#but also thinking about the au cas and how he said WE ARE THE SAME and cas said I KNOW basically

[shallowseeker]

Once an angel, always an....???

Not for nothin, but the things Cas appreciates most about Jack are the HUMAN parts.

and Cas admires that Jack takes after kelly in that he’s a beautiful EMOTIONAL CREATURE and he LOVES MOVIES

13x12

EMOTIONAL. INTUITIVE.

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And Cas is not without a smattering of PRIDE. "He looks like <me, not you> and his instinct is ME as his father" > "ON PURE INSTINCT HE REACHED OUT TO ME"

Jack called Cas father before anyone else; has maybe modeled himself after Cas

13x12, 13x01

And Cas is okay with that, but only up to a point, as we'll see when Jack starts to eat up his own soul...

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but importantly, JUST AFTER ALL THIS experience with Lucifer:

UNDERCURRENT from script: cas gets depressed and horrified with HIMSELF because hanging out with lucifer is not that uncomfortable

13x14 via @spnscripthunt-inactive

bc there's some resonance with Lucifer's angel nature, awakening Cas's own angel instincts

and despite everything maybe even some battle exhilaration

they walk out like two predators on the hunt, smiling as the prey walks right into their trap

13x12 via @spnscripthunt-inactive

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cas's not even that guilty about it when recounting it in 13x13:

okay, maybe a LITTLE nervous that Dean will be mad that Cas put himself in danger again to get the intel

Cas is like BUT I EXPECTED THAT

and as Lucifer pointed out, I myself have done the same thing before when I was taken prisoner and had to retake some grace...

...

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BUT ANYWAY

On the nature of souls, I AM ALSO continually thinking about how Cas doesn't want Jack to be a purely celestial being

the thing is, jack isn't like soulless sam was, not completely. jack has GRACE.

(We see that in how, unlike soulless Sam, soulless Jack had a unique type of emotional volatility...)

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but yeah

like mary doesn't want her boys to be hunters

cas in so many ways doesn't want jack to be an angel at least not ALL angel***

and jack gets that message early: BE AS STRONG AS THE ANGELS AND DO EVERYTHING THEY DO

and yet... when he's weak, he's not "quite himself"

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be strong like them but don't be LIKE them

what an impossible task!!!!!

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And later, even when Jack has no soul... there's still GRACE. His celestial essence was still strong:

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What Cas isn't saying????

So do I.

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SO yeah. When Jack loses his soul, Cas is affected too—but he doesn't say it. Because to admit it would be to admit what Meredith said in her script: that he's "not what he's pretending to be."

Or, worse—that maybe a soul isn't required to feel at all. Maybe they don't understand it the way they thought they did. Maybe all creatures great and small, grace or no grace, soul or no soul, have the capacity for "what we call humanity."

And if that's true, then all the self-hatred he’s buried—the angel side of him he’s never made peace with—rises to the surface.

But he won’t reckon with it. Not yet. Maybe not ever.

[hallmarkdestiel]

This one is about one of my favorite ships. Sabriel is the relationship between Sam and Gabriel. Now I know what you’re thinking.

“But he tortured Sam in the Mystery Spot episode by killing Dean over and over again.”

I get it. That’s a valid point. But here’s the thing. Sam and Gabriel have similarities in their storyline. The younger brother who just wanted out so he ran away. He wanted to be free. I’m not sure how to do this. This is hard. The point of Mystery Spot was that Gabriel was trying to prepare Sam for Dean’s death. Oh and the fact that he played ‘Heat of the moment.’ By Asia which by the way, is a LOVE song.

‘I never meant to be so bad to you

One thing I said that I would never do

A look from you and I would fall from grace

And that would wipe the smile right from my face’

Those are the first words in the song that played every morning. Gabriel was apologizing to Sam for doing this. He was trying to make a point but clearly this wasn’t exactly the best way to do that. I should probably add in here that Sam knows how Gabriel feels and what he went through in hell. They both shared the same trauma. By that, I mean they were both tortured in hell. Oh and they both have trauma due to Lucifer. If you consider the fact that Gabriel was killed by his own brother. (Or well we were meant to think that for EIGHT years.)Gabriel stayed back with Lucifer at the hotel, telling the Winchesters to leave with Kali. He stayed behind in the AU world with AU Michael. Do you ever think about the fact that Gabriel stayed behind twice because he KNEW he was going to die? He knew he wasn’t going to survive and not only that but when Sam begged him to bring Dean back, Gabriel did (Sam gave him the puppy dog eyes. The power that he has.) Even back at the hotel, he looked at Sam first before he looked at Dean. Oh and here’s something else. You know how Castiel says, “Hello Dean. Sam.”

Gabriel said, “Sam... Dean.”

Also the fact that Richard Speight Jr himself thinks that Gabriel is a good Guardian Angel for Sam. Gabriel is the Angel of Monday and what was Sam born on. Yeah. You guessed it. A MONDAY. In the Thing, Sam was the only one that Gabriel let touch him. He wouldn’t even let his own BROTHER touch him. Sam sat there with Gabriel. He was patient. He was so gentle taking the stitches off. If you watch the whole episode, when Gabriel is with Sam. That is the ONLY time he blinks. Plus everyone knows that saying “I need you” is the Winchester way of saying “I love you.” Now I know what you’re thinking.

“But that I need you belongs to Destiel!!!!”

No. It doesn’t. It can apply to other ships too. Sabriel is just another parallel to Destiel. And I can tell you why. In Exodus, when Sam dies, Gabriel blames himself. He blames himself because he couldn’t do anything. He’s low on grace, practically human and he couldn’t do anything to save Sam. Then when Sam came back, he stood up and he couldn’t even believe his eyes. Sam was alive. And don’t even get me started on the whole leader of Heaven thing. They made this whole big deal about Gabriel being the leader of Heaven.

“Get off my moose!”

And before that, when Asmodick came back in the bunker to steal Gabriel back, that Boss hog wannabe hurt Sam and Cas and faced the wrath of a VERY pissed off Archangel. I forgot to talk about tall tales. The first time they met. The way they looked at each other is just like how Dean and Castiel look at each other. It’s obvious that Gabriel had a crush on Sam. He’s a trickster. He’s messing with Sam and doesn’t know how to handle it. Changing channels. He constantly screws with Sam. Mystery Spot. Again, he doesn’t know how to deal with his crush on Sam. Oh and did I mention that Gabriel straight up flirted with Sam? He literally said, “Don’t let anyone ever tell you that you’re just a pretty face.”

I think that’s all I can think of for now.

[numberonetacostan]

Thanks for answering my III but with Taco ask ^^

Though, I do have a another III but with Taco ask and it’s kind of a big one.

I would like you to elaborate on S3 Ep 15 “Blue Buried” but with Taco, like, What would Tacos monologue be when she and Goo get asked ‘who killed Blueberry’ and she said it was Blueberry himself? What would be her reasoning? What would the others say? How would she prove her point? What would Blueberry even say? Would he say the same thing as he did in canon? Would he or really anyone convict Taco as the murderer? What would Mephone say? This one specific Ep idea has got me asking so many questions in a good way! So keep it up Loomy ^^

Hi Mushy!!!!!^^ Welcome back, and thank you for sending in another ask about my au!!!!!!!!! X] I love questions about my au!!!!!!! XD Hooray!!!!!!!!!!!! ヽ(*⌒▽⌒*)ﾉ I'm glad to see you have another!!!!!! I'm rewatching the episode as I type this out so hopefully I don't miss anything!!!!!^^ Now without further ado, it's... Elaboration Time (da-da!)!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, Taco's Tirade Murder Mystery Monologue!!!! She and Goo would be the last pair to go!!! Mephone asks for their conclusion, everyone turns to them, Goo is nervous because he still has no idea, and Taco dryly says "He's faking it." This is quite a surprise to everyone, and she continues with her reasoning!! One important thing- Mephone didn't get a recovery notification for him!!! Not only could she get Goo's testimony that he didn't see Mephone get one, but I can see her going up to Mephone and swiping down on his face to check his notifs, with the excuse of looking at the time. With the glop of Goo that Cabby and Lifering reason is why Goo must have done it, Taco would ask Goo to give her a rundown of what happened before she and the other current contestants arrived, and he'd definitely mention that Blueberry had shoved him. It's Goo, his account would be very detailed!!!!^^ As for the "CA" written in the sand? Well, we saw Goo get out of the boat in front of Candle. With Blueberry in front of him and Candle behind him, she couldn't have reached him to commit the murder. As for Cabby, like Bot said, her wheels are squeaky, and someone would have heard her if she was moving around at night. With both of those two being clear of suspicion and thus not having been what Blueberry was going to write, it makes it extra suspicious that the letters he did write are the first letters of two contestants' names, yeah? Almost as if it were a red herring? And there's no damage to the body that indicates how he would have died? Taco is made for lies and schemes, plans and manipulating things in her favor for better and worse. She can deduce it's a sham because it follows a thought process similar to what her own would be!!! Taco might also attempt to induce an involuntary response from Blueberry!! [or tell a lie that exposes his lie to her!! Like, I believe I've seen a post about this but I don't know where. She could "think out loud" to Goo, saying that if he's really dead, when she picks up his arm it will stay in the position she puts it in. This is not true since muscles relax immediately after death for 2-3 hours before rigor mortis sets in!!!! (i think!!!!!) If he keeps his arm up like she says he would if he was really dead, she would know he's faking it!!! Depends on how much Blueberry knows about corpses, really.] Since she goes last she can use everyone else's discoveries to prove her own hypothesis!!!

So, uh, I can't say much of the cast would believe her at first, but since Taco figuring out that it was Blueberry responsible for his own "murder" means she wins, and Blueberry doesn't get to rejoin, so he'd probably get up on his own. That would prove her point better than anything, lol. He doesn't get all cocky in this one, since his plan failed, but he would go through a similar explanation of why and how he did it!!! With an additional "And I would have gotten away with it, if it weren't for that meddling Taco." And there would still be the line about Mephone turning his personal problems into challenge, which Taco would interject and agree with.

As for anyone accusing Taco!!! Unfortunately Bot's word search does not include the word "Taco", I checked, so Nickel and Clover would keep their accusation aimed at Bot. Candle and Silver wouldn't be accusing The Floor anymore, since he's always been an assistant in this au and thus has no motive, but I also don't think they'd accuse Taco. Candle can see Taco's aura has improved, and is very much not as murderous as it may have been prior, and despite not having been able to form an alliance with her, Silver does still respect her, and would go along with Candle in not suspecting her. It isn't particularly important who they do end up accusing, so uh... Clover...? Sure, yeah, they accuse Clover due to her conveniently timed arrival and luck shenanigans I guess. Honestly, they can accuse whoever you want them too, it really is inconsequential. HOWEVER!!! In this au, Yin-Yang is their own team for this challenge!! The numbers are off, and they're kind of like two people, so they work together!! And would probably accuse Taco lol. They just had the miserable Springtastic challenge with her, Yin at least would probably know some of her unsavory history, she'd be a pretty foregone conclusion for them, I think.

