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tinystrk · 5 years ago

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“And I am Iron Man.”

Steve watched him powerless, he watched Tony, his husband, the love of his life, the man that gave him a home, a purpose to stay in the 21st century with the gauntlet and the 6 Infinity Stones on it ready to snap his fingers.

He watched him sacrifice himself because that’s what Tony does. And that’s one of the many reasons why Steve is irretrievably in love with him. He saved the world once again but at what costs ?

The light that the snap provokes made them blind for a few seconds, but when their vision came back, they saw that Thanos and all his army start to disappear. With a single snap the universe has been saved but for some people they just lost theirs.

Steve focuses his vision on Tony and saw him, he saw him fall on the ground. He saw Tony fall on the ground on multiples times but this time he knew that it would be impossible for him to stand up. His heart was pounding hard in his chest, it felt like a thumping noise in his ears, it was like someone was making knots with his stomach. He ran to Tony like he never ran before.

Peter was at his sides saying “Mr Stark. Mr Stark we won.”

Steve dropped on his knees, like his legs were abandoning him.

He took Tony’s face between his hands, a half of his body was burnt and he seemed barely conscious.

“Hey.” Steve managed to say despite the lump on his throat.

Tony’s gaze was focusing on nothing, then, he moves a little and was now looking at Steve.

“Hey baby.” His voice was hoarse and tired. He tried to lift a hand to caress Steve’s face, his hand was shaking and felt like weighted a ton.

Steve took his hand and placed it on his face. “We did it. We won.” He smiled and Steve wanted to cry, it was like drowning.

Steve didin’t know to say after that or maybe he knew but he couldn’t utter it so he just kissed him. A soft, chaste kiss, just a touch between theirs lips.

Both of them knew what was going to happen but none of them wanted to admit it out loud.

“I know you will but take her of Morgan.” Tony’s voice became more and more low and broken.

Steve didn’t want to cry in front on him so -because he knew he couldn’t contain himself any longer- he just hugged him, so tight. His hands were clutched on his neck, caressing it and ended up on his hair. Tony’s face was pressed against Steve’s shoulder and was breathing his smell, like it was his oxygen and it was.

Steve’s chin rested on Tony’s head and he thought that it was impossible that it was their last hug. After everything they’ve been through, after everything they’ve overcome.

Steve thought it was unfair, and it was. They had their little girl to raise, she needed her dads. But sometimes life’s a bitch even with the people the most devoted.

Steve felt Tony’s embrase was less and less present, his heart was beating faster but at the same time it was like it wasn’t beating no more.

He grabbed Tony and hugged him even harder to try to maintain him with him but deep down he knew but it was too late.

His sobs started to getting more and more audible as he heard -but he wasn’t even sure, it may be was an hallucination- “I love you both more than my life.”

“I love you so much, don’t dare you leaving me Tony. I will not allow it.” His body was shaking due to the sobs, and even if that’s not technically possible he’s sure that one part of time died at this moment.

———

Steve always hated funerals. No matter who was buried, acquaintances or not, he hated it.

So when he had to bury Peggy, it was already very hard for him and it reinforces his hate towards funerals. But today. Today was the most painful thing that he will have to do in his life. But he had to, je can’t let Morgan deal with the death of his father at only 5. Those things shouldn’t be possible. You shouldn’t have to bury your father at 5.

Tony had left a final message and seeing his face again only made Steve more awake than he really lost him.

It was painful, even more than that, he thought that no words exist to express what he felt like to assist at the funeral of the love of your life.

Steve has Morgan in his arms, while the jar of flowers was floating on the lake and was taking away by the water stream, and she was brave, very brave, just like her father.

After that, Steve knew that he still had that mission to complete, he knew that he will have to return the stones. That was clearly the last thing he wanted to do but still. If Tony was here, he would have said to him “No rest for the wicked.”

Morgan was still on his arms, she had her face buried in his neck, she hadn’t said a word in several minutes.

Steve hated the idea of letting her even if he knows that’s for her, it will just be 5 minutes and that she will be in good company but, still.

“Sweetheart.“ Steve said softly as he was gently rubbing her back. “Daddy has to go to work.”

She straightened up from his embrace, looking at him with her big eyes which looked a little confused.

“Where? How long will you be gone ? Can I come ?” Her voice was smooth but with a little bit of excitement, this made Steve smiles.

He kissed her on the cheek which he will be rewarded by a big smile from her daughter.

“I’m sorry honey, it’s very important but don’t worry I will be back soon I promise.” While saying that he thought of Tony’s words “And to not die trying would be nice.” and he felt a pinch in his heart.

Bruce might have overheard him because he heard on his back “Steve—”

Steve turned around and face him.

“Steve you just lost your hansband, that’s quite a lot. You don’t have to do that, I can if you want.” Bruce has always been very comprehensive, Steve is lucky to know such good people, he knows they will take care of Morgan.

He gave him a tired smile. “Thanks Bruce, I really appreciate but I feel like I have to do it. Alone.” He tried to emphasize the last word because— because he wanted to go back to give the stones, but, also to see Tony one last time. He knows that it’s selfish and he always hates selfish people, but he needs it.

For Morgan, it will be just 5 minutes, but for Steve it will be like a rebirth. Because without Tony, he’s nothing and he knows that if he does a proper goodbye, it will be easier for him to continue to live afterwards.

He thinks that Bruce understood because he faces him a gentle smile and a little nod.

Steve founds Bucky and Samy near the lack.

“Hey chip and dale.” Steve almost shouted which made them turn around in a hurry. “I have to get going so I’m leaving you this.” As he pronounced the last word, he putted Morgan in the arms of Bucky which she doesn’t seem to complain about.

“Get go— Steve ?” Bucky looked at him with question marks in his eyes.

“Yes. The stones.” He said while scratching his neck nervously.

”After everything that has been going on ? Huh huh. You stay here with your little girl and someone else will go.” Sam replied with almost an aggressive ton but it’s because he was worried.

“Yes I know, but I really have to go. It will be just 5 minutes. I— I’ll be fine.“

“It’s not only because of the stones that you want to go..” Steve knows that Bucky knows so he looks at his feet a bit embarrassed.

Steve lifts up his head and faces Bucky, looking right in his eyes. ”I need it.” He tried to keep his voice neutral but there is definitely a broken note.

Bucky was about to open his mouth but just closes it and nods at him. “She’ll be in goods hands.”

Steve puts a hand around Bucky and hugs him while whispering a little ”Thank you.”

He didn’t even have the time to turn around to leave that Bucky grabs his arm and made him look at him. “Come back to us Steve. We need you.”

Bucky wasn’t his best friend for no reason, he knew why Steve wanted to go, and why he might be taunted to stay. But Steve knew his mission, knew what waited for him in 2023 and that he couldn’t stay in 2012 forever. So he just nods at Bucky, hugged him one last time, hugged Sam and kissed his daughter on the forehead, repeating her that he will be back so soon that she wouldn’t even have the time to notice that he was gone.

——

Giving the stones back wasn’t the thing that took him the more time.

When he saw Tony, it was like his heart started to work, almost as if he has never been fonctional before this moment.

