#they are violently codependent LMAO

[starburstminibot]

Transformers ARK! The Twins

Sunstreaker, the self-proclaimed "eldest" of the two is cocky and egotistical. Most bots find him hard to approach so they simply steer clear. He takes great pride in his unstable reputation, and wouldn't be caught dead doing anything to break character. The only bot who seems to be able to put up with him is his twin, Sideswipe. And even though the two are rarely apart, they sometimes seem to barely even like each other. Despite preferring isolation, Sunstreaker has always been secretly jealous of how easily Sideswipe can make friends, and how other bots like his brother over him.

Sideswipe, while just as aggressive at times, can be much more relaxed and playful than his brother. He's funny and friendly, and can quickly gain favor with others. It's unfortunate that most bots are too scared to approach him considering who he's always hanging out with. Sometimes Sideswipe is resentful of the shadow he's constantly living in, and wishes Sunstreaker wasn't setting the standards of what bots grow to expect of him.

It would probably help both of their insecurities if they weren't so codependent, but no one's had the guts to try and tell them that yet.

[hash1ras]

jjk hcs -`♡´- modern au

part one: yuji, megumi, nobara note: characters are aged up in this, early-mid 20's | banner image made by me ♡

⋆˙⟡♡ yuji

definitely the comedian of the group, he's always making you laugh

literally has thousands and thousands of followers on twitter, he's so popular fr (but so humble about it)

sweet tooth!!! always eating sweets, one night at a house party you watched him pull pocky out of his jacket & start snacking in the middle of the kitchen like ??? yuji please eat a vegetable im worried about your health smh

literal sweet baby angel

street style fashion king!!

loves hip hop music, his current favs are isaiah rashad & childish gambino he knows the words to every song

carpool karaoke sessions w him and nobara!!

he's your best friend, you guys have sleepovers and random day trips together

gives the best hugs!!! (😭)

you two have a joint playlist on spotify

has a polaroid camera that he brings with him everywhere

his bedroom is covered with pics he's taken of you and the group<3

⋆˙⟡♡ megumi

the quiet one (ofc)

has his headphones in almost constantly, its usually deftones or nirvana

he also loves old jazz music????

the type of guy to send you 50 tiktoks in a row but never reply to yours smh

he's your go to video game partner

you love going over to his house just to snuggle with his dogs on the couch

he acts annoyed and gives a little "tch" as he walks by but secretly he thinks it's the cutest thing in the world

he likes playing soccer in his free time, like he's actually an insanely good player (okay go off blue lock)

manga collector

his favorite is berserk, like damn who hurt you bby

when he gets drunk, he's the life of the party and will even pull you out on the dance floor

but then he's grumpy as hell the next day because he's violently hungover and you're showing him videos of the night before (now he's burying his head in the pillow bc he's embarrassed)

his closet is literally all black clothing

you love stealing his jackets and shirts when he's not looking lmao

megumi is the one you go to when you're struggling with anything, he always gives the best advice with 0 judgement

⋆˙⟡♡ nobara

shopaholic!!!!!

will usually take mall trips with you, she'll facetime you from the dressing room to get your opinion on outfits and now you two are having a virtual date from across the dressing room hallway lmao

fortnite champion

she always kills megumi anytime they play together and he gets so mad, now he's screaming at nobara while you and yuji are dying from laughter on the couch

"the sweetest bitch you'll ever meet"

thats actually her instagram bio

loves cherry coke

club girl, you two love spending your weekends out dancing, occasionally you'll drag megumi & yuji out with you

you know those platonic codependent friendships? like does anyone wanna hang out for 15 days in a row? yeah that's you and nobara<3

has a sanrio obsession & a plushie collection to match (she calls you the kuromi to her melody)

she's a swiftie

her favorite album is reputation

gives the best boy advice

requests are open!#

[jacarandaaaas]

I’m bored so here’s user jacarandaaaas hot takes rapid fire round

- I don’t think camilo is an asshole who’s heartless and I hate content that portrays him as such

- pepa is not a bad parent because of one 5 second scene where camilo comforts her

- julietas trauma is undermined a lot of the time and compared to her daughters

- comparing the characters trauma is weird

- i don’t think isabela is crazy violent post movie and would hate to be seen that way

- luisa is an introvert

- I don’t like the take that bruno avoided the kids pre movie I actually think he would spend more time with them than the adults

- I hate parentified mirabel. she’s 15 let her have fun she does not need to babysit people who are all older than her

- on another note yall undermine mirabel too much just because she has trauma but so does every other character. mirabel is not the only one who is traumatized and her trauma doesn’t make her any less capable than anyone else.

- isabela is smarter than she’s given credit for

- luisa is the most feminine out of the sisters but y’all discredit that because she has muscles even tho the movie has an entire song about how she wants to be seen as more than that.