Mephone would be pretty surprised, maybe even impressed with the logic too!! Might be pretty happy to have seen Taco put even a bit of actual effort and thought into a challenge, and even winning, with how much she wants to quit this entire season. But unlike in canon, someone did figure out whodunnit!! He'd still reveal that the jury would be choosing the winner, and wrap up the challenge there!!!

I hope this provides you with all the answers you wanted, Mushy!!!!^^ If you meant you wanted me to write the actual monologue, feel free to let me know and I can give it a shot!!! Or if you or anyone has any other questions, feel free to let me know those too!!!! I will keep it up!!!!! X]

[ananke-xiii]

Although I mainly see the first six episodes of s13 as an engaging portrayal of two grief-stricken people lacking the tools to deal with what has happened to them, I can also totally see them as the so-called "widower arc". Two things can be true at the same time because yes, Dean was totally grieving Cas' death. But I'll make it worse for you.

Maybe I'm biased by the many times I've read the term "widower arc" but Dean was 100% looking for a consort in Cas in s12 (yes, "consort", I'm tired of "partner" or "boy/girlfriend", they're weak terms, give me "sharing destiny" type of old words) so I think this interpretation is not so far-fetched.

We have a grieving widow(er), a desired consort who's dead and then resurrects and a son who's been defined as "the rising son". As I've already said these are some of the elements of one of the most ancient myths in Western culture, that is the myth of Isis and Osiris.

Now, of course it was not a retelling of that myth, I don't even think it was a conscious effort to shape the story that way but sometimes symbols will be symbols, what can you do?

First of all, two brothers: Set and Osiris and Lucifer and Cas. We know how it goes, one brother kills the other (As an aside in one version Set built a wooden chest and tricked Osiris to enter into it just to seal it and drown it in the Nile. We have totally NEVER seen this image in Supernatural. Not even ONCE).

Things get very interesting from here on because in the myth there's a lot of focus on the body of the deceased brother, Osiris/Cas. The most famous way Set disposed of his brother's corpse was to cut it into pieces, to... tear him apart if you will. It is then kinda WILD that AU!Michael kills "his" Lucifer the same way:

MIchael: I killed my Lucifer. Tore him apart in the skies over Abilene. But hey, can’t get enough of a good thing.

Apparently, the body must be somehow intact for resurrection to happen. In the myth Isis has to find his husband's bodyparts scattered all over Egypt in order to resurrect him. So we need to pay extra close attention to Cas' body which we are actually shown in that tragic scene where Dean prepares him for the pyre. So it's Dean who takes care of Cas' body, who "collects" it, just like Isis. Interesting.

In SPN "What gets burned stays dead", therefore Cas cannot resurrect, or so they think. The mantra is repeated by Jack in "Tombstone" when he first sees his father. To be honest, we don't really know how Cas resurrects. For the first time we see what happens to him between death and rebirth but we miss the technicalities. We can only assume that Cas' ashes were enough. Or maybe, just maybe, that's just a rule that applies in Chuck's story. Just saying.

I'm not sure if they try to discover how Jack managed to do that but the point remains: it was Jack who woke Cas up in the Empty.

And why did he do that? Well, because he can. The very first thing that Jack does is resurrecting Kelly in an episode aptly named "The Future", where Jack is sort of introduced via his mother's resurrection. He doesn't know how to use this power but he unconsciously does it again with his father. And I ask again: why?

Jack wakes Cas up in "The Big Empty", four episodes into the season. He could've done it sooner? No. Because what prompts him to unconsciously act is Dean's grief. And Dean reaches his boiling point when Sam finally provokes him. Osiris/Cas dies and his consort Isis/Dean is inconsolable. Other people like Sam can forget about it, but Dean can't in every sense of the verb.

In the myth it's Isis who resurrects Osiris and has a child, Horus, with him. But she got help. Dean's only human but there is a demi-god running around in his bunker so I think that helped. And Cas must be credited for the effort and the pushing.

Let's just say that resurrecting Castiel took three, actually four people okay? It required a team effort. Because none of them is a fully-fledged god like God or Amara or some Archangel who can just snap their fingers and boom welcome back to Life. Coaxing someone into resurrection (a resurrection with consent) takes a lot of willpower... and a lot of love.

I said four people because the last character in this little story is The Shadow. And we see this in the myth as well!

Isis doesn't "just" resurrect Osiris, she has to convince the motherfucker. Cause, you see, Osiris's heart was tired. A tired heart! Oh so beautiful! He didn't see the reason to go back to life. He was sooo tired. Isis has to literally seduce him back to life. And... this is kind of what The Shadow does, but in reverse? It tells Castiel to go back to sleep, to find peace, it's been in his mind and he wants to sleep, it knows!

The Shadow is Cas' tiredness, all his failures and regrets. But, as I said, it takes a lot of willpower and a lot of love to resurrect the dead, this is what Isis teaches us actually. To love more and then some more. And Cas loves back and he loves hard.

Castiel: You can prance and you can preen and you can scream and yell and remind me of my failings but somehow, I’m awake. And I will stay awake and I will keep you awake until we both go insane. I will fight you. Fight you and fight you for…ever. For eternity.

He didn't come back because he annoyed an ancient cosmic being. He came back because he loved.

So Osiris/Cas are back to life and that's good, right? Well... yeahhh. The thing is that Osiris will then live in the world of the dead so he kinda doesn't really really stay alive for long. And Isis will follow him. Things will likely go bad for Cas.

But the story continues!

Set/Lucifer and Horus/Jack engage in a rather disturbing (in the myth) struggle for power. The myth has different endings: in one they reconcile, in another they divide the realm, in yet another one Horus is the one true winner. So we don't really know (from this point in the narrative) how things will actually turn out for the two of them.

Isn't it interesting? Well, it's not surprising because there is a connection between christian stories and greek and egyptian ones but still? Kinda cool to see how myths keep repeating and repeating. As if we're still trying to understand them.

Anyway: yes to the widower arc, yes to love piercing through the veil of death. Both ways! It takes the love of two to resurrect.

[haydenthewitch]

sometimes i like to make truly insane buddie au's. will i ever write them? mostlikely not. but just imagine with me

buddie high school musical au. buck is obvi troy and eddie is gabriella. just imagine with me eddie staring longinly out the window at buck going "AND WISHES ON A STARRR THEY DON'T COME TRUUUUEEE-EE". Imagine Buck singing "Bet on it." come ONNNNNN

buddie stucky au. BUDDIE STUCKY AU. in my head, buck is so obvouisly captain america it's actualy ridcoulous. yes in the "golden retriver" way but also in the "standing on buisness about what is right and moral" way. and then eddie is SOOO bucky. ugh. FUFUSNJSN. the war-time ladies man? who then goes ghrough so much trama he becomes a literal shell of himself???? coprate would like you to find the diffrence between these. they are the same picture. and then??? buck saying "Eddie?" imagine right now our beloved ostark saying "When i had nothing i had eddie." KILL ME KILL ME KILL ME KILL ME. eddie going "But i knew him. i knew him." UGH. BUCK SAYING "[villan] said 'Eddie' and i was 17 again." I'M GOING TO MAUL SOMEONE TO DEATH. i like need to take a breather i'm going to lose my mind.

buddie SPN au. let me cook let me cook let me cook let me cook okay. eddie as cas and buck as dean. and oh! oh! and that scene THE VERY TOUCH OF YOU CORRUPTS?? thats so them trust. imagine for a second here that ryan guzman says the like "i'm the one who gripped you tight and raised you from perdition???" ohhhhh my god imagine "what? you don't think you deserve to be saved?" FROM EDDIE TO BUCK??? id die id die id die. and ofc chris as their shared son, jack. (execpt that buck never says any of the FUCKASS things dean says to jack) i feel unhinged saying this but chim as sam whinchester and ravi as kevin tran ykwim

buddie twilight au. eddie is edward and buck is bella. do i have reasons for this? yes. it's becuse i said so. source: trust me bro.

buddie julie and the phantoms au. obvi eddie as juilie and buck as luke. +118 as extra ghost band members. specificaly them singing perfect harmony COME ON it's in the GD lyrics. ("love me as i am... we say we're frenids/we play pretend/your more to me/ we create the perfect harmony" LOOK ME IN THE FACE AND TELL MD ITS NOT THEM)

buddie "the selection" au. (you know, the Y/A book with america and max and FUCKING ASPEN. FUCK YOU ASPEN YOU KNOW WHAT YOU DID.) yeah buck as america OBVOUSLY and tommy as aspen (FUCK YOU ASPEN I'M STILL NOT OVER IT) and max as eddie (execpt this one doesn't work all that well becuse buck and eddie NEVER FIGHT and max and amaerica like. fight 90% of the time their together) but like. early season 2 buck and eddie as max and america?? ohhhh sign me up

buddie grey's anatomy au?? now look i haven't watched greys so i don't know any of the plot or charcters but i just feel like. nurse eddie and intern buck and attending bobby and intern hen and nurse chimney. can anybody hear me. i feel like buck is dramafic enought to be merdith and i think? maybe? hen as christina? u feel like it fits but IDK how to explain it i have only ever seen clips

vampire diaries buddie au I KNOW I ALREADY DID TWILIGHT. IT'S DIFFRENT. eddie is stephan and buck is caroline (I'M A STEPHAN AND CAROLINE GIRL OKAY. ELENA AND DAMON WERE MENT FOR EACH OTHER. STFU) but i change the end of their story so that their wedding doesn't end the way it did in TVD and they live forever in undeath and are happy about it. bobby has an alarick saltzman vibe but like. watered down alarick. not-a-dick-alarick. can anybody hear me.

BUDDIE PJO AU. Buck as percy and eddie as annabeth. oh EDDIE IS SO 'DAUGHTER OF ATHENA' CODED. i know yall know wtf i'm talking about. the kiss under the water is so THEM. although i think buck is more afraid of spiders than eddie is 4sure.

yes i know none of this makes sense. but it's important. to me.

[soullessjack]

i don’t think there’s anything new I can add to the performative-jack studies because it’s like..very cut and dry, guy who’s constantly perceived as a threat does his best to seem innocuous and friendly..but there is an underlying layer of exactly how jack tries to present himself to others (that I’ve definitely already posted about but whatever).

soo like. take this outline for example:

Jack: “He still has to be killed.” Cas: “Doing that might kill Dean as well, so [I] doubt any of [us] would be willing to do that.” Jack: “I would.”

