#but also im so anxious
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my sweet old man who is genuinely too kind for the world he lives in :(
#decadentart#bloodborne#retired hunter djura#he makes me so sick hes actually so fucking sweet when i think about it#Yes i gave her a skirt. whenever i draw the people of old yharnam i slways give tbem little accesories :)#the colors are a bit wonky because i intially drew it Reeaaalllyy Dark also idk i picked out some weird ass colors for the pallete#every time you shoot him off that tower an angel looses its wings#legimitately got upset when i killed him for his set#made sure he didnt fall to his death though. thats called bullying when you knock him off btw#also yeah i hc that the beasts are chill w him . and slso he knows all of their names#first maintagged art on this blog. shudders. i hope the fans dont eat me alive im serious you guys scare me#the halo was necessary btw#so anxious…. SEND IT! RAHHH!!! MY AUTISM BLAST GO!
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bruv i am IN my feelings today
#like im so sad#there is a lot of natural disaster stuff happening in my city tho#but also im so anxious#just like as a neurodiv person who feels inadequate in most spaces (this one sadly not exluded)#and also a fat person who is not welcome in most spaces#i think i am just trying my best to be the person i want to be and i am not successful in doing that and rlly struggle#anyways this was very sad tags#tw sad#delete later#venting to the void
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not my usual kind of comic but just... how I've been feeling recently
if you're feeling the same, maybe it will help to know you're not the only one
#overwhelmed#neurodivergent#actually autistic#sketch comic#vent comic#im fine im just so stressed you wouldn't even believe#i didn't feel like cleaning this up and making it nice since its just me venting lol#also im pretty anxious posting this so pls be nice thank u#thanks for listening
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Hmmm just gonna spit this headcanon out in text post form since A. I don't think I could exposit it well enough in image form and B. It's not actually textually/thematically substantiated and I don't like actually staking my stuff on just vibes alone*
But anyway. I'd say it's pretty evident that all the islanders forgot their names, right? King obviously. Because why the hell else would he do that, but also Siffrin No Middle Names No Last Name.
They're 'pretty sure' they've 'always' been 'Just Siffrin' 'as long as they can remember'. It's a pretty cruel twist of the knife to say that they don't even get to keep their birth name as a memento, which is why I'm saying as such.
My utterly unsubstantiated claim is I think it'd be cute to say that Sisyphus *is* the name Siffrin initially picked, assuming the myth of King Sisyphus is recontextualised as idk, just a play or something in the setting. But I like the idea of Siffrin going 'oh shit 🫵 he's just like me fr' at a tortured fictional character long before the irony kicks in.
As for how Sisyphus -> Siffrin. I think that chronic mumbler and emotional doormat Sif just did not correct people who misheard the name during their time travelling, and went through enough places with incompatible phonologies (pronounceable sounds in the language) without ever really writing it down that it just got kinda. Changed until it was unrecognisable, and Siffrin just went with it until the earlier pronunciations slipped out of their swiss-cheese brain. And they just kinda don't remember any of that.
Also, something something the horrid realisation that Siffrin also named themselves after a King. Just not as blatantly.
*(though I think there's something here about Siffrin, a guy from a belief system that seems to thoroughly disincentivise autonomy and self-motivated choice continuously having their hand forced to make changes/choices they don't want but have no choice but to... It's not solid enough to really back this up tbh, but it informs it.)
Anyway.
#theres also something one of my french-speaker friends said about siffrin's official pronounciation being the feminine way to pronounce -in?#which i dont know enough about to really corroborate and theyre busyyyy and havent started the game yet so i cant really ask#im sure someone else has already voiced this easy-to-come-up-with headcanon anyway but just in case nobody has i decided to post it#isat#isat spoilers#in stars and time#isat siffrin#isat loop#i also personally picture sif (and loop especially) being more hostile to the concept of changing themselves after The Encounter#both of them being big grudge-holders and that 'want' to control your own destiny being clearly against how they interpret the universe#as for whether they should be so hostile? probably not! but they appear to be anxious in fear of some kind of divine retribution should#they like. ever even dare to Want. and uh. well. that certainly went well for Loop. not sure they'd be gung-ho to do it again#so Loop being able to go 'oh well it wasn't my REAL name' as a salve for having to make a new identity AGAIN....#while sif is explicitly clinging to it as an anchor for Who They Are If Nothing Else.. they can upset each other and also mirabelle i think#lucabytetalks
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every time i start panicking about the small details (like how i don't know near as much marvel lore as i do DC, etc) i remind myself that LoF wasn't supposed to get super popular and im just having fun and practicing writing for my own books and suddenly that anxiety goes away. like it's not gonna be perfect and it was born out of me and my friend being goofy
#sometimes people act like it's an actual comic#which is fun most of the time because that means they consider my writing to be up there and equality#even if they are critiquing my fic#(which is crazy because i didn't ask for criticism)#but sometimes it really does make me anxious#like often people forget that my very first a/n was me explaining that this peter is from an au fic i was never gonna publish#i just used him at the time cause i was more used to writing him#this peter has a different origin story because it's based off of an au of peter fics + other comics#which is why i had aunt may killed off#if marvel can have a plotline where deadpool killed clones of ben and may then i can have this#there's also an alt timeline where ben lived and may died im pretty sure#so yeah i can fuck with his origin story#because it's not that serious#post made because someone sent me an ask that i don't want to give attention to#leap of faith ao3#peter parker#leap of faith catch me if you can
