#but because he thought they deserved more from life than to lay dead in the ruins of an apocalypse

[kacievvbbbb]

The fact that Viktor was right there! They were right beside each other and Five didn’t even look at him. Viktor who was his closest sibling and probably his best friend for all he knew the concept of it. Viktor who made him those disgusting marshmallow sandwiches for months hoping he’d come back to eat them. Voice who was all Viktor had when they were kids didn’t even look at him. The world was ending they were about to die and Five didn’t share a moment with a single member of the family he crossed timelines to save. STEVEN! WHAT WAS THE RECIPE!

[santaasi]

iris

pairing: jj maybank x fem!reader

summary: jj maybank struggled all his life just to finally find home in your arms

warnings: fluff, slight angst at the start, no use of y/n, english isn’t my first language

word count: 3.9k

a/n: bringing myself comfort after the spoilers for the final of s4. my baby boy deserved a lot more.

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goo goo dolls - iris

And I don't want the world to see me

'Cause I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

IT WAS SOMETHING COMPLETELY DIFFERENT — something so profound that JJ couldn't begin to describe it in words. Yet, he felt it in every cell of his body, in the deepest, most secret corners of his soul. It was as if he was staring into the vastness of the universe, into the boundless, all-consuming darkness that had terrified him since childhood. But now... now it glowed with a hundred, a million, a billion tiny stars — simple, yet magnificent clusters of light that transformed everything in an instant. You became his universe, his everything, and in that moment, everything changed.

JJ would be lying if he said he didn’t remember the exact moment — the exact second — he first met you. He remembered it vividly, like it was etched into his very bones, because that moment was his Big Bang. It was the spark that created the whole universe from nothing, with you as its center, pulling him into an orbit he never thought he’d find.

It was an ordinary day — at least, by JJ’s standards. A typical day filled with drinking, weed, hanging out with Pogues, and the all-too-familiar beatings from his father. After the last one, all he craved was solitude — just to be alone, to fade into the nothingness. To disappear. To stop feeling the weight of pain, to stop wondering what he had done wrong, to stop seeing the pity in his friends’ eyes whenever he showed up at the Chateau, bruised and broken.

For a fleeting moment, he wished he could stop being JJ Maybank — the lost, troubled boy everyone knew — and just be... himself. If only he knew who that was anymore.

It was night — a surprisingly cold summer night. The air carried a chill that seemed at odds with the warmth of the season, but even so, JJ found his haven between the soothing waves. The ocean cradled him gently, rocking him like a child in a mother’s arms, as if the water itself was trying to heal him. He lay on his stomach, his face dipping under the surface, seeking solace in the cool embrace of the sea, trying to drown out the swarm of thoughts buzzing endlessly in his mind.

How long had he been lying there? He couldn’t say. Time had blurred into the rhythm of the waves, and for a moment, he didn’t care. He didn’t expect the next moment to be so... startling.

You stopped just a few meters away, your breath coming in quick, heavy gasps. Your hair clung to your face, and the water began to bite at your skin with its coldness. And yet, in that brief flash of moonlight, JJ swore he’d never seen anything more beautiful than you — divine, even. The glow of the moon reflected off the water, casting a silver sheen over you, making everything seem surreal. Your slightly parted lips, your wide eyes, all caught in the stillness of the night, made something inside him twist. At that moment, he realized something, something terrifying: he was a goner.

"What the hell?"

The words slipped out in unison, an awkward moment of shared surprise. You raised an eyebrow, the frustration and relief mixing in your gaze before you splashed water in his face.

"Are you asking me what the hell?" you said, voice tinged with disbelief. "You were literally floating face down! I thought you were dead!"

JJ blinked, caught off guard, and shook his head, sending droplets flying in every direction. He didn’t respond immediately — his mind was still trying to catch up. He just stared at you, the way the moonlight danced on your skin, how the cold seemed to wash away everything else. There was something about you that both unsettled and comforted him, a mix he couldn’t quite place.

"Yeah, well," he muttered, a half-smile tugging at the corner of his lips, trying to brush it off. "I wasn’t, like, dead. I mean, not really." His voice was hoarse, raw with something he hadn’t let anyone hear in a long time. It barely masked the emptiness he’d been drowning in just moments ago. "Just needed a swim. Didn’t mean to scare you."

You crossed your arms under the water, rolling your eyes, but a soft smile played at the edges of your lips. "Just an ordinary midnight swim, huh?" you teased. But there was a knowing look in your eyes, like you could see through the mask. "I thought I was going to have to explain to the police tomorrow that some guy was found swimming in the ocean. ‘Local girl finds body in the water,’ you know? Not exactly the first week I imagined."

JJ raised an eyebrow, intrigued despite himself. "Wait... you’re new here?"

You nodded, brushing your wet hair from your face, a small sigh escaping you as you did. "Yeah, I moved here a few days ago. Needed to start fresh, I guess." Your gaze shifted toward the shore, distant, but not quite lost. "Thought the ocean might help clear my head."

He could relate to that, more than he wanted to admit. He nodded without thinking, something about you felt... different. "Yeah," he said softly, his voice almost vulnerable. "Outer Banks isn’t paradise, but... it could be worse." The words slipped out before he could stop them, softer than he wanted, like a door that had been closed for too long suddenly creaking open. He hadn’t expected to share anything, but with you, it didn’t feel like sharing — it felt more like breathing.

The wind picked up, sending a chill over the water. You shivered slightly, pulling your arms tighter around yourself. JJ noticed, instinctively stepping closer, despite still standing in the water.

"Are you okay?" he asked, his voice gentle but laced with concern. "Cold night for a swim."

The irony of the moment wasn’t lost on him — he, too, had come to the water to escape, to disappear. But with you standing there, he didn’t feel quite as invisible. And that scared him more than he wanted to admit.

You shrugged, looking toward the shore, but your eyes softened. "Yeah, just... a tough day, I guess. I thought the water might help me forget for a little while."

A bitter laugh slipped from JJ’s lips, and he didn’t try to hide it. "Well, looks like you found the right company for that," he said, his words more raw than he’d intended. But somehow, it felt natural to talk like this, to say things he hadn’t said to anyone in a long time. With you, it didn’t feel so forced.

You turned toward him, your expression softening. There was understanding in your eyes — like you’d been there too. "Tough day too, huh?" you said quietly, your voice almost lost in the stillness of the night.

For a while, neither of you spoke. The world seemed to hold its breath, the ocean around you a calm, sacred space. In that silence, something passed between you — unspoken, but real. As if for that moment, you both shared something intangible, something neither of you could put into words.

Finally, you broke the quiet, your voice teasing but gentle. "So... are you always this mysterious, or did I just pick the perfect time to meet you?"

A laugh escaped him, more genuine than he expected. "Maybe a little of both." He let the silence stretch on, comfortable now. For the first time in ages, he felt seen, and it wasn’t as frightening as he thought it would be.

It was ridiculous, he thought — how could a complete stranger, someone he’d just met in the middle of the ocean, at some ungodly hour, feel like they were filling a space inside him he never knew was empty?

But when he looked at you, he felt something shift, something deep inside. Something real. Something alive.

"JJ," he finally said, his voice breaking the silence. The sound of his own name felt unfamiliar, like a piece of himself he hadn’t shared in too long.

You gave him a soft smile that reached your eyes, warm and knowing. "Nice to meet you, JJ."

AND THERE IT WAS — his universe had changed. The Big Bang.

After that night, JJ couldn’t think about anything but you. Your presence consumed him, yet in a way that felt like coming alive for the first time. He found himself drifting into your orbit, again and again, as if fate itself had been guiding him toward you all along. But while he believed in fate, you thought it was just chance.

It wasn’t long before JJ began to learn more about you, obsessing over every little detail. He learned that you loved spending your free time on the beach, reading books. Books that he had never bothered with before, but now he listened to them at double speed just to be able to talk to you about them. You had a habit of finding solace in the water, the way the waves seemed to ease the weight of the world from your shoulders. And he learned that you worked in a small diner on the Cut, a place that barely registered on anyone else’s radar but was now a part of his daily life.

It became his mission to visit those places. To catch your eye, exchange a few words. He even went to some Save the Turtles event with Kie — something he’d never have attended before — just to see you, just to find a reason to talk.

He didn't know why he was so drawn to you. Why waking up felt a little easier when he thought about you. Why his days felt less suffocating when he could see you by the ocean, or feel your warmth when you wrapped him up in your arms. And most importantly — why, in a world where he wanted to stay invisible, he wanted you to see him. Because no one, not even the closest people in his life, had ever truly understood him like you did.

It might have sounded corny, but JJ knew you were different. He didn’t want to undress you or get you into bed first, like he did with other girls. He wanted to talk to you. He wanted to know you. He wanted to be near you — not in a rushed, desperate way, but slowly, patiently, like the world had all the time for them. And that terrified him. Because everything in his life felt like it was bound to break, and he was scared of getting too close, only to watch it all fall apart.

But you made him feel like he was floating, like he was finally seeing the light at the end of a long, dark tunnel. And even if it didn’t last forever, he would take it. It was worth it.

Because at some moment you became his safe place. His home.

JJ DIDN'T REMEMBER THE EXACT MOMENT HE FIRST CAME TO YOUR HOUSE, or why he couldn’t go back to the Chateau after the latest fight with his father. He just knew that he had found his way to you. It wasn’t a conscious choice. It was as if the universe had decided that, for once, he deserved peace. So, he climbed up to your balcony, hiding from the world, just to see you.

The moment he stepped inside, he felt the weight of everything lift from his chest. You didn't need to ask questions, you didn’t need explanations. You just held him — no judgment, no demands. Just there. Your hands gently cupped his face, and in that simple gesture, everything felt easier. It was like you knew exactly how much he needed to be held together. The comfort in your touch was so raw, so real, that it felt like he could stay there forever and nothing would ever hurt him again.

"Hey, JJ," you whispered softly as you cleaned the cuts on his knuckles. "You're okay. It's just another day. We'll get through it."

Your words were soft, but they carried a weight. The kind of weight that made him feel like, maybe, for the first time in his life, he wasn’t carrying all the burden on his own.

"Yeah, we will," he whispered looking in your eyes finding solace in it. "How'd your day go?" he asked quietly, almost as an afterthought, as you dabbed at a cut on his forehead.

You smiled softly, brushing a strand of hair behind your ear. “You know, the usual. Serving coffee, cleaning tables... Same old stuff. But then again, it’s a good distraction.”

And JJ realized, right then, that this wasn’t just about him. It wasn’t just about the mess of his life. It was about the way you understood him without needing to understand everything. You were healing him, piece by piece, without even knowing it.

You were there, not because you had to be, but because you wanted to be. And when you laid him down in your bed, curling up beside him, you whispered about your day at work, your own small struggles. You shared your world with him, and somehow, it made his feel a little less heavy.

IT WASN'T LONG BEFORE JJ OPENED UP TO YOU, really opened up in a way he had never done before. It was a slow burn at first. He kept his distance, guarding you from the mess that was his life. But the longer he stayed, the more he realized that you were the one who saw him. All of him — the messed-up, broken parts that he tried so hard to hide from everyone else. And when he realized you weren’t scared of that, he finally let go.

"I used to think that if I told you about my life, you'd leave," he admitted one night, his voice thick with raw emotion. "But... you didn’t. You stayed."

You looked at him, your expression tender, your hands tracing the edge of his jawline. "I'm not going anywhere, JJ. Not unless you want me to."

And that was the moment he knew — he had found someone who understood him in a way no one ever had. No one ever would.

One night, after sharing stories and secrets until the stars outside had started to fade, you both found yourselves standing close, the air thick with unspoken words. There was a nervousness between you, but also a tenderness that neither of you had known before. JJ leaned in, and for the first time in what felt like forever, he kissed you.

It wasn’t rushed. It wasn’t desperate. It was soft, hesitant, and filled with the kind of understanding that only comes when two people truly see each other. His lips were warm against yours, the moment suspended in time. And as he pulled back, his forehead resting against yours, he whispered softly, “I don’t want to be alone anymore.”

You didn’t need to say anything in return. The truth was already in your eyes, in the way you pulled him closer, your hands tracing the lines of his back like you were memorizing him. He didn’t need forever. He didn’t need promises. He just needed this. You. Now. And that was enough.

THE EVENING WAS SETTLING INTO ITS QUIET RYTHM AT THE CHATEAU. The Pogues were scattered around, some laughing, some lost in their own thoughts, and some just lounging by the bonfire. The air smelled faintly of saltwater and smoke, the crackling warmth from the fire barely reaching the edge of the pier. The world felt suspended in a beautiful hush, as though the universe itself had exhaled, and for the briefest of moments, everything stood still.

But despite the presence of his friends, despite the fire, the laughter, and the constant noise that filled every corner of the Chateau, JJ was focused only on you. Your presence was like gravity, pulling him closer to something real, something tangible. You were his escape, his universe — shaped not by chaos and pain, but by a quiet peace he had never known until you.

"What are you thinking about?" you asked softly, lifting your head from his shoulder. Your voice was gentle, threading through the sea breeze that fluttered your hair, causing it to stray in wisps across your face. You frowned slightly as the breeze brushed against your skin, the hair teasing at your cheek in an almost playful, yet annoying way. He loved how you could get lost in these little moments, how even the simplest things seemed to pull you in.

JJ, ever the thinker, gazed out at the vast ocean, where the horizon was a delicate line between the fading light of the day and the endless mystery of the night. There was something about the sea — so unpredictable, so endless — that made him feel both small and infinite. It was like he could feel the weight of the universe pressing on his chest, but at the same time, it gave him a sense of freedom, of release.

He shook his head, not really having the words to explain the depth of his thoughts, of how you had become his entire universe in such a short time. He leaned down, brushing his lips against your forehead in a kiss that felt like a promise, like a quiet vow he was ready to keep forever.

"I love you," he said simply, the words falling so easily from his lips it startled him. It was like his heart had always known the truth, but now, with you, it could finally speak it. He turned to face you, his hands gently cupping your face, and pushed a strand of hair back behind your ear. Your hair had tangled slightly in the breeze, and his fingers brushed against the soft strands as if trying to keep you grounded in this moment.

You smiled up at him, your eyes warm with affection, and for a brief second, JJ wondered if he had been imagining all of this — the way your touch made him feel alive, how your laugh filled him with a joy that felt as though he was living in a dream. He had never been one to express his feelings out loud, never been able to put his heart on the line like that. But with you, everything felt different. Everything felt right.

"I love you, too," you whispered, the words barely escaping your lips, but JJ felt the weight of them — felt how real they were, how they shifted the space between you, making it smaller, warmer, more intimate. It was like the universe had shifted in that moment, like the stars aligned just for the two of you.

But you, ever the one to keep things light, laughed softly, breaking the moment in the most perfect way. Your laugh rang out like music, a melody he couldn’t get enough of. "But everyone knows that, stupid! It’s no secret that you’re head over heels in love with me," you teased, brushing his hair out of his eyes, as if trying to bring him back down from whatever cosmic place his mind had drifted to.

JJ chuckled, the sound deep and sincere. There was no pretense, no walls. Just the two of you, surrounded by the night and the ocean, and for the first time, he felt like he was exactly where he was meant to be. His smile was soft but real, and he kissed you once, gently, on the tip of your nose, then moved to the corner of your lips, then your cheek, your forehead, each kiss like a reassurance that this moment, this feeling, was real.

"You don't get it, do you?" JJ murmured, his voice a little more serious than the moment required. He let the silence stretch between you before continuing. "It’s not just... about love, doll. It’s about everything. It’s the way you make me see the world in a way I never thought I would. The way you make me feel like... like I’m enough." His voice softened with a vulnerability he hadn’t known he could express. "Before you, everything was just a blur. I didn’t even know how to be, to feel. But with you? It’s different. You make me real, love."

You looked at him, your gaze tender, understanding. Your eyes softened, and without a word, you reached out and pulled him in for a tight hug. JJ rested his head against your shoulder, inhaling the soft scent of your skin, and for a moment, the world seemed to stop spinning. It was just the two of you, and for the first time in a long time, JJ felt truly alive.

He had spent so many years running from everything that hurt him, pushing away anything that could cause him pain. But in that moment, wrapped in your embrace, the fear was gone. There was nothing left but the two of you, standing on the edge of the world, with the ocean stretching out before you like an endless promise.

"I never thought I’d say it," he whispered, his words coming out in a quiet rush. "But you’re my Big Bang. The thing that changed everything for me. Before you, it felt like I was drifting through the void, like there was nothing in this world worth holding on to. But now..." He pulled away slightly, looking at you with a newfound intensity. "Now, you’re my everything. You gave me a reason to stay."

Your fingers lightly brushed against his cheek, the touch so gentle it felt like a feather. You looked at him, eyes searching his face, and you smiled softly. "You don't have to be alone anymore, JJ. You’ve never been alone." Your voice was quiet, but the sincerity behind it struck him like a bolt of lightning. "We're in this together."

A small laugh escaped him, a sound that felt almost foreign but so freeing. The way you made him feel — like he was seen, understood, held — it was beyond anything he could have imagined. You were the gravity in his universe, pulling him in, holding him steady. And no matter how far out he drifted, he always knew he'd find his way back to you.

"You make me feel like the world is full of stars," he murmured, his gaze drifting toward the horizon. "Like everything that’s ever happened to me — good or bad — led me to you. Like I was just waiting for you to come and show me what it’s like to be."

You grinned, a playful glint in your eyes. "Well, don't get too carried away, Maybank. I’m not that amazing."

JJ smiled, but there was something raw in his expression, something that hinted at all the things he could never quite put into words. "You are," he said softly. "You are my everything. And for once, I’m not afraid to let myself feel it."

The world stretched out before you, both of you standing at the precipice of something so beautiful, so uncertain, yet so undeniable. The stars above shimmered like tiny promises, like constellations forming their own quiet narrative about two souls finding each other in the vast, infinite expanse of the universe. And in that moment, the ocean, the stars, the wind, and the night itself seemed to pause, holding its breath.

"I love you. So much," JJ whispered again, his voice filled with the certainty that had settled deep within him. It was simple, but it was everything. The words echoed, not just through the air, but through his heart, through his bones, reverberating in a way he never thought was possible. And as the night embraced them both, they realized that they had found their place in the world. Together.

And for the first time, JJ Maybank wasn’t afraid to be seen. Because you saw him. And that was enough

thankx for reading <3

so, that’s it. jj maybank deserved the whole world but only got this shitty ending. am i gonna watch obx4 now? probably not. am i gonna write for jj like there’s no s4? definitely yes! i think we’ll all agree that obx ended on s3 and after that nothing happened.

but every time i see the posts about jj i feel so sad… like it literally hurts on some level because he deserved his happy ending more than anyone. even if rudy wanted to leave the show they could have written a good ending for him. not one more fucked up father, but one that would take him to see the world or shit like this. i just wanted him to be happy.

i chose iris because this is so jj coded for me. i haven’t listened to this song in ages and when it popped up in my shuffle yesterday – i just wanted it to be about jj. with all his struggles, all his pain, but also with a hope for something good. so, i rly hope that you liked this work.

and again thank u for reading. thank u for liking, reblogging and commenting - it’s rly means a lot to me. you can always share your opinion in comments or my inbox :3

- your santi 🪐

masterlist

[hiraethwa]

how to kill a god

two from <the collection — how to kill a god>

pairing. gojo satoru x reader

cw. special grade sorcerer!reader, non-canon lore!, coma, ANGST, post hidden inventory arc

wc. 3.3k

come home. come back to me.

gojo satoru thought he knew loneliness. isolation. 

a dry laugh escapes his lips at his predicament—the aftermath of one fushiguro toji. 

his best friend, razed down an entire village, took his own parents' lives, on the run. him, appointed executioner by the jujutsu higher up’s because there was no one else who could kill geto suguru.

no one else out of the four—now three remaining special grade sorcerers available, anyway. yuki tsukumo never heeded any of their demands, so that left gojo and you. 

you still laying unmoving on the sick bed before him. a coma, shoko had told him, for reasons unknown even to the gifted healer. 

a year. it has been more than a year since their failure to protect the star plasma ves—amanai. 

he wonders which would have been worse—this, or if you had been on the mission with him and suguru. wonders if things would have been different, ended differently.

gojo glances at your pale lips, your serene expression that is frozen in time, as if you had welcomed death with open arms. he supposes you always had a foot in the after realm after his clan took you in. 

no, you would have taken that blade, cursed or not, in his place. it’s by a miracle, or a mistake, that the killing blow was with a normal blade, not a cursed one. if it had been cursed… not even him, the strongest sorcerer of modern history could have made it back.

he hates that—you accepting that your life is dispensable compared to his. you had always been stubborn, needlessly infuriating, even when you came back as a transfer student after being sent away for two whole years because of that incident, a whole different person.

gojo had no idea what they did to you to extinguish the fire smoldering in your eyes, and you had refused to talk about it. everytime he tried to broach the subject, you would shut down completely. even the embers that suguru coaxed out of you would stutter and die out.

but the way you still managed to get under his skin, crack his mask with your jabs and meanness after all you have been through—he hates that too. 

“i am sorry i didn’t visit you until now.” 

he is a coward. 

for not visiting you sooner, leaving only suguru and shoko to stay by your bedside, checking on your condition. each time he dredged up his courage to stop by the sickbay, he stood frozen in the doorway, his feet resisting from taking any further steps towards you, lifeless and calm as though you laid in a coffin.

his six eyes told him all he needed to know about your condition, your cursed energy levels barely registering on his senses. he did not deserve to see you after everything that had happened.

it was his fault. his fault for being arrogant, for overestimating himself, for not being strong enough to defeat fushiguro when they first fought.

the fear stayed with him—the fear that struck deep in his soul when your soul wrenching scream echoed down your twisted bond as fushiguro dragged that blade up through his torso and stabbed him through the head. 

he had been unafraid, even as death stared him in the face. except, he did not expect you to be there—you were supposed to be on your own mission. 

but the thought of you dying, it made his blood run cold. suspended in the space between life and death as he used reverse cursed technique to heal himself, his consciousness had felt the bond stretch so thin that he realized what was feeling for the first time—fear. 

faster, he urged his healing that was slowly knitting the mess of his brain matter back in place. faster. 

he found you in a pool of your own blood, not that far from the crater he laid dead on, unresponsive with shallow breaths, and ran, with you in his arms to shoko, as his newly mended injuries stretched and groaned in soreness. as his non-life-threatening wounds continued to knit itself closed. 

gojo ran, as though his life depended on it. 

had all but dropped you into shoko’s arms, not even hearing her worried calls after him to assess the extent of his injuries, knowing that if anyone could save you, it was shoko, before he descended into bloodlust. 

gojo had emerged from that fight as the winner, but the damage was done—fushiguro toji had taught gojo satoru to fear. suguru, too. 

they had coped with the fallout in their own ways, but suguru—

suguru never really recovered from it, and gojo’s own fixation on becoming stronger, his resolve for history to not repeat itself, had blinded him to his best friend’s struggle.

he should have known. he should have known that the ever-deepening bags under suguru’s eyes, the gauntness of his cheeks and his figure, symptoms that suguru had attributed to the summer heat were signs of ptsd. 

you would have known. if not for him, you would not be in this state. if not for him, you would have helped suguru heal from their traumatic mission. if not for him, suguru would have had his girlfriend’s support and care, and not committed the atrocities that he did. 

if he had taken some time to actually check on suguru—

his heart stutters as your finger twitches. was that real? 

