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I llike him lots >_<
hes .... pretty ......
#i remembered this is my blog where i can do whatever i want on#but being perceived is scary#but then i also remembered everyone already knows im the guy who kisses avenger chuck#So really what ami afraid of..............#you guys understand yes#brug#selfship
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This is for Zero but I imagine this idea extending to the MPN player as well. The loops happen and everyone's memories are effectively wiped, til one day something broke somewhere.
Doc remembers every loop, and something breaks in him too. He will fix this. He will save you.
#madness combat#_myart#2bdamned#madness combat oc#i always think about how i think swain(?) said that doc would enmesh the mandatus if he could#doc is serious and always focused on the mission to me but I think there's something unique and tragic in him utterly crumbling#to the emotions of this whole ordeal when they hit him all at once#fugg i want to text post more. being perceived is scary#brainworms so bad i'm formally writing a google doc instead of just notes on my phone
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just Thinking Out Loud but im trying to prepare myself for the deltarune community to irreversibly change the same way it did when ch2 came out... its not really something i personally experienced back in 2021 because the game wasnt nearly as important to me then as it is now (understandably) (i just love chapter 2 so much)
and while i am Absolutely ready and excited for chapters 3 and 4, it will be kind of scary to see deltarune blow up again and the community grow vastly in size and Whatnot (i think about the other instances of this with other fandoms lately like gravity falls, fionna and cake, arcane, etc) (as an outsider looking into all those communities) and now im like Fuuuuck thats gonna happen to us!!!!!!
BUT ITS OK. BECAUSE EVEN IF ITS SCARY the important thing is that so many artists and musicians and fan game devs and whoever else are gonna produce amazing new stuff with the content ch3+4 gives us, and that's more exciting to me than anything... something you can honestly apply to any work of fiction getting a new part/chapter/season/whatever. I love when communities create!!!!!!
idk what this ramble was supposed to be it's just been something ive been thinking about for a while. The community ive come to recognize over the past 3 years is most likely gonna change drastically and i (the comfortable) am about to be disturbed by this But its necessary. life would be boring otherwise. i love videogames
#text#deltarune#also a bit scary now that in this community i am#(as humbly as i can possibly put this)#a “”“”“”“”“well-known”“”“”“”“”“” creator#idk apparently i will be dropping likes willy nilly on twitter and that makes people freak out sometimes#Im sorry. Its just me#but (scratches head) Fuuuuck even more eyes are gonna be on my work#i feel like now more than ever i have to Not freak out about being perceived#for a handful of reasons. some of which i cant talk about yet#anyway. Honest to god hope this doesnt seem like a whiny post or anything im really trying to be as positive as i can#MORE CONTENT ALWAYS GOOD. BUT THE FREAKS. AND THE IDIOTS#IM AFRAID!!!!!!!!!#but its ok. because awesome artwork coming ok?
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throwback tuesday to that time when i took one of the few large lecture hall classes i ever took in college, a class on pre-1500s English literature, and the professor (a balding man with a British accent who banned computers because, according to him, he once caught someone watching Shrek 2 on a laptop during the lecture and he was upset it wasn't Shrek 1) stopped in the middle of talking about Beowulf to a hundred students to ask ME SPECIFICALLY (in the back half of the room but not all the way at the back) if I was using my smartphone under the table, so I had to lift up my hands and show him that no, I was knitting because the class had a bunch of printouts so I didn't need to take notes but the man wouldn't let me play spider solitaire or scroll tumblr and I had to do SOMETHING with my hands, and he was like, "ah, weaving peace I see. it seems we have the peaceweaver in our class" and then just carried on with things
#pickle pontificates#i'm not even mad. he was just eccentric enough to get away with it#always annoys me a bit though when college professors are like that#like girl you realize that a significant portion of students take notes electronically right. and if someone's watching shrek 2 then idk ma#it's their college experience. you're still getting paid#the lame beowulf joke did make beowulf stick in my head though#was it worth being perceived by 100 people at once for no reason? that's still up for debate#now the TA for that class. that guy actually sucked#a year later i was still running into people who just had the worst time with him. straight A eloquent friendly newspaper editor students#like the kind of students professors just love. engaged and respectful and earnest and talented. and they all hated that guy's guts#i had a gossip right in the english department about it. kinda scary. was afraid he'd come around the corner
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i see your post about leo being relieved that hes trans because he learned his stripes would go away and i raise you: leo, who spends his entire childhood in fear because donnie told him that he will lose his stripes when he is younger, only for them all to realize hes trans when they dont
Oh…Leo having so much value in his looks and especially his stripes because they’re what make him stand out the most, and in turn it helps solidify himself a role in the team as the “Face Man.” Sure, he absolutely thinks himself good looking with or without the stripes, but his stripes are striking and he knows it, and they mean more to him than just looks anyway. Knowing all this time that his stripes were going to fade and yet still taking on his title and still being as confident as he is - imagine he’d already come to the conclusion that his worth on the team, in his family, was always on a timer.
