#but doesnt mind being called a girl by accident

[faefrosting]

I love comfort sona (Aku) and fursona (JellyBear)

Here is some oldish arts of them from earlier this year and some from last year I can't remember

Also yes Aku is just straight up missing an eye, he had a bad kerfuffle with a nightmare beast once

[seeminglydark]

How did Caro go about figuring out their gender identity when they were on their own? You mentioned that they tried "they" and "he" pronouns before settling on "they" - can you talk about that more?

Sure can! In case theres some reading this who may not have read my comics or know the background but stumbled on my art on accident, ill give a little breakdown of their journey. Caro grew up in a really small town with really restrictive parents. They start out knowing they are not a girl. but not really having any idea what that means exactly, and not having access to the resources or a safe place to find out. They start out using he/him because at the time (16 in most of the stories i show them in their teenage years) they arent actually aware theres more of a spectrum than just a binary, they think being a boy is the only way to not be a girl. Their friend, Sully, while being openly gay and having a bit more of an idea about some things, doesnt know much about gender expression or gender-queerness either, so he does what he can to support what they both think is the right fit. apparently neither if them thinks to go to a library. After sully leaves, Caro is left to struggle on their own. They know they are trans, but they are still nervous about exploring things without someone holding their hand, ptsd from extremely intense helicopter parents perhaps and being kicked out for knowing at the very least, they arent the girl everyone always forced them into. They meet their current agent, Goldie, somewhere around 20 years old, at this point they have not revealed their face or gender even in their podcast (for those who listen, ive kept those things very vague since its supposed to be canonical with their life journey). Goldie encourages them to explore more what feels right to them and helps them get in touch with gender affirming resources, 'He' felt close, but it was never really that aha yes its me! moment. They learn about nonbinary, genderfluid, etc through research and help from other people in the community they meet through Goldie, therapy resources and also people they meet via their podcast. They actually do try out a few things, canonically they go from she to he to genderfluid (any pronoun) to they, which feels the best for them. present day Caro doesnt mind 'he' either, they just mostly stick with They. i WILL be exploring this in the podcast, so that story will be told in more detail as time goes on as well. Bonus answer: the reason why i wrote their journey like this, is because Caro is how i explored MY gender identity. They started out as a tool i used to try on different hats and research in a safe space (a fictional character), meet and talk with people to find what gender expression worked best for me, also going from she to he to fluid (any) to nonbinary (they.) i did not have restrictive parents or come from a small town, but im in my 40s, and there wasnt a lot of resource available where i grew up for trans kids in the 90s. i knew i wasnt a girl, and for me, boy seemed like my only other option until i learned that gender is not a binary and i actually had many ways i could go, until i found what felt right to me. and honestly, it was as simple as someone calling me 'They' in passing because they werent sure how to refer to me. Hit me like a ton of bricks. I was in my mid thirties and frankly, it was so relieving to finally have a pronoun that felt like ME! I think perhaps it was as simple for Caro as well. Unforch I cant give you a solid answer as to WHY they felt right for me or Caro. i just know it did, i think perhaps that an individual feeling for everyone who is figuring things out. Some people just KNOW, and others like me, know *something* and find out what the means for them along the way. <3

[pumpkinpie59]

random tmnt shippy stuff. i just wanna ramble

87:

leolotus. best ship ever u all know how i feel about them.

kalangelo. very underrated. weirdly might be more underrated than leolotus nowadays ….. prolly my fault idk AHAHSJSJ

raphibians / monaraphgenghis . lol where’d that come from- is this a real ship or is it for the bit?? you may never know……

jhannatello. 87 jhanna feels so right to me. mr donatello who doesnt feel like humanity accepts him while still loving human discovery… and falling for an alien girl who enjoys engineering like he does

vernasey. i may be crazy

shrang. this one’s funny bc i dont think i genuinely care about it but it’s very entertaining

irmapril. why is this borderline canon,,,,,,,

archie:

oyukiangelo. ive only read the first few issues of archie so i cant really speak on this but from what ive seen they’re sweet. we love a friends to lovers situation

mezraph??? idk what to call them lmao. if raphael wasn’t a MESS in archie this could be the cutest thing ever.

tnm:

turtlelamb / barbratello. OUGHDNDNFMDJD they’re cute

shinivenus. this started as an accident. but since i created this, shinirai feels so boring in comparison.

03:

jhannatello. im obsessed im obsessed im obsessed. i need jhanna content im losing my mind. THEY WERE IN LOVEEEEE

leolotus. hehehehehehe. im giving 03 leo the most idiotic slow burn ever.

idw:

tribangelo. mikey was the only guy in these comics with a sane relationship do u know how crazy that is?? it’s bc he’s perfect. anyways he and trib are adorable i wuv them

sheenika. i like that they get to bond over being humans-to-mutants while having different viewpoints on it

2012:

apritello. theyre messy but theyre my mess. i can fix them. i hate that ppl ignore their character development after the bigfoot episode bc it’s thereeeee

raphmona. so many missed opportunities gosh. but they can be cute

shinirai. shinivenus is better but they’re cool

leolotus. something about finally seeing leo in a generally healthy relationship lmao….

rise:

kendraphael. this sounds insane if u dont know this: i hc kendra is a pre-mutation mona lisa in the rise universe. i will stand on this hill.

tales:

leolotus. pining lotus mwahaha. i reject aprilnardo,,

[peachiseas]

okay i am very new here, so i need a through introduction to your mcs! like eve for example, pls post his whole biography o(╥﹏╥)o

fr tho, tell me anything and everything :D

TOOK SO DAMN LONG SINCE I WANTED TO DRAW A STEP ONE REF OF EVE BUT ITS GONNA TAKE A MINUTE so here are the sketches,,, Anyways- gonna introduce the main two mcs/ocs you'll see here: Eve Cortez Williams and Aaliyah Dubious

(dont mind my ipad scribbles on the screenshot iofqiowogi) Lemme put this under a readmore actually so yall dont get slammed with a long ass post:

Starting with Eve:

He's my Tamarack MC, but I figured since uh. all my art that was a given

He has a strained relationship with Qiu in step 1 but they become besties by step 2 and by step 3, they are like family to each other. If no one got Eve, Eve knows Qiu got them, amen 🙏

He comes out as transmasc by step 2, and by step 3 he gets top surgery and starts taking testosterone and firmly identifies as a butch lesbian

He's from the southern part of Miami, Florida. He's Golden Grove's residential florida man

He practices martial arts religiously, he's a big fan of Goku and Dragonball in general so he wants to be like his idol

His story deviates a bit from the OL2 generic mc story, he did have a dad! Opal and his dad wanted a kid but they both didn't want to get married and since the two of them were best friends, they decided to have a kid together (or well two but we'll talk about that later)

What's important to note from above is that his dad isn't around anymore because his father passed away a few months ago due to a car accident and Eve was hospitalized as a result

So by the time he's at Golden Grove, he's in anger stages of his grief and he doesn't want to be bothered. Which sucks cause hes neighbors with the two loudest kids on the block

Doesn't help he's a ESL speaker (English as a Second Language) and Golden Grove's population is majorly white so he has even harder of a time adjusting to it

He gets into fights in step 1... a Lot. Someone will look at him funny and they'll get punched in the face

He does adjust but he still doesn't like Golden Grove by step 3 but funnily enough, he moves away at the end of step 3 for treatment but moves back in step 4, crazy how that shit works huh

He has two emotional support bunnies; Bulma and Chi-Chi! He gets them in step 2, Qiu and Eve bond over them LMFAO

As for Aaliyah:

She's my Qiu MC, to the shocker of no one. Tamarack is also her best friend <3

Aaliyah is from New Orleans, Louisiana! She's full blooded Haitian and she has family in Haiti

She's also transfem! She passes for cis in step 1 thanks to hormone blockers and some makeup and then starts taking estrogen in step 2 and onwards

Her being black and transfemme is integral to her character and how she navigates around Golden Grove, she doesn't tell anyone she's trans until near the end of step 1. By step 3, the girl gang and Qiu knows shes trans

^^ That's because she had a very negative experience coming out to her community who previously loved her but flipped on her just as fast

So moving to Golden Grove was supposed to be a fresh start for her as herself but by that point she feels like she has to keep up her "cis-sona" lest she gets bullied again

She still gets bullied for other reasons in step 2 though (being a pretty black girl and the one person who has a crush on her is the most popular kid in school... its rough! 😭)

By step 4 though she is proud to call herself trans and will let people know!

She lovessss animals! And the animals love her back! She feeds them all the time and keeps animal food on her for that purpose when she goes to the park to read by herself, she got a flock of crows and stray cats that like to follow her

She has a cat named Kiki!!! Kiki loves everyone except Qiu though, Aaliyah doesnt know that though-

I hope that was enough of a info-dump! If anyone has anymore questions please ask i have so much lore please-

[voltrixz]

Why YOU should go vote for Electro (TSSM) in @cartoon-character-competition​

First off this is like the first time I have managed to get Electro into a competition which is a CRIME in itself already 

You may be familiar with Electro from the usual Spiderman comics or movies but trust me tssm Electro is the best Electro ever.

Like LOOK AT THIS GUY HE FUCKIN ROCKS, HIS DESIGN IS SICK AS HELL!!!!!

and well this guy has been through a lot. He used to be an engineer at Dr Connors lab where they were studying and experimenting on radioactive eels. (probably not a good idea but ok) And well well after a work accident, Electro (previously known as Max) goes from 

to 

and well while his new look is sick as hell, lets just say it makes just trying to function properly really REALLY difficult and after being frustrated about no one being able to help and facing the possibiltity his life may never go back to normal, he runs off fuming. 

And what does one angry man just turned into living walking form of electricity do? Buy coffee of course 

(this is how he looks fully suited up and with a disguise outfit on top btw )(which is why he looks a bit different here) 

Anyways he realizes he cant even drink “a measly cup of coffee” anymore and freaks out, alerting peter parker who chases after him after electro freaks out storms off. 

 So what happens next?

- Peter attacks him thinking he’s a threat (he’s not hes just freaking out and pissed off)

- Realizing his mistake Peter tries to help but Electro now refuses and is ultimately defeated 

- He’s sent to a mental institution to recover and it seems he had but nope as soon as he’s out he’s out for revenge

- He teams up with the sinister six, gaining both a mentor/father figure in Doc Ock (leader of the sinister six)

- Is defeated again and no longer pretends to try to recover at the mental institution when he’s sent back and looses faith in his new mentor 

- Is recruited back into a new Sinister six and recovers that faith again in his  mentor 

- Once again defeated and is abandoned by said mentor figure and almost loses his life if it wasnt for Peter saving him.

- From then on he’s sent to an insane asylum and well I sure wish we knew what happened next

BECAUSE WE DONT BECAUSE TSSM WAS CANCELLED AT SEASON 2 WHEN WE WERE SUPPOSED TO GET AT LEAST LIKE 5 

so yeah not only is Electro’s story tragic, it doesnt even get a PROPER ENDING 

but lets focus on the positives for a bit shall we?