“can you hear me?” his breath hitches, lodges itself in his throat as he waits for another movement. anything.

he itches to touch you just to make sure you are real, reaching out to check that you are here with him, but stops short just as he remembers the distaste you had for skin-to-skin contact. 

so gojo drops his hand, sitting next to you silently while hoping for another sign that you are still in there, occupying the seat that used to be suguru’s on the third day since the village massacre. 

nothing. he exhales shakily. it was his imagination fooling him after all.

gojo satoru had lost his heart. he couldn’t lose his soul too. 

gojo visited you more regularly after suguru defected, or at least he tried to. 

between missions and classes and other things that needed his attention, he would be lucky if he had thirty quiet minutes with you before he was being called away again.

each time he stops by, he talks to you about how his recent mission went, how absurd the class yaga is making him take is, how he misses you and suguru, half hoping he could wake you up by annoying you with all the talking he is doing for two. 

each time he has to go, he makes sure the blanket is covering your still body properly, careful that he doesn’t accidentally touch your skin lest your eyes fly open in disgust to yell at him. actually, that would be preferable over you laying so peacefully as if you had not a care left in this world—as if you were ready to go. 

he would not accept that. no, he would rip apart the endless fabric of the universe with purple to get you back. 

his shadow, who had suffered too much, too young, all in his name. 

you deserved to live, and to be happy. for a while, you were. 

suguru made you happy. suguru, with his savior tendencies, had taken you in and nursed you back to crackling embers despite your complaints.

the unspoken thing between him and suguru had been forgotten and left untouched when you showed up, a curve ball in their lives. 

it had been sometime halfway through their first year when you were dropped off at jujutsu high’s doorstep with nothing but the clothes on your back. 

your hair, once a bob like shoko’s, had been chopped off to his length. your demeanor and appearance so vastly different from the last time he had laid his eyes on you that he had almost mistaken you for someone else entirely if not for his six eyes.

he had stared at you in disbelief as you walked into class, taking a seat next to shoko without so much as a glance at him. everything that was taught in class that day flew right over his head with you occupying his mind, glances thrown your way so every often as he pretended to listen to whatever yaga was saying. 

as if his six eyes could see through shoko to you.

gojo had waited, though impatiently, for classes to end before catching up to your quick exit from the classroom the moment class was dismissed. his hand grabbing your wrist before his brain could catch up to him. 

your eyes, once living flames themselves, was reduced to nothing more than glowing coals. his shadow, who had always been more fire than girl—what had they done to you because of his thoughtless actions?

gojo’s mouth opened and closed like a fish, grasping at straws of things he should say to you. i’m sorry takes the first place of all the possible things he could—should open the first conversation with you in over two years with. 

“let me go.” your golden eyes stared at him in disdain. 

“i’m—” 

you cut him off irritatedly, “i don’t care, satoru. don’t fucking touch me.”

he retracted his hand immediately. you hate him. he deserved it after everything you had been through—but it shocked him more than hurt him that you said that with so much spite. 

spite that had never been directed towards him, never present in your endless mockery and taunts throughout the years. 

and then you were gone. geto sauntered over to him, amused at the sight of gojo being put in his place by their new classmate, even more so that you knew him. 

“satoru, huh? you know her or something?”

gojo merely scrunched his nose at his friend in faux annoyance. “just someone i knew before high school. someone i owe.” 

geto waited for some sort of explanation, but gojo did not seem inclined to talk about it, walking ahead to the gym. he knew satoru well enough by now to know that it wasn’t nothing. that it was a matter that weighed heavy on his soul. 

that underneath all his cheerfulness and wildness lives a boy who cared far too much. 

he softened, looking at the white-haired boy who he had a weak spot for, “do you want me to talk to her for you?” 

gojo shrugged, looking back at his friend, “do whatever you want to. she doesn’t care for fake kindness or concern.” he half expected him to leave it at that.

not whatever that you two had become. 

he should have known that suguru always gravitated towards the broken ones—being one of them himself, he should have known. his moral compass and savior complex compelling him to do something; to save you, even if it’s from yourself.

geto had pushed and prodded you relentlessly until you let him in. the embers sparked to life in your golden eyes, a living proof of his warmth and kindness.

gojo saw that, the changes in you that are painfully obvious in his—geto’s presence, so he let his heart go without so much a protest.

he made an unspoken promise to you then—geto suguru was yours if you wanted. you deserved to be happy, even at the cost of his heart. even if geto suguru was his before you.  

gojo satoru had not regretted it then. he does not regret it now, as he gazes at you fondly. his personal spitfire. 

it is time to say his goodbyes again, having stopped by after he returned from his mission. he has to leave early tomorrow for another one again since geto’s share of missions fell upon his shoulders. 

“you were such a wretched girl, burning anyone who is careless in getting too close to you, and yet suguru thought otherwise.” he chuckles at his memory, pulling the blanket over you the way you like it. geto had smiled so warmly while telling gojo how you loved to pull the blankets all the way up to your chin.

he pushes a stray piece of hair out of your face absentmindedly, his hand brushing against your cheek on accident. 

cold, your skin feels so cold to his touch. he realizes that a second too late—that he was touching you. 

gojo stills as his six eyes register a fluctuation from you. his cursed energy flows from where his fingers rest on your cheekbone, disappearing into your skin. 

you are absorbing his cursed energy. 

he thinks he sees pink bloom in your skin, your sickly pallor improving almost instantaneously, imperceptibly in his eyes. he stares in disbelief as your body greedily drinks his cursed energy. 

revelation hits him like a freight train.

oh gods, were they all idiots? your cursed energy never replenished after the incident, almost nonexistent on his radar. could it be that you were unable to regenerate your own cursed energy, needing a jumpstart like a car battery? 

“shoko!” gojo shouts for his friend, careful not to break the skin contact between you just in case it doesn’t work again. “shoko, get your ass over here!”

“slow your roll, gojo,” she calls from her computer, still typing away at the stupid keyboard.

“shoko,” he warns, “it’s important, get over here!”

she sighs, reluctantly walking over to your bed, not wanting to get her hopes up just to have them dashed again. “what’s so urgent that i can’t—”

your eyes fly open, unfocused. it startles gojo so hard that he almost jumped away from you. only his sense of self preservation kept him rooted to the ground—and his skin rooted to yours.

“i fucking told you,” he hisses quietly, as though you could hear them. 

shoko gets to work immediately, fishing out her pen light and reaching for your eyes. “well, what are you doing? get off her.”

“i can’t, can’t you just do it with me in the way?” shoko thinks this is one of the few times she could use the term helpless to describe gojo satoru, sighing again at his odd behavior and doing as he asks anyway.

“there’s no reaction, gojo. she’s not waking up, as much as both of us wish it.” 

stubborn to a fault, gojo insists, “but she opened her eyes.” 

“it could be nothing more than a random muscle reflex.” it’s a hard pill to swallow. as a doctor, she knows the facts and the chances, although she cannot help but hope for it to be a sign of you leaving the deep coma you are in. 

she still doesn’t want to get gojo’s hopes up in case it isn’t. 

“her color looks better too, does it not?” 

“satoru—” she calls his name softly, hoping to let him down gently. 

“she’s taking my cursed energy, ieiri. tell me honestly, does she look more healthy than before?”

gojo waits, fingers still touching your skin for shoko’s verdict. “she does, but—”

“why is she in a coma?” 

“i don’t know, gojo. you have asked me that question so many times i lost track of the count. don’t you think i want my friend to wake up too?”

“then hear me out. did you ever notice anything wrong with her cursed energy?”

“you know i can’t measure that.” she throws her hands out in frustration. 

“she’s as close to zero as fushiguro toji was. or she was. it’s growing by the minute as she absorbs more from me.”

“don’t be absurd. if she was absorbing cursed energy through skin contact, we would have known. geto used to hold her hand for hours, he would have felt it.”

“what if it’s just me?” 

gojo does not know if you ever told geto about your innate ability to absorb cursed energy from humans through skin contact. shoko has no knowledge of it at the very least. 

he had helped you keep it a secret from the world—your ability that would have earned you an immediate death sentence the moment the higher ups learnt of it. and somehow, in the wake of everything that had happened, it slipped his mind.

he is an idiot, the world’s biggest one.

“she’s my shadow, so what if it’s just me?” he knows you could absorb cursed energy from anyone, but you had learnt to switch your innate ability off at will years ago. as far as he is concerned, you had not absorbed cursed energy from anyone in years. 

he wonders if you’re unconsciously willing it so, or if you only felt safe enough to take from him even in your deep sleep like trance. or if you are so weakened that his cursed energy was the easiest for you to consume. 

—if all the legends were true.

gojo always had his doubts but… it would help explain why you only absorbed his cursed energy, if you were truly born as a pair. it would make sense why his cursed energy is the most compatible for your weak body to absorb. 

it would also mean that you are meant to sacrifice your life for his. 

he still rejects that, refuses to accept it—but if it meant he could save you, if you would wake up, then—

then he would cross that bridge when it comes to it, forbid you from saving him or something. his word has to count for something, right?

“alright, suppose she’s absorbing your cursed energy. what are you suggesting? that she needs cursed energy to wake up?”

“yeah, simple as that. occam’s razor, right?”

“i don’t know if that’s how occam—” shoko stops herself at the hope surfacing in his eyes. “fine, what do we have to lose? i guess you could stay there for another hour and see if it works.”

gojo grins back at her, a genuine smile stretching from ear to ear, hopeful at the possibility of you waking up soon, settling into the uncomfortable plastic chair by the bed—the same one that she used to find geto asleep in, body folded into a position that cannot be comfortable. 

“don’t stay too long. you need to get some sleep too. don’t you have another mission tomorrow?” she reminds him as she takes leave for the night, her words falling on deaf ears. 

shoko knows that shared stubbornness well, it’s a language all of you are well versed in; knows gojo well enough to know that it is more likely than not for her to find him in the same position tomorrow. ah, well, whatever suits him.

and sure enough, he was still there in the morning when she got to the infirmary. 

his head of snow white hair almost blends in with the white of the bedsheets, having fallen asleep on his arms against you with his hand in yours. even in his sleep, he is holding onto your hand securely, as if he is afraid of you slipping away through his fingers again.

“gojo, wake up. yaga is looking for you.” she nudges his shoulder gently so as to not startle him. she would much rather not deal with a hollow purple today.

he shifts in his sleep, a frown etched onto his features, a soft whine escaping his partly open lips. “gojooo,” she pokes him.

gojo tightens his hold on you as he blinks his eyes open, rubbing the sleep from them. and just ever so slightly, he feels a twitch on his hand. 

“s–shoko? did you–” he stumbles through his words, disbelief holding him hostage. and hope, hope that he hasn’t dared to firmly hold onto soars through him. 

your fingers twitch again, flexing as if to test out muscles that haven’t been in use for a year. flexes and clutches onto his hand softly with all the strength in your frail body. 

i’m here, satoru. 

shoko’s lab coat swishes with a flurry of movements, her actions gone unnoticed by him, as his vision becomes blurry. tears flood his eyes, tears he doesn’t remember shedding in a very long time. 

and finally, shoko speaks up, wonder and incredulity thick in her voice, “i think she’s waking up.”

a/n. nyahhhhh, mixed feelings about this one, but i can't wait to write her waking up :3

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[playgrl0]

baby girl / nanami

wc: 1154

!! not proof read, sorry. + i'm dead, bye !!

! reblogs and comments/feedback are greatly appreciated! they motivate me to continue writing! :)

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the cry of your baby daughter interrupts your beautiful dream. with a small sigh you sit up and stretch, throwing the covers aside and before you can fully get up, a warm hand rests on your shoulder, stopping you. it's kento's hand, of course. you look over to him, a brow raised. "i'll take care of her. go back to sleep, love." he presses a small kiss to your shoulder and then gets up to go into your daughters room which is right across from yours. you smile, laying back down and getting comfortable beneath the sheets again. it doesn't take long for you to fall asleep again.

kento takes your crying baby girl out of her crib and holds her close to his bare chest. he sits down in the rocking chair that's next to her crib, a small night light softly illuminating the room. he slowly rocks in the chair and gently rubs her back, humming a random melody. she calms down a few moments later and falls asleep quickly. kento chuckles to himself and softly kisses her forehead. he stares down at her tiny body and thinks back to the moment you told him you were pregnant. it is without a doubt one of the happiest moments of his life right after his daughters birth of course. when you told him that you were pregnant, kento wasn't scared for even a second. you are both secure and stable financially, so secure in your relationship and he knew you would be the best parents. the amount of love that spilled out of his body the second you showed him the positive pregnancy test was so overwhelming and he'll never forget the way he felt. he never thought he would be able to love like this, until his daughter was born and the love he felt not just for her but also for you, grew even stronger.

when she was born, kento cried happy tears. he didn't try to hide them or hold them back and he let all his emotions out while he held her against his chest during their first skin-to-skin contact. his tears were dripping down his throat and collarbones and he always made sure to wipe them away before they'd fall onto his daughters face. he swore he would never hurt her. he will love her unconditionally until the end of time. protect her from any harm. accept her always for who she is and who she will become. he'll always, always be there for her and he hopes to be his daughters first love. that he can show her to never settle for the bare minimum because she deserves the entire universe.

it was almost impossible to take his eyes off of her in her first moments and it is still almost impossible now. kento doesn't notice you coming into the room. you're standing next to the rocking chair, gently smiling at the scene next to you. you slowly and softly put your hand on his shoulder, hoping not to startle him. "kento?" he looks up at you with a small smile. "are you okay, love?" he asks. you nod and lean down to kiss his forehead. "i'm okay, are you? you've been gone for a while. thought i'd check on you." you answer him with a yawn. his smile grows as he listens to your tired, quiet voice and he grabs your hand, placing a soft kiss onto your knuckles. "i'm more than okay. she went back to sleep a few minutes after i picked her up but i kinda got lost in thought, i guess." he replies, looking at his baby girl again. she's sleeping with her mouth open, a bit of drool escaping at the side of her mouth. you both chuckle and you take your finger to softly wipe it away. "she's so beautiful." he whispers. "she is." you agree. she has kento's beautiful brown eyes and your nose and the smile is definitely yours as well. she doesn't have much hair yet but the small amount of hair on top of her head is the same color as kento's.

"you know," kento interrupts the silence. "one of the things i love most about her is that she was created purely out of love. all of your and my love for each other mixed together and created this beautiful life. she's living proof of our love and she's the most beautiful soul to ever exist. i love you both immensely." he confesses while still staring at his daughter, his thumb gently rubbing the back of your hand. when you don't respond he looks over at you, looking down at your baby as well but tears are running down your soft cheeks. he takes his thumb and wipes them away. "you okay?" he asks a bit concerned. you nod, sniffling and wrap an arm around his shoulder, pulling him as close into your side as the rocking chair lets you. "it's just, what you said was sweet. and, you're right. she is our love and she's the most beautiful angel. i love her so much." you lean down to carefully and gently kiss your babies head. "and i love you too, ken. i love you so much." kento smiles and softly kisses your lips for a few moments.

he pulls away and wipes the last tear from your cheek. "we should go back to sleep, you must be tired." he says. you nod and stand up fully again, stretching your arms. "let's take her with us, i want to cuddle her." you yawn as he stands up slowly. he couldn't say no to that. you both walk back into your bedroom where you get in bed first. kento hands you the baby and gets in next to you leaving a small empty space between you both so your daughter can lay there. you hold her for a few more moments, holding her close against your chest and gently rubbing her back. when you hear kento yawn next to you, you put her down in the space kento left for her and he pulls the blanket over all of you. you both lay on your sides, facing each other and your baby. kento wraps his arm as best as he can around your hip, your legs tangled together and it doesn't take long for you to fall asleep again.

kento smiles, he can't believe this is his life. his happy, peaceful life with his two girls by his side. his entire world right here next to him. he gently kisses the tiny, soft cheek of his baby girl and softly squeezes your hip every once in a while. he continues to look at his daughter for a while and doesn't notice his eyes closing and falling asleep. he dreams about having another baby with you and he'll definitely talk to you about it in the morning.

<3 @ playgrl0

[hel1nn]

And suddenly everything changed ೀ⋆｡

Ch.1 ⋆｡˚୨ the first time i met you ୧˚｡⋆ ch.2 ♡

𐔌 . ⋮ satoru gojo x fem zenin!reader .ᐟ ֹ ₊ ꒱

.𖥔 ݁ ˖ : Listen to kingston while reading ⭑.ᐟ

୭ ˚. ᵎᵎ : fluffyy | 18+ smut mdni | eventual smut | arranged marriage | reader is 22 and gojo is 25 | reader had a lonely life untill satoru came | abuse (gojo did nothing here.) | trauma | sprinkles of angsts | jealousy | flashbakes | soft!satoru | soft!reader | loss of virginity | self harm | first time falling in love | reader has two sisters. | Reader belongs to zenin clan. | Idiots to lovers | reader doesn't find satoru annoying since she was alone her whole life. | Insecurities | 𖦹ׂ ₊˚⊹⋆

౨ৎ Summery : spending your whole life with feeling of being useless and a waste of space,even worse that your two sisters had cursed energy but you didn't, made you wanted to kill yourself so many times but it stopped when a marriage proposal was sented to gojo clan about marrying you or one of your two sisters. Your sisters were so powerful and beauty with brain so why did satoru gojo choosed you? Moodboard | series masterlist

Flashback

You looked around, everyone around you wore black clothes,a body was laying Infront of you, covered in a white blanket. Your mom. You already asked everyone why she wasn't moving,but everyone brushed you off or didn't even replied. Little did you know your life would be completely turn into some kind of hell. The more you grow up the more. At the age of 13 there were cut marks on your writs or arms or legs,all the sadness and anger you took out on yourself. Everything became even worse that you didn't have any cursed techniques or cursed energy but your sisters did. They stopped your study after first year of your highschool. They thought it wasn't important for an another shame of zenin clan. You felt like a dead body whis heart was still beating. Your mother was the only person who loved you and no one but she was taken away from you too. Useless child. Waste of space. You dont deserve to be a zenin. And more. Even your dad hated you too. When he got remarried you remember how your step mom used to beat the shit out of you because of little things. You were tired of everything

Your father had told you to meet him in his room. You thought he'd scold you again for something you did or he will give you a lecture about how shitty you are. Little Did you know it wasn't. You enter his room,taking a seat Infront of him across the coffee table. "What do you want" you spoke,you dad's face turned slightly disgusted "do you have any manners about how to talk to your own dad?" He grumbles but you kept quiet,but you had to speak. "Can we just talk about what's important.."

"we sent a marriage proposal to gojo clan"

Oh,you slightly tense up. "And?"

"don't you dare to act like a brat. I'll just go straight to the point. We sent a marriage proposal to gojo clan for you and your sisters. They just had to choose one of you." Your father had nothing more than disgust on his face.

He did all of this without a single opinion of yours,your throat ran dry.. you don't have to worry. No one would choose someone like you. That's what you thought.

"and they choosed you." Your father said.

"..."

"speak."

You felt words dry inside you.. how could they choose someone like you. Your no one. But they did.

"stop overreacting,we already had said yes. And the date is December 30. There will be a meeting tomorrow."

You got no choice anyway, getting married would be better than living in a clan of jerks.

"and who I'm going to marry?"

"tch.." you heard your father. This long and he didn't even bothered to tell you the name of the man your supposed to marry. "satoru gojo"

You tense up, panicked slightly

"w-what..?"

"yes,your going to marry satoru gojo. I don't know why did he picked you.."

You dad mumbles in annoyance. You have heard about gojo so much. That he's the strongest, he's got the looks of an angel, everyone likes him, he's this he's that and more,but you had never seen him,never bothered to. Because you used to think a person like him wouldn't even bothered to know who're you. You just gave a nod to your father, already leaving the room. You were somehow anxious scared. You lock yourself up in your room for the day.

𓍢ִ໋🌷͙֒

Maids were busy to doll you up for satoru,you said nothing. Letting them have their way with you. He was strongest sorcerer of today and you.. you were just you. Barely Existing. One of the maid scolds you for moving while she was applying lipstick on you. You just gave a apologetic smile and nothing more. You sit still. After all of the makeup and clothes you were finally ready,to meet the man your supposed to marry. You were just looking at yourself in the mirror and the silence suddenly gets broke by your step mom

"can't believe he choosed you" you hear her mumble,you just look at her. A stoic face of yours.

"why are you getting annoyed? It's not like he'll choose a fatty like you" you spoke in annoyance, already leaving the room. You never acted like this but today your mood wasn't calm as always. Your step mother glares at you, shouting something you didn't bothered to hear. You enter the meeting room,your father and everyone was already there,your sisters. You older sister wasn't a big fan of yours and she didn't really cared about what you do but your younger sister was way more worse than a bitch. Always ruining your day before it could even start. You walk to the couch and sit down there,a coffee table and another sofa across you where gojo is supposed to sit. You wait and wait.

3h already has passed away and you were so done with this,maybe he won't come to meet you. Your no one to him anyway. Every elders in the room were annoyed now. Talking about how he wouldn't come to see an useless person like you,this marriage might be cancelled and more. Your insecurities grew even more. Another day another insecurity. You slump down slightly,head looking down at your lap. A frown on your face. Why do you always end up being a shame? You gulp,you eyes slightly getting blurry-

The door of the room slams open,a man with white hair comes in looking around. White bandage wrapped around his eyes, covering the blue ones you have heard of. Everyone was staring at him,your father perked up, already walking up to satoru "i hope you you didn't have any trouble coming here,take a seat across her plea-

"i don't listen to old farts and you should know that.." your father smile is tight lipped, eyebrows twitching. Satoru walks up to the couch and sits beside you,he was literally opposite of your expectations. Your eyes wide in surprise as you stare at him. You expected him to be like other but then well... he's the opposite.