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Aight eASTER GIFT TO YOU ALL. Some of my fav lambs havin a sheerin party now that the weather is getting (uncomfortably) warm. Who let their cat in to steal some lanolin rich wool tho- All these lambs belong toooo: @circuscountdowns @runningwithscizzorz @xmajordumps @ballad-of-the-lamb @cyberstarlope and myself (yea mines just...doin the full on dog shake of 'just got shEERED IM FREE MOTHERFUCKERS')
#goat draws#Cult of the lamb#Cotl#buncha lambs here#and every single one was so much fun to drawww#everyones designs are so SHAPED AND LOVELLYYY#also lmao ballad's lamb gets the sheers because him tol#also shirtless cuz thats a RIPPED lamb and it needs to be flaunted#>>#<<#sometimes ya just need a sheering party with your many alternate selves#MK IMMA NOW GO HIDE IN MY CAVE CUZ IM ANXIOUS#HOPE YALL ENJOY <3#YALL INSPIRE MEEEEEEE
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having a very rough night so raph doodles needed to be made
when in need, mash two interests together
#i love him so muhc ghghgh#and uh please stop sending me asks straight up demanding me to draw more /nm#if u've sent me an ask just regarding art before pls dont feel anxious this is about people actually DEMANDING like im some sort of machine#im absent due to my work/mental health situation going up and down#tmnt will ofc always be special interest but right now its in the back row#theres little time for anything but work and meetings and thinking about work and.. well.. monster hunter escapism egsfkhjhh..#but yeah i promise im still here#and i want to draw him when i can#but stress is high right now and drawing takes too much wrist stamina to do often now#i hope u understand#sorry if i worded myself badly im very tired and stresed n its ... oh its 5am great. wellp. goodnight skafklgsjdklfnshh#my art#rise of the tmnt#rottmnt#nordidia art#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt raph#id in alt text#also one would think my art style is easy on my wrist but#i gorilla grip my pen and when i learned to write as a child i held the pencil jank#and it stuck like that#so its really rough on my hands#sadly
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manifesting her
#fionna and cake#adventure time#golbetty#simon petrikov#betty grof#petrigrof#op tag#ahh look at my stupid shitpost boy#im so anxious im gonna go anxietypost on main now#also shoutout to whoever made the original ep8 one
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i have been reading through the diary I kept from ages 14-17 and realising how helpful it can be to keep a record of how you're feeling at different moments.
not only is it helpful to write down and process how your feeling and give yourself time to truly think about it, it's nice to have something to look back on. to not just remember how you felt about a certain situation but to actually have yourself from that time tell you.
and also, from an adhd perspective, it's really lovely to have reminders of things I'd almost entirely forgotten. it's easy to think that your life right now isn't interesting, but in 5 years time? to know what songs you were listening to or book you were reading or even that Thing that you were so worried about but now you can't even remember the details. it's nice to have a physical reminder that time passes and things really can get better.
#i think part of whats makes it so special to me is that (like it is for a lot of people) those ages where so *much*#and i was so stuck in my head and socially anxious and i feel like those years of school rly shaped who i am now ect#but id kind of forgotten? its become a blur emotions over time and its nice to see it clearer#but also how i changed? and to read into it and see what i did or didn't write#im also a big fan of the inner child and doing things for your younger self and its a lovely gift to have her speaking to me directly#also if you want to journal i highly recommend doing it in a normal notebook rather than a pre planned one#it gives you the freedom for it to be whatever you want with none of the pressure#recovery#tips
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not romantic or platonic but a secret third thing (bonded pair)
#I think more character dynamics should be described as bonded pairs#are two characters very attached to each other in a way that's hard to define? bonded pair.#are two characters rarely seen in a scene without each other? bonded pair#do two characters get anxious when separated? bonded pair#I don't mean this in a weird way I mean it in the way cats will be bonded when at a shelter together or something#this can apply to so many characters I think#regardless of whether they're romantic or platonic or whatever#most necrocav duos in tlt for example#and too many duos in fma to count#like obviously knowing me im thinking about greedling#but also the elric brothers or mustang and hawkeye#but also. many of the side characters.#doing my massive spreadsheet (almost done btw!) has shown to me that jerso and zampano are almost always in the same scene#that's a bonded pair babey#brosh and ross too. to me.#anyway. someone once left the tags ''bonded pair do not separate'' on a greedling post of mine and i haven't stop thinking about it#that's just how I conceptualize their dynamic now#two cats that have to be adopted together or else they'll start destroying furniture
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VEX‼️‼️
#its not the best but i enjoyed drawing this silly guy#also my handwriting is fucking ugly💀 sorry about that#im going to school tomorrow and im so anxious#needed to do something to not lose my mind lol#but i hope you like it!!!#yonderland#elder vex#wise elder vex#ben willbond#six idiots#my art
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unhinged stinky critter for @lazydayslivin
dont forget ur daily clicks!!
