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eddis-not-eeddis · 10 months

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I need some prayers. My health is really bad right now, and i might lose my job.

#i had to go home on Saturday because I had a fever and wasn't really able to function #I took Monday off two weeks ago so I could see a doctor about some of the health issues I have #then today I had another COMPLETELY unrelated health problem that sent me home (it's sent me home from my last job on multiple occasions)#i don't know what to do #i keep getting sick #(fevers puking and lung infections)#and i can't kick it #and that's ON TOP of the other chronic issues I've been dealing with for the last three or four years #i'm so discouraged and upset right now and i have no idea what on earth I'm gonna do #i just want to get better and not have to deal with this #i have never been this sick for this long in my entire life #but I've been sick for month long stretches three times already this year #i don't know what to do at this point #i hate this so much

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uncanny-tranny · 1 year

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I think it can be true that certain lifestyle changes can help with pain and disability, but people really overplay how those changes will affect people's lives.

I've found that exercise has helped my back pain - I have had chronic back pain that PT didn't touch, but exercise has helped. However, what hasn't changed is what exasperates that pain, and when my pain is especially exasperated, it doesn't matter how much I exercise, I'll be in my bed trying so hard to get out, and I'll be seeing white. So, yes, exercise helped me, but it did not save me. That's an example of what I mean.

It's fine to give (solicited!!) advice to people about how to manage things like this. But I'm begging people to be realistic about this. Lifestyle changes can only do so much, and disabilities are - surprise! - disabling.

#disability #i just hate how people turn lifestyle advice into (again) thought-terminating clichés #because i DO all the things i'm ~supposed~ to do and it didn't save me...#...that tells me that it isn't this magical cure people think their advice is #i used my back pain as an example ofc and i'm not saying i have it bad or worse than anybody else #but my pain used to be so much worse and i'm glad it's gotten to the point...#...where i only experience bad days only so often where before it was multiple times per week...#...like as a kid my back pain would keep me up and almost make me cry and PT didn't help me whatsoever #i'm probably about the most active i've been in my life so far and i still have pain because i have a historical precdence for it #this is why i never will judge people for choosing not to make the '~proper~' lifestyle changes that ~help~ with their disability/ies #it isn't a contradiction that i am 'fit' and i'm in the market for a cane (maybe)#(i've been looking around because i want help getting up when i have an 'episode' of pain)

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kira-light0 · 5 months

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I forgot how to draw.

#quantum leap #al calavicci #sam beckett #Ignore the fact that Al looks crazy. It was the most decent drawing of the 5 pages of doodles I did #My art #I did use references but it was multiple at a time so I'm not putting them in the post.#Let me know if any of you want them though #I promise I'll get better at drawing them its just been weeks since I've drawn anything

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bluehairperson · 1 year

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He doesn't have this problem with Valerius.

#ungrateful I wouldn't wash them off #ok listen I admit I first thought of this skit with val and my mc #which makes more sense since lucio canonically takes multiple baths a day so I can see him also do his makeup multiple times the same day #so it stay fresh #while I think val would just power through the whole day without doing it #like he's ready to start working at 7 am and then comes home with gross nasty makeup at the end of the day #he barges in his rooms to take it off as the first thing he does #but if you insist on kissing him you end up getting nude lipstick and foundation smears all over your face #so let's pretend that lucio has just come home from day long hunting trip or something Idk #I've been drawing backgrounds for weeks for work I refuse to do another one here #the arcana #my art #nadia satrinava #lucio morgasson #do these two even have a ship name #the colors look good on my pc and all weird on my phone aaaaa

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bookshelf-in-progress · 8 months

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Number of stories I would like to write: Many.

Number of stories I find myself able to write: Zero.

#adventures in writing #i've got less than a week to write a four loves story #(i want to have one done by valentine's day)#i have multiple stories that have been battering my imagination #i've been home sick and so have time to write #and i get in front of the computer and the energy is gone #everything i write takes so *long*#i got a semi-decent opening to the cinderella story but there's no way i could write anything worth showing in time #i tried a beauty and the beast short piece but the tone isn't coming together #i would like to try the goose girl but there's a key plot point that's shaky #i should just finish up the 12DP #whether or not part two works for people #our good friend sunk cost fallacy is telling me i should just go through with it as the story with minimal work requirement #but i'd also like to write something *else* you know?#too many grandiose ideas not enough words #same song different day