(laying out some images of him, i need you guys to look at him)

like LOOK AT HIM!!!!! he’s got both, the silly expressions and beyond pissed off ones, a true balance, he’s both a bit of goofy loser and cool as hell 

oh and btw he’s trans coded as hell

first off unlike the other villains who dont mind whether you call them from their actual name or villain alias, Electro has a strong distaste over his old name. Angrily calling out people who dont refer to him as Electro. 

Not only that but he’s seen and treated as an outcast. That is until joining the sinister six, a band of outcasts just like him where he’s even eager to join back.

Plus he just radiates trans swag (also a a majority of the tssm fandom has come to a agreement that yeah electro is trans and is in no way cis )

LIKE GO TBOY GO!!!! KILL!!!!!!

Also theres even subtle nod of him even being queer as when he laments on what he wanted to do before the accident, he says “you know i had plans before all this, go back to college, meet someone, have a LIFE” 

You may have noticed he never specifies whether he wants to meet a girl or a guy which like  🏳️‍🌈 ? 

(also in the comics, Electro is canonically bisexual so....)

so yeah I know this site loves the owl house and belos is a good villain and all but he’s a terrible, completely irredeemable, asshole of a person and cmon would you really let electro lose to a guy like that? After all the guy’s been through? 

Plus a win for a electro is a win for trans/queer people all around (has made me cry and sob over his story as I relate to a lot of the aspects in his story personally as a queer/trans person and has made me so so attached to him) (has made me be so proud of being trans and give me hope about officially transitioning someday) (funny enough he actually helps me cope with my gender dysphoria A LOT and he has geniuely helped me so much and he means so so much to me)

So go vote ELECTRO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (do it for me guys pretty please (stares at you with sparkling wide eyes)

[logicroute]

hi so im normal abt shin tsukimi being nonbinary. most of this is just hcs but this is real to me. read it undercut :3 i also touched on my hispanic shin and him being gay aroacespec by accident. whoops

to me at least. shin hasn’t really ever cared abt his gender that much, it was never really a big part of his life growing up so he never put thought into it or really had a meaning for it in his mind.

he is still transgender to me, he started exploring himself at around.. 14? i would say, it wasn’t anything much, just dressing more GNC, having fun with combining both styles of masculine and feminine clothing and all of that. in a way wanting to seem confusing but not at the same time.

he likes exploring and experimenting with how gender feels for him while hes older, but ya know how it is. it just, doesnt really seem right to pick a side with something you dont really understand yourself.

so thats where the quoigender comes in. its also called WTFgender which i find amazing. quoigender pretty much means that you cant really put a definition on your gender. so i think over time shin starts like. feeling more connected to that term for himself..!!

to me he uses any prns and any terms because of his like.. somewhat lack of care on how people assign a gender to him in a way when he meets new people, like the way that people think of him hasnt reallu been a big thought to him. until the death game which he puts up the front of  someone that is threating to survive but he still doesnt really care abt prns in the death game. a really funny idea is that everyone just uses a completely different set of pronouns for him and everyone just understands that its abt shin cuz of the tone in the voice.

theres also the whole… not really having an idea who you are with the hiyori persona in the death game but whooo cares abt that rn. something something gender playing into how he copied how he remembered hiyori acting like.. so acting more dramatic and the works.. 

and i also hc him as hispanic which.. can also play into his gender in a way. to me his mom is hispanic for context. she herself never liked the idea of gender roles but she never gotten a chance to break out of them..until she moved to japan for school, met shins dad and all of that. so when she had shin she wanted to make sure that nothing was being overly expected from him that fits into any of the norms.. she is also somewhat breaking without knowing but its whimsical for her. i need to talk abt the tsukimis more they mean so much to me.

not to get too ibto his sexuality in the gender rant but. i thibk he knew he was gay for a while, hes alaways liked boys for his whole life pretty much, he hasnt felt attraction to girls at all besides like.. the planotic “ohh ur pretty:)” thing you know. but then also the aroace spectrum kicks in. 

at least to me. shin hasnt really felt romantic feelings for anyone reallly. like he couldnt really place how he feels for ppl on a romantic scale if rhay makes sense, but like he has felt them in rare occasions, but nothing really happens lmao. so the plain term of arospec usually works.

im aceflux shin number one believer. its just really dear to me for some reason. it doesnt really breach out of the demisexual area that much but its okay he gets to have some fun with labels.

also no cisgender person only wears winter clothing all year long. he is most likely nonbinary but he has a minimum wage shift in the hour and is kinda doomed in a death game later so he cant care abt that atm. 

in short uhhh shin tsukimi any pronouns quoigender/nonbinary aroace spec gay real forever. 

[cosmoshard]

Ohhh, can you elaborate on the Mutant/Yokai apocalypse au??

Okay funny thing: i wrote this au back in 2021 when Rise was just beginning to air its second season, so I had no way of knowing we were gonna get a movie, nor what its plot would be like, so imagine my surprise when I look back at this au and realize its just an alternate, (much more amateur) version of the Rottmnt movie premise. Now its not plot for plot, there’s a ton of differences OKAY LEGGO!!✨

Like the movie: the turtles are all adults and the leaders of the revolution, with the help of their friends. They are in hiding from the rest of the world because of lack of warning before the invasion/revolution and are slowly fighting back. All the turtles had roles to play: Leo was a fighter pilot/foot-soldier, operating from the air where he had a birds eye view. Rlly leaned into his cocky do-it-his-own-way attitude lol. He also adopted a small yokai girl he found one day on the battlefield.

Raph was the tank, the one always on the front lines, first one there and last one out. He got real tough over the years so he was always using himself as a shield. He also saw a lot of allies die so he became quieter and more stoic. The opposing side called him Walking Death because whenever he arrived he would lay waste to thousands of their kind, mind stuck in savage raph as a way to cope wt all the violence. Raph had a relationship with a mona lisa type character and he has a small kid named enan, who’s a mutant Gecko/turtle hybrid.

Donnie was the brains of the operation as usual, in classic neurodivergent fashion he forgets to take care of himself and holes up in his underground lab where he tries to constantly stay on top of the Yokai’s mystic magic with new inventions. A bad lab accident left his shell and backbone exposed along with destroying his left arm and scarred his side pretty bad. He now has a robot arm and is bionically attuned to his inventions. (I have a more on his inventions but i dont want to spoil it all as i might keep them for future ideas :D)

Mikey is the cook/home-base man. Making sure everything stays running and doing his best to keep the family together. He is fastly becoming more doctor Delicate Touch moreso then Soft Mikey as he used to be. He is also gets to babysit the most often cuz he’s always at home 🙄/lh

April became their resident Medical Expert and has appointed herself as Donnie’s daily nagger to get sleep and food. She also ends up being a sort of therapist for the resistance but doesnt give herself the same luxury even tho the bros offer many times. Because she stays in base most of the time her and Mikey end up shouldering the same responsibilities and they understand each other on a deeper emotional level then most of the family.

Other Characters Roles:

Shredder is back and is the leader of the yokai’s, but is distant and only using them to conquer the world and become emperor. Baron Draxum is his Star General and the one mostly in the spotlight, therefore directly influencing the yokai below them, (and any major decisions they came up with.) Big mama demanded to be called Empress and she commands most of the army

A couple more things✨

Shredder’s whole plan is to reach the core of the planet to find the source/core of all mystic energy (which was later revealed to be canon!?? in the s2 finale wt the empyrean spring beneath the hidden city.) the resistance has to find it before shredder can so they can turn the tide of the war.

That’s basically it, other than plot points, thank you for asking!!! It took a little bit to make it coherent because i write in bullet notes lol, if ya want to know we can dm or reblog chain :3

[zainnbug]

so ….i’ve been rewatching “The Spectacular Spider-Man” and i just wanted to give my lukewarm takes on it (just my own personal opinions!) prepare for horrible analysis and alot of words!!!!!

1. THE VILLAINS LOWKEY SUCK

i say this with an open mind because Spectacular Spider-Man is a kids show… but the villains are not good. I feel like there is very little build up on these characters origin stories and why the way they act like they do. For example electro, an ordinary repair guy who is involved in a work accident while working on machinery next to genetically altered eels. for me i just couldn’t understand where all his hatred was coming from except for the fact that he is never able to go back to his life. Like this guy is traumatized and now has to adjust to a new life that harms everyone and then boom he’s evil and hates Spider-Man (Too much Spider-Man hate and not enough I-hate-the-world kind of hate! ). There just wasn’t more of a build up to it, like i wished he tried to be like a hero just like Spider-Man then completely fucks everything up while trying to do good. I know certain life altering changes completely changes someone but i still wish he tried to cling onto his human characteristics (like his morals he once had from who he used to be). It would’ve been cool if he tried to be himself again more mentally and then threw that out the window cuz it was never gonna work out)That’s also one thing i see recurring with the villains is that they just hate Spider-Man…. But I still try to keep an open mind as it is a really short show and apparently electricity is the main source for all evilness in this show (literally).

2. He’s a hoe

heavy on this one cause pete cannot choose from liz, gwen, mj, black cat or that bugle secretary. He went from that shordy who worked at the bugle to mj to liz allan to black cat then to liz again then gwen then LIZ AGAIN then gwen again? it was like every 5 seconds he was switching sides …like oh man! liz is into me.. oh and gwen too!! and then he just wouldn’t make up his mind. This guy is a man whore I STILL REMEBER THE SCENE WHERE HE FINALLY DECIDED TO TALK TO GWEN AFTER THEIR KISS AND SHE BLEW HIM OFF SO HE STARTED THINKING ABT MJ WHILE SHE(MJ) WAS TALKING TO HIM. even she told him to get it together 😔 do better peterman

3. Mjs incredible personality✨

this one’s not too much of a big deal and i can tolerate it but it still irks me. Throughout the entire time of Mjs screen time is her personality which kind of ruins her character in this show. From the way she talks to how she flirts with everyone in the show bothers me. She flirts with nearly every guy in the show and she’s just… too flirty LIKE IT DOESNT FIT HER CHARACTER. It’s not the Mj i know but i still do luv. It’s just not in her character to act this flirtatious. It’s like she has no real personality other than being hot.

BONUS:

-the villains in this show were still enjoyable like otto octavius and venom, which are my personal favs. Also seeing marko stick up for a child being bullied and saving innocent people really did it for me. I also thought he was just some mindless spider-man hater but there’s a little more to it.

- despite peter being a hoe….erm i actually cannot find something good to say abt his hoe side srry y’all….

