#but also we have been so patient already
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sorry but if people are really out here complaining that we aren’t getting a kitty or malec story…
like we are literally away to get a whole series of kitty together and it will be better than we ever imagined (and malec are gonna be cute & domestic in tec)
let’s just enjoy what we’re getting bc idk about ya’ll but i’m so freaking chuffed :]
#don’t get me wrong OF COURSE i would want a kitty story#(that would be amazing)#but also we have been so patient already#and twp is gettinf closer and closer by the minute#we will get such good content so soon#and it will make up for all the impatience#i’m just happy we are getting closer and closer to seeing them :(#it’s all gonna be okay and we can do this!!!#twp is gonna be a kitty fest🫶🏻#let’s enjoy the ride until we get there#seasons of shadowhunters#kit x ty#magnus x alec#kitty#malec#the wicked powers#the eldest curses#twp#tec#tsc
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#sars cov 2#covid 19#i've interacted with 4 different friends/acquaintances in the past month alone who have all been hospitalised after having a stroke#(and in one case multiple strokes)#one who i visited in hospital over the weekend had a (unmasked) nurse coughing up a lung in her room 👍#and one of them who had to undergo surgery also had to be moved to a different hospital#bc the ward they were keeping him in was full of confirmed covid patients 👍👍#idk how many times it needs to be said before it gets through people's heads but VACCINES ARE NOT ENOUGH#and encouraging ppl to rely solely on them when there are already plans to jack up the prices so you have to KEEP PAYING for boosters#for an ONGOING mass-disabling event is so laughably unrealistic and absurd and flat-out demonic#you need to mitigate the actual spread of covid by WEARING A MASK + fighting for CLEAN AIR/proper ventilation in public spaces!!!!!!#ppl are so eager to forget the whole 'break the chain of transmission' thing and how effective masking is and so this is where we're at#'i got infected and infected other ppl who might die or become permanently disabled but it's no big deal bc no one else wears a mask#so if /i/ didn't infect them someone else would have anyway so it's not my fault and really its got nothing to do with me and my choices'#if everyone is responsible then no one is responsible - that's how it works right?#it's no wonder some ppl go rabid at even the sight of someone wearing a mask and minding their own business#ppl seeking treatment for unrelated conditions/illnesses and then dying from covid caught in hospitals#due to lack of npis/basic mitigation measures - no regulations no accountability#we truly live in a hell (''new normal'') of our own making#anyway none of this is new news at all i mostly thought it might be good to share the info graphic abt signs of stroke#covid has been given free reign and chances are increasing as to how likely you'll encounter it happening to someone you know at some point#also heart attacks and pots and alzheimer's etc etc etc
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It's gettin pretty tough to keep squeakin I'll tell you that much
#this mouse has had her depression intensified again#time to read her journal and remember all the good things she cares about#time to work on moving on from the bad#I need to decide how much time being lonely and hurt I'm going to allow myself#compartmentalisation right#I can take all of this and deal with it later when there's more distance from it#I should also write myself a letter#it's always good to write myself a letter#I think I wanna cry in the shower first though#I was told not to bomb a bridge by someone with a lit stick of dynamite in her hand#standing next to an already bombed bridge#I played my part in stuff but not everything's my fault#and I think I'm gonna go cry about how it feels like that's being ignore for the sake of hating me and proving me wrong#then I'll pack all of this into a box and put it on a shelf in my mind and come back to it when somebody is ready to approach it with me#because I can't keep having this cycle alone#I can't keep listening to all the things I've been made to feel#I can't keep having imaginary conversations and wishing for magical fixes and apologies that might not ever come#god what a shit show#it's wild how fast everything can spiral out of control#and how much you can lose when it happens#I'll find another home some day#I have to believe that and keep moving forward#I'll find family that can be more patient with me and more accepting of their own flaws#I'll find a family that won't hurt me when they see me in a bad spot#i have to#please#i have to believe it's possible#and i really really really want to believe that can be my current family after weve had some time#but i feel so so scared that it cant#so lets shower and then box it up and then we can see what happens in a month I guess
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textbook case of emotional blackmail: just what you need on a Monday
