#but I'm fine!

[sculptorofcrimson]

Ten Thousand Others

“A warlord once marched an army over the plains. In his conquest, child died and He carved litanies of loyalty upon its bones.”

He watches His hands work the scalpels. He was there when the oldest of the Ten Thousand were born. He was not technically the first, not truly, not when the Emperor had His own failures and His unfinished experiments. But he was the first of the Ten Thousand, the first He perfected, his fate bleached of all wonder, all possibility. 

He was Constantin Valdor, and he will dream of nothing but his lord.

He is nothing but stone and endings. He was already half-betrayed.

The Emperor drains him of his last delusions of being human. He does not apologize when He twists the knife in unresisting flesh, He does not regret when He stitches him up, the First Custodian’s heart hollow, dreams plucked from his chest and left to wither. When there is nothing left, not even the illusion of joy, of love, of wonder, of humanity, how could he march on when there is so little left of him? For those who have lost their minds, their hearts and their dreams in the name of their lord, only eternity remains. For those who have nothing, there are only ashen plains and an immortality devoid of life. 

When the Emperor cuts away the last bones of humanity left in an inhumane mind, he feels his master’s caressing touch upon his brow when the last ghosts of joy snuff themselves out like hollow candles without a flame. There is so little left of him now, only ink and stone and finished endings, without even the will to care. How does he endure, when even the last dignity to hate, to fear, to love, awe and revere, has been lost to him? And how could he end, when even the will to live for any other than his master has been forgotten by his bones?

He was the first He created, the First He stripped away. He was half-gone already. 

Weep, limp, kneel, rise and fall, dream the last phantom of long-dead dreams crushed beneath a tomb of genesculpted flesh and bones, drowned within oceans of hallowed ichor, forever wandering blindly in a void they had been cast out. Discarded like refuse when they could not kneel to His commands. Shattered upon the anvil of His forge. Dreams scraped away and left to die. Poor thing. Poor, poor things, all of them. The Golden did not know they were always dead, the living stone, simply ancient automatons marching in auramite corpses. Doomed to serve, to kneel instead of rule, to see the dreams of one who dreamt for humanity yet never dream themselves. Doomed to forget what it felt like to dream, forevermore. They are only sculptures now, left to dream with eternity.

He was Constantin Valdor, and he would never dream again.

[edwardshundredyearoldspunk]

you've heard of checking the locks ocd! you've heard of hand washing ocd! but have you heard of did that really bad thing happen? oh my god what if that really bad thing happened? I need to spend every waking moment trying to remember if that really bad thing happened! why? I just do! no calm down it's probably ocd…unless…that really bad thing happened! no it didn't! yes it did! did it? no, surely I'd remember something that bad right? but what if I repressed it because it was so bad? no!

[rusted-clocks]

Right. I'm okay, I promise.

[taffywabbit]

they should invent a new type of "staying in bed for 2-3 hours after you wake up repeatedly opening and closing apps on your phone" where it makes you feel awesome and energized and emotionally fulfilled

[artistic-cocoon]

Saw someone on twt say they wanted to see Percy drawn like Yusuf Dikec and I couldn't help myself

[anarchopuppy]

I, a hearing person who likes subtitles just as a preference, shouldn't have to read a subtitle that's obvious nonsense, go back a couple seconds, and listen again in order to figure out what's going on. An accessibility feature should not be the most half-assed part of a professionally made production. Scripted media has absolutely no excuse for not having subtitles or having subtitles that aren't perfectly verbatim. Professional captioning services should be ashamed of the shoddy work that they put out. Captions should be treated as a part of the production, just like filming, editing, audio balancing, etc - and anything that releases with missing or bad captions should be seen as unfinished

[nipuni]

"I am a higher dimension life form, I am a complex space-time event"

A step by step process of this will be available at my Patreon next month, you can find prints of my work at my Store 😊

[hauntedorpheum]

[basshole-astard]

