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Little Hunter.
#kerytalk#fish nonsense#betta fish#betta#aquarium#planted aquarium#bettablr#fishblr#Arita looking for food#seriously she's a hunter#her diet is just scuds and whatever flatworm she finds 95% of the time#if she eats food I never see it#yes I've been anxiously checking her weight since day 1#I assume if she gets hungry enough she will finally eat 'the boring food'#but for now I'm not gonna knock it#means I don't have to worry about overfeeding
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For the ask game: AU where during Tim's search for Bruce, Ra's agrees to help him on one condition: Tim will sleep with him. (It's probably some kind of scheme on Ra's part.) How their dynamic would change with more overt sexual undertone underlying their interactions...
for the ask game!
UGH i love this type of thing so much. in my heart, this is canon. to me. Ra'sTim my fucked up beloveds you two are so terrible for each other.
so what i think is fun and often misunderstood in fanon is that Tim didn't go to Ra's, Ra's went to Tim. so it's even more fun if Ra's goes to Tim, and has that condition he holds over Tim's head. offering all of Ra's' resources, full access to his computers, someone just genuinely believing Tim and working with him. i think, a lot of it would be a mind game for Ra's. sure he wants to fuck Tim, but more than that, he wants to see Tim's reaction. he expects an immediate no, in the way Tim is so hesitant to work with Ra's in the first place. he's pushing Tim's buttons and basically treating Tim like a rat in a maze. so when Tim says yes, and doesn't seem to hesitate too much. *that's* intriguing. because in a perfect world for Ra's, Tim says yes because of a genuine returned attraction. but Ra's isn't quite sure if that's the reason. it could just be because of Tim's search for Bruce. so Ra's would really push it, see how far he could take the sex. it's simple sex first, but Ra's gets more and more interesting each time. slowly working in kinks just to see where Tim draws the line in the sand, and if Ra's can convince Tim to cross that line.
on Tim's side, i think it's fun if you play with Tim being so deep in the closet he doesn't even realize he's bisexual, yet. so to him, sex with Ra's doesn't *really* count as sex. he knows Ra's is weirdly obsessed with him, and Tim wants to play that to his advantage. he likes the power that obsession gives him, within the League. so, if it takes some sex to satiate Ra's, Tim mentally views it as like, a training session. no worse than those unpleasant endurance trainings Bruce used to make them all do. and i like the accidental catch-22 of it. where at first, the sex does very little for Tim. but the more Ra's gets creative and kinky about it, the more Tim *actually* starts to enjoy it. Tim's bisexual crisis except it's over a centuries-old man showing him the joys of sadomasochism in an agreement that was supposed to be totally normal for Tim bc he just gets himself into these situations.
i think one of the biggest changes would be Tim's sheer amount of power and immunity in the League would be even higher. *everyone* can tell Ra's is fucking Tim, he's not really trying to hide it with the way he looks at Tim and touches him in front of everyone. Tim tries to stay clinical and professional, but you can only look so respected working when Ra's is basically stroking your chest as you work. there are whispers, people keep tellin Ra's not to trust this random son of the Bat, but no one will say it to Tim's face. it'd give Tim more power over Ra's' operation outside of the Bruce search. sure, Tim can't change the nature of the League of Assassins, but he can. tip the scales a bit. pull Ra's back from being lethal in certain situations, convince Ra's not to engage in other places. Tim is careful not to overextend this power so he doesn't lose it, but everyone else sees just how much power Tim has. he even start working on taking people out from under Ra's, when Tim goes nuclear and leaves. like how Tim basically steals Prudence, he steals some other younger Assassins he thinks he can convince to come to his side. because he's with Ra's, he starts to command a level of respect so it's not a difficult thing to do. sure, Tim's just the kid keeping Ra's' bed warm. but also, he's the kid *Ra's* deemed worthy enough to be involved with, so it's a double-edged sword of both disgust and respect held for Tim.
it's so funny to me if Tim starts to catch feelings. Ra's of course has feelings, but Tim has never noticed his feelings for a man before so he's fucking panicking internally. and worse, he's not doing a good job of hiding it. Ra's is perceptive and has centuries of experience on Tim. so he can tell. he sees the look on Tim's face when Ra's does a genuine romantic gesture with no strings attached. and that's when Ra's really leans into it. the sex is one thing, but now it's courting. gifts, pet names, kisses, praise, the whole nine yards. and Tim doesn't outwardly deny any of it because he just... doesn't know what to do with it. he could handle stupidly good sex. but this?? this is new territory. he's constantly reminding himself Ra's isn't a good person. which isn't hard to do but still, Tim's just a little torn internally. also. i think Ra's would at least try to kill Captain Boomerang, if not outright succeed, as a courting present for Tim. and Tim is *horrified*, but then again, in canon, he almost personally killed Boomerang. so maybe. there's something nice about having Boomerang dead, while escaping culpability. Ra's thinks his corruption crusade is working on Tim and is absolutely gloating about it. they even go on a proper date.
