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recexxca · 3 months

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Skibidi toilet

I love her pls

#Hehelep #skibidi #inside out 2 #inside out anxiety #inside out fandom #istg help lol #i'm actually so embarrassed to say that this posted a sfw tickle blog (me #cfmot #osc community #object show community #osc #object shows #i'm screaming let me wreck this girl #sfw tickle community #sfw tickle blog #help meeee #i'm so embarrassed rn

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thatarthurfeller · 10 days

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Loyalty

Arthur and me judging Dutch

#as a dutch person i had to get a lil used to how 'van der linde' is pronounced in english opposed to actual dutch #i also finished arthur's story and i'm not well (screaming inside)#is nice playing as john and all buut i wanted that for arthur #ok byee #arthur morgan #read dead redemption 2 #rdr2 #dutch van der linde

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kotoal1011 · 13 days

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I'm gonna spoil my kotoplushies and buy them this

#🐺🐏;;#I'm actually screaming inside because I saw a pic of a ko.toko plushie wearing this and SHE LOOKS SO CUTE OMG #can't wait for it to arrive <3

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note-boom · 2 years

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So about that episode....

Are we gonna talk about how Yosano remembers all the soldiers that died even 14 years later? Or how protective Tanizaki is of all the ADA members (told Yosano he'd take her place, yelled at Jouno for hurting Kenji, his whole thing with Naomi, his concern when Atsushi was kidnapped, yelling in absolute terror when Kunikida sacrificed himself)? Or how Ranpo and Yosano are actually THE friendship of all time? Or how Fukuzawa got so feral and enraged for her sake? Or how Yosano sees the agency as the place that actually wanted her even if it didn't need her? Or how she will do anything to protect it? Or how this entire season is just telling us what a family they are? And how her entire backstory is all about the value of life and how she held onto how valuable individual lives were despite everything about it (war, her ability, Mori) telling her to commodify humans lives? Or just how incredibly Yosano's kindness is portrayed, showing us that she can be kinda sadistic and sarcastic and terrifying but still be called kind? Or, or, or ....

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melit0n · 8 months

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3:35 to 4:10 in Levitate is so unbelievably comforting to me. In the best (and worst) way possible, it truly does feel like levitation.

The best way I can describe it is laying in someone's arms, lover, friend, foe or family, and simply basking in the comfort they give you. One arm wrapped, gently, around your middle, fingers tracing invisible patterns on your clothes, and the other hand softly combing through your hair as they whisper soft nothings in your ear. You're on the brink of sleep; half listening to their words and half being drawn in by the comfort of the drowsy void.

It's a warm hug that you never want to leave. (catch me replaying that part over and over)

#and then the breakdown #(since you all seem to like it so much when I get depressive with these I'll pull out my thoughts)#my mind always conjurs two things with the breakdown; death and mourning #when you think of levitation you either think of magic or death; the soul rising up to Heaven #the choir that joins Vessel singing are angels as he tries to comfort the person dying in his arms.#the breakdown is when he finally realises that's it; they're gone #he brought down Heaven like an ancient bygone for them knowing their own wings wouldn't find it #but by God he'll scream and cry and year himself inside out over it even if he told himself that he would accept it #('death' can either be interpreted as actual death or the act of leaving someone for good ->#those last few seconds of calm is having one last moment with them before they rise to where he can't reach them)#if you can't tell I'm in my sad yearning hours because I didn't sleep last night and I'm stressed about trying to get tickets but we ball 💪#sleep token #st #sleep token analysis #levitate (song)#levitate #sundowning #mel's rambles

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r0botic · 1 year

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THE ROBOT SERIES FANDOM WAKE UP!!!!!

DOES ANYONE KNOW THIS??

I NEED HELP, does any of you know if it's possible to download this somewhere? In a quality better than 360p? This would give me a great amount of scenes I could use for an edit I wanted to make for the longest time.

I think my soul left my body when I saw Giskard talking and moving in 3D. God. I'm going absolutely INSANE over here.

#I was actually spinning and screaming on the inside when Giskard introducted himself #I'd probably run around in circles but I'm in public #I NEED THIS SO BAD.#the robot series #asimov #isaac asimov #giskard #giskard tag #daneel #daneel tag #elijah baley #giskard reventlov #daneel olivaw

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medicinemane · 2 months

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Really really don't get why so many people seem to have this burning hatred for Ukraine where they'll just... bring them up randomly purely to drag them through the mud and it's like... ok... but... do you actually know a single thing about Ukraine or what's been happening there?

Do you for instance remember when a major dam was destroyed by russia causing massive ecological damage?

Like I'm dead serious here, can you tell me a single thing that's happened in Ukraine in the last 2 years? Can you in any way demonstrate any basic understanding of the situation?

Cause if not... why do you think you should have an opinion on it, especially if your opinion is gonna be how awful people getting bombed are?