PSA: i keep seeing posts about staying cool in extreme heat that include advice like "gatorade is bad actually!" and "don't drink fruit juice it'll just dehydrate you!" and neither of these are true!

regarding fruit juice: there's apparently a misconception that Any Sugar At All will dehydrate you, and that's simply not true. yes, sugar will make you pee more when consumed in large amounts, but 1) the natural sugar in fruits won't do this to you 2) great news! a lot of fruit juices exist without any added sugar in them! 3) honestly even having a glass of the fruit juice with added sugar won't completely dehydrate you as long as you're also drinking water throughout the day. if its hot you deserve a cold treat of a drink!!! can't go wrong with fruit juice!!!

regarding gatorade: maybe this isn't an every day drink, but guess what: if it's 110F/40C or hotter outside, and you don't have AC, or you're moving around a lot outside of the AC, and you're sweating buckets: that's when you drink a gatorade.

gatorade exists to replenish all the electrolytes (salt) and glucose (sugar) that you sweat out. YES it is meant for athletes to drink during intensive work outs and not necessarily for people who aren't doing that kind of exercise. BUT GUESS WHAT! when you're sweating buckets because you had to walk to the bus in extreme heat, that's intensive exercise. please feel free to drink a gatorade after that! that's its intended use case!!!!

no: neither of these drinks should be a total replacement for water. but drinking a lot of water and then treating yourself to a fruit juice with lunch is a good idea!!! drinking a gatorade becuase you just had to walk for 20 minutes in the heat is a good idea!!!

Please Stop Spreading Misinformation About Drinks!!! It's fine if you drink things that aren't water!!!! Yes you should probably always be drinking water but drinking something else As Well isn't going to hurt you!!!! okay!!!! its fine!!!!!!

honestly so long as you are consistently getting Any (non-alcoholic) fluids in you, you're doing great!!!!!! okay!!!! i love you stay safe <3

[lazylittledragon]

made a sticker for anyone to slap onto their work if they need to

[maeamian]

Part of the reason that Republicans are so desperately acting like they will never lose again is because they are deeply terrified that this is their last real chance to win. The big orange dipshit came in and gutted the party of everyone who wasn't a loyalist, which left it full of nasty little gremlins who have gaping voids where charisma and human decency is supposed to go.

They still hold a lot of power, but if we stop them this year the next presidential election may not be the Most Important One Of Your Life™, that's not a guarantee or anything, but if they don't win here and now their future looks grim, this dipshit is the only guy they have left and he's extremely diminished and has his brains leaking out of his ears at this point. We can beat him into the ground.

So that's what we're gonna fucking do. We're gonna break these fucking fash. They will crash upon us and we're gonna break their fucking necks. When they come for us they will lose because they're fucking losers and we have each other's backs which is something they fundamentally are incapable of comprehending.

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

The squad of all time has arrived on scene.

[geezmarty]

anyway I started playing aai

[canisalbus]

Feeling compelled to take a moment to document this saddest looking little dog I saw today.

[queenoftheimps]

EVERYONE ON ALERT, THIS IS NOT A DRILL

[queerasflux]

man I wish people understood how much it sucks ass to be neurodivergent and trying to find the middle ground where people like/tolerate you. like, I'm either "boring" (trying to wait my turn in conversations, holding space for other people, taking a back seat to let others get some spotlight) or "too much" (too loud/talking too much, getting excited to share, trying to participate in group conversations/activities). No one really talks about how much of being neurodivergent is just sort of trying to make yourself palatable.

I feel like so much of my life has been spent trying to find this effortless sort of middle ground everyone else seems to automatically already know, and I'm always swinging too far one way or the other. I'm lucky to have neurodivergent friends who grok me, but goddamn I wish that I could just like, exist without the constant background script in my brain that's like "you're being too loud. You're not talking enough. you're being self-centered. you're being boring. you're wrong, you're wrong, you're wrong." I feel like I'm back in high school trying to make friends but stuck as the eternal "weird kid"

it's just... lonely and sucks bad.