but, in the end, Tim still backstab Ra's. i think Ra's would still try to go for control of WI, but would be convinced Tim would be totally okay with it and offers to share control with Tim. that's how Tim betrays him, he's allowed to handle so much of the paperwork, Ra's has no idea until it all goes through that he actually has no control. it's The betrayal. because Tim will always betray his love for what he thinks is the right thing to do. the infamous scene, where Ra's kicks Tim out of a window would go a lot differently. instead of a dramatic fight, it's deeply wounded betrayal. in canon Ra's always knew Tim was never in his pocket, but in this AU, he was naive enough to fall for it. and he's angry. he's angry at Tim, angry at himself. i think he'd straight up try to kidnap Tim. less "kick Tim out a window" and more "intimately hold a knife to Tim's throat" vibes. they part ways, but there's still. something lingering. the bridge isn't fully burned and Ra's is still going to seek out Tim when he needs help, and Tim will seek out Ra's. they'll never trust each other again. but they also can't seem to stop loving each other. Tim hides it from the Batfamily and Ra's never gives Tim that level of control in the League again but. the "i didn't know who else to got to." moments are inevitable and there are whispers in the villain community about how you better be careful around Red Robin because if you're not, you'll piss off the Demon Head. unspoken, deadly protection while still sort of trying to kill each other.
#necrotic festerings#ask game#rastim#ra'stim#ra's al ghul x tim drake#nsft#nonnie i'm so sorry i took a day to get to this#i got wiped the fuck out by life kjhgjhkj#i was purposefully vague with how kinky the kinky sex gets for the sake of it still being appealing to everyone#but if it were me writing it i *would* get into some really weird niche kinks.#go balls to the walls with it#also i need everyone to know that rolling in the deep by adele is THE rastim song to me.#like that song is just. exactly the red robin (2009) arc. the way tim betrays ra's and ra's' anger.#“you're gonna wish you never had met me” come on now#it makes me ill#if i wrote this fic the title WOULD be a lyric from the song idc if it's cringe#it just makes me feral aaaa#love these two so dearly i need to write a real fic for them#i've got some stuff knocking around the drafts but nothing with bite.#and this idea could be the thing with bite#i just have SO many things to work on send fucking help
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SDCC 2017 Autograph Signing for Anonymous
#Andrew Lincoln#*#andygifs#flashing gif#A SPECIMEN™#excuse me sir please put your forearms away thank you#menace#also his arm hair but i'm not gonna be that weird right now#still hate that hat#H A N D S#his n e c k#oh there's bram stoker knocking again#the mold broke#no it didn't you couldn't even make such a mold#the white tee forever hits different than his normal con uniform#i love arm
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Pretty sure my little man has a case of abundism affecting the marble tabby coat under all those white splotches
#random pet post#it really is a weird coat pattern#I'm never sure if I should describe him accurately as a white marked tabby or as the first impression people get of a black and white cat#love his little backward C's#I got all my other pets around the same time and they've been dying off one by one this last year or so#I'm down to just this 4yo kit and Bruiser#actually I'm not done whispering in the tags#pretty soon it's just gonna be me and this terrible little man against the world#and he gives me such weird problems you cannot even begin to imagine#took to the leash and harness without a bit of difficulty but I can't take him anywhere cuz he freaks out about people 500ft away#really difficult to find sitters for him cuz he gets so stressed about changes and waits until 3am to SCREAM#he's 17 lbs and wants to sleep on my chest 14 hours a day#took him on a work trip a week or 2 ago cuz of aforementioned petsitting troubles and some kind of wire got crossed#so instead of stress peeing in my laundry basket he now humps the nearest blanket covered limb to alert me of problems#he got scared of his water dish recently and is only now starting to get over it after 3 weeks of drama#he knocked it over last night and humped my leg while I tried to sleep to try and convey to me that he was thirsty#I'm thinking of getting a second cat and just fucking hoping that it'll be normal and maybe Prompto can target it for some of his weirdness
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so the most recent post from you reminded me- you're not a zosan fan (neither am I tbh) so what DO you support for sanji (in terms of ships or HCs)
I had to sit on this for a bit since I got home but I do have a few ride or dies so we can start there.