- dolores can be fun

- camilo is watered down to being just “crazy” but y’all ignore how caring and considerate he is too just cause he’s a teenage boy

- let mirabel say fuck

- this one isn’t even a hot take anymore but none of the characters are perfect and that includes Bruno

- talking about bruno I hate when he’s shown to be completely incompetent at everything

- same with mirabel

- I think it takes a lot of time for isabela to fully embrace imperfection as we saw after wecid how fast she reverted back

- alma is not evil or villainous at all but people have a right to be upset at how she acted (the movie makes this a point she does say mean things) her actions are understandable not inexcusable

- going from one toxic dynamic to a different toxic dynamic doesn’t make it any less toxic (codependency)

- isabela and mirabels relationship is mutually strained

- luisa wasn’t a good sister just because she ignored mirabel instead of belittling her

- mirabel was just as ignorant as everyone else and I’m tired of y’all acting like she knew the whole time when she didn’t

- pepa never hated bruno and y’all didn’t understand wdtab

- LET MIRABEL BE FUN AND SILLY

- antonio wouldn’t abandon mirabel for his animals he already loved animals premovie anyways

- isabela is a huge softie and I hate how overlooked that aspect of her is

- luisa never hated isabela

- dolores never intended on ruining isabelas proposal she just heard a prophecy that everyone’s lives were gonna be ruined and was terrified

- mirabel has friends

- luisa is a grown woman who is capable of doing things for herself

- I think camilo was the most distant when bruno came back but after a while they became really close

- mirabel is brunos fav i mean come on she literally saved his life

- i don’t think pedro is given enough respect

uh yeah that’s all I have for now lmao

[sgt-floyd-pepper]

Stuilly Headcanons!!! (Sfw)

This is my third time writing this because every single time I type this out and post it, Tumblr gives me an error message. ╥﹏╥

Billy confessed to Stu first. They always had a relationship that transcended typical friendship means, (being insanely codependent on each other to function) and when Billy told him how he felt, Stu was like "aren't we already basically dating anyways? " LMAO

They are au4au (autistic/autistic). Stu has comorbid ADHD and Billy has BPD

Billy is trans and the first person he ever came out to was Stu. He helped him pick a name and they settled on Billy because of Billy Lenz from Black Christmas

Stu loves loves loves PDA!! He always plays it off as a joke but will call Billy petnames, hold his hand and grab his butt in public

Speaking of petnames!! Stu loves them just as much as he loves PDA. He struggles to take affection seriously and is very silly and jokey with them, simply because of who he is as a person.

Billy's love languages are gift giving and quality time (murder and plotting) and and Stu's are touch and words of affirmations

They have matching stick n pokes :)

Stu was Billy's first boy crush, and first boy kiss. He was basically his bisexual awakening.

They 100% will plan to "hang out" (violently make out) and the rest of the friend group makes jokes about them being secretly gay which makes Billy sooooo made.

Billy is the clingier of the two. He's definitely gone and got his class schedule changed to have his classes with Stu.

[midnightpink]

blood on my shirt, heart in my hand

read it here on ao3

James never gave much thought to dreams —where they come from, what they're trying to tell him. Of course, that was before he's started having very particular nightmares. Ones that leave him haunted even during waking hours. Ones that beg questions about what's real and what's not. Ones that, especially, have him relying on his boyfriend to help him be able to stomach.

After all, if there's one thing Regulus is good at, it's taking care of James however he needs. No matter how concerning it may be.

by: xjustakay

Words: 22,750, Chapters: 2/2, Language: English 

Collections: Screamfest

Fandom: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling

Rating:  Explicit

Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence

Categories: M/M

Characters:  James Potter, Regulus Black, Sirius Black, Remus Lupin, Several Other Present or Mentioned Characters

Relationship: Regulus Black/James Potter

Additional Tags: Psychological Drama, Psychological Horror, Murder, Blood and Violence, Mystery, Dissociation, Memory Issues, Nightmares, Violent Thoughts, Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms, we're talking like.., murder as a coping mechanism, also murder as a love language, the very fine line between gaslighting and protecting someone from themself, (stay with me here lmao), Plot Twists, Established Relationship, Crazy Codependent Boyfriends, they're insane (like in general AND about each other), Explicit Language, Sexual Content, Choking, (in a mostly sexy way miraculously), Ambiguous/Open Ending, James and Regulus both live at least so

[findroleplay]

hi! i (early 20s, nb) am looking for 18+ writers for a fandomless apocalypse/post apocalypse plot. the pairing will be mxnb, as i have a nonbinary (masc leaning) character i'd like to use, but id love to flesh out side characters and stories together, as well, and im open to any other kinds of dynamics (platonic, familial, found family, etc). im happy to play any type of character to round out our world!

as for the oc i'm bringing to the table, they're pretty erratic, obsessive, and violent. definitely a bit of a jackass just because they think it's funny, lmao. some tropes i'd love to explore include codependency, enemies to lovers, enemies with benefits, long term grudges, messy dynamics, etc. i don't write them as a strict bottom and would prefer if any characters you bring to the table or make for this plot aren't, either! please feel free to bring your assholes, morally grey guys, or straight up evil characters, i'm open to anything.

please note that despite some of the tropes i'm interested in, i highly prefer to fade to black instead of writing explicit nsfw! i would love to explore other dark topics, though, and of course i'll respect whatever triggers you might have. i write on discord, anywhere from multi para to advanced lit depending on where my partner's comfort zone is. i prefer to use written descriptions or art facelciams, but i don't mind whatever you want to bring to the table!

if you're read this ramble, and it catches your eye, please drop a like!