‘Cas is a little shocked by how calmly Jack says this, and Jack says he knows what Cas is thinking; that this is Lucifer’s gene pool talking. It’s not. “I’m not my father. I’m not my mother. I’m me.”

“You’re all so focused on saving Dean, but Dean is Michael’s vessel. There’s a good chance Dean isn’t even alive. Is Jimmy Novak still alive?* Could anyone save him? It’s Michael. And Michael has to die.” ‘Cas stares at Jack, who looks coldly collected.

post-war jack is straight up traumatized and jaded by everything he’s seen and experienced in apocalypse world, still making efforts to be kind and sympathetic of course, but with a bit more edge to him now. for six months he’s been fixated on killing Michael, and he’s way more willing to do the Hard Thing (kill Dean) than he might’ve been before to do so (which actually reminds me a LOT of the chicken/snake story from ouroboros but we won’t get off subject).

obviously he still cares about/loves Dean, we’ve seen that in the rest of S14, but he’s also seen what Michael did to another world and wouldn’t put anything before preventing that. *he’s also very willing to hit Cas where it hurts with the Jimmy comment

but the thing that sticks out is Castiel immediately assuming that Jack’s calm, cold collectedness in the way he talks about killing Dean/Michael is somehow evidence of Lucifer’s influence or heritage; that Jack couldn’t possibly feel this way by himself. even Jack refutes it, stating that he’s neither of his parents (ie, it’s his own decision to kill Dean if it’s necessary). I think it’s also interesting he mentioned not being his mother, because I think that’s why Cas is so surprised by his demeanor and jumps to attribute it to Lucifer.

from day one Kelly’s heritage was the only argument Sam and Cas had against the idea that Jack would be evil. to be fair, Jack does take after Kelly a lot; he even looks like her to some extent. but treating Kelly’s heritage as the It-factor that makes Jack good, treating him as basically an extension of Kelly who must be good and kind because she was good and kind (literally an inverse of how Lucifer’s heritage is treated) is still just dehumanizing.

the distrust he faces is understandable coming from AU Bobby and people who are being actually displaced and exterminated by Michael, but the fact that Jack is subject to the same scrutiny from his own chosen father as well adds to why he represses these parts of himself so much, why he puts on that naive nuclear-son personality and basically butters everyone up all the time.

I think the only times when Jack has actually unmasked himself were at points of extreme low empathy, because most of the time his facade is put on for the sake of other people and the fear they feel towards him. he obviously wouldn’t have to worry about that while he’s human, but like I said, he’s literally a war veteran/criminal by this point. he’s gonna have a little more edge to him than before, and a little less empathy for the small things.

the second and probably more obvious one is his behavior while soulless, completely lacking the empathy required to care about keeping up his facade—so much so that he just bluntly tells Mary that he’s annoyed by everyone eggshell-walking around him like he’s a time bomb again. then, *checks script* like a flip switched, he goes back to that facade and reassures Mary that he knows they’re doing it out of love. He’s blatantly performing his emotional responses now.

jack is still soulless for like…three (?) episodes in S15, and still incapable of really feeling any emotion despite being able to logically process them. like he is literally so empty inside that he resorts to binge eating to feel some kind of sensation. but he’s consistently playing up the happy-go-lucky shtick when he isn’t just depressed and withdrawn (especially the church basement scene where he immediately gets the dumb Bambi look when he sees Cas after his failed cannibalism attempt).

got a headache while writing this so I’ll just leave it here but like. A Lot of the reason why Jack performs so much is because specific traits he shows are not only taken as threats, but are also associated with Lucifer and treated as signs of his “true nature” <- click that link it’s important for context

Mk that’s all byeeee (*´ -`)

[my-castles-crumbling]

Anon Advice Asks - April 6

empathy anon (new), sunrise anon, get over anon (new), thoughts anon, tomato anon

empathy anon

hi cas!

i have this friend who is low empathy. he has said it many times and explained it to me and i do get it, but also, sometimes he just idk insults me ig?

he will say i need to change my appearance (jokingly, but he’s still dragging up old insecurities in unpleasant ways), and 90% of the time when i ask for help from him, he says “it’s not that hard” or smth like that. he judges me and says i just need to “try harder”

it’s frustrating. i don’t feel comfortable failing around him, and he is genuinely such a lovely person, but sometimes he makes me feel like shit

i think if i told him it would just go back to the fact that he’s low empathy, but i still feel like thats not an excuse to treat me poorly idk though

Hi!

I think what you said last, about it not being an excuse to treat you poorly, is exactly right. People have different levels of empathy and that's completely fine. Sometimes I have trouble having empathy, too. But that doesn't give anyone the right to say rude things. Low empathy doesn't cause the inability to shut up lol. I think he needs to learn to say "Hey, I'm probably not the right person to talk to about this" rather than saying hurtful things.

Honestly I think you should tell him hes being hurtful and if he continues to be, then you need to take a step back. Empathy aside, friends don't treat friends like that.

Sending love <3

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Sunrise anon

hiiiii first of all, sunrise anon is a beautiful name and I love it

It’s fine that it took you a bit to respond! I assumed that tumblr ate up my ask so it was nice to know it wasn’t. Strange that it only just appeared in your inbox though lol

I didn’t end up going to any of my classes, I was very emotional for that entire day, literally could not stop crying. It would of been embarrassing but luckily my parents were very understanding about the situation as this was not the first time it has happened. It bad never been that bad though. My worst nights are usually when I get around 1-2 hours so they’re used to dealing with me being pretty sleep deprived.

I do not currently have a set night-time routine but I am working on it. I try get into bed at the same time every night, and then I try go to sleep at the same time every night, it’s not always successful but it’s quite nice to have set chill time yk

Since then I’ve been much better. Actually I’m sleeping really well, I’m not used to it, it’s amazing. Nobody told me sleep could be so restful. I thought that entire thing was a myth. But no! It’s true! What a world we live in

Anyway, thanks Cas! Really appreciate everything you do

Also I love all your microfics, they are often the highlight of my day <3

Hi!

I'm so glad you've been sleeping better lately! Remember that a bedtime routine isn;t just going to bed at a certain time, but having certain things you like to do before bed-- reading, washing your face, listening to music, etc. If you do those things habitually, then on those nights when you don't feel tired, you can try those things to sort of trick your mind into feeling tired.

I hope you continue to sleep well!

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get over anon

how do I get over someone? It has nearly been a year now…

Hi <3

I think you have to be gentle to yourself. Feelings aren't linear and they can take a lot of time to evolve. Have you tried allowing yourself to feel and exploring those feelings? Journal, draw, sing, things like that, to express those emotions, rather than stifle them, you know?

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thoughts anon

Hey Cas, I need fic writing advice

It's my first fic (The Cruel Prince au), and a lot of canon facts are changed as I see fit. To the point that people may not like reading it. I've written the prologue and the first two chapters but I'm yet to publish it (on AO3 ofc). I'm uncertain on how to go about this, what tags come in what chronology and what can be classified as a trigger warning. I don't want to be ignorant or disrespectful in any way, and this fic is kind of like my baby so I kind of want to post it but I'm also wary.

-thoughts anon

Hi <3

So I'm very gently going to say that you're overthinking this. You're thinking way too much about your audience and not enough about you. Who cares if certain people don't like reading it? Write it for YOU. As far as tags, again...tag what you want! What do YOU think is important to tag? And for TWs, what did you write about that you have seen warned about in the past? Normally the major ones are SA, death, SH, SI...but you know your writing best.

I know this is your baby and you want it to be perfect, but you can always add and change things as you go <3 Do this for YOU. What would you as a reader want your fic to look like?

You can do this!

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Tomato anon

Well, hello there! It's tomato anon.

Been a while since we talked. Thought I'd catch you up.

My friend is fine, doing way better. Figured myself out, so that's good. I'm greysexual, and I've changed my pronouns a little bit. Also got myself a boyfriend, if you can believe it.

Life's good, and I'm very thankful for the advice you shared with me.

Hi! I'm so glad things are good, congratulations on the boyfriend!! It makes me so happy to know things are good with you!

Have a good day! <3

[brucewaynehater101]

I once read a fic where dick, Jason and Tim are not human and that Damian and Bruce are the only humans (Alfred doesn't count) in the manor basically the fic was about how bruce took care of non human dick jason and tim and when damin came he had issues with them but came to accept them in the end and that got me thinking an au where the batfam are not human except bruce. like hes the only FULLY human in the family. like the in the fic dick was a doll that cam to life, but i also read somewhere that dick was a tentacle monster thing because of hugs (i dont remember it well because i read it when i was half asleep) Jason probably had something to do with gotham, like all the chemicals made him immune to most things and also being in the streets probably messed up his health and also he might be born? Made? Not human and that was before he DIED and was dipped in the Lazarus pit, which probably has supernatural consequences, and made him even more not human. Tim was probably cursed by an artifact that his parents brought home when he was young or he was just born (maybe bred, I'm pretty sure rich people can breed their own child) that way that makes people question if he is human or a sickly Victorian child in the wrong era, he also must be good with the shadows if he can follow batman around (and we are not yet talking about his age is he forever 17 or did he age, if so how old is he?)

Steph is the child of a supervillain and is probably an ally kid, so she is kinda similar to Jason but with more drugs and the spoiler thing. (i dont have any idea with her) Cass was probably trained and experimented by David Cain to act the way she does (nobody know if she's human or not and it freaks people out) Damian probably was the most human among Bruce children as he is made by his DNA, but if he was also dipped in the Lazarus pit then maybe there's a chance that's he's not human, but that can just be league training. Duke has powers and was living in the streets when is parents got joker gassed and was also living in the zero year when riddler was mayor and made a we are robin movement (sorry if i got his character wrong) Nobody knows actually if Damian and Cass are human as they possessed abilities that no Normal human can like blending in the shadows too well that that can't be seen (even when it's a light shadow you can't see them unless they want to be seen) but they were also trained assassin's and maybe those were the consequences of their childhood (at least most heroes or people hope)

The same can be said to the others, dick can perfectly blend in the shadows and when he fights he tends to pull stunts that no normal human can pull (does he even have bones how can he bend like that). Jason is like a tank and somehow is quieter than he looks, he can be stabbed and will still keep fighting like nothing happened. Tim doesn't sleep and he lost his spleen and still doing okay. Steph knows where to go, Cass can read you like a book and can probably kick superman's ass without a sweat, Damian was raised by demons and duke can bend the shadows to his will.