SanUso numero um campeao del mundo!! I love love love sanuso so much.... they have a number of really good scenes together and I'm so tired or I'd try and pull them up but off the top of my head in Water 7 when Sanji worries about if Usopp will come back, and earlier in the arc with Enies Lobby calling Usopp their sniper and getting very excited to see him back...
If Oda wasn't a coward post ts or at least post wci Sanji would be fat. Fatness and weight gain as healing is so important and thematically fits for Sanji as a character especially with all of his backstory but alas.
In terms of gender/sexuality I'm pretty fluid on what I headcanon for him. As long as it makes sense for the scenario I don't care all that much. I know bisexual is really common as a hc for him which is great! I also see him as tentatively genderfluid but I don't think he really knows how to articulate it. Probably with weird food and cooking metaphors.
And the last thing I'm going to say because I'm me and its impossible for me to talk about anything without mentioning Enstars but I think he and Niki share similar worldviews when it comes to food, especially when it comes to feeding the needy, what with Sanji giving Gin the food in Baratie despite being enemies and Niki taking in a strange teenage Rinne he found on the street because he looked hungry and both Gin and Rinne feel indebted to their chefs and saviors. I would love to see a One Piece and Ensemble Stars collab with them specifically someday and not just because they're my favorites from each franchise....
#asks#anonymous#not sanji#<- well kinda sanji but not the panels of him#also. well i wont say nothing against zosan bc i do have Some Things against it#but idc if you ship it and follow me. its not problematic or anything#but i think it falls really hard into two conventionally attractive guys with a rivalry being shipped together#bc it feels like they should be. skk from bungou stray dogs feels this same way to me#in that i think their actual in universe dynamic is leagues more important ESPECIALLY#since the panels where sanji and zoro basically try to sacrifice themselves for luffy#and zoro knocks sanji out just got posted on here.#both zosan and skk are much more interesting to me from a non romantic lens....#i also see zoro as very aromantic and not interested in relationships of the romantic nature#i can see him being alloaro but he is not fucking sanji that's all i am going to say on that topic#well anyway hope this is interesting at least. i need to put more posts in the queue now so i'm gonna do that!
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On the one hand, Gorgug getting mad is exactly what Porter wants so stay chill (crab) king, you do you, but on the other hand, angry Zac PCs have given us such gems as "I need a fucking weapon" and "Is that feng shui!?!?" so if he does wind up telling Porter to knock it off, cut it out, you know it's going to be devastating.
#dimension 20#fantasy high#dimension 20 spoilers#fantasy high spoilers#gorgug thistlespring#i think i made a post or a tag essay once about dealing with anger being a recurring theme with zac's d20 pcs#gorgug unleashes his inner tuc ii ricky matsui and goes#'you know what; i'm not a mean guy by any means; but i'm gonna tell you right now; knock it off. cut it out.'
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Told my boss I was taking the day off for a once-in-a-lifetime family reuinion but jokes on her that got canceled the week after it was proposed bc my dad's cousin wanted a thousand bucks per family to rent a firehouse rec room and get food (I run events, my own big event for 130 people topped out at 750 for venue, tables & chairs, and food) so instead I'm keeping the day off and going fishing. Wish me luck in the pond.
#I'm also Not going fishing with my dad bc he is not a nice man#I Am going fishing with my mom though bc she will buy me breakfast and lunch#We're gonna stop at the farmer's market#And then a local mexican place on the way home#Fuck I've gotta ask my brother for a camping chair#We only have One#And I caught all my fish last time sitting#But it would be Unfair to hog it#Knock knock man who gets up for work at 2am leave a chair outside for me#Chair confirmed :)#Now all I'll need to do is refill my fountain in the morning and put some drinks on ice....#I'm very excited about it!
