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Leaving this here:
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#i could use some cash#but don't feel obligated or anything#i'm making a comm sheet for more than my art#it's just taking time to put together#making sure i cover all the bases#but if you want to tip just bc i won't stop you
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missing them
#my candy love#mcl armin#mcl lysander#people i'm forever going to miss them so so so so much omg#and not to be mean or anything because it's makes me sad too but i think that if there's like cameos of the OG characters#like they are probably going to be mainly Cas and mayyyyyyyybe Nath ig. maybe priya girliepop idk (i'm talking about LIs)#so i don't have the hope of seeing the loml in NG and of course they are not obligated to include them but. yk.#those two are the reason i'm in the fandom in the first place. every time i think about mcl i think about them#and i'm going to say it (i think i've said it before): i love the ep 3 thomas illu the most because i feel like it's soooo lysander route#also ep 2 thomas? armin route. people-#mcl high school life you'll forever be famous to me even if you are more than a decade old. idc ilysm.
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genuinely think it's good and healthy to follow at least one person in each of your fandoms who reblogs good gifsets but has just...absolutely dogshit takes on the show, or who ships that ship you despise. keeps things fresh. keeps things grounded. you gotta stay humble
#lauren feels things#fandom#this is mostly a joke post#obviously create the experience on tumblr that yOU want#you are not obligated to do any fucking thing on this website#but like....there are a few people I've been following on my other blog#(my real and anonymous one where I do most of my reblogging/fandom stuff)#and I've been following them for YEARS#or they're mutuals from the fandoms I've written fic for#and they just post the most out of pocket shit#or they ship ships that totally squick me out#or - the most annoying sin of all to me -#they post sanctimonious explanations about how the creators/actors/whatever#really feel THIS way about this particular thing#and all you other fans are wrong#(and like......no they don't. unless that actor or writer has said that#you have no idea they think that. also it doesn't matter what they think.)#but I'm honestly not kidding when I say this makes my personal fandom experience better#bc a) some of these people are just pals I disagree with!#and b) none of them are - like - toxic or anything#there's a certain kind of fandom discourse I do not tolerate#these people are mostly just kind of silly sometimes about stuff#and ultimately harmless#but it helps me understand a fandom better#and the fact that I've been doing it for like a decade now#means that i truly never get offended or hurt or feel any kind of way#when I see a bonkers take on something#bc I'm just like 'oh sure you're wrong but whatever good for you seems like you're having fun'#and sometimes ppl in fandoms take things SO PERSONALLY!#and it's okay that some people who make art you like or amazing gifsets feel differently about the thing you both love
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I'm not my best friend's best friend and it really pisses me tf off
#venting sry#don't feel obligated to read pls#but I've known her the longest#and she always says that she can always talk to me and everything#but then she can't give me anything for my birthday after I gave her a dozen of things and it would be totally okay#but a month later she gave her friend (closer friend?) something#and something#and i was like#😐#alr#and yeah and she has many internet best friends#and a crush#and she always talks abt them or goes out with irl friends#and talks abt her interests and everything but then acts like she doesn't care about mine#and it's not like she's a bad friend#she's just#idk#maybe it's a me problem#but eh#(i need to invest in a diary)#sry needed to get this outta my chest
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Creature. (The rendered ones are referenced from manga panels)
#mediocre art#tokyo ghoul#On some level I think I should like Kaneki more than I do but there's this weird sense of detachment#I have not only from him but being able to perceive him as a character?#I don't even dislike him it's just that I can't feel any which way about him at all. He's a catalyst for events#feels more like the conch from Lord of the Flies or something rather than a fictional person.#He doesn't suffer and learn from the consequences#he just suffers and does what got him there again. It's arguable that the lack of punishment denies him the satisfaction#but if that's the case why does he end the story with everything working out perfectly for him?#Why do his friends oblige his flaws and accept his lack of change?#Is the problem my lack of understanding or his lack of good writing?#Is he well written?#Why do I like a certain character from a different anime who's a very similar person with very similar dynamics#but with a goal and acceptance by himself and those around him that his actions really are reprehensible and cannot truly be atoned for#not only more but to the point that he's actually one of my favorites?#Am I just sitting upon a throne of entitlement#because his thought process and experiences are not catered to be applicable to and understood by myself?#GOD IF I KNOW ANYMORE#I'm not pressuring myself to like him or anything I just don't understand anything about kaneki these days and I don't know why
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Posting my best works because I'm opening commissions starting June 1st. Portraits like these are done in digital, take 10-15 hours on average, and will be around $50 depending on complexity. The only way I can get paid is through Pаypаl.