Satorus head slightly tilted to the side as he observes you, scanning from head to toe. You gulp nervously. "Is that the girl i am going to marry" a cocky smile appears on his lips you look at him dumbfounded "y-yes" you mumble. He chuckles. Patting your head "you look like a statue..or a doll..maybee.." you frown slightly,he was way too much different..he goofy grin on his face. Your younger sister suddenly speaks, interrupting satoru

"you know mr gojo this is not really nice of you.. it'll be okay if you-"

"you look like brat" gojo cheekly laughs,a small one. Your sister's face scrunch in anger

"hey now your crossing the limits who do you-'

"oh nowadays kids are soo disrespectful awh" satoru sticks his tongue out, shrugging. You dumbly watch the drama as they continue to argue. Your step mom start to speak too

"you know your speaking too much with my daughter mr-"

"she's not your daughter and she's the one who started this" satoru shakes his head in disapproval. Before your mom could speak again you're father spoke up

"everyone you know we should give some time for y/n and gojo to have a conversation." You father forces a smile and drags your lil sister and step mom out of the room,you older sister following them with a ywan. In a minute the door was closed and you and satoru were left alone. You slump down with a sigh, feeling like you could breath then you remembered your not alone, straightening yourself as you flash him a small smile.

"tsk they're annoying" you just give him a small chuckle. Not knowing what to say

"why are you this quiet.." satoru trails off..you slightly tense up.

"actually.." sensing your discomfort he stopped you

"it's okay you don't have to tell..but.."

"but.." you stupidly continue with him and-

"why there's scars on your wrists" satoru asks. The smile falls off your face,you gulp..what were you going to answer?

"you did it don't you" he shakes his head with a bored pout.

"can we not.."

"okay i won't." Satoru laughed softly,brushing a strand of your hair, tucking it behind your ear. Your face slightly heats up,you look away blushing. Satoru just stared at you. Looking at your eyes, noticing the long lashes. Trailing to your nose and then your lips,a slight pout on them. You noticed it, looking at him slightly confused "is something on my face.."

"no" satoru just laughed softly. You wanted to ask him why did he agreed to this marriage. Is there something special in you. And so many. You just nod. The conversation was flowing. Him asking you questions and you. Somehow you don't know you felt slightly open to him. He was being kind to you. Talking about his interest in Digimon,and movies how he loved to teach his students. And more..satoru said he loves sweets. Especially mochi and kikufuku. You told him about your small interests, staying up at night to watch the night sky, reading books , watching tv when no one was around. You loved watching cartoons. You were slightly shy about it but satorus interest grew more. From how he's called the strongest ay first made you think he'll be like one of the strict asses but he was still just a man. Oh. Hours goes by and satoru finally had to go. He left you for today but left a wramth inside your chest. The whole night you don't sleep. Instead you stared at the night sky thinking about satoru. The was just as bright as a moon. One in a million..

A/N ₊˚ʚ 🌱 : English isn't my first language sorry if i did any mistakes. + I tried my best and I'm not an professional writer:)

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[avocado-writing]

I love love love your bg3 writing so much. I'm so glad i found your blog.

if you're comfortable writing about marriage, could you write the companions (minus lae'zel) reactions to a githyanki Tav proposing? like, Tav has done research into material plane customs and what marriage entails and has decided they want that with their love.

thank you if you do!! ♡♡♡

Astarion

A little baffled when he sees you get down to one knee so sincerely, thinking you can’t possibly be about to propose. That’s not a thing githyanki do is it? Gods, he should have asked Lae’zel…

Eyes widen when you produce the ring. Dead heart skips.

Is utterly bowled over that this is happening. That anyone would think he was worth proposing to, especially wonderful you.

You start a spiel about why you think you’d be a spouse he should consider, usual githyanki directness, and he cuts you off - “you don’t need to convince me, my sweet. The answer is yes. It’s always yes.”

You slide a ring onto his finger and he watches the way it sparkles.

You must have saved up for ages. He never thought he’d be deserving of something like this, but is going to try and see himself through your eyes from now on.

Gale

As you drop to a knee, he’s sorting through every piece of information in his head that he knows about githyanki, because you can’t possibly be about to —

Just stares for a moment when you bring out a ring. He sees your brow furrow.

“you are displeased.” Him, quickly, “no, no! Far from it! I’m just… surprised.”

”why would you be surprised, Gale? You are the most treasured thing in my life, and I believe this is how people in Faerûn seal that bond.”

He’s reduced to speechlessness at your sincerity. All he can do is nod and put on the ring, allowing you to scoop him up in your arms and kiss him over and over ❤️

Karlach

The second you drop to a knee she says yes.

“Karlach I believe I am meant to ask the question first—” “sorry, I got overexcited! do it properly then.”

”… will you marry m—“ “YES”

She grabs you and pulls you into her embrace, holding you in a bridal carry and kissing you deeply.

“Would you like to see the ring?” “There’s a ring too?!”

She’s so happy, man. You’re certain you’ve never made a better decision in your life.

“I researched into what gem would be preferred in a ring, and measured your gloves to get the size correct.” “You did all this for me? 🥹” “Karlach, you are worth moving the stars for.”

She goes around the camp showing off her ring. She can’t stop smiling all day ❤️

Shadowheart

Raised eyebrows when you kneel.

“Hmm, I wasn’t aware that githyanki knew of marriage.” “I didn’t. I read up about it. But I suppose if you’re against it—“ “no no, I didnt say that…”

Smiles when you drop to a knee again, pretends to be coy in her answer, but she knows she’d never say anything but yes.

You lay there with her that evening as she discusses all of the intricacies of planning a wedding, her hand tangled in yours, going into great detail about what she wants. Her face hurts by the time she falls asleep because she’s been grinning all day.

Wyll

He is so utterly surprised when you propose — but not for any untoward reason.

“Wait right there!” his face is so excited when he runs back into his tent, and when he re-emerges he has a ring box in his hand too.

“oh… is it custom for us both to have a ring when proposing?” “No, my darling. It’s just fortuitous luck that I was going to propose to you, too.”

“I see. So is your answer yes, then?” “Of course my love. A thousand times.”

You smile widely, and the two of you exchange rings, before he reaches over and kisses you sweetly.

Halsin

Is happy, but also wants you to know you don’t have to do this. That proposal might be a custom of this plane but if you aren’t certain, it isn’t something you have to do.

“I want this, Halsin. I have done my research thoroughly. I can think of nothing more joyous than being married to you. I do not enter into the lightly, and I’ve never been more sure of anything in my life.”

He smiles so widely it threatens to crack his face in two. Lifts you in his arms and gives you a passionate kiss, assuring you that he will make you happy for the rest of his days.

Can’t stop looking at the ring on his finger. He’s an old elf, but he’s never felt more treasured in his life.

Minthara

Smirks. She knew this was coming.

Doesn’t say much, but confirms “you made the right choice. Yes. I will marry you.”

She scrutinises the ring as you slide it on your finger, but seems content. She keeps glancing down to how it reflects the light.

Proves just how pleased she is later that night in bed 😏

[jjkamochoso]

Snowball Fights and Sleepless Nights

Levi Ackerman x gn!reader

Fluff

Your snow day gets a surprise visit from Levi!

Warnings: cussing

A/n: I wrote a chapter in my Levi x reader series about the snow and it inspired me to write something else because it’s such a fun idea so please enjoy this one shot!!

When you opened your eyes, it was eerily quiet. Usually the castle had some sort of activity going on, whether it was people marching up and down the halls or soldiers yelling outside during training. You got out of bed but before you got dressed, something outside your window caught your eye. There were snowflakes falling everywhere, coating the castle and its grounds, leaving a beautiful white sheen everywhere you looked. You couldn’t wait to go outside and relish the quiet calm of a snow day. Tugging on your clothes, you raced out into the cold. The immediate blast of cool air on your exposed skin felt more refreshing than agonizing, though your tired bones could’ve used a day out of the elements. You and your squad had been training nonstop for the past week and you planned to rest today, your off day, but you couldn’t resist the weather’s allure. You peeked around to make sure no one was there. Seeing nobody, the coast was clear. You smiled a little at your luck before lying down, the plushness of snow comforting your body. You were high enough in rank, a lieutenant, that you needed to retain self respect and a sense of authority in all aspects of your life but you’d be damned if you couldn’t let loose a little to make a snow angel in these perfect conditions. You fanned out your arms and legs, scraping the snow away from your body to get the shape to look just right. As you moved your limbs around, you realized just how worn out your body really was. You stopped moving, your snow angel probably looking alright by now, and you closed your eyes. The sun was barely peeking through the dark clouds but it was enough to make you sigh dreamily, basking in the barely there rays of light. You definitely would’ve fallen back asleep if it weren’t for gentle hands and a scared voice pulling you from your relaxed state.

“L-lieutenant! Are you alright?”

You knew that to be Armin Arlert’s panicked voice. You opened your eyes to see you were surrounded by the group of teens who did everything together, faces all contorted in some sort of panic. Armin relinquished the grip he had on your shoulders, afraid of getting in trouble for putting his hands on a superior now that it was confirmed you weren’t hurt or dead.

“What are you guys talking about? I was making a snow angel,” you grumbled, feeling embarrassed that these soldiers, who were supposed to look up to you, were literally looking down at you. You stood up, swiping the leftover snow off your body.

“We saw you lay down and not get back up so we had to check if you were hurt,” confessed Sasha.

“Well, thanks for your concern, everyone. I appreciate it.” Before you could slink away and hope they never spoke of this situation, an idea came to mind. A silly idea, one that should probably never see the light of day, but these kids had been through so much and deserved to have some fun for once. “Have you guys ever been in a snowball fight?”

Those words were what led to the dire situation in front of you. Your snow fortress had been taking hits from all sides and you were running low on ammo (snowballs). You didn’t know how much time you had left before getting bulldozed with snowballs but you weren’t going down without a fight. Baring your teeth, you came out of your hiding spot, fully prepared for an onslaught. However, when you stood up, you saw the teens running around with each other, grins and laughs a plenty and you felt your heart warm. You were glad you suggested this, even if you did just get pelted in the face by Eren while you were lost in your thoughts. You hoped this feeling of peace could last forever.

“Oi! Brats! What the hell are you doing?”

Your captain’s voice rang through the now deathly quiet area. The kids immediately dropped the snow from their hands and saluted Levi, as did you.

“It’s a snowball fight, sir,” you spoke up, “I suggested it as a fun activity for a job well done these past few days. It’s also proving useful in promoting camaraderie amongst soldiers and tactical planning.”

Levi’s eyes bore into your own. “Tch. Cut the bullshit, Lieutenant. You’re all being too damn loud. Finish up quietly or you’ll be on stable duty for the foreseeable future.”

You fought the urge to roll your eyes. “Yes, sir,” you replied, an unenthusiastic tone to your voice. You were lucky Levi considered you something of a friend or else you’d probably be in bigger trouble.

“Alright everyone, this is our final stand. Make it count,” you addressed the teens and they nodded in agreement. Snowballs were flying around you and you were losing sight of your opponents. You saw Conny show up to your right and you prepared the perfect snowball to take him down. As you let it slide from your hands, you realized you made a grave miscalculation. You felt the world slowing down around you and your life flashed before your eyes. You knew this was it, your life was about to end. When the snowball exploded on the back of the unsuspecting person, everyone froze up like they had been in the cold for too long. You had accidentally thrown the snowball at Captain Levi. He had stopped walking at the moment of impact and you almost fell to your knees to start your begging of not being sent to the cells for punishment.

“Captain! I’m so sorry, I-.” You were at a loss for words. Levi reached behind him, taking some of the snow off his cape and inspected it in his fingers. You held your breath when his gaze met your own. As he started walking toward you, you knew this was the end. The kids could barely watch, afraid of what was going to happen to their favorite lieutenant. When his hand landed on your shoulder, you heard Sasha let out a scared yelp. Your breath was almost becoming ragged. Was he going to hit you? Kick you? Berate you ‘til the sun went down-

“Heh.”

Your eyes went wide. Did he just… laugh? The slight upward curl of his lips meant it wasn’t a humorless laugh either. The teens didn’t know what to do. Their jaws hung open, ears not believing what they heard.

“Did you all see how Lieutenant Y/N threw the snowball? Judging by the impact I felt, they used their body weight, not just their arms, to throw it. This game would’ve been over a lot sooner if you all had done that as well.” He released his hand from your shoulder and went inside. You couldn’t process what just occurred. He praised you? He laughed?! Maybe he did like you more than he let on. Your ragtag group didn’t know what to do after that.

“I think I’m gonna go inside,” said Jean, and everyone agreed in unison, still unsure of what happened. They were glad they didn’t get in trouble but it would’ve made a lot more sense than whatever it was they witnessed. You felt that was the best thing to do as well, embracing the little warmth the stone castle held. You headed to the dining hall for a warm drink, the chill finally catching up to you. While you were there, you figured you should make Levi some tea as a sign of good faith. You had observed him making it enough to where you knew exactly how he liked it. You balanced both cups in your hands and made your way to his office, just in case he was there. You knocked on the door and found it empty, to which you weren’t surprised. You knew exactly where he would be as your steps brought you to your own office where you spotted him sitting at your table.

“Captain! I didn’t expect to find you here.”

That was kind of a lie. He spent most of his time there, actually. You didn’t know why he didn’t do much of his work in his own office, but you didn’t care. You liked his company and even though he didn’t talk too much, he was a nice companion to have to not feel so lonely. You didn’t want to scare him off or make him feel like a burden if you mentioned you knew he would be there.

“I like your office the best,” he muttered, gratefully taking the tea you offered him. He took a sip and didn’t have a look of disgust on his face so you took that as a sign you made it halfway correctly. You sat near him with your own warm cup, taking a sip of your drink and sighing.

“I’m sorry I started a snowball fight and then hit you with a snowball, especially in front of our soldiers. I really didn’t mean to,” you said. He was quiet for some time before speaking.

“It’s fine. Really. I don’t condone childish behavior but they were having fun for once.” He took another sip. “You’ve got a good arm. If you work on your aim I might even call you talented.”

You let out a soft chuckle at his teasing. A comfortable silence washed over the two of you as you sat side by side, watching the snow fall from your window.

“What was that thing you were doing this morning? When you laid in the snow,” Levi suddenly asked.

“Hm? Oh, I was making a snow angel. It’s not difficult but I can teach you sometime, if you want,” you told him. The captain didn’t say anything but the slight softening of his face meant he heard and appreciated your offer. When you both finished your drinks, Levi took the empty cups back to the dining hall while you finally got the rest you craved, feeling yourself drift off into sleep.

You eventually woke sometime during the night, the moon high in the otherwise dark sky. After your long nap you knew you weren’t going to be able to sleep for a while so you resorted to quietly wandering the halls. Unsurprisingly, Hange’s office was lit up. They usually worked all hours of the day, never adhering to a normal timetable like the rest of the Scouts. You were interested to hear about the titan research they were working on so you knocked on the door, hoping they would hear you. You heard soft, calculated footsteps coming your way which was odd because Hange was known to be loud and clumsy. The door opened and you were greeted by the handsome face of your captain, not the bespectacled face of your closest friend.

“Oh! Levi! Sorry to bother you, I’m sure you’re working. Is Hange in there?”

“No. But you can come in anyway,” he said, letting you in and closing the door behind you. He sat down while you lingered at the bookshelf, pulling out whatever looked interesting. When you went to take a seat to start reading, you got a good long look at Levi’s face and he looked worse for wear.

“What?” he asked sharply, all too aware you were staring at him.

“Did I interrupt you sleeping? I can leave if I’m bothering you,” you sheepishly said.

He groaned lightly, pushing his hair out of his face. “No, that’s the problem. I’ve been trying to sleep but my shitty brain won’t let me.”

You had suggested another warm drink or just closing his eyes to rest, but he had tried both things and nothing helped to calm his thoughts. All of a sudden you came up with another bright idea.

“Okay, I have something that might help, but it requires going outside. Are you up for it?”

Levi looked at you quizzically, completely unsure what you were up to. Eventually he let out a resigned sigh. “What the hell. Let’s go.”

“Oi! What the hell?!”

Those were the words that left Levi’s mouth when you grabbed his arm and yanked him to the cold ground.

“We’re making snow angels,” you said, a big grin on your face.

“What we’re making are fools of ourselves,” he said while glaring at you.

“When I was out here earlier doing this, I was ready to pass out because it was so relaxing. It’ll be even more so with a view like this.” You pointed to the full moon. Levi rolled his eyes but he waited for further instruction.

“It’s easy. All you do is move your arms up and down and your legs in and out, like you’re doing jumping jacks. When you’re done, you should be slightly exhausted and out of breath from the cold. Then, you’ll feel completely at peace.”

Levi watched you first, then attempted on his own. He felt ridiculous, silly, and downright ashamed that he went along with your foolish plan. But then, miraculously, he started to feel something else. His eyes grazed over the trees, branches plump with snow. He took in the smells of the fresh winter air, his nostrils slightly stinging from the cold. He observed the moon in its fullest phase, admiring the craters and basking in its bright light. Finally, he turned his head and saw you. You had a lazy smile on your face as you made your snow angel and it looked like you didn’t have a care in the world. Levi knew that couldn’t be further from the truth, but he knew he was lucky to share in your joy, however brief it might be. All of these things combined led Levi into a state of bliss he didn’t know was possible. Sure, his ass was freezing from lying in the snow, but it added to the experience. Besides, you were right there next to him—what more could he ask for? For once in his life, he let his body go lax as he let the snow envelop him. Though Levi was always quiet, you hadn’t heard a sarcastic comment from him for a few minutes so you looked over to make sure he was still there. Lo and behold, your captain was in the same spot you left him, but he looked about 10 years younger. The moonlight highlighted his cheekbones and made the snowflakes in his jet black hair look like they were dancing. His eyes were closed and his chest rose and fell steadily, a sign that his breathing was controlled. Did you make the right decision bringing him out here? Was Levi actually… relaxed? You could’ve screamed for joy if it wasn’t the middle of the night. You noticed your outstretched hands were almost touching each other. What you wouldn’t give to hold his hand right now. Maybe you could brush pinkies to quell your yearning heart? You could totally play that off as an accident. You turned your eyes back to the sky and moved your hand over the slightest bit. No contact yet. A little further…

You were touching him.

Your pinkie barely rested against his own and you were bracing yourself for the time when Levi would pull away and you’d have to explain your actions. Luckily for you, that time never came. You were relieved, albeit confused that he didn’t yank his hand away from yours. He was probably asleep, that’s why. You turned to him for the umpteenth time that night and what you saw made your lungs lose air and your knees would’ve buckled if you were standing—Levi was smiling. Not a huge smile, by any means, but it was miles away from the frowns and grimaces he wore on the daily.

“Thank you for bringing me out here,” he practically whispered, steel blue eyes glistening.

“Thank you for trusting me,” you replied, equally as gentle. You didn’t know how it happened or who initiated it, but seconds later you felt your pinkies intertwine. In that moment, your feelings for each other became as crystal clear as the icicles on the castle.

[odestasocean]

may i present to you, a rant that no one asked for about the bond between annie cresta & mrs. everdeen:

so awhile ago i had sent in an ask to @the-sun-and-the-sea talking about the implied friendship that forms between annie & mrs. everdeen post-war. now that i'm no longer just a lurker on here, i wanted to delve into my thoughts on this friendship because it is one that is sooo interesting to me and one that is hardly brought up in the fandom !!

to start, mrs. everdeen is a character that i wholeheartedly believe does not get the recognition she deserves. i mean, she leaves nearly everything about the only life she had ever known to start a new life with the man she fell in love with and have two children with him only for him to die tragically, leaving her with these two young girls who need her more than anything, but her own mind becomes a prison, keeping her locked away from being the mother that katniss and prim need her to be??? or idk maybe i just have a knack for loving the grieving widowed characters in media for some reason. anyway, i digress. her story, in a way, goes hand in hand with annie's story.

now, as we know, suzanne collins' mind is an incredibly intricate and complex place so i don't think that her specifically choosing district four to be where mrs. everdeen ends up was a coincidence. which just alludes to the fact that she has now become this personified cautionary tale for annie. since she's a doctor and she's familiar with the victors by being an extension of katniss, i'm just going to assume that she was one of finnick's doctors when he was in and out of the hospital. and that she became annie's doctor after she was rescued from the capitol. i'm also just going to go ahead and assume that if this was the case, she would've remained as annie's doctor once she found out she was pregnant. this could very well be implied to have contributed to her moving to d4 and helping to build a hospital there.

annie's story is honestly just as equally familiar and unfamiliar to us as mrs. everdeen's is. we don't know how her and finnick's relationship began or what the details of her games are or what her personality was like before her games or how she grieved after finnick was gone. but with this implication of mrs. everdeen moving to annie's home district, i can only imagine that she offered a great deal of support to her. mrs. everdeen met this woman who had just endured something so insanely traumatic and was there to offer her help and witness her heal with the happiness of her new marriage, only for her to end up on the same exact path as she herself had been on for the past seven (??) years: a widowed mother with a mind who only ever seemed to experience grief.

we don't know anything about what the weeks and months were like for annie after finnick's death. but to me, it is perfectly rational to view this as a period of time where she was so shut down from wanting help from anyone and everyone and felt entirely unsure of how she was going to raise a child in this state of mind. and it wasn't until she started to talk with mrs. everdeen, who had been enduring her own grief of losing her youngest daughter, that she found someone who finally understood. someone who didn't make her feel like she was crazy for being unwilling to do anything but lay in bed and stare at the ceiling. someone who didn't view her as the Mad Girl who was now the Pregnant Mad Girl Whose Husband is Dead, but rather as an incredibly strong individual who had to fight against the enemy of her own head. someone who offered her a shoulder to cry on rather than a judgemental stare. no one could replace prim for mrs. everdeen and no one could replace annie's mother or mags in annie's case. but after all of the hardships that they had both faced up until that point, they had a shared understanding of how they could never truly move on from their grief. but they would continue on and live their lives to the best of their abilities for themselves, their children, and those they had lost.

alas, the similarities do not end there, my friends. katniss constantly talks about how much her father loved being out in nature so the wicked sense of irony of him dying so far away from that nature he loved so much is just heartbreaking. and who else do we know of that died in a place so far underground and so far away from the element of nature that he had been surrounded by his whole life?? bing, bing, bing, you guessed it! finnick odair! there's one line toward the beginning of hunger games that has always stood out to me: "it reminds me of the mines and my father, trapped, unable to reach sunlight, buried forever in darkness." replace mines with sewer and my father with finnick and boom, you've got the exact events of page 312 in mockingjay. and, of course, i can't forget the obvious-- an explosion was involved in both of their deaths. so this again just adds to my point earlier of how it feels a little too eerily similar that these four characters all share some level of commonalities for it to have been a coincidence.

anyway, not really sure what the point of me rambling about all of this was. i guess to see if anyone else has ever put that much thought into it?? or am i just looking way too far into something that's not as connected as i think it is?? idk, let me know your thoughts if you have anything to add because i could talk about this forever and ever and ever !!!