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[andorerso]

sissi hello!! in regards to the post about ocs, i would LOVE to hear more about dani and elijah 💜 (partly bc i love both of those names so so much, always have, and that intrigues me instantly).

hope you're having a wonderful day!

rolling up almost two months later like hiiiiii <3 sorry it took me so long to answer ahfgdchg

but first of all, thank you for asking because I love talking about them, second of all, I'm so happy you like the names because I do too 🥰 well obviously, I wouldn't have chosen them otherwise, but I'm very particular about names and they have to feel right, and this was one of those instances when I almost instantly knew their names, like it was just fate. meant to be. and I think they sound nice together!! anyway, I'll stop ranting about names now

so, the story is urban fantasy, and their tropes are slowburn, mutual pining, idiots to lovers, battle couple, codependency, angstttttt, two sides of the same coin, flirty & awkward, snarky & serious, impulsive & rational, short-tempered & calm

Dani (full name Danielle Preston but she hates being called Danielle) is our leading lady, she's in her mid-20s, and she's the flirty, snarky, impulsive, short-tempered side of the two. she's always cracking a joke, which is mostly a self-defense mechanism, and tends to cover up real feelings with humor, sex and booze. I have such a soft spot for characters who'd rather cut open a vein than show weakness or vulnerability in front of someone, but still deeply care about people and are intensely loyal if you earn it, so she's kinda that archetype. she'd literally burn down a whole city for someone she loves but will never actually say the words. also she's bisexual like almost all my MCs

here's kind of how I imagine her (made with this picrew)

and Elijah is the more level-headed, serious, all business no fun counterpart to Dani's generally chaotic behavior. he's a couple hundred years old, and not human, but he looks to be in his early 30s. he's very matter-of-fact, goal-oriented, and pragmatic, but he's also very kind to those who deserve it, and can be surprisingly intense and passionate when he actually lets himself feel it (which is not very often, at least not at first). he has a very strong sense of justice, but he kind of follows his own moral code, so he definitely falls into the morally grey category (Dani kind of does too, but Elijah even more so)

here's a picrew for him too

as for their relationship, it starts as kind of an unwilling partnership and they clash a lot at the beginning because of their different approaches and worldviews, but they eventually form a friendship. Elijah's kind of drawn to her/fascinated by her from the start, because she's so different from him but has a lot of the qualities he admires/wishes he had too. Dani takes a bit longer mostly because she's better at lying to herself lmao. but there's an attraction of sort from the beginning. it's a difficult ride, mostly because they're both stubborn idiots who tend to repress their emotions, just in different ways. she's lost people and is afraid to lose more, and he's just not sure he knows how to allow himself to want things and be a functioning human person, so neither wants a relationship and they're both violently trying to deny any feelings. but the feelings are definitely there. like they're not together but they're deeply devoted but they will never admit it but there's no one else who could possibly compare. those kinda vibes, you know?

some other tidbits/details that I love about them: she loves to antagonize him (mostly in a teasing way) and he's so offended/annoyed at first until he realizes it's her love language. then the annoyance turns into fond exasperation. she's pretty much the only one who can make him genuinely smile and laugh, in fact sometimes he's the only one who actually finds her funny at all lmao (she definitely overdoes it sometimes but he finds it charming). she's a bit of a romantic deep down, and he's very intensely devoted once he commits, so it's the kind of relationship she always secretly wanted but never thought could have. and he's the only person she will tolerate calling her Danielle (it's kind of a turn-on from him).

anyway, I could go on but it's gonna get long very quickly, so this is just the basics. but I love talking about them and I'm always open to more specific questions from anyone <3

also here's a moodboard too because why not

[rphunter]

hi! i (early 20s, nb) am looking for 18+ writers for a fandomless apocalypse/post apocalypse plot. the pairing will be mxnb, as i have a nonbinary (masc leaning) character i'd like to use, but id love to flesh out side characters and stories together, as well, and im open to any other kinds of dynamics (platonic, familial, found family, etc). im happy to play any type of character to round out our world!

as for the oc i'm bringing to the table, they're pretty erratic, obsessive, and violent. definitely a bit of a jackass just because they think it's funny, lmao. some tropes i'd love to explore include codependency, enemies to lovers, enemies with benefits, long term grudges, messy dynamics, etc. i don't write them as a strict bottom and would prefer if any characters you bring to the table or make for this plot aren't, either! please feel free to bring your assholes, morally grey guys, or straight up evil characters, i'm open to anything.

please note that despite some of the tropes i'm interested in, i highly prefer to fade to black instead of writing explicit nsfw! i would love to explore other dark topics, though, and of course i'll respect whatever triggers you might have. i write on discord, anywhere from multi para to advanced lit depending on where my partner's comfort zone is. i prefer to use written descriptions or art facelciams, but i don't mind whatever you want to bring to the table!

if you're read this ramble, and it catches your eye, please drop a like!