-despite Mjs flirty side, Mj is like the number one supporter for most of the characters in this show. She’s the one constantly checking on gwen and peter while also giving them relationship advice or just advice in general. Also she’s the first person to notice something is wrong. I like to call her a girls girl cuz she really looks out for the girls in the show.

thanks for reading my horrible takes i will be posting more like follow and subscribe if y’all actually read me yapping away and stay tuned y’all 🙏

[boschlowtxt]

Haaay, it's me, the man who offered Willow and Bosch to hug you :)))

Can I find out what kind of headcannons you have for Boshlow? Orientation/gender, etc.??

Boscha

Orientation: Aro Lesbian

Gender: Trans girl

Moral compass: Anti-villain (does wrong things for just reasons)

Ethnicity: Southeast Asian

Loves to unhealthy degrees: Friends and especially Maya, her crabby.

Whats the problem with u: doesnt understand social cues. Cant read the room. Puts herself up by putting others down. Doesnt know how to listen unless its in sport language.

Bonus: Bookworm. Secretly into The Good Witch Azura. Also enjoys Ruler's Reach but thats already canon but I will say she has a secret blog for it and shes soo embarrassed whenever someone brings up the fact that she reads. She also has gender dysphoria which is why she gets 10x more confident during grudgby season because yes shes captain of an all girls sports team and yes she gets to wear her dumb letterman jacket to all her classes.

Willow

Orientation: Butch Lesbian*

Gender: Transmasc genderfae

Moral compass: Be gay, do crimes, morally gray. (Would steal, would read ur diary, think Eda kinda mischief).

Loves to unhealthy degrees: Friends

Whats the problem with u: doormat. Puts others up by putting herself down. Pretends to listen to u but is actually tuning u out if u talk abt her issues. Thinks motivational self-help videos on Bootube is therapy. Stuck in her mind most of the time (is that how u say it?? Sorry idk how to say lutang in english)

Bonus: Uses she/her and gf to refer to herself but once she's married she'd prefer to use dad and husband as terms for her because its what she grew up hearing. Every Valentines day she hangs out with Gus they call it Pal-entines day and basically they catch each other up on their love life and go out to get coffee and watch a movie together and promise that they'll never stop being besties because they're incredibly corny like that and they both need the reassurance.

*My orientation hc for Willow changes a lot but for the longest time I have headcanoned her as a lesbian since s1 so its what im used to. But i also hc her as bi or pan, depending on the situation.

[luffythinker]

We need to talk about MomoKendo more Specifically their relationship + first eveythings

First kiss* I think Kendo would be the the one to kiss Momo first, Momo doesnt strike me as the one to women up to the task. Maybe if they were seeing eachother in a small light after the camp incident they start thinking more about eachother Kendo goes to Momo and hesitates apologizing for acting weird not kissing her yet but actually realizing she has a thing for her. After Kamino (the Momo helping with the bakugo escape mission) she doesn't know about it cause the teachers keep it on the down low but she snoops around a little (has someone in class B help her that wont go off the rails but help her figure out what happen help her if she cant find out herself) and finds out while the dorm thing is happening and that's when she goes to scold Momo for being one track minded, she could have gotten hurt! She thought at least Momo would have the common sense but it appears all of class A is an idiot like Monoma says (she says this jokingly angry with momo) which Momo says something like "yes I deserve it cause my actions were less than responsible" and Kendo calls her a idiot in a endearing way grabbing her roughly by her shirt pulling her into a real kiss telling her not to do something like that again holding her face and telling her shes too precious and she couldn't bear something like that happening to her. Momo is in shock and awe still in the close proximity to Kendo eyes wide that she kissed her, she cant tell if shes surprised another girl would kiss her who the fact Kendo cares about her like that Momo's brain is in shut down mode cause NOT JUST A GIRL BUT A REALLY INTELLIGENT REALLY STRONG GIRL TOUCHED HER LIPS WITH HER OWN this moment stays with Momo and she thinks back on it alot she honestly thinks about it more often than ever in her bed or when she gets up to brush her teeth she feels her lip remembering Kendo's words even though they were harsh she didnt honestly remember what she was saying she just remembered the kiss Kendo on the other hand views this as the beginning of them dating and starts doing extra stuff for Momo coming to sit next to her at lunch bringing her gifts or just trying to be what a girlfriend is Mina probably brings it up and Momo's all "were dating?" Momo didnt know shes shocked and surprised when its revealed to her that they were even remotely going out she thought a kid was just a kiss she ddidn't know what it meant Kendo is half laughing at her half disappointed cause that means all the effort she put in wasn't shown without telling she tries to laugh it off like "yeah I thought you knew! I didn't think it needed to be said, what? Should I have kissed you again and properly asked?" Momo is hot mess confused as to why or even how Kendo would want her of all people "What did you think the kiss was for?!" Kendo speaks loudly a little upset half confused at the part momo isn't getting about this "i like you do you want to go out?" She makes it blantly clear for her Momo nods "great! Can I kiss you?" Momo nods again "yes please"

I think that's pretty cute

Lovely, let's get into them!!

JUST TEARED UP A BIT AFTER READING IT ALL CAUSE OMG I LOVE LESBIANS

I think I will just share my thoughts on how I think their relationship would start and then first kiss and stuff

So for me, I can see Kendo having a crush on Momo from afar but not doing anything or even trying to talk to her cause she didn't know she was into girls, I think Momo is demisexual so crushes are a bit hard to explain in her mind, but she does think Kendo is very attractive. They would start talking first after the camp accident, and I think that's when sparks start!! I agree that Kendo would kiss first, especially after she sees that there is interest, I think we can keep your first kiss scenario here because I really loved it so much and it's so perfect for them. Now the aftermath of this is where it gets complicated, cause for Momo she think that there has to be a formal confession and/or will you be my girlfriend? for them to be dating and Kendo thought they were cool and the kiss meant that yes they're into each other so yeah they are dating. I can see this going for weeks and on the first month after the kiss, Kendou wants to celebrate and Momo is like ??? wait what ??? That's where they would have to talk and Kendo finally asks Momo to be her girlfriend, she's confused and upset but overall just satisfied that now her girlfriend is actually her girlfriend!! I think Momo just likes things to be as clear as possible to avoid misunderstandings, and I think that's very sweet of her <3

[riotlain]

HII been looking at ur content for a while /pos and love it sm especially bcz u write for male reader 🫶 that being said can i get billy / stu (poly or seperate! anything is okay ^^) with FTM s/o who’s a little ditzy? if your uncomfy with that it’s completely fine!

meow i unintentionally made reader a bit of a bimbo/himbo guy

like instead of a little they a bit mad ditzy💀💀 mb

im sorry this feels short😭😭

THIS IS A NWLNW BLOG!! WOMEN DNI

Poly Ghostface

Honestly they just like the fuck with you at this point

Like your reactions make them laugh

 “What's your favourite scary movie?” "Well I've always enjoyed the Halloween movies. But also the one with Chucky is fun to watch! Omg Jason is probably one of my favs too. blah blah blah-"

They find it funny to sneak into your house and rearrange your shit. Bc then you look silly to them when your running around looking for whatever youre missing

At school they probably eventually get you to hang with them

Randy doesnt really like you. He says youd be one of the first to do in a horror movie bc if your behavior

"Girls like you would die first or second in the movie!" "Im not a girl so it cancels out"

ANYWAYS SKIP TO YALL 3 ACTUALLY DATING

They tried to keep the whole ghostface thing a secret from you but you found out

You end up finding their ghostface stuff on accident and when you ask it kinda shocks them💀

"Soo like I kinda know you 2 are behind the whole Ghostface stuff. LIKE I DONT REALLY CARE! But just wanted to let yall know🤭🤭"

If you take T (shot kind for this idk if theres others really) they help you with the shots

If you hate needles they try to talk you through it but Stu sucks at it💀💀

"And then BAM! The couple got cut by Jason!" "Stu, shut the hell up."

Stu Macher

Stu was interested in you first

You were in a few of a his classes and he saw you in the halls alot

He noticed your habit of tripping over nothing, rambling a bit too much, or dropping stuff you were holding

He could tell you were probably not the brightest person ever but he still fell hard for you

That led to him talking (going on long rants) to Billy about you

He invites you over alot

Doesnt mind you talking and asking questions during movies

Loves when you cling to him when anything scary happens

Man finds you so cute! (in a probably pathetic way but anyways)

Loves to scare you

Stu just loves to see you jump away like a scared cat ok!

Billy Loomis

Heard about you from Stu and decided to check you out (stare at menacingly from afar)

You probably noticed he makes it a bit obvious

He likes that you talk to your friends about him alot

"Omg that guy keeps staring at me! He's kinda cute. A bit scary though."

You somehow didn't know who he was

He's the one to make the calls as Ghostface to your place

Stu would be the one to chase you around but that usually doesn't happen since you'd go on long tangents about whatever

Also finds you cute in a pathetic way

Has he killed people who dared make fun of you for being trans? Yes. Definitely. Absolutely

[jetiisyandereclones]

I love your take on hunter not being a yandere! But I’m curious about what exactly the batch does you said that they help capture Jedi that’s ran off but do they have someone back ‘home’ that they love? Like most likely omega and Crosshair with your oc but anyone else?

* mathew mcconaughey voice* Alright, alright alright.

In my regular au hunter stays and they are a specialized squad called to hunt down runaway jedi and civilians.

(I at one point had a poly thing going on between the bad batch and Vera, which caused alot of fighting with the alpha clones, but I scrapped that)

But,

When they are back home, some do have darlings, some are still looking for theirs.

If we are going with the alternate Hunter, then he doesnt have an obsession. He does however have a very fatherly relationship with omega, who's still just a little kid, only 8 or 9. He may have had fleeting crushes, but nothings ever stuck before and certainly never to the level of his brothers.

Yandere hunter from my au however, raging yandere. Platonic and romantic. Fatherly to omega, brotherly to Vera.

He hasnt found a romantic darling. Yet. He wants one bad. I feel like if he did find one they'd be very...normal. not necessarily a jedi.

Someone soft. Maybe even plus sized. The clone goes gaga for some jiggly thighs and a belly pouch. He loves the squish when he sinks his hands into their flesh, loves to bury his face in their soft, smooth skin to block out any sensation that's too much for him.

Maybe one day when hes out on a hunt, he stops to buy caf, the jedi who escaped was proving difficult and he and his brothers had been going all night. He waits his turn in line, and when he goes to order he freezes. The barista was so...pretty, stunning. So soft and sweet and quiet and shy. He knew that she was the one for him. She was perfect. His brothers knew what was happening. This pretty barista would be going home with them, just as soon as they tracked down that smart, silly runaway jedi.

Crosshair and vera are very much a romantic thing, in his mind at least. He first met her when he was about the equivilent of an 8 year old. He and the batch were fucking around on an old flight deck during some pretty bad winds, a small empty crate went flying and hit him in the temple. In a state if grogginess he stumbled back and fell into the raging seas. Vera, who was still new to Kamino at the time as she had just been assigned to Shaak Tii as a 16 year old padawan, was coming back from the jedi temple and saw it go down. She didnt hesitate to run and jump right in after him. Crosshair just remembers pain, and darkness and being scared to die, and alone at that, when vera was just there. Holding him and lifting him out of the water. It was the first real hug he'd had. And as she rushed him through Kamino to get his head injury checked out he snuggled into her shoulder. When she stayed while he was being examined she held his hand and when he was discharged she hugged the entire batch (who had only just caught up to her, completly out of breath) goodbye. Crosshair was extra clingy at his hug.