#honestly just where we were heading with felv grandma for a while now#i was ready to tell her that wasn't a nice thing to say because i am NOT dealing with that shit#but her daughter already went off at her before i could say a word#the cat has a really fucked eye now but is otherwise in good condition#so we're doing our damndest to keep him alive#but grandma is afraid and overwhelmed because she just lost her other cat to leucose#so she keeps asking us to euthanise him.#and we refuse. a positive felv result alone is no reason. the eye is no reason. both of those things combined-no reason.#i'm a vet. not a killer for hire ffs.#i have explained the disease to her repeatedly. what it does. what happened with the other cat. what we can do now#everything. repeatedly. still she comes back to ask.#we offered to find a new home for the cat if she feels incapable of caring for him#“no. i'm only giving him away dead”#then threatened to kill herself and the cat.#we found a temporary solution now but i fear this isn't over yet#also worried about a coworker because she's taking it (and the other shit that's been happening in a similar vein recently) hard#and sure we talk about this stuff and how we feel about it but idk if that's enough in the end#pet death cw#suicide cw#hello yes work is insane atm#BUT! my last patient today was a cuddly old cat so i'll be focusing on that experience instead
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#extremely discouraged#I was getting help with insurance navigator person#and she was super helpful#we finished the application and I asked if there’s a way to see my info before I get my card#she asked if I want to see a doctor soon and I’m like I mean yeah but I’m waiting to start my case management#she pauses#and then tells me that the medical assistance I signed up for doesn’t include case management?????????????#lol okie dokie got it#and then she tells me all these websites and organizations I can go to file a disability#and telling me about these long applications I have to fill out#girl I can barely get out of my bed do you really think I’m able to sit down and fill out a 200 page form#seriously feel like the only option I have to actually get HELP is going to the emergency room#fun fact I almost went last night - SI thoughts were hitting me hard#but what always always stops me is the money…. my parents are already struggling#and me not working is not helping them at all#dad sent me this full time position literally at the place I’m going for day treatment and I was so confused#first of all I don’t think they’d let a patient work the front desk?? also how am I going to fit full time and this program in#especially when I barely can function and do basic shit (he doesn’t know how bad my SI thoughts were or have been but still)#I’m just bitching now I’m sorry#I need to do my laundry but now I have no energy or motivation to do anything#want to lay on the couch and through on a show and just chill there the entire day#wrapping myself up in my tortilla blankie so I’ll be a sad burrito :(#shut up rosie
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so. john has finally seen mizumono & now receives msgs like this when even mildly prompted
#no wonder his therapist quit LMAO#bestie. he kidnapped her anyway.#hannibal rlly said ''will graham doesnt love me WAAA—#time to take my therapist with me to cry to her on what wouldve been mine and will's honeymoon:')''#bedelia du maurier#she truly thought she'd be able to get rid of him as a patient after the first time he didn't let her drop him#btw. unironic Hannibal Lecter Did Nothing Wrong from me here<3#john on the otherhand is like ''??? WHY DID HE DO THAT. HE COULDVE HAD WILL AND ABIGAIL AND JUST /GONE/''#he doesnt Get it. thats what prompted this. will Gutted hannibal first. emotionally.#john's reaction also to ''you really think you could change me the way ive changed you?'' ''i already have:)''#when the cam flashed to hannibal was ''u can tell he's like 'aw man. maybe i Shouldnt have done that''' (''that'' being ''gutted will'')#skdhskfj#mizumono is the Most emotional we see hannibal prior to that point. he's so meticulous in all his plans. every detail deeply thought out#sometimes years in advance#and then all it takes is one scruffy brunet with a nack for fishing and criminal justice to turn him into emotional putty#rip.#nbc hannibal#hannibal lecter#will graham#hannigram#mizumono#hannibal s2#.png#hannibal.png#hannibal.txt#.txt#johntent
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Beginning to really wonder how much of my financial concern is manufactured and handed to me as opposed to something I'm genuinely concerned by