I'd appreciate it if you reblogged even if you have no interest in commissioning me. I'm going to be applying to university this year and I'm trying to save up some extra money.
Drawing queer people and characters during Pride Month gets a 10% discount and a kiss on the forehead from me personally. I'll be making another post sometime in June with all the other work I do, hope y'all won't mind your dash being a little cluttered. Cheers!
#I'd like to reiterate that I'm doing okay right now so don't feel pressured or obligated or anything#and while I appreciate reblogs there's absolutely no presure#can you tell i'm a bit shy? oh god#ray's work
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topology on this thing if anyone's curious. frankly they could stand to be a lot higher definition but i have disease of 'if i model something with more than 10k polygons i get scared' (joke)
#covers my face don't look at the legs and shoulders. legs were bc i had to fix something i didnt realize i messed up#and shoulders are uhhhhhhhhhhhhhh like that. smiles. i do not do a lot of retopo and edge flow still evades me but were getting there#3d#not tagging as chars or anything bc this isnt really Art its more technical. i just figure maybe someone here might have wanted to see#text#also i feel obligated to disclaim. i can retopo high poly but i didnt want to spend four weeks on this so. side eyes my last zbrush project
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i haven’t been here much recently, and i’m sorry i’ve only been negative on the off chance i’ve been online, but let me just say one last piece before the end of this month, so that maybe the next might be better….
#or maybe my time here ends w this month…i’m not sure i guess it all depends on how i feel but as of right now#everytime i think i'm fine i open tumblr and immediately am sad again the whole app has become my doomscroll at this point#i got a notification on a random talking post from a while ago and it felt like reading the words of a completely different person#lately i find it difficult to find any joy here at all when it always feels so lonely… a type of loneliness i’ve never experienced before#everyone always has ppl interacting w them who are interested in their stuff or are always sent things that are reminiscent of them....#i’m always praised for remembering stuff abt other ppl but i wonder if anyone remembers anything abt me#what is it about me that is so forgettable am i dull am i uninteresting did i not solidify myself enough do you guys just not like me lolz#but i don't want this to come across as guilt tripping or being ungrateful to what i do have because ik comparison is the death of joy but#it's still hard to watch when it's so in your face and it makes me think if ppl only talk to me because they feel obligated to#because anyone can say empty words.... i wish my perception of things didn't turn bitter i wish i hadn't become so jaded but#over and over i've felt irrelevant cast aside overshadowed and i cannot exist in a place where i feel like i'm a ghost in the corner#idk i've never felt like This before and i'm at least glad it's something i can walk away from by just....leaving...#sad that this used to be somewhere i can run away To but now it's become somewhere i want to run away From#i don't know...even if i get over whatever this is...things will never be the same for me... i just don't think i belong here#if only i had never made this blog then i would have saved myself a world of turmoil
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Comms are OPENED indefinitely. ♥️
No limit on photos, you can request as many as you'd like.
No NSFW please, light stuff is okay, just not the heavy stuff (nudity, sexual, etc).
Couple/Choom photos are $5 flat, meaning no matter how many people you want in a photo it's $5!
Cashapp is heavily preferred, PayPal is mainly for international babies.
Wait time is -5-7 days, two weeks tops.
Payment upfront.
Please DM me with presets, any mods you have/want and any ideas you may have for me please. Otherwise I will free-ball, my style.
On the sheet are just a couple examples of what I do, however here are some of my tags if you'd like to see more examples up close and better quality. ♥︎
oc: vaughn leblanc (my main baby boy)
otp: golden hues (my babies)
oc: maggie borden (my main baby girl)
Please feel free to reach out to me via tumblr or discord, same username. (Discord is recommended to preserve quality).
Update 03/31/2024: Comms open indefinitely. However I won't be reblogging this again unless something drastic changes, this post is pinned at the top of my page so if anyone is interested in the future it's there :] thank you to everyone who has came to me and has just been so lovely 🥰 I now also have a new pc so my VP is ever improving and the comms Ive done have helped motivate and inspire me ♥️
#cyberpunk 2077#vp commissions#screenshot commissions#my screenshots#if I missed anything I am sorry#there's no obligations either#everyone who did commission me last year I appreciate so much so don't feel pressured to do it again <3
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Hi! would you by any chance have tips on how to get a binder when your parents refuse to buy you one? ☹️
That's definitely a sensitive and complex answer, and while I might not know of the best option for your unique situation, there are some ways you can go about this.