He couldn’t wait so he took his courage, goes and explained to him the situation.

“So you’re Steve from the future ?“ Steve just nods at him. “You’re from 2023, year where you and I are married, year where we have a little girl and year where we won against the biggest threat of the galaxy and which led to...” Tony stopped talking, was juggling nervously with the screwdriver that he had in his hands because he was tinkering when Steve came in his workshop.

“Yes.“ Steve acquiesces with Tony’s thought and it hurts him. It hurts him because he came in this timeline, where they were all safe and were just starting to get along together to tell him that he will die. Like a cursed messenger.

Fortunately there was a chair nearby behind Tony, because otherwise he would have fell on the ground. He puts his elbows on his laps and hide his face in his hands.

“How does she looks like ?“ Steve knows that he heard well but is confused. This destabilized Steve who was waiting for others questions, but not this one.

“I came her to say that you will die in 11 years saving the world but the only question that you have is about our daughter ?”

Tony stretched his fingers which was covering his face which offers a glimpse of one of his eye. “What ? It’s that much crazy ?”

“I don’t know, I thought that you would have wanted to ask others questions.”

“How long since we’ve been married ?” Tony straightens up on his chair.

“Huh 4 years.” Steve said still confused.

“Who proposed ?”

“You.”

Tony seemed perplex about all these information.

He was about to ask something else when Steve anticipates on what he was going to say. ”Her name is Morgan. She’s 5. And she’s amazing.” When he said that, he promised that he saw Tony’s eyes brightened.

“Did we have her when she was a baby ?” Tony asked more focus than ever.

“Yes. That was an amazing day. We both were so stressed, even if you would showed it less than me. I think it was to help me to not breaking down.” They were both smiling. Steve because it would reminds him some of his most precious memories and Tony, well, because he always wanted to be a father.

“Our life seems amazing.” Tony was laughing of joy, Steve nearly forget his sound and it warms his heart.

“It definitely was.”

“Yes until—” He didn’t bother finish his sentence.

Steve just nods softly, with a tired smile on his face.

“So you can’t stay ?” Tony suddenly asks standing up from his chair.

“No sweetheart I can’t.” Neither him nor Tony pointed out the pet name.

Tony was standing a few inches from Steve, and he was contemplating him. Tony looked so much younger, his hair were so dark -even if he absolument loved the grey hair-, there was a lot less of shadows under his eyes. He looked tired but less.

Tony made one step further and couldn’t been more close of Steve, he could felt his breathing, his breathing which clashed on Steve’s neck which makes him shiver. He missed this so much.

“If you can’t stay, at least, kiss me goodbye.“

Tony nearly had time to finish his sentence that Steve’s lips were on his. It felt like breathing again for Steve, like he was apnea all this time. His lips tasted the same : coffee and mint.

It was so good to feel his lips again, to lick his bottom and upper lip, to taste his tongue. How will he manage to live without that ?

If the lack of oxygen wasn’t present, they probably would never break apart.

“Damn Rogers, you’re a hell of a kisser. I look forward to kiss you in the future.”

This made Steve smiles, even if, everything that Tony says made him smile.

“Don’t wait too long baby, I’m pretty sure that there is a Steve Rogers upstairs that starts to catch feelings for you.” Steve remembers this, the time things were easier. The time, his only big problem was too not let show too much that he was attracted by Tony.

”Thanks for the tip.” Tony winked and smiled.

Steve was caressing his cheek, rubbing his hand thought his jet-black hair. Then, he pressed theirs foreheads and said “I really have to go now. I have to go take care of our daughter.”

Tony nods and pressed one last kiss on Steve’s lips, almost like a promise.

“You know, she looks more and more like you everyday.”

“Does she ?” This made Tony smiles softly. He lowers his head to look at the floor at he said those words, like when he’s embarrassed and that he doesn’t wants people to see it.

“Yes and that’s one of my favorite things about her.” Steve was getting ready to go back and it’s hard, really hard to leave him for the second time.

But at least, Tony’s alive, he still have his own Steve and that’s the most important, the fact that for now they have each other.

He had his helmet on and he saw that Tony watched him closely so he just said “You made this Tony. Never doubt your capacity of building things.” He was about to activate the time GPS but he just took one seconde to look at him, to look at him one last time, for the last time he admires him and just launched before going ”I love you 3000.” and he was gone.

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#tony stark #steve rogers #iron man #captain america #avengers #avengers 4 #avengers endgame #angst #not really a fix it #stevetony #stevetony fic #stevetony au #stony #stony au #that’s kinda shitty #but english isn’t my native langage so—#i was supposed to work for my finals but instead i wrote this...#stony fic

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firehananas · 4 years ago

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Please your Sniper Mask headcanons are so good 😍 I feel like you really captured his character and made me smile at how soft it was 😊 if you have the time I'd love to see you write more for him! Maybe a short drabble?

Hello fellow Sniper Mask simp! ✨

First of all, thank you for the compliments, it means a lot to me 😭 tbh I wasn’t expecting to have so many notes??? It really melt my heart people likes them especially since I didn’t even read the manga/watch the show lmao. I’m happy it makes you smile :3

So, to answer you, I have a good and a bad new!

The good is... Right now, I’m writing not just a Drabble, but a WHOLE fanfic reader/Sniper Mask (fem!reader tho). I’m tempted to publish it on Tumblr, but I’m still unsure yet... However, I’ll definitely made an “adviser” for the publication on my AO3 account and Wattpad! For now, I wrote 5 chapters with ~ 3000 word per one. I’ll start publishing when the 10 chapter is done (if I can’t contain myself anymore - I really would like to end the entire thing before publishing, but knowing myself...)

And for the bad one... it’s going to be in French 😩 The thing is, I’m not really confident in my English skills - all the reversed in my native langage. I know I’m good in it (it’s not perfect of course BUT it’s certainly above average) while my writing skills in English... arf 💀 the last time I wrote a Drabble in English, it was so horrible I ended up not publishing it at all. But! If I found a beta, it would be a pleasure to made a translation :D

Here, a lazy preview to what it’s going to be about as a treat :

(In case you are wondering : NO, THIS ISN’T A BASHING!KUON FIC!)

#anon answered #fanfic #high rise invasion #this fanfic is basically Sniper Mask/Reader + bestie!Kuon and I won't accept any complains !