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aeolianblues · 25 days

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I'm not an extrovert. At all. In everyday life, I'm a yapper, sure, but I need someone to first assure me I am okay to yap, so I don't start conversations, even when I really want to join in sometimes! It's just the social anxiety acting up. God knows where from and why I lose a lot of my inhibitions when it comes to talking to people about music. I don't know where the confidence has suddenly sprung from. I've made a crazy amount of friends in musical circles, either just talking to people about common music or (since it is after all in music circles) talking to bands about their own music. I let out a sigh of relief any time an interaction goes well, because in truth it's going against my every instinct. I wish I could do that in everyday life

#like that's the point where we need to remind everyone around me that as much as I say #radio is 'a job'-- it's not 'my job' lol. I wish I was this interested in data science #but like. Honestly?? I'm not even a data scientist!? I answered a few questions about classical AI having come from a computer science back #background and now people are saying to me 'I know you're a data scientist and not a programmer' sir I am a computer scientist #what are you on about #and like I guess I get to google things and they're paying me so I'm not complaining but like I am not a data scientist #my biggest data scientist moment was when I asked 'do things in data science ever make sense???' and a bunch of data scientists went #'no :) Welcome to the club' ???????#why did I do a whole ass computer science degree then. Does anyone at all even want that anymore. Has everything in the realm of #computer science just been Solved. What of all the problems I learned and researched about. Which were cool. Are they just dead #Ugh the worst thing the AI hype has done rn is it has genuinely required everyone to pretend they're a data scientist #even MORE than before. I hate this #anyway; I wish I didn't hate it and I was curious and talked to many people in the field #like it's tragicomedy when every person I meet in music is like 'you've got to pursue this man you're a great interviewer blah blah blah'#and like I appreciate that this is coming from people who themselves have/are taking a chance on life #but. I kinda feel like my career does not exist anymore realistically so unless 1) commercial radio gets less shitty FAST #2) media companies that are laying off 50% of their staff miraculously stop or 3) Tom Power is suddenly feeling generous and wants #a completely unknown idiot to step into the biggest fucking culture show in the country (that I am in no way qualified for)#yeah there's very very little else. There's nothing else lol #Our country does not hype. They don't really care for who you are. f you make a decent connection with them musically they will come to you #Canada does not make heroes out of its talent. They will not be putting money into any of that. Greenlight in your dreams.#this is something I've been told (and seen) multiple times. We'll see it next week-- there are Olympic medallists returning to uni next wee #no one cares: the phrase is 'America makes celebrities out of their sportspeople'; we do not. Replace sportspeople with any public professi #Canada does not care for press about their musicians. The only reason NME sold here was because Anglophilia not because of music journalism #anyway; personal

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fridayyy-13th · 1 month

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wow. not even a week into college and i'm already behind on work. fucking lovely.

#friday chats #friday vs post-secondary school #tw vent #(in the following tags)#i am immeasurably stressed right now #i need to talk to my doctor about getting a booster to go along w/my adhd meds #bc this has been a problem for a while but i think it's about to come to a head #and i'm very scared for when that happens #maybe also talk to my school's disability services #bc Good Fucking God i'm already overwhelmed #it's 11:56. should i just go to bed? i have so many things left to do #when do i even have the time to go to disability services. and i've heard a lot of schools' processes w/that are slow and overcomplicated #fuck. fuck fuck fuckity fuck.#i think i'm spiraling #i'm worried that if i don't get a degree i won't be able to find a nice enough job to support myself independent of my family #and i don't want to be stuck with them forever #i really really don't #maybe i can talk to disability services sometime tomorrow morning. see what they can do #i think there's mental health services too. i hope they're decent #i just feel really bad right now. and it's only week one.#it feels like time's moving too fast but too slow at the same time #classes take forever but my free time zips by and runs out way too quick #and when it's gone i've completed maybe one or two things. out of several. if any at all.#i just don't know what to do. it's only been three days.#maybe i can drop a class; i think i'm taking enough to still be considered a full-time student with one less thing on my plate #i hope so #fucking damn it #how do people do this??? for multiple years????#and i feel selfish for saying this but i hope if y'all see this post you'll interact with it somehow. even just a like.#i want to know someone hears me

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waiting-makes-me-antsy · 4 months

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vote ✨✨

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nguyenfinity · 5 months

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Another project, a dozen drawings based on 3 rules you set for yourself!! mine were flower heads, shows the sky somewhere, and they're all different times of day