If it's a foregone conclusion that you cannot convince them of this, what I used to do is DIY my binder. The ways I primarily did this were:
Option One: Wearing a camisole that was one size smaller than I actually was (so, wearing a small instead of a medium, for instance), then folding it up over my chest. As a disclaimer, this may only work well if you are smaller in the chest
Option Two: Layering two sports bras in my size over each other. Some of the DIY tips I found before I got a traditional binder advised to wear one sports bra in your size, then wear another sports bra backwards in a size smaller. I would advise against this for potential safety reasons, but also because (at least personally), it can be ineffective and a waste of resources.
Some people have also had friends or other family members order their binder for them, but this can be risky, depending on your situation. While I don't know the ins and outs of your specific circumstances, risk management is important to me, so I would recommend this if it is a risk that is acceptable to make.
I understand what it's like to not have access to this resource, so what I will do is advise you against:
Binding with ace bandages (I did this before (multiple times, in fact, because of dysphoria), and believe me, not only did it hurt like hell, but it constricted my body so heavily that I may have done long-term harm)
Wearing a DIY binder (or any kind, for that matter) for longer than your body can handle
Doing DIY in such a way that even mimics binding with ace bandages. This means that your binder shouldn't constrict your ribs, breathing, or range of movement
Here are some general good practices that you should use to guide you for any type of binding, whether traditional or DIY:
When you start binding, only do so in very short sessions to begin with. While binding shouldn't outright hurt, it can be a weird transition while your body is getting used to that new sensation
Minimize heavy lifting or exercise while binding. If it is unavoidable, drink plenty of water and take plenty of breaks
Stretch after binding
Don't bind while sick or have inflammation in your lungs or chest
If you DIY, treat your binder like it is a traditional binder. Don't make the mistake of assuming you don't need to listen to your body because you aren't using a "traditional" binding method
Ultimately, listen to your body. If it is telling you that it needs a break, honour that. Your body isn't punishing you, it is trying to keep you (and it) safe, even if it doesn't feel like it
In the end, this isn't perfect. Sometimes, parents do come around, even in their own ways, even if little by little, they come around. When I first came out officially around 2016, I was convinced that my transition would be completely forbade by my family; I concealed a lot of it in the worst instances of this. However, now, I think most of my family has come through their own journey with the understanding of the reality of what and who I am. I tell you this, anon, because I want you to know that this, too , shall pass. You can make it. I know this might be devastating to you, and believe me, I know what that's like. But it won't be forever. These bridges aren't burnt forever, and I hope you can find your happiness and contentment wherever it may be.
#ask#anon#trans#transgender#lgbt#lgbtq#ftm#nonbinary#long post#if anybody has other tips or ideas then feel free to speak up#this is what i did before officially binding and what i have seen other trans people do in lieu of getting a 'real' binder#it did suck when i was coming out because i don't think my family had any idea how *their* hang-ups with... me as a person... affected me#and i think a lot of people get their preconceived notions or headcanons of you stuck in their head to the point that it is Reality#i think part of why my dad started actually *trying* to accept me was him realizing that i was actively hiding things from him...#...like he loves me and our relationship is fine now but i'm not going to pretend like he didn't massively blunder after i came out#and if it turns out that your parents don't ever come around (gd forbid) then you aren't obligated to keep them#you don't choose your parents but you can choose your family i think#i always always hope that parents come around to their child/ren and the reality of who they are but i recognize how messy it all is#anon i wouldn't blame you one bit if you feel many complex or 'negative' emotions toward them#i have many complex feelings about this and that's my own baggage. i hope i haven't put words into your mouth or assumed anything too much#i am sending you best wishes and care. this too shall pass💛
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Please don't go to my moots asking where i am / if I'll be back 🥹
I said I'm not doing okay and that I need time for myself right now and I kindly ask to respect that.
The mental health isn't mental healthing and living with bpd next to a chronic depression is hell on most days. The good days are rare atm so I need to focus on myself in order to help myself to feel better. I'm in no state to be on here and act all happy and cheerful when I contemplate admitting myself to the hospital just to stay alive a little while longer.