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thebittervampire · 4 years ago

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I was tagged ages ago by @elluvians and I’m finally answering, thank you dear for tagging me! 🖤🖤

rules: answer the questions and tag people you’d like to get to know better

when is your birthday: June 9th

where do you live: France

three things you are doing right now: I’m writing, switching between two fics because I have too much and too little inspiration at the same time ; I’m watching my cat who is playing, catching her tail in my NEW sheets ; I’m drinking Christmas black tea 💜

four fandoms that have piqued your interest: on random: The Witcher, Batman, Detroit: Become Human and Dishonored

how has the pandemic been treating you: a lot of downs, some ups, all not always connected with the pandemic though, but after almost a year, I manage to get used to it.

a song you can’t stop listening to right now: Boulevard of Broken Dreams, the way too happy cover by Melodicka Bros, which is a masterpiece!

recommend a movie: Happy Birthdead, I’ve watched it again this afternoon and this movie put a huge smile on my face! One of the few ‘feel good horror movies’ I know.

how old are you: 28

school, university, occupation, other: still working at the medical bookshop, it’s a miracle after what happened in 2020, but we’re still on thin ice...

do you prefer heat or cold: it depends: I love hot weather but... it’s the south of France, it’s TOO hot after 15th June until 15th September

name one fact others may not know about you: I’m a Christian, not something I say right away on the net, but I know my mutuals won’t see me as a zealot

are you shy: not really

pronouns: she/her

biggest pet peeves: dirty fingernails, I swear, I can’t stand it. Washing hand it’s important, for you, for others, so when someone has black dirt under their nails, ugh... Sure, some jobs are manual, linked to earth, but hey, my boyfriend is cutlery maker, so at the end of the day, he had iron filings under his nails. Guess what? After he took his shower, his hands are clean!

what’s your favourite “dere” type: none, not really into that stuff

rate your life from 1 to 10 (1 being crappy and 10 being the best it could be): mmmh, hard question, 7 close to 8?

what’s your main blog: this one

list your sideblogs and what they’re used for: @horrorvg for all the horror video games, @samsevenwrites for my writing blog and @lectures-du-vampire-aigri for my French reading blog.

is there something people need to know about you before becoming friends: the same as @elluvians : replying to messages take me a lot of time and for many reasons: English isn’t my native langage, I’m usually answering at night, after work, etc, so I’m tired, I go through talktative/quiet moments... and last big problem: I often lose all notion of time. I can answer you right away or one month later (feeling really stupid) because I forgot we aren’t in January anymore.

But it’s never because I don’t like you: if I really don’t like you, if you bother me, I’ll make it clear. As one of my friend said to me: my outspokenness is a quality and a flaw at the same time. Never think I pretend with you.

I’m tagging, if they want to answer, @sapphicmadameumbralis, @daily-dimitrescufam (I couldn’t find you with the previous URL, I got scared!), @yverocher, @dunwallcourier, @joker-theclown, @mcgruffy-privatedetective, @this-is-my-sp0t and @lisaflowers

#tagged #about me #elluvians #thank you very much 🖤#sapphicmadameumbralis #daily-dimitrescufam #yverocher #dunwallcourier #joker-theclown #mcgruffy-privatedetective #this-is-my-sp0t #lisaflowers

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yamichi-novara · 4 years ago

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❤️🌹🌈 ¡ ¡ Feliz Mes de la Fierté ! ! 🌈🎵💜

This will never happen, but I just really want to see Elena & Esmeralda together because I love them so much... !

I’m a french black gay, and I was born in the same year than the Hunback of Notre Dame. I really love this movie now because it’s speak about Diversity, Justice, Equality... when you thought about french characters you thought about Belle & Cinderella, but Esmeralda is absolutely the Most Accurate French character from Disney ! A real French is not white, a real French is just someone like you and me speaking about Rights for everybody ! ...Sometimes I really feel like Casimodo, but then I remember that thanksfully some people like Esmeralda exist...in France. And it makes me so Proud of being French too !

I ship Esmeralda & Elena also because, Spanish is the native langage of Gypsy people in France, so I just want to do a big Appreciation Post for all my Latino friends ❤️ I don’t understand why Esmeralda is not a Official Disney Princess... basically it’s like she’s the Gypsy Disney Princess ! She should be a Disney Princess exactly like Mulan. And she’s also MY French Disney Princess ! Not Belle. Not Cinderella. (but I love them too !)

I’m glad Elena is a real Disney Princess... but I’m so disappointed that she’s not an - Official - Disney Princess... a Latina Disney Princess is exactly what was missing in the Disney Princesses Squad... and she’s not Official - too ?! I can’t believe it. Disney could just do a Spanish Princess or a Mexican Princess, but they did the Princess of all the Latina Culture ! I love her series so much because of that ! The Latina Culture is so Colorful and Joyful ! When I watch that I just feel like it’s possible to live like that... but in Reality, people like Elena & Esmeralda are still underrated because they are not how the Reality want them to be. And you know what I mean.

...Anyway, this is not really a “Pride Month Post” but I wanted to do an Appreciation Post for my two Favorite Latina Disney Princesses even if they are not official ! If you are Gypsy or just Latino be Proud of yourself ! ...Especially if you are Queer 🌈

/!\ PS : I just want to be sure... is “Gypsy” an offensive word in English ? In french we say “Gitan/Gitane” but there is nothing offensive about this word ! I use “Gypsy” because it looks like the correct Traduction... isn’t it ?

#Disney #Elena of Avalor #Esmeralda #Pride Month #Disney Femslash #The Hunchback of Notre Dame #Elena Castillo Flores #Disney Princess #Appreciation Post #Disneystore #Mattel #Barbie #My dolls #💜💙💚🌈 Pride Month 🌈💛🧡💗

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nuttytani · 4 years ago

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I have a question out of nowhere : which langage do they actually speak in that manor ? It is in english so that we can understand but is it really ? They seem to speak the same as parisians so are they all bilingal or do they speak french all the time ? It s been bothering me

Personally I think they speak in English and their native language= bilingual. It wouldn't make sense for some(or tbh most) of them to know french in the first place except for our dear MC who is in fact multilingual

Learning a new language isn't an easy task so I doubt they actually know french unless there's a need for the residents to know it. And also the fact that they live in Paris, where most of the people actually DO speak English. Though I'm not completely sure since the timeline is different.

And also-- do y'all remember the prologue? When Arthur encountered with MC he said "oh she looks scrumptious!" And the MC's thoughts were "oh he's definitely a Brit". He could have just spoken in french especially when he didn't know that she can speak English or not.

Before I used to think that they'd speak French in the manor, but when I actually thought about it...it only made sense that they'd speak in English or their native language.

Then again, it's all up to the reader's interpretation~ this was my perspective! I'd like to know what others think about it and their take on this!

This was an interesting question, and I myself think of it whenever I play the game XD so you're not alone~

AAhHhh this became a bit long :") oopsie.

Edit: check out the comment section for other perspectives and answers y'all!!

#tani's trash post #uwu asks~#ikemen vampire #ikevamp

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utilitycaster · 5 years ago

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theorphanmaker replied to your post “Accents of Exandria”

ah yes the plentiful langues of "eastern European" and "Russian" love those categories

I’m not sure if this was meant jokingly or sarcastically but it’s a good opportunity either way to talk a little bit about the challenges of describing and figuring out accents that I ran into here. They’re in part due to the limits to my knowledge and experience, in part due to the incredible diversity of accents in the real world even within the same language, region, or city, in part due to the limitations of even a talented voice actor, and in part due to the fact that Exandria doesn’t have a Britain, or Russia, or Europe so we’re using accents that exist in our world to describe accents in a completely different and fictional universe.

(obligatory disclaimer that I’m a hobbyist, not an accent actor nor a linguist, and if you have specific and actionable constructive advice I welcome it).

Before I start, those specific, verbatim categories of “eastern European” and “Russian” were picked in part because of the notes Matt tweeted out here. Also Russian is a language? So to address what might be going on here...

