should’ve known you were going to follow them into Jotunheim. Not only were you stubborn, but you still had that nagging feeling that something was going to happen. Sneaking past the military, you found a window and busted it open with your elbow before entering the building. Landing with a soft thud, you looked around the room and noticed Peacemaker going down a dark tunnel. Running after him, you made sure to stay hidden by the numerous pillars. Peering around the corner, you saw Ratcatcher standing next to Rick, however Peacemaker was pointing a gun at Rick.

“Nobody is saying what they did was right,” Peacemaker stated, hand unwavering.

“They experimented on children!” Rick yelled as more explosions went off in the distance.

“That information gets out and it causes an international incident. Keeping the peace is worth any price, including the life of a hero like yours, sir, so please. Don’t make me do this,” your stomach churned. You knew that Captain America wannabe was no good, and now your love might just pay the price. Suddenly, rocks collapsed all around you, obscuring your view of Rick and Peacemaker.

“No,” you whispered to yourself, picking up rocks and trying to make a hole for you to get your body through. Your efforts became faster the more you heard the two men grunting. After successfully digging a hole big enough for you, you crawled through as you heard something like porcelain shatter and choking.

“You mother fucker,” Rick stated through gritted teeth as you watched in slow motion, Peacemaker’s hand grasping a large shard.

“Rick!” You shouted out before tackling him off Christopher’s body, not getting out of the way soon enough as Peacemaker lodged the porcelain into your lower abdomen. “No!” Rick shouted as Peacemaker threw you off. In the distance somewhere, you heard a gun go off before hands wrapped around your body. “(Y/N)? (Y/N)?” Rick called to you but you couldn’t hear him, your mind venturing off.

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The sun lit your face through the blinds, dancing in your eyes and creating a multitude of hues, a warm body pressed against you.

“Morning sweetheart,” voice deep from slumber, Rick rubbed his eyes as he let out a yawn. Stretching in bed before your 5 year old daughter came running into the room.

“Mommy, daddy. It’s Christmas!” She squealed excitedly, waking up the baby that was next door.

“Yeah it is baby, you excited for your presents?” You asked as she rapidly nodded while Rick slid out of the bed.

“I’ll go grab little Digger,” he commented, kissing your forehead and your daughter’s head. Getting up, you went to grab a coffee before the doorbell rang. Moving to open it, you saw Harley’s painted face waiting for you with Nanaue, Cleo, Robert and Abner carrying presents.

“Merry Christmas dollface,” she exclaimed, pulling you in for a hug before running off to see her god daughter.

“Come in guys,” you motioned for them to enter as Rick rounded the corner, your 10 month old in his arms.

“So this is the little guy, huh?” Cleo asked as Sebastian waved a hand at the newborn, earning giggles from the baby.

“Yep, Digger Anthony Flag, meet your family,” Rick lifted up the baby’s arm, making him wave to everyone.

“I’m proud of you guys,” Robert commented, slapping a hand on Rick’s back as everyone shuffled into the living room, Nanaue taking up most of the space.

“Thanks man, it wouldn't have happened without you.”

“Alright, everyone ready for presents?” You asked the room with Harley by your side, Harleen in her arms. Rick placed Digger in Cleo’s arms before walking up to you and bringing you into his side.

“I love you, Mrs. Flag.”

“And I you, Mr. Flag.”

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Groaning, you felt an excruciating pain in your abdomen and a feeling of loss?

“(Y/N), baby, you’re awake,” his tired voice resonated in your ear as he leaned down to kiss your forehead, his hand not leaving yours.

“I feel like I got hit by a truck,” you commented as he sniffled, trying to suppress the tears that threatened to escape.

“You shouldn’t have done that,” he noted, petting your hair and placing another kiss on your forehead.

“And leave our kid without a father? I don’t think...”, realization dawned on you at that moment. The sudden feeling of loss and the pain in that general area washed over you as you began crying. “Oh God, the baby is gone, isn’t it?” You asked through tears as he let a couple slip down his face, nodding and trying to smile through the pain. Choking back a sob, you turned your face away from him as tears continued to fall.

“Hey, look at me,” he whispered, squeezing your hand. Shaking your head, you refused to meet his hazel eyes, “(Y/N), look at me.” Turning your head, your eyes locked onto his as he continued to smooth down your hair.

“We’re alive. We’re both alive. That’s all that matters,” he replied, crawling into the hospital bed with you and pulling you against his chest as you cried into his shirt.

“What if I never get pregnant again?”

“We will. I’ll make sure of it. I’m done with the fucking task force. Waller can find someone else to puppet. But I’m done. You’re done. We’re gonna get married and have a nice house. I’ll get a new job and we’ll figure it out. I promise.” Kissing the top of your head, he wrapped his arms around you as you calmed down.

“I love you,” you whispered against his chest as he hugged you closer.

“I love you too, sweetheart.”

Author’s Note: Well this was way longer than I intended it to be. But hope you enjoy!!

[theepisceswriter]

Sending nudes/sexting w/ JJK characters (Nanami, Toji, Gojo, Mei Mei)

Synopsis: Do y’all need one fr? I think the title is self explanatory

TW: mature things obviously, GN!reader, typos like always, nothing outside or masturbation and nudes really, 18+, MINORS DNI!

NANAMI

Yeah, yeah you miss Nanami’s cuddles, kisses, hugs, and all that soft shit when you spend the whole day without him because of his work schedule, but you also miss that long schlong that’s attached to him. Work has given him such a hectic schedule that sometimes you go a week without having any sex and it drives you crazy and Nanami might not show it, but it drives him crazy as hell too. He’s just praying for an off day so he can get that sweet release from you that he needs.