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[x-neurotoxin-x]

what do dabi spinner & shigaraki all mentally deal with in the paperbag series? aside from dabi being a system ofc

As in, like, disorders and mental health issues? Lmao they all have so many issues, I'll try to narrow down the main ones I portray them with in the series.

All three of them were severely isolated so they all have antisocial traits, difficulty understanding social cues, social anxiety, and communication issues. They all have PTSD that manifests in different ways- Dabi usually begins to shut down and dissociate when triggered, Shuichi developed a fawn response, and Shigaraki responds with aggression and anger when triggered. They all have substance abuse issues, though Tomura especially has a problem with alcoholism, Dabi's an addict, and Shuichi has trouble with alcohol and weed but not to the same degree as the other two.

Dabi - HC-DiD with programming, he also has dissociative amnesia and depersonalization due to that. He doesn't really understand the concept of consent or abuse. He's ftm trans so he has gender dysphoria, internalized transphobia and misogyny. He's a grooming victim. He dehumanizes himself and objectifies his body, usually using his body as a tool for survival via survival sex work, using sex in exchange for favors, etc. He's also suicidal and has self destructive behaviors and self harms. He gets low-key mindbroken in Gold and develops a sort of Stockholm syndrome/trauma bond with Shigaraki. Even outside of the DiD/Touya being a child alter, Dabi age regresses and is mentally delayed because of his trauma and the coma.

Shigaraki - He has issues with impulsive control and managing his anger, which causes violent outbursts. His violent outbursts can lead to psychosis at times and he blacks out, usually feeling guilty afterwards but he has issues identifying his emotions and empathizing with others so it's difficult for him to process that he actually feels guilty. If you squint, he has programming too due to the forced violence, rape, and murder - he's not a system though and doesn't really have any programming beyond violence and desensitization to violence programming. He also has issues understanding consent, but it more manifests as him not respecting others lack of consent or boundaries. He has a lot of control issues and possessive behavior, mostly due to abandonment issues and his abuse and grooming growing up- if he feels out of control or powerless he'll hurt others to regain a feeling of power, and if he thinks he might lose someone (or lose control of someone) he'll snap and become possessive and cruel.

Spinner - That man has so much BPD it isn't even funny, and Shigaraki is his favorite person. Because of the bpd he has identity issues, mood swings, self image issues, and codependency problems. Hes also got a lotta body insecurity, and I usually hc him with unspecified eating disorder/disordered eating. Also a grooming victim and has a tendency to be codependent and vulnerable to abuse because of neglect and isolation. Def has depression and self isolates. He also has internalized quirkism and tends to dehumanize himself.

[crumbleclub]

clone au notes so far

Experiment stuff:

Medical abuse!! So much medical abuse. Gets experimented on constantly

Easily tires, constantly in pain, but essentially immortal due to remnant experiments.

Physically speaking, seems to have general strength limits for the most part, even though William basically gives him physical therapy. Maybe constant mild muscle wasting?

His cells replace themselves more quickly than average, but not to a "perfect" degree. He can be killed by physical injuries, but his wound healing is about twice as fast.

Unidentified digestive problems, feels sick and tired immediately after eating but seems to get nutrients from food just fine (the remnant is trying to fix the organic material he's eating lmao). Less noticable with super processed foods

There's probably a whole hospitalish room somewhere in the Afton house for experimenting on him. They even have an x ray machine for spinal injections

Probably has a port for easy iv access

Ankle bracing, custom made by William. Holds his feet at a right angle for walking if his ankles get too fatigued to do so, but has a hinge to allow him to force them down if needed

Raised by William w pretty typical human growth but may have been lab grown as a fetus?? Unless William hired a surrogate???? If the former there's probably some kind of chamber mimicking necessary conditions or whatever hidden away somewhere

Thinks William is younger than he is (William has done SOME remnant experimentation on himself, but not as much as he wants bc clones have unwanted side effects). Clone thinks William is middle aged, but he's in his 70s. This means clone is probably born sometime between 1995-2005

Fifth cloning attempt, sixth clone (one embryo split)

Day to day:

Lives in Utah. Does not know what a mormon is (William finds every religion boring and honestly just. Doesn't discuss any of them lmao)

Has seen some tv, mostly limited to things William likes/thinks would be beneficial

Super codependent w William obviously. Like parentified and infantilized alternating wildly based on William's mood/rules

William starts to feel threatened the older clone gets bc he could lose in a fight, but simultaneously he wants clone to know how to be violent. In the end tends to settle for taking him "hunting" using methods that amount to animal torture, but only with prey smaller than himself

Taught to do most basic tasks needed to live, but William does a lot for him when he wants more dependence (avoids letting him have sharps when cooking or shaving so does a lot of that for him, will just randomly get moody and decide clone is either on his own for the day or is having nearly everything done for him). Like there are days William disappears and there are days he insists on brushing his pretty capable teenager's teeth for him

Sometimes builds toys and things for fun. Likes to reverse engineer toys and also break things in weird ways