Just legit bothers me and... even more so bothers me the number of smart and caring people I see doing this. Basically I'm not even trying to be rude here, I'm trying to remind you to pay attention and remember that not everything you read on the internet is true, a tumblr post isn't a source unless they're giving you a reputable source

Cause like me? I can go track you down articles about the Nova Kakhovka dam being destroyed, and I can talk about all the reason why it's pretty clear that russia destroyed it

Can you do the same for me? Can you back up your claim about Ukraine with something concrete?

In many ways I'm not even asking you to support Ukraine, I get we have a limit to how much we can focus on, it's ok if you focus on your cause and I focus on mine and... both of us giving our undivided attention, maybe we both make some small impact on the world

What I'm asking is you don't be an asshole for no reason. You don't need to throw Ukraine under the bus. Don't you think your cause stands up on it's own two feet?

And again I'm not Ukrainian, I don't know as well as someone there, though... I spare you a lot of the stuff that crosses my dash because I don't want to burn people out with horrible stuff, but please understand it's worse than you probably think

So no, not Ukrainian, but I'll tell you why I'm still worth listening to: I've followed this every day since the invasion began. I keep my ear to the ground. I do know a fair bit and again can back what I have to say up

Anyway, my plea is to just not be a dick to people for no reason. The correct number of bombed civilians is zero, that's my stance

#still fucking haunts me the video of this zoo keeper just crying as she films the flooded zoo #and you can just hear all the animals screaming in terror as they slowly drown #and... there... there just wasn't anything anyone could do #the water was coming up too fast... they didn't have time... they didn't have the equipment to move them #it was really only the birds that survived cause they at least could fly away when their enclosures were opened #I really do mean haunt; like... the second I think about it... just kind of gnaws at my insides #and that's just one video of one thing from one event #anyway; to pivot slightly; not that I want to call everything I disagree with russian propaganda #but there's various stuff I can point to and draw a pretty solid line between it and russian propaganda I think #as in; if I popped open sputnik right now I think there's a fair chance I'd find an article on it #...like the biolabs thing; that one I literally did that with and guess who was spreading it? the literal propaganda site #like man... you're smart; you're so brilliant... why on earth are you falling so hook line and sinker for this stuff?#Ukraine ain't your enemy man #where as russia; again I can draw a direct line between them and say... the suffering of the Iranian people #between russia and the election results in Venezuela; to my understanding russia literally has ships off the coast right now #and it's a fact putin congratulated maduro despite there being a number of issues #such as... the total percentages released by the government totaling 109%#listen man; I'm not stupid; I'm susceptible to propaganda too; you think I don't know that?#but I can at least show my work and I can at least explain my motivation and I can at least lay it all bare #maybe I'm wrong... maybe #hard for me to think I am when I see hospitals being bombed... kinda tend to think the people who do that are bad #(and why... why do people keep making it a pissing match instead of saying 'it's bad no matter where it happens'?)#but maybe I'm wrong... at least I can walk you through why I'm coming to the conclusion I am #and just fuck me... all I want is a world where no one's getting blown to bits for the crime of being alive #do you actually have any grasp of geopolitics?#not as in like... this or that theory or some bullshit about why america good; america bad; whatever #I mean can you actually draw a line between things happening around the world and tell me how they relate?#like... can you talk about India in relation to other countries; can you talk about Modi's politics?#(I can't stand Modi and I think I have some pretty good reasons such as his treatment of the Muslim minority; he's a nationalist)#can you talk at all about Turkey; or Armenia and Azerbaijan?

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tsfennec · 2 months

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#love getting assigned Communication Tasks #'oh you're so good at it though! you should just do it I'd mess things up!'#thanks it's because I spend hours wrestling and overthinking #and fighting the intense anxiety #over whether what I'm trying to say will actually be received the way I mean it #'you make it look so easy!'#It Is Not #I'm just very bad at getting the screaming emotions in my head into the outside where other people can see them #so my meltdowns are all on the inside #;_;

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suncaptor · 4 months

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man I am so agitated right now I feel like I'm on a fucking antipsychotic

#i am. going to stop ritalin. the problem is I actually think it's the ldn. which is trickier. bc i won't stop it but i will change the dose #but idk this is CRAZY #i am like #there is so much i need to do #instead i'm applying to job after job that I will never be able to actually work even if they did somehow accept me?#i'm so scared i'm like #paralysed #I can't actually do anything that's NECESSARY NOW #bc i'm so paralysed #i can't move i can't breathe i am just spiralling inside alone sick and hungry and scared and dysfunctional #it's like. i know i have no life so i'm sabotaging what does matter to me in the short term but not bc i want to #bc there's a screaming pain in my chest and i can't function #it's so bright it's too much #i really really think i need to like. take sedative rn but if i do then i'm going to get even FARTHER behind #but i think i will anyways #bc i can'td o anything i am like #the fact that the mixture of ritalin and ldn feels a LOT like abilify except less horrible is so interesting #considering how many antipsychotics i went on to make abilify better #but unfortunately even though it's not as painful #it's not giving me the positive abilify symptoms of focus #but that's uh #probably #bc uh #it's doing what abilify does when it makes me dysfunctional #though honestly to modulate abilify i do like. take antihistamines a lot so #uhhhhhHHHH #god i feel like my chest is exploding #honestly i think what needs to happen to me is that i need to start ldn over again and titrate super slowly over months #but i cannot afford to go back to what i was like before i was on it #goddamnnnnnn

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lisxdumbr · 1 year

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Manipulative people will make the most fucked up action and then complain like "omg why are people being so mean to me :("

#I'm having a moment actually #I want to kick someone's window on purpose and scream inside a freezer #rant #❝ ritz.txt !!