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i would like to personally thank hurricane helene for cancelling the entire rest of my classes for this week
#TECHNICALLY not cancelled just made everything remote but come on. they're cancelled#dont worry abt me btw i live in a place that is almost never badly effected by these things bc of the terrain so i'm just gonna chilll#most we'll get is a lotta rain & wind but not enough to do more than like. possibly knock the power/wifi out at some point MAYBE#im just happy that i won't have to walk around in it. thank god#now i can finally wreck my feeble excuse of a sleep schedule even more and DRAWWWWWWW
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oh uh. so my essay about Lucidity is getting way longer than I meant it to, because I ended up figuring more shit out as I went, but I'm impatient to share my newest fucked up beloved so i'm just going to share some basics + the heroforge ref
JR is gone. Their head quarters literally blew up and there's only a handful of survivors. He didn't take it well.
he took it so badly in fact that he eventually ended up with goddam Jet and Obsidian, because it just so happened that they're looking for the same group that blew up JR to get rid of them! And since Lucidity, in shock and grieving and absolutely livid, is hunting them, they decided to team up.
yeah he lost his goddam mind <3
this whole thing started with me going 'what if i made ds dream evil and made him and obsidian kiss. could i do that?' and it evolved into "so there's a gay evil poly going on, but that's side story because right now we're watching lucidity's descent into evil and low-level madness as he hunts down [group] and otherwise just helps obsidian and jet achieve multiverse domination. because he's having fun."
He's also realized that he does care about nightmare a lot and really doesn't want to kill him, so there's that I guess?
oh the meme squad knows what's happening. they may be the only other ones from their MV who knows but I'm not certain yet
also Lucidity's versions of Obsidian and Jet are presently nicknamed Shale and Nightshade, respectively, though this may be subject to change.
While Lucidity's presence has made the situation in JMV much much worse overall, he has managed to get certain specific things to stop. jade and zuli are doing a little better now.
someone should probably stop them but honestly i have no idea who or how so they're just going to run free and cause severe problems for everyone. except nightmare. lucidity won't let nightmare get involved in any way, shape, or form, including trying to keep him hidden away in the manor. nightmare must go home and stay there.
(Nightmare, Cross, and Error are digging up all the information they can find about what's been happening in JMV. they have no idea what they're going to do with this information, because they're real sure they can't do shit, but they're looking.)
#I'm going to make these fuckers one tag just so it doesn't end up in sciency corners#Lucidity/Shale/Nightshade#Lucidity lost everything he had. *Everything.* and now he's gonna get revenge.#though he also got boyfriends out of it. and woe betide any who hurt them#on the bright (?) side there's very very few people who can actually hurt them other than each other. so he won't have to worry too much#shale naturally refuses acknowledge the fact that they're all dating. Nightshade and Lucidity? yeah. obviously.#him and either of them? what the hell are you talking about. why would you even think that. are you stupid#he's in denial dwbi#he *is* a little bit better about it when it's just the three of them. mainly because lucidity got tired of his shit even before the gay#and told him to knock it off#(with stronger language)#(and possibly a threat to fry his ass a little if Lucidity has to hear one more “I fucking hate you.” - “I love you too <33” - “fuck *off*”#but he's still an emotionally constipated little bitch (derogatory) (also a little affectionate)#nightshade meanwhile is having a GREAT time with his new boyfriend who can fly AND they keep ganging up on Shale when he's being stupid#because they lov himb <33#it's still a little Yikes but not as bad as it could be. which is saying something.
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canon wilson is just so sad and i think mgv would fix him
bc in canon it's a time when homosexual relationships are not accepted and they wouldn't have been able to get married (a large contingency of the wold still doesn't accept homosexuality)
but in mgv it sounds like a relationship between two men is acceptable/much less taboo if one is an alpha and one is an omega. so wilson could have that hilson dream-life that he so obviously craves. poor bby chase may be my fave but i still love him so much <3