Media intake managed by William, not allowed online. Has a computer with no internet William puts things on for him to do, is sometimes given downloaded material William approves upon request (articles, games, etc)

William tries VERY HARD to isolate him so he thinks his life is normal

Starts to get suspicious about his isolation in his teens, but has to be very quiet about it to avoid physical harm

Personality:

Morbidly curious, just like William. However, he's not quite sadistic the way William is

Gets frustrated with how overbearing William is, but his loneliness makes him tolerate it

SO lonely. Wants attention SO bad, but taught not to seek it out directly. Will try to get others' attention the way a cat does (causing trouble, being nearby, staring)

Very very curious about the human brain, but more physically than psychologically. Like he would want to try removing random chunks of brains just to see what happens in theory, but he'd probably have an ethical crisis instead if the opportunity actually arose

Has not been taught a lot of moral types of things (don't hurt others etc) but he does associate the idea of violence towards humans with himself being in pain bc. William. So he doesn't revel in it the way William does

That being said his method of choice in a fight is blunt force trauma, and the curiosity would be full force if he ever killed. He would want to see when they stopped moving, how their expressions changed, etc

Little knowledge of physical boundaries. Will just grab people trying to be affectionate without knowing whether they're ok with it

Probably has no idea you're not supposed to change in front of people

Has been coached on how to talk to people outside of the home but has never ever had visitors and wouldn't think twice abt them seeing all the weird experiment shit they have

Things he knows:

Mostly proficient in core subjects to at least elementary level

Postsecondary knowledge in math, especially in finances

Postsecondary knowledge of engineering, especially relevant knowledge to animatronics and robotics

High school reading level, taught more about analyzing factual information from nonfiction and understanding others from memoirs than he was intructed much on fiction past elementary

Basic world history knowledge (probably early middle schoolish) but only what William thought was relevant (he knows about the world wars and can point to some countries on a map, can point to Utah on a US map, knows abt like. The industrial revolution and other various periods of time. Inventions and stuff yk)

A decent amount about the US legal system, most notably warrants and attorney rights

A handful of foreign languages

How to mix cocktails

Basic hygiene tasks

Human anatomy, including what autopsies look like and the basics of how they are done

Theoretical ways to take down a person, but William only taught him ways he was confident he could counter

Things he doesn't:

How to drive

Local geography; cannot get around Hurricane independently

Lots of social rules. He knows the things William thought to tell him– how to introduce himself politely, how to answer the phone, table manners, how to behave respectfully towards a parent by his standards– but not the things learned from experience, like how to deescalate an arguement, personal boundaries, how conversations work with anyone other than William. Would probably talk about William's favorite topics when trying to be polite bc he thinks that's what everyone likes

The rules to most sports

Anything abt most games people play with peers as kids. He has never played hide and seek or tag or anything

He has never pet a dog or cat. He has seen them on the street before, though

How to swim

How to ride a bike

How to jump rope

How to read music

[casuallyakward]

Silly Game Time: Who are some of your favorite reptile characters? And what do you like about them?

They could be fully a real reptile (snakes, lizards, crocodilians--heck I'll even let you include amphibians like frogs, toads, newts, and salamanders if you want), partially reptile (like naga a partially humans and dragons are partually anything else), humanoid from fantasy or sci-fi (kobolds or silurians, etc.), or something else entirely. All that matters is that they're reptilain or reptoid.

not to toot my own horn, but i have a pair of ocs that are snakes - well, one of them is just a very traumatized girl and the other is a sort of astral snake that lends her enhanced abilities in exchange for occasionally bodyjacking her lol

they are some of my absolutely favorite blorbos, and they are basically in a highly toxic codependent abusive relationship. but! diversity win! they are both femme presenting :) lmao but yeah they are each highly exaggerated representation of some of my most mentally ill years which also happen to be my middle/high school years.

also realizing they are also perfect examples of my taste in fictional women - depressed cinnamon-roll and violent yandere lmaoooooo

anyway you can read about them and many more traumatized shapeshifting teens in the webcomic I make with my bestie, Inner Daemons (previously known as Daemons of Lorasne)

on a seperate note, also love all the dragon characters Dollightful created in a series of doll repaint videos - so so sooo creative with very impressive body mods to turn these monster high dolls into anthropomorphic dragons (of fire, water, earth, air, light, dark, and magic!)

[theinvisiblemuseum]

saw u say in the tags that u got book recs so do u know any books with deranged gays like w blood or murder or arson idk i feel like u're the type of person who would know this shit lmao

of course i doooooooo i always need MORE but i’ve got a couple recs to share:

these violent delights by micah nemerever (this is exactly what you’re looking for i promise)

summer sons by lee mandelo (includes a homoerotic codependent ghost. as a treat.)

vicious by v.e. schwab (ok this isn’t explicitly gay but. we all have eyes.)

she’s too pretty to burn by wendy heard (sapphic dorian gray)

carmilla by joseph sheridan le fanu (this one predates dracula… invented vampires me thinks)

[reallivemannequin]

I have not done a rewatch from season 1 in years.