Next to that we have a family situation with my mom in a critical condition and I'd like to be there for my family and help where I can.
I don't want pity or anything I just thought I let you know what's really going on behind the scenes since it's apparently necessary to ask numerous mutuals when I'll be back and what not just because I haven't been online for 3 days.
As of now I don't know when I'll be back. A lovely mutual of mine will come visit in 2 weeks and we move right after. Maybe I'll be back next week, maybe in a month. Perhaps I'll just pop in for 2-3 days and disappear again. Please be patient with me, I'm trying my best to heal.
#-ˋˏ ༻sunlit serenade#tw mental health#tw mentions of suicide#<- not really but just to be safe!!#it's okay not to be okay as long as you get help#please don't feel obligated to say anything#I really don't want pity rn#I will be okay again and I will be back eventually#just right now I feel no joy being on here. the dash is flooded with cliques and that's not helping#and what brings no joy has to go while I'm trying to get better#taking a break from servers too#moots can always hit me up on discord I just might need a moment to respond
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i was looking for my chem notes and instead found a sketch I made back when cultivate chapter 16 dropped.., (this is obviously not the same scene as there, but just something that remained rent free in my head,,, so this is uhhh idk maybe another reunion just later in the future where beloveds figured it all out finally and are more bold haha)
this was originally supposed to be a properly made comic but unfortunately, that is just not feasible at this point in time. but I didn't want to sit on the draft for the next few months or so, so I decided to throw it quickly together to make it a bit more legible and share it as it is haha (and to clarify im not gonna finish it any more than this. most likely. sorry)
the fic is yet once again cultivate by @neonghostcat
if its not clear what its supposed to be (which, fair) its supposed to be the reunion when LQG comes back from CQ but with a twist (ha!) because I'm weak like that for characters doing the spinny spin o(-(
so frame one is LQG standing somewhere nearby the homestead, perhaps the main gate or wherever, and gets spotted by SY who in turn stops in his tracks on his way from the lower terraces, and the rest hopefully is legible enough haha
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↓the original sketch that i found + bonus on the right: jokes on SY now that LQG has him snatched he's not letting go. he can work with one hand just fine.
#cultivate#cultivate: slow life on a monster infested mountain#liushen#sorry for the long-ish post lol#i was gonna clean this up at leats a little bit more to make it into a more presentable sketch#but mayhem said to leave it and ok fair#and funnily enough just after that my friend texted mem that there's only 65 days until our maturita exams so HAHA GOOD CALL-#hsjdk cleaning this up wouldnt chnage anything but its a funny coincidence#anyway i know its rough lol but perhaps someone will enjoy the concept haha#anyway neonghostcat if ur reading this by any chance don't feel obligated to reblog this if u don't wanna since its just a messy sketch#so id get it dw haha
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I occasionally wish to reach out to old friends/acquaintances I haven't spoken to since high school/some other even earlier time in my life, but I have SOOO little social energy even for required tasks (like making dr phone calls or etc), I never have any leftover for extra ones, and it would be very odd to message someone I haven't spoken to in like 5 years out of the blue but then take 4 entire months to respond back lol.. My natural curiosity with nostalgia/collecting details of the past/etc. (literally if I were born a little earlier I would definitely do scrapbooking or something lol) is very strong, but, alas, not strong enough to beat out the Social Issues Demons apparently
#facebook always does that 'here's a post from this day 8 years ago' thing. and I see old comments interacting#with people and it's so like.. OOOOO~~ where are they now?? what's going on? how much have they changed as people?#how much are they the same? this is fascinating. i should contact them!!' but then it's like... take that to it's logical conclusion though#you would contact them and then IF they even responded it would take you 80 years to respond and then they would#think there was something wrong or that you were trying to be insulting or something. To contact anyone I need to include an 85 page#disclaimer of all of my social issues & mental illness things. 'If i take 3 weeks to reply I promise it has nothing to do with u' etc lol#THIS is why more people need to be into phone calls/voice calls/some form of audio real time communication/etc.#I think one of the main things that's hard about messaging through text for me is it's so unscheduled and open ended#(plus it takes forever if you're talking about anything in detail and gets very long very quickly)#because like you can send a message and then just get a reply whenever. and then you're expected to reply back whenever#so it's like you never know when the response will come or when a new obligation to reply can come up? so it's like this sudden thing with#no outline?? if that makes sense. whereas a phone call is very like 'hello let's schedule a call from 10am - 2pm on thursday'. And you know#EXACTLY when the interaction will start and EXACTLY when it will end and you can plan around it in your schedule easily.