He was entirely Vera's from that moment on. He never saw anyone else, neither sexually or romantically (except, if you wanna get spicy, Vera's togrutan lover later on in life)

The rest of the batch have a more sibling obsession with her. They love seeing her play with and snuggle omega. In my AU Vera's actually the one who found omega first. Reuniting them long before the end of the clone wars.

Echo. Darling echo. Wants to be a dad so bad. Has almost given up on finding a darling.

Almost.

He's a lovesick sorta yandere and hes afraid he might scare people away. So to fulfill at least one of his yandere obsessions he has a little daughter back on Kamino. Poor, sweet thing was a jedi youngling. Only about 5 years old. Sweet girl was in an accident and lost her right leg up to the knee when a sith apprentice tried to attack the temple after the war had ended and the jedi were in the process of being brought back home.

Echo stepped in to help and comfort her. Teach her how to live with a prosthetic, he even had tech design an advanced, lifelike prosthetic that could feel sensation and was easily removable and adjustable, to keep up with her growing body. She squealed and hugged him so tight when she saw her new leg. Hes been doting on her since (can you say playdates with omega)

No romantic darling yet either. He is always on the lookout but doesnt want to scare anyone away. I feel like hunter, hed also go for someone plus sized. Someone cute and warm and snuggly who he can wrap himself around at night. Someone he can Kiss and smooch, cuddle, love and raise their ad'ikas with. Like hunter, I think he'd find his darling off world working a mundane, everyday job.

Now tech. Not much of an interest in having a child. Not that he doesnt like them, they just aren't on his priority list.

He does however, have a raging stalker crush on one of the jedi tutors. Stalks the shit out of her. Leaves her creepily personal gifts. He's trying but hes never felt so in love before. When brought back to Kamino she was one of the jedi thrown in isolation. Tech was the clone who volunteered to rehabilitate her.

He delights in the academic conversation and reveals quite a nerdy side to the jedi. Not just academic nerdiness, but stuff like pop culture and memes (memes definatly exist in my au). Tech secretly follows memes religiously, finding it easier to relate to humor through the visor of a screen as opposed to in person, where he has trouble getting a lock on people's true meanings and intentions. (Plus, screens dont make fun of you)

I think that this jedi would be one of the first to break to tech. Hes sweet, shy and so cutely awkward, not to mention so pretty. With his cute goggles and tall frame.

When shes released tech took her to his home, stating that it's a bit plain, but maybe she could help him make it more comfortable. Hes struggling and looking down in embarrassment at his empty life. He wants her to fill the void in his heart caused by past rejection so bad he doesnt know exactly how to cope. Ends up becoming her affectionate shadow. Very clingy and in private, cuddly and touchy.

If these two were to have kids it would be because of a surprise pregnancy, or because a natborn and a trio of tubies literally knock him off his feet.

No really. They tripped him looking for a nap spot and when he went down, they vibe with it. He became their nap spot and tech was sold. It was a 'your coming home with me' moment. He cant wait to tech them how to pull apart their first speeder engine.

Wrecker. Wrecker, wrecker wrecker. Wants all the love. His darling and 20 kids. Wants all of them. Every street rat and jedi youngling and tubi.

His darling I can see as being maybe a Baker, or a chef, another I can see as wanting a plus sized woman. hes a big guy. He doesnt want to hurt his love. They probably bond over their love of food.

Doesnt have a preference for if they are a jedi or not, but they have to be able to appreciate a good explosion. They also have to be good with kids and people. No exception. Our guy isnt interested in a cold, complicated romance. Hes a simple man. He wants love and he wants lots of it, to give and receive.

Wrecker wants to drift off to sleep with his darling in his arms, and wake up to find his children have come to sleep with them during the night cause they were cold and scared of the thunder.

He wants to pick up his family in his arms, his darling holding their ad'ika, him holding his darling. Wants to prove that hes strong enough to look after them all. Keep them all safe and warm.

Despite his size, wrecker loves little kids, loves babies.

Hes so gentle with them. They are just so cute and tiny, no bigger than his lula. Speaking of, he actually makes all his children their own lula dolls. He just loves his family so much. Thrives on the chaos of children, and is so protective of them and his love.

He also deals well with teenagers too. A little hurt at their distance at first, but when he finds some common ground again they get to bond as father and child like the first time they met, and he's so excited.

He's one of the ones I could definatly see as having his own biological children, along with adopting a bunch. His quarters are some of the biggest on kamino, due to the size of his family.

Hes a giant teddy bear of a lovesick and doting yandere, 90% of the time. The other 10%, best left forgotten.

(looks alot like when his chip activated. Single minded and frightening)

[the-hellsing-organisation]

Ordinarily I do not indulge in callout posts, unless a person's mental health might be in serious danger - and it's not a petty lie somebody made up, providing no screenshots, or simple ones taken out of context.

I have received multiple messages now, proving to me that the Hellsing Discord server 'The Hellsing Fanserver' lead by 'Artillery' is unfortunately a place people need to be warned about.

While everyone could assure me they do offer good scans of the Hellsing manga, the members of the server indulged in:

- Purposefully misgendering people

- Making fun of triggers, trans people and people with severe mental illnesses

- Purposefully using triggers against other server members

- Manipulating other people to use the triggers against the person they concern and shifting the blame on them afterwards

- Bringing explicit sexual themes to a server with minors

Afterwards they would celebrate their 'success', making fun of the people they hurt.

The so called 'trolling' (though I wouldn't dare to call such a hurtful behaviour this) was encouraged on the server, so I would deem it an unsafe environment for everyone whose mental health might be affected by such things.

Please be careful if these things concern you and please do not encourage such behaviour.

It's not only hurtful, it is downright cruel.

The invitations, though the links are expired.

Here you see some of the accounts that were directly involved.

Please be careful.

Tumblr Accounts

Discord Accounts

I can only assume alts mean something like alternative accounts he and his friends created in order to do these things, engaging others on the server to do the same.

He then proceeds to share the success of the hurtful behaviour on before mentioned Discord server, commenting such:

^ The “he” they are referring to is a demi girl. And yes, on the other server the pronouns are clearly stated and everyone is asked to respect them.

He is downright admitting openly to have his friends manipulated other people to use the triggers against another person.

(For context: A server members triggers were ‘Borderlands” and ‘Kingdom Hearts’.

He stated this trigger a few hours before and unfortunately the mod, after a sleepless night, was unable to memorise it during that time so ‘Abd’ took advantage of it.

Another mod quickly drew attention to her mistake and of course she apologised to the person she triggered and was forgiven.)

Unfortunately many screenshots - involving the sexual advances and the 'making fun of transgenders' are missing due to the default ban option of the server, but several eye witnesses were able to confirm them.

There was a person pretending to be a transwoman to make fun of transpeople (The person was introducing themselves like: ‘Hello, I am a man, my pronouns are he/him, but I wish to be a woman’ It didn’t sound very genuine to the trans people on the server), people making up all sorts of triggers to make fun of people who have triggers, a person pretending to be a kin, and people, who were trying to spread paedophilic messages with spreading the news that ‘age is just a number’.

And in case people still believe it was an accident:

They deliberately threaten people and plan to hurt them, while making fun of their triggers.

I’m truly lost for words…

For everyone who didn’t know: It is not your place to judge triggers and for the love of God, please don’t make fun of them.

You don’t know the history behind them. It’s good if you have none yourself, it really is, but it shouldn’t make you blind to another person’s suffering.

And you certainly shouldn’t encourage other people to “hunt” people with triggers “down” and “go to war” against them.

Also the owner of server is openly hostility against lgbtq + people - especially trans people - , PoC and antisemitic jokes are the norm there.

They too use nationalist-socialist symbols as emojis in their servers, so people who are triggered by such symbols should be careful.

“Jew Alert”

Blaming one group for the action of singular people should us remind too much of darker parts in history.

I know people with the same experience, that doesnt mean they should actively seek out ot destroy the mental health of all trans people, because one of them hurt them.

Let the submitted texts speak for themselves.

And just in case if anybody believes those are fake:

As soon as Satan saw them, he pmed another person:

Those screenshots are real. They are not fake, like he claims they are and he admits that making fun of trigger and trans people was part of his “troll introductions”.

And just in case anybody is wondering if there are truly toxic trolls on this server? This is a submission I got:

When the original is:

Im sorry.

What they did should speak for itself, but don't try to add lies here. Lies that are obviously having their origin in the server itself.

If you still believe the attacks on this blog didn't come from the server:

This is what Artillery posted as soon as he found this post.

After this the attacks started [as you can see here], so don't tell me your server is not responsible and keep your NSFW implications out of a server with minors and away from this blog!

Also you being an immigrant has nothing to do with the fact, that your server is not safe for minors, lgtbq+ people - especially transpeople - people with trauma and poc.

Even if you claims are real - your and your friends prejudices against the other groups remain.

Satan apologised openly and promised to take better care of people mental health.

The emojis however will remain, though we have been told they have specific channels for offensive jokes.

“In our discussions with the tumblr group, we realized that the situation was far more complicated than we realized. There is a a third party, not associated with us or the tumblr group, who is deliberately spreading false information with the presumed agenda of causing drama and conflict between us. With this in mind, we've agreed the best course of action is to mutually end the escalation of conflict and apologize for what occured. Following that, I want to again make clear that nobody should be going after the tumblr group, their discord server, or anywhere other online spaces. We don't know where the tumblr trolls came from, but we do not support them. Their statements were racist, antisemitic, and violent. What we did in their server was wrong and a mistake. 

I want to personally apologize to a few specific people for what happened. Their server got raided, and during all of it we did not take their mental health into account, causing a lot of people to have panic attacks. Their triggers were invalidated, and people were manipulated. There were also a lot of innapropriate and offensive statements involved. While many things happened without my knowledge, it spiraled out of control because of the initial server raid, and I want to offer my sincerest apologies for that, and for everything else.”

Update:

He lied. He doesn’t regret anything.

Do you remember how he claimed he never ordered an attack on anybody?

Yes.... that was a lie.

He did plan to attack, though one member - the one they would later throw out of the admin team stopped him from attacking more people.

It should have given us red flags they would ban the only member from the team who was actively against the bullying.

And as we see here they did attack the second time as soon as the opportunity arouse when Artillery were sending people after us after saying we should suck his d*.

So he didnt learn a thing. Please survivors stay save.

[feralaot]

random scouts hcs!