They were all so cute and young back then!

Stefan is creepy the second he introduces himself to Elena 😂. Immediate ick

Caroline could have also been way more interesting in later seasons. The girl was in a physically and emotionally abusive relationship!!!! She was turned. She was as a child. Instead we got what we got and all the meta (do we still use that term idk) does not erase the nonsense. In response to feeling rejected by Stefan for Elena, Bonnie tells her it’s not a competition. Caroline’s response is given in the most terrifying tone, “yeah it is”. She needs to be studied 😭

I feel similarly about Tyler. What a waste of an interesting character. They gave him a redemption for what?

The budget for the music in season 1…the Fray?! Shocked. Florence + the machine…flabbergasted

The amount of sex on teen shows is kind of wild and makes it’s so much harder to watch as an adult.

I hate Damon this rewatch too lmao. As a former Bamon shipper we had strength and dedication fr. We loved the potential bc omg he was terrible.

I cannot stand the amount of layers on these kids. Is it that cold when they’re wearing bikinis at a car wash?!?

The show did so much better at showing not telling in season 1. Elena is loyal bc she wants Damon to know that Caroline is her friend and she’s won’t hook up with him. She’s fiesty and fierce when she slaps him. We get that’s part of who she is. In later seasons it’s just telling us shit that doesn’t and hasn’t applied.

Suspense is where this series thrived (even when there was no pay off to it). Very fun. I’m still surprised by so many things. There’s so much I forgot.

Did not remember that the humanity thing started this early. It’s so obnoxious and didn’t have to be. Seems like your humanity had yall sleeping with the same girl. Idk how much weight that is supposed to hold, Brother.

Everybody failed Vicky. Period. Like why are Tyler and Jeremy arguing about sleeping with her in front of Matt. Sick. We also just forgot about Tyler forcing himself on her…

Class differences in this show were very pronounced in the beginning. All the founder’s are delulu.

Can you imagine a retelling through Matt? A bigger horror story

Jeremy was sassy af. I love the dramatics. He is me. I am him. Matt was supposed to be the everyman and Jeremy is speaking for anybody with sense lmaoo. Whenever he talks to the Salvatore’s I’m like

Get that b*tch!!!!

Hate the fake concern of any of the Founders. Idk a bunch of white folks in the south holding secret meetings screams hate group tbh

It’s extremely misogynistic to romanticize grown men fighting over a literal child. The way they even talk about Katherine in the season is yucky. This show honestly should’ve been on showtime and aged up Elena to near the end of college.

“You’re the woman that I love”. Boy that’s a child!!!!! I HATE Stefan this rewatch if I didn’t say it already.

These kids should’ve kept their ass in class but it also shows how naive and frankly dumb you are as a teenager. Even if you think you’re logical.

THE SALVATORES ARE THE VILLAINS!!! They ruined these kids lives.

Matt and Vicky got a deadbeat and a deadbeat predator, Caroline got emotionally abusive parents, Bonnie got deadbeats but one is successful, Tyler’s parents are emotionally and physically abusive, the Gilberts died but isobel and John were terrible, and they all lose their parental figures all as literal children…and this is a show about family… this is a show about consent, codependency, addiction, and grief. I can’t even say it’s truly about found family bc they treat each other like shit

Elena and Stefan’s relationship is sooo toxic. How many teenage girls were brainwashed by this show? Bc he is violent and it is wild it was marketed towards teens. They’re literally the couple where the girl is breaking up a fight and holding his face because she’s the only one who can calm him down but x 100000%

Somebody turn on the lights!!! Why is it so dark?!? It seems worse now

There’s no way that a man that killed your brother should ever be a viable love interest. They dragged that triangle to hell when 2 of the members were literal demons

I have not talked about Bonnie but she will forever be my girl and she deserved better. I am still so interested in the witch mythology that the show never cared about. The way that they did the Black folks on this show is yucky

How did I forget that Harper was a character…yikes

[saccharinemeat]

D , K , L , S , T , W , Z . good monin .... looks at you respectfully kissin ... hi ..... hello . hey

Answerin' this so latey but still! myah myah

D - A pairing you wish you liked but just can’t.

Depends on fandom,but from iii, clover/nickel and candle/silver spoon. which i know you do like but i just cant help but be annoyed by em sometimes. particularly the latter cuz yknow. f/o.

non object and unrelated to shared fandoms, definitely Jonmartin. I know they're canon i know wah wah the dinghy I DONT FUCKING CARE. martin is a little bitch to Jon during the eyepocalypse and idk. idk he gets on my nerves. JonMichael forever actually. (And i like martin with peter lukas. toxic gilf win.)

K - What character has your favorite development arc/the best development arc?

Depends on the fandom, object wise i wanna say Balloon (especially in iii), and while i also love Flowers arc i feel she got a bit watered down at the end of bfb. Quite curious to know where Robot Flower's is going though. Non object fandom, I wanna say Riko from made in abyss has some amazing development,and in general the arc around Vueroeruko and Irumyuu was fucking insane. Sobbing immediately and violently.

L - Say something genuinely nice about a character who isn’t one of your faves.