#I have the reverse thing of a lot of people (how people don't pick up phone calls/hate calls/only text)#I would literally talk on the phone with a stranger. I would have a discord voice chat with someone I barely know.#if someone I hardly even remember from elementary school asked to have a voice call with me out of nowhere I would do it.#but if a stranger MESSAGED me?? or someone I barely know sent me a TEXT or something?? I will never reply probably#It's just too vague and weird. and you can't read voice tone over text. and the interaction could last forever with no clear end#point and etc. etc. But a call is like. set. established. clear boundaries. you can read the flow of conversation better. rapport. etc. etc#I get that I guess people feel more anonymous or distanced over text?? but you can have fake phone numbers on the computer. or do like disc#rd calls. or zoom without a camera or etc. etc. Also the distance that's present in text is BAD distance because it just means that tone is#not conveyed properly and you will never truly get a sense of the person's conversational vibe or mannerisms or how well you really click.#ANYWAY ghgjh...... I'm so so so interested in concepts of like.. How did that one kid I used to talk to in elementary school#but then they moved away in 5th grade - how did they end up? what are they doing now?? etc. etc. Like despite the severe social anhedonia#and general lack of connection with others I'm just really fascinated in like.. idk. the human development of it all and like#the concept of how we're actually a million different people through the course of our lives ever evolving in different iterations and etc.#PLUS again. i love nostalgia. sometimes old peple you know might remember a shared memory or can tell you about something you forgot#or etc. like it's SUCH A COOL THING in CONCEPT but I am too socially inept generally speaking lol. which people I still talk to today are#familiar with my 'phone call once every few months' communication style. but strangers would just be like... wtf. And I don't blame them#Sure I literally cannot change the physical health + brain issues i have - but also I know enough to not put others through that lol
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seemingly this is an unpopular opinion on here but i tend to agree w the reddit posts about lack of content lol
#'they don't owe us anything!!' this is their job that THEY chose to do😭 and dream has said the same himself like please#if they dont want to do it then it needs to be communicated? which either way i don't think is the case. like i think they do still want to#be Content Creators!#but little to no communication ON TOP OF little to no content? yes fans being frustrated is very understandable and valid imo lol#i wrote tags about them individually but deleted idk if wanna get into it all lmfao#anyway also the 'i u don't like it then leave/do other stuff' argument annoys me so much also like people are saying this because they don'#WANT to leave! they like dt and want to see stuff from them! no one's saying they gotta be doing stuff 24/7 this is born out of over a year#now of barely any output from them (that they weren't contractually obligated to do) <- Not Neg. neutrally said.#it feels dumb that i feel the need to add this at all but i love them all but that doesn't mean that i can't be frustrated with some of the#their* choices#and i'm excited to see more from them!!
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I've spent like, the past two weeks or more trying to draw curls and it's just not happening. when do I admit that I'm just washed up and can't do this anymore lmao
#tae talks#seeing the follows on bluesky and like#how do I tell them I'm not the artist they thought I was anymore#like yeah I'm depressed but I've also stagnated so much that I don't know if I can recover#and last year was great! I drew a little and wrote a LOT#and I don't think I've written anything significant since March#which I spent barking about Magnus#in the grand scheme of things it doesn't matter so why can't i just stop#i haven't enjoyed it in so long I just feel obligated to do this
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i feel like most dc fans tend to automatically decry whatever content is "bad" in the sense that it's either harmful to their favorite character's development or cringe or something similar but why does no one ever decry content as "bad" in the sense that it's uninteresting.. tired of seeing the constant takes about dick being the bestest big brother ever to jason like it's genuinely so boring idk why they did it
#i feel like people think dick either has to be the horrible brother who never lived up to the role and never contacted jason#or the amazing brother who loved him so so much and defended him at every turn and it's like#why do we need either.. i don't think it's a crime if dick and jason weren't close like it doesn't say anything of dick to me#he's seven years older than jason and was already out of the house before jason entered it. why would he be obligated to have a relationshi#to be deleted
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