side note do you (as in marc, not as in what house or wilson would do) like it when wilson is referred to as jimmy in fics and the show and stuff? i have some ppl i know on here who don't like jimmy being a name for him but i think it suits him if house does it. i don't think anyone else would call him that but i like it when house does because i think it can convey the perfect amount of endearment and mockery (i also have opinions on chase nicknames. i think he'd hate his first name being used in full bc bad memories, so he'd go for chase even in close relationships or prefer robbie/maybe bobby. can't envision him as a rob) (also i bet at some point house would refer to foreman as erica or ricky or something just to be irritating) (cuz he's like that. idk just watched an episode where he referred to chase as "the wallaby" so i'm in a house-giving-pseudoaffectionate-nicknames-while-simultaneously-attempting-to-be-insulting-is-lovely mood)
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wilson finally ticking off the boxes of "typical well adjusted normal man expectations" of having a good job, a wife (sorta), and a pup on the way, just. not in the way he'd expected. mission success! somehow! (he is not a well adjusted normal man. he can't be if he's with house)
imo i don't mind wilson being called 'jimmy' but only by house. 'jimmy' is a juvenile nickname for a man in his forties but house has probably referred to him as such since they met, when wilson as extra adorable and EXTRA extra adorable getting annoyed at house calling him that. teases him teases him teases him :3
house refers to chase as 'wombat' but inflects differently so sometimes it sounds like a mockery but sometimes sounds affectionate (usually sounding a little kinder the less company they have when he says it) though has called him "bobby chase" before to make him sound incompetent, probably to a patient
after their pup is born, house hesitates calling her anything besides her name even jokingly, too concerned with giving her a complex (a ripple effect of john's own parenting). meanwhile wilson calls her 'bug'. and variations of. she reaches for him, impatiently whining for his attention, and he'll chuckle and call her lovebug. she gets Baby Zoomies (and/or hand-flappy levels of Excite she has to get out of her system before her emotionally unregulated toddler body blows up) and he'll call her lightning bug. she has a nightmare and asks to sleep with her parents? bedbug. he loves that baby so much
#asks#anon#riff#mgv#house mgv#i just KNOWWW the s6 domestic hilson era is gonna do so much for me#in general but also in thinking about All That in omegaverse flavor#also can i just say i love how annoying house is#he's so kitty. standoffish and hard to bond with but you Learn Him. then you Love Him#in spite of how he keeps you from sleeping and keeps messing up your things and knocking stuff over#saying this rn as someone who was woken up every hour to let a cat in/out my room#and also tried stealing my leftovers when i was sleeping so would get evicted too#now he's asleep by my head as i'm saying all this. my son who i want to strangle sometimes and love very much
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4x03 | Isolation
#Farmer Daddy#Rick Grimes#*#rg#S4#excuse me but the nose™️#COLLARBONE THO#underrrated#his n e c k#oh...there's bram stoker knocking again#don't flash your chest at me you tart#would be a nice place to rest your face#im just sayin#spiky little curls#why ya gotta lean in a door way like that#it's me hi i'm the problem it's me#bout to refurbish my legs as a hula hoop#FOREARMS#also his arm hair but i'm not gonna be that weird right now#that bottom lip is illegal#even in the apocalypse
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I THOUGHT IT WAS HAPPENING NEXT WEEK OH MY GOD I WASN'T READY
I have a strong stomach but oh my god I'm gonna jump off a cliff.
#THE FUCKING SAWING NOISES#you know it's bad when not even an olivia cooke sex scene could knock the stupor out#FANTASTIC opening episode to this season but holy fucking shit#they stepped up their game this season my god#helaena baby you didn't deserve that#oh my god i thought blood and cheese was happening in episode 2 I THOUGHT I HAD A WEEK TO PREP MYSELF#also emma d'arcy the actor that you are that was PEAK#i'm gonna go lie down now#fishgills speaks#house of the dragon#hotd#house of the dragon season 2#hotd season 2#house of the dragon spoilers#spoilers#hotd spoilers#hotd season 2 spoilers#house of the dragon season 2 spoilers
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'Where ignorance is bliss, 'tis folly to be wise.' What happens then, when the line separating that knowledge blurs?
>>> Next <<< Previous (Destiny Bond; a Pokémon fancomic --- pt.1, pt.2, pt.3, pt.4, pt.5, pt.6, pt.7, pt.8, pt.9, pt.10, pt.11, pt.12, ???)