Ugh. Candle is not a bitch and im mostly just uncomfortable with how close she is with silver and her chill attitude is Annoying to a certain degree. Cabby is Fine in the very late episodes and her friendship with yinyang is Nice. Non object related, uhh. uhhhh. idk i dont have any MAJOR hatred i think. or if i do it's so bad i Deleted them from my brain lmao.

S - Show us an example of your personal headcanon

Oh there's so many, I'll try to stay away from my super edgy ones You Know,but let's see. object specific, here's a handful,will just do objects here cuz easier:

test tube is a coffee nerd. She loves all the borderline sciencey work to pull a single shot of espresso. and she WILL get annoying about it if not stopped

Baseball and Cheesy both have braces

Knife is a big fan of kawaii shit and loves the color pink. After the dora incident he's less shy about having one or two little keychains or plushies.

Tree likes to smoke and is in his late 30s. I will Not elaborate,i just know I'm Correct.

T - Do you have any hard and fast headcanons that you will die defending?

some headcanons ill die defending are mostly darker ones,honestly. but i guess heres some misc. ones from multiple fandoms

- Julian (The Arcana) has BPD and i will never back off from that

- Kenny (south park) sometimes is cis and sometimes isn't,depending how his body regenerated after the latest death

- Yin and Yang (inanimate insanity) have an extremely codependent fucked up relationship

- Rick (Rick & Morty) is bilingual and can speak spanish perfectly. Yes i know this is basically canon but goddamn if the show NEVER brings it up. Im salty about this.

W - A trope which you are virtually certain to hate in any fandom.

Any fucking barista/florist/whatever the fuck AU. you people are boring,jesus. And poorly done Enemies to Lovers (ENEMIES ARE EQUALS) or Bully/Victim ships portrayed as good (toxic dynamics can stay tho)

Z - Just ramble about something fan-related, go go go!

Bro I'm tired,, but i wanna talk about fandom in general and how fucking annoying it is that people are always going for wholesome and pure and fluffy and like. yes that's fine and all but i miss when fandom was owned by the freaks. I feel like even the concept of fandom has gone far FAR too mainstream and it's annoying as all hell. It's difficult to not want to just live in a little corner. Also people treat writers and artists like fucking. content machines and it sucks so much. people used to establish friendships over this but now even requests are BARELY polite. Bleh. Also bring the kinkmeme livejournals back

[hell-heron]

Rambling about my fic and literary hardships under the cut

I think the thing that gives me the most secondhand embarrasment on rereading/finding new comments for ikmka is the way I handled the ensemble/background/random ironborn OCs part of the cast, there's just too many for the lenght, a lot of episodes are bizarre/pointless/just there to separate more important scenes etc, was it really needed to have three separate fosterlings of Alannys and three separate Botleys as speaking characters etc can't believe someone Is reading this dreck right now...

Part of it is I've always been someone who enjoys coming up with family trees and pointless headcanons and then can't let go of them lmao since I was 13 it was a problem and you can see it in even short fics (red moonlight, three boys etc not to mention the entirety of my Romeo and Juliet production). Like for example the worst offender (besides the Victarion thing where I was biased and wanted to include the oaf because I love him) is definitely the little trip to Iron Holt where I was attached to the little connection I came up with for Aladale Wynch (why is an ironborn knight at the Wall? backstory) and also to Calla Orkwood/Wynch a true 13 year old girl OC produced entirely by my heart and ass. And then after I came up with that I felt the need to continue on that thoroughline so it would be a feature of the fic and not one random extraneous episode.

On the other hand I really do think this fic needed the reader feel as violently dunked as Theon was in this social whirlwind, thematically, it's important to show/don't/tell that Theon is experiencing this kind of sudden and jerky reintegration to this culture, all these new opportunities for healthy peer relationships, mentor relationships, mentee relationships that should more than make up for losing one younger friend but don't, all these responsibilities and social obligations as a young lordling that should make him feel justified in coming back but don't, all this praise and acceptance for his actions which should make him feel better but don't, all this exposure to the consequences of the Greyjoy rebellion that should make him feel righteous about wronging the Starks in return but don't. Its stuff a more skilled writer could definitely have conveyed in tighter fewer scenes but I personally enjoy the confusing whirlwind approach!

(I also wasn't the best I fear at making this return different enough from canon- It felt like there were a lot more new meetings that should have been reunions, now its three years and not ten. But that also makes partial sense to me - he missed three years of passage from childhood to adolescence and now his world has opened abruptly beyond the confines of the Island of Pyke rather than gradually)

Overall though this reminds me of a musing I periodically have, which is that the novel/short story form is just... Bad at conveying the social sphere of extroverted characters or very connected characters (which I wanted Theon to be, Theon is very extroverted imho). You constantly see this criticism with characters who are characterised as popular but have three besties or unintentionally come across as being detached from everyone. GRRM, definitely one of the authors who should not be encouraged to add more characters and background details, constantly gets comments on how his court settings feel empty or how his characters who you wouldn't expect to be loners only have one friend outside of family. In 2021 my sister was having one of those downswings in social situation you have when you're out of sync with your former group in how fast you're going thru puberty and I was researching middle grade books that had less emphasis on rigidly insular groups and codependent bestie bonds and more on relationships developing organically and situationally and there wasn't really anything besides Anastasia Krupnik and thats a serial