[mychoombatheroomba]

Proximity Alert

Between the Bones (Leon x GN! Reader) - Chapter 11

And into the minefield you go. Little do you know, Leon is fool enough to follow you.

(Cross-posted from Ao3)

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Flustered or not, Leon was, as you came to find out, a damn good shot. 

He would have had to have been, you supposed, to survive what he’d survived. Still, you found yourself very much impressed as the two of you spent your hour unloading magazine after magazine into the targets down range. You didn’t mind losing to him. 

Not when three points was all it took for him to smile the way he did. 

“If you can shoot like that now, just think of how good you’d be if you cut that hair so you could see,” you’d said, and you weren’t sure where the energy you had was coming from. 

Maybe you said it for the same reason you'd called him pretty; it was true, yes, but you also wanted to get a rise out of him. 

And a rise you got. “You must not hate my hair too much, if you think I’m pretty.” 

Oh, he was getting better at countering your jabs. Knives and words. And just like when he managed to get a successful counter in while sparring, you watched his eyes go a little wide as he realized what he’d just said. 

You were both flying by the seat of your pants, then. 

“I won’t matter how pretty you are if someone can throw you around by your fringe,” you said, ignoring the way it felt like you were walking over the edge of a cliff. Ignoring the way your mouth curled without you meaning it to. “And if I remember right, I’ve done it before.” 

“Guess I’ll just have to be extra careful, then.” His own smile returned, and it lingered until the two of you said your goodbyes. 

That smile made some stupid, sentimental part of you ache because it made him look young - young and proud and excited that he’d done well. For a moment, he looked like Raccoon City never happened. Like the two of you weren’t training to fight what spawned from mankind’s darkest ideas. For a moment, as Leon beamed at you, you could almost imagine that things were normal. Or, as normal as they ever had been for you. 

You felt that way more and more when you were around Leon - strange, because if anyone should remind you of what waited for you out there in the real world, it should have been him. Instead, you found yourself smiling more when you were around him than you had in the last year. The smiling wasn’t the dangerous part, though. 

Ever more, you were ignoring the warning bells in your mind in favor of holding his gaze for a second longer than you should have. Letting yourself study the strength of his jawline, the way the boyish fullness of his cheeks was sharpening into something harder. Or the way his arms were being cut by more and more defining lines. You let yourself say things you shouldn’t have because getting those little rises out of him made you feel . . . 

It made you feel something other than the misery you’d been wallowing in for so long. 

Something you almost felt you didn’t deserve. 

That had been the silent war your thoughts had been waging, because it was stupid to get close. It was completely and utterly reckless. 

And you thought of that smile as you went to bed that night, anyway, because it felt good to imagine something other than the snow and cold, and the dead eyes that waited for you in your dreams. Thinking of the warmth of his hand on top of yours, his smart mouth, or the way his cheeks and the tips of his ears would redden when he was embarrassed felt like you’d found a place to rest your weary bones. Maybe you could afford a moment of weakness, every so often. 

Thoughts were harmless without action to give them life. A gun with the safety on. You could think whatever you wanted. 

So long as it stayed safe in your mind, where it belonged. 

⧫⧫⧫

Pretty boy. 

It really shouldn’t have taken up such a big space in his head, but Leon found himself thinking of those words as he lay in bed that night. It didn’t stop the nightmares, but it was a far better thing to remember when morning came than rotting flesh, or heavy footfalls at his back. 

Or the feeling of someone’s hand slipping through his fingers. 

He would much rather think of you and whether you were being serious or not. 

That was the question he tried to puzzle out that day, well aware that he was putting too much thought into a single moment. A joke. Had to have been. 

Still, he sure as hell wanted more, whatever it was.  

So, when evening came and he met you in the training yard, he did so with a mission he had no notion of how to carry out. You were already there, as always, the sunset casting you in honey gold. You tossed him a knife. “As promised,” you said as Leon caught it. 

“So, what do I get if I win this time?” he asked, flipping the blade back and forth, just as you so often did. It was becoming more and more natural to him, now. 

Still, if it was natural for him, it was second nature for you. 

“I wouldn’t worry about something that’s not going to happen,” you shrugged, a glint in your eyes. You’d always seemed sure of yourself, but with the passing of the last few weeks, he’d come to see a different side of that confidence. One that wasn’t afraid to dish out a bit of trash talk. An Army brat, through and through. Leon didn’t mind it, so long as he could give as good as he got. 

He rushed forward, knife aimed at your chest. You moved just as fast as Leon knew you could, bringing your hand up to smack the blade away. A few weeks ago, you would have blocked him, but Leon had gotten faster since you began teaching him. 

More than that, he’d gotten wise to a few tricks. 

He tried not to be too proud that he was nearly fast enough to pull the feint off. Close only counts in horseshoes and hand grenades, after all. Still, as he changed his weapon’s course at the last minute and felt the blade catch your shirt, if not your skin. You felt it too, he could see it on your face as you leapt backwards to safety. “Don’t be so sure,” he breathed, locking eyes with you. “I learned from the best.” Flattery had worked the night before. Maybe-

“I’ll tell Krauser you said so.” 

“Not what I-”

“I know what you meant,” you nodded, eyes softening almost imperceptibly. “Now, come on.” 

You were all business when the knives were in play. He knew that. Still, it had been worth a try. Besides, he didn’t think he would ever get tired of watching you fight. Even if he was the one on the business end of your knife. 

You were a viper. When you reared up to strike, one couldn’t help but watch, wide-eyed as adrenaline filled them. Fear and bewilderment in equal measure. And when you moved, god help anyone within reach. You were too fast for him several times that night, as you always were. Too fast and too dangerously beautiful-

Focus. 

The difference lately was that Leon was beginning to move the same way. Those patterns that he’d been watching for from you, he’d finally begun to learn. You favored protecting your torso over your legs. You liked feints. Wrist locks and knocking him off his feet. Controlling his arm. All favorites that he learned to watch out for. It let him stay “alive” longer and longer. All secrets that helped him avoid a disarm, or a takedown. He was learning more than how to fight, he was learning you. For every disarm or takedown, he gave you a scrape or a bruise. You were showing him how to bridge the gap between the two of you. 

That was why he thought he had you when you bent his arm up after a jab at his side, the strain of it edging just short of real pain. 

Your hands were both occupied. His left wasn’t. 

He kicked towards your leg, and you shifted a bit to avoid it. 

His wrist being free was just enough mobility for him to toss the knife up. His left hand caught it, and again he just nearly missed the swipe he took at your head. You ducked under the swing in a blur of motion, and he followed through. You caught the attack, and again your hands were moving to control. Just as he knew you would. 

Shoulder protesting a bit at the speed with which he moved, Leon wove his arm under your own. You blocked the first strike. Just barely the second. 

Your bodies were pressed together, your hands just barely stopping him from checkmate. With steel just an inch from your throat, your lips parted as you looked up at him, first in surprise and then in struggle. Victory was there, within reach. So close Leon could reach out and grab it. Get drunk off of it. 

Drunk off of the idea of winning and drunk off the way you felt against him. 

Then he felt something else. The weaving of fingers through the hair on the back of his head. Gentle for only a millisecond. The sort of sensation that made it feel like someone had hooked him to a high-voltage battery. That gentleness died before it even drew its first breath as he remembered the warning you’d given him the day before. 

⧫⧫⧫

You’d done it to win, and maybe to prove a point. What you could never have predicted was that bragging rights were absolutely nothing next to the real prize. That being the sound that Leon Kennedy made that evening in the training yard when you pulled his head back by his hair. 

You’d heard his pained groans a hundred times now. This one, though . . . it was different. Throaty and strained, and downright sinful. No human being had a right to make that noise. Not in a situation like this. 

If that was the sound he made when he was in pain . . .

What were you doing?

Both of you froze as soon as you realized what had happened, staring at each other from a distance that seemed too far and too close all at once. His eyes were dark, even with how wide they were. His breathing shallow. His body tense. His lips parted. His throat was exposed, the knife in his hand still pressed against it. His Adam's apple bobbed as he swallowed thick. 

It was then that you realized just how far into that minefield you’d wandered.

And the way he was looking at you, those shadowed blue eyes searching your own, only made it worse. 

What the fuck were you doing?

“Told you about the hair,” you said, not of your own volition. Something cruel had a hold of you. Cruel and wild and full of a fire that burned you from the inside out. A year’s worth of pushing want down in favor of need was all threatening to split you open, now. 

You were stronger than your impulses, though. Or more cowardly than you’d like to admit. 

Whatever the case, you let go of Leon’s hair and stepped away because you knew if you didn’t, it would mean the beginning of something you couldn’t allow into reality. You just hoped that you had bailed out early enough, because as you moved away from him, that tension in the air remained. 

“You okay?” you asked after a moment of silence, because you genuinely didn’t know what else to say. 

“Yeah,” Leon nodded, and even if he was lying, you weren’t going to call him on it. Not right now. “Yeah. Just . . . point taken about the hair.” 

“Hmm,” you nodded back. 

Another beat of oppressive stillness, and you could only do your best to tread water through it. That, and try not to linger on the way Leon’s lips had looked only seconds ago. It was just a moment, and it passed. The safety was still on. 

“So, are you going to cut it?” you finally asked, pointing to his hair. 

Leon had looked lost up until that moment. Even as you spoke, it took him a second to register what you’d said. He looked at you for the first time since you’d let him go - just a glance, but one that let you know that you’d kicked up a storm in his mind. He breathed a single dry laugh and shook his head. “Not a chance.” 

⧫⧫⧫

He couldn’t sleep. And not entirely for the usual reasons. 

No, that night, Leon was kept awake by the memory of your hand in his hair and the sharp pain of you pulling on it. That, and the warmth of you being so close to him. The way your eyes had been so bright with an emotion he’d never seen in you before, one that burned low and true like embers. 

He replayed the moment in his mind, out of embarrassment, true, but also to chase the phantom of what he’d felt. It wasn’t the first time he’d thought of you in the dark - his thoughts had drifted to you more and more lately. That night, though, he wasn’t just thinking about you. He was imagining you. He imagined what you might feel like in his arms, what the skin beneath your shirt might feel like against his fingertips. 

He imagined what it might be like to feel the kiss of your lips instead of your steel. 

And as he imagined, he fought back the guilt that wrapped its cold hands around his throat. Who the guilt was owed to . . . that was becoming a more difficult thing to know.

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A/N: This chapter brought to you by the sounds Leon makes when he's injured. Also shot myself in the foot putting a Leon pic in every chapter . . . gonna need more than 40 of these mfs 😂

[gaytkachuk]

the thing about mattdrai is leon is humble, but he knows he's good, so he can be cocky when he wants to be. but matthew is not 'humble', he's self depricating, and sometimes, especially on the ice, he uses cockiness as a defense against his own insecurities. and yeah, leon gets annoyed by that because, before he gets to know matthew, he thinks it's fucking annoying that he's so cocky.

in reality, matthew is over there, all false bravato, just praying that no one else notices that he doesn't belong, that he has never been good enough to be where he is. when he gets glimpses into matthew's imposter syndrome it's fucking eye opening. like matthew giving himself the 85 rating is not a silly little joke he genuinely fucking believes that's his nhl24 rating. and like i can imagine leon making that little joke "oh, i dunno probably 85, eh?" with a cheeky little grin. but that's not matthew. like sure! you can totally read it as him being humble but it's NOT it's him REALLY TRULY believing it. it's him playing a stanley cup game in a run he practically won for his team with a broken sternum bc he still had to prove himself (????) and the thing is like why else do you play a stanley cup game when you couldn't even get yourself dressed in the morning??? like he saw that as letting his team down and that's fucking DEVASTATING. and no one around him thought "oh! maybe just this once we should tell him 'matthew, you don't need to prove anything. you did fucking amazing. you got your team here, but you need to heal now though. you need to lay your ass back down and fucking HEAL because YOU are more important to us than a fucking TROPHY." AND YES i know he'd worked his LIFE for that moment but one has to wonder what that does to someone. to constantly chase that glory and to never feel good enough until then?? and THEN even when you reach the peak, you will feel like you still were not good enough, you didn't deserve it, you never will. and there is NOTHING you can do to fill the emptiness. not even the one thing you thought you needed most in the world. because. fuck. the thing you needed most is actually someone to give a shit. about YOU. not your perceived value on a team. not your accomplishments. but YOU. when you are laid up in bed, can't move, hurt. when you are waking up slow. when you aren't doing anything at all. when the mask is off and you're just breathing. that's what you need. and. fuck. leon can give that to him. because leon isn't thinking about those things. he's thinking about how matthew is brightest when he isn't performing. when he's there, curled up with a book in an oilers sweatshirt he'd never be caught dead in. when he's telling leon how much he loves him. when he lets himself breathe.

and that's the thing!! leon is so so good at motivating the people he loves to love themselves by just. believing in them? and i think that belief would change matthew's whole life. i think he'd start maybe believing it too. that maybe all the shit he's gotten from the people who he trusted the most was not fucking true. that maybe he is worth everything that leon is telling him he's worth. that he can. that he will. that he IS.

i think leon gets choked up when matthew says something good about himself. he'd never admit it, but he does. and i think to be loved by matthew would be the most overwhelming thing in the world, because it is utterly selfless. disregarding of anything. because that need of matthew's, that one to be loved with no conditions? it comes out subconciously in the other direction. it is unavoidable. it's fucking pure. and when he loves, he loves hard. leon almost doesn't know what to do with it, until he realizes it's a gift, and he will never ever deny it. in fact, he will work his entire life to carefully wrap his own love in gift paper, and give it to matthew at every possible moment.

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[thegreymarveljedi]

Positive

(Wrecker x Jedi! Reader)

Here is a fic that I am actually quite proud of! I wrote this for another fandom again but I made it into a Star Wars Fanfic because I am much more connected to start wars than I am this other fandom anymore.

This is a Wrecker story because I think our gentle giant needs some love! He deserves to be happy especially after everything the batch has gone through. This also takes place post! Tantiss but before the time jump. Also, Tech is alive in this because NO. I STILL REFUSE TO BELIEVE MY BOY IS DEAD.

Another side note is that Dalia, Pabu’s nurse, is actually a character from a Hunter x Reader series written by @hugmekenobi . If you haven’t checked out their work before do it!! It’s worth your time and love!

And as always, things work the way I need them to in this story. Don’t question it🤫

Warnings: mentions of anxiety and panic attacks, pregnancy, injury, hurt/comfort, tears, FLUFF, babies, giving birth, Crosshair deserves love, Tech is an over explainer, Wrecker and the boys deserve a break, lots of use of Mando’a, Wrecker being a gentle giant, this is just a lot of fluff okay?

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Positive.

That was the only thing running through my mind as I sat in the fresher with Phee standing behind me.

Positive.

The 3, 8'' white sticks in front of me were telling me something that would dictate the rest of my life forever.

"Oh my fucking God..." I whispered to myself over and over again as Phee squealed with delight behind me. She had no idea what sort of internal battle I was facing.

Should I be happy? should I be scared? Excited or what? I didn't know what to think; what to feel. It wasn’t the ideal time for this especially since Wrecker wasn’t here. He and the rest of the Batch had left for a few rotations to help Echo and Rex. The Batch was retiring but Wrecker and I had only just got married. We hadn’t talked about starting a family yet.

Suddenly everything felt so overwhelming that I started to hyperventilate. The walls felt constricting and it was getting harder and harder to breath.

Phee noticed my panicked and immediately took charge, helping me to my bed as she called to Lyana and Omega to run to the kitchen to get water and an ice pack for me.

“(Y/N) hun, you need to breathe! Follow my breathing," Phee instructed me, placing both hands in my shoulders gently and having me make eyes contact with her. I did just that as she breathed with me, showing me how to match hers. Soon Omega and Lyana entered the room, both looking concerned, Omega more worried than she needed to be.

“What happened? Are you okay (Y/N),” Omega asked. I didn’t speak a word yet as Phee continued to coach me through the breathing exercises. After another few minutes, eventually my breathing evened out and I drank the water that the girls had brought me. Phee had me lay down, adjusting the pillows and placing the ice pack on my forehead.

“Give her a sec Omega,” Phee whispered gently, helping her onto the bed along with Lyana. We all sat in silence until it finally seemed to register in my mind. 'I'm pregnant.' I just stared up at the ceiling with the ice pack on my forehead in thought, not really paying attention to the three ladies that sat on my bed.

"(Y/N)?" Omega asked cautiously, taking one of my hands in both of her’s. All I could respond with was a 'hmm', "are you okay? What happened?"

I sat up and looked at Omega then to Phee and Lyana, tears in my eyes and some already streaming down my face. Omega instantly hugged me while I cried my heart out, stroking my hair and trying to understand what was going on. It took a while but I finally managed to calm down and talk properly, taking Omega’s hands in mine again.

“I’m pregnant Omega,” I said and she gasped, looking at me intensely before she cheered. She stood up, hopping around the room for a minute before she noticed that I didn’t share her sentiment. She frowned and came back to the bed, looking to Phee and then to me with a curious look.

"I don't know how to feel. I don't know what I'm going to do. Yes Wrecker and I have been together for a few years and we’re married now but I don't know if he's ready. Hell I don't know if I'm ready. We haven’t spoken about starting a family yet, we haven’t even fully settled into married life! How am I supposed to tell him that I pregnant?" I said as tears returned and threatened to fall again.

"Aww honey," Phee said and pulled me into another hug. Omega and Lyana joined in as they worked to comfort me.

“Do you want me to ask my dad to call them back?” Lyana said, pulling away slightly and I shook my head, not trusting myself with words.

“Can you girls give us a moment?” Phee asked Lyana and Omega, not wanting the girls to be here for the next few questions she was going to ask. They both nodded and hopped off the bed, Omega giving me one last look before she and Lyana left and closed the door.

Phee patted my back as she took a moment to think, “Trust me (Y/N), I have heard Wrecker talkin’ to the other guys and say on more than one occasion that he wanted kids. That's something he's always wanted according to Tech and he wants to have kids with you. He wants to raise them with you and he wants to be there for you,” Phee said making a faint smile appear on my lips. "If you don't believe me just ask Tech or Hunter or even Crosshair when they come back."

“Really?” I asked, wiping my eyes and placing the ice pack back on my forehead and holding it there. She nodded and placed a hand on my knee in reassurance.

“Sometimes I can overhear Wrecker talking to Tech even when he try’s to be quiet. And Tech tells me almost everything so," She said with a chuckle making me giggle a little. I smiled and nodded, giving her another hug before she stood up and left the room, bidding me a good rest as she went downstairs to entertain the girls. I lay there in my bed, thinking about everything I had been through with the bad batch from the start of the war up until now. There had been so much and Wrecker had stuck by me through everything.

I thought about how he was with Omega as well, treating her as if she was his own. That made me chuckle, thinking about how The Bad Batch, had become more of like ‘The Dad Batch’ since Omega came along. I smiled and ran the idea through my head a little more thinking about how maybe Phee was right. Maybe Wrecker would be happy.

~Time Skip~

3 month later

It's been 3 months and I still haven't told Wrecker I’m pregnant. I was now 20 weeks along and I was a bit bigger than I expected. It was getting a little harder to hide from him and the rest of the squad, my clothing changing to hide my stomach as well as my appetite. I was even surprised that Hunter hadn’t caught on yet, or maybe he had but hadn’t said anything.

I was anxious and scared. I didn’t want Wrecker to be angry with me even if Phee and Omega had reassured me that he wouldn’t be. I was thinking of ways to tell the squad; To finally tell Wrecker I was pregnant.

Daily life wasn’t hard on Pabu. Now that the boys were back home from helping Rex, they all settled into the domestic life well. There was no more running from the empire or missions to go on but it was still scary to think of. What if the Empire came back? What if Wrecker went on another mission with the clone rebellion and didn’t come back? I didn't want anyone to get suspicious about my new routine, having had to change a lot of what I was doing to accommodate the coming baby.

Phee had been telling me to take it easy, even if we weren’t going on missions anymore. She warned me not to do anything silly or to lift anything without Wrecker’s help. She was right one day when she told me not to try and move a shelf from the upstairs of our home to the downstairs with the boys help. I should have listened to her.

Everything was going smoothly, I had moved everything off the shelf, cleared the way for myself to move the shelf and I knew where I wanted it. What I didn’t account for was my bladder filling up as quickly as it did or how fatigued my muscles actually were.

I had gotten the shelf to the 3 step from the top before suddenly I stopped, a shooting muscle pain in my lower back that carried through to my stomach. I felt myself cramp up, my body not handling the stress of heavy lifting well. I hadn’t even thought to use the force for this job, my pregnancy hormones clouding my mind a little.

I could hear the front door opening and the sound of Wrecker and Crosshairs voices as the came in. I lost my footing and hold on the shelf, losing my valence and grip as i tumbled down the steps and onto the floor. My head hit the ground as I heard Wrecker call my name, feeling the heavy weight of the shelf land on top of me. The last thing I saw and heard was Wrecker and Crosshair running towards me, yelling my name before I blacked out.

~Time Skip~

The next time I woke was to peoples voices screaming for help and a pain in my stomach and head. My hands immediately flew to my stomach, wanting to make sure I still had my baby.

"We’re loosing them! I need help!"

"She's loosing blood fast!"

"She's awake! Hit her again!"

I looked around the room slowly before feeling my eyes get heavy and I blacked out again.

~Time skip~

I awoke again to a dull throbbing in my head and someone grasping my hand, my eyes still partially closed. When I finally felt awake enough, I slowly looked around and observed my surrounding. I sighed when I noticed that I had been brought to the island clinic, the smell of bacta prominent, though the ocean breeze through the window brought in the smell of flowers.

My eyes wondered to the figure sitting down grasping my hand. Wrecker. He was rubbing gently circles on the back of my hand with one hand and with the other he was gently rubbing your baby bump while humming a soft tune.

Wait...BABY BUMP! I sat up quickly and immediately regretted it when pain shot through my head and my spine. I screamed and laid back down as Wrecker sat up and helped me.

"Don't try and move! It took Tech and one of the other nurses a while but they managed to stop the bleeding and save the babies. You-yo-“ Wrecker couldn't finish his sentence as he broke down crying and held my hand tightly.

I looked away from Wrecker, disappointed in myself. I made the man I love cry. I shed tears and started sobbing, only making my headache worse. Wrecker quickly wrapped me in a gentle hug as we cried together.

When we both managed to calm down, Wrecker looked me in the eyes and held my chin firmly but gently so I couldn't turn away. All he asked was...

"Why?"

I closed my eyes as the tears started to form again. I was too afraid to look at him and see the disappointment and anger in his eyes. Wrecker cupped my cheeks and ran his thumb across my cheek bones, hoping that I would open up to him. His touch was reassuring, even if I felt like the weight of the world was still crashing down on me.