#bc like. i'm getting by just fine. i don't have anything to be reasonably worried about#but also when i was a kid my father would break down my mother's paycheck and basically explain how broke we were#and that May Have Affected Me Somewhat#as well as just. the way you consistently see the advice to just save! don't get takeout! necessities! and i'm not intent on living like#a monk nor am i intent on being on that grindset for financial gain#it's like i don't intrinsically care but i have so many messages given to me about how i need to care a lot and it puts me in a weird spot#i am simultaneously standing still and moving at mach speeds#i mean right now i just need a safety net while in between jobs; after that i need to save up to move out of state bc the uh#political situation and upcoming presidential election don't seem very sustainable for someone like me anymore#they weren't to begin with but i don't wanna stick around to see how bad it's gonna get#but it's like. okay and then what? save for what? going back to school i guess? idk#i feel like i keep asking myself what i'm trying to accomplish and keep trying to force myself to have answers#here and now when i have to be okay with taking things one step at a time instead of having everything here and now#it's simultaneously fine and terrible and i am holding two conflicting yet equal truths#i feel i may have a clearer head once i leave my current job. i'm trying to look but nothing feels appealing given how#burnt out i already feel. i dread going back into my workplace and i fear it's showing to the patients and i don't want that#i want a month off to rediscover who i am as a person outside of getting yelled at in retail and then pick something back up#could be feasible. genuinely could be. i need to sort out the health insurance aspect but. that's lowkey the plan?#to construct a financial safety net and then slam on the breaks for a while; see if i can strike up a deal with the staff about me#coming in for specific tasks bc we already know i'm quick and efficient with the inventory so i do have a little leverage#you know what. this is getting some of it off my chest and i'm starting to feel confident again lmao#i won't be doing weekends starting either next week or the week after so that's a start! i just think i want everything done right now#bc i'm afraid i won't have the chance again but i will. i definitely will#i just need to let myself get to that point; it's just the immense drain from the register work and the Everything that comes with retail#also having to accept that it's okay to leave this; there's not something wrong with me like. ''not being able to handle it'' or w/e#no mindfulness or detachment could've saved me; it was shit and i'm hitting the bricks and that's all there is to it#i've been thinking a lot about it all lately bc it's what's most prominent in my life rn of course#idk. pondering. introspecting. as i am wont to do#anyways if you've read all this you're a real mvp and i am kissing you on the hand#shai speaks
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#lmao apparently i was on Too High A Dose of T for starting#i finally got in with my new doctor - who is great already love him#miles ahead of my old one who asked me if i went to church and found comfort in god#and he did a double take when i told him what i'd been prescribed - a literal double take#i am now on half of what i was before whomp whomp#which is probably good until we know how my body metabolizes T#but also feels like a little step back#you have to be so goddamn patient with hrt huh#up side what i've got now will last twice as long i suppose#i don't regret going with the interim medical provider to get started because i'm 3 weeks ahead of where i would have been if i'd waited#but it is a little disconcerting to have a doctor who works for a pride clinic and prescribes hormones all the time go#''that is absolutely the wrong dose here is what you should be on''#and i am glad i am moving my care to him#thanks beth tho you were a real one for getting me the initial prescription and giving me a max dose to really kickstart things#boy stuff
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i hope all my friends who i don't talk to as much as i wish i did know they're constantly in my thoughts
#personal#i am in a constant state of agony because of how much i struggle to carry casual convos ):#bc i want to be closer to so many ppl#and i also stink at convos that aren't about specific things#and it makes it really hard to make friends bc the time it takes me to feel comfortable talking regularly is like...... long#and then i don't bother bc i feel like an ass#my heart hurts a little and I'm gonna cry from this insecurity today i can just feel it#esp cause today is the first time my best friend and i are gonna hang on vc even though we've been friends for like 7 years#and ik they don't mind bc they have similar hang ups and they love me and they're really patient with me and such#but also i feel so pathetic that i cant even regularly just call ppl to hang out#i feel like I'm a terrible person and the shittiest friend for having so many limits and boundaries and moving so slow#and the thing is i used to know how to go faster in friendships but between abuse and skill regression I'm...... terrible now#stupid asshole ex#the more i think of my struggles with interpersonal things the more i realize how much he impacted it#like i already stunk at making friends IRL by the time i met him like that's always been a thing#but i used to be so good at making friends online!!