Though sexting is not the same as physical sex, any form of sexual attention from him is needed. So, bravely one day you decided to send him a picture of you in nothing but one of his button ups barely covering your body while he’s at work. To be fair, you did wait until a time when you knew he usually wasn’t busy and the office was nearly empty.

When I tell you this photo has him blushing like a school girl and horny immediately; he forgets how to breathe for a good two minutes and it takes the sound of someone’s footsteps to bring him back to reality and remember the setting he was in. 

You see, sexting really isn’t Nanami’s cup of tea. He’s big on intimacy and physical touch and sexting hardly fulfills any of his desires. He’d much rather have you in front of him in person. You see those three little lines pop up thinking he’s going to describe to you in detail what he’s going to do to you once he gets off and how much he’s been feening for you too, but no! Instead, all you get is a text that reads “On my way.”

Nanami isn’t the type to call off of work or leave early, but it’s from that picture that he realizes how wanting you must be for him and he can’t help but feel a twinge of guilt, but also realize just how bad he’s been wanting you. The drive home for him is 30 minutes? He’s making it home in like 10, knuckles gripping the wheel and all as he thinks about rushing home to you and your body.

He doesn’t even greet you when he comes in the house. Immediately opting to connect his lips to yours to initiate the long night between you two that’s going to unfold.

“My poor baby. I’ve been so neglectful to you lately, haven’t I? I’m sorry, I’m going to make it up to you so good tonight. Lay back and let me take care of you tonight.” And take care of you is exactly what he does.

TOJI

You could text Toji for hours on end, tell him your house got burned down and you now live in Bikini Bottom with Sponge-bob, and he still wouldn’t budge. He doesn’t even have to be out doing a job, if he doesn’t see it as urgent urgent then he’s getting back to you in like 2-3 business days minimum.

Let you send him a text that’s like “Currently in bed thinking about you with my hand between my thighs because I haven’t seen you all day.” And all of a sudden his fingers are moving fast like lightening as he texts you back. 

Most likely going to respond with something like “I’ll show you mins if you show me yours” Because that man is a menace that should be locked up. You don’t even have to send one for real though because three minutes later your phone is pinging with a dick pic from him; two bottles resting on dick just to show how big it is because he’s a show off. Might even send you a video of him moving it without his hands in return for some soapy titty pics.

Nudes of you make him go absolutely feral and has him in the bed huffing and puffing as he uses his hands to recreate the feeling of you, but you would never know that because he responds with shit like “So sexy looking”

He’s kinda ass at sexting lowkey.

He’s not too big on dirty talk while sexting, pictures and videos say everything that he needs to, but guarantee that he brings it up once the two of you are finally able to meet up in person. “So you said you were going to do what now to me?” “Sre we going to do what we talked about in those messages or whatr?” Of course, he holds you to your word and the two of you indeed do what you said over text. 

GOJO

You already knew what the night was going to be like as soon as you got that “U up?” Text from Gojo. Not only was it almost 1 in the morning, but the two of you hadn’t seen each other physically in almost a month and you could just hear the desperation in his voice from when he had called you earlier talking about how much he missed you; him being in front of others being the only thing stopping him from going into great detail about what exactly he missed.

You didn’t even need to reply to him. The fact that you had read it was enough confirmation for him and minutes later you were getting sent a video with his dick as his thumbnail, just out and erect with his hand at the base of it and some lubricant covering it to make it look shiny and presentable.

“Fuck, y/n. You have no idea how many times I’ve thought about you bouncing up and down on my cock all month long. I need you so bad right now.” The sweet moans of your name leaving his mouth and the bucking of his hips into his hands once you pressed play on the video were enough to get you in the mood as well. Quickly you’re stripping your clothes off and sending him videos of you in all types of angles, but that’s not enough for him.

Next thing you know he’s facetiming you and the two of you are on the phone having a mutual masturbation session. The sight of each of you two getting off to each other getting off was enough to make both of you cum more than once. It takes him going completely soft and finally getting all that pent up sexual tension out of him to finally hang up.

MEI MEI

Someone get this woman an only fans account because the horny content she sends you should not be free. When I say this woman puts work into the videos and pictures she sends to you, I mean it.

I’m talking a ring light set up to make her angles look appeasing, special lingerie just for pictures to take to send to you, and a phone with amazing quality. She goes all out for you like a professional because she wants you to use them more than once, she wants to make some quality spank bank material for you so you wont even think about going on twitter again when you’re horny.

Tell me shouldn’t have a very popular OnlyFans. You can’t cause you’d be lying to yourself.

She’s such a big tease. She’d send you a picture of her titties all oiled up in a bikini that’s barely covering anything but her nipples along with a text message that’s like “They miss you );” .....While you’re at work because she’s just such a tease like that.

Glances inside of her underwear, boomerangs of her shaking her ass for you, and quick glimpses of her nipple; anything but giving you the real thing. Her whole objective with nudes is to make you want her more and show you what you’re missing out on by not being with her in the moment.

It’s not until you’re sending pictures and videos of yourself begging you to help her out that she finally does and it’s still not with pictures or videos in return ! Instead, she’ll text you through your orgasm in vivid description of what she wants to do to you and bring up past sexual experiences like, “Remember that time when we I picked you up from work and we couldn’t wait until we went home so we fucked right there in the backseat of the car?”

Big on helping you visualize things, so honestly you don’t even need her to go all out.