And somehow some way

BRUCE IS STILL HUMAN

like this man gets fear-gassed in the face, poison ivy's multitude of poisons, joker gassed. and whatever gotham throws at him while running a company and getting little to no amount of sleep and still function like a normal human being while actually BEING 100% human. and it just confuses the kids a lot (sorry if the English is bad. English is my secondary language and most of the time i speak my first language which is Filipino and I'm typing this on my laptop while most of my family are sleeping. and most of these points are from my drafts, my only saving garce is autocorrect )

You're perfectly alright. No worries at all ^^

To summarize, you want to think about an AU where Bruce is human and the rest of the Bats are not? We can definitely explore that, but first, I think I know what fics you were talking about.

For the Dick is a doll one, I can't find it. It's making me sad cause it was a great one of Bruce continuously adopting kids that others want to harm/kill due to their nature. Just Bruce fighting against his instincts so he can provide them love. It's cute.

For the Dick has weird hugging abilities, I think "you can swear in my hoard" by Inkpotsprite is the fic you were thinking about. Tim and Dick are the only confirmed non-humans, though.

For a fic where the batkids are born as a variety of angels or demons and Bruce is a human, the "heaven sent//hell bent" series by AstraEllis is good.

There's other ones, but feel free to reblog/comment suggestions.

As far as the AU, I agree that Bruce pushes his body past what's considered human limits (they all do). It would be funny if the JL had discussions about that in confusion (the humans and non humans trying to figure out how he manages to do everything he does without powers).

If you want to create an AU going over specifically what each batkid could be if they were non-human, let me know!

EDIT: A commentor revealed the fic name for the doll one!!! "You, Me, and the Humanity in Between" by JUBE514

[thenightling]

I'm posting this to calm some Beetlejuice fans with anxiety

Okay, I know I can't tell you anything official. Only Tim Burton can do that. But here are my reasons for believing Beetlejuice was NOT destroyed at the end of Beetlejuice Beetlejuice.

All right, here there be spoilers. We're talking about the end of the movie so I figured spoilers would be obvious but... This is The Internet... SPOILERS! Why I do NOT believe Beetlejuice was destroyed at the end of Beetlejuice Beetlejuice. 1. Beetlejuice violated a rule of The Netherworld in taking a mortal into The Land of The Dead. This voids Beetlejuice's contract with Lydia. It does not mean instant death. Nothing is said in-canon to sugget this. 2. Lydia banishes Beetlejuice by saying his name three times. As established in the previous film this is how you banish him after he has been invoked. 3. I've seen some speculation of "But there is some lore where if you banish a ghost enough times the ghost is destroyed." Really? Speaking as an armchair folklorist, occultist, and paranormal researcher... What lore is this? That's not in any folklore or movie I've ever seen and more importantly it never comes up in either of the Beetlejuice movies, Beetlejuice Broadway musical, Beetlejuice comic books, Beetlejuice amusement park live show, or the Beetlejuice animated series. Rule of thumb if it's not established in the canon of the franchise, or tie-ins to the franchise (even AUs) than chances are it's not canon. Also if I humor the idea that banishing him "too many times" will destroy him than shouldn't that have happened already? Obviously he's been very busy with his bio-exorcism business (the small-heads managing his call centre). Each customer invokes him by calling his name three times and then sends him away when they're done by also saying his name three times. That would be a LOT of invocations and banishments. Why would Lydia's banishment be one too many? There was nothing to suggest this.

4. Yes, Beetlejuice inflates and he never did that when being banished previously in the films. This is true. However each banishment or invocation is unique. In the first movie, the first time he's banished it is by Barbara while he's messing with the Deetz family in the form of a giant snake. When banished he says "Oh, no!" and Then pops away from his snake form and the banister is back to normal. The inflation is also a direct and deliberate homage to the first episode of the Beetlejuice animated series. In that episode we see him inflate and pop and there's even a song number that mentions it. "Biodegradable, semi-inflatable, ghost with the most!" Why would popping as a balloon suddenly destroy him? He was eaten by a Sandworm in the first movie. And his head was shrunk at the end of the first movie. That didn't last either. I didn't think anyone thought it would. He can shapeshift. 5. In the Beetlejuice movies only two ways of destroying ghosts have been established and even they are negotiable. Exorcism and being eaten by a soul sucker (Succubus). (Justice for Bob!) Being banished (sent back to The Netherworld (Neither world in the animated series) via name de-invocation) is not the same as an exorcism. 6. If he was really destroyed do you honestly think Beetlejuice's last words would be a casual "Should've got married in Vegas."? 7. At the end of Beetlejuice Beetlejuice Lydia has a dream within a dream and when she wakes up from the secondary dream we can hear Beetlejuice cackle before his (apparent) favorite song's disco cover starts to play on the end credits. Much like the Evil Ed laugh and and "You're so cool Brewster!" at the end of the original 1985 Fright Night, this was to tell us he's really still alive. (FYI for the curious, in Fright Night Evil Ed was supposed to be the villain in Fright Night: Part 2 in 1988 by the way but the actor didn't want to come back to the franchise at the time. So the character came back in the comics instead.) 8. There is no canonical reason in-story to believe Beetlejuice was destroyed by violating his contract and being banished. There was nothing established to suggest this would happen. I've watched the second movie twice now and have the first movie pretty much memorized. There's nothing in the lore to even hint that this would destroy him. 9. Tim Burton doesn't like to kill his favorite characters and Beetlejuice is one of his favorites. 10. If we take The "Hot Ones" crossover video as canon and taking place after the second movie, than he's definitely still around. 11. He can't be destroyed because... Somebody left the cake out in the rain...

[druidx]

Directors commentary for havens ember

Hey Ray!

I am assuming you want commentary for the overarching series and not, like, something about all 21 completed fics within it 😅️ (Though having said that, I think you might be getting a bit of an essay anyway).

My Modern, No Powers, Everyone Lives AU, aka Haven's Ember series, came about while I was in the middle of having a crisis about My Blade for Thee, Your Son to Be (Martin is a Blade AU) and how much work that silly little idea was going to be.

@mishkakagehishka posted that she was craving some "Martin Lives" AU fic, so I - because I needed a distraction - said I would have a go. But, you know, the end of Oblivion is pretty definite. I couldn't see a way around it, so boom - we now have a Modern/ No Powers AU, because Martin is then saved by modern medicine and is not turned into a Godly avatar. Then @arcane-elder-scrolls requested some Bodyguard fluff be tucked in, so that became the basis for The Birthday Party.

In My Blade for Thee, the Prisoner wasn't going to feature much - that story was due to end as soon as Uriel took his last breath. Which meant that they could be recycled. Since I'm incapable of turning my brain off, I already had a good idea that this Prisoner would be young, chirpy but troublesome, and working for the Grey Fox.

When the Modern HoK first turned up, it was jumping out of a black Land Rover with the name Sophie Williams. The first The Birthday Party turned directly into angst, which was not the prompt, so it was scrapped. When I started re-writing The Birthday Party, the HoK was inexplicably called Aderyn Griffiths, but they were the same person: slender, auburn hair, devil-may-care attitude and, well, spoke like I do on the casual. I thought it would be interesting for this HoK to have a legal name and a preferred name that was completely different, so it stuck.

Why did you start writing the Main Quest line? Because I can't turn my brain off. After finishing The Birthday Party, I kept thinking about the final scene in Oblivion, and how it would translate into the Haven's Ember world. And, obviously, I couldn't just write the end and leave it at that. No, no. I had to write the whole damned lead-up to it as well, which has become The Ruby Falls. But I will say I had shove to do it from the above two, and @strosmkai-rum, otherwise I might not have attempted it.

Didn't The Ruby Falls start off called Haven's Ember? Yes, it did. To start with, the Main Quest story (that bastarding (affectionate) thing which is currently pushing 190K words) was called Haven's Ember, and for a very brief while the series was called Ruby Falls. But I was never happy with them like that. "Haven's Ember" is too cosy for a story about tragedy, and "Ruby Falls" sounds cataclysmic, right? So I swapped them over and now I think they're both spot on.

Why is Haven's Ember set in Great Britain and the EU? Because it's where I live. I thought about Americanising it, but it would have been the United States you get in the movies - Genericsville, IL/NY/CA/WTF. I know the UK; I do not know the States.

Why is it 'modern' as in Earth modern, not Nirn modern? *Cries in 'I didn't know it was an option'*. By the time I realised that was a possibility, I was already knee-deep in worldbuilding for The Ruby Falls and it was either commit or die. So I committed.

If it's set in GB, why is Baurus still American? I'm sorry, have you not heard Michael Mack's voice? One doesn't mess with perfection, darling.

If Baurus is American, why isn't Martin? Again, have you not heard Sean Bean? He's from Yorkshire; thus too is Martin, and this is a hill I will die on.

And why is Belisarius Bulgarian? Because @strosmkai-rum asked nicely. She also asked for someone to be Greek, but I never got that far down the list of Blades. Maybe it's Cyrus, IDK yet.

What sexualities have you got going on in this? Martin is bi, Baurus is gay, Caroline is lesbian, Aderyn is ace, Arcturus and Cyrus are queerplatonic. I think that's it off the top of my head.

What did you do with the Thieves Guild? They became GreyFox Securities (GFS), a digital and physical security firm. The Grey Fox is still called the Grey Fox (a la security personnel not giving their real names) and he still wears the hood. Aderyn is a Physical Penetration Tester, which is someone who put's a building's security through its paces and then reports back what needs to be changed. I have had so much fun researching this.

What's the most fun toy you've found that you want to give yourself Aderyn? Earrings that let you unlock handcuffs. There's also a bracelet that contains micro-lockpicking tools. And a kit that lets you scan RFID cards... Honestly, I shouldn't be let loose on TeamRed's webstore without supervision.

... I think I'm out of stuff to add. I, uh, hope that answers your ask? 😅️ Thank you so much for the opportunity to ramble about an AU that has been occupying my brain since 2020. I'm more than happy to carry on if you've got anything specific you want to know.

🫖️🌿️

[stokesy55]

I know right, I need that scene of Marn kicking Shubman off the sofa now. 😆😆😆 Bonus if Marn gets up all confused, wondering why they're on the bed when he remembers going to the sofa with Shub. Shub smirks at him. "Well, you kicked me off the sofa so I carried you here... thought it would be more comfortable." Marn is so embarrassed that he kicked Shub off lmaoo 😂😂

Yes, I love the idea of Shub cornering Patty at the presentations to give him a piece of his mind. It makes sense that the BCCI would want a fresh omega sent to the aus dressing room, because as you said it's not really a bet if the omega is going to his own bonded alpha.

Oh dear, Steve will end up with a black eye or two if he sends Yash back smelling of him. xD So for the sake of his safety, we'll have Marn intervene and not let him do that. Or maybe Steve goes to put his jumper on Yash, but Yash flinches away, whimpering, because he doesn't want to be rid of Shub's scent, it's so comforting for him and Steve backs off immediately because he's not going to make Yash uncomfortable for the sake of a petty rivalry with Shubman. He can find other ways to settle the score.