#and then he came into my life (as a friend first) and slowly isolated me from everyone for a few years before declaring that we had been-#-dating for a year (we had never officially started a relationship)#and then isolated me more and more until i literally only had him#4 years total with him in my life.#4 years that were crucial to my personhood (17-21)#4 years that by the time i finally managed to get him out of my life i had severely blunted social skills & more trauma than I already had#and now that I'm almost 4 years out from him being in my life (next spring) im realizing just how much he fucked me up#and took advantage of me and exacerbated issues he knew i had (bc i confided in him- he was my friend at first after all)#and even with a lot of work i still have the social skills of a severely abused reactive dog in a shelter#i should talk with my therapist more about this#i still haven't even fully shared my story with her about how he treated me bc every time i start i get so scared and upset i just sob#ugh):
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literally being in therapy and my therapist asking/saying Pls we Need . to test for [X] disorder and im like??? LOL nope we dont bc i already gave myself the ocular patdown i do NOT have that disorder thank you though . i would know for sure bc i would remember experiencing something like that . and she was like straight up . hey. you know the number one criteria is like being unaware . of it. there. and i was like . ????? um??? no bc i would definitely Know if that happened to me and she was just like . bro the . you dont know thats the kicker and
anyways felt like this goodnight
#cas.txt#we went ten mins past ohr normal sessions which NEVER ever ever ever happens#even tho im her last patient of the day i am rlly on top of Not Extending#and like#ive been her patient for longer+consistently than . well.#any other therapist ive had#and she actually respects me and my symptoms and issues#Nd it was soo insane actually being respected to the point#where SHE Fully suggested this. not me!!!#re: i had already said i do NOT have this disorder in my brain so i def wasnt gonna bring it up in session i have other stuff to talk abt#and then she was like oh shit youre describing [X] real hardcore#anyyyways. umm#what else was i gonna . say#oh also yeah we r gonna try to shoot for two hour sessions#and i have one inbetween my next session so#all new stuff and i need it actually LOL
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My aunts have known their cousins have a secret half-sister for more than a year... finally blackmailed them into telling
#i don't think it was welcome news i just think they deserve to know#and decide if they want to do anything about it themselves#and if they don't want to acknowledge her the sister deserves to be told so she can stop waiting and hoping#because she seems like a perfectly nice person and it's not her fault that she was norn#also these things don't stay a secret it always comes out eventually#and I'd be pissed to find a sibling and then learn that a whole faction of my cousins already knew#anyway i say blackmail but it was more strongarming. i said if they didn't go explain soon i would#ugghhh.#anyway since it was basically my doing to drop the bombshell i hope it was the right choice#i hope the cousins are ok in the long run. they're not happy tonight.#but we all knew their dad had an american girlfriend. it was a sore point but we all knew. i've even seen pictures of them together.#the fact that there was a baby is news but the whole family knows he was cheating#but it was 65 years ago and this lady deserves to have a final answer on if her bio family wants to meet her or not#she's been incredibly tactful and patient
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The danger is clear and present: COVID isn’t merely a respiratory illness; it’s a multi-dimensional threat impacting brain function, attacking almost all of the body’s organs, producing elevated risks of all kinds, and weakening our ability to fight off other diseases. Reinfections are thought to produce cumulative risks, and Long COVID is on the rise. Unfortunately, Long COVID is now being considered a long-term chronic illness — something many people will never fully recover from. Dr. Phillip Alvelda, a former program manager in DARPA’s Biological Technologies Office that pioneered the synthetic biology industry and the development of mRNA vaccine technology, is the founder of Medio Labs, a COVID diagnostic testing company. He has stepped forward as a strong critic of government COVID management, accusing health agencies of inadequacy and even deception. Alvelda is pushing for accountability and immediate action to tackle Long COVID and fend off future pandemics with stronger public health strategies. Contrary to public belief, he warns, COVID is not like the flu. New variants evolve much faster, making annual shots inadequate. He believes that if things continue as they are, with new COVID variants emerging and reinfections happening rapidly, the majority of Americans may eventually grapple with some form of Long COVID. Let’s repeat that: At the current rate of infection, most Americans may get Long COVID.