Eastern European isn’t a language - this is true. The words we use to describe accents are not always a perfect one-to-one match with languages. If you asked most people to tell you what accent Percy had, for example, they’d probably say “British”, which is true. British isn’t a language. Neither is Texan (Fjord’s put-upon accent).

Eastern Europe is indeed a tricky definition and the exact makeup of eastern Europe is itself a subject of debate but it’s also an accent actors would see on call sheets; people from that region of the world have different accents but on the whole there are some shared traits among said accents. I've seen a lot of discussion on where exactly Jester’s accent is from and honestly, I couldn’t tell you (nor could most people, because it is probably something of a compound accent that doesn’t match up exactly with any specific country or language) - but it sounds eastern European in its traits (the ‘ih’ sound when stressed becomes more of an ‘ee’ sound, her ‘r’ sounds tend to be fronted, the ‘a’ in Traveler sounds closer to an ‘eh’ sound, and so on). These are qualities her accent shares with Kree, who Matt noted had an eastern European accent, even though they don’t have identical accents. For the most part, everyone has a few individual accent quirks anyway (referred to as idiolect).

(sidebar - while I don’t think it’s a perfect match the accent I’ve heard that sounds closest to Jester’s is Romanian. Jester doesn’t have final obstruent devoicing - listen to how the ‘d’ in “Fjord” is pronounced as a ‘d’ when she says it, vs how Caleb says it almost as a ‘t’ - and neither does Romanian, but many languages spoken in that region do devoice final obstruents. I also think the coastal nature of Nicodranas evokes southeastern Europe - I remember someone drawing comparisons between Nicodranas and Dubrovnik (I don’t have enough familiarity with Croatian speakers; I did a quick search and some dialects have this feature and some don’t so if anyone reading this can speak to Jester’s accent being Croatian with some level of knowledge, let me know!)

Anyhow: using a regional descriptor of accents even when many different languages are spoken therein (eg: an Indian accent)- or using regional descriptors of accents even when they’re within the same country and people with that native accent speak the same native langage (eg: a Texas accent and a Boston accent) is pretty normal. People from the same geographic area can have different native accents based on socioeconomic/cultural factors: to use the TV show The Wire as an example, most of the characters are supposed to be natives of Baltimore, but the working class white accent is not the same as the African-American accent.

Another possible point here was that Russia is (at least partially) in Eastern Europe: this is also true. We can refer to accents very specifically (eg, “Percy has a Moderate Received Pronunciation English accent”) or very generally (eg, “Percy has a British accent”). If I had to speculate re: Matt’s notes, it might be that he wanted to clearly distinguish Kree’s accent (eastern European) from Oremid Hass’s accent (Russian). As mentioned above each language has some distinct features within the accent. Because Russian was specifically used as a descriptor I broke it out from the larger Eastern European accent group.

I’m not sure if an implied point here was that Russia is a language spoken across a huge country with a multitude of regional accents in which case this falls under the same case of, for example, Texan accents not being the same in every single part of Texas. Houston isn’t going to sound like El Paso.

Next: actors have limitations! We’ve seen this with Taliesin specifically trying to develop his Irish accent work. Sometimes it’s a learning process, but also sometimes people pick a collection of traits often seen in a broad accent category but that are unlikely to be seen within the same accent of an individual: for example, using non-Rhotic (not pronouncing all the ‘r’ sounds after vowels) pronunciation found in many London accents with the vowel sounds of a West Country British accent, which is Rhotic. It’s not a realistic accent you’d be likely to find in the real world, but it is a consistent speech pattern with internal logic. This is why a lot of dialogue coaches recommend that people listen to a single speaker and imitate them if they’re trying to get familiar with a specific accent. However, because this is Exandria, not Earth, if you mix and match your accent patterns and come up with something new, that’s okay! Jester’s accent might not fit an Earth category other than “kind of eastern European sounding” because again, Jester isn’t from the Ukraine or Romania or Belarus, she’s from Nicodranas.

Exandria is further complicated because in D&D, every player character is at least bilingual, many are multilingual, and while everyone’s speaking in Common most of the time it’s up to the player whether they learned Common or their racial/regional language first. Matt usually plays it so that most dwarves, for example, speak with a Scottish accent whether they’re in Trostenwald, Uthodurn, or Kraghammer - it’s at least heavily implied this is the dwarvish accent, rather than a regional accent (though if you were to think about it, in Uthodurn and Kraghammer, cities with large dwarvish populations, this might become part of the native regional accent). Jester’s accent might be because she’s from Nicodranas (or it’s the accent of wherever Marion’s from originally) but it could also be how they’re depicting infernal, and she spoke that as a first language but Zahra and Molly didn’t - or maybe Zahra lost her infernal accent later on in life, or who knows? I’m a fan of embracing the vagueness here since Exandrian accents will never be a one-to-one match with the real world, but at the same time I had a lot of fun looking for patterns among those accents as they’re a cool part of world-building and tropes.

#theorphanmaker #critical role #accents

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bedlamgames · 5 years ago

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Q&A #100

Yes, been a hundred of this things. Totally a meaningless milestone which is one of my oldest tags on here (assuming any are left after the purge...) still I thought I’d do something for it.

Specifically I’ve gone back over the old Q&A’s and found some favourite questions and answers which I’ll be including in this after the usual round of outstanding ones. Possibly also with some extra commentary where appropriate.

Anonymous said: Hey. Any pair of characters connected by an Owned relationship/reputation seems to crash the game if you use either one of them on an assignment. Any chance of this being fixed?

- That should be sorted in yesterday’s update.

Anonymous said: Got a Forest Goblin with both Dancer and Clumsy. This seems like a very strange combination, but imagining it kind of makes me want to laugh my head off.

- Agreed I think that just works due to being amusing. Less poetry in motion and more of a limerick.

Anonymous said: In No Haven 0.871 the trait " Elementalist: Air " does not appear when using the estimate value function.

- Cheers for pointing out that oversight. Will sort.

Anonymous said: Hi sory english isn't my native langage, In No Have 0.871 TF Edition I have aquired a slaver But with a bug first i don't know how i acquire her and two she had noting , no name no perk jus a little description i will copy the full examine optin on it : - - - - ExamineName: Race: - Sex: - Status: - Reputation: Traits: Condition: 0 Will: 0 Estimated Value: 0 has a flat chest, a regular pussy, and has an unremarkable ass. She is the same size as most goblins, and .She is .

- That looks like an empty character in all respects. I believe there was an issue with Ritual Casting where that could happen and is now sorted. If you see it happen again please let me know what you were doing when they appeared.

Anonymous said: Hey Bedlam, watched stream where you discussed not selling slaves debuff, thing is i always imagined slavers being in this business for fun and pleasure first, and gold second. I mean why else would they agree to live in some Skyrim style, long abandoned really, hard to get to fort in the middle of nowhere, surrounded by hills and marshes(at least that how i imagine it)? So maybe you could make something like,"no new slaves, or slave training for X days, getting bored" or something like that?