Then that timer goes away. And he’s left with relief and tells himself that hey, he’d have been just as cool looking without the stripes anyway! But…he’s glad to keep them. Even if his role isn’t quite just “Face Man” anymore, his stripes are a part of him.
And it’s been really scary to think that someday he’d look in the mirror and see a part of himself missing.
#non au ask#Leo values his looks and clearly loves his stripes#but I think as well his stripes make him specifically unique from his brothers#and it’s scary that one of the things he has to offer that’s uniquely him could vanish without his consent#so knowing he’s actually trans and his stripes won’t fade - that’s a relief!!#he’ll stay looking as he is - his stripes are a part of his identity after all#Leo is the only one of the brothers who has anything on his face with no mask#his red stripes absolutely make him stand out#and he likes that - he likes how eyes immediately go to his face#being perceived and acknowledged and just#getting attention - he doesn’t take it lightly#so without the stripes…I wonder if he’d be scared of fading into the background#his persona is already larger than life - would he fall into it harder just so he doesn’t disappear?#and how silly will he feel when it turns out all his worries didn’t matter - that his stripes were there to stay?#how silly would he feel if he’s still scared they’ll fade anyway?#actually this kinda brings me back to a thought I had#about how the turtle aspects of the boys are really interesting#but also potentially really difficult on them#because - yeah they’re turtles#but they’re also half human#so you have to wonder if they’re always comfortable in their own skin#or if sormtimes something that would be natural for a turtle feels WRONG
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got crazy and did this thing instead of continuing watching the actual show ♡
link to the template + @/bweirdart 's the creator
franky one is kind of a redraw of this ... ^_^
#critsart#one piece#usopp#sogeking#cyborg franky#cross guild#dracule mihawk#sir crocodile#buggy#nico robin#purankie#guhhh scary main tags. but oh well i actually like the rendering for this so i will bear the fear of being perceived en masse yayyy
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love thinking kipperlilly spends her afterlife looking for lucy in a familiar forest
#not art#fhjy#fhjy spoilers#like. does she have a mean of knowing lucy and yolanda got sent to cassandra's domain to hang out for a bit#kipperlilly's isolation means so much to me. she is punished for everything she's done she just doesn't pick up on it#until the moment she dies! one more funky thing that mirrors riz in which he's actively tried to cultivate a community and denied it#until the bad kids. while kipperlilly does not want or care about a community she just wants someone who validates her#but she does Need a community so she latches onto the person she lets closer to her to fulfill her emotional needs#she took the ritual willingly so this might genuinely be her first death. probably terrifying#probably not even enough bandwidth to feel mortified. maybe immediately seeking something comforting out of instinct alone#lmao honestly thinking too much abt fantasy high afterlifes gives me a headache And a visceral fear#Im not religious but I grew up in a culture with a dominantly buddhist/taoist cosmology its Scary that u just go to A Place after u die!!#and then ur still urself!!! thats scary to me what do u mean u stay like that forever. thats fucked#but yeah I think this influences how I see kipperlilly turn out a little bit. in a sense I think of her as being a ghost now#yknow. trying to solve something from life so she can move on and. stop living this life etc#man the reveal that lucy took being killed pretty seriously and is like yeah the others are decent and even sweet#and probably was just trying to hold her party together and do what she thinks is moral by hearing kipperlilly out#lol lmao etc. gods I gotta wonder how kipperlilly's mindset handled jawbones' help#it really is damn tragic tho. I stand by what I said folks like this will complain and be nasty to be around#but they dont have enough desire to inconvenience themselves to off the bat do something abt what they find unfair or whatever#its when theyre handed the seemingly very easy means to be right that they'll start being dangerous#its horribly tragic that the supposed metaplayer and the self-perceived mastermind turned out to ultimately be just an useful idiot#yknow what. I think personally in my heart kipperlilly moves on from her afterlife the moment she says sorry#doesnt even have to be to lucy but that's probably gonna be who received it#ah.... teenage rebellion. teenage gamejacking
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Oh, Nico, child of the misunderstood God who is feared for the sole reason of death being his domain. Cursed by heritage and prejudice.