But I do like the idea of Yash returning to the Indian dressing room in Steve's jumper, stinking of him, and before Shub can do/say anything, Yashasvi is the one who begs Shubman for his jumper to get rid of Steve's scent on him. Shubman obliged immediately, and has Steve's jumper ceremonially burned. 😆😆😆 Probably sends Steve a video of him doing the same.

Also, speaking of Yash getting jealous, headcanon that he's very insecure of Abhishek Sharma. (The guy who scored 135 in the last T20i). So Shubman and Abhishek have been best friends since childhood, they met during domestic tryouts. Abhishek is an omega in my mind, and I can see him being the only omega on his youth teams. Cue baby Shubman immediately taking it upon himself to protect baby Abhishek from all the unwelcome advances he receives. Bonus points if Shubman once stands up to a much older alpha, like a coach or someone who wants Abhishek to sleep with them if he wants an entry into the youth squad. Shubman is a hot-headed sixteen year old then who has no problem going toe-to-toe with an alpha twice his size and thrice his age to protect Abhishek.

So Yashasvi kinda being very insecure of Abhishek and Shubman's friendship because they've been besties for so long, they know every little thing about each other, how can Yash himself ever match the easy chemistry Shub has with Abhi? Also, Abhishek is an omega quite like VK-- cocky, confident, promiscuous. Yash finds himself so inadequate as a romantic partner for Shubman when comparing himself with Abhishek, because Abhi is so beautiful and pretty and seductive and witty, why would Shub give any attention to a quiet, reserved, broken omega like him when he has someone like Abhi around? Unbeknownst to Yash, Abhi is Shub's rant partner about "What more can I do to woo Yash?" "Why won't Yash look at me?" "Oh fuck, Yash looks so pretty in the new training kit, heaven help me, how am I supposed to train without getting distracted now?"

Also, what do the older alphas like Jimmy/Ben/KP or Steve/Pat/Marshy think of Shub's treatment of not just their omegas, but omegas as a broader second-gender?

Ahha, aww that's cute. We could have Shub asking Marn about his night terrors and how frequent they are? I see a cute conversations occurring.

Yeah Yash makes sense so Shub gets to go and be aggressive to Patty :P

Ok, so how about this - Steve gives Yash his jumper after Marn begs him to because giving Yash an alpha scent will help mislead the CA to thinking the omegas are being used by the players, thus stopping any board members from getting involved. Marn and Steve think nothing of it, but Yash HATES it (in this version, he DOESN'T have Shub's hoodie on to start). Still Marn chills with Yash all evening, even staying up with him when Steve brings him back to his room (Marn so totally does not need his own hotel room; it always goes unused now he and Steve are officially together). He notices Yash seems a bit uncomfortable but doesn't think much of it; he assumes this is Yash's first time bet so he's doing everything to try and chill the omega out. As soon as they're in Steve's room Yash rips the hoodie off, but it's not help. Steve's scent is stuck to him like glue.

Yash gets collected in the morning and returned to the Indian team. He makes a bee-line for Shub, not even waiting for the alpha to ask if he's OK (Shub is looking like he hasn't slept a wink all night - which he hasn't) simply demanding: "Get it off me." Shub doesn't have to ask what he's talking about, happy to take Yash back to his room and wash the omega clean, scenting him himself as he does. Picture a nice, sweet moment of Shub washing Yash softly in the bath, only for Yash to propose bonding xD

Ooo I like him getting jealous, but we'll need Shub to do something to cool that jealousy down. Otherwise we get stuck in a spiral and there's really no way out of it or for them to logically stay together. Also - thanks for that reminder about Abhi's knock... 😣 But I love Abhi actually being Shub's confidant, and any time they're together Shub can literally do nothing but talk about Yash.

KP should not and should never be included in that list. I thought we'd established that in HIPS xD

Ben, Jimmy, Pat - all of them would be really impressed and inspired by Shub's attitude. Dare I say schooling themselves for not taking the initiative he has. Just remember they're like the bridge 'generation' of players; not Jimmy, but Ben and Pat have seen what is was like for omegas, have hoped for the change and are starting to see it come to light. Hence why they're a little slow out the block, unlike Shub who's always seen playing omegas as just players.

But this would DEFO cause Ben and Pat to come together ahead of the 2023 Ashes, agree that the fighting happens on the pitch and not off it, and omegas are people too. There's an unspoken agreement that, if either team win, they won't use the omegas like has almost become tradition for The Ashes.

This actually fits quite well because irl KP was really vocal during the first test that the Aussies and England players were being way too chummy off-pitch for his liking. I can see that translating in verse to him being like "They're Aussie omegas, you fuck them hard. Better yet if you can get to them mid series and get them ruled out of a Test." He doesn't agree with this new way Ben and Pat seem to be doing things, but it's a great way to show the evolution of how omegas are seen without bashing it over the head of the reader.

This has all worked out quite nicely!

[shallowseeker]

SAM, if I were your brother, I'd have hit you in this episode. Or at the very least put hair-dye in your shampoo!

Ok, so I finally finished re-watching Don't Go Into the Woods, and I noticed that Sam is doing the same thing he did with Claire Novak a little bit!

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So, at the start of the episode, he doesn't even seem all that aware of the stress Jack, Dean, Cas are under. In the previous episode, Peace of Mind, Sam is wrapped up in his own grief and failings, and Cas steps in to mentor him (note Cas also wanted to let Dean get some much-needed sleep).

Here, in Don't Go Into the Woods, Sam starts out gung-ho about the hunt, but by the end of the episode, he's clamped onto his moral-fixation-of-the-moment, inspired by the case-of-the-week, where a Dean-and-Cas coded sheriff has lied to a son to protect him.

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And here's the thing. I's a little bit true, right? Dean is tiptoeing around Jack, chipperly telling him that "his mission is SHOPPING!"

BUT.

Sam's being sanctimonious-Sam here.

Because... Dean's been the one trying to take care of Sam AND Jack when Sam was running everyone ragged by diving into case after case (when Sam was trying to forget about losing the AU hunters).

Now, weeks later, Sam suddenly checks back in to trying to be apart of the co-parenting village.

DEAN: So telling the kid--you think that's the best idea? SAM: What? You don't? DEAN: It doesn't make his life any better, you know?

Oof. Ow.

Dean is so sad.

He knows something is wrong with his kid, but he doesn't know how to fix it. BECAUSE it's not simple.

But Sam? After weeks of being "out of it," Sam has hyper-focused on The Good (simple) Thing (TM) he thinks is gonna fix it.

For Sam, it's simple. Don't lie, and everything else solves itself! :D Talk it out, and all your problems will just melt away.

DEAN: I took care of it, okay? We took care of it. SAM: No, no Dean. We did not take care of it.

(BRB, hitting Sam with a newspaper. )

Dean was trying to include Sam as a kindness here (especially since Sam's been AWOL), but Sam is framing this as a "Dean is so controlling" issue. In fact, it's a part of the larger "Sam is checking out," one.

And hey--we are absolutely sympathetic to Sam checking out, to using hunting to ease his turbulence. He's not the only character to do so!

However, Sam is a character that tends to check out, come back, and immediately go into sanctimonious LECTURE mode and that’s frustrating:

SAM (judgily): No, no Dean. We did not take care of it. You did.

Yeah, Sam. That's kind of the whole friggin' point here!!!

For weeks now, Dean and Cas having been taking trying their darnedest to care of YOU, of Jack, of everything! Dean is even the one who checked in on the phone with your friend ROWENA.

Cas is going the other direction, taking on too much. He's out trying to take care of things ON HIS OWN AS YOU SPEAK. Dean's on the hold-down-the-fort-homefront, and Cas is on the big-solution-oriented-battlefront.

All Dean does is exhale a little. "Ha..."

SAM: And do you think you really took care of it the right way?

....

......................................

Sam. Sammy.

....

Anyway, so Dean. He's hit with this...blunt, hamfisted unkindness from Sam after his Michael-possession and superhuman efforts to take care of everyone, so he scrambles.

DEAN: "Jack said he was fine."

And obviously, Dean knows Jack isn't fine.

HE'S the one that was wanting to give Jack more space and time before going hunting, after all. (See: beginning of this VERY episode.) Sam wasn't even thinking about Jack's wellbeing at all. It hasn't been on his radar for weeks at this point. He wanted to take Jack on a hunt to make himself feel better!!! Sam was the one berating Dean for not wanting to bring Jack along and sassily reminding him that Jack was (via Donatello) "is in the clear."

And so, Sam does an about-face here. Inspired by the case, he identifies lying as Theeee Issue:

SAM: "He's a kid. And when we were kids, how many times did we tell dad we say were fine just to make him happy?"

...

Oh.

Like you did earlier this very episode, Sam?

*coughs*

Sigh.

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In the context of the last few weeks and his cluelessness in the beginning of this episode, wanna know why Sam is using this issue as a crutch?

Because now that Sam's checked into the village parenting club again, he's latching onto something that's easier to control than everything else: words.

Cause Sam's simplifying the whole sitch.

(It's why Sam's boundaries with Jack tend to be "easy-mode" parenting, like his berating Jack's sugary sweets/diet. These are tasks that allow Sam to remain "the good guy in Jack's corner" without doing the "hard-mode" parenting that turns the parent into a Bad Guy.)

Sam thinks talking out "the truth" will magically fix Jack's complex issues...ones Sam's been conveniently ignoring for weeks.

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And Dean is being so beautifully understanding about it. Acquiescing and trying things Sam's way.

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Sam slinks in the background at first, letting Dean do the greeting and the talking at first, waiting for his moment to swoop in and provide "sage, Sammy-time advice" That he has no doubt been rehearsing silently in the car.

And Dean...despite shielding Jack from the truth, is being honest in other emotional ways. He emphasizes how he didn't particularly like the gross parts of the hunt. Camaraderie.

[[Aside, in the very beginning of the episode, Sam judgmentally raked Dean over the FUCKIN' COALS for jumping at the sight of the dead body. "How many years you been doing this job, Dean? You're embarrassing me here.")]]

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Enter Sam. Parent mode activated!

God help us.

DEAN, comically annoyed that Jack didn't get the beer...

....and MAYBE wondering if Sam's bull-in-the-China-shop parenting is going to work right here at this ill-timed moment or not.

The thing is, Sam is right about some aspects of this! It's a good thing to talk to Jack about his powers! Like how Cas needs to talk to Jack about the snake! How Dean needs to stop being so afraid of the truth that he goes into denial mode.

BUT!

At its base, the Sam method tends to chafe.

Jack's been INCREDIBLY defensive lately, something Cas and Dean know well and have clearly talked about with each other freely. In Peace of Mind, they both used the snake to talk to Jack soas not to trigger Jack's defensiveness.

