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straykidzwifey · 1 year ago

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Unexpected Encounter

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Pairing: Bang Chan X OC

Warnings: none

Summary: An unexpected encounter happens when Zena Allen runs into Felix a member of Stray Kids, her all time favorite Kpop group. He invites her to their concert later that night where she meet Bang Chan. Will there encounter spark a relationship or will she forever be just a fan.

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Chapter 1: Grocery Store Encounters

Third Person POV —————————————————

With a heavy sigh, Felix pushed the squeaky shopping cart through the bustling aisles of the supermarket. His bandmates were waiting for him at the hotel, exhausted from their long flight to Texas for the end of their world tour. Despite his own fatigue and longing to relax and watch some Netflix, Felix had lost a game of straws and was now stuck doing this mundane chore. The bright lights and colorful displays of the market seemed to mock him as he begrudgingly tossed various snacks into the cart, each one representing another lost round in the game. A mix of scents wafted through the air - fresh fruits and vegetables mingled with the tantalizing aroma of freshly baked goods. But all Felix could think about was getting this errand over with so he could finally join his bandmates and rest after their journey.

His eyes scanned the neatly organized shelves, searching for any signs of chips, cookies, and candy. The bright packaging and tempting aromas called out to him, promising a satisfying snack for his hungry band mates. He quickly tossed them into the cart, hoping it would be enough to satisfy their voracious appetites. Not wanting to forget about hydration, he also grabbed some water bottles and soda cans, knowing how important it was to stay refreshed. Glancing at his phone, he saw that he had a few precious minutes left before he had to head back home. With a sense of curiosity, he decided to take a leisurely stroll through the store, his eyes scanning for any interesting finds along the way.

As he rounded the corner, a familiar tune filled his ears from the store's speakers. It was one of their own songs, "God's Menu". A smile spread across his face as he hummed along, feeling a surge of pride and joy. Creating music with his friends brought him so much happiness and sharing it with others was even more rewarding. The upbeat melody filled the air, making Felix feel like he could conquer anything.

He walked past the frozen food section and saw two girls standing in front of the ice cream freezer. One of them was dancing and singing along to the song, her body moving fluidly to the beat with unbridled energy. Her outfit was a reflection of her unique spirit, with ripped jeans hugging her curves, a white tee accentuating her hourglass figure, a black zip up hoodie providing some warmth, a denim jacket adding edge, and black combat boots giving her an added sense of power. Her head was adorned with a baseball cap, its tan color complementing the two-toned hair that shone brightly under the artificial glow of the fluorescent lights. One half of her hair was black while the other was white, mirroring the duality of her unique style. Her hazel eyes sparkled with enthusiasm as she belted out the lyrics.

The other girl stood next to her, shaking her head in amusement while rolling her eyes at the other girl's antics. She had a small smile on her face, unable to hold back her laughter as she watched her companion dance without a care in the world. Unlike her companion's bold fashion choices, this girl opted for simple comfort in a tan shirt and jeans, but she still managed to look effortlessly beautiful. Her long blonde hair was pulled back into a ponytail that swayed gently as she moved. Blue eyes looked bemused and slightly annoyed at having been dragged along on this unwanted grocery trip.

Felix couldn't help but stare at them both, amused by their contrasting reactions to the music. It was moments like these that reminded him why he loved creating music with his friends. It brought joy and happiness to others, even in the most unexpected places. He wondered if these girls just recognized the song or knew who Stray Kids were, but it didn't matter. In that moment, all that mattered was the shared love for music and the connection it brought between strangers.

Felix couldn't resist the urge to join in on the fun dance party happening right in front of him. The girl moving gracefully to the beat caught his eye, her shoulder length hair bouncing with each step. She radiated a vibrant energy that drew him in. Felix found himself smiling at her enthusiasm, admiring her endearing and lively spirit. With determination, he parked his cart nearby and walked over to them, his friendly smile reaching his eyes.

"Hey there," he greeted, his deep Australian voice contrasting with his youthful appearance. "I love your moves! Mind if I join in?"

The dancing girl came to an abrupt stop, her feet faltering as her brain processed the sight in front of her. Her eyes scanned the person standing before her, widening in disbelief as she took in the tall, slender Korean man with a bleach blond mullet. His face was freckled, his warm brown eyes radiating with a smile that could brighten up anyone's day. It was none other than Felix from Stray Kids, someone she had long admired. And he was talking to her. Heat rushed to her cheeks, turning them a bright shade of red, and her heart thrummed wildly in her chest. As a die-hard fan of the group, Felix was one of her favorite members and seeing him in person was like a dream come true. She had posters of him plastered all over her walls and had watched every single one of his videos and interviews multiple times. Meeting him was something she had always dreamed of, but she never imagined it would happen like this.

"O-oh my gosh," she exclaimed, her voice trembling with excitement and nerves. "You're Felix! From Stray Kids!" Her high-pitched voice contrasted with his deep one, but she couldn't help it. "I-I love you so much!" Her words spilled out in a rush, overflowing with adoration for the talented artist standing before her.

A flush of embarrassment rose to her cheeks and she quickly covered her mouth with a trembling hand. Her outburst had been unexpected, and she couldn't help but feel a hint of panic at the thought of being judged as crazy or creepy. She shifted her gaze to her sister, whose expression was a mix of confusion and amusement. Oh, how she wished she could shrink herself and disappear into the cool depths of the freezer, away from the embarrassment.

Felix couldn't help but chuckle at her reaction, finding it both flattering and amusing. He thought she was adorable and enjoyed her candidness. Extending his hand for a handshake, he introduced himself as if she didn't already know who he was. "Nice to meet you, I'm Felix," he said with a smile. "May I ask what your name is?"

With her heart racing, she stammered out her name as his warm hand enveloped hers. She could feel the strength in his grip as he gently held onto her. "Zena," she repeated, the sound of her name coming out in a breathless whisper. It was almost as if her name had taken on new meaning in that moment, tingling with electricity. "Zena Allen," she finished, the words sounding foreign and yet comforting at the same time.

Her name rolled off his tongue smoothly and made her cheeks flush with warmth. "You have both a lovely name and a stunning smile," he praised, causing her to blush even more. "And you have great taste in music, might I add."

A playful twinkle danced in his eyes, causing her to giggle nervously in response. Suddenly, his face lit up with an infectious grin that made it clear he had an idea brewing. He leaned in closer, his voice low and excited.

"Hey, I have a proposition for you. How would you like to join us at our concert tonight? I can pull a couple of strings and get you and your friend VIP tickets and backstage passes. You'll get to meet the entire band and spend the evening having some fun with us. What do you say?" His offer hung in the air, laced with excitement and anticipation.

A surge of excitement and disbelief coursed through Zena's body. She couldn't believe her ears - was he really inviting her to his concert? And not just any tickets, but VIP ones. It felt like a dream, and she was afraid to wake up from it. With wide eyes shining with gratitude, she nodded eagerly.

"Oh my gosh, yes! I would be honored to go!" Her voice rose in pitch with each "yes" until she was practically squealing. "Thank you so much, Felix! You truly are the best!" A sense of gratefulness and happiness washed over Zena as she thanked her newfound friend.

He couldn't resist being captivated by her authentic kindness and warmth. He was eager to discover more about her.

As he looked at Zena's companion, he noticed she had been observing them with a curious yet questioning look on her face.

He greeted her with a friendly wave and introduced himself. "Hi there, I'm Felix. And you are?" he asked politely.

"Zara," she replied coolly, acknowledging his introduction with a nod. "Zena's sister."

Unlike many others he had met, Zara didn't seem impressed by his fame or charming demeanor. She held no interest in KPOP or Stray Kids, finding them overrated and annoying. Her loyalty lay with Zena, whom she loved deeply and was fiercely protective of. KPOP was simply not her cup of tea, despite being close to someone who adored it wholeheartedly.

"Well, Zara, it's a pleasure to meet you," he said with a cheerful smile. "Will you be joining us at the concert?"

Zara shook her head firmly, her long blonde ponytail swaying as she did so. Her blue eyes held a hint of defiance.

"No, thank you. I'm not particularly fond of KPOP. I have other plans for the evening," she replied with a slight untruth. She didn't have any concrete plans, but the thought of spending her night surrounded by rowdy boys and frenzied fans was unappealing to say the least.

Although she was a music lover, this specific genre was not up her ally.

Felix felt a pang of hurt wash over him as he furrowed his brow. His mind raced with questions and doubts as he tried to get her to change her mind.

"Are you absolutely certain? It's bound to be an unforgettable experience. Our songs are catchy and our dances are lively, and we all have unique personalities that shine on stage. I truly believe you might enjoy us if you just give us a chance," he pleaded, his tone tinged with hopefulness and desperation.

Zara shook her head for the second time. "No, I'm positive. I have other tasks to attend to. Zena would appreciate it much more anyways," she stated, not giving it a second thought.

She spun gracefully on her heels and sauntered over to the next aisle to retrieve an item from their shopping list, giving them a moment alone. She returned in a matter of seconds.

A twinge of guilt and sadness tugged at Zena's heart as she thought of her sister. She longed for her to be by her side, sharing in this incredible experience. She considered declining Felix's offer and staying with her sister because it wasn't as fun to go by yourself, but then she looked at him with his concerned and hopeful expression. A small smile played on his lips.

Felix turned to Zena, his tone gentle and sincere. "You're not changing your mind on me, are you?" he asked. "It'll be a blast, and I really want to hang out with you and get to know you better. And I'd love for you to meet the rest of the band. What do you say?" His words enveloped her like a warm hug, tempting her to forget her concerns and have a fun evening with this truly kind man.

Her heart was in turmoil, torn between two opposing desires. On one hand, she craved to join Felix at his concert – to witness his performance, meet his bandmates, and have a carefree time. Yet, on the other hand, she couldn't bear the thought of going without her sister. She grappled with the burden of conflicting wants and her sense of duty towards both Felix and her sister.

He stood by, waiting for her answer without any sign of impatience. The thought of spending time with him, making him happy and enjoying his company, sent her heart racing. However, when she glanced over at her sister, a twinge of nervousness passed through her.

With one last deep breath, she made a decision.

Her lips parted, her breath catching in anticipation as she spoke. "Thank you, Felix," she said warmly, her heart overflowing with gratitude for his invitation. She could feel the weight of his kindness and generosity in every word.

"I would be happy to go." Her words were filled with excitement and curiosity, and as she gazed at Felix, she saw his face light up like a starry night sky. His smile widened, revealing a set of perfect white teeth, and his eyes sparkled with joy and relief. It was clear that he was just as excited about their plans as she was.

His face lit up with hopeful disbelief. "Really? You would? That's incredible!" His voice rose in excitement, causing the words to tumble out in a rush. "I'm so glad you said yes. You won't regret it. Trust me."

She turned to her sister, afraid to see her reaction. But Zara's eyes were filled with pure joy and excitement for her. A wide smile spread across her face, expressing her approval and shared enthusiasm for her beloved older sister.

A mischievous glint sparkled in her eyes as she playfully rolled them at Zena. She gestured towards Felix, a kind and patient man who stood by with a warm smile on his face. "Come on, Zena," she chided gently, "let's not be rude. Say thank you." Her voice was filled with warmth and affection for her sister. Zena returned the smile and nodded gratefully, her demeanor softening under the gentle reminder.

Zena's gaze met Felix's once again, his eyes still brimming with hope and eagerness. She couldn't help but smile at his expression, feeling a warmth spread through her chest. Without thinking, she wrapped her arms around him in a hug, surprising both him and herself. "Thank you, Felix," she whispered into his ear. "Thank you for being so kind and generous. And thank you for inviting me to your concert." Her voice was filled with genuine appreciation and excitement. As he hugged her back, she could feel the strength of his embrace and the warmth of his body against hers, causing a flutter in her stomach. "I have no doubt it will be an amazing night," she added with a grin. "And thank you for that mini concert," Felix replied with a chuckle, bringing a blush to Zena's cheeks.

With a twinkle in his eyes and a playful grin, he broke away from their embrace and locked his gaze onto hers. "Hold on," he said, reaching into his pocket, "let me give you the tickets and VIP pass."

"Why don't you give me your phone number? That way I can text you all the details." With a fluttering heart, she recited her number to him. He quickly typed it into his phone and sent her the ticket and pass links along with a sweet message: "Hi, it's Felix. I'm thrilled that you're coming to our concert. Can't wait to see you. xoxo". The warm feeling in her chest intensified as she watched him put his phone away, knowing that they would soon be reunited at the concert.

He said with a gentle smile, "There, that's taken care of. Now, I must go. I have to check out and get back to the hotel before the rest of the band wonders where I am. But I'll see you later, okay? Don't forget about me."

His brown eyes sparkled mischievously as he winked at her. He turned on his heels and strides towards the cashier, leaving her breathless and in disbelief.

As she watched him go, she couldn't help but feel a whirlwind of emotions swirling within her. A sense of joy bubbled up in her chest, mixed with excitement, giddiness, wonder, and curiosity. She pulled out her phone and began looking at the text he sent her moments before.

Zena's sister gazed at her with a mixture of bemusement and admiration, a smile dancing on her lips.

"Oh my gosh, Zena," she exclaimed with exaggerated enthusiasm, "you're going to a Stray Kids concert with Felix! How do you feel? Are you bursting with excitement? Are you a bundle of nerves? How did you manage to score the tickets? Give us all the juicy details!" She playfully held an imaginary microphone up to Zena's face, as if conducting an interview for a popular talk show.

She shook Zena's arm in an attempt to elicit a response. "Come on, sis," she prodded teasingly, "don't be silent. Say something. Anything. You must be over the moon right now. Tell me." Zara's playful whining continued as she eagerly awaited her sister's reaction.

Zena's laughter tinkled through the air as she playfully shoved her sister.

Her heart was racing with excitement and nerves, still in disbelief that she had just met a member of Stray Kids. She couldn't stop looking at the tickets and VIP pass on her phone, trying to imprint them into her memory forever.

As Felix disappeared through the door, Zena couldn't help but exclaim, "Dreams really do come true."

She turned to walk away, her sister trailing behind her, their conversation already turning to what Zena should wear for the concert tonight. Every step felt light and buoyant, as if she were floating on a cloud of pure joy and anticipation.

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Note: I know Chan hasn’t been introduced yet but he’s coming in the next chapter I promise. I’m building it up to that point. So bear with me.

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n04hfiction · 2 years ago

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hello:)! this is for the shipping post :D! i hope u have a good rest of ur day !! My name is genesis, but my friends call me gen 😽!! I am mexican American and my mother tongue is spanish:). I am the youngest out of 5 kids.

4 my physical appearance : I have straight brown hair, big green eyes, pale skin,and a shit ton of freckles! I also wear glasses. I have curtain bangs as well👍🏻. I do have muscles but its the most visible on my arms tho 😽 i am 5’1 .