"Mesh’la, why didn't you tell you were pregnant?" He didn't sound angry or upset, though by the tone of his voice and how his life force sounded sad.

By now I was crying again, so much so that I couldn't get a coherent sentence out and it was getting harder to breathe. I felt constricted, my chest felt tight and my hands were getting clammy. My cheeks were heating up and my head began to pound even more.

Suddenly Wrecker kissed me and immediately everything around us disappeared. In that split moment, it was just Wrecker and I, together alone with nothing else around. It was a gentle kiss full of love and reassurance, Wreckers way of telling me not to panic. My breathing evened out slowly and my mind began clear, the force around us helping to ease my pain. Slowly Wrecker pulled away from the kiss and looked at me, love and adoration swirling in his eyes.

I slowly opened my eyes and looked at back at him, my eyes conveying a wordless apology. He was smiling at me with a smile that melted my heart, my insecurities telling me that I wasn’t worthy of his love or his big heart and I couldn’t tell he knew what I was thinking. He moved his right hand to my left cheek, running his thumb over it softly. I sighed and moved my hand to cover his on my cheek.

"I didn't tell you because I didn’t know if you wanted kids. We’ve been through so much in just the last year that it didn’t seem like a good time. I was so scared to tell you that I was pregnant and Phee kept telling me that you wanted kids because she heard you talking to Tech and the others about it a few times but I didn't believe her. I was so scared. She told me not to do anything stupid or do any heavy lifting without you because she didn't want me and the baby getting hurt. I should've listened to her and I should've told you,” I looked into his eyes for the last part, tears gathering again but not falling.

Wrecker let out a loud boisterous chuckle, shaking his head with a smile on his face, "No wonder she and Tech kept pestering me about kids."

My eyes widened as I looked at him, my heart beginning to race again, "THEY TOLD YOU!" I almost screamed, instantly regretting it when my head throbbed once more. Wrecker chuckled again and kissed my forehead, smothering my hair gently and being mindful of the stitches I had received, "They didn't tell me out right but they did try to hint at it but I was so oblivious too it."

That made me smile, knowing that Wrecker could be very oblivious at times. But that was something I adored about him, his innocence in certain moments. Wrecker and I sat in silence for a few more minutes before a knock on the door interrupted it, Tech opening the door slowly with the rest of the squad, Phee, Shep and Lyana in tow.

I smiled and told Tech to come in, everyone else following close behind. The room was big enough for everyone to fit comfortably, everyone finding a seat or a place to stand. Omega looked at me and silently asked if she could sit on the bed to which I nodded, making a little space as she hopped up.

"So, you’re pregnant with Wrecker’s kid?" Crosshair drawled on, a toothpick ever present between his lips as he smirked at us. I smiled and moved my hands down to my belly, Wrecker following suit as we both smiled at one another. Crosshair rolled his eyes with a small smile on his face, Hunter chuckling as Tech came over to the medical computer next to my bed.

"Yes she is~" Wrecker said proudly. Omega was beaming as Hunter smiled at his younger brother. Crosshair had a smirk on his face and Tech looked over to Phee with a small smile of his own, the pirate explorer returning it. Tech turned back to the screen and pushed a few buttons before turning it to face Wrecker and I.

“Alright general, according to yo-“

“Tech, we’ve talked about this.”

“I apologize gene-, (Y/N) force of habit.”

“It’s okay Tech,” I said and smiled at him. I hadn’t gone by ‘General’ since the end of the war and even then I wanted them to use my first name, It felt more normal.

"What is it Tech?” Hunter asked, wanting his younger brother to say what he needed too.

"Well, according to these charts, it is safe to say that you are pregnant with twins which is odd considering clones genetically shou-" Tech said and began to ramble on before Crosshair slapped him on the back.

“We get it genius, no need for a long winded explanation,” Crosshair said and Tech grumbled something about just being fascinated as Phee came over and kissed his cheek.

“It’s okay Brown eyes, we can talk about it when we get home,” she said and Tech smiled gratefully, happy to have someone who would listen to his rambling.

Wrecker and I were still grappling with the shock of the news as Omega squealed and hugged me. Hunter patted Wrecker on the back as he stood up and shouted with joy, a huge grin on his face. Shep and Lyana congratulated us both, both of them giving Wrecker a big hug as he went in for one. I laughed at the sight, smiling at my amazing husband. Wrecker came up to me and gave me a hug next, letting tears fall from his eyes as I smiled at him, my own eyes watering as I kissed him.

"Would you like to know the genders?" Tech asked us, looking at Hunter and Crosshair as well as Omega. Wrecker and I looked at each other as the other’s looked at us, all also curious about what we’d say.

"Yes!" We said together, everyone in the room smiling as Tech pushed a few more buttons and then pulled up the results, both descriptions being displayed on the screen.

“It appears that you are having one girl and one boy, congratulations Vod,” Tech said and gave us both a small smile.

“Congratulations Vod. I proud of you,” Hunter said and gave Wrecker a hug, his younger brother smiling and wiping away a few tears that had gathered at the corner of his eyes.

“I’m going to be an Aunt!” Omega cheered, everyone laughing along with her. Phee rested her head in Tech’s shoulder as Crosshair gave Wrecker a playful punch to his shoulder, letting his guard down for a moment and allowing himself to feel for his brother. Wrecker didn’t say anything but he gave Crosshair a wide grin and a mouthed ‘thank you’. Omega hugged me, being mindful of my baby bump as well as my head, my injuries still fresh and raw even after some bacta.

Shep and Lyana congratulated us as well, Shep offering to have a party thrown for us as a congratulations. We all talked until the early hours of the morning, everyone slowly but surely leaving the room until it was just me and Steve. The rest of the team had returned to the house that Shep had gifted us when we all made the decision to stay, all of them needing to get rest as well as clean up the mess that I accidentally made.

Wrecker and I sat together, speaking quietly together before I let out a big yawn, the reality of the day finally setting in fully. Wrecker smiled and placed his hand in my cheek, stroking it softly as I smiled tiredly at him.

"Get some sleep cyar’ika, it's been a long day for you," Wrecker said and kissed my forehead, my tired smile growing a little wider as my eyes struggled to stay open, "I'll be here when you wake up,"

I smiled and closed my eyes, squeezing his hand gently. "I love you Jariler, so so much," I said before letting myself fully relax into the bed, sleep coming to me quicker than expected.

"I love you too, Ner Sarad, ner riduur. So much more than words can say,” Wrecker said as I finally fell asleep, feeling his hand in mine and one resting gently on my belly.

~Time skip~

A week later I was placed in a hover chair and with the help of Wrecker along with Tech’s guidance. I was allowed to return to home. When Wrecker helped me through the door, there was a loud roar of applause and cheers, the house filled with familiar faces and voices. My eyes went wide as they swept the room, seeing Echo, Rex, Howzer and all the clones that the boys had rescued from Tantis and a few others. And among those faces was,

“CODY!” You screamed happily and tried to stand, stumbling a little until Wrecker caught you. You smiled gratefully at your husband before Cody came up to you and enveloped you in a hug.

“I thought you were dead,” you whispered as tears sprung to your eyes. Cody had been one of your best friends in the GAR during the war, always by your side when the batch worked with the 212th. When the order had gone out, you were afraid for both he and Obi-wan and until now you didn’t know what happened to him.

Obi-wan had found a way to make contact with you somehow but had told you not to reply and that he was alive and well at the moment. You had wanted to respond so badly, wanted to ask where he was and what happened but you respected the Jedi master to much to go against him.

“It’s great to see you alive vod’ika,” Cody said as the rest of the batch came up to you both. Crosshair gave Cody a brotherly punch to the shoulder, smiling at the commander who, inadvertently, helped him to open his eyes to the flaws of the empire.

The rest of the night was spent celebrating, music playing, laughter present and stories being told. Everyone congratulated Wrecker and I as we celebrated with food, cake and drinks; non alcoholic for me of course.

I thanked the Shep and the boys for the party as we all sat and watched a holofilm, everyone gathering in the living room. The atmosphere felt so comfortable and loving, like there wasn’t a care in the world. After the holo was over, Hunter took a sleeping Omega up to bed, Crosshair and Tech bidding farewell to the rest of the clones as Shep led them to the island ‘hotel’ for the night. Wrecker and I bid everyone a goodnight as well as Wrecker picked me up, my eyes, drooping slowly as a tired but content smile graced my lips.

Wrecker carried me up the stairs to our room, placing me down on the edge and helping me change out of my daytime clothes. I smiled as Wrecker quickly got undressed himself, throwing both of our outfits into the laundry hamper before helping me lay down and tucking me in. He climbed in after me, gently wrapping his arms around me and burying his face in my hair.

"I'm glad you’re home safe Cyare," Wrecker mumbled, placing a kiss to the crown of my head before moving down, burying his head in my neck. I laughed and kissed his forehead, careful not to move too much.

"Goodnight ner Jariler,” I said as my eyes slowly closed, my mind clear of everything but the thought of my little family here on Pabu.

"Goodnight Mesh’la, and goodnight ner ad’ika," Wrecker said and rubbed my belly, his warm hands making me feel so safe and secure. I giggled, placing my hand over his as he rubbed circles on my belly. Time slowed down as I drifted to sleep, my world complete with my husband and my little ones.

~Time Skip~

I made a speedy recovery thanks to the squad, all of them doting on me even when they didn’t need to. It was something they all agreed to do, not wanting me to get hurt again. Wrecker was especially fussy, not wanting me to do anything that he could do for me. It was cute but sometimes suffocating. We talked about it a few times and he always apologized to me but I understood his heart was in the right place.

We all spent lots of time talking about names, everyone throwing in good suggestions as well as some joking ones. Wrecker and I had finally come to a decision regarding the names and we were both very happy with them.

Shep had also been checking in on us, speaking with Hunter and Wrecker about gifting each of the squad members their own home; All of them needing a space to themselves. The houses would obviously be close by one another but Crosshair, Hunter, Wrecker and Tech would all have a place of their own to call home.

The decision had been made by both Wrecker and I when I was about 7 months along, wanting at least a couple months to prep a room for our babies. The squad had been so helpful with it, making us things to add to our home and for the babies.

I was close to my due date now, I felt like I could pop any moment. My feet were sore and I felt sick, but I was excited, the thought that I’d be holding my babies in my arms soon enough. Wrecker had been helping me to get around the house, everything already having been baby proofed as a precaution.

Right now Hunter, Wrecker, Crosshair, Tech, Phee, Echo and I were sat in the living room of mine and Wreckers home, Omega out and about with Lyana. I sat with head against Wreckers shoulder, his hand on my thigh and mine on top of his.

Cross was in the middle of telling a joke when I yelped, my hands immediately flying to my stomach. The others looked at me worriedly before I felt a gush of water between my legs, the waterproof pad under me doing well to keep the couch from getting ruined.

Wrecker put his glass of water down on the caf table and looked at me with worried eyes. "(Y/N)? Are you okay?" He asked cautiously, placing one of his hands on top of mine and the other finding its way to my lower back.

I shook my head and looked at him. "My water broke," I said quietly. Wrecker gasped and began fussing over me as he helped me up off the couch.

"Let’s get you to your room,” Tech said and he and Wrecker helped me up the steps, Echo taking Hunter out of the house for a walk around the neighborhood. It’s not that he didn’t want to be there for his Vod, but his heightened sense wouldn’t allow him to be there with all the smells and noises. Phee wasn’t far behind us as she commed Dalia, the island nurse, that I was in active labour.

Crosshair helped lay me on the bed as Tech got all the necessary equipment ready, Dalia showing up not long after I had been laid down. I smiled at the kind woman, feeling all the nerves and emotions of labour hitting me.

“Alright Cross, out you go,” Dalia said, showing the snarky sniper out of the room.

“Don’t have to tell me twice,” he said and walked briskly out of the room and out of the house, hoping to find Hunter and Echo no to far away.

“You too Tech,” she said and Tech pouted ready to protest but it was Wrecker who shook his head in disagreement.

“I want him to stay and keep tabs on (Y/N)’s vitals. As long as you’re NOT recording this,” Wrecker said and looked pointedly at his younger brother. Tech held his hands up in defence and nodded, pressing the button on his goggles to stop recording, Phee coming over to him and giving him a kiss on the cheek before she walked over to Dalia to see if she needed any help.

They positioned me to where I needed to be, moving me around a little and getting everything ready that needed to be. Wrecker was by my side the whole time, ready and waiting to support me as I pushed out his babies. And they were expected to be big, I mean look at Wrecker! Thats all you need to do.

I winced in pain as I felt a contraction hit, my head falling back into my pillow as Wrecker held my hand. I was grateful for his unwavering support through everything, he was my rock and my life line.

Dalia positioned my legs how she needed them and gasped as she put her gloves on, “She's already 10cm dilated! Get the towels ready!" She said to Tech and Phee than turned to me, "When the next contraction hits push, okay?" I nodded in response as another contraction hit, this one making me yelp.

"Push!" She said and I pushed with everything I had. Wrecker was by my side the whole time, holding my hand and whispering reassuring word to me as I pushed. I squeezed his hand hard, my grip like durasteel though Wrecker didn’t say anything, he just continued to support me.

Tech was quiet, respectful watching the process and keeping an eye on my vitals. Wrecker was happy to have him there to help in some way, knowing that he needed at least one of his brothers in the room. I screamed as I felt pain in my lower body, my legs shaking at being held open to accommodate a literal child.

"I see the head of baby number 1,” Dalia said happily. I smiled through my pain, groaning as the contractions seemed to ease then get worse for a moment. I pushed hard until I felt the tension in my body ease slightly and the sound of crying filled the air.

Dalia handed baby number one off to Phee who took to her to be cleaned up Wrecker leaving my side for a short moment to cut the umbilical cord. When he had, he was back at my side in a flash to squeeze my hand as our second baby was coming quickly.

Phee came back into the room from the fresher with our baby swaddled in a handmade pink blanket, our baby girl gurgling those newborn sounds. Tech took a moment to look over Phee’s shoulder, the new life leaving him somewhat speechless.

“Fascinating that such a small life can be created from s-“

“It’s a girl!” Phee said, interrupting Techs last word making both me and Wrecker laugh before another yelp left my lips, our baby boy wanting to make his appearance. Dalia reached up and held my leg, prompting me to push again on the next contraction. It hit me like a brick, the pain radiating in my lower half as I squeezed the life out of Wreckers hand. He however, made no sound of protest and instead continued to whisper sweet words to me.

“You’re doing amazing Mesh’la. Almost there. You’re so beautiful ner sarad.”

“You brought our baby girl into the world, our baby boy is almost here.”

“You can do this Cyar’ika.”

"Almost out,” Dalia said and I screamed as another contraction hit me, the tension in my body fully easing after the pain, “and there! Baby number two!"

Dalia smiled proudly as she let Wrecker cut the cord again and handed the baby boy off to Tech, his cries echoing in the room. He swiftly took the little one into the fresher to clean him off, Phee following so she could gently instruct him how. Even if Tech had read every book about labour, children, pregnant women and more, Phee was still there to supervise.

I sighed, my head falling back on to the pillow as my legs gave out, the soiled blanket under me feeling uncomfortable. Wrecker smiled down at me as Tech came out of the bathroom with our Son, Phee following closely with our daughter.

“You did very well (Y/N),” Dalia complimented, silently signalling for Wrecker to lift me up.

“I’m going to lift you up Cyare, just so Dalia can change the blankets okay?” I nodded at Wreckers words, wrapping my arms around his neck as he lifted me. Dalia made quick work of the soiled blanket and sheets, drawing back the covers of the bed and placing new blankets down. Wrecker laid me down on the new blankets, pulling the covers over my body.

Phee and Tech came over and gently placed the babies in my arms, our little boy in my left and our daughter in my right. Wrecker and I smiled down at our two beautiful ad’ikas, Wrecker helping me to adjust them in my arms so I could feed them. Tech turned away and walked out of the room with Phee, saying something about doing the laundry before Hunter and the others came back.

Dalia smiled at us and bid us one more congratulations before she too took her leave, wanting to give us time alone. I smiled down at my babies before my eyes turned to Wrecker, my heart filled with love. He however was busy looking at our babies, the little ones preoccupied with eat at the moment.

“Tech was right,” he began, his voice uncharacteristically quiet, “it is fascinating that such little lives can be created by people.”

“Thanks to both of us.”

“Well Mesh’la you did most of the work. You carried them for so long and made sure to keep them fed and healthy and you’re still doing that now.”

“That doesn’t mean you won’t be able to help.”

“I know. I’m not going to allow you to do anything at least for the next 6 months. Cleaning, cooking, supply runs? You name it and I’ll do it. I’ll help with the babies whenever you need me to,” Wrecker said which made you laugh, the domestic role suiting him greatly.

Before I could respond there was a hesitant knock on the door. I beckoned them in, the door opening to reveal the boys as well as Omega and Phee. Omega’s eyes lit up at the sight of the babies, coming over quickly yet quietly as not to disturb them. Hunter, Echo and Crosshair followed suit, all three seemingly in awe of the little ones. Tech and Phee were the last to enter, coming to stand on the right side of my bed as the others stood on the left.

“Wow,” Omega marvelled. Hunter came and patted Wrecker on the back, his younger brother looking at him with a huge smiles and tears in his eyes.

“Congratulations Vod’ika,” He said and Wrecker wiped his eyes turning to look back at the little ones in the arms of his wife, both having finished eating.

“Do you want to hold our son Wrecker?” I asked quietly, my eyes beaming with love. I watched as his eyes lit up, moving himself to sit on the bed next to me as I carefully manoeuvred our son into his arms. Wrecker was a gentle giant, his body size nothing compared to that of his big heart. He held our son with such care and love omega coming over to see the baby in his arms.

“He’s so small but so big at the same time,” she said, Crosshair snickering at her comment.

“Well he is Wrecker’s ad, of course he’s going to be big,” he said a smile on his face as Echo laughed and Hunter face palmed. Tech shook his head at his twin, about to laugh into a long winded explanation about babies genetics until Phee put a hand on his shoulder.

“Just enjoy being here with your family brown eyes. They want you to be in the moment.”

“Indeed,” he said and adjusted his goggles, watching as Hunter came up to your side.

“What are their official names (Y/N)?”

I looked to Wrecker and we nodded to one another, knowing that our children had the best possible aunts and Uncles to rely on in this life.

“Everett and Celeste. Cuun ad’ika,” Wrecker said proudly, Omega awing at the names as the boys looked proudly upon their brother.

“Congratulations you too,” Crosshair said sincerely, pulling the tooth pick from his mouth and tossing it into the garbage.

“Would you like to hold your niece Cross?”

“Uh- I don’t think that’s a good idea.”

“Why not?”

“W-well I’m still not g-good with my right hand and I don’t thi-“ Crosshair didn’t finish his sentence as Echo pushed him forward and I gently placed Celeste in his arms.

He stuttered for a moment before Celeste opened her eyes, the hazel brown pools staring up at Crosshair. He had no more words as he sat there with his niece in his arms, holding her perfectly. He was speechless, the little life born from his sister-in-law and brother leaving him in shock.

“I think she likes you ram’ser,” Echo said with a chuckle but much to everyone’s surprise, Crosshair didn’t even acknowledge his brother, to enamoured with the little one in his arms. I smiled as I watched, knowing that maybe this is something Crosshair needed to truly relax.

“Can I hold Everett?” Omega asked, watching the little boy in Wreckers arms open him eyes to reveal bright (E/C) eyes.

“Of course you can kid. These kids need to get to know their aunt,” Wrecker said and carefully placed Everett in Omega’s arms. She held his just like she had practiced with Tech and the others, being mindful of his head.

“Wow. He’s so cute.”

“Oh he’s cute now but he’ll grow up to be big and strong like his buir that for sure!” Wrecker smiled.

The rest of the day was spent with the squad taking turns holding Everett and Celeste. Surprising everyone again, Crosshair even shed a few tears as he had to give up holding Celeste, Hunter wanting a turn.

“You can have her back after Vod but everyone needs a turn.”

“But Hunterrrr,” Crosshair had whined. Actually WHINED to his older brother, giving him a puppy face as he held Celeste close. No one could contain their laughter as Hunter took Celeste from Crosshair with the promise to give her back.

Eventually everyone had their turn to hold both babies, both of them being returned to my arms even if Crosshair was reluctant to relinquish his hold on Everett. Everyone was smiling at him, even if after it all he tried to defend himself and slip back into his snarky nature. We had all seen a different side of Crosshair and I couldn’t be more happy.

Soon the squad bid us all a goodbye, one by one leaving our home to let us have some quiet time as a family. Hunter was carrying a sleepy Omega in his arms, Echo following behind as Tech and to almost pull Crosshair out of the room. I laughed as I watched his reluctance to leave, his softer side showing more and more. Everyone wished us congratulations once more before leaving, soon leaving Wrecker and I alone with our ad’ika. Wrecker smiled at me as I smiled back before looking at our beautiful babies.

"I'm so proud of you ner sarad,” Wrecker said and kissed my forehead. I smiled at my adoring husband, the father of my children, thinking about every we had been through together over the past few years.

“Thank you Wrecker. I’m so blessed to have you and our little ones. Thank you for giving me this family.”

“Thank you cyar’ika for giving me a family. Thank you for showing me love and for taking a chance on some silly clone obsessed with blowing stuff up.”

I laughed at that and slowly handed Everett off to his father to be played in his crib, doing the same with Celeste once Everett was down. Wrecker came back over to me and hugged me again, holding a kiss to my forehead before whispering to me, “thank you for this family, ner ca’tra. Ni kar'tayli gar darasuum.”

“Ni kar'tayli gar darasuum, Ner Jariler,” I replied. Wrecker got under the covers of our bed with me, holding me close while still being mindful of my sensitive lower half. We laid there just listening to the ocean outside, the heart beats of one another and the soft breathing of our babies.

Soon we drifted off to sleep, our new family safe and warm in our cozy home.

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There ya go! There’s some content and some fluffy Wrecker for the fan out there!

I hope you enjoyed this!

[whumpy-wyrms]

The Last Lab Rat #14: Time Flies

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content: lab whump, captivity, sleep deprivation, escape, derealization, gore, gruesome murder, death, needles, mind control, defiant winged test subject whumpee, creepy scientist carewhumper

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Tonight was the night, Dew decided. Tonight was the night he’d finally escape.

Earlier that day, he and Sasha silently communicated that they were ready. All Dew had to do now was wait until the snake slithered through the vents and into his room once Anton had gone to sleep. And then… Escape. Their plan was flawless: Crawl through the tight, dark and claustrophobic air ducts, as quiet and quickly as possible, all the way up to the surface.