But Sam? Sam's been way outta the loop. And it shows.

SAM: Jack LISTEN. Dean and I wanted to talk to you about your powers.

And again, I'm not saying Sam's wrong. He's just...unfortunately very Sam about things even when he's right. He's able to occasionally give good advice, like to Mary about AU Bobby!

There's no real...100% wrong stance here.

After all, maybe it would've been better for Jack to come along with them (or maybe it would've gone terribly)?

Aside// And Dean may have good intentions in wanting to lie to protect his son Jack, but Dean definitely doesn't want his partner Cas to lie to him to spare him pain.

(Or, actually, via the script, that's not quite true. He SIMULTANEOUSLY wants Cas to tell him about the snake, and he DOESN'T want Cas to tell him about the snake. Lol, oh the spouse-codedness of that.)

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ANYHOO. Dean gracefully enters the conversation, trying to be frank but IMHO clearly having misgivings about this approach and timing:

DEAN: It was crappy of us not to tell you. You know, we were trying to be nice. 'Cause we care about you. But because we care about you, you deserve the truth.

And Jack has a moment of indecision here, clearly thinking about his own lie. Ordinarily, Jack might come clean about how his powers injured someone (and then healed them). But not now. Not with how things have been lately.

Here...psychologically wounded from consuming Michael's grace, feeling flat inside, feeling guilty and disconnected from everything...he remains quiet.

Not to mention, Sam's up in his face like this:

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Jeebus. No wonder Jack didn't say anything.

Make no mistake, Jack is annoyed by the constant hovering. He says as much in Game Night, and something about this cerebral-scripted-Sam-method IMHO works the least with Jack.

(We see that in Tombstone, too.)

I think Dean realizes that Jack's withdrawing here, that this method, despite it's moral clarity, wasn't entirely effective or successful for getting through to Jack:

At least with Cas, Jack allowed himself to get mad, to speak freely. (Same with Mary in Game Night. He lets his real emotions show.)

But this? Sam's pushing?

He shuts down:

Dean tips his head back, like "Oh crap." Perhaps thinking to himself, HOLY MOLEY THAT DID NOT WORK AT ALL.

He even makes a Cas face about it:

And the fun part is: Jack knows that Dean knows.

You can see it in the flash of side-eyes he gives Dean here before turning back to Sam. But when Jack looks back to Sam, he does this little "I'm so innocent" act. (But Dean' isn't going to push because, historically, Jack hasn't liked that.)

And Sam? Sam looks overjoyed because he's a dumbass who missed...everything.

Dean on the other hand...is...more understanding of the fuck-all progress that actually made here. He swings his arms like, "Whelp. That was useless."

Sam is like YISSS I HAVE DONE IT I HAVE CONQUERED PARENTING IN ALL MY WISDOM

DEAN (sarcastically): Great. And I guess I'll go get some beer.

[laconchadetumadre]

Nobody asked but im gonna list what exact kyle hc's give white woman energy to me. In no way do i mean to say its wrong to like these hcs but i wanna see if im alone on this....

1) Everyone/Kyle

I've sinned of this, but sometimes it gives Yn being sold off to one direction. Like sometimes i can just tell the author is using kyle as a stand in, meaning the author herself is a white woman. In their deffense tho, Mattrey use kyle in the same way, the only difference being that they are men and they dont use kyle for romantic plotlines but their shitty political takes instead lol.

2) Wine Addict Kyle

Again, i actually like this hc and i can see some fundation in canon (gerald is seen drinking whine during his skank hunt era, sheila said she "drank heavily" during her S Wow titty bang era, too. So, technically, kyle does have the genes of an alcoholic lol) its just... When theres a scene of kyle drinking whine in fanfic its always after being done dirty by a man and/or to drown his sorrow and tears. Some even have him gossip with craig, heidi or whatever other character (usually gay too or a girl) they have chosen as kyle's emotional support friend in that particular fic. Im not saying this is inherintly femenine, but something about it feels very white lol. I can deadass even hear the background music that that one guy from tiktok uses to parody wine moms lol.

3) Kyle vs Wendy

I'm ok with this hc, actually. I dont get it but i can see that it evidently comes from the whole style vs stendy thing. Still, kyle and wendy have never acted bitchy towards eachother and, honestly? They both seem too above that type of thing.

4) Body dysmorphia Kyle

Im using that term loosely btw, but i do see fics and aus depict kyle being so self concious of his own appereance it gets to the point of vanity. Ive seen hc's that kyle is obsessed with his weight or that he will get surgery, particularly, a nose job. again, i can see that this comes from "the list" but i just cant quite get behind this idea in particular. I know he was willing to burn down the school in "the list", but he did also say that "he knew he wasnt the cutest boy in class, he just didnt think he was the very ugliest". I think theres a big difference between feeling insecure bc someone put you on a list as the ugliest and being obsessed with your own looks.

Warning for nsfw ig

5) Kyle loving anal/exclussively bottoming

To each their own ig. This is one of those hcs that i dont think about too much cause like, theres no basis in the canon (ofc) so there's no way to discuss it with any "proof". This one only ever rubs me the wrong way when paired with everything else and when sex is sort of presented as the solution to all of kyle's problems.

6) kyle being a control/clean freak

Another hc i love but, if paired with the other headcanons, can take me out of the story. It largelly depends on how "intense" of a control freak kyle is in a certain fic (some have written him with OCD even, and while i get the appeal, it does seem like flanderdazing sometimes). The roots of the clean freak allegations are most likely from "Piss" and "Turd Burglars", where kyle is disgusted at things that nobody else seems to care about. Kyle being a germaphobe is sort of canon too (even in Not Suitable For Children we see him not taking a sip from the same bottle as the other boys, most likely due to his germaphobia), which is why the hc alone doesnt bug me. But sometimes it kinda mixes with the other hc of kyle being obssesed with his looks, so it evolves further into "kyle has a strict, multiple step skin/hair care rutine". Nothing wrong with these two takes (i even sort of agree with the skincare one, cause kyle strikes me as the kinda kid who is gonna have insane forehead acne breakouts and god knows he'll need it) but paired with everything else, and specially when the other boys's hygene is dramatically oposite or not brought up at all, it distracts me.

7) kyle "hating" sheila

I put hating in quotes cause what i actually see more is kyle being more rebellous and talking back more to sheila in fic than in canon. This is another Hc i like and that i actually wanted to write an entire fic for! (but who knows if that will ever see the light of day) Anyways, so this hc has actual basis in canon; we have seen kyle stand up to his mom like in bigger, longer and uncut and during the skankhunt arc. I guess what mostly doesnt sit right with me is that, while this hc is very popular, its forgotten that kyle is also very protective of his mom. Its been 20 years and he STILL doesnt like it when she gets called a bitch. Id like to see more of kyle standing up for his mother than standing up to her!

Im gonna stop here, i might add more later. Im gonna sound repetitive but i just want to make it very clear that i dont mean to negate any hc brought up in this list. If any of you enjoy any or every hc here, good for you! You are welcome to either ignore or reply to this (or whatever you wanto to do, really) im only sharing my own thoughts and everyone is welcome to share their own too!

i have to speak my truth some fanfic write kyle like a white woman

[babyboywilson]

Aisle 1 For a Love Story

For Bec and Ali’s creator week, Day 3: AU

Also posted on ao3.

Word count: 3,124 (Continued under the Read More)

Eggs, milk, flour, bacon.

Eggs, milk, flour, bacon.

Eggs, milk- oh, wait. Wasn't there something else Charlie had added to the mental shopping list last minute as Dean had left their apartment? What was it?

Alright, time to type the list up. At least then he could have an excuse for not talking to anyone as he made his way through the store. Walking through the parking lot, Dean typed the list into his notes.

Eggs, milk, flour, bacon, oh, and spaghetti. That's what Charlie had shouted as he walked out the door.

As he typed the last word, he stepped through the automatic doors of the grocery store and felt the rush of cold air creep down his neck. If he was quick enough, he could still make it home before Charlie started the next episode of Chopped without him.

"Hi, welcome in. Can I help you find anything today?" a deep male voice asked.

Dean stumbled to a halt, almost dropping his phone as he came within inches of stumbling into whoever had asked him the question.

He opened his mouth, ready to say 'who the hell are you?' and 'no, I don't need your help', but the words got stuck in his throat when he looked up.

Aside from the ridiculous green vest and chunky name tag, the man was devastatingly handsome. Dark messy hair and dazzling blue eyes. A soft smile that made Dean feel a little weak in the knees. The man's nose was scrunched up adorably and his hands had somehow made their way to Dean's shoulders in an attempt to steady him.

"You alright there?" the man asked, and dear God, could that voice be any more attractive?

Dean shook his head, then realized a second later what he was doing and instead switched to nodding. "Yeah, yeah, I'm good… Steve," Dean said, glancing down at the name tag pinned to the bright vest.

The man- Steve- chuckled, low and deep. If those hands weren’t on his shoulders, Dean was sure his knees would’ve given out at the sound. Rich and reverberating in Dean’s head.

“My name is actually Castiel. First day on the job and they didn’t have any name tags for me yet,” Castiel said, hands sliding off Dean's shoulders with a nervous laugh. “I’m um- the store’s new Greeter. Is there- uh- anything I can help you with?”

God dammit. Why was Castiel so cute? ‘Focus, Winchester. Focus,’ Dean thought to himself. “No, I’m uh… I’m good. Got a list that my roommate requested. It’s only a few items,” Dean said, tightening his hold on his phone.

Cas nodded, taking a step backwards and away from Dean. “Good, good. If you have any questions…”

“Maybe ask someone who’s worked here longer than a few hours?” Dean teased. He watched as a flush creeped up Castiel’s cheeks and, God, this man could not get anymore beautiful if he tried.

“I’m a fast learner. Ask me next week and I’m sure I’ll know where everything is,” Castiel said, tugging on his vest before looking up at Dean through his eyelashes.

Clearing his throat, Dean took a step further into the store; away from a couple of teens who were looking between Dean and Castiel with matching grins. “I’d better, you know…”

Castiel nodded, moving back towards the entrance of the store. “It was nice to meet you-”

“Dean. My name’s Dean.”

Castiel smiled; a soft expression that made his blue eyes melt. “Nice to meet you, Dean.”

Before he could melt into those eyes, Dean turned and hightailed towards the dairy aisle on the other side of the store.

Oh God. Oh God. Oh God.

Dean was in trouble. Yep. Absolutely in trouble. The only other grocery store in the area was all the way on the other side of town. No way could he drive that far every day, especially with how often he needed ingredients for the baking business he and Charlie were starting to run out of their little kitchen.