4 my style: Most of my clothes are hand me downs from my siblings🤧 so i dont really know. I usually wear at my house is a tank top and some men shorts. When i’m going out i wear cargo pants/jeans/shorts and a random t-shirt/tank top. When its cold i wear my brothers clothes 😭😭Like some black jeans , a random hoodie , and a puffer jacket and a beanie. When i have special events i wear 2000s type dresses and a pair of my sisters heels. My friends say my aesthetic is kinda of the spiderman in the spider verse? Yeah kinda like that so idk 🤷‍♀️. But i have a pair of green nikey shoes my mom gave me. And those were the first shoes my mom gave me that were new 😭😭so those r the shoes i wear. I wear a gold dog pendant (like the rectangle ones) That has the date of when my dad passed away. I wear that all the time c:

4 hobbies : I LOVE DRVING SO MUCH :DD !! I saved moved a lot of money and after a few pay checks from working, I got my first car 😸!! I love listening to music! Tupac,kaili uchis, winsin y yandel, joji, steve lacy are my current favs <3. I like drawing once in a while 2 :]. But driving is so much fun i luv it

4 personality : I am a pisces and extroverted! My friend says i’m kind and funny. My mom said that i am a “young dumb person with a smart mind and a lot like ur dad”😟. My 2 sisters say that i’m a “very forgiving person, and playful, but I need to think abt stuff more instead of being impulsive.” My 2 brother says that i’m “funny , smart, loyal but u have a temper”. My love language is quality time and acts of service :). Also being annoying 😭 like if i hug someone , i am gonna tickle them until it hurts, or if ur taking a nap , im gonna come in and blast daddy yankee and wake u up, Or ur sitting on the couch , i’ll go sit in ur lap and get comfy 🤧🤧

i ship you with sapnap!!

sapnap will take your glasses and either hide them or put them on his face and refuse to take them off XD he lowkey loves doing it, especially if you can’t see that well without them, cuz he’s a little shit most of the time, but it’s all in good fun

he also loves that your style is just a mix of your siblings hand-me-downs, because he loves to throw his clothes at you and saying, “here, hand-me-downs” he also loves buying matching clothes as well as sharing clothes. sometimes when going through your closet he’ll find a bunch of clothes he forgot he gave to you XD

and in one of my previous sapnap posts i mentioned that sapnap is a passenger princess who loves to scream to his fav songs as loud as possible xD so that definitely applies. your guy’s drives are usually late night ones. so i can imagine when the windows are rolled down and it’s hella late he’ll scream his favorite songs pretty obnoxiously lmfao some bystanders get kind of annoyed lmfao

he loves your kind and cherishing personality, but he thinks your (supposed) temper is funny XD he does enjoy teasing you for it ajsjsjnsns

and he is def the kind of person who loves to exist separately if that makes sense, like be in the same room doing different tasks, and he loves doing simply things for you. especially cooking

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kpopggss-opinion · 2 years ago

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R U Next ep. 6 (opinion)

SPOILER ALERT:

i loved the performances from this episode. you can really tell that the girls do better in front of an audience.

Universe (vocal team A):

win deserved for jiwoo and yoona cuz they ate

jiwoo really stood out here. her stable axx vocals and the softness of her vocal tone just suits the song really well.

ik yoona said this song was out of her comfort zone but it was pretty well executed! she's really hard on herself but i'm glad she did well.

wonhee did improve a lot but she still needs work on her facial expressions cuz it do be looking a bit blank a lot of the time

jeongeun is one of my favs but she didn't stand out much for this stage which was a bit disappointing...

Spark (vocal team B):

chanelle and minju atee. i'm sad that these two didn't get what they deserved...

i do think chanelle's power fit this song the best

minju spiced it up! she's an all-rounder and just really good as per usual.

and seoyeon was a new gem from this stage! she did really well and it was like a new-found confidence shown here

yewon def could've used more confidence. i think she's been struggling with her confidence and her skills during runext...

Bang (dance team A):

power power power

yeongseo is expected like she just always gives every performance her all and her facial expressions are just something else

hyewon does well but i just feel like she's always missing the 1% from getting that 100% wow for me

ruka just didn't stand out... maybe it's the screen time or something but like she's of small stature + less variety of facial expressions so like yeah...

moa is another personal fav of mine. she's on the lacking side skill wise but her facials always just spices up the performance. she was a little invisible in this performance however...

iroha... idk where to start. i personally think she's a bit overrated. she was one of my top picks earlier in the show but she just makes a lot of mistakes... (some from her, some just pure accidents..) the one small mistake of her stumbling cuz of poor balance is HUGE considering it's a dance performance and it just kinda shows her lack of core strength to keep her grounded when dancing. i'm no expert and no hate on her but just a critical personal evaluation on her.

Tell Me (dance team B):

himena ate with the facials. she literally looked like a doll and executed this performance sooo well. i feel like she didn't shine that much in the earlier performances but she's def. shining a lot now!

jeemin: i lowkey didn't even recognize her at first glance. she's good as usual. tbh nothing more or less here from her...

jihyun is another of my personal picks. ik i have a lot. but she just did really great with the center of the dance break. i wouldn't be surprised if she led the creation of the choreographed part. it was well executed. i will say whoever dressed her umm needs to be called out cuz yeah it's the fashion style but they could've done her a lot better...

funa did so well and improved so much! her facial expressions were so cute and i feel like you could tell she has a lot more fun on stage with an audience.

moka is another personal fav of mine. she didn't stand out as much but her visual reminds me a lot of lachica simeez and her presence adds spice to the performance.

Elimination:

omg i'm so upset that moa got eliminated... i'll keep rooting for her to debut cuz ik a lot of people find her personality a bit annoying but you can't deny that she got the stage presence and the work ethic.

i lowkey figured that ruka would drop at some point just cuz she did lack the personal oomph that some other contestants had and she wasn't given a lot of screentime after the first ep.

i highkey figured that yewon would drop cuz i feel like the show lowkey put her in a bad spot after how iris was dropped. it wasn't as extreme as iris but when she was a leader and put herself first when she didn't have the immediate skill, i was sure that she would be eliminated pretty soon...

personal top 7 pick after this ep

youngseo

jiwoo

jeemin

minju

chanelle

jihyun

yoona

#r u next?#kpop #opinion #kpop gg #kpop survival show

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samoankpoper21 · 5 months ago

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GTKM Uncomfortably Well

Get to Know Me Uncomfortably Well (kpop edition)

Which group have you thought about stanning, but never seem to get around to it? -- LOONA and A.C.E I know their vocal game is CUHRAZY!

Do you have any irl friends that like kpop? -- YES!! 🫰🏽

How old were you when you first got into kpop? -- 18

What song(s) took you a while to warm up to? -- A 'Good'bye - Super Junior -- 1004 - B.A.P -- Ko Ko Bop - EXO

Have you ever disliked a group/idol? If so, why? (You don’t have to say who it is if you’re scared of getting hate). -- I don't...think so 🤔

What annoys you the most about kpop? -- Toxic fans -_- I haven't experienced it myself - THANK GAWD! - but I have read and heard too many fan accounts about how "fans" felt entitled to the idol group and they start getting physical or talking shit. One account I remember reading where a plus size fan was shamed for stanning a group and the "fans" told her she was unfit to represent the group like breh -_-

What do you love the most about kpop? -- The sense of community/bonding you get. It's times like these where you realize music, regardless of language, really does break barries ^.^

Do you only listen to kpop? -- Noooooo 😝 I listen to hip-hop, r&b, rap, gospel, Island reggae, reggae, cumbia, reggaeton, corridos, old school Samoan songs, "oldies, soft rock, rock, edm, pop, etc 😝

Who are you favorite western artists (if you have any)? -- Aaliyah (RIP) -- Megan thee Stallion -- Mozzy -- Ice Cube -- Monica -- J. Cole -- Kendrick Lamar -- Toni Braxton

How long have you been into kpop? -- 14 years 😳😳

What music did you used to listen to before getting into kpop? -- See Question 08 🤣 nah but on a serious note every time I talk about KPOP I never fail to tell everyone KPOP saved my life. I was going through a really tough time and then I found KPOP; it motivated me to do better and love myself ^.^

What fandom(s) were you in before getting into kpop? Are you still in them? -- I was stanning Tokio Hotel real bad 🤣 not so much no =')

Which group did you used to think was overrated but ended up loving? -- SNSD (please don't come for me y'all 😭 I discovered 2NE1 before SNSD)

Is there a kpop song that annoys you? If so, which one? -- Bar Bar Bar by Crayon Pop 🤣

What aspects of kpop make you cringe/feel secondhand embarrassment? -- Mispronunciation of idol's names ie JungCOOK 🤦🏽‍♀️

Which concepts do you love? -- Girl group: girl crush (ie 2NE1) -- Boy group: when they're dancing in suits and look all suave and shit 🤣

Which concepts do you hate? -- The "cute" concept for the girls

If you could trade places with an idol, who would it be? -- Yonghwa of CNBLUE. Just once I would love to see what goes on through his head when he writes the lyrics for the songs and produces it. I want to be in the studio when all that shit goes down: the recording process, him correcting the the members, everything.

What do you look for in a bias? -- I tend to look at the visuals but I end up falling hard for the leaders 🤣

Which kpop company do you hate the most? -- Cube, they always have an amazing roster but never promote them properly

What are you opinions on shipping? -- When I first got into KPOP I was a hardcore JongHo (SHINee's Jonghyun and Minho) shipper; now I don't pay too much attention to it.

How did you get into kpop? -- Boys Over Flowers OST; fell in love with the Stand by Meeeee 🤣

Has anyone ever made fun of you or looked at you weird for liking kpop? -- OH HELL YEAH! My family used to talk mad shit calling me weird but look at me now, their kids are coming up to me talm bout, "Aunty I heard you listen to KPOP "🤣

What is the cringiest thing you did when you were starting to get into kpop? -- Bangs! 🤦🏽‍♀️ Tried to style my hair like Jan Di from Boys Over Flowers 🤦🏽‍♀️I would get up early every morning so I would straighten my bangs

How long does it take you to learn the names of each member in a group? -- Depends on the size of the group.

Are you a gg, bg, or middle/coed stan? -- bg

If you could hang out with one idol, who would you hang out with? -- NAMJOON! I'm tryna fuck him 🤣 all jokes aside I would love to see what goes on in his mind when he's writing and producing/being in the studio and hopefully going on a bike ride to a museum where we can later enjoy coffee at a small cafe 😍

Who is the bias to your third favorite group? -- Kim Jonghyun of SS501

What name from your native language would you give your ult bias? -- For CL probably Afimailelagi (Fire coming from Heaven for her charisma); Namjoon would be Enele (wisdom) 😍

Thought on fanfiction/AUs/etc? -- delulu is the solulu 🤣

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kozuyoko · 11 months ago

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rant #2: internet watering down alt subcultures

(before or in case some ppl jump me in the replies i just want to clarify that ik this acc revolves around anime content but i’ve been into the goth subculture for a few yrs now and i don’t want ppl to think i’m a poser talking out of my ass just bc i don’t post or repost any goth topics/have a gothic style for my blog )

but um

why do ppl call anything remotely alternative ‘goth’ or ‘emo’…..

im sry but the ‘“i need a goth mommy’ or ‘i love goth girls’ mfs are actually unbearable like no u don’t even know what goth is, you just want a hypersexual e-girl with black hair and bangs with heavy eyeliner (same goes for the ‘i need a metalhead bf’ mfs who just want a tall guy w pretty long hair who plays the electric guitar)

those same ppl have started saying shit like ‘noooo i actually want a trad goth 🥺…um! well..no trad goth wants u..😁😁😁😅

like pls u didn’t know what a trad goth was until goth ppl started joking abt this sort of situation and using them as an examples for ‘goth girls’ that aren’t onlyfans models wearing skimpy black clothes and using goth as a buzzword for engagement, u just want to look good😭

also h8 the people that call themselves goth or emo and get defensive when u tell them they’re not bc they don’t even listen to the music or know about the culture of those scenes

‘omg im so emo😂😂😂’ be srs ur wearing a black t-shirt and u bully actual emos

and i’m not ‘gatekeeping’😭 u called ur self goth, we asked around and heard u said ur fav goth band is deftones LMAOO (b4 u get on my ass im not saying deftones is bad, theyre p cool, just not goth😭)

i genuinely fw people or babybats who take time to learn more about things they’re interested in rather than being an annoying trendhopper who thinks listening to shoegaze, wearing alt clothing and being freaky or smth makes them a ‘dommy goth gf’ or a metalhead😭

one of the biggest perpetrators of this have to be the is abt the tiktok #affliction #y2k #jncos male manipulator ushanka wearing cornballs. some of them r chill but a lot of them STINK!! bc of gekkasanctuary (zero hate i actually love him and follow him on all my ig accs ‼️) getting on some of their fyps they’ve started trendhopping once more and begun to waste their money on jp archive fashion and if six was nine just so they can thirst trap to malice mizer and tag their posts w #vkei. hate them💔

anywho this rant is mostly abt the watering down of the goth subculture and not vkei so don’t let me get carried away, i’ll probably rant abt this sometime next yr since i literally do not post at all😭😭

lastly i do NOT fw the onlyfans ladies who tag their posts w #gothgirl or gross captions with more ‘goth mommy’ stuff and continue to perpetuate stereotypes of all goth women being hyper sexual and dominant ☠️

if ur a goth lady and ur like this there isn’t anything wrong w it or wtv, you do you😭i really jus don’t like the stereotype bc it leads gross men to think all goths want to be sexualized without their consent, barked at in public and asked to peg someone (which has happened to me b4 sadly)

ummmm anwyays conclusion of this rant, i don’t fw trendhoppers , weirdos and ppl who water down alt subcultures and use them as buzzwords to perpetuate stereotypes

this is p much a word salad and nothing i wrote down is going thru my brain anymore so pls take this w a grain of salt, if i made any mean comments i was literally just pissed writing this 😭

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leviackermanscleaningbuddy · 3 years ago

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SKZ DRABBLE-OT8

The SKZ!Pack is back! And this time, there's no surprises. It's pretty clear who's going into heat, just like it's clear who's going to help them through it. What isn't clear though, is the age old question-does aftercare include changing the sheets?

Tags: SKZ, Stray Kids, SKZ Drabble, OT8, SKZ!pack, SKZ!abo, a/b/o, alpha beta omega dynamics, fluff, Stray kids x you, Stray Kids x reader, SKZ x you, SKZ x reader, OT8 x you, OT8 x reader, bang chan, seo changbin, lee minho, hwang hyunjin, lee felix, han jisung, yang jeongin, kim seungmin

Genre: Fluff, Suggestive

Title: Oh Sheet

“Has anyone seen my Nirvana hoodie?”

Chan comes into the kitchen looking utterly perplexed, his curls styled in that effortlessly messy way that only happens when he rolls right out of bed and runs his fingers through them, his rainy scent spiked slightly with his obvious exasperation.