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LP: A recent JAMA study found that US adults with Long COVID are more prone to depression and anxiety – and they’re struggling to afford treatment. Given the virus’s impact on the brain, I guess the link to mental health issues isn’t surprising. PA: There are all kinds of weird things going on that could be related to COVID’s cognitive effects. I’ll give you an example. We’ve noticed since the start of the pandemic that accidents are increasing. A report published by TRIP, a transportation research nonprofit, found that traffic fatalities in California increased by 22% from 2019 to 2022. They also found the likelihood of being killed in a traffic crash increased by 28% over that period. Other data, like studies from the National Highway Traffic Safety Administration, came to similar conclusions, reporting that traffic fatalities hit a 16-year high across the country in 2021. The TRIP report also looked at traffic fatalities on a national level and found that traffic fatalities increased by 19%. LP: What role might COVID play? PA: Research points to the various ways COVID attacks the brain. Some people who have been infected have suffered motor control damage, and that could be a factor in car crashes. News is beginning to emerge about other ways COVID impacts driving. For example, in Ireland, a driver’s COVID-related brain fog was linked to a crash that killed an elderly couple. Damage from COVID could be affecting people who are flying our planes, too. We’ve had pilots that had to quit because they couldn’t control the airplanes anymore. We know that medical events among U.S. military pilots were shown to have risen over 1,700% from 2019 to 2022, which the Pentagon attributes to the virus.
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LP: You’ve criticized the track record of the CDC and the WHO – particularly their stubborn denial that COVID is airborne. PA: They knew the dangers of airborne transmission but refused to admit it for too long. They were warned repeatedly by scientists who studied aerosols. They instituted protections for themselves and for their kids against airborne transmission, but they didn’t tell the rest of us to do that.
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LP: How would you grade Biden on how he’s handled the pandemic? PA: I’d give him an F. In some ways, he fails worse than Trump because more people have actually died from COVID on his watch than on Trump’s, though blame has to be shared with Republican governors and legislators who picked ideological fights opposing things like responsible masking, testing, vaccination, and ventilation improvements for partisan reasons. Biden’s administration has continued to promote the false idea that the vaccine is all that is needed, perpetuating the notion that the pandemic is over and you don’t need to do anything about it. Biden stopped the funding for surveillance and he stopped the funding for renewing vaccine advancement research. Trump allowed 400,000 people to die unnecessarily. The Biden administration policies have allowed more than 800,000 to 900,000 and counting.
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LP: The situation with bird flu is certainly getting more concerning with the CDC confirming that a third person in the U.S. has tested positive after being exposed to infected cows. PA: Unfortunately, we’re repeating many of the same mistakes because we now know that the bird flu has made the jump to several species. The most important one now, of course, is the dairy cows. The dairy farmers have been refusing to let the government come in and inspect and test the cows. A team from Ohio State tested milk from a supermarket and found that 50% of the milk they tested was positive for bird flu viral particles.