- It wouldn’t be too harsh at all. Just a bit of a poke to encourage that you’re business model is based around being a slaver over the leader disappearing to the coast for a week and returning with suspiciously large amounts of gold. In that case you’ve got to think that your slavers might feel that they’re surplus to requirements :D

Anonymous said: I hope you're happy for taking so many hours of my life away from me lol. But playing this again; got a question about NH. Any plans on making some rival groups that we can interact with? Diplomacy, getting tribute, ect. It would be kinda cool to have rivals that push you along

Glad you’re enjoying it!

Likely yes. There’s ways currently now to set up a few ways to get tribute every so often. More groups though who are more hostile than the not-witches in the marshlands or the mistress of the Ensnared Rose are sure to be a thing sooner or later.

doof-ex-machina said: Have you read the Gorean saga by John Nornan? If yes, did it influence your vision of the No Haven world? Gor explores a legal female-oriented slave system, yheah, but there are pretty close similarities with NH in regards to the numbers of ‘fodder’ and the ways of training. Anyway, me personally thinks your world is even better because magic and draenei/succubi boobs, duh.

I haven’t but I am aware of them in general.

NH is a lot more equal opportunities than Gor where males doing it to females, females doing it to males, and all possible variations of that including others like futanari and sissies are likely to happen. Still high praise indeed, thanks!

And now onto some old questions starting with one from before where I realised beginning to combine these might be a good idea.

onedrift from 2015: Trying this again...what's your coder fuel of choice? Red bull, Monster, coffee? None of the above? Soon to be bimbofied slavemakers want to know!

- Heh, totally giving my nationality away (if it wasn’t blatantly obvious already) but the fuel of choice is copious amounts of Earl Grey tea.

Anonymous from 2015: Hiya, been a fan of your work for a long time, captions and games thanks for making them, but a question regarding whorelocks revenge, is it possible to get the tangle infection and bonds of insanity? in all my time playing them I never had either I dont think.

- Not in the current version. Basically I wasn’t happy with the implementation in terms of how they were removed so I disabled them for a bit till I can sort it out… which unfortunately has lasted quite some time.

Soon as I got this No Haven update done they’re top of my list of things to sort in Whorelocks.

(Oh zogging hell. Still not done that yet... Extenuating circumstance for sure with NH taking off and WR was still in RAGS at that point, but even so)

Anonymous from 2015: This is probably a poor place to respond to your open-ended poll question, but have you looked into Twine?

- I’ve looked at Twine and when I one day get round to Rough Landing 3 it’s definitely going to be done using it, but to me it looks like an incredibly poor fit for working on No Haven.

(Oh past me why would say such a thing even if it did make a lot of sense at the time. Let’s hope that guy was wrong)

Anonymous from Q&A #1: Title image is hype, cant wait for next update. recall you mentioned that you had enchantments planed for the update after next (or something there abouts) how far ahead have you planned ahead and any spoilers for the update after this one? :D

- Why thank you! I have several pages bullet pointed of what I have planned along with what I have in my head. For stuff not in the next update I’d say not counting more slave training assignments and options and more assignments in the other areas the big bits of content outstanding are;

Way more potions. (Still do do)

Enchantment/cursing of items system. (Also still do do)

Crafting Devices. (Also, also still do do)

Ways to manage encampments when they get to large by sending slavers/slaves to new areas to provide ongoing gold/supplies along with the occasional assignment. (Oh dear, also, also still do do)

More stuff for you like going on every assignment, bad ends for some of them, more interactions, being enslaved and so on. Basically lots more sub and also some dom content for when you’re not managing the encampment. (Woo progress made! Bad ends for some assignments going on are indeed a thing. Still work to do as I do want to give Crossbones and Into the Depths the QAYL treatment sometime)

Special events that will occur every so often that will affect things be it for good and bad. This will include a way to get a lost slaver back though perhaps forever altered by their experiences. (Woo again this is done. Definitely could do with more done with)

Encampment reputation to reflect a slaver’s standing with how the other slaver’s see them. This will includes slavers becoming slaves and visa versa. (On a roll now as a great deal of this implemented)

More biomancy options and improving thanks to a multi-part assignment. There will also be other multi-part story based assignments. (Partially done and the biomancy multi-part assignment has been started)

And a bunch more basically but those are the priorities after this next update. Probably not all in the same update though.

Anonymous from Q&A #6: I would play the hell out of Paranoia set in No Haven.

- Temptation to give slavers and you conflicting secret societies and agendas rising.

Y’know like…

Dire Panthers: A mottley band of young savage orcs, amazons and trolls out to raise hell by breaking stuff, setting stuff on fire and generally being a nuisance to everyone.

The Cooperative: A dedicated group of Frozen Queen cultists out to oppose the Human Empire by working together to make things better for the common people… till you know the Queen awakens and buries all the land in eternal ice.

Mage Smashers: Magic iz like wrong an’ stuff! We smash dem in dere stupid face till dey not so smart.

Fellowship-Fel: The denizens that lurk beyond our reality and infect our dreams with tainted nightmares are our friends! We must expose ourselves to as much corruption as possible to make ourselves like them. We see no flaws in this plan whatsoever, you see the chorus of whispers in our minds entirely agrees with us.

Psion: No changes need to be made whatsoever from the original version.

Trekksters: …and I think that’s enough of that, or further evidence of why I shouldn’t be allowed anywhere near RAGS or indeed tumblr when I have my old sourcebooks nearby :D

(Also apologies to most of you who have no idea what that was about!) (This is still far too much of a good idea)

Anonymous from Q&A #17: 2/2 and another hilarious one: Your succubus slave Jaeil was not looking so hot right now so Virholen just held her close and told Jaeil that everything would be alright. Jaeil was oddly quiet everytime you looked in on them and you wonder if they have resigned themselves to their fate. Condition: 45 (Change: 20) - Will: 47 (Change: 15)

After their mistreatment Jaeil sees no reason not to only care for them self as clearly no one else will leaving them hardened and even outright cruel. usc++

- You win best bug report in ages, that is beautiful :D

Anonymous from Q&A #37: Will there be other spirit races in the game besides wisps, such as undynes, gnomes, and dryads? And finally Im new to patreon. I decided to pay for the your character teir but ask for a unique because I dont really understand it. Is the “play your character” a scenario or what? And where do I go to talk with you on what I would like for it?

- True story, I had to google undyines and for ages I couldn’t work out what you were referring too as so many of the results were of that character from Undertale :D

Undines themselves would be no, but I do have a water spirit of a kind planned. (Still do!) Gnomes no, as I’m happy with Hakh Dwarven and the various Goblins as my short races. Dryads absolutely yes, and will be one of the advanced races. See the last Q&A for more details of those.

Thank you for your support! Those options are for those that want to play a specific character that isn’t available in the standard options or design a specific slaver that you can have in your encampment. If you want to see some examples of ones others have asked for before on the playable character front then Orc Wright Raptor, Lago’Mae Scholar or Goblin Underground Potioneer would be a good ones to look at to start off with.

As for the unique slavers then pretty much any of the slavers available under Strong Right Arm/Recruiter.

How much detail you want to go into is up to you. If you want to say oh I just want a Kitsune lady who likes to pole-dance then I’d put something together for your approval, or you can go full on detailing everything about them from their art, description, traits etc. and I’ll work with you to the point I’m happy having it as an option in the game. (Note: If you want an entirely new race like the Golems you need to go for the lore tier given the significantly larger amount of work involved)

For discussing please send me a message on patreon and we can take it further from there.