“Hyunjin has it.” You reply automatically, glancing at the other alpha with one brow raised, as if that cryptic sentence in and of itself should be enough of an explanation.

It clearly is, because Chan’s brown eyes, once clouded with confusion, immediately clear up in understanding with your words.

“He’s ‘nesting.’” Jisung adds, making air quotes with his one free hand as he does so, not even bothering to look up from his phone, still shoveling cereal into his mouth like it’s going out of style.

The smart comment earns Jisung a rough cuff on the ear from Minho, who is standing behind him, and the beta yelps, rubbing at the offended appendage before shooting the alpha a dark glare.

Minho barely shrugs.

“He took my track pants too.” Changbin mutters somewhat dourly, moving to the coffee maker to refill his mug before he lets out a long-suffering sigh and glances at Chan with a somewhat hopeful expression, as if the head alpha can do something about the omega in question. “What am I supposed to wear to the gym now?”

“You know how picky Jinnie-hyung is with his nests.” Seungmin remarks in observation, leaning against the refrigerator, watching as Changbin struggles to tear open his packet of sweetener, before the beta finally takes it from the alpha and does it himself. “You’re not gonna get your shit back until he’s done nesting at this point.”

Changbin groans. “But my track pants-”

Chan slaps him on the back in some sort of lost clothing camaraderie, offering the other pouting alpha a sympathetic look, as he reaches around him to fill his own mug with hot, steaming coffee.

“Sorry, Bin. You’ll just have to find a new gym outfit in the meantime, yeah?”

Changbin grumbles something under his breath that sounds an awful lot like another complaint, and Minho serves him a sharp look, a look which has him scurrying to sit down beside the still preoccupied Jisung, who has now moved onto toast and is watching something ridiculously loud and obnoxious on his phone.

The video is obviously not loud enough to distract him from the conversation floating around though, because as soon as Changbin plops down beside him, Jisung is glancing up and exclaiming around a mouthful of toast, “Listen, he can have whatever he wants of mine. I don’t care. But if he so much as looks at the blue blanket I keep on my bed-” Something murderous flashes across the beta’s eyes at the idea, and it has you stifling back a laugh behind your raised coffee mug. “-there will be war.”

“Nobody wants that ratty thing anyway.” Seungmin quips dryly, leaning around an annoyed Jisung to grab a piece of toast from the plate before it all disappears into the beta’s never satisfied maw. “It smells like feet.”

“Does not!” Jisung protests sharply, trying to land a pinch on the other grinning beta’s side, but when he’s not nearly quick enough, he settles on pouting dramatically instead. “I’ve had that thing since I was a baby!”

“Exactly.” Minho agrees sagely, earning himself another pointed glare from Jisung as he sets a plate of fresh eggs in the middle of the table.

Chan comes to stand behind you, his hands resting heavily on your shoulders, and a comforting wave of petrichor washes over you as the other alpha enters your space.

“Okay, well, we’ll all just have to adapt. We all know how the omegas are when they’re nesting. They’re particular, Hyunjin especially. This isn’t anything new. Everyone will just have to find new favorites while we wait it out.” Chan says firmly, head alpha on display as he addresses your packmates, though his lips hint at a smile, belying the stern tone to his words. He glances down then and mutters softly under his breath, teasingly, for only you to hear, “I really wanted to wear my Nirvana hoodie to the studio today though-”

“If it makes you feel any better-” You chime in, reaching up to pat Chan’s hand comfortingly, glancing at the other pack members across the kitchen table, Changbin still sullen over his track pants and Jisung still obviously offended on behalf of his blanket. “-I have plenty of hoodies and track pants y’all can borrow in the meantime.”

Changbin’s face immediately goes flat at the idea and Minho balks openly in disgust, rolling his eyes.

“Absolutely not.”

“No way in hell.”

“What?” You ask innocently, biting back a smile as Chan chuckles from behind you. “What’s wrong with my stuff?”

Now it’s Changbin’s turn to roll his eyes. “Where do I begin?” Jisung is cackling now, like he’s just heard the funniest joke in the universe. He wipes at his eyes dramatically and takes in a deep breath, stuttering out amidst guffaws, “Oh my god, can you imagine hyung at the gym wearing sweatpants that say ‘juicy’ across the ass?”

Changbin doesn’t hesitate as he puts the still hysterical beta into a headlock beneath one meaty arm.

“Take that back right now, Han Jisung. I happen to have a fantastic ass.”

You raise your mug in a toast to Changbin’s very true words and then fix the red faced Jisung with a harsh glare. “And for your information, Han Jisung, I don’t have any sweats that say ‘juicy’ across the ass.” You sniff and take another sip of your coffee before you add pettily, “If you must know, they say ‘baby girl.’”

“I’d rock the hell out of those.” Seungmin remarks dryly from his position atop the counter, watching the chaos unfold with a blank expression.

Jisung is gasping now, slapping the unyielding alpha’s arm in an attempt at mercy.

“Changbin, let the beta go.” Chan commands with slight amusement, already beside the door, tying the laces on his sneakers.

Changbin does as he asks, and Jisung gulps dramatically for air as he’s finally freed. Minho looks entirely too pleased, smugly standing behind the pair, watching Jisung fight for his life.

“And all of you-” Chan waves a hand between those of you in the kitchen, eyes flashing briefly with something akin to exasperated mirth. “-please, while I’m gone, try not to kill each other.”

“No promises.” Minho replies offhandedly, already turning back to the stove, swatting at Seungmin, still on the counter, with his spatula as he does so.

“I’ll be at the gym.” Changbin offers, sliding back his chair, as Jisung dramatically flinches away from him at the movement. “Don’t have to worry about me.”

“Binnie.” You sing-song out, standing up and crossing the kitchen to the other alpha, who is now crouched beside Chan, putting on his own shoes. You widen your eyes as far as they’ll go and cling to him like a koala. “Are you sure you don’t wanna borrow a pair of my sweats?”

Changbin shakes you off with a grunt.

“No.”

“(Y/N).” Chan says, and you glance over at him, the smell of rain washing away the smokiness of campfire. He leans over and presses a kiss to your lips, before chucking you lightly, playfully, under the chin. “Stop teasing Changbin.”

You pout, and Chan swipes a thumb across your mouth to wipe the expression off your lips with the hint of a fond smile curling his own.

“You do have to admit-” Seungmin muses, passing by your trio on his way out of the kitchen, a suddenly smug look in his normally unreadable eyes as without hesitation, the beta smacks Changbin’s ass with his palm, sending a resounding thwack echoing around the room as the alpha jumps in surprise. “-Binnie-hyung does have a great ass.”

Chan looks shocked, but you’ve joined Jisung in his wild cackling now, as Changbin flushes a bright shade of red and practically whines at the beta, who is already leaving the room, “Seungie, seriously?”

Seungmin merely shrugs offhandedly and Minho looks entirely too pleased with himself, as if he’s just taught a child to say a naughty word for the first time.

Chan shoots the other alpha an exasperated look, and Minho smirks.

“Taught him everything he knows.”

Chan rolls his eyes and Changbin turns an even brighter shade of crimson.

You wheeze so hard you can’t breathe.

“I’m going to the gym.” Changbin mutters beneath his breath, fleeing the room before anyone can say anything else.

Jisung laughs so hard he falls off his chair.

*****

The omegas’ room smells overwhelmingly of citrus-sun ripened oranges and honey glazed lemons-and you can feel the saliva pooling in the crevices of your mouth in response even before you’re fully through the door.

Swallowing down the sudden frenzy of your wolf along with the embarrassing excess of spit, you glance toward the softly playing TV in the corner of the room and then crouch beside the edge of the bed, reaching out with tentative fingers to push aside the blanket that covers the nest like a tent, just enough so that you can catch a glimpse of the omegas inside.

Three sets of eyes reflect the light back at you, and Felix is the first to speak.

“Hey, noona.” His teeth flash white in the muted darkness of the nest, and as your eyes adjust, you can see that he’s wrapped around Hyunjin, lanky body curling around the other omega’s like a weighted blanket of comfort. “Everything okay?”

“Yeah.” You nod, keeping your voice low, fingers ticking along the edge of the blanket you hold aside, careful not to let any more of your body than is necessary touch Hyunjin’s carefully curated nest. “Just came to check on my babies.”

Jeongin yawns widely, pink tongue curling, and rubs at his eyes sleepily, as if they’ve either just woken from a nap or are about to take one.

Your wolf practically melts at the sight of the youngest of the omegas blinking at you owlishly, hair tousled, skin flushed and warm, and you imagine, if you were to scent him in this instant, that he would smell comfortably like a mixture of all three omegas, perfectly ripe citrus and cinnamon crusted bread, all balled into one heady, sunwarmed scent.

“What time is it?” Jeongin manages to ask, his eyes still half closed, his nose already buried once more in the back of Felix’s neck. The older omega rubs his fingers through the younger boy’s hair soothingly, and Jeongin’s body relaxes like butter melting in the warm sun.

“Uh-” You glance down at your phone and squint to see the time. “It’s almost noon.”

Hyunjin stirs then, a fresh wave of sharp lemon tickling your nose with the movement, and he lets out a little whine in the back of his throat that has your wolf on instant high alert, throwing his arm over his eyes as he groans out sluggishly, “God, Minho-hyung’s gonna have my ass. He’s going to have to cover for me at the center and he hates teaching the water aerobics class, even though the ajummas all love him, and then don’t even get me started on the community art project we’re supposed to do this week-”

Hyunjin makes a half hearted move to sit up and you instinctively reach out a protective hand to stop him, but thankfully, Felix has already planted a small hand firmly in the center of the other omega’s chest, gently pushing him back down among the cushions.

“I’m sure Minho more than understands.” You admonish firmly, letting out the breath you didn’t know you had been holding on a sigh, your wolf still all bunched muscles and raised hackles, alert and focused on the oldest omega protectively, eyes scanning his body for any signs of discomfort. “This is your first heat since you stopped taking your suppressants from last semester, Jinnie. It’s bound to be a rough one. No one’s gonna be upset with you.”

Felix is nodding in agreement with your statement, Jeongin’s face once again buried in the side of Hyunjin’s neck.

He looks like he’s ready to cry.

“I just don’t like disappointing people.” He whimpers out, eyes large and dark, bottom lip trembling slightly, and the lemon in the air bitters significantly as Felix’s arms tighten protectively around Hyunjin’s middle. “But I already feel awful, and it’s only pre-heat and-”

Things are spiraling. Jeongin and Felix now look as if they also want to cry, and suddenly, you’re really not ready to have three very upset and very emotional omegas on your hands.

You push out a calming wave of alpha pheromones, and the lemon starts to recede slightly in the wake of the suddenly blooming wisteria.

“Okay, okay.” You murmur beneath your breath soothingly, aware of where you place your hands on the bed so as not to mess up a single part of Hyunjin’s carefully crafted nest, before you stretch out a hand toward the huddled trio. “It’s fine. Everything is fine. I promise. Jinnie, you’re not disappointing anyone. We love you, baby, and we want to take care of you.”

Hyunjin sniffs and reaches for your outstretched hand, his trembling fingers finding your own, and Felix buries his nose comfortingly in his hair.

“And Innie. Lixie.”

You wait for the other two omegas to glance up at you, and when you speak again, a little bit of your alpha voice has crept into your words unwittingly, trying to get them to take into consideration how serious you are.

“The two of you also need to take care of yourselves. Make sure you’re taking breaks to eat and sleep and clean up. You’re such good boys, helping Innie, but we love you both too and want you well. Okay?”

Jeongin nods, his head bumping the bottom of Hyunjin’s jaw. “Okay.”

Felix offers you the hint of a smile, though you can still see the worry in his dark eyes over your packmate’s-and his moonmate’s-obvious distress.

“Okay, alpha.” You nod, placated for now, and squeeze Hyunjin’s fingers tightly between your own.

His skin is already significantly hotter than normal.

“Okay. We’re all gonna be okay.”

*****

Changbin flops down beside you on the couch and you note with silent amusement that he must have decided on a new pair of track pants as his favorites for the time being because the dark strands of his hair are still damp, as if he’s just gotten back from the gym and recently showered.

He throws an arm over the back of the couch behind you and sighs, sinking into the cushions, before he stretches his leg out and nudges Minho's ankle where he sits across from the two of you, distracted by something he’s reading on his phone.

The other alpha doesn’t even bother to look up.

“What.”

It’s not a question, just a dry acknowledgement that Changbin’s there, and he’s vying for Minho’s attention.

Changbin rolls his eyes.

“You know what.”

Minho sighs with annoyance and finally glances up, meeting the other alpha’s gaze with an irritated sort of curl to his mouth, his face still as blank as ever.

“I’m pretty sure I don’t.”

You curl your legs underneath you and prop your chin on your hand, thoroughly enjoying just watching the other alphas’ obviously tense interaction with slight amusement and invested interest.

You know Minho does indeed know what, because no one could miss it, not even a beta at this point.

The sickly sweet sticky scent of honey and lemon clinging to every surface, every inch, of the apartment.

Your wolf has been pacing since this morning.

Changbin groans, as if he doesn’t have time for Minho’s inevitable cagey games, and rakes a hand through his hair with agitation.

“Where’s Chan-hyung?”

“Out.” Minho replies simply, once again dropping his gaze back to his phone casually, as if the conversation is over and done with.

He’s good at hiding his tension, but you can see it bleeding through now, see it in the slight tick of his jaw and the way his fingers curl around the back of his phone just a little bit more tightly than normal.

“Of course.” Changbin heaves a sigh and lets his head fall back on the couch, utterly giving in now to the despair you can see slowly creeping across his black irises the longer he sits doing nothing, fidgeting uselessly beside you. “Asshole.”

Minho’s lips quirk into the hint of an amused smirk at Changbin’s muttered insult, obviously directed at the noticeably absent Chan, but his eyes remain steadfast on the phone in his hand.

“Maybe I should go out.” Changbin muses after a moment of silence, another moment of twitching, sitting up straighter beside you, and you shoot him a sidelong look, his expression morphing into one of confusion at your obvious disbelief. “What?”

“You know he’s gonna ask for you, right?”

Changbin’s eyebrow arches into the dark bangs of his now dry hair.

“Me?”

Across the room, Minho scoffs.

“You’re an idiot. He always asks for you. Have you just wiped past heats from your mind, Seo Changbin? Replaced them with gym mantras and disgusting health smoothies?”

Changbin shoots Minho a scowl and then glances back to you, watching him expectantly, waiting for him to get it.

The air is quickly thickening with smoke from a smoldering campfire.

“Yeah, you, dumbass.” You quip at the other alpha, and Changbin’s glare focuses on you now, as you offer him the hint of a sweet, innocent smile. “Lovingly. Of course.”

Changbin still looks openly confused, and you sigh.

“Listen. Chan is out because an omega in heat-” Your words falter, and the sweet scent of lemon spikes temptingly, as if drawn out by your sudden internal struggle. You swallow hard and bury the almost immediate and possessive flare of your wolf down deep. “-is a lot.” You finish lamely, but shake your head to clear your thoughts and push on.