All he had to do was exit the vents into Anton’s cabin, a place he was only somewhat familiar with, and steal that mind-controlling device from the scientist, then make his way outside as quiet as he’d ever have to be. All he had to do was not be seen, or heard, or caught, or hurt. All Dew had to do was escape, and then he would be free.

Dew had the relatively legible map of the air ducts memorized by now, but Sasha knew it best, so they would lead the way. Dew wasn’t going to bring anything with him. As much as he loved his music, and his sketchbook, and his ghost light, and his… chicken, it was all too much of a liability. All Dew would have with him were his glasses, clothes on his back, and his wings that made the whole escape possible.

He didn’t care if Anton found his plans in that notepad; he’d be long gone by then. He didn’t care that, technically, he’d have no evidence of ever being friends with Sasha, except the memories to hold on tightly to. Dew wished he could bring his sketchbook, wished that it wouldn’t be doomed to be buried deep underneath the ground in the lab forever. Dew’s art was a part of him, does that mean a part of him would always be stuck down there too?

…Dew supposed that whether or not he brought his sketchbook with him, it was true. A part of Dew would always be stuck in that lab. But the rest of him deserved to be free. He wouldn’t let himself be stuck in the past and let the scientist continue to ruin his life.

So that night, after Dew had fallen asleep on the couch and was carried back to his room by Anton after a surprisingly fun birthday party, Dew woke up. He lay awake waiting for Sasha to show up. And as it turned out, they slithered through the vents a lot faster than Dew thought.

“Ssspp!” Sasha hissed, getting Dew’s attention from the vents. “This is it, Dew! Are you ready?!”

“Yeah,” Dew whispered, more determined than he’d ever been. “I’m ready.”

“Sweet! Anton’s sound asleep, so this should be easy!”

“Sasha,” Dew whispered, voice shaking. “You really sure this will work?”

“Of course it will!” Sasha unlatched the vents with their tail, and peaked their head through. “Now hurry up, the sky is waiting for you!”

“O-okay! Let’s do this!” Dew took one last drink of water from the sink, and looked around the room he’d spent the last few months trapped in. He glanced out the window to the dark and empty lab and shuddered. He wouldn’t miss this place. Dew flew upwards, through the vent and into the air ducts.

The journey to the surface was simple and familiar; it was what Dew and Sasha had been practicing for the past few weeks now. They knew all the twists and turns and dead ends and drops and exits. They knew the way out, so they made no detours. They kept going.

Dew ignored that feeling of dread deep in the pit of his stomach, like something bad was going to happen, because it didn’t matter. He couldn’t go back now, and he wasn’t going to.

Dew couldn’t wait to see his friends, especially after his birthday yesterday. They were all probably so worried for him, wondering where he was. But he’d surprise them tonight!

They made it to the exit after about an hour of crawling through the cold metal tunnels. Dew never knew how claustrophobic he could be, especially with the hope that he’d soon stretch his wings and fly through the sky.

Sasha opened the latch with their tail and slithered through, letting Dew into the living room of Anton’s cabin. They were both silent, as if they rehearsed this situation countless times in their minds, and knew that any sort of talking would only reveal themselves. But that was okay, because Dew knew exactly what he had to do next.

And he was more terrified than he had ever been in his life.

Dew tiptoed to Anton’s room, taking anxious glances at Sasha on his shoulders every few seconds. He passed a few large windows, but held back from hopping out just yet. He didn’t want this to end exactly how it did last time. Sasha told him Anton was not a light sleeper, and that if they both kept quiet, this would be easy. Just in and out, quick and easy, no need to get worked up about it.

Dew twisted the doorknob, and pushed the door open with a creak. He winced, but peaked his head into the scientist’s bedroom. It was too dark to notice anything; the blinds of the window were closed, letting in very little moonlight.

Sasha slithered down Dew’s body and onto the floor, quietly moving across the light green rug and climbing onto Anton’s nightstand. They gestured with their tail to what drawer the scientist kept the mind-control contraption in.

Dew nodded and started tiptoeing closer, as quietly as he could. Dew could tell the carpet was soft, softer than anything he’d touched recently. The thought made him want to snuggle up under the covers, safe and warm with no fear of being caught. But instead, he was walking across his captor’s room— while the man slept just a few feet away from him— planning to take back what was his.

Dew arrived at Sasha, who had opened the drawer that held the device. Dew swallowed thickly, glancing at the scientist sleeping next to them. Anton was facing away, curled up in a ball under the covers. The blankets shifted up and down as he breathed, blissfully unaware of what was happening next to him.

Dew reached his hand into the drawer and pulled out the device. With a click of a button, the chip in Dew’s brain would be activated, allowing Anton to control his every action with a small murmur of a command.

He held it in his hands, close to his chest as if any wrong move would activate it and wake up the scientist, leaving Dew frozen in place, caught red handed, in Anton’s own room.

Sasha saw the fearful look in Dew’s eyes and slithered up his arm and onto his shoulders, beckoning him to get the hell out of there. Dew turned around and began to tiptoe across the floor, too afraid to look back.

There was a shift, a sound of something moving behind him, and Dew all but had a heart attack. Stomach dropping, assuming he was done for, Dew peaked over his shoulder.

He let out a sigh of relief when he saw Anton had only rolled over in his sleep. Still, it was enough to make him book it out of there. He shut Anton’s door and raced to the front door, flinging it open and stepping outside.

“We-we did it,” Dew cried happily. “We did it!”

“Not yet, destroy the thing now!” Sasha hissed.

“Right.” Dew held the device tightly in his hand, raised his arm, and smashed it into the ground. Pieces of metal and wire exploded beneath him in every direction. It was completely destroyed. Just like that, Anton couldn’t mind-control him anymore.

Dew smiled, and looked up at the sky. There wasn’t a cloud in sight, and Dew didn’t remember the last time he saw so many stars. He giggled, looked back down and kicked pieces of the device across the grass. He took a deep breath of the cool, fresh autumn air and stomped on the pieces, jumping up and down, laughing happily. He missed the sound of the fallen leaves crunching beneath his feet, and kicked them in the air like confetti. It was the middle of the night; the moon was full and bright, allowing Dew to see everything in the darkness. Dew loved full moons. It was beautiful.

Once he was calmed down, he turned to Sasha, who was coiled around the porch railing. “I can’t believe I really did it,” He said, smiling and sniffling.

“Please, Dew, fly away! Be free!” Sasha exclaimed happily.

“I… I will.” Dew took a glance at the sky, and looked back at Sasha. “I-I’m gonna miss you so much. Th-thank you. Thank you Sasha.”

Sasha giggled. “You’re welco—”

The front door suddenly slammed open. Anton stepped out, hair disheveled. He raised a tranquilizer gun.

Dew jumped, his wings taking full control. Sasha sprang towards the scientist, coiling their body around Anton’s face and briefly blinding him. Dew’s wings flapped rapidly through the air, mimicking his terrified, racing heart. Sasha grabbed Anton’s gun with their tail, flinging it away into the grass. Anton took a few steps forward. Dew was flying. Sasha coiled around Anton’s head, muffling his calls before he could yell out.

“Fly Dew!” Sasha cheered, ignoring Anton’s attempts to pry them off his face. “Fly!”

Dew blinked his tears away, and darted off into the sky.

. . .

Dew never looked back, scared that if he did, he’d wake up, and all of this would turn out to be a dream.

But it really was real this time, wasn’t it? Dew was flying. Dew was finally, finally free.

He cried for what felt like forever, fueled by adrenaline as his wings did all the work on spreading as much distance from him and the lab as possible. It was the fastest he’d ever flown before, and the highest. After an hour, he flew higher, away from the trees and into the clouds. The further he flew, the more clouds there were and the darker it got. Was it going to rain? Dew was giddy at the thought. Flying in the rain. How much fun would that be?

Dew soared through the forest, doing loop-de-loops in the sky. He loved the feeling of wind in his hair and space all around him. There was a flock of nighthawks, and Dew flew with them. He giggled as the birds squawked at him, as if he was one of their own.

Anyone walking through the forest would have heard loud laughter from above them, cries of happiness through the trees. Dew was celebrating his freedom with his fellow winged friends, and he couldn’t be happier.

Dew never got tired, and he never stopped. He wanted to look at the sky, at the bright full moon, but there were clouds. So he flew above the clouds, higher than he ever had, until he couldn’t see the ground. Dew looked around himself and was surrounded by complete nothingness; a vast abyss; a void. He was completely alone up there. It was only him, the beautiful moon, and the infinite stars above him to keep him company. It was the most at peace he’d ever felt with the universe. Up here, he was truly free.

Dew fell down into the clouds again, getting misted by the water droplets inside, and fell towards the trees. Catching himself at the split second, Dew did it again. And again. He was ecstatic! He was flying! This was the best day of his life!

As he soared through the sky and took in the amazing sights of everything he’s always wanted to see, always wanted to experience, Dew realized he was getting thirsty. He was still in the woods, so there was surely to be a river down there he could drink from.

Dew dropped down to the ground and landed gracefully into the dead autumn leaves. The second his legs touched the ground, he stumbled, grabbing a tree to balance him.

Oh. He was tired. As the adrenaline of escaping started to wear off, the events of the night started to catch up to him. Dew was tired, hungry, and his entire body was sore after flying that much. His wings were burning, begging to rest. His entire body was begging to rest after barely getting a few hours of sleep the past few days.

Dew walked through the forest, listening to the sounds of the wilderness. He missed the summer, having gotten it cut short. But fall was his favorite season. And hey, at least he’d be home for Halloween! Maybe he’d even get a costume in time.

He heard rushing water, and knelt down next to the creek. Dew cupped his hands and lapped up as much cool water as he could, then stood up.

Even though he had never been anywhere near this place before, he turned to a direction and started walking. And after a little while of gaining his energy back, he flew.

. . .

After what felt like forever, Dew had spotted civilization. He realized very quickly that there was a problem.

He couldn’t let himself be seen. Not by anyone. Not yet.

He’d been missing for months and would suddenly return with giant wings. No matter what sort of attention he’d get, none of it would be in his favor. He wasn’t stupid; he knew that scientists all over the world would kill for a chance to study his wings. There’d be no point in escaping just to be sucked back into another hell. Dew kept close to the clouds, hoping that if anybody looked up, they’d think he was just another bird.

Dew couldn’t believe how amazing flying felt, he almost didn’t want to stop. In the back of his mind, he’d thought about eventually having to convince his friends to move out to the countryside with him, so that way he could fly all the time without being seen. He was giddy at the thought that maybe, he’d eventually find a way to bring his friends into the sky with him.

But he was getting ahead of himself. He didn’t even know where he was, after all. But he followed the birds, and continued on his journey.

And then, high up in the night sky with the autumn air flowing through his wings, Dew spotted it: his house. His home. Where his friends would be waiting for him! Dew cried in joy as he soared downward, racing to the ground like a meteor, like a shooting star. Once he landed on trembling legs, he stumbled up to the front door.

Dew couldn’t believe it! He was out! He was back! He was home!

It had to be around 3 in the morning by now, so nobody was around to see him and his wings. Dew looked at the house; the place he’d been dreaming of coming back to for so long, and it didn’t feel real. Dew tried the doorknob, but it was locked.

Of course it was; his friends knew how to keep themselves safe, unlike him. If only he knew of the dangers of the night, maybe he never would have been kidnapped by the scientist. But it was no use contemplating the past. Dew instinctively checked his pockets; empty, of course. So he fished out the spare key from under the doormat, and unlocked the door. Dew didn’t bother knocking, or ringing the doorbell, or even announcing his return when he opened the door and peeked inside. He lived here too, after all.

Dew was still standing in the doorway. He took a deep breath, and then a careful step inside as if the floor would drop out and he’d fall into the vents back at the lab, as if he was still crawling through them like he’d been doing every night and all this was just his mind playing tricks on him.

But that didn’t happen, so he took another step. And then another. And then he whipped around and slammed the door shut, wincing at the loud noise it made, but quickly locking it closed. There! The scientist couldn’t get him in here! He was safe!

Dew laughed quietly, wiping the tears from his eyes. He was really home. He was home!

Dew wanted nothing more than to collapse in his warm bed and snuggle with his friends and pets in the comfort and safety of his home, because god, he was so fucking tired.

Dew took a few more steps though the house until he smelt something strange. Cake? He sniffed into the air. That was odd, but he ignored it. He walked down the hallway, not bothering to kick off his shoes he no longer had, so he didn’t notice his old pair lying next to his friends’. Dew entered the kitchen, and stopped in his tracks.

All around the room was a mess of colorful streamers and confetti. There were balloons littered around the floor and some floated to the ceiling. A half eaten birthday cake sat on the counter. Dew tripped on a piece of stray wrapping paper as he walked up to it. Written on the cake in light blue icing were the words, “HAPPY BIRTHDAY…” and he was sure there was supposed to be a name on the other side, but it had been eaten.

Right away, Dew realized there was something wrong. He expected to find his friends waiting for him, excited to finally see him after so long. He expected a reunion filled with tears of joy and happiness. But he instead got birthday party decorations, and his friends were nowhere in sight.

Dew walked further inside his house until he entered the living room. The TV was still on, playing episodes of his favorite show— the same one he had watched last night— but the volume was turned down so it could hardly be heard. Hanging on the walls was a sign that also said happy birthday, with balloons in the shape of a two and a three floating next to it. 

Dew frowned, racking his brain on what all this could mean. Sure, his birthday was yesterday, but Dew had been gone— missing— for months. Surely his friends weren’t just celebrating his birthday without him. That wouldn’t make any sense. And why do all this when they could be looking for him? Why waste time with cake and… a pile of opened birthday presents… when he wasn’t there with them?

Dew’s mind raced. What the fuck was happening? Who was this all for? Why was his birthday celebrated without him? Who had opened his presents? Eaten his cake? Who did they sing to? Who made his wish?

His head pounded. He had been awake for… a very long time. Dew hadn’t gotten a full night's rest in who knows how long. Was he hallucinating? Had his sleep deprivation finally caught up to him?

Dew looked down, and his eyes widened. Sleeping on the couch, snuggled up close in a warm blanket and Sir Bonkles sleeping between them, were Dew’s best friends Hayden and Layla.

It was the first time Dew saw his friends in months, and all he wanted to do was hug them. But now, Hayden and Layla looked so peaceful sleeping there, he didn’t want to wake them up. So he didn’t. Dew was so tired now, maybe he should just ignore all of this. Maybe he should just go to sleep and pretend everything was back to normal. Besides, he didn’t feel like explaining how he got his giant wings right now. He’d rather sleep in his own bed, and rest now that he was home and safe.

Dew numbly walked to his bedroom and shut the door. Everything felt like a haze. He slid down the wall and curled up on his soft carpet. He couldn’t bring himself to cry, he just wanted to sleep.

Dew pulled himself from the floor and walked to his bunk bed. He climbed his ladder, and was just about to collapse into his soft bed when he froze— almost falling backwards onto the floor and needing to flap his wings to keep himself from losing balance.

“W-what?” He breathed. The blankets in front of him were clumped up as if there was a body underneath. As if he was sleeping there already. Dew raised his arm and poked at the lump, then shook it, then squeezed his hand and ripped the blanket from the sleeping form.

For a split second, Dew thought his friends had replaced him. Let a new friend move into their home and take his place, take his role and name and identity and birthday. But they would never do that. They loved Dew.

…But apparently not enough to tell apart the real one from the fake.

His sleep deprived brain must be making him hallucinate; that was the only explanation. Dew blinked a few times, wiped his eyes, and even pinched himself. He was still there. He wasn’t hallucinating, and this wasn’t a dream.

“Hey,” Dew said quietly, voice cracking. The body stirred, but didn’t wake up. “Hey!” He said, loud enough to wake himself up but quiet enough for his friends in the living room not to hear.

There was a sleepy murmur. The blankets shifted again as whoever was there rolled over and opened his eyes sleepily, just waking up from a peaceful slumber. And then he noticed Dew, and his entire body went rigid.

They stared at each other for what felt like an eternity, both frozen in time taking in each other's identical features. The person in front of Dew had his same brown eyes, his same wavy brown hair, his same dark freckles, and the same look of pure terror and confusion on his face.

But there was something different. Dew looked at the man and saw himself, sure, but before. The person he saw was full of innocence and obliviousness. He did not know the horrors that Dew had faced during the last two and a half months. He did not know the pain and agony and fear Dew had to endure. He did not know the escape attempts and homesickness and how much he could possibly miss his friends. He did not know what Dew had fucking gone through.

“W-what? What the fuck? Who are you?” The fake Dew asked, sitting up and wincing as he hit his head on the ceiling. Dew was frozen, staring back in disbelief. His stare must’ve been intense, because it caused the person on his bed to back up into the corner, afraid. He was scared of Dew.

That’s right. Dew probably looked much different, didn’t he? Eyes tired and sunken from his lack of sleep, and face filled with months worth of constant fear and pain. The giant white wings protruding from his back, along with a strange blue sweater. His pants and socks were now muddy and torn from hours spent trekking through the forest.

Looking at the “Dew” on the bed was like looking into a mirror of the past. A past so far gone that Dew could hardly recognise himself. It was as if nothing had changed. As if nothing bad had ever happened to him. As if the past two and a half months were completely erased.

Dew caught himself staring— almost similar to how Anton always stared at him— because there was no fucking way any of this could be real.

“Who are you?” Dew asked brokenly.

“What? I– I’m Dew!” The man exclaimed, looking even more confused. “Who are you? What the hell are you doing in my house? Why do you look like– like… What’s going on?”

Dew ignored his questions and hopped off the ladder onto the carpet, wanting to get some space to think. He looked around the room numbly, ignoring the other Dew who had started crawling closer to the edge of the bunk bed, watching his every move.

Laying on the floor was his old hoodie, the one he recognised instantly because of the patches that were sewn into the fabric. It was the hoodie he was wearing when he was taken to the lab, the hoodie that Anton had to “throw away” for an unknown reason and replace it with hospital gowns and blue sweaters.

Dew turned his gaze elsewhere in his bedroom. There were new polaroid photos hanging up on the walls, likely taken by Layla. Dew walked closer to inspect them, noticing that he, Layla and Hayden were all in them. But Dew never remembered getting those photos taken. And he knew for sure they had never gone to whatever amusement park they were at in those photos.

He looked so happy, they all looked so happy. There were no photos of just Layla and Hayden, it was all three. Even in some love boat ride, it was the three of them. Dew’s stomach turned.

Dew ignored the sound of movement from behind him, the sound of somebody slowly and carefully crawling out of the top bunk and down the ladder. He ignored the fearful and curious eyes staring directly at him, staring at his wings. He ignored the other man standing there silently, unmoving and afraid.

Sitting on the nightstand was Dew’s old headphones and MP3 player. He could tell because they still had old, faded minecraft stickers on them, unlike the ones Anton had given him. The only thing that was different— new— were the glasses sitting on the nightstand. Anton never had taken Dew’s glasses away.

There was a card on the nightstand as well; a birthday card. Dew reached for it, and looked inside.

“Hey!” The clone said, marching closer to him and snatching the card from Dew’s hands. “That’s– that’s mine…” His voice trailed off once Dew snapped his head in his direction, silenting him with his gaze.

“What does it say?” Dew demanded.

“It– It doesn’t matter! What even– can you just tell me what’s going on? Why are you here? Who are you?”

“I’m you!” Dew exclaimed. “Can’t you tell?! Can’t you fucking recognise me?! Or did Anton take away every sense of self when he made you?!”

“I– I don’t know what you’re talking about!”

“You’re– You’re a clone of me! Y-you have to be! Probably made by the scientist after he took me! This is my house! This is my room! These are my things! This is my fucking life! You can’t just– you can’t– just pretend to be me! Pretend to feel how I feel, and act how I act! You can’t!”

Dew exploded in pent up tears and rage. He felt like this must be a dream, because the other Dew looked so scared, and Dew only ever looked like that when Anton was around. But he wasn’t here, because Dew was home.

“Am I dead?” The impostor asked. “Are you an angel?”

“No,” Dew spat. “We’re– we’re not dead. Everything’s fine.”

Nothing about this situation was fine. Not only was Dew sleep deprived, tired, anxious, confused and afraid, but he was also standing face to face with some sort of clone that had taken his place.

It was silent for another moment, and then, “Are those wings real?” The clone asked.

Dew’s eyes shot up, glaring at him. “It doesn’t matter,” He gritted between his teeth. This person– this thing had no idea what Dew had been through; the pain getting those wings had caused him. And this man was staring in awe at something he would never begin to understand, as if Dew was just some animal to gawk at.

"Are you real?"

Dew wasn't the only one wondering that, then. “I’m not sure,” He said blankly. Because it was true. For all he knew, this could all be a dream— hell, it felt like that more than reality. Dew would be more surprised if this was real.

“Are you me? Like, like from the future or something? Really, what’s going on?” 

The questions didn't cease, and when the clone reached out to touch Dew's wings, he finally snapped.

“NO!” Dew exclaimed, slapping the man’s hand away. “Don’t you fucking dare touch my wings! You don’t know anything! You don’t know what I had to go through to get here, to– to get here and find you in my place!

“You’re not me! You’re nothing like me! You’re just– just a lie! Just a fake! You’re– you’re not su-supposed to be here! You’re not supposed to be here. I’m supposed to- to be free and with m-my friends an-and—” Dew’s words trailed off into sobs.

“...Are you okay?” The clone asked softly. Dew looked up, not realizing he was sobbing uncontrollably until his wings wrapped around his body in a tight hug. He was asking him if he was okay. After everything, after stealing his life, his clone was asking him if he was okay.

Dew’s sobs came to a stop in disbelief. He looked up, and saw the clone standing there with a thoughtful expression, someone who was trying to be nice. Pity.

“Do you want a hug?” The other Dew asked, so so gently that Dew forgot about everything and decided that, yes, he did want a hug, a hug from anyone else that wasn’t the scientist. It had been so long since the last one.

Dew nodded, wiping his tears as best he could and opened his wings. The clone stepped closer tentatively, and wrapped his arms around the other. He squeezed him tight, and Dew hugged him back, his wings wrapping around them both in a comforting embrace. Dew sobbed into his own shoulder, hugged his own body, and felt his own heart beating in a chest that wasn’t his.

But this wasn’t real comfort. If this was real, Dew couldn’t go on like this anyway. The world wasn’t big enough for two Dews; his friends wouldn’t be able to adjust to being friends with two of the same person, much less while having to adjust to… everything that had happened to him. Like having wings, for starters.

And Dew couldn’t forget what this impostor did. He stole his friends, he stole his life. He was the reason nobody was looking for him, and probably never had been. He was the reason Dew was trapped in that hell for so long, filled with a false hope that eventually, somebody would find and rescue him! But because of this clone, nobody even knew Dew was gone in the first place.