I did a post like this for the warriors my beloved (here) and people seemed to like it so here's one for the scouts :) had some input from @afrival for this one luv u

no warnings I think

eren

if he had twitter he would have a vaporwave bart simpson profile picture and tweet lil peep lyrics. also uses way too many hashtags

he's scared of snakes and hates armin's ball python

his eyes are probably crusty as hell and mikasa has to wipe em for him because he won't

when he's losing an argument he goes "ooh you wanna kiss me so bad" and it always escalates things but he doesn't stop

almost exclusively wears american eagle

"what's a pronoun".mp3

uses the 💯 emoji in every other text message he sends

armin

sends his friends pictures of cats cuddling/hanging out and says "me n you <3"

genuinely can't stand when people have dirt under their fingernails. he gets so mad at eren bc his nails are dirty asf and armin forces him to clean them

he calls himself sexy a lot (e.g. "that was really sexy of me")

chews on bottle caps then is like hmm why do my teeth hurt

he hates feet. toes look weird to him. nobody in his house is allowed to take their socks off

unironically uses faces like ^-^ and :3

acne :(

mikasa

she's really bad at giving advice. don't go to her for help she'll literally be like "that's tough"

probably has like 4 instagram accounts made just to follow eren

solid black profile picture and no bio

maybe now and then she'll put a my chemical romance quote on her story but that's about it, she doesn't respond to dms or anything

doesn't wash that damn scarf so it's probably stinky

sticks staples, pins, etc through the tips of her fingers for no reason other than she likes freaking people out

probably hisses at people

jean

the only possible relationship dynamic somebody can have with him is rivals to lovers

very short social fuse and has to stay home for several days after public events bc it's just exhausting

he's an introvert adopted by extroverts (connie and sasha) and has to deal with their shenanigans. truly the mom figure between the three of them

marco has to listen to him ranting about connie and sasha's foolery and doesn't have much advice to offer bc he doesn't know either

for a long time he only knew "straight" and "gay" and when he found out about the concept of bisexuality his mind almost imploded

he sighs and yawns a lot and doesn't even realize he does it. people always think he's either annoyed or tired

probably dresses like a diet e-boy. crewneck king

connie

the kind of kid in your high school gym class that wears mismatching neon clothes. bonus points if it's nike

also the most likely to start a food fight for funsies

he doesn't yell often because his voice cracks when he does and it's embarrassing

sasha and him hate cafeteria food so he always brings an ungodly amount of food in his backpack instead to share with sasha. connie's backpack is 90% food

unironically says things like "pogchamp" and "rad"

he works at zumiez and probably lives there. always rocking their latest drip

jumps up and slaps exit signs

sasha

randomly breaks into song (usually disney songs) and connie will automatically duet

manages to fall asleep in any situation. on buses, while watching movies, sometimes even mid conversation if she's zoned out enough

tried to take armin fishing one time but he almost cried because he felt so bad about it

at least reiner will fish with her though. the himbos always come through

her instagram is all pictures of fish she caught and now and then there's an awkward candid pic of niccolo

stayed overnight in a walmart one time and got away and brags about it but she won't admit it was an accident. panicked and spent the night eating snacks off the shelves to "survive"

while she's talking her voice slowly gets louder and louder and she doesn't realize it until people tell her to stop yelling

historia

pulls people by the ears to bring them down to her level

also kicks people in the shins a lot, if she's arguing with someone they'll usually keep their distance to avoid getting shin kicked

loves climbing on ymir's back and just being carried around like the little creature she is

posts inspirational quotes on her story

would definitely be a cheerleader in high school. nobody would guess a prep like her is dating some grunge girl w a pretty much opposite personality

she always has bandaids with her for some reason. if someone gets scraped she'll whip out a bandaid immediately. her friends call her "mom" sometimes

hates grilled cheese so god damn much. can't stand it

ymir

"damn I don't remember asking".mp3

is always the first one to comment on historia's instagram posts. her comments range from "beautiful my queen!!!" to "damn ma yo ass fat"

she always called reiner gay as a joke then he came out as gay and for a while she thought it was her fault

her and reiner have wlw and mlm solidarity, they're bffs for that matter

if someone tells her that her music is too loud she'll say "huh?" and turn it up

similarly if someone scolds her for something she'll go "hm? repeat that, I'm a little deaf in this ear"

"bro stfu you always tell me you're gonna fire me for being late"

levi

really really hates cooking pasta because straining the water is for some reason more difficult than it should be

"do not underestimate me, bitches"

always refuses to get his hair cut at places in shopping centers. especially walmart great clips

makes monkey noises when he sees something he likes. he started doing this as a joke to mock zeke but it evolved and now he can't stop doing it randomly

will not hesitate to knock someone on their ass if they're talking shit

coffee makes him jittery so he drinks tea instead but won't admit to anyone that he lowkey also has a redbull addiction

hange calls him a catboy but he doesn't know what that means so he's always like "yeah" bc he thinks it means he's a cat person

hange

buys levi shoes from the kids section and doesnt tell him bc he likes them anyway

such a millennial, they say shit like "doggo" and "adulting"

"for practical reasons I don't exist. do not perceive me"

probably wants to marry mothman

levi has had to scold them on several different occasions for bringing live animals into the house

legally isn't allowed to cook bc they can and they will blow something up

goes on tipsy rants almost nightly

erwin

white skechers king

hosts barbecues in those white skechers. he talks shit about people with nile and pyxis like a bunch of gossiping middle aged fath- wait

his profile pictures on social media are probably pictures of himself taken from awkward angles with an empty expression. it's always posted like six times as well

when levi is getting Out Of Hand he'll pick him up from under the arms and carry him away like "okay, that's enough" and levi kicks around but can't escape

rubs his hands together a lot like a fly. nobody knows why he does it. what are you scheming

falls asleep on couches while watching sports games

[swinging his keys around his finger] "let's rock and roll"

[literaila]

the sun

“the end” 

spencer reid x reader 

this is part threeee. heres part one. and part two. you should probably read those first :) 

summary: spencer has amnesia. he doesnt remember the reader. and he has decided be doesnt want to to be continued...

warnings: mentions of blood, angst, depression, fluff, note writing if that scares you, mentions of fire, i think thats it?

a/n: hahahahahah hi. this is the last part my loves. i hope you enjoy it. thank you so much for loving it. 

***

Moving on was easy. 

Moving on was so much much simpler than trying to stay. 

Of course, moving on was so much easier than trying to wear his brain down, then trying to force the information inside, the information his brain was keeping locked up behind a thousand cages, it was so much easier than trying to break all that information out. 

Spencer didn't know her. He only knew the little bits and pieces he told him, he only knew as far as the questions he had asked, but he didn't know beyond that, he didn't know anything about the girl he had fallen for before the accident. 

So it was so much easier not trying to force himself to know her. 

It was so much easier to go through every day, to live every day, and just be himself. To just have all the information in his head, to not have to learn new things all the time, it was so much easier. 

Spencer didn't have to actively try to be a person he wasn't. 

He didn't remember her. He didn't know her. He didn't know the person he was with her. He was glad he didn't have to try anymore. 

It was a weight lifted off his shoulders, all the change in pockets had been emptied, and he was happy. 

Moving on was so easy. 

Spencer worked. He worked with his friends, who loved him just the same even after the accident. He did his job, and he wasn't missing anything. He wasn't looking for something that wasn't there. 

It was so easy. 

Sometimes, he still had to go into the hospital, still had to get an update on his brain, make sure nothing had happened, but most weeks were completely normal. And he was just himself. 

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That's not to say he didn't think of her. 

Because he did. 

All the time. 

***

Everything was easy. 

But there was still something. 

There was still something weighing him down, still, something that was pushing and pulling him back and forth, moving his heart from the bottom for his feet to the very tip of his head. 

There was still something wrong. 

***

It was difficult. 

Moving, breathing. 

It was difficult. 

She didn't blame him. She couldn't. She knew that, in her heart, in her head, that it wasn't his fault. It wasn't his fault that he couldn't remember her, it wasn't his fault that she had been erased, and it wasn't his fault that he didn't want to keep trying. 

None of it was his fault. 

But that didn't erase the pain, the seizing, burning pain, that she felt buried beneath everything inside her. 

It was an unfortunate thing that Spencer could forget, but she couldn't. 

It was a deafening thing, to remember. 

Most nights she wished she didn't. 

Just so she wouldn't have to know all that they could’ve been. Just so she didn't have to know how it felt to be loved so desperately, to be the entire world to someone. Just so she didn't have to feel everything, to know that Spencer felt nothing when she looked at him. 

Just so she didn't have to grieve him.

 Because she had lost him. 

The man she loved, the man she had never imagined letting go, was gone. Spencer was still there, Spencer was still alive, still breathing, still Spencer. But he wasn't the same. He wasn't the man that loved her. 

That man was gone. 

It wasn't fair that she had to grieve him. It wasn't fair that she was grieving while he was still there. 

But that didn't make it Spencer's fault. It had never been Spencer's fault. 

It was difficult. to move, to breathe, to pick herself off of the cold floor that had become her home. It was difficult to do it all. 

But she did. She got up every day, she stopped looking at pictures obsessively, she stopped staring at the pictures late at night when the pain under her skin got so intense that she could sleep. She stopped reminiscing over the look that used to be in Spencer's eyes, she stopped looking at all the pictures with them together. She stopped calling him just to hear his voicemail, she stopped calling completely. She’d blocked his number. She stopped checking the FBI website every day, stopped looking for a tribute, a sign that something was wrong. She stopped texting Penelope about him. She picked herself up off the floor, and she tried, she tried to forget, she wished every day that she could just forget all of it. 

The pain wouldn't stop. Wouldn't stop coming up every time she saw a couple on the streets, every time she saw someone smiling with someone else. It didn't stop when she saw an accident on the news when she heard anything about a hospital. It didn't stop when she heard about a book Spencer had told her about so long ago. It didn't stop when she avoided her family's questions about Spencer when she ignored the phone calls she got from all her friends. 

She was an empty body. She was just trying to move on. 

She was just trying to get through each second, through each beat of her heart. 

She went to the park all of the time. 

She laid in the grass and she avoided thinking. She avoided breathing. She avoided everything and just laid there. 

She was being beaten down everyday, kicked back and forth by the grief that wouldn't leave her body, but the grief that filled her pockets filled her body, filled her brain, filled her eyes with nothing. 

She could barely move her hands some days. 

The doctors said she was fine. Said she had healed months ago, that her ribs were fine, that her head was fine, that everything that had happened had healed. She was fine. 

But they were wrong. Because wounds you can't see, they never heal. And memories that don't leave, they won't heal either. 

You have to heal for them. You have to leave for them. 

***

There was a cloud in his head. 

It was always there. Hanging on his shoulders. When he was at work, the weight seemed almost unbearable, and he was worried that it would be too much, that he would fall. But when he got home, the weight only got significantly heavier. 

But the weight when he got home. 

The weight when he got home was everything compared to the weight at work. 