#Destiny Bond comic#WE'RE BACK FOR NOVEMBER GAMERS.................................... 💃💃💃💃💃#they've been distressed for the past few updates I'm giving them this chance to be sweet SDKJFSNJKDFNS#Morty gets to be silly . as a treat#in which he forgets that Eusine isn't from Ecruteak so he doesn't realize that having dizzy spells/fainting aren't a regular sight for him#with the town having fellow psychics and those attuned with higher powers it's practically the norm (much to Eusine's dismay /hj)#I'M NOT GONNA LIE I WAS NEARLY ABOUT TO LET HIM KISS HIS HAND THERE I WAS THIS 🤏 CLOSE#but contextually (with how this is still quite early in their friendship) the reassurance grip makes more sense#(that said you could say that Eusine Wanted to press his lips against his knuckles there but faltered out of guilt................ hohoHOho#after the hell of a month I've had I deserve to draw them being extra gay alright it's my dish I cook it how I want SFJSDFNSNDS /lh#ALSO guest appearance from Jumpluff !!!!! ☁️☁️☁️💕💕💕#the babey who's just out of the loop and confused over why their master is losing their Damn mind with a blond passed out on their lap#my god we're finally back on track with this car crash babey#now let's see if my freelancing allows for my weekly schedule again after all this time /manifesting /manifesting /knock on wood 🕯️🕯️🕯️#sacredshipping#morty/eusine#morty x eusine#gym leader morty#morty pokemon#mystery man eusine#eusine pokemon#pokemon#pokemon gsc#pokemon hgss#pokemon fancomic#pokemon comic#jumpluff
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i see even comedy that doesn't typically "punch down" has circled back around to using crackhead/crackwhore as a joke. i'm so exhausted by you all. you are so cruel, so casually callous, it's worrisome. you don't realize how easily that could be you. you think you're so superior, so pure, so intelligent as if addiction cares about how smart you are or what you do in life. as if this entire country (usamerica) is not machinated in a way to get people hooked on painkillers. as if the docuseries industry isn't busting with expositions that reveal the wide-ranging sprawl of addiction here and exactly how manipulated we have been. as if loads of people in "white collar" jobs aren't addicts. as if loads of stay at home parents aren't addicts. as if addicts can't have pearly smiles and collect a paycheck. as if there's any real merit between the person who got into a party drug as an impressionable kid then couldn't stop and the lawyer who started doing coke to stay awake for 80-hour workweeks then couldn't stop and the unsuspecting patient who was prescribed opioids by a doctor then couldn't stop. there's not. no one is better than anyone else. addiction is leveling. equalizing.
and the worst part is you are one, too, you up there on your high horse. you're addicted to something. something in this world has its claws in you, its grip on you, that you want to stop but can't, that you could not stop without support. so shut up. shut the fuck up. the people you call crackwhores, meth heads, junkies, etc. they are real fucking people. we are real fucking people just like you. we are real people who deserve your fucking respect and compassion. we are just people who are trying to exist within a system that is trying to eat us alive, just like the rest of you. it's not cute. it's not fucking cute. it's not cool. stop fucking laughing.
#lol brb i'm gonna go have a cry now then throw myself into work#i am feeling so worn by how intentionally mean people are to each other like#not the oops i didn't realize that was offensive kind but the#intentionally. on purpose. derisive and dismissive and cold. and unwilling to reach for empathy or compassion or consideration at all.#yeah keep knocking us down to size. one day it will be you if it's not already.#a doctor prescribed me xanax when i was SIXTEEN FUCKING YEARS OLD. FOR MIGRAINES.#i realize i have yet to process how that affected the next [check notes] 14 years of my life#you know. since. he just kept refilling it for me even though years would pass btwn seeing me in person lol.#anyway wow sorry think i just found out what i need to talk abt in therapy this wk!#my lyfe#driveby post#addiction#drugs
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do you ever just regret all your life choices
#noopa rambles#I agreed to do more extra shifts in my side job this summer#and I knew april/may was gonna be Busy(tm)#but I just got my shifts for may and oh my god#one of the weeks is a 48h week#just kill me now#I mean we do love the money but at what cost#my sanity that's what#it's gonna be fun to juggle this with translation jobs...#at least the rest of the summer shouldn't be as bad#yes I'm knocking on wood for that#it's just. for some reason everybody and their mother wants to host a thing in may#they're not quite as keen hosting things during the summer vacation season so there's gonna be less things then#well. during the week anyways. almost all weekends are booked.
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they shouldn't let me stay up past midnight bc then I start identifying every single problem I've ever had. No solutions found. Net zero personal progress and 0.5 hours of sleep are achieved
#ramblings of a lunatic#ignore me I'm having a moment#actually wait that's one of the problems we (the brain council) identified. is my need to not have problems where ppl can see#oh very problematic of my brain. not a fan#look i just got out on christmas break for college the term is catching up to me#i didn't make any real friends and it's not that I'm surprised..but yeah I'm surprised. i forgot about My Whole Deal somehow#like girl do the math. 7 yrs to make A FRIEND. SINGULAR. came pre packaged w/ 2 friends but took you 4 more years to make another one-#-independtly. straight up did not understand friendship and human relationships until you were at least 16#did we honestly think we were gonna knock it out of the park in terms of socialising this first term???? did we????#wishful thinking ig#oughh. college...bad. or not bad but. strange. and lonely. and yeah kinda bad#existentially horrifying in ways i didn't even realise were possible. i get why so many tma fans were college students/grads now#college just irl cosmic horror#anyway. i think i should try and sleep now lest the brain demons get the better of me#but also I've gotten like. 4 hours of sleep total over the last 6 days- not for lack of trying mind you#so like. I'm anticipating a struggle.
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