One thing to bare in mind is that patreon only charges at the end of the month, and so while I’m more than willing to talk it out, if you want to me to do a lot of work on your request I’m going to need to see a pledge go through first. It sucks I know, but this is the unfortunate reality of the internet that alas trust can only go so for.

I’m always happy to discuss things though, I really am, and some people have asked to pay some of their pledge upfront via paypal to get round this which is not a problem if that’s what you want to do.

valhallaimmortan from Q&A #47: I managed to get a elven smith who makes fancy armor that is usually masterwork quality, and equipped my ‘Basher’ Squad with it, the Basher’s are all Ogre’s who I recruited and I have a alchemist who seriously creeps me out with how many petrification potions he has been pumping out. I also like the Lago'mae Scholar how now the Lizard man is using her as his new project… poor Scholar… and I got to ask is it actually possible to recruit a keldan from the keldan mission in the city?

- I love this question, absolutely adore it, and you made the patron who requested the lizardman unique really happy when I mentioned it to them. If people want to send in their favourite/amusing/interesting slavers/slaves that have resulted from generation and gameplay I might do a tumblr post series on them called ‘Tell me about your Character’.

As to the question yes she should be on the critical result.

Anonymous from Q&A #61: Silly question. For clothing and armor, what in your mind is the major difference between micro, and impractical? I can’t really visualize a difference between the two when reading armor/clothing descriptions. Scandalously short is divergent enough that it creates its own image for me. The other two seem as if they would be interchangeable, but they aren’t since there is a distinction so what is it?

- Yay silly questions are always the best questions. Okay micro is where you have outfits that are recognizable bits of clothing but it’s incredibly brief so a skirt that’s more a belt than actually trying to cover anything whatsoever and/or a bikini top so teeny-weeny that it doesn’t even cover all of the nipples. Completely impractical though is the kind of clothing beloved by a certain kind of fantasy art which just doesn’t make any kind of sense whatsoever where looking good trumps any pretension of realism, and the only way it could stay on is either with copious amounts of glue or magic being involved.

Anonymous from Q&A #66: Hello again! I’m the guy who asked about the post-slave [slaver] titles. I’m going to very respectfully push the idea that ex-slaves should get unique titles. First, I honestly think having the unique titles is cooler. It’s more interesting to send a Chosen, an Acolyte, and a Hedge-Witch on an assignment than it is to send three Slavers. It’s a rarity thing, sort of? If you get a character who qualifies for one of those things, it’s a BIG DEAL. Secondly, it already changes with jobs, so…

- Alright, alright, you’ve twisted my arm :)

That should now be included for the most recent update along with a couple of new titles so that all of the more rare traits (not counting crafting ones) should have one. Let me know if there’s any issues as while it was a fairly straightforward change I didn’t get a chance to test that particular bit.

Thanks for reading and here’s to another hundred of these.

#Q&A #meaningless milestones

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antiantistoblock · 5 years ago

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I know this blog is for shipping and fujoshi discourse, but I have some thoughts on queer discourse and then some other things it reminded me of and since this is my only discourse blog, I’m going to say it here..

Its almost entirely native English speakers arguing about weather or not queer is a slur, and that makes me question if I, a native Polish speaker who is partially dependent on Google translate, can say queer. It’s an anglo word argued over by anglos and it’s something I never heard in Poland. Can I say it if I’ve never heard it positively or negatively? Can I say it if its not my langage?

Or what about dyke? Can I call myself a dyke? I’m a lesbian so I can say it, but I never heard that word until I moved to America. I heard different slurs. It’s a slur made by anglos, so can I say it? Can I say it if its never been used against me before?

Can I even call myself a lesbian? I love girls and just girls, but lesbian isn’t a word I heard in Poland. I had different word. Can I call myself an identifying word made by anglos? Sometimes English LGBT identities feel wrong for me, just in general, because they are not my native language

Going back to my original point, all queer discourse has done for me is make me feel unsure about using English LGBT terms in general because its mostly anglos doing the debating and my mind that’s been making connections. Weather or not your for or against queer being a slur, this is what you’re discourse has caused

#Kat meows #queer discourse

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xyanmajor · 6 years ago

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They told me once, i was a Warrior of Light. But i know they were wrong.

Cause they wanted me to unwrite the history and I only wanted to write my own.

Searching for the place that I could name “home”.

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Nixyan Shadowclaw - My first (and only) character on FFXIV.

I’m ready to present her >w ! And I will try to make a pretty presentation for you, RPers, don’t hesit to tips me ;w; !

Oh, note that english isn’t my native langage, so I’ll often talk in french but i’ll try to translate each time. There will be mistakes everywhere ;_; !

#ffxiv rp #ffxiv #ffxiv screenshots #ff14 #rp #oc #wol #omega #chaos #please be gentle #final fantasy #final fantasy xiv

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wonderbabe-crap · 6 years ago

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I was tagged...

Tag game

I’ve been tagged by @debgall ! (et j’ai vraiment trop pris de temps pour répondre T__T)

Rules: Answer 20 questions, so your followers can get to know you better and tag 20 people who you’d like to know better.

Name: Gaëlle

Nicknames: Babe (I swear some people really call me like that)

Zodiac sign: pisces

Height: 159 cm

Languages spoken: French (my native langage), English (not the best XD)

Nationality: French

Favorite fruit: Pineaple

Favorite scent: clean laundry, my man, forest, nag champa, books.

Favorite color: purple

Favorite animal: My little cat, I luuuuuuuuv cats!

Favorite fictional character: This one is reaaally HARD, Dumbledore from Harry Potter, Zuko from Avatar, THE Doctor (Tennant period almost), John McLane form Die Hard (so much good joke), OMG there isn't girl at all... Jo March was my hero when I was a child.

Coffee, tea or hot chocolate: TEA, I'm addict! Can't drink coffee (got a health problem) and even if I love chocolate, it's not really good for me either

Number of blankets you sleep with: one

When was your blog created: may 2014 but it wasn't my first

Favorite subjects: TV shows, movies, comics (from all around the world), Japan.

Currently watching: New season of Iron fist (With my husband), Bob sponge squarepants (the morning before work), Law and Order: Special Victims Unit (when I'm tired after work), Last airbender (because I watch it once a year) and I'm waiting for Steven Universe, Star VS Evil, Doctor Who and Miraculous Ladybug new episodes

Favorite band: Blur! In love with Damon Albarn since I'm 14

Instruments played: I played piano when I was young, I did a lot of solfeggio too (from 6 to 11 I think) but music was my dad thing so I stopped when I had the chance. I wanted to learn drawing.