It felt like he had everything, had the sun, the moon, the sky, all forced together on the cloud that was hanging on his back, that was forcing him down, forcing him to carry it. He had everything on his back, but he wasn't strong enough, he was almost not strong enough to hold it all. 

The cloud hanging over him, hanging on his shoulders never left. 

He didn't understand the cloud. 

He didn't understand why it was there, why it wouldn't leave, why it was so heavy, why it kept all the light from coming in. He didn't understand any of it. He didn't understand how it could just be in his head but feel so physically exhausting. It was one of the few things he didn't understand. 

A cloud hanging over him, a cloud proving his world to be dark, to be covered in nothing but the dark clouds that surrounded him. 

There was a cloud hung over his head. 

The sun had disappeared. 

The sun was a thing that never existed in this new world he was in. There was no sun, there was no light in his life, there was nothing but the darkness that the cloud kept him in. 

There was nothing. No warmth, no light, no sun. 

There was no sun. 

No. 

No sun.

Oh. 

The clouds swirled around him. Weighing on his shoulders. 

He got dizzy with realization. His back collapsed under the cloud weighing him down, his bones were cracking, his body was falling. 

The sun. 

His world titled.

Oh 

***

“Garica.” 

His voice was pleading, his body was still broken. 

“No Spencer.” 

“Garica, I need it.” 

Garcia turned around to look at him. Her face was hard, her eyes unmoving. She wasn't going to give into him, even when he was giving her his big eyes, his desperate face. She wasn't going to. 

“Spencer. She told me not to.” she crossed her arms, wished he would understand, wished he would stop looking at her like that. 

“Garica. She blocked me.” 

Y/N had moved. She was gone. She wasn't answering his calls, she wasn't in their old apartment, she wasn't at the park, she wasn't answering him. She was gone. 

“Spencer, I really wish I could help you, but she told me that she wanted to move on. I’m not going to disrespect her wishes.” 

Spencer sighed and felt his body sting. She wanted to move on. She deserved to move one. But she wanted to. He took a deep breath and stared at Garcia. She had to help him. She just had to. 

“Okay, don't give me that look.” She finally said, upset, her eyes mad. 

“What?” Spencer asked. 

“You said you didn't want to try anymore Spencer. You said that. That girl, she loves you with all her heart, and she would’ve gone to the ends of the earth for you. But you decided to give up. She doesn't deserve you changing your mind.” Garica sighed, flailing her arms around, relieved that she could finally get the words out of her mouth. 

She had been mad at him for a while. Had been mad that he had hurt her friend so deeply, that it wasn't even really his fault, that there was nothing she could do. She was furious with the situation, and Spencer asking her to help him find Y/N was only pushing her over the edge. 

“I don't like seeing her in pain. I don't want to see it anymore.” 

Spencer looked away from her. Ashamed. He wasn't being fair. He knew that he was angry with himself, angry that he had given up so quickly, that it took months of being apart from her to realize his attachment to her, angry that any of this had happened in the first place. 

He was angry that he couldn't remember. He’d always wished he would stop remembering things, stop being able to memorize every detail of things that terrified him. But now, now that his mind had taken away everything, had taken away the things he knew he would want to remember forever, he’d never wish to forget anything again. 

He was tired, but he wouldn't stop now. One more chance. He needed one more chance. He couldn't stop. 

“Penelope. I know- I know she doesn't deserve this.” he took a shaky breath in, messing with the ends of his shirt, looking away from her, the women he’d never thought to be threatening until now. “But I didn't see her, I didn't realize until now.” he shook his head, ashamed at the thought of not realizing. “I need her. I thought- I thought that it was different, that I must have lost the person I had been with her, the person everyone keeps telling me I used to be. I assumed that the feelings had been forgotten with the memory-” He took a breath in. Begging himself not to cry, begging his friend to just understand. He wished he wasn't where he was. He wished he was back at home, back to a year ago when he could still remember. “But- I don't know, I still feel something. I can't stop feeling it. I just-” he sighed, rubbing his eyes. 

Garica looked at him. Her eyes now soft, her expression now concerned. While she had seen him fall apart before, while she had seen him desperately in love, she had never seen him like this. 

He seemed so ashamed, so angry, to be wrong about something. He seemed like he wanted nothing more than to go back in time to change everything. 

And while sometimes she couldn't understand a word coming out of his mouth, she understood this. She understood his desperation, his intense feelings, she understood how it felt to be so wrong. 

“Reid.” she finally said, his head snapping up to look at her in surprise. 

For his sake, she pretended not to notice his red eyes, his bleeding up lip, and the dark circles under his eyes that seem so much darker than before. 

“You are not allowed to hurt her again. That girl has been through too much, is too broken, for you to hurt her again.” 

Spencer winced, reminded of all the things that he had done. 

“Do you understand me?” Garcia asked finally. Her face testing, her eyes studying him. 

He nodded his head rapidly, feeling relief in his chest. 

“Okay,” she said, and she started to write something down. 

Maybe, just maybe, he could fix what he had broken. 

***

Pain. 

Buried deep in her chest. 

Pain. 

Burned into her heart. 

Pain. 

Scarred on her body. 

Pain. 

That was never-ending. 

Pain. 

That she wondered would ever go away. 

Pain. 

It didn't seem like it. It didn't seem like this feeling, this ghost of a memory, living with her, would ever leave. 

Pain. 

She tried to ignore it. Tried to pretend that she was making it up, that like all of her doctors had said, she was fine. She needed to move on. She needed to stop obsessing, to stop worrying, to stop feeling all of this pain. She just needed to try harder, to try harder to become a person that wasn't as broken as she felt. 

She was still working from home. Even after she had moved, leaving the memories of her old apartment behind, she hadn't decided to find a new job. She was going to keep working online, working with different companies, as long as she could. 

She didn't feel like she could do anything more yet. 

She was leaving the house more often now. 

She prided herself on that. 

She prided herself on spending more time in the coffee shop that was next to her new apartment. She prided herself on the fact that she was getting to know her neighbors, meeting new people so she didn't have to be alone all of the time. She was proud of the days she spent in town, just walking around, just looking for something new to do. 

She was proud that she hadn't fallen back on the floor, that she was actively trying to do something. 

She was upset that doing these things didn't remove the pain. She was upset that her distractions could only last so long, that she couldn't just ignore it when she laid down at night, that the beating of her heart only reminded her of the heart that used to beat next to hers. 

She refused to utter his name. Refused to think it. 

She was trying to move on. 

She hadn't moved far enough to be apart from Penelope, she hadn't completely abandoned her old friends. She had only moved so that she could get out of that apartment, so she could escape the ghosts that were living in it. 

She still talked to her friend. Still called her sometimes, still talked just to catch up. 

She didn't say a word about him. 

Neither did Penelope. She understood. 

Y/N was moving on. She was going to move on. She was going to get rid of this pain, she was going to forget it, and then after that, she would move on completely. 

Time. She just needed time. She reassured herself that. 

Unfortunately, time wasn't something she had. 

There wasn't enough time for her to mend herself, to feel complete, to stop the pain flowing through her body like blood, there wasn't enough time to move on before he showed up. 

Because he showed up. 

Because still, even without the constant reminders, he was always there. 

His memories haunted her. 

At first, when she saw him, she pretended she was dreaming. Pretended that this was just another moment of sleep that she couldn't control, just another night of him filling her head like he always did, pretended that this was normal. That he always showed up to her doorstep. 

It was just a dream. 

It was just a dream. 

Even when he started talking, something he never did in her dreams of him, even then she still pretended it was a dream. 

“Y/N?” he asked, his eyes looking so clear for a dream. 

She didn't say anything. 

“Are you alright?” he asked, his eyes concerned now. Her dreams didn't usually go like this. Usually, he was telling her how he didn't want her, usually, her dreams turned into nightmares. 

She wondered when she would wake up. She could never sleep for too long. 

“Y/N?” 

He took a step closer. 

And then she woke up. 

She shook her head, her eyes becoming alert with panic. Her body froze up. 

“What are you doing here?” she asked. Her voice came out breathless, cracking with every word. Her mouth was dry, and her eyes were already stinging with tears. 

Why was he here? 

“I need to talk to you-” 

“No.” she muttered, turning away from him. “No, no, no.” 

“Y/N-” 

“No.” she said harshly, her voice louder now. 

She turned away from him, turned away from the pain facing her, from the memories she didn't want to remember, she wanted to disappear. 

Pain. There was so much pain. In her body, in her brain, in her eyes. 

She wiped away a tear that fell from her eyes. Surprised that she was already crying. 

“Y/N. Please?” 

And she wanted to say no. She did. But she was tired, and she, she just couldn't. 

She nodded, leading her into her apartment. She tried to calm herself down, tried not to sob at just his voice, tried to stop the tears from running down her face. 

She dropped her stuff by the door. Kept walking. She stood in the middle of the room, waiting for the man following her to say something. 

“I like your apartment,” Spencer said softly, trying to break through the silence gently. 

“Spencer,” she almost screamed at the taste of his name in her mouth. She sighed, turning to look at him. Avoided his eyes. “Why are you here?” 

She didn't want him to be here. She didn't want to be there. 

“I need-” Spencer swallowed. “I need to talk to you?”

She wasn't happy with that answer. Wasn't happy that he was here. Wasn't she supposed to be moving on? 

“What could you possibly have to talk to me about Spencer?” she said, sudden anger coming out of her voice. “What could be left?” 

Spencer took a step back. He was shocked by her reaction. In the few months, he had gotten to know her, he had never known her to be impatient, in fact, she was quite the opposite, she was always calm and collected. She had never raised her voice, never said anything to him with any malice. He supposed she was tired. Tired of not being mad. He supposed he deserved it. 

“I need- I just-” Spencer tried to collect himself. Tried not to be nervous. He clenched his fists over and over again, trying to force the words out of himself. “I shouldn’t have ever stopped trying, I just- I was wrong. Again. I don't-” 

“No.” Tears shimmered in her eyes as she looked at him. She shook her head insistently.

“Y/N-” 

“No.” She gritted her teeth, her eyes now threatening. “You don't get to change your mind again. You don't get to be wrong again. I just- I can't do this again. I can't- I can't have you change your mind all the time.” Her eyes were red and hot and she ignored the way he was looking at her. “When will you understand that I-” she paused gasping and throwing her head back, the pain burning her throat. “I love you.” she broke. 

Falling to the floor, falling back to the place she had been before. 

“You can't do this to me- you can't” she gasped. “I can't- I can't.” 

Spencer tried to move toward her, tried to find some way to comfort her, tried to do something so that the tears would stop falling from her eyes. 

“No!” she shouted, her voice raw with pain. “No! Go- just go- I can't-” 

And because Spencer couldn't bear to see her like that anymore. 

He left. 

She sobbed against the floor. Feeling nothing but relief as he walked out the door. 

***

It was a week before anything else happened. 