“However, he’s also out because he knows Hyunjin’s not gonna ask him for help. He never does. Chan could help-hell, any of us could help-” At this Minho nods, watching the two of you now from across the room. “-but Jinnie never asks for us. He only ever asks for you, Bin.”

Understanding is beginning to dawn in Changbin’s eyes, and you can practically see his wolf perk its ears in interest.

“So I should-” He stops, clearing his throat, before he glances toward the hall, the longing suddenly very clear in his eyes, the scent of lemon washing over you anew, tangling with the sudden uptick of smoke.

Minho looks equal parts amused and exasperated.

“You ‘should’ve’ quite a while ago, princess. So get going.”

Changbin is up and off the couch so fast that you feel as if you get whiplash craning your neck back to look at him, towering over you with sudden determination.

You settle back into his previous spot, the couch warm from his body, and curl in on yourself, reaching for a blanket and the remote to the tv as you wave a lackadaisical hand in his direction.

“Go on. I’m staying as far from that room as possible.”

Changbin takes a step toward the hall, toward Hyunjin, and his expression is slightly dazed.

You snap your fingers to get his attention, and when he glances back at you, his wolf is snarling in the depths of his eyes impatiently.

You offer him a knowing grin.

“Come get me when you’re done though. Because we all know you’re shit at aftercare.”

Minho straight up cackles.

The other alpha has enough sense to look offended at your words, his eyes darkening and his brow furrowing as he shoots you a pointed glare.

The smoke filling the room takes on an acrid edge, you can taste it on your tongue.

“Hey. I try.”

You hold up your hands in a sort of peace offering, but Minho is still chuckling and the easy grin hasn’t left your face.

“I know. I didn’t say you don’t, so reel your wolf back in before I get bitten.” His chest heaves with a breath and you cock your head as you study him, offering him a sympathetic look, smile softening into something affectionate, teasing. “You always make a heroic effort. I’ll give you that. But you’re also just hella awkward about it.”

Changbin looks suitably defeated, shoulders slumping and deep timbre heightening into a keening whine.

“Look, I don’t know what to do okay? Like, when we’re all done, am I supposed to cuddle and hold your hand and all that sappy shit? Or am I supposed to help you to the bathroom and start the shower and make you drink water and be the responsible one? Do I change the sheets or stay in bed or-” Minho is howling again, holding his sides with laughter, tears appearing in his eyes.

“Oh my god, change the sheets?”

Changbin huffs, and you take pity on him, standing from your comfortable position on the couch to wrap your arms around his waist.

He smells nice-like the coconut shampoo he religiously uses and embers dying down on the tail end of a fire-and you bury your nose into his neck, just for a minute, until you feel him start to relax against you.

“We’re sorry for teasing you, Binnie. I promise-” You tilt your head back to look up at him and tap the end of his nose gently with your finger. “-you’re doing great. There’s a reason Jinnie always asks for you specifically after all.”

“Big dick.” Minho coughs not so subtly behind his hand, and you shoot him an exasperated look while Changbin glares.

“Just-” You release him and shove him gently toward the door, in the direction of the hall, the way he was originally going, giving him an affectionate tap on the ass for encouragement as he leaves your side. “-go. And come get me when you’re done. Because this heat is gonna be rough after his suppressants, and aftercare means a lot more to omegas than it does to alphas. Biology and all that shit.”

Changbin heaves a sigh. “Okay.”

“Make sure to change his sheets!” Minho calls out after the retreating form of the other alpha wickedly, and you promptly jump him to silence his ensuing triumphant guffaws.

*****

You’re sitting in the bathroom-the good one that Minho usually commandeers before anyone else can-when the door opens, and Changbin appears, leading Hyunjin inside with a slight loop of his fingers around his wrist.

The other alpha handles the postheat omega carefully, as if he’s a fragile bird he’s afraid to break, and you note, with a warm swell of affection, as Changbin carefully maneuvers Hyunjin inside with lingering, pointed touches, that maybe he’s not so bad at aftercare after all.

It’s just a very Changbin way of showing it, and that’s never been more clear than it is now, as the alpha makes Hyunjin sit on the closed lid of the toilet and crouches down at his feet, eyes wide and dark and sincere as he looks up at him.

“Okay, Jinnie?”

Hyunjin nods silently, wane and pale, chewing his bottom lip nervously, and you have to force yourself to remain where you are, force your protective wolf back down, because there’s currently another alpha who has this completely under control and that’s okay.

Changbin’s hands smooth over the bare skin of Hyunjin’s legs, the gesture intimate and reassuring, and his face softens affectionately as the omega grasps desperately at his hands, as if he doesn’t want him to leave.

There is a swell of calming, smoky pheromones, heady in the already humid bathroom.

“It’s okay, Jinnie. I’m just gonna clean up your room a bit and change and take a shower, yeah?” The other alpha glances over at you, dark eyes serious, and you give him a silent firm nod, as if to give him your own reassurance, reassurance that you’ll take good care of the omega while he’s gone.

Changbin relaxes, pulling Hyunjin’s hands from his own.

“Okay, baby. (Y/N)’s gonna help you clean up, okay? Take a nice warm bath, does that sound good?”

Hyunjin hesitates, and then he nods weakly in response to Changbin’s question. His lip is still firmly slotted between his bottom teeth.

Your wolf growls nervously, pacing along your insides.

You’ve never seen him this silent or withdrawn after a heat before, it must’ve been bad.

“Okay. Good boy.” Changbin heaves himself to his feet and tousles Hyunjin’s long dark hair, before he leans over and presses a lingering kiss to his forehead, nuzzling his nose comfortingly against his scent gland for another moment before he finally pulls back. “I won’t be gone long, hm? And alpha will come right back if you call. Okay, Jinnie?”

Another nod, another serious look from Changbin in your direction, and then he’s gone, the smell of campfire fading instantly with his exit.

As soon as the other alpha is gone, you carefully cross the room to Hyunjin, movements slow and cautious, hand outstretched, as if you’re approaching a frightened animal.

“Hey Jinnie.” You hum beneath your breath when your fingers are inches from touching him, hovering over his skin. “Hey baby, can you take this off for me?”

Hyunjin seems frozen, gaze locked on the closed door where Changbin had disappeared, but at your words, he flicks his eyes to you, and you’re relieved to see a little bit of him drop back into his empty gaze, irises flaring and warming with something familiar.

He nods, fingers moving to pull idly at the hem of the long t-shirt he wears, one you recognize now as Changbin’s, and you crouch to help him, carefully pulling the soft material up and over his head, baring his body.

He shivers as the air touches his skin, and you pull at him insistently, gently, until he finally stands up on shaking legs, reminiscent of a new fawn, and takes a few stumbling steps toward the large soaking tub that takes up the corner of the bathroom, already filled to the brim with warm, perfumed water.

You help him step into the water, holding his hand tightly until he’s slid down beneath the liquid and you’re sure he’s situated comfortably, and then you take a seat on the lip of the tub, watching him with open fondness as he lets out a long sigh and sinks further into the warm embrace of the bath.

“Good?” You question with a soft smile, and Hyunjin hums, nodding, the water rippling around him, the bubbles foaming with the movement, sending a wave of fragrant lilac into the steamy air.

“Yeah.”

It’s the first word he’s spoken since Changbin brought him in, so you’ll take it.

You don’t talk, just sit in silence as he soaks, taking in the way his body slowly relaxes, tired, sore muscles finally unclenching the longer you both sit in comfortable quiet.

The wolf in you purrs, content that the omega is finally feeling a bit better, the color returning to his cheeks, the light reentering his eyes, the smell of honeyed lemon slowly overtaking the smell of the bath soaps the longer he lounges in the bath.

When you’re sure that he’s a little bit more Hyunjin, and a little bit less omega, you shift to kneel beside the tub and reach for the bottle of body wash you had preemptively brought with you, holding it up for him to see, his eyes suddenly curious.

“Can I?”

Hyunjin hums in affirmation beneath his breath, entirely relaxed into the warm water now, and you squirt a good amount of the body wash into the palm of your hand before replacing the bottle and moving around to sit behind him.

He leans his head back on the edge of the tub for you and you start with his hair, massaging your fingers through the long dark locks, taking your time to work the suds across his scalp.

The omega’s eyes are closed, his jaw relaxed, and you’re pleased to hear a soft purr mounting slowly but surely in his chest as you continue your gently pointed ministrations.

The smell of lemon is sharp in the air now-pleasant and familiar.

You work your way from his hair to his skin, carefully using your hands and a loofah to wash away the remnants of his heat-the slick and the sweat and the smokiness of a certain alpha-and by the time you’ve cleaned his body, Hyunjin looks much more like himself, so much so, that it makes your wolf preen.

Good alpha.

You sit back with a contented sigh, and Hyunjin cracks open an eye at the feeling of your hands no longer on him, and you wonder, for a brief moment, if he had fallen asleep.

“Feel better?” You ask with the hint of a smile as Hyunjin nods readily.

“So much better.”

“Good.” You hum, teasingly tossing the loofah at the omega, as he feigns dramatic insult, the sponge splashing harmlessly into the waning bubbles. “You should’ve told Changbin not to leave so many marks. He’s never gonna hear the end of it from Minho.”

Hyunjin groans, sliding down into the water, the quickly darkening hickeys covering his throat and chest disappearing beneath the remaining bubble bath as he shoots you a helpless look.

“Forget hyung. What about me? The ladies I teach are gonna have a field day with this on Monday.”

You grin and he fakes a look of pure despair, so convincing you might believe him if this weren’t Hyunjin and his known flair for being exceedingly dramatic.

“God, I’m never gonna hear the end of it. Can you imagine the comments?” He spikes his voice into a higher pitch, waving his hands, as if he’s a concerned, overly nosy ajumma. “‘Oh Hyunjin, darling, what big, bad man did that to you? So sweet and innocent, spending your free time teaching us old birds water aerobics, I just know you wouldn’t do something like this willingly! Tell us, are you safe? Blink twice if no and ajumma will take care of it!’”

You’re giggling now as Hyunjin sinks back into the lukewarm water, a look of clear, dreading exasperation on his pretty features.

“I couldn’t stop him, noona. He’s an animal.”

Hyunjin sighs despairingly, though you very much doubt that he was as much an unwilling victim as he’s making it out to seem, judging off the placement of the bruising lovemarks and how much he seems to enjoy them as he subconsciously runs his fingers over them with something akin to affectionate pride.

Also strongly judging by the skeptical snorting noise Changbin makes as he reenters the bathroom at that moment, hair wet and wearing a clean pair of sweats.

He also looks significantly refreshed after a shower.

“Please.” The alpha scoffs, settling down beside the tub next to you, shooting the suddenly smirking omega a glare that hints more at exasperation than anything else. “Don’t play coy, Hwang Hyunjin. You practically begged me to mark you up.”

You grin, glancing over at the omega, who shrugs casually.

“Guilty.”

“And that-” You push yourself up off the floor, flicking some water at Changbin playfully as you do so, the other alpha now turning his glare on you. “-is my cue to leave. Please play nice, boys. I only have so much aftercare left in me.”

Hyunjin grins and waves. “Thanks, noona. Love you.”

“Love you too.” You blow him a kiss, hand already on the door, as Changbin offers you a pointedly grateful look.

“Yeah, thanks, (Y/N).”

You flash him a grin and wave him off.

“You’re welcome.” You slip out the crack in the door, trying not to let any of the warm air out, but poke your head back inside for one last jab, grin transforming into a wicked smirk. “Oh, hey, Bin, did you make sure the sheets were clean? Ask Hyunjin if he wanted them changed?”

A towel is chucked forcefully at your head, but you dodge it easily as Changbin curses under his breath, and the triumphant smirk doesn’t leave your lips as you finally duck out the door.

******

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wifekasa · 4 years ago

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# random aot modern hc’s !!

crack

eren can’t skateboard at all but he carries one around to look cool

mikasa can skate really well, she just holds back to make eren feel better

armin farted one during a test and it was super quiet so no one knew who it was but it smelled SO bad they had to go out into the hallway (he’s taking that secret to the grave)

annie always shakes her head to move her bangs out of her face lowkey annoying but i feel her pain

bertholdt fell down the stairs on the first day when he saw annie

reiner got labeled the school perv </3

ymir and historia r that annoying couple that hug and swing each other around in the middle of the halls

mikasa has a fanpage

historia is that one bitch w 263748200 unopened snaps / messages

everyone hates floch

jean is literally the only normal person

sasha and the lunch lady are bffs!! 👯‍♀️ sasha carrying her salary fr

connie is in detention everyday (he convinces jean to do shit w him and jean only agrees bc detention is the only quiet place he can draw)

hange is the really cool science teacher who makes you super excited to learn

levi teaches math and his style of teaching is great but people r too scared of him to ask questions which pisses him off

erwin is a history teacher and everyone likes him but he goes off on random tangents that are too big brain for everyone :\\\\

miche and nanaba are PE/ health teachers (they’re so chill everyone loves them)

pixis is the principal and homeboy is SO COOL. like he’ll learn the trendy dances and do them at assemblies

#aot headcanons #levi x reader #eren x reader #mikasa x reader #armin x reader #bertholdt x reader #jean x reader #annie leonhart x reader #sasha braus x reader #connie springer x reader #aot x reader #aot imagine #attack on titan

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OMG UR REQS R OPEN!

Can I request a tf2 matchup pls?

I apologise in advance, this is a long one.

Physical appearance:

- I’m not tall [*cough*like5’1*cough*] | I’m a bloody stick, some average meat but I’m still a lanky lil shit.

- Short undercut brunette hair with [somewhat emo] right-sweeping bangs, they naturally sweep left but look fluffier when swept right.

- I am in fact, whiter than sour-cream with very-very light freckles on my face, you gotta be CLOSE to see them.

- I have weird, blue-ish/green-ish/grey eyes. I swear I’ll never know their real colour because they pull a one-two-switcheroo depending on lighting.

- I wear big, thick-lensed, thin black-frame glasses and due to my rapidly declining eyesight I am practically blind without them.

- My right eyebrow has a slit cause I got bored, but I like it and it’s staying (and a piercing bc I can)

- I have size 10[?] gauges [/stretchers, whatever you call the things that stretch your earring holes], I plan to go bigger.

- I tend to wear a lot of black clothing and I have a very punk/alt/emo/grunge style. That, or I’ll look like a dad in cargo shorts and an over shirt thats given up.

About me:

- Trans guy | He/Him pronouns | Preferred name is Corvinn | Gay

- Aussie, very prominent accent, have been mistaken for a Brit because of ‘how I speak’ [I cuss more than a sailor]?