(Ikmka is def a middle grade novel among other genres tbh)

Or like recently I've been struck by how well Ljudmila Petrushevskaja does it in short stories but she definitely also does it by confusing whirlwind technique; also Emma and Persuasion are good examples to me but not exactly everything that Austen writes is. Its just this very delicate balance of lots of people all of whom are known and some kind of relationship exists with and who are loosely arranged in groups but you don't get the feeling every single person has an ironclad thematic reason to know the protagonist, you know. Its a really hard realism/thematic coherence balance to strike and I can never describe it until I see it

[chryzuree]

3, 6, and 9 for all four categories; well no 9 in the first but for the three others lmao

I. PRE-RELATIONSHIP

3. Who felt romantic feelings first?

questions that genuinely make me stop and stare at the ceiling for ten minutes. who did feel romantic feelings first?? chrysi started flirting w gil first, but that was mostly bc she was running away frm the pain of losing azure + gil was one of theeeeee least likely ppl to fall in love w her. and she was rlly only flirting w him because it was a fun pastime. plus, a huge part of their relationship is them both not realizing their feelings for each other… hmmmm. so is it who knew they had romantic feelings first, or who developed the unaware crush first??

…. i think i’m going to say gil, then. mostly bc chrysi’s still so wrapped up in her pain of losing azure that she can’t tell if she genuinely likes gil or if he’s jst a good distraction.

6. What was their "flirting stage" like?

answered here :))

II. GENERAL

3. What was their first kiss like?

answered here <3

6. How do their personalities complement each other? How do they clash?

OH BOY. MY FAV TOPIC EVERRRR. bc chrysi and gil are both so similar (protective. defensive of those they love. oblivious to their feelings for convenience reasons) and yet soooo difference (violently codependent versus violently independent, clueless versus astute, off-balance versus deliberately startling) and it’s jst such a fun dynamic.. they complement each other when it gets down to protecting others. they work p well in battle, for example, and for a few shining moments, they feel understood..

but they clash violently when it comes to communication styles. such as: neither of them fucking communicate to save their lives, and it’s accidental on gil’s part and 100% on purpose on chrysi’s part.

idk if i’m making sense, but they’re soooo. they’.re. they are. i meaaaan. yeag.

9. Who gets jealous easier?

GILLLL, gil gil gil!!!!!!!!!!! chrysi’s using him most of the time, so whenever she sees gil w someone (coughs, dahlia frm the light novel), she’s like “huh. good for him <3” whereas gil is sweating and crying and throwing up any time he sees chrysi w/ another man. no, he doesn’t have feelings for her. yes, he wants to shrivel up and die when she gives someone else attention that’s not HIM. please, for the love of GOD!!!! he is RIGHT HERE!!!!

III. LOVE

3. Who uses the cheesy pick-up lines, or does corny gestures?

okay, so depending on the circumstance,, both do. chrysi does it bc it makes gil blush + it’s funny and cute!! gil does it bc break told him it would be a good idea (source: just trust me). that still makes gil blush and chrysi thinks it’s funny and cute, so it works in both directions :)) ((break is doing his older brother duties of embarrassing chrysi’s future boyfriend in front of her, since he won’t be there to see them actually get together…… oh. made myself a little sad there. okay, i have to leave.))

6. What are their favorite things to do together?

answered here!!

9. What reminds them of each other?

whenever chrysi sees ravens/crows, cigarettes, coffee shops, tea shops, white gloves, a black hat, a long black coat, she thinks of gil! she also thinks of him when she sees a pretty lighter & a pretty tin box. mostly bc she thinks that gil would find a use for it (and if he doesn’t, alice will steal it and use it instead!!)

gil thinks of chrysi whenever he sees a red dress, a parasol (??? chrysi has used one exactly ONE TIME, i’m NOT sure what’s going on in gil’s head tbh), BOOKS, SO MANY BOOKS, sketchbooks too <33 also pretty ring sets.. oz nearly convinced gil to buy an engagement set for chrysi bc it was so pretty. he was BATTLING to be the devil on gil’s shoulder. shame it didn’t work (oz is kicking rocks and pouting down the street. plan foiled.)

IV. DOMESTIC LIFE

3. What is the wedding like? Who attends?

answered here :D

6. Do they have any pets?

answered hereee

9. How do they celebrate holidays?

they spend SO MUCH TIME in the kitchen. gil doesn’t like having chrysi help cook bc she’ll get distracted if he doesn’t have a task for her going at all times, but she’s good at keeping the kitchen clean even as he’s cooking and such. nd when they aren’t in the kitchen, chrysi’s crawling into their bay window w a blanket and a book and she’s begging gil to join her PLEASEEEE bc they never get a break from keeping the abyss company’s :(( come here pleaseeeeee. he obliges, but only bc he loves her sososo much.