That just meant he was going to have to ignore the fact he felt a spark. A hint of a crush. Nope. No way was Dean going to fall for the new guy in the grocery store. Nu uh. Nope. Not happening.

~

“Hiya, Cas. Have you got those organic bananas in yet?” Dean asked as soon as he stepped into the store, brushing his hair from his face as the air conditioning above the door blew his bangs into his face.

Cas stepped aside, waving to another customer before leaning against one of the drink refrigerators by the entrance where Dean had veered off to. “Yes! We just got them in an hour ago. What are you making with them? Banana bread? Oh. Is it a banana cream pie again? That one you brought me a sample of last week was delicious,” Cas said with a grin.

Dean laughed, shaking his head. “Nope. Got an order in from a neighbor for a banana upside down cake. If there’s any leftovers I can bring them by tomorrow. Oh wait, tomorrow is your day off. How about Thursday?”

Seven months of being friends, and yes, maybe Dean had memorized Cas’ schedule. Wednesday and Saturday were his days off (Dean had asked why he didn’t have a normal schedule with two days off in a row but Cas had just shrugged and said he was happy to work whenever his managers needed him).

“Thursday sounds great. I’m always happy to try your baking,” Cas said as he brushed their arms together. The movement caused Cas’ name tag to catch the sunlight and it momentarily made Dean blink against the blinding light. Putting his hand out, he tugged the tag down an inch and smiled at Cas.

“You’re blinding me again,” he teased, fingers lingering against Cas’ name for a second longer than necessary before he pulled his hand away.

The badge now said ‘Castiel’ instead of Steve. But it had only taken Dean a couple weeks of calling the man Castiel before he’d given him a nickname instead. Cas. And the nickname had caught on, because now Dean had heard the rest of the employees calling him Cas, too. A feat that Dean was quite proud of achieving. Castiel was a mouthful, but Cas suited him better.

“Maybe I wouldn’t need to blind you if you didn’t distract me from my job at least once a day,” Cas grinned, nudging their shoulders together.

“I have no idea what you mean. I was merely having a conversation with my best friend. Just don’t tell Charlie I said that,” Dean winked, watching as that all-too-familiar blush climbed up Cas’ cheeks.

Just as Cas opened his mouth to throw some kind of retort back at Dean, an overhead announcement interrupted the moment. “Castiel to aisle 2 for a customer. Castiel to aisle 2,” the message repeated before cutting off.

“That’s my cue,” Cas said, nodding his head towards the fresh produce in aisle 2.

“Woah, wait. Can anyone request your help in the store?” Dean asked, a spark of hope dancing in his veins at the idea of calling for Cas over the intercom to whatever aisle Dean needed ‘help’ in.

The way Cas rolled his eyes made Dean laugh. “Don’t be getting any ideas about sending me all across the store just because you feel like it,” Cas said, knocking their wrists together before pulling away.

The grin on Dean’s face felt like it was going to split his cheeks with happiness. “I would never,” he said, even though he knew that was exactly what he was going to do on his next visit to the store.

Together, they both moved towards the produce, with Cas veering towards the vegetables and Dean heading to the fruits.

“I’ll see you later, yeah?” Cas asked just before they went their separate ways.

Dean nodded, motioning to the newly-stocked bananas. “With banana upside cake,” he confirmed.

Turning away to actually buy whatever groceries he needed always sucked. Walking away from Cas was Dean’s least favorite part of the day. He hated to admit it, but his little crush had snowballed into a head-over-heels ache. A day without seeing Cas felt empty; as if there were a Cas-sized-hole in Dean’s day until he walked into the store and saw that handsome face.

Normally, Dean could steal Cas away from the front doors for 5 minutes to talk about anything and everything. But today had been cut short and Dean felt slighted by it.

Well then. He’d just have to come back to the store right before Cas’ lunch break.

Nodding as if that were the completely normal thing to do, Dean paid for the bananas and made his way back to the car. He could easily run a couple more errands and swing back past the store on the way home.

Yep. That was totally normal.

An hour and a half later, Dean walked back through the entrance and under the spray of cold air. His eyes instantly locked with Cas’ and he saw the way the tension slipped from his shoulders.

“Dean! What are you doing back here? You were only here an hour ago,” Cas said, automatically moving to the side and out of the way of a couple of customers walking in.

“I um-” Dean started. Shit. He hadn’t thought of a valid excuse for why he’d be coming back for the second time in the same day. “Forgot to get butter. Charlie texted me just as I was on my way home to remind me.”

“Well, lucky for you, I’m just about to clock out for my lunch break. I can help you find that butter and you can tell me about this cake you’re baking while I eat my lunch?” Cas asked, a flicker of something dancing in his eyes as he looked at Dean.

The offer made Dean’s stomach twist and flutter, and he found himself nodding before he could find the words to say yes.

"Yeah, I'd like that," Dean said, darting his gaze away from Cas' before his heart could catapult right out of his chest.

As they walked to the aisle with the butter, their hands brushed together and Dean swore he was going to stop breathing. God. Why couldn't Cas just push him against the shelves and kiss him stupid? Dean ached for it; to feel Cas pressed against him and to have their mouths moving together.

But maybe Cas didn't want it? Maybe they were better off just staying as friends? It didn't stop Dean from yearning. From desperately thinking about what it would be like to have Cas be his.

After Dean had purchased the butter, Cas tugged Dean towards a quiet spot at the back of the store and told him to wait there. A minute later, he came out of the break room with a PB&J sandwich and a lemonade.

“Tell me about the cake you and Charlie are working on,” Cas said, offering half his sandwich to Dean.

They spent Cas’ entire 30 minute break talking and sharing the sandwich. If Dean thought he was falling before, he was absolutely gone on Cas by the end of Cas’ break.

Walking back to the front of the store, Dean motioned to the entrance with his thumb. “I should get back home before Charlie does all the baking without me,” Dean said. Part of him wanted to stay all day and talk to Cas, but he knew that wasn’t an option.

“I’ll see you on Thursday, yeah? Don’t you dare forget a slice of that cake,” Cas said, eyes lingering on Dean’s face in a way that had butterflies soaring through Dean’s chest. Was it just Dean’s imagination, or was Cas staring at his lips?

Swallowing thickly, Dean nodded and tried to make his lungs function again. Quite possibly because Cas had somehow stolen all the air from his body once again with just a simple look. “Wouldn’t dream of forgetting,” Dean said. He had to bite down on his tongue and flee the grocery store before the words ‘it’s a date’ could tumble from his lips.

~

Cas’ POV

Just five more minutes until Dean would walk through those automatic doors and flash him that beautiful smile that had Cas’ heart racing in his chest.

Dean had been coming into the store more frequently over the last couple weeks. What had been a once a day encounter had turned into two and then three times a day, and now Cas had it down to a T. Always in the morning when the store opened, and then again right before Cas went onto his lunch break, and then finally in the evening lull when Cas was in need of some company.

Oh, how Cas loved those moments with Dean. He’d started setting his watch to count down to the moments when Dean would walk into the store and steal Cas’ breath away.

God. Dean was gorgeous. Absolutely breathtaking. Funny and smart. Full of amazing stories about his baking adventures and always carrying with him some new samples for Cas to try.

Oh yes. Cas was smitten. Absolutely and utterly gone for Dean. Had been since their first meeting when Dean had almost knocked him over. Cas’ hands had brushed against Dean’s shoulders and their eyes had met and Cas was starstruck.

And he’d only gone and devastatingly fallen for the man who had become his best friend. There was a spark. Cas was sure of it. A possible hint of reciprocation. There had to be, right? What man came to the grocery store 3 times a day unless he were specifically coming to talk to Cas, right?

Pacing the front entrance of the store, Cas pulled in a deep breath of air. Today. For sure. It had to be today.

For weeks, Cas had been trying to pluck up the courage to ask Dean out. He’d managed to ask Dean to join him on his lunch break, and they always shared sandwiches and sat pressed up next to each other in the back of the store. But every time he tried to tell Dean that he was his favorite part of the day, he froze with nerves.

Tomorrow was one of his days off, and Cas was determined. He was gonna ask Dean out on a date. They could spend the day together tomorrow. He didn’t even care what they did. As long as he got to spend time with Dean outside of work.

Taking another deep breath to steady himself, the watch beeped on his wrist. Just as he’d managed to turn it off, Dean waltzed into the door.

“Hiya, Cas,” Dean said, bright and bubbly as ever.

Cas’ heart lurched in his chest. Dean looked especially beautiful today. Old red flannel shirt and black jeans with holes ripped in the knees. A streak of flour still sat high on his cheekbone, and Cas couldn’t stop himself from reaching out and rubbing it away with his thumb.

Dean blushed, eyes dropping to the ground before he gave Cas this soft little smile. Oh God. Cas was completely sweet on Dean.

“Hi Dean. It’s my lunch break, if you wanna sit with me in the back?” Cas asked quietly, heart hammering away against his ribs as his fingers danced over Dean’s wrist.

Dean nodded, licking his lips before holding out a cold-brew coffee. The same one Cas had mentioned yesterday. Dean really did listen to him.

Oh, Cas was so far beyond crushing on Dean. He was absolutely falling in love with him.

Together, they moved to the back of the store. Cas grabbed his sandwich- ham and cheese this time- and offered Dean a slice. Instead of sitting though, Cas leaned against one of the shelves.

“Can I ask you something?” Cas asked after a minute had slipped by with them leaning next to each other.

“Is it about the chocolate loaf that Charlie mentioned when she was in here yesterday? Because if it is, I really did try to save you a slice. But my brother is in town and he ate it before I could bring it to you,” Dean quickly interjected, a flush creeping down into the collar of his shirt.

“No, no. Not that.” Cas took one final steadying breath, hoping to God that he could get the words out without making a fool of himself. “Do you have any plans tomorrow?” Cas asked, the words coming out in a whisper as his heart jumped up into his throat.

Dean tilted his head slightly before a flicker of hope danced across his eyes. “No plans. Why? Isn’t tomorrow your day off?”

Here it was. Now or never.

“Go on a date with me?” Cas asked, forcing the words out as fast as he could before he lost his nerve.

Dean blinked once, twice, before a heart-melting smile burst across his face. “Castiel Novak. Are you asking me out?” Dean teased, fingers reaching out to ghost along Cas’ cheek.

Chewing on his lip, Cas looked up at Dean through his eyelashes. “Yeah, I am. I’m so- you make me so- God, Dean, I’ve been crushing on you for months. Honestly, since the day we met. You’re the highlight of my day and I count down to the moments I get to see you. All I wanna do is kiss you,” Cas admitted. Once the words started flowing, he couldn’t stop them. He wanted. He yearned.

“Yes. Hell yes, I’ll go on a date with you,” Dean beamed, leaning into Cas’ space until their foreheads were pressed together. “Well, what are you waiting for? Kiss me, Cas,” Dean said, words ghosting over Cas’ mouth.