Favorite books: Harry Potter for ever, I met so much wonderful persons from this community

TAG PEOPLE? If you're interested do it! Maybe @uky0 ? (aller ça te fera un post facile flemmard) ou @pinkpepperpaint @puffofaria or @phans-eldarya-adventure SI vous avez la flemme je ne vous en voudrais pas :p

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prudencepaccard · 6 years ago

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truly bizarre interaction that was like the intellectual equivalent of that thing at the karaoke bar

where this one guy who was part of a friend group I ended up hanging out with at a bar became progressively more deadpan hostile and competitive with me to the point that I finally returned his (explicit) challenges with a lighthearted plea for solidarity and then he claimed there was no competition but he’d LITERALLY SAID THERE WAS

it started with him asking me what my diss was on. I said “the imaginary of the bagnes metropolitains in the nineteenth century” and then used some synonyms in case he didn’t know what I meant because that happens sometimes, people only know one term so I was like “i.e., the bagnes metropolitains and the bagnes portuaires“ and he still seemed not to get it so I was like “travaux forces [hard labor]” and he was like “in what era?” and I repeated “the nineteenth century” and he seemed confused so I thought I’d address the most common source of confusion and said “not Guyana, not the colonies d’outre-mer, the bagnes metropolitains” and he was like “you mean Cayenne?” and I was like “not, precisely not that, the thing that preceded that” and he was like “Ah but that’s not travaux forces, that’s the bagne”

and I was like first of all, what, second of all I said “the bagne” first thing already but seriously what

and he was like “it’s not the same thing, travaux forces is anachronistic, we still have that today”

and I was like “but that was also a specific term used back then, a contemporary descriptive term. Along with the peine des fers. It’s in the code penal and it was used popularly. LIke you’re right that it’s not as specific as bagne but it’s not incorrect to use it interchangeably, they’re part of the same repertoire. Also I said bagne already”

and he’s like “well I didn’t hear you, sorry. And this isn’t an insult or anythiing but I’m just saying it’s wrong, French is very nuanced”

and I’m like “yes but it’s actually a very specific and correct term in this particular context. I get that there could be ambiguity potentially but since I’ve already estavlished that I’m talking about the bagne then travaux forces is a precise and apt term”

and he’s like “prisoners and bagnards aren’t the same thign”

and I’m like “yes but the word travaux forces can describe both. There’s overlap in some of the vocabulary and that’s one of the words in the middle of the Venn diagram. I get what you’re trying to say but you’re going too far”

“no, I don’t agree, you can’t use that term, it’s wrong”

“listen let me find an analogous example in English...so like, we use the term hard labor to describe actual practices today, right? but it’s still correct to say Oscar Wilde was sentenced to hard labor in the Victorian era”

“well how about the word slavery? would you use that interchangeably with travaux forces?”

“no, because it’s not juridique”

“aha see they’re three different things!”

“no they’re not that’s my point, there are two categories, travaux forces and the bagne have things in common with each other whereas slavery is in its own category”

“but they used the word slavery back then for the bagne too! [implying, I guess, that if it’s incorrect to say slavery for the bagne it’s incorrect to say travaux forces too]”

“only ona metaphorical level, the bagne was never characterized as slavery in legal documents etc. Travaux forces is a technical term”

“hey sorry I need a smoke” and then he just ended it there

and then later he asked me how many languages I knew. I’d already complimented him on his English and been genuinely impressed that he knows/dabbles in four languages which is more than I study seriously

but he was still just...like this. I told him I was only fluent in French and English but that I’d studied Russian in college and Mandarin as a middle schooler. I was very clear I suck at Russian and have forgotten all my Mandarin. Nonetheless later he made a reference to me speaking four languages and I said I didn’t and he kind of rolled his eyes and shrugged

and eventually he just...started quizzing me on words. Like do I know what this means, do I know what this means, it was super weird and confrontaitonal. And if you know me you know I have a SERIOUS complex about Getting Credit For PRecisely What I Know No More No Less. You also know that I am quite intellectually generous and will never be the first to start a competition but I also don’t like to lose so if I’m challenged I’ll be extremely petty and not my best self. While meanwhile trying to remain as collegial and kind and generous as possible under the circumstances. it’s weird like that

so there was this mix of me desperate to prove I knew a word when I did and ALSO being super chill and genuinely not insecure if I didn’t because I’m Happy to Learn. And BOTH these reactions seemed to spur him on. I think if anything the latter annoyed him more...like punching a too-yielding surface

That second act, btw, seems to have started when he said something slangy to his friend and then said “I ebt you don’t know what that means” and I said “yes I do!” (but like in a cheerful relaxed way because I didn’t know how weird this was going to get) and it turns out that I’d misheard what they’d said, like it was a good guess. But also he misunderstood what I’d misheard and said no I actually said XYZ which as another thing I didn’t hear him say at all (let alone mishear) and which had I heard it I actually WOULD have known what it meant becuase unlike the expression I’d (actually) misheard I knew what it meant. It was “entraver que dalle” which means “understand nothing” and it’s an expression I know from the title song of the movie “Rififi” (which I love so much I bought a lead sheet of it from the 1950s off French eBay and brought it to Marie’s Crisis. Unfortunately the key’s a bit high for me though). It goes “Vous avez l’air d’entraver qu’dalle, a mon histoire quand je vous parle, du rififi...” etc. Ironically about explaining slang. Anyway I like that phrase because it’s delightfully old slang but I’d never heard it said IRL for precisely that reason. So obviously I was kinda eager to show that I knew the expression and how etc. But he was just not returning the ball at all. Like I tried to do some wordplay like “I’ve always wondered wtf the origin of that expression is, it’s so weird, like [*”translates” it laterally in French by substituting synonyms for “entraver” and “dalle”--”enchainer que pave”] it’s a strange combination of words” and he shurgged and was like “yeah but it doesn’t work like that. It’s idiosyncratic. Like “bagne”

BRO

but fellas hands down the worst part was when I was right about someting and he made me doubt myself/concede part of the point because I didn’t want to be both wrong and arrogant (you know how much I hate that). So anything I was less than 100-percent-sure-I-can-cite-sources (i.e., anything intuitive or inferential or built on a foundation of knowledge that yielded a conclusion greater than the sum of its parts) was forfeited and UGH

like at one point he used the word “decortiquer” and asked me “do you know what THAT means” and yes I absolutely do, it’s not even slang/langage courant

and he was like “WHAT”

and I was like “explain, analyze”

and he was like “no”

and I was...confused ebcause...what do you mean “no”? So I thought hm maybe I’m missing some nuance and somehow that made me totally wrong? so I continued like “well like--reduce to its elements--”

and he’s like “omg guys look I can’t even define it in French and she’s doing it in a non-native language fuck”

and it’s liek WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM I DIDN”T WANT TO EVEN PLAY THIS GAME YOU STARTED IT

like who challenges someone to a contest and then pouts because they other person won

(not that you can “win” a conversation!!! irjfiejrdfi FUCK THIS)

and possibly-showing-off-but-also-trying-to-overcompensate-because-I-don’t-know-what-he’s-doing-here I continued like “it’s from Latin ‘cortex’ which means bark [ecorce in French] so when you decortiquer something you’re stripping off the bark and exposing the heart of the tree/matter”

and he just flatly goes “no I don’t think that’s the derivation”

and I’m like “maybe not, I might be saying nonsense”

“that’s not the derivation”

“what is it? if you know, I’m curious about what the etymology really is”

“I don’t know but it’s definitely not that”