#sana school stuff #original art #flower girls was something i've been wanting to do for years and i thought this project was a good opportunity to do so but yknow. the thin #where when you do something for school it's less fun #yeah #especially with time constraints #honestly i thought about making enseason my dozen but 12 of those in such a short timespan mightve actually killed me #i did 11/12 of these backgrounds within a 12 hour timespan (breaks included)#each of them took 30 min-1 hour #the actual people tho. took anywhere from 1. to multiple hours #the flowers were chosen based on the month they bloom in #'cause all of them also correspond with a month #fun fact did you know daffodils can kill other flowers (namely roses and tulips) they're in a vase with if not treated properly first #no one pointed out the morbidity of a flower person walking in a flower field.#also. if you care #i don't know if i can get the april edition out on time #i'll try but i've taken 2 days rest to recover from the fact i cranked all these out within like 3 weeks total (lineart got my ass)#sana will be back shortly i miss posting here #i miss you guys!!!#guh

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airenyah · 8 months

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so i finally got to yank-kiss-yeet with my mom and when zo just leaves joke hanging after calling joke his boyfriend my mom (and me too actually) were already cracking up about it and then the scene continues and then the door opens and zo yanks joke inside and my mom laughs in surprise and goes "ahahah nice!!" and then they're kissing and my mom is like "that's a beautiful kissing scene. yeah, i get it now" and then zo yeets joke back out the door and we're laughing even harder and just continue to laugh all the way until the credits roll

#she's saying ''i get it now'' bc for weekes i kept mentioning how i desperately needed to watch a specific scene with her #bc it's one of the best and the absolute funniest kiss scene i've ever seen #i didn't spoil it. i just told her multiple times that it was a good and hilarious scene #and then my mom finally got to experience it and now she finally understands!!!!!!#the scene ended and my mom immediately went: ''we gotta rewatch this scene!!!!!''#there is a REASON why i've been stuck in that hallway for the past 6 months and now my mom finally gets me #airenyah plappert #mama schaut adrm #mama schaut hidden agenda #hidden agenda #ha ep7 #adrm #(i actually have a voice recording of it bc i've been recording all our discussions just in case i ever wanna do sth with it jkkjdfg)#(she's not home rn but i might share the audio if she gives me permission to do so)#(i mean... it'll be a video bc we're speaking german and so i need to translate it)#(and that way i can also add the og scene so it's easier to see what we're reacting too kskjss)#(anyway yeah. guess i WON'T be studying for my exams in march rip)

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upsidedownsmore · 5 months

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i will never get over how nice people are about my work, reading people's comments after i post is so gratifying godddd you guys rock <3

This past year has been unbelievably wild, it's hard for me to express it in words tbh. I'm so thankful for you guys and for everyone supporting and encouraging me as I've been diving head first into art stuff, ngl it's the compliments and interactions I have with others that have been helping me get through an otherwise unbelievably busy and stressful year (even if it's good stress). Looking forward to summer break in a few weeks when I can get my life a bit more balanced and rest up a bit :)

#txt #ramble #i'm just so. appreciative for it all #like man #getting really positive reception after the doubt of whether a piece will come across well or not is an experience like no other #like ngl i've been kinda floored by the responses to these last two pieces cause i kinda assumed there wasn't enough time put into them #i wouldve still liked if i had managed my time better and was able to do like cleaner line work and stuff #but there's also something cool about realizing i can still achieve something good in a short timespan #and that i don't need to spend multiple weeks on a piece for it to be good #maybe this should be in the posts but oh well i guess people reading the tags get bonus ramblings lol

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icewindandboringhorror · 2 months