#I FINALLY FINISHED A SORREL DRAWING AND NOT LOST THE FILE YIPPEEE#ive made like 3 whole fucking drawings of him before. i lost them in the void i call my computorr#also i couldnt figure out how to draw their logo on their cape bc of the folds so i made anotherlogo#hope u like it payton ^^ also sorry that i havent replied i got too anxious and i dont kbow if ill ever reply but ur so nice but i cant rn#(im in a shitty mental state too. please dont take me not responding personal im just Not Competent Texting and Not Okay)#sth#sonic fanart#sonic#sorrel the hedgehog#sonic oc#nov.aart
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Transformers ARK! The Twins
Sunstreaker, the self-proclaimed "eldest" of the two is cocky and egotistical. Most bots find him hard to approach so they simply steer clear. He takes great pride in his unstable reputation, and wouldn't be caught dead doing anything to break character. The only bot who seems to be able to put up with him is his twin, Sideswipe. And even though the two are rarely apart, they sometimes seem to barely even like each other. Despite preferring isolation, Sunstreaker has always been secretly jealous of how easily Sideswipe can make friends, and how other bots like his brother over him.
Sideswipe, while just as aggressive at times, can be much more relaxed and playful than his brother. He's funny and friendly, and can quickly gain favor with others. It's unfortunate that most bots are too scared to approach him considering who he's always hanging out with. Sometimes Sideswipe is resentful of the shadow he's constantly living in, and wishes Sunstreaker wasn't setting the standards of what bots grow to expect of him.
It would probably help both of their insecurities if they weren't so codependent, but no one's had the guts to try and tell them that yet.
#transformers#Transformers ARK#TFARK#tfark fanart#tfark Sideswipe#tfark Sunstreaker#Sideswipe#Sunstreaker#transformers fanart#transformers sideswipe#transformers sunstreaker#tf fanart#maccadam#no playlists for them yet bc I havent found enough good songs im sorry lol#i am so normal about these guys btw if you cant tell#me when I have complex sibling relationships so i give every pair of siblings complex relationships#they are violently codependent LMAO#Sunstreaker has separation anxiety and needs weed gummies when left alone#except when he's anxious he just gets even more pissed off#and breaks stuff#he also has anger issues#sideswipe does too but to less of a degree#his are easier to hide#he at least LOOKS normal to other people#he is fucked up in private <3
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hello i’m very mob psycho brained rn 🧎🏽🧎🏽
#mob is literally me fr (socially anxious teenager)#also the music is so peak??#if mob choir has no fans im dead#mob psycho 100#shigeo kageyama#procreate#yumaversal art
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easily a top three tetro character for me tsuno manami you are so dear to me
#tetro danganronpa pink#tsuno manami#archive tags >#jubilee art#unrelated to the art but i fucked so hard with her and hiroakis dynamic from the beginning and the potential behind it#I’m genuinely ecstatic that we’re getting more of them bc i was not expecting it but I’m thrilled#honestly you could pair tsuno with any character and id jump for joy at them interacting she’s just so good#i also finally joined the discord but im too anxious to talk but it’s very entertaining to observe
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inspired by this post
so. Tim gets hit by some kind of spell that transports his consciousness to an alternate timeline, where he is the son of Ra's Al Ghul and older brother of Talia.
his consciousness goes back to his original reality in moments, but due to time bullshit he did spend about a decade in that universe.
Talia got like, super attached to her older brother, Tamir. when he dies on his 18th birthday, during some assassin coming of age death match or something, she was convinced that he was still alive somewhere or somewhen. (I know Tim is (probably) great with infosec, but its a decade! and he came to love her like a little sister, too, so he was a little less tight lipped about his whole circumstances.)
i'm skipping to the fun part, where Tiny Talia is chilling in Tim's apartment when he gets back from some situation, 2 months post-spell. Tim's response is "this might as well happen to me. are you sticking around, or—"
Tim, walking around gotham with Tiny Talia (Tamirah?) one hand in hers, other hand with a drink
Dick: (looking at the very obvious Young Talia Al Ghul) whatcha got there?
Tim: a smoothie.
Tamirah: who is this?
Tim: That's Dick Grayson. we like him.
Tamirah: okay 🩷 yay 🩷
#tim drake#batfamily#batfam#im actually a lil anxious abt putting this in actual tags. ok 👍#ok like i'll leave it there. but if anyone wants to expand on it...#ill prob write more too. sorry im making tim the big brother equivalent of a girldad.#Tiny Talia is probably like. 11? 12? she was born not too long before Tamir became Tim#also i want fo avoid the angst. so Tamir died and got put in a pit and Tim woke up after that.
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