Dew’s eyes opened and drifted to his nightstand. He reached towards the drawer, and opened it quietly. There sat a small pocket knife, one he had always kept for self defense, in case anyone ever broke into his room during the night.

He never thought he’d be using it against himself, as the person who had broken in. But he also never thought he’d be experimented on by a mad scientist for two and a half months straight, and yet here he was.

Dew didn’t hesitate. He stabbed the knife into his clone’s back, making him gasp out in pain and push his arms against Dew’s body. Dew tightened his grip around him, turning the hug that had just been something comforting into something that would lead to his demise.

“St-STOP!” The clone shrieked, and Dew twisted the knife deeper into his back. The clone hissed in pain, squeezing his eyes shut and flailing under his grip.

Dew pushed his clone to the ground and pounced on top of him, planting a hand over his mouth to muffle the screams. The clone let out more strangled grunts as Dew pulled the knife out from underneath him, causing blood to spray all over them both. He stabbed him again. Tears and blood painted both of their faces until they couldn't tell who was who or what was what anymore.

Dew dug the knife into his chest and stared into those identical, wide and scared brown eyes until the light behind them went out, and he was once again the only Dew left in the world.

Dew didn't realize he had killed the man until he found his room eerily silent. The body lay still on the floor, limbs sprawled out in what one can only imagine as a desperate but futile struggle to get away. Dew sat in shock on hands and knees over his own body, tears dripping onto his own face until his sleepless brain started to register what had just happened.

Dew stood up, rapidly trying to get away from the corpse when he forgot he was still holding the knife to his chest, pulling it out of the body as he stood. Blood sloshed out and around the corpse in a pool or red.

Dew dropped the knife to the ground in disgust and horror, terrified about what he had just done. The knife clattered to the floor, laying neatly in the bloodied carpet glistening in the moonlight that shone through the windows.

Dew collapsed to the floor in despair, curling into a ball and staring at his own corpse for what felt like forever. Time and space blended together in a haze and Dew clutched his pounding head in his hands, wishing for his suffering to finally end.

He killed him. He killed him. He never wanted to kill anyone! This wasn’t supposed to happen! He wasn’t a murderer!

Dew was so lost in his own mind that he hadn’t heard the footsteps making their way through the house and to his room.

“Well…” Dread panged in Dew’s chest when he heard a familiar voice coming from the doorway. “I see you’ve met the clone.”

Dew’s blood ran cold. There was nothing else he could do.

“Dewey, Dewey, Dewey…” A dark chuckle. “I didn’t think you had it in you.” Dew tearfully looked up to see Anton, standing in his doorway.

“No,” Dew choked out, hyperventilating. “No, no no no no!” He backed up with frantic pleads, all in a hushed tone as to not wake his friends in the other room. “No, g-go away. Plea-please go away.”

Anton didn’t stop walking, and Dew was quickly backed into the wall. He pressed his back against it, ignoring his wings’ protests, just wishing he could disappear and never come back. His hysterical sobs didn’t cease, and Anton was now standing only inches away.

“L-l-leave me alone,” Dew cried between sobs. “Ge-get out, go aw-away. Please please just go away.” Dew saw Anton’s hand move from the corner of his eye, and he slid down the wall in defeat, expecting a needle to be drawn.

Instead, Anton knelt down and put his hands over Dew’s mouth, hushing his cries. Dew looked up in surprise, his wide eyes filled with fear and desperation, silently pleading up at the scientist.

“Shh,” Anton cooed. “Wouldn’t want to wake up your little friends.”

Dew blinked heavily, more tears falling down his cheeks and all over Anton’s hand, but he didn’t pull away.

“Nice room you got here.” Anton spoke quietly, almost gently, but there was a venom in his voice. He clicked his tongue. “Too bad everything’s covered in blood. Do you realize the mess you’ve made?”

Dew sobbed harder into Anton’s hand. He squeezed it tighter. “Be quiet, Dew.” Anton warned. “If your friends wake up, they won’t get out of this. Behave. You can do that, right?”

Dew squeezed his eyes shut, more tears falling, and nodded his head.

Dew felt more terrified than he had ever been in his life, which made his next moves strange. He slowly brought his hands up and put them on Anton’s wrist, slowly pulling the man’s hand down from over his mouth. Anton let him.

“P-please,” Dew whimpered. He spoke as quiet as he possibly could, leaving his voice as nothing but a small squeak. He was completely covered in blood, both his own, and the other’s. “Please, An-Anton. Please don’t hurt m-my friends, I’ll– I’ll do anything.”

Anton sighed. “What am I going to do with you? I won’t. Let's go back to the lab, I'll clean up your mess later.”

“...Back to the lab?” Dew whimpered.

“Yeah? Where else would we go?”

“I-I can’t go back there. Please.”

“You can. You will.”

Dew didn’t have the energy to argue with the scientist, and he didn’t know if he ever could again.

Anton patted his head. “Good,” He said, and smiled. Dew looked to the ground in utter defeat.

The scientist stood up and stretched. “Your sense of direction is astounding, I'm surprised you found your way back.”

Dew stood up on wobbly legs after him, sticking close to the wall. “...How- How'd you get here so fast?”

Anton shrugged, “Doesn’t matter.” He looked down at the dead body in curiosity and amazement. “Man, you really did a number on that guy, huh. Oh well. I can always make another one.” Anton chuckled.

“You cloned me.” Dew’s voice broke, face full of betrayal.

“I did tell you nobody would be looking for you, didn’t I? I know you have a lot of questions, and I don’t blame you. But I’ll answer them when we get back to the lab, alright?”

“...What are you gonna do to me?” Dew whimpered.

“What do you mean?”

“I– I escaped.”

“Ohh.” Anton sighed and ruffled his hair. “I knew about the vents, Dew. I know how hard you two worked on your little scheme, and I didn’t wanna ruin the excitement.”

“Y-you…” Dew felt sick to his stomach. “You knew?”

“Of course. I decided to play your little game. I wanted to see what would happen if I let you have some control.” Anton chuckled. “I didn’t think it’d be murder. I can’t say I’m not impressed. But you had to leave right after I threw you a whole birthday party? That hurts.”

Dew didn’t know if this could get any worse. His life was over, in more ways than one. Anton knew he was lying the whole time. There was absolutely nothing he could hide from him. There was no point in fighting anymore, Anton would always win. This was the worst day of his life.

“Like I said, I’ll answer your questions later. Let’s go.”

Dew tried to walk out his bedroom door, but just thinking about walking past his sleeping friends made him feel sick. He leaned against the doorframe, trying to gain his balance again. Anton noticed his struggles and walked up to him.

“You must be exhausted, huh? C’mere.” Dew didn’t resist as Anton picked him up into a bridal carry. The scientist walked out of Dew’s bloody bedroom and passed his friends on the couch. Dew sobbed louder when he caught sight of tranquilizer darts sticking out of their necks.

Oh. That’s why they didn’t wake up from all that screaming. Oh. Anton had been there the whole time.

“C’mon man,” Anton sighed. “I thought I told you to be quiet? Your friends are fine. I’ll get everything cleaned up before they wake up, promise.”

“Okay,” Dew squeaked. He hoped, with every ounce of hope he had left, that Anton was telling the truth.

Anton looked down at his test subject and tilted his head. “You’re tired, aren’t you?” Anton asked, though he already knew the answer. Dew nodded numbly. “...I can help you sleep. If you let me.”

Dew looked up. “Just– Just make it stop. Make everything stop.”

Anton nodded thoughtfully, pleased that his test subject was finally on the same page. “Sleep, Dewey,” Anton whispered into his ear, and continued walking.

And just like every other time Anton decided to control his mind, Dew started to succumb to sweet unconsciousness. His eyelids were growing heavy, and it was hard to keep his head up as he was carried out the front door. Dew’s frantic thoughts began to disperse, and his breathing grew slow and even; relaxed. His head lolled to the side, resting on Anton’s shoulder as he felt rain pouring down on them both. He looked to the sky, the stars, the moon, knowing he’d never see them again.

Dew could hardly keep his eyes open when Anton arrived at a car, which was parked on the street in front of his house. He couldn’t move his body when Anton laid him down on the backseat, and covered him with a blanket. The only noise he could hear was the rain pouring down as they drove into the night. And then, Dew finally fell asleep.

. . .

Sawyer had spent all night thinking about what Dew had told him earlier, at the surprise birthday party he and his friends had thrown for him. Sawyer missed him too, more than anything. Sure, Dew was happy now, with Hayden and Layla. He had confessed his year long crush on them only a few weeks ago at that amusement park they went to, and they took it as well as they possibly could. Dew was happy now, and he didn’t need Sawyer.

…But that didn’t mean Sawyer couldn’t still try. They were all polyamorous, surely they’d have room for one more, right?

Sawyer would tell Dew how much he means to him, like Dew had told him earlier. It would probably be awkward– because Sawyer was probably the most socially awkward person ever. But he couldn’t stand to hide his feelings any longer, even if it did ruin a lifelong friendship with his favorite person in the world. But knowing Dew, he’d never let that happen anyway! There was really nothing for Sawyer to worry about.

Sawyer ran through the streets back to Dew’s house, choosing to wait no more. If he wanted things to change, he would make them change himself.

Sawyer arrived at the front door, but hesitated when he heard talking coming from the other side. Sawyer wasn’t one to eavesdrop, but the voices sounded… off. He recognised Dew’s in an instant, of course, having spent his entire life listening to him talk about anything and everything. He knew Dew like the back of his hand, which made what he was hearing horrifying.

His friend sounded utterly terrified. He was crying– no, sobbing. Sawyer hadn’t heard Dew cry like that since his parents passed away years ago. Something terrible was happening and Sawyer was ready to break down the door just to comfort his best friend. But then he heard another voice, this one unfamiliar.

Sawyer put his ears to the door, trying to listen in. But the words were hushed and muffled. His heart sped up. What did this mean? What was going on in there? A very intense gut feeling stopped Sawyer from opening the door to find out. He backed away from the door when he heard the footsteps and voices getting closer. And when the doorknob started to twist open, Sawyer leaped into the bushes.

He cursed at himself. How anti-social could he be? To hide in the bushes at his friend’s house to avoid confronting him– while he was obviously going through something terrible, no less? Fuck, Sawyer wasn’t ready for any of this. It was best to just go back home.

He started crawling out of the bushes, heading towards the back of the house when he stopped in his tracks. He noticed the voices had stopped talking, but they were outside. Shit– did he get spotted? Sawyer cringed. How embarrassing…

Sawyer peaked over his shoulder and saw somebody facing away from him, walking towards the street. He crawled forward to get a closer look, stomach dropping in horror at what he saw.

It was Dew– it had to be! But he was drenched in blood and had two giant wings sticking out of his back. He was crying. But he looked so tired, resting his head against the shoulder of the person carrying him– someone Sawyer didn’t recognise.

Something was very, very wrong. Sawyer decided against confronting them, or going inside and making himself known to whoever else could be in there. He had to get out of there, or he felt like his blood would be added to the mix. Sawyer ran through the rain, back towards his home.

Sawyer and Dew had been best friends since childhood. Sawyer still remembered the day they met on the playground during recess. He couldn’t imagine a life without Dew. But now Dew was in trouble, and he was the only person who could save him. Sawyer knew something had been off with his friend the past few months, but he didn’t know what. Now, his suspicions were confirmed, and he was terrified.

The only thing Sawyer knew for sure, was that no matter what it took, he’d get his best friend back.

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[sweetienans]

Lonesome || R. Cameron

Summary

"What are you going to do with all the money?" Rafe followed you to the store that he didn't even know it was there. Stores in the cut were a new world to him.

"What are you talking about? I don't have any money" You said grabbing some apples and peaches.

"I know you do, or you will do" He reached your lower back trying to gain your attention but you slapped his hands out of it.

"Don't touch me. Rafe I swear to god I don't know what are you talking about. Are you high or something?" You tried to look to his eyes to see if they were dilated but they were the normal blue and tinted green as always.

"I heard my dad talking with one of his lawyers yesterday" he looked straight to your eyes to try to see if you were lying to him. You weren't. "Your mother is dead, and she left you all of her wealth"

Nothing ever happened. No gold, no cross, no El Dorado. Everything followed the normal course. Except for you. Your mother died, not that you actually care. She never raised you. She never appeared until now when apparently she was rich and left you all of it. You didn't want to know anything about the money even though you needed it. And if it wasn't for Rafe, you wouldn't even check the numbers on your bank account. He has a plan, a plan that he would do anything to achieve even if he has to use you.

Pairing: Rafe cameron x reader.

Warnings: use/mention of alcohol, mention of drugs, smut eventually but will be labeled. Violence (jj's father) Ward is still a bad father. 18+ MDNI!

wc: idk

see Pt. 1

Pt.2

You paced through your room all night. Going back and forth with your phone in your hand. What would you do? That was a huge amount of money in your bank account but in a way it didn’t feel like it was yours. You would like to be in another situation where you were mourning your near passed mom but there you were, keeping something you deserved all your life but you were never given. It kinda sucked. And it sucked more than you had to know it because of Rafe. 

You fell asleep near four in the morning and didn’t wake up until 1pm where you felt the door slightly slamming in the entry clicking shut right after. 

“Hey sweetie” your dad peaked through your open door. His clothes were all muddy and had traces of dirt in his head. “I’m sorry I disappeared”

On a normal day you would scold him for not even calling but right now you had a turmoil in your stomach that you couldn’t bear. 

“It’s okay, I’m glad you’re here” you said laying on your side. He nodded and then left you to yourself again, the sound of the shower being on sounded above your thoughts. 

You were quickly to take your phone and start typing the news to JJ but when you were writing the text you started wondering, was it a good idea? Would you even keep the money? you deleted it and instead wrote a ‘hope you have a good day with John B’ message. 

You scrolled through your socials,  incapable of thinking in getting up when a text from Sarah popped up. 

‘Kook party in the night, you coming?’ Meet me at Tannyhill so we can go together’

It wasn’t a lie that you were considered one of the good pogues, you were good friends with Sarah Cameron, Rafe’s sister and even his friends were good to you. You didn’t understand why but you were always invited and welcomed in their parties. 

You thought about the party and decided that it was a good idea to show up, to clear your mind and do normal teenage stuff before having to worry about the elephant in the room. Telling your dad, telling your friends that in the span of night to morning you were practically a new Kook. It wasn’t your fault. 

You went to the shower and dressed up to go with Sarah. She didn’t give you much information about the party so you decided to put on a yellow sundress that had the neck v-shaped and your white snickers. You put on some makeup, basically tons of blush, mascara and gloss and went to your dad’s room to tell him that you were going out. 

He was face down in his mattress sleeping like he never slept in his life. You decided to leave a note that you knew he wouldn’t read. 

You left your house closed and walked the rocky path to the main street that was basically a highway. Your car wasn’t functioning so you made all your trips walking, it was a long way to Tannyhill but you didn’t mind. 

The gates of Tannyhill opened in front of your figure. The house was massive, it was the biggest house in figure eight all because of Ward’s effort. Something to look up to, to be honest. 

“Girl! you look amazing” Sarah appeared hanging from the side of the porch’s door. “I just have to do my makeup and we can get going, did you walk all the way from your house to here?” she asked, giving you a side hug. 

“Yeah, it’s part of my exercise routine,” you said sarcastically. “My car broke down again so the legs had to do the job” 

“That’s awful, you want a glass of water?” She didn’t even wait for your answer to reach one of the glasses in the higher cabinet above the sink just to fill it with water. 

“Thanks” you said following the blonde to her room. You’ve been up there many times. Sarah was your best friend, beside JJ, the boys and Kie, even though the latter didn’t understand why. “So, where’s this party? Topper 's again?”

“Oh no, after we left last week, some punks wrote shit on the living room walls, his mom got furious with him,” Sarah explained, putting some eyeliner in the corner of her eyes. 

“Did they know who did it?” 

“Mm no, I mean, there were only Topper’s friends” she just shrugged and turned around to face you. “What do you think?” She said giving you a full look of her outfit and makeup. 

“What can I say of the Kook Princess?” you said, rolling your eyes. “You look gorgeous, Topper is going to die when he sees you”

She made a subtle grin but her eyes darted away like she was hiding something. You would ask, eventually. 

When Sarah parked her car, you expected a good looking house, not a beach with a bonfire on it. You made a mental note to never forget your cardigan again. 

“Pogue style?” You asked to make her shiver. She hated the tumultuous fight between pogues and kooks, and you could understand why, but most people couldn’t. 

“Topper house is out of the party market, Kelce’s family from California is staying in his house for the weekend and well Tannyhill is just unapproachable when dad and Rose are there” She explained locking up the car and walking through the sand. 

You walked to her side, waving some familiar faces together but keep walking until you made your way to Topper. 

“Hey pretty ladies” he said in a smug tone kissing Sarah’s cheek. “I thought you wouldn't make it” he said fetching some red solo cups and filling them with beer (the expensive one) 

The difference between pogue beach parties was clearly the cheap beer and that the cops would show up eventually in the night. This was a private beach and people could do what they pleased without having to worry about being incarcerated. 

“Thanks” you said to Topper receiving the cup and downing half of it in one gulp. You needed it, you needed the fun and to keep things out of your mind for a while. 

“Easy” Topper said in a surprised warning. “There’s plenty more” 

“Leave her alone, I’m the one driving anyway” Sarah said pouring her beer in your glass. 

The party went without any problems. People were dancing, some of them were making out and Sarah was nowhere to be seen. You were sitting in a big log beside the fire when a guy that you have never seen sat by your side. 

“Hey” he said in a charming way. You cringed on the inside but nodded anyway to his side. “I’m new here, what’s your name?” He scooted over the log and pressed his thigh to yours, completely invading your personal space. 

That must've been the worst way to flirt with anyone. You took a sip from your drink and cleared your voice to reject him in a nice way. 

“I’m-

“Not interested” 

You turned around to his voice. Rafe's tall figure lingered above yours stepping and blocking the light from the fire making him look terrifying. 

“She’s definitely out of your reach so why don’t you go somewhere else” he said waving his hand to the guy and urging him to leave your side. 

You had a new feeling in your stomach, like the beer was settling in wrong. 

“I got it under control” you said watching him walk and take the seat of the guy. He was wearing a long sleeved shirt, those that are white and had the sleeves in another color, this was green and his cap was backwards making him look more handsome than he already was. 

“Yeah, I can tell” He said, taking your cup from your hands and gulping all the content down. “What about we talk business?

“Jesus” you muttered under your breath and prepared yourself to lift but before you could do the push he circulated his hand around your wrist. “What did I tell you yesterday? I’m not interested”

“I know you received the money” he said looking straight into your eyes, there was no way to deny it. He always had like a sixth sense. “And I also know that you don’t know what to do with it” 

“Look, spending it on coke so you can double the amount it’s not a good idea to me to be honest” you said plainly. 

“You are not giving me a chance” He said like he was hurt because of your words. 

“I don’t even know you Rafe”

“You’ve been Sarah’s friend for a while, you know me enough” 

“You just said it, Sarah’s friend, not yours” you specified. 

“That hurt” he put one of his hands on his chest and you rolled your eyes. “I thought you had feelings but this.. 

“Please, cut the bullshit” You were done and ready to leave. 

“Just invest with me and I promise you won't regret it” he said pleading, puppy eyes and all. 

“Invest with you? or invest in you?” you crossed your arms. “Because for why I understand in the first you have to put money too” 

“I’ll do it if that makes you feel safe” He answered like it was nothing. 

“You are something else Rafe Cameron, but no, I won’t, I don’t trust you” you took your cup from his hands and left him all alone with the words between his lips. He wasn’t going to give up so easily. 

Rafe Cameron was a man of his word and mind. If he had an idea (even a bad one) he would do anything to reach it and make it true. He needed the money to seal a deal with Barry and Ward got him on a leash lately, cutting him loose, so he had nothing, just the two dollars that you threw at him in the store the other day. 

He was going to convince you but apparently not tonight, because even though you had been right, you weren’t even friends with him, telling him that you didn’t trust him broke something on the inside, so he drank, and drank and drank until he couldn’t even get on his feet. 

“Have you seen Sarah?” you asked one of the girls that was dropped in her knees grabbing his friends hair so she can puke. 

“No, go away!” she yelled at you and you thought that you deserved it, bad time to ask. 

This wasn’t the first time that you’ve lost Sarah in a party, she would usually sneak around with Topper but she would always pick you up later. Right now, her car wasn’t in the spot she parked and there were no Topper or Sarah in sight. 

You kept walking around the cars, looking for someone familiar to give you a ride but you didn’t know any of them. You were about to call JJ for backup knowing very well that he will get angry at you for coming to this party when you saw Rafe leaned against his car trying to get inside. 

“You gotta be kidding me” you said, grabbing his shoulders to make his eyes snap open. “Have you lost your mind? you can’t drive this way”

His disoriented eyes, alcohol breath and languid body said that he was more than wasted. He couldn’t even keep his eyes open to look at you. You searched for his keys that were in his hand and snatched it. 

“I’m going to drive okay?” you said wiggling the keys in front of his head. “I need you to lean on me so I can open the door and get you inside, Rafe” 

“Am I dreaming?” he murmured in your shoulder while you put one of his arms behind your shoulders to keep him steady on his feet. “This is much more of what I asked” 

“Tell me about it” you said, manhandling him towards the passenger seat. “How did you end up like this, honestly the booze wasn’t even that good” you talked more to yourself than to him, he was a pure excuse of a man in that state. 

“My heart is broken” he said while looking at you with his eyes half opened while you stretched yourself to put his seatbelt on. 

“I changed my mind, I don’t want to know Rafe,” you said, closing his door and walking to the driver’s side. 

“Then don’t ask stupid questions” he said pouting and crossing his arms over his chest the moment you closed your door. 

You were good to drive and the way to Tannyhill wasn’t even that long, you would crash in Sarah’s bed and leave in the morning when the sun rises . 

“Invest with me please” he mumbled. You thought that he would’ve fallen asleep if you didn’t talk but he didn't. He was partially awake and ready to keep pushing it. 

“I’m not gonna, I already told you, drop it” you said turning to the road that leads to figure eight. 

“No, no, wait” he said, grabbing the steering wheel with one hand and turning to the opposite direction. 

He hit the curve in the road and one of the cars that were passing by almost crashed against a light pole. “Fuck Rafe! Don’t do that again!” you said pressing the brake and parking on the side. “I was going to drop you at your place, what’s your problem?”

“Let’s go to yours, my dad doesn’t want me there” he said, starting the car again urging you to start driving, giving you zero options. 

“What about Kelce’s or Topper’s?” you asked, finding an option that wasn’t your house, even though it was pretty convenient to you to be in your place and having no need to walk back from someone's house. 

“Topper is with my sister I don’t fucking care where and Kelce’s house is crowded, you can leave me with Barry if you want” he said closing his eyes again. 