- Diagnosed with A.D.H.D., anxiety, depression and high functioning A.S.D. [that’s the main shit, the combination also causes insomnia lol] | Excess stimulation causes overloads and makes me temporarily non-verbal | My brain gets overly bored if there’s a lack of stimulation | I don‘t know SL because I started having non-verbal episodes in 8th grade. I’ll communicate using my phones notes app, tts or a very confusing game of charades | Stims include; flappy hands when emotionally overwhelmed, rapid leg bouncing when I’m anxious/focusing/listening to music, playing with my/the ear lobes of a person I trust for comfort | I twitch on occasion, I don’t think it’s serious; just painful-ish head/neck/shoulder jerks and non-painful leg/arm jerks accompanied by a grunt/verbal tic [I mainly squeak]/strained face | I have a bad habit of apologising/excusing myself after I twitch | Mental health is poor but I’m trying to get better and I think I’m heading in the right direction.

- Extremely self-conscious of my voice [think it’s too high] and height:(

- Self-taught aspiring artist of 8/9 years now | I do both digital and physical art | Tend to be more digital | When I do physical art it’s mostly sketching and watercolours | Plan to become a body artist in future.

- I’m easily excitable, but I’m told it’s annoying so I try not to but then that kind of leads to me not showing any outward emotion which also upsets people.

- I can sew and I own a sewing machine | Fun fact, I wanted to be a cosplayer when I was younger. Settling for a show-off in my textiles class [friend of mine’s a model/influencer and I’m gonna turn them into dress-up doll lmao].

- I was raised on shit like Korn, SlipKnot and LimpBizkit- I gotta fight to stay awake when metal is playing in the car.

- Favourite colour is all of them.

- I wanna get more piercings; left lower-lip, septum, and venoms.

- My Dad doesn’t think I can sing but a bunch of people have said otherwise. I’m currently at the point where I have no stage but I must sing.

Interests:

- I’m interested in textile practices.

- The Walten Files

- Marble Hornets

- Creepypasta

- Slasher films

- Hazbin Hotel/Heluva Boss

- DSMP

- Horror and paranormal shit

- ARG’s [I suck, but I enjoy watching others]

- FNAF [here since 2016, will cause physical altercations if opposed]

- All of animation YouTube

- Video essays on weird and obscure shit.

- Beloved YouTube blorbos include; CJ the X, Grayson projects, HarleyTBS, Izzzyzzz, Quinton Reviews, Chad Chad, LS Mark, Danny Gonzalez, Drew Goodeen, Mama Max, Nexpo, Manlybadasshero, Markiplier, Jacksepticeye, Neytirix, Noah Finnce, The Click, Sagan Hawkes, Pagan Valley, Wendigoon, Strange æons, Super Eyepatch Wolf, TFIL, Game Theory, TomSka, Pyrocynical, and many more.

- True crime

- Current main hyperfixation; MCR.

- I love animals. I used to have a pure black cat, he ded now tho:(

- Video games.

Dislikes:

- Seafood

- Rumours

- Twitter drama [unless someone like TRO is feeding it to me in form of a video essay], if I have to hear about one more person being cancelled by a random group of 13 year old white girls over literally nothing I am going to flip my shit😀

- Country/opera/classical music [to be fair, I’ll listen to classical but it just sends me to sleep, it’s too slow for me, sorry]

- Trolls [I’m fine when it’s harmless and all in good fun but when it gets toxic is where I draw the line]

- And a lot of fandoms I refuse to name because they are really toxic and will stop at nothing to find me🚪🏃‍♂️💨🧍‍♂️

Sorry this is so long, hope it’s okay. You don’t have to do it if you don’t want to, no pressure! Anyway, it’s super la- early. I’m going to bed. Have a nice [insert time here]. Also, thanks and remember to take care of yourself!

Hullo hullo welcome and thank you!! You are paired with...

Demoman!!

Honestly this one was a really close call, but when I really thought about it I couldn't get Mr. Explodey Man out of my head. He sees you as super passionate and well rounded, both qualities he can appreciate! This man comes from a very straightforward and strict upbringing, so having your radiant personality and look nearby is honestly pretty refreshing for him.

I can see your dynamic including a lot of hurt/comfort influences, as well as some partners in crime and like a little friends to lovers vibe. He's very much an optimist and loves keeping your spirits up! He understands a lot of what you're going through (*coughs*t4t*coughs*) so expect a lot of advice and validating comments. Definitely tries to get you into some mischievous activities when bored, trouble is this guy's middle name (it's actually Finnegan). That's not to say he doesn't mind lounging about the house, learning about one of your interests through videos you watch or just listening to you ramble. He might fall asleep on you if you're not careful tho.

Demoman is also a very adaptable man. He's been around and seen a lot in his time, so he comes perfectly prepared for nearly everything you may need from him. It does surprise him at first when exposed to your stims and tics, but only for a moment! He finds stims that show your trust endearing, and certainly doesn't mind getting anything you need if you're having a bad day. He definitely seems like the type to catch on to what the different stims mean pretty quick. If he notices you're getting anxious he may subtly rest a hand on your leg, or lead you away from an area until you're no longer overstimulated. Once he learns about your non-verbal bouts he always keeps a pen and notepad nearby. Just very subtle and gentle things that shows he cares because he really really does.

He also adores your music taste!! Very chaotic instrumentals and throaty singing gets him all kinds of hyped. He tries to pass that hype on to you and it works about 99% of the time. When you're both bouncing with energy he'll gladly take you out somewhere to burn energy (and cause trouble). The best thing about Tavish is that this man can make anything fun. Simple things like taking out the trash, running errands, even going on a quiet walk end up becoming your most cherished memories with him. He always hums a tune from songs you like when he picks up on you smiling more.

Expect to meet his mother!! I have a feeling he plays it a bit old school when it comes to relationships, so he'd absolutely insist upon you meeting her. He also just really loves his mom. When you're both ready he invites you to his (fucking huge) house for tea. He's very confident you'll hit it off right away! It starts slow, but once you mention your experience with textiles she beams. Having experience herself; she happily shows you some pieces she's made for her family and for her. She asks that you update her with anything you make in the future, so I think you can safely say she likes you. It makes demoman very happy to see you getting along.

To summarize; he absolutely adores your presence in his life. He'll try his absolute best to make you happy, and loves laughing with you about anything and everything. I hope you liked it!!

#tf2 matchup #tf2 headcanons #thank you for the ask!#demoman tf2 #tf2

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maya-malfoy1012 · 2 years ago

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So... Episode 3 of The Devil Judge... let's get into it! I wrote a page of notes, this episode had a lot to offer. But before we get into it, let's just recap on the ending of episode 2... cauuussseeee

I was watching the UST confrontation, thinking they were going to bang against the windows. I'm minding my own business, just admiring the cinematography - as they had bisexual lighting throughout -

(I can only watch it in the worst quality lol)

Then shit blew up! And they're saving each other like all angsty vampy boyfriends do.

(he should have carried him bridal style... just sayin')

Then we get into episode 3. Which has all of the marks of every Forced Proximity Yaoi story ever! Even includes non-consensual touching and one character (usually the younger) not being allowed to leave or move around their surroundings freely... which is... fun. "It's not like I want to do it" sure, Jan. (also, they keep mentioning their age gap, I think they're into it.....)

This leads to Gaon's Belle arc of discovering what's in the west wing. (The house's decor is super... not my taste). The Nanny/mother step-in character reminds me of Bae Hae Sun's character in Hotel De Luna (Choi Seo Hee). Daddy Bandit is super possessive over his new twink, even going as far as almost shouting "ARE YOU DATING?" to Soo Hyun. super suss. Sun A thinks she's hot. She really had her "step on me, Mummy" glow up and I respect that. Kyung Hee is surrounded by idiotic men BUT that does lead us to her house which is Han Ki Hwan's house!!! I was so happy when I saw it then I felt so sad because... it's where the rich boys go to get emotionally (sometimes physically) abused by their parent. This house is also featured in Stranger and every time there was a scene in THE living room, I kept saying out loud: "that's where Han Joo Won got his heart broken" or "some very sad things happened here" or "NOOO joo won... DONG SIIIIIKKK"... I am pathetic and annoying. (Also, I think the derelict sight is the same location where they shot Lee Sang Yeob's death scene) I will say I like the way TDJ is handling the dystopia themes. It feels very realistic and it isn't too glamourised, which a lot of movies/TV shows do. So, that's a really nice aspect of the show. The court scene is actually kind of funny (not in a bad way)

Trauma Bandit's backstory is definitely a child abuse 101 storyline, even includes a shitty reason for his awful treatment. (the dad is a right twat). I haven't paid too much attention to the older brother storyline but if he and Gaon are related, I'll be pissed. It's an odd thing to include considering Daddy Bandit and Gaon are going to fuck. There's no doubt in my mind that they're going to have sex. And even if we don't see it, it's still happening! Oh, and... just because you're traumatised, it doesn't give you the right to murder people, Daddy Bandit. Anyway, speak soon!! :)

[cue circus music]

episode 02 ending & episode 3. ah yes, the banes of my existence (:

I was watching the UST confrontation, thinking they were going to bang against the windows.

HELPP the UST was blasting through the roof. I honestly loved how they introduced two female leads, starting off with the implication that they're the very possible romantic counterparts and then dunked the whole show into homoerotism and UST.

just admiring the cinematography - as they had bisexual lighting throughout -

listen, the cinematography? it was out of the fucking world. honestly perspective changes, camera tilts that captures imbalance (whether emotional or power) and the f r a m e s. honestly so capturing.

the b i s e x u a l l i g h t i n g (screams)

(I can only watch it in the worst quality lol)

oof help is it netflix 😭

Then shit blew up! And they're saving each other like all angsty vampy boyfriends do.

KJERDXEFKDCX ANGSTY VAMPY BOYFRIENDS Yohan looks very much like some modern Count Dracula --its the bow me thinks

(he should have carried him bridal style... just sayin')

dsjksjdjk perhaps because gaon's taller than him and trauma bandit's but a smol man

Which has all of the marks of every Forced Proximity Yaoi story ever!

the way i did not realise that until now. ohmygod

Even includes non-consensual touching and one character (usually the younger) not being allowed to leave or move around their surroundings freely... which is... fun.

I also do think that the Nurse/Patient trope (which I'm basing off of Back to The Future, but for all I know could be absolutely rare af) is depicted here. Usually in the trope, the nurse and patient are shown to be more susceptible to have feelings due to sympathy and forced proximity (+ if the patient has some incredibly heroic/awing reason for being injured). I think Beauty and the Beast, you've mentioned Gaon's Bella Arc, also features the nurse/patient trope when the Prince/Beast gets attacked trying to save Bella from the wolves.

It is interesting though, that it should be Gaon who's injured and nursed back to life when we have Yohan, who's the primary choice for the Beast/Prince.

(also, they keep mentioning their age gap, I think they're into it.....)

at this point, watching TDJ is just a progression of kink reveals lmao

This leads to Gaon's Belle arc of discovering what's in the west wing. (The house's decor is super... not my taste).

Continuing from before, it's quite interesting that their dynamics are not set in stone. They frequently exchange roles, albeit most of the time it's not prominent.

Also, if we set apart the BATB trope, Gaon's totally the knight in shining armor even if Daddy Bandit denies it (the house.... it's something alright)

The Nanny/mother step-in character reminds me of Bae Hae Sun's character in Hotel De Luna (Choi Seo Hee).

ah i havent really watched Hotel De Luna, i'm putting it off becuz i heard that there's some real sad stuff but I can see the similarities in their character presentation

Daddy Bandit is super possessive over his new twink, even going as far as almost shouting "ARE YOU DATING?" to Soo Hyun. super suss.

my dude's just totally in over his head thinking he's very chill but just a walking talking emotional disaster

on a serious note though, i think he's more than aware of soohyun's friendship with gaon and it was a deliberate poke to dissuade her (or perhaps, in an emotionally/possessive sense to sting her?)

Sun A thinks she's hot. She really had her "step on me, Mummy" glow up and I respect that.

Jung Sun Ah is just a total badass and if I ever meet her I would run far far away 😂

...her house which is Han Ki Hwan's house!!! I was so happy when I saw it then I felt so sad because... it's where the rich boys go to get emotionally (sometimes physically) abused by their parent.

WAIT HELP I DID NOT NOTICE THAT IREFDJKSDJK tbf i was more focused in practicing imaginary archery on han kihwan

"that's where Han Joo Won got his heart broken" or "some very sad things happened here" or "NOOO joo won... DONG SIIIIIKKK"... I am pathetic and annoying.

EJDKEISDJK LMAO "some very sad things happened here" -- some miserable real estate agent of an haunted house, probably

"I am pathetic and annoying" ah yes the self realisation /t no but i have had this same exact thought when i paused the show for the zillionth time to explain the significance of the fucking rain to my friend

Also, I think the derelict sight is the same location where they shot Lee Sang Yeob's death scene

oooh interesting, i wonder how many shooting locations BE and TDJ share hmm

I will say I like the way TDJ is handling the dystopia themes. It feels very realistic and it isn't too glamourised, which a lot of movies/TV shows do. So, that's a really nice aspect of the show.

right?? i honestly adore that it's pretty much covering the escalating socio-political and economic crisis under the dystopian theme? it also feels very much a commentary on the contemporary issues of the world. along with that, in episode one there's a shot with the word "utopia" that reminded me of this book (i haven't read it but i know of the premise) "The Ones Who Walk Away From Omelas". It talks of an utopian society that has built itself upon the suffering of a single child. For the society to prosper the child must be suffer. To my knowledge, the Snowpiercer (the film) and BTS's "Spring Day" are based on it thematically.

The court scene is actually kind of funny (not in a bad way)

yeah no i fucking cackled at that scene

Trauma Bandit's backstory is definitely a child abuse 101 storyline, even includes a shitty reason for his awful treatment. (the dad is a right twat)

the dad's a right bastard

but if he and Gaon are related, I'll be pissed.

Dude (gender neutral) I was flabbergasted when they went "Oh Yohan's big brother actually looks exactly like Gaon :D" like??? During Ep 1 flashbacks, I honestly expected them to go with an amnesiac route (where Gaon forgets about Yohan) or maybe "found comfort/helped each other during this tragedy for one day and then became nameless strangers again" route but noooo they had to go with the "ah yes this possible romantic option who is is identical to mc's brother" i blame the bloody censor

There's no doubt in my mind that they're going to have sex. And even if we don't see it, it's still happening!

there's so much off-screen gaps that the possibility of it not happening is lower than zero

Oh, and... just because you're traumatised, it doesn't give you the right to murder people, Daddy Bandit.

Man's just so morally tilted lmao, but ahem, I heard that you liked morally grey characters [blinks]

I really enjoyed this update heh, your brain is just. galaxy and i can't wait to see more of your thoughts hehe

#daddy bandit makes a return #beauty and the beast? nah its beast and the beast #beasts of different kinds are still beasts no?#act 3 scene 1 kim gaon the panic gay #ah they're so annoying #kim gaon #kang yohan #the devil judge

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historyhermann · 2 years ago

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“Birdie Wing”: A Golf Yuri Story Soaring to New Heights

On April 6, 2022, Birdie Wing: Golf Girls' Story premiered on Crunchyroll. This series tells the story of Eve, a girl who plays underground golf games to support her friends, and their orphan children, who meets her match in Aoi, a wealthy Japanese girl.