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PA: There’s a serious risk now in allowing the virus to freely evolve within the cow population. Each cow acts as a breeding ground for countless genetic mutations, potentially leading to strains capable of jumping to other species. If any of those countless genetic experiments within each cow prove successful in developing a strain transmissible to humans, we could face another pandemic – only this one could have a 58% death rate. Did you see the movie “Contagion?” It was remarkably accurate in its apocalyptic nature. And that virus only had a 20% death rate. If the bird flu makes the jump to human-to-human transition with even half of its current lethality, that would be disastrous.
#sars cov 2#covid 19#h5n1#bird flu#articles#long covid is def a global issue not just for those in the us and most countries aren't doing much better#regardless of how much lower the mortality rate for h5n1 may or may not become if/when it becomes transmissible between humans#having bird flu infect a population the majority of whose immune system has been decimated by sars2#to the point where the average person seems to have a hard time fighting off the common cold etc...#(see the stats of whooping cough/pertussis and how they're off the CHARTS this yr in the uk and aus compared to previous yrs?#in qld average no of cases was 242 over prev 4 yrs - there have been /3783/ diagnosed as of june 9 this yr and that's just in one state.#there's a severe shortage of meds for kids in aus bc of the demand and some parents visit +10 pharmacies w/o any luck)#well.#let's just say that i miss the days when ph orgs etc adhered to the precautionary principle and were criticised for 'overreacting'#bc nothing overly terrible happened in the end (often thanks to their so-called 'overreaction')#now to simply acknowledge the reality of an obviously worsening situation is to be accused of 'fearmongering'#🤷♂️#also putting long covid and bird flu aside for a sec:#one of the wildest things that everyone seems to overlook that conor browne and others on twt have been saying for yrs#is that the effects of the covid pandemic extend far beyond the direct impacts of being infected by the virus itself#we know sars2 rips apart immune system+attacks organs. that in effect makes one more susceptible to other viruses/bacterial infections etc#that in turn creates increased demand for healthcare services for all kinds of carers and medications#modern medicine and technology allows us to provide often effective and necessary treatment for all kinds of ailments#but what if there's not enough to go around? what happens when the demand is so high that it can't be provided fast enough -- or at all?#(that's assuming you can even afford it)#what happens when doctors and nurses and other healthcare workers keep quitting due to burnout from increased patients and/or illness#because they themselves do not live in a separate reality and are not any more sheltered from the effects of constant infection/reinfection#of sars2 and increased susceptibility to other illnesses/diseases than the rest of the world?#this is the 'new normal' that's being cultivated (the effects of which are already blatantly obvious if you're paying attention)#and importantly: it. doesn't. have. to. be. this. way.
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Everything just happens all at once huh..
#managed to stay out of that covid shit for 3 years…only to test positive now goddddd#a day before our big exam…I’m livid#also worried since I was in close contact with my client during session yesterday#but I always wear a mask at least#still though…she’s been through so much already I don’t wanna get her sick too#my friend and her fiancé also tested positive#so we’re certain our mutual friend is patient zero..which pisses me off ngl#since he did not let me know ahead of time that he wasn’t feel well & didn’t wear a mask when we went to the movies…#well at least my sup isn’t making me offer a make up session for my client lol#I’m more worried about my exam tomorrow…I’m sure I’ll have to remediate all the KASA’s next semester which fucking sucks#hopefully the prof gets back to me soon…she’s so particular about things..#I’ve only been experiencing mild symptoms so far so hopefully it stays that way#this is all just so….I’m done lmao#text
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I'm so excited for this collab I may explode. The trailer also confirmed Archer (with his original va) will be there which is so so soooo great.