*

Y/N woke up and got dressed as if nothing had happened. She had been pretending nothing had happened for days. 

Today, she had decided she was going to go pick up things to bake something. 

Today, she wanted to be distracted. 

She had spent all night, tossing and turning while dreams danced in her head. Dreams of Spencer, dreams that always turned into nightmares. 

She needed distracting. 

She was still pretending nothing had happened. 

And she was walking out the door, ready to keep pretending, when she saw a cup of coffee on her doorstep. A note rested against it. 

She furrowed her brows and looked at it. 

Her name was written on the note, in a messy scrawl. She pretended she didn't recognize it. 

She opened it. 

I’ve decided to start slowly. I’m hoping it's easier for you. 

I’m sorry Y/N. 

But, I’m hoping I can build back your trust. In whatever way is easiest for you. 

This morning, please enjoy the coffee. 

Call me when you’re ready. 

Spencer. 

She ignored the tears glistening in her eyes. She was too tired of crying. 

She decided then she wasn't ready. 

The coffee was good. 

***

The next day, there was a muffin at the door. Y/N was still surprised. She hadn't expected anything else. 

Y/N, 

Garcia told me which muffin was your favorite. I’m sure I knew once. 

Don't worry. I'm still trying. 

I hope you’ll be there when I remember. 

I’m not giving up this time. I promise. 

Call me when you’re ready/ 

Spencer. 

This time she let the tears run free. She laughed. 

This was her favorite muffin. 

***

And it didn't stop. 

Today, I brought you a book. 

I heard it was your favorite. 

Call me when you’re ready. 

Spencer. 

***

Y/N, 

I spent my day thinking of you. 

Strangely, I miss you when you’re not around.

I didn't realize I felt like that until I gave up.

I hope you enjoy the candle. 

Call me when you’re ready. 

Spencer. 

That day, she felt a pang in her heart, she smiled, acted like she wasn't hoping for anything. 

***

I can't remember seeing you for the first time. 

But, I can remember you walking into the hospital room. I remember how sad you looked, how tired you seemed. I’ve been trained to notice little things, so I knew you were nervous. I knew you were trying not to make me uncomfortable. 

I finally understood what Derek was talking about when I first saw you. 

Even though I can't remember seeing you for the first time, I know I thought you were beautiful. 

I still think you’re beautiful. 

Call me when you’re ready. 

Spencer. 

***

I regret ever letting you go. 

I hate that I can't live in our memories with you. 

I’m hoping you can wait longer, I’m hoping you’ll grace me with a little more patience. 

I know it's not fair. 

I don't want to lose you. 

Call me when you’re ready.

Spencer. 

***

Garcia told me that you have a sugar addiction. 

We have that in common. 

So I brought you some chocolate. 

I hope it's enough for now. 

Call me when you’re ready. 

***

Weeks went by. Y/N never called. But, Spencer noticed that she was reading them, that she was taking the time to read them, and taking his gifts. He would wait. He could live with waiting longer if she wasn't ready. This time, he was going to let her call the shots. 

And each day he was going to learn more about her. 

Learn more about why he loved her. 

***

There's not a gift today. 

Only my words. 

I hope that is enough. 

I want to explain why I left, why I gave up. 

Some of it was for purely selfish reasons, I didn't want to have to keep pretending to be the Spencer you needed. I didn't want to have to keep working for memories that clearly weren't there. I was tired, but I know that's not a good excuse. 

But, I also did it for you. 

I didn't want you to have to keep pretending for me. I could see how much it hurt you, how much all of my questions broke you just a little bit more. I didn't want that for you. I know now that leaving wasn't a good decision. And I’m sorry.

But, I also know that if I could keep anything from hurting you I would. 

I’m going to try to protect you from everything. That includes me. 

I’m not going to give up this time. Not until you ask me to. 

Call me when you’re ready. 

Spencer. 

That day, that message, then. 

She felt ready. 

***

“Spencer?” 

She held the phone to her ear, listening to his breathing. 

Eventually, she heard a sigh, she heard a smile. 

“Y/N,” he breathed out in bliss. 

***

She was laughing when they walked through the door. 

They had been out at the park, playing chess, when it started raining. 

It was a welcome surprise. 

Eventually, they had decided to walk back to Y/N’s apartment, Spencer warning her that she might get a cold, and her teasing back but relenting anyway. 

She didn't know that two months could be just as amazing as they had been. 

She had eventually called him, had eventually been ready to talk to him, been ready to move on, this time with him. She had decided that she was willing to risk herself one more time, willing to give one more chance to the man she loved. 

Spencer understood that. He knew that he only had one more chance to be with her, only one more chance to fix the things that he had broken. He had accepted that. He was giddy at the thought of another chance anyway. 

Together, they had decided that instead of trying to rebuild the memories they had lost, they were going to create new ones. 

It was amazing what past mistakes could fix. It was amazing what could be created in only two months. 

They had spent two months getting to know each other again, going on dates, asking each other questions, questions that didn't put any pressure on the two of them. They went to movies, and dinner and they spent time with their friends. 

And while it wasn't exactly the same, and they still had to get to know each other as the people they had become after the accident, it was a perfect start. 

Bliss was what they lived in. 

Y/N almost thought she was dreaming. 

Months ago, she was terrified at the thought of Spencer leaving, grieving the person she had once known, the man she loved. 

Now, she was with him. Now, she had decided to start over with him. 

And so they were laughing. 

They both shook off their coats, smiling at each other as they walked into the apartment. Y/N went to set her bags down as Spencer struggled to get his shoes off near her door. 

She was smiling, the only pain in her body was the ache of her heart, knowing that Spencer was there with her in her apartment. 

“Do you have anything I can change into?” Spencer asked, standing in front of her with completely soaked clothes. 

She giggled a little bit, amused at his weary expression. “Yeah. There's a box full of some of your old stuff that I found when I was moving. It's in my closet. Top shelf.” 

Spencer smiled as she turned away, walking into the kitchen to make them lunch, he watched her for a moment before turning into her bedroom. 

Over the past couple of months, Spencer was surprised at how much he was finding out about his girlfriend. He learned more about her than he had in the months after the hospital. It was a surprising change, it was a happy change. 

His clouds, the clouds that had been following him everywhere, always seemed to disappear when she was around. Her smile, her eyes, her laugh, they all brightened the room, acted as his own personal sun. She was scaring the clouds away, taking bits of his heart as she did it. 

Spencer still didn't think she realized the intensity of his feelings. Sometimes Spencer didn't realize it. He supposed that it was easier to fall in love with her like this, to fall in love with someone a part of him had already been in love with. He was sure that subconsciously he had always loved her, that the feelings hadn't faded with the memories. 

He didn't want to rush into things this time, didn't want to scare her, to overwhelm her as he had before. It seemed silly to be afraid of admitting his feelings to someone that had loved him for five years prior, but still he couldn't shake the nerves in his heart. 

He would tell her soon. 

Tell his sun. 

He took to calling her that in his head, found it to be the only word that fit her beauty perfectly. 

She was the sun in his world. And he thought, just like the sun she would never leave. 

He walked into her room, smiling at the books spread across her bed, and went directly to the closet. 

His cheeks were in pain due to the amount of smiling he’d been doing, he quickly tried to frown, tried to offer his sore muscles some relief, but found he couldn't do it. 

He couldn't stop smiling. 

He only smiled wider at the thought. 

It was easy to find the box she had been talking about, it being the only thing that looked like it hadn't been touched, out of place in her colorful closet with the brown of the moving box. He took it down, wondering what would be in there. 

For a brief moment, he was sad that she had this box, that she had been too afraid to open it, but reminded himself that they had started over. That she didn't have to be sad anymore. 

He grinned a little bit at that. 

He dug through the box, finding a couple of old books, some sweaters that looked nice. He looked through the clothes, found a pair of shoes he wrinkled his nose at. 

And when he got to the bottom of the box he found something else. 

A small box. 

Velvet. 

A ring. 

*

A loud crash came from the other room. Immediately Y/N felt her heart speed up, and she rushed into her room, millions of different possibilities running through her head. 

“Spencer!? Are you alright?” she shouted as she walked through the door, the silence being the only thing filling her brain. 

She was breathing heavily by the time she made it to the closet doors, not seeing him in her room. 

“Spencer are you-” she paused when she saw him sitting on the floor, his head in his hands, crawled up into the corner 

He looked so small, he looked like he was fighting with himself like there was something wrong. She wouldn't let herself worry. 

“Spence? What's going on?” she asked, kneeling down to sit next to him, she tried to pry his hands away from his face to no prevail. He wasn't looking at her, and he was sitting on the floor, and she had no idea what was happening. “Sweetie, are you alright? Is there something wrong?” she asked softer this time, just a whisper in his ear. 

She waited for him to say something. 

She looked around the closet, noticing that he had found the box she’d been talking about, she thought that maybe something had fallen on his head, maybe he had gotten a headache. That wasn't so bad. She looked over to him, putting her hand on his shoulder. 

“Spence-” 

His head snapped up. His eyes looked red, his hair was messy, and she looked down with wide eyes to notice his hands shaking. His face was white but his eyes didn't look sick, not they just looked alarmed as he stared at her. 

And then suddenly awe transformed his face. 

He was pulling her up, helping her stand up with shaking hands, his eyes only focused on her, as she looked at him confused, her eyebrows scrunched up in worry. 

“Spencer what's going on-” she started to say, but he kissed her, kissed her, and stopped her from saying anything. 

Relief and surprise-filled her body at the same time. Now, she could see that he wasn't hurt, but she still had no idea what had just happened, why he was acting so strange, why he wasn't talking to her, she didn't understand what was going on, why he was kissing her- 

She was still confused when he blurted out 

“You’re perfect to me.” 

And she looked at him with her mouth parted. 

Her eyes were confused again. 

But he was staring at her, he was looking at her with his eyes blazed and twinkling, he was looking at her and he wasn't saying a thing, just staring at her, his face completely changed from how it had been a second ago, and he was looking at her, he was looking at her like- 

Oh. 

She thought about his words. Thought about the look in his eyes. 

She gasped, bringing her hand up to her mouth. 

He smiled at her, taking her face in his hands 

“Always,” he said, and tears ran down her cheeks. 

Always. Always. Always. Always. 

He had said always. 

She gasped again, air meaning nothing compared to the words he had just said. 

Spencer just laughed, kissing away the tears on her cheeks. 

She breathed in and out rapidly, her eyelashes fluttering. 

“You-” she gasped out in shock, her voice barely there, the words barely making sense when her brain was so full of his words. “You remember,” she said, more tears flooding her eyes. 

He nodded, grinning at her. His face looked so much different than she had ever seen before, but his eyes, his eyes were looking at her the same as they always had, the same as they always had- 

She gasped again, the realization hitting her over and over.

“I love you,” Spencer whispered against her lips, leaning against her. 

He lifted the box up, flicking it open in front of her eyes. 