Reprinted from The Geekiary, my History Hermann WordPress blog (it will be published on Dec. 30 there) and Wayback Machine. This was the forty-third article I wrote for The Geekiary. This post was originally published on July 3, 2022.

Birdie Wing: Golf Girls' Story is an original golf anime series directed by Takayuki Inagaki and written by Yōsuke Kuroda. Unlike other anime, it is not based on a manga or a light novel. Bandai Namco Pictures produces the series. They are a subsidiary of a company formerly named Sunrise, which produced series within the Love Live! franchise, Cowboy Bebop and Dirty Pair.

Trigger Warning: This post mentions sensitive topics such as bodily injury, blood, and bullying.

The first season of this yuri sports series began with a bang, with intense female sports rivalries, golf mafia, and smoking hot characters. Eve (Akari Kitō) defeats her opponents time and again with her golf style of piercing their hearts (and minds) with her "rainbow bullets". Aoi Amawashi (Asami Seto) changes everything for her and makes her excited, ecstatic to play against her in golf. As a warning, this post has spoilers for the first season of Birdie Wing.

This series is unlike any other sports anime I've ever seen. It fulfills what some reviewers, like Yuricon founder Erica Friedman, hoped for in the past. It is not perfect, but its absurdity and clear yuri themes mix well together.

Birdie Wing is, by far, the best anime I've watched this year, much better than Komi Can't Communicate, A Couple of Cuckoos, and Shikimori's Not Just a Cutie. All those series have their merits, but are not as intense, wacky, or relatable as Birdie Wing by a long shot.

The last seven episodes of Season 1 had even higher stakes than the first six episodes which I reviewed in mid-May. Eve plays an "ultimate" golf game against Rose and wins. She then flees the European country of Nafrece to Japan to escape the golf-obsessed mafia who wants to kill her. The later episodes have Eve enrolling in a prestigious Japanese golf academy. She gets closer to Aoi, who has a crush on her, as she tries to fulfill her promise to play her once again and win.

One of the best parts of this anime is the intensity between Eve and Aoi. While some criticized possible "questionable tropes" in Birdie Wing, the absurdity and series' unrealistic nature puts those claims into question.

The series is weird in a good way and has a sports angle which is extreme at times. Even so, it is hard to say it is trading goods for fanservice, as some critics argue, with those same critics even becoming invested in Eve and Aoi.

The series has garnered a significant following. The official Twitter account has tens of thousands of followers. Over 270 people follow the /r/BirdieWing subreddit. Fan art is spreading across social media. This undoubtedly played a role in Birdie Wing's renewal for a second season. It will premiere in January 2023.

Filled with Yuri

Eve (left), the flirter, as arrived

As I noted in my series recommendation, I became interested in this series after reading an article by The Mary Sue fandom editor Briana Lawrence highlighting yuri themes. She later described Birdie Wing as a "fantastically campy golf (love) story". There's more than that.

Aoi openly crushes on Eve, who uses her charm. In the above scene, Eve flirts with two Japanese girls and hangs out with them all day. Although this annoys her wannabe caddy, Ichina Saotome (Saki Fujita), this doesn't worry Eve.

In some ways, how Aoi feels about Eve is akin to Akari Tokitō's behavior toward Menou in The Executioner and Her Way of Life. Unlike that series, Eve often embarrasses Aoi and does things that make her heart beat fast.

For example, she lovingly touches Aoi in the head, demands Aoi play her while coming out of the shower naked, and kisses Aoi on the cheek. In the latter example, she says this is "normal" for girls to do. Aoi's caddy, Amane Shinjō (Ami Koshimizu), and Ichina are flabbergasted. Amane declares she can't do that in front of the press. Ichina mentions lily flowers blooming, a reference to yuri.

As reviewers have pointed out, Aoi and Eve are "super gay". There are also characters like Vipére (the snake lady). She inappropriately flirts with Eve during a golf match. Her affection is ignored because she focuses on Aoi instead.

The snake lady later becomes a friend of Eve. She helps get Eve, her friend Lily Lipman (Akira Sekine), Lily's sister Klein Clara (Sayaka Kinoshita), and their three orphan immigrant children, the adopted sisters of Eve and Lily, the proper forms. With the documents they can live free from the Mafia.

Others pointed out that the series is able to flex its "sapphic muscles" more once episodes take place at an all-girls academy. This theme is common to many yuri series. Adachi and Shimamura, Bloom Into You, Sweet Blue Flowers, Kashimashi: Girl Meets Girl, Dear Brother, and Blue Drop, are all set in schools.

Yuricon founder Erica Friedman added that the series is similar to I’m in Love With The Villainess, with a "hefty splash of...yuri". She asked whether the audience will get "passionate platonic sisters or passionate platonic partners in golf" or something else.

Friedman said we probably won't get the end we want but gave the series a top score for yuri. She further argued the series is close to "being the greatest Yuri sports anime of all time."

The Most Birdie Wing of Them All

Eve (left) tells Aoi (right) she likes no hesitation, one of Aoi's qualities.

Certainly, sports anime are relatable. Birdie Wing is nothing like any of the other golf anime or manga out there, including one short film centered on golf girls, Sorairo Utility.

This series flaunts the rules of the sports genre, with characters either arrogant or supremely confident in their skills. They are competent enough to back up those feelings. Any of their errors turn into comedic moments, often with a yuri tinge when Aoi and Eve are involved.

This makes the series fun to watch. Although some have voiced concern that the series will "run out of crazy ideas" which make golf interesting, I doubt that will be the case. Instead, the series has beautiful musical montages of golf bullying. It has underground assassins trained in golf techniques. U.S. corporate executives sitting in their plush chairs, cancelling queer shows, would laugh off this series.

Birdie Wing is filled with terrible women, from top to bottom. It features golf crime with Mafia who believe that golf games are a way to solve problems. What other series out there are like this? I can't think of anything remotely similar other than the yuri comedy, YuruYuri.

It is an over-the-top series with dramatic tension and absurdity which pulls you in. It makes golf, a disgusting elitist sport, interesting to watch. How this series got made, and why, I don't know. But, it's here for us to enjoy.

After all, golf competition and rising the ranks is central to this series, with Eve and Aoi wanting to have a rematch. Both have a dream to become professional golfers The series follows them as they "battle it out in the biggest tournaments" as the official description says.

Birdie Wing is nothing like other-girl focused sports anime, such as Kandagawa Jet Girls, Iwa-Kakeru! Climbing Girls, or Tamayomi, some of which have yuri subtext. It is in a league of its own. It is not on par to any other sports anime I'm aware of currently.

The interaction between Aoi and Eve is one of the best parts of the series. They often tease each other and have a good time, even able to work with one another despite their different styles, even making bets. In one episode, Aoi says that thanks to Eve's influence, expectations on her will not tie her down, which surprises Amane.

Handling Heavy Themes

Episode 7 is the first time that the names of Klein's orphan children are mentioned in the series

Some criticized the series of running the risk of "mishandling heavy themes" in the midst of its "high-octane action". This includes the claim that issues of police brutality and Eve's undocumented family fade into the background. For a series which can accurately be called "Birdie Wing : Yuri on Green" and with adorable golfer lesbians (Eve and Aoi), this criticism might seen to ring true.

It is a faulty criticism. The series does focus on heavy themes. The show's seventh episode is the first time the audience learns the names of Klein's immigrant orphan children: Emily, Charlotte, and Jessica. Thinking of her adopted sisters gives Eve the strength to defeat Rose Aleon (Toa Yukinari), who is a go-between for Eve (and Klein) to the underworld.

The snake lady gives them the proper identification forms after Eve's victory over Rose. All the while they are flush in cash. Later Anri (Chiaki Omigawa), one of Rose's subordinates, lashed out at Eve, for Rose's defeat, advising her to travel abroad to Japan. At the same time, Rose is assassinated by the Mafia after talking to Leo. Some heavy stuff!

We also learn, in the eighth episode of Birdie Wing, that the orphans are from Syria (Charlotte), Somalia (Jessica), and Palestine (Emily), as stated on their new IDs. Although this is not a major focus of the series after Eve goes to Japan, we do see the orphans going to school. In another episode, we see Lily and Klein are working at their new legal restaurant/bar, The White Hart.

This is an improvement for Lily and Klein. As one fan pointed out, they were implied in episode six of Birdie Wing as working as underage prostitutes in the Nafrece slums before Klein got her past restaurant which the Mafia destroyed in their crooked "redevelopment" effort.

In some ways, the series focuses on the exclusivity of golf. This is something that Malvina Reynolds sang about in her 1963 folk song, "Little Boxes". In the song, she sings about people in suburbia playing on the golf course and drinking dry Martinis.

Aoi, as a daughter of a business executive, is tied into the high life. However, Eve would never forget where she is from. Her presence and demeanor stands against the "professionalism" of golf, putting her street smarts to good use.

This fits with her utter disregard for academics. She is no Kim Possible and trying to excel in her classes. Instead she is a transfer student at a premier golfing school, Raiho Girls' Academy, backed by a golfing brand.

She likely sees the school as stuck-up. She gives it a bad name by declaring war on Japanese golf champion Mizuho Himekawa (Yukari Tamura). It is implied that she isn't a good student, even sleeping during class. Somehow she stays there without being expelled, suspended, or the like. Possibly, the academy's shady golf club adviser, Reiya Amuro (Tōru Furuya), wants her around.

Compelling Characters and Plot

Eve (right) and Aoi (left) enter the tournament hall, with Eve in her "battle suit"

The plot and characters of Birdie Wing are some of the series' strong suits. The show's official website currently lists 24 characters. While Klein appears to be the only character listed with brown skin, the opening sequence shows a Black woman at the end. This implies that Eve and Aoi would face a Black female golfer in the show's second season.

Episodes of Birdie Wing are filled with high-stakes golf matches. Signature golf drives by Eve, often terming it the "rainbow bullets", which come in many different colors, are at the center. There's also Rose's "Crimson Rose Bullet" and other "bullets" Aoi declares.

In keeping with the show's yuri themes, the series' opening sequence shows golf drives of Aoi and Eve intertwined. In the ending sequence, Eve and Aoi are lying side by side, with their silhouettes touching.

Leo Millafoden (Shūichi Ikeda), former legendary golfer, who trained Eve and other golfers, casts a shadow throughout the series. His motivations are unknown. They will likely be explored more in a second season.

The technologically advanced golf course owned by a mafia boss, Catherine (Umeka Shoji), added an interesting flair. The design of the course can be changed in an instant, even though it requires a lot of power and electricity.

The series became a bit sci-fi when it was revealed that Rose's arm is cybernetic, giving her an unfair advantage. The fact that her arm breaks off and falls to the ground, shows the stakes of the golf games.

The first season is divided into two arcs: Nafrece (episodes 1-8) and Japan (episodes 9-13). This is similar to the division of Disenchantment into various parts or acts which divide the first season of Arcane.

Even Ichina, who seems annoying at first, comes around to be a more compelling character. She becomes Eve's caddy and competes with Amane, Aoi's well-versed and tech-savvy caddy. Ichina grows over the course of the season.

There are funny moments, too. In one episode they talk with each other in internal monologues. In another, Aoi jumps toward Eve, overjoyed to see her, but Eve jumps out of the way. This series is filled with comedic moments, providing some levity.

The reaction of others to Eve makes the series interesting. For instance, students at the elite golf academy are intimidated by her, as she looks angry and pissed. Girls at the competition see Eve as scary, and mean, but pretty. They are taken in by her beauty.

Talented Cast and Crew

Eve (right) declares that her "rainbow bullets" will pierce through Mizuho Himekawa (left), who she challenged to a golf game

The amazing animation and backgrounds by Bandai Namco Pictures would be nothing without the efforts by the staff and voice actors. The show's writer, Yōsuke Kuroda, was a head writer on Kokoro Library, Puni Puni Poemy, and Valkyrie Drive: Mermaid. The latter series is set in the same universe as Birdie Wing!

One of the two series composers, Kōtarō Nakagawa, is well-known for his anime work on the Code Geass series, Gosick, and Active Raid. The other composer, Hironori Anazawa, is known for her work on Scarlet Nexus, Shûkatsu Kazoku: Kitto, Umaku Iku, and many other series.

Takayuki Inagaki, the show's director, worked as an episode director on Chio's School Road, Sky Wizards Academy, and Rosario + Vampire. The show's animators and other crew worked on Azumanga Daioh, Revolutionary Girl Utena: The Movie, and Sailor Moon Crystal.

The show's cast are as talented. Some have lent their voices to characters in series with yuri themes, either indirectly or overtly, like The Demon Girl Next Door, Adachi and Shimamura, Love Live! Nijigasaki High School Idol Club, A Centaur's Life, and Akebi's Sailor Uniform. Others voiced characters in the trans-centered slice-of-life drama, Wandering Son, and The Great Jahy Will Not Be Defeated!

Tōru Furuya, especially, brought back a similar voice to many Sailor Moon fans. In that 1990s anime series, he famously voiced Tuxedo Mask, a masked hero who has a crush on Sailor Moon.

Additionally, I recognized that the voice actors of this series provided voices in Simoun, Yurikuma Arashi, Princess Connect! Re:Dive, Princess Principal, Asobi Asobase, Girl Friend Beta, Strawberry Panic!, and Maria Watches Over Us. Many of these series have yuri themes, something the voice actors could tap into for this series.

Looking Toward a Second Season

(the video has since been made private)

There are many avenues to explore in the next season. The above preview premiered after the airing of the season one finale. It shows that the stakes are higher than ever, with games against students from other schools. This includes Mizuho Himekawa (Yukari Tamura), Kaede Oikawa (Yu Kobayashi), Kaoruko Iijima (M・A・O), and Kuyou Iseshiba (Satomi Arai).

The preview shows the tough nature of golf, backstories of Aoi and Eve, and a possible assassination attempt against Eve. There are hints that Eve and Aoi are sisters. The status of Aoi as "totally bourgeoisie", as Ichina put it in one episode, could be a topic of episodes. This could manifest itself in Aoi losing her privileges or those privileges being threatened.

Predictably, the second season will focus on Eve. It may show she is a golf supersoldier trained as a tool of the Mafia. Maybe there is a trigger word which makes her subservient. Likely any past traumatic experiences she relegated to repressed memories will come flooding back.

However, Eve has no reason to go back to Naeferce and will stay in Japan for the foreseeable future. The same is the case for Eve's aggressive and brutish golf style, which will remain intact. However, they may end up losing the championship match.

Undoubtedly, the romantic feelings between Aoi and Eve will continue. They may even share the same room! I'm hopeful the series will not go the route of the problematic yuri romance Citrus or romantic comedy, Candy Boy. Both have incestuous romances between sisters, which cheapens representation.