#love that they paid pako to draw this for us. frankly they may well have done it for me specifically. i'm so happy#my favourite illustrator drawing for a collab between my favourite games? thank you. i have been blessed.#anyway back to the point. the wait for the collab may end me. i need to know if we're getting playable units or what#and who are we getting? everyones like obviously Rin it's her route and i'm like... nooo don't#i like Rin! a lot! thanks to Ishtar she's grown on me! but like Archer is confirmed and Saber is a MUST#and i feel like that only leaves one empty spot (i just think 3 is the right number) and I want Gil SO bad.#i'd also prefer just servants instead of masters. i suppose they could combine servants and masters together like Topaz and Numby??#yeargh. i simply must be patient but it's hard...#my plan was to basically forget about it til we get closer but they keep reminding me... girl i'm already hype i cant take much more#post: misc#game: honkai sr
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i have introduced shrimps. i have done my urgent housestuff. i have registered for college classes. i just need shiT TO STOP HAPPENING SO I CAN SHOW OFF MY LIL GUYS!! MY GUYS!!!!!!!!
#need to relocate seedsguy as the blue sage (salvia azurea) has been planted at this point#the others are patiently waiting for the aquarium plants to get degunked#yes just the plants. the back glass is algae-y to feed my inverts#also i have to degunk more often because we had to remove the door curtain (keke crimes) and now sunlight comes in to grow the algae#also-also my landlady wants us to move all this shitty ass naily cedar paneling out of the attic#argh. i just want to see my guys in their new habitat with my other guys (eukaryotic) that already live there#sorry for ranting it's just that shit keeps happening#i got bitten at work today and tonight i had to call the police for a lady running into traffic from domestic violence#i am. stressed. got a followup call and she's safe for the night but like hhhh i wish that things would not be so happening all the time#turns into slutch#what tha hell my text post tag
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Hey, I saw your tags on the one post about abuse, and I wanted to reach out and say that I also struggled a lot and hurt a lot of people during a very low part of my life - and I’m proud of you, and of me, for doing our best to change ❤️🫂 I hope recovery for you is going well, brother, and that you have a great day/night. 🫶
aw thank you !! 🥺 same to you, homie. i hope everything's going well, & i'm proud of you for doing your best, too <3 🫂
it's been hard, especially since i lost my most recent job a year or two ago at this point, which has kind of put my brain into an isolative bubble. but i'm definitely still trying to be my best possible self.
#ask#ive been keeping myself out of social spaces for a long time to avoid relapsing. but i don't think my isolation is doing me too many favors.#so i'm trying to open up again. and that's been hard. but i'm doing my best#i've been doing better about catching my shitty behavior and i'm slowly getting used to like. going back on the shit i say#and apologizing for it. because i know it's shitty. and it feels shitty for me to backpedal.#especially when i try so hard not to say shit i don't mean lmao- i go so far as to make a point in speaking in definitives 🥴#because at the end of the day. i Don't know everything. and for me to confidently say that i know something only to be proven incorrect#damages my pride ig lmao- & i have my mom 2 thank 4 that mindset 🥴 tho that's no excuse for me to stay shitty.#i don't Want to be too proud to admit my faults. & i'm creeping and crawling away from that attitude.#it's been easier since my mom's been doing the same; she's trying her best to do better. and i can tell that she's trying.#she's more patient with my snippiness than she used to be. and that's been a big help.#we're all doing the best we can. especially with the resources we have; some are better off than others.#but we're all still trying our best to not be shitty.#(unrelated but on the note of not speaking in definitives. one lady was asking if i could add a gift card to her already-in-progress order-)#(& i said 'im not sure if i can do that' & so i asked my manager & she also said 🤷♂️. & when she came up & asked the customer what was up)#(the customer said ''ur cashier (me) said i couldn't add this to my order when other people have done it for me'')#(& i said '...thats not what i said.' & she said 'yes it was. u said i couldn't do this' & my manager was like 'w/e we'll do it this way')#(& i had 2 stop myself from doubling down & telling the customer that i make a point not to speak in definitives-)#(-therefore i Know for a Fact that i said ''i'm not sure.'' lmao. of all the things i was sure of in that transaction. that was it. lol)
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