Oh, Nico, offspring of the God whose fields of power are dreams and sleep, too, for they are but a mirror of death. Little ghost wandering in-between. Child of the one who welcomes all, of the good host, of the invisible one; the one who accepts everyone and takes good care of his guests, one of good council, one of final rest. Dear boy, you who have inherited his everlasting kindness for what is kinder than to watch over the dead. Precious darling, you who hears the mute ones and speaks the will of the silent ones.
Oh, Nico, you alone know how soothing is the heaviness of a cold tombstone, how loving is the touch of soft cemetery grass, how genuine the adoration of quiet hymns and gentle cries. Ever-sweet, always-kind - not despite death being your father but because of it.
#🏛️#Tired of 'Ohh Nico is so sweet DESPITE being a scary kid!!' shut up he's kind because death rituals ARE the biggest act of kindness.#I am abnormal about Will in this regard too because he's perceived as a Kind Sunshine when he's a child of the death-bringer.#rrverse#pjo#nico di angelo
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for the longest time my favorite video game antagonist has been sephiroth from final fantasy 7 and i just think it’s really funny that mr. luscious locks might be overthrown by solas
#there are two types of godlike people intent on destroying the world for it’s perceived failings#dragon age#solas#sephiroth#final fantasy 7#and like before solas gonna be honest no other video game antagonist came CLOSE to beating out seph for the spot of my favorite#and for now seph still holds that spot solely for being scarier than solas lmao#but if veilguard surpasses my expectations for solas’s story… seph might either have to start sharing his spot or…#maybe even get booted down to second place…#pls bioware make solas scary in veilguard he is the DREADwolf after all#guess that’s one thing he has over seph ‘cause seph doesn’t have a cool nickname like the DREADWOLF lmao#ofc cloud still holds my spot for favorite video game protagonist but i’m gonna be completely honest no one is ever dethroning him ever lol
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Hiii, i love your stuff and kinda from a distance really look up at you for, in my perception, being able to express yourself without giving a fuck. Thats sick dude, Im so so afraid, of absolutely everything, its nice to think like i might grow into someone less apologetic of my existence. Nice to see people just being yknow
hey, thank you, this is really really nice. the secret that is probably not a secret is that i am also deeply afraid a lot of the time lmao -- but less than i used to be, and in ways that feel less stifling and self-suffocating, if that makes sense.
like, it used to be "i'm scared that if i express myself the way i want to, everyone will find me obnoxious, so let's just sand those edges down to be safe" -- now my fears are more like "now that i'm expressing myself in a way that feels natural and real, i'm afraid that it's all stupid/vapid/not worthwhile or meaningful" (<- specifically abt my art) or "i'm happy that i talk and act the way i want to now, but what if it makes me impossible to befriend," etc etc etc. which still feels bad and puts me in a funk a lot of the time but at least it's a fear that comes After/in reaction to doing stuff, rather than a fear that STOPS me from doing stuff, you know? like, it's evolved into a kind of fear that's less in my way.
anyway. i believe you'll experience something like this, because wanting to grow is the first step of growing. the fact that u hope or wish for something different means you're already on your way. to fewer fucks!! or at least distributing the fucks u give in a way that serves u better
#stuff like accepting that i'm reserved and i'm not very accessible via messages.#or that my online tone isn't very bubbly and it's weird and uncomfortable to force it.#i stop letting fears about that shape my behavior ('i'll look mean or snotty so let's force markers of Friendliness to avoid that!!') -#- and instead act the way i want to and then trade it in for new fears that come After the action.#also a good reminder to give urself is that if ur fear is abt how other ppl perceive u (as 90% of mine is personally)#u really... can't actually control that. and being very very anxious abt it all the time is usually ur brain throwing a tantrum abt not--#--having that control. bc it is understandably very scary that u don't have that control#as much as it sucks + is terrifying the truth is the only thing u can do is ask urself 'am i behaving in a way that i'm proud of'#'am i behaving in a way that's in alignment w my values + what i think is important'#bc if the answer to that is yes and somebody hates u or is deeply offended by ur existence anyway. well. literally not ur problem#but obv being at peace w that is way way easier said than done + requires tons of practice and will take. probably. years. which is fine#i am stuck with myself. i can either contort myself forever trying to be someone everyone will like and find totally nonthreatening and-#inoffensive and in the process exhaust myself totally and never feel safe or natural myself. OR#i can say okay. so i am a kind of prickly guy with stern and drab speech patterns and close to no social energy. and i think i can still be#-sexy and fun this way. and it is up to other ppl to figure out if they can agree w me on that#ANYWAY enough rambling for now. just another one of those things i think abt a lot so i have a lot of ready-made sentences abt it in mind
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I bought a terry figurine and i love him to pieces already . Hes so pretty
#terry bogard#kof#fatal fury#cant bring myself to make a self insert of any kind#being perceived is scary
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It is such a struggle to love watching sketchbook tour videos but hate the way most artists talk down on their art. Like why do you say this is bad or this is cringe or this is dated or this looks terrible what do you MEAN, that's you, that's what you liked back then, this is what shaped you and what courses through your veins!!!!!! Stop talking down on your past self because this way you'll never be happy because in the back of your mind you'll always worry that one day current you will be past you and you'll hate them!!!