Closing Words

I look forward to seeing how the series improves and changes in the next season. Unlike what I wrote about The Executioner and Her Way of Life, I don't see any issues with tone and don't believe there need to be stronger storylines.

The success of this series could pave the way for more original anime series from Bandai Namco Pictures and those licensed by Crunchyroll, perhaps with yuri themes. I wait in anticipation for the show's next season.

So, spread your wings and watch Birdie Wing: A Golf Girls' Story on Crunchyroll!

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volfoss · 3 years ago

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oh ho ho 💛

HI!!! I assign you...

Ash Crimson!

^worst little birthday boy u have EVER met

WHERE DO I EVEN START W ASH. so. hes like the kinda character thats like rude and kinda bitchy but rly lonely bc hes STUPID and isolates himself when there r problems. he literally is like yes. i, a 16 year old, can handle this rly big thing. <- i say all of this lovingly. im allowed to slander ash bc hes my bestie. hes like. everyone wants him dead and i FIRMLY believe he would pull the like im gonna instigate someone and when they come for me ill pull the im a little birthday boy card but then VIOLENCE and attack them. hes just a sillay goofy little guy but also like. god. hes just like really kinda annoying but i personally dont think its always an intentional thing. fave endearing ash traits- he gives his friends nicknames and is the bomb dot com at nail art. he also has a valentines day bday. hes just like french and rly obnoxious about it.

OK. time to go like. insane blorbo hours (if i say or think ANYTHING about kof xiii i give u permission to take me out back and shoot me). how he was like. presumably going from knowing Elisabeth (one of his current friends, i will get into that in a min) rly well as a child to like being very alone. ough. characters that are horrible but are like doing so to hide being lonely my beloveds. BUT i wanna talk abt how his relationship w his friends is bc if i remotely think about my bestie ash's childhood for one more minute i will lose it.

BUT i think its genuinely so nice to see like the fact that even his friends kinda like? idk tolerate him but in a way that they do care about him. not to um. bring up kof xiii but. the way duo lon (literally just a quiet lil guy) is like i will do ANYTHING to get ash safe. sobs. i just like. genuinely love how he interacts w them.

NEED u to look at this quote:

"Yeeowch. One thing you never lacked is strength. I mean that.... Merci, Betty!"

^LET ME EXPLAIN TO U WHY THIS DRIVES ME INSANE. this is his win quote and like. when he beats ANYONE else hes like wow u suck (insert french phrase here) but w elisabeth u can just tell he like actually cares about her and ough. in the entire tales of ash arc u can tell she does too bc she goes to so many lengths to help him. i just. ough. their friendship is EVERYTHING to me.

ACTUALLY HIS BEST feature is arguably his bump it styled hair (lovingly i think if he had a bump it in his hair it would just b a beehive) and his long ass sleeves. his entire outfit is SO good tho. ALSO his little hair twirling animations. that IS a stim and u cannot tell me otherwise. ALSO his freckles. i know in my heart he gets sunburnt easily.

BUT NOW. blorbo image moment.

^HUGE fan of this art! i think like idk. how he and Shen Woo gets along is fascinating but also ash literally is the kinda guy to have this lil moped. also. fave Ash win quote at Shen Woo: "Owee… Lighten up a bit, would you, Shen? I could have broken a nail!" like i think he is just goofy sillay around him and i love it. love when there r bestie hours SO much.

^ baby ash and elisabeth images from kof xiii that makes me cry scream and throw up each time i see them

^ actually. im just like tossing kof xiii images at u. screaming and crying and banging my fists on the floor. they are FRIENDS.

^ also like. my contender for funniest Ash image of all time. they put this guy in a fucking flannel and white v neck combo. love it. but like genuinely love this image love seeing Kula and Yuri at the table w them and them all having foods they like and like K' and Maxima in the bg as well as Mai and King in the far bg. i love this image.

^ SOBS. i love seeing like them having friendship hours esp w Duo Lon's hobby being mahjong like the fact hes teaching Ash and OUGH. sobbing. their friendship means the world to me like. ash deserves people that care about him this much and they DO. sobs

^ OBSESSED w his kof maximum impact regulation A outfit. this guy went to a hot topic and just grabbed shit and was like yup this will work cohesively (and it does)

^ litrally like one of my fave falcoon sketches of ash. this guy rly is out here in like an old fashioned little bathing suit and has an umbrella/parasol. i KNOW hes got the like wool bathing suit outfit. u cannot tell me that its a modern outfit etc

^ last but not least cute ending screen from kof 2003! duo lon doesnt smile a lot so v nice to see him n ash having a nice time!

#asks #kof posting #this um. might get long. hes like my fave #know that the entire time i typed this out i was in AGONY thinking about the kof xiii ending. not over it EVER.#hes like my ultimate comfort character like. hes my bestie

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enter-the-phantom · 3 years ago

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For the acrostic one, Gabriel?

Oh god not this chucklefuck

G - Gush! talk about how much you love them 💜

Why would you allow me to do this.

I adore him. From the moment I first saw him before I even knew who he was I was just enamored and it got worse and worse and worse until I'm thinking about him all the goddamn time. We were the most adorable most iconic platonic soulmates and then I just had to ask myself "hey what would happen if I kissed Gabriel" and then I didn't stop asking it and then I fucked around and found out. fuck that guy. He is so goddamn cute and the most handsome most charming little fucker and I hate everything and he makes me so mad and so happy and I could literally talk about him for pages and never actually say anything of substance bc head empty. no thoughts. only Gabriel

A - Art - do they draw or paint? what about any other kind of art? what’s their favorite style/subject/another artist who inspires them?

He once presented me with this really crude comic of a dog and cat kissing and signed it with "do u like me circle yes or no"

We'd been openly romantically involved for two months.

Another time he gave me this black velvet painting of himself but stylized as like. a Renaissance portrait and I really don't want to scar you guys with the details of that painting but he was like "keep this in a place where you need a little extra beauty"

So...kinda? I don't really know? He's a wild card

B - Before - before you decided to make them your F/O, what did you first think of them/their source?

Me and Supernatural just have an odd history in general. All I knew about it for years was that I'd see ads on the CW when I was watching my I Love Lucy recordings and I thought the special effects were awful (they were and still are) and I'd laugh at it. Then I was in middle school during the height of the fandom and all I knew was that all the girls wanted to bang the Winchesters so I was just vaguely annoyed by its existence.

Then my bff @pearl-stonecutter (don't trust her) got me to watch it by telling me it was good celestial fiction (it kinda is) and had angels in it (boy does it ever). That was a mistake I'm still paying for to this day.

As for Gabriel I got really weirdly attached to him from the very first moment the obnoxious school janitor with the freaky powers showed up. I thought he was so great, probably just because I have a soft spot for chaotic neutral characters, being one myself irl. And then I made him a platonic f/o and I spiraled into hell from there. I've been a Gabriel simp from the very beginning and unfortunately have no plans to stop.

R - Rainbow - what colors do you associate with them and why?

Blue and gold. His wings, according to our lord and savior RSJ, are blue, and the fandom for whatever reason decided they were gold. But his eyes are golden hazel, so whatever. Also khaki green because of the dumb jacket that I may have stolen from him.

I - Image - show us a picture of them that gives you a lot of feelings. if they aren’t a visual character, describe your mental image of them!

look I answered the question, I don't want to talk about my answer. it gives me feelings, let's leave it at that

E - Emotion - is your f/o open with their feelings or do they keep them close to their chest?

He is, but he also isn't. He shows his emotions openly, but they're often not his real emotions. Like, he'll flirt shamelessly with you and every other thing that moves, but he'll hide how soft and emotional he is over you until you get him alone and draw it out of him. And he hides his negative emotions until they explode. He covers everything with humor and charm, and you won't know how much he's really hurting until he just loses it and you have to comfort him. You have to know how to read what he's really feeling, because he rarely shows anything that isn't his fun and goofy self that's always in control.

L - Language - what’s their love language? what’s yours?

He likes to make me laugh and just spend time with me, and he's very physically affectionate. I'm not great with showing my affection openly, but I find it easier with him because we started out as very close friends. As friends we were always all over each other, so even though it's a little difficult for me to show romantic affection, I try to treat him with the same crazy-about-him way I did when we were "just" friends. It's actually a little less open now that we're romantically involved bc my brain is dumb, but he thinks it's cute.

I love him so damn much good lord

#Gabriel you are so hot and I hate you for it #gabriel #the hunter and the trickster #ask enter #archangel gabriel

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into-the-afterlife · 4 years ago

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Why I Ship Johnny/Female V: Part 2

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This is Part 2 of my essay series on why I ship Johnny and female V. Back in part 1, I covered why I ship female V specifically with Johnny and not male V, as well as some thoughts on Johnny’s sexuality. This time, I’m looking at Johnny himself. (Content warning: there is some discussion of rape and how rape is handled in fiction.)

Johnny, ambiguity and age-old romantic tropes

Look, I’m just going to come out and say this: part of my interest in this ship is thirsting over Johnny. And when I’m interested in something, whether it’s an intellectual, creative or sexual interest, I like to do what I always do – analyse it to death. So what is it about the actor, the performance and the character that makes Johnny as attractive as he is?

Keanu Reeves himself, obviously, can’t be ignored here. He has a gorgeous face and voice, but crucially, he’s distinctively beautiful. Obviously, everyone has the right to be into what they’re into, and I don’t want to shame anyone for their tastes. But I do not understand people who are into the blandly beautiful. Sure, there’s nothing wrong about, let’s say, Chris Evans. But what’s right about him? Where are the snags that catch your attention and hold it? Where’s the life?

Reeves, meanwhile, is attractive because he’s unusual. He has long, dark hair, but he’s regularly photographed at public events with it mussed-up. He has a chiselled face, but his cheekbones are high enough that he looks alien. He has all the charisma of any Hollywood actor, but, whether this is him as he is or an especially well-calculated image choice, it comes off as genuine. When watching interviews with him, you feel less in the presence of a star and more an especially fascinating stranger at a party, one who, despite bursting with witticisms and stories, somehow wants to talk to you most of all.

There’s also an element of age ambiguity here. Reeves is in his fifties, and while age suits his looks better than youth did, it shows. Meanwhile, Johnny the character is in his thirties when he dies, and to match this, the animators smooth out Reeves’ face and darken his beard. They also give Johnny the (unrealistic but glorious) organic arms of a dedicated bodybuilder. So what Johnny ends up with is the presence, confidence and charisma of an older guy, combined with the physicality of someone younger. It’s potent, to say the least. It also adds to Johnny’s uncanniness as a character. He’s caught between maturity and youth, life and death, humanity and machine; he’s hard to pinpoint no matter where you look. And whether you express this academia-style, as, ‘the gothic associates uncanniness with sexuality’, or internet-style, as, ‘I’m a monster/robotfucker’, this is, as the kids say, pretty damn hot.

This uncanniness, as well as Reeves’ looks and performance, also offset some of the more unlikeable aspects of Johnny’s personality. This is best illustrated by the concept art created for Johnny before Reeves was brought on board. (Found courtesy of the lovely folks at r/LowSodiumCyberpunk.)

As you can see, they had a lot of Johnny’s look already nailed down. But this makes the differences all the more startling. This Johnny looks like he’s been dragged through the wringer. His hair is messier, and he seems to be getting premature wrinkles and balding. He’s strung-out, with a genuinely hopeless cast to his face. His look is also a lot more dated. While our Johnny has elements of the old rocker, the jean jacket, bandana, V-necked black jumper and aviators clipped to the tank top root this Johnny inescapably in 1980s music and fashion.

Why is all this relevant to shipping Johnny with V? Partially because I’m shallow, I’m not going to lie. But it’s also because making Johnny look like this would have made him much more obviously an intrusion. A guy dressed like this next to 2077’s booty shorts and space buns is like a ghost in a ballgown next to a woman in jeans. He’s not just out of time; he’s been irrevocably left behind. Johnny’s face here also has much less in the way of possibility. Where our Johnny says, ‘maybe your life would be better if you listened to me’, this Johnny screams, ‘my way is hopeless, but you can’t ignore it’. It’s leaning much more into the tragic aspects of Johnny’s character and of the genre of cyberpunk. And don’t get me wrong – I love that artwork, and think that angle would be an interesting artistic choice.

But making Johnny a tragic intrusion like this removes the element of seduction, so to speak, from his character. What makes Johnny attractive, ideologically, sexually and romantically, is a balance of certainty and uncertainty. On the surface, he’s passionately, blazingly certain of his politics, his music and himself. If you’re taking a leap of faith, whether that’s fighting against the corpos that rule your life or hopping into bed with an engram, what draws you to it is the kind of confidence that makes you doubt your own certainties. Yet too much of that can be off-putting. Nobody wants a partner who’s so cocksure (pardon the pun) that they don’t listen to what you want, and nobody wants a political ally who’s gone so far into their own rhetoric that they can’t convince those outside it.

Therefore, the common factor across all the ways Reeves’ looks impact our perception of Johnny is the balancing of two seemingly opposing things. Keep that in mind, because it only gets more relevant the deeper into this ship, and Johnny’s attractiveness, we go.

Of course, Reeves’ looks are far from the only thing he brings to the table. His acting, across body language, facial expressions and voice acting, is incredible. I want to take a look at his voice acting, as well as his voice generally, first.

I’m not familiar enough with the subtleties of American accents to pinpoint why, but Reeves’ accent sounds slightly different to the more generic accents of other famous actors. Perhaps it’s because he’s Canadian. Either way, his consonants are less harsh on the ear than other A-list actors, his vowels less elongated. He speaks slowly, sounding as if he just woke up. His voice is mellow and soothing; it’s the sort of sound you could take a bath in.

(For reference purposes, I’m listening to this Cyberpunk trailer as I write this, as well as, um, this video that I’ve watched far too many times. XD)

Obviously, to play Johnny he has to modify that laid-back aspect of his voice. But it’s interesting how his natural voice and his ‘Johnny’ voice bounce off each other. Reeves is able to pull off a much more belligerent Johnny than many actors could, precisely because of that laid-back quality his natural voice has. Think of that ‘impressive cock’ line. It’s made as funny as it is because of the total lack of shame in how Reeves delivers it. But in the mouth of an actor like, let’s say, Robert Downey Jr, that level of shamelessness would just come off as annoying. Reeves uses his natural voice to amp up Johnny’s, for lack of a better word, Chad-ness, far beyond the place another actor could manage. Because he has that base of softness, he can go hard on Johnny’s arrogance.

Why is this relevant to Johnny’s attractiveness as a character, as well as why Johnny/F!V are a fascinating ship? To develop a character well, you have to have an extremely solid base to start on – and that base is where a lot of writing and acting falls down. The audience has to know intimately what a character is usually like, or who they seem to be, before burrowing into the character further is made effective. That equal hard/soft approach means that when Johnny does soften later in the game, it seems both unexpected and inevitable. Even as the harsh tone and words were conveying one thing, that softness underneath was always conveying another. But the fact that Reeves can go hard on the arrogance makes that change much more impactful than it would be in another character. Once again, we’re seeing an equal balance of two seemingly opposing qualities, not openly leaning towards one or the other.