Lurching forward, Cas connected their mouths together. They stumbled backwards, and Cas pressed Dean into the shelves as he locked their lips together. Cas licked along Dean’s lower lip, and Dean sighed blissfully as he opened his mouth.

Cas melted into the kiss, arms locking around Dean’s neck as Dean’s hands settled on his waist. They broke apart with a gasp, only for Cas to chase Dean’s mouth into another kiss. The kisses slowed down, gentle and sweet as Cas brushed their lips together in little strokes.

When they finally pulled away, Dean was laughing happily and Cas felt like he was floating. “Please tell me you’re gonna kiss me like that again tomorrow?” Dean asked, fingers trailing along Cas’ hips.

Cas smiled until his face ached with happiness. “I’m gonna kiss you like that again right now,” he murmured.

If they spent Cas’ entire break kissing against the shelves, well, that might’ve been the best lunch break Cas had ever had.

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[0nl0n]

ONION ONION

NEW AU ALERT ( THIS MIGHT BE LONG IM SORRY I-)

Alr ive ,thought about it and im calling it "mercurys lulaby "( idk if i spelled lulaby right)

Story:

So mercury was bullied alot in this au and he discovered his singing voice( the singing part is important but we'll get to that later)

After earth went a TINY BIT TO FAR, mercury just ran to the asteroid belt, far away from Jupiter and saturn

It took awhile but mercury managed to make a vacuum outa asteroids ( i ran outa ideas here)

He slooowly went near the sun where the sun couldn't see him, and uh-

Mercury like- sucked the light, and energy outa the sun, since the vacuum was pretty big

The suns colour drained, he was just.. Grey

There was no light no nothing, lets just say his personality drained too.

Everyone immediately noticed and freaked out, but then they heard something.

Mercury used his little song ( which didn't have lyrics, just vocalizing)

Everyone felt drowsy. Like the song was making them fall asleep

Mercury came out from behind the sun after each one fell asleep

He captured venus ( NO, THIS ISN'T VENCURY BTW)

and mercury took venus captive

The planets soon woke up, confused, and freaked out

Meanwhile with venus, he wasn't himself anymore, by that, i mean he was hypnotized, the real venus was in his mind if that makes sense, he could see what was going on around him but he just couldn't control himself

mercury had venus in a asteroid cage, mercury was thinking what he could do for revenge.

He looked over to the suns energy he collected. He grins at it

Meanwhile with the sun, he was almost lifeless, actually, he was slowly (LIKE REALLY SLOWLY) shrinking.

The planets where out of their orbits thinking what to do. Saturn was crying, the moon and earth were making up plans, and mars and jupiter were shook

so they needed to stop mercury as fast as possible.

Mercury didn't know venus was hypnotized, since venus was just sitting on the ground, lifelessly

Mercury angrily told him " JUST STAND UP WILL YA?! "

venus opened his well- purple and white eyes and just stood up

Mercury was a bit shook, but he grinned at himself thinking he could use this to his advantage

The planets were finding ways to stop mercury

Earth and mars went to the deep parts of the asteroid belt, planning to comfront mercury

mercury ended up capturing earth, leaving mars since he saw mars as a friend-ish

Earth was yeeted into the same cage as venus was, venus was just following mercury wherever mercury went ( again, not vencury)

Earth wanted to know what mercurys plan was

after that (this part will be simplified bc i don't want this to be too long)

Mars soon was captured with earth, ( TW:GORE MENTIONS INCOMING) mars got his eye r!pped 0uT. Mercury wanted to know their plans.

Earth was also harmed, his surface looking like hell

after that jupiter went into the deep part of the asteroid belt

mercury didn't take jupiter, instead he wanted jupiter to "join" him

Jupiter of course said no, like a normal person would

Mercury told him sm like " alr... Well then... How about a deal? How about we battle? Me, "earth and mars and Venus" vs, you and those idiots? If we win, i get to rule the galaxys. And the sun dies off. If you win. I will stop and return the suns energy. "

Jupiter shook his smol hands and yeah

They fought, mercury sadly died. Then earth mars and venus came back to normal ( oh yeah mars and earth were hypnotized too-)

The sun was back to normal. Except.. Mercury was gone.

yeah so thats it, im so sorry this was long- i just wanna share this au, even if im bad at making aus XD

Naw man I love this au 😭. Mercury's villain arccccc and the fact that my hc is that mercury ca n sing and make music, the au fits so well with my au. Now I he ugre to make an animation meme about this au 😌 wait a minute....THIS WAS EARTH'S FAULT DANG FAQ TERRA and dw about the gore. i liek gore 😃👍 i would even like to become a gore artist one day lol. (BTW, I don't like vencury unless it eros' love plan cause he's clearly got an arrow in his head 😑) imma make art of this lol

[lunmelia]

I’m gonna rant for a bit, because after thinking about it for a solid 1 minute Supernatural had so much potential to make Sam and Dean’s relationship with Mary extremely strange, but in a “I just came back from the dead and to a world I don’t know, I cannot handle being a mom to 2 grown adults who are older than me so actually we’re siblings now” kind of way. Hear me out.

Just... imagine. You’re 29, you have 2 sons, one who’s 4-years-old and the other who is only 6 months. You die. 33 years later, you’re alive again but you’re still 29, and you’re faced with your 2 now adult sons, one who is now 8 years older than you, and the other 4 years older. Your sons are literally now older than you. They have experienced life for longer than you have. Your oldest has wrinkles and you don’t. How fucking weird is that!!

Just the... complexity that kind of relationship would have. I did love how they approached Mary in the show, how they had Dean confront her and how we later find out that Amara brought her back just so Dean could face reality and not paint his mum as a saint but like... it could’ve been so much more weird. That kind of situation just calls for weird. 

That scene where Mary ordered them dinner should have been so much more awkward and not as comfortable and light-hearted as it was. What if Mary just outright told them “I don’t cook” and they’re like “uh... okay, well, we could order?” and she perks up like “order?” and she’s thinking oh cool they’ll just call the nearest pizza place but no, her sons pull out a mobile phone and they try to teach her how to use the app but she just gets frustrated and doesn’t get it so they give up, Dean orders and they spend the time waiting teaching her how to use a phone. And okay kids are usually teaching their parents how to use technology but this is just weird because her sons are older than her. Then the food gets there and she’s like “why don’t I serve it?” because that’s what mothers do, right? But it feels weird and awkward and wrong because they’re grown men so she shouldn’t have to mother them, right? And they eat in silence and it’s so fucking awkward and all of them know it’s awkward and after a moment Mary goes “... Dean, do you uh... do you still like pie?” and he says yes and it’s a huge fucking relief but at the same time it’s fucking not because that’s all she knows!! that’s all she knows about her son and thank fuck he still likes pie but that’s all she knows.

And just- Mary having a full breakdown because she always wanted to be a mother, that’s all she wanted. She just wanted to drop the hunter life and be a mother and just live a normal fucking life for once and she can’t. She can’t. That life was ripped away from her and now her sons are adults and older than her and she didn’t raise them and they’re hunters and she’s a hunter again and she can’t be a mother. Her sons are hunters and she never wanted that and it makes her nauseous and makes her head hurt. And Sam and Dean find her sobbing in one of the bathrooms next to the toilet and they hold her close until she stops shaking. They comfort her because she can’t comfort them. She only knows how to be a mother to a 4-year-old and a baby, she can’t be a mother to them. 

And you know what? Sam and Dean are oddly okay with that. All they wanted growing up was a mother to care for them, to cook them food and be there to hold them when things got bad. But now that they have their mother in front of them? They realise that they don’t really... need her. Not Mary sepcifically, but just a mother. They’ve survived the past 33 years without a mother, and sure it was shitty but it happened and they’re used to it. They’re grown men, they don’t need a mother. Sure, it would’ve been nice but when Mary tried again the next day by making them scrambled eggs with a forced smile they just cringed. They don’t need a mother. It sucks, and they wish so bad that they had one growing up, maybe things would’ve been better, but they’ve dealt with this for the past 33 years and they’re good. 

So, okay, she’s not their mum. She is, but she’s not. Really, they’re just strangers trying to get to know each other. And so they do. They spend time together, so much they eventually become insperable. Not in a separation anxiety kind of way, but when Mary isn’t desperately trying to play the mother role the three just click and make a kickass team. They can’t call her “mom” in public because she obviously looks younger than them so when they’re out shopping or anywhere else they just call her Mary and introduce her as their sister. It works, it’s believable because they look related, they are, but no one blinks when they refer to her as a sister. 

And eventually they stop calling her “mom” and start just calling her Mary. And “mom” becomes a rare word, a word used in dark moments where one of them is frantically putting pressure on a wound that won’t stop bleeding, or when Mary finally breaks free of the British Men of Letters’ brainwashing. But one day Dean takes a sip from a beer, puts it down and is quiet for a moment before saying “... I think we’ve accidentally adopted our mom as our sister” and Sam just goes “yep” and cue John Mulaney ‘you know those days when you’re like “this might as well happen”? adult life is already so goddamn weird’ and it’s just. that just becomes their dynamic. 

She’s not their mum, they’re not her sons, so the relationship dynamic they adopt is siblings. And the concept is so fucking weird but it feels more normal to them than her being their mum. She’s just now their little sister and they’re her big brothers and it’s like “huh. okay. didn’t expect this to happen but okay” 

Like it’s STRANGE but I think their situation calls for it!! This is SUPERNATURAL!! Let it be fucking weird!! She’s their mum but no! Now she’s their little sister!! Imagine the humor opportunities! 

Mary starts to date and she dates a hunter who isn’t aware of the situation and it’s like Sam and Dean act like protective older brothers and give the person the “you hurt her she’ll hurt you, good luck” talk but also

Hunter: so... ever thought of settling down and having kids? Mary, immediately panicking like should she tell them?? is this an appropriate topic to introduce on the third date? she can’t even wikihow this! she tried and nothing came up!: uhhhh

And also after Jack is born and I’m just gonna sprinkle some baby!jack AU in this, after Dean is like *points to Jack* this is my son and *points to Cas* this is my husband Mary’s like

Mary: damn... I’m a 30-year-old grandmother. I don’t wanna be a 30-year-old grandmother Sam: technically you’re 63 Mary: technically I died when I was 29, was dead for 33 years, got brought back to life and was still 29 so you can shut your face I’m a 30-year-old grandmother Dean: I thought we all agreed you’re more like our sister Mary: not when it comes to being a grandmother. I can’t handle being your mom but I can certainly handle being Jack’s grandma Cas: I’m confused... I thought you just said you don’t want to be a grandmother Mary, holding Jack up: I’m a grandma now