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recent things

#With the heatwave combined with being ill for like an entire week it seems I've lost like 16 days this month #where I basically did barely anything... grrr.... The passage of time... My Enemy...#Now that I can finally hold down food and stuff I'm feeling a little better mostly and my sickness has probably passed. But I still #feel weird a little bit like.. some lingering weakness or something. I think I'm just already having so many Problems at all times even in #my 'Normal' state that whenever I get sick or something my whole system is thrown off for a while lol #I'm supposed to be writing like 2000 words a day still ghbjhb... I've had multiple days of maybe 1000 - 1500. And a lot of days #where I write maybe 20 - 300. I've still been chipping away at the same single quest dialogue for all 20 something #days this month so.. AUGH.. Though that also counts the 16 days I did nearly nothing but be sick and overheated #I finally edited that whole big sims video I wanted to post!!! but now there's an issue with it ... T o T #My fault for still almost exclusively using windows movie maker in 2024 lol.. but HHHHhh.. It's like every once in a while randomly #a fully edited video will not be able to be exported. so evil for this to happen to my first sims build tour in a while. but alas..#ANYWAY... I have been slowly working on little things here and there.. in my little scraps of time.. Wishing to be fully productive at #some point. Maybe I can finally finish and post some things soon. like costume photos or sims videos and etc.#BUT HEY.. that solitaire thing is crazy to me.. I don't think I've ever finished a challenge in under 20 seconds #before. huzzah.. tripeaks squad.. OH.. and an image of #curly tail boye.............. he..... I took him to the vet for a check up and he seems surprisingly okay for a 16 year old. except he has #a mild thyroid issue or something so I'll have to give him medicine. But every time he goes in I'm always expecting them to be like #Sorry. Your Son Is Truly Doomed. or etc. so I'm always shocked when he's fine... a strange boy with many strange behaviors #so I can never tell if he's just Being Weird or if he's sick or soemthing ghjbjh #Also the bad thing about never ending summer heat is that when it IS finally cool for a few days. I don't want to do ANYTHING. It's like wh #n it's hot I feel too sick to do anything. And then when it's cooler I'm like 'OUU the first cool day in WEEKS.. i want to just relax and #fully ENJOY the coolness..'' So it's always constant warfare with my body like.. NO ..we cannot SLEEP. We must utilize this small patch #of Non Heatwave to finally be productive and finish things while we don't feel sick. But then it's like ''ohoho...to lay in the cold air of #the morning restfully.. i shall have a little nap with a blanket on for once.. perhaps.. tee hee'' Always at war with the Tired Sleepy #it seems. AAAANyway...... grr............ slowly finishing things. still usually missing my target writing goals..#Hopefully will have some actual art or costumes or something to post soon. Fumbling through the summer weather as usual lol

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songofwizardry · 10 months

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hey there's a lot of shit out in the world but like. there's also 300k fanfics written as labours of love and exuberant comment threads on art that point out and gush over little details and there's people who spend hours sewing tiny details on their cosplays and there's fragments of poetry that get shared over and over and bring emotions over and over and there's entire communities of people built around 'we loved a story together' or 'we made a story together' and there's people poring over every line in a work and building theories together and there's getting together with your friends to have ridiculous fantasy adventures every week and yeah. there's some good stories here too yknow.

#text post #my post #yes this post was made immediately after d&d when i am emotional about the absolute fucking luck and joy of getting to do this regularly #but like #yknow not to quote the 11th doctor on you but it's TRUE we are all stories in the end #anyway i've been listening to lilli furfaro's stories a lot can you tell #just like. art and people and shared story and yeah #i got like three ao3 comments from the same person last week cause i'd left a comment on their work #and like. we don't know each other we've never met but now we've gone through each other pages and realised we feel the same way about this #and we have made each other smile with comments multiple times over the last week. that's fucking wild #like you know you watch a cosplay video and you see how many people and how much love and how much togetherness has gone into it #you recommend a book to a friend with your favourite passages underlined #you take part in a fic exchange and you make each other cry with words #you watch your friends roll dice and have emotions and fight and succeed and fail and you build a world together #idk idk i'd say i'm too emotional about this but i think i am the right amount of emotional actually #as lilli furfaro said. stories stitched together are how families are born

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dionysus-complex · 8 months

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diss supervisor is in fact not mad at me

#she had sent a 'checking in' email about a week before the winter break #to which i had replied 'thanks for checking in and i don't have anything presentable to send r/n but hope to have something by mid-january'#she did not respond to said email and so for ~3 weeks i have been concerned. but i sent her an email yesterday with 15 pages of bib #and she replied with a very warm email saying that the bibliography looks great and we can meet next week #this has happened multiple times that i've received no response from a faculty member and assumed that i did something very very wrong #and every time it's been completely fine. so perhaps there is a lesson here #but i did not get to the dissertation writing stage of academia by not being an anxious person lmao

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togepies · 9 months

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nothing like sending multiple emails about a time sensitive thing, getting no response until said thing is overdue, THEN being told "I need this thing done by the end of the day today"

not only that but my brain actively works against me if I'm doing said thing, then someone tells me to get said thing done, and it's literally this

#its like oh NOOOOOOWWWW it's important #now that it's 2 weeks overdue #doubt this thing is getting done today since i have a poop load of meetings #and also a vet appt for meatball #so sorry not sorry #but i tried to get this done before it was due #and heard crickets #despite reaching out multiple times #in unrelated news i'm finally doing the clean install of cyberpunk that i've been meaning to do for weeks #so yay i'm excited to play again and finally unblock the PL spoilers tag

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azemessence · 2 months

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"listening to you talk is really annoying. not that i'm telling you that you can't talk, it's just really annoying"

girl... what do you Think that says to me when you say that.

#ahaa... i feel like multiple times this week i've been told to stop talking #i get it my voice is annoying and i talk too loud and i talk too much and i don't know how to shut up #how DARE i talk to someone in a voice call while you're in it doing something else.

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