She gasped one more time, her eyelids drooping. 

He kissed her. 

He remembered. 

***

Ten years later, love was a memory that would never fade. 

Spencer had stayed, had kept to his promise, Y/N had stayed with him, had been patient as he relearned, as he rediscovered the life he wanted with her. 

And eventually, they didn't have to try anymore, eventually, everything was easy. 

They were together, and their memories were set in stone, the ring on her finger made it clear enough. 

She hadn't taken her ring off since she had gotten it. 

Spencer didn't mind. He was particularly fond of how it looked on her hand. 

Their love was set in stone, their pasts only a path to the life they had built together. 

The friends they had, the family they were creating. 

Their lives were surrounded by nothing but love, but memories that they wished to keep forever, memories that they cherished more than ever. 

And some nights, on the especially cold ones, on the ones that felt alone. On the nights when the wind blew in old ghosts, reminding Y/N of everything, of how easy it was to lose someone, on those nights she always asked, never once forgot to ask, 

“You remember me?” 

And Spencer was never hesitant to answer. 

“I’ve never forgotten.” 

And like always, he kissed her worries away. 

Because on those nights when she felt alone, when she was cold and worried, on those nights 

He was always there with her. 

And he always remembered.

* 

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miya atsumu

→ first he called the game dumb but he eventually gave in because everyone and their aunts were playing it and he didn’t wanna be left out

→ mf tries so hard for raymond at first

→ he insists it’s just because he can sell him for a lot

→ he really just wants raymond because he lowkey reminds him of osamu

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→ pedro

→ atsumu was ✨disgusted✨

→ “a clown?! a fukn clown?! yer jokin me!”

→ “aw don’t cry he fits in so well on your island 😹”

→ “sHUT YER TRAP 😠😠😠”

→ he hated pedro at first and for what?

→ eventually he starts vibing with him though

→ he decides that perhaps... pedro isn’t a bad guy after all

→ so atsumu develops a soft spot for him and begins to favour him over the rest of his mediocre villagers whose names he can’t be bothered to remember

→ ya know whose name he can remeber though?

→ BELLA 😡😠😡😠😡😡😠

→ the name that sparks rage in him

→ atsumu hits his villagers with his net shouting “nice cut g!” as a joke

→ with bella he’s not joking 😐

→ he hits her repeatedly and grins maliciously when she gets angry eventually

→ LOVES shoving her into pitfalls for absolutely no reason

→ cusses her out under his breath

→ writes hate mail to her only to get fustrated when she sends a nice reply about the flowers she saw the other day that reminded her of him

→ honestly bella girl it ain’t worth it, pack your bags and get outta there sis 😔

→ he wants her to get tf off his island because he doesn’t like her but he also kinda wants her to stay because he loves annoying her and making her angry

→ literally goes out of his way to buy the ugliest clothes for her to wear

→ he also has all his villagers address him as “big dick man”

→ pedro is special though 😳

→ pedro is the chosen one who gets to call him “tsumu”

→ JUST PEDRO 😤😾😡

→ literally thinks it’s the funniest thing when his villagers say “hey big dick man! the weather sure is great today isn’t it!”

→ you can hear his cackling from down the hall

→ thinks it’s the peak of comedy

→ oh and you’re not allowed to visit his island on a saturday

→ saturdays are “for the boys”

→ and by that he means he’s just going to buy a ton of matching clothes for him and pedro and talk to him all day until he eventually annoys pedro by accident to which he genuinely gets upset about

→ he doesn’t really bother with the fishing tourneys or bug offs

→ does catch a few though just to make sure he beats bella earns nook miles

→ pretty average island, not too much effort put into it yet

→ atsumu prefers channeling his energy and game time into bullying bella interacting with his villagers

kuroo tetsurō

→ bangs. it. tf. out.

→ literally acts like he doesn’t care about the game but has 395+ hours game time

→ uses the excuse it’s to play with kenma but kuroo actually got into it before kenma had the chance to look at it properly

→ fishing tourney KING

→ has multiple gold trophy’s and built a whole extension just to show them off

→ also treats all his villagers equally

→ he was a bit picky and only wanted cats and dogs on his island though

→ if you’re anything but a cat or a dog, i’m sorry but kuroo will timeskip you tf off of his island

→ has a soft spot for lucky but doesn’t admit it

→ he likes to come across as a “fair dictator of the island”

→ just admit luckys your fav and go oh my god

→ his house is really nice too

→ pretty much paid off all his debt and is financially responsible 😼

→ he will send you money over a few times a week because he claims he’s a good boyfie virtually and realistically

→ LOVES opening the letters from ‘mom’

→ it’s a small detail in the game but it brings kuroo comfort when he opens the letters and sometimes receives gifts from his virtual ‘mom’ 🥺

→ keeps all the letters from her because that’s what he would do if his real mom ever wrote to him

→ he’s a shameless timeskipper

→ “tetsu?? where tf did you get all this the games only been out a week??”

→ “👁👁 idk what you’re talking about baby”

→ the thing that annoys him the most are the fossils

→ HATES the stupid little marks in the ground that appear every day

→ also HATES talking to blathers

→ “spit it out already! i have places to be and villagers to see!”

→ completely ignores blathers’ real name and refers to him as ‘bokuto’

→ because he’s an owl duh

→ and bokuto also talks a lot

→ you thought it was a cute friendship thing at first but took it back when you heard him muttering under his breath

→ “oh my god just analyse the fossils already you himbo bird!”

→ “did you just call blathers a himbo? 😳”

→ “...no? 😳👀”

→ all in all, kuroo’s pretty good at the game

→ you like visiting his island because he has a ton of extra stuff he just gives you

→ “i never want to hear you call me a bad boyfriend again 😐”

→ “okay fine...but oNLY if you give me an ironwood dresser 😏”

tsukishima kei

→ another one who bangs it out

→ doesn’t really care when you point it out though

→ “you’re just jealous your islands a dumping ground compared to mine 🥱”

→ “k-kei 😔”

→ also sprints near where you’re fishing to scare the fish off and be spiteful 💀

→ little shit KNOWS you only need oranges to complete all the fruits on your island

→ he also knows you’re out of nook miles tickets

→ “aw that’s a shame, maybe if you were a bit better at the game you’d find them quicker but good luck! 😀”

→ oranges are his native fruit 😐😑😐

→ eventually he gives you them because you’re relentless and his patience runs thin after a while

→ good at the bug offs

→ pretty good at scorpion/tarantula hunting too

→ convinced spike is in love with him after the amount of scorpions and tarantulas he’s donated to him

→ his fossil exhibition in the museum is completed already

→ when blathers tells him the facts about the dinosaurs he just rolls his eyes

→ “i knew that already you stupid bird 🙄”

→ why’s everyone bullying blathers damn 😿

→ now, he likes henry

→ one of the few villagers he doesn’t bully

→ tsukki doesnt particularly care for majority of his villagers

→ henry has a special place in his heart though

→ maybe it’s because henry isn’t overly perky or he isn’t rude like the cranky villagers which tsukishima doesn’t like

→ henry is just??? so??? nice????

→ he can’t hate him

→ all his villagers have catchphrases that are dumb af

→ tsukki thought he was being clever when he made them but he just looks mean when other people talk to his villagers

→ “good morning i am useless! i love your outfit!”

→ henry gets to call him tsukki though

→ only because he figured out that henry reminds him of yamaguchi

→ that’s the only reason henry’s the exception to his bullying

→ i feel like tsukki has a pretty nice house too

→ he makes a lot of bells from selling scorpions and tarantulas and spare fossils he’s dug up

→ doesn’t really care about the size but has very detailed rooms

→ like all the furniture in his rooms follow a scheme

→ mf never opens his mailbox

→ doesn’t care for what the other “peasants have to say for themselves”

→ terraforming isn’t really his thing tbh

→ doesn’t like how slow the process and be and kinda likes the natural flat land

→ he likes laying down paths though

→ cusses villagers out when they get in the way though

→ full on shoves them and will keep shoving them until they get annoyed just because they’ve annoyed him

→ tsukki doesnt put as much time into the game as kuroo but his island is still pretty good and aesthetically pleasing

→ he just won’t help you make yours look like that 💀

bokuto koutarō

→ weeds. everywhere.

→ get so confused when he’s told he has to pick them all

→ “really? why can’t i just let them grow though i kinda like them 🤩”

→ mf ✨struggles✨ at the first stages

→ “y/n, you know i love you, please give me 30 iron nuggets 🥺💖💞💗”

→ ofc you give them to him because you’re well ahead in the game and don’t need them as much as he does

→ praises you like royalty but then he’s back to begging for materials from you 💀

→ doesn’t pay his debts

→ you’re gonna have to help him out here

→ doesn’t like the idea of having to constantly pay them off

→ like?? he doesn’t want a bigger house so why is this damn raccoon always bothering him to upgrade like leave him and his 2 room house alone 😠

→ has a the same camp bed and lamp from when he first moved out the tent 💀

→ insists he doesn’t need another one because the furniture all functions the same

→ he has a point tbf but his house just isn’t aesthetically pleasing

→ he also hoards stuff

→ common butterfly? yeah bokuto has 37 sitting in his storage

→ doesn’t like letting the bugs go because he “caught them fair and square”

→ you show him how to pay his debts back and then he dedicates a whole room to his stupid bugs 💀

→ loves blathers and celeste just because they’re owls

→ doesn’t care about what they’re wittering on about he loves interacting with them just because they’re the only owls in the game 😐

→ his favourite villager is kid cat

→ literally follows him around and sprints circles around him

→ l o v e s the chaos outside the town hall

→ 2 of his villagers are singing, 3 are running around and 1 is just watching like 🧍🏻‍♀️

→ HYPES his singing villagers tf up

→ “yeah get it bianca! turn it up!!! 🥳🥳”

→ has to match his villagers clothes at least once a week

→ also makes them all refer to him as “the best ace”

→ it boosts his ego a little more each time they say it

→ bokuto actually got raymond out of luck but had no idea who tf he was and just how popular he was

→ lets that mf go without advertising that raymond’s in boxes

→ atsumu screeches when he finds this out eventually

→ bokuto doesn’t care what his villagers look like everyone’s welcome

→ bella should move to bokuto’s island and move from atsumu’s because bokuto will accept her with open arms rather than a net to the head everytime he sees her 😿

→ ALWAYS remembers birthdays for his villagers

→ and always shows up to their birthday parties insisting he’s the life of the party and they’d be bored without him 😹

→ which is true to a certain degree cause the party only really starts when the player arrives

→ bokuto is actually okay at terraforming

→ quickly changes his mind after an hour of building and digging and restarts it all over again

→ he can make his island look pretty good

→ theres just weeds and buried fossils everywhere though 👁👁

→ also forgets his turnips go bad

→ literally the least financially responsible out of them all

→ it’s okay though because you help him and he eventually gets the hang of it

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