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fairytales-magic · 1 year

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I just witnessed my boyfriend and his roommate make 4-ingredient brownies...by mixing it in a blender (since they don't own a KitchenAid)...

#hi I'm a pastry chef #how's your day going?#:')#their hearts were in the right place and it was really sweet honestly #but boy oh boy was I screaming JUST a little inside #sounded a lot like the blender actually #a bookdragon rambles

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piplupod · 7 months

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head in my hands. i promise i am not a scary unhinged person fdsgjkl, and none of my silly happy posting is fake, i am just very good at repressing and partitioning things. i can be having the worst day of my life and still enjoy jokes and be genuinely having a good time with my silly little characters and stories i come up with. this brain LOVES to section off shit that is genuinely unbearable (because how else do you live with that? if not putting it in a place where you cannot feel it?) so that i can cope and find joy in life still fsdjkl i simply love having a good time too much to ever make it up

#pippen needs 2nd breakfast #i want to make friends and be a pleasant person to be around so badly but fhdsjkl then . this household hurts me as it is wont to do #and i have a small breakdown here bc it all feels so awful and i feel like if i keep it locked inside and hidden i will actually CrackTM #and then i feel like that is . well. understandably! a lot! for other ppl to see #and it is very upsetting and scary and awful to read. i know. im so well aware fjdskl #but also augh. augh augh augh. i try very hard to not post abt things as much as i humanly can avoid doing so #but i am very silly and fuck up my own rules for myself when i have a particularly bad experience w mother o' mine #i am worried that if i say anything to the effect of ''life is terrible and i am straight up not having a good time''#then it makes all my other posting look disingenuous or smth. i am literally just posting what is on my brain currently when i post stuff #and oftentimes my brain is like... a silly little swirl-patterned rubber bouncy ball with a happy face on it HDSGJKL #that is like... a lot of my whole deal as a part of the brain fsdfjkl #even with all the grief and upset i can still have a good time bc we stay silly !!!! by god we stay silly through it all !!!#i will shrug my shoulders and say ''ah well what can ya do!'' after getting screamed at or told i'm a disappointment to the family lmfao #because honestly... what can you do dsfkl it is what it is and theres rly nothing i can do about this all #anyways i am talking toooooo much sorry fdsjgkl once again i will delete all this later so i dont upset ppl too much dsjkl augh augh sorry

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thesmokinpossum · 1 year

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i’m not trying to be a judgy asshole but why would you let your kids play outside when the air quality is at 407????

#actually i am being judgy i'm judging the shit out of my neighbors right now #like you just want your kids to get asthma and or die at this point #if i had kids they could be at their most annoying they could be crying screaming running all around my appartment #they would still stay the fuck inside with the windows closed idgaf

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chaoswillcalmusdown · 1 year

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there are people on this earth who wholeheartedly enjoyed all of ted lasso. it's fascinating honestly.

#it took lESS THan 5 minutes of the finale to make me actually scream and i already knew what was gonna happen #but the way it happened ? absolutely fucking not #west ham coach one day. collecting the fucking dirty laundry the next........jfc what a way to run a wholesome uwu himbo uwuwuwuuwu tv show #they had so much potential with their ensemble and they fucked it over and over and over again and for that i am truly sad #this show was not made for fans of actual football and i will die on that hill jfc #ted lasso #i'm gonna go re-watch the last inside anfield video so i can see some wags and kids #since ted lasso never cared enough to give the players actual families #rip the mcadoos whom we could have seen celebrate at the end #rip all the wags and babies that surely exist but ted lasso never cared to give us #a fictional prem team without wags or babies? for what purpose???? to make me suffer???#even with michael we got to see him for a whopping liike. 5 minutes total ? the s3 eps have been HOUR long........... ?!?!?!?!

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unfinishedeternity · 10 months

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I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fi-

#I'm actually screaming inside #Band-Maid

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hertwood · 1 year

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#it feels so selfish n bitter to be upset abt this but REALLY. just dont make plans with me in the first place if youre gonna DAY OF #be like. soz i'm actually gonna do EXACTLY what we were gonna do together but tomorrow and with my boyfriend instead 🥰🥰🥰#and she just got out of this shitty relationship so i have to be like 🙃🙃🙃 happy 4 u!! while i'm fucking screaming inside #she speaks #like just dont make the plans in the first place. just be like soz im visiting my boyfriend that weekend i cant :/ when i asked MONTHS ago

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