You knew better than going to Barry’s. The man sold drugs to JJ's father and he was constantly hanging there, so, if he saw you there with Rafe, JJ and your father would know and they won’t stop asking for the truth. 

You were against a wall, figuratively speaking. No choice at all.

“Fine, let’s go to my place”

author's note: Rafe is coming babyyy. I'm excited, i'm not going to lie. Let me know that you think.

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[fenharelsfang]

The Wolf's Heart (3/5)

Previously: The Wolf's Heart (2/5)

Warning: This chapter touches on themes of rape, abuse, and death. Read at your own risk.

Solas

I’ve failed … again.

Time slowed to a crawl around him. The last of Ellana’s beautiful visage faded from his view as she plummeted to her death. He lay on the ground, his chin throbbing in time with his stuttering heartbeat. 

She was gone, slipped right through his fingers.

Memories that had been forced into the darkest recesses of his mind came forth, unbidden. Mythal, lying dead on the ground before him. His oldest friend. In the thousands of years they had known each other, she was his constant companion. He revered her, gave up the Fade for her, sacrificed his morals for her, enacted vengeance in her name. For so long that’s what he thought love meant, to give all of yourself to someone without expecting anything in return. To lap eagerly at the little scraps of affection dangled over your head because all you could ever have. It was all you could ever deserve. Love was greedy. Love was cruel. It was a tool, a means to an end and it was all he knew.

Then he met Ellana and she showed him a different kind of love. Affection wasn't a rarity, it was the norm. Love wasn't a callous transaction. He was never required to cut himself to pieces to please her. She treated him with kindness and tenderness as if the abuses of his past were bruises on his skin. She actively sought him out to listen to his stories, if only to hear the sound of his voice. When he isolated himself to suffer in silence, she reached out a hand to let him know he wasn’t alone. She asked for his wisdom on matters both big and small. He found a missing part of himself in her, the spirit that was almost forgotten. Cracks developed in the walls around his heart. 

He lived for her smile and it came so easily to her face in his presence. He didn't have to fight for it. She kissed away the doubts and insecurities plaguing him. Her touch healed the broken pieces of his soul. But he would never allow himself to take more from her than he was willing to give himself and he would not lie with her under false pretenses. 

When he refused to take her, he was afraid of punishment. Instead, she reacted with patience and understanding.

“I just want to be with you,” she said with a smile before resting her head on his chest. “No matter what form that takes.” 

That warmth was something he had never known before. It was certainly undeserved. She loved him and he loved her. Despite wanting to break the cycle, however, he ended up inadvertently taking everything from her: her heritage, her arm, her happiness.

Now her life.

“No, no, no, no,” he cried, crawling forward on his stomach to peer through a crack in the floor. At this angle, he couldn’t see her.

Solas pushed himself to his knees and clutched at his chest. His breathing was ragged, erratic, agony in his lungs. His heartbeat was deafening in his ears. Ellana was gone and with her went any hope of a different path he could take. 

When Mythal died, the elven empire burned in retribution. And now?

A cry of despair uttered from the depths of his soul and ripped through his throat. The palace quaked beneath him. His magic, so entwined with his emotions, flared out in response to his anguish. It swirled around him like a tornado, growing wider with each passing moment. Elgar’nan tried to breach it, to run his sword through Solas’s gut, but the force of his magic flattened the tyrant against the wall. The archdemon screeched and tried to cover its ears to silence the noise. 

So immense was Solas’s pain that his physical form struggled to contain it. It was a living thing, hammering against his body until cracks formed. They glowed with a blinding white light, as did his eyes. Tears cascaded down his cheeks. The Veil sundered in response to his agony, ripping open a hole in the sky. Demons surged forth, drawn to Solas like stars caught in a black hole. They plunged into his body through his open mouth, filling him up and spilling out through the cracks. Still more wrapped around him, fusing together until they warped him into an amorphous abomination. Its mass blocked out the only sliver of sunlight in the sky, casting the city in an impenetrable darkness and when it spoke, it was a thousand voices speaking at once.

“It is clear to us now that this world is beyond saving. Prepare to face oblivion for your transgressions."

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Ellana

I have regrets.

Wind rushes past me as I fall. My blood is a crimson streak trailing behind me. Minrathous rises on either side. To my left is the Blight stalk anchoring the Archon’s palace to the ground below. Rook and his team are near the top. He looks my way and I can see his hardened resolve. I've failed, but he won't.

Suddenly, I’m standing in a clearing, staring down at the charred remains of my parents as the Brecilian Forest burns around me. Columns of smoke and ash blot out the sun. Flames still flicker in the palms of my hands.

‘It wasn't your fault!’ a voice in my head screams. It's not mine. It belongs to a young man and it feels so familiar somehow.

Wasn’t it my fault?

The scene shifts, traveling back in time to when the sky was blue and the lea was filled with life. Two little elves, sisters, laugh as they chase each other through the tall grass. They gather flowers that they weave into crowns and place on each other’s heads. The older sister ventures farther than her parents told her to. The younger sister frets about breaking the rules, but the older sister assures her everything is safe. 

Then the humans come. The little sister disappears into the safety of the forest. The older one is surrounded. Her parents rush to her rescue and cover her escape.

‘Run,’ says her mother. ‘Run and don’t look back.’

She doesn’t listen. She runs, but looks to see if her parents are behind her. They lie on the ground with arrows in their chests. The world explodes.

‘You were just a child. You couldn’t have known the humans were there. Your parents were already dead. The fire didn’t kill them.’

Little fists beat against her chest. ‘Mamae and Papae are gone! They’re gone because you didn’t listen!’

‘She was too young to understand. It wasn’t your fault.’

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The real world comes into focus again. I feel the water of the harbor curl around me like a blanket. This is to be my grave. It's quiet here. The water churns above me, painted red with the eclipse's light. It reminds me of the aftermath of a shark feeding frenzy. 

There's a bright light in the sky above me, blinding in its intensity.

I blink and suddenly I’m waking in my bed. A blanket of halla wool is draped over my naked body. I'm in my aravel. There's art on the walls. Herbs hang from the ceiling. Trinkets from my clan's travels are spread across the dresser. I’m warm, happy, and satisfied. Something has irrevocably changed within me. 

I roll over to see the other side of the bed empty. After dressing, I step outside into the early morning light and make my way to the center of camp where he stands with the other apprentice hunters. He is handsome with short black hair and blue eyes, all muscle and a smile that can make any woman swoon.

I wrap my arms around his waist in greeting and he jumps away from me.

‘What’s wrong?’ I ask. He couldn’t touch me enough last night.

‘What do you think you’re doing?’ he asks. The other hunters snicker and sneer behind him. My cheeks warm in embarrassment.

‘I just wanted to say good morning, vhenan.’

‘Vhenan? What makes you think that’s what I am?’

‘Because we– I thought you loved me.’

He tosses back his head and laughs. ‘Love you? The clan freak?’

‘But you said–’

‘I lied. We made a bet on how fast I could get you into bed, that’s all. It was easy. All I had to do was smile at you, pretend to be interested, and tell you I loved you and you were willing to bend over backwards for me.’ He waggles his eyebrows at his friends.

The other hunters snort. Some of the girls walk by and whisper to each other, staring at me with contempt and disgust. Now I’m filled with shame and my heart is broken.

I will never be the same.

‘You didn’t deserve what he did to you. He didn’t deserve your kindness.’

Who are you? Why am I seeing all of this?

‘His pain is seeping into you.’

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I'm in Wycome, standing before my grandmother. My face is bare, my left hand replaced by a gauntlet made of iron bark. 

‘Keeper, please,’ I beg. ‘I speak the truth. Our histories are wrong. Our gods are undeserving of our worship. They enslaved us!’

‘Silence!’ she shouts at me in response. ‘You come here, bare-faced, speaking blasphemy! Tell me, did that shemlen Chantry convert you, Herald of Andraste?’

‘No! That's not it at all. I met Fen'harel. The legends are wrong about him. He freed us from the Evanuris!’

‘He destroyed us! Our gods are lost to us because of him! He is a deceiver! A snake! If you truly crossed his path and allowed him to remove everything that makes you Dalish, then you have betrayed your people.’

‘I love my people! Solas loves our people!’

‘Solas?’

‘That's his true name. He was a part of the Inquisition. He helped us save Thedas. He's a hero.’

Keeper Deshanna understood, then. She could see it as plain as day on my face. I loved him.

‘Did you not learn your lesson the first time, Da'len?’

I'm stunned into silence. Everyone’s eyes are on me. 

‘He loves me,’ I whisper in protest.

‘Leave,’ my grandmother orders. ‘You are no longer a part of Clan Lavellan. Return to your trickster Dread Wolf. I expected better of you.’

But there was no one to return to. I didn't tell her he was gone, that I came of my own accord. Now I'm alone.

Some time later I sit by the pond in Crestwood where I learned the truth. I bring out the knife and cut away my hair. It billows into the wind and sinks in the water.

I am no one.

‘Your Keeper was wrong to banish you. You sacrificed so much to keep them safe. Your love for them burns brightly within you.’

There's the silhouette of a person in the light now, swimming towards me. It's a man, no, an elf. Dark hair. Violet eyes. Tattoos of tree branches framing his face. Then darkness blots out the sky and I succumb to its embrace.

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I stand in front of a throne made from a dragon’s skull. Many have stood before it in anticipation of judgment, all passed by … me.

Did I make the right choices?

‘You did your best with what you had. You gave hope to so many, Inquisitor: the mages who stood as equals instead of prisoners, Empress Celene and Briala who were reminded of the value and power of their love, and the Grey Wardens who were given a chance at fulfilling their purpose to save the world again. Your capacity for forgiveness softened the edges of the world's suffering.

You were the single ray of light in a very dark night for those who knew you. You encouraged Cullen to let go of the lyrium and regrets that caged him. You urged Dorian to mend his broken relationship with his father, to feel seen and accepted. You helped the Iron Bull break free of his chains of duty and find a family instead. You gave Blackwall the chance at redemption. You reminded Leliana that compassion is not a weakness. You renewed Cassandra’s faith. And you reminded me of who I really am.’

Wait, Cole?

‘Yes! I came to help. You are Hope, Inquisitor, the last bastion of your kind … and you are desperately needed. Only you can save him.’

Save who?

Solas! The world is drowning in his despair and if you don’t reach him, darkness will consume everything.

Only I could save him? No, how could I hope to do that? I already failed to save him twice now. There's really only one person who can and I will never measure up to her. My grandmother was right: I'm a fool. I can't reach him, Cole. His heart belongs to Mythal. All of this he did for her. His grief is for her.

‘You're wrong. He didn't want to do this. He never wanted any of this to happen. She carved him into a weapon of war and then she died, leaving him with their mess to clean up alone. You were the first thing he ever chose for himself. Can you hear his heart? It's crying out for yours, not hers. You were his light, his hope for a better future. He knew true happiness because of you. Do not lose yourself to despair, Hope.’

His face flashes across my mind, all sharp angles and lupine features. Steel gray eyes that danced like firelight when they met mine. Full lips curving into a crooked grin reserved only for me. A scar over his right brow the only imperfection, but even that was beautiful. He is my vhenan and I am his. I will be better than Mythal. I will never forsake him.

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Ellana bolted upright before bending over and expelling water and blood from her lungs. Painful coughs wracked her body as she fought to breathe in fresh air. She was drenched and shivering. Someone had draped a blanket over her that she immediately gripped tighter around her body. A hand patted and rubbed her back as she cleared her lungs from the last remaining fluid.

“That’s it, lethallan, get it all out.”

More of the world came into focus. She was sitting on a beach with only the light of the campfire nearby and the glow of lanterns in the city to see by. All natural light was gone. There was only darkness. The ground trembled violently like an earthquake that wouldn't stop. Minrathous was collapsing in the distance, buildings falling into the harbor.

“What's happening?” she asked. 

“Oh, you know, the Dread Wolf is just throwing a tantrum,” the elf beside her answered. 

She snapped her head to look at him, noticing his dark locks dripping water. She recognized his violet-colored eyes and Mythal's vallaslin. 

“You were in the water,” she said, bewildered. 

“As were you, lethallan.”

“And you … saved me? Who are you?”

He smiled at her. “My name is Felassan.”

Felassan? That name seemed familiar somehow. 

“You know Compassion.” He tilted his head towards a young man crouched nearby. His face was obscured by an enormous hat, but she recognized the blonde locks and patched-together leathers.

“Cole!”

Ellana threw herself against him, her arms embracing him in a fierce hug. It had been years since she last saw him. A part of her feared he returned to the Fade. Though he belonged there, it didn't lessen the sadness she felt in his absence. 

As always, the young man was a little awkward when it came to affection. He gave her a little pat on the back, but then threw caution to the wind and returned the hug. It was brief, she didn't want to soak him with her wet clothes.

“What are you doing here? How did you even get here?” 

“We used the eluvians,” Felassan said.

“You have access to them?” Ellana asked.

“I would hope so. I led the Dread Wolf's armies through them.”

That's why his name was so familiar! Harding mentioned a Felassan from Solas's memories.

“You're his general.”

“Was his general, among other things.”

She cocked a brow. “‘Among other things’?”

Felassan sighed. “Solas was my best friend. Then he murdered me. Now it's complicated.” He chuckled ruefully and stood up, hands on his hips.

“... Oh.” Hold on, that didn't make sense. “Wait, if he murdered you, then how are you alive?”

“I suppose he technically didn't murder me so much as render me Tranquil. I ask you which is worse: death of the body or death of the soul?” 

She peered at him skeptically. “You don't act like a Tranquil,” she ventured.

“Oh, I'm not anymore.” He jerked his thumb in Cole's direction. “Compassion found me drifting in the Fade. He touched my mind and I returned to myself.”

“I wanted to help,” Cole said.

Her gaze met Felassan's and she could see the pain of betrayal in his eyes. Solas had broken his mind and, though he recovered, it left scars on his soul. What must it have been like to lose all sense of emotion, trapped in your own mind? To be unable to dream? It was a fate worse than death. His friendship with Solas was ruined.

Or was it?

“He destroyed your mind,” she said quietly. “But you’re here. Why? Did Cole ask you to come?” 

“No,” he said, his smile somber. “I came for the same reason you did: to save him. I should hate him for what he did to me. I'm certainly furious at him for it. Instead, I pity him. He was angry and grieving. Imagine waking up all alone to a world worshipping the very evil you fought so hard to rid it of. He tried to tell the Dalish the truth of their gods and they attacked him. He must have felt like nothing he did mattered. That Mythal died for nothing. He was bitter. I befriended the people who scorned him. Perhaps I was the one who betrayed him first. Perhaps he was envious that I moved on while he was trapped in his regrets and loneliness. I don't know.” His eyes shimmered with tears. “But he's my best friend. I miss him. And now … now he has become … something else.” Felassan stared up towards the Archon's palace. “He watched you fall to your death and it shattered what remained of him. Now a pit of all-consuming darkness spreads across the sky. It will devour the world. But he has to be in there … somewhere.”

His words sparked a panic in her. Ellana's hand flew to her sternum. There was a hole in her tunic, but not one in her chest. “I should be dead. Why am I not dead?” 

“That would be the combined efforts of Felassan and yours truly.”

A raven descended from the tree nearby and disappeared in a puff of black smoke and purple flames. Morrigan landed next to Ellana and extended a hand to her, pulling her to her feet.

“Morrigan,” Ellana breathed. “Thank you, both of you – all three of you – for saving me.”

Morrigan smiled at her. It was softer, lacking its usual snark. “‘Twas close,” she said, “but you have a remarkable will to live, Inquisitor, as you've no doubt proven in the past.”

Ellana grinned at her, but a horrible wrenching sound drew their attention to the city. The Blight stalk was falling. As it did, it took part of the Archon's palace with it. The shockwave of its impact with the ground knocked the four of them over. They quickly scrambled to their feet and jogged further inland as a wall of water washed ashore.

“There goes our way up,” Felassan said in annoyance.

Ellana looked to the sky. “We need to get up there! How did people get up before that thing?”

“I assure you the infrastructure that was put in place for such a purpose is no longer intact,” Morrigan said. 

“Cole, can you read anything from Solas? Maybe we can speak to him!”

“There are too many voices,” Cole said, his voice strained. “They are all screaming.”

“Shit!” she cursed. She paced back and forth on the rocks before cupping her hands around her mouth as an amplifier. “SOLAS!!”

“Marvelous effort, but you are a whisper amongst a hurricane,” Felassan said. He seemed oddly amused, all sadness from a minute ago gone. Ellana got the sense that he tried not to take anything too seriously.

He is Joy.

She wasn't sure why that came to her mind, but it did. 

“Do you have any bright ideas, General?”

He shrugged in response. 

Morrigan grimaced before releasing a sigh. “I can get us up there, but we must never speak of it.”

The elves and Cole exchanged confused glances as Morrigan moved further along the beach. Her dark magic swirled around her as her form began to grow. In a bright flash of light, a dragon stood before them, her magenta and ivory wings outstretched. She threw her head back and roared, testing the form she hadn't used since her fight with Corypheus's archdemon. Her talons flexed, digging into the sand. Smoke billowed from her nostrils.

Then she lowered herself to the ground and looked back at the trio expectantly.

“Oh,” Felassan said with a delighted grin, “now we're talking!” 

[peachijin]

CRAZY OVER YOU

Pairing: jungkook × reader

This is a teaser. New parts will be coming soon

Jungkook loved you.

Loved you a little more than he should. He was crazy about you. Your big doe eyes, your chocolate orbs, your big plum smile, the cute mole you have on your nose. He loved everything about you.

Even the scars that you try to hide. The scars on your wrists that you cover up by wearing hoodies even when the temperature is scorching hot and the burn marks on your back.

He loved every inch of you –crazily so.

His mind was always etched with your thoughts. His days were spent thinking about just how much he is in love with you.

He honestly doesn't even remember when his little, simple and innocent crush on you remarked to something so huge – something so insane.

Something so tremendous that even he finds it hard to control his immense feelings for you. He has became crazy over you. So crazy that he is ready to kill and be killed for you. He can without any hesitation take a bullet for you while he wouldn't hesitate to shoot someone's brains out only for you.

This craziness for you has led him to the situation he is in right now. A bloody knife clutched in his hands while a sinister smile plays on his lips.

He eerily smiles at the dead corpse that was once full of life now lays dead with blood oozing out of its chest.

The sight was so horrendous that any sane human would probably not even be able to witness it but Jungkook couldn't find it in him to feel a tinge of remorse or guilt at the crime he had committed. In his mind the person was completely deserving of the punishment. Reason you may ask: because he thought that he could go on a date with his Y/n, that he thought it was okay if he could hold her hand.

A person who was trying to take away his Y/n from him was completely deserving of the punishment.

[lambsouvlaki]

The Crime Lord - 3

Characters: Jason Todd x fem!oc

Rating and warnings: G, no warnings

Word Count: 740

Summary: Jason never stopped his crime lord ways, but he did find someone he wanted to spend the rest of his life with.

Masterlist

In the early hours of the morning, she sat in a chair in the medical facility Red Hood’s most secure compound. 

Jason lay unmoving on the bed.

He was more gauze than skin. 

She had been too horrified to weep when she saw his injuries at first. During the long hours of surgery she broke down and bawled her eyes out. His lieutenants tried to give her privacy throughout the night, but mostly had to settle for not making eye contact. 

When the morning came she dried her eyes. Out of place civilian or not, she was the Red Hood’s partner and she didn’t weep while there was work to be done. Even if her heart felt like it was going to cave in on itself. 

She sat at his side with a laptop in front of her. The screen kept going dark. Jason’s eyes fluttered open. 

“Flint-” he croaked.

“He’s dead.” His traitorous second in command hadn’t survived the night. “Anja took his place. Something called protocol delta, apparently.” 

He breathed out a long sigh, his eyes falling shut again. His bandaged chest rose and fell. “Good. Good.” 

She swallowed the lump in her throat at getting to hear him again, lucid and whole, more or less. She put her things aside and dragged her chair closer to him.

“How are you feeling?”

“Like I’ve been cooked.”

“You did look like a hotdog forgotten at the back of the grill for a while there.” 

He scoffed a laugh, then whined in pain. She bit her lip. “Lots of skin grafts in your near future… but you’re going to be alright.”

“Yeah?” His eyes flicked to her, the only part of him he could really move right now. There was a fear in his eyes that shattered her heart. 

“Yeah.” Her fingers brushed over his exposed forearm, one of the few parts of him she could actually touch. She grasped his wrist tight. “The world’s not taking you from me today.” 

“Sweetheart.” 

She leaned forward and brushed her lips softly as she could over the exposed wedge of his cheek. His eyes fluttered closed. His good arm rose a quarter inch further into her hold. 

When the moment drew to a close she sank back into her chair. His eyes looked damp. She didn’t want to make a fuss but he didn’t look away or gruffly clear his throat. 

“You know... I had a thought while falling into the fire,” he said. His voice was scratchy but strong. “A couple of thoughts actually. Like ‘I can’t believe I’m getting blown to death again,’ and ‘should’ve seen that coming.’”

“Better late than never, I suppose.”

“But more than all of that,” he said, ignoring her interjection, “I wished I’d married you.”

Her eyes widened. “Jay…”

“I thought… ‘you idiot. Didn’t even marry the girl of your dreams. And she was right there. Gonna leave behind a wonderful woman… who deserved better.’” He swallowed and looked at her sincerely. “You deserve better.”

“Are you proposing or breaking up with me?” she said with a laugh and tears in her eyes. “Full disclosure, the wrong answer here will get you yelled at.” 

“I’m proposing.” His thumb brushed her knuckle. “Should have gotten a ring. Sorry. I’ll get you one later. Didn’t want to waste any more time.” 

She tried to hold back a watery grin and failed. “I’m not hearing a question.” 

He smiled back as much as he could. 

“Baby. Sweetheart. My darling,” he drawled. Wrapped up like a mummy and still a cocky bastard, that was her Jay. “Will you marry me?”

“Yeah,” she said. “‘Course I will.” 

 “You’re the most beautiful, clever, patient, amazing woman in the whole world.”

She leaned forward and kissed the scarred skin of his wrist. “Then we’re matching. Because you’re the best man I’ve ever met.”

He blinked through glassy eyes. “That can’t be true.” 

“I wouldn’t have anyone else, Jay.”

The tears burst their banks and travelled down his cheeks to soak into bandages and gauze. 

“I love you so much.” 

“I love you too.” 

She cradled his cheek lightly. He closed his eyes and leaned incrementally into it. 

She pulled her chair up as close as she could and leaned forward to rest her head against the empty side of his pillow. They enjoyed the closeness. 

“What happened to Flint?” he asked some time later.

“I shot him,” she said quietly.

“What!”