There’s also some aspects of the body language Reeves and the animators give to Johnny I’d like to focus in on. While I’m not an actor, nor am I a psychologist, and therefore am likely to have missed things, there were a few things I noticed when going through footage of Johnny in pivotal scenes. (If you spot something I haven’t talked about, please reply or reblog! I’d love to get a back-and-forth discussion going.)

Over and over again, Johnny’s body language has two layers. There’s what I’m calling the ‘douchebag’ layer, which is where Johnny seems insultingly relaxed. The scene when V and Johnny first meet, as well as the scene at the diner, have two great examples of this. Johnny gets into V’s space, but it’s slow, catlike. There’s no urgency when he leans in, nor when he stands over V.

Similarly, at the diner, he tells V he doesn’t want to kill her anymore – something pivotally important for their relationship and the plot - while putting his arms behind his head and his feet up on the table. It communicates, at least on the surface, a real sense of disrespect. ‘I don’t give a shit’, says his posture, ‘whether you hate and fear me or not’. His threatening slowness when they first meet, meanwhile, communicates that he doesn’t think V is a competent opponent. Why should he hurry if he can get her any time?

At least, that’s what it looks like. Take a look from 9:40 onwards here. Sure, he swings his legs up on the table – but not before hurrying into the diner booth and tapping his fingers rapidly on the table. Even when he gets into that relaxed posture, he’s bouncing his leg the entire time. Those catlike movements I talked about when they first meet? If you look from 5:42 here, they’re there. But they’re also interspersed with banging his head incessantly against the wall, pacing back and forth and glitching unpredictably all around the room.

This is where the second layer of Johnny’s body language comes in. Underneath all that casual condescension, he communicates constant, frenetic energy, even anxiety. Even in his default, idle animations, it’s extremely rarely that Johnny communicates real coolness and calm. He covers constantly racing thoughts and feelings with a slick persona.

What this does is very like the hard/soft balance of the voice acting I talked about earlier. Because the ‘douchebag’ layer of body language is the most obvious one, you pick up on that first. But the other layer is there throughout Johnny’s entire arc, and it goes into your brain on a much more subconscious level. Then, when Johnny’s guard does come down, it seems like a natural development of his character while still being a surprise. Once again, there’s that knife-edge balance between two disparate qualities. And for me, attraction always lies in the space between.

There’s also something highly sexual about the way he gets into V’s space when they first meet, the way he stands over her. When first playing the scene where they first meet, it felt like watching the moments before an act of rape. You see him first as he leans over you while you’re still in bed. He beats you to the ground, smashes your head into the window, and towers over you while you’re collapsed on the floor. Given the context of him taking over your body, the overtones are unmistakeable.

But again, crucially, that frantic body language and his lines are the complete opposite of how someone behaves when making the kind of power play that rape is. The pacing, the panicked words and the fact that he’s caught off guard all communicate disempowerment. While it’s still a violent, frightening scene, it’s not a monstrous one.

Why is that relevant to discussing Johnny’s attractiveness, and Johnny/V? Because rape fantasies and male domination are some of the oldest tropes in the book for M/F romantic arcs. Done properly, they play on desires of sexual submission without explicitly acknowledging the kink, depict the eroticism of that liminal space between humanity and monstrosity I talked about earlier and allow you to fantasise about being deeply wanted. Of course, that last bit isn’t a factual depiction of rape in real life. But in the fantasy, the story, the idea of being ravished is partially about being special, being so uniquely attractive that the guy loses all control of himself. If you have a more conservative or repressed view of your sexuality, the ravishment/rape fantasy also allows you to fantasise about sex without seeing yourself as a slut. (This post is a great look at that last idea as applied to the movie Labyrinth, if you want to find out more.)

The idea of sexualised monstrosity is also everywhere in the tropes used to characterise Johnny. He’s a troubled rockstar, an angst-ridden artist who died tragically young, a violent political rebel, part human and part supernatural creature, a charismatic, cocky, seemingly heartless guy, who just might have a heart if you look deep enough. What all these tropes have in common is the promise of both reassuring humanity and fascinating, exciting monstrosity.

Reeves’ and Johnny’s looks combine strangeness and humanity. Reeves’ voice acting moves between soaring arrogance and languid softness. Johnny’s body language combines fear and overconfidence. And the use of age-old romantic tropes in an unexpected context, as well as the use of these specific romantic tropes, knit all the effects of the other things together to create that balance between the human and the strange. He’s unusual enough to be interesting, human enough to seem real and associated with all our cultural symbolism of an attractive man. With all that going on, how could you not find him hot as hell?

But the thing about these tropes is, they’re also so common they’re clichéd. Not just in fandom, but all across Western media and art. So what lifts Johnny and Johnny/V out of being something generic? What makes them so fascinating that I’ve written thousands of words about them? What, in short, makes them different?

That’s what I’ll go into next time.

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snapefiction · 4 years ago

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#3. Smiles - Snapemas Challenge

A/N: Day 3 of #Snapemas! I accidentally deleted my whole Text and got really nervous but thankfully I found a key combination that could save it back. Phew! I´m not really sure about this one, but I hope you enjoy it! 🎄❤️

Idea from @deepperplexity ´s Writing Challenge ! Check her Writings and the other Snapemas posts out! :)

❤️ Please remember that English isn’t my native language and that my Writings will include Mistakes and maybe weird formed sentences. ❤️

Pairing:

Warnings: insults, mention of blood

Word count: 1999

Y/N - Your Name, Y/L/N - Your last name

#3. Smiles

Because you were the youngest Teacher at Hogwarts currently you always had the urge to prove everyone that you were worth it to be called an Professor. The Staff accepted you - except for one of them. Professor Severus Snape really couldn’t hold back his spicy comments against you whenever he had a chance to. You always remained professional but still took it personal. He seemed to dislike you on any way possible.

Your Teaching Style was very trust based and you hoped to be respected by the Students for that and wouldn’t have a fight until they learned to grow closer to you. But it wasn’t as bad as your thoughts tried to trick you to think like they were. Actually you were quiet Popular because a Perk of being quiet Young was that you knew how the Students felt like. You understood them not just when it was about school stuff but also on a personal Level. But that didn’t keep the Students from being Students. It was a quiet sunny Friday Morning as it happened. The inevitable first Accident in your class. At first you barley noticed what happened because you helped an student to cast an easy spell by fixing his posture and repeating the words with him until you heard a loud bang. Turning around you faced towards an young Slytherin still holding up his Wand towards an on the ground laying Hufflepuff Girl. Rubbing her arm you could see how her knee bled awfully.

,,Mr. Springer! You were meant to cast bewitched Snowballs. What did you do?“ Kneeling next to the blonde Girl inspecting her Arm and knees. ,,I-I tried to-“ Another Student entered the Conversation. ,,He tried to cast a colour change cast on her robes.“

,,He told me that Hufflepuff was the most unsuccessful House and that-that only Slytherins could win the Housecup next week.“ She sniffed hurt. Sighing I looked over to Mr. Springer again. ,,Is that true, Mr. Springer?“ Eye rolling he admitted his act by nodding. Getting up to your full length again you closed your eyes for a second. It was the first time you had to solve a Problem like that.

,,Miss Abett, please go to the Hospital Wing and let Madame Pomfrey take care of you. Miss Young may accompany you until you got there safely. Mr. Springer, as a Hufflepuff myself I’m deeply disappointed by your Behaviour. 10 Points will be deducted from Slytherin for dishonorable Behaviour and hurting another Student out of pure pride. And you will attend at Detention after Classes.“

Realising the Class was about to end in the next 5 Minutes you just said: ,, Class dismissed.“ So you could clean the remaining snow from the floor and then hurry to the great hall to fill your stomach with something else than just tea for today. Sitting down next to Filius Flitwick, the head of Ravenclaw. ,,Ahh! Professor YLN! It’s nice to see you. How was your day?“ And as you talked about your classes and the accident from earlier the Dinner appeared and finally got to relax for the first time today. Filius assured you that incidents happen and that the way you acted was totally fine. But still you felt like the Situation wasn’t over and would bring an aftermath. Looking to your left you noticed how the Head of Slytherin himself, Severus Snape sat down next to you.

Usually you would only meet him at dinner. ,,Professor Snape.“ You greeted him shortly knowing he didn’t appreciate Smalltalk while eating, and while walking, while Meetings and while existing to be exact. He was the only Professor that still made you feel like you did everything - e v e r y t h i n g - wrong. Filius often told you that it was just his type of Style but you couldn’t help yourself but wonder if you ever offended him in any way that he would never smile back towards you. ,,Miss YLN-, I heard that one of my Students was invited to your Detention this Afternoon, is that correct?“ Counting his words to make sure that this was the longest sentence he ever addressed towards you you almost missed the way how he addressed you. Miss? Being called Miss was making you furious it was degrading towards you as if you haven’t achieved being a Professor by the Age of 23. As if being a Woman was everything that could define you. ,,Actually, Professor Snape, My name is Professor YLN. You may also address me by my first name Y/N. But I must insist of cancelling the Miss out of your sentences whenever you address me. It’s not only inappropriate but also rude.“ You started to rush your words without repeating them in your mind once again. His expression was more than just annoyed. He looked like you spat in his drink. Furious and disappointed at the same time.

,,And also yes, I gave him Detention and deducted Points from Slytherin for his rude Behaviour.“ As you intended on downing your water from your cup Snape began to speak again. ,,Maybe you missed it but as a Hogwarts Professor you wouldn’t teach Students how to throw snow balls but teach them useful things so no. To me you’re still a young Miss who can’t make up her mind. Also, Mr. Springer won’t attend at the Detention today because the Slytherin Quidditch Team needs his Captain. He’d be free for tomorrow.“ Almost boiling out of anger your cheeks started to glow red. ,,That’s not only childish but also interrupting my teaching style. Your Housepride is incredible—“ ,, I would interrupt your teaching Style, if you only had one.“ Before you could grab your Wand to cast a spell that would shut his mouth but Filius reached to your Arm.

,,Professor, maybe we should go and have a look if Miss Abett is still at the Hospital Wing, shall we?“ Even though it was quiet well known that you were a polite, helpful and loyal Person - this man could make your blood boil within miliseconds. The other Professors were aware about that as well but as often as you thought about what you may have done to upset him like that you always came to no answer. Even Minerva or Albus could help you out but plead you for patience in the sake of Snape. Leaving the great Hall you had to take deep breaths. Actually you hated situations like that and you would never start a fight, it was against your beliefs and everything you stand for but this man- only a glance from him towards you and you’d be ready to start a fight.

As Filius talked about his classes you couldn’t get your mind of the tall man with the black hair and endless dark eyes. You are a Hufflepuff, how could this Man trigger you so easily? Yes, Hufflepuffs could fight too but you never had the urge to throw snowballs at someone else’s head as much as you did now. Reaching the Hospital Wing you almost couldn’t believe your eyes. Mr. Spinger stood on the Bed next to Ms. Abett handing her a small flower and kissing her hand. Slowly getting closer you totally forgot how Professor Flitwick still followed you. ,,Mr. Springer, Ms. Abett, may I ask what’s happening?“ The smiling Miss Abett was more than just excited. ,,Jack just asked me if I wanted to go out on a Date with him!“ Jack Springer, was just blushing while he held her hand and scratched the back of his head with the other one. ,,I thought she would like me more if I would proof her how successful Slytherins are and- and maybe I choosed the wrong way of telling her so.“ Trying to save all the informations at once you nodded. ,, And that’s why you wanted to change the color of her robes so she would - that’s what you said and not I - win the Housecup with you?“ He nodded. ,,And who or what talked some sense into you and made you apologise?“

,,Plus, it’s a well known fact that Ravenclaw will definitely win the Housecup this year.“ Filius interrupted. Everyone chuckled. ,,Professor Snape told me that if I really like her I should probably be just uh nice to her.“ After the Conversation ended and everything seemed to be cleared you left the Hospital Wing alone you rushed down to your class room. Mister Springer got freed of your Detention as you told him that you’d clear things up with Professor Snape. Growing more and more nervous you actually didn’t wanted to talk to Severus at all.

Entering the Classroom you decided to grade some last test and homeworks before considering if you’d want to get poisoned today or not. Getting lost in your thoughts you almost didn’t notice how fast the time went by. Only as a knock pulled you out of your thought you had to realise how dark it had gotten and lit some candles while offering the knocking person to come in. ,,I´ll be there in a second.“ You mumbled to the Person behind you while lighting the last four candles. Turning around you almost tumbled over your own feet. ,,Professor.“ You said surprised. Severus Snape stood in the Doorframe of your classroom. If he wouldn’t have knocked before entering , you probably wouldn’t have seen him at all. His dark outfit made him melt into the dark shadows.

,,Professor YLN.“ He said and by the look on his face you could tell that it took him some mastery not to say something mean afterwards. ,,How comes that I can greet you in my classroom? Was the unbearable urge to insult my Life too strong or did you just got bored while brewing some dandelion tea?“ His face turned sour again.

,,I am not here to fight but to apologise so don’t make it this easy for me to attack you with another insult.“ Getting closer towards you he made sure that you didn’t back up instantly. ,,Apologise?“ You repeated which made you feel sorry for being so mean.

,,I talked to Minerva and she told me that you couldn’t understand my Actions completely.“ He said while not daring to look up. ,, You mean starting fights without any reason and hating me?“ Annoyed he rolled his eyes. ,,I don’t hate you.“ He was looking for words as you searched for any sense in his words or actions. ,,I really hoped we could be good colleagues.“ Sitting down on your Desk you now were completely confused until the Coin dropped.

,,You mean like Mr. Springer and Miss Abett?“ Looking up to see your reaction he nodded. ,,I wouldn’t compare myself to an dunderhead like Mr. Springer but yes. Fighting is.. its like showing someone that I like them?“ Severus sat down across of you waiting for any type of respond. ,,Well, i´m sorry to inform you that.. that doesn’t make any sense for me.“ Severus shrugged his shoulders. ,,How else am I supposed to do so?“

Chuckling you just gestured your hands up and let them sink into your lap again. ,,Smiles?“ Giving him one of the brightest Smiles you had you waited for him to repeat after you. Uncomfortable he stretched his Lips and somehow he looked like he was in Pain through the forced situation. ,,We can work on that.“ ,,So you you accept or deny my Apologies?“ Rolling your eyes you nodded again. ,,As long as you don’t prank me with this only to make me feel safe now and poison my tea in the morning I am willing to accept your apology.“ His Expression was as hard as stone until a small smirk crept around his Lips. ,,I can’t deny that I haven’t thought about it before. But for now you’re safe.“ Laughing loudly you were deeply grateful that you could burry the war times.

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