#seb talks#i know being perceived is so so scary but you CANNOT let yourself do the job of hating yourself#you gotta leave that to other people#there will always be people who don't like you but you canNOT become one of them#you cannot do it for them
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had a super wholesome day out with my friends yesterday - good food, good drinks and good company :)
may 13, 2024
#mine#mb#cafe aesthetic#coffee#food#friendship#the most wholesome day ever#aesthetic#light academia#light academic aesthetic#bakery#baked goods#words#words*#love#what life is all about#what life is#tender#friends#decided to say fuck it and post my pretty pictures on here#being perceived is a little scary guys
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while aaravi remains firmly within "yeah miranda has a difficult personality and isn't very easy to get along with + has many rough edges which are slowly being worked on but still going to be an issue" after having been very much so within the camp that miranda is a Vexing Bitch upon first contact/getting to know her, she DOES go from "miranda is unpredictable and dangerous as a merfolk and large macropredator and her emotions are inscrutable and random" to "merfolk aren't very hard to understand or predict and it's very easy to stay on the safe side if you keep basic rules in mind and don't freak out the second something unexpected happens"
#all the care guide says is 'biomass'#miravi.txt#just. thinking about it!#thinking about specifically how merfolk (like most other animals) growl/hiss specifically as a deterrent#like if you start really upsetting miri and she wants space and you to Please Stop#she will probably turn her face away from the other person or turn her body away from them#while growling or hissing and pulling her fins back#and will open her mouth to bare her teeth or gape her mouth open to show her teeth (including heavily panting)#where the point is ''i will hurt you if you touch me/get closer/dont stop so please dont do that''#but a lot of people read it as her being either obtuse (if she turns away from them)#or outright aggressive for the showing of teeth and growling#when shes really not. shes being very polite in merfolk terms in giving multiple chances to avoid violence#shes going ''i am worried i might have to hurt you so please reconsider'' in a way thats very readable if youre another merfolk#who will then step away or give her her space and switch the tone of the conversation#to see whats wrong#whereas her being more deliberately aggressive/violent usually comes with minimal vocal cues at all#or (if shes specifically threatening someone such as in the case of getting aggressive over perceived threats to her social bonds)#she will often turn towards them and open her mouth and flare her fins#often deliberately closing the distance and making herself appear Extra Large#she WILL growl here but will never hiss (hissing being a more defensive sound)#and will often smack her tail against the ground or show her claws or otherwise demonstrate how large and how scary she is#as a deliberate point of ''you crossed a line and this is what is going to happen to you if you dont make it up right now''#which! both require VERY different responses but might look similar to a human!#and might end up coming off as unpredictable or random in her actions and cruelty!#when shes not! shes just doing things the way a merfolk does them#which means aaravi realizes VERY quickly after learning about all of this#just how many cues miranda gives that people are starting to make her uncomfortable and feel Not Okay#that are ignored or written off because theyre merfolk cues#merfolk are very tolerant of stress but have basically no concept of escalation of violence for that reason#because if youve ignored every chance to prevent something dangerous up until the point it goes too far
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i feel so pathetic for feeling like this
#i can’t eat in a fucking restaurant without being on the verge of tears because contamination scares me that fucking much#we ate this snack and it fell on me and now i’m going to be fucking thinking about it the whole day#on the plane my mom’s packed wet issue grazed my leg and i can’t fucking stop thinking about it#on the plane everyone kept touching behind my seat to pass through and my head is full of thoughts that their hands are dirty and if i rest#my head my hair will be dirty and i’ll have to wash my hair so many times to get it all out#this morning i had a hot chocolate and it got a little on my chin and i can’t lean my head because if i do it that will spread anywhere#any thing to do with food is so scary. i’m TRYING to be more comfortable around food im trying to imagine scenarios of me eating something#and the perceived negative consequences happening and me not giving into my compulsions despite of it#it’s so fucking hard when your brain refuses to forget even the smallest fucking thing i’m so so tired of this i just want to be normal#i’ve been up since 4am and it’s 8:30 pm right now and i’m still on my guard and i haven’t rested my head or shut my eyes because i’m so so#so so so so so scared of being dirty#✉️
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