(I’m home now. googled it. and

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then it just kept getting worse like he used the word “branlee” to describe what I was doing to him and then asked me if I knew what it meat and I neede dmore info so I was like “yes--wait” and he was leike “DO YOU OR DON’T KNOW” and I was like “well is it like ‘se branler’ or ‘ebranler’? same root?” and he was like “NO” and in hindsight it definitely is but whatever I DON’T MIND BEING WRONG OR LEARNING THINGS

and after he gave me a definition which made it clear he felt we were in competiton and he was losing--plus some EXTREMELY passive-aggressive “it’s a really common expression, it’s frankly surprising you don’t know it, blah blah” which I responded to with a cheerful “yeah I have a lot of lacunae then that! thanks for helping me!” and he with “yeah it’s really weird you didn’t know that” and me with “I know lol” and him with “I’m glad I could help you learn some French at least”--I finally was like “this branlee thing though, that’s really not what I’m doing! can we be solidaire instead?” (but like as nonconfrontationally as possible) and he was like “oh it’s not a competiton I’m just saying French people are like that”

well either way KNOCK IT OFF

#don't use the word #please

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dearmeteion · 7 years ago

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A Strange Journey (part 1)

Fandom: Supernatural

Word count: 1.340

Warning: None (for now)

Pairing: Future Dean x Reader, Crowley x Reader

A/N: This is my first fic, and english isn’t my native langage so I’m really sorry if I made some mistakes. I hope you’ll enjoy this first part !

PLEASE READ: I will probably never post the second part. I’m not so hyped by spn as I was before, so I’m leaving the fandom. For now. Sorry guys.

You were, as you always did when you had some time to spare, laying down on the couch, watching your favourite show. It was a show you discovered a month ago, thanks to a friend of yours. It was called Supernatural, and it was about two brothers who hunt, well, supernatural things. The title says everything. You weren't used to watch TV shows before (you were more into books and comics), but you literally fell in love with this one after the first season. You loved the plot, the characters, and the way this show managed to make you cry even if your inner-pride would never admit that. Even now, you were crying, because you’ve watched the final episode of the fifth season for the third time. Or maybe it was the fourth time? Well, doesn't matter. The fact is, that you were crying again because Chuck's story of the Impala was way too sad for your little sensitive heart. And Sam's sacrifice... this scene made your heart breaks every time. Sometimes you wished you could be in the show so you could change things and made them happy because Sam and Dean definitely deserved happiness, after all the things they went through. And not only them. Cas, Gabriel, and even Crowley and Lucifer deserved their happy ending ! It was really awful that no matter how hard the characters tried to be happy, they would always get hurt in the end. Dean and Lisa, Sam and Amelia... Well, actually, you were happy this was only a TV show. If it was real, you would surely have get yourself killed, trying to save them from their endless pain. Yes, you really liked the show. Maybe you were taking it too seriously, and maybe you were living more in your head, inventing you a live in your favourite show, than in the real world. You know, the world where you're stuck in your boring routine... Your life wasn't that bad, but it was boring. Everyday was the same. No wonder why you began to live in your head, even if it was weird. Fancy was your escape from getting depressed. You smiled to yourself, because no matter how people judged you because of your strange habit of living in your thoughts, at least you were happy. It wasn't your fault if fictional stories were way better than reality.

That night, you felt asleep without willing it, while watching (again) the sixth season. Your last thoughts before you fell into your dreams were about how boring tomorrow will be, and how much you wanted your fictional stories to be real. You would have done anything to make your dreams come true, anything. Your life wasn't exciting at all.

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When you woke up, you realized that your brain might have taken your wish seriously. Too seriously, maybe. You were in a very familiar car, a car you've seen so many times before: the Impala. Yes, THE Impala. It was empty, though. No Dean, no Sam, no Castiel here. You couldn't help but smile: that was the best dream you've never had in your life. You were in the Supernatural universe ! Quivering in excitation, you brushed lightly the Impala's wheel. Oh, my Chuck. That was awesome. You closed your eyes, enjoying the sensation, and you kept thinking about how a wonderful dream that was. You surely would have enjoy this even more if you knew how to drive. You sighed, took a deep breath to refrain your sudden joy and stepped out of the car. Well, you tried to get out of the car, because it seemed like you were locked in. "That was too good to be real", you whispered. You were in the AWESOME Supernatural TV Show and you couldn't get out of the Impala to enjoy the rest of your dream ? Seriously ? You couldn't let that happen. You could wake up and return to the boring real world in any second, so there was no way you would stay in there. You tried to force the car door but you weren't really the ''strong type'' so that was pointless. But you kept trying anyway, because it was YOUR dream and you didn't want to surrender to this car, and wake up before having the chance to meet your favourites fictional characters.

That's when you were pushing yourself against the door one more time that you finally heard them. You couldn't see them because you were stuck in that damn car, but you were sure it couldn't be someone else.

Sam and Dean.

You were fangirling so much, waiting in the car. Sam and Dean, in your dreams, for real ! The big smile on your face was showing your excitement but it was soon replaced by a shiver of terror. When he saw you in the car, Dean didn't think twice: he opened the door, throwing you outside the car without any kindness. You were on the ground, Dean pointing a gun right on your head. Sam was behind him, shocked.

You held your breath and show, slowly, your hands to them. "I-I'm unarmed, calm do—"

"Shut up", Dean said aggressively, the gun still pointed at your face. "Who the hell are you and what were you doing in MY car?!" You gulped. That definitely wasn't what you had expected. The only thing you wanted was to hug them, being threatened by Dean's gun wasn't a part of the plan. And he was way much scarier in real than on screen. You took a second to calm down. That was a dream, so even if he wanted to kill you, you wouldn't die for real. Still, you wanted to stay alive because you bet you would wake up if you were killed. "My name is Y/N. I, uh, just woke up in your car". You decided to tell him the truth, because you weren't good at lying and you haven't had the time to invent a story to justify your presence in the Impala. However, even if that was indeed the truth, the murderous look on Dean's eyes said that he didn't buy any of it. "The fuck? You ‘just WOKE UP in my car’? You'd better give me a real explanation if you want to keep your head on your shoulders. And quick". You stopped breathing. You opened your mouth to give him his ''real explanation'' but you didn't have one. You kept quiet, looking down. Sam, behind him, looked at you in a more kind way, but you could tell you were suspicious to him too. Even so, he put his hand on his brother's shoulder to calm him down. "Hey, Dean, wait. She's terrified, you won't get anything from her like this. Let's just get her to the house, check if she's human and make her talk". Dean turned around to look at his brother. "And what if she's a very good comedian? Maybe she waits for us to lower our guards to kill us ! Come on, I don't buy any of her shit, don't let her puppy eyes touch you." The next second, he was ready to shoot you but Sam stopped him again. "Dean. Stop." Dean didn't move for a moment, thinking of what to do. After a few seconds, he lowered his gun, and sighed. "Fine. Stand up and follow us, Y/N. If you do anything suspicious, you're dead".

Trembling, you went on your feet and slowly, you followed them. You couldn't tell if you were scared or excited at the moment, but the only thing you knew for sure was that you didn't want your dream to stop. After